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xiaoderyy · 4 months ago
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married-2-the-music · 3 months ago
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Married To The Music's Gallery (Page TWO)
In "honor" of the blog being a year old, I've decided to do these little roundups every so often, starting in September of last year. Here are my Top 2 songs of every artist I covered from December 18th 2023 to March 25th 2024, along with my thoughts on who was most overrated, which review made me shed a couple tears, and what idol stood out from the rest.
Featured Artists: Jonghyun, Chung Ha, Lucy, Girls Generation, ATEEZ, Key, 9Muses, (G)I-DLE (re-do), Kim Sejeong, Onew, Rolling Quartz, SHINHWA, Fromis_9, NCT 127, Bol4, Golden Child, Mamamoo, NCT Dream (re-do)
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kiestrokes · 1 year ago
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For a person who doesn’t particularly like the color pink, I sure do love when certain K-pop men have pink hair 🌸
Kitty Gang Jimin
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Pinkgi
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View Jinki
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Love Me Right Kai
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and painfully:
All Night Binnie 🌝 + She Is Jjong 🌚
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iwannabemyselfff · 1 year ago
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🤲🏻୧ 𝗉𝖾𝖺𝖼𝖾, 𝗵𝗮𝗻 & hwang 𝗂 𝗅𝗈𝗏𝖾 𝗒𝗈𝗎.
ㅤㅤㅤ ૮₍⇀‸↼‶₎ა 𝗁𝖺𝗇 ♡ hwang ! 𝗺𝘆 𝗮𝗻𝗴𝗲𝗹𝘀
ㅤㅤㅤ 💭͡🧣 𝘀𝘄𝗲𝗲𝘁, 𝗃𝗂𝗌𝗎𝗇𝗀 + hwang = 𝗹𝗶𝗳𝗲
ㅤㅤㅤ 𝖼𝖺𝗍𝗌 🧷 𝗶𝗹𝘆! . . hyunjin & 𝗁𝖺𝗇, 𝖻𝖾𝗌𝗍𝗂𝖾𝗌
what’s up! my name is saram and this is my main account. it mainly consists of reblogs but i also like to vent my feelings or thoughts here sometimes. ₊˚✩
゚。⌇🍢 ˙𐃷˙ 🧸! i love k-pop, music production, singing, dancing, poems, reading good pirate fanfics, motivation posts and scientific content.
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🛒 ֹ ִ please do not interact if u r: ִ ֹ ★ ִ ⬦
🧷 fatphobic. 🧷 transphobic. 🧷 homophobic. 🧷 sexist. 🧷 pro-russian government.
if u r a minor please interact only with sfw posts. mdni usually have warnings.
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i also have (now had since i got ted but i still will keep it here as a memory) a side blog called @staysloveskiz. it is weight loss related blog. ﹗ ˳⨳ ۪ 🧃🧷 ꯭ ⊹ ⋆ ࣪
so please, do not interact with my side blog if u r in recovery or below age of 16. also do not interact with me if u r an ed person who supports body shaming and/or things like fatspo. u r fucking disgusting and have absolutely no morals.
notice: i really cheer for people to always choose recovery, diet healthy and safely. i do not support pro-ana in any kind and i do not bear promoting eds. all bodies are different and that is what makes us beautiful and unique. but sadly, i struggle with my personal body image. so my blog is not used for promotional goals, it is used for vent reasons only. it makes me feel happier and easier on the tough journey. i wish for my quickest recovery.
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❁ ​ ͘ ​ 🥐 ​ ​ 𓂂 ​ 𓈒 ​ ​ ͘ 𓏸 anyway, u can always hmu in the messages to be friends/buddies. i am really friendly and i absolutely adore meeting and talking to the new people.
stream s-class,
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haunted-by-sweaters · 7 months ago
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8 and 15 for the Kpop bias game 🧡🪴
8. The first word that comes to my head when somebody mentions my bias
BAAABBBEEEEHHHHHHHH Negae banhae beorin naegae wae iraaaaeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee
15. If I could get a tattoo of something my bias said, what would it say
"don't fight in the comments if you're unemployed"
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youreignhere · 9 months ago
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Mental Health & The Lack of Mental Health Care in the K-Pop Industry
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The K-Pop Industry has helped brought forward the Greatest Performers, Dancers, Singers and Groups to this day. The industry is a Billion Dollar powerhouse for South Korea and has boosted the Nation’s connection to the World.
K-pop has played a huge role in Korea’s Tourism boost, the rising love for Korean Dramas and Movies being appreciated by International fans. With the growth of Korean Media, for example Youtube Videos by Korean Content Creators are being viewed by Foreign viewers, all of this contributing to the overall Economy of South Korea. While K-pop has only been around since the early 1990s, over 30 years old and it has changed the entire Music Industry for the better.
While K-Pop may have many great things, there are also a lot of dark sides within the K-Pop Industry as a whole. Today, we’ve decided to write a semi-well-researched rant about some things that we have a problem within the K-Pop Industry. Starting with the Overworking Crisis and the Lack of Mental Health Care in the K-Pop Industry.
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Bare in mind, this post contains references to Suicide, Depression, and other Mental Health Disorders with references to Trauma. We will do our best to pay respect to the Names mentioned. May they all Rest in Power. Please continue with caution if this may trigger you in any way. After all, your mental health also matters and I will not fault you for finding something more comfortable to read.
Now, if you are still with me, let’s get into the nitty gritty.
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Chapter One: Toxic Productivity in the K-Pop Industry
Before we delve into Mental Health, I would like to start with Toxic Productivity, or in simpler terms, Overworking. From what we have witnessed online and sometimes in person, Idols just collapsing after a performance or when the lights go down. They are so tired that they can barely stay standing or walk off a stage.
But what exactly is Overworking or in other words Toxic Productivity? And how has this become the norm in both Western & Asian Culture, specifically the K-Pop Industry?
Better Up dot com says that “Toxic productivity describes the drive to produce while neglecting other important aspects of our lives. We value productivity over everything else, like rest or quality time with loved ones.”
This has become Hustle Culture or that “Grind” Mindset that many on social media push to their audiences. While there is nothing wrong with working hard, working to the point of exhaustion, to the point where you forget or disregard your own needs or those that rely on you, is Toxic and even Physically Harmful.
Companies and even the media have pushed that “Grind” mindset for years but fortunately Millenials and Gen Z have picked up on the bullshit and many are fighting against the system or simply disregarding that system by refusing to work countless hours for barely minimum wage. But the sad fact is that companies don’t care that the Hustle mindset is Toxic or unhealthy, they only care about the revenue they can bring in the more their employees work and as you can tell, even the K-Pop Industry and Korea as a whole has companies like this.
Better Up goes on to state, “Productivity equals revenue, so companies want employees to value it as much as they do. This frame of mind is considered toxic because it’s culturally contagious. The more a society promotes overworking as valuable, the harder people work. And it can also have negative consequences like burnout and poorer relationships.”
Companies that encourage overworking have a special space in Hell. I am sure most of you guys reading think the same and feel the pain when your Fave rapper, singer, dancer or group is tired and obviously working too much. Especially after learning just how much Overworking or Toxic Productivity can Physically affect a person. Overworking of course leads to burning out- which let me tell you guys, is so horrible- but it is also proven to lead to adverse health problems, neck chest and back pains and even stroke to name just a few. Just take a look at this 2016 article reporting on some Idols who suffered the effects of Overworking.
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At this point, I don’t even care if they have to put out that reality series or work on a new song. I’d much prefer if they took a week off, no actually. I want them to take an entire month off. I just want them to visit family, relax, don’t touch a lick of music or choreography. Have the free time to catch up on trends and just sleep. God, some of them just need to sleep for a month, shaking my head.
Sometimes, this isn’t the companies’ fault and more so the Idol/s pushing themselves too much, mentally and physically, all for the sake of their loving fans. Due to Korea and many times, Black & Asian, even Western Culture pushing this “Hard & Long Work Hours guarantees Success mentality”, ignoring the fact that Suicide has become rampant due to the pressure on many Teens or Young Adults in or out of the K-Pop Industry. With the stress to perform well academically starting at the young age of 10, it has been ingrained into many, in or out of the K-Pop Industry.
However, as we know, Overworking does more harm than good and I wish I could just grab certain Idols and just shake them until they see sense. I know at the end of the day, many of them choose the life of an Idol and are adults who can make decisions for themselves. I just don’t agree with some of their choices (that’s pretty fair too, not like they are going to care about what some stranger on a blog says lol).
If you have any experience with Toxic Productivity, please let me know in the comments, I would love to see everyone’s thoughts on this as a whole, because we pretty much see it everyday in our normal lives as well.
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Chapter Two: Mental Health & Mental Health Care in the K-Pop Industry.
Let’s start with, What is Mental Health?
This is taken from our past blog, Everyone has Mental Health; The World Health Organization states, “Mental Health is an essential component in overall Health, as Mental Health decides our emotional, physical and social well-being. This can affect any person’s contribution to their environment and overall life.”
To put it in layman’s terms, Mental Health helps how we handle stress or anxiety, relate to others and topics, and determine our choices or behavior in life. The World Health Organization, or WHO continues to state that, “Mental Health is key at all stages of Life.”
Just like Physical Health, Mental Health is equally important for every person. However, it has been pushed aside in the media, education, and by society as a whole. Mental Health is never brought up when it can decrease your overall health just as much as diabetes or a stroke.
Just like you have Physical Health, everyone has Mental Health. Please feel free to read more about what is Mental Health on our Everyone has Mental Health Blog Here.
Mental Illness or Mental Health Disorders (they can be referred to as both) are classified as a or many significant disturbances in a person’s cognitive, emotional, and even physical behavior. As of a 2019 study from the World Health Organization, 1 in every 8 people globally is affected by Mental Illness. Making that an estimate of almost 1 Billion people worldwide (as of 2021) are directly affected by Mental Health in one way or the other.
Anxiety and Depression are the most common for Entrepreneurs and in this case Musicians or Idols. You can read more about the link to Mental Health Disorders and how it connects to Entrepreneurs from our blog post here. Toxic Productivity and Overworking also connects to Mental Health Disorders, as overworking is known to harm your physical and mental well being. Sadly, many Idols show symptoms of these and other Mental Illnesses and unfortunately, there are many times where no amount of fame or money can help ease that pain.
Remember, K-Pop Idols are many times put on harsh diets, told to look and act a certain way or their real personalities would not be liked. They are constantly put in the spotlight and have to conform to rigorous schedules, while many of them deal with Anxiety, Depression and low self-esteem or Self Hatred. Not to mention the mental pressure that Society and many fans place on them to be “perfect”.
With the fact that many K-pop Companies rarely care that much about Mental Health, much less their Idols’ mental health, not taking into consideration just how much toxic productivity, anxiety and depression can physically affect a human being. Causing them to spiral and fester for sometimes years, in absolute silence. Until they feel absolutely alone, even when surrounded by loving fans and a family like group. Suicide, seemed to be a last and, sadly many times, most pleasing option of a way out of the Industry and pain.
Considering how many Idols we have lost just in the past decade due to the lack of Mental Health Care and Mental Health Awareness in the K-Pop Industry. We may not have been able to save them all, but if at least one or few had the ability to get the professional help they deserved, then we may still have many of our loved ones with us. Mothers, Fathers, Sisters, Brothers, would not have to mourn and Fans would not have to grieve.
Psychology and Psychiatry Professor, Lim Myung-Ho said, “For a long time, celebrities have mostly avoided meeting a psychiatrist or a psychological counselor as they were afraid that their health condition would somehow tarnish their image,”
We have lost brilliant and beautiful Lights, due to the fear that society has put on these human beings, as well as the lack of understanding for Mental Health or the resources to give Idols the help they deserve as human beings.
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Thankfully, since the last decade, there’s been a rise in Mental Health Awareness in the K-Pop Industry and Korea as a whole. Many Idols or Musicians in the Industry, like Solo Star, AleXa and Lim Jaebeom, the Leader of Got7, have opened up about his Struggle with Depression and Mental Health. Groups like BTS, Stray Kids and Ateez are known for making music that addresses mental health struggles and societal pressures.
Personally, I think it’s time that K-Pop Companies implement Mental Health days for K-Pop Idols, as well as have some professionals within the company have weekly to monthly mandatory mental health sessions with whoever needs or wants counseling and help. Just like if an Idol was Physically sick and had to go on hiatus, then an Idol should be able to take Mental Health Days for their emotional and mental, as well as overall physical well being.
Professor Lim also thinks that there are easier ways, as in Online Counseling, especially considering how fast paced most Idol’s lives can be, it would make sense to have Online Counselors if Idols simply need to distress or vent on the go.
Cho Jung-Hwa, a Life Coach at Starship Entertainment, home of Monsta X, said in a telephone interview, “K-pop singers have managers, hair designers and makeup artists, but they often do not have any experts to resort to when they feel emotionally taxed,” she said. “If they can get some direct help from a mental health trainer or professional, they would feel much better.”
She made some good points and I would like to stress that for the Idols or Trainees, it should be a safe and open discussion so that they can feel less isolated and have less to carry on their shoulders.
There has been progress, for example, KQ Entertainment allowed Song Mingi, Main Rapper and Co-Writer for Ateez, time off for his Mental Health due to Psychological Anxiety, from late 2020 to 2021 (a total of 8 months). While KQ is still a Family like and small Entertainment Company (that is still flawed), I would like to see this more, from Companies like JYP, Starship, Cube Entertainment and even Hybe.
“Celebrities are generally more impressionable than non-celebrities,” Lim Myung- Ho said. “They often take the brunt of the emotional labor too, because they frequently conceal their genuine emotions in front of the public. In the short run, having a regular mental health check-up may seem unnecessary, but in the long run, it will help the K-pop companies’ financial success by ensuring the mental stability of their stars.”
I would like to mention that SHINEE’s Jonghyun has a foundation in his Memory, created by his mother, that aims to help Idols and Trainees with their Mental Health. I highly suggest checking it out here and seeing how you can support them or even visit if you are going to Korea or in Korea. I have to admit, that is one strong and amazing woman, to take her loss and try and make some changes in the Industry for other Idols and trainees. I wish her the best and all my love to the Shawols reading this.
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You can probably tell by now, there’s still a long way to go, but I am glad to see some progress at least. I sincerely hope that those gone too soon are finally resting easy, seeing the growth and recognition that K-Pop has achieved and knowing that their art, their music will live on in the hearts of K-Pop fans worldwide. I just wish that it didn’t have to take, the passing of many amazing beings or the abuse of Idols, as well as countless backlash from fans, for it to finally start to have changes within the Industry.
Chapter Three: What can we do as Fans?
Kpop fans hold a lot of power; We can literally make or break an Idol’s or Groups career. I would honestly prefer to use that power for advocacy.
You have the power to raise awareness for these topics in the K-Pop Industry. Your favorite Idol is overworking and the rest of the group is tired but they continue to put out that reality show. Start a hashtag, bring up the topic to other fans or members of the community. Discuss it in groups and forums.
Remember Toxic Productivity does more harm than good so remind Idols that they are human too and not just a form of entertainment to us. Raise Awareness in respectful ways like starting a Twitter account and sharing your ideas or events with like minded individuals. Check out the Shiny Foundation, in honor of the late Jonghyun from SHINEE. Do your research and advocate for Mental Health Days or Mental Health care as a whole for Korea and Kpop Idols.
Raise Awareness in respectful ways like starting a Twitter account and sharing your ideas or events with like minded individuals. Do your research and advocate for Mental Health Days or Mental Health care as a whole for Korea and K-pop Idols. Support Idol from Companies like KQ or Starship Entertainment, that allow their Idols the time & resources needed to mend their mental state.
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Highlight Speakers on the topic of Mental Health in Kpop, like BTS, Jay B and recently Beomhan the Ex-F M Trainee that Spoke up on his own Mental Health Struggles.
Show support to content creators that touch on topics like this. Follow and share their content to bring more eyes on the issues. Share this blog with your friends and fellow fans to help bring more eyes and start discussions. Try making your own content, be it blogs on Tumblr, Tweets on Twitter (yes I am still gonna call it twitter) and Videos on Tik Tok or Youtube to bring more awareness on these less spoken about necessities in the industry.
If you get a chance to meet your Idols at fan meets or on a fan call, quickly speak to them about your own experiences with mental health, how they helped inspire you. Let your fave Idols know that they are not alone. That they and their feelings do matter.
So, what do you think? Should K-pop Idols and Trainees be allowed Mental Health Days and have access to mental health care? Did anything else I mentioned stand out to you, tell me what in the comments.
That was probably a lot, but this will be separated into more parts because I would like to talk about homophobia, racism, abuse and other issues in the K-Pop Industry soon!
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missingjonghyun · 8 months ago
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who wants to be mutuals on insta? 💓
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wishjaeyun · 2 years ago
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a small collection of tweets id be sad if i lost
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xiaoderyy · 4 months ago
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CHOOSE ONE BALLAD KPOP SONG 🍄
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married-2-the-music · 4 months ago
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Kpop Songs: The Best Of The Best
The Best Of The Best, from a shoulder to cry on in the dark to a friend to pull you onto the dance floor to a bubblegum explosion of love.
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beabatiny · 2 days ago
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𓇼 𝘈𝘵𝘦𝘦𝘻 𝘍𝘪𝘤 𝘙𝘦𝘤𝘰𝘮𝘮𝘦𝘯𝘥𝘢𝘵𝘪𝘰𝘯𝘴 𝘌𝘱.𝘚𝘪𝘹 𓇼 𓆞 𝘔𝘢𝘵𝘶𝘳𝘦 𝘛𝘩𝘦𝘮𝘦𝘴 𓆞 𓇼 𝘔𝘪𝘯𝘰𝘳𝘴/𝘈𝘨𝘦𝘭𝘦𝘴𝘴/𝘉𝘭𝘢𝘯𝘬 𝘉𝘭𝘰𝘨𝘴 𝘥𝘰𝘯'𝘵 𝘪𝘯𝘵𝘦𝘳𝘢𝘤𝘵 𝘰𝘳 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘸𝘪𝘭𝘭 𝘣𝘦 𝘣𝘭𝘰𝘤𝘬𝘦𝘥 𓇼
𓇼 𝘰𝘵8/𝘮𝘶𝘭𝘵𝘪𝘱𝘭𝘦 𝘮𝘦𝘮𝘣𝘦𝘳𝘴 𓇼 𓈒𓏸 Dramatic Ass - @srslyscary ot8 x reader (texts) 𓈒𓏸 𓆞 Friends!? - @starillusion13 poly!yandere!ot8 x reader (series) 𓆞 𓈒𓏸 From Storm To Sunrise - @ad0rechuu yungi x reader (one-shot) 𓈒𓏸 𓆞 Game Over - @mingi-s-dimples topaz x reader (one-shot) 𓆞 𓈒𓏸 Gone - @srslyscary mafia!ateez x mafia!reader (one-shot) 𓈒𓏸 𓇼 𝘬𝘪𝘮 𝘩𝘰𝘯𝘨𝘫𝘰𝘰𝘯𝘨 𓇼 𓈒𓏸 Forgotten Melodies - @vampwritesstuff non-idol!hongjoong x reader (smau series) 𓈒𓏸 𓈒𓏸 Glares & Snuggles - @skrrts non-idol!hongjoong x gn!reader (one-shot) 𓈒𓏸 𓈒𓏸 Guns & Kisses - @hee0soo mafia boss!hongjoong x reader (one-shot) 𓈒𓏸 𓆞 Guns and Tiaras - @crimsonbubble mafia!hongjoong x reader (thoughts) 𓆞 𓈒𓏸 Hades - @lilacmingi hades!hongjoong x reader (one-shot) 𓈒𓏸 𓇼 𝘱𝘢𝘳𝘬 𝘴𝘦𝘰𝘯𝘨𝘩𝘸𝘢 𓇼  𓈒𓏸 Inner children - @xuchiya non-idol!seonghwa x reader (drabble) 𓈒𓏸 𓈒𓏸 Lego Friday - @solaris-amethyst non-idol!seonghwa x reader (one-shot) 𓈒𓏸 𓆞 Little Brat - @mingtinysworld bf!seonghwa x reader (one-shot) 𓆞 𓈒𓏸 Maleficent - @lilacmingi maleficent!seonghwa x princess!reader (one-shot) 𓈒𓏸 𓈒𓏸 Me And My Husband - @the-midnight-blooms ceo!dad!seonghwa x scientist!mom!reader (one-shot) 𓈒𓏸
𓇼 𝘫𝘦𝘰𝘯𝘨 𝘺𝘶𝘯𝘩𝘰 𓇼 𓆞 Luck - @minkieater non-idol!yandere!yunho x reader (one-shot) 𓆞 𓈒𓏸 Morning Buddy - @everyonewooeverywhere bf!yunho x reader (one-shot) 𓈒𓏸 𓈒𓏸 My Home - @yunniverse bf!yunho x reader (one-shot) 𓈒𓏸 𓆞 Office Secrets - @xomakara manager!yunho x employee!reader 𓆞 𓆞 Perhaps In Another Life - @outlawinthisworld1117 priest!yunho x fleabag!reader (one-shot) 𓆞 𓇼 𝘬𝘢𝘯𝘨 𝘺𝘦𝘰𝘴𝘢𝘯𝘨 𓇼 𓈒𓏸 Thunder Buddies - @sangyeonsmuse non-idol!yeosang x reader (one-shot) 𓈒𓏸 𓈒𓏸 Until I Found You [Part One] [Part Two] - @edenesth prince!yeosang x princess!reader (two-parts) 𓈒𓏸 𓆞 Winner Takes It All - @ja3hwa best friend!yeosang x best friend!reader (one-shot) 𓆞 𓈒𓏸 Would You Choose Him Over Me? - @solaris-amethyst non-idol!yeosang x reader (one-shot) 𓈒𓏸 𓆞 White Silk - @skrrts non-idol!yeosang x reader (one-shot) 𓆞 𓇼 𝘤𝘩𝘰𝘪 𝘴𝘢𝘯 𓇼 𓈒𓏸 Home is where you are - @evandsolo idol!san x reader (one-shot) 𓈒𓏸 𓆞 In For A Ride - @ssweetreveries non-idol!san x reader (one-shot) 𓆞 𓈒𓏸 Kiss, Kiss, Fall In Love - @itstheghostofmypast bf!san x reader (one-shot) 𓈒𓏸 𓆞 Kitten Fever - @kitten4sannie hybrid!husband!san x reader (one-shot) 𓆞 𓈒𓏸 Late Night - @sweetiesicheng idol!san x reader (one-shot) 𓈒𓏸
𓇼 𝘴𝘰𝘯𝘨 𝘮𝘪𝘯𝘨𝘪 𓇼 𓆞 Missing Out - @songmingisthighs dilf!mingi x reader (one-shot) 𓆞 𓆞 Mr. Mingi - @sugarnspice630 wonka!mingi x reader (one-shot) 𓆞 𓈒𓏸 Nail Polish - @atzaurora bf!mingi x reader (one-shot) 𓈒𓏸 𓈒𓏸 Older, Wiser, And Hotter Than Ever - @skrrts non-idol!mingi x gn!reader (one-shot) 𓈒𓏸 𓈒𓏸 Pretty - @no1likejoongie husband!mingi x reader (one-shot) 𓈒𓏸 𓇼 𝘫𝘶𝘯𝘨 𝘸𝘰𝘰𝘺𝘰𝘶𝘯𝘨 𓇼 𓈒𓏸 Fried Egg - @jjoongstar chef!wooyoung x reader (one-shot) 𓈒𓏸 𓈒𓏸 Giggle Fits - @pettypuppy-jonghyun bf!wooyoung x reader (one-shot) 𓈒𓏸 𓆞 How To Tame A Brat Tamer - @k-hotchoisan non-idol!wooyoung x reader (one-shot) 𓆞 𓈒𓏸 I Can Hear The Sea - @daemour non-idol!wooyoung x gn!reader (drabble) 𓈒𓏸 𓈒𓏸 I Don't Want Your Sorrys, I Want You Safe - @dvrktvnnel mafia!wooyoung x reader (one-shot) 𓈒𓏸 𓇼 𝘤𝘩𝘰𝘪 𝘫𝘰𝘯𝘨𝘩𝘰 𓇼𓈒 𓏸 Strangers To Friends To Lovers - @adelusionforyourthoughts soloist!jongho x soloist!reader (texts) 𓈒𓏸  𓈒𓏸 Talking To The Moon - @livsateez bounty hunter!jongho x reader (one-shot) 𓈒𓏸 𓆞 The Pool - @beenbaanbuun non-idol!jongho x reader (one-shot) 𓆞 𓈒𓏸 Try Again [Part One] [Part Two] - @edenesth assistant!jongho x new maid!reader (two-parts) 𓈒𓏸 𓈒𓏸 Unspoken Pain - @koyagifs non-idol!jongho x reader (one-shot) 𓈒𓏸
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ATEEZ PLAYLIST; RECCOMENDATIONS
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ARTIST REFLECTION
제이홉 (J-Hope) - Blue Side
Having an anxious nature it was not unexpected that attending high school in the midst of training would be stress inducing for the young girl, so once the rapper finished the song the file was sent to her in hopes that the calming melody would make morning walks to the establishment less dreadful. The picture chosen as a background was actually taken by him on a day he was brought along by her older brother to pick the trainee up, which had become somewhat of a routine for them on rest days.
종현 (Jonghyun) - Moon
This song had been part of her life since it was released as it rapidly became her favorite, often being used for vocal practice or simply played through headphones at night while looking out of the dorm balcony in order to distract herself from thoughts that would turn into nightmares in the deepest of sleeps. It holds such significance to her that she has been thinking about making a cover, yet keeps recording it until it truly honors the original which means it will likely never be released.
세븐틴 (Seventeen) - 우리의 새벽은 낮보다 뜨겁다 (Our dawn is hotter than day)
At the time when she was still unwell mentally the members went on a camping trip together in order to give everyone a break from the hard work they had been putting into the preparation of their comeback and this song just so happened to play while they sat around the campfire. Wooyoung was the first to start singing, followed closely by the rest of the group, turning an already relaxing night into one of laughter and since then, this song has been tied to one of the warmest memories of their friendship.
수호 (Suho) ft 장재인 (Jane Jang) - Dinner
While the track talks about the loss of love between two people it was playing during the couple's first anniversary date which later ended with the two dancing around and singing, leading the rapper to fall in love with her voice once more. When she performed it on I.M ON THE BEAT people were surprised at how perfectly this fit her voice due to hearing rougher vocals in group songs, showing audiences the more delicate side of herself. In a sense this symbolized the transition from the darker part of her life into a happier mindset as she has a habit of humming this song when painting, which she had stopped doing at the time.
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mint-yooxgi · 2 years ago
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{2} - Written in the Stars - Yandere!Idol!Yeosang X Tall!Chubby!Reader
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Soft Yandere AU & Idol AU
Genre: Mature, Horror, Angst, Fluff, Slight Humor, Slow Burn
Pairing: Yeosang X Reader (ft. platonic Ateez ensemble)
Words: 16,875
Warnings: Slow burn. This story is going to be very self indulgent on my part, so please bear with the first few chapters. Mentions of Jonghyun. Fatshaming, name-calling (not done by any male idols), Wendy and Irene of RV are bitches towards OC, OC is a bit of a 'pick-me' girl but oh well. I think that's all. This is a Yandere story, it will contain themes such as stalking, violence, obsession, possessive natures, and just general overall creepiness and swearing. You have been warned.
A/n: Shamelessly, this part is probably even more self indulgent that the first lmaooo I apologize in advance for that. Still, I do hope you enjoy it, as I had a really fun time writing this chapter out. I actually had to split it, as originally I was going to make all of chapter two both the rehearsal day and actual performance of the award's show.
Also, gentle reminder that I don’t do tag lists.
Disclaimer: The first little portion of this chapter when the OC is speaking is implied that the OC is speaking in English. It is not until OC arrives at the venue where the following takes effect:
"This represents a line spoken in Korean."
"Bolded represents a line spoken in English."
"Bolded and italics represents a line spoken in Japanese."
Mini Masterlist - Part One
“Hello, everyone!” Your smiling face stares back at you from the screen of your phone as you go live on instagram. “I’m just on my way to rehearsal right now.”
The low voice of your publisher in the front seat reaches your ears, telling you not to talk so loudly while in the car.
“Oops, my bad,” you chuckle, turning back to face the camera. “Anyways, I wanted to do a brief live like this since I’ll be busy for the rest of today and tomorrow. I won’t be able to have my biweekly live on Friday night tomorrow cause of my event.”
Your eyes scan the comments, a small quirk to your lips.
“What event you say?” Your eyes gleam with mischievousness. “Well, as a few of you may or may not know, I’m in South Korea right now. I’ve been asked to perform an original piece of writing at the award’s show tomorrow night.”
A giddy smile stretches across your features.
“I know! I’m so excited!” You cheer. “It’s such a high honour to have been asked to create and perform a piece of written work for the show.”
A comment catches your attention briefly.
“I mean, I’m not sure if I’ll be hanging around any idols, but we’re all there to do a job, so I wouldn’t want to disturb anyone if that’s the case.” You reply, eyes briefly looking out of the window at the passing scenery. “As to if Mark Lee will be there or not, I’m not sure. If NCT is set to perform, then probably. I only know of a few select artists that will be there.”
A flood of ‘who’s and ‘omg really’s appear in your comments, a few popping up in different languages such as Korean and Japanese. You remain speaking English for now, but the other comments still make you smile. You’d just rather surprise everyone that watches tomorrow with your language skills.
“Why, whoever’s on the website listings, of course!” You wink playfully, shoulders shaking in laughter. “Nah, even if I did know, I’m not at liberty to say.”
That grin never leaves your lips as you scan the comments once more.
“Let’s see…” your eyes flit back and forth as you pick a question to answer. There seems to be one popping up repeatedly, more so than the rest. “Is it true you were on the same flight as Ateez heading to Korea?”
Your eyebrows raise slightly, amusement dancing on your features.
“Was I?” You hum, the familiar sight of those heads peeking over their seats filling your vision for the briefest of moments. “I don’t recall.”
Though, with the wink you send the camera, your comments are flooded once again.
“Nah, I’m just playing.” A knowing grin stretches across your features. “They’re all really nice people. Friendly, too. They are people after all, which I feel like a lot of others tend to forget about their idols. I don’t know why it’s so hard in general to treat others with basic dignity and respect.”
Immediately, your defence squad rolls in, asking if you’re okay and if something happened.
“I’m fine, everyone! Really!” You smile at how enthusiastic they are in protecting you. “It was more of a general comment than anything.”
Of course you don’t really want to divulge the small incidents you’ve already incurred while being in the country. You know that South Korea has a very lookism centric society, but even when you’re prepared for it, you still cannot help the way certain interactions make you feel. The looks you receive from the older crowd, many of them muttering under their breaths while shaking their heads, sometimes do not go unnoticed.
You may be a popular author, but not everyone knows who you are. Nor is everyone willing to accept the way you look, unfortunately.
Then again, it would probably hurt less if you didn’t understand what some of them were saying. Though, you will never forget when you were in a café the other day, and two taller women came up to you who didn’t necessarily fit into those typical Korean beauty standards. They were a little thicker than those around them, and goodness, were they gorgeous. The fact that both of them were your fans, and thanked you for giving them more confidence with your writing, and just who you are in general, really made your day. You could never forget them, even if you tried.
Thinking back on it now, a small smile pulls at your features.
“What am I thinking about?” You hum, noticing a few comments, only for your eyes to go wide. “My Ateez bias?” You laugh, shaking your head in amusement. “I mean…” you tilt your head, teasing smile pulling at your lips. “Well, if you know, you know.” A wink. “But nah, I’m thinking of a really lovely interaction I had the other day with two women at a café. Saeyoung, Haesoo, if you’re watching, thank you for making my day!”
The two weeks leading up to this point in time have been fairly hectic for you. Between settling into your new apartment, getting used to the time difference, and writing for your new novel, you’ve barely had time to relax. Not to mention the hours you’ve spent practicing your performance for tomorrow. You’ve barely had time to visit your friends, yet.
On the other hand, you’ve been messaging quite a few people quite often lately. 
The first few days after exchanging contact information with Ateez were a little silent, but you just chalked that up to busy schedules on all of your parts. However, you weren’t expecting Hongjoong to message you in the middle of the night complaining about a song he just couldn’t get right.
Needless to say, he wasn’t expecting you to respond so quickly. In fact, he had been surprised that you had still been up at three in the morning. Only, when you explained the jet lag, and the fact that you had also been working on your writing, he understood. You’ve both sort of become night owl buddies now, messaging each other when you’re working on projects until the early hours of the morning. A hilarious fact, especially when you both start chastising the other for not getting enough sleep.
Then came the group chat.
You woke up one day to at least seventy-five Kaotalk messages from a new chat. Thinking it had been an emergency of some sort, your heart rate had skyrocketed. Only, you soon found out that it was just the guys speculating what you could be doing since you weren’t responding to any of them at two in the afternoon.
The moment you sent them a meme of a tired cat waking up with squinting eyes, and a message that only said, ‘wtf’, the real chaos began. 
Wooyoung is convinced that he’s your Ateez bias, immediately rubbing it in the other’s faces. At that, you promptly received selfies from Seonghwa, Mingi, and Yunho just ‘casually’ wanting your opinion on them before they posted them to their instagram and twitter accounts. You also received photos of what each of the guys were doing from Hongjoong, telling you that this was the chaos you incited by finally responding.
Yeosang would comment one liners here and there that would absolutely knock the shit right out of you. The way this man had near perfect timing still amazes you, laughing to yourself every time you think back on his responses.
Both Jongho and Wooyoung are the most talkative in the group chat, but Jongho tends to message you a lot outside of it, anyways. More so than Hongjoong now, considering his main thing was that he didn’t want to bother you at first with his thousand and one questions about your writing.
You found out later it was both Hongjoong and Yeosang keeping him in line.
Mingi and you share anime recommendations when you can, and you’ve even started planning a day where you’ll binge some of your favourite shows together. You heard that San may or may not tag along, but that’s yet to be decided.
Speaking of San, he’s one of the most quiet in the group chat. You assume it’s probably because out of all of them, he’s the one you spent the least amount of time talking to. You cannot fault him for that; you both hardly know each other.
Yunho likes to crack jokes every now and then, along with Seonghwa, but they’re both really level headed guys from what you’ve gathered so far. They like to flirt, but not nearly as much as Wooyoung does. Besides, with the two older members, you can tell it’s just friendly, so you have no problem teasing them back. Wooyoung, on the other hand, you can’t be too sure. Though, if it truly bothered you, you’d get him to stop.
“Anyways, we’re getting closer to the venue, so I’m sadly going to have to say goodbye for now.” A dramatic pout pulls at your lips. “I know! I promise to do another live soon, and I’ll answer some questions about my newest novel and upcoming works then.”
The way the chat immediately starts flooding with happy messages and people saying they’re looking forward to it makes your heart swell in your chest.
“Alright, lovelies,” you smile just as the car pulls into the parking lot. “Thanks for tuning in. See you next time!”
With a final wave at the camera, you’re ending the live.
Letting out a low sigh, you tuck your phone back into your side pocket. Grabbing your purse, you notice that you’ve pulled up to the side entrance of the venue. Both you and your publisher step out of the vehicle, thanking the driver all the while.
Immediately, you’re greeted by security who escorts you inside and to the backstage area. Your publisher talks lowly with the head of staff, ensuring all of the requirements are met and getting all of the details you may need for now. They’re really only here to drop you off and then head back out for the day. Besides, the event organizer and stage manager will look after you if need be.
You follow quietly behind, taking in the space of the venue as more staff mill about. A few recognize you as you walk passed, their eyes lighting up as you shoot them a polite smile in return. Some of them must be on break currently, for you can see snacks and drinks scattered around a few the deeper into the arena you get.
Finally, you reach backstage.
“So, all of the groups are currently occupying the green rooms, or milling about. That means, unfortunately, you won’t be getting one to yourself.” The head stage manager turns to you once you reach them, speaking in English for the moment. “You’re more than welcome to observe the soundcheck from the floor, or from the seats instead of staying back here the whole time, as well.”
“Please, don’t feel like you have to speak in English for my sake.” You say, noticing how you catch all of the staff off guard with your Korean. “I can speak and understand Korean. So please, let’s all speak comfortably. Thank you for hosting me and including me in such a monumental show.” You bow politely in their direction. “The room situation most certainly will not be a problem. I don’t mind at all. Just tell me where to go, and when, and I will do my best to stay out of everyone’s way.”
You can hear the familiar boom of music from the stage area reaching your ears, though it’s more of a background noise right now.
The stage manager nods approvingly in your direction, a smile pulling at their features. “I understand. Thank you for being so accommodating. I cannot stay and talk long, for I’m needed elsewhere, but help yourself to drinks and refreshments. If you need any help, Riley will be more than happy to assist you. She’s been assigned to be your personal assistant today.”
At their words, a girl with long, chestnut hair steps forward. A giddy smile rests on her features, and you can see her visibly shaking in excitement.
“Hello,” she bows, addressing you formally. “It’s very nice to meet you.”
“It’s wonderful to meet you, too, Riley,” you smile, telling her to just call you by your first name to make things easier.
“Alright, well, I’ll be off. Itzy is supposed to be having soundcheck right now, but we’re a bit behind.” The stage manager rushes off after that, speaking quickly into their headset.
“You’re not scheduled until the very end, so you have plenty of time to lounge around and do whatever you’d like.” Riley informs you with a smile.
“Oh, sweet,” you grin back. “Thank you for taking care of me today.”
“Really, it’s no problem at all!” She’s quick to answer. “To be quite honest, I’m a big fan so I jumped at the opportunity to be able to assist you in any way I could.”
“That’s very sweet of you! I really appreciate it.” You nod, moving to stand off to the side so that you’re out of the way.
“Your books are incredible, and reading them gave my boyfriend so much confidence.” She comments, a faint blush beginning to dust her cheeks.
“Ah, really?” Your eyes light up. “That makes me so glad to hear! I’m so happy for the both of you.”
“I can’t wait to tell him that you can speak Korean!” She says, grabbing a water bottle off of the table closest to you and handing it to you. “As long as you’re okay I share that with him, of course.”
“Of course!” You confirm. “By tomorrow night, most people will know, anyways.”
“Oh, are you performing your written piece in Korean, then?” She asks, eyes sparkling as you thank her lowly for the water.
“It’ll be a little bit of a mix,” you tell her, a small smile pulling at your features. “Korean, and English. Though, I contemplated adding Japanese to the speech. I opted out at the last minute.”
“You can speak all three?” Her eyebrows raise, voice incredulous.
“Yes, I can.” You confirm with a nod. “I’m working to learn Mandarin next.”
“That’s incredible!” She praises, and you avert your gaze somewhat bashfully. “I’ve been learning Japanese, but I have a hard time practicing it. Lack of conversation partners, and all that with the way my schedule is.”
“Well, if you’d like to practice with me, I’d be more than happy to help!” You say. “I may not be the best for correcting your pronunciation, but I can most certainly help with conversation practice.”
“Really?” Her eyes flash with excitement. “That would be wonderful, thank you!”
“Would you like to start now, or hold off until later?” The way you ask her this in Japanese catches her slightly off guard.
A blink, and she’s setting her expression into one of determination. “Now would be a good start.”
“Wonderful!” You smile. “So, then, Riley, tell me about your favourite animal.”
“Well, I absolutely adore sharks. I just think they’re really neat, and it’s so sad that some of them get hunted for sport.” She begins, taking a moment to think of her next words carefully. “Half of the time, they’re hunted after attacking a human, but they don’t know any better. I watched a documentary once where it explained that because of their poor…” her brow furrows slightly, “Oh shoot, I can’t remember the word.”
“Eyesight?”You supply, to which she nods, eyes lighting up in recognition. 
“Yes, eyesight!” She replies enthusiastically. “Because of their poor eyesight, humans on top of surfboards look similar to dolphins and other aquatic mammals from below.”
“Oh, I know exactly what you’re talking about!” You nod along with her. “I literally could not agree more. It’s sad that they get hunted just for following their instincts. I understand some of the reasoning behind it, but at the end of the day, you’re right. Sharks are just living and hunting in the wild like they always do.”
“Yes, exactly!” Riley turns to grab another water bottle off of the table for herself. “I just wish more people would understand that.”
“Me too, honestly.” You agree.
“Anyways, enough about me.” She chuckles, somewhat bashfully. “What about you? What is your favourite animal?”
“Oh, that’s easy, it’s-“ the words get stuck in your throat as your own brow furrows this time. You blink, thinking hard. A slight chuckle escapes you, “Now I can’t remember the word.”
“Maybe I know it?” She offers, but at the way she shakes her head once you say the animal, you know she doesn’t know the term.
Luckily for you, someone just so happens to be walking passed you for the moment, and without thinking, you stop them.
“Excuse me, but what’s the word for turtle in Japanese?” You meet the male’s gaze, noticing how stunned he seems to be for the moment.
Blinking, he tells you the word.
Recognition flashes behind your eyes as you turn back to Riley. “Right! Turtles are my favourite animals. I just think they’re so cute.” In the next second, you turn back to the male. “Thank you so much! I couldn’t remember for the life of me.”
“No problem,” he nods, somewhat in shock, before walking away.
Only, when you turn back to Riley, she wears an expression of mild awe on her features.
“I can’t believe you just asked the Yuta of NCT that question so casually.” Her jaw drops, a giggle falling from her lips as you shrug sheepishly.
“He was the closest person around.” You laugh along with her. “Though, I feel like he was expecting me to start freaking out about who he was when I stopped him.”
“Yeah, sometimes the extra staff we hire to help out don’t always act professional around the artists.” Riley explains, a sort of grimace to her features.
“Really? I would have thought there’d be a screening process for that.” You comment, brow mildly furrowed.
“There is, but sometimes they still slip through.” She comments. “That, and some people say they’ll act one way, but then when it comes down to it, act another.”
“Oh, believe me,” you hum in acknowledgement. “That I do know.”
Around you, you can hear some whispers beginning to float around about your arrival. A fact which you find a bit odd, considering you’ve already been at the venue for at least a half hour or so. Out of the corner of your eyes, you notice some more idols beginning to linger about as well.
Just as you go to continue the conversation with Riley, you hear a shout in the background of someone’s name. You watch as her eyes go wide just as you feel a weight jump onto your back.
“Zhong Chenle, you get back here right now!” Whoever it is, they sound mad.
“You’re real! Holy shit!” A voice right by your ear sounds, and you blink in shock, hands naturally coming to support the body now clinging onto your back. “Mark hasn’t been making you up this whole time in some elaborate fever dream!”
“Zhong Chenle!” The angry voice finally caches up to you, and you turn to see Kun from NCT frowning at the younger male clinging like a koala to your back. His gaze softens as he meets your own. “I am so sorry for him. Once Yuta came back to say you had arrived, he darted out of the room to come see for himself.”
“It’s no problem, really,” you laugh, and you notice your response catches them both off guard. “Yes, I can speak Korean.”
Beside you, Riley giggles.
The sound of feet hitting the ground reaches your ears, and you see some more males rushing over to you.
“Way to go, Chenle,” Renjun deadpans. “Way to make a great first impression on Mark’s author friend.”
Softly, you set Chenle back onto his own two feet. A second later, and Kun is reaching over to drag the younger male over to him by his ear. Renjun shakes his head disapprovingly all the while.
“Ow! Kun, stop it! That hurts!” The younger complains, batting the elder’s hand away.
“Once again, I am so sorry for him.” Kun apologizes, and you notice the faintest hue of pink dusting his cheeks.
“Really, it’s no problem,” you assure him, noticing too many pairs of eyes on you now.
You shuffle in your spot, beginning to rub a hand over the side of your one arm nervously.
“If he bothers you again, just come find me and I’ll deal with him.” Kun replies, sending a small smile your way.
You nod. “Thanks, I appreciate it.”
Wordlessly, Kun begins dragging off Chenle, Renjun in tow. 
A few more people step forward.
“Not even a ‘hello’ for your biggest fan?” Mark quirks a brow, walking up to you with both Johnny and Taeyong on either side of him.
Teasingly, you begin to look around the space. “Why? Did you see Jongho from Ateez around?”
Mark looks truly scandalized by your words, his eyebrows raising significantly as his voice almost cracks. “Excuse me?”
“Oh, hi, Mark.” You reply casually, hearing Johnny snort at the intonation you use.
“No, no, I see how it is,” an overdramatic pout pulls at his lips as he crosses his arms over his chest. “Spent all of three months convincing half the guys to read your books and this is the thanks I get once we meet.”
You lowly hear him muttering about how he is your biggest fan, not Jongho from Ateez.
“I don’t know, he was pretty excited when I met him on the plane.”You hum.
“So, you did meet Ateez on the plane ride over here.”Johnny observes, amusement dancing in his gaze.
“I did,” you nod in confirmation. “They’re all very nice.”
You notice Taeyong following along with the conversation, brow furrowed slightly as the music stops for the moment. “I think they just finished soundcheck. They should be back soon.”
“Then I’ll say ‘hello’ to them soon,” you reply, noticing the slight surprise that graces Taeyong’s features at your response. “If I happen to see them.”
“Anyways, it’s so nice to finally meet you!”Mark smiles, and you notice Johnny grinning smugly while nudging him not so subtly with his elbow. “Shut up!”
“What?” Your brow quirks, amusement dancing in your eyes.
“Well, are you going to ask her, or not?”Johnny teases the younger male beside him.
“I’m getting there!” Mark pushes the elder male back slightly.
“What can I do for you, Mark Lee of NCT?” The grin that pulls onto your features says it all.
“I- uh… um…” he stutters over his words, palms nervously rubbing over the thighs of his jeans for the moment.
“Where’s that confidence now, Markie boy?”Johnny laughs before turning to you, completely ignoring the glare the younger sends his way. “Mark wanted to know if you would be willing to give him a hug when you finally met.”
Mark looks about read to strangle Johnny, a bright red lighting up his features.
“Well, why didn’t you just say so!” You chuckle, extending your arms out to him. “Hugs are one my favourite things! As long as you ask first, or I’m offering, I usually don’t mind at all. Besides, I think Chenle technically already beat you to it.”
Mark immediately sinks into your embrace, wrapping his own arms around you and squeezing you tightly. You can feel the chuckle he lets out against your chest as he responds. “Yeah, sorry about that. Again.”
“Really, it’s no worries.” You tell him as he pulls away, holding you at arms length.
“Impromptu piggybacks are kind of his thing when he gets excited.” Taeyong sighs, shaking his head.
“No fair, I want a piggyback ride, too!” A loud voice draws your attention from the side.
Looking over, you see Wooyoung happily skipping over to you, the other members of Ateez in tow. It seems as if they’ve just finished their soundcheck.
“I’m sure it wasn’t a case of her offering,” Yunho chuckles, and you see the red-headed male pout.
“Hello boys, it’s nice to see you again.” You smile, tilting your head politely in acknowledgement.
“How come Hongjoong was the only one to know that you’d be in attendance today and tomorrow?” Jongho crosses his arms over his chest, a pout tugging at his features.
“You didn’t tell people?” Mark turns to you.
“I was told not to,” you shrug. “Privacy, and all.”
“Really? Cause Mark was more than happy to literally shout it out at practice when you told him.” Johnny blinks, a teasing grin pulling at his features.
“Which now makes sense why Chenle practically bulldozed me fifteen minutes ago.” You nod, turning your amused gaze towards the male standing beside you.
“You told Mark, but not us?” Mingi pouts, crossing his arms over his chest.
“To be fair, I’ve been chatting with Mark a lot longer than I’ve personally known all of you guys.” You say, a casual shrug to your shoulder. “Not my fault Hongjoong didn’t tell you.”
“Wait, but how come Hongjoong knew?” San’s brow furrows, turning to look at the aforementioned male.
“He’s not the only idol that should have been informed.” A slight frown tugs at your brow. “Speaking of, Riley, when’s the briefing meeting supposed to be?”
The woman, who had been silently standing to the side all this time observing the interactions straightens in her spot. “You’re set to meet with the idols you’ve requested to join you for your presentation just before we break for lunch. The rehearsal for your speech won’t be until the very end, though.”
“Requested?” Yeosang’s brow furrows.
“I’ve seen a few of them around, but I’ve yet to speak to the majority of them.” You comment.
“I’m still mad that you didn’t ask me to do it.” Mark crosses his arms over his chest. “Some friend you’re suppose to be.”
“I’m sorry!” You raise your hands in your defence, a hint of exasperation to your voice. “The organizers told me I could only ask so many people on such short notice. I only thought of the idea less than two weeks ago. I’m lucky to get even eight of them to agree!”
“As long as you haven’t forgotten about our bet.” He huffs, quirking an eyebrow at you.
“I most certainly have not forgotten about our bet.” You meet his gaze, eyes wide in exasperation. “You’re about to owe me ten meals, Mister. Anything that I want, too.”
“I sure hope you don’t mean him cooking for you.” Johnny snorts.
“Oh, god no.” You huff out a laugh. “Not after I saw the ‘egg incident’ of Resonance era.”
“Not the egg incident!” Johnny cackles right along with you, and you notice Taeyong grimacing as he remembers it as well.
Mark’s eyes are wide, a tight smile on his face showing just how exasperated he is. He almost looks as if he wants the ground to open up and swallow him whole.
“Bet?” This time, it’s Hongjoong that quirks a brow.
“Oh, you haven’t been told? She bet him that she could learn-“
Johnny gets cut off by Mark’s nervous laugh.
“Mark Lee, you told me that you didn’t tell anyone about our bet.” Slowly, you turn your head to look at him, a tense smile on your face.
“Oh, the ‘Seventh Sense’ bet?” Taeyong tilts his head slightly in inquiry. “The whole of our group knows of it. We all want to watch you, what’s the phrase? Wipe the floor with him.”
“Mark Lee!” Your jaw drops. “I told you how I feel about dancing in front of other people! Especially when they’re idols! Not to mention the original performers of the song!”
“I’m sorry! You still said you’d do it!” He replies, lifting his hands in front of himself in his own defence. “I just got too excited!”
“More like carried away,” Johnny chuckles.
Casually, Yunho leans into Johnny’s side. “What’s this bet they have going on?”
“Oh, they were talking about some of her favourite NCT dances one time, and she commented on how one of them was, ‘The Seventh Sense’.” Johnny explains. “She admitted to always wanting to learn it just to say she knew it, but never actually got that far, yet. Mark decided it would be a good idea to discourage her from learning it since it is pretty difficult, and she doesn’t usually dance like we do. Hence, a bet was made that she would prove him wrong.”
“Listen,” you sigh. “I may not be a dancer, but don’t tell me what I can or can’t do. I will prove you wrong. I just wasn’t expecting to have a crowd when doing it. I don’t really like dancing in front of other people all that much anymore.”
“Why not?” Yeosang’s brow furrows, a slight downturn to his lips.
You curl your arms over yourself, holding your elbows delicately in you hands. A small grimace crosses your features as you seemingly curl in on yourself. “Personal reasons.”
A hushed understanding settles over all of them. That is, until Mark is breaking it.
“Is this about Kite?”
“Don’t-“
“Isn’t Kite your significant other?” It’s Riley that asks, and you notice all eyes on you.
“My ex, yes.” You sigh.
“Oh, I’m so sorry! I didn’t realize you weren’t together anymore.” She’s quick to bow to you, but you wave her off.
“It’s alright,” your expression falls, a grimace crossing your features. Out of the corner of your eyes, you see Yeosang take a half step towards you. Only, you don’t chalk it up to much, as so do Mark, Jongho, and Yunho. “I just don’t like talking about him anymore.”
“Sorry for bringing him up,” Mark pats you comfortingly on your arm. “Anyways, Ten says he has to watch you dance for the bet.”
“Not Ten!” The instant mortification is clear on our features. “Anybody but Ten.”
“And Doyoung, and Jaehyun.” Taeyong nods.
“It could be worse. It could be worse.” You begin to mumble to yourself, blinking at the ground a few times.
“Well, if you want to owe me ten meals, you can always back out.” Mark comments casually, a hum to his tone.
“No way in hell.” Your eyes narrow. “I have to prove you wrong.”
“Now, this I can’t wait to see.” Johnny chuckles, eyes crinkling as he smiles.
Just then, a voice from across the way draws your attention.
“Holy shit, is that who I think it is?” 
Looking across the backstage area reveals Vernon from Seventeen staring at you with wide eyes. Though, you notice that you’re not the only one who’s now staring at him in response.
Quickly, he bows, apologizing lowly before making his way across the backstage area. You note Mingyu, Seungcheol, Seokmin, and Jihoon all following behind him silently.
The crowd around you slowly begins to get bigger, and you notice some other idols lingering around the edges of the room, waiting to catch a glimpse of you. A fact of which that has a heat rising to your cheeks, shuffling once more in your spot.
Vernon stops on the edge of the circle you’re now apart of, smiling at you politely.
“I didn’t know you’d be here!” He inclines his head towards you in greeting, introducing himself and his group mates in succession. “It’s so nice to meet you. We’re all pretty big fans of your work.”
“Thank you so much,” you bow back to him politely. “It still boggles my mind knowing the idol groups I enjoy listening to know who I am. Not to mention read my writing.”
“You’re a fan?” Seungcheol blinks at you in shock.
“You can speak Korean?” Seokmin is equally as shocked, though there’s a hint of pleasantness to his tone.
“Yes, to both.” You chuckle, noticing how Jihoon shoots you a polite nod in acknowledgement. You smile back, leaning into Mark in the next second, “looks like Jihoon knows how to keep a secret.”
“Hey!” He whines, and you notice how most of the males around you look at the aforementioned one in confusion.
“It’s nice to finally meet you,” he smiles.
“You as well,” you return the look. “Thank you for agreeing to be a part of my presentation on such short notice.”
“Wait, is that why you nearly collapsed at practice during break about two weeks ago after looking at your phone?” Mingyu’s brow furrows, turning to look at the shorter male beside him. The height difference in person nearly makes you chuckle.
The way the shorter male elbows the taller one in the side is all the answer you need.
“That’s nothing,” another voice draws your attention from the side. “You should have seen the panic Hyunjin went into when we got the call.”
Wordlessly, the members of Stray Kids now begin to crowd around you, and you notice a few giddy smiles sent your way. Though, what makes you laugh is seeing Hyunjin’s exasperated look that he sends towards Bang Chan after the words escape the elder’s mouth. The way you see some of the members greeting Ateez excitedly has your heart warming in your chest. To be able to see all of the friendly interactions between the different groups makes you extremely happy for the moment.
“Holy shit, you weren’t kidding when you said she was tall.” A voice from your left draws your attention, and you notice Changbin staring at you with an awe filled expression while standing beside Wooyoung.
“I told you.” Wooyoung replies, a smug grin tugging at his features.
“Speaking of height, Jaehyun and Jungwoo owe me twenty bucks.” Johnny hums, walking off back towards the green rooms with Taeyong in tow.
You turn to Mark, a questioning look on your features.
“They didn’t actually think you’d be taller than me.” Mark grumbles, averting his gaze.
“I take it you didn’t, either.” You chuckle, noticing how a few males shift closer in order to see just how tall you are compared to them.
“To be quite honest, I didn’t,” he chuckles, and at the way you quirk a brow, he’s quick to continue, “not that it’s a bad thing! I think you being tall is really cool!”
“Thank you!” You grin. “I do, too!”
“By the way, since Chan is too much of a scaredy cat to ask,”the deep voice of Felix draws your attention to the side, “would you mind taking some pictures with us later? We think the fans would love it.”
“First of all, your voice should come with a warning.” You notice him grin at your words, and you return the smile, eyes crinkling at the sides. “And sure! I’d love to.”
“Us, too!” Vernon is quick to jump in.
“Listen, if anyone is getting a photo first, it’s me!” Mark voices loudly.
Out of the corner of your eyes, you notice quite a few female idols looking your way. Some of them look on at you in awe, while others cannot hide their distaste seeing you surrounded by so many males. Even some other male idols begin whispering about your appearance quite openly, but you ignore them for now.
“Yeah, yeah,” you huff out a laugh, “and I’m pretty sure you mentioned how Yangyang wants to do karaoke at some point?”
“He just wants you to perform WAP with him.” Mark sigs, shaking his head disapprovingly.
Your eyes widen in amusement, a subtle heat rising once more to your cheeks. “Does he?”
“Oh, karaoke sounds fun!” Vernon nods enthusiastically.
You jaw parts in mild shock, pure mirth dancing in your gaze. “Did the Vernon of Seventeen just invite himself along to karaoke with me?”
Lowly, you register Hongjoong and Chan whispering to their groups in Korean.
“I’m coming, too!” Jongho nearly shouts, drawing almost all of the attention of everyone backstage.
“Right, you still need to serenade her,” Yunho nods, and instantly he’s running for his life as Jongho chases him with murderous intent around the backstage area.
You turn to Mingi, “you still up for shouting anime openings at the top of our lungs at some point?”
At this, the remaining members of Ateez turn to look at Mingi.
“Of course!” He grins widely, nodding enthusiastically.
“Sweet.” You mirror his grin, noticing a few other idols commenting on wanting to join in on the fun.
“No, I’m telling you Shotaro, she can speak Japanese.” A voice coming from off to your right says.
“Just because she asked you what one word is, doesn’t mean she can speak it.” Another voice replies, getting closer with each passing second.
“She immediately jumped right back into conversation with Riley about animals afterwards.” Yuta rounds the corner, Shotaro right beside him.
At the way both males see the group you’re currently surrounded by, they immediately freeze in their spots. Briefly, each male nods their head in acknowledgement, eyes flashing in recognition as they see Mark standing a little ways away from them.
“Mark, tell Shotaro that your author friend can speak Japanese.” Yuta meets the male’s gaze, stepping in closer with Shotaro in tow.
“Hi, Mark’s author friend here.” You lean forward slightly, waving a bit so you catch their attention. “I can speak Japanese.”
The way Shotaro stubs his toe on the table against the side wall in shock nearly has you laughing in response.
“See! I told you!” Yuta crosses his arms, turning to glare pointedly at Shotaro.
“You can speak Japanese?” Another voice from in front of you catches your attention, and you see Momo, Mina, and Sana from Twice making their way over towards you.
“That’s incredible!” Mina comments, her eyes wide as they join your little circle of idols.
“Thank you!” You smile widely at the three of them.
“By the way, these guys aren’t bugging you, are they?” Sana shoots you a knowing look. “You seem a little crowded.”
“No, no, not at all.” You shake your head. “I appreciate you checking in on me, though. That’s very kind of you.”
“We’re all really big fans of your work.” Mina adds, a light blush dusting her cheeks. “We overheard Riley saying how you gave her boyfriend confidence through your writing, and you’ve done that with a few of our members, too.”
“You’re really beautiful in person.” Momo compliments, a soft smile painting her features.
The way your hand comes up to cover your mouth is so natural, a vibrant heat rising to your cheeks.
“Thank you so much,” you cannot keep the awe from your voice. “I think you’re all very beautiful, too. Not to mention talented. I always have fun singing and dancing along with your songs, especially when I need a pick me up.”
All three of their eyes light up, excitement coursing through their veins as they grip each other giddily.
“You like our music?” Mina cannot keep the joy off of her features.
“Of course I do! I listen to a lot of the groups currently around me.” You admit. “I find a lot of inspiration from them.”
“Who’s your favourite?” Shotaro cuts in, noticing how both he and Yuta casually lean against the side table now.
You smile at him knowingly, a gleam to your eyes. “Wouldn’t you like to know?”
The way he blinks back at you has you laughing lightly. Though, before you can say much more, the familiar music that begins to play from the stage area has you freezing in your spot.
“Mark Lee,” you turn to him with wide eyes, “how dare you not tell me.”
In the blink of an eye, you’re rushing towards the seating area to get a better view of the stage, quite a few of the idols blinking at you in shock. Riley seems to catch on quickly, following behind you as a few of the other idols do as well.
Pushing through the door, you step out onto the floor before the stage. You completely bypass the steps leading to the seats in favour of walking out onto the empty standing area where you can see some staff milling around. Some other idols seem to be watching the soundcheck, too. 
Out of the corner of your eyes, you notice another familiar idol shoot a friendly smile your way before she turns her head back to watch the four males on stage.
A small squeal of excitement escapes your lips as you watch SHINee do their soundcheck on stage. Each male even gets a portion during their set to perform a part of one of their solos, and you vaguely hear a staff member commenting on how there will be a SHINee special this year. Which explains why they’re getting the longest stage time out of all of the groups set to perform.
The moment SHINee finishes their soundcheck, you find yourself leaning back against the little guardrail leading up into the stands. You can feel your heart racing in your chest, and you blink, finally coming back to the reality around you.
“Surprise?” Mark chuckles from beside you.
“‘Surprise’ my ass!” You smack him lightly on the side of his arm. “You want to complain about being friends for so long, and you can’t even tell me my favourite group is performing at the award’s show I’m attending!”
A few chuckles are heard from around you from passing staff, as well as a few of the idols who followed you out.
“So, I guess it’s true that SHINee is your ult group, huh?” Vernon comments, a small quirk to his brow.
“Oh, most definitely.”You nod. “At least, one half of them.”
“Who’s the other half?” Felix asks, his eyes wide and hopeful.
“Oh, that’s easy,” you notice quite a few of them hanging on to your every word, “VIXX.”
“Damn, two tough groups to beat.”Vernon whistles lowly.
“By the way, you keep mentioning this performance you’re going to be having, but who did you all ask to be in it?” It’s Seonghwa who asks, looking between you and some of the idols around you.
“Well, it was short notice, so my publisher only managed to contact a few groups that we knew were going to be here,” you reply, a slight quirk to your lips upwards. “And a few that we did not, just in case.”
“I think you asked me first before our manager did,” Hongjoong laughs, arms crossed casually over his chest.
“Since my performance is going to be on the different forms of art, I wanted to showcase different idols who matched different art forms.” You explain, noticing how you draw in a few more people’s attention with every word. “I wasn’t expecting so many to agree to help.”
“Okay, so we know Joong is one. Jihoon, and Hyunjin are two others,” Mingi comments. “Who are the rest?”
“Well, I asked all of SHINee to be in it, and a few EXO members, but I never heard back from SM. Same with Seulgi of Red Velvet. The only confirmation I got that Ten, Renjun, and Taeyong all agreed to help, was from Mark, cause he wouldn’t stop complaining that I didn’t ask him to join. Twice’s Momo and Dahyun both agreed. Bang Chan, too.” You say, listing all of the idols off on your fingers. “I tried to have at least two per category, but it didn’t always work out that way. Plus, multiple could definitely fit in more than one.”
“Categories?” Yeosang asks, blinking at you curiously.
“Dancer, vocalist, rapper, fashion, visual art, composer, actor,” you list off. “Art takes many forms, and I wanted to emphasize that with their help.”
“We were told our respective categories when we got the call,” Hyunjin voices from above you, casually leaning over the railing of the stands and watching everyone with sharp eyes. “I don’t know about you guys, but I was asked if my art could be included in a video slide show thing to go along with it.”
“Oh, mine was, too!” A feminine voice cuts in from off to the side.
Turning your head, you see Seulgi join your little circle of idols. You smile at her, noticing how she nods her head politely at you just as she did during SHINee’s soundcheck.
“It’s so lovely to meet you, I’m a big fan of your books!” She leans in to grasp your hands lightly in her own, giving them a gentle squeeze. “As are Joy and Yeri, but they’re backstage for the moment. They’re going to be so jealous I’m meeting you right now.”
“I didn’t know you were going to be joining the presentation.” An awed look crosses your features, and you can feel your hands trembling slightly in her hold. She squeezes them once more. “Thank you so much for agreeing, I’m a huge fan of yours, too.”
“Then, I’m glad we could meet like this.” She replies. “I overheard that SHINee is set to join us for the briefing soon, too. Same with some of the EXO members.”
“Really?” You cannot prevent the way your eyes shine with excitement.
“So, then, who’s in which category?” Yeosang’s voice cuts through the crowd, his arms crossed over his chest. Though he leans against the side of the stands casually, he looks a bit tense.
Just as you go to answer, a call for you and your presentation team goes out for everyone to gather in front of the stage for the designated meeting. Lunch is called for everyone else, for now.
“Good luck,” Mark pats you on the side of the arm before heading out with some of the other idols in tow.
“Thanks, Mark.” At the intonation you use, you notice Vernon’s shoulders shaking in laughter this time as he walks backstage with some of the others.
Heading over to the stage area, you situate yourself right by where you see the stage director and event organizer appear. Seulgi, Chan, Hongjoong, Hyunjin, and Jihoon all follow you over, standing around you as the other idols that have agreed to help you gather.
A few minutes later, and you are surrounded by all of them. You notice that the artists practically group themselves by company.
“We’ll let you lead.” The stage manager says.
“Whenever you’re ready.” Says the event organizer.
Across from you stands Jihoon, Hongjoong, Ten, Taeyong, Renjun, Bang Chan, Hyunjin, Seulgi, Baekhyun, Kyungsoo, Minho, Key, Onew, Taemin, Momo, and Dahyun. They all arrange themselves in about three lines facing you.
“Thank you.” You nod once to them before turning to face all of the idols before you. Quickly, you introduce yourself, a sense of professionalism taking over quite quickly. “I understand that this was asked of all of you on short notice, and I would like to take the time now to thank each and every one of you for agreeing to aid me in my presentation. That being said, I was uninformed that some of you would actually be joining me for my speech until a short while ago, so I will have to adjust a few things.”
Nods of understanding are seen from most of them.
“You all should have been asked a few questions when you received the offer, confirming that it is okay for my video editor to either use clips from your music shows, dramas, behind the scenes footage, livestreams, songs, events, and, or, any type of artwork you have created.” You scan the small group of idols before you. “I want to confirm now that I have your express permission to do so. Otherwise, my editor and I will adjust the video clips to be shown along with the presentation.”
Nods greet you all around, a few in mild shock that you would ask them such a thing again.
“Good.” You smile. “Now, I believe you should have all received a copy of my speech, and instructions along with it as to which categories I would like you to be sorted under. Again, if you have any issues, let me know and I will adjust accordingly.”
At the silence that greets you, a few of them sending reassuring smiles your way, you feel a tension beginning to release from your shoulders.
“I understand that these categories might not be what you usually get sorted under. That being said, I want to focus on different aspects of art using familiar faces to the public that were already attending these ceremonies.” You explain. “The lines I would like a few of you to read are meant to showcase art as collaboration, as expression, and as our passions. Again, if you have any issues, let me know, and I can rearrange some things.”
The way they all wait for you to continue warms your heart.
“I want to thank all of you for helping to bring my vision to life.” You smile. “If you have any questions or concerns, please, do not hesitate to let me know.”
“Are we allowed to see the video before it’s finalized?” Dahyun asks, her eyes wide as she blinks excitedly at you.
“Of course!” You return her smile. “The finalized version will be edited and submitted tonight, along with the script. You’ll all receive a copy of that as well. There’s simply one more thing I need to confirm before then.”
“What is it you still need to confirm?” Kyungsoo asks you, meeting your gaze.
“Well, making sure I had all of your consent to use your own forms of art was one of them.” You say. “The other, I would like to speak with all four members of SHINee about. Privately, if that’s alright?”
All four members turn their attention to you, both Minho and Onew smiling kindly as they nod their heads. You notice Taemin blink a few times, caught off guard by the sudden request, while Key’s expression remains neutral.
“If you’ll all follow me for a moment.” You step off to the side a little ways away from everybody, even the stage manager and event organizer.
Luckily, all four members follow you quickly, and you notice the other idols beginning to chat amongst themselves to give you some more privacy.
Once you’re far enough away, you’re turning to all four of them. Nervously, your hand begins to fiddle with the strap of your purse still slung over your shoulder.
“There is an additional piece I would like to add to the end of my speech, but I wanted to discuss it with all of you first.” You begin, swallowing somewhat thickly. “As you may or may not know, I have always been a big fan of your group as a whole, and have found inspiration from all of you. The reason I am pulling you all aside to ask you this, is because I respect all of you, and I would never want to do something to offend you, or disgrace his memory.”
You notice Key’s one eyebrow twitch upwards slightly.
“I would like to end my speech both making reference to, and quoting Jonghyun and his artistic views. If you would like to read what I have penned for it, I have copies ready for you if you believe that will help influence your decision. If even one of you disagrees, or is uncomfortable with such a thing, I will not do so, and leave my speech the way it is now.” You tell them, feeling your heart about to beat right out of your chest as you take the time to meet each of their gazes. “I only felt it right to ask permission from you before doing so, as again, I do not wish to tarnish or disrespect any of you, or his name.”
A beat of silence passes over all of you as they consider your words. What makes it even more nerve wracking is how you cannot read any of their expressions.
The four of them briefly share a look before Jinki is turning towards you.
“May we see what you have written?” His voice is soft as he meets your gaze once more.
“Of course.” You nod, quickly opening your purse and pulling out a few slips of folded paper.
Gently, you soften the creases, separating the two sheets with the same ending portion of your speech on them. A moment later, and you hand one piece to Key while Minho takes the other.
The silence that stretches on around you as Taemin leans into Minho’s side to read, and Jinki into Key’s, is deafening. Sweat begins to form on your hands, which continue to nervously fiddle with the strap of your purse. You even go so far as to start rocking on your feet to dispel your energy, your eyes darting every which way as they read your writing over for themselves.
You notice a single tear begin to trail down the side of Minho’s cheek.
The four males share a brief look with one another before Jinki looks up in your direction. You notice that he blinks away tears of his own.
“We appreciate the consideration you have extended to both us and him,” he begins, voice catching in his throat. “Thank you for asking before wanting to honour his memory like this.”
You blink at him, breath catching in your throat as his words wash over you. Perhaps you heard him wrong, but is he saying what you think he’s saying?
Again, they all share a look, Minho straightening himself while wiping at his cheek.
“Please keep this as the ending to your speech.” He says. “It makes a great addition to what you already have.”
The familiar burn of happy tears begins to make itself apparent behind your eyes.
“I know we don’t know each other, but the fact that you went out of your way to ask us permission before doing this shows just what kind of person you are.” Key adds, a gentle smile being sent your way. “Thank you for considering our feelings on this matter.”
“I think we are all in agreement that we would like you to use this ending to your speech.” Taemin confirms, a soft nod to his head.
“Really?” You cannot hide the way your eyes shine, heart swelling in your chest.
At the four nods you receive from all of them, a large smile breaks out onto your face.
“Thank you so much.” You bow deeply to all of them, eyes fluttering shut as you do so.
“Thank you for asking.” Jinki smiles kindly at you once more.
“Of course,” you right yourself. “It was only the natural thing to do.”
“We appreciate it.” Minho smiles your way as you all begin to make your way back over to where the other idols are.
Seeing you approach with SHINee in tow catches all of their attention, hushed whispers dying out to a silence once more.
“Alright, so the way I’ve grouped you all off means there should be at least two of you per category,” you address them all. “I know I’m probably repeating myself here, but I want to focus on how we all have different outlets for our art. You’ve all been told the category you’ll be under, so if you can all just stand with your ‘buddies’ for the moment it would help me explain the next part.”
Again, nods greet you in understanding.
“Great!” Your eyes crinkle as you smile. “If I could get the composers over here.”
You point to your immediate left, seeing Bang Chan, and Jihoon both move to their new spot.
“Visual artists here,” you point beside the first group, a little ways to their right.
Hyunjin, Renjun, and Seulgi all stand together.
“Men of fashion, next.”
Both Hongjoong and Baekhyun stand side by side.
“Dancers, if you please.”
Ten, Taemin, and Momo form a small group.
“Then, the actors beside them.”
Kyungsoo and Minho stand together, nodding politely at each other in acknowledgment.
“The rappers.”
Both Taeyong and Dahyun move to the side, smiling at each other politely.
“And finally, the vocalists.”
Lastly, Key and Onew shuffle off to your right, completing the semi-circle around you.
“I will represent the author aspect to my speech, but I think that one is pretty self explanatory.” You chuckle, nothing how a few of them smile along with you. “Now, each of you were given a specific line to go along with your category. You may decide amongst yourselves who says it, or if you all wish to speak it in unison. However, for effect, it would be best if we all came to a decision on whether the lines will be spoken in unison by the groups, or individually. I really want to emphasize the collaboration between all of us artists with these lines.”
You notice each of the groups briefly talking amongst themselves before a few are nodding. A minute later, and you have all of their attention on you.
“Unison, or individual?” You quirk a brow.
“Individual might work best.” You see Baekhyun nod in your direction as he responds, the rest muttering their agreements.
“Great!” You smile, shifting to pull a small spiral bound notebook and a pen out of your purse. “Let me just write down who you’ve all agreed to speak each line between you all for reference. It also makes the technicians jobs a bit easier.”
A few minutes later, and you’ve written down the respective idols that will be saying each designated line.
“While each of you are speaking your lines, the category you represent will appear on the screen behind us along with visual aids showcasing you performing, demonstrating, or working on said topic.” You explain, and you see some of their eyes light up in awe. “There will be a strong emphasis on timing, especially on my part. A lot of what I say will be synced to the video behind me, as well as serve as audio cues for both you and the lighting techs.”
“You’ve put a lot of thought into this.” Key observes, clearly impressed.
“Well, I went to an arts high school, and I was also a theatre kid.” You cap your pen, smiling widely. “I do also have a flare for dramatics at times.”
“What type of arts high school?” Chan asks, tilting his head mildly in curiosity.
“It had quite a few different disciplines, but I was in for vocals.” You tell them.
“Not drama?” Minho’s eyebrows quirk, clearly surprised.
“No, but that would have been my second choice.” You close your notebook.
“Wait, you sing?” Momo’s lips part, an eager gleam to her eyes.
“I was trained operatically for over seven years.” Your words have clear shock pulling at all of their faces. “Don’t know how good I am now, it’s been quite a while since I last had a lesson.”
“I can’t wait to tell Jongho, he’s going to lose his shit.” Hongjoong mumbles.
“Wait until Seungmin hears this,” Hyunjin huffs out a laugh.
“Would you ever sing for us, sometime?” Seulgi asks, her whole face lighting up as she looks at you eagerly.
Your eyes nearly bulge right out of your head, heartbeat thundering in your ears.
“Uh,” you blink, attempting to wrap your head around the situation fully. One of your favourite female Korean singers has essentially just asked you to sing for her sometime.
“She’s already agreed to karaoke with some of us,” Hongjoong hums, a chuckle falling from his lips.
“Oh, I want to come, too!” Dahyun chimes in, smile wide as she meets your gaze.
“Is there a karaoke space big enough for everyone?” You put your notebook back into your purse, motioning to all of them that you’re done for now. “That’s all for now, by the way. Thank you again for agreeing to help on such short notice. We’ll practice the timing during the actual rehearsal portion designated for us at the end of the day.”
You notice the members of EXO and SHINee all nod their heads, heading off for lunch with one another after bowing to you politely in leave. You bow back, smiling faintly as they head off.
“I’m sure we can find one,” Jihoon says as the rest of you begin to head backstage as well.
“Damn, I’m gonna get to hear you sing and dance today?” Ten grins, stepping right up beside you for the moment. “I must be extra lucky.”
“What do you mean ‘dance’?” Seulgi tilts her head curiously.
“Oh, the ‘Seventh Sense’ bet she has with Mark.” Taeyong mentions casually.
“Oh!” Seulgi’s eyes widen, nodding in understanding. “That!”
“Does everybody at SM know of that bet?” You exhale an exaggerated puff of air.
“Only the people Mark told,” Renjun chimes in. “So, naturally, everybody knows. Man has a loud mouth at times.”
“At times?” Taeyong laughs.
“Do you know any other dances?” Momo asks, Dahyun nodding along with her as they walk side by side. “You mentioned that you enjoy singing and dancing to our songs earlier.”
“I know a few, but I usually don’t like dancing around other people.” You reply.
“How much is ‘a few’?” Ten quirks a grin, eyes tinkling mischievously.
“I have a few mixes my one friend made for me that I’ve learned.” You shrug. “Kind of like my own personalized random dance plays.”
“That’s pretty cool!” Dahyun comments, quite enthusiastically.
“Wait, how come you don’t like dancing around other people?” Renjun’s brow furrows, turning to look at you briefly.
By now, you’ve all made it backstage once more, and you notice many of the staff and other idols have dispersed for lunch. Only a few familiar faces linger around the space from earlier.
Again, it’s like you shrink into yourself. “Personal reasons.”
“Then, how are you going to win the bet you have with Mark?” Ten tilts his head curiously at you.
Out of the corner of your eye, you notice a few more Twice members, such as Jihyo, Jeongyeon, Mina, and Sana all join your group. Even some more NCT members are present, and you see Mark come to stand right beside you for the moment.
“You see, my need to prove him wrong is much stronger than anything else.” You reply, noticing how you see Yeosang watching you from the corner that the rest of the Ateez members are currently lingering around.
“Name the time and place.” He grins, crossing his arms over his chest.
“Well, who knows when we’ll get another chance to do this,” you say, quirking a brow knowingly. “It’s going to have to be today, is it not?”
“Now would be an opportune time since the stage area is clear of most people,” Taeyong suggests. “Riley can help with the soundboard and play the song through the speakers. Everyone would probably think it’s just us getting in another round of practice again. Sometimes we do that before shows.”
“I’ll go get Doyoung and Jaehyun!” Ten rushes off before a word of protest can escape you.
“Would dancing with someone else make you feel better?” Momo offers.
You think about it for a moment before nodding. “Perhaps it might.”
“Oh my goodness, come dance with us, then!” Sana grabs your wrist, pulling you back out towards the stage area with some of the others in tow. “Now, where’s Riley?”
You notice the aforementioned female appear from down the hallway.
“Riley, soundboard for us for a bit!” Mina begins pushing the somewhat stunned female along with all of you and back to the stage.
“What?” Riley blinks. “Oh, okay!”
“I would love to dance with you!” Jihyo grins, walking alongside you as Sana continues to pull you along. “The other girls are eating lunch, but I hope us six will do!”
“You’re more than enough.” Comes your instant reply, a firm nod of your head. “Though, I warn you, I’m probably going to be the ‘standing guy’ emoji when the music starts.”
Jeongyeon lets out a boisterous laugh from your opposite side. “It’s okay, we’ve got you!”
“I’m about to dance with pretty girls,” you mumble, causing all of the girls around you to smile. “Someone pinch me, I must be dreaming.”
Instead, you receive teasing pokes to your upper back from Dahyun who currently stands behind you.
“What song would you like to start with?” Momo asks, the members all flanking you on stage as Riley sets up the soundboard from the middle of the floor.
“Uh…” your brain refuses to function for a moment as you process her words.
“Wait, you said you had some mixes your friend made you.” Dahyun recalls. “This might be presumptuous of me, but do you have any Twice mixes?”
You blink. “I do, actually.”
“Great! Why don’t we do that, and we’ll support you!” Sana grins, shaking your arm gently in excitement.
“You all really want to dance with me?” You ask, voice meek as your eyes shine with your emotions for the moment.
“Of course!” Jeongyeon’s reply is immediate. “Not only would we be getting a chance to dance with our favourite author, but we’ve got to show those guys how it’s done.”
The wink she sends your way makes your heart leap for joy in your chest. You cannot help the way a bashful smile pulls at your lips as you pull out your phone.
“If you want, we could even do our best to follow another of your mixes.” Mina offers. “It would be like a random dance play for us. Plus, I’m sure more people would join! It’s whatever makes you most comfortable.”
“We can start with the Twice mix, and go from there?” Even though you sound a bit unsure of yourself, you notice the girls all eagerly nodding around you.
Already, a small crowd of both idols and staff members begin to form around the stage. Some stand in the wings, while others look up from the ground around the stage. There’s a good mix of eager looks and curious ones, but the smiling faces of the six girls around you manage to distract you from the less than savoury ones right now.
“Alright,” you say, walking to the edge of the stage with your phone in hand. Crouching down, you hand it to Mark. “Mark Lee, I will personally shave your head, and dye all of your white shirts bright red if you fuck around with my phone. I will also never gift you spoilers to my books, or watermelon taffy again.”
The wide-eyed nod he gives you says it all, and with the added way he swallows thickly, you giggle lightly.
“It’s mix three,”  you say, handing him your phone.
Again, all you receive is a nod from him in response before he’s walking over to Riley and passing her your phone. A moment later, and she hooks it up to the soundboard, looking up at you in preparation to hit play. After doing a few light stretches with the girls, you straighten your back, cracking your neck all the while.
“The first song is ‘Fancy’, which leads into ‘Talk That Talk, and then ‘I Can’t Stop Me’ after that.” You tell them, seeing them all nod excitedly at you.
“Do you usually dance a specific part, or is it all just chorus stuff?” Momo asks, standing beside you to your right.
“When I learn a full song, I usually learn either my bias, my wrecker, or whoever ends up being easiest to follow. For the mixes, it’s mainly just chorus stuff, though.” The way you see them all nod along at your words has your heart warming in your chest. “There’s a small intro, and then the pre-chorus to ‘Fancy’, though, so you have time to get into position.”
“We’ll follow your lead!” Jihyo grins, a firm nod to her head.
“Whenever you’re ready,” Sana smiles at you.
Meeting gazes with Riley across the way, you smile, shooting her a small thumbs up. Immediately, the music starts blasting through the speakers, and you can feel the adrenaline beginning to pump through your veins.
“You know, if you would have told me I’d be dancing on a stage with Twice today, I would have never believed you.” You comment, a light chuckle to your voice as you get into position.
“Well, believe it, girly!” Mina laughs, lightly going over the pre-chorus part of the dance as you all get into position. “Cause guess what?”
The only thing you have time to do is blink at her in response as all six of them shout out a loud ‘We’ as the chorus hits.
A large smile breaks out onto your face, whole body heating as you begin to dance along with the six girls around you. Lowly, you all sing along to the lyrics, losing yourself to the music as it surrounds you. The way their eyes light up as they watch you dance along with them sets your heart racing even more so than usual, absolutely revelling in this euphoric feeling.
Cheers erupt from some of the staff and other idols standing around the area, and you can hear Mark exclaim a loud ‘holy shit’ from beside the soundboard.
“Damn girl!” Dahyun bumps hips with you playfully as the song switches. “You can really dance!”
“Really?” Your eyes shine as you meet her gaze, noticing the other five members encouraging you all the while. At the nods you receive, you smile bashfully, tears threatening to gather in the corners of your eyes. “Thank you.”
From the crowd, you hear Ten beginning to shout in Mark’s direction. “Damn, Mark, you didn’t tell us your author friend could dance!”
At the way Mark shakes his head, blinking in shock, you can just tell he calls back an ‘I didn’t know’ lowly in response.
“You are so going to lose that bet.” Doyoung laughs loud enough for both you and Mark to hear.
“Hey, Chan, do you think she knows any Stray Kids dances?” Changbin calls over to their leader as a few more of the members join the crowd.
“Back off, Bin! She’s dancing to Ateez, next!” Wooyoung shouts at his friend, and you notice Jongho standing there with his mouth hanging open beside him.
The moment you hit the drop with your leg extended in ‘I Can’t Stop Me’, more cheers erupt from the crowd, even more staff and idols coming to see what all the commotion is about. The way you can see some people’s jaws drop in awe makes you grin, getting more and more into the moves the more time passes. It makes it even better when Johnny and Ten start hooting and hollering encouraging things your way as you dance. Even Wooyoung and Changbin get in on the action, Felix cheering along with them.
The moment the mix ends, the six girls are crowding you, talking excitedly about how much fun that was, and that you should all do that again some time.
“Thank you so much for dancing with me,” you meet each of their gazes, noticing how they all look at you fondly.
“It was our pleasure,” Jihyo smiles widely at you, squeezing your arm gently.
“If there’s ever any dances you want to learn, let us know!” Dahyun grins, giggling all the while.
“Yeah! We’d be more than happy to teach you.” Momo nods enthusiastically.
“You kept up with us really well,” Sana adds. “Most trainees can’t even do that.”
“I may not be a dancer, but I do put a lot of effort in to everything I do.” You avert your gaze to the floor bashfully, tapping the tip of you foot lightly against the floor of the stage.
“It shows.” Mina reaches over to squeeze your arm this time, smiling kindly at you.
Slowly, a chant begins to build from the surrounding crowd.
“Seventh Sense. Seventh Sense. Seventh Sense.”
“I think you’re being asked for an encore.” Jeongyeon winks at you, and you chuckle along with her.
“After you’re done proving him wrong, we should do one of your mixes!” Dahyun eagerly says, excitement shining in her eyes. “I wanna see how many songs we can get.”
“Plus, like I said earlier, more people might join that way!” Mina repeats, tucking a piece of hair behind her ear.
“We’ll give you space now.” Jihyo says, beginning to usher the other girls away from you. “As long as you’re ready.”
“I’m ready.” You nod once firmly in confirmation.
“Good luck!” Momo cheers, shooting you an encouraging thumbs up as they make their way to the side of the stage.
Stepping towards the front of the stage, you get into position. Lifting your head, you make eye contact with Mark who still stands beside Riley, looking completely stunned for the moment.
“Be prepared to lose the bet, Markie Boy.”You grin, flicking your gaze towards Riley for the moment. “Hit it.”
An awed hush settles over the crowd as you wait for the music to start. Not even a moment later, the opening beats of “The Seventh Sense” can be heard through the speakers. 
Your body instantly begins to move, the dance having been ingrained into you with how often you practiced it since making this bet with Mark. Even your expression moulds to fit the theme of the song, and as soon at the lyrics begin, the crowd erupts into cheers.
You hit every beat, noticing how both Doyoung and Jaehyun wear expressions of complete and utter shock on their faces. Even Mark cannot keep his mouth from falling open as he watches you incredulously.
About halfway through the routine, you notice Taeyong hoist himself up onto the stage, joining in to dance with you for the remainder of the song. The way you sing along softly to the lyrics only becomes apparent when he gets closer, his eyes widening ever so slightly as his lips part in awe.
During Mark’s iconic line, you purposely look his way, shouting it at the top of your lungs with a wink sent in his direction. You notice he still wears that same expression of shock on his features, and even you can tell how red his face has gotten from your position on the stage.
The way you can keep up with Taeyong has even more cheers erupting from the crowd. Ten practically begins shaking Doyoung beside him, screaming about how you’re dancing his part right now, a giddy smile on his features. Hell, even half of Stray Kids and Ateez look about ready to fall over, their wide eyed stares encouraging you to continue.
The moment the song comes to an end, a roar erupts from the staff and idols around you. You hear some shouts from certain groups asking you to dance their songs next, and it makes you smile. Your chest heaves with every breath you take, and you turn to face Taeyong just as he turns to face you.
“You proved him wrong.” He smiles, extending his hand out to you for a high five. “You’re an incredible dancer.”
A large smile stretches across your features as you meet his hand halfway in the air. “Thank you so much!”
“Really, do you know any more dances?” His eyes are wide as he looks at you, an eager gleam shining within.
“From start to finish?” You tilt your head slightly.
“Yeah, or just in general.” He nods.
“Well, from start to finish, I know Red Velvet’s Psycho and Bad Boy, EXO’s Monster, BTS’ Fire, and GOT7’s If You Do.” You list off. “There’s a few more I know larger portions of, but the rest I just know from the mixes. I, uh, do also know a few duet dances, cause I used to dance them with my ex.”
Out of the corner of your eyes, you notice both Hyunjin and Wooyoung chatting with Riley, of whom looks a bit reluctant to be apart of the conversation.
“I owe you ten meals.”Mark comments, stepping up onto the stage. “You really did prove me wrong.”
“I told you I would!” You stick your tongue out at him playfully, wiping at the sweat forming at your brow.
“You’ve also really drawn a crowd.” He wiggles his eyebrows. “I don’t think anybody was expecting you to be able to dance like that.”
Out of the corner of your eyes, you see Jaehyun approaching you.
“You can really dance.” He comments, blinking at you a few times as his dimple appears.
“Thank you.”You incline your head in his direction, a warmth blooming on your cheeks.
“You mentioned knowing duet dances?” Taeyong inquires. “Which ones do you know?”
Your eyes widen slightly, noticing Wooyoung, Hyunjin, and Changbin now all making their way onto the stage towards you.
“Uh…” you chuckle nervously. “Well, I do know Baby Don’t Stop, Seulrene’s Monster, and, uh…” your voice drops into a mumble, “Troublemaker.”
“You know Troublemaker?” Changbin’s voice is full of awe. “Okay, we’re dancing that.”
“Get your own dance partner, Bin, I’m dancing Troublemaker with her first!” Wooyoung crosses his arms over his chest, huffing all the while.
“Oh, you all think I know Hyuna’s part, don’t you?” You glance at him with amusement dancing in your eyes.
Taeyong’s brow furrows. “You don’t?”
“Oh, I know some of it, but the only Hyuna dance I really know is Lip and Hip. I learned Hyunseung’s part.” You chuckle. “My best friend learned her part.”
“You dance often, then.” Hyunjin observes, calculating gaze fixed on you for the moment.
“I mean, I used to.” You shrug. “I’ve always enjoyed it, even though I’m not a dancer. It used to be my ex’s and my thing.”
“Is that why you don’t like performing in front of other people?” Changbin’s brow furrows.
“Kind of,” you mutter. “But that’s not a can of worms to get into today.”
“Okay, well, we need to plan a day where we have a dance party, clearly.” Wooyoung comments, slinging his arm around your waist as he pushes Mark out of the way.
“Dance another mix for us!” You hear Mina call out from the side where you see all of the other Twice members now standing.
At the way you hesitate, the crowd starts chanting for you to dance more.
“We tried convincing Riley to play another one anyways,” Hyunjin shrugs casually. “She wouldn’t budge unless you were comfortable with it.”
You chew on the skin of your bottom lip. “Well, I guess one more wouldn’t hurt.”
Wooyoung shakes you lightly in excitement as he laughs giddily. “Yay!”
“If you join, and I see any of you mocking girl groups, I will punt you off of this stage.” You threaten, pointing your finger threateningly at the males around you.
At the way they raise their hands mildly in their own defence, you know you have them.
“Alright, hang on,” you say, quickly hopping down the stairs at the side of the stage to make your way towards the soundboard where Riley is.
Along the way, some staff members and idols send compliments your way. A few of them are backhanded, but you brush those off for now. Besides, you feel as if nothing could bring you down.
Reaching Riley, you’re quick to unlock your phone for her once more.
“We’re gonna do another mix, but I figured my phone had shut off by now.” You chuckle, and you see her nod enthusiastically. “When I give the signal, play mix four.”
“Roger that!” She mock salutes you, and you giggle along with her.
Making your way back to the stage, you notice quite a few more idols having gathered around. Some eagerly talk amongst themselves, while more have moved to the front of the stage in order to get a better view of the dancing about to take place.
“Alright, you guys ready?” You quirk a brow as you stand back into position.
“Oh, hell yes!” Both Wooyoung and Changbin cheer.
“As a curtesy, the first song is The Eve.”You tell them. “This is my longest mix, so I might not do all of it.”
“Understandable.” Taeyong nods your way.
“Whatever makes you most comfortable.” You notice Momo has come back to join you, nodding all the while.
With a smile pulling at your lips, you send a nod Riley’s way. A moment later, and the familiar sound of music is playing through the speakers.
The more you dance, the more you notice that even some of the backup dancers join in on the fun. You cannot keep the joy from radiating off of you, a brilliant smile on your face as you move around the stage with the people around you. The way even Seulgi comes to join you for some of the Red Velvet songs that you have in the mix makes your heart swell, laughing along with the others gleefully.
The whole time, you can feel eyes on you. Whether they’re judgmental, or in awe, you no longer care, for you get lost in the way dancing like this makes you feel. You haven’t had this much fun in a while, and you’re not about to give it up now.
Once the mix has finished, another cheer rises up from the crowd. A few of the dancers even come up to you and start up a conversation about where you learned to move your body like that. A fact which makes you all the more bashful.
An intense feeling of eyes focussed on your back has you turning to face the crowd. Only, when you look in the direction you felt such a gaze coming from, all you see is Yeosang staring at you with an unreadable expression on his face. Mingi seems to be talking his ear off excitedly at the moment, the shorter male nodding along quite firmly to whatever is being said. However, you’re not even sure if he’s listening to what his group mate is saying, or not.
Smiling softly his way, you notice him blink suddenly, as if to clear his vision.
Mark catching your attention from beside you has you turning away from Yeosang for the moment. Only, you fail to see the way the male’s eyebrow twitches slightly, the corner of his lips tugging downwards.
A short while later, and you’ve cleared the stage area so rehearsals can continue as scheduled. Riley makes her way back over towards you with your phone in hand, passing it to you with awe still clear in her eyes.
“I didn’t know you could dance like that!” She exclaims, visibly shaking in her spot. “You’re incredible!”
You chuckle at her enthusiasm. “Thank you.”
Now, as you settle back into the backstage area, you notice quite a few more idols and staff around. The way their gazes dart over to you is obvious, whispers reaching your ears.
“Have you eaten, by the way?”It’s Mark that asks, handing you a fresh bottle of water as you lean against the wall.
“I ate a big breakfast before I came, so I’m not really hungry right now.”You reply. “But thanks for checking in.”
“He was just hoping to get a head start on those ten meals he owes you,” Johnny chuckles, joining your little circle.
You notice Hongjoong, Jongho, Yeosang, Wooyoung, and Changbin all join you as well.
“So, when are you coming over to learn more Stray Kids dances?” Changbin asks casually.
“Um, after she learns some Ateez dances, obviously.” Wooyoung answers for you, a roll to his eyes. A second later, and a smug grin is pulling at his features as he stands proud. “Her bias is gonna teach her everything he knows.”
“Wait, you’re her Ateez bias?” Changbin’s eyes nearly pop out of his head before turning to look at you. “Please tell me you have better taste in men than this idiot over here.”
“Hey!” Wooyoung whines.
“I never said Wooyoung was my Ateez bias,” you chuckle, and you notice how said male’s pout only deepens.
“Then, who is?” Hongjoong quirks a brow, a teasing smirk pulling at his lip.
Again, a knowing smile pulls at your features.
“You mean, you won’t tell them?” Mark frowns. “You had no probably telling me that Ten was your NCT bias.”
Johnny looks absolutely scandalized by Mark’s words, placing a hand over his heart as his jaw drops in shock. “And here I was thinking what we had was special.”
“I met you today, John.” You deadpan, blinking once.
Laughter erupts around you.
“Wait, Ten is your NCT bias?” Jongho looks at you, somewhat incredulously. “I would have thought it was Jaehyun with how often you reference him in your writing.”
You shrug casually. “Some things are the same, others are not. I mean, Ten’s not my only NCT bias.”
“You have more than one?” It’s Yeosang who asks this time, his brow quirked and gaze unreadable.
“Of course I have more than one, there’s over twenty-one members in counting, and multiple sub-units.” You reply, as if it’s the most obvious thing in the world. “I’ve got a bias per unit.”
“Yet, none of them are me.” Mark pouts, crossing his arms over his chest.
“When I was first getting into NCT you were.” You remind him.
“It’s not the same.” He whines, shaking his head.
“So, you’ll tell him your biases when he asks, but not us?” Hongjoong quirks a brow, amusement dancing in his eyes. Though, at the way his jaw twitches, you can tell he’s slightly exasperated by this fact.
“Again, I’ve talked with him for much longer than I’ve personally known you.” You chuckle. “Plus, you’re not as persistent about it as some people.”
The way you shoot a playfully pointed look at Mark says it all.
“Oh, okay,” Wooyoung nods, a maniacal grin tugging at his features. “We’ve just got to annoy it out of you.”
“That’s one way to ensure I never tell you.” You huff out a laugh, a smirk dancing on your lips. “Though, I don’t know why you guys are so obsessed with knowing who my bias is. Really, you should be asking about my wreckers. Haven’t you ever heard the phrase that a person’s bias is most like them, but their wrecker is their ideal type?”
Without waiting for a response, you walk over to join Mina, Sana, Jihyo, and Jeongyeon, leaving all of the males stunned for the moment.
“Mark, who’s her NCT wrecker?” Johnny immediately turns to the aforementioned male, noticing the others do the same.
“I- uh…” he swallows thickly. “I don’t know.”
Your shoulders shake in laughter as you begin conversing with the girls. A few hours later, Joy from Red Velvet joins in on your little circle of friends, her introducing herself and expressing how big of a fan she is of your writing. Easily, she falls into conversation with all of you, and she even brings up the fact that she and the other members saw you dancing with Seulgi earlier.
Again, you feel eyes on your back, watching your every move closely. When you spare a quick glance over your shoulder, you see Yeosang watching you with a neutral expression on his face. His arms are crossed over his chest as he leans back against the wall, one leg propped up behind him so that his knee is bent slightly.
Unfortunately, you don’t have time to dwell on it for too long, for the girls are all asking to exchange contact information with you. Of course, you readily agree, the Twice members even going so far as to create a group chat with you and the few other members that danced with you earlier.
Loud whispering draws your attention to the right where you see Irene, Wendy, and Yeri all standing to the side. You send a polite smile their way, but the only one who somewhat smiles back is Yeri. On the other hand, both Irene and Wendy could not look more disinterested by you. In fact, you’d say they almost look annoyed that you looked their way.
The moment you see Seulgi hop over to them quite excitedly, overhearing your name being mentioned, scowls pull onto Wendy’s and Irene’s faces.
Pointedly, Wendy leans into Irene, whispering quite loudly as you turn back around.
“Can you believe they invited such filth to perform at these awards?” Wendy’s voice reaches your ears, and you cannot help the way your shoulders tense. “I hope they wash the stage after she’s been rolling around on it. I can’t believe we even have to breathe the same air as that thing.”
From the muffled laughter you can hear behind you, you know it’s not just Irene that finds these comments funny.
“Wendy, stop it, you’re being extremely rude.” Seulgi chastises, an immediate frown tugging at her features. “And I can’t believe you two would laugh along with her! She’s been nothing but kind to everyone this whole time.”
“Did you see her dancing earlier?” Irene snorts out a laugh. “You know we stopped doing charity events, right, Seulg?”
“You call that dancing?” Wendy cackles. “More like flailing. She looked like a fish out of water.” A pause. “Wait, let me describe it more accurately: a beached whale.”
Again, more laughter can be heard from around the room, the loudest emanating from that specific corner where they reside. Though, the sneers and smug looks from some of the idols and staff that you’ve felt judging you all throughout the day no longer can be ignored. You have a feeling that they’re all finally getting the vindication of hearing their negative thoughts and feelings towards you finally be said out loud.
Jeongyeon places a comforting hand onto your back, noticing how you visibly deflate at the harsh words being thrown your way. Jihyo, Mina, and Sana all look about ready to cut a bitch, and Joy just looks embarrassed, her eyes widening in shock.
“People like her make me sick.” Irene comments, somewhat casually.
“Watch. I’m gonna go over there and compliment her in English, and it’s going to make her day.” Wendy laughs, already moving to push herself off of the wall.
“Wendy,” Seulgi warns, grabbing the aforementioned female’s wrist and holding her in place. “You’re making a fool of yourself, disgracing our group, and embarrassing the rest of us. You know she can understand you, right?”
You hear Wendy scoff, “I doubt that.”
Tugging her wrist harshly out of Seulgi’s grip, Wendy continues to make her way over to you. The ominous presence you can sense that is her approaching makes you tense, your hands nervously wringing themselves together.
Just then, a squeal is heard from behind you.
“Oh my gosh! Aren’t you that really famous author? I love your work!” Wendy’s voice reaches your ears, causing you to turn around to face her.
The expression she wears is one of awe, but it doesn’t take an expert to know that it’s not genuine. You can see how her gaze not so subtly trails over your body, a brief look of disgust pulling at her features as her lips twitch downwards. Though, in the blink of an eye, that expression of ire disappears, replaced by that overtly friendly one she attempts to wear.
You don’t even have to say anything, for Mina, Sana, Jihyo, and Jeongyeon all step in front of you, shooting harsh looks her way. Even Joy shakes her head disapprovingly, crossing her arms over her chest at her group mate.
Wendy looks clearly taken aback, blinking a few times at the silence that stretches on around you.
“What’s that look for?”She chuckles, somewhat nervously. “I just wanted to come over and say that I saw you dancing earlier and it looked like so much fun!” She nearly chokes on her own words, blinking as if she cannot believe what she’s about to say. “You’re a really good dance-“
“Are you sure it wasn’t more like a fish out of water?” You meet her gaze, a blank look in your eyes as you tilt your head slightly to the side.
You can just tell that your words catch her completely off guard.
“What are you talking about? I only came over here to tell you how pretty I think you are.” Wendy blinks at you in shock.
“Do you expect me to thank you for insulting me not even two minutes ago?” You continue. “The only thing I hate more than dishonest people, is someone who thinks they can get away with being two-faced just because of who they are.”
“How dare you!” Wendy inhales sharply, anger pulling at her brow. “You bitch-“
“Did you eat a stone, Wendy?” Jihyo’s gaze is nothing short of furious as she stares the elder down.
“You should be ashamed of yourself.” Jeongyeon spits, brow furrowed in distaste. “You of all people, judging another person based solely on their looks.”
“Why are you defending her? Can she not speak for herself?” Wendy replies, incredulously. “And Joy, why are you wasting you time with filth like her?”
“Unlike you, I don’t judge a book by its cover.” Joy deadpans, blinking at the girl before her blankly.
“Are you that unhappy with you life that you have to bring down mine?” You ask her, tilting your head slightly to the side.
Wendy rolls her eyes, crossing her arms over her chest. “Stop acting all high and mighty. You’re nothing, anyways.”
“I’m not the one that went out of their way to insult the other.” You reply, holding your elbows in your hands once more as your arms cross over your body for support.
You can see her getting more angry with every lack of reaction you give her.
“Yeah, well, you’re writing is mediocre, and you’re just a fat, ugly pig.” She spits, and it goes so silent that you can hear a pin drop around you. “No wonder your ex cheated on a bitch like you.”
Gasps are heard all around.
You wish you could prevent the way you inhale sharply from her words, but you do. What makes it worse is the way she grins after hearing you do so.
Out of the corner of your eyes, you see Mark needing to be held back by Johnny.
You blink, swallowing thickly and doing your best to maintain your composure. The familiar sting of tears burns behind your eyes, but you refuse to give her the satisfaction of seeing you break.
Taking a deep breath, you school your expression.
“Wow, Wendy, not many people know that fact. I only ever talked about it once or twice during my lives.” You comment. “If I didn’t know any better, I’d say that you’re obsessed with me.”
A loud scoff leaves her lips as she turns away from you, rolling her eyes all the while.
“Whatever,” she mumbles, beginning to walk away. “You’re not worth my time.”
Your eyes widen significantly, appalled by her comment for the moment considering she was the one that approached you. Luckily, though, you don’t have time to dwell on it, for the girls surrounding you are immediately turning back to face you, asking if you’re okay.
“Yeah, yeah,” you shoot them all a tight smile that doesn’t quite reach your eyes. “I’m fine.”
“I am so sorry about her,” Joy looks the most distressed, her cheeks red in embarrassment. Instantly, she bows to you. “I know it’s no excuse, but I hope you will accept my apology for her instead.”
“It’s not your fault, Joy,” you say, stepping out of the circle of girls for the moment.
“Where are you going?” Mina asks lightly, concern clear on her features.
“I just need some fresh air. I promise I’ll be right back.” Again, another tense smile is sent their way that doesn’t quite meet your eyes.
Not even giving them time to respond, you’re quickly making your way back down the hallway that you first arrived in. Pushing open the side door, you make sure you can get back inside first before letting it fall shut. Luckily for you, no one stops you, nor bothers you for the time being. Doing a quick scan of the area, you ensure that you’re alone.
It takes a moment for you to be sliding down the side of the wall. Another for the movement to become synonymous with the first of your tears escaping your eyes.
You don’t care that Wendy insulted your writing. You recognize and understand that it’s not for everyone, nor is everyone going to like it. If people telling you they didn’t like your writing, or that you were a shitty writer stopped you from pursuing your passion, you wouldn’t be where you are today. Hell, you don’t even care that she insulted you. You’ve had people insult your appearance your entire life, so that’s nothing new.
No, what hurts you the most is the fact that she would use such a traumatic incident against you. How she even knew about it confuses you, for you only ever disclosed the information publicly once, and not even all of the details. The memories are still just too painful for you, even if they happened over six months ago.
You crouch against the wall for a good few minutes, your muffled sobs being your only accompaniment. That is, until you hear the side door creak open.
Quickly, you’re wiping away your tears and standing back to your feet. You figure it’s probably some staff members either needing some air themselves, or going for a smoke break. 
You’d rather not have anyone see you cry right now.
What you don’t expect, however, is to see Yeosang peeking out at you from the small opening. He says nothing as he meets your gaze, and you don’t know whether to thank him for that, or not. What he does offer you, though, is a tissue, wordlessly extending a small packet out to you with the top already open.
Silently, you take one from him, nodding your thanks. The smile you send him is small, and tense, but it’s something.
“Riley said that your rehearsal for your speech is on deck.” He says lowly. “I came to get you.”
“Oh, okay,” you swallow your remaining emotions for the moment. “I’ll be there in a minute.”
A nod is all you receive in response as you dab at your eyes while turning away from him for the moment. Scrunching your nose, you sniffle.
“Are you okay?” His tone is soft, and you notice how concerned his eyes look as you turn back to face him.
“I’ll be fine,” you nod assuringly at him, but he doesn’t look all that reassured. So, you divert the topic as you head back inside. “You said it’s time for my rehearsal?”
“Riley’s gathering the other idols with Joong as we speak.” Yeosang replies casually, clutching that little package of tissues in his hands still.
“I see.” You hum, bringing the back of your hand up to rub at the side of your cheek.
Wordlessly, he offers you another tissue.
“Thanks.” You say, grabbing another from him.
He nods, which is the only response from him that you get.
“Hey, do you mind watching my purse while I rehearse?” You spare a glance at him just as you breach the backstage area, ignoring the few other worried looks sent your way by familiar faces.
“Not Mark?” He quirks a brow, the corner of his lips twitching upwards faintly.
“I don’t trust him not to go snooping through my bag to search for spoilers to my next book.” You chuckle lowly. “Besides, I know Jongho won’t be able to convince you to let him sneak a peek, either.”
Yeosang cracks a small grin. “You’d be correct.”
“I may not have the best judge of character, but I can tell that you’re a decent guy, Yeosang.” You say, and you watch a faint blush begin to creep onto his cheeks. “Thank you for not prying.”
Sliding the strap of your purse off of your shoulder, you hand it to him. Not even a moment later, he grabs it from you, slinging the strap over his own.
“It’s not my place.” He replies, blinking lightly up at you.
A call of your name from the stage manager draws your attention to the front.
“Good luck.” He nods, to which you nod back, leaving him without another word.
Yeosang smiles faintly, still feeling the warmth that continues to dissipate from his cheeks as he looks down at his feet. Shifting the strap against his shoulder, he slides the pack of tissues into the side of your purse, just in case.
Stepping into the wings of the stage, he watches on as you practice your speech for tomorrow, going over the stage directions and lighting cues with the staff. What he truly cannot understand though, is why, when every time he looks at you, he can feel his heart now racing inside of his chest.
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Ana’s Fic Recommendations - April 2023
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Hello! It’s me… again!
Ana with a new portion of reading I did and loved since my last list which was made in January 2023.
Enjoy :) And don’t forget to give your love and support to all those wonderful people who gave us these masterpieces <3 Please forgive me if I put smth I already recommended before in here, lol. It’s either I forgot oooor (what’s more likely) I love it sm that I wanted to include it again!
Please note that most of these might be rated 18+, so read the authors’ notes carefully!
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BTS
@sopebubbles - new series Lone Wolf, 18+ - ot7 x reader
@jae-bummer - Platonic Friend Time - JJK x reader
@onlyswan - In which Jungkook is giving up on you but you have so much love left to give - JJK x reader
@soraviie - you assume it's unrequited.txt - ot7
@ugh-yoongi - Loose Lips - MYG - reader
@angelicyoongie - returned with Abubdance - ot7, 18+
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STRAY KIDS
@imagine-a-life-like-this - whole masterlist and new series Sugar and Spice, 18+ - LMH x Reader
@jae-bummer - An Influx of Chargers - HHJ x reader, You Found Me - HJS x reader, Game Night Gone Awry - BCH x reader, Fake Boyfriends & Melted Ice Cream - BCH x reader
@taeminsung - The View - LMH x reader, Close To You - LMH x reader
@j-a-nuary - In which Han thought he was dating his best friend
@bloomingbutterflysworld - masterlist
@outro-jo - When skz says “no” - ot8
@feelbokkie - masterlist
@pettypuppy-jonghyun - Confession - BCH x reader
@voquenutella - SKZ find out you're pregnant 1 - 2
@leviackermanscleaningbuddy - SKZ Prompt Game - Changbin, Minho. 18+
@sluttywonwoo - Instead Of You - LMH x reader + HJS, 18+
@yxngbxkkie - masterlist
@lixie-phoria - masterlist
@dreamescapeswriting - Time Heals All Wounds - SCB
@yangkitties - SKZ as your college boyfriends - ot8
@astraystayyh - Conversationd with Minho, LMH x reader, Vanilla - BCH x reader
@angelwonie - Kiss Me More, LMH x reader, 18+
@caseiloveu - Confessing Your Crush - ot8
@staytheword - Kind Regards - SCB x reader, 18+, Falling Rain - BCH x reader, 18+
@straylightdream - Between The Lines - BCH x reader, 18+
@sugrlamb - Love Blinks - LMH x reader
@bbujiikseu - Playdate - LFX x reader, 18+
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ATEEZ
@imagine-a-life-like-this - whole masterlist
@mangiverse - masterlist
@ateezforpresident - Your first vacation together - ot8
@ateezreactionsandscenarios - Let Me Show You - KYS x reader, 18+
@sluttywoozi - What Should We Become? - CHS x reader + KYS, 18+
@bluehwale - unconventional first encounters with ateez + part 2
@nczennie - Royal Icing - JWY x reader, 18+
@ohmyamor - He's Kinda Hot - KHJ x reader
@talkbykhalid - Idiot in Love - KYS x reader
@hwaightme - Like The Cherry Blossom Falls - JYH x reader
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