Sometimes I get stuck thinking there must be more to Hinako's death but then,
Have you ever had one of those irrational fears that your friends are talking about you behind your back? That they aren't 100% satisfied in you? Have a groupchat without you, hang out without you, etc. You have this fear that they're going to turn around one day like "we've been stringing you along but we never actually liked you." And that thought is crushing. (Or maybe god forbid it's happened to you). It's worse than people not liking you. It's the worst betrayal imaginable. It's horrifying. More than your trust, it destroys your self-confidence.
And that's with friends. But the man who said he loved you? The man who smiled at you at the altar as he put a ring on your finger? The man with whom you've placed your life in his hands as his partner on the force? The man you trust with your life during the day and lay down in the same bed with at night? For years?
I will never forget the time this boy told me that the girl that is running a smear campaign on me looks like a high school & outdated version of me lmaoooooooo