#back from the edge

[kiwivskiwi]

I fell back down to Earth Through a hole in the sky

[dickinson-devotee]

Music Video Countdown to Bruce Dickinson's The Mandrake Project:

Back From the Edge — 7 March 1996 dir. Bruce Dickinson

"The opening line to the vid is one take. Which the record company refused to believe! "Nah, it's trick photography, innit?" It's not! I said, "You find the edit, there is no edit there at all, it's all one take." "You can't hold your breath for that long." I said, "It is one take, trust me, it really is!"

So we lip synced it, we did two or three things, and I think directing it was the toughest thing, because every time you came up for air, [gasping and coughing], you're sort of sitting there [looking at] this little monitor going, "Let's have a look at it back... ah, bit more to the left this time, then!" Then you go down and do it."

[poprocklyrics]

I wanna live with you Even when we're ghosts 'Cause you were always there for me when I needed you most

Say You Won't Let Go, James Arthur

[nkeshyy]

It's always as if he doesn't know how to make a bad album.

[booksandwords]

Back from the Edge by K.C. Wells

Read time: <1 Day Rating: 5/5 Stars

The Quote: All it takes is one step. Just close your eyes and step out over the edge. It’ll all be over before you know it. — Philip Thornley

Warnings: Abuse, suicidal thoughts

Back From the Edge follows Philip Thornley, Sebastian Durrant and Sebastian's dog Honey for 24 hours. Set on the Isle of Wight, it starts on the edge of a cliff and ends in a warm and cozy quintessentially British cottage. This is a novella that absolutely does not need to be any longer than it is. Any longer and you'd be heading into some overly dark places, as it is the impact of them is shown but not the acts themselves. We are talking about abuse by a mother, social and intellectual abuse. Potentially physical but he stops short of saying it. Abandonment by the father. Honestly, it's heartbreaking. I'm not going to go into Seb and Phillip too much here, I think this is a story and characters that need to be read. To just be told would lose the emotional weight of the story.

What I will say is the blurb is semi-misleading. I found it to imply that the narrator is Seb the owner of the dog, the one that finds the suicidal man. The opposite is true, the primary narrator including the scene at the cliffs is Phillip. We are in his mind hearing the intrusive thoughts and hear them more than once. We do flash to the scene at the cliffs as experienced by Seb but later. The hero of the book is 12-year-old Golden Retriever Honey. That dog is written as a bit of a guardian angel. And as a pup definitely missed a calling as an assistance dog. Despite what Sebastian may say to the contrary. She is a perfect way to speak for the reader without words if that makes sense. Caleb while just a picture and an abstract voice is very present. I appreciate how he was done and his ongoing presence in Seb's life.

I want to share some of the brilliant lines from the story because I really like K.C. Wells's writing.

Philip blushed. “I saw this series called Queer as Folk.” Seb snickered and that eased him for some reason. “As soon as I saw men kissing, having… sex”—he felt his cheeks heat up even further—“I knew I’d come home. That’s how it felt. And then I discovered Torchwood—and fell in love with Captain Jack Harkness.” Seb snorted. “Who didn’t?” — This is just a mood. I'm so glad it's here. Jack Harkness is an omnisexual legend and let's be honest John Barrowman didn't make it hard for many of us to go with it. (Philip and Sebastian)

"For the first time in a long while, Philip felt a new emotion stir deep within him. Hope." and "It was so difficult to resist the negativity which had epitomized his thinking for so long. It was far easier to lose sight of the first glimmers of hope which had surfaced throughout his hours spent with Seb and Honey." — These are twin quotes essentially a chapter apart happening at quite different times of the day. I found them to be critical inclusions for a slight feel of realism. That sense of realism is what I liked about the writing. It's not so much to be distressing but enough to make you think and pull you in. (Phillip)

“Don’t, please. Don’t think about it. I know what’s going through your mind. Believe me, the same thoughts haven’t left mine since I brought you here.” — These thoughts are fairly easy to derive given the context of their meeting. But I include it because I wanted to express y love of the idea that both Phillip and Seb acknowledge thoughts like this. They are both aware of their situation and what could have been. (Sebastian)

The main plot takes place over 24 hours representing the idea of each day is a new today and so much can change. With an epilogue 2 years later. There is no sex it is not that kind of story and wouldn't suit the plot and characters if there was. One is a widower of 3 years who is only just feeling again for the first time the other is hurting. That is not to say there isn't some on-point intimacy. This is absolutely not for everyone, not only is it short it is heavy. There are some serious red lines in here much as there was in Debt (which reminds me I really need to read Burden). But if you are willing to try it you will likely enjoy it.

[dkowd]

🎼

You can say what you like, don't say I wouldn't die for you

I, I'm down on my knees and I need you to be my God

Be my help, be a savior who can

[deadpoetsandlivinglegends]

Todd doesn’t talk much in the beginning but I think one random night Todd would go on a sudden 35 minute rant while doing Latin homework about how poetic it is that the Latin word for love is amor cause it sounds like armor, and love makes you feel safe, and Neil would sit there and listen, occasionally adding in comments if it seems like Todd is winding down to get him started up again, and after that Neil tries to get Todd to go on rants whenever he can so he can just sit and listen to Todd go on, sometimes it works and sometimes, especially when they are out and Todd feels anxious, it doesn’t, but every time he does talk on for long bouts of time, Neil just thinks ‘love makes you feel safe’

[lum164]

"you better not be cunty Zero when i get back!"

my cuntane ass:

[andi-o-geyser]

despite how you feel about the changes from the stream to the show, if you like or dislike them, i love how inherently hilarious the narrative path tlovm is taking regarding perc’ahlia is because a situationship would literally kill campaign percy and vex like how the internet would kill a small victorian child. they are NOT built for that

[lulublack90]

Prompt 11 - First Kiss

@wolfstarmicrofic January 11, word count 404

Sirius had been obsessing over Remus’s lips for weeks, months, probably years. He’d become suddenly aware of how much Remus affected him one evening when they were crowded around one of the fireplaces in the Gryffindor Common room, and Remus had just finished off this third chocolate frog. There was a thin smear left on the corner of his mouth. Sirius watched as the tip of Remus’s tongue poked out and swiped the last bit of chocolate, disappearing back into Remus’s mouth before poking out again and slipping across Remus’s lips. Since then, Sirius hadn’t gone a day without wanting to touch them with his own. 

He and Remus were sitting in the quidditch stands, watching James racing up and down the pitch with the quaffle as Gryffindor played against Ravenclaw for the quidditch cup. 

The game went on for hours, both teams neck and neck for points, it was going to come down to whoever caught the snitch first. 

Sirius had grabbed onto Remus’s sleeve half an hour ago when Fuller had almost caught the snitch, her fingers brushing against the golden ball for a second before the snitch darted out of her reach. A wave of exasperated sighs chorused around the stadium at poor Fuller’s fumble.

Twenty minutes later, Fuller suddenly shot straight up and reached out her hand. She levelled off with her hand firmly clasped around the golden snitch. 

The roar that rose from the Gryffindor supporters was deafening. The crowd jumped to their feet, jumping and cheering as the players circled the stands. 

Sirius turned to Remus to join in the celebrations with him, and then he saw the joy on Remus’s face and the smile stretching his lips. He couldn’t take it any more. He took a huge chance, grabbed Remus’s face with his hands, and captured his lips with his own. 

They were soft, yet had a firmness to them when, to his surprise, they kissed him back. Remus wrapped his arms around him and Sirius melted into him. All the surrounding noise disappeared as he and Remus kissed. Someone could have been talking directly to him, and he wouldn’t have heard them, because at that moment only Remus mattered. 

They broke away and stared at each other breathless and with uncertain eyes. 

“Hi,” Sirius said, his voice cracking. Remus smiled at him. 

“Hi,” And then he was kissing Sirius again and Sirius had never been happier. 

[gayofthefae]

Say what you will but just like season 1 actually queercoded both Will and Mike through bullying, 4x01 queercoded both Will and Mike too. In both of their establishing school experiences:

In History, a girl tries to play footsie with Will but he pulls away.

At lunch, Mike sits with his new D&D club which is described as "promoting sodomy".

(even the tones of queercoding shows which kid stayed in Hawkins😬)

[hiimbloblos]

Did you know that you can change the text on the sign that Pam leaves?

(you can also break it and basically steal it from her)

[tsuchinokoroyale]

Happy new years… let’s stay hydrated together ✨

[radioinactivity]

dog bites man

sequel to this

[snip-stein]

Studyin' them time travel guys~

[manic-sapphic]

i. am. deceased. just look at these moonstruck sapphics. i am in pain. and i love it.

¯\_(ツ)_/¯