#bailylore

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One month sober from alcohol 🫶

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We went to celebrate our monthiversary but I started a new medication this morning so I got very sick, I couldn't eat and we had to go home earlier :-(

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I got sick so I had to leave my boyfriends place so he won't also get sick :-(

I should be resting but I just went through my closet and threw four bags worth of clothing away

I don't know if I'll sell them or donate them..

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Despite having a boyfriend and a best friend I still am deeply so lonely

I have no friends who support me, I have no friends I could see for a coffee, I have no friends who I could excitedly tell things to

It's breaking me, despite having two super close people in my life

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I really am in the mood to spend a couple of hours in the woods in silence, doing nothing

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I feel like I'm going insane as I'm changing as a person now

This new version of me is going to be so beautiful but the process of becoming her is painful and frustrating

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Saw the quote "You communicate differently and you don't have to change that" and something within me lit up

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One of my biggest alcohol repellents are the drunk videos that I always take

Sure I'm having fun but damn girl that looks so bad

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I want to drink so badly

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Finally did it 🫶 Cut a scene fringe for myself

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I was at a liveshow last night and everyone else were drinking and even when I held their drinks or went to the bar to get mocktails I didn't take a single sip of alcohol

I'm so so proud of myself because this is a lot to me

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I'm at a halloween event rn where there's alcohol but I haven't taken any 🫶 I'm gonna be sober all night, I'm gonna be fine

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I've never felt so loved before

I've never felt so safe before

I've never been so in love

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You know how something really bothers you but you don't know if you want to talk about it to anyone or nah.. That's me tonight

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Crazy how yesterday I was still feeling hopeless n shit but today I feel like a whole new person again

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I'm going to try to not to touch my hair anymore, meaning no bleaching or dyeing and no cutting it

I miss how huge and fluffy my hair used to be when I was a child, I want that back 🦋