#balloonkin

[fictionkinfessions]

I feel like im faking it sometimes, like. I dont know. I just- wake up some days and i AM the character, i miss my friends, i want to go back so FUCKING BAD. then i wake ip the next day and its gone, i still miss them, but that character is not me anymore. Then i look in the mirror, IM NOT SUPPOSED TO LOOK LIKE THIS. THIS ISNT MY FACE, THIS ISNT MY BODY, THIS ISNT MY SKIN.

I want to go back to a time i dont remember, i want to go back and say sorry and appologize.

I want to go back, but if im not fictionkin. Then What is this pain i feel when i look in the mirror seeing a stranger, then what are these tears going down my face as I realize i cant go back.

Am i faking it? Am i just doing it for no ones attention.

Why am i like this.

I want to hug her and say im sorry, i want to be mechanical, i want to be a virus in a computer, i want to fall asleep and wake up back there like it was a dream, i want to go back and fix things, i want to have wings again, i want to fall asleep in her arms her telling me its going to be ok, i want to feel ok, i want to atleast say goodbye to them, i want to do so many things.

But i cant.

Theyre gone.

Why cant i just be a robot.

Why.

I hope to dear xd im not faking it, i really fucking hope im not.

Suitcase, c!captain puffy, i miss you guys.

Balloon ii/ ghostinnit (#🎈🥀🧭)

Im sorry in advance mpc i dont know if this is something allowed on the blog

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[rensotherkinblog]

Hi so uhhh idk where else to ask this at this point so I'll say it here

What do you do when you suspect that you might have a kintype of something you've got a phobia of?

Recently I figured that I could be Balloonkin , and I'm worried. I feel like trying to embrace it but at the same time I want to get as far away from it as much as possible.

Advice would be appreciated.

[curbside-heartthrob]

random kin euphoria of the day

[lovablethings]

🎈 Pronoun ideas for a balloon dog!

🎈/🎈s/🎈self + 🐕/🐕s/🐕self + 🤡/🤡s/🤡self + 🎉/🎉s/🎉self (balloonself / dogself / clownself / tadaself)

(key: they/them/themself) (you can of course choose variations on these, too, if any inspire you but don't quite fit!) squ/squeak/squeakself ... la/latex/latexself ... ba/balloon/balloonself ... flo/float/floatself ... twi/twist/twistself ... lock/lock/lockself ... pup/pup/pupself ... fun/fun/funself ... ir/ir/irself ... eep/eep/eepself ... par/party/partyself ... ae/aer/aerself ... ai/air/airself ... ci/cir/cirself ... wag/wags/wagself ... pop/pop/popself

[rensotherkinblog]

Reposting this post of mine onto here since its Otherkin related

I made an OC thats a self projection of how I feel having Globophobia and being Balloonkin at the same time

Here's the character's story:

"One day, I woke up feeling off. My body felt as if it lost most of its weight. So I walked into the bathroom to look in the mirror and..."

"AHHHHH! WHAT THE FUCK!" *crying* "Why am I a....a... bal..."

He struggles to say the word as he's too much of a panic to speak properly. He continues to cry , now covering most of his eyes with his rubbery paws while yelling as loud as he can in traumatized fear.

He runs back into his bedroom and sits down on the carpet. He sits there, shaking.

He doesn't know what to do about it. Never wanted it to happen to himself at all. He HATES balloons, and avoided them for most of his life.

A little later, he figures that he should put a blindfold on his face and fabric gloves on his hands. That way he can't see his appearance, and doesn't feel the rubbery texture of his skin as often.

"This'll do... for now"

"I do hope this is all a dream.. or at least all this goes away at some point"

Alright! That's this little guy's story. I hope to be able to do more drawings of them in the future.

Any name suggestions? I haven't come up with one for him yet. A name representing globophobia and balloon dogs is what I'm looking for.

[obscure-nonhumancultureis]

obscure objectkin is being something so simple yet so complicated to explain to others - A balloonkin

Obscure objectkin culture is

[osckinfessions]

nickloon shipping balloonkins how we feeling after iis2 ep16

I’m not doing very well :(

anon tag bc I’ll be here alot!!

-🌼🐚

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[eternallyother]

Soft, squishy stimboard for Balloon (Inanimate Insanity)!

x x x // x x x // x x x

[floatingpurely]

So are you one specific balloon, or one specific bubble, or balloon material in general, or bubble mixture in general?

bcause i dnt lst as long as 1 type, i swtch btween mltiple types. i try to lst as lng as pssible. nrmlly i am a rbber or foil blloon or a soap bbble or air bbble. sdly as an air bbble i cnt mve or float. im trpped. as a soap bbble or solution bbble i evntually bcome solution/soap again. being solution is painfl whch is wy i ask to tag bttles. 

thnks fr askng. 

[fictionkinfessionsarchived]

I hate how the fandom glorifies OJ. He's a manipulator as much as I am! He turned everyone against me, even when I made an effort to become a better person. -Balloon

[fictionkinfessions]

I dont know how kin related this is but, i just sometimes wish i wasnt a human, that i didnt- look the way i do, when i look in the mirror i dont think “oh heres my face again” i think “who is that” because this isnt my face. This isnt my body, im not supposed to look like this, i. I dont know what im supposed to look like but it isnt this.

Im supposed to look like me, not this stranger staring back at me. Because That isnt me. I dont look like that.

The only thing connecting this vessel and i are the false sensory inputs into my non-existent skin.

Im supposed to be metallic i think, maybe a robot, i dont know, all i know is that this body isnt mine and id love to give it back to its original owner.

And sometimes i imagine waking up as them. I imagine being back in that universe. But i cant, no matter how many fanfics are written or how many things i find to cope, it will never be enough to fill the pit of dread i feel when I remember that this isnt fiction. Im stuck here, no way to go back. I dont even have any kin mems and i feel crushing pain knowing ill never see those people i cared so much for again. Ill never get to say sorry, ill never get to right things. God im so fucking sorry.

And i feel stupid. Because these characters arent real, but i so desperately want to go back to them, talk to them, apologize, just let them know that im sorry, that i miss them.

And maybe that crushing dread is whats keeping me going. Because maybe one day ill wake up back there, being myself, even though that will never happen, no matter how many times i tell myself “its not real, you cant go back” and i cry, i still hope, knowing it will go nowhere.

And to all those struggling with this too, my best wishes to you, whether you want the longing to stop, or you too want to go back, best of luck, just- dont hurt yourself, people care about you.

-balloon

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[rensotherkinblog]

Summer time 😎

Also-

There's a chance that I might be getting CBT for my Globophobia in the future, so if the CBT works I'll be able to embrace my balloon dog non human identity even more :D

[curbside-heartthrob]

i bring a kind of

vibe to the party

[lovablethings]

Hello! I would like pronoun ideas relating to balloon dogs!

(I'm balloonkin)

Hope something [here] inspires you anon!

[legitimate-ghost]

I am balloonkin. I really want to just float up into the sky and get lost to the heavens, or maybe get carried around a theme park by a kid, or maybe givin' to someday for their birthday. Only acceptable pronoun is balloon.

[fictionkinfessions]

ii sourcemates.. please.. (I am begging in a box an alleyway shaking a jar of 2 copper coins covered in soot)

-Balloon 🎈

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