#audhd behavior lmao

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thinking abt the unit songs and how weird they are in-universe?? we're never really given a full explanation for them beyond that they're also born from the sekais and we know from the virtual lives technically being canon that the kids definitely know them but their existences are never touched on beyond that. like. the untitled songs are the only ones with plot relevance and considering that the unit songs are the result of significant beats of solo character arcs i feel like they're almost under-explored in an in-universe context?? unless im forgetting smth but idk they're just weird!!

i got thinking abt it bc i was thinking abt toya ( what else is new lol ) and how like. honestly when the story of the game starts, his personal arc is already years underway. he's not unique in that by any means, we meet a lot of the characters in the middle of where their arcs might be if they were solo protagonists, but period of nocturne is about him finally, after years from his own perspective, confronting his dad about his love for street music and gaining that begrudging sort of acceptance from him about it. and the song that's created from his feelings about that kicks off with violin and is joined by piano partway through the intro but very quickly becomes something not necessarily unusual but atypical for what most associate with either instrument. and i've been thinking about what hearing that for the first time would have felt like for him — this song that's a perfect harmony between the instruments through which his parents abused him and the music through which he's found his freedom and how despite his upbringing and his struggles with classical even now, music is so deeply a part of him. so much so that during their fight in the vbs main story, akito calls toya on his shit by saying that he doesn't know anyone as passionate about music as toya is — and we see in walk on and on that he finally embraces the desire to write it again ( i can't believe it's been over a year since walk on and on where is his fourth event. where is it where is he ) because it's just so important to him and who he is. his whole life has been music for better or for worse and he is the classical music he was raised on as much as he is the street music he performs today and rad dogs is 100% toya in a song, much more to me than mirai or utsuro wo aogu, while they aptly explore the parts of him they were written for, are