#atwow web weaving

[lesbiankirisully]

MY LIFE THROUGH SACRIFICE: I MISS YOU, I MISS YOU, I LOVE YOU

for @womenofpandoraweek day 3: life & death

Avatar (2009) | Thirst, Marina Yuszczuk | Avatar: The Way of Water (2022) | “Water,” golda may | The Inheritance of Orquídea Divina, Zoraida Córdova

[vampiriiiia]

My father is the worst man alive

and I’m his favourite son

❛❛villain and violent❞

❛❛infant and innocent❞

❛❛baby,both arms cradle you now❞

❛❛both arms cradle you now❞

My father has gotten…better  I cannot help but wonder if it is too late.He now asks me why I am so Angry, why I raise my voice. He does not understand I learned it from him.

[jeanniebug623]

This chapter was running long (at least long for word length for this story), so expect another chapter in a few days. 🐞💙

����️🕷️ Weaving the Web 🕷️🕸️

Chapter 23: Aftershock

Spider stayed completely silent all while Ja assessed and treated the stab wound to Quaritch’s hand. Wainfleet was especially agitated as evident by his flat ears and flipping tail as he spoke to the colonel, but the poor kid was so shell shocked by his own actions that he didn’t know what the corporal was most angry about. He fucked up…by Eywa, did Spider fuck up! What had he done?!

“I want cameras on that mirror from all angles.” Quaritch ordered, completely immune to the fact that Ja was sewing thick stitches into the palm and back of his hand from the penetrating wound he saved his son from.

”Yea, boss…I’ll take care of it.” Wainfleet said quietly from where he stood in the hall, eyes on Spider who was sitting on the floor in his room with his hood pulled up over his head. While he was concerned for the kid, he was more concerned for his best friend who almost had his throat slit by said kid. And he didn’t want Quaritch to let his feelings for the boy overlook the threat…

”Lyle,” Quaritch said firmly, getting his second to look at him. He could read Wainfleet’s mind and said quieter, “I’ll handle it.”

Wainfleet didn’t say anything at first until Quaritch hardened his gaze and raised brow. He nodded as he crossed his arms and said, “Yes, sir.”

”What’s the damage, doc?” Quaritch said, his ears flicking back as he looked to his hand as Ja applied a layer of synthetic second skin to protect the wounds before wrapping gauze around his hand.

”Aside from the obvious?” Ja asked without looking up from the damage, “You should be in the med wing getting this scanned for vessel and nerve damage.”

”Am I gonna lose the hand?” Quaritch asked, not appreciating the tone.

”No, sir.” Ja said, checking his attitude with the colonel even though it came from a good place.

”You can run those tests for me tonight.” The colonel said, tempering his own attitude. His men were loyal and they would neutralize any threat just like he’d do for them. But this wasn’t just any threat. Spider, his SON, was his responsibility. The risk would never outweigh how much he loved the kid.

”Tonight?” Ja asked, glancing at his watch as he finished securing the gauze wrapping. It was almost 0500. Night and day shifts would start switching over. The kitchens had probably been prepping for the last hour for breakfast.

”Sir-…” Ja started to protest but Wainfleet beat him to it.

”Miles, are you fucking insane?” Wainfleet said, forgetting the sensitivity of his choice of words. He didn’t see Spider, who’d been trying to control his shaking by hugging his knees to his chest, glance at the recom.

”Lyle.” Quaritch said with a hint of warning in his voice. He really did understand why his men were concerned but now they knew why Spider had been acting the way he was. The bad attitude, picking fights, being disrespectful to the squad…he was afraid of someone and trying to identify the threat himself. The pang of discomfort he felt when Quaritch realized that he, himself, was at the top of Spider’s list of suspects.

”Ja, I think Spider-man could use a once over.” Wainfleet said, “Before they head out.”

Spider lifted his head slightly and turned enough that they could see his face. And he still looked like a wreck. His eyes were still puffy and red from crying and they only looked worse by the dark bags under his eyes from lack of sleep. Quaritch was still going to take him out to the forest after last night? He should be locked in a cell and the key shot out into space.

”Yea, Spider, let’s go get your meds, ok?” Ja said with a weak smile. He liked the kid like the rest of the squad, but the incident from last night couldn’t be overlooked. He slipped a sedative in a capped syringe into his cargo pockets out of Spider’s view…just in case he needed it at the quick draw. Quaritch saw it but understood the precaution, as much as it pained him to see his men take such measures.

Spider nodded quickly. Anything to show feel more normal and that last night’s incident wasn’t something he wanted to do. His hands shook as he unwrapped his arms and used them to push himself back upright. He immediately hugged his arms around his middle to be as small as possible as he looked down as he slipped by Wainfleet. He couldn’t look any of them in the eye for more than a second. The shame he felt for betraying their trust was too great…

Wainfleet felt bad seeing the teenager like this. After the colonel, he had bonded the most with the kid and he KNEW Spider was a good kid. He was there that day; the day they strapped Spider into the neuroscanner. He saw how strong and resilient and loyal the kid was. But he also heard his screams of pain and pleading through his lies and the blood that dripped from his nose for his stubbornness.

”Hey,” Wainfleet said, sweeping his hand out in front of the teen, but not touching him, before he cleared the hall, “I got a great flick for us to watch tonight. While the boss is getting looked at. Sound good?”

Spider jumped when Wainfleet stopped him, the movement of his hand expecting to result in a hell of a hit. But, no. They never hurt him unless they had to, and he had to remember that. And it wasn’t HIM they were hurting; it was Miles. Spider just had to deal with the repercussions of Miles acting like a psycho. He stared at Wainfleet’s hand then, realizing the corporal wanted an answer before he’d let him pass, Spider nodded silently.

”Sounds good, kid, I think you’ll like it.” Wainfleet said, not bothering to put on a fake smile as the kid wasn’t looking at him anyways. He watched Spider go into the kitchenette and start fumbling with the pill bottles on the counter. Giving Ja a nod to leave, Wainfleet stepped into Quaritch’s room and closed the door.

”Say your piece.” Quaritch said with a sigh, testing the mobility of his hand. If he’d been half a second smarter, he would have used his non-dominant hand to block. He stared at Wainfleet as he waited for the lecture the corporal obviously wanted to deliver.

”I’m going to follow your orders, Miles, and place those cameras. If someone’s messing with the kid, we’ll find out who and skin them alive, but you know it could be one of his other sides trying to keep Spider on edge.”

”Spider has valid reasons to be on edge.” Quaritch said in defense of his boy, “I’ve been doin’ damage control ever since that little psychopath showed himself.”

“I know and you been doing a damn good job of it, but that kid could have fucking killed you. He had you under his fucking knife. He’s not some goddamn stray kitten, he is dangerous and smart. Which means so are his alters.” Wainfleet said, not bothering to sugar coat it.

“I never said he wasn’t,” Quaritch agreed, a silence falling between them. The colonel knew Spider was a challenge, just one he underestimated until Miles showed just how dangerous a less restrained version of Spider was. He reiterated his agreement by nodding and saying, “I know Spider’s dangerous, but he’s my responsibility. He’s my son. I can’t change that anymore than goin’ back and not fuckin’ up being his father in the first place. And I wouldn’t either. I got this crazy kid that’s giving me more of a reason to live than why we woke up in these bodies in the first place.”

Wainfleet went silent. Colonel Miles Quaritch had always been a man of very few emotional words and even less expressions. But to hear the colonel say that Spider was more important than the mission to take down Sully? That was not a dedication he expected. The colonel always liked to be the one in control and holding all the pieces, but now? Sully and the Na’vi weren’t even on the playing board anymore.

”Miles…” Wainfleet started slowly, unable to choose his words.

”I know what it sounds like, Lyle.” Quaritch interrupted when Wainfleet couldn’t find what to say, “I know it sounds like treason. Abandoning the mission. Desertion worth a firing squad. But I’m gonna make this world safe for him, even if I gotta trek across this godforsaken moon on my hands and knees to find Sully. I’ll do it.”

”Good to know, boss, but…um…” Wainfleet said, then cleared his throat, “Don’t wait.”

Quaritch raised a brow as he stood to meet his friend eye to eye.

”If the kid comes first, don’t wait to put him first. I’m sure the woman I was going to marry moved on. And the baby girl I only saw a few times is all grown up. Coming to Pandora wasn’t putting them first.” Wainfleet said, his ears going back as his gaze dropped, “Not really, anyways. Yea. I was here to make way for humanity just like the rest of the meatheads and could tell myself that every night that in the long run, I was doing right by them. But I don’t fucking know if I did. So…don’t wait to find out if you’re doing the right thing if you got a chance to make it happen now.”

Quaritch was just as stunned by Wainfleet’s seemingly out-of-character heartfelt speech. It was one of those moments they’d never speak about again. Wainfleet pulled a spare pair of gloves out of his back pocket and held them out to Quaritch. It would be easier to hide the injury if it wasn’t just wrapped up and out in the open.

”Just one more thing, boss…” Wainfleet said, his ears turning back and downward as an uncomfortable expression took over, “The kid was ready to do the hard part last night. If it comes to it…if Spider continues to go downhill, you gonna help him with the hard part if it becomes the right thing to do? For him?”

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”And let’s increase the anxiety meds by 25 milligrams across the board, three times a day.” Ja said as he scribbled down a new set of medication rules, “No skipping if you’re feeling good, you’ll want to keep it in your system.”

Spider just nodded fervently, letting Ja know he was on board with doctor’s orders even though he still couldn’t bring himself to speak since sobbing his heart out in his father’s strong arms hours before. His shaking had stopped due to the fast-acting nature of his anxiety meds, but was still afraid to speak up given what he’d done to their commanding officer.

”I’m also working with Prager to get you off these,” Ja said as he picked up the bottle of sleeping pills, “For something natural found on Pandora that will be safe for you. Who knows? Maybe we’ll get you off all these one day…”

The teen stared at the medic as he finished writing down his instructions for him and the colonel to follow. Despite his nearly fatal attack on Quaritch, Ja was still treating him like his patient? Still wanted to help him? His throat got tight as the thoughts raced through his mind. He had good friends at the village…but did he ever have someone look out for him like this? Quaritch, Wainfleet, Ja…and the other four in their own way.

Were the recoms…his family?

[this-world-of-beautiful-monsters]

“if there is a hell, you might want to go there for a little r&r after a tour on pandora.”

Avatar (2009) / Avatar: The Way of Water (2022) / “Sympathy for the Devil,” The Rolling Stones / “Does the devil come in many forms?” Quora / “To Bear The Devil,” Kris Kristofferson / “Me Against The Devil,” The Relentless / “Ashes,” Stellar / American Horror Story, (2011-ongoing) / “The road to hell is paved with good intentions,” English Club / “Me and the Devil,” Soap & Skin / “Dance with the Devil,” Breaking Benjamin / “Devil Devil,” Milck / “The Devil Comes Back to Georgia,” Charlie Daniels and Mark O'Connor / “Devil in My Veins,” Yelawolf

[taettooed]

brothers

Antigonick Anne Carson | Weight Jacqueline Woodson | He Ain't Heavy, He's My Brother The Hollies

inspo

[lesbiankirisully]

GIRLS OF NATURE

A Fragile Enchantment by Allison Saft | Art for News From Nowhere, Liz Hernández | Avatar: Way of Water (2022) | Rabbits, Alanna Matty | The Bell Jar by Sylvia Plath | The Ten Largest: No. 1 Childhood, Hilma af Klint | Army of Two, Carole & Tuesday

[lesbiankirisully]

mother

The Mothers, Brit Bennett | Avatar: The High Ground | Avatar: The Way Water (2022) | Motherhood (disambiguation) wiki page | Innocence by William-Adolphe Bouguereau | Crying in H-Mart, Michelle Zauner

[lesbiankirisully]

TUKTIREY TE SULI NEYTIRI’ITE

Avatar: The Way of Water (2022) | Art of Avatar The Way of Water, Tara Bennet | Tuktirey, Avatar Wiki

[jeanniebug623]

I feel this in the best ways. 🥹🕷️💙✨🩵🐞

Silent As Shadows was legit only drafted out for 13 to 15 chapters…and look at her now, chapter 30 set to post on Friday March 1st! 🥂

I want to take a moment and post my thanks to all my readers on Tumblr (with much unknown love to the ones only in AO3 who won’t see this). You’ve all been so motivating and every kudos, comment, question, and critique has made my tiny corner of the internet very bright!

I’m excited, and sad, to go through the final third act of SAS with you. There’s still a lot of storytelling ahead for Spider and Rey’ka as we head towards that promised happy ending on the horizon. 🕷️💙✨

Weaving The Web continues with its unpredictable update schedule…who knows how long that one will be? 🕷️🤔🕸️

"Can't wait to see where you take this story" well I can't wait to see where this story takes me either

[lesbiankirisully]

RAGE HAS OVERTAKEN ME (HELP)

for day 5 of @womenofpandoraweek

Neytiri Avatar Wiki Page | untitled art by Nastaśsia Rydleŭskaja | Avatar: The Way of Water (2022) | "Crying," Pom Pom Squad | Avatar (2009) | I Who Have Never Known Men, Jacqueline Harpman | Avatar: The Way of Water Concept Art | Sky Latter, Pascale Petit | close up of Algol’s Mistress (2021) by Zoe Williams

[lesbiankirisully]

NEW, POWERFUL, SHINING LOVE

for day seven of @womenofpandoraweek

Avatar: The Way of Water (2022) | Eagles talons locked in mating dance | "Die with a Smile," Bruno Mars & Lady Gaga | “Goddess,” Cathy Jain | The Kiss by Gustav Klimt

[lesbiankirisully]

THE HEART OF THE FIRE

For day 2 of @womenofpandoraweek

Labyrinths: Selected Stories & Other Writings by Jorge Luis Borges | Varang Concept Art for Avatar: Fire and Ash | Choroid, Holly Warburton | I know fire like i know my home; they burn the same by Fatima Aamer Bilal | Agony, Miles Johnston | Choas, Holly Warbuton | Varang Concept Art | Crying, Pom Pom Squad

[lesbiankirisully]

THE BOY IN WHICH DEATH CALLED HOME

Avatar (2009) | Thanator, Avatar Wiki | Avatar: The Way of Water (2022) | Death, the last visit, Marie Howe | unposted and unedited Neteyam fic in progress by @lesbiankirisully

[lesbiankirisully]

The Moon Embraces Us

Avatar: The Way of Water (2022) | Portrait of Lucha Maria, A Girl from Tehuacan by Frida Kahlo, 1942 | “Witches,” Alice Phoebe Lou | The Starry Night by Vincent van Gogh, 1889 | Toruk: The First Flight, Cirque du Soleil show (2015-2019) | “Queendom,” AURORA | Avatar (2009) | Solar Eclipse by Howard Russell Butler, 1925

[lesbiankirisully]

LIKE FATHER, LIKE SON

Avatar (2009) | So Much More Than What I’ve Become, by @lesbiankirisully | “The Great Longing,” Lost Under Heaven | Avatar: The Way of Water (2022)

[lesbiankirisully]

AND SHE BROUGHT LIFE WITH EACH STEP

Signs of Life after Eden, Carolyn Marie Rodgers | Avatar: The Way of Water (2022) | América, Sarah Maria Medina | “Blue,” BATTS & Sharon Van Etten | Girl Riding a Horse in a Field of Sunflowers, David Allan Evans