#aye cheers kaya

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Disclaimer: I do not own Maliksi. Full Credit goes to HC - @ask-emilz-de-philz. Please check out their blog for amazing art and the wonderful world of Planet Puto. All involved characters are adults.

Genre: Fluff

A/N: Happy New Year ebriwan. Sorry ang likot nung isa jan, napaka pabebe ayaw pa magpa pic ng ayos. XDDDD Guys, very short lang to, not a full fic hahaha. just some drabble. UULITIN KO HA, DRABBLE PO ITO kaya maikli hehe, HINDI FIC. HAHAHA.

Maliksi let out a heavy sigh, dead eyes looking at the game he was playing for a couple of hours now. He was upset since his Kuya Makisig canceled on their game night for the second time this week.

He's not gonna complain though, he knows how much his Kuya loves his job and how good he is at it- it's one of the few things he enjoys and Maliksi will not take that away from him.

You look at him, trying to think of a way to cheer him up. Sure, he's a pain in the ass most of the time, yet it pains you to see him sulking like this.

You quietly sat beside him and before you knew it, he was already pulling you into his lap and nuzzling his face into your shoulder and letting out muffled sounds of frustrations. You softly chuckled as you gently run your fingers along his hair to soothe him.

"Wanna go grab some snacks?" You softly asked him. Maliksi looked at you like a pouting kid before finally nodding his head.

Since Maliksi didn't have a harem like his Kuya Makisig's it was easier for the both of you to just casually roam around at the most random times without having to worry about schedules. Usually, Maliksi likes late night strolls so both of you can grab some drinks and some sweets.

Maliksi held your hand while you two walk towards the convenience store, intertwining his fingers against yours. He will not admit it, but dealing with frustrating stuff became a lot easier since you came into his life.

"What kind of chocolate would you like for tonight?" You softly asked as you both stood outside the convenience store.

"Kisses."

You tilted your head in confusion, wondering if you heard him right and if he's asking for kisses.

"Kisses?"

Maliksi nodded and before he can say anything else, you excitedly held his cheeks and started to shower his face with kisses which made him broke out in laughter.

"Y/n! I meant hershey's kisses! But this will do too."

((HAPPY NEWYEAAAARRRRR GUYSSSS pasensya na, ang cravings ko kasi right now ay si Maliksi HAHAHHAA))

AMAZING ART BY @ask-emilz-de-philz

[written4seung]

wet the bed

— napilit ng mga kamag-anak mo sa gathering ng pamilya niyo ang boyfriend mong si heeseung na sumayaw ng trend na wet the bed. but as funny as it may sound, it still turned you on.

Pairing: heeseung x reader

Genre: fluff, crack(?), suggestive

Language: tagalog - english

Warnings: filipino christmas gatherings/reunions, suggestive jokes from elders, heeseung forced to dance for a game 💀, established relationship.

a/n: merry christmas! eto regalo ko sainyo rawr 😭 enjoy! (kahit nangangalawang na writing skills ko at maiksi lang ito)

“Sige na, heeseung, hijo, sumali ka na,” kantsaw ng tita mo sa boyfriend mong nakakapit sa braso mo at halos nakasuksok na sa balikat mo habang umiiling.

Niyayaya kasi nila itong sumali sa pagalingan daw sumayaw nung sikat na trend sa tiktok na wet the bed kasama ang ilan sa mga pinsan mo at ang mga jowa din ng iba kong pinsan.

“Magaling kang sumayaw, di ba, hee?” Tanong naman ng tito mong kanina lang ay kasama ni hee na magkaraoke at magkwentuhan. Nabanggit ata nito dati na sumasayaw siya sa university niyo dahil madalas din silang magkwentuhan kapag may reunion.

“Hindi po hehe,” nahihiyang tawa at bulong nito. Tinignan mo naman ito upang ipakitang hindi ka naniniwala dahil magaling naman talaga siya ngunit tila ba sinasabihan ka niya na makisakay na lang sa pamamagitan ng mga tingin niya.

“Go, kuya hee!” Sigaw naman ng bata mong pinsan na nilalaro at binibiro niya rin kanina.

Napatingin na lang si heeseung sa paligid niya at nang makitang tinanguan siya ng papa at mama mo ay sayo niya naman ibinaling ang tingin. Nagpapaalam ito kung okay lang aba sayong sumali siya.

“Ikaw bahala, mahal. Kung ayaw mo naman talaga, okay lang naman. Maiintindihan naman nila yun. Gusto mo ba?” Tanong mo.

“Kung gusto nila and sasaya sila, okay lang. Gusto ko,” pagtango niya dahilan ng bahagyang pagsigaw ng mga kamag-anak mo.

“Kaya mo yan, Seung!” Pagcheer mo dito habang tumatayo ito. Sumama ito sa hanay ng iba pang mga kasali. Napaka-ayos ng tayo nito doon- nasa likod ang mga kamay, tipid na nakangiti at pinipigan ang tawa sa gagawin, at nakayuko sa hiya habang iniipon lahat ng lakas ng loob niya.

Tumayo na rin kayo ng mga kasama mong manuod lalo na ang mga nagvvideo upang mas makita at masuportahan sila nang ayos.

Nang nagsimulang tumugtog ang kanta ay naghiyawan halos ang lahat. Hindi pa masyadong sumasayaw ang mga kasali at gumagalaw lang sa pwesto kasabay ang saliw ng kanta habang hinihintay.

“Go, heeseung!” Sigaw ng isa mong ate na pinsan nang lumapit na ang chorus upang asarin ang boyfriend na kasali rin. Pinadilatan ito ng mata ng boyfriend kaya sumigaw ito ulit upang i-cheer naman ang boyfriend talaga.

Halos sinuportahan din ng karamihan si hee. Boto kasi talaga sakanya ang pamilya mo kahit noong unang pakilala mo palang sakanya, mas mahal na nga ata siya nila kaysa sayo.

Pumalakpak ka lang at nginitian siya nang halos abot tenga nang makita mong nakatingin siya sayo.

Para namang nawala ang mabait na heeseung na ipanapakita niya sa mga kamag-anak mo nang ayusin niya ang pagsayaw niya sa chorus. Bigay na bigay siya sa bawat steps na giangawa niya lalo na sa facial expressions. Para lang kapag nagpperform siya sa university.

Nakatitig lang ito sayo sa chorus na para bang anytime ay gagapangan ka o papatungan para halikan and all. Kumindat pa ito sayo sa step kung saan ay ipinunas niya ang hinlalaki sa mga labi niya. Dahil dito ay nagsigawan din ang lahat.

Natameme ka naman at nanlaki lang mata nang halos ibigay niya ang lahat niya sa pagkaldag.

Tangina, parang yung bayo lang sakin last week nung nanggigil siya sakin ah.

“Namumula si y/n!!” Pang-asar ng tita mo sayo nang mapansin ka.

“Huy bat ka namumula, ha, girl?” Tanong naman sayo ng pinsan mong pinakaclose mo habang tinataas baba ang kilay na para bang alam na agad kung anong tumatakbo sa isip mo.

“Blush po yan, make up yan!” Pagkumbinsi mo sakanila lalo na nang dumako ang mata mo sa mga magulang mong natatawa.

Nakayukong tumatawa naman si heeseung nang bumalik sa tabi mo. Niyakap ka nito mula sa likod mo at isinuksok ang mukha sa batok mo.

“At dahil sa taas ng kaldag mo, kuya hee, ikaw daw ang panalo sabi nila tito!” Pag announce naman ng mga nakababata mong pinsan na naghohost. Binigyan naman nila ng ampao si heeseung dahil sa pagkapanalo.

Umupo na kayo nang magmove na sa susunod na laro ang mga kamag-anak mo. Nasa sandalan naman ng monoblovk mong upuan ang braso ni heeseung. Maya maya ay hinahaplos na ng daliri nito ang balikat mong kita dahil sa spaghetti strap dress mo.

“Ano, okay ba sayaw ko kanina?” Tanong nito na hindi mo alam kung nagtatanong ba talaga o nangaasar lang dahil sa reaksyon mo kanina.

“Okay naman” tipid kong sagot.

“Okay naman ‘no? Namula ka dahil sa sayaw ko,” ngayon ay sigurado ka nang nang aasar ito lalo na dahil sa mga nakaloloko niyang ngiti.

“Blush on nga yun,” pagdepensa mo.

“Sakin ka pa magsisinungaling,” tumawa ito. “Eh hindi ka naman nagblush kanina. Kasama mo naman ako sa kwarto ah.”

“Ay nako ewan ko sayo,” sagot mo.

“Di nga, seryoso, kumusta naman sayaw ko?” Tanong nito habang hindi mo siya matignan sa mga mata niya.

“Magaling syempre, nakakapogi…” napatingin ka dito at nahalata nitong may gusto ka pa atang sabihin.

“at? may gusto ka pang idagdag?” pagngiti nito nang pang asar.

“Hot.” Sagot mo sabay akmang tatayo

“Hoy, hoy, dito ka lang, mahal,”pabulong nitong pagpigil sayo habang natatawa.

“Ayoko na sayo, nakakainis ka, nang aasar!” Pabulong mong pagsagot dito.

“Hindi na nga,” pagtawa nito. “Sorry na.”

Pilit mong pinagdidikit ang mga binti mo dahil sa mga naiisip mo at napansin naman yun ni heeseung kaya’t hinawakan niya ang hita mo sabay lapit sayo para bumulong, “tara sa kwarto?”

Hinampas mo naman ang kamay niyang nasa hita mo, “sira ka talaga! Mamaya marinig pa tayo o mahuli.”

“Hindi yan. Bilis na, habang busy pa sila dito sa baba,” inilipat nito ang kamay na nasa hita mo papunta sa bewang mo upang patayuin ka.

“Tara na,” hindi ka na rin humindi sakanyang yaya at tumayo nalang din. Pumuslit kayo ng alis habang walang nakakapansin sainyo

ayoko na 😭 okay na yan 😭 hindi ko na naproofread huhu sorry sa mga typos

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make it right

an excerpt from a nomin filo au idk when i'll post.

jero is jn. niko is jm.

noong hiniling ni jero na hayaan muna siya ni niko na tapusin ang graduation niya bago sila mag-usap, hindi naman niya akalaing sa mismong pagkatapos ng graduation ceremony ito mangyayari.

coz there a few meters away from him, stood niko with an unsure smile and frantic eyes. and amidst the loud cheers of his fellow batchmates, his heartbeats come ringing in his ears. everything around him sounds muffled at this point. na pati ang tawag ng sariling ina ay hindi na marinig. walang ibang pumapasok sa isip kundi galit—kalahati para kay niko at kalahati para sa sarili.

for how can he still immediately find him in a room full of people? the very person that did him wrong—he found his face so fast in that crowd. hindi dapat gano'n, jero. hindi na dapat gano'n.

"...'nak." from the muffled voices, everything sounded clear for him again. as if on a cue, nilingon niya ang ina na kanina pa pala nasa kaniyang gilid.

"pinagpaalam ka sa'kin niyan ni niko kagabi. kausapin mo na." mabibilang sa kamay ang mga pagkakataon na ayaw ni jero sa ugali ng nanay niyang sobrang lenient. isama mo na ang ngayon kasi bakit kung kailan ayaw naman niya kausapin ang kababata, ay siya namang pag-uudyok nito? sinaktan ako nung tao, mama.

"kilala kita. kapag hindi mo pa kinausap ngayon, baka hindi mo na 'yan kausapin ulit." kasabay ng litanya ng ina ang pagtanggal nito ng kaniyang suot na toga.

"pray for me?" he anxiously asked his mother, palms getting clammy every second that passes. natawa na lang ina sa hitsura ng anak.

"ipag novena pa kita," pilya naman nitong sagot. ngumiti lang ito at marahan siyang tinulak palapit sa lalaking ayaw niya naman talagang makita. kaso ika nga eh, ano pa bang magagawa ko? eh nandito na?

isang beses pang lumingon si jero sa mama niya, pero ang paalis na pigura na nito ang naabutan.

"hi," bati sa kaniya ni niko nang sila ay magkaharap. bags under his eyes are so evident, he would've asked him if he's okay right there and then. kaso changed person na pala siya ngayon. pinangako sa sarili na siya muna bago ang iba. because for the longest time, palagi na lang si niko.

"i asked tita mila to cook spaghetti for you. tara?" tita mila's kainan has been jero's refuge for the entirety of his high school and college life. she witnessed the times where he broke down because of acads, the times when org life has been stressing him out. even the times he's falling for niko and no one knows but her.

nakita rin nito kung paano siya malugmok noong isang araw na pumunta siya sa kainan nito at wala nang niko na kasama. at kahit noong sinabi niya rito ang nangyari, she was still understanding. still rooted for them kahit parang ang imposible nang maibalik. jero saw how happy she became when niko finally came back. only to leave again. and came back for the second time. who knows if this time, niko's gonna stay? jero doesn't wanna break her heart.

the atmosphere inside their school was festive. a celebration for finishing their degrees and overcoming their sleepless nights. but as they walked through the back gate of their school, the silence started to creep in. it's seeping inside jero's bones he almost felt uncomfortable. if not for the constant chant inside his head saying that it's niko he's with, he would've run.

kasi hindi niya alam kung masasabi pa niyang kilala niya ang kasama. niko, hindi na kita kilala.

a smiling tita mila welcomed them as they arrived in her homey eatery. she's closed for the day because of niko's special request. tahimik siyang niyakap ng tita mila, congratulating him for his graduation.

"nagluto ako ng paborito mo. kumain ka mabuti, ha?" and indeed, in a table near them, nakahain ang paborito niyang spaghetti at fried chicken.

nagpaalam na papasok sa mismong bahay ang tita mila kaya naiwan sila ni niko muli. magkaharap sila sa hapag pero walang gustong maunang magsalita.

dahil hindi nakayanan ang awkwardness, sumandok siya ng pagkain sa pinggan at sinimulang tikman ito. tasting the sweet sauce almost made jero cry. kung bakit naman kasi maski paborito niyang pagkain ay associated sa lalaking kaharap, hindi niya rin alam.

"jero…" napatigil siya nang magsalita si niko. it was so faint it almost sounded like a whisper.

"kung mag-sosorry ka lang ulit for leaving again like the last time, save it." tinuloy niya ang pag kain na para bang walang nangyari. nakita niya kung paanong kumuyom ang kamay ng kaharap na nakapatong sa lamesa.

"jero, please… hear me out." it didn't take that long for jero to lose his patience. padabog niyang binagsak sa lamesa ang tinidor na hawak. niko flinched at the sudden action at para bang iiyak ito ano mang oras.

"ano bang gusto mo?!" pasigaw na niyang sabi. para bang lahat ng inis at lungkot na naramdaman ay ngayon lang nailalabas.

"gusto kong bumalik ulit sa buhay mo." pagak na natawa si jero sa sinabi nito. lalong naiinis sa kapal ng mukha ng kaharap. kasi bakit parang gano'n lang kadali lang lahat? na isang sabi lang, tanggap na niya ulit?

"ganiyan ba kababa ang tingin mo sa nararamdaman ko?" halos mabasag ang boses niya nang sumagot. he saw how niko's shoulder shook, and indication that the latter is crying. kumpara naman kasi sa kanilang dalawa, ito talaga ang mas emosyonal.

"jero, please. hindi na ako aalis." the former's tears fell like an opened dam. hindi maiwasang mapatakip sa mukha dahil hindi niya mapigilan ang luha. akala ko kasi, hindi na masakit… pero ang sakit-sakit pa rin pala.

"sinabi mo rin 'yan dati, niko," nanghihina niyang tugon.

both of them are crying their regrets and frustrations out. for a few minutes, hikbi lang ang maririnig sa kanilang dalawa. ni hindi na nagalaw ang pasta at manok na nasa hapag.

"alam kong nagkamali ako noon sa pag-iwan sa'yo… pero— pero natuto na 'ko. hindi na— hindi na ako aalis ulit." nahihirapan man huminga, niko tried his best to convey what he feels at that time. hoping na pakikinggan siya nang kaharap.

sinubukang abutin ni niko ang kamay ni jero na nasa lamesa pero mabilis itong iniwas ng kababata. jero's looking at him indifferently. sa loob ni niko, alam niyang hindi na ito naniniwala sa sinabi, but he can only do so much.

"paniwalaan mo naman ako, jero, oh." nagmamakaawa na nitong sambit.

"paniwalaan? paano niko? eh, sa tuwing nahihirapan ka, nagsisinungaling ka." jero's words stabbed him like a knife. masakit kasi totoo. gusto niyang sabihin na wala siyang choice. pero palagi kasing meron. it just goes to show na with all of those options, si jero na lang palagi ang hindi pinipili.

"s-sige na, oh. papasukin mo ulit ako— papasukin mo ulit ako sa buhay mo. kasi jero… wala na akong kakampi."

ang kanina pang mga hagulgol na pinipigilan ay siya nang pinakawalan. sa sobrang bigat nang nararamdaman, sumubsob si jero sa lamesa dahil sa sobrang pag-iyak. he's clutching his chest underneath kasi nasasaktan siya para sa kanilang dalawa.

noon kasi, it's always jero and niko, niko and jero.

…hanggang sa naging si jero na lang.

"nakayanan mo na nga akong iwan dati, eh. nang dalawang beses! hindi imposibleng kaya mo ulit gawin!"

nanatili si niko na umiiyak habang nakatungo. letting jero's words sink in. alam niyang nagkamali siya. and he's owning up to it. all he just needs is a chance to make it right. isa lang, jero. kahit isa na lang.

"bakit ka pa kasi balik nang balik, eh, ang lakas naman ng loob mo na basta na lang umalis?

niko, why can't you just stay gone?"

[liarasdf]

Cheers to 17- 18th!

35 minutes before my legality. It's ending already. I'm scared, excited, shaking, anxious, all at once. Pero sa pagkakataong ito, isa lang ang hinihiling ko: Maging masaya sa isa sa mga magiging highlight ng buhay ko.

*12AM, June 25*

Happy Birthday, L! Sabi ko last month pa lang bago matapos 'yung school year, magsusulat ako para sa mga natitirang oras ko as a 17-year-old girlie, e. (Tangina parang mamamatay na ako ah?) Anyway, ayon, dahil mas umiral pa rin talaga 'yung katamaran, ngayong after birthday ako nagsusulat. (O, 'di ba parang tanga lang.) Pero siguro mas pinili ko na lang 'to para mas ramdam.

Simulan muna natin sa naging emphasis ng buong 17th year ko. Ayon, grade 12 na ako. Senior. Seniorita as my last year as a highschool student. Honestly, 'di ko alam paano ipapaliwanag kasi sobrang mixed emotions and ang overwhelming ng lahat ng experiences. Siguro ano na lang, literal na kinabahan ako kasi noong g11 pa lang kami, like orientation pa lang ata no'n or patapos na 'yung school year, may kumausap sa'min na senior namin na dating Humanista rin. Binigyan kami ng heads ups, reminders, mga babala, and more on what to expect on our last year as SHS Tomasinos. Shockingly, nakinig ako sa mga sinabi niya and talagang naselyo siya sa utak ko. Edi nag-anticipate na ako ng mga mangyayari, I even prepared myself because one of the things or words that strucked me the most from the speaker that talked to us was, "Creative Writing" and "Creating Non-fiction" which are all about WRITING. OO, WRITING - my worst and most exciting fear.

Fast forward, nag full face-to-face na kami. For almost three years, naramdaman ko ulit yung pisikal na pagod sa pagcocommute mula Ugong hanggang Blessed- ay hanggang UST na pala. Pumikit lang ako, nasa dream school ko na ako nag-aaral- hanggang college! It still feels surreal. Daming ganaps for real to the point na I can't even list them all kasi super mixed emotions ng senior year ko, and the past half months ng buhay ko. Ano ulit? Super begging for attention na naman ako, nag-amfee moments na naman sa ibang tao na akala ko kinaganda ko na. Fuck. Nasanay lang siguro akong sumandal sa balikat ng mga tao. Naalala ko 'di ko pala puwedeng gawin 'yon sa lahat. Apologies.

Ano pa ba? Shet. Siguro 'yung umabot din ako sa buhay ko, for the first time in my life, na na-confuse ako sa orientation ko dahil sa isang tao. I mean, this is very inevitable and I'm not closing my doors sa pagiging gay, but I feel like hindi ko PA makita 'yung sarili ko sa same gender relationship. Maybe admiration lang talaga kaya ko.

Dami pa actually. Naging tanga sa pag-ibig na hanggang ngayon, fuck, when will I ever learn ba? Bigyan niyo na ako ng bago, 'yung mas better, 'yung mas deserve ko. EMZ. Uhm, playing 17 by Avril Lavigne non stop and setting it as "my song" kahit na I don't relate to most of its lyrics, basta ma-fit lang kasi nga 17 ako. Ewan. Masyado kong niromanticize pagiging 17 years old ko simply because ayaw kong mawala 'yung concept ng pagiging minor de edad ko. Well, the time's up and now I'm entering my adulting age.

Basta to summarize this all, I am really, and will be forever grateful for all the experiences, people, life lessons that I've learned in my 17th age and I'm really looking forward sa pag-uumpisa ng aking adulthood. I really hope that the next following years of my life treat me the way that I deserve, like what my one treasured friend said to me that made my heart touched and melt. I will really miss you.

Anyway, cheers to 18th, L! I really wish you all the best and please make good choices in life kasi tangina 'di ka pusa na merong siyam na buhay tulad nina Vivi and Hype. Bitch isa lang buhay mo. ISA LANG. Always aim for progress and please do not be hard on yourself anymore. I'm really begging and on my knees right now.

For the last time, Happy Birthday, L! Be happy. Be strong. Maging maganda palagi at ibalik ang alindog :)

L.

[acekalix]

Your Name In a Blank Paper

naaalala ko dati, that used to be “hello baby”, “hello love”, “hello mahal”. but now it’s just your name in a blank paper.

naaalala ko dati yong nakasulat jan is mostly telling you how happy i am. nakasulat jan yong thought about my gift, about sa simpleng pagkain na binibigay ko sayo to cheer you up. minsan nga asa tissue pa. haha. pero ngayon, it’s just your name in a blank paper.

dati, ang nakasulat jan ay puro cheer up notes everytime na stressed ka sa work dahil sa mga tao sa paligid mo. it’s always a reminder that you’re doing well. but now it’s just your name in a blank paper.

naiintindihan ko na kung bakit ko ginawa yong “open this” letters ko for you. kasi darating pala yong araw na kakaylanganin mong basahin yon kasi dadaan pala tayo sa phase na mag papahinga tayo. dadaan pala ako sa phase na wala akong masasabi. dadaan pala ako sa phase na it’s just your name in a blank paper.

pero don’t misunderstand. marami akong gustong sabihin sayo. pero kasi this time halo halo. gusto kong isulat sa papel lahat ng pain sa 2 months. lahat ng nightmares. alam kong hindi lang ako yong dumaan don. alam kong pinagdaraanan mo rin yon. gusto kong sabihin sayo na napapagod na ko umiyak. napapagod na masaktan. napapagod na kong panoorin yong araw araw na dumadaan na kahit nasakin ka, parang wala ka. napapagod ako sa treatment mo sakin, na parang wala lang ako kapag kinakausap mo. alam kong hindi mo naman yon gusto pero i can’t help to feel hurt so much that most of the time i feel like shit. pero kasama parin sa gusto kong sabihin yong suporta ko para sayo. mahirap din yang pinag dadaanan mo and for now suporta yong kaya kong ibigay sayo. kaya nga nag decide tayo e na magpahinga kasi mas maganda kung ikaw na muna, sarili mo na muna. naniniwala akong kaya at kakayanin mo to.

hindi tayo sumuko. hindi natin iniwan yong isa’t isa. we just saved the best relationship we had.

siguro nga blankong papel lang yong nasa picture pero i have many things to put on it. hindi ko lang alam kung paano, kung ano ano at kung kaylan ko malalagyan ng laman to.

kung makakapag sulat man ako sa papel na yan, sana mabasa mo kapag buo na ang sarili mo. at kung hindi man ako pag bibigyan ni Lord na mabasa mo pa yan kahit buo ka na, magiging magandang alaala mo nalang to sakin. na once in my lifetime, i loved a person this much.

cheers on your growth! 🥂

love,

Alas

[peysbookmims]

SHE’S A SELFISH GIRLFRIEND

My girlfriend and I decided to move in one apartment which is just few blocks away in our university. The reason was, apart from it’s time consuming and more convenient, it’s also our way to practice ourselves to live in a single roof together. Para pagdating ng araw na ikakasal kami ay hindi na kami maninibago. Glad that our parents allowed us to have our own independence as a couple. Both of our families told us that we are already matured enough to distinguish what is wrong and right. In other words, we must finish our studies first before building our own family. Janna and I have been in a relationship for four years already and I believe, we are so sure of each other. I courted her not just for some source of temporary happiness but because she’s the only woman I could envision with who will walk down the aisle while wearing a wedding gown, the only woman I could picture out who will carry my first baby and the woman I could see in my future. Siya lang at wala nang iba. Honestly, she’s not a perfect girlfriend that every man could ever wish for. She has lots of imperfections and bad sides too. But that’s what love is all about, right? It’s accepting your partner’s flaws and imperfections. “Love, I have two apples here. This is your favorite, right?” The sweet, cheerful voice of Janna pulled me back from the reality. She then flashed a dulcet smile as she seated beside me on the couch. The succulent scent of the apples in her hands instantly wafted through my nostrils and my mouth couldn’t help but to water in hunger. “Love, akin na ‘yong isa.” I pouted my lips and begged. She just chuckled and rolled her eyes. “I’m sorry pero kaya ko 'tong ubusing mag-isa 'no.” She then took a monster bite towards the first apple on her hand and I was expecting her to give me the other one but she took a bite on it too. My chest instantly felt heavy and I couldn’t help but to be frustrated. I smiled bitterly. Who would’ve thought that those apples could be the source of my disappointment? As what I’ve told you earlier, she has awful attitudes too and one of it is being too selfish. For the past four years of being with her, this is one of her toxic traits that might be the reason of our downfall. Sobrang selfish niya sa lahat ng bagay. Yes, I do love her but I don’t know when can I still stand with her selfishness. Because somehow, it’s draining the hell out of me, too. As we graduated in College, her selfishness just heightened up when she told me that she will work as a domestic nurse in abroad. “Mas malaki ang kikitain ko 'pag pumunta ako ng ibang bansa, love. Trust me,” pangungumbinsi niya sa akin. I just stared at her dreadfully and it felt like all my energy has been taken away slowly by slowly. “P-Please stay, love… 'Di ko kaya,” I begged, my lips trembling and now in the verge of crying. Janna just flashed a reassuring smile as she cupped my face. “Believe me with this, love. Mas magiging maganda ang kinabukasan natin 'pag nakaalis ako. At isa pa, hindi lang kinabukasan natin ang matutulungan ko, pati na rin ang pamilya natin. Love, trust me. 'Pag nakaipon ako, babalik agad ako dito at magpapakasal agad tayo atsaka bumuo ng sariling pamilya.” She gave me a heart-warming smile as tears slowly streamed down her cheeks. Both of our parents agreed with her decision and I had left with no choice but to agree too. “Don’t worry, I promised that that I will contact you if I have a vacant time. At isa pa, sinabihan ko na rin ang bestfriend ko na pakitignan ka.” I just stood there, barely able to move and breathe. Janna hugged me so tight as she whispered, “I love you so much, Arjay. Mahal na mahal kita.” Those were her final words before she left me.

[themaoibaldonado]

Pagmamahalan at Bukluran

Setyembre 8, 2024 - Isang Araw ng Pagmamahalan at Pagbubukluran.

Taon-taon na lang, sa tuwing may proseso ng Gawad, parati akong hindi nakakadalo ng Bukluran. Parating nagkakataon na may sakit ako kapag ginaganap ito. Simula pa noong unang taon ng paglilingkod ng aming batch, hindi ko pa nagawang makadalo. Sa mga kwento na lang ako nakakasagap ng mga kaganapan. Parati kong naririnig na maraming palaro ng lahi ang ginagawa. Sabi ko pa noon, wala naman akong masyadong namimiss dahil lahat ng iyon ay nagawa ko na rin sa aking buhay.

Hindi ko na sana dadaluhan ang gawain ng Gawad dahil hindi maganda ang aking pakiramdam noong mga nakaraang araw. Noong dumating ang Sabado, mas nabalot lang ako ng kalungkutan kaya mas pinili kong magpahinga at wag nang mag-isip ng kung anu pa man. Ngunit, pinilit ko pa rin ang sarili kong dumalo. Nagtiwala ako sa proseso, at naniwala na kapag ako'y dumalo at nakibahagi, magiging masaya ako. Makakalimutan ko ng panandalian ang aking mga pinagdadaanan at makakapagpahinga.

Sa umaga pa lang, puno na kami ng gawain. Laro dito, laro doon. Cheer dito, cheer doon. Sumakit na ang katawan ko sa walang humpay na paglalaro. Nawala na rin ang boses ko sa walang tigil na pag-cheer para sa aming grupo. At sa bawat kwentuhan, bawat tawanan, naramdaman ko ang saya. Ganun naman parati kapag nasa Gawad ka. Hindi man kayo parating nagkikita o nag-uusap, may pamilya kang babalikan—buong puso at bukas kamay kang tatanggapin at bibigyan ng yakap, lalo na sa panahon na kailangang-kailangan mo.

Ngunit ang pinakanagustuhan ko at pinasasalamatan ko, ay walang nagbanggit sa akin kung ano ang nangyari matapos ang araw ng Bukluran. Hindi ko lubos akalain na sa simpleng papel na ibibigay sa iyo ay tutulo ang luha mo. Sa simpleng papel na iaabot sa iyo, makakakuha ka ng kakampi, mararamdaman mo ang pagmamahal. Ang damdaming ito ay napakatindi—ang pakiramdam na may mga taong nagmamahal sa akin kahit na minsan ay dumarating sa puntong hindi ko na mahal ang sarili ko.

Salamat sa pag-appreciate sa mga bagay na ginagawa ko. Salamat na kahit sa simpleng pagngiti ko ay na-appreciate ninyo iyon. Sa Gawad, natutunan kong may mga taong magpaparamdam sa iyo na mahalaga ka. Na ikaw, na minsan kinukwestyon ang katayuan mo sa buhay, ay pwede palang maging inspirasyon sa iba, maging idolo, at mahalin pa rin.

Sa bawat taon ng aking pagdalo sa Gawad, natutunan kong parating magtitiwala sa proseso nito. Parating babalikan ang tahanan ng Gawad. Parating mamahalin ang mga kapatid na kasama rito.

Salamat. Patawad. Mahal ko kayo.

[peryodismo2324]

3-6 Field Demo, dumating na sa kabila ng mga pagkaantala

Ian Rafin at Faith Mendoza Mayo 31, 2024

Isinagawa na ang "Daloy" ng UPIS, noong Mayo 22, 2024 sa UPIS High School Gym pagkatapos ng maraming pagbabago. “Daloy”, yan ang bersyon ngayong taon ng UPIS Field Demo kung saan tinatampok ang galing at husay ng bawat grado sa pagsayaw. Opisyal na itong ipinagdiwang noong Mayo 22 ngunit hindi ito ang orihinal na iskedyul. Dahil sa sunod-sunod na mataas na heat index, pagkansela ng mga klase, pati na rin ang kawalan ng oras para sa pag eensayo ng mga estudyante, napilitan ang PKA (Pamunuan ng Kamag-Aral) na ilipat na lamang ito mula sa Abril 16 papunta sa kasalukuyan nitong petsa na Mayo 22.

Litrato ng mga manonood sa UPIS 3-6 Field Demo (Kuha ni Faith Mendoza)

Gaganapin din sana ito sa UP Amphitheatre ngunit dahil sa patuloy na pagkansela sa “Daloy” ay hindi na ito natuloy. Kaya’t napunta naman ito sa Sunken Garden ng UP Oval, pero nagkaroon naman ng problema sa init lalo na at open area ang Sunken Garden, dahil dito ay pinili na lamang humanap ng ibang venue para maiwasan ang init. UFS o University Food Service naman ang susunod, matutuloy na sana ang "Daloy" dito, ngunit isang araw bago magsimula ang Field Demo ay nabalitaan na dahil sa mga lindol na naganap dati ay hindi masisigurado kung kakayanin ng struktura ng UFS ang ganoong karaming tao. Kaya’ t pinili na lamang ng PKA na idaos ang "Daloy" sa UPIS High School Gym, lalo na at kulang na sa oras para maghanap ng iba pang venue.

Litrato ng performance ng bawat Grade Level (Kuha ni Ian Rafin)

Ngunit kahit na nagkaroon ng maraming problema, matagumpay pa ring nairaos ng PKA ang "Daloy". Kung saan naitampok ng bawat grade level ang kanilang galing at talento sa pagsayaw, kinailangan rin nilang sagutin ang tanong na “Bilang kabataan paano mo mapapabuti ang mundo”, gamit lamang ang pagsayaw. Nagkaroon rin ng mga parangal na ibinigay sa mga estudyante. Ilan na rito ang Best in Formation para sa Grado 3. Best Interpretation para sa Grado 4. Best Choreography para naman sa Grado 5. At ang mga hinakot ng Grado 6 na Best Cheer, Most Energetic, at Best Costume. Ani nga ng Auditor ng PKA na si Matt Sasing, “nalungkot rin kami na hindi nasunod ang mga plano naming events”. Ngunit ayon rin sa opisyal na PKA Facebook Page, “aAGOS rin, UPIS”

[bonholmesy]

Sabi ko pala magkkwento ako. So here it goes..

I’m feeling better naman na. Nasa stage na ng acceptance haha at moving on. Not giving meaning to anything na but still feeling giddy over the smallest interaction.

Last night we met for dinner. Nakatalikod ako sa entrance ng restaurant so hindi ko kita kung parating na sya. Nalaman ko lang na nandyan na nung sumesenyas na yung dalawang kasama ko (na alam na I had feelings for pas) pero di ako tumingin. Naramdaman ko na lang na may bumeso sakin and I touched her face haha to beso back.

She looked stunning as always. Pink looks good on her. We’re seated across each other so kitang kita ko siya. Good talk sa restaurant. After nun, we went to 12 monkeys for Janine’s gig.

Nung nasa backstage kami, pinakita niya sakin yung tiktok video niya about holding it together kasi ayaw nyang may sumilip sa rectangle at sabihing “sana matagal ko nang sinabi sayong mahal kita”. I’ve watched that video. I watch all of her videos. But I pretended I didn’t. Hindi ko alam irereact ko haha so I just said mapapabangon talaga ako niyan at sasabihing it’s a prank!

Tapos nung set na ni Janine, nasa side ako ng stage pero tinawag nya ako at sinabing dun kami sa audience banda. Tinabihan ko siya literally kasi ang taas ng upuan hahaha so tumayo na lang ako sa tabi niya. Out of nowhere pinakita niya sakin yung video ng doberman niya na galing sa photos. Ang cute! Very random. So fucking cute!

Wala lang, sumasayaw lang kami in place. Ang boring ng crowd pero we enjoyed the set. Binubulong niya na sobrang dull ng crowd tapos nagccheer siya kay Janine. Dinamayan ko siya haha I also cheered and shouted and danced.

Nung bandang bridge na ng Hulaan hugot na hugot siya napaka-cute! Sabi ko “pas grabeng hugot yan ah!” The line goes “puro ka amba nakakalunod kang ibigin” I was thinking hayyy para kanino kaya yung hugot niya. Lucky guy!

After the gig we went to UCC for coffee and chill. Kwentuhan about lots of things!! When we get there she explained to me the meaning of 1st wave, 2nd wave, and 3rd wave ng coffee. Smart woman! Then we also talked about TFIOS, John Green, at ang pinakabinabaran namin na topic ay mga sci-fi series. I can feel the excitement in her and her love for marvel and sherlock. Her eyes and voice glow.

Sadly, magsasara na yung UCC and she also has to go kasi may gown fitting pa siya for her parents vow renewal.

It was a great night. I learned something new again.

Looking forward to more nights like this.

[yourshiningastr]

CHAPTER 12

It's been 5 months since I got to know my friends.. 

Friends.

Kinikilig pa din ako kapag naiisip ko na may mga kaibigan na ako. Friends who really care, friends who really like me as a person not because of my name or my family. 

I remember when they asked me about my family and I was so scared to tell them because what if they changed? What if they don't like me anymore? But I was surprised when they shrugged it off. They said it doesn't really matter if I am rich or not or who I am. What matters the most is if I wanted to be their friend and I said yes with no hesitations!

I feel like I now belong to something. It feels surreal.

"Hi, you are Rae right?" Lumingon ako and was surprised to see the guy that my friends are talking about in the Starbucks last time.

Ngayon ay mas malinaw na ang mukha nito sakin, ma tangkad siya at mukhang Korean dahil sa singkit niyang mata at maputing balat.

"Uhm, yes. Hello." Bati ko dito kahit nagtataka kung bakit ako kinakausap nito.

"I'm Gin. I saw you in our building last time and thought of asking you if you can be our respondent as a research namin?" He touched his nape lightly at nahihiyang tumingin sakin.

"Sure, it's fine. You are in the CAS department pala."

I don't know why but I really love meeting and talking to people who are in that department.

"Yes, oh I forgot to properly introduce myself. I'm Eugelio Gin Osmeña, I am a Third-year college student taking up a BS in Psychology. Our group is conducting research about Gaslighting, and we are hoping that you can be one of our respondents." Napapatango naman ako dito.

He's a Psychology major din pala. Nice, napapaligiran na nila ako. I giggle a bit.

"You okay?" Napaayos naman ako ng tayo at napahinto sa pag-ngisi nang mapansin ni Mr. Osmeña iyun.

I mentally slapped myself. Shocks! Nakakahiya ka, Rae.

I just nodded at him and apologetically smiled. I arched my brow when I saw my friends, I slightly waved my hand at them at napansin din ni Eugelio yun kaya napalingon ito sa likod niya.

I saw how his expression changed, it was like he was scared or something. I furrowed my brows a bit when I noticed Jona staring at me. It's like she is glaring at me but I just shrugged it off thinking that she might be staring at Eugelio and not me.

Nagpaalam na ako kay Eugelio at masayang naglakad papunta kila Rina.

"Hi! Break niyo na?" I beamed at them but instead of receiving the same energy, they frowned at me.

I can feel Jona's heavy stares, Anji is arching her brows while Rina is just furrowing her eyebrows at me.

"Why are you talking to him?" Jona asked in a deep tone, which kinda surprised me since she never talked to me like that.

She sounds... angry

"He was asking me to be their respondent for their research. And he's majoring in Psychology, like you guys." I was smiling ear to ear and you can even feel how delighted I am with my voice.

"Yeah, and he's Jona's ex. Just so you know." Anji said and rolled her eyes.

Nawalan naman ako bigla nang gana nang maramdaman ko na parang iba na ang atmosphere. I don't really need to know who he is. What's with this atmosphere?

"Oh, I see." I just answered and nodded. Rina then walked close to me and held my arm.

"Haha, guys chill! Let's not talk about that guy eh?" Rina tried to cheer them up but they just rolled their eyes.

Why?

"Are you guys okay? Hindi ko ba dapat siya kinausap?" Dahan dahan kong sabi. Takot makagawa ng mali.

"No, of course not. Haha, don't worry about these two, they are just stress dahil malapit na ang finals. "

Tumawa si Rina pero ramdam ko na peke ito kaya naman hindi ko alam kung wala ba dapat ako ipag alala o meron?

"No, Rina. She needs to know." I looked at Anji who was still in her bitchy face.

I suddenly feel irritated because of that. Ano bang nagawa ko? Anong kailangan ko malaman?

"Reject him, Don't be their respondents. Don't talk to him." I furrowed my brows at Jona.

"Why? I mean, wala naman kaming ginagawang masama? It's for their research. Nakakahiya naman if I will turn them down." I calmly said.

"Wala pa sa ngayon. At sino bang kaibigan mo? Hindi ba kami? So, ako ang sundin mo." After that, she left. 

Anji followed her and didn't even say a thing to me. I felt Rina's hand on my arm so I looked at her.

"Why is she mad at me?" Rina sighed and smiled.

"Wag mo nalang muna siya pansinin. Mawawala din yun. Mag kaka ayos din kayo." I furrowed my brows even more.

"So, she is mad at me. Why? Is she thinking that I'm gonna flirt with her ex, is that it? "

"Just say sorry to her, Rae. And maybe, reflect on yourself."

Why? Why does it feel like I did a crime?

Why do I need to reflect?

They are the ones who made me feel bad, and yet they didn't even try to pretend that we are fine, not even fake their smile at me.

"Just do what I said, para walang problema. I'm sorry we can't eat together today, I'll just follow them."

When I thought that I am finally included in their friendship, suddenly.... 

It washed away.

I did what they told me. I apologize to them. I talked to Eugelio and told him that I can't be their respondent anymore and he said it's fine. It seems like he also knows why I suddenly turned him down when I was giddily saying yes to being their respondents before.

He understands, and before he leaves he tapped my shoulder.

"I'm not in the place to say this but I hope they are treating you well." 

That day, I know for myself that they are. I wouldn't feel happy if they aren't right.

But then, as a fool myself. I forgot that I don't have an idea of what's the feeling of being treated right.

"Hey, let's go to a cafe or mall. Kastress ang finals. Saka hindi na tayo lumalabas unlike before. I missed you na." They smile at me pero hindi yun umabot sa tenga hindi katulad nung dati. 

Hindi rin kita sa mga mata nila na masaya sila na kumakain kasama ko ngayon.

It's been two weeks since we ate together. Lagi silang may excuse at sinasabing mag rereview sila for the finals which I believed them kahit pa dati ay hindi naman sila pala review. I just did, and let them..

"Yeah, sure. We missed you too." Rina smiled and I heard Anji's silent scoff on her side while Jona was just quiet.

One thing that I observed from them is how transparent Anji is. You will know if she hates something or someone. It's very easy to determine her feelings, which made me uncomfortable. I can sense that Jona hasn't moved on from me talking to her ex because she never talks to me anymore, while Rina just smiles at me and tries her best to show that we are okay. 

Are we?

I was busy picking up my clothes for tomorrow para sa get together namin when my phone suddenly beeped.

1 message from Longganisa Seller.

I excitedly opened our gc kasi ngayon nalang uli may nagchat dito.

From: Jobiz

Sasama ba talaga tayo bukas? Hindi ba pwedeng wag nalang?

From: Anjinamoto

Kaya nga, wag na! Panira naman kasi tong si @haRINA. Napapagod din akong makipagplastikan noh.

I quickly exited on our GC and pressed the unread button.

Nanginginig ang kamay kong binaba ang phone at dahan dahan napaupo sa kama. 

What the hell?

Who are they? They are not my friends. Rina, Anji, and Jona wouldn't do that to me. They wouldn't.. Right?

3 message from Longganisa Girls

From: Anjinamoto

Gago, x send ka @Jobiz. Sabi ko sa pm mo isend yung picture natin at dehins dito. Tanga amputa.

From: Jobiz

Sensya na, kulang sa kain.

From: haRINA

Girls stop na, baka natutulog na si Rae. @RaeRaeGoAway, see tomorrow. :)

Nag react nalang ako ng heart sa message ni Rina. Nadelete na nila yung messages kanina at pinalabas na ibang message ang sinend nila, mabuti nalang at mabilis akong nag unread.

Hindi ko alam kung paano ako nakatulog sa galit at sa sakit. How can they do that to me? I thought they wouldn't do that to me, but I forgot that they could.

We just ate lunch and after that hindi na ako nag suggest pa na pumunta sa kung saan kahit yun ang plano ko. Rina has been staring at me for a while, she might have noticed my silence. But I don't care, all I could think is how they betray me like that. I thought they better than the others, mas masahol pa pala sila.

At least I already know the intentions of those people, I already know what they want and their capabilities. But with them.. I didn't.. 

So they are attacking me from behind, and what's worse is I put my trust in them.

"You seriously will do that? Hindi ka pa din ba nakakamove on? You and Gelio already broke up, and Rae doesn't really know him. They just happen to talk, that's all." I heard Rina's voice.

They didn't know that I was in one of the cubicles in the comfort room. I was planning to go out but stopped when I heard them talking.

"Duh, bakit ba masyado kang concern doon sa babae na yun? As if naman friend talaga tingin mo doon. Baka nakakalimutan mo na you were just using her as well."

What? Using me? For what?

"Shut up, Anj. Hindi nakakatulong."

"Oh please, wag ka na ngang magpanggap na akala mo ay mabait ka. Hindi ba ikaw naman nag suggest na lapitan siya at kaibiganin kasi nakakakuha ka ng information. Hindi bat, hindi ka naman magiging part council kung hindi dahil sa kanya?"

I remember that I introduced her to one of the members of council na kilala ko. 

She said she was interested to meet them, and then suddenly she became one of the members as well. I remember throwing a celebration for her nung time na yun.

"You also used her para makuha ang tiwala at atensyon ng mga professor natin dahil kilala nila siya. If I know kung hindi lang nakataas ang status niyan sa buhay ay hindi mo naman yan lalapitan."

So they already knew who I was.. They just pretend that they didn't.

"Akala mo naman hindi ka din nakinabang. Wag mo ako pagsalitaan na ginawa ko yun para sakin lang, hindi ba't tuwang tuwa ka sa mga gamit na binibigay niya sayo?"

I cover my mouth to stifle my sob as I hear them talking. So it was planned all along?

"Tingin niyo ba nabasa niya yung mesage natin sa gc nun?" Jona asked.

"Gago ka kasi, boba ka. Sa dinami dami nang pagkakataon na mawrowrong send ka, nung time pa na yun. Tangina! napaka tanga."

"I don't think she read it. If she does hindi naman siya sasama satin. Or baka naconfront na tayo." Rina concluded.

"Or baka naman tanga lang siya. Sabagay, eh tayo lang naman kaibigan niyan. Haha, nakakaawa ang puta!" Gustong gusto ko umalis at saktan sila hangang sa masatisfy ako pero pinigilan ko ang sarili kong gawin ito. 

I'm better than them..

I should be better than them.

After that day, I busied myself gathering information about them. And I found a lot. I took the photo in which Anji is smoking at the back of their department building. There were also several photos of Jona's nudity. And evidence of Rina cheating. She was taking the test paper questionnaires in the dean's office and making her own copies. I also got to know how Eugelio and Jona broke up.

My investigator told me that Eugelio tried killing himself because of Jona. Jona is gaslighting, manipulating him, and caging him because of jealousy. 

She also harmed him physically when they were together and it got to the point that he got hospitalized.

This information about them leaves me in awe. They don't even deserve to live. Paano nila na kayang gawin yun? Papaano nila nasisikmura yun? 

They are studying Psychology yet they are the main reason for someone's depression.

I gather every piece of evidence and send it to the Dean's and President's offices. I was planning on sending it to the Police as well to punish them legally because what they did is a crime and they need to be in prison. But I found out that Rina's mother is having dialysis. Anji parents died and Jona was getting beaten by her Father.

At some point, I pitied them.

They are going through something as well, and doing those crimes might be their coping mechanism or their revenge for every pain they have. 

But that doesn't stop me from seeking out justice. And I did find it. They lashed out at me when they got kicked out. 

Sa akin agad sila lumapit..

"Sa dinami dami ng nasaktan at nagawan niyo ng kasalanan, ako agad ang naisip niyo pwede kayong balikan." I was just standing in front of them wearing a red dress with no emotions.

"Hindi pa kami tapos sayo, Rae. Pagbabayaran mo ito."

I knew they would avenge what I did to them.. But that is something out of my concern now, not until today.

I saw how Jona lightly caressed Benedict's chest and leaned to whisper something to him.

I was planning to go to them and take Benedicts away from them when I saw how his lips moved like he smiled at her. I can't really see it, since nakatagilid ito sakin.

Anji then found me and smirked. I saw her mouthing something to me, and I froze when I understood what it was.

"Watch out."  

[benefits1986]

One Big UP Fight

Watching yesterday's game, my dark blue maroon heart is euphoric. It's fantastic.

I dragged myself to Araneta to watch the Battle of Katips just because I need a legit distraction in time for the long weekend. And, boy, I've realized a whole lot of things on top of rooting for the Fighting Maroons. There's so much joy in seeing the mightiest bleed in blazing blue for a change. Wala na akong paki kung fave color ko blue kasi it started with gapang sa lusak Maroons and ended it with karneng Katips in all levels kahit na mala-larong bente po both teams. It's also a solid reminder that may araw din ang kahit sino, kahit ano, kahit saan. As the camera pans on the crying boys as they graduate defeated, my exact feeling right then and there is euphoria. Sabi ko nga, sanay akong sumugal sa patalo. Actually, back in LA's days, sabi ko pa, 'pag siguro nakapag-masteral na ako sa UPDi, baka naman makapasok man lang sa Final 4 ang UP. Delulu levels 100000. Again, ayoko lang kasi ng pagka-green ng Archers. Siguro kung ibang shade of green siya like emerald green, I will reconisder.

What's nice about being part of the school wars late is that I am able to move beyond the prestige and peril it carries. Dati, dream ko ng school spirit of the so-called Big 4. Sobrang hassle ako sa idea na 'di man lang NCAA, all girls' school pa akong ayaw ko naman talaga. Pero, sabi ni mother dragon na wala siyang ibang dream apart from maging dalisay girl from Leon Guinto ako. HAHAHHAHA.

1000% delulu levels n'ya na kaya ko kahit ayoko at hindi ko talaga kaya, tbh. BTW, I will write this out until 4 PM because, the socket in today's coffee and tea shop is giving SCAMMER mode. I'd also be downing a few alignments para sa small projects ko. Need ko na talaga ng sagarang pang-JaFunds saka pang-gatas ng bunso ng kapatid ko. Saka syempre, Shein ko pati pang-Montessori toys niya at iba pa.

So, ayun na nga. Kahapon ko nakita ang pikunan just because one side is maroon and the other side is blue. As in, I am like watching a social commentary that reminds me of how much labels can constrict a nation, a community. Kung baga, oks sana kung sa court lang e, pero, no. Sadly. Madalas, ang pikunan ay nadadala rin matapos ang last second ng game. 'Di naman kasi lahat may wide biases which is also part of human nature. O baka kasi outsider-ish lang din ako. Baka kasi I joined the universe of the Big 4 nung mature enough na ako, like sabi sa reference letter and sa evaluation ko for grad school ages ago. Baka kasi, iba rin ang tatak Leon Guinto kahit aminin ko pa or hindi na may combo ng Ikot at Toki. Baka kasi, universal alignment na 'di man ako taga-Katips na shala side, solid na solid ang distilled training from my second dad na walking and talking Atenistang OG. LOL. Baka naman, it's time for me rin to look at things from the better side, the blind side and the bright side, too. TBC kasi medyo nahihirapan akong i-process ito and food coma 10000000 na naman meee, mhie. Laters. So, we continue after food coma sa buffet and sinundot natin ng more than 1 bott ng Cerveza, sisig Kampampangan style and of course, gambas with super lovely bread and butter on the side. Pagod ako, pero much needed detox from work. Medyo antok na rin ako pero sige, tatawid natin ito to remind myself a year or so from now.

Back to my realizations as I was cheering all the way from the upper box because the tickets are prized off the roof. School rivalry is but a social construct. Lucky and blessed ako to be in an organization na 99% walang kaganapan tungkol sa kung saan ka ba galing. :) Ngayon nga, the Big 4 look at non-Big 4 talents kasi iba na talaga ang mundo. My ultimate question is: Schools never define a person. It's the person who defines the reputation of his or her school. Also, nagiging by the way na lang talaga ang school after the usual get-to-know you. HAHAHHAHAHA. Kung baga may stereotypes, pero since mature people na tayo, 'di porke magaling mag-English, magaling na. 'Di porke, straight na Tagalog, malalim na. Was also watching how the game that I used to dream about are shrunken to marketing ploys of all sorts. :D LELS. Honestly, I stopped following UAAP nung nagkaroon ng issue na benta or luto and may sindikato sa likod nito. Fan ako ng conspiracy theories pero ewan ko ba. May something off and kahit may mega PR mode sila noon, iba ang high school basketball sa college and even sa pro. High school kasi, parang you play the game because you love the game. May goal ka na magkaroon ng chances of getting a way in whether need mo or trip mo lang.

As I saw the blurry faces of the players, the cheer dancers and the pep squad which the crowd watched closely, I can't help but wonder, anong mangyayari sa kanila a decade or so from now.

Yes, naging people watcher mode ako sa game kahapon on top of praying na, all UP needs is 1 point more than Ateneo to win it hard.

Speaking of winning, marami mang ways to win, isang percent better lang sa kalaban mo ang need mong itawid para masabing nanalo ka nga, at natalo 'yung kalaban mo.

Also, sobrang tense nung players which is okay and totally understandable PERO, to win any game, you need to allow yourself to be in the zone. As an example, alat levels ni Cagulangan is 11 out of 10. Siya pa naman pinapanood ko this season. HAY. Iba talaga 'pag bitbit mo 'yung passion and purpose kesa sa putting so much pressure sa'yo at sa team mo.

Siguro kasi, fan ako ng dark horses and underdogs. While your school will definitely look good on your folio, the truth lies in what you do, what you don't do and what you try to do.

Lakas maka-Gladiator nung game kahapon. Angasan everywhere. Sagutan and masasabi ko naman talaga na gigil na gigil ang Maroons, pero medyo triggered pero cool pa rin ang Blues. HAHHAHAHAHAHHA. 'Yung nagpipigil pero at the brink of malalang patol na. May uuwi't uuwing sugatan, at meron ding luhaan.

At the end of the day, kahit anong school ka pa, social class, gender, regional location, abtp. ang totoo lang e nasaan ba ang moral compass mo. Nasaan ba ang loyalty mo? Sa school mo ba o sa sarili mo. Nasaan ang core values mo? Sa school hymn ba derived 'yan or sa song of your life na ikaw mismo ang tumahak at tumawid?

Also, a game is just a game, after all. It's just like watching a Netflix show with a beginning, middle and end. It's more about seeing each other eye to eye once the shot clock dies. It's more about giving props to anyone who played the game well that's devoid of Maroon or Blue. It's all about enjoying and looking forward to the finals. HAHAHHAHAHAAHHA.

[reine-cerissse]

Dearest someone,

Gusto ko lang iburst out tong nararamdaman ko. Sobrang bigat na po kasi. I dont know what to do. Di ko na kayang magpretend na Im always okay. Ang hirap hirap. Alam nyo po kung bat di ako nag oopen sa mga kaibigan ko? Kasi alam kong may problema dn sila. Isa pa, mula nung my misunderstanding ako sa isa sa bff ko naging matumal na ang pakikikamustahan ko pati sa mga iba pa naming mga kaibigan. Yung iba naman, talagang wala nang kamustahan, nahihiya rin naman akong bigla biglang magchachat sa knila para lang magsabi. Sa parents ko naman, inaamin ko napakaselfish ko sa part na nasasaktan ko yung sarili ko. Sorry mama, sorry papa. I didn't mean to hurt you. Alam ko namang mali yon. Hindi ko lang alam paano ko sasabihin na bukod pa sa inaalala ko kung paano ang buhay ko ngayon, si marvin naospital at hirap makahinga, natural lang masasaktan ako kasi sya nasanay nako na sya nagchi-cheer up saakin palagi. Pag nalungkot ako ng sobra sa kalagayan ni marvin hndi pwede kasi malulungkot din si mama. Kaya I always pretend. And then, yun pang problema namin ni marvin sa iba hndi pa nasesettle kasi na ospital rin yung pagkukunan sana. Iniisip ko rin yun. Isang taon at higit na namin inaantay ni marvin na dumating saamin yun pero hanggang ngayon andami paring pagsubok. Kung diko magawan yun ng paraan, mapagsasabihan nanaman ako ni papa na kesyo 'bat kasi di inuuna' 'bat dpa tapusin'. Dagdag mo na rin yung salitang matatanggap mo sa pakikipag usap dun sa mga taong kelangan kong harapin parin at sabihing nagkasakit si marvin.😭 Oo alam ko, may ibang tao pa na mas grabe ang mga dinanas nila sa buhay kumpara saakin. Pero hnd tayo parepareho ng pagtanggap sa bawat problema natin sa buhay. Ang maliit na bagay para sa iyo ay maaaring malaking bagay para saakin. Ang sakit sakit at ang hirap magpigil ng problema. Hnd ko kayang sabihin kina mama kasi mag aalala yun. Syempre nakakaguilty naman. Sobrang walang wala lang talaga akong masabihan kaya pasensya kana. Pasensya na kung andami ko pang sinasabi. Pero kasi, sa totoong mundo ng realidad saka lang naman magiging valuable yung salitang "saakin pwede kang magkwento" kung talagang huli na ang lahat. Kasi hangga't anjan ka at lumalaban, kahit gaano pa karami ang rants o problema mo sa buhay, papakinggan ka lang, minsan meron pangang magsasabi sayo patalikod ng 'buti nga sayo'. Hayyyssss😭 payakap po.

[zhinekaily]

The Grade 8 set the ring on fire!

On March 3 2023, the Championship of the Basketball Girls for Siniripal 2023 was between Grade 8 and Grade 11. It was held on the basketball court of Pangpang. 11-4

In the first quarter, the Grade 8 was already on fire with back to back shots. The Grade 11 on the other hand is struggling to even get a point. 0-4

The second quarter came and the Grade 8 was still on the lead adding four more points. The Grade 11 was gaining scores but it was still not enough to catch up to the scores of their opponent. 8-2

In the third quarter the Grade 8 was still on the lead with nine points. While the Grade 11 gained two more points. 9-4

The fourth quarter is finally here. The Grade 8 gave everything even though they were catching their breath. They gain two more points while defending. Their defense because the reason why the Grade 11 didn't gain any more points. 11-4

"Happy eeh ay gin himo namun tanan namun nga ma kaya para ma daog lang kami" said by Cepeda of Grade 8.

The crowd went wild as the game ended. A lot of people cheered for the grade 8 as they won. The players were full of joy because their effort didn't go to waste.

[rahfia]

Possesive's Own Tragedy by thexwhys

First of all, ang ganda. So much emotion, very roller-coaster ang ma-fefeel mo sa story na to. This is my second story sa Infliction na natapos ko actually. Una kay Hell. Hahaha. Diba naka-warm up na ko. 🤣

My thoughts about everything:

Characters:

Felix Arkon Gulmatico-Laurent. Gosh, speechless ako sayo boy. Hahaha. Hindi ko naman maitatanggi na kinilig ako sa kanya talaga kasi the assurance grabe umaapaw and the honesty top- tier plus kapag magmahal siya center of the world na. The way he would move heaven and earth for his loved ones 100/100 talaga. Pero siyempre hindi siya perfect. Ang pinaka-problem siguro kay Arkon is sinasarili niya lahat na kahit sobrang bigat na hanggang pwede pa, kanya lang. He knows na marami siyang support system pero he chose to keep it kasi nasa isip niya it will burden the people around him. Overall, mamahalin. 🤣

Olivia Maravilla-Laurent. You'll love her. Period. She's a softy but at the same time tough, yan ang nakikitang pag-potray sa kanya. Sa mga napagdaanan niya na hindi niya deserve and to fight it, tama lang ang word na survivor sa kanya. Wala lang ako mapintas kay Livi kasi pati si Helena na maldita love siya. Hahaha. Ang grabe lang siguro kay Liv ay yung overthinking and self pity niya dito malala pero ayaw ko naman invalidate yun kasi gets naman kung saan niya hinuhugot yon. Overall, mas mamahalin.

Story (scenes etc)

Eto yung story na akala mo puro nalang tragedy. Kasi naman hanggang dulo pagsubok malala tong peg ni te Cams. Hahahaha. Pero bumawi naman. 🤣

Ang galing netong story. Hindi mabigat pero hindi rin magaan. The only time na sinipon ako yung na-deds si Kim, after nun na-sad lang nang konti sa ibang scene pero the rest happy/kilig na. Hindi ko sure kung bakit. 😁

I always admire when te Cams brought two people together and etong dalawang tao broken na akalain mo beyond repair. Let's face it before meeting each other Arkon and Livi, they're not living. They are surviving nalang. Kung oras mo na, oras mo na. Parang ganun eh. Kaya as the story progressed nakikita mo yung glow-up between the characters ang laki. They started seeing life differently and i love how they became each other's strength na yung broken pieces naging whole. Destiny talaga sila. 😭❤️

Sobrang ganda rin ng mga topics dito sa stories na to. First,moving on. That is not easy to move forward dahil masakit, kahit hindi kaya pero I salute how the story shows that they do it for themselves na walang tutulong sayo kundi sarili mo na okay rin ang may inspiration pero kung gusto mo talaga, magagawa mo. Kaya let that sink in. Second, being a mother. For some importante ang magka-baby. In this story you provided adoption, surrogacy and pregancy-- different ways, same outcome and that's amazing. Third, awareness. Down-syndrome, Parkinson's and trauma other sensitive topics na alam na-tackle sa stories na to, thank you for that kasi eye-opening yon. Lastly, relationships. Bet ko yung hierarchy ni Arkon pag dating sa relationship nila ni Livi. Noted po.

The wedding scene po. For a person na dagat is life, nag-imagine ako dun talaga. Yung venue, yung suot ni Livi lahat. Sobrang magical. Deserve ni Livi yon.

Also yung heart kineme part. Remember when Arkon is begging Kim's heart to beat vs. Livi letting him know na her heart will beat and Arkon can listen to it everytime. Glow - up din.

Ano ba pa?? Ah yung Erwin scene. Deserve talaga. Sarap mag-cheer habang nagbabasa. Kasi like everyone else kung pwede lang pugutan si Erwin ginawa na. Hahahaha.

Lines:

Inipon ko to talaga. Hahaha.

Eto yung lines ni Arkon na alam mong para kay Livi lahat gagawin niya:

Also love this line.

And this:

Masyado na ko nag-enjoy. Nakaka-inlove kasi silang dalawa. Worth it lahat. Hahaha. Anyway, excited na ko sa mga susunod. Alam ko naman ginawa lang tong appetizer kasi baka madugo na yung mga susunod. 😂

#TPOT #Arkon #Livi #thexwhys

[missunget]

Bakit ako na-bully?

Una sa lahat, di ko rin alam. Hahahaha!

Back story.

Nag elementary ako sa isang pribadong paaralan, so siyempre sanay ka na sa mga kaklase mo na kayo ang nagkakakitaan, nagkakasama, and etc. Take note, I have no solid friends back then but I considered them as my true friends kaya naman when we graduated at nalaman kong lilipat ako ng eskwelahan para doon mag high school, nalungkot ako. No choice but I need to, kasi nagkasakit ang dadi, nagkaroon siya ng heart enlargement so ayun, nag public school ako for 2 school years.

First year was fine, I was able to meet new people and make friends. Normal year lang for me to say. Second year was so memorable, kasi di ko ineexpect na maraming tumatrato sa akin na kaibigan, they even gave me letters kapag may activity sa isang subject na bigyan ng letter ang tinuturing mong friend, seriously like what? Totoo ba 'to? Ang dami kong natanggap na letters from unexpected classmates, tinago ko lahat 'yon kasi I felt special and valued.

Kaso sa kakulitan at kagustuhan kong bumalik sa dati kong eskwelahan, I did my best na pataasin ang grades ko para makabalik doon, I made it, nakabalik ako noong 3rd year high school. Unfortunately, hindi ako pwede sa star section kasi transferee ako, in short, sa ibang section ako napunta, andun yung mga schoolmates ko nung elementary, nakilala ko sila at ang mga ugali nila. Ayos naman ang lahat, normal, pero I had no friends at all. I was alone back then.

4th year high school, di pa rin ako nakabalik sa star section kasi bumaba grades ko dahil lumabo mata ko, di ako nakakapag take down notes. Ang lala ng classmates ko.

BULLYING STARTED.

Like, shit!!!! I hate this. Araw-araw parang impyerno ang buhay ko. Kapag may groupings, laging ako yung role na pangit, yung kawawa. Halos lahat ng classmates ko ayaw sakin. I even questioned myself "Bakit? Anong ginawa kong masama?" Yung mga kaklase kong babae laging nakairap sa akin kapag kinommend ako ng teacher namin na magaling ako kumanta. Isip isip ko, "teh, anong ginawa ko? bakit galit kayo?" Di ko nalang pinansin, di ako lumaban. Yung mga lalake kong kaklase, puro manyak, naranasan kong hipuan ako sa pwet, pero di ako lumaban, nakakainis di'ba? Meron pa, nakasalubong ko sa daan, sinabi sakin "ay, kamukha niya yung nasa scandal oh", tapos nagtatawana sila, ako dedma ulit. Shunga noh? May instance na nagppractice para sa cheer dance, di ako sinalo, buti di ako gaanong nasaktan, sabi ko "de, okay lang". Halos araw-araw akong nababastos at napagtritripan, ginawa ko ng classroom yung clinic para lang makaiwas sa kanilang lahat. Oo, yan ang excuse ko, lagi akong andun, laging may masakit sa akin kunwari, para lang di nila ako mapagtripan, kaya mas lalong bumaba grades ko kasabay na lumalabo mata ko.

Ewan ko kung anong ginawa ko bakit ganun sila sakin? Ilang taon kong dinala lahat nang iyon. Di ako palaban dati, tahimik lang ako. Masakit kasi I even tried na i-report sila pero walang nagawa, sila ang kinampihan.

Ang hustisya ba ay para lang talaga sa mayaman?

Siguro?

Fast forward. I graduated, pero dala dala ko pa rin lahat ng sakit, araw-araw kong napapanaginipan yung mga tao, yung eskwelahan, lahat lahat!

I just wanted to thank God for His goodness, love, and promises. I healed from those wounds, I even forgave them.

[164alt]

so ayun yung plan na pre shift OT hanggang plano na lang talaga hahaha. Gumising naman kami ng 4:30 pero di namin nafulfill bumangon. Then ayun panggap muna kami sa work while chikahan kay may. Then ayun pala nagpadala ako mcdo kay gelu kasi gusto nyo ng breakfast nya ay pancake with sausage and hashbrown HAHAHA with matching alfonso. Sakto naman na wala pa masyado breakfast kaya yun, thanks zoe. Tapos yung happy part dito is yung inaasar siya ng fam niya hahaha wala lang cute lang. tapos ayun around 7 na kami nag-out. Then medyo sad lang kasi umatake na naman yung pagkamiss ko sa kanya but then naging okay din naman. Tapos ayun friday is inom day hahaha chillnuman later titingnan sino matutumba abangan! …… at ayun chill ng inuman namin hahaha 4am na natapos. Nag virtual museum kami sa amsterdam pero di namin nalibot lahat kasi limited access lang ata(?) pero nagenjoy naman ako. Nakakatawa lang kasi yung pulutan ni gelu ay isang burger lang tapos until last shot natipid niya yung burger hahaha. That’s how we end march! Cheers for more months, years, memories and more more more moments na kasama si gelu. I really love gelu so fucking much.