#atm i am the person saddled w taking care of my two dependent siblings 1 older 1 younger. and i do have that material power
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this is why i'm a deadcoded samgirl
#j.txt#i have nothing left to cope with of course. is my solution rly to shut myself up for the 23843472th time in my life for the collective good#well yes. because it is genuinely the best option for the collective good#for the 46784342985th time#why am i always the only family member doing this tho!!!!!!! there are always more of u and it would be 10x easier if we All did it!!!!!!#THAT is more stressful than the shutting myself up 3825732904 times part lmao#like we're all fucked up and traumatized but i somehow find ways to make the effort for the Whole and sometimes that pisses me off!!!#not enough to do anything ultimately. pointedly. because it would be a detriment to the Whole. and now we complete the 324735675th cycle#i'm the second youngest in this family too how did this happen#this is WHY i'm a deancoded samgirl blaalbalblaba......#as i have a mini breakdown on main like genuinely#sorry again. torn between mortification guilt and love for fellow human beings trying to help#will try not to delete these and just bury them w more posts instead#ok update to be fair. in the past 94377419 times i shouldn't have been the only one prioritizing the collective. however#atm i am the person saddled w taking care of my two dependent siblings 1 older 1 younger. and i do have that material power#and it does mean i have that obligation to. unfortunately continue the cycle#as long as i've decided to fill this role for them or continue to since that's how it happened#which i have decided. and i'm an adult who committed to that and like i can't ignore that either#i will break... The Cycles... in what ways i still can lol. and eventually completely i am just choosing to do what i need to for all of us#to Survive. i will Survive and try to help them survive too until we're in a position to do more than just that#talking myself thru my own breakdowns#points to post. anyway#j shut UPP u can sleep now
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