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okay I need help finding a fic because I have gotten the voracious need to reread it but I cannot for the life of me make the internet cough it up.

Basically Tim Drake is in a Bad Universe (batfam is mean to each other) and gets plopped (don't remember how. I think magic. they might have had Zatanna and Fate working on sending him back) into another alternate universe where he never existed but the rest of the bat family all do and they slowly learn how bad it is in his home universe, and Tim slowly becomes more and more accustomed/attatched to these versions of his family. The Bruce from this new universe adopts him into the fold and he ultimately decides to stay.

It was a multichap deal and all the batboys were in it. Tim hijacks the watchtower to get Bat's attention at the start of it. That's the full extent of what I remember.

Any help or guidance in finding it would be appreciated

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I love reading notes on a post for more information like links our resources and finding brand new discourse I had never even dreamed of. phenomenal

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And tonight's revelation is that my drafts on tumblr and my camera roll on my phone serve the same purpose and that purpose is to collect all those silly little things I want to keep track of but in the end I've collected so many little things that the number is large enough to make the bravest folk flinch upon reading like it is abundantly clear I am actively failing in this war of attrition

honestly it's a miracle that I have any storage space on my phone

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cryign in the club I have been gifted Crabs for the Crab Army <3

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girl help I'm having creation ideas

girl help i’m having creation ideas above my skill level

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why does the calculator app which should be baked into my phone since it came preinstalled and cannot be deleted have a link to a privacy policy in the settings

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My teeth hurt so bad this is incredibly unfair

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stop telling me I need to move out challenge (impossible)

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this would also be cool if the squares were such that you could write different numbers on them. for the days when you're a 4/4/4 yanno ✨✨

which symbol do you think would look coolest on the back of a jacket?

Let’s be real. All of them would.

But I think a NFPA 704 would be the coolest.

Mainly because you could make it personal.

How short is your temper? Do you consider yourself toxic to others? How mentally stable are you?

And of course, you could put a standard/semi-standard symbol in the white (biohazard and radioactivity symbols are always a hit), but you could also get creative.

I mean, imagine the possibilities!

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guys I am actively learning how to drive, something that I thought I would never be able to do just a few years ago

this is so much fun. I want to make sure this never becomes monotonous to me

future me if you ever read this: you never thought you'd get to where you are. you are doing so well. I am so excited to be you one day. I hope you're having as much fun as I am now

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It's been a hot minute since I did this but that's okay I've been busy so that's alright.

Since the last entry the semester ended and I made it out alive with only one incomplete. I should be finished with that in about two weeks. I flew on a plane for the first time (!) which was amazing. I visited with a friend whom I dearly love and helped her move in an epic road trip. My boss continually reminds me that she appreciates me and is happy I'm working over the summer. My plants are growing well. My dog is as sweet as ever.

It's been a good past few weeks.

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I intend to write a little essay on the different Greek words love and what they meant and why I think the consolidation of the word made it too easy to hypersexualize Western society - not that the Greeks did too much better but at least when you told someone that you loved (friendly) them then it couldn't be misconstrued as loved (sensually). Alas I am.. Busy(tm). It's a whole thing. When I have a little free time though... awww yee

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Bro hang on a minute. hold on. the numbers don't... move for other people? how do people flip them to the next one???

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Yanno. I'm a really good diplomat. I can step into a situation and mediate to a stand still. I can talk circles around people. I am intimately aware of the power of the tongue and words as a whole. I have talked people of ledges and into and out of situations and brightened people's days and sat with them as they cried. I am good at it because I have had to be, and then because I identified myself to be. I am a good diplomat.

But I wish I wasn't.

... that's not true. I'm tired. I'm tired of watching my friends break and offering up the only thing I have to fix it. I'm tired of sitting rotting useless while people I love spiral until one of my feckless words breaks through the howling of their mind.

If it ever does.

I paint myself a pillar. A heavy stone that can anchor. An unfailing support. Somewhere they can run to when the fires rage and the wind howls and the thunder roars. I pretend I am indestructible.

I am not.

I am a person. And I am just a worn as everyone else.

The only thing is... I never say it. I can't. Not really. I use so many words on everyone else by the time I reach myself I've run out.

I just am. Am doing. Am being. Am here.

Always here.

Wordless.

I want to be able to rest with people more. I want it not to matter if I don't say a single word because all they wanted was that I be there. I want the weight of my silence to be like a blanket.

I...

I'm not saying I am going to stop helping them. I am not a fair weather friend. The ones I love are stuck with me. I will not abandon them to the shadows in their mind. I am happy to hold them up when they falter.

I am just saying the whole and single truth.

I am tired.

I am a person too.

I want to go home.

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I think it's really silly that the human body can feel so much pain all the time and then randomly and without warning just decide to Stop Feeling That(tm) at the most inconvenient moments

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We need to be okay with not knowing how to fix things.

When someone you care about comes to you sobbing in the night or is crumbling in front of you and you can hear the way their soul is groaning beneath the weight of whatever it is they happen to be dealing with - my friends, I am sorry to say, you will not always know the answer.

In fact. Most times, you will sit there, cradling a phone in your hand, staring at the screen of your computer, watching them shudder across a table, and you will feel hollow and useless because you do not have the reach or the power to solve their problems, you do not even know where to start.

You will not know how to fix it because you are not all-powerful, all-knowing, all-seeing. And furthermore, if you do not know, you should not try, because you may make it so much worse.

But - this is so important - but, dear friend, you will be there.

Their soul will groan and their hands will shake, and you will be there. You will have the opportunity to take their hands. You will need to say, I'm sorry, I don't know how to fix it. But you can also say, I am here for you. I am not giving up. I will walk with you.

Because someone in a situation so horrible, who is feeling hopeless, who is lost, ultimately, does not want to be alone.

We are not made to be alone.

So be present with them.

This is not to say you should be physically near them every waking moment, or on the phone every hour of the day, but to offer what you can. Remind them that you care. Tell them you are here.

Do not try to fix things. The fixing will come when the sorrow is over, in due time, and it may not be how you expected it at all, or whatever you thought was best. That's okay. No man can know everything.

Simply be there. Care. Love.

Everything else will come.