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SUMMARY: This Drabble series contains of small scenarios of them being a family from reader giving birth to baby's first words and them adopting pets and much more.
PAIRINGS: Husband JK X wife READER
WARNINGS: SMUT, FLUFF
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DRABBLE ONE: Where the reader gives birth and Jungkook won't stop panicking.
DRABBLES TWO: In which you give your daughter an important life lesson
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to build a home | chapter sixteen
Pairing: Jungkook x reader. ceo!jk + dilf!jk x nanny!oc
Genre: strangers to lovers. angst. fluff. smut.
Word count: 19.7kÂ
Warnings: donât wanna spoil too much so iâll be brief. angst. yes! angst. unprotected sex, oc dom era?, handjobs!!, oral (f), dry humping (bc itâs me lol), loads of riding!, sweet missionary. also⊠this might not be with, uh, jk. or it might! who knows⊠keep reading :)Â
Authorâs note: Â i donât even know what to say to be honest, iâm so nervous for you guys to read this chapter but also so, so excited to hear what you think!! so, like always, do let me know what you thought!! so much to unpack here lol. I LOVE YOU! thank u for waiting for this one, hope you enjoy. xo <3
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Chapter Sixteen
You wait for a feeling of dread to take over you. For your heart to feel heavy, for a breath to get caught in your throat. You expect your eyes to burn with the promise of tears in a matter of seconds but none of that comes. Instead what you feel as your words come to a halt and all you can hear is the crashing of the waves, is relief. You feel light, like somethingâs left you. Something youâd assumed youâd weighted correctly based on the assumptions of your heart, but now you realize how wrong you were. You know this because as silence fills the air and you canât muster up the courage to look at Jungkook, a weightless feeling overcomes you. One that lets you know that you can let go. You can breathe now. You did the right thing â you tried.Â
Itâs something you can barely control when your legs give out and youâre lowering yourself, sitting on the sand as you fixate your gaze towards the sky. Itâs beautiful, you think, a sense of peace taking over you. You feel his eyes on you and for a second, he lingers. Hovering over you as if calculating his next move. You donât seem to be paying him much mind and Jungkook is almost grateful for this. He believes your eyes on his could break him in more ways than one and so the semi-privacy you give him as he collects his thoughts is one he doesnât take for granted. He stays very still, taking your words in even after youâve gone quiet. He waits for his head to spin, his fight or flight to kick in, a wave of overthinking to take over him but none of this happens. And when it doesnât, he simply follows your actions, coming down to sit next to you. Heâs awfully close, itâs what you perceive at first. The warmth his body gives out, the one youâve grown heartachingly familiar to, gives this away. His eyes arenât on you anymore and before you can think this through, youâre looking at him. You watch him as he watches the sea and the sky perform for the two of you. The sight alone feels like a consolation from God, but you canât help it when your eyes remain glued to him. On the way his gaze grows softer, dark hair swept slightly by the wind, his strong arms wrapped around his knees, making him look small. His nose, his lips. His face. The face you love, despite it all.Â
Despite his silence.Â
And so, ever so softly, you plead.
âYou donât owe me anything. You donât have to feel what I feel but please donât give me silence.â
Something inside of you tells you this is what you shouldâve said long ago, but you reach for no harshness in the way things have turned out for the two of you. You can only be grateful that these words are finding you now.Â
He looks at you, eyes meeting yours that never left him. His voice is a barely there whisper, but still all you can hear.Â
âIâm sorry.â
You smile. âWhat for?â
Is he sorry for his silence? For the silence he now knows heâs kept for weeks. For the silence he now knows is the cause of very many things that now make sense to him. Is he sorry for not loving you back? Is he sorry for you? For the way your eyes give the sadness away, even when almost tricked by your smile. Is he sorry for not being able to give himself this thing. This one good thing thatâs his and only his. For your eyes, that seem to take him in like nothing else matters. Not the sky, not the sea, not the way your heart sinks with every passing second that it takes for him to speak next.Â
âYou donât deserve my silence. You donât deserve any of this.â
âI know,â you say, but your voice remains soft. Kind. âI choose my battles, though.â
He smiles at you, but it doesnât quite meet his eyes. âI heard you that first time.â
âYeah⊠I figured that much.â
âI didnât thinkââ he stops himself.
âThat I meant it?â
âYeah,â you nod at this and he continues, âat first I didnât want to say anything just in case you hadnât realized what you said but then you⊠acknowledged it and Iâ I froze, __. I shouldâve said something, anything, I know that now. In that moment, though, I just⊠pushed it to the back of my mind because my brain told me a million reasons as to why maybe you didnât mean it.â
You turn your gaze away from his, fixing your eyes back into the ocean so as to hide the way his words make you feel. Something about your words being pushed to the back of his mind makes your heart ache. In this moment you realize that the pain youâve been feeling has little to do with love unreciprocated and much to do with love dismissed. You know his words hold no ill-intent but you canât help but picture your feelings as this physical thing â small and fragile at the palm of his hands, being crumpled like paper and tossed to the side.Â
Nonetheless, you push the feeling aside for the sole reason that you know him. You know Jungkook isnât a bad person, you know his actions are but a reaction of something heavier he carries.Â
âI understand. I was hurt, I wonât lie to you and I say I wasnât but⊠I understand.â Jungkook nods once, facing the ocean, trying to grasp for words but when he fails, you continue. âThis silence makes me feel like weâre strangers. Like a person I knowâ a person I love, is a stranger to me. And Iâm at fault for that, too. I shouldâve come to you sooner. I shouldâve told you how I was feeling.â
âI donâtâ,â Jungkook sighs, and the act alone loosens up the tension that heâd been holding onto. âI donât blame you for not coming to me. I donât think my actions were welcoming and that probably⊠that probably really fucking sucked for you, __. Iâm sorry.â
âDo you still love her?â Your own question takes you aback, but you canât take it back now. This is a good thing, you reckon. Nowâs a good time as any. âIra, I mean. Do you still love her?â
It takes him a beat too long to answer. âNo. Ira and I had been on a steady decline for a while⊠longer than youâd probably think.â
âI donât think of it, Jungkook. I know nothing about it.â
He looks at you now. âYouâre right.â
âAnd Iâm not asking you to⊠tell me all of it. I know it was hard. I know it still is hard so I would never demand to know but⊠I think Iâd like to know that much.â
âI donât love her. I thought I did, when she first left I thought that on top of everything, Iâd have to deal with being in love with her still but⊠how could I love someone that did that to the person I love the most?â
âSoori,â you state, matter of factly.
âYeah. And I get that⊠Iâm a person. With human reactions. That I can resent her for what she did to her as a father but still hold on to what she gave me as a man but the moment she walked away⊠Iâm not saying she took all the love Iâve ever felt for her with her, but she made things very clear for me. That wasnât the person Iâd fallen in love with. The person Iâd fallen in love with wouldâve never done that. And so that was that, I guess.â
You shift your body to face him better and the expression he holds breaks something inside of you.Â
âBut it still hurts.â
âYeah. Yeah, it still hurts. I think of the day when Iâll have to tell Soori about it. And when Iâm not thinking about it, Iâm having nightmares about it.â
âI get that but⊠I also meant,â now itâs your turn to sigh, deflating slightly before your next words leave you. âIt hurts you as a⊠person. Not a father.â
He smiles, half-heartedly. âIt does. Iâm just now realizing that it does.â
âBecause you canât love me.â
Jungkook hates the finality your words hold. The way you say it matter-of-factly. The way your voice loses all the hope it usually carries. The way you sound resigned â like youâve just given up. On this. On him. But he canât blame you for any of it. All he can do now is give you honesty. You and himself. All he can do now is try.Â
âI donât know what Iâm allowed to feel or not feel. I donât know what I feel. All I know is that most days, I donât even trust myself. That it takes me about ten minutes every morning to get out of fight or flight mode. I second guess my very own thoughts and when I think of the me that fell in love with Ira, or the me that opened up to anyone in the past for that matter, it feels so incredulous. Like an out of body experience. I donât feel like me anymore. I havenât in a while. I donât know who I am outside of being Sooriâs dad. And every piece of myself Iâve regained itâs been by observing the muscle memory my friends have around me.â
âI understand.â Itâs all you can say, afraid that anything else would fracture you further.Â
âYeah, you do. Surprisingly you do.â
He looks at you now and you allow yourself to stare into his eyes. âWhat is that supposed to mean?â
âIt means that itâs always felt like you understood, even when you didnât know. You never asked questions yet you never tiptoed around it. Around me.â
âI think the cure for most things is giving ourselves the permission to feel them. I like to extend that to those who I think might need it.â
He laughs, in disbelief. Not because he doesnât believe you, but because the wisest part of him does. âYeah, thatâs the thing, __.â
You frown. His tone picks up a bit, making you feel slightly defensive yourself. âWhat is?â
âWhen I met you I⊠I almost resented you. Sometimes I ask myself how it is I ended up giving you the jobââ
âI ask myself the same thing. But I never thought you resented me.â
âI didnât. I didnât resent you. Maybe I wanted to. But I never got to. Iâd be in a shitty mood going down the stairs, feeling ready to be out the door and get to the office so I could shut everything out and not have to deal with anyone. Then Iâd go inside the kitchen and youâd smile at me. So bright I mistook it for pity for a while until I realized that it wasnât that. You just⊠understood. I still donât know what that means but all I know is that it changed me.â His gaze falters for a while before facing down. âI wanted to go back to my normal life. I wanted my problems to go away, as much as I knew that was impossible, itâs still all I wanted. And then you came in and gave me the total opposite of that.â
He looks up, eyes on yours and it hurts. It hurts because heâs making total sense, yet youâre confused. You find yourself in the middle of a battle between your heart and your brain, and they seem to be hearing whatever appeases them the most.Â
Jungkook smiles, more to himself than at you, as if lost in a memory. âYou felt new â not because you were new in my life, but because youâre nothing like Iâve ever known before. I tried to push you away because welcoming you into my life meant more changes, but that never worked out, did it?â
âI donât know,â you answer sincerely. Wherever this conversationâs going, you donât know, but all you can do is listen.Â
â__, youâreââ his words come to a halt, breath hitching in your throat as you wait. âYouâre warm and bright. Youâre so beautiful, the way you think and the way you speak donât stand behind â not a single part of you fails to be beautiful. And I was the complete opposite when I met you. You pulled me out of it, against my will even.â
âJungkook, why are you telling me this?â
âBecause I donât know what else to say. I donât know how to tell you how I feel, but this much I know itâs true.â
Your eyes hide from his gaze, the burn of the feeling in the form of tears catches up to you and now youâre the one that vows silence.Â
âIâm scared,â Jungkook says. âIt sounds so fucking stupid when I say it. And all I seem to do is try and push away the feeling but it just comes back stronger the next time. Iâm not scared of what I feel for you, Iâm not scared of you, __. But I am scared of what that entails.â
âWhy,â you ask, the word barely there.
Jungkookâs body turns to face you, his hand coming up to your face gently before heâs bringing your eyes to his. He tries to let his heart speak but it doesnât quite meet his tongue.Â
âI donât know.â
âOh.â
âYou donât deserve⊠this.â
âI donât.â
âIâm sorry.â
âYouâre sorry because you canât be with me?â
âNo. Iâm sorry because Iâm about to ask you to be with me.â
Your eyes widen, confusion lacing your features yet the glimmer in your eyes is evident and Jungkook doesnât miss it. The way you look at him right now makes him want to be better, and perhaps thatâs whatâs been getting him through these months all along. You.Â
âIâ why would you be sorry for that?â
âBecause Iâm not gonna be perfect at it, but I want to be good at trying.â
âThatâs all I need, Jungkook.â
âWe havenât⊠given ourselves the opportunity to try. To really try. I guess thatâs on me, so I apologize. But I want us to try. I want us to talk and I want to try and explain to you why I feel the way I do. I want to understand it myself Iââ
You hold his cheek in your hand, stopping his words. âThatâs all I need.â
âNoââ
âYes. For now, itâs enough. We donât have to live in a hypothetical future. I know itâs hard not to sometimes but, we can go day by day. We can give ourselves the next twenty four hours and then go from there. Itâs all we have control over, isnât it?â
âYouâre wise. I was not this wise at twenty three. Still am not.â
You chuckle, shaking your head at his words. âIâm not wise. Iâmâ,â in love, you want to say, but you know that if a moment ever demanded for time and patience, it was this. âI care for you. I care for this. I care for us. I canât begin to imagine what it felt like⊠when she left. And I understand that pain doesnât go away in a day, but I just want to be by your side, I guess.â
âYou are. You have been since the beginning.â
âSo, let me.â
âOkay.â
He wants to kiss you and God, thereâs nothing you want more right now but thereâs no way of guaranteeing privacy and youâd like to keep this moment to yourself. Jungkook calls your name, making you face him once again. The skyâs about to end its show and you think that perhaps it wasnât all consolation from God but another, bigger thing. Hope. A sign. Pleading in screaming colors.Â
âYeah?â
âI havenât done this in a while.â
âWhat exactly?â
He ignores your question. âI mean, years. I was probably your age the last time I did this and I donât know if much has changed but,â your face still hints at confusion but thereâs a little smile that forms in your lips that he doesnât miss. It makes him feel shy but he breaks through it, needing you to hear him loud and clear and for nothing in his demeanor to translate into anything but what it is he wants.Â
âWill you be my girlfriend?â
You smile. âIâve never been asked that in my life.â
âOh, Iâ maybe itâs weirdââ
âYes.â Jungkook frowns. âYes, Iâll be your girlfriend, I mean.â
He smiles. Heartachingly so and God, it hurts so good.Â
âI probably shouldâve asked when I could kiss you.â
âMeet me in the hallway at midnight, we can kiss then.â
âDeal.â
âOh, and Jungkook?â
âYeah, baby?â
âI like knowing that youâre the first person to have asked me that.â
âI want many firsts with you, __.â
A soaring feeling takes over you. You feel like running in the direction of the wind, so fast itâd almost feel like flying.Â
âWeâre off to a good start, then.â
âYeah. Yeah we are.â
~
The rest of the night breezes you by. A calm taking over you that you hadnât felt in weeks. A calm thatâs only overshadowed by the longing you feel for him. You long to hold him, to kiss him, to brand the new title you now hold.Â
Girlfriend.Â
Youâre his girlfriend.Â
Lucy corners you as soon as you two make your way back, sporting casual faces as you both separate into opposite sides of the big garden so as to not draw attention to your absence. He goes back to the grill, an oblivious Mingyu and an all-too-knowing Taehyung waiting for him. You go back to Mai and Kenny, taking Soori in your arms and heading to the kitchen to make her bottle. Lucy follows you then, concern and curiosity all over her face until she sees the smile on your face. You barely get the words out before Jiminâs making his way inside the kitchen, too, cutting your conversation short. Nonetheless, she smiles. Pleased enough with what she knows, but not entirely surprised. Sheâd been rooting for you all along.Â
By the time Soori begins to fuss about, you donât waste a second to put her to bed. Jungkook approaches you and his proximity feels like fire, igniting all sorts of things inside of you. He offers to help and put her to bed but you encourage him to finish up at the grill and spend time with his friends â itâs your last night here after all and the weekend had been full of ups and downs. He deserves this moment of steady ups, to calmly go about his night and enjoy the company that surrounds him. By the time Sooriâs tucked into bed, dinnerâs ready. You steal glances and knowing smiles from the opposite end of the table, enjoying the relaxed nature he sports and how beautiful it looks on him. Your boyfriend.Â
Yeah, of course, a part of you wants to scream it at the top of your lungs. You want to wrap your arms around him and not waste a single second. But youâd be lying if you said the anticipation wasnât building so sweetly â the thought alone of the night coming to an end as you two come together filling you up with something that feels new. Security. Itâs comforting, you think, not having to doubt it for a second.Â
With very many helping hands, the dinner table is clear and all thatâs left to do is relax by the fire. Soft music playing in the speakers, old tales between old friends being exchanged, accompanied by laughs and smiles. Itâs the perfect night, and you think of the irony that it holds. Your morning started with uncertainty, the kind that pangs at your chest and leaves you restless. Now, looking at him, the light coming from the fire dancing across his features, you couldnât feel more different. Your chest feels airy and for the first time in a while, youâre confident the sleep that will find you tonight will be peaceful.Â
After much deliberation, Mai being the voice of reason, itâs decided that itâll be an early night. Thereâs packing to do and an early morning that awaits to drive back to the city. You feign a sad face when Lucy reaches for your hand to help you get up from the couch and Jungkook smiles because he knows all too well. Youâre a shit liar and in a moment of self-indulgence, he likes holding that knowledge. He likes knowing you. He likes that thereâs something in this room that only you and him know, thatâs yours to keep. Another part of him wishes to break the distance â cant stand it, even. He wants to sit next to you, to pull you into his lap and feel you against his chest. He wants to whisper things in your ear when the conversation around him grows boring and to feel secluded from the world, even if in a room full of people, because he has you.Â
You check on Soori, whoâs sound asleep, before you head back to your room. You breeze through the process of packing, too, yet taking your time. Itâs thirty minutes to midnight and the anticipation builds inside of you like smoke. When youâre all packed you decide to jump in the shower, letting the warm water wash away the day and make room for a new beginning. Youâve always believed in the healing properties a good shower can hold but this one in particular secures the notion for you. You brush your hair and do your skincare, a smile plastered on your face the whole time, so much so that you barely recognize the reflection in the mirror. Youâre about to get into your favorite oversized t-shirt, your tried and true choice of sleepwear but you think again, reaching in the very depths of your suitcase and retrieving a white, cotton slip dress with lace embroidering. Itâd been a gift from Lucy, who had gotten tired of your old 90s t-shirt of a golden retriever that was missing an eye from wear and tear.Â
You notice the house has grown quiet around you and at exactly 11:59, you stand in front of the door, turning the lights off inside your room and taking a deep breath. You smile, shaking your head as the romantic in you (which could be said is all of you) thinks of the fact that the last time you kissed Jungkook today in the wine cellar, you didnât imagine your next kiss would be as his girlfriend.Â
The universe romances you back, because at exactly midnight you open your door, a gasp leaving your mouth as youâre met directly with Jungkook. You have about enough time to register the smile on his face before heâs grabbing you by the waist and pulling you in, lips on yours before you can even speak. You melt into the kiss, hear the way he sighs against your mouth, making you smile. You wrap your arms around him, fingers carding through his hair as you pull him impossibly closer to you. He pulls away, eager to see your face, but not before your lips meet his again in a single whisper of a kiss, like he canât fully pull away.Â
âWell, hello,â you say.
âYou make me a weak man, Iâm sorry.â
This makes you laugh, bringing your lips back to his. âMm, I beg to differ. All the waiting we had to do today required a lot of willpower.â
With his lips still on yours, he mumbles, âyeah, I hated every second of that.â
You push him away, mock shock lacing your features. âHey, I thought it was quite romantic.â
âI think getting to kiss my girlfriend is even more romantic.âÂ
He doesnât give you a second to process the words that leave him, and all youâre left with is his lips on yours and an army of butterflies taking over every inch of your body, leaving you weak at the knees and at his very mercy. Eventually, though, you compose yourself (if only a little).
âYeah, it kinda sucked not being able to kiss my boyfriend.â
He pulls away, tight grip at your waist still as he cocks an eyebrow at you. âYou got a boyfriend, huh?â
âYeah, sorry I didnât tell you sooner. I was too caught up in the kissing.â
âWho is this little punk anyways?â
You laugh, throwing your head back. âYou know, just some guy I found.â
He pulls you in once again. âLucky bastard.â
âNo, Iâm the lucky one.â
âI beg to differ.â
âLetâs agree to disagree.â
âNah, I say we work it out.â
When he pulls you closer, itâs slower this time. Head leaning to the side, a chaste kiss to the corner of your mouth before he kisses you. He takes his time, taking the lead as you melt into him, letting him guide your tongue with his. You get lost in him, so much so you lose track of time, too focused on the way he claims your mouth, on the way his hands feel as they skim down your body. You almost donât hear the way you moan against his mouth, fully reacting to him.Â
When you remove your mouth from his, his lips land on your neck as he peppers open mouthed kisses over your skin.Â
âWe probably shouldnât be doing this here,â you tell him, closing your eyes at the sensation before drawing your head back involuntarily, granting him more access. âSomeone couldâ come out and see.â
âI donât care.â
It takes you a minute to register his words and also the certainty of his tone when he says them. âYou donât?â
This makes him stop. âDo you?â
âIâ I donât know. Do you not?â
âI donât, no.â
âBut-â
âYouâre my girlfriend. This shouldâve not been a secret for a while now.â
âOh.â
âBut we can take as much time as you need,â he says, calmly scanning your eyes to try and read your thoughts.Â
âNo, no. Iâ I just want you to feel ready.â
âIâm ready.â
âAre you sure? We have⊠all the time in the world.â
âYeah, so why waste it?â
You smile at his words. âHow would we go about it?â
He shrugs. âI donât know. I guess I could just⊠bring it up? Namjoonâs gonna freak out.â
You both laugh. âLucy already knows.â
âOof. Jiminieâs gonna be mad he didnât find out before her.â
âOur best friends are dating.â You widen your eyes, making Jungkook chuckle at your sweetness.
âYeah, and so are we. Thatâs kinda cool, isnât it?â
âDoes that mean we get toâŠ,â you feel shy all of a sudden, hiding your face slightly so you donât face him, âgo on double dates and stuff?â
âYes, angel. We get to go on all kinds of dates.â
âIâm excited about that. Iâm excited, Jungkook.â
âMe too, baby.â He pecks your lips once before he pulls away, leaving you pouting and needy for more. âIâm gonna have to get a new nanny.â
His words make you pull away slightly, shock evident all over your face. âWhat? Why? What do you mean?â
âNo, baby,â he laughs. âI didnât mean it like that. I just meant⊠well, I want us to go places together, just us two.â
âLucy can babysit. Sheâs good with kids, plus Jiminâs used to babysitting her and sheâs very comfortable around her andââ
His hands cup your cheeks, bringing your forehead to his. He canât quite put into words, the way it makes him feel when you talk about Soori like this. With an overprotectiveness heâs only ever seen in, well, himself.Â
âOkay, baby.â
âOkay.â
He smiles, thumb caressing your cheek and he canât help but chuckle. Your own laughter is soft, rolling your eyes a bit at his teasing. The next kiss he presses against your lips is tender, and you melt into him, sinking into the feeling and surrendering to his touch. Your bodyâs used to him, lips familiar with his own but your heart canât help but feel like this moment is full of firsts. The hand that holds your waist grips tighter, his chest now flushed to yours. You can feel his breathing, taste his lips, touch his skin as it gets warmer with the heat of your kiss. Words of need are about to escape your mouth but before they can, Sooriâs baby monitor is going off on Jungkookâs phone. He sighs, giving a little out of breath chuckle before heâs reaching for his pocket and retrieving his phone.Â
âIs she okay,â you ask, peeking into the screen to see her on the baby cam.Â
âYep, just awake. Maybe itâs just taking her a while to adjust to the new sleeping environment.â
âYeah, that sounds about it.â
âIâm gonna go check on her.â
âI can come with,â you tell him, fingers coming to his face to push a strand of hair behind his ear.Â
âNo, baby, itâs okay. Go to my room and wait for me there, Iâll only be a minute.â
âAlright.â
You smile as he leans in, lips capturing yours in a quick peck that doesnât fail to steal your breath away nonetheless. He makes his way to Sooriâs nursery and you cross the hallway, heading to his room. His bed looks inviting and itâs only when your head touches the pillow that the weight of the day seems to fall upon you. You feel like youâve lived a variety of realities today. From hopeful, to hopeless to⊠this. Now. Waiting for him in his bed, his scent that still lingers on the pillows sending a troop of butterflies to your stomach as you take him in. Your body yearns for him, wants him, and perhaps not all sexually. Just holding him, breathing him in, could be enough you reckon.Â
You miss the way your eyes grow heavy, body nuzzling into the sheets, and itâs only when Jungkook walks through the door that you notice youâd fallen asleep.Â
âHi,â you say, the grogginess in your voice making him smile.Â
âSorry for waking you up,â he says, getting into bed with you and pulling you closer in one swift movement until his arm is wrapped around your waist and your foreheads are nearly touching.Â
âItâs okay. How long were you gone for?âÂ
âLike twenty minutes. She was a bit fussy.â Your eyes widen in surprise, itâd felt like no time had passed at all. âYou tired, baby?â
âI donât know.â
He laughs. âWhat do you mean you donât know?â
âMy body is but my mind is not. Iâm too⊠happy.â
âIâm happy, too.â He kisses you, pulling away too quickly for your taste but when the back of his hand gently caresses your cheek you rejoice in the pleasure of the simple act. âThank you.â
Opening your eyes, you look confused. âWhat for?â
âEverything. Understanding, being with me⊠not just now but, in general. It makes me feel⊠like everythingâs going to be okay.â
âEverything is going to be okay. The angels just told me.â
He laughs, loud and so very beautiful. âThey did?â
âYeah. What are you laughing for?â
âNothing, nothing. Youâre right. Bet they talk to you, considering that, you know, youâre part of the gang.â
âThe gang?â
âOf angels.â
âI know what you mean I just canât believe you called them a gang.â
âFine. The troop.â
âThatâs almost worse.â
âYouâre not unpleased often but when you are⊠oof.â
You smile, with your eyes first before it meets your lips and for some reason Jungkook finds the act so seductive. Some reason is cutting him slack, actually. He knows the reason. He knows all of the reasons.Â
âPlease me then.â
He raises an eyebrow. âYeah? Youâre not too tired?â
You shake your head. âNo, baby.â
He kisses you, words a murmur against your lips when he says, âwe can go slow.â
âMm, yeah. I like that.â
âYeah?â
You nod your head, a lazy smile on your lips when he pulls away and thatâs all the confirmation he needs. The mere notion of having you soon sends his body into overdrive in sheer anticipation. Your skin is soft as he runs his hand down your arm, reaching your leg before itâs making its way back up under your nightgown. You sigh, eyes on his before theyâre closing at the feeling of his touch on your bare skin. Youâre receptive to him, tonight more than ever and you donât miss the way he adorns your skin with goosebumps everywhere he touches. His hand closes around your ass cheek before he squeezes. He groans, making you smile. When you open your eyes, his are impossibly dark and fixated on you. You kiss him, nimble fingers making a descend down his torso, stopping under his navel before you touch the soft skin of his abdomen under his shirt. He hisses against your lips when your hand finds his cock over his sweatpants, hard. You close your palm around him, thumb moving against the head and the friction alone has him groaning against your mouth.Â
âFuck,â he says, voice deep in a whisper.
âFeel good?â
âYeah, so good.â
You hum against his lips, hand coming inside his pants and wrapping around his cock. He feels hot and heavy in your hold already and he sounds even prettier now than he did before. So supple for you, so needy. It makes you want to give him the world and then some. You jerk him for longer than either of you can register, too distracted by the way your lips meet sloppy and lazily in a kiss that seems to have no end. Jungkook gets carried away, a sweet sinking feeling in his lower stomach making him regain consciousness as he brings his hand to yours to halt your movements.Â
âShitâ I was so close,â he pants, grip tightening on your hand.Â
âWhy not? I want it. Please.â
He shakes his head. âWanna fuck you.â
And you want that too, yet something about the way you two were kissing, his little moans and groans against your mouth as you felt his cock throb in your hand has you making a mental note to come back to this at some point. Easy, simple, like you have all the time in the world.Â
And you do.Â
âHow do you want me, Kook?â
He looks into your eyes for a beat too long, as if contemplating the endless possibilities.Â
âFuck, come here, baby.â
He kisses you deep, towering a bit over you as he presses you against the mattress before heâs holding your waist and swiftly turning you to the side until your back is flushed against his front. You feel his cock against your ass, backing up a little to feel him better and he whines, forehead falling on your shoulder. He takes your panties off in a second, your hazy mind barely noticing until the warmth of his fingers finds the place you want him in the most.Â
âYouâre so wet, baby.â
âWant you so bad, Jungkook.â
You turn your head to face him better, give him a fucked out smile that has his cock jumping for attention between your bodies.
âYouâre so beautiful,â he says, lips so close to being on yours. Your cheeks grow a new shade of crimson and he smiles, kissing you finally.Â
âThank you. I think you are.â You can barely finish your sentence, words getting caught in a little gasp as his middle and ring finger circle your entrance. He coats them in your slick before they find your clit, running lazy circles against it and making you jolt slightly in his hold at the sensation. âThat feels so nice.â
âCanât wait to have my cock in here,â he presses his fingers into your opening, ever so slowly, making you whine as you back into them. âStay still, __. Be patient.â
âPlease,â you beg, looking into his eyes before they grow heavy in pleasure as he begins to move his fingers inside of you.Â
âYouâre so fucking tight it drives me insane, baby.â
âY-yeah?â your voice is a whimper.Â
âYeah. âS all mine, isnât it?â
âYeah, Jungkook.â You moan his name, can feel the way he smiles against your cheek before heâs pressing a kiss against it, slowly moving towards your ear, his breath on the sensitive spot making you shiver.Â
âSay it.â
âItâs your pussy, Jungkook. Only yours. Iâm only yours.â
âYeah, baby. You are. All fucking mine.â
He fucks his fingers into you one last time before heâs abruptly pulling out, making you gasp and close your legs at the loss of friction. He wastes little time, bringing your ass to him before heâs spitting into hand and bringing it down to his cock, coating it over his head and down his shaft. He grips at the base, aligning himself against your opening and slowly pushing inside. You both sigh, turning back to meet his face before your laughter combined fills the room. Itâs sweet, the way you share this moment with him, his lips on yours not long after, the kiss deepening with each thrust.Â
âThat feels so good, Kook,â you say, bringing your forehead to rest on his.Â
âYeah. Love fucking you, baby.â
âFuck me forever,â you look into his eyes as you say this, playful sure, but words filled with intention.Â
âFuck, Iâm trying,â he chuckles, âso far, so good.â
He holds onto your hips, fucks you deeper and hits that spot, making your back arch and your eyes roll. âSo good.â
His hand travels up, sneaking under your nightgown as he finds your breasts, palm closing around it before he pinches your nipples, pulling sweet little sounds out of you. He fucks you slow but deep, paying close attention to the way your body reacts to him. To the way your moans turn into whines when he goes deeper, the way your hand closes around his under the soft fabric, the way your pussy clenches around his big cock. You begin to unravel in his arms, feeling the way his hand travels down, missing his touch already. He lays his hand on your lower stomach before heâs pressing into the soft flesh, the whine that leaves your lips high pitched at the feeling.Â
âDo it again,â you plead, âand fuck me harder.â
He complies, pace growing a tad bit faster and deeper until he can feel what heâs doing to you on the palm of his hand. You press your face into the pillow, fingers gripping the sheets tightly as your breathing grows erratic, teeth closing around your bottom lip.
âGonna cum for me, angel?â
âYes. Fuck, yes, Jungkook.â
âLet go, baby. Wanna feel you cum all over my cock.â
His words against your neck are all it takes for you to let go, growing very still for a second before youâre cumming in short little spasms and God, it feels so good. He coaxes you through it, words of praise leaving his lips as he places pillowy kisses all over your skin, making you shiver. The bliss takes over your body as you come down, turning to him and locking his lips on yours.Â
âThat was so good,â you tell him, voice soft and sweet and it drives him insane.Â
âYou feel so good.â He sounds a bit delirious, mind fixated on the way your pussy throbs around his cock.Â
âWant you to cum, baby. Want your cum, please.â
His dick jumps inside of you, heâs sure you can feel it. âFuck, donât talk like that.â
You giggle. âWhy?â
âIâll cum like this.â
You blame your boldness on your post-orgasmic bliss. âWhy not?â
He smirks, eyes closing as if taken aback by your words. He shakes his head, âyou know we canât.â
âYeah, I know,â you give, but something in your voice lets him know youâre only rearing up. âBut it feels good to think about it. It feels so good. Do you think about it, Jungkook?â
It takes him a minute to register your words, hips starting to move as he thrusts into you slowly. âY-yeah, I think about it.â
âDoes it feel good when you do?â
âFuck- it does, baby.â
âSometimes itâs all I can think about," you confess, "you filling me upâŠâ
He lets you sit with your words for a second before heâs pulling out of you. Partly to compose himself, and partly to push you back against the mattress and hover over you, his body finding a spot between your legs. When he looks at you his gaze has darkened, eyes no longer playful.Â
âEnjoying yourself?â
âYeah. Are you?â You tempt him, words pushing his new demeanor further.Â
âYouâre a little greedy, arenât you?â His hand closes around your neck, applying just the right amount of pressure, all the pleasure going to your head as the sensation makes you a little dizzy.Â
âYeah, just for you, Jungkook.â
He wants to bite back, to keep the act up but the truth is that your words dismantle him, cock throbbing in painful pleasure and he needs to cum. He crashes his lips into yours, bringing his hips down and gripping at his base until heâs pushing inside you again. It doesnât take long for him to get back to where he was, so fucking close, mind in a haze as he still takes in your words from earlier. It takes all his willpower not to bust inside of you right now, the way you moan against his lips only edging him further.Â
âFuck, Iâm gonna cum.â
He pulls out, pumping himself a couple of times before heâs cumming all over your tummy, painting the tan of your skin. His face contorts in pleasure, wet strands of black hair falling against his forehead as he bites his lip. It takes him a couple of seconds to recover, holding onto your waist as he takes in the sight before him. He thinks the image of you coated in his cum could make him hard again, and if he wasnât sure enough then, he is now. His eyes follow your every move as you bring a finger down to your stomach, running it over a white stripe before youâre bringing it to your lips, sucking on it for emphasis before youâre swallowing.Â
âI guess thatâs an upside to no creampies. I get to taste it,â you smile, finger between your lips still.Â
His eyes are wide, mouth slightly agape and when he canât form words, cock jumping at your filthy actions, he says,
âHoly fuck, give me a second.â
You laugh, bringing his face to yours, kissing him deep and slow, tongue playing with his and he just lets you.Â
Your next words are a whisper,
âWe got all the time in the world, remember?â
~
Your side of the bed is empty.
It takes Jungkook a while to notice, his body struggling to fully wake up and mind begging him to turn off the irritating sound of his alarm. His arm reaches out but itâs only met with the soft fabric of his sheets. He frowns, a bit more awake now, opening his eyes slowly to make sure his sense of touch isnât betraying him. He looks around the room, the door to his bathroom closed, everything oddly quiet with the exception of his alarm. He quietens it down, sitting up and running a hand through his messy locks. He reaches for his phone, checking up on Soori through the baby cam. The frown that dents his forehead from not waking up next to you softens the minute he takes the sight before him in. Youâre in her nursery, sitting on the floor and she sits in front of you. You get her attention when you show her two dresses to pick from. She goes for a cute pink one with frills and bows at the shoulders. He scrunches his nose in endearment, leaning back into the pillows to enjoy the show a little longer. He gives himself the luxury of just looking at the two of you. The way she hands you one of her plushies and you pause on the task of getting her dressed just so you can play with her. You put on a british accent, pulling faces as you make the toy frog speak. Soori giggles, imitating you with babbles and cute faces. It feels like she does something new every day and seeing the two of you interact leaves no doubt in his mind that heâs got you to thank for it.Â
He feels peace as he enters the bathroom, washing his face and brushing his teeth â phone propped up on the counter, giggling when Sooriâs happy shrieks come alive through the speakers. And yeah, itâs not the first time heâs thought it, but in this moment Jungkook thinks that he could get used to this. He could really get used to this.Â
The house is quiet around him when he steps outside of his bedroom and into the hallway. 7:15 â still early for everyone except his daughter, and you apparently. He makes his way to her nursery, sneakily peeking through the door, but the moment he steps a foot inside the room heâs got two pair of bambi eyes looking up at him.Â
âLook whoâs up, Soo Soo,â you say, pointing at Jungkook and making Soori shriek in excitement at the sight of her dad.Â
Jungkook smiles as he walks to you, leaning down to place a kiss on your lips as he says, âgood morning, baby.â You bring Soori up, raising her towards him and she giggles when he places a kiss on her forehead and says, âgood morning, princess.â
âSay good morning, daddy,â you look at her, kissing her on the cheek and laughing when all she does is babble a string of dadaâs. âThatâs good enough.â
Jungkook sits in front of you, Soori in the middle and deep in debate on whose attention to get first. Jungkook wins and she crawls over to him, abruptly landing on his lap. He laughs, picking her up and peppering kisses on her plump cheeks. âWas she up really early?â
âKinda. I was gonna let her sleep a bit more but she was fussy.â
âCould be sleep regression.â
âI love it when you talk dad to me.â
âHa. Good, plenty more where that came from.â
You smile. âHey, come here, missy. I still need to do your hair.â
Jungkook passes her over to you, but not before taking her back in his arms right before youâre about to catch her, her sweet laughter filling the room. âOkay, okay. Go with Nana.â
She crawls towards you, looking at her dad one last time before sheâs nuzzling herself in the middle of your crossed legs, hands busy with her toys as you work on her pigtails. You have an assortment of bows in front of you, indecisive still on which ones to use. Jungkook just observes you â doesnât miss how gentle you are with her, how she finds her spot between your legs and just stays there. He canât remember the last time she stayed still while he did her hair.Â
He thinks youâre magic.Â
âAll done,â you say, opening your hands at her side for her to take them. âShow daddy, Soo.â
She looks up at Jungkook, smiling at him and he melts at her sweet actions. âYou look so stinkinâ cute, princess.â You went with the white bows, a little too big for the thin strings of hair that comes out of her pigtails but it only makes her look ten times cuter. You stand her up and she holds onto your thumbs for support, bouncing in place as Jungkook opens his hands towards her.Â
âWanna go to daddy?â Youâre about to hold onto her little hands to encourage her but she takes the first step all by herself. You and Jungkook look at eachother, freezing for a second and trying not to move or make any noise so as to not jinx the moment.Â
âOh my God,â he whispers, and just like that, youâre letting go of her hands gently and his daughter is taking her first steps. Sheâs a bit confused at first but the moment she takes her second, slightly wobbly, step towards him she smiles. Sheâs in his arms in no time and he brings her closer, hand on her head as he kisses her face. âGood job, baby. Iâm so proud of you, Soo Soo. Youâre so cool, wow.â
Your hands are still over your mouth, shocked and excited all at once and you can see the way Jungkookâs eyes tear up. Itâs only when you blink and it stings that you realize tears had pooled in yours, too. âWow,â is all you can muster.Â
He dries his tears with the back back of his thumb, laughing and shaking his head. âHoly shit. Shit- sorry,â he says to Soori, âdonât repeat that.â
âI canât believe that just happened.â
He looks at you, that beautiful smile you love plastered all over his face, so big it meets his eyes. âWeâre both crying.â
âI know,â you laugh, and he follows, giddy and airy and you canât seem to stop. âThat was so cool.â
âI know right?â He looks at her, placing another kiss on her cheek before heâs placing her back on her feet. âWanna go to Nana?âÂ
âNana!â Soori says, igniting a new set of tears to swell up at your eyes.Â
âCome here, baby.âÂ
And she does, her little legs going faster than she can master yet and falling on the very last step but you catch her, an immediate smile on your face that lets her know sheâs safe and she claps when Jungkook does, looking back at him and then back at you, stars in her eyes and surrounded by so much love.Â
âPolaroid time!â Jungkook exclaims, sitting up.Â
âYou brought it?â
âYeah. I was kinda hoping it would happen this weekend, but Iâd lost hope, not gonna lie.â
âDaddyâs always prepared, isnât he, Soo Soo?â
She claps again, crying for him a second after when she sees him leave the room. You keep her distracted for the minute it takes Jungkook to fetch the camera and come back into the room, another clap from her when she sees him again. You get her, thatâs pretty much how you feel too. He sits back down in front of you and you reach for the camera, letting Soori go to him with her newly found walk. Sheâs still getting the hang of it but sheâs so good at it already. You might be biased but you truly do believe she is the smartest baby ever, and moments like these simply prove your point.Â
You point the camera at them, Jungkook holding onto Soori as she stands up and they both smile. âSay, Soori walks now!â
âSoori walks noooooow!â Itâs picture perfect. They both are. Jungkook reaches for the camera and says, ânow one of the two of you.â She walks to you when you beckon her over, falling into your lap and making you both laugh as she stares confusedly at you. Jungkook hides behind the camera and says, âsay, Sooriâs a velcro baby!â and with that, your smile is turned into laughter, Soori following suit as she looks up at you and the flash goes off. Jungkook smiles, confident on the fact that heâs probably just taken the best picture ever.Â
âLetâs take one of the three of us,â you say, scooting closer to him and placing Soori between the two of you. Jungkook extends the camera in front of you and in an instant, the memory is etched in a photograph forever.
 This happens a lot as a parent â a milestone becoming your favorite memory â and it only makes him look forward to the future, and that, for reasons only he understands, takes him by surprise. He looks at the pictures that you arrange in a neat line in front of you, smiling and pointing as you show Soori, who has developed a newly found interest of looking at herself in photos. Jungkook thinks about how once upon a time, he imagined having to do this all by himself. It made him dread the milestones, the excitement, because he always felt like the notion of something missing would haunt him. But so far, the milestones have been nothing but sweet. This one the sweetest thus far and itâs that word â thus far â that stirs something inside of him.
Without giving it much thought he says,
âI want to stay.â
You look at him, smiling. âUgh, I know. I could easily live by the beach.â
âNo, I mean it. I want to stay.â
âOhââ
âYou have three weeks off from book club, right?â
âUh, yeahâŠâ
âThen letâs stay. Just the three of us. I can take time off, too. And we could just⊠stay.â
âI meanâ I,â you donât know what to say, ïżœïżœcould we?â
âWhy not?â
âI didnât bring enough clothes for three weeks.â Itâs a shit excuse and the moment it leaves your mouth you both laugh.
âWe can go to the nearby town and get whatever we need. I think youâll really like it, actually. Itâs very picturesque.â
âWell, I canât say no to the beach and picturesque nearby townsâŠâ
âHm, I know how to get you to stay forever then.â He kisses you, long and deep and you smile against his lips when his words start to sink in. Soori taps Jungkookâs chest and whines, demanding his attention. âWhatâs up, baby?â She looks back at you, as if claiming you. âAh, well, you had to learn this at some point. Today weâre gonna learn how to share-â
âJungkook!â you shove him playfully, taking Soori into your arms and kissing her cheek. âYou donât have to share me, bubby. Itâs okay.â
âHey, Iâm teaching her valuable life lessons!â
âHow about you share?â you glare at him, pulling Soori closer to you.Â
âTsk. No can do,â he steals another kiss, chuckles meeting your lips and you join him, his happiness contagious. Or maybe itâs your happiness thatâs contagious.Â
It doesnât matter, you think. Your happiness and his combined, Soori at the center of your little universe⊠itâs warmth. Itâs pure warmth.Â
~
By the time ten a.m. rolls around, the house starts filling up with noise â little kids running around, Jimin and Taehyung bickering in the hallways over who the best superhero is, and everyone wheeling their suitcases out and about, wondering whether theyâre forgetting anything and estimated time of arrivals.Â
Jungkook and Soori lay in the bed of the guest room youâve been staying at, lazily playing with Sooriâs toy fruit basket as Jungkook makes her plushies sit around in a circle circle and Soori feeds them. You do your makeup, get ready for the day, steal a couple of glances their way as you try and still your heart at the sight alone. You do and undo your hair a couple of times, shifting between a ponytail and letting it down. You opt for letting it down, roll your eyes when you realize you subconsciously (or very consciously) do it because itâs how Jungkook likes it best. And hey, youâre all for feminism, but canât you just enjoy being his silly, little girlfriend for a moment? Surely you get a hall pass for being in the honeymoon stage alone.Â
ââKay, Iâm all done,â you say, stepping back into the room and blushing the moment his eyes are on yours and he smirks. Youâre wearing a white sundress, so very you, and he can smell the sweet scent of your perfume from where he stands. He makes a slow circle with his index finger and you roll your eyes, attitude easily dismantled the moment he says, âpleaseâ and so you give in, spinning around once as he whistles.Â
âGorgeous,â he says, emphasis on the s.
âThank you,â you sound collected, which is a partial truth. âShall we head downstairs?â
âLetâs go, Iâm starving,â he leaves the bed, taking Soori in his arms and laughing when she makes grabby hands at the floor. âI see how it isâŠâ
âWe must encourage her,â you say, taking her from him and placing her on the floor. She looks up at you, then at Jungkook, and just like that sheâs sitting on the floor, a pout forming on her lips before sheâs letting out a cry. âNo, no, baby! Weâre here!â
âYeah, princess, look!â and she does, sniffling some as she makes grabby hands at Jungkook. He looks at you, guilt settling all over his face and fighting the urge to not pick her up. Said urge is about to win, but youâre faster than the temptation.Â
âKook, she wonât want to walk⊠you canât pick her up now.â
âButâ,â he says, but deep down knows youâre right, âfine.â
âItâs okay, Soo. Look, weâll hold your hands and we can all walk! Isnât walking so much fun?â
He doesnât know how you do it, because in an instant sheâs back on her feet, one hand holding onto him and the other onto you, and the three of you are making your way down the hallway. Going down the stairs is fun, her laughter filling the air as she bounces on each step and you both swing her gently.Â
She doesnât fail to get everyoneâs attention and the second you three enter the living room sheâs got all eyes on her, excitedly waiting for her appearance. Jungkook looks up at his friends, doesnât miss the way they all hold their breaths as they see their niece hitting a milestone â one of many they have and will be around for.Â
âGood morning, everyone. Look what Soori can do,â he says, letting go of her hand and you follow. She stands there for a second, wobbly legs threatening to give out but she stands her ground, smiling at the people she loves the most in the world, all gathered in a room and gawking at her with stars in their eyes. Taehyung kneels down, clapping once and opening his arms for her, making Soori shriek in excitement and waddle towards him before falling into his arms. Heâs crying, holding onto her and showering praises against her cheek in-between kisses. They all join him, gathering around her and taking turns loving on her.Â
âWell, I think thatâs all the encouragement she needs,â you say, laughing and taking in the sweet sight before you.Â
Hobi picks her up, taking her into his arms and kissing her temple. âBad day for you to be cooped up inside a car for two hours huh, baby?â
âWeâre gonna stay.â
Kenny looks up at him, taking Soori from Hoseok. âHuh?â
âYeah. The three of us are, actually.â
Everyoneâs eyes are on the two of you, so naturally they donât miss the way Jungkookâs hand wraps around yours the moment the word âusâ Â leaves his mouth. A silence falls around the room, so dense that youâre convinced everyone can hear how loud your heart is beating, your hand gripping Jungkookâs in an attempt to ground yourself. Not that you didnât see this moment coming, because you did, but you canât help but admit itâs a bit nerve racking, to be perceived by all of them at once. Your eyes look for Lucy, not surprised when you see a cheeky smile plastered across her face, Jimin looking up at her in confusion.Â
Yoongiâs the first one to break the ice, always one to bring balance into any situation. âWell, thatâs a well deserved vacation, Jungkookie. Iâm happy for you.â He looks at you when he says that last sentence, offering a warm smile you donât fail to return.Â
âYeah!â Namjoon yells out, startling you. âIt was about timeâ for your vacation, I mean.â
âJoon,â Iseul says, shoving his arm discreetly.
 Thatâs all it takes for all of you to break into laughter, Jungkook looking at you for a second before heâs looking back at his friends. Taehyung looks at him, muttering a silent, âfucking finally,â his way and raising his hands to the sky in prayer. Jungkook rolls his eyes at him but deep down, heâs thankful for his friend and for his words of advice from the beginning.Â
âWell then, letâs have one last family breakfast before we have to hit the road,â Hobi says, bouncing Soori on his lap before he looks at you, âhow do you take your coffee, __?â
âUm, iced americano.â
âEasy! Iâll get on itâ oh, like Kookie! So, two?â Kenny asks, smiling at you, something in her eyes that you understand. A bond, perhaps, or simply more happiness combined.Â
âYep. Thank you, Ken.â Jungkook smiles at her, squeezing your hand one more time before walking the two of you to the garden alongside everyone else. He leans over, whispering so only you can hear, âthat went well.â
âYeah. Yeah, it did.â
âSorry for being blunt I justâ I donât know. I wanted them to know.â
âIt was perfect,â you look at him, a sweet smile on your face and God, he wants to kiss you so bad. But as much as he wants to, he doesnât know where you stand when it comes to PDA â so much to figure out and it feels sweet to him, the beginning stages of a relationship. Of your relationship.
You sit down next to Jimin, looking up at Jungkook who tells you heâs gonna help in the kitchen. You nod and smile when he leans down and places a tender kiss on the side of your head, blushing and feeling shy all of a sudden but the moment doesnât linger for long.
âWe can go on double dates now!â Jimin says, face nuzzled between his hands as he sighs.
You laugh. âYou know, I had the same thought.â
He grows serious all of sudden, making you feel slightly anxious. âIâm happy for you guys, __. Really happy.â
You smile. âThank you, Jimin. Iâm really happy, too.â
He returns the smile for a second before it falls, leaving you confused. âCanât believe you told Lucy first. I thought we had a real friendship going on, __!â
And while you try to reassure Jimin that you two do indeed have a real friendship going on, Mai intercepts Jungkook on his way to the kitchen, holding onto his shoulders and startling him.Â
âJesus Christ, Mai.â
She stares at him for a second too long before the biggest smile forms on her face. âEeeeeek!â she shakes him a bit, jumping up and hugging him. Jungkook laughs, wrapping his arms around her middle. âIâm so happy! Oh, you so owe me one,â she says, âbut Iâll settle for a thank you. For now.â
âThank you, Mai.â
âYouâre so welcome!â she hugs him again. âIâm a really good cupid.â
âSo this was your plan all along?â
âWell, no. My plan was really to find you a nanny. The fact that she was pretty, charming and sweet were all add ons with loads of potential. And I see potential where potential is due,â she winks at him, chuckling when she sees the way he blushes at her words, being taken back to very many years ago and to an eighteen year old Jungkook. She never thought sheâd see it again, but boy is she glad she gets to.Â
âYeah, well, thank you. I mean it. Sheâs⊠special, isnât she?â He says, looking out the window, his eyes finding you. You canât see him but youâre smiling, laughing as you attempt to keep up with Jimin and Jin who seem to be talking your ears off.Â
âOh, no,â she says, making his head turn back towards her. âSheâs more than that, Kook. Sheâs magic.â
And he smiles because he knows.Â
He really, truly knows.Â
~
In the course of five hours, Soori has not only learned how to walk, no. Sooriâs a runner now. Perhaps runner is an exaggeration, yes. A fast walker a more accurate way to describe her, but you canât help the hyperbole when she quite literally runs away from you as you attempt to get her pink converse on her left foot. The right foot was a success, distracted enough by the sunglasses sheâd snatched from your head. The left one is bare and aids her into running away from what she probably deemed a boring activity. Arms up and giggles filling the air, sheâs promptly stopped by Jungkookâs arms that catch her in the act.Â
âAre you gonna turn me into a kidâs-leash-parent, Soori Blue?âÂ
Jungkook partly blames Jin for this, and recalls how just a couple of hours ago he took to play-pretend chasing her all over the garden, claiming âthis is how my dad taught me how to walk!â and yes, perhaps heâd helped develop her confidence but now heâs made her a runaway and thatâs⊠pretty fucking funny, if heâs honest.Â
Soori snatches Jungkookâs own sunglasses from over his head, confidently stating, âNana!â
âNo, baby, these are daddyâs. Letâs get your shoes on.â
âSheâs a runner,â you say, passing him the cute pink converse youâd held onto since the betrayal.Â
âDo we need a leash? Be honest with me right now.â
You laugh. âNo⊠Yes? I donât know. I donât think so. Those look so barbaric!â
âShe doesnât even have that long of legs, how is she so fast?â
âItâs the inertia,â you say, bringing your arms up and imitating her prior movements.Â
Jungkook ties her shoe, braving through the way she ruffles his hair, a couple of strands getting caught in his now messy locks and pulling some. He winces â sheâs also become ten times more mobile in the past five hours, or so it seems. You argue that sheâs simply full of adrenaline now, helping get her chubby hands away from the strands and smoothing Jungkookâs hair out in the process.Â
âAll done and ready to go,â he says, smiling at you and then looking back at Soori, âyou ready to go in the stroller? Yayyyyy, the stroller!â his saccharine voice and smile makes her clap and both of you let out a sigh of relief.Â
Her desire to be running out and about does make the process of getting everything â and everyone â packed into the car a bit more difficult, and she fusses a little when he straps her to her carseat, but for the most part you consider the task successful, your hands meeting in a celebratory high-five as soon as Jungkook steps inside the driverâs seat.Â
âWanna play music,â he asks, handing you his phone.
You take it, smiling when you see his wallpaper â a cute picture of Soori, probably taken a couple of months back. She smiles into the camera, and itâs all you can see, half of her face covered in one of Jungkookâs beanies, a couple sizes too big for her. âIâm in a Fleetwood Mac kick lately.â
âOf course you are,â he says, backing into the driveway and stealing a glance your way, a smirk plastered on his face.Â
âWhat is that supposed to mean?â
âYouâre an old soul, baby. Like God made a bit of a mistake making you Gen Z.â
You gasp, and then contemplate it a bit and realize that, fair enough, heâs got a point. âYouâre kinda right. I am quite old school.â
âMhm,â he mumbles, hand coming to rest on your thigh comfortably, âbut Iâm glad you came into this timeline because I get to have you and your Fleetwood Mac kicks.â
You laugh, the soft chords of Silver Springsâ intro filling the enclosed space around you. âWe wouldâve met in another timeline, too, I think. We wouldâve been so cool. We wouldâve been listening to this live!â
âYeah, and doing shrooms in a field somewhere whilst Dreams played in the background and you wouldâve probably had bangs.â
âI wouldâve 100% been a hippie, and you wouldâve been a yuppie and so very dapper. Enemies to lovers.â
Now itâs his turn to laugh. âI wonder how that wouldâve worked out.â
You feign deep contemplation for a second. âIn missionary so we could keep arguing.â
âOof. Take me back then.â
âJeon Jungkook?â
He chuckles, squeezing the inside of your thigh. âAh, baby, donât worry. Iâll argue with you in missionary in all of our timelines.â
âIâm relieved,â you say, rolling your eyes dramatically but the smile that forms at your lips is one thatâs too big to hide, succeeding at being flustered by your boyfriend.Â
The rest of the ride looks pretty much like that â Fleetwood Mac, your fingers intwined in his over your leg, and more of the flirty back and forth that seems to pull new shades of red on your cheeks every time. You make a mental prayer for the ride to last just a little bit longer, but canât say youâre disappointed once you finally make it into the picturesque nearby town Jungkook had told you about. It is, indeed, picturesque, almost like something from another time. Restaurants lining the streets, tables lining the terraces and beautiful people adorning the very scene. Everything seems to be a paler shade of white, green and yellow, brickstone shaping most of the facades and you begin to recognize the name brands rather quickly. Gucci, Prada, Dior and the like, as well as some boutiques you havenât heard of before that look just as expensive. But hey, you do see a Dominoâs Pizza. Thatâs a win in your book.Â
Youâre so enthralled by the surroundings that you donât realize Jungkook has parked the car and is about to make his exit. A bit dumbstruck still you follow in his steps, eyes widening when you realize that this place even smells expensive. It also smells a bit like lemon sorbet and that seems to be even more shocking than the latter.Â
âDo they have, like, an H&M around here?â
Jungkook turns to you as he unbuckles Sooriâs belt, âa what?â
âAn H&M. You donât know H&M?â Your voice a mix between indignation and shock.
âThe store?â
âYes!â
âAh,â he nods his head, âno.â
âYou donât?â
âI mean, I do. I donât know that Iâve seen one around here, though. Why?â
You take Soori from him as he walks to the trunk to pull out her stroller. âThese are all really fancy stores⊠Iââ
He unfolds the stroller in one swift moment, looking up at you from under his sunglasses, a black lock coming loose over his forehead. âDonât worry about that, baby. Itâs my treat, okay?â
âI canât let you do that.â You donât meet his eyes, sitting Soori inside the cushiony seat of her stroller and buckling her in.
âWhy,â he asks, nonchalantly.Â
âBecause. You don't have to do that. I can just wash the clothes I brought, itâs no big deal.â
âHm,â he walks over to you, pulling you closer by the waist and placing a kiss against your cheek. âI know I donât have to. I want to. So let me? Please?â
âJungkookââ
âPlease.â
He hits you with the puppy eyes, and you canât believe youâre actually having this conversation with him right now. Whatâs worse, you can't believe youâre about to agree, unable to deal with confrontation, even if itâs this silly. âOkay but⊠moderation.â
He laughs. âAre you policing my expenses now?â
âNo. Well, yes. Donât I get a say?â You cross your arms, hip jutting slightly and he smirks at the attitude.Â
âNo.â and with that, he begins to walk, pushing the stroller and turning his head to look at you and say, âyou coming?â
You roll your eyes, catching up to him and circling your arm around his. âIâm not used to⊠gifts.â
âI know, baby. Didnât mean to make you feel uncomfortable, Iâm sorry.â
âNo, no. Itâs not uncomfortable just⊠weird. But not necessarily in a bad way.â
âYeah, I get it. I do wanna treat you, though. For no other reason than just wanting to. So just enjoy it, yeah? For me?â You nod your head once, looking down at the floor but smiling. âThank you,â he says, finding your temple and leaning his forehead against it.
âSo, what first?â
He looks around, considering his options. âMiu Miu? You look like a Miu Miu girl.â
âI do?â you ponder, more to yourself than to him and this makes him chuckle.
âYeah, letâs check it out, come on.â
And Jungkook is a very wise man because, yes. You are a Miu Miu girl. A Dior girl, too. Hell, you even dabble in some Gucci if you do say so yourself. Jungkook, in your very humble opinion, is a Prada boy, but you canât deny your favorite is Jungkook the Calvin Klein boy. You swear youâve never seen anyone fit into a pair of jeans so perfectly, and for this you envy him a little. A little a lot. You spend the afternoon exploring the very many options the world of high fashion has to offer. Dresses, shoes (they make expensive flip flops, to your surprise), shirts and pants and at some point, you take Jungkookâs advice and stop looking at the price tag. Advice isnât quite the word, itâs more of a demand. Youâre not suddenly unaware of the hefty splurging taking place, no, but you must admit that it makes the experience ten times better. The two of you laugh at the extravagant, odd pieces some brands sell, try on unflattering sunglasses and make a runway out of the dressing rooms. Jungkook makes you show him every single thing you try and by the third time he does it, you stop pretending to be annoyed at his boyish reactions. Your boyfriend is the biggest hypeman, making you twirl and spin and showering you in praises, making the choosing part a little harder than itâd usually be.Â
You donât fall too far off, though, and quickly enough watching Jungkook try on clothes becomes your new favorite thing. Can you be blamed? He looks good in everything, can pretty much rock every style and you get to see him take off his shirt an innumerable amount of times. You have to compose yourself and make a mental effort not to gawk at him. If luck was ever in your favor, itâd be today.Â
Soori also reaps off the benefits of Jungkookâs little (big) shopping spree, and soon enough you find out that nothing brings him as much pleasure as shopping for her. He picks the coolest pieces, a perfect mix between girly and the tomboyish style you secretly know is his favorite. Comfy and cute in her oversized t-shirts and Carhartt baby clothes. She also gets a new pair of sneakers for her newly found hobby and tests them out by running around the store, making every sales associate swoon over her. So much so they actually whine when you three walk out the door, waving their goodbyes.Â
âI get it now,â you blurt out, getting Jungkookâs attention. âThe whole shop âtil you drop thing, I get it now. Itâs real.â
He chuckles, throwing an arm around your shoulders and pulling you closer. âDid you enjoy it?â
âI did. Could watch you take off your shirt, like, eleven thousand more times.â
He tries to hide how flustered he is by smiling, lowering his voice when he says, âwe donât have to go shopping to do that.â
âYouâre right, what a lucky girl I am.â
âLucky? Lucky me. I should buy you eleven thousand more dresses just so I can experience this more often.â
He makes you blush, but whatâs new?Â
âLetâs not be greedy now.â
âOh, but you want me shirtless forever?â
âYeah, exactly. Itâs what I deserve!â
And he canât deny you. Matter of fact, heâs about to let you know that much but something catches his eye. He stops in his tracks and makes you pause, too, confused for a second as you follow his line of vision.Â
Agent Provocateur.
Itâs pink, fun, sexy, and indeed provocative, and thatâs just going by the window display alone. This one you are slightly familiar with, having taken a couple of trips with Lucy in the past just to admire the overpriced lingerie and gasp in shock when you discovered the wonders of the ouvert panty. You sure do learn something new everyday.
âWe forgot to get you underwear,â he says, a shit excuse for nonchalance lacing his tone.Â
âAh, but Iâm a girl. I packed underwear for, like, a month.â
âThat so,â he asks, eyes still on the shopâs window.Â
âYep.â
âI mean, you could never have too much underwear.â
You laugh. âI really donât need it, Kook. Itâs okay.â
âI do,â he states, looking at you with a smirk.
âHm. Why donât you go in and pick something out for me then? Iâll take Soori on a little walk, I think she could use it.â
âYouâre giving me free will to get you anything I want inside a lingerie store?â
âYep.â
âThis is the best day of my life.â
âGo to town, baby. The world is your oyster!â
Jungkookâs off, not before laying a kiss on your lips and another on Sooriâs forehead, excitedly walking towards the store and then gaining back some of his composure the moment heâs about to step inside. Heâs out of sight in a matter of seconds and you laugh in disbelief. What is your life?Â
âSoori, you should be so glad you wonât remember this when youâre older,â you say, kneeling down in front of her and smoothing out her hair.Â
âNanananana.â
âLetâs go get ice cream and walk around, yeah?â
Your suggestion is met with excited clapping from her part and just like that, youâre off on an adventure of your own. It doesnât take you long to locate the most delectable ice cream youâve ever laid eyes on, in the cutest shop. Everything is pastel and old school and it fits the vibe of the town so well you wonder if every single shop in this town got the memo. Dominoâs pizza being the hard exception, of course. You go for the strawberry sorbet and a bit of hazelnut for balance, as recommended by the ice cream expert behind the counter. On a cone, of course. Sooriâs a simple girl â chocolate and vanilla on a little cup. You find a bench, sitting the two of you down as you multitask feeding her and feeding yourself, but soon enough it all becomes pretty democratic as she takes licks from your cone and you steal spoonfuls of ice cream from her cup. Ha, and Jungkook thought she couldnât share!Â
With that thought alone you invoke him, jumping a bit when he appears seemingly out of nowhere. Your facial expressions take turns, to say the least. From fright, to surprise, to happiness, to shock, to fright again. He smilesâ no. He smirks. He smirks, knowingly, deviously, even as he leans down and takes a bite out of the chocolate ice cream youâd scooped up for Soori. Your eyes fixate on him, eyes narrowing before they land on the multiple pink shopping bags he holds in one hand.Â
âDid you buy underwear for a whole village?â
He throws his head back in laughter. âYouâd hate that, actually.â
âCorrect,â you pause for emphasis, âJungkook, what the heck?â
âWhat? They had a good sale going on.â
âReally?â
âNope.â
âOh, God.â
âJeez, canât I just treat my girl to sexy lingerie?â
You raise a menacing eyebrow at him. âJust me?â
âItâs a win-win, baby. Itâs a win-win.â
You smile, unable to deny him as much as heâs unable to deny you. âCan I see?â
He brings the bags closer to his chest and gasps, feigning shock. âThese are for my eyes only.â
âFair enough.â
âYouâll like them, though,â he winks. âIâm starving.â
âI have an idea!â
âDo tell.â
âLetâs go home, Iâll buy us Dominoâs Pizza and we can watch a movie, my treat.â
âYouâre spoiling me now.â
âAh, what can I say,â you say, standing up and taking Soori into your arms, her chocolate covered cheeks forming a smile on her face. âI like to share my riches.â
âIâm rich,â he walks closer to you, hand wrapping around your waist, pulling you closer.
You huff, âtrust me, we know.â
âNot like that,â he looks at you, arm tightening around you until your feet are hovering above the floor a bit, pulling smiles out of you like itâs easy and thatâs the thing, it is easy because itâs him. âLike this,â he says, emphasizing his point with a kiss to your lips, letting you know that he means it.
No doubt in the world that he does.
~
When you first fell in love with writing, it wasnât much for the idea of storytelling. Instead, that very first spark that turned an interest into a passion came from the purpose of safe keeping memories. If you could keep a moment safe by the immortality of your words, you thought, the inevitability of time could be avoided. Or well, it would make it all worth it, at least, like you lived for a reason. Everything you experienced â whether it was pain, happiness, worry, surprise â it would all come to an end eventually, but your words would remain, etched in time for the sole purpose of proving that it happened. That you were there, alive and feeling and that it was all worth it because your words could now live forever.
You sit on the couch, the living room lights dim, perfectly complementing the atmosphere as the rain falls in incessant showers outside the tall windows. The sound is comforting, a candle burning and the notion of the ocean at such close proximity easing you all over. You can still smell it, you think, mixed with the rain and him.
Him, him, him.Â
You smell him on your skin, your hair. You smell him on the hoodie youâd stolen from his closet, the one heâd worn today and discarded before getting in the shower. The scent triggers the muscle memory in your heart and you think of him, a smile escaping you before you can fully make up his face in your mind. The warmth takes up every inch of you and it reminds you of his touch, his arms around you, the sun and the fire and the love you have for him.Â
You stop writing, too distracted to string words together now that the thought of him has turned so physical, affecting your ability to do much more than simply think about him. You place your pen in the middle of your journalâs spine, marking the page as you feather through your previous entries. Five days. Youâve been together for five days, four spent in the peace of your little universe. You, him and Soori. And to your luck, and the luck of immortalized moments, youâve used your words to make sure this memory never leaves you.Â
You skim through the pages, smiling when a sentence catches your eye, struggling a bit to understand your own handwriting.Â
âItâs early â way too early, and Iâm struggling to stay awake. I wish I could go back to sleep, but then again heâs next to me and I can see him, really truly see him when nothing gets in the way of his beauty, when heâs so still I have no choice but to stare, to take him in, to let his face sink into my memory until all I can feel is love. Until his face is stripped of features, no eyes, no nose, no mouth, just love. My love. Heâs the sun rising and Iâm the need to stop and stare.âÂ
The weight of your words is overwhelming, a blush creeping up your cheeks and you can feel the way your heart feels warm. You turn a page, laughing at the universal balance of your feelings when you read,
âJungkook grilled today and I ate three burgers. We made milkshakes for dinner when Soori was asleep because neither of us has the heart to not share with her but Jungkookâs scared of sugar rushes.â
But, oh, what a privilege it is to live an ordinary life with extraordinary people. What a feeling, to experience it all.Â
âI sit by the sun, can feel the sand through the towel under me and my bodyâs still salty and wet from swimming. I hear the sound of the ocean and Jungkook turning the page of a book. I hear how still he is while reading my copy of The Great Gatsby. Soori naps in-between us and I can hear her soft breathing. I write this because I donât want to forget it.âÂ
A wave of nostalgia takes over you, like youâre already missing it though it hasnât fully gone away yet. Your next words ignite a different feeling in you, flushing your chest and sending that original warmth thatâd settled on a steady route someplace else.Â
âI feel his fingers long after theyâve been on me. My body is exhausted but my mind alert, the stars on my skin heâs left are now mine to safekeep and the way the memory lingers keeps me awake. Iâve never made love before, it feels foreign to me. Are we making love? How would I know? I canât think of the formalities of much when he fucks me. I canât put a name to it, only his and whatever his eyes on me makes me feel in that moment. Iâm yet to decipher it, though, his eyes on me. More so, what I feel. It makes me want to live inside myself, though I donât think that makes much sense. It makes me wish I had more control over my body, my thoughts, my feelings, so I could focus on multiple things at once and figure me out. Me when heâs on me, me when he owns me like this, and perhaps his eyes perceive this better. Perhaps I could find it in seeing what he sees when he looks down at me, like that. Like him.â
âWhy arenât you in bed, baby?â
His voice startles you, takes you a while to register it fully, your first instinct to close your journal a bit too abruptly for what it entails. You look up at him, smile when you take him in, your hands itching to touch him, to hold him. His hairâs still wet from the shower, a bit messy, and longer now than when you first met him. You like it like that, you think. In a soft white shirt and gray pants, he looks so soft as he walks inside the living room, hovering by the wall for a second before leaning into it.Â
âI was writing, the rain looks nice from the tall windows.âÂ
He smiles. âWeâll open the blinds upstairs, come on. Wanna watch a movie?â
You nod, uncrossing your legs and holding onto your journal before making your way to him. âWhat did you have in mind?â
âLord Of The Rings,â he gives you a toothy grin, pulling you to him as soon as youâre close enough to and you canât help but bring your lips to his.Â
âNever took you for a nerd. I like it.â
âTo be honest, I never know whatâs going on, Iâm just drawn in by the landscapes.â
âLucy and I watched it once,â you say, pinching your thumb and index finger, pretending to smoke, âunder the influence.â
The picture alone makes him chuckle. âNever took you for much of a stoner.â
âOh, God, Iâm not. I ate a subway and a bag of hot cheetos and passed out fifteen minutes into the movie.â
âDamn, baby, thatâs weak. Even for you.â
You gasp. âAs my boss, you should be delighted by this information.â
âMm,â he kisses you, ânot your boss right now. Actually, not your boss ever. Sooriâs your boss.â
âSheâs so demanding.â
âI know, right? Will only eat fruit if itâs star shaped now. Wonder whose fault that isâŠâ
âWhen I get my hands on herâŠ,â you narrow your eyes, shake your head.
âHey. Easy on my girlfriend right there.â
âThat still sounds a bit surreal.â
âWhat? Me calling you my girlfriend?â
âYeah.â
âWell, get used to it.â
âNever. Itâs funner this way.â
He doesnât refute your point, secretly agrees with it, still a bit in awe of the word itself. The title. What it entails, what it means, what he gets in exchange of it. Not in an opportunistic way, but simply in letting himself enjoy this new role, surprised at how comfortable he feels in it, how at ease.Â
The two of you make your way upstairs, checking on Soori one last time before heading to the bedroom. The bed looks inviting, fluffy duvet begging for you to be inside of it on this rainy night. Lights dim and soft linen smells, the sound of the rain hitting the window as Jungkook opens the blinds and you get in bed, making yourself comfortable and letting your body melt into the mountain of pillows he insists on keeping. He joins you soon after, sighing as he sinks into them, too, remote control in one hand as he extends his other in invitation. You fall into him, letting him wrap his arm around you as you rest your head on his chest, legs finding his under the covers until your body is laced in his. He makes quick work of finding the movie, falling deeper into the comfort of the bed and bringing you closer to him as the beginning credits roll in, landscapes following and heâs right, itâs captivating enough.Â
âWanna go there someday,â you say softly, voicing your thoughts.
âYou remember the deal we closed a couple of weeks ago?â
âYeah, I remember.â
âItâs basically land⊠vast, immense land that looks just like this. Iâm building a hotel there.â
You look up at him, âreally?â
âYeah. Iâm excited about it. Itâs kinda different from the locations we often go for⊠it feels new, I think itâs gonna work, though.â
âI have no doubts whatsoever,â you tell him, face nuzzling in the soft fabric of his t-shirt before you say, âIâm proud of you.â
He rests a soft kiss on your head, hand gently running down your arm as he murmurs a quiet, âthank you,â against your hair. Soon enough youâre both completely enraptured by the movie, and to your surprise, by the plot, too. Once in a while you steal small glances of him, endeared by his big, shiny eyes in full focus, pink lips slightly agape. Your hands run lazy circles around his chest, and you do it enough so as to lose conscience of it, affection turning into reflex.Â
Your touch soothes him, so much so he stops acknowledging it and it simply runs a wave of relaxation down his body, shoulders dropping a bit, body sinking further into the pillows, head falling to the side. Youâre warm against his body and he likes it, he likes being able to feel every inch of you on him like this. The movie has most of his attention, but said attention begins to shift focus, unbeknownst to him, like his body has a mind of its own. He thinks itâs an innocent little pull at first, inevitable, if you will. He tries to go back to the movie, eyes fixated on the screen, his brainâs full function on the scenes, but itâs to no avail. Heâs now (well too) aware of the way your fingers trace patterns on his chest, the way your leg rests on top of his. The way you smell, the way your tits press into his side as you shift a bit. You exist, next to him, and his reaction is but the collateral damage.Â
He begins to shift in place, hand running through his hair as he makes more of a mental effort to quiet down his body and the effect you, very innocently, have on him. He does this for long enough so as to make you notice, frowning against his chest when he sighs.Â
âAre you okay,â you ask, looking up at him, âare you uncomfortable? I can move-â
âNo, no, no,â he says, voice a bit frenzied, taking you aback even more. âItâs not that, baby, come back.â
You rest against him once again. âIs something bothering you, though? You feel tense,â and when you say this, you run your hand down his arm, nails scraping a bit, and Jungkook lets out a long breath he didnât know he was holding.
âNo, none of that, donât worry.â
âYou sure?â
âYeah,â he says, feeling shy all of a sudden, color creeping into his cheeks, âitâs justâŠâ
âWhat?â
He grows quiet for a second, hand holding onto yours before he starts to guide it down his torso, and youâre almost confused for a second until it gets lost inside the warmth of the duvet. Jungkook rests your hand on top of his cock, over his sweatpants, and you can feel how hard he is. He whimpers softly over your head when you reflexively close your hand around him, feeling the whole weight of his arousal. You look up at him, half-lidded eyes and parted lips, his head leaning back against the pillows as you bring your lips to his neck, kissing once before you whisper a little, âoh,â into his skin.Â
âCouldnât help it,â he says coyly, and you can hear the smile in his voice.Â
âWhy would you try to help it?â your lips still pepper open-mouthed kisses all over his warm flesh.Â
âDunno,â he shrugs, a whimper that ends in a moan following and he sounds so sweet.Â
So sweet, you think. Something about him, about his demeanor right now, docile in your hands, soft-spoken words and little noises as your lips on his skin begin to have an effect on him. You can feel it in the palm of your hand, in the way his hips buck a little with each suckle, silently begging for more but not in any particular rush.Â
âWant me to touch you?â you look up at him, at the way his eyes open, still half-lidded and hazy as he nods. Your hand squeezes his length, âhere?â
âYeah, Iâd like thatâ please.â
That word feels like a silent agreement. A nod in the direction he knows youâre eager to take and you waste no time in rewarding him for letting you, for allowing you to take the reigns, for letting you give him pleasure as you please.Â
Your hands travel under his sweatpants, lips forming a smile when you realize heâd forgone underwear, cock warm against your small hand as you wrap around it. Jungkook hisses, a whine getting caught in his throat as your thumb circles around his crown, collecting the precum and easing him into the feeling. Your pace is slow, eyes fixated on his cock â on the way his slit leaks when your finger grazes over it, the way he jumps a bit in your hand, so overstimulated already. The noises he makes, sometimes muffled as his face presses against your hair, failed attempts at keeping composure. He tries his best not to fuck his cock into your hand, you can tell by the way his tummy sinks every now and then, hands gripping at the sheets. And when he canât take the torturous pace you set, so determined on giving the most sensitive part of his cock what begins to feel like an overwhelming amount of pleasure, his hand gently closes around yours, stalling your movements.Â
âPlease, __â fuck,â his words are a bit frantic, a moan getting caught between them.Â
 âWhatâs wrong, Kook?â you feign ignorance, but heâs in no position to give you a hard time for it.Â
âStroke it, baby, please.â
He sounds so fucked out already, shaky fingers closing around your hand once again and you know heâs fighting internal battles not to guide your movements, to take you where he wants you â how he wants you.Â
âIt felt like you were so close, thoughâŠâÂ
âNot like this,â his words find him faster than youâd expect, given his state, âdonât wanna cum like this.â
You kiss his cheek, smiling when his face moves closer to yours until youâre kissing the corner of his mouth and his eyes are closing as you finally move your hand, slowly stroking his cock, touch so gentle it makes him sigh. Heâs so perfect the need to tell him so becomes too painful to bear.Â
âYouâre doing so good, Kook. My perfect boy.â
Under any other circumstance Jungkook would pause at your words â not necessarily to second guess them, no, but to process them. To see what they do to him, to what extent they deliver pleasure, all things considered, things being the fact that, well, heâs not a sub. Heâs not usually the one melting into praise and dominance so, yeah, under any other circumstance Jungkook would pause. Right now, though, all he can focus on is the way your hand feels so warm and tight around his cock, how it glides so seamlessly because heâs so turned on heâs basically lubricated himself, and how youâre enjoying his reaction to you so much you think heâs perfect.Â
Perhaps under no circumstance would he need to pause to know that he enjoys it. More than he ever thought he would.Â
âI feel so good right now,â he tempts, head sinking into the pillows as you up your pace a bit.Â
âIt feels good⊠to make you feel good,â your wrist twists around him, giving him all the attention he craves, from base to tip and then tighter at the upturn. âTo see you be this good,â he whimpers softly at your praise, âyou sound so beautiful.â
Jungkookâs chest tightens, your words resounding in places he didnât know could echo words, sounds â the sound of your breathing, your own moans. Your pace picks up and you rejoice in the way he reacts to your touch. His brows knit together, eyelashes kissing his cheeks and all he can think of is you, almost as if he had you far away and had to rely on memory. Opening his eyes, heavy lids looking down at you as he leans his head to the side, his breathing picking up as he pants.Â
Your hand leaves him for only a second but itâs enough to make him hold his breath, eyes following your every move as you bring it up to your face and lick a thick stripe down the palm of your hand. His cock throbs when it wraps around it again and he sighs, so close to the edge he can only hope youâll play fair.Â
Your free hand sneaks under him a bit awkwardly, tapping on his leg to silently let him know what you want. His hips raise as he helps you move his sweatpants down, the waistband now hugging his ass as you free him completely. His cock is red and angry, still leaking for you as your hand begins to move faster, thumb and index finger playing with his head at the end of each push and pull.Â
âIâm so close, __,â words soft, a staccato whisper thatâs for you only and your name on his lips sounds sugary, like it drips off his tongue.Â
You think, a bit selfishly, about playing with him for just a little longer. Putty in your hands and so very yours that you almost donât want to let him go â to let him let go, but you canât deny him. Not when heâs been so good. Not when you have all the time in the world to explore, to play.Â
âYeah? Tell me, baby, what else do you want?â
âPlay with my balls,â voice still a plead, no demand in it, a bit of a tilt at the end.Â
You comply, hand traveling south before you gently roll his balls in your hand, tugging slightly and making him wince, a loud, throaty moan finding him soon after. You look into his face again, a sight to behold, so lost in his own pleasure you think he doesnât fully hear you when you tell him to kiss you. He proves you wrong, though, lips crashing onto yours as you swallow his pleasure, tongue on his as both your breaths grow heady.Â
âGodâ fuck.â his hand finds yours again, not hesitating before heâs wrapping it back around his cock, stroking once, twice, and setting the pace for you before his own is coming up to your face, fingers gently grabbing your chin and making you look at him. âIâm gonna cum.â
âCum for me, Jungkook. Please.â
He nods, brows knitted in a frown as he gets so very close, eyes on yours and fighting to keep them open. You feel the way his cock kicks in your hand as you jerk him fast, bottom lip getting caught between your teeth. He grows quiet, a little tense under you and when his lips part in a silent moan, eyes shutting close, he cums, hard â thick hot shots landing on his tummy and coating your hand as you bring him down.Â
He chuckles a little, feeling a bit delirious as your fingers play with the mess youâd both left on his stomach, cock jumping at the mere sensation of your touch on his taut skin, making him hiss and look down. It turns him on a little more than his body can take right now and he opts for closing his eyes, sighing as he sinks his head back into the pillows.Â
âThat was so good,â he says, voice soft and full of bliss.Â
âMhm.âÂ
You kiss his cheek once more before your warmth is leaving him, making him frown as heâs about to ask where youâre going. He opens his eyes, sees you reaching for the night table and when you turn around youâre holding onto a handful of tissues.Â
You clean him up, and he lets you, his soft gaze following your movements. It feels intimate, the way you do it in silence, your face expressionless but something in your eyes thatâs easy for him to read. You tuck him back in his pants, laughing a little when the feeling of the fabric against his sensitive skin makes him gasp, muttering a little, âsorryâ his way. When you kneel on the mattress to leave his side, he pulls you by the arm, whining a little.Â
âIâll just go throw these in the trash,â you say.Â
âOkay. Thank you, baby.â
You take a minute â makes Jungkook a little antsy for reasons he canât understand. He hears the faucet go off, hears you wander about the bathroom, giving him enough time to sit with his thoughts. Itâs not anxiety âwell, it is. Itâs not bad, though. Itâs more so unfamiliar, to let someone take care of him like this, so lovingly for no other reason than the desire that pulls you to want to love him. To dote on him. It makes his heart contract inside his chest, missing a couple of beats that recover a bit too quickly when he sees you make your way to him.Â
Heâd been lost in thought, making you smile.Â
âWhatcha thinking about?â
âThat we havenât kissed in a while.â
You roll your eyes, but itâs playful and shy, one of his favorite things about you. Your knee hits the bed, crawling towards him and he smiles, growing giddy in anticipation. You find a home over him, knees straddling both sides of his body as you rest on his tummy, careful not to touch any further down as you know heâs still sensitive.Â
âWanna kiss me?â
Itâs back, he thinks. That tone you held before, when you were in control of him and his pleasure. No time to pause now either. He nods.Â
âYeah, wanna kiss you so bad, baby.â
He welcomes your lips on his, slow and tender, giving him time to savor the pillowy softness of them. The way you taste, the way you sound â a little worked up, tiny whimpers leaving you â has him convincing himself that he could never get too much of this. Never get too much of you. The way your tongue moves on his has him sighing against your lips, mind elsewhere and all he can take in right now is you. You and how you kiss him. You and how much he wants you already. How much he needs you.Â
He moans against your lips, hands coming up to hold onto your hips as he pushes them further away until your cunt sits perfectly on top of his dick. You both sigh.
âYouâre hard,â you point out, not fully breaking the kiss.Â
âYeah. Been hard since you straddled me,â he laughs.Â
âThought youâd be spent, you came so hard just now.â
He shakes his head, looking up at you, âwant you, baby.â
You grind your hips against his, moaning when the head of his cock grazes your clothed clit. âI want it like this.â
âYeahâ okay,â he gives, kissing you again as he guides your hips the way he knows feels good, aided by the noises his mouth swallows as you moan into his lips.Â
You donât stop when you come up, fully sitting on his cock and making him wish there was less layers between you two. When he looks down he sees the wet patch over the gray fabric of his sweatpants, unsure whether itâd been you or him but turned on by it none the less. He moans at the sight, at the feeling, at the way you look so pretty with your cheeks flushed and your eyes closed, lips parting to moan his name.Â
Your hair falls to one side, pretty neck glistening with sweat and he wants to kiss it so bad. He holds his breath as your fingers toy with the hem of the sweatshirt youâd stolen before, promptly pulling it off your body. His eyes widen, lips slightly parted before theyâre forming a smirk when you reveal whatâs underneath â the result of his little shopping spree a couple of days back. Tonight youâd opted for a lacy, red babydoll and matching panties. The fabric so sheer it barely covered anything, making Jungkook consider himself a very lucky man right that second.Â
His hand travels up, palm cupping your breast and thumb caressing your nipple, making you whimper at the feel of his finger through the fabric, a new sensation. Your hips move quicker, hand coming to rest on top of his to encourage his touch, the added stimulation landing right on your lower tummy, making your pussy clench around nothing, clit throbbing with every push and pull of your hips.Â
âIâm so close, Kook,â you pant, back arching as you find the perfect pace.Â
âUse me, __. Use me to cum,â he gives, lips getting caught between his teeth so hard heâs afraid heâs gonna draw blood. âFuck, you look so hot, baby.â
You like the two tones his voice takes at his command and praise, the way heâs still perfect in that pliant way but also gives you what your body secretly loves the most. When you cum, it almost feels painful, in that sweet way that finds you when youâre so overwhelmed by the feeling. Your hands crash on his chest, hair falling at the sides of your face before heâs gently pushing it away so he can watch you.Â
The air around you shifts just as fast as the switch inside Jungkook turns.Â
Youâre still catching your breath, so receptive to his every touch that you moan when you feel his cock throb between your legs. He holds onto your face, making you look at him.Â
âYou did so good, __. Came so good and pretty for me.â
Thereâs a voice inside your head that tells you to take back control, to bite back and tell him that he was the one being good for you. But your bodyâs both too spent and too needy for your mind to get cocky right now and deprive it from what it needs the most.Â
You nod your head, a little dumbly, at him. He thinks itâs cute.Â
Heâs pushing his sweatpants back down, legs fully pulling them off his body before his finger hooks down the side of your panties, slowly moving south until his knuckle is grazing over your clit.Â
âSo wet. So messy.â the pads of his index and middle finger circle your clit, making you whimper as you rock your hips and follow his movements. He pulls his touch away abruptly, pushing your panties to the side before his hand leaves you completely and comes to rest behind his head. âRide me, __.â
Youâre wet enough to brave it, coming up on shaky knees and lining yourself over him. He grabs the base with his free hand, helping you a little and releasing the moment you start sinking into him. He doesnât miss the way you whimper, eyes closing at the feeling of him stretching you. It burns a bit but youâve come to find pleasure in the pain, bottoming out as you both moan when heâs fully sheathed inside of you.Â
âSo big, Koo,â you cry out, and his heart beats particularly soft at your use of the pet name. It almost makes him lose focus, almost makes him fall back into the prior dynamic, a little too worked up from it still. He reckons itâs probably whatâs powering his demeanor right now.Â
âYeah,â he sounds, and you donât miss the way his voice takes on a cocky tilt. âMove, then. Wanna see you bounce on this big cock.â
âYeahâ okay, fuck,â because it feels so good. It feels so good as you jump on him, as he fills you up to the brim and hits your sweetest spots when you bury him all the way inside of you. It feels so good when it all gets to be too much and you have to slow down your pace, grinding against his hips, making him say your name as he hits every inch of you like this.Â
You resume your pace, tits moving with each motion against his hips and he canât take his eyes off of them â off of you. So fucking beautiful as you move over him, giving him what he wants.Â
âGood fucking girl,â he praises, voice a bit rough from the way the pleasure consumes him.
âThat feels so good. Wanna fuck youâ wanna fuck you forever, Jungkook.â
Your words are strangled and he can see how much effort it takes to actually string them together, so very affected by him and the way it feels when he starts moving his hips against yours, fucking you back.Â
âYou can fuck me forever, baby.â
âOh my God, Iâm soâ so close.â
The cry you let out when his hands grab at your hips, pausing your movements, surprises the both of you. You look down at him, glaring when your orgasm goes away, the pleasure taking on a painful nature as your pussy throbs around his cock.Â
âFuck. Whyââ
âWant to play with you a bit more, baby. You can take it. You can be patient, can you not?â Itâs in your best interest to agree so you nod, frantic eyes looking into his. âGood. Now lose the attitude. Iâm gonna make you cum so good, promise, yeah?â
âY-yeah.â
He holds onto your waist, manhandling you so swiftly you barely register just how he managed to get you on your back in a matter of seconds. He hovers above you, thighs between your legs as he runs a hand through his damp locks and scans his eyes over your figure.Â
Jungkook canât figure out if he wants you fully naked, looking up at him or face down, pressed against the mattress. He doesnât know if he wants to fuck you hard or take more time with you. He doesnât know if he wants to tease you or have you coming undone again âand if itâs the latter, does he want it on his tongue or around his cock?Â
Decisions, decisionsâŠÂ
He wraps a hand around his cock, sighing at the much needed attention, smiling when you raise your hips a bit involuntarily in his direction. You make his decision for him, huffing a bit when you see the way he takes one step back away from you. He takes his shirt off before running his hands down your legs, his touch soft but his eyes dark, like heâs plotting.Â
âKookie,â you say, dreamily, ulterior motives lacing your voice, âfuck me, please.â
âNot yet, wanna taste you first.â
He raises your legs, keeping them straight before him as he rolls your panties down your thighs and off your feet, throwing them to the side. You bend them once theyâre off, resting them against his shoulder.Â
âIâm too sensitive,â you tell him, and something in your voice tells him youâre faking it.
âThat so, baby?â
âMhm.â
âIâll be gentle.â
âBut I want you to fuck meâ now.â
Jungkook holds onto your legs, one hand on each calf before heâs bringing them down, resting them against the mattress a bit abruptly and making them fall open for him.Â
âQuit being a brat or I wonât fuck you at all.âÂ
He doesnât let you answer â not like youâd try, youâve got too much to lose â finding his place between your legs as he lays down on his tummy. Your pussyâs swollen and red, hole leaking for him and clenching around nothing. He coos, which youâd tease him for if the reaction wasnât sending a jolt of pleasure down your body, something filthy about it lacing the act.Â
âLove your little pussy, baby,â he observes, more to him than to you, marking emphasis in his words by running a finger from your opening all the way to your clit.Â
âPlease.â
And he canât deny you. Not when your cunt looks so enticing, when you react to him and he can see it, feel it around his fingers as he pushes his middle one inside of you. You arch your back at the intrusion, a moan passing your lips when his own close around your clit, sucking hard on it in rhythmic little pulses. It doesnât take him long enough to send you right back to where heâd taken you from just a couple of moments ago, tummy tensing at the threat of your pleasure reaching its peak.Â
âIâm gonnaâ Iâm gonna cum if you keep doing that,â you warn him, so obedient it nearly makes him swoon.
He removes his mouth from you, replacing it with his thumb as it draws tight circles against your clit, a bit slower so as to save him time.Â
âYeah, baby, you can cum. What do you want me to do? Tell me.â
âCan youâ please, lick my clit.â
His index and middle finger form a V, opening your folds up to him before his tongue comes out to lap at your clit â quick kitten licks that have your hands reaching down to him, fingers holding onto his hair so as to ground yourself but itâs to no avail.Â
âFuckâ like that. God, Iâm gonna cum.â
Itâs blinding, almost. The way it feels, the way your body shakes as you come undone on his tongue. The way he sucks on your clit, prolonging your orgasm, moaning against it when you pull on his hair. The sound his mouth makes when he cleans every drop, chin glistening with your orgasm â it all adds to the sensation, effectively fucked out.Â
You pull him up, with little force, until heâs falling back on top of you. You kiss him, a bit deliriously, tasting yourself on his tongue and moaning at the remnants of your high. You push your legs further apart, helping him fall into you, feet on his ass as you bring him closer to you. He sinks his cock into your pussy, moaning at how tight and warm you feel, still pulsing from your last orgasm.Â
Youâre both a bit more quiet this time around, throaty breaths and pants passing your lips as you find endless places to kiss. Down his neck, on your shoulder and the palm of his hand when he cups your cheek. You sigh when you finally find his lips. They only part when he throbs inside of you, pussy so sensitive you can feel just how close he is. You lose him for a second and when you open your eyes, you see his own fixated on the TV, fighting to stay open.
âIn missionary so he can keep watching Lord of the Rings,â you tease.
He looks back down at you, strangling out a laugh that shortly gets caught in a little whine of pleasure.Â
âShut up,â he breathes out, kissing you once again. âFuckâ Iâm so close, baby.â
âI can feel it.â
âYeah?â
You hum, bringing his face closer to you, kissing him and egging him on with sweet, little praises.Â
He stills on top of you, pink lips parting in a silent moan before he says, âIâm gonna fucking cum,â pulling out just in time to paint your lower tummy in white, cum dripping down your pussy a little too recklessly to what heâd normally agree to but fuck, he feels drunk right now and the sight is heavenly.Â
You laugh.Â
âReconsidering?â
âYeah,â he answers honestly, with half a brain for anything let alone to lie.Â
âOh, wow,â you say, âlove being your girlfriend already.â
He laughs, shaking his head before heâs pressing a kiss against your lips.Â
âMe too, baby. Me too.â
~
AAAAAAAAAA. sorry for teasing you guys so hard, i didnât want to give anything away so i had to lie A LITTLE (or well, refrain from the truth lmaooo). also sorry to the team mingyus, u probably thought the thing about the smut not being about jaykay meant it was with HIM, but i just didnt wanna spoil it!!!!!! anyways. i love you. and like always, thank u for reading. it means more to me than youâll ever know <3Â
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pairing: yandere! min yoongi x f. reader
genre: fluff? || smut || non-idol au || yandere
summary: after a couple of months of just staring at the same four walls, you realize you do love yoongi as much as he loves you, or maybe youâre just trying to survive.
word count: +2.1k
tags/warnings: yoongi kidnaps reader, unprotected sex, yoongi is delusional asf...(a âbitâ crazy in the head), pregnancy, murder(s), stockholm syndrome, mentions of drugging, unconsensual touching, dom! yoongi, sub!reader, stalking, reader starts going crazy lowkey
notes: this is more like a small drabble for yoongi :) and its kinda written to show that the reader is losing her mind, sorry if itâs confusing!
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min yoongi was a man of a few words. he liked to relax his mind with his own devices; never one to say much with other people, even to himself. he was an introvert from the very start. his past relationships were always left in pieces; left with girls in tears while munching on tubs of ice cream left and right from such a lousy boyfriend who never cared about them. how he couldn't save their relationship from ruins, leaving it to dissolve with no worries at all for the future of what they could be. if he's honest, yoongi doesn't even know (or care to) how he managed to get women to go out with him. what he thought was just a couple of hookups was actually a relationship to some of his 'girlfriends'. maybe, he just couldn't understand women or maybe, just maybe, he was a sleazy ass who preferred to be by himself.
but, yoongi preferred to say that he loved his alone time more and wasn't prepared for a full-time relationship. the peace that he had built within his mind was enough for him. yoongi didn't really need anything else around him except for money, which was his income from working a boring office job from nine to five; monday to friday with decaf coffee in his hands daily and blue light glasses to protect him from the screen of his desktop.
the constant noise of the people around him were just annoying crowds that he couldn't handle. that was until he landed his eyes on you. it's a day he clearly remembers from sunrise to dawn. how could he ever forget seeing such a pretty face?
it was just his luck that his apartment was far from the city. one word could describe his apartment: perfect. the land was extremely quiet since no one else lived around. the only exceptional noise that would interrupt the silence would be the animals: the deers that would constantly communicate with the others, bunnies hopping around, hummingbirds that chirp with soft ends, or the baby opossums that would sneeze to get their parents' attention. yoongi's house had more than enough of love. he lived for it. however, it never hurts to add more to a loving house, especially when he was missing someone by his side. yoongi couldn't believe his luck on how this apartment was so excluded from the world; from the hands of society. it's exactly what he needed when he wanted to play his guitar with no one knocking on his door to disturb him. or when he wanted to listen to his music out loud, or to keep you safe in his home. its like it was meant to hide someone inside it, and the best part is that no one would ever know. no person can search somewhere they don't know exist. in other words, you were meant to be his.
the second you were inside, yoongi had basically erased your existence from earth. your missing poster left on wooden poles, shops, and shown on the news. and yet, not a single trace of you was found; questions about your appearance went unanswered. everyone was clueless on what could've happened to you. your disappearance was a complete mystery to everyone: where had you gone?
are you still alive?
it was uncomfortable to wake up. your head was pounding and the dizziness that took place in your head only further pushed you to have nausea. "finally." a deep, unsettling voice boomed out of somewhere. startled by the sudden noise, you quickly glance up to catch sight of a man's eyes. he stood right next to the door. that was the beginning of a new chapter. you were slipping away from sanity as time passed. most of the time, you were left alone. 'where am i?'Â You just sat on the bed trying to figure out what happened; what was happening. the man who stood in the corner â you learned his name was Yoongi â left after a while. he would talk a little with you before leaving the room, saying something about grocery shopping.
you kept up a calm facade for the sake of survival. You had to or else you didn't know what your captor would do to you. you had full knowledge that he had the possibility of hurting you, or even worse, he could kill you. just like he had the guts to take you from your own freedom and dreams from when you were a little girl.
but there was no stopping time. it crept up until you realized that you've done nothing to help yourself get out. you've sat there day and night, acting like a good girl for him when it wasn't even you who wanted to be there. you've wasted seconds that led into days and you hope that it doesn't go on to years because you've truly lost yourself in this house. so, you prepared and waited until he left to act out. what he didn't know wouldn't hurt him.
as soon as Yoongi disappeared from your room and heard another door close, you took the opportunity to do what you don't usually do. all your yells for help and screams of desperation were drowned by the trees. You kept losing hope each wasted second. you were watching it slowly fall away from your grasp, and you couldn't do anything. the remorse of watching as the days went by and you were still stuck in a room locked in by your captor. It was just him and you. You and him. but he swore on the stars that when the time comes, it will no longer just be him and you, but mini-hims and mini-yous waddling around the house.
the small interactions you had with him were uncomfortably awkward for you, and you could clearly tell that he knew. and yet, he stuck around, choosing to stay and 'talk' with you. he didn't want you to think you were alone. he would be there for you.
as the weeks passed, the situation worsened for you. at first it was him moving into the room along with his things, then the part where he started sleeping next to you, and eventually to changing in front of you, touching you, and kissing you. Soon enough, it got more intense. That's when you knew you had to get out someway. You knew what step was next when his touching didn't stop at a few pecks. yoongi began to play with your tits, holding your ass tight to his crotch every night. you just couldn't get away from him.
everything was fucking shut tight. you felt the heat of anger crawling in your body. each window was locked, even the cabinets were locked. there were also hidden cameras. it was just your luck when you had found one in the bedroom hidden perfectly. you were very surprised when you saw it peeking out of the lights. it just proved to you that yoongi was a fucking lunatic. he had been watching you and you were fucking clueless about it. but it also meant that there could of been hundreds of these tiny cameras recording you. you needed to get out.
you couldn't take it any longer. You were watched every single second. You were touched when he was home. You just couldn't keep it going like this. it was your breaking point. you screamed, sobbed, and whimpered at the fact that you were here. 'pathetic', you thought. there you were crying miserably on your mattress without trying to escape.
you heard the door open and then close, you dug your head into your pillow as the footsteps came closer. "it's okay." You immediately felt the presence of Yoongi by your side, pulling you up into a hug. he was panting. "I was worried about you." The hug got tighter. "I came here as fast as I could."
yoongi had worried about you. in that moment, you realized that maybe you gave up long ago. That's why you let him do what he did, after all, a whole year did pass without your knowledge. missing posters crumbling on the floor as the world continued to revolve without your existence. You had gotten used to his presence, his kisses, his behavior, and his love towards you. You were so frightened at first and used his attraction for you as a shield.
he kissed your lips gently before sticking his tongue inside of your mouth. your arms unconsciously wrapped around him. And for the first time, you let him touch you with his love and lust. the unbuckling of his belt made goosebumps grow out of excitement. With one thrust, your pussy sucked him in whole. Yoongi lowly groaned while you whimpered at the sudden feeling of his cock inside of you."I love you."
Yoongi waited. Were you going to say it back? his hips pounded into you with a harsh pace. You guttered nonsense as you quickly held onto his shoulders for support. the overstimulation flourishing on your cunt as his cock disappeared inside of you. "I-I love you..."
He kissed your nose gently. Yoongi stayed still until you came, cunt squirting around his cock with need. He moved his cock out slowly before filling you back in, his hot tip reach your cervix. a smile on his lips as he continued to repeat his desperate actions. a yearn in him to hear you moan in his ears louder. to make sure his cockhead reached your soft spot good enough that you would be whimpering under him as his cock perfectly managed to hit your g-spot. yoongi sucked on your skin, groaning against it as your pussy clenched around him. you were so perfect. his fingers dived into your hair as you milked his dick dry. his pace got sloppier, soft grunts escaping his throat as you legs wrapped him closer to you. yoongi pushed himself until he was deep inside of you, cumming with a loud moan leaving his lips. limbs comforting each other as the stars shined brightly until the sun outshined them once again.
the constant fear of you leaving had vanished in yoongi. replaced with a loving emotion that never left him once. While you slept in his arms, he eyed you. his fingers tracing over your arms, "I really do love you." And he meant that. That's why no one was ever around the area his apartment was in. He made sure the cameras he brought were in use to protect his territory from trespassers. buying red, bold signs to keep people out of what's supposed to be kept hidden, and for anyone who didn't listen, there's a reason he bought a shotgun. he killed anyone that passed the border between your world and reality. it's really the main reason for the cameras that were placed everywhere: inside and outside.
And as time passed rather quickly, your stomach grew and your tits swelled with milk. yoongi couldn't contain the pure excitement when he found out. you were pregnant with his child; a family both of you were able to grow out of dreams. yoongi smiled as he talked day and night, chuckling as he pressed his ear and hands to your stomach. he couldn't be happier that everything he dreamt of was finally happening.
All he had to do was wait and the perfect family he had planned for years prior had been achieved. you were clueless to everything he'd done, maybe cause of the constant drugs that he put in your food and drinks. secretly hiding away inside the locked cabinets. yoongi's lips kissed your head with softness while you carried his tiny daughter in your arms after nine months of constant patience and care. "I really do love you, __." the tears that swelled up in your eyes reminding you of your past; memories that once rested coming back to haunt you. you felt the knot inside your throat, the disgusting taste of wanting to throw up because of the gruesome sight in front of you. The doctor's snow-colored coat was splattered with his own blood. he was dead, stabbed to death by your yoongi. the knife in the middle of his chest tensing you up along with the other harsh cuts against his skin. "I had to", was all he repeated, "for our baby." his fingers gently wiping the tears from your cheeks, "say it." You felt like you couldn't breathe during that moment. everything was taking you back to day one. "i-", you paused as your voice trembled, "i love you." the pile of blood grew, drowning out the wooden floor. a faint pink colored yoongi's cheeks, "i love you more."
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when did it end? - park jimin
short and sweet. mild angst. inspired by billie eilish's 'what was i made for?'. dad!jimin au.
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jimin had watched his daughter grow up.
her face, round with youth and bright like the sunshine, had changed little in his eyes even though he knew that she wasnât a baby anymore. in fact, she was exactly the age that you were when he met you, today.
looking at her, laughing with her friends in the living room while he sat at the kitchen counter, he couldnât help but think back to how life was with you.
days that felt neverending, spent at the beach. wading through the cold water, all year round, even during the freezing winter when you would grumble about how it was way too cold for the sun to work, way too cold for you to tan the way you wanted to. regardless of what you said, he always managed to drag you into the ocean. not that it took too much convincingâhe knew, deep down, that you had always been a lover of the sea. just like he was. it was something that had brought the two of you together.
other days, you would go to the cinema like teenagers always did, on first dates, and second dates, and whenever they werenât sure of where else to go. you were a sucker for horror and even though jimin always had nightmares for days after watching one, he still went with you. anything to make you happy. (even if it traumatised him a bit...)
it had all ended far too fast. not even three months after the birth of your daughter, you were gone. the doctors had done everything they could to save you, but you were gone.
that was sixteen years ago, now. sixteen years ago, jimin had had no idea how he would raise his daughter without you, without his lover, his best friend, his rock.
âdad!â
pulled out of his thoughts, jimin met the gleaming eyes of his clever daughter and smiled, lines creasing at the corners of his eyes. âsoomin, whatâs wrong?â
âweâre going out,â soomin responded with a bright grin, gesturing at her three friends, who had begun to pack up their things, âiâll see you tonight. iâm so excited for your cake.â
jimin chuckled, silenced by how deeply her smile reminded him of you. how the way her left cheek dimpled was the way yours had. how her voice was as bright and beautiful as yours had always been.
âstay safe, soominie,â he said, patting her on the head, âi love you.â
she jokingly slapped at his hand for the pat, before heading out the door. jimin was left staring at the door, the house absent of sound.
he wished you were here to see it all.
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Oh, baby!
Reader x Yoongi | Part 60//?
Summary âȘ Min Yoongi, is a simple man. He likes his coffee black and iced, he enjoys his job, and he loves his baby girl. But what happens when the new neighbor, quite literally, drops into his life?
Warnings âȘ any typos are mine; angst lol; some cursing; talk of physical assault; mentions of toxic parent/child relationship??; if your name is crossed out itâs because I couldnât tag you;
A/n: hey besties, this year Iâm hoping to write more so please look forward to that. Feedback is appreciated and if youâd like to be added to the tag list please let me know.
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Bangtan Village: Pregnancy Series || Maknae Line: 1
1: Deciding to have a baby
Pairing: BTS maknae line x f!reader, jimin x dancer!oc, taehyung x psychologist!oc, jungkook x idol!oc
Genre: Fluff, angst, hurt/comfort, husband!BTS, dad!BTS
WC: 3.5k words (1k ish each)
Summary: The part of Bangtanâs life where theyâre all living next to each other in a privately owned township thatâs just outside Seoul, itâs close enough for them to get to their social & work lives but far enough to provide them with privacy as theyâve become global legends after the end of their most successful re-union, comeback and world tour in 2025-26. While they continue working simultaneously on solo and group endeavors, they take it slow to focus on their personal life, especially with their growing families taking precedence. As of now, all 7 members are married, with Hoseok & Jimin already having kids of their own. But theyâre nowhere close to done, the number of tiny humans in this village is yet to increase!
A/N: The one where all my ocs are named after flowers hence the header! Hyung line to follow soon, more parts too. Spot the cameo by Astro's Eunwoo & 97 liners. Ready, set & begin đ·đșđčđ»đŒđđž
Jeon Jungkook x Lee Hae-rinđ·:
Jungkook and his wife had already had a baby conversation before they were married, one where theyâd both decided they were more than happy being pet parents- Jungkookie with his dog named Bam and Hae-rin with her cat named Haru. Although they were opposites called Night & Day, the Doberman had learnt to get along with house cat since they had been introduced back when she was a kitten. And this gave them the chance to have company at home while the other was busy with their career, their schedules often clashing as two idols at the peak of their stardom. Though Jungkook had the security of having a group and hence, could take more time off, unlike Hae-rin for whom being a solo artist meant she had no stand by to rely on. And yet by some miracle, today they had both taken time off work to attend a dear friendâs baby shower.
Fellow 97â liner, Eun-woo, the host of the event had taken a moment away to greet Jungkook while Hae-rin congratulated his wife. âAre you sure, you canât stay for longer? Itâs so rare that we get to see the both of you together and spend time. Once the baby comes, itâll be much harder, why donât you stay, Jungkook-ah?â Eunwoo tried to persuade Jungkook but he just shrugged his shoulders with a defeated sigh & replied back, âYou know Iâm really happy for the both of you, right? I wouldnât do this if I didnât have to⊠I just need to goâŠâ âBut why, Jungkook-ah? Youâre always the most excited one at all our baby showers, be it for Mingyu, Jaehyun, Bambam, so whatâs wrong today? I can see it on your face that something is really bothering you. Tell me, friend. You know Iâm here for youâŠâ Eunwoo reassured Jungkook, a hand on his shoulder as his friend broke down at his touch & replied, I wonât lie to you, it just hurts too much to be here. And thatâs why I need to go⊠I canât see any more of these baby showers, knowing that Iâll never host one of them myself. And itâs worse today because sheâs here and Iâm scared sheâll see through me, that Iâll ruin this for both of us because Iâm the selfish one that wants kids when we decided we wouldnât have any.â
âYou made that decision years ago, why donât you speak to her once again? Sheâs so good with the kids, whether the 97â liners or Bangtans, maybe sheâs changed her mind?â Eunwoo offered hopefully but Jungkook pursed his lips as he said, âItâs not that she doesnât like kids, we both do. But itâs one thing for us to enjoy with our nieces and nephews, itâs another to actually have children. And for all the women around us, it was easier for them to have children, itâs different for her. They arenât celebrities in their own right, they have ordinary lives and jobs that allow them to do both side by side. And your wife, even though sheâs from the industry- sheâs an actress whoâs allowed to take a maternity break and get back. The roles might be different but the fame remains untouched, the success does too. But itâs not the same for an idol, our careers are short spanned as it is and this is akin to self-sabotage. Stamina, reputation, fan following, everything takes a hit and I couldnât do that to her, not while BTS continues to thrive. I canât pull the plug on her career, thatâs the most self-serving and sexist thing Iâll ever do and I refuse to be that man.â
âAnd what about husbands that hide things from their partner and mislead them? That doesnât make you a misogynist, Nampyeon?â A voice said from behind and Jungkook almost dropped the glass he was holding in his hand, as he saw his wife standing there, having heard their conversation. Eunwoo slipped away, after a quick pat on Jungkookâs back, wishing him luck as he gave the couple privacy to discuss what had just gone down.
âWho were you to decide what I should do? Whether I choose my career or my family life, itâs my choice to make. Not yours! Why have you never once told me this? I thought you genuinely didnât want kids, so I never brought it up. Sure, Iâm indifferent about being a mom, I wouldnât mind either ways. But Iâm not indifferent to you! If this is part of your dream, then why would you just let it go? Youâve let me put my dreams first, since day one. You welcomed me into Hybe as my sunbae, you recommended my debut song to armys and catapulted me to success, you stood by and watched as I ranked #1, won awards and went on world tours, you even pushed our marriage so it wouldnât affect my prime. And you think I wouldnât want to do the same for you? Give me the chance to do for you, what you did for me, love. Please?â She implored him to listen as he asked, âAre you sure? I donât want you to regret it, itâs not just your career, itâs your body, things wonât be the same again⊠youâre doing the heavy lifting, itâs not meâŠâ âYou think Iâd ever regret creating something thatâs a sign of our love? To bring a child thatâs part you into the world, thatâs the easiest idea to get on board with. How could I ever not love someone who is a mini you?â She said with a wide smile on her face as she gazed into his eyes, and he broke into a grin, âYou make a good point but truth be told, Iâll be rooting for our child to be a reflection of you.âđ·
Kim Taehyung x Ahn Nariđș:
There was no deciding about when to have a kid, with Taehyung and his wife. Sheâd been writing a baby diary filled with poetry, letters, life lessons & more since she was 18, heâd been craving wanting to be a dad ever since heâd grown up raising his younger siblings. With them, theyâd just left it up to faith, they just wanted to be pregnant, theyâd be preparing all their lives and the when didnât matter. Everything had been blissful after their marriage, until the day when Taehyung came home to find his wife curled up on the sofa, crying her eyes out. He rushed to her side, his heart constricting in his chest as he felt her heaving sobs and tried to contain her grief in his arms. He wasnât sure of what to do to help her feel better, being a therapist- comforting others & helping them through their emotions was more her department than his. In fact he couldnât remember the number of times, sheâd motivated, validated & held space for him.
Still, he knew what words couldnât say, his actions would so he hugged her tighter as he whispered, âYeobo, whatâs wrong? Iâm here, whatever it is. Itâs okay, weâll figure it out. Just please, look at meâŠâ. Despite his pleas, she couldnât meet his eyes, her gaze trained at the piece of paper on the coffee table of him. It was stained with her tears but he picked it up, he saw it was a medical report from a local fertility clinic. It had been barely a year into their marriage but they knew something was amiss when they still couldnât get a positive test. Though his way of coping had been to deny it all along and bury himself into work, clearly sheâd had enough and decided to go looking for answers.
âThey⊠they said⊠I would never⊠be.. a motâŠâ She tried to whisper but he cut her off, âNo, donât say that. Theyâre lying, theyâre just being insensitive and stupid. You will be a mother, I promise. They donât know shit, theyâre just a small suburban clinic, Iâll take you to the best doctors, to the biggest super specialty clinics, adoption centers, we can go abroad, whatever it takes okay? We can do whatever we want, the options are endless.â She shook her head and stepped back from his embrace, the fury and hurt painting her expression as she cried out, âItâs hard enough to adopt ONE child, you always wanted our kids to have siblings, you wanted 5 children!? And we wanted a child before we were even married, how long are we going to wait? Do you know how long medical procedures take? It could be YEARS because we even have a child, are you really going to be able to wait that long? Can I? I wanted to be young, Iâve seen what happens when thereâs a huge generational gap between kids and their parents, I never wanted this⊠itâs the one thing weâve always pined for⊠and Iâm going to break that dream for both of us.â
He cupped her face in her palms, forcing her to make eye contact with him, âY/N! Stop. I wonât allow this. As long as you and I are together, the dream is alive. Weâve made the impossible come true before, we can do it again. You were a preemie kid who wasnât going to survive but you did! Bangtan defied the odds with our success. Weâre fighters, we donât give up, okay? Weâll find a way, we always do, love. Why wait? Iâll make an appointment tomorrow and this time, no doing it alone, Iâm coming with you. Iâll take the tests, Iâll be there for your follow ups, whatever it takes, weâre in this together. What do I always say, huh?â âTeamwork⊠makes the dream work.â She replied gingerly, her voice getting stronger with every syllable as he gave her a kiss on the forehead and felt the tension exit her body with his gesture. đș
Park Jimin x Song Jang-miđč:
Park Jimin was the only Bangtan member to already have 2 kids, his childhood sweetheart turned wife from his dance school had given him two daughters. It was obvious to anyone that he loved them more than life itself- thatâs why their names were Ae-Cha, which meant loving daughter and Mi-Cha, which meant beautiful daughter. He had the biggest smile on his face when he came home from work to watch both his daughters, aged 5 & 3- sit together at the dining table playing, having a fake tea party with their dolls. They were so engrossed with the pretend play that they didnât even notice that their dad had come back home. But even though part of him wanted to swoop them up into his arms, he held himself back, watching in admiration while leaning against the door frame of the living room.
He was joined by his wife who slipped her hand, across his waist and leaned closer & whispered, âCan you believe we actually made it past the terrible twos & threes? I canât believe theyâre our girls? That the same kids who once turned the house upside down are now both sitting quietly, the house is clean, I actually had time to have a cuppa without being interrupted, itâs surreal!â âYes, thatâs why I dare not disturb them. I thought my eyes were deceiving me, theyâre really grown up, huh? Where did the time go? It feels like yesterday that we got married & here we are already⊠At this rate, theyâll be in college soon & Iâll have to walk them down the aisle!?â He said incredulously, while she responded, âYouâre forgetting the hormone crazy teenage phase, where theyâll hate everything we say & do, rebel & go out at night, youâre gonna have to give them a talk about safe sex, & not murder any boy they decide to bring home. Iâd pay good money to see that!â She chuckled as he glared at her, as she relunctantly stifled her laughter.
âStop it, you mean woman! Iâm not even slightly ready to go there, not even in my mind. And you might hit me for saying this but⊠I actually miss the chaos? I miss tripping over legos, wearing mis-matched shoes, having spit-up on my clothes, knowing that theyâre tiny enough to be safe in their cribs or even better, inside you.â He sighed & told her as she agreed, âYeah, youâre right, I actually miss the time, it felt like everything was slower when theyâre not born yet, almost like you can control how fast they grow up. 9 months of time, where itâs just us & nothing & no one can get in the way of that.â âIf you didnât hit me then, youâre definitely going to hit me now but Iâll take my chances⊠would you, consider doing it all again? Having one more kid? I donât think Iâm ready to let go of them being babies just yet.â He softly muttered as her eyes widened in surprise at the proposition. âIâm not going to hit you, trust me. In fact, I think youâre right. That must be why I havenât been able to part with any of their baby supplies, Iâve held onto them- theyâre still in the attic, you know? Even though I was supposed to give it away to charity ages ago. As much as I want to jump right into this, are you certain we can do it? 3 kids is a lot. What if we bite off more than we can chew?â She asked, a hint of anxiety in her tone as he pulled her closer to him & said firmly, âWeâre a power couple, weâve always been. With you, nothing is too much trouble. I have full faith in us, jagiya.â đč
To Be Continued... đđâïž
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realize†part 6
The cool wind blows against your coat. You shiver, pushing your hands together trying to get friction to keep you warm. Namjoon notices you do all this and quickly holds your hand, shoving it into the pocket of his hoodie. "It'll keep you warmer longer," he says making your cheeks heat up. It's been a long while since you've been on a date. After Heeseun was born, your life practically revolved around him. He was your world. Although his father was around, you were the one who raised him yourself. With a slight help from your three best friends, you managed to get by. After the divorce was settled, talking to him seemed to be like talking to thin air. He wanted nothing to do with you, but for the sake of Heeseun, he had no choice. Being able to experience this again seemed so surreal to you. You were glad you met Namjoon when you did. You think it was time you did, somehow, you felt as if you were ready.
"We're here" He announces, before opening the door for you. It was a little cafe that doubled as a speakeasy. There weren't many people so it felt cozy enough to relax in. He lets you in and takes your coat before leading you to the table he had reserved days ago for this night. It starts off casually; ordering food, getting to know each other, and everything needed in between. It progresses to jokes, then aspirations, and then nothing. Sweet nothing.
The moment was silent, but not awkward. He stares into your eyes, fingers, slowly creeping up to linger on yours. You smile at him, feeling the sense of comfort around him. Everything was going as well as it could.
The night was capped off by a small cup of coffee before he walked you back home. Your hands practically glued onto his all the way home. Upon reaching your house, he turns you both to face each other. "I had so much fun tonight," He says. You smile. "I'm glad, 'cause I did too". The wind blows onto you again, and this time it was calming. Your eyes lock with his, and slowly, he leans over, closing the gap in between as his lips touch yours. Fireworks.
You both part, and eyes on each other again. "Goodnight, Y/N"
"Goodnight" He watches you unlock the front door and get inside before heading out himself.
Upon arriving home, he felt ecstatic. For years, he was confined within a world where only he and Nami knew. That his life should only revolve around his daughter and no one else. Seokjin would always nag at him to get a life of his own because as soon as Nami grows older, he would be all alone.
Tonight, he finally mustered up all the courage to believe that maybe Seokjin was right. Maybe it was okay because it's been 6 years already. He thought that maybe he was finally ready. But as soon as his eyes were drawn to the wedding picture he had of him and his wife on the wall, he falters. Guilt eats him up. Maybe this was a mistake.
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JUNGKOOK FANFIC RECOMMENDATIONS(12).° àŒđ§âđâËà·
đȘ© Miracle Of The Season | Angel Jungkook x Fallen Angel F!Reader | OneShot | @cybrsan
đȘ© Thereâs Only Me When Thereâs You | Jungkook x Reader | OneShot | @koostattoos
đȘ© PRINCESS TREATMENT | JK X Reader | Series | @2hightocare
đȘ© best friends..? | best friend!Jungkook x fem!reader | Series | @just4koo
đȘ© Home for the Holidays | jungkook x f. reader | OneShot | @jjungkookislife
đȘ© Closer To You | Rich, spoilt brat!Jeongguk X Doctor! Reader | OneShot | @back2bluesidex
đȘ© First type of Soul Mate: The Soul Crossing Mate | Prince!Jungkook X Reader | @beautifulfuckup99
đȘ© What he wants, he gets | Jeon Jungkook x Reader (idol au) | OneShot | @wildestdreamsblog
đȘ© Debut | sunbaenim!JK X Reader | OneShot | @yankpop
đȘ© Cruel Beast | idol yandere Jungkook x Idol Y/n | OneShot | @kangmoon27
đȘ© PREDESTINED | Mortal/commer jk x goddess reader | OneShot | @keen-li
đȘ© ïŒ€ïŒ„ïŒĄïŒŽïŒš | Yandere! Dark! Android! Jeon Jungkook x Widower! Fem! Reader | @pynkgothicka
đȘ© Daddy Daycare | Technician! Jungkook x Teacher's Assistant! Reader | Series | @bunnyhugs77
đȘ© Yours Truly | popular jungkook x tsundere f reader | @solemnreads
đȘ© Cherry Flavored | Biker!JK X Reader | OneShot | @jungkookstatts
đȘ© Oath | JK X Reader | Mafia AU | Series | @bangtan-yeonghon
đȘ© too young | single dad!jungkook X Reader | series | @jeonggukookies
đȘ© How to Get Rid of Your Virginity | badboy!jungkook x theaternerd!reader | OneShot | @strvngeweather
đȘ© Mr. Take Your Bitch | Idol!JK X Reader | OneShot | @bunnyhugs77
đȘ© Focused on her | aged jungkook X Reader | OneShot | @000jeon
đȘ© sorry (not sorry) | JK X Reader | OneShot | @angelguk
đȘ© ALL AT ONCE | unhinged jungkook X shy oc | Series | @muniimyg
đȘ© Valentine Vixen | Stripper! Reader x Rich! Jungkook | OneShot | @bunnyhugs77
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jeon jungkook fic rec list (â
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it's finally here! i've been working on this list for so long and honestly with the release of seven i had to reorganize it but it's finally ready soooo here's a list of the fics i've been reading lately, honestly i loved every single one of them and enjoyed it so much and i would sell my soul to get a chance to read them all over again, i've been exploring way more and reading genres i haven't read before so i am so excited to post this list, i've grown attached to alot of the series so i'm beyond excited seeing how they all play out but i hope you all connect and fall for the fics as well and experience that excitement too... remember to follow, like, comment and give lots of love to our talented writers they deserve so much love and support i mean look at all the magic they share with us!! and check out their masterlists too you might find your faves as well... as you know majority if not all the fics i rec contain smut so no minors allowed and also dni. i love that you guys have been sending me recs and questions i love hearing from you so please do keep sharing them and asking... stay happy and healthy everyone and enjoy the list till next time đđ€
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employed by @personasintro f s a (ceo au slow burn e2l) updates on wattpad
seven days by @/kithtaehyung f s a (fuckboy jk roommate to lovers)
candles & flames by @taegularities f s a (enemies to lovers royal/regency au fuckboy jk)
ego season by @sparklingchim s (jock jk fwb brothers best friend college au)
the lucky one by @babystrcandy f s a (rivals/enemies to lovers childhood friends)
bangtan scouts by @hisunshiine f s a (fantasy au college au friends to lovers)
seven days by @/hisunshiine f s a (brothers best friend age gap fwb)
bloodline by @jjkeverlast s a (fwb au slow burn college au)
seven days a week by @/jjkeverlast f s a (fwb au college au)
dextrocardia by @jeonstudios f s a (officer au undercover fake marriage e2l)
drown for you by @/jeonstudios f s a (siren au)
as we were by @archivedkookie s a (infidelity au marriage au slow burn) ft yoongi
secret slut by @jeonsweetpea s (office au assistant jk)
moonstruck by @/jeonsweetpea s a (supernatural au slow burn e2l based on the vampire diaries and legacies)
angelâs trumpet by @hansolmates f a (idol au supernatural au)
timing by @spideyjimin f s a (dad jk past lovers au)
full stop by @1oserjk f a (divorce au parents au)
spicy n sweet by @thvhoe s a (boxer au established relationship)
the princess and the rockstar by @httpknjoon f a (rockstar au royalty au)
redamancy by @lesgetittkookie f s a (rich girl au s2l)
the ability to fathom by @hanniwrites f s a (brothers best friend idiots to lovers pining college au virgin au)
denial by @girlygguk f s a (idol au fwb brothers best friend)
safety net by @pradaksj f s a (boxer au e2l)
the forgotten spaces by @oddinary4bts f s a (slow burn e2l dancer au college au)
sinful lust by @oddinary4bts s a (threesome au) ft. boyfriend myg
over wine by @koocycle f s a (marriage au)
friday nights and take-out by @ahundredtimesover f s a (idol au s2l)
blackout by @jjungxkook f s (bf2l roommate college au)
the damsel & her knight by @jimilter f a (chaebol au ceo jk e2l)
at your service by @untaemedqueen f s a (escort au s2l ceo au)
pr disaster by @ughcore f s a (e2l actor au fake dating)
aphrodite in war by @jungblue f s a (frat boy au fake dating roommates e2l)
to err is to love by @jungkookschin f a (exes au dilf au ceo au)
live through this by @starshapedkookie s a (exes frenemies to lovers band au)
my love is here by @solemnreads f s a (unrequited love best friends slow burn)
clash by @matchagator f s a (neighbours slice of life e2l)
to what we were before, and all the things after by @orchidyoonkook f s a (prince jk s2l f2l slow burn college au)
one-shot
devoted to trouble by @/jeonsweetpea f s (spiderkook)
accidental roommates by @/jjkeverlast f s a (dilf au roommates to lover e2l)
calling you cool by @/kithtaehyung f s a (rockstar au s2l)
college nights, diner fights by @/hisunshiine f s a (e2l waiter au)
love is gone by @jeonbunnie s a (established relationship break up au)
the boy with galaxies in his eyes by @/oddinary4bts f s a (idol au fuckboy au fwb tattoo artist au)
no longer strangers by @soft4gguk f s (summer love strangers 2 lovers)
the hating game by @sxtaep s a (e2l lawyer au)
what if i love you too much? by @taleasnewastime f s a (single mom au neighbours to lovers)
jasmine by @/btssmutgalore f s (friends to lover shy jk) on ao3
please donât go by @httpjungkookcom f a (spider kook childhood best friends)
boy's a Liar by @/thvhoe f s a (best friends bf e2l college au)
masked by @flymetothejoon s a (drummer jk s2l)
lonely hearts club by @joonbird s a (tattoo artist dystopian au)
this is how you fall in love by @jeonqkooks f s a (rockstar au established relationship)
freak-quency by @gukslut f s (rockstar au s2l)
boots by @/gukslut f s (rockstar au)
wake up call by @junghelioseok s (established relationship)
orange tulips by @kainks f s a (soulmate au reincarnation)
skirt chaser by 1kook s (f2l college au)
blueberry haze by @caelesjjk s (drummer au s2l)
cabin fever by @jeongi f s a (ex best friends unrequited love)
the millionaire and his lover by @gukyi f s a (f2l ceo au fake dating one sided love)
take whatâs yours (and stay) by @kidguk f s a (f2l s2l pinning)
overtime by @cupofteaguk f s (ceo au boss au)
âŹlooking for other jjk fics or the other members check out my library
#kiki!fic!rec#jungkook#kiki's library#jungkook:oneshot#jungkook:series#jungkook:smut#jungkook:angst#jungkook:fluff#favourites!jjk#jungkook fanfiction#bts fanfiction#jungkook angst#bts angst#jungkook fic recs#bts fic recs#jungkook x reader#bts jungkook#jungkook series#jungkook fanfic#jeon jungkook x reader#jungkook smut
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Daddy's Home Fest
There's no better time than when daddy is home.
DILF BTS is coming to a Tumblr near you Spring 2024!
⥠Title: Before, Now and After
⥠Pairing: Alpha Gang Boss!Yoongi x Omega Maid!Seokjin
⥠Rating: 18+
⥠Genre: gang au, dead dove, parent au, a/b/o | angst, fluff, smut
⥠Summary: As the leader of the infamous Bangtan, Yoongi is untouchable and lives life as he pleases. He thinks he has it all until the tall and broad shoulder omegan maid, Kim Seokjin walks into his office and makes Yoongi second guess what he wants in life.
by @sweetestofchaos
Daddy Yoongi and Daddy Seokjin came home June 2. Read Here
⥠Title: Daddy, Daughter, and Dewey Decimals
⥠Pairing: Single Dad!Namjoon x (f)reader
⥠Rating: 18+
⥠Genre: Parent AU, Fluff, Smut, Mutual Pining
⥠Summary: I adored the daddy and daughter duo that came to visit me every week at the library. Sunhee was cute and vivacious and her dad was every single woman's dream. A simple request, one late night, and a slip of the tongue revealing it wasn't just one-sided attraction.
by @remedyx
⥠Title: Dirty Laundry
⥠Pairing: Seokjin x f. reader
⥠Rating: 18+
⥠Genre: Slice of life, established married couple, PWP
⥠Summary: When you come across your daughter and Seokjin having a princess-themed tea party, you can't help but fall in love with your husband a little more. It helps that you find him absolutely ravishing in the little pink dress he wears too.
by @sailoryooons
⥠Title: Love Blooms
⥠Pairing: Jin x Hoseok
⥠Rating: MA
⥠Genre: Divorced, single father AU | angst, fluff, smut
⥠Summary: Summary: Divorced and lost, Jin grapples with self-discovery and single fatherhood. Then, sunshine arrives in the form of Hoseok, helping him explore his desires and build a found family. Their love faces challenges - ex-wife drama, societal disapproval - but together they prove love and acceptance can bloom even in unexpected gardens
by @downbad4yoongi
Daddy Hoseok and Daddy Seokjin came home April 26. Read here!
⥠Title: Lose You to Love Me
⥠Pairing: Yoongi x f! Reader
⥠Rating: đ
⥠Genre: Smut, Fluff, Angst
⥠Summary: Yoongi thought he had everything. The woman of his dreams whom he gave everything for. The sweetest Princess who became his whole world the minute she was born and a career he can say he's happy in but what happens when it all comes crumbling down when one small secret blows his marriage open?
by @jmvore
⥠Title: Off Limits
⥠Pairing: Female Reader x Seokjin
⥠Rating: 18+
⥠Genre: smut, porn with very little plot
⥠Summary: You are visiting your family over spring break and discover that the family you used to babysit for are separated. Does this mean Mister Kim is no longer off limits?
by @theharrowing
⥠Title: podcast
⥠Pairing: single father!Namjoon x f! reader
⥠Rating: 18+
⥠Genre: single father AU | fluff, angst, smut, slow burn
⥠Summary: You and Namjoon keep bumping into each other at multiple instances, as if destined to. In a world where past loves and current responsibilities intertwine, Namjoon navigates the complexities of single fatherhood, cherishing the moments with his daughter, Nari, while reflecting on lost love through his popular podcast, "A Loveless Lover." A chance encounter at a daycare center brings him face to face with you, sparking a connection rooted in compassion and shared moments of vulnerability. As their worlds collide, the possibility of new beginnings looms, challenging Namjoon and you to confront the past and consider the future with newfound hope.
by @hobipaint
⥠Title: sakura đž
⥠Pairing: king!yoongi x (f) reader
⥠Rating: 18+
⥠Genre: mature, fluff, angst, pining
⥠Summary: yoongi could never figure out how could a sakura tree bloom right on his sonâs seventh birthday. logically, atleast, for his kingdomâs soil wasn't blessed enough for beautiful flora; however, when his inspection rounds reveal a trip totally unexpected, and in a crescendo of buried memories, his love for the tree gets as bright as the petals of the blossom.
by @liveyun
⥠Title: Shatter With Me
⥠Pairing: Model!Jungkook x Surrogate!f.Reader
⥠Rating: MA 18+
⥠Genre: Best Friend's Husband, Surrogacy AU | heavy angst, smut, mild fluff
⥠Summary: Your best friend, Jiyoon, and her husband, Jungkook, have faced years of hardship trying to start a family. In a last-ditch effort to have their dream life, they seek solace in surrogacy. Wanting to see your best friend smile, you offer to become the bright beacon at the end of the tunnel, giving them what they have always wanted. But what happens when you begin to shine your light on their darkness? Things arenât always as they seemâhappiness can be a façade, shattering under the lightest pressure.
by @colormepurplex2
Daddy Jungkook came home April 24. Read here!
⥠Title: Since Day One
⥠Pairing: teacher!jimin x teacher! f. reader
⥠rating: 18+
⥠Genre: enemies to lovers, coworker au, single father au
⥠Summary: Being a Pre-K teacher is no easy feat, but Jimin is always up for the challenge. However, on his first day on the job, he makes an enemy in the parking lot before he even sets foot inside the building. Looks like this school year wonât be all sunshine and rainbows after all.
by @jjungkookislife
Daddy Jimin came home April 6. Read here!
⥠Title: baby fangs
⥠Pairing: Jimin x Jungkook
⥠Rating: Explicit/18+
⥠Genre: Urban fantasy, vampires, strangers to lovers, angst, smut
⥠Summary: As a human, Jungkook thought life was meaningless. It isnât until he dies that he finds something worth living for: the family he never had.
by @gimmethatagustd
#bts fanfic#bts fic#namjoon fic#seokjin fic#hoseok fic#jimin fic#taehyung fic#jungkook fic#bts collab#bts smut#bts fanfiction#bts fests#bts#daddys home fest#dilf bts
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BTS Fic Recs â Tumblr (i)
These are all available on tumblr as of April 2024. Some are likely crossposted on ao3 as well.
~Ao3 RECS HERE~ ~Recs (ii)~ ~Recs (iii)~
Almost all are complete works, those with â+â after WC are incomplete. Most are BTS x (F!)Reader.
Most of these are Mature or Explicit (usually because of smut) ~ mdni ~ italicized titles rated G or T ~ Please read responsibly
If any authors tagged here wish to be removed/untagged, please lmk! | Shoutout to @ggukkiereads who does an amazing job creating rec lists, which helped me find many of these fics
F2L = friends to lovers ; E2L = enemies to lovers ; FE2L = frenemies to lovers ; R2L = rivals to lovers ; BFB = best friend's brother ; BBF = brother's best friend etc
OT7/Multi
â BTS Reactions by @dreamescapeswriting | SFW + NSFW |
â BTS Scenarios by @btsjfans | SFW + NSFW |
â BTS Scenarios by @bulletproofwhalien | NSFW + SFW |
â BTS Scenarios by @salvejoon | SFW + NSFW |
â BTS Scenarios by @sunshine-and-bangtan | SFW + NSFW |
â Desperado Series by @heartbeatan | Mafia AU | PJM, JJK, KTH (in progress) | 60-160k(+) each
â The Company series by @btsmakesmehappy | Agent AU | 25-37k(+) each (in progress)
â Mafia BTS Reactions by @ninetailedfoxmanchi | Mafia AU (+Yandere AU) |
â #CodeBTS series by @yminie | Mafia AU | 1-12k each
Kim Namjoon
â The Ghost in Apartment 1403 series by @notsoguiltykpop | Ghost AU, Supernatural AU, Roommate AU? | ?k
â beauty & the bookworm by @jungshookz | E2L Library AU, Uni AU | 20k
â la vie en bonsai by @jungshookz | S2F2L Neighbours AU, Baker AU | 38k
â The Seven Nights series by @theunknowncryptid | SMAU, Mafia AU | 13k
â real magic by @heretobbtstrash | S2F2L Single Parent AU, Coffee Shop AU, Coworkers AU | 17k
Kim Seokjin
â {Unavailable}
Min Yoongi
â Take One by @untaemedqueen | Pornstar AU | 24k
â The Deal series by @untaemedqueen | Mafia AU | ?k
â suit & tie by @jungshookz | CEO AU, Office AU, Coworkers AU, PA AU | 21k + drabbles
â hellish by @jungshookz | E2L Demon AU, Roommate AU | 22k
â strike a chord by @snackhobi | S2L Pianist AU, Bar AU | 16k
â straight shooter by @snackhobi | F2L/E2L Cyberpunk AU, Dystopian AU | 14k
â devil with the mint hair series by @theharrowing | E2FWB Brother's BFF AU, Stoner AU | 11k+
â a wager of lords and love by @hisunshiine | S2L Historical AU, Arranged Marriage AU | 7k
â daechwita by @chemicalpink | Daechwita AU, Assassin AU | 10k
â stay by @luffles424 | Daechwita AU, Assassin AU | 3k
â daechwita by @se0kie | Daechwita AU | 4k
â make me proud by @moonscriptsx | Established Relationship AU, Canon Idol-verse | 6k
â by its cover by @kittae | S2L Cat Dad AU | 2k
â misfortunately, yours by @sor-vette | S2F2L Dark Fae AU, Dark Fantasy AU | 32k
â mixtape by @jungblue | F2L Uni AU, Radio AU | 15k
â cyberslut by @kimnjss | SMAU, Uni AU, Fboy AU | ?k
â alive aha fxck by @softyoongiionly | F2L Neighbours AU, Vampire AU | 43k
â a brew of wings by @inkedtae | S2F2L Dragon AU, Witch AU | 10k
â fury of their scales by @kpopisthereasonihavenolife | Dragon AU | 18k
â inheritance series by @jincherie | Hybrid AU | 21k
â tuxedo series by @whatifyoulivelikethat | Cat(-shifter?) AU, Roommates AU | ft JJK | 49k+
â Assuage series by @btsqualityy | Omegaverse AU, Werewolf AU | ?k
â show by @httpjeon | Pw/oP ft BTS | 2k
â drip by @here2bbtstrash | Pw/oP | 5k
Jung Hoseok
â midnight confessions by @snackhobi | BFF2L Coworkers AU, Office AU, Buzzfeed Unsolved AU | 27k
â the bride of ashmedai by @jeonggukingdom | Demon AU, Arranged Marriage AU | 13k
Park Jimin
â The Bird Cage series + The Lion's Den series by @untaemedqueen | S2L Mafia AU | ?k
â Set It Off series by @btsqualityy | Mafia AU | ?k
â the hunt by @httpjeon | Shifter AU, Fantasy AU | 8k
â lovebug by @httpjeon | Hybrid AU | 12k
Kim Taehyung
â Pied Piper by @untaemedqueen | Mafia AU, Established Relationship AU | 10k
â maybe i do series by @chateautae | Arranged Marriage AU, Chaebol AU, CEO AU | 410k + drabbles
â kinda hot by @kimnjss | BFF2L SMAU, Uni AU, Fboy AU | ?k
â nip it in the bud by @opaljm | Brother's BFF AU, Piercing AU | 10k
â heatwave series by @curly-bangtan | F2L Roommate AU | 12k
â under the covers by @jessikahathaway | Agent AU | 23k
Jeon Jungkook
â heavy lifting by @snackhobi | Coworkers AU | 13k
â Miss Vagabond by @bubblesuga | F2L Gamer AU | 8k
â blizzard by @curly-bangtan | S2L Roommates AU | 16k
â Sparkle by @btsmosphere | F2L Roommates AU | 3k
â Hands-On Learning series by @ladyartemesia | Uni AU | 5k
â kiss it better by @jincherie | Uni AU, Sports AU, Cheer AU | 12k
â ghosts just wanna have fun by @sugaxjpg | Ghost AU, Supernatural AU, Uni AU | ft MYG + KTH | 20k
â tell me your secrets (i'm all ears) by @jinpire | Uni AU, Hybrid AU | 7k
â under the bridge by @jincherie | Hybrid AU | 11k
â Swipe right by @ppersonna | BFF2L Tinder AU | 9k
â overtime by @cupofteaguk | CEO AU, Office AU, PA AU, Coworkers AU | 12k
â I won't stop you series by @imsarabum | Vampire AU, Fantasy AU, Office AU, Coworkers AU, CEO AU, PA AU | ?k
â life eternal by @jungkookiebus | Fae AU | 9k
â hotter than hell series by @chateautae | Demon AU | 136k
â Hellblazer series by @jungkookiebus | Demon AU, Constantine AU | ?k
â agent of love series by @ppersonna | SMAU, Agent AU | ?k+
â strawberry kisses series by @kimnjss | SMAU, Brother's BFF AU, Tinder AU | ?k
â drag me down (to hell) series by @kimvtae | Mafia AU, Single Parent AU | 58k (abandoned)
â Concealed Weapon by @gimmesumsuga | Mafia AU, Husband AU | 10k
â hate sex by @yeoreos | FWB Pw/oP | 4k
Overall Favourite Authors (If I recc'd all their works like I want to/more than I have, I'd have to make this series even longer >.<)
â @bonvoyagenoona's masterlist
â @chateautae's masterlist
â @flowerwrites06's masterlist
â @here2bbtstrash's masterlist
â @hollyhomburg's masterlist
â @icyhobi's masterlist
â @jungshookz's masterlist
â @justcallmenikki7's masterlist
â @kpopfanfictrash's masterlist
â @ladyartemesia's masterlist
â @luxekook's masterlist
â @magicalsalamander's masterlist
â @yminie's masterlist
â @yoonia's masterlist
#bts fic recs#group: bts#type: fic#i think i did a pretty good job of hiding my yoonkook bias if i do say so myself :]
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FRI(END)S | taehyung
â summary: in which Taehyung has some big shoes to fill after his hyungs went to the military. The stress of it all and utter loneliness causes him to make some grave mistakes. Like paying a girl to be his friend. But after months, he starts to feel something more. He doesnât know if heâs just over pretending because sheâs obviously just doing her job.. or if something more is there. And after a rough night, he finds out.
âgenre: short oneshot, slowburn-ish, angst, friends au
âwarnings: unedited properly, talk about depression, a couple bad words, he can kinda be seen as creepy but heâs just awkward i swear
ânote: i actually like this. chat i like writing, i wish i could do it more. Agust Dad is in the works tho..
Taehyung knew the members entering the military would affect him.
Sure they had moved out of the dorm and stopped living together ages ago, but he was saddened to see his hyungs go after being in contact for almost decades. They had watched him grow up and helped him through the complications of being an idol.
And now that he was making music and doing it all on his own? He felt the effects of their absence hardened.
He tried staying close to the other maknaeâs but they were doing their own preparations for their solos and didnât want to be a burden. He tried smoking but it would only stir up trouble and was too risky. He tried going onto Korean tv shows but it only felt like more work.
It started to get worse the more he worked on his music and the longer his hyungs were away. Heâd stay day and night at the studio, working tirelessly on his album. And when he did venture to his apartment suite, it was cold and empty. The Bangtan group chat dry.
Alone.
He hated the feelings of being alone. After 2020, the tour being cancelled and not being able to see his new fans, being forced to stay inside. He had his members at the time, making English songs that blew up. But he wasnât happy. He was alone.
And whenever he walked in the door of his apartment after a long day or night, he felt the same feeling. Dread, hopelessness. Empty. And then, the military would come and sweep him away as well.
He didnât want to feel like that. Didnât want to spend the time he had before the military being things changed for good, feeling like that. He wouldnât put out good music for his fans and he wouldnât do good for himself mentally and physically. He needed something, anything to give him comfort. He couldnât go down that rabbit hole he once been in.
Sugar.
Your brain's reward system is activated, which releases dopamine, a chemical that signals pleasure.
In this case, Sugar, is a sweet caring friend. A paid friend. Ironic to the fake name she gave Jimin, she was a sugar baby. You are sugar, in every meaning of the word.
He felt weird at first, when Jimin gave him Sugarâs number when he reluctantly told his hyung how he felt one night while drinking together. But after texting for weeks and a shiny NDA contract, Sugar was his temporary paid companion.
Theyâd text regularly, and when he was feeling his most depressed heâd pay her to come to his house before he got there. They didnât have to talk, she just had to be there so he didnât feel like he was drowning in his pity and loneliness. So he felt like people still cared.
As much as he hated it, it was working. The text turned into meet ups at his house. The chilling turned into cuddling. And hell, he felt good waking up in the mornings. Music felt less like work. Life felt like, life.
But working on music, and releasing it were two different battles. And doing it with a group, and being solo, were two different battles.
Taehyung put on a smile as he went backstage, the chilling sound of his fans feeling his ears as his earpiece now silent as his sound ended. It had been a while since he preformed at a Mcountdown, and he had forgotten how many strangers there were backstage as they started profusely congratulating him.
He put on a shy smile as people started handing him a small fan and wiping off his sweat. Before anyone else could crowd him, he grabbed his phone and excused himself to the bathroom.
He could feel his hands shaking, the pressure of being on stage by himself bringing back that some feeling of loneliness. He had forgotten about it because of the fans, but being backstage was much more awkward. He remembered how he used to cool down backstage with his members.
He missed them, dearly.
His fingers shook as he pressed against his phone screen, going to his messages and clicking the top person. He knew it was Sugar, he had only talked to her recently. He asked her to come over, and even sent the money in advance while also tripling the amount. He was vulnerable, and scared. He needed his fix. He needed comfort.
When he was finally able to escape the stage and was able to home later that night, he half expected for Sugar not to be there. The day had been so draining he had completely forgotten.
His eyes widened when he saw her in his apartment, lying on the couch all comfy. Her breathing soft and her hair in front of her face as she slept.
He quietly sat down his things and took off his shoes and socks. He had already changed out of his performance outfit and was in a baggy hoodie and jeans. He walked over to Sugar, brushing her hair out of her face and even that calmed him down from all of the chaos in his mind.
She had looked so comfortable in his space while she slept. So peaceful. Like she belonged there. He hadnât realized how attached he had gotten to her until that moment. Her beautiful soft skin and playful hair. Her kind natural beauty and caring nature. It has been a while since he met a girl as innocent and sweet as her and the comfort she brought didnât make it better.
He blinked out of his trance when he saw her blink, as if sensing his everlasting gaze. Her eyelashes fluttered as she slowly opened her eyes, Taehyung smiling when he saw the familiar pearls.
âOh, youâre back.â She said she yawned and sat up slightly. âHow was filming the.. song?â She asked, sounding so unsure and confused in her half awakened mind.
He chuckled, being aware for some time now that she knew nothing about the idol life or even listened to his music, and it was slightly refreshing.
âIt was good, Sugar.â He said, his voice tried and raspy from singing and talking all day. The word coming out as more than a pet name more than it being the name she actually went by.
He picked her up, hands gripping her waist tightly as he easily held her up so he could sit on the couch and set her on his lap. His large hands, so soft and masculine, gripped her thighs tightly, situating them around his hips.
His body relaxed and his eyes closed slightly as he felt her soft figure against his chest as she wrapped her arms around her neck, playing with the back of his hair.
âThank you.â He said breathlessly, eyes still closed as he relaxed and let himself feel her soothing touch. âYouâre too good for me.â
âAre you okay?â
He didnât except to hear her voice, considering she just woke up and that speaking to him wasnât mandatory or anything. Her voice was as soft as ever, extra quiet from the sleepiness.
Fuck, he was getting attached. He was being too vulnerable, it was getting too intimate. To real.
She was paid to do this. To act caring and sweet so he could keep coming back and she could keep getting money. But God, it felt real now. Much more real than the first few months.
He tensed for a minute, his heart telling him to spill out everything but his brain winning, like most days. âIâm fine, Sugar.â He assured, his hand moving to her hair, gently stroking it. There was a moment where he considered actually telling her about his day, but the thought of it made his chest tighten. He didn't want to burden her with his problems, wanting her to stay shielded to the harsh reality of his life and riches.
"It's just been a long day, and I'm not used to things being this way." He admitted, his voice a bit more strained than normal. It was silent for a minute before he spoke again, not knowing why. âThank you, for being here.â
âIâll always be here for you..â she replied softly, looking up at him as she laid her head on his shoulder. âItâs nice here.â
He smirked, a small genuine smile played on his lips before letting out a chuckle. âIs it?â His eyes flickered away from her and to the idle big tv screen.
âI was watching you.â Her voice came through as he looked down at her once more. âYour music video, I mean.â She corrected herself with an awkward chuckle.
âOh.â Taehyung didnât know how to feel about it. Of course he was proud of his music, but slightly nervous for her opinion. âWhatâd you think?â
âIt was.. beautiful.â She said, her eyes sparkling as their eyes met. âIt was slow and sentimental..â his face reddened as she continued, the words making him antsy.
âI loved it. And you looked all dolled up and cute.â She giggled as she thought back on it. âIâve never seen you like that.â
âWhat you look at me differently now? You see me as the big popstar like else everyone does?â He said, trying to play it off as a joke even though he was actually wondering.
âNo.. still just Taehyung. My friend.â She said with a smile and his chest tightened slightly as reality set in.
No matter how many nights theyâd spent on the phone, no matter how many ranted texts he sent.. No matter how many late nights and cuddles. They were friends, paid friends at that.
He was delusional for thinking it wasnât anything else other than a girl taking care of her client in order for him to keep coming back later and get more money. Even knowing thisâ
âYou wanna.. stay the night?â Iâll pay you extra.
He wants to say, but maybe if he didnât bring it up sheâd forget that thatâs what she was there for. For money, not him..
âSure!â She said excitedly, making his heart flutter. He hadnât felt this way in a while. Relaxed and comfortable with someone outside of his group.
She giggled when she saw his almost shocked reaction. âI told you itâs nice here.â
He chuckled, shaking his head at her. âEh, Iâm used to being here.â He gestured to his nice apartment penthouse with the view of the city. Expense brands to cook with and soft nice couches and clothes. He didnât know why he was trying to act so cool with his grand house when sheâd already seen him at his most vulnerable.
He knew from the first few instances that she couldnât have come from a rich family, judging by her reactions and lack of knowledge with certain gadgets and such. Just looking at the things she did for money, he figured she hadnât come from the best of the bunch.
âI mean, I already fell asleep on the couch so I might as well sleep there.â She said with a chuckle.
âYou donât want to go to the bedroom with me?â
The words fly out of his mouth before he could even stop himself and heâs surprised by himself. Surprised that he keeps trying to push his luck with this girl. God, heâd given all the hints but couldnât take one himself.
âIââ she paused with a nervous chuckle. âOh wow.â In an effort to get rid of the sudden tension that came over, and to not feel like a creep, he quickly spoke. âI meanâ we cuddle anyways. Why not just cuddle each other to sleep. That would help me, donât you think?â
He felt like an asshole just saying it, but as a miracle would have it, she started to contemplate before shrugging. âSure, okay!â She said with a small smile.
âY-You donât have to! It was a stupid thing to sayââ Taehyung quickly said, sweating as he tried to make it all go away.
âNo, no! Itâs fine.â She said quickly, the two looking like two teenagers. âI think itâd be good for me too.â She stated and Taehyung softened.
Taehyung turned off all of the lights, taking her hand gently in his as he lead her to his bedroom, a place sheâd never been before. There were posters of the group and artwork on the walls. Glimpses of his hobbies scattered around the room.
He took off his hoodie, revealing a plain white shirt underneath before he crawled onto his king sized bed. The quality of it, like everything else he owned, pleasant. She hummed when she laid down next to him, sinking into the mattress as she closed her eyes.
She took a minute to relax before turning on her side and looking at him, who was already staring at her while on his side. The two faced each other, heads on soft pillows with the lights dimmed. âYouâre different today..â she muttered her observation softly.
âI know.. thatâs why I sent you triple.â He said with a soft chuckle, he knew he would be more clingy, more of a pain. He hoped she was okay with it. That maybe it would become a regular for the two.
âI donât mind it, Tae-Tae.. Itâs peaceful with you.â She said with a soft smile while stroking his hair as Taehyung let out a breath of relief. He had felt the same, at peace. Maybe, just maybe, she felt the same way he did about each other.
He wrapped his arms around her small waist and pulled her closer to him and his heart raced as he took in her features, copying every detail into his brain. She was so beautiful, inside and out. His eyes traced over her face, before landing on her lips. So pretty and pink.
He couldnât stop himself. He had convinced himself that he would rather try to see if something was there than sit months worrying and dreaming about could have been. So he leaned in closer to her as he licked his lips, and gently pressed his lips onto hers in a soft kiss.
She smiled against it immediately before responding, pushing herself flush against his chest as he tilted his head slightly to deepen the kiss. His hand went to her back, gripping it tightly as he held onto her like his life depended on it.
He pulled away after a while, breathless and his heart souring. âIâve been wanting to do that for a while..â he whispered, nuzzling his nose against her face.
âMe too..â she squeaked out, swallowing as she closed her eyes and kissed him again. His eyes closed as he relaxed into the affection, his feelings deep as they drifted off to sleep on each otherâs arms.
~~
To his horror, Taehyung woke up alone the next morning. He could smell her candied, sugary scent but she wasnât there. He could feel her sweet sugary lips still on his from the hours before. But she wasnât there.
He sat up quickly, looking around and fearing the worst. What if she got lost in the complex? Or some crazy fan took her?
He raced to get his phone to do something, to figure something out. Only to be greeted with a notification that was received an hour ago.
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to build a home | chapter twelve
Pairing: Jungkook x reader. ceo!jk + dilf!jk x nanny!oc
Genre: strangers to lovers. angst. fluff. smut.
Word count: 18k (hehe)
Warnings: this is so long i donât know that i remember every single thing i mustâve included here but iâll try my best lol. angst!! this is a very angsty chappie but itâs needed ok? so sad so sexy oc. jungkook is a dick twice!! for like a second but its bc heâs scared :( & stressed. Unprotected sex (don't!!! xo). they dirty talk a lot acc. i think thats it? i hope thats it lol.Â
Authorâs note: itâs a sunday and we have a new tbah chapter!! thank you, truly, from the bottom of my heart for waiting. and for giving me such a warm welcome and giving my writing so much love, even amidst my absence. i really hope you guys enjoy this installment of to build a home! i poured my heart on this and i enjoyed it so, so much. it felt like the good old days!! do let me know what you thought - i feel like thereâs so much to UNPACK for this one. i love you guys x a million. thank u for reading <3Â
This is a work of fiction. Please respect the members and their privacy. x
Chapter Twelve
The sun stirs you awake this morning, its rays sneaking their way inside your room with every gust of wind that makes the curtains dance and the moment you regain the smallest bit of consciousness, you know itâs too early. Youâre not meant to be awake for another hour or so but after a minute of tossing and turning, you begin to feel the sleep drift out of you. Your mind fills with thoughts and things to do, feelings and their unresolved natures. Itâs Monday, after all, lots to do, lots to feel and certainly lots to confront.Â
You slip out of the comfort of your blankets and pillows, putting your headphones over your head and pressing shuffle on the first playlist you find, cranking the volume a little too high in hopes that it will quieten the sea of thoughts that begin to whirlwind inside your mind. You make your way to the kitchen and almost miss the peace and quiet of six a.m., specially here. When the world is still asleep and itâs just you and you can let yourself fall into the long process of making yourself a cup of coffee. More than a process, youâd call it a ritual. You find it good to just stare at your hands at work, resilient in providing sweet satisfaction in a matter of minutes. And so, despite the lack of peace and quiet this morning provides, you get to work. Grinding the coffee beans until theyâre silky smooth, pouring the water into the bottom of your italian press and putting it all back together to rest at the stove top. Until all thereâs left to do is wait. Wait, wait, waitâŠÂ
âI love you.â
You wish it was those mere words that were pressing on you. But it was more. It was the way you felt his body weight on top of yours grow tense. The way the seconds felt like minutes, and then hours, until not even in proximity could you feel him close. How the air felt dense around you and your nerves got the best of you.Â
âYou donât have to say it back. Iâd say it was a heat of the moment thing but⊠I donât think that makes any difference.âÂ
It all echoes inside of your head. Inside of your chest. Your words, the stutter, the awkward laughter that followed as you tried to brace yourself for whatever came next. Only nothing did.Â
He didnât say it back.Â
He didnât say it back when the high came down and you both wrapped your bodies around each other. He didnât say it back as he kissed you, slowly and with that lazy characteristic that takes on when heâs sleepy, but not less filled with intention. He fell asleep first, his body impossibly flushed to yours, your fingers carded in his hair for hours as you laid awake, unable to reconcile sleep.Â
He didnât say it back when his lips on your cheeks woke you up the next morning. It was sweet, your mind blank with the exception of the bliss his touch basked you in. He kissed and touched, he pleased. But he didnât say it back.Â
He didnât say it back throughout the day but by then your mind had fallen at ease, taking you by surprise, even. It was a lazy Sunday morning that turned into a lazy Sunday afternoon, nothing but peace and leisure as the three of you spent the day by the pool. Snacking on whatever the season had turned ripe and sweet. It was a perfect summer day and as Soori splashed about and you looked into each otherâs eyes in pride and joy, you thought that maybe, just maybe, he was trying to tell you.
But he didnât say it back. Not when you said goodbye after putting Soori to sleep, not when he kissed you and said heâd see you tomorrow. Not when you turned around, stealing one last glance at him, lingering for a second too long in awe of his beauty as he smiled and leaned by his doorframe, taking you in. Not even when he called you to make sure youâd gotten home safe and his silence and yours filled the line right as you were about to hang up. And then you didnât, and you waited, until the line disconnected.Â
Your coffee overheats as you go back and forth, one cruel thought after the other, and itâs the lid jumping and splashing the liquid everywhere that brings you back to your small kitchen.Â
âShit.â You remove the pot from the stove and let it rest for a minute as you clean up the mess. Getting lost in your thoughts again because, hey, at least you woke up early, so as to give you enough time to let the overthinking make you clumsy.Â
Ten different things go wrong before youâre finally able to sit down on your couch, freshly brewed iced americano in one hand, your journal and pen in another. All you need to do is let your thoughts leave you. Yes, thatâs exactly what you need to do. You need to come back to yourself as you sip your coffee slowly and fill an entire page worth of your feelings. Itâs catharsis in itâs purest form. A foul-proof method, at that.Â
Only it isnât. You fill the pages with sentences like,
Why didnât he say it?
I shouldâve not acted like it meant nothing to me. It meant the world to me.Â
He means the world to me.
I love him.Â
Does he not love me back?
And the one that filled the pages the most,
Why doesnât he love me back?
And by the time youâre ready to leave the house, youâre still a ball of unresolved emotions and a chaotic neutral feeling taking over your every being because all you want to do is scream but youâre running late to see the root of all your problems.Â
~
Thankfully, the root of all your problems walks inside his kitchen that morning holding what you believe is the cure of all that is wrong in the world: his daughter.Â
âOh my God, you look so cute,â and she does. A smile that makes you melt, two pigtails held by tiny pink bows and an oversized Winnie The Pooh t-shirt that brings her whole look together. âGood morning, baby.â
The moment she falls into your arms you feel an ease run through you that makes you submit to the harsh edges of the world, waving white flag. Sheâs foul-proof magic and method.Â
âGood morning,â he says, giving you a smile that almost washes away your uncertainties.Â
âGood morning.â You take Soori from his arms and return the smile, but he can tell itâs not quite there yet. Not that he thinks much of it â your morning meet ups in the kitchen are always cordial but not overly so, you wouldnât want Mrs. Chae to suspect anything. âÂ
âI have a busy week coming up.â
âYou do?â Itâs a question that translates to, you didnât mention that and Jungkook doesnât miss it in your tone.Â
 âYeah. So Iâll probably be home a bit late. No more than an hour, though, is that okay?â
âSure.â
âGreat. Thanks!â Heâs nonchalant as he walks up to the kitchen island, greeting Mrs. Chae and moving quickly through his iced americano.Â
He leans against the counter, scrolling down his phone, not a care in the world. A particular sip has him choking on his coffee and he coughs a little. Inside, you smile. And yes, thatâs not the proudest youâve been of a feeling but can you be blamed? He doesnât look like his coffee splashed all over his kitchen counter this morning because he couldnât stop thinking about how he confessed his love to you and you didnât say it back. Matter of fact, not saying it back is the least of your concerns. He didnât say anything! No reaction, nothing. You hope he chokes on his coffee again. Itâs harmless, in your defense, most women would be hoping for bloodier, more treacherous things. Heâs lucky you donât-Â
ââKay. Gotta go. Have a nice day, Mrs. Chae!â He walks over to you, taking Soori from your arms and showering her cheeks with kisses as he makes his way to the doorway. Sheâs getting better at the goodbye part of the mornings but Mondays are always tricky.Â
âHave a nice day.â You smile, a bit forcibly.Â
âAw,â he frowns, pouting, and you think he almost gets it, but no. âYou tired, baby? Mondays can be hard.â
You want to gasp. No, really, it takes all the strength in you not to gasp. âYeah, slept horribly, actually.â
âTake it easy today. You two should take a nap in my bed.â You nod and agree and he hugs you after he passes Soori to you, pulling her in as well. Itâs a little three-way-hug and it makes your heart feel a little comfort, even amidst the chaos.Â
âYou take it easy, too.â Your hand finds his and you squeeze, even if for a second.Â
âBye, baby.â He kisses you. âBye, baby!â He kisses Soori. And off he goes.Â
This is pretty much what your entire week looks like. Going to bed late, head swimming in thoughts. Waking up an hour before your alarm rings, head swimming in the said thoughts. Breakfast before Lucy is up, so you can leave right as she wakes up, because a part of you knows sheâd know, and that you couldnât handle it. Lucy cares. Lucy would ask you a thousand questions, or encourage you to talk about it, or she would simply wrap you up in a hug that would send tears to your eyes that would turn into full on sobs by the time she was done putting her loving on you. So you lie to her; tell her Jungkook needs to be at the office earlier this week, and she buys it, no questions asked.Â
 You walk half of your commute, and then take the bus, mainly to kill time. On Wednesday you think you could probably just take the bus right away, be early, make up some excuse to Mrs. Chae and go up the stairs, to his bedroom. You could watch Soori for him as he gets ready, you could take him in as he prepares for the day, you could ask him to be five minutes late so he can kiss you silly and extinguish the fire of doubt that keeps growing thicker, taller flames inside your heart. But, could you? Could you do all that? Have you fallen into enough familiarity as to do that? You thought you had, now youâre not so sure.Â
Spiraling. Thatâs what your week looks like. You meet him in the kitchen, bask in the peace Soori brings you the moment she wraps her arms around you (sheâs a hugger now) and try to suppress the witty remarks that threaten to leave your mouth, fueled by sarcasm and anger, every time you speak to him. But most days, youâre just sad. So sad you have to fake a smile, or make a grand effort to hold a conversation. Not that you have many. Jungkook is busy, morning and night. Something about a new property theyâre getting ready to acquire - a future addition to The West End Collection. Each day the stress and tiredness reflects on him more, his energy plummeting. He says something about timezones and having to reply to emails at three a.m. so you assume itâs an international transaction. Nonetheless, itâs all assumption, you guys barely talk. And you get it. Jungkook is a busy man â he owns hotels, for Christâs Sake! â And under any other circumstance, his distance and your lack of communication combined wouldnât worry you, itâd simply be that, circumstantial. But right now, all it does is fuel the overthinking and self-doubt.
But then itâs midday and you remember how he kissed you in the morning before he left, and your thoughts quieten. Instead, theyâre replaced by that pink, fuzzy feeling that your body recognizes as him. The feeling that belongs to him and him only. And on the bus ride home you replay the way he kissed you goodbye, no one around you, and able to take his time. His hand resting on your cheek, his lips parting your mouth, the small sigh of relief that never fails to leave him whenever he deepens the kiss. This cloud of comfort the memories put you in inevitably land you back to square one, simply for the fact that they remind you of the one thing that presses on to your heart the most: you love him.Â
~
By the time Friday rolls around, youâre so exhausted from the marathon taking place inside your head that the moment you make it home, aided by the quiet and solitude that falls into your apartment â courtesy of date night for Lucy and Jimin â your body starts to ache from exhaustion.Â
You change into an old t-shirt and shorts, put your hair up in a bun and decide you will be treating yourself to take out. You get cozy, blanket tucked under you as Gilmore Girls â your comfort show â plays on the TV. Scrolling lazily through the food delivery apps, you ponder on what to eat. You want something that screams sad girl stays home because non-reciprocated love is too heavy of a burden to bear. Pizza, pasta, a burger. Maybe some ramen! Or a burrito, that never fails. Or perhaps just dessert. Perhaps thatâs what you need. A shock to the body in the form of sugar. But amidst your indecision your lids fall heavy and youâre out cold before the clock can mark eight p.m.Â
And you sleep. You sleep through the night, a deep, dreamless slumber that makes you pay for all the sleepless nights you put your body through. You barely move an inch throughout the night, Gilmore Girls serving as a soft lullaby in the background until Netflix gathers that you are not, as a matter of fact, still watching. You could probably sleep through the morning, and if you really tried, you could probably sleep through the afternoon if you cozied yourself up just right, but the universe has other plans. More like, Lucy and Jimin have other plans. In their defense, you are running late for book club.Â
Their hushed little giggles as they enter the house is the first thing you hear in the depths of your subconscious as the noise attempts to stir you awake. But itâs to no avail. Your mind ignores it eventually after it goes on for a minute too long. The second attempt is their hushed chit chat that takes one too many pauses as it gets lost in the giggles and pecks they share in between.Â
âShhh. Youâre gonna wake __ up!â Itâs Jimin, your subconscious recognizes that much.Â
âHmm,â more giggles. âShe should be in the shower right about now. She has book club, remember?â
âShit, thatâs true! Hey, we can fuck in the kitchen again?âÂ
âJimin, oh my god. Shhh!â
You frown, but your mind refuses to fully wake up.Â
Itâs the wet noise from their kisses that finally do it, at a third triumphant attempt. You jolt awake, turning to the direction of the kitchen where you see the image that matches the dirty little noises they make. Lucy opens her eyes for a split second as Jimin presses her against the counter and she all but screams when she sees your head peeking from the sofa, hair a mess and a scowl painting your features. Jimin shrieks follow a second later.Â
âShh. Shhhh!â you say. âWhat time is it?â
âItâs 9:15!â Lucy yells, still startled. âWhat are you doing here? Are you feeling okay? You look⊠under the weather.â
âYeah __ you look rough,â Jimin says.Â
âArenât you two just sweet? I fell asleep on the couch,â you stumble as you make your way to your bedroom, still groggy from sleep. âShit. Iâm gonna be so late.â
âDonât worry. Iâll make you some coffee and a sandwich to-go,â Lucy says, peeking inside your bedroom.Â
âThank you, Lu. Youâre the best.â You brush through your hair, incredulous as to how it got so messy through the night.Â
âOf course,â she says, lingering in your doorframe. âBut seriously __, are you doing alright? Iâve barely seen you this week.â
âYeah. Yes. Iâm fine. Long hours at work, thatâs all.â
She smiles. âIâm gonna tell Jungkook not to work you too hard when I see him today.â You look at her, confusion lacing your features. âDaeâs birthday party, remember?â
âOh, shit. Thatâs today. I totally forgot.âÂ
Now itâs Lucyâs turn to look confused. And rightfully so. I mean, what would warrant a reaction like the one you just had? You love Dae. And she knows that any excuse to see Jungkook puts a giddy, little smile on your face, like a teenage girl. She calls it the puppy love stage, and is convinced youâre deep into it. You canât blame her. A week ago you would have agreed. But today you were hoping you could avoid all thoughts of him. Come up with some excuse, tell him youâre feeling a bit under the weather and that youâd take the weekend to recover. But your plans of drowning your feelings in pizza, ice cream and Gilmore Girls (not necessarily in that order) just tumbled to the ground. You do, in fact, love Dae and wouldnât miss his birthday party for the world.Â
âIâll just be a little late,â you smile, disguising your thoughts. âSo, you know, I can come back and shower, seeing as I wonât have time to do that.â
Youâre not entirely sure she buys it, but she offers you a smile and heads to the kitchen to make you breakfast. That act alone makes you want to cry.Â
Itâs gonna be a long day.Â
~
Itâs a beautiful, sunny day. Perfect for a pool party. Mai had hired a very capable catering company that was in charge of feeding both the adults and the kids at Daeâs birthday party, but Taehyung had gotten a new grill and he could find no better day to break it in than today. And even though she insisted, it was to no avail. They were grilling â the finest cuts of steak, at that â and opening the nicest bottles of wine. His first born was turning five and they had a second one on the way! He takes a minute to take it all in, sighing in pure, blissful satisfaction. There was only one person whose grilling skills could come close to his, and he knows that much because he taught him.Â
âWhat a good day, isnât it, Jungkookie?â
Jungkook nods, taking a sip of his red wine as his eyes scan the scene before him. Kids running around everywhere, scattered all over Mai and Taehyungâs garden. A huge bouncy castle with a water slide happened to be the main entertainment of the day, making him question how he was going to top it up with his Iron Man act. His friends all gathered to celebrate Dae, whom he loved and couldnât believe was turning five. He also couldnât believe he was still a bachelor when he was born, not envious of his friendâs new lifestyle, and now⊠well, look at him now! His eyes scan the place for Soori, whoâs in Kennyâs lap as her cousins play around her. She smiles and claps, eyes wide as she kicks and screams in joy and he canât believe sheâll be able to keep up with them soon.Â
âCan you believe weâre dads?â
âIn awe of it every day, actually. Can you believe weâre actually good at it?â Taehyung looks at Jungkook, whoâs deep in thought.Â
âNo. Takes me by surprise every day,â he says, and Taehyung likes the way Jungkook gives himself credit, despite it all.Â
âCan you believe Jimin is well on his way to settle down?â Taehyung says, gaze diverting forward. Jungkook follows his line of vision and understands exactly what heâs talking about. There they are, Jimin and Lucy.Â
âAbout time.â And heâs only half joking, but the truth is, Jungkook hadnât seen his friend this happy in years, and heâs got Lucy to thank for that. They all do.Â
âAw, imagine how cute their babies will look like,â Taehyung says, earning himself a frown from Jungkook.
âKeep your baby fever in your pants, please.â
âOh, if only you knew.â
Jungkook looks at him and it takes him all but a second to know what heâs talking about.Â
âReally?â Taehyung just shrugs, but he smiles bright and big, and his happiness is contagious. âBro, seriously. You have to learn to shut your mouth. Mai is gonna kill you! Again!â and of course, Jungkook is alluding to the very first secret Taehyung couldnât keep from his best friend. That first secret is turning five today.Â
âDonât tell her I told you, bro.â He sounds like a child, and Jungkook canât believe heâs officially a dad of two.Â
âOh, I so will.â
âFucking traitor.â He says.Â
âHey, congratulations. Iâm so happy for you guys.âÂ
Taehyung brings him in for a hug and it ends as quickly as it begins. âShh, sh. Sheâs looking this way, act cool.â
âA fucking child.âÂ
âYouâre the child! Iâm older than you by almost two-â
Jimin walks behind them, taking them by surprise when he throws his arms around their shoulders. âChildren, please. Settle down.âÂ
Lucy giggles, rolling her eyes at her boyfriendâs goofy nature. She loves that about him. Matter of fact, sheâd just told him, for the very first time, that she loved everything about him. That she loved him. This came after Jimin had blurted it out, in the middle of a very mild argument over the best Shrek movie. She loved him so much sheâd decided to overlook the fact he said it was the fourth. Everyone knows itâs the second.Â
âFunny. We were just talking about you.â Taehyung says.Â
âNothing but compliments and praises, Iâd imagine!â He says. His friends both shrug at the same time, earning themselves a scowl from him.Â
Jungkook turns to Lucy, smiling at her before asking, âHey, have you heard from __? She told me sheâd be here.â
âOh, she overslept this morning, didnât even have time to shower. So she just went home to freshen up before the party.â Lucy replies, finding it a bit odd that he isnât aware of your whereabouts.Â
âAh,â he ponders on this for a minute. âI see.â
âIâm sure sheâll be here soon.â Her smile is kind, almost like she knows. And oh, she knows. Only she canât put her finger on it entirely. She knows somethingâs mildly off, but everything seemed fine at surface level. Ultimately, she didnât want to pry â knew that often her overthinking led her to worry for no reason â but also, her gut was almost never wrong.Â
Jiminâs voice brings her back from her mental gymnastics.Â
âBabe, letâs go get our bathing suits on! Iâm so going on that bouncy castle.âÂ
âPlease donât do anything stupid. And donât break the bouncy castle, the deposit on it alone was more than your Saint Laurent boots.â Taehyung tells him, nonchalantly, back at work on the grill.Â
âBro, itâs like, 30 degrees outside. Take those off.â Jungkook adds.Â
âDo not address me, flip flop man.âÂ
Taehyungâs head snaps. âHey, whatâs wrong with flip flops?â
Jimin scans him from head to toe, stopping at his feet. âEverything.â And like that, heâs gone.Â
Taehyung and Jungkook return to grilling duties, diligently at work and in total silence for a couple of minutes, so as to recover from Jiminâs brutal abuse towards their choice of shoewear.Â
Itâs Taehyung that breaks the silence first.Â
âSo⊠you and __, seems like itâs getting pretty serious, huh? Plus, youâre happy. I can tell. We all can, to be fair.â
He laughs, and when he does, it has a bite to it Taehyung wasnât expecting. âSo, I get laid and it shows?â
Jungkook doesnât mean it. Not the words he uttered, or the edge that laces his voice. Not even the breath he took right before he spewed their venom. He regrets it the moment they leave him.Â
Taehyung winces. âWhat the hell was that, man?â
âWhat exactly?â
âIâd like to believe youâve passed the point of just fucking ___.â Taehyung canât even call you the nanny anymore, his words faltering for a second before saying your name.Â
Jungkook chuckles, and again, he doesnât mean it. His friend can tell, which concerns him more. He wouldnât press if he didnât know he was lying through his teeth, lacing it with fire just to reinforce a point he didnât believe himself.Â
âSo, when she stays the night, what exactly do you think we do?â
Taehyung shakes his head and itâs him whoâs chuckling this time. âYouâre such a pussy.â
Jungkookâs head snaps fast, an immediate frown taking over his features. âWhat is that supposed to mean?â
âYou know what it fucking means. Youâre a pussy. Love looks you right in the eyes and you fall into the most clichĂ© tale of fearing it so much it makes you, quite frankly, an asshole.â Jungkook winces at the word love, though Taehyung doesnât notice â heavily invested in shaking some sense into him.Â
âIâm not going to sit here and pretend what it feels like,â he continues, voice taking on a softer tone. âTo lose something so abruptly that it makes you feel like everything that follows will hold the same fate. You didnât have a choice â when you gathered all that strength and courage for Soori, you didnât have a choice. You gave her love when life was throwing the opposite your way, that was brave. Do the same for yourself. That same courage, choose it.â He throws a punch at his chest, right where his heart is â itâs not forceful but it makes the youngest tumble backwards slightly.
Jungkook stares at his friend, his heart taking on a wave of feelings that pass him by too quickly for him to grasp, let alone process. Itâs anger first, sadness following, and when it crashes, they land in fear. Square one, too weak to say much, he just stares at Taehyung â his expression dumbfounded but above all, pained.Â
For a second, as Taehyung stares into his eyes, he sees a wide-eyed twenty-year-old Jungkook. Puffy cheeks and cherry hair, a heartthrob to everyoneâs knowledge but his own, making him all that more charming. Jungkook tries to find words â anything to form a shield, to dismiss his friendâs words and take the easy route out of this conversation, this feeling, you. But in an instant, heâs reminded of how hard âeasyâ can be. How much pain comes with the strain of fighting and how the other side of that pain can be almost sweet â vulnerability.Â
The words that follow make Taehyung feel nostalgic.Â
âI talked to my dad â well, more like- he talked to me.â Taehyung nods, already knowing where this is going. âHe knows. About __.â
âOkay⊠and what seems to be the problem?â
âIn his eyes, everything. It almost felt like he was putting some sort of blame on me, for everything that happened with Ira. How it affected our family,â Jungkook pauses, the word family leaving his lips in a tremble. âThey think sheâs going to cause the same societal hysteria â if not worse. The CEO dating the nanny.â He huffs, shaking his head in disbelief and even though he laughs, it lacks humor.Â
Taehyungâs one for big words but quite frankly, what he says next is the most accurate answer he can find, looking at his friend in the eyes as he says, âSo?â
Jungkook looks at him, hesitating for a moment. âWhat do you mean so?â
âI donât believe for a second that you just took his opinion and went with it. I donât believe for a second you just agreed with him. Not even to get him to stop talking. I know you better than that.â
âI didnât.â
âExactly. So, what seems so be the problem, because your parents trying to discipline the twenty-eight-year-old? Iâm not buying it.â Jungkook holds his gaze for a second before it drops to the floor, shoulders dropping in defeat as a sigh follows. âLife gets hard and the way things come to be, the circumstances we face, yeah â those are hard. But never loving. Loving is easy. Thatâs why itâs worth it.âÂ
Jungkookâs about to tell him that a week ago, you told him you loved him, and that he didnât quite know if you meant it. Heâs about to tell him that he didnât say it back â that fear got the best of him. That all the possibilities of everything that could go wrong presented themselves to him like a movie. Frame by frame, so vividly that it physically pained him, making his body grow rigid and cold. Heâs about to tell him that the biggest fear of it all was the possibility of you leaving, just like Ira did. But itâs right in that moment that he hears Sooriâs shriek. It startles him at first, he thinks something mustâve happened to her, that sheâs hurt, or perhaps just fuzzy and needs him. He drops the tongs heâs holding and is ready to run over to her. And then he sees you, fully stopping in his tracks when he realizes sheâs perfectly fine â she was just excited to see you.Â
Kenny hands her over and you take her into your arms, rocking her from side to side as you hug her to you. You feather kisses all over her face but she barely lets you, too excited and jumpy in your hold. She points at the red balloons that adorn the garden and you go wide eyed in excitement. Dae runs over to you and you kneel down, Soori still in your arms, and bring him in for a hug. He tells you things that Jungkook canât make out from a distance but he, too, is going wide eyed in excitement. You motion to a box that sits by the sofa, neatly gift wrapped in Iron Man print. He claps and jumps and takes you by the hand, walking you to the table that holds all his birthday gifts. Itâs only after youâve helped him place your gift at the very top â as per his request â that your gaze finally meets Jungkookâs.Â
You look beautiful, and when you smile at him he can feel his heart physically stop for a beat too long. Your long hair dances in the wind, and some gets tangled in Sooriâs fingers. Even she looks at you in awe. Youâre wearing a sage green summer dress that hugs your body in all the right places and then just flares out, accentuating that contrast you naturally hold. Very sweet but so very woman.Â
He could stare at you for hours.Â
And for his despair, for the most time, he does.Â
~
You do a great job at seamlessly avoiding Jungkook.Â
Now, itâs not that you want to avoid him. Itâs more so that you donât know how to face him. Youâre afraid that anything he says or does could trigger a response inside of you that you wonât be able to control. Perhaps youâll cry, or snap at him. Perhaps youâll go completely mute. At this point, you donât know. You tell yourself this is the price you pay for leaving a feeling untreated. But what could you do if the treatment to your feelings is standing at 5 foot 10 in total oblivion?
That much you know. Jungkook is oblivious as to how you really feel. And you canât fully blame him for this because a. Youâre the one that said he didnât have to say anything in return and, b. Oblivion makes him look so small in your eyes. I mean, youâre out here sitting with your female rage, plotting his revenge, laughing a little too hard when he steps on a lego â in full Iron Man costume, may you add â and he just doesnât get it. He doesnât know. Because if he knew, he wouldnât be stealing glances your way. Or letting his hand linger a little too close to yours when you stand next to him as Dae and his friends tell you what theyâre reading in school. Or when you pass Soori to him, your arms getting tangled together. Or when you both reach for the same cupcake, the same glass of wine, the same deviled egg! He lingers like you often do when youâre in public and have to be kept a secret. When touch and proximity are scarce and you have to milk every touch, every word, every glance.Â
In Jungkookâs eyes, your distance is simply discretion, because for Jungkook, your words were a heat of the moment thing. A testimony of how good you two had made each other feel. I mean, despite the way your words affected him and welcomed a new set of fears he wasnât quite planning on having with you, he let you get away with it. He felt, in a way, that he was doing you a favor. I mean, you did sound embarrassed and almost avoidant when you said it. So why press on it? Why put the two of you through the stress of having to navigate your feelings? All of this made total sense to him when he woke up Sunday morning and decided to not give his mental chaos another thought. Why would he, when he could just enjoy you instead?Â
Despite said female rage, the day turns out to be magical. Daeâs charmed by all the love he receives and even takes a power nap halfway through it all because heâs so exhausted from fun and play. But once heâs up, heâs unstoppable again. Running, swimming, singing and dancing, his fifth birthday party is a success. And now, with sun kissed noses and sugar rushes, his friends begin to say goodbye one by one. This is your queue, you think, and you walk over to Mai to thank her for having you.Â
âWhat? No! Donât leave now. The partyâs just getting started. For us, at least,â she winks at you, motioning to the glass of wine she holds. Itâs apple juice, only you donât know this.Â
âUh,â you canât come up with any excuses.Â
âPlus! Donât you wanna stay to see Dae opening his presents? Itâs my favorite part of the day.âÂ
âOh, I wouldnât want to intrude-â you know that for Sooriâs birthday at least, that moment happened after all the guests had left, and it was just their close group of friends. You feel out of place.
âNonsense. He wants you here. We all do. I do,â she grabs your hand in hers and you give her a little nod before sheâs dragging you back to the party.Â
You enjoy yourself more than youâd expected. In between conversations, left over finger food and really good wine, the evening passed you by. You enjoyed getting to know everyone better and found particular joy in seeing them in this dynamic they seemed to be very familiar with. Of course, this was all accredited to the years theyâd spent together. You couldnât help but find it quite amazing; the fact that the majority of them had known each other since high school, all through college and adulthood. Parenthood, too, for some of them. Every act of service, word spoken and inside joke was laced with something that words couldnât quite describe, but if you were to try, youâd label it as family. Simple as that. They were family. Seeing how quickly Lucy was weaving her way into their friendship group made you feel so happy for her. And it was in that instant that something told you that sheâd stay forever. Not a doubt of it. She belonged â here, with Jimin, surrounded by love and family. She just belonged.Â
Dae opened his presents and each reaction was better than the last. He was in a total high and the only thing that made winding him down for bed easier was Mai telling him that the faster he went to bed, the quicker heâd wake up to a room full of brand new presents he could play with all day long, if he so pleased. That and the fact that his cousins were staying the night and by the time Taehyung was done scattering his room with sleeping bags for the kids, the place looked like a campsite.Â
And so the night was drawing to an end as you all sat by the lounge area in Mai and Taehyungâs backyard. Music playing softly from the speakers, the half eaten Iron Man cake on the table and a string of memories recalled by each of them as they reminisced.Â
âTime flies,â Namjoon says.Â
âI canât believe you were the first one to have a kid.â Yoongi tells him.Â
Hobi wraps his arm around Kenny, bringing her closer before he says, âhow could you not? Heâs always been very daddy.â They all laugh at his choice of words. âI didnât mean it like that. Filthy minded, the lot of you.â
âI thought itâd be Jin,â Yoongi defends.Â
âNah. I always knew it was gonna be Namjoon. You left us too soon, bro.â Jungkook says, wrapping an arm around him and pouting.Â
âExcuse me?â Iseul gasps, scowling at him from the warmth of Namjoonâs embrace, at the other side of him.Â
Jungkook smiles at her cheekily, pout growing even more. âI love you. You know that. Matter of fact, you left us too son, bro.â He says this to Iseul.Â
âExactly. I was fun,â she says, crossing her arms as she falls back into the couch.Â
âYou still are! We all still are!â Seulgi says, raising her glass. They all join, and you laugh as you hear them add commentary like, âyeah, but at what cost?â, âI have chronic back pain.â and, âI fell asleep five minutes into a movie last night.âÂ
âGod, I havenât even been inside a club in years. Whatâs good nowadays? __? Lucy?â Jin asks.Â
You both look at each other, not very familiar with the clubbing scene anymore.Â
âCandied Star,â says Jimin, voice going low.Â
âShame on you, bro.â Yoongi tells him.Â
âWhat the fuck is Candied Star?â Asks Hobi.Â
âItâs a club!â
âIt sounds like the name of a very blonde, very busty 90s pornstar.â Says Mai and they all laugh.Â
âI actually used to love that place. Itâs pink and excessive. And the DJâs solid.â You say.Â
Jimin claps once, body jolting, having a full eureka moment. âWeâre totally going tonight. Saturdayâs are the best nights!âÂ
âIâm so in. Taehyungâs fancy wine made me drunk, itâd be a waste to just go home.â Lucy adds.Â
âYouâre welcome, kid.â Taehyung raises his glass in her direction.Â
âYou coming, __?â Jimin asks you.Â
You canât fight it when your eyes land on Jungkook. His are on you already and again, you both linger in held glances for a second too long. You know he canât go as he has Soori tonight. And you know your female rage wants to keep at a distance from him, so this is the perfect escape plan. But your heart takes one look at him and you want no more than to go back home with him. Have him all to yourself, crawl under a blanket with him and just hug him to you in a way that says, âIâve been wanting to do this all week.â
âIâm in!â
And thatâs the thing about untreated feelings: they rebel against you, even if the heart is waving white flags.Â
~
See, you might not be one for crowded spaces and shitty music. You might be an Elton John fanatic, technology denier, gardening grandma attire wearer old soul. This might all be true, yes. But right next to that truth coexists a side of you that simply canât help but love the fact that youâre twenty three. Youâre twenty three and that means that on a saturday night, your responsibilities are at the bottom of the pyramid. Youâre twenty three and thereâs something about tonight that exacerbates the fact that youâre young and can allow yourself to be a little stupid.Â
Candied Star is exactly what you described it as: pink and excessive. You hadnât been here in months and perhaps thatâs what makes it all the more alluring. You swiftly make it inside, courtesy of Jimin, who has a certain power over every bouncer and PR in the city. You could get used to the VIP treatment, if you were to confess. The line was going down a mile and you could see it from the taxi as you made your way to the club. The music is good from the get go and nothing about the atmosphere feels menacing or intimidating. Candied Star is for the cool kids. And what you mean by that is, Candied Star is for the girls, the gays and the allies. Nothing about this place caters to the male gaze and in a way, itâs so freeing.Â
The moment you step foot inside you begin to let loose, and itâs not too long after that youâre being found by a troop of beautifying fairy godmothers that circle around the three of you, bedazzling your faces until the strobes inside the club hit you and youâre drenched in glitter and sparkling. The music aids the cinematic feeling of the night and when Jimin hands you a drink, itâs pink and shiny and you donât know why but it just makes sense that it is. âItâs strawberry gin,â he says and you all bring your glasses together and cheer for a cause youâre not aware of but that demands celebration as you scream and sing and dance.Â
By your third sparkly, strawberry gin, youâre the life of the party.Â
No, really. You are.Â
âI didnât know __ had that in her!â Jimin says to Lucy, who admires you in awe.Â
âOh, but she does,â she yells over the loud music.Â
The same people that put beads and glitter on your face are the ones that encourage you to get on top of one of the tables and give it your all. Youâre not much of a dancer but in that moment, something in you releases in screaming color. Maybe itâs the song that plays that you vow to never forget. Maybe itâs the smiling faces that surround you and cheer you on. Perhaps itâs finding Jimin and Lucy in the crowd, smiling at you. You beckon them over and it takes them a while to get the hint but when they do, the crowd is parting for them and theyâre being cheered on. You help them get on the stage â yes, a table, but itâs your stage â and you dance. You dance and sing and yell words to songs you didnât even know you knew, or that maybe you thought youâd forgotten.Â
But how could you forget? How could you forget how young you once were? How could you forget how young you are now?
~
Jungkook rocks Soori from side to side, bottle in hand as she begins to drift off in between suckles. The way she fights sleep to keep eating makes him giggle and when he does, her eyes snap open once again, seemingly more alert than the last time.Â
âShh, shh⊠sorry, baby. Sleep,â he whispers and his voice soothes her as he feels her little body relax in his arms.Â
Night feeds are a rare occurrence nowadays but today was an exception. Sheâd had a fun day outside of her routine and the moment Jungkook had parked the car on his driveway, sheâd woken up, more alert than ever. So here they were, in the middle of her nursery as Jungkook added a little bounce to his step the closer she got to finishing her bottle; the rhythm heâd mastered and could confirm worked like a magic trick to put her out cold and fast.Â
Heâd be lying if he said he wasnât enjoying this moment. She was growing way too fast before his eyes and these moments reminded him of when she was a little baby. When she depended on him way more than she does now. When she couldnât crawl, let alone be so close to walking as she was now. Her eyes open yet again and he looks at her, smiling. She smiles back and he starts humming a soft melody in hopes of putting her to sleep. It has no rhyme or direction and he tries to think of something. He sings to her, and itâs a song heâs heard you sing to her, too.Â
Jesus freaks out in the street
Handing tickets out for God
Turning back, she just laughs
The boulevard is not that bad
Piano man, he makes his stand
In the auditorium
Looking on, she sings the songs
The words she knows, the tune she hums
She finishes her bottle, eyes blinking once, twice, before her long eyelashes meet her cheeks. She nuzzles her face closer to Jungkookâs chest and his heart breaks and mends all in the span of a second. He sings softer this time.
But, oh, how it feels so real
Lying here with no one near
Only you, and you can hear me
When I say softly, slowly
Hold me closer, tiny dancer
Count the headlights on the highway
Lay me down in sheets of linen
You had a busy day today
Hold me closer, tiny dancer
Count the headlights on the highway
Lay me down in sheets of linen
You had a busy day today
Soori falls into deep sleep and Jungkook holds her. He lets himself have her in his arms for a little longer. He thinks of all the parenting books heâs read in the past year or so, making himself chuckle as they would absolutely not approve of this. But he doesnât care. He knows heâs doing the right thing. And perhaps he didnât know this a couple of months back â a couple of months back he felt like he couldnât get anything right â but now, looking down at her, he feels confident. He knows heâs doing the right thing because Soori? Soori is perfect. Soori is the best thing heâs ever been good at. Soori is his biggest and most exciting project. And as she sleeps soundly in his arms, it hits him. Heâs doing a good job.Â
He sings the same song to her two, three⊠four times. On and on. And at some point, the words start catching up to him in memories of you. He doesnât want to sulk. He knows you should, as a matter of fact, be out there, having fun with your friends and dancing the night away at some club with a questionable name. But he canât help but miss you. He thinks of you, because lately, every corner of his house reminds him of you. And yes, it aids his sulking but itâs also nice to just picture you everywhere. He thinks of you rocking on Sooriâs chair, watching them, youâd probably be singing along with him. Or perhaps youâd be in his room, waiting for him on his bed, a book in hand, because you always carry one in your bag.Â
He laughs as he remembers a conversation youâd had with Lucy right before you left for the club.Â
âWait, Iâm not very dressed for the clubâŠ,â you say.Â
Lucy looks at you, huffing. âYouâre never dressed for the club.â
âNo, Lu, seriously. I have a copy of Sense and Sensibility in my bag right now.â
âI guess Jane Austen is coming to Candied Star, then!â
And it was so you. Jungkook had never read Jane Austen, but the title alone was so very you.Â
Finally, heâs putting Soori in her crib, making sure she has all her friends around in case she wakes up through the night and double checking the baby monitor before heâs gently closing the door of her nursery after he takes one last glance at her. He canât see much, just one of her cheeks pressed against the mattress from between the wooden bars of her crib. He laughs softly, nose scrunching in endearment.Â
He walks inside his room, retrieving his phone from his back pocket and throwing it on his bed. Heâs about to turn around but he deflects, reaching back for his phone. Heâs got a couple of notifications adorning his home screen â Mai had sent pictures from today to their group chat, his mom had texted him saying they needed to talk and he had a couple of work emails he did not want to get into right now â but none from you. Jungkook sighs, throwing his phone on his bed once again and making his way to the bathroom.Â
He showers, taking his time to take the day off. Standing in front of the massage jets for a long time and in days like these, time felt like a luxury. He washes his hair, his body, lets the water run down on him. He takes his time and once heâs done, he walks over to his bed, tapping on his phone in quiet hopes that heâll see your name on his screen. Nothing. He grabs the device to put it to charge but he changes his mind halfway through, bringing it with him to the bathroom.Â
He brushes his teeth, washes his face, does his skincare. A notification pops up. Itâs from The New York Times. He rolls his eyes, staring at the screen until it goes blank. He tells himself not to act so childish. He brushes his hair, applies three different products he doesnât quite know the purpose of. He taps on his phone again, even though he knows heâs not going to find anything new. And he doesnât.Â
He doesnât and he shouldnât.Â
Jungkook doesnât want to pry you away from the fact that youâre twenty three years old, and that you should be doing exactly what a twenty three year old should be doing on a saturday night. God knows nobody stopped him, so he doesnât want to stop you. But heâd be lying if he said that when Jimin invited you to the club, his blood went a little warm. Not fully hot, no. But a little warm. He wanted the night to wrap up so he could approach you and ask to give you a ride. No one would suspect, I mean, he was just doing you a favor, as your boss. But the moment he got you alone in his car he planned to kiss you until you had no choice but to follow him home. And heâd hold you and stare at you and kiss you until it paid for how little he got to do it this past week. He missed you. And he canât stop thinking about how beautiful you looked today. At how beautiful you probably look right now, dancing and smiling. Probably a bit tipsy by now because he knows how much of a lightweight you were.
He gets in bed, attempting to get comfortable under the covers. He turns the TV on, plays the cooking channel, dims the lights, then turns them off. He puts his phone on Do Not Disturb but then chooses against it, just in case. Just in case you called him, giddy and with slow, slightly slurred sentences like you had that one time. And if that were to be the case, heâd ask you to come over. Heâd feed you carbs, get you in the shower, in his bed. And then tomorrow heâd wake up next to you and- he stops himself. Because if he lets his mind go any further, heâs gonna be the one calling you. And asking you to come over â begging for it if need be.Â
But even in his rationality, he hopes. Fighting sleep, just in case.Â
You never call.Â
~
âPretty,â you say. Because it is. The city, the lights, even as they pass you by faster than youâd like. Your head is out the window, merciless wind hitting your face as the car picked up speed, making your hair dance behind you and your eyes water, smudging the glitter that adorned your cheeks.Â
âIt certainly is, but hey, __, maybe get back in here?â Lucy tries to reason with you, but itâs to no avail because your arm joins your head and the way the air feels like a heavy mass attempting to go through you is almost hypnotizing.Â
Jimin peeks from his seat next to the other window. He giggles when he sees you mid trance. âIs her seatbelt on?â
âYeah,â Lucy says as she tries to pull you back in.Â
âLeave her be, babe. Sheâs having a cinematic moment.âÂ
âIâm scared sheâs gonna want to jump out or something.â
Jimin laughs at this. âShe wonât. Come here.âÂ
And so Lucy does, stealing glances your way from time to time to make sure youâre doing okay and wonât do anything crazy like fly out the window.Â
Thatâs not what you want, though. Youâre simply admiring the view. It feels so good. It feels so good to forget about what pains you for a night. It feels so good to not think about him, even though this thought alone requires you to think about him. You chuckle. Who cares? Youâre not thinking about him, even if you are. Your drunken state tells your brain that youâre free of the Jungkook chaos youâve been in for what feels like way too long. And when your heart tries to meddle, telling you not to be such a fool and reminding you that a week ago you poured your heart out to him, told him the biggest, most important words â the ones you searched for the most in your love stories â right around this time. Who cares? Who cares, you keep reminding your heart, demanding it to let it go, even if just for tonight.Â
âWe can cry tomorrow,â your voice is but a whisper that gets muffled by the wind, one that only you can hear. âWho cares tonight? Who cares, who cares, who caresâŠâ
You can hear the beginning chords of a melody that you think you recognize coming from inside the car, but you canât quite put your finger on it. It comes to you slowly though, and when you almost have it, you look behind you and see Jimin and Lucy singing along to the beat of the song. And then it hits you. Your body is inside of the car and you lean forward, hand on the driverâs shoulder.
âOh my God,â you say to him, âyouâre speaking to my soul! And I donât know if I like it. Turn it up.â He smiles, chuckling at your words before his hand reaches for the console, the song resounding all through the car.Â
You lean back on the seat, looking at Lucy before linking your arm with hers. The three of you sing, loud and drunk and happy.Â
You can kiss a hundred boys in bars
Shoot another shot, try to stop the feeling
You can say it's just the way you are
Make a new excuse, another stupid reason
Good luck, babe (well, good luck), well, good luck, babe (well, good luck)
You'd have to stop the world just to stop the feeling
Good luck, babe (well, good luck), well, good luck, babe (well, good luck)
You'd have to stop the world just to stop the feeling
~
Your head pounds and at first, you donât understand why. But it pounds so hard it snaps you back into consciousness. Once you are relatively awake you understand why. Not only are you deadly hungover but youâre also in the middle of what you can only describe as chaos. Your window is wide open and there must be a traffic jam going on outside because cars are honking left and right. Eltonâs halfway through Tiny Dancer because clearly the first minute of that didnât do its job at waking you up, and thereâs a knock at your door.Â
âCome in,â you say, as you switch off your alarm and try to drown out the outside noises by putting a pillow over your head.Â
âGood morning, lover.â Lucy enters your room, and when you glance at her from an inch left uncovered by your pillow, you see sheâs holding a tray. Iced americano, avocado toast and a sunny side up egg that smells delectable are just a couple of things that make her the best friend in the whole world this morning. The second one is the fact that sheâs closing your window and suddenly, itâs peace, quiet and a feast in your room.Â
âIâve done nothing to deserve you.â
âYouâve done plenty.â She smiles and itâs sweet, just like every inch of her.Â
âGood morning, dancing queen.â Jimin waltz inside your room, shirtless and with Lucyâs cow print fuzzy headband on his head.Â
âI shouldnât have to see this first thing in the morning, but itâs the price I pay for dancing on top of tables like God did not intend.âÂ
âOh, no. I think God was in that room last night.â
âBabe,â Lucy whines. âLeave her alone!â
âWhy? It was fun! Youâre fun, __. You should come out with us more often, they gave us a bunch of free drinks just because we knew you!âÂ
You throw your pillow at him and he shrieks and runs away. Both you and Lucy laugh at his theatrics.Â
â1 to 10 how much did I embarrass myself last night?â You ask as she hands you your pillow back and you return it to its rightful place over your head.Â
âLike, minus 0. You genuinely were the life of the party. All you did was dance and drag everyone along!âÂ
âIâll believe you. Thank you for breakfast, Lu.â
âOf course,â she smiles. âHey, Jimin and I are going to his parentâs beach house for the week. We leave today.â She almost looks apologetic when she says it.
âThat sounds so nice, Lu.â
âYeah,â she says, and her voice takes on the tone she uses when something floats above her head in worry.Â
âYou okay?â
âYeah, I am. But,â she pauses for a second, looking into your eyes. âAre you?â
âMe?â You ask, incredulous and you can see it in her face â how little she buys your act. âIâm fine, Lu. Just tired. Itâs been a long week and honestly I probably just need some rest. Iâll try and take loads of naps today.â
She just stares at you for a couple of seconds, deciding your fate. Will she let it slide? Will she press? Will she give you the words of comfort youâre so very sure could make you cry right now and dismantle your lies?Â
âYou should try and get as much rest as you can.â And the only reason she says that is because theyâre running late.Â
âAnd you have fun,â you hug her. âDonât worry about me, seriously. Iâll rest loads and probably clean around, do some laundry, maybe get some writing done. Ooh, I could meal prep for the week!â
~
You lose a sock on your way to the living room from the kitchen. It makes you stop in your tracks as you glance back and try to see where youâd left it. But itâs nowhere to be found. Oh, well. You shake the can of whipped cream youâd retrieved from the fridge, the cherry on top the most perfect Ben & Jerryâs flavor that has ever existed â chocolate fudge brownie, of course. Your mouth waters at the mere thought and you canât resist the temptation of having whipped cream at such close proximity and so you swirl a hefty amount inside of your mouth. In perfect cinematic nature, the song that youâve had on repeat for the past forty five minutes breaks into the chorus (yet again) and now the whipped cream can is your microphone and this living room is your stage.Â
You said, "Baby, no attachment"
Your voice is hoarse, the remnants of yesterdayâs fun and todayâs chaos.Â
But we're
You trip on an iPhone charger and it almost sends you flying. But it doesnât, so you take the opportunity of being jolted forward to add flair to your performance.Â
Knee deep in the passenger seat and you're eating me out
Is it casual now?
Two weeks and your mom invites me to her house on Long Beach
Is it casual now?
I know what you tell your friends
It's casual, if it's casual now
Then baby, get me off again
If it's casual, it's casual now
You donât realize youâre crying until the tears touch your lips, warm and salty and it only makes you sing louder because at this point, youâre just letting yourself go a little insane in the privacy of your own home and the solitude that has been granted to you this sunday morning. So you eat ice cream at 11 a.m. and listen to feminine rage songs. More like, one single feminine rage song. And the more you sing it, the sadder it gets. The girls arenât enraged. The girls are just sad.Â
I fucked you in the bathroom when we went to dinner
Your parents at the table, you wonder why I'm bitter
Your hands come up and you spin as you sing and cry.Â
Bragging to your friends I get off when you hit it
I hate to tell the truth, but I'm sorry dude you didn't
I hate that I let this drag on so long, now I hate myself
I hate that I let this drag on so long, you can go to hell
The song ends and a second later, it starts again. You let it. Most of the lyrics donât even apply fully to your situation and you can begin to recognize this as your steam is blown and you tire yourself out. And yeah, the lyrics may not all apply to you but some do and it feels good to scream them out loud and to get mad.Â
You send a flying kiss to Chappell Roan and thank her for her services.Â
~
âGod, youâre such an asshole.â Your words are directed at Mr. Darcy, whoâs been getting on your nerves for the past hour or so. âBut youâre so beautiful. And I know deep down youâre a good man.â And itâs then that your eyes begin to well up yet again. Pride and Prejudice always gets to you.Â
Your eyes leave the TV screen for a split second so you can draw your head back and take a bite out of your pizza. Itâs delicious â cheesy and delicious, and just what you need. Dancing, singing and crying must burn more calories than you think because that was a workout and now you were exhausted and famished, even though you were halfway through your pizza already.Â
âI mean, there you are! With your stupidly good looking face and your bad manners,â you point at Mr. Darcy on the screen. âAnd all because you canât tell the girl you love her! Elizabeth, you deserve be-â
Halfway through your speech, you get interrupted by the insistent buzzing that comes from your phone. Your eyes scan the couch on the search for it but itâs nowhere to be found. You shove blankets and pillows aside and the more it buzzes, the more frantically you search. You find it under your pizza box right before itâs about to disconnect, quickly sliding your finger across the screen so you can answer the call, not having time to second glance at the contact.Â
âHello?!â You yell into the receiver.Â
You hear Jungkook chuckle from the other end of the line and you quite literally choke on your spit, making you cough wide eyed and surprised. âWoah, woah. You okay?â
You hate that he cares. And you hate his little chuckles and how quickly he can disarm you because you feel the way your voice is about to go soft on him. You make sure to clear your throat (and shake the softness off) before replying.
âYeah, yeah. I just have a bit of a sore throat.â
âSo it was a good night, I presume.â
âYeah, actually. The best.â
Your words are fast and sharp and Jungkook feels the sting. But nonetheless, heâs still oblivious. He blames the sting on his own childish ways of missing you too much even though heâd seen you every day this week. He blames it on the part of him that went to bed last night stubbornly wishing youâd be next to him. And so he opts to be bigger and better than his feelings, collecting himself before he responds.
âIâm glad, baby.â Youâre quiet on the other end of the line. âHey, so⊠we were just at brunch with my parents.â
âHowâd it go?â
âSame old,â and it was true. Itâd been awkward at first but then simply filled with small talk and the three of them swooning over Soori, to Jungkookâs fortune. âBut I was thinking maybe I could pick you up and you could come over? We could lay by the pool, I could make us some dinner laterâŠâ
Your eyes scan the room. They land on the pizza box and then on Mr. Darcy on the TV, mid-sentence in what is probably useless words because none of them are what he actually feels.Â
âI have a terrible hangover, being out by the sun would probably make it worse.â
âThatâs âkay. We could watch movies instead.â
You sigh, your heart breaking at your coldness when you say, âIâve had a long week, I think itâd be better if I just took it easy today and got some rest. Iâm sorry.â
And as oblivious as Jungkook could be in the moment, no oblivion could stand between him and the way your words break something inside his heart in more ways than just disappointment.Â
âOh,â is all he can say.Â
âBut you guys have fun, okay? Give Soori kisses from me and enjoy the water. Iâll see you tomorrow?â
âY-yeah. Yes. Iâll see you tomorrow, baby.â Jungkook wonders why the pet name heâs grown so familiar to calling you feels so foreign as they pass his lips now. âBye.â
You linger. You wait, in silence, the soft static and words left unsaid.Â
âBye.â
I love you, I love you, I love you. I love you and I hate that you donât love me back and I canât do with hating that I love you and I could never do with hating you because I love you.Â
When you fall asleep around thirty minutes later, itâs with heavy eyes and tears youâd been collecting ever since. You fall asleep before Mr. Darcy and Elizabeth can get their happy ending.Â
~
Monday morning feels like hell. Getting out of bed feels nearly impossible and when you finally muster the strength to do so, you feel a headache coming up that threatens to linger for the whole day. You take some Tylenol, caffeinate yourself and eat whatever you can stomach. And since you hadnât taken the time to make yourself an elaborate breakfast, you get fifteen extra minutes that you use to make yourself look better, in hopes that it helps you feel better. You take your time as you brush through your hair and get really close to the mirror as you apply your makeup, blending and dusting products on with more care than you have in years. You can feel the heat that takes on the day, despite it only being 7 a.m. and so when you stand in front of your closet you try to keep it light. You settle on a pink linen dress thatâs a bit too short but still acceptable to go serve your duties as a nanny. And perhaps vanity could cure a broken heart because by the time you leave the house, your strut has a bit more of confidence to it and your mentality consists of more who cares rather than why me?
You settle on the bus seat, reaching for your book but thereâs something about Sense and Sensibility youâre simply not in the mood for today. And so you put your headphones on and scroll through your playlists. Youâre just a girl, so of course thereâs a perfectly curated selection of songs for any occasion and so todayâs choice is one titled so sad, so sexy. Itâs feminine rage meets bad bitch anthems and your subconscious decides itâs this episodeâs soundtrack.Â
Mrs. Chae greets you at the door, like every morning, only today she smiles a little wider.Â
âYou look very pretty today, ___.â
You smile at her, asking her about her weekend as you make your way to the kitchen. You offer to make her some coffee as she gets Jungkookâs ready and it takes a little bit of insisting but she finally lets you treat her. As the minutes pass, though, you start feeling nervous. You hadnât quite planned how youâd manage your feelings when you saw Jungkook this morning and every little noise has you jumpy and alert. You get Sooriâs breakfast ready, cursing how quickly porridge cooks and your immaculate fruit chopping skills, because youâre done faster than youâd think and now youâre hands free and anxious again.Â
âMrs. Chae, let me help you fold laundry.â
âFold laundry?!â
âYes! Iâm quite good at it. I worked at a little boutique all through my teenage years.â
âNo.â
âPlease. Just Sooriâs at least.â
She looks at you intently for about five seconds, narrowing her eyes. âHer clothes are in the pink basket.â
You do a little cheer and thank her and she shakes her head at you but you can see the way she smiles. You get to folding her tiny clothes, cooing at how cute and tiny they are. You laugh at how her funny t-shirts that have kermit the Frog, Bluey and Wonder Pets prints get mixed with her nicer pieces that are full of tulle and fancy fabrics or are full on designer. But your favorites are the mini versions of Jungkookâs clothes that he always pairs with pink bows or colorful socks. It makes your heart melt.Â
âGood morning,â Jungkookâs voice snaps you out of your trance. âWhy are you folding laundry?â
âDonât look at me, Mr. Jungkook,â Mrs. Chae defends, placing the tray that holds his iced americano on the kitchen island.Â
âIt relaxes me,â you say, arms reaching for Soori who falls straight into them. âGood morning, munchkin. You hungry?â
âI have to leave now. Emergency meeting at the office.â
âBut your coffee,â you hate that you care, but you do. Not to mention that it already worries you that itâs all he has for breakfast.Â
He doesnât look up from his phone when he says, âAt the office. Have a nice day, Mrs. Chae.â
You follow him as he makes his way to the door. You can tell heâs stressed just by being in his proximity and it almost reminds you of when you first started working for him, those very first cold and distant weeks. But when he turns around and takes Soori into his arms, he softens and grows mushy again.Â
âIâll see you tonight, baby. Be good for daddy, okay?â He kisses her cheeks. âYouâve recovered, I hope.â He says this to you.Â
âGood as new.â You force a smile.
âIâm glad. Iâm gonna be late again today, weâre hoping to close this deal this week and weâre in a time crunch. Iâve told Suelgi to pick Soori up in the afternoon-â
âWhat? Why?â
âWell, you stayed with her last week and-â
âYeah, thatâs my job. Thatâs what you pay me to do, remember? Also, it messes up with her routine so Iâll keep her and weâll wait for you right here.â
âThank you.â
âYouâre welcome.â
â___-â you donât let him finish, fearing to fall into a conversation you canât have right now. You grab the back of his head and bring him close to you until your lips are on his. You feel him relax against your touch and he deepens the kiss, even if for a brief second before youâre pulling away.Â
âHave a good day. Weâll see you tonight.â
~
On Tuesday you keep your anxiety at bay by making Soori a really elaborate breakfast. And youâre speaking the whole ordeal. Eggs, cherry tomatoes that you cut up really small, all her favorite assortment of fruits (blueberries, strawberries and pears), avocado that you mash and season with salt, pepper and lemon juice. You even cut her toast in tiny hearts that adorn the corners of her plate. When Jungkook walks inside the kitchen that morning, youâre getting started on her meal prep for lunch. Cooking for Soori wasnât really on your job description but you liked to be as involved as you could in her feeding and so youâd silently taken on the responsibility. She liked to watch you cook, clapped along as you played music and danced around the kitchen, giving her a show.Â
You donât hear him come in and Jungkook takes the time to let himself stare at you. Amidst the stress and exhaustion, youâre pure sunshine that creeps into his home each morning and for that heâs grateful. If yesterday you threatened to make him late for work, which he really couldnât afford this week, today youâre making him wish he could throw all the contracts out the window and live in a world that rotated around your axis. He doesnât know if itâs the way your lips are a tone redder today, or if itâs the way you have your hair up in a bun that somehow looks both disheveled and put together, thin strands of hair framing your face as you concentrate on the way your hands carefully peel the pear. Youâre pouting, the way you often do when youâre focused on something and he thinks about how quickly he can get out of this kitchen so he can kiss you. Youâre also wearing red, which is a color he doesnât often see you sport but he makes a mental note to store it under favorites. Your dress is tight around your waist and then flairs out and he knows itâs short because the weather is hot and you know how to dress for it. Jungkook begins to feel hot, too. The straps are held by a bow that rests on top of your shoulders and one of them falls down your arm and he swears to himself this all just happened in slow motion.Â
âMr. Jungkook, good morning.â Mrs. Chae places the tray on the kitchen island with a little more force than sheâd originally intended. This makes you jump and it takes Jungkook about a beat too long to come back to his senses.Â
âGood morning,â he clears his throat when his voice falters.Â
Oh, damn you, Jeon Jungkook in dress pants and a white shirt that hugs your body a little too nicely to be true.Â
âNana,â Soori shrieks, excited to see you as you walk over to them.Â
âHi baby, I missed you.â The moment your arms outstretch towards her, sheâs falling into them. You look at Jungkook. âHey.â
âHey- how are you?â
âIâm good. Did you sleep well?â
âI did, thank you.â
âYeah.â
âYeah.â
Both Mrs. Chae and Soori stare at the two of you in confusion.Â
âNana,â this time she tries to get your attention, hitting you with her plush toy. You notice itâs shaped like a mille-feuille, courtesy of Lucy.Â
âIs she- is that what she calls you?â Jungkook asks.
âI donât know⊠itâs the first time she does it more than once in a row.â
âCute,â he says, smiling. His face grows serious again when he sees Mrs. Chae smirking from the corner of her eye.Â
âSheâs cute. Want breakfast, baby?â And Jungkook is so entranced by you this morning he almost says yes. âWeâve got blueberries and strawberries and pears. Can you say pears?â
âNana,â she smiles and is immediately forgiven.Â
When youâre by the door saying goodbye, Jungkookâs about to kiss you, and thereâs nothing in the world he wants more right this second. And as he leans in and mentally chants victory, his phone starts ringing. Itâs Jin, and he knows itâs important. He shouldâve taken his call ten minutes ago. His eyes close for a second, sighing in frustration before he picks up the phone.Â
âYeah, talk to me.â
You donât mean to be so cruel, but alas, you smile.Â
~
On Wednesday, itâs Jungkook who opens the door for you and by the looks of it, heâs on his way out, phone pressed to his ear as he steps aside to let you in.Â
âYeah, if you could please have those papers on my desk when I get there- yeah. Thank you, Kay. Youâre the best.â
You roll your eyes, but itâs mentally. Inside your head so he canât see. If you had a dollar for every time youâve heard Jungkook say sheâs the best youâd have two dollars, which is two dollars too many.
âHey,â he says, eyes still on his phone as he reads what you can see is a really long email.Â
âGood morning. Whatâs going on?â
âI have to run. Sooriâs in the kitchen, sheâs had a bit of a rough morning. Sheâs having a bottle right now.â He types as he tells you this. You want to shake him and tell him to look at you.Â
âIs everything okay?â
His eyes meet yours. âYeah, just- closing deals is hectic. Thatâs all. Everything okay with you?â
No.
âYes.â
âGreat.â
Great.
âGreat!âÂ
âIâll see you tonight?âÂ
âSure.â
He presses his phone to his ear once again and turns around, walking towards his car, the loud beep startling you a bit as he unlocks it. You yell at him, mentally. Inside your head, so he canât see.Â
~
Soori was in fact having a rough morning, and her mood lingers throughout the day. She was a really good, happy baby so on bad days like these you knew something had to be bothering her. Youâd found the root of the problem in the middle of a very dramatic cry, as her head swung backwards and her mouth opened to let out a loud wail. Her first back tooth was coming in. She was in pain, rightfully so, and nothing quite pleased her but you tried to do your best. She got extra cuddles and an extra morning nap. Youâd made her strawberry juice lollipops so she could chew on for relief and mostly let her play throughout the day. She wanted to be held for the most part, though, and you had to admit you werenât about to complain. You loved when she let you hold her and hug her and squeeze her.Â
Youâre halfway through a very softly sung version of Hey Jude when Jungkook calls you. Itâs quarter past seven and you were winding down Soori for the night.
âHi,â you say, voice a whisper so as to not wind her up.Â
âHey. How are you guys doing?â
âGood. Sheâs getting sleepy, sheâll be out in the next twenty or so. Her first molar is coming in, thatâs why sheâs fuzzy.â
âOh, shit. Shouldâve thought of that.â
âSheâs doing okay now. She just needed extra cuddles.â
âI wish I couldâve been there today. Thank you, ___.â
âMy pleasure. Howâs your day? Itâs late⊠are you coming home soon?â
And Jungkook knows youâre not asking for any other reason other than the fact you care about him. About his wellbeing and peace of mind. You took care of him in more ways than you probably realized because it just came as second nature to you, to be so caring. You, on the other hand, canât help the way your heart plays onto the little fantasy. The one in which you wait for him to come home â a home of your own. He comes home to you after a long day and you sit on the couch and order take out and you make sure he has dinner because, to be fair, youâre not sure he does when you leave at night and the worry follows you until you get home even though you know that he canât go hungry for more than twenty minutes. But you care, so you worry.Â
Ugh!
âYeah. I just have to go through,â he pauses, taking a look around him, âtwo more contracts. Iâll be there in about an hour or so.â
âIâll give her a good night kiss from you.â
âThank you, baby. Iâll see you soon.â
âSee you,â and you hang up because if you donât, youâll fucking blurt those three words at him again, because in your little fantasy, itâs only natural. Itâs only natural that you tell him you love him before you hang up the phone.Â
God, life was playing tricky, tricky games on your heart. Ones that you were out of ideas on how to defeat.Â
~
Soori had knocked out not too long after that. Sheâd been visibly exhausted from the discomfort and pain sheâd carried all day and you could only hope tomorrow was better. You make a mental note to search up some toothing relief methods on your way home. You give her two forehead kisses before laying her down on her crib, placing her little mille-feuille plushie under her arm.Â
You make your way to the kitchen, turning on every light that you pass because if you were to be honest, Jungkookâs house intimidated you a little bit during the night. It was just so big and spacious, wide hallways that felt never ending. You liked how quiet it was, though. A sense of peace filling you as you put the kettle on to make yourself a cup of tea. His selection was impressive and you wondered why. You donât think youâd ever seen him drink tea⊠you wonder if this was one of the remaining bits of Ira that still lingered around the house. There werenât many, but it was impossible to fully erase her. There was a mug in the cupboards with the letter I and right next to it, one with the letter J. Her white Mercedes Benz that still sat on the driveway, too. And even though sheâd cleared her clothes from the closet, youâd once seen a pretty black dress that you could only assume had once belonged to her.Â
You opt for a fancy looking ginger and lemon tea, taking your time to let the leafs brew in the hot water. Thinking of him, of her, of Soori. Of how much youâd weaved your way inside his home, his family, without the details of what landed you here in the first place. I mean, you know some of it, but not the whole story. And then again, how much of a story was there? Her departure had seemed final and abrupt and in your anger, you doubted her words and explanations truly mattered.Â
You move through the kitchen, down the dining hall and into the living room at a slow pace, taking it all in. You try to remember if youâve ever been here alone, when itâs so empty and quiet but you canât place any memory of the sort. You walk over to the big, tall bookshelf that stood against the wall. It was mostly for decoration, youâd assumed â a bunch of color coordinated books that matched the aesthetic of the living space perfectly. You recognize some titles and some others seem old. Pages on art, architecture, travel and fashion. Your eyes land on one that doesnât seem to have a name, the spine empty in smooth leather. You reach for it, its weight sitting heavy on your hands. It was big, too and it looked like it held something important. Something that you couldnât find in a bookshop or library. You know you probably shouldnât, but your curiosity gets the best of you. You sit on the sofa, tea cup long forgotten on the table, lifting the heavy cover to reveal a white page that held a handwritten note.Â
To our Soori Blue,
Our darling girl, you are so very loved, and this is your story so far. This is where you come from and this is how you were loved from the very beginning, even before you were here. When you were but a little star waiting in the sky for your mommy and daddy to multiply the love they have for each other to make you. Youâre born from love, Soori, and your parents are proof of that, because they love each other so very much. Waiting for you was hard because we couldnât wait to hold you and getting to be your Godparents is one of our biggest blessings. You are so loved, you are so special and you will always have us.Â
Love,
Auntie Mai and Uncle Taehyung
 You turn the page, a picture of Jungkook and Ira taking most of the frame. Theyâre pulling faces as they pose for the camera and behind them is the city skyline and a sunset that paints the sky pink and orange. She blows a kiss and Jungkook throws a peace sign as he winks. Under the picture, a caption in neat black font that reads, âthis is from the day your mommy and daddy first met. Everyone says it was instant: how they fell in love. I bet they wouldâve not believed it if they knew that only a couple of years later, youâd be here!âÂ
The next picture is a magazine cover, Ira gracing the page, her long, blonde hair dancing in the wind, eyes not fully meeting the camera as she smiles. She looks carefree and young, a beautiful blue dress adorning her body, making her blue eyes shine even from a distance. âThis is your mommy. Isnât she so beautiful? Sheâs smart, funny, kind and loved by many people around the world. But no one loves her the way we do!â
You turn the page, a picture of Jungkook standing in front of The West End, bright smile on his face. âThis is your daddy. Heâs really good at his job! Heâs funny, cool and generous. He canât stay still and heâs good at everything he does, first try! We love him a lot.â
Their relationship pans over the years as you leaf through the pages. Ira and Jungkook at the beach, in very many destinations around the world, on Christmas and holidays, with their families and friends, in the comfort of their home and in events and galas. The day they made their relationship official, accompanied by, âit was out of a fairytale!â and birthday celebrations that said, âyour daddy spoils your mommy so very much, weâre kinda scared heâll do the same with you!â as Ira poses in rooms filled with roses and balloons and boxes full of presents.Â
You pay particular attention at a picture of Jungkook and Ira, a selfie that seems to have been taken on film. Theyâre in the kitchen, bright smiles and red, puffy eyes, like theyâd been crying. âOn this morning, your mommy and daddy found out about you! They were a little scared, but so very happy. You filled them with light, Soori. Just look at those smiles! They couldnât wait to hold you â it was going to be nine long months!â
Then itâs all of them, out in the garden, Ira in the middle as they point to her stomach. âAnd on this day we found out about you! We were so happy!! Weâd never seen your mommy and daddy so excited, you had a closet full of clothes already and they didnât even know if you were a girl or a boy yet!â
Ira in an ultrasound, âyour mommy and daddy were so happy to hear your heartbeat for the first time.â
Jungkook kissing her stomach, âdeep down, your daddy always knew you were a girl. Your mommy was convinced you were a boy, though!â
Jungkook and Ira standing in the garden, pink confetti flying over them. âYouâre a girl, Soori Blue!!!!â
The pictures progress with the passing of time, each one with a caption full of hope and love. A picture of Soori as a newborn representing her birth, a carbon copy of Jungkook that makes your heart seize inside your chest. Then pictures of her with her uncles and aunties, their families, Jungkook and Ira, who kiss her each on one cheek in the majority of them. You miss the way Ira smile changes, the way her gaze looks empty after a while. All you see is love, what Soori is truly made of.Â
You blame your next thought on how overly emotional this past week has been, how tumultuously youâve experienced every feeling.Â
âThereâs all types of love, but never the same love twice.â
You wonder if that had been it for Jungkook. If he would ever be able to experience the love he had for Ira again. You wonder if perhaps heâd ran out of love to give and if that was the case, you couldnât blame him. You reach the final page; a picture of the three of them, Jungkook holds Soori in his arms and Ira wraps hers around them. Sheâs looking at him, a smile on her face as they stand in front of the sea. The water is blue and the day looks bright and theyâre perfect. Theyâre love. The real kind, your brain argues. The kind that takes years to nurture, the kind that faces adversities and triumphs. The one that reproduces itself into the most perfect combination of every good thing about both ends. Soori is only a couple of months old but she smiles into the camera and for the first time, you see both Ira and Jungkook in her.Â
~
Youâd placed the photobook right where youâd found it and for the past thirty minutes, youâd been staring at the glass doors that led to the garden, in complete silence, though your thoughts are loud. You donât hear Jungkook come in and itâs only when he sits on the couch next to you that you fully notice his presence.Â
âWhat a fucking day,â he sighs, leaning back into the cushions and closing his eyes.Â
You look at him for a long time, and he doesnât acknowledge your silence.Â
âYouâre home now,â you say, even though itâs not the home youâd want it to be.Â
âYeah,â he looks at you. âHowâs Soo?â
âGood. Sleeping.â
âThank you for staying with her.â
âOf course.â
âIâm fucking starving,â he says, sinking further into the couch, his head turning to face you. âYou hungry? Want some ramen?â
You simply nod and that has him getting up from the couch, hand reaching for yours. You walk into the kitchen together, your fingers entwined in his and the simple act sends electric currents down your body. Itâs funny how unaware you can be about touch until itâs the right personâs skin against your very own, because what you feel right now, you hadnât felt in days.Â
You miss his touch instantly as he moves on to making dinner.Â
âHow was your day,â you ask, because youâre tired of the silence, and youâre tired of putting in an effort at keeping your heart quiet.Â
âLong. And exhausting. Never ending, even.â And Jungkook doesnât mean to whine and complain but then again, itâs not like he was lying. His day had been hell and just when he thought it was over, another problem presented itself right before his eyes.Â
âWhat exactly are you working on right now?â
He looks up at you before he says, âIâm buying land to build a hotel in the Alps.â You canât help but chuckle. âFunny, huh?â
âYour live is unreal to me sometimes.â
He pours water into a pot, placing it over the stove to bring to a boil. He stalls for a minute, remembering where they kept the ramen packets. âYeah, to me too.â
You point to the cabinets behind him, and he gives you a quick smile in acknowledgement.Â
âSo, is that whatâs taking up all of your time?â
âYeah, sort of. Itâs just a lot of politics and strategy. Meeting in the middle and settling and whatnot. Some of these people are so hard to negotiate with, though. They know real estate, but not hotels.â
âWell, Iâd assume not many people do. And Iâd assume what you know, you learned at a very young age.â
âWell, not quite. I wasnât always interested in my field of work, believe it or not.â
âNonetheless, you grew up around it.â
âSo?â
âSo, itâs a privilege that you have access to all of this knowledge. What you know- the way you know it, that canât be taught in a classroom.â
âWell, no. It requires experience.â
Jungkook catches the way you roll your eyes, a huff leaving your mouth as you smile.Â
âWhat?â He says.
âNothing.â
âItâs okay, you can say it.â
You raise an eyebrow in defense. âSay what?â
âYou know, give me the whole nepotism talk.â
âI wasnât going to do that.â
âYeah, sure.â He smiles but thereâs nothing soft about the action. âDinnerâs ready.â
You stand in deafening silence for a minute, eyes on his, like this is the beginning of something you wonât be able to stop without someone getting hurt.Â
âI think Iâm gonna go home. Iâm tired,â you say, turning around and getting ready to leave.Â
âOh, come on.âÂ
And that makes you stop in your tracks, turning so you can face him again, eyes narrowed and lips ready to spit venom if you so pleased.Â
âI donât feel like fighting with you right now, Jungkook.â And you couldâve left it at that, and perhaps it wouldâve been better, but you donât. âOh, wait. I donât have to do that. Because you seem to know what I want to say.â
He walks closer to you and nothing in his face tells you heâs about to extinguish the flames that seem to grow taller between you.Â
âYour poker face isnât all that good, baby.â
âIâm glad my intentions came across clear as day.â
He smiles, eyes diverting from you for a second before his gaze pierces yours once again. You inch closer to him and itâs barely noticeable, scowling back at him. Your blood feels hot and the flame grows bigger, more violent, only the fire gets lost in something else. Something that is only understood the moment Jungkook is pulling you closer and his lips are crashing onto yours in a kiss that makes the warmth travel throughout your body until the whole room is scolding hot.Â
Your lips part but a second as you catch your breaths, chests heaving in sync, impossibly close. You try to find words, form a thought, anything that could leave your lips in a coherent sentence but youâre left with nothing. Blank, red, heat. Itâs all you can think about. Him and his proximity. When Jungkook diverts his gaze from your eyes to your lips, itâs you that crashes your lips to his once again, deepening the kiss as your fingers tangle in his hair. Both his hands wrap around your waist, squeezing at the flesh and he curses the fabric that comes between his fingertips and your skin. He longs to touch you, he longs to have you and his life was starting to feel like a waiting game when it came to you. He didnât think he could go a second longer entertaining it.
He walks you backwards until your back hits the kitchen island, flushing himself to you until heâs pressing you against it. Your hands roam down his body, starting down his arms and up his torso, until theyâre on his neck again and you wrap your arms around it, hugging him to you. His hands travel to your ass, squeezing before heâs picking you up and sitting you on the counter, taking one step closer so he stands snuggly between your legs as they close around him. And you kiss. You kiss with intention but no direction, his tongue parting your lips and meeting yours halfway â sloppy, messy, needy. His hands travel under your dress until heâs squeezing the flesh on your thighs, drawing you closer to him. You loose track of time, not a care in the world but his lips on yours and so does Jungkook, who doesnât realize how much heâs aching for you until your hips are involuntarily grinding against his. His cock jumps and heâs more alert of you than ever, a throaty moan escaping his lips as you repeat the motion.Â
You feel it, too. And some part of your brain tries to tell you that your bodyâs betraying you. That youâre kissing him with the same mouth that holds secrets from him, anger even. But you donât care. Your heart leaps the closer he pulls you in and your skin feels wired with electricity the more the sensation of wanting him begins to take over your body. You want him, you need him, and when heâs so supple for you the way he is now thereâs no way you could deny yourself the pleasure of having him.Â
Your hand begins its descend, squeezing at the nape of his neck, down his chest and toned abdomen, taking a detour to untuck his shirt from under his pants, letting your hands roam inside, feeling his warm skin against them. You feel the way he sucks in a sharp breath, tummy caving in at your touch in anticipation. You smile against his lips and he kisses you harder, palms squeezing your flesh. You finally give him what he wants when your hand closes around his cock, making it pulse against the fabric of his pants. The moan that escapes his mouth borders on a whine and itâs so delicious it has you throwing your head back, eyes rolling to the back of your skull. His lips find your neck, kissing and sucking on the sensitive skin, rejoicing in the little whines that you let out at the feeling.Â
He breaks the kiss, reluctantly removing his hands from your body so he can unbutton his shirt, unable to handle the heavy nature the air has taken around him. You lean back, palms resting against the cool marble of the counter, cocking your head to the side and taking him in. You notice him noticing you, and you donât miss the way he slows down his movements, taking his time all of a sudden, giving you a show. You smile, lip caught between your teeth and you feel the need to close your legs, an impulse reaction at the need of friction. Jungkook notices this, your body jerking slightly, face delirious, eyes desperate and he chuckles. It has bite and attitude, and you raise an eyebrow at him.Â
âDonât get cocky now,â you say, brain short-circuiting when he finally removes his shirt.
âI wonât. Need you too badly to play games right now.â
His words barely register because as soon as they leave him, his lips are back on yours, twice as fervently as before, his purpose clear. You give into him, not wanting to play games either.Â
âI need you to touch me, Jungkook.â
His hand comes down to your breast, squeezing and pulling sweet little noises from you.Â
âYeah, baby?â
Your hands find his waistband, undoing the button of his pants, his zipper following, until your hand is traveling down his boxers and gripping around his cock, making him hiss at the contact.Â
âOh, fuck.â His voice is hoarse, deep. Your hand begins to move, thumb collecting the pre cum before youâre circling it around his tip. He bites your bottom lip as you begin to stroke languidly, applying pressure here and there, teasing him.Â
âAre you gonna fuck me in the kitchen, Jungkookie?â
âYeah. Itâll ruin my mornings forever, though.â
You pout, mocking innocence. âWhyâs that?â
âEvery morning, when I walk in here,â his hands travel under your dress again, fingers toying with the waistband of your underwear. âIâm gonna see you behind this counter,â he kisses you, a gasp leaving your lips as he hooks his index finger down the side of your panties, a soft touch to your skin. âMaking coffee, cooking breakfast.â His middle finger spreads your folds, a soft hum passing his lips when he notices how wet you are. âIn your short little dresses, acting like you donât know what you do to me.â
âI-I donât,â and he doesnât let you finish your sentence. Middle and index finger entering you slowly, eyes on yours as his face grows confused.Â
âYou donât?â
âN-no, mm, Jungkook,â you plead.
âSay please.â
âPlease.â
âYouâre so good, baby.â He kisses you, fingers picking up pace inside of you, finding that spot that has you arching your back for him in no time. âBut you know what?â
âW-what?â Your eyes snap open, silently pleading that he doesnât stop.Â
âI think you do know.â His fingers stop and he smirks when your face falls. Your eyes travel down, following the way his hand wraps around his cock, spreading your wetness all over it. âI think you know exactly what youâre doing.â He pushes your panties to the side before his tip teases your entrance, a moan escaping both your lips in unison. âAnd I think you like it.â He pushes inside of you and you sigh. He thinks itâs sweet, the way you react to him. You feel so good around him. He cups your cheek, pressing his forehead to yours before stealing a kiss from your lips. âDonât you like it, baby?â
âYes. I like it, fuck.â You donât even knowing what youâre agreeing on at this point and you donât care, too entranced by the way his cock stretches your walls so perfectly, hitting it so fucking good itâs almost like he was made for your pussy. And in this moment, Jungkook is sure of it.Â
âShit, baby. You feel so good.â
And sure, Jungkook could fuck you at this leisurely pace for the rest of his life, getting to feel every inch of you until it drove him fucking insane. But he wanted more â he needed more â and the way you were digging your nails in his biceps told him that you did, too. When he pulls away, you whine, narrowing your eyes at him and then rolling them when he simply responds with a, âpatience.â He wastes no time removing your panties, throwing them behind him before he hooks his hand under your knee, bringing your leg up until your foot is resting against the kitchen counter. He starts fucking you again, but harder this time and the angle is so fucking perfect you swear you begin to see stars in your eyes, feeling a bit lightheaded at the feeling. He kisses down your neck again, letting himself enjoy how good you sound, and how good you feel. How good your skin tastes on his tongue.Â
âDonât stop, baby, oh my God.â
And so he locks in the pace, middle finger finding your clit and circling around it until he feels the way your body begins to shake in his hold, pussy clenching around him.Â
âFuck, yeah, baby. Cum for me, ___.â
Your body shakes, moans getting louder as he kisses you and you can feel the way he smiles against your lips. He fucks you slow, letting you come down from your high, kissing you passionately and making your mind go hazy with every touch. Every little thing he does sends your mind into a frenzy and you fucking love the feeling. Your body is completely submitted to him, and you let him do whatever he wants to you. You let him kiss you, you let him hold you when he brings you down from the counter and your legs fail you. He laughs and you shush him and then you let him kiss you again. You let him turn you around, gently push you down until the upper half of your body rests against the cold marble. His legs part yours, hands uncovering you as he pushes your dress up and out of the way. He runs his hands down your body gently and you close your eyes, enjoying the moment, content little sighs leaving your mouth. He plays with your pussy, as he kisses down your back and when you begin to clench around his fingers, he fucks you like this. He goes hard, but he goes slow and he grunts when you throw your ass back, meeting him halfway. He spanks you once, twice, making you gasp and wish you had the strength to go for hours.Â
âIâm gonna cum, baby. God, youâre so fucking hot.â
âPlease, Jungkook- I need it, please.â
And youâre so pliant, so willing to give him anything he wants. So willing to give yourself to him his cock and heart are basically battling for blood at this point.Â
âNngh- Iâm gonna cum.â
You feel his warmth hit your ass, some landing on your back, and it makes you giggle, feeling a tad bit delirious at how ridiculously good that can feel.Â
âTruce?â You look back at him, but heâs too enthralled by the way his cum paints your ass.Â
âMhm,â he musters after a second too long.Â
âYouâre such a boy.â
âAnd you have such a nice ass.â
He cleans you up with his shirt, helping you step inside your panties and even pulls them up himself. When he comes back up, standing in front of you, he kisses you. Not lustfully, not for the heat of the moment, but for something more. Something that says Iâve missed you. Your heart begins to transform into the odd shape itâd been in the past couple of days because all you can think of is how much you loved him right now. How much youâve loved him, even amidst your anger and disappointment. You knew it, your body knew it, and now your heart was angry again.Â
âStay the night,â he says. âWeâll tell Mrs. Chae that you got here earlier. Or weâll sneak you out through a window, I donât know. But stay.â
Jungkook is just trying to be funny, but his words hurt. And you know they shouldnât. You know youâd agreed to take things slow, to let him heal and test the waters but your decisions had made you selfish and right now, you had no way of controlling how much you wanted what you wanted.Â
âI,â you pause, looking into his eyes. âI better go.â
âWhy?â
âI should get home and shower and try to rest before tomorrow. Plus, I donât have clothes or anything here and- Iâll see you tomorrow, okay?â
Jungkook scans your eyes, trying to find the reason as to why your perfectly logical answer makes him feel so uneasy. But he canât. He canât find it, but he also canât shake the feeling.Â
âOkay.â He kisses you again. âIâm sorry for being a dick earlier. I let my exhaustion get the best of me.â
You smile at him. âItâs okay. Iâm sorry, too. I donât think youâre a nepo baby.â
âMmm,â he plays, making you laugh.
âOnly a little. But I would never say it to your face.â
âOh, youâre so sweet.â
âI am, arenât I?â
He nods, kissing you again. And in that moment, you wonder if youâd ever felt your heart break and fall at the same time.Â
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baby (you complete us) 5
C H A P T E R Â F I V EÂ
Summary: Soulmates were a common occurrence, so common, in fact, that the world sought an easier way to find your other half: A bracelet that would scan your mark and match you with those who shared your mark. Within recent years, soul groups were becoming normal, and your own bracelet said you have seven matches.
Or where you wear your bracelet for ten years, and finally give up the hope you would find your soul group, only for BTS to put theirs on and see what they were missing.
Genre: soulmate au, idol au, angst, fluff, eventual smut,
Pairing: Idol BTS x Disabled MC
Warnings: angst, mentions of depression, disabled mc (Ehlers Danlos syndrome), eventual smut, fluff, lots of fluff, mentions of disability, simp bangtan
Chapter Warnings: not much, anxious feelings, insecurities, joint dislocation, talk of kink, yoongi being a tease,Â
masterlist // chapter 4 // chapter 6
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Previously on baby (you complete us):
âI guess I should thank you for the box then, Yoongi?â You lean forward, causing the male to blush a little. He just nods shyly and says youâre welcome with a shrug of his shoulders.
âWell, thank you a lot, Yoongi. I appreciate the package and will make sure to wear this to the airport.â You smile, your small cheek dimples poking through as you do making Namjoon smile back. You move the items back in the box as the others shout protests. Claims of cheating thrown around, all of them wanting you to wear something they picked out to the airport.
âMaybe next time, you guys!â You try to ease the play fighting, thoroughly amused by the proud smirk on Yoongiâs lips.
It was about 4:30 in the morning and you were just getting to the airport, your brother having offered to drive you.
Actually, he showed up yesterday, unannounced, with food. Your sister had told him about your soul situation before you even had the chance. He demanded to go with you, but when you told him that the boys were paying for your ticket, he conceded as long as you made sure to call him and face time him so he could âtalkâ to the boys.
He helped you pack, making sure all of your clothes fit into the two suitcases, and even took the time to put together all of your toiletries, or well, tried to before you stopped him. You didnât need your older brother helping you put your private things together. After that, he stayed the night and bought dinner for you, even going as far as inviting your dad over.
That was a surprise.
You had to reassure your dad and brother that you were okay and not being forced to go. They were fully aware of your ten years of waiting, and of your feelings about the entire thing. They had to console you every year when it got to the anniversary of you receiving your bracelet.
âI donât know about this, honey. Why now?â Your dad brought up good questions, but you reassured him that they were idols and their lives were extremely busy. He didnât care though, not when he witnessed your tears.
And then, when he did get over that part, he asked you for their number so he could talk with them. You refused in embarrassment, knowing exactly what your dad wanted to talk about. You knew it wouldnât really have much to do with talking and more to do with slight threatening and choice words. Daniel just laughed about the entire thing.
You were wearing the sweatshirt Yoongi had sent you along with a pair of comfy leggings and compression socks, wanting to be entirely comfortable for your almost sixteen-hour flight. You had one stop in Japan for an hour where you would definitely need to stretch and maybe get a coffee or something. You had your carry on duffle bag filled with your flight necessities, including the headphones, beanie, and kitty eye-mask Yoongi also sent. You even included the coloring book and markers.
You had your passport, both of them, in your sweatshirt pocket, not wanting them in your bag. The duffel bag almost reminded you of a large purse, oddly resembling Taehyungâs artist made collection bag but with the normal duffle bag material. It was nice and the size was perfect so you didnât have to put it in the overhead shelves and you could just put in under the seat.
âTake your shoes off and place them in the bin.â You hear the TSA agent yell over the crowd.
Taking out your phone, you look over the ticket that Yoongi had transferred over. Yor flight left at 5:45 am, giving you enough time to get through TSA and check in, according to your dad at least.
You stand in line for a couple seconds, waiting for your chance at check in. You had your cane with you, resting on your arm as it hung so you could move with all of your luggage. When you get to the front, you put your things in front of you and place your cane on the floor.
âHello, I am a little confused with the ticket my soulmate sent me. It doesnât have a gate number on it.â You say to the woman who asks to see your ticket. When you show her the ticket on your phone, her eyes widen a little, before she calls someone over.
âIâm sorry maâam. You have a private flight which means you need to be on the other side of the airport. I will have someone escort you over there.â Your eyes widen at the information as you stare back down at your phone.
âOh, well thank you maâam. I appreciate your help.â You smile at the woman before moving off to the side, struggling a little with your bigger suitcase. Not even a second later a large man wearing a security badge walked up to you.
âAre you Ms. L/n?â You nod your head slowly, a little unsure of how he knew your name.
âI am John. I was assigned to be your personal escort and guard for the time you are within the airport. Are these your bags?â You donât get the chance to nod before he takes the handles of your suitcases, leaving you to have your duffle bag and cane.
It takes roughly ten minutes to walk to where you check in for the flight Yoongi booked for you. When you get there, the man behind the desk just asks for your name. You give it to him and watch as his eyebrows raise slightly before the computer beeps at him.
âOkay, these are your luggage tags, and this is your boarding pass. Our private lounge is off to that side where you can wait.â The man, named Michael from his nametag, hands you the papers which John moves in to grab before you can. He attaches your luggage tags to your suitcases and then nods his head before ushering you into the lounge.
It was a large room, fitted with an abundance of comfy looking couches and chairs, at least three vending machines, and a small bar.
âAlright Ms. L/n, you can wait here until the flight is to board. No one else has been given access to the room under Mr. Kimâs orders.â You wonder which âMr. Kimâ he is referencing.
âUhm, I was wanting to go and look for some coffee and breakfast, maybe. And wanted to get a couple of snacks for the flight.â You tell John, wondering if you were even allowed to leave the room now.
âOf course, Ms. L/n. I can escort you to your shopping. You can leave your luggage in here.â You follow along with his words, hoping he was telling the truth that no one else was allowed in the room.
He walks a little in front of you and to the side. You opted to keep your duffle bag on your person as you had your wallet in the front pocket. You also wanted to put your snacks in the duffle so you didnât lose them.
John follows your lead, making sure no one comes near you which has people looking your way, trying to figure out who you were. It was a little weird and made you a little anxious. Nonetheless, you found a little store that sold snacks and you even managed to find a nice-looking packaged sandwich and a small container of cut up apples, cantaloupe, grapes and banana that looked fresh. You also got a bottle of water and some juice. And a bag of cheez-its.
After that, you decided on trying to find a place to get some coffee, putting your things into your duffle. You only now realized you didnât go through any kind of security.
âDo I need to go through security?â You turn to John as you walk out to the little shop.
âNo maâam.â Oh, well that seems weird to you.
âUhm, well is there anywhere I can get a coffee before we head back to the lounge?â John nods before walking forward and to the left. You follow him and watch as he leads you to a Starbucks. You thank him before getting in line and ordering your normal coffee order and getting a breakfast sandwich and a chocolate chunk cookie.
With your drink and treats in hand, you make your way back to the lounge. You make yourself comfy in one of the couches by a table where you set your things down and move to organize your duffle bag so your snacks didnât get squished.
Hearing your ringtone go off, you pick your phone up to see Namjoon calling.
âHello?â You answer only for a chorus of greetings back.
âGood morning, baby. Did you make it okay?â Namjoon is the first to speak.
âGood uh, morning? And I am in the lounge now. I picked up some coffee and breakfast along with a couple of snacks for the flight. Uhm, can I ask why I was given an escort and a private lounge completely to myself? Or what even a private flight is?â You ask as you move your computer to the front side of your duffle, planning on watching some movies during the flight.
âYour safety is our number one concern. If we canât be there, or have any of our security with you, then this is the next best thing.â Namjoon answers, a small hum to his words as if trying to soothe your worries.
âWhy would I need your security though? Did you guys make an announcement about everything without talking to me?â You ask, putting your full attention on the voices coming from the speaker.
âNo, baby. We would never. This is moreâŠ.â Namjoon pauses, trying to come up with the best answer for you, only for Jimin to finish. âFor our worry.â
âYeah, Jimin. This is more to ease our own concerns and worries.â Namjoon thanks his younger mate for his quick thinking. You nod your head before realizing they cant see you.
âOh, okay. Well, there isnât anything to worry about. John is a good security person. Iâm also currently by myself in the lounge while he waits outside. He said not even he could be in here with me.â
âOkay. We are glad. Oh. Huh?â Namjoon turns to Yoongi who is reaching for the phone.
âAre you wearing my outfit?â Yoongi asks you once he gets the phone causing the others to laugh. Yoongiâs possessive nature coming out as he hears you.
You laugh a little. âYes, Yoongi. I am wearing the sweatshirt you sent me. It is really soft and comfy. I have the beanie and mask in my duffle bag carry-on that Hoseok sent me. I also have the rest of the things you all sent me in my carry-on.â You reassure him, but also everyone else. You didnât have a favorite before; you wouldnât have one now.
âGood girl.â You were thankful you were the only one in this room right now, because you almost screamed. Your entire face was hot and you were now hiding your head in your hands.
âIâm uh, going to go and eat my breakfast now. I will text you all before I get on the plane.â You say goodbye before anyone else can say anything to make you actually scream next.
Yoongi winces, his smirk never leaving his face as Jin smacks him across the chest.
âYou canât just say things like that!â Jin yells, a little upset for how quickly you hung up on them.
âWell, at least now we know she feels like we do.â Jungkook speaks up, shrugging his shoulders.
âWhat are you talking about?â Hoseok asks, everyone looking toward the youngest.
âShe got flustered, didnât you hear her moan a little.â Everyone freezes as they try to think back.
âSo, our baby has a bit of a praise kinkâŠthatâs good to know.â Jin muses, smiling at the others at all the new possibilities.
-*-*-
You had just touched down in Tokyo, Japan and were waiting for the stewardess to let you know that you could get off the plane for your layover. You were told your luggage would stay on board, in the compartment up front they had placed it in when John had carried it on board. You hadnât been able to get up yet but you already knew your joints were not going to be happy with you.
You could almost sense that you were going to have issues with your left hip especially. You had some issues getting comfortable with the angle of the seat at first, then after the nice stewardess showed you how to adjust the seat, you were able to get it into a nice and comfortable recline. But your body was not used to being in one position for so long.
You knew you could move during the flight, but you were terrified that the second you moved, the plane would crash and you would be the only one not strapped to your seat for safety. It was irrational and you knew it, but you were terrified of flying, which is why you were anxious about snacks and needing to make sure you had everything in your duffel bag while in the lounge.
âYou can unbuckle now miss. We will be leaving in an hour so make sure to be back her by then, okay.â The nice stewardess who helped you before, Emilia, had come up and stood in front of your seat.
You unbuckled the seat, thanking her profusely before grabbing your duffle bag and moving to throw all your trash away. However, once you stood up, you almost immediately fell back into the seat.
âOh my, Ms.! Are you okay?â Emilia rushed forward, moving to help you but you had to tell her to move back. Your hip was at an awkward angle and you knew that it had popped out.
âUgh. This was not what I wanted.â You groan out as you try to apply pressure to your hip, gauging just how far it shifted out.
It took you several minutes to pop it back in and ask for Emilia to get you your cane. She handed it to you with a look of disbelief. Like she couldnât believe you just did that by yourself. Once she saw how uncomfortable you were though, she realized she was staring.
âIâm sorry, Ms. Are you sure you are okay?â Emilia asks as you put some of your weight on your cane to get up. You just nod at her, trying to take deep breaths. You needed to go to the bathroom and refused to have someone help you sit on the toilet. Plus, this was your first time having this happen, and you knew you could do it.
âIâm okay, Emilia, I promise. I just need to walk a little and help my hip adjust.â You reassure her, despite the deep breaths you were taking as you walked. After a couple of steps you could feel the numbness setting in, making it a little easier to walk.
Once you made it to the bathroom, you decided you would have to explore the Tokyo airport at a different time. It was around one pm in Tokyo if the clock on the plane was correct. The time difference was definitely going to mess with you, thatâs for sure.
You slowly made it back to your seat to see a little ice bag on the tray. You smile at the thought, knowing Emilia must have brought it over. You place one of the small pillows that came on the plane to the edge of the left side of your seat so you could prop the ice there before you sat down. You had to make sure the ice was where you needed it to be or it would do nothing but make you cold.
Once you got relaxed back into the reclined seat, your phone started ringing. You didnât even look at the caller id before answering.
âHeââ
âBaby! Are you alright? The stewardess called and told us what happened!â Namjoonâs voice called out, cutting you off. You couldnât even get another word in before another voice started talking.
âThe attendant says you should be here around three! We will be waiting for you! Jungkookie will carry you out.â Yoongiâs tone was frantic, almost making you wonder if this was how they were always going to handle your disability.
âWhy canât we be there for her! She is injured and our soulmate Joon! I donât care what Sejin says! Jungkook, be ready to go in an hour.â Yoongi switches from English to Korean quicky, making you wonder if he remembered he was on the phone with you.
Jungkook is about to leave the room to go and put some pants on when Namjoon grabs his arm.
âNo one is leaving to go anywhere. Yoongi-ah, we talked about this. We donât want to overwhelm her. You know how insecure she is about this. How could she not be after all of those years thinking we didnât want her. I know you want nothing more than to have her in your arms, safe and sound. Itâs what we all want. But we cannot push her into this.â Namjoonâs words have them all pausing, Yoongi even sinking back down into the couch and handing the phone back to Namjoon, grumbling about âstupid thighsâ.
âSorry about that, baby. We are all just worried about you. We have a driver scheduled to pick you up from the airport and bring you to a hotel. We booked you there for a week. We wanted to give you time and knew you would probably be more comfortable there than in the dorms with us.â You were kind of shocked, expecting them to want you to stay with them. You knew from their actions that they probably wanted you to accept the bond, and it was just you being skeptical, but could anyone blame you?
âThank you, Namjoon. You are right. I donât think I would be too comfortable staying with you all so quickly.â You were shy admitting that, the boys could tell. It had Yoongi scooting down further in his seat. Jin practically pouting at the thought of you not wanting to stay with them, but he knew you needed time.
By the time it was time to hang up, Emilia had come back over and told you that you were going to be leaving in a couple of minutes.
âWell, I have to get going. I should be in Korea within an hour maybe? Iâm not too sure.â You tell them, truly thankful for them, and glad they didnât mention your hip again.
âOkay. Well please let us know when you touch down and when you get to the hotel.â With that, you say your goodbyes and you buckle back up into your seat.
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faith
a rock god drabble
jungkook drags you back to the convent after having some drinks.
â PAIRING: rockstar!jungkook x novice!reader
â GENRE: 80s au, angst, fluff, humour
â WORD COUNT: 1k
â WARNINGS: religious themes, drinking, swearing, referenced non-consensual sex
â AUTHOR'S NOTE: 16.3k wasn't enough for these two so they're back! i actually planned this for the main fic but bc i felt it was getting too long i discarded it. here it is though<3 it takes place sometime before that fateful mass...
1986
The cloister looked so beautiful at night with the moonlight raining down on the grass, the crickets singing, the columnsâ shadows dancing on the floor⊠Wait, how were they dancing if they were the columnsâ? Oh! That shadow was yours, and that one Jungkookâs.
You pointed at them, slurred, âTheyâre ours!â
Jungkook chuckled, âNothing gets past you, Sherlock. But keep your voice down and letâs go.â
He was dragging you by the hand through the convent, having previously dragged you from the car and before that from the venue where he performed hours ago. Jungkook had insisted you snuck out to see him again, and you had to say, this time the show had been nothing short of stellar.
âI think I tolerate your music better like this.â
âWhat, wasted?â
âLetâs go with merry.â
It was your first time getting drunk. The venue had stayed open after the concertâdrinks on the house for Bangtan since theyâd lured in so much clienteleâand when your face expressed hesitance Jungkook promised fun, that he wouldnât take a single sip to drunksit you and later drive you to the convent. Accepting had proved to be a good decision, even if right now you couldnât remember half of the night. The one clear thing in the mist of your mind was the seductive way that guitar player had eyed you through Rock God.
âY/N? Jungkook?â A voice made him halt and curse under his breath.
âIs it Father Jimin?â you asked in what youâd intended as a whisper. Jungkook shook his head, so you turned around to be met with Sister Daeun walking over, and started giggling at the fact that youâd confused her voice with the abbotâs. Obvious you were drunk, the shock on her face at the two of you being out of bed at such hour turned into outrage.
âWhat in Godâs name is going on?!â
You gasped. âOh my god, Iâve never thought about that... What is Godâs name?â
Jungkook wouldâve normally laughed, but this time led you to the stone base between the columns some footsteps away and had you sit, lean on one. âStay here,â he ordered calmly and you nodded, then watched him return to Sister Daeun. âI can explain, aunty.â
âHow can you possibly? You took her out and got her drunk!â
âSheâs fine, she just had a few drinks. I monitored.â
âHave you forgotten sheâs a novice? And what if it had been Father Jimin that woke up for a glass of milk and not me?â
âFather Jimin is not a glass of milk man.â Jungkook assured her, and you burst into giggles again.
âTell me the truth, Jungkook.â Sister Daeun hugged herself. âWhere were you taking her?â
âWell, to her cell. Where else would Iââ He saw in her eyes a glimpse of the apprehension she was trying to suppress, and it took him aback. âNice to know you think me capable of that. What, is it because I have tattoos? Because Iâm in a rock band? I guess I was fucking stupid to believe youâre any different to mum and dad.â
Half of Sister Daeun felt ashamed, but the other half jumped to argue, âI see you dragging a drunk girl in the dead of the night, what do you want me to think?â
âThat Iâm looking out for her!â Jungkook shouted without thinking, his voice echoing across the cloister. Sister Daeun closed her eyes and prayed he hadnât been as loud as to wake anyone up, but he didnât care, scoffed at the lack of a response. âIf you donât trust me, take her to her cell yourself, then.â
He turned to leave and with a sigh, his aunt held out a hand to you. âCome with me.â
âNo, I want JungkookâŠâ you whined like a kid, rushing to his side to curl your arms around his left one. Despite how mad he was, he didnât shake you off or snap at you, instead stopped walking not to pull you into tripping.
âY/NâŠâ It didnât take her long to realise separating you from Jungkook would take at least three nuns. âFine. But weâll have a word tomorrow.â
She left and Jungkook led you away, hands held softly but a tension lingering in the airâand not the fun one he so liked to summon. You wanted to make him feel better, but it was hard to think straight, and before you knew it you were entering your cell in pitch-black darkness.
âGoodnight,â he whispered once heâd found the bed by touch and helped you lie on it. You reached for his hand in time and pulled, forcing him to sit down.
âDonât go yetâŠâ
He chuckled lowly, âScared of the dark?â and you giggled again. Gosh, why was everything so funny when drunk? Well, if you thought about it, you always found Jungkook funny. Sometimes it seemed he went out of his way to make you laugh. He was so nice to you⊠âHey, YNâŠâ
âHuh?â
It was dark, but you didnât need light to see he was nervous. âListen, Iâm sorry about before. Maybe I shouldnât have pushed you to drink. Iâm not the best influenceâŠâ
You started playing with his hand. âYou didnât push me. I had lots of fun with you and Bangtan.â Especially when Hoseok and Taehyung kept insisting you sainted them, and you kept explaining that it was sadly not in your power to do so. âIâm glad you were watching over me, because I trust you.â
Jungkook didnât say anything else, just caressed your hands back. Only once youâd fallen asleep did he leave, the pain in his heart from earlier somewhat lessened.
Hopping into his bed, he thought it was crazy that you had that effect on him. Well⊠not so crazy. Heâd allowed you to have it, given it to you, the one person who seemed to have faith in him. It made him scoff, how ridiculously head over heels he was, and as he thought of that he finally drifted into sleep, a comfortable smile settled on his lips.
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Oh, baby!
Reader x Yoongi | Part 58//?
Summary âȘ Min Yoongi, is a simple man. He likes his coffee black and iced, he enjoys his job, and he loves his baby girl. But what happens when the new neighbor, quite literally, drops into his life?
Warnings âȘ any typos are mine; angst lol; some cursing; talk of postpartum depression; gaslighting??; toxic relationship??; if post youâre name is crossed out itâs because I couldnât tag you;
A/n: heyyyy~~~~~ sorry for disappearing. Some things are going on right now, and yâall Iâm stressed. Anywho~~ as always feedback is appreciated and if you would like to be added
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