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[endometriosis-mydiarymyjourney]

The Cloud of Infertility...

This Blog is more about getting out how I feel. You don’t have to agree with me, you don’t even have to read with me. But if you feel the same way as I do, maybe reading this will give you a sense of setting down a huge burden. It seems to relieve the stress I feel sometimes just writing it. That being said, I feel like I am living in this constant dream. One were I can not tell if its real or fake. I can see a dark sky no sun or clouds. Just grey, the kind of grey that is depressing and sad. I feel like I am living in this colorless world, like the the time of day is always set as twilight. I want a child. I am angry that my body can not perform the most basic of its being. Bringing in life. I know that as a woman with or with out a child I am full and whole. As I come closer to my 30′s I wonder if I will ever stop being angry with myself. If I will ever get to cry the happy tears of joy instead of carrying this huge lump in my throat that I get when I see only one line on pregnancy test. I am shadowed by this. I am trying my hardest to live my life. But its seems as though I am missing something. I am. Am I barren? Is my womb not fit to carry the best parts of myself and the love of my life? Will I ever be a mother? The type of mother I want to be? Not an adoptive mother. Although my audience must know I am not against it. It’s just hard to look past something you want so bad. In this dream, I am standing on a pier. Looking out into the ocean. And I feel so small by its size and strength. I feel a chill on my cheek because there is no sun, but I can smell rain coming. I stand there naked and in a trance. I am bleeding between my legs and I can feel the blood wrapping around the crease near my knees. I see lightening. I scream... There is no sound, just the sound of the thunder and the wind against my hair. I am hopeless and this anger is unforgiving.. This is my dream. When I wake up its just the same. It’s in the baby shower I attend, the baby shower gifts I shop for as I stand in the aisle at the store. It’s in every “when are you two planning to have children?” questions. In the look on my lovers eyes when he lays his hand on my stomach. It’s everywhere, there just isn’t any Thunder or lightening. Or is there? This is my testimony, on my constant storm cloud. You just don’t hear me scream...

[oxsirenxo]

Olivia Inez Brooks 12/28/2017 #babybrooks #olivia #inez #brooks #oliviainez #decemberbaby #babiesofinstagram #newborn #monogram (at Phoebe Putney Memorial Hospital)

[thebabybrooklynriver]

Grindr || Open

Babybrooks: I have no idea what I’m doing

Babybrooks: But like hey hi

Babybrooks: eggplant emoji?

[brookdlin]

I found my baby blanket, which, weirdly, is exactly what I needed. I named him Bearbie as a kid, and once upon a time we were inseparable. Today I moved into my first solo apartment. In a week I'll start law school, and he's seen me through it all. #memories #babybrook #glitteraf

[aether-asterisk]

What/Who is the Babadook? I've heard of him but I don't understand it too well -Anonaline

it’s either a book turned into a movie or a movie with an official movie-based book. i have no idea which came first, but you can find a dramatic reading of the book here (WARNING: is a bit scary!!!!! watch with caution!!!!!!)

if you’re too scared to watch the video, that’s understandable, so i will simply explain in my own words: the babadook is a scary creature who scares kids AND adults (that’s right, not even grown-ups are safe from him), and the more you deny his existence, saying you’re “too old to be scared of him”, the more powerful he gets, and he possesses you into doing bad things or something like that.

basically: the bye-bye man (a newer horror movie -- “don’t say it, don’t think it”) meets some disturbed childhood drawing/imaginary friend. down to the ridiculous name that kinda ruins the whole thing. i’ve even taken to shamelessly mocking his name (bapduck, booblook, papahook, babybrook, babylon, baptism, etc.). that’d probably make him mad but don’t worry, he’s definitely not real. it’s just a movie/book/whatever it’s ok

[posterboi]

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[oxsirenxo]

9 weeks until #babybrooks #bigsister #ariel #kaylynne #aries #littlemermaid #31weekspregnant #pregnant #pregnancy #rockitlikearedhead #howtobearedhead #redhead #ginger #gingersofinstagram

[nerdrachel]

Tara baby you have a big family and we all can't wait to meet you my little alien👽 #BabyBrooks #LordHelpMeItsAGirl

[posterboi]

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[oxsirenxo]

19 weeks until baby! #21weekspregnant #baby #babybrooks #pregnant #pregnancy #rockitlikearedhead #howtobearedhead #redheadproblems #ginger #redhead #gingersofinstagram #longhairdontcare #mermaid #curls #polkadots

[oxsirenxo]

29 weeks! #29weekspregnant #11weekstogo #babybrooks #ariel #kaylynne #easterbaby #newyearsbaby #happybaby #sillyface #aries #littlemermaid #pregnant #gestation #longhair #longhairdontcare #rockitlikearedhead #howtobearedhead #ginger #redhead #gingersofinstagram #babiesofinstagram #halloween