#baby logan makes me so happy i lov im

[fishfinz]

2018 Redraw!

the one on the right was my first official kindersides piece back in 2018 so after finishing the main four’s redesigns i indulged in nostalgia! they’re all so cute...

[emphoenixcat]

Your such a great writer! So I heard this song and I love it so much I was thinking maybe a logicality based off of this quote 'im sorry baby, please puppy, im trying to be ultra mega happy. And show you my smile and send you my feelings and fuck it is so hard' with patton saying it. Cause he's just been hurting so much lately and logan tells him that he doesn't have to do all that. And fluff at the end (sorry I just really love logicality angst) -🐢

I looked up the song, I can totally see it as something Patton would listen to! 

Song: Airplane Mode by Limbo

Okay, so I’d say the setting is probably before the “Moving On: Exploring Nostalgia” videos.

Patton was getting really sick of pretending to be untroubled, a smile continuously stretched across his face like a mask.

It especially bothered him when one of the other Sides insulted him. Usually it was Logan, who disagreed with the moral side. Logan, who carelessly took for granted Patton’s input. Logan, who saw Patton’s presence as inconsequential.

This sometimes angered Patton, but it mostly made him feel useless and stupid. He liked Logan, but he wasn’t all that sure that the logical side felt the same about him.

I don’t know big, fancy words like he does. I try to do my best for Thomas and the others too. I even compliment Logan and try my best to make him feel like he matters. The least he could do is show me the same courtesy.

I just want to be included in the decision-making. I’m as much a part of Thomas as any of them, he thought frustrated.

Patton was sitting in the family room, the main part of the mindscape. He sat on the couch with the TV on in front of him. He wasn’t really watching it though.

The moral side didn’t really like being in his own room, too many extra thoughts and feelings flying around him dangerously. He was rarely in his room at all, but nobody seemed to notice. I guess they just figure that I’m always around to help.

Since the others weren’t around, Patton was slumped over on the couch with his gaze fixed on the carpet. A bleak expression characterized his features.

Nobody likes you, he glumly thought to himself.

Thomas is better off without you. Just look how you have hurt him by falling in love with someone. How you hurt him by thinking the worst, but even more by assuming the best.

Patton swiped away at a small tear that had managed to escape him.

Look how you hurt yourself.

“Patton?”

The moral side jumped at the voice, he hurriedly straightened his sitting position and touched his face to make sure there were no more stray tears. He turned around in his seat with a perfectly choreographed grin etched on his face.

“Oh! Hey, Logan!” he said cheerfully.

Inwardly, Patton was remembering a song.

“It’s playing tricks. I say I’m fine, but really it’s hurting me deep inside”

“You alright? You were staring at the ground when I walked in and completely ignoring the comedy on television. Very unlike yourself.” Logan observed.

“Of course I’m fine. Why wouldn’t I be?”

The smile was beginning to slip, Patton hastily changed the subject.

“Did you need something, Lo?”

Logan pondered Patton carefully. “I was just wondering if you maybe wanted to help me with a science experiment?”

“You want my help? Why?”

Logan shifted uncomfortably, “Because….things tend to be better when the heart is involved….”

Patton stared at Logan in surprise.

“I’ve noticed that you’ve been a bit downcast lately and I can’t help, but think that that might be my doing. I haven’t exactly been supportive.”

“Logan, it is impossible for you to do wrong. Besides, I haven’t been downcast, I’ve just been–” Patton smiled uncertainly. “–a bit tired is all.”

The logical side eyed Patton sadly. “Don’t force yourself, Pat. You’re the heart. It is only natural for you to feel pain after heartbreak.”

Patton shook his head, desperately keeping the grin plastered to his face.

Logan frowned, brushing his fingers delicately underneath the moral side’s eyes and bringing forth a glistening teardrop. He stared at the drop of sadness that dampened his fingertip and slowly glanced back up at Patton.

“Pat?”

Morality began crying openly, the smile refusing to stay. He knows now. He knows now, the moral side thought miserably.

“Patton?” Logan said softly. “You need to help me understand how you feel.”

“B–but I thought feelings were the b–bane of your existence.”

Logan looked apologetic, “They’re not so bad. Not all of them.” His voice was a faint whisper.

“C–can I quote a song?”

“”If it helps” Logan encouraged.

Patton wrung his hands together nervously as he shakily said the words that were swirling inside him.

“I’m sorry, baby. I’m sorry, puppy.

I’m trying to be ultra mega happy

And show you my smile

and send you my feelings and fuck it is so hard”

Logan smiled slightly, “I can relate to those words as well. I’m not the most….expressive, but I do care. And I know that since you are the embodiment of feelings, it can’t possibly be healthy for you to push them down like that.”

Patton sniffled, “I–I just don’t want to be a burden. I know how you hate how irrational I am. I know you hate me.”

The logical side shook his head. “I don’t hate you. Far from it. Quite the….opposite actually….” he blushed.

Hope filled Patton’s features, “You don’t?”

“Pat, I just….I have to be….” the logical side took a deep breath. “I have to contradict you. I am logic. It is in my nature to oppose the heart. Sometimes that overrides my own emotions, but that doesn’t mean that I don’t lo—”

Patton tilted his head, “Huh?”

Logan tried again, “That doesn’t mean I don’t lov–”

The moral side stared at Logan, astonished. Love?

Logan was still stumbling over his own words, trying to choke the feeling out of him.

“You love me?” Patton asked hesitantly.

“Y–yes.” Logan felt his cheeks redden. As red as solanum lycopersicum.

This time a genuine smile brightened Patton’s face.

Maybe falling in love wasn’t so bad after all.