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mearcatsreturns · 3 months ago
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Chapters: 2/2 Fandom: Shadow and Bone (TV), The Grisha Trilogy - Leigh Bardugo Rating: Teen And Up Audiences Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply Relationships: Ivan/Fedyor Kaminsky, The Darkling | Aleksander Morozova/Alina Starkov Characters: Ivan (The Grisha Trilogy), Fedyor Kaminsky, The Darkling | Aleksander Morozova, Alina Starkov, Genya Safin, Tamar Kir-Bataar, Nadia Zhabin, Nikolai Lantsov, Zoya Nazyalensky, Original Female Character(s) Additional Tags: Babies, gay horror, Gay Judgment, Babysitting, Ivan is Overwrought, Author Using KonMari | Marie Kondo Method on Canon, Author does not vibe with canon deaths, Ivan's Suffering Sparks Joy (Unfortunately) Series: Part 4 of fools for love Summary:
Ivan's problems all boil down to the heterosexuals and how they just keep reproducing.
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Happy slightly belated birthday, @qqueenofhades!
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goblins-riddles-or-frocks · 1 month ago
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Fic | Inconvenient Attachments
Status: Complete, 12k words
Notes: Darknikolina, past Darkolai
Alina didn’t mean to befriend a prince of Ravka in the army. And she always laughs it off when he jokes about them running away together. Until it seems like he might actually mean it, and then the Darkling intervenes. Or, Nikolina meet in the army AU
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beautyinsteadofashes · 2 years ago
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wait a minute....is nikolai in season 1? (as a background character)
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aleksanderscult · 9 months ago
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Analyzing "Demon in the Wood" (Graphic Novel) - Part 2
(Part 1, Part 3)
Be prepared. The little baby is going to kick some ass in this part 😠
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Oh how I wish I could read people in such detail as he does. He doesn't only see but observe. But these little lessons with Baghra are utterly boring to him.
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Wait. She was preparing him to be a leader? She knew that this was what he would become?
The audacity of admiring his skills and then being angry at him for using them is...
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Look at that smug face! 😭😍
Yes, baby, be proud of your talents! 🫵
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The way he talks back is so cute :')
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Speak it to the microphone, little Aleksander 🎤
He has seen how Grisha don't live like humans. In decent conditions. They have no home, no real lives, nothing belongs to them. Aleksander seems tired and disappointed in seeing the same thing everywhere. No real change until he decided to do something.
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“I want you to know my name,” he said. “The name I was given, not the title I took for myself. Will you have it, Alina?”
“Yes,” I breathed.
After a long moment, he said, “Aleksander.”
DARKLINA FANS WHERE YOU AT?!?!
He gave his name and heart to the person he fell in love with!! This parallel has me on a chokehold
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The way others look at him in the background with worry, fear and apprehension. And he seems so uncomfortable. 😔
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Look how happy he is using his powers! Alone where someone will not judge him or run away from him screaming. The woods are also his comfort space which makes this scene even more heartwarming.
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He really tries so hard 😭😭
Yes, baby, give your shot! ✊
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The social awkwardness is real.
He just took a stick and began playing with it than choosing to talk with them (he's just like me). He has already grown used to the fact that he can't make friends because he's constantly on the move. So he's like "fuck it. There's no point to it anyway".
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He's so happy that someone else is entertained by his powers and not afraid for a change 😭
Sylvi is a sweetheart by the way. Love her.
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You sneaky little 🥹
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Eryk: *disappointed but not surprised*
It's just another normal day for him where people get angry or afraid because of his powers. But it still hurts him.
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Don't upset my baby that way 😠😭
And the way Aleksander seems ready to throw hands in the background.
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Little Aleksander to the rescue!!
He really said "Not on my watch"
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I want to adopt Sylvi. She's the cutest little thing😭
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The awkwardness from his part. How long has it been since he heard that word?
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I find that facial change so funny 😭
When he looks at the sisters he seems so happy. And when he comes home and sees Baghra he's like "😒"
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Baghra you really didn't have to flex that much. Okay, we get it you can use the Cut to its fullest.
(Also Baghra is tall wow)
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His little cuts in comparison 😭🤏
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What is this? The traumatizing hour? Taking place every day at 20:00 pm?
He let Alina come close and we all know how that affected him.
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mindnightpoet · 1 year ago
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Late night talking
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Summary: You long after him, he long after you. It's late night and he's lonely...What could happen?
Warnings: mention of Darklina, ooc Darkling, mutual pinning, sad Aleksander, confessions, smut (fingering, pussy eating, daddy kink, hair pulling), fluffy ending, no use of Y/N, lmk if I missed one
Minors do not read it. 18+ only
A/n: My first writing please be nice. I hope you like it. ENGLISH IS NOT MY FIRST LANGUAGE. SORRY FOR THE MISTAKES.
You stepped into his office. He turned from the desk and looked at you. He raised one of his brows waiting for you to explain why your there.
"Uhm..." you tried to start but his presence made you feel dizzy and nervous.
"Don't be nervous." He replies in a calm and soothing voice, "I'm not the monster they make me out to be you know" as he says this, he sets down the glass and pen before walking over.
You can't help but feel a spark of attraction, as you notice his powerful frame towering over you. He smiles, gesturing for you to sit down on the comfortable looking sofa.
You hesitantly sat on the sofa. "So...I-I...the reason I'm here..." you stuttered.
He leans back against the desk, crossing one leg over the other. "You can speak freely, there's no need for fear here" he says, before gesturing for you to continue.
His eyes flicker across to you, studying your features intently. You feel your face go warm as your heartbeat quickens slightly.
"I just wanted to ask...Is it mandatory to appear tomorrow at the party?" you didn't really wanted to see him and Alina flirting all night.
You watch as he leans forward, his eyes still on you as a faint smile forms. "No" he answers simply, raising his head to stroke his chin.
When he looks at you again, the intensity of his gaze makes your heart flutter. "You're not interested in the King are you?" he asks, a slight smirk curling at the corners of his mouth.
"No...I just..." you hesitated before continuing. "It's not my victory. It's yours and Alinas..." you explained.
He gives a sharp chuckle at your words, "You fought in the battle too, did you not? It was the victory of the whole army, including you" When he smiles at you again, you feel even more overwhelmed. "I'm glad that you think that, but the king is very much the focal point of the celebration. You can't just sit out on an event like that" he says in a teasing tone.
"But I want to. I'm not really a party person and I hate crowd" you said. You looked up at him, he's soo much taller than you.
His gaze falls to your lips, before he shakes his head and looks away. "The king is counting on you to be there" he says, trying to sound firm and stern. "And I need you to be there too" he adds in a serious voice. In any other situation, it would be easy to stand your ground, but when you look at him, you feel like you'd do anything for him.
He gives you an amused look, before speaking in a smooth voice once again. "I want you to be there with me, at my side, for the celebrations" he says, his eyes darting towards your lips again.
"You?" you asked confusedly. "But I....We...Aren't you going with Alina?" you felt so lost.
"Alina's a big girl, she doesn't need me looking after her. And I need you" he replies, stepping even closer now. As he speaks, your eyes are drawn to his lips and you feel your heart racing. "I need you to join me on the dance floor" he says in a whisper, leaning closer still and brushing his hand against yours.
"I...I don't..." you were cut off by his soft lips. His kiss felt so calming and exciting at the same time. For a moment, everything around you fades into the background. You're aware of nothing except the touch of his lips and his strong hands holding you. His mouth slowly parts, then his tongue strokes your lips. Then he pulls away slowly, leaving his lips lightly brushing against yours.
You catch your breath, feeling as though you had been hit by a lightning bolt. When your head clears, you look up to find him smiling back at you. He leans in again for another kiss, only for his lips to move to your neck.
"Ohh" you moaned out as his lips touched the sensitive skin of your neck. He slightly nibbed the skin and tried to find your sweet spot. Your body tingles all over as he lightly nibbles your neck, and it's as though your muscles stop working, leaving you helpless. His other hand gently pushes down onto the sofa, urging you to lean back. He softly whispers something in your ear, but you can't quite hear it over the sound of your own breathing becoming more ragged. "Oh...Kirigan" you moaned and threw your head back, giving him more access to your neck.
His lips move back towards you ear. "I've been waiting for this moment" he whispers, his lips touching your sensitive earlobes. His hand starts working its way beneath your shirt, his fingers caressing your skin. You feel yourself completely at his mercy, and this only increases your desire.
"Have...saints...have you?" you were breathless and felt the wetness pooling between your thighs. His hand under your shirt started to wander upwards.
"It's been so difficult not to touch you" he whispers into your ear, his fingers moving up the length of your torso, caressing your waist, your hips. "But I had to be patient."
His hand moves back under your shirt, this time firmly on your back, pushing you into an even more reclined position. His words come out as breaths in between soft kisses. "I want to make you feel like the only girl in the world" he says, before biting your earlobe again.
"You...ahh you already...do" you choked put between moans. He pulls your hair slightly, and whispers back to you, his voice low and husky.
"Good" he leans back in, his fingers exploring every inch of your figure under your shirt. You feel everything building and building, like you're about to explode. As he speaks, you feel his hands move towards your chest. "But I want to make you feel it even more" he says, his voice still in a whisper as his hands reach their destination.
"Ohhh Kirigan" you cried out. You wanted to know his real name to moan it...
As if he could read your mind he said; "Aleksander" he whispers, his voice sounding incredibly soft and soothing as he says his own name. As soon as you hear it, it feels like his name is branded into your mind. As he says his name, his soft lips move down to kiss your chest, and you feel his hands squeezing and caressing you. He lifts his head, and you see a light of desire in his eyes. He looks at you deeply and then leans in again for a passionate kiss.
"Aleksander" it felt so right to say it. "Beautiful" you whispered to him.
"My love" he whispers in reply, his lips still brushed against your ear. His hand shifts, and you can feel him rubbing his thumb along the sensitive skin of your breast. He leans in closer again to whisper in your ear.
"I want you to feel how beautiful you are" his words sound like a love song, his voice being so low and husky.
"Aleksander"
As soon as you finish saying his name, his lips press against yours with a great deal of passion, his grip on you only tightening. His other hand slides back under your shirt and starts exploring the curves and swells of your breasts in a teasing manner.
You moaned as he pressed you into the sofas soft mattress. His whole body fitted to your small one like it was meant to be this way. His hands continue to explore you gently and teasingly. You feel the pace increasing, but are caught in a state of euphoria. You press yourself even harder into the soft seat, your body feeling as though it's lost all function.
He looks down at you, his dark hair lightly falling across his face. Your eyes drift to his full lips, just barely parted as he looks down at you.
"You look...so..gorgeous Aleksander" you brushed the dark curls from his eyes.
"Not as beautiful as you" he replies in a low and husky voice, as his hands make their way down to your chest once again.
"So soft and sensitive" he says softly, caressing you gently before leaning down in for another kiss. As you look up at his face, you notice his pupils have dilated, and his breath comes in rapid and sharp gasps. His lips and tongue gently explore the sensitive spots on your chest. His other hand has shifted up your neck to your hair again, which he gently pulls to force you back into the seat.
"Please" you whined. You desparetly wanted his lips on you.
"My love" he breathes out slowly, his hand stroking your face. He shifts closer to you as his mouth moves further south until his lips touch your soft thigh. He gently pinched your hard nipples and sucked one into his mouth. You arched your back and pulled on his hair. The way pleasure travelled through you made you shiver.
"My god..." you groaned.
His fingers run along your thigh, drawing out sensations and anticipation. Even the smallest touch sends shivers down your spine, as he speaks in a low voice.
"Beg for it" he says, his eyes watching you and that slight smirk still in place on his lips.
"Please...Aleksander...please I need it..so bad" you cried impatiently. He hears your words, as well as his name, and it sends a sharp thrill through his body, only increasing the intensity of your connection. His lips touch you again, but it's light and teasing. He pulls away slightly, his eyes looking down at you.
"You have to beg harder" he says with low husky voice, his eyes still on yours.
"I...please...I'll do anything..please Aleksander" you bucked your hips to his mouth.
His hand strokes your torso as his other hand comes up behind you, gently pushing you into the seat. "That's more like it" he says, the smirk still at the corners of his mouth. "But you still haven't begged hard enough. Tell me who you belong to" je says, his voice taking on a commanding tone.
"You...You Aleks. I belong to you" you said hoping he'll give you want you want.
His eyes look at you with a blazing fire, his hands quickly moving down your thighs and over your body. His dark eyes never leave yours, his breath getting deeper as he watches you.
"Good girl." He whispers, his voice hoarse and husky, as his lips come down to kiss you. You kissed him back. His tongue exploared your mouth and danced with yours.
"Hmm" you moaned happily.
"That's a good girl" he says in a breathless voice, his lips separating from yours for a moment. As they brush against each other again, your lips part to his exploration. You feel every inch of your body being touched and caressed, his hands making you shiver with every movement. He shifts his mouth to your throat, your legs beginning to weaken and buckle under the pleasure overload.
You were so desparet to have his lips on you. You felt how the wetness of your pussy began make a puddle on the mattress. His fingers brushed aganist your wet core and he looked up at you.
"Soo wet" he hissed.
"I want to taste you" he says, his expression turning savage and animalistic. His hand slides back down over your wet thighs, as he looks down at your core.
"Such a perfect pussy" he leaned down and licked over your folds.
"Aleks...saints so.." you cried out. He gently started to suck and nibble on your clit. He talented fingers caressed your slit and pushed carefully into you.
"Ohh my" you stared moving your hips, but he pushed them down. You grabbed his hair and moaned loudly. "Daddy.." it slipped out so easily, but you regret it immediatly.
He lifts his head at the sound of your words, looking down at you with a smirk on his face. "Oh, what did you just call me?" he asks in a low voice and it makes you shiver all over. His hands shift towards your hips once again, forcing you to stay in place.
"Say it again" he gritted out. The way you moaned it made his erection worse. He needed to be in you...But first you will moan it loudly.
"D-daddy" you hesitantly said. Your words have him closing his eyes, his face contorting into a feral expression, he growled lowly. He looked at you with such lust and soft loving at the same time.
A look of pure lust and desire is in his eyes as he stares back at you, his breath becoming sharp and shallow. "Again love" he says in a voice that sounds half wild and savage.
"Daddy" you said much more confident now. His fingers moved fast in you. He leans in and kisses you before slowly pulling away, speaking in a low voice that's just enough to drive you crazy. "Again.." he says, and there's that smirk again, his eyes full of desire.
"You...you like it?" you asked. He nods at you in a slow and seductive manner.
"Very much love" he says, his hand stroking along your jaw. The look he gives you makes you clench around his fingers.
So you said...more like moaned it again.
"Daddy" he gripped your hips in respond. He seems to enjoy the sound of that name a lot, his eyes closing for a moment before he looks back at you. The grip of his fingers gets firmer when he hears it again. He leans in and whispers deeply in your ear.
"Good girl..."
He curled his fingers in you, reaching your G-spot. It made you moan loud. You feel yourself being slowly pulled deep into the sea of euphoria that only he could give you.
"Cum" he commanded. And you did.
His long fingers pumped in you fast and hard, the white, hot pleasure blinded you and you threw your head back. When you came down from your high, you opened your eyes.
He leans in closer to you, kissing your neck. "You're so beautiful when you come love" he says in a quiet voice, still caressing you. "I want you to look at me every time you come"
"This was amazing" you panted as you cling to him. "Thank you Aleks" you kissed his lips gently. He kisses you back, his hands moving down your body.
"Anytime my love" he says in a low voice, his eyes darting around the room. You see the look in his eyes as they land on something that catches your eye too- a beautiful gold locket hanging from the necklace he was wearing. It has your two initials on the front, and for a moment he looks away when you look at it. He quickly looks back at you. "Come here" he says, in a voice that commands your attention.
You moved closer.
"Since when did you have had this?" you asked as you touched the necklace. He looks down at you, that hint of sadness still in his eyes. It's just a small flicker that lasts a split second, before it goes away. But you noticed it. He looks down at the locket.
"I suppose now's the best time to tell you" he says in a soft voice. He takes a deep breath before continuing.
"I had it custom-made. I've liked you for a very long time now. And I knew that one day...it will you that I would want to be with forever. And so I had it made..for the day I had the courage to finally tell you"
"Ohh Aleks. You've been wearing our inatials all this time?" you teared up as grabbed the necklace. You brushed your fingers over it.
He nods at you, his voice low and soft. "I was hoping, you know? That one day you might see it, or notice that it was important. And I was waiting, hoping for the day that you might actually say that you cared too."
The way he says it, it almost seems like he has a difficult time believing that you feel the same way as he does. "I never got the chance to give you the necklace, so I guess that was my way of keeping you close to me."
"That's....I love you" you let it slip out. His eyes light up as he hears those words come out of your mouth.
"You do?" he asks, still looking at the inital necklace in your hand. "You love me?" he asks, his voice sounding both excited and surprised. "Please, you'll have to say it again" he says, a small smile on his face in response to what you said. "So I can hear it for myself to be sure I'm not going crazy."
"I do, for the longest time my love. I love you" you happily wrapped yourself in his hold.
"I love you"
Those words seem so simple, yet they mean so much.
He pulls you in tighter, kissing you deeply. His kisses are filled with all of the love and adoration that he'd been wanting to share with you but never had the chance to. His hand goes back to stroking your cheek, and his lips leave yours for a moment to whisper another
"I love you"
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qqueenofhades · 11 months ago
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Completely shocking, out-of-the-blue prompt that I've never mentioned to you before, definitely not inspired by work:
Ivan is a grumpy librarian/archivist, and Fedyor is a researcher who comes by looking for information on Darklina and/or their connection to Nikolai, and he finds the background of a love story. Obviously, the main character is Ivan's Disgust at the Perception of Heterosexuality
The light in the windowless back office is dim, grainy, and often gives Ivan a headache within the first few hours of him getting to work, which is not ideal for improving his temper. (Then again, not much is.) And despite its flaws, he does vastly prefer it to actually having to interact with the library patrons, as there is literally nothing worse than that. Especially academics, who come in with their laundry lists and their obscure texts, their pet projects and their insistence that if he just looks harder, he's sure to find it this time. Ivan has entertained many, many happy visions of just walking out, locking the doors behind him, and setting the whole thing on fire. Not that he has done that, and he probably -- probably -- wouldn't. He needs this job. Employment for a notorious ex-special ops soldier is thin on the ground as it is, and especially when it means he can, if he plays his cards right, spend most of the day completely alone. But still.
It is now, however, winter break at Os Alta Imperial State University, which means the throngs of panicked students trying to finish their last-minute assignment have mercifully receded, and Ivan can mostly organize his boxes in peace. Or so he thinks, until the accursed tinkle of the Please Ring for Service bell summons him like a wrathful specter, sweater-clad and glowering, to the front desk. "What?!"
"Uh. Good morning to you too." The newcomer -- young, dark-haired, and holding a large manila folder which portends absolutely nothing good, raises both eyebrows. "Can I speak to the archivist?"
"You're speaking to him," Ivan growls. This welcome has caused more than one quaking undergraduate to flee in abject terror rather than ask for even one book, and he fondly hopes for a similar effect this time. But the newcomer -- too old for an undergrad, so probably an advanced doctoral candidate or junior lecturer -- is made of stronger stuff, and doesn't flinch. "Can I help you, Mr... ?"
"Doctor," the annoyingly handsome interloper (not that Ivan has noticed) informs him. "Dr. Fedyor Kaminsky. I'm the new lecturer in the history department, Modern Ravkan History, and I was hoping that you could retrieve a few records for me? Boxes..." He consults his notes. Ivan contemplates murder. "T-1343 and T-1345 especially?"
Oh, great. Not again. Kaminsky -- yes, he vaguely recalls that name, from a department telegram welcoming the new faculty and staff, but it is absolutely not germane to Ivan's further actions in any part. He knows what is in those boxes, and someone always thinks they'll find something there that hasn't already been found, removed, and/or heavily censored. Ravka's last tsar and tsaritsa, Nikolai Lantsov and his half-Shu queen, Alina Starkov, are a figure of fascination and mystery for plenty of people, even after the revolution and the establishment of the Konsilium and everything that befell them as a result. Especially their relationship with the so-called Darkling, Aleksander Morozova, one of the most enigmatic and controversial figures in all of Ravkan history. Doctor Fedyor Kaminsky thinks he's going to jump into his new job with that? Good luck.
"We don't have those boxes," Ivan says, which is almost true. The Konsilium strongly prefers, in general, that people don't look at them, and any other uncomfortable bits of their history. "Go away."
Fedyor Kaminsky folds his arms. "No."
Saints, Ivan thinks sourly. What has he done to deserve this purgatory? (The Konsilium has also tried to outlaw the Ravkan Faith, since they're all supposed to be modern and secular now and because nobody wants another Apparat, but old habits are hard to break.) He stares at Fedyor, who stares back. This is confounding. Why hasn't he run away in terror yet? Everyone else does.
"Sorry," Ivan says, and turns away. "Can't help. Good day."
Naturally, Fedyor Kaminsky does not take the hint. He's back again the next day, still politely and stubbornly repeating his request for those boxes, and when Ivan loathingly suggests that the library is on winter-break hours and does not have to accommodate him at all, cheerily asks if Ivan's boss, the director of special collections, would agree. The threat of workplace discipline (or Saints forbid, a note in his permanent file) is stiff enough to make Ivan finally, furiously recant. Fine. If Kaminsky wants to get himself fired before even finishing his first year, it's nothing to Ivan. Might be a perk.
So, when they're into the second week of the requests, Ivan gives in, stomps to the back, and angrily hauls down the boxes, which are gathering dust from all the times he has, according to the rules, refused access to them before. It's not wise for Fedyor to look at these materials in the open, so Ivan tells him to take them to one of the backside reading rooms -- which is right across from Ivan's office, and makes him grimly reflect that he should have planned it better. But Fedyor works steadily and mostly silently, which is always a commendation in Ivan's book, and finally, on one dead-silent freezing morning right after the Winter Fete, when they are literally the only two people in the library and probably all of campus, he gives in. "What are you looking for?"
Fedyor jumps, glancing up in patent surprise. They eye each other for a long moment, as if to be sure that Ivan Sakharov actually did, entirely of his own volition, initiate a conversation with another human being. Then finally, warily, he says, "What's it to you?"
Good, Ivan thinks. Good instincts, just in case I was in fact an informer for the Konsilium. "I don't care," he says aloud. "I was just curious. They seemed so important to you."
"I'm just working on something," Fedyor says, after a long pause. "Confirming a hypothesis. It'll probably get me into trouble, but -- " He shrugs, with no small amount of bitterness. "I'm used to that."
Ivan thinks about it. This can't go anywhere good, but they've been made a strange sort of partners in this buried secret, and he's almost gotten used to Fedyor working away outside his door. "What?"
"I think they were lovers," Fedyor says, after a final, reluctant moment. "Alina and the Darkling, that is, and then also Alina and Nikolai, and maybe all three of them together. I think it's a love story. And as for why this matters, well -- it wouldn't change anything about our own history right now, how it all ended. But the narrative has always been that the Darkling was this awful monster who had to be destroyed, and the Grisha were his secret shock troops determined to overthrow the country on his behalf, and that pulled Alina and Nikolai into some regrettable circumstance they couldn't control and that led to their tragic downfall -- you know. It's just..."
"What?"
"I don't think it's true." Fedyor shrugs again. "I think everything we know about our own past, about the fall of the Imperial House of Lantsov, and about the Grisha, is a lie. And if that's the case, then the Konsilium knows it, or has covered it up, and that means -- "
"Shut up," Ivan interrupts roughly. "Saints. Don't talk like that. Someone could hear you."
"You could hear me." Fedyor smiles a little, a shadowed eclipse, and it does something very strange to Ivan's innards. "Does that matter?"
"I... " Ivan's mouth is dry. He can't look away. Not for any reason that means anything. "Never mind," he says, which seems the best and safest option, if it isn't already far too late. "Go back to work."
Fedyor eyes him a moment longer, then nods, a deliberate motion indicating that he knows and understands Ivan is choosing to keep his secret. Ivan himself doesn't know why, or what it is about Doctor Kaminsky, the feckless and foolish and fearless, that's gotten under his skin. It could be -- but no, it's not, it can't be that. From time to time, the very brave or very stupid actually think that Ivan himself is good-looking and try to flirt, and once a woman actually asked him on a date, which was the worst moment of his entire life (does he look like a heterosexual?!?!) But it's just shallow, surface-level, not like they're seeing him. Not like they know what monstrosity lies beneath. I think it's a love story. As if love matters. As if love, and the simple truth of it, can change the course of history.
Ivan shudders, once and then again. He looks at Fedyor for a very long moment, allowing himself -- just for that short and fleeting instant -- to imagine something he can never, never have. He grieves for it as if it was real, and then he lets it go. Turns, and walks away.
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saywha413 · 10 months ago
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I have a whole bunch of pokemon ships, so here’s a list (which I update every once in a while)
and if you’re looking for the old pinned (where I drew 12 ships) that’s here :) (individual drawings here)
here’s my old banner! linking to save for myself mostly lol
art tag is #my art writing tag is #my writing
tags relating to my fics: #a flame in the snow #what’s a rapport between friends?
random links: ao3 / artfight / toyhouse / pinterest / pokefarm / flight rising (I am very inactive on pokefarm and flight rising. I only check occasionally)
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Interests + favorite /r ships, favorite /p ships, & fave char (if they apply) !
Major! (I talk/think about them a lot)
Pokemon (games + anime (fixated on jn but never finished it, interested in hz but never started it)). just check the ship list linked above (or oc/hugh if that counts). Silver & Hugh & Gladion are so friends to me. Hugh
Cookie run (kingdom). Crunchyvelvet/Velvetchip. Red Velvet & my hc for his cousins, Black Raisin & Crowberry & Prune Juice. Red Velvet
Mythology (specifically Greek, but I like all of them!). Athena
Cats. generally.
Cassette beasts. Eugene x oc. Eugene
Unicorn overlord (I am insane abt this rn). Alain x Rolf x Aubin x Aramis x Ithilion. Alain & Lex. Rolf I think
Hades game. (I have beaten it !) Thanzag. Zagreus & anyone (his silly ahh banter >>>). Zagreus
Minor! (I do post about them, just not as much!)
Octopath traveler 1. Olberus/Eisenbright, Olberic x Erhardt. My current party (H’aanit, Therion, Olberic, Cyrus) is so found family to me (two gay dads and their lesbian daughter/gay son. I LOVE THEM). H’aanit, Therion
Fire emblem (three houses). Felileth/Bylix. Byleth & Black Eagles. Felix
Dislyte. Lufal. Falken
Monster hunter (stories (2)). Alwin x oc. Alwin & Navirou & Protag. Alwin
Dragon quest (xi). Luminerik, Henjasp. Erik
Animal crossing (new horizons). It feels weird to say I have ac ships but I’m a Bianca x Audie and Freya x Fang truther. Raymond
Afk journey. Valen x Merlin/oc ig. Valen
Background! (I like these things, just don’t rlly talk abt them! Feel free to ask abt them though!)
Zelda (botw/totk). Sidlink, Revalink. Link & Zelda Link
Stardew valley. Leah x farmer, Sambastian. Leah & Abigail. Leah
Mario. Bowser
The owl house (and the shows you would kinda associate with it? amphibia, the ghost and molly mcgee, she-ra, etc). Goldric/Huntric, Willumity. Luz & Hunter. Luz, Hunter
Encanto. Luisa
Miitopia
riordanverse or whatever it’s called (specifically pjo, hoo, and magnus chase)
Grishaverse (specifically soc duology). Wesper, Darklina. The crows.
Sims 4
Omori (got into it from a yt playthrough, never played it myself). Heromari
I’m not really into these fandoms, but there’s probably like one ship I really like in there lol
Sonic the hedgehog. Sonuckles, Blazamy. Sonic & Tails & Knuckles. Knuckles
Kingdom hearts. Soriku. Sora & Riku & Kairi. Riku
Disney descendants. Jaylos. Core four
Star vs the forces of evil. Tomco, Janstarkie.
Ace attorney. Wrightworth/Narumitsu
Miraculous. I actually hate the show (even though I watched the whole thing (it was like so bad I couldn’t tear my eyes from it)) but alas. I do like Lukadrien, Zoegaminette, Feligaminette.
dunmeshi. Labru, kinda also Farcille. (I could watch it. but like. it’s only subbed afaik and I cannot watch anything without eng vas bc I basically just listen to things while I play video games or draw or smth. I do want to watch it though and I might at some point))
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if we are besties (read: mutuals), feel free to ask for discord/switch friend code! I have the right to politely decline if I feel we’re not close enough though! (no need to worry though. there’s a good chance I accept)
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they’re dancing :)
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takaraphoenix · 2 years ago
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Ok so I just finished watching Shadow and Bone for the first time and I knew you had watched it before so I came to see what your opinions on some of it was. Didn't really see anything for what what is probably my favorite ship is but I don't really care about that right now. I think I'm more interested in knowing what you're Top 5 favorite ships are (Top 10 if you feel like you're having a hard time narrowing it down to just 5 but from what I saw, I don't think that would be a problem???). Also, if you feel up to it, any favorite headcanons for the various characters or ships you might want to include. Much love to you Phoe!!! Now I'm off to go consume for content because I need my pretty men... gods, why are there so many pretty men in this show 😭😭😭 a lot of pretty women too, though I'm gay so it's just aesthetically pretty on their part, lol
oooh you watched ot for the first time! I hope you liked it! And well now I'm cirious what your favorite ship was.
Since I only have exactly 10 ships in this fandom, I will give you a top 10! lol Though since these are all the ships, they actually do span the entire spectrum of "I am obsessed with this", "I've written for this" to "it's a nice sidepairing! I liked when they were on screen but don't really think about them when they're not".
Aleksander/Alina
Inej/Alina
Kaz/Jesper
Genya/Alina
Tamar/Inej
Nikolai/Mal
Nikolai/Alina
Tamar/Nadia
Jesper/Wylan
David/Genya
+ bonus: Tolya/poetry
because I definitely came out of this headcanoning Tolya as aroace and I want this softest of boys to find someone who will platonically share his love of poetry with him. Please. He deserves it.
Not a secret that Darklina is my OTP. I'm not exactly quiet about it. They make me feel all shades of unhinged. I gotta get onto writing about them, honestly, can't believe that hasn't happened yet, but I guess that s1 left me too satisfied with canon overall to want to write just yet. Currently nose-deep in fics about them.
Alina and Inej is a solid second. They didn't have much interaction but what they had was gold. The blade protecting her saint. The worship and awe. These two badasses. I love them. And, much like Alinej, both Kaz/Jesper and Genya/Alina were also ships I came out of s1 with and wrote for after that.
Honestly, Tamar/Nadia would rank higher if the show had dedicated more time to them, but they happened so much in the background and I'm genuinely mad about that. I had to sit through so so so much straight drama especially in this season, but the only wlw ship in this entire show and they barely got screentime. They were cute together, visually, but... I didn't get enough of what made them click, or of Nadia's personality in general to be quite honest, to be as invested as I wanted to be (because I did. I knew that Nadia was a wlw and I knew that Tamar would be introduced this season and I was looking forward to this). So, with what the show gave me? I was like "daw, cute" when they were on screen, yeah.
On the other hand, I love both Tamar and Inej, and the potential of Inej now on the ship makes me think of the potential of those two together. Now, I am a lover of poly so I would not be opposed to just mashing these two ships together either. But I'm really intrigued by Tamar/Inej primarily here.
Nikolai and Alina worked surprisingly well. Didn't think I'd end up with another guy for Alina aside from Aleksander. But I really liked their chemistry and the fake marriage plotline absolutely ended me. He could be her trophy husband, I wouldn't mind.
Jesper and Wylan were honestly a positive surprise to me! You know me, you know my track-record with canon mlm ships! I usually do not like them. So that they made the list at all is great. I'm not super invested, but I thought they were adorable.
And Genya and David were cute too. I don't get why they killed David off? From what I gather, they don't in the books, so that was weird. But I thought they were nice.
Headcanons? Mostly sexuality wise.
Ace Kaz. Ace Kaz was the first once I had. I know his touch aversion roots in trauma but I recognize a lot of my own sex-repulsion in his behavior and am projecting hard so ace Kaz. Also definitely dom Kaz, have you seen that man rule his club, or bring Pekka to his knees (not that I want Pekka to sub for him, ew, but the power Kaz radiated in that moment was *chef's kiss*).
Nikolai the pan pirate who definitely should never have been a prince, like, I would love him so much more if he had just been a pirate but thoughts on the monarchy and how that plotline was handled are too much for this post. ANYWAY yeah I think Nikolai should go back onto his ship and pirate away with his boyfriend. Also, just, can you believe the Enemies to Lovers arc Mal and Nikolai had? I mean, they literally went from "I refuse to know your name" to "take my name", like that is explicitly something that happened in canon. Wild.
Lesbian Inej, which I know, not a popular headcanon in the fandom since the fandom seems to unanimously ship her and her endgame romance. I just... don't really get romantic vibes there at all, even after season 2. I like them as friends, a lot. But I'm getting huge lesbian vibes from Inej and will be clinging onto that, even more so after how little wlw love s2 gave me.
Mal as a suppressed gay would be fun. Like, his thing with Alina was annoying. He didn't give a damn about her romantic feelings for him until she had a boyfriend and suddenly he got jealous. I don't like these types of writings. So I'd love to see that more as Mal never having been romantically interested in her at all, just friend!Mal afraid to be abandoned. The cheeky pirate is his gay awakening. All the girls - and apparently book!Mal was kind of a slut - were just him trying really hard to be straight.
Alina is just a bi queen. And queen literal. That's where the "Niko should go sail with his bf" part comes into play, because... the monarchy needs to go down. She should rule, she should have never supported the damn royal family that's been enslaving and oppressing Grisha for centuries, I just. I don't like that part. I really don't. Ship to rule beside her is optional (Aleksander, Genya, okay fine Nikolai but like she rules, he's just her trophy husband), but queen!Alina is a must. Though gotta admit for my Alinej I still love her as a part of the Crows - post s1, I wrote some where Alina and Mal just... stayed with the Crows after they left Ravka and I'm still fond of that. I still think that would be a fun take.
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where-theres-smoak-2 · 2 years ago
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S+B Season 2 Alina and Nikolai Clip Thoughts (Spoilers)
I just watched the clip released showing the meeting between Nikolai, Alina and M*l. I think its revealed some interesting possibilities and I have a few questions now too. I am going to be discussing some things that happened in the books in this post so you’ve been warned if you haven’t read the books and don’t want to be spoiled, scroll on past. 
I said in another post that I thought maybe the grisha in the cages was actually where the first army had turned on the grisha after Novokribirsk and judging from the opening line from Nikolai in this clip I am even more sure that is exactly what is going on. What is interesting is it looks like everyone believes that Alina and Aleks were working together which makes me think that this shot:
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With what appeared to be a propaganda poster in the background might actually be like a news piece or even a wanted poster. If people do believe that Alina and Aleks were working together then maybe they are now actually both being hunted. Maybe the first army are searching for them and Aleks has now found himself in the same position he was in during that flashback in ep 7 of season 1, but Alina is also now in that position even after Aleks promised her he wouldn’t let her become the new heretic. I do wonder how this is going to effect darklina’s relationship. Like now that she herself is being hunted is it going to make her  a little sympathetic towards Aleks or is there only going to be anger between them. She seems pretty angry at him here but I am curious to see what their dynamic is in these mind palace scenes and whether Alina will have moments where she is conflicted and can relate to Aleks and understands where he is coming from even if she doesn’t agree with him. I do feel like at the moment they both feel like the other betrayed them and I suspect at first they’ll both just be too angry but I do wonder if over time that anger will soften and Alina will start trying to listen more to Aleks’ side and vice versa. 
Another thing this clip makes pretty clear is that it looks like that whole plotline of the Darkling working with Nikolai to find the sea whip and Alina and M*l being held captive on the boat has been cut. This opens a whole kettle of worms because that means no Ivan death scene, so are they just going to say in the show that he never made it out of the fold? It means Genya never lets Alina go which means the Darkling has no reason to scar her and we’ve seen pictures where it doesn’t look like she is scarred so does that mean they are just cutting that whole plot out too? It also changes how Alina and Nikolai meet and how Alina and Aleks reunite. From this clip my theory is that Nikolai has seen the poster and has captured them because of this and is maybe threatening to hand them over to the First Army and Alina is now bargaining with him. I wouldn’t be surprised if there is some kind of reward for their capture. I do think at this point Alina won’t know that it is Nikolai the prince and will likely think this is Sturmhond which is why she says he will be rewarded if he works with them, she thinks he’s just a pirate looking for his next pay out. Another possibility is that Alina sought Nikolai/Sturmhond out, maybe they did some investigating and asking around about whether there was someone who could be hired to help search and were pointed in his direction. Personally I think the first theory is more likely but you never know.
Another difference is it looks like Alina is the one hunting the other two Morozova amplifiers, again this is different in the books as she was very upset when she finds out that the darkling was looking for the sea whip to put on her and didn’t want it. I am glad for this change though as it does give Alina alot more of her own agency as opposed to the books where it felt more like she was being dragged form plot point to plot point by other characters. What did catch my attention though was when Alina brings up the sea whip to Nikolai, M*l goes to interrupt and stop Alina from saying anything further. It is obvious that he isn’t happy about something here. So my question is are they going the same route as the books and M*l has a problem with Alina hunting the other amplifiers because he thinks she is getting too power hungry, I mean he had some major issues with her having the sea whip amplifier in the books. Or is it just that he doesn’t trust  Nikolai and doesn’t want Alina sharing their plans with him or what he considers sensitive information? Is it possible we could see some tension between M*l and Nikolai? I also wonder whether or not they are going to go with the whole Nikolai as a potential love interest thing or not and whether they’ll have the political engagement part. Honestly, personally I think Alina already has a more interesting dynamic with Nikolai in this 1 min clip than she does with M*l but I still don’t think they’ve got time with everything else they’ve got to cover to introduce a romance as well but who knows, we’ll just have to see I guess. 
With them changing the whole search for the sea whip and cutting out Aleks capturing Alina and M*l though I can’t help but wonder/worry about what they are going to be doing with Aleks’ character instead. If he’s not on the boat with others searching for the Sea whip then where is he? What is he doing? It does look like from the trailer that he at least will be saving some of the grisha that were turned on by the first army but other than that we really don’t seem to have much of an idea on what Aleks is going to be up to this season. Honestly I am a little worried that we might not see much of his character and they are going to have cut his role right back which seeing as he’s the most interesting character to me would be a bit of a bummer for me personally. It also makes me wonder how and when he and Alina will reunite outside of the mind palace, but also when Genya and Alina will and what that dynamic is going to look like. Anyway I’m done rambling now, I’m still not sure how to feel about the new season, the closer we get and the more promo content they put out the more nervous I get but I am still holding out hope that I’ll enjoy the season, only two weeks left to go.  
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goblins-riddles-or-frocks · 1 month ago
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Fic | A Light That Burns
Status: Complete, 4.3k
Notes: Darklina, Background Nikolina marriage, Post R&R, Captivity
The Darkling returns in Nikolai’s body.
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ackermental · 11 months ago
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i'm not done with season 2 (barely started) but i'll say this: i wish they had fixed jessie and archie's chemistry because they don't work. they don't compare to the chemistry ben and jessie have. i can see them acting, i can tell they're straining to portray the desire in their makeout scene for instance whereas with darklina's scene it just flowed
Honestly, there was no chemistry between Jessie and Ben in season two as well. Alina was so disgusting with her entitelment, that I found her a very hard character to swallow. I mean, people are complaining about Amazon!Galadriel acting like a spoiled brat all the time, but at least Galadriel had the necessary background to demand such respect and she did get herself fucked over because of her behavior.
Alina only gets more prises and rewards for acting like a frickin' psycho.
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aralisj · 11 months ago
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3, 12, 16, 17, 27, 29 (you don't have to answer all of them i'm being a little gluttonous)
3. What work are you most proud of (regardless of kudos/hits)? An all time favorite is I Said "Baby You're Not Lost" but this year I would say no words appear before me in the aftermath - it's really short, I'd never written for The Bear and I was quite proud with how the dialogue and tone of the whole scene turned out
12. How many WIP’s do you have in your docs for next year? Mmm, I still have to finish my Reddie Ice Skating AU, my Steddie Soulmate AU, my Darklina MUA/Method Actor AU, and a little Good Omens Epistolary - Hozier inspired thing. I also have half finished chapters for a Matt Murdock/Jessica Jones Bodyguard AU and a continuation to my Andrew Garfield!Peter/Dev Patel!MJ AU. So, six if another hyperfixation doesn't hit 😬
16. What’s your most common “Additional Tags” tag? Alternate Universe by a mile (see above). I love to take my blorbos and put them where they shouldn't be lol Obviously my favorites are Ice Skating AU and Soulmate AU 🥰💜
17. Your favorite character to write this year? Eddie Munson. I don't write many earnest characters and it's been fun to write for a character that honestly doesn't care if he comes across as "too much" - also there's so little canon about him that it's a very creative process overall
27. What do you listen to while writing? Sometimes I play a character/ship playlist but usually it's a boring procedural on TV playing in the background or something
29. Favorite line/passage you wrote this year?
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A little long, it's one of the letters of the aforementioned Good Omens Hozier inspired epistolary thing. Proud of how I interweaved bits of From Eden with the lore of their relationship. Dunno, it's not much but it's honest work lol
AO3 Wrapped Asks
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aleksanderscult · 11 months ago
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Ruin and Rising, Chapter 15 (The burning of the orphanage)
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This is a fanmade, animated video where the creator shot the tether scene between Alina and the Darkling in which the latter has burned the orphanage and shows her the corpses.
An incredible film where the simple, melodic and beautiful music in the background contrasts the severity of the scene.
Alina's pain and the Darkling's empty look in his eyes will give you chills and make you understand that, in this moment, they're both mourning.
PLUS: Very accurate to the books!!
(Warning!⚠️ Don't look at the YouTube comments if you are a Darklina/Darkling fan. You'll get infuriated)
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jomiddlemarch · 2 years ago
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Made-up title:  what makes life so sweet (from Emily Dickinson)
Okay, I had a whole typed out thing about a Bletchley Park Darklina AU where Alina is a cryptanalyst and Aleksander is a senior member of the code-breaking team who intercedes when she's about to be fired due to her Eurasian (purposely using period appropriate term) background and she repays him with her sweet ration and then Tumblr ate it.
So I had another idea I think I like better. This time, it's a SAB x Crimson Field crossover where Aleksander is a battle-hardened surgeon working at the front during WWI and Alina is one of the new nurses, who is overlooked and underestimated by nearly everyone except for fellow new nurse Genevieve Saffron. Aleksander is impressed by Alina's abilities and finds out she wants to become a doctor herself. They work together very closely after a major battle with hundreds of casualties and in the aftermath, she gives him a jar of blackcurrant jam that he stirs into tea he makes for them to share. She calls him Major Morrow until the fic ends with him saying,
"Call me Aleksander."
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theterrorofbeingseen · 2 years ago
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going to bed besties. will not be on tumblr until ive finished watching tomorrow eveningish. godspeed darklina girlies. we’re in a for a rough day. im coping my making the darklina my background again and listening to the s&s audiobook. which i admittedly would have been doing anyways
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lemonhemlock · 2 years ago
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Thanks for answering. The thing is I'm terrible at watching shows with horrible plot holes. Im like an old woman screaming at the tv when they don't do things the way i think is logical . My friends complain about that all the time 😅.
Some of the gifs i saw where darkling was beefing with a twenty something actor (mal?) made me laugh coz he seems like a kid, and I'm like why are u trying to hook up with his girlfriend, a teen character (Alina)? I'm very annoying watcher.
(from the gifsets alone i feel more like mal x alina person. I hope the names are right. Funfact i thought Malina and darklina were 2 girls fighting over a dude, i didn't know the dudes name at all 😅)
LOL your last paragraph had me snorting my oatmilk 😂
the darkling is supposed to be a few centuries old so him beefing with any kind of person is going to looks redic, i'd say :)) i think alina starts off as 17 in the show?
mal is just the most colourless guy imo their ship bores me to tears
but anyway! you can always put it on in the background while you're doing something else & that way gauge if you like it enough
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