#ataraxia requested

[callme-holly]

dallas winston getting his hair played with for the first time by his gf and he just knocks OUTT. and then he wakes up and is like "dont tell ANYONE abt this..." and then it becomes a frequent thing

𝐚𝐭𝐚𝐫𝐚𝐱𝐢𝐚 [𝐝𝐚𝐥𝐥𝐚𝐬 𝐰𝐢𝐧𝐬𝐭𝐨𝐧 𝐱 𝐫𝐞𝐚𝐝𝐞𝐫]

ataraxia: (n.) a state of serene calmness a/n: my inbox is temporarily closed while i work through some requests. it'll hopefully be open in a few days !!

The bedroom was blissfully peaceful, enveloped in a silence that was broken only by your soft breaths and the gentle snores coming from Dallas, his head resting in your lap, your fingers carding through his hair.

The sunlight streamed in through your window, bathing the room in a gentle golden hue, catching on the strands of blonde as you scratched idly at his scalp, admiring the softness of his features as he slept, taking note of every little detail. 

There’s a very light dusting of freckles across his nose, so light you’d never notice them if you weren’t looking for them, each mark spaced out like stars on his pale skin. A scar marrs the expanse just above his eyebrow, jagged and rough, but long since healed over; you don’t know where he’d gotten it, and if you’re being honest with yourself, you’re not sure he knows either.

He grunts slightly, shifting a little on top of your covers, the sheets crinkling under his weight. You don’t stop your ministrations, continuing to brush through his hair. It’d taken long enough for him to settle, and even longer for you to even convince him to let you touch his hair. He’d argued at first, protests spilling forth like a strong current tearing through a dam, sharp and cutting—but the second he’d felt your hand in his hair, he quieted down, and before you knew it, he was out like a light. 

He shifts again, another groan leaving him as he begins to stir. 

“You ain’t gonna tell anyone about this.” His words are slurred and rough with sleep, and you can’t tell whether it’s a statement or a question. Either way, you shake your head, a smile tugging at your lips.

“No. No, I’m not.”

His eyes flutter open, and he blinks cluelessly at you for a moment, his eyes hazy with the remnants of exhaustion. He hums lazily in response.

“Good.” To your surprise, he doesn't pull away. Instead, he closes his eyes once more, seemingly content to remain exactly where he is.

His hand rests lightly on your leg, thumb tracing lazy circles against your skin, and you let your fingers trace the contour of his jaw, the pads brushing over every mark and scar, every little imperfection that all seem to add up to make him perfect. 

It isn't until that moment, admiring every little detail of him as he sleeps, that the true reason for his reluctance makes sense: Dallas Winston is a rough, wild thing. He's trouble; he's volatile; he's uncontrollable... But behind it all, behind that mask of indifference, is a vulnerability he's too afraid to let show.

“I love you…” The words leave you before you can even think about what you're saying. Dallas doesn't open his eyes; he doesn't even stir, simply nodding in response.

“Yeah. I know you do, doll.” 

You lean forward and press a chaste kiss to his forehead, smiling once more, brushing those stubborn blonde wisps back from his forehead. You weren't expecting him to say it back; he never does, but the way he's lying now, quiet and content against you, you can tell that maybe he quite likes you too.

[ataraxixia]

❀～❀ 𝐀𝐓𝐀𝐑𝐀𝐗𝐈𝐗𝐈𝐀'𝐒 𝐊𝐈𝐍𝐊𝐓𝐎𝐁𝐄𝐑 𝟐𝟎𝟐𝟒 ❀～❀

❦welcome to ataraxixia's kinktober event! it's my first time participating 'n I'll be posting fics weekly since I probably won't be able to write daily

❦note: some of these works may contain kinks that might not be for you, do not click on something you aren't comfortable with, much love

❦status: ongoing

❧𝐤𝐢𝐧𝐤𝐭𝐨𝐛𝐞𝐫 𝐦𝐚𝐬𝐭𝐞𝐫𝐥𝐢𝐬𝐭.

❦important: some fics will feature up to 4 characters; two from genshin and two from hsr. y'all can send in a request with a character you'd want with a specific prompt/ day :> it'd probably be first come first served but don't be disappointed when your request hadn't made it through; I'll be sure to write other fanfics after kinktober <3 for obvious reasons, I won't write for any child characters or minors or characters implied to be minors, physically minors, etc. etc. yk the drill; also writing only men- I can't write women

❦if there aren't enough requests by the end of september 30th (which is the likely outcome) i'll add characters myself or simply write less

𝐨𝐜𝐭𝐨𝐛𝐞𝐫 𝟏: 𝐜𝐮𝐧𝐧𝐢𝐥𝐢𝐧𝐠𝐮𝐬 genshin impact: tartaglia honkai star rail: boothill 𝐨𝐜𝐭𝐨𝐛𝐞𝐫 𝟖: 𝐨𝐯𝐞𝐫𝐬𝐭𝐢𝐦𝐮𝐥𝐚𝐭𝐢𝐨𝐧 + 𝐝𝐚𝐜𝐫𝐲𝐩𝐡𝐢𝐥𝐢𝐚 genshin impact: neuvillette honkai star rail: luocha ; aventurine 𝐨𝐜𝐭𝐨𝐛𝐞𝐫 𝟏𝟓: 𝐞𝐝𝐠𝐢𝐧𝐠 + 𝐨𝐫𝐠𝐚𝐬𝐦 𝐝𝐞𝐧𝐢𝐚𝐥 genshin impact: kinich honkai star rail: dr. ratio 𝐨𝐜𝐭𝐨𝐛𝐞𝐫 𝟐𝟐: 𝐦𝐢𝐫𝐫𝐨𝐫 𝐬𝐞𝐱 genshin impact: lyney honkai star rail: moze ; Argenti 𝐨𝐜𝐭𝐨𝐛𝐞𝐫 𝟐𝟗: 𝐜𝐨𝐜𝐤 𝐰𝐨𝐫𝐬𝐡𝐢𝐩 genshin impact: zhongli honkai star rail: sunday ; jing yuan

...some things I gotta say for the end: if someone can send me a message and tell me how to add the links for the fics will kiss your cheek :> also, feel free to ask to be tagged (´∀｀)♡

❧ataraxia

𝐚𝐭𝐚𝐫𝐚𝐱𝐢𝐱𝐢𝐚 𝟐𝟎𝟐𝟒. 𝐚𝐥𝐥 𝐫𝐢𝐠𝐡𝐭𝐬 𝐫𝐞𝐬𝐞𝐫𝐯𝐞𝐝. 𝐝𝐨 𝐧𝐨𝐭 𝐫𝐞𝐩𝐨𝐬𝐭, 𝐜𝐨𝐩𝐲, 𝐞𝐝𝐢𝐭, 𝐭𝐫𝐚𝐧𝐬𝐥𝐚𝐭𝐞 𝐰𝐢𝐭𝐡𝐨𝐮𝐭 𝐦𝐲 𝐩𝐞𝐫𝐦𝐢𝐬𝐬𝐢𝐨𝐧.

[andromacheofappalachia]

Ataraxia [Abish x Red Feather]

Here is a snippet for my one-shot (possibly short fic) for Abish and Red Feather that some of you requested :) Enjoy!

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With Jacob there were expectations. A silent, obedient wife who will not be the last one for her husband to take. A mother of many, born dead or alive, that would fill her womb with every passing season.

The expectations had been branded into her skin until they welted up red. They had been carved deep into her bones, poisoning the marrow and hollowing her out. Laying heavy upon her shoulders during the day and deep within her heart at night. That became routine, became her life, until she felt as if she had drowned. As if Jacob had consumed her the moment she said, "I do."

Abish had not always been Mormon, that was true. Perhaps that was the first thing she had done wrong though Jacob had been so forgiving of that hadn't he? She had traded the six-pointed star around her neck for him. Forsaken her family. Forsaken herself—but that hadn't been who she was either, now was it? In truth, Abish didn't know who she was at the time and that was easy in the first year of marriage. Only in the second year, Jacob had set his sights west toward their destiny. His destiny. The journey itself hadn't been one of company until she was sitting around a circle of people from the same faith. Realizing as others spoke, as Jacob silenced her and answered for her, that she had no tongue. No voice. Her body was a hollow, ugly vessel. Though there was a darkness deep within that hollowness. A madness. A rage. A beast seizing to lash out in hunger.

One that had only been fed when Red Feather had held his blade to her neck and she had vowed to haunt him in death.

One that had finally stopped clawing against her skin and burning through her mind as sharp teeth sunk into her throat. A desperate, possessive kiss pressed down against the expanse of flesh, memorizing a trail down to her heart. She didn't even care if he slipped the knife in this time. Her only thought was that dying to Red Feather's teeth and hands and gaze and heart would be a kinder mercy.

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Requests open. Fanfics are posted on wattpad: @LovesLibrary. Likes, comments, and reposts are very appreciated.

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Aemond Targaryen

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1.) Prologue/teaser +NSFW

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Aemond Loves his pregnant wife! +NSFW

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Little red +NSFW

- Aemond Targaryen x Stark!reader

Tis the season +NSFW

- Modern!Aemond Targaryen x reader

Sharing is caring +NSFW

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Ataraxia; freedom of worry

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The secrets we keep +NSFW

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Too good

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Fandom specific rules:

Blazblue

I write for most of the female cast. Only male character I could write for is maybe Ragna but only if the prompt was really good.

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I have only played the original game so don't ask for remake related things. I write for the main 5 heroines but I'd be open to writing for other characters if there was an interest. For how I write the main 5 see notes.

Fate

Only played Stay Night so I write only for girls from there (Saber, Rin, Caster). Sakura requests are open but will be held until I finish Heaven's Feel. Medusa is not requestable until I play a bit of Hollow Ataraxia. Might write for Archer if the prompt is good enough. I have watched Zero if that's relevant to something you want though.

[nasuversekinkmeme]

Prompt Spotlight: pages 6-10

Prompts from the first five pages of this blog which, to my knowledge*, have not been filled.

*I’m doing this from memory, I might have missed a fill or two. If there’s a prompt here that has already been filled, well, give it another fill.

TSUKIHIME

Satsuki/Shiki yaoi (Satsuki is trans (ideally sfw))

smut, Akiha and Arcueid drinking each other blood and them having extremely wild and primal sex

The cast of Tsukihime but they're a 80/90s comedy sitcom

FATE/STAY NIGHT

saber and rider should make out and fight to break the other's composure

smut, some kirei/claudia sexytimes as well, mayhaps? 👉👈 maybe in a chaldea/fgo au?

Rin/Saber/Shirou, Saber as middle spoon/shared goods?

FATE/ZERO

Kirei/Kariya humiliation please 🙏

I ask for Iskandar x Waver content as I’ve read like every fic of them on ao3. Waver could be in his fate zero appearance or his case files one I do not care. Don’t care wether it’s smut or fluff both are fine.

FATE/HOLLOW ATARAXIA

Caren and human Angra fluff, they're extremely weird but also somehow cute

EL-MELLOI CASE FILES

age gap, I wanna see Gray having a crush on Waver! Bonus points if it's completely unrequited, and Waver doesn't even register her flirting attempts as anything other than her being painfully awkward.

FATE/APOCRYPHA

Transmasc or enbie Mordred(and if you are goin the smut route give him the dick that he deserves.)

FATE/EXTRA

I think Nero should get her own Harem, as a treat

FATE/GRAND ORDER

Mash and Guda (Whichever gender) double teaming Barghest. Big dog deserves some love.

Maou Nobu divides herself between her three personalities and goes full offensive against Okita, both romantically and sexually

smut, Femdom + bdsm with Scáthach and Lancer Li? I think Li Shuwen needs to be tied up

Could we get some vore going? Perhaps Barghest swallowing down Gudako and or Mash after some passionate lovemaking?

Hello! I have a request for my rarest of pairs, Cu Chulainn and Robin Hood. Can be sexy can be fluffy, I just desperately need ship content for them.

not gonna anon cuz everyone knows me lol ... anything with big!andersen x dantes please!! something fluffy, smut optional. maybe they have a modern grand tour or they learn new things about each other ?!?!

smut, Gudao getting his ass tailfucked by Ibuki Douji.

Something with Gawain and Barghest? It doesn't matter if it's platonic or romantic. I just like seeing them together.

Medea x Nyalter, Hurt/Comfort for the soul? "Friendly" kisses perhaps? Sprinkled all over maybe?

smut, Some Beast hatesex between Kiara and Kama, perhaps

smut, Caenis accidentally being the sexiest and most charming being in all of Chaldea and accidentally creating a following of extremely thirsty woman (futa + smut)

ANY/MANY

Can i ask for a little bit of selfcest? Just someone lusting after an alternate version of themself, perhaps?

smut, Just. Any glory hole content. Please.

Either one of the married couples getting absolutely destroyed by their wives but mostly either Ryoma and Oryou or Rama and (someday) Sita

[venus-celestial]

Happy Nesta week everyone as my iPad is currently still broken I won't be able to draw like I had wanted to

But never fear for I shall write instead and add drawings later

So for the first prompt of @nestaarcheronweek Queen of Queens

enjoy this one-shot of a somewhat dark romance nessian Crescent City/Modern AU

Nesta's breath caught slightly as she looked at herself in the mirror she looked so.. different yet so the same it was truly terrifying.

The dress her mate had given her to wear was well beautiful it was a pitch black that faded into sliver and had red accents on the sleeves neckline and middle.

it was a sweetheart neckline (she found it a little less funny then her mate did) with detached sleeves and the dress went almost All the way to her feet stoping a few inches higher.

Of course her mate hadn't only supplyed the dress for her to wear but the the red gemed jewelry she was currently wearing as well as bright and and glowing as his own gemstones he wore.

She thought the ruby choker was a little much considering everyone would be able to see the tattoo on her back but she didn't complain it was pretty as well.

what she didn't really understand was the lack of head accessory her mate usually would provide a headband a pin or some other accessory for her hair or head.

but currently her head remind barren her hair down tonight at his request she wondered if he had somt planned probably it was in his nature.

Ataraxia sat at the side of the vanity as sharp and ready to be used as ever although she rarely used it her mate had said numerous times that she shouldn't have to dirty her pretty hands.

he said things like that a lot that she deserved to not want for anything to not have to do anything she didn't want to that she should be taken care and worshipped.

And taken care of and worshipped she was her mate made sure of it everyone who worked for him knew who she was and how she was to treated with respect and loyalty just like he was.

he absolutely showered her in gifts Ataraxia having been one of them he had said the sword was made specially for her and her magic and when she had given it it's name he had smiled and kissed her breathless.

Gods above was it easy for him to turn her into a non-functioning mess with just a simple kiss or a few words his habit of calling everything about her whether it be her eyes her hands or even her mind pretty would be the death of her.

but gods she loved it how easily he could turn her into a dazed mess in or out of the bedroom how easily he could make her shatter again and again until she couldn't take anything more.

and how gentle he was as he did whispering praise and kind words as he took care of during and after.

Oh but Nesta didn't forget she had the same affect on him as he did her she could ask anything of him and he would do it even get on his knees and worship her like a goddess anything for her his lady his queen.

The door to the bedroom opened and in he came within seconds he was behind her and burying his face in her neck as he liked to do.

"Hello Sweetheart" He said breath tickling her neck and making her shudder "Cassian" She breathed her voice quiet and and high.

Cassian chuckled lowly and nipped lightly at her neck with his teeth leaving his mark on it and making Nesta moan softly.

Her repeated the action and pulled away from her neck looking at her through the mirror "Look at you my beautiful girl" He said his voice low and dark.

Nesta felt her stomach tighten up as he cupped her cheeks with both of his large calloused palms "You are perfection" He said leaning forward placing a small light kiss on her forehead "So very beautiful" He continued his soft whisper making the tiniest shivers run down Nesta's spine "My Nesta" he whispered voice full of adoration.

Nesta breathed in deep inhaling his scent as she leaned into his touch "Your Nesta" She whispered back.

Cassian smiled and placed a hand under her chin turning her towards him tilting her chin so he can gaze into her eyes "You are mine my queen" he whispered his tone soft and deep.

"Yes" Nesta Breathed "And tonight" Cassian Said "Everyone will know it" "Everyone Will know your mine my mate my lady my queen" he said voice low and dark as he spoke

He leaned forward pressing his lips to hers once before pulling away "Shall we go?" He Asked his voice still low "they'll be expecting us" Nesta nodded and Cassian took her hand in his.

They left their room with Nesta trailing behind her mate as he made his way out of their room and down the stairs to the front room of the house.

As they arrived Nesta saw her parents walking in together with a large group of people who were either their friends or strangers she couldn't tell.

Nesta squeezed Cassian's hand in nervousness and he pulled her to his side "It's alright sweetheart" he said voice gentle and calm as he squeezed her hand.

they made their way over to the giant table in the middle of the room where her sisters and their mates already sat Nesta did a once over and paused when she looked at the head of the table

Rhys and Feyre were sat next to each other as expected as where Elain Azriel and Gywn Amren and Mor sat opposite Rhys and Cassian's chair was empty as expected but

But next to Cassians chair was another chair identical to his and as Nesta scanned the table again she realized the chair that usually sat next to Feyre's and was where Nesta would sit was gone.

Nesta swallowed hard her heart beating against her ribs rapidly as she tried to figure out what was going on.

Cassian wrapped an arm around her waist pulling her close to his side protectively "Are you cold my love?"

"No" Nesta said no at the table seemed to find anything amiss but Nesta brain could not figure out what was happening until Cassian lead her right to chair that was identical to his.

Nesta took a deep breath "Who's sitting here?" She asked quietly trying not to be loud enough to alert anyone near by.

Cassian gave her a look that read 'Really?'

Nesta gave him a pout he wasn't being very nice.

Cassian Chuckled darkly at her expression "You are sweet girl" he said Nesta's eyes widen slightly "W-what" she stammered quietly.

She hadn't heard him correctly or he was just joking or something because no way did he just say the seat was for her but no she hadn't heard him wrong his voice was low and rumbling with affection as he told her this.

"This is your seat my Queen" He said kissing the top of her head "Now sit" he leaned down to whisper in her ear "Or do I need to pick you up and put you in it myself" he said.

Nesta squeaked at the idea of such an event and immediately sat down and folded her hands into her lap as her mate took his seat next to her.

Cassian reached over and took her hand and began rubbing it as he started talking to the others at the table Nesta looked over at Feyre and her sister gave her a warm smile.

Nesta smiled back but didn't move her hand she was too busy listening intently to Cassian telling all of them how proud he was and how perfect she looked.

"Thank you" She whispered looking up at him, he gave her a reassuring nod squeezing her hand.

dinner was brought out and everyone bagen eating about an half an hour later later Cassian stood up and declared her has something to announce.

just then an attendant came around the the table and placed a medium sized box in front of Nesta before bowing and walking away.

Nesta looked around table confused and heart going a mile a minute she caught Feyre's eye who was smiling like the cat that got the canary

she looked at her mate then at the box and back to her mate again she was so confused she felt like brain was going to explode trying to figure it out.

Cassian grinned at her "Open it sweetheart" he said Nesta nodded lightly and obeyed opening the wooden box to reveal what was inside

Nesta swears her heart stops as opens it fully a crown there's a crown in the box sat comfortably atop a plush pillow Nesta feels like she's losing it as Cassian comes over takes the crown out and gently puts it atop her head

"Mine" he all but growls when he's finished putting it on her head and placing his hand over her heart "You belong to me now only me now and always and forever and ever and ever"

He said "you belong to me" "I belong to you" He added "Always and Forever"

Nesta Nodded speechless and suddenly Cassian had his sword in hand and she shivered at his next words "You are my Mate My Wife" "But also My queen my equal in every and any way their is" he said voice dark

"You will reign by my side until we take our last breaths" her continued"No one will question your relation to me or your role" his voice dropped and and Nesta shivered "and if they do" He stopped a second longer "Then they are dead." He finished "Dead like those who dared disrespect you by questioning the right of someone who is meant to be by my side"

With that Cassian took her and and Sat back down as everyone at the table started clapping and cheering and chanting his name along with Nesta as he lifted her hand to his lips pressing them to her knuckles

"Nesta" He whispered his voice deep, hot and passionate "my queen."

he smiled down at her as she blushed and bowed her head "You are so beautiful and amazing"

Cassian held her hand tighter

And Nesta realized right then and there that she belonged to this man and he belonged to her and nobody else.

not even the Gods were allowed to have her and she was perfectly ok with that.

I hope you liked it everyone sorry if there are any errors I'm trusting docs spell checking on this so I hope it's okay

Anyway see you all later today for day two

[ladyefoxy]

Daylight was already fading, painting the Illyrian mountains in shades of gold and purple. Nesta remained seated on a log near the cabin, her arms crossed over her knees as her gray eyes scanned the horizon. The stillness around her seemed to amplify the echoes of the girls’ voices, now far down the trail, their words still hanging in the air like a reminder of what had just happened.

She didn’t know how long she had been sitting there, lost in thought. The wind blew softly, carrying the fresh scent of impending snow and the distant sound of hurried footsteps from the Illyrian camp below. Everything seemed normal, like any other afternoon. But something was different.

Delya’s words echoed in her mind, insistent, like a steady drumbeat. “Please train us.” It was more than a request; it was a plea, a visceral need to be seen, heard, taught. And for the first time in a long time, Nesta felt the weight of what it meant to carry the responsibility of hope that was not hers.

She ran her fingers over the hilt of the sword at her side, Ataraxia, feeling the cold familiarity of the metal. The object had become an extension of her, a tool for both protection and destruction, but now it felt heavier. As if its purpose had changed, if only slightly.

The rising wind caught her attention, and she looked up at the mountains ahead. For a moment, the landscape seemed like a painting, untouched and timeless. She knew that somewhere beyond those peaks, other battles were being fought. But here, in this forgotten corner of Prythian, something was beginning. Something small, perhaps insignificant to many, but one that could grow into something much greater.

[gold-onthe-inside]

so, quick fic updates for the rest of this week, hemkarlek will be out on the 5th, hey december on the 6th, ataraxia on the 7th, and tongue-tied on the 8th (summaries are on my masterlist) and all will be out at 5pm IST. i love all the requests i've gotten so far <3

[written-in-the-stars3]

ataraxia

fandom: ensemble stars

characters/pairing: sakuma rei/sakasaki natsume

words: 2,365

summary:

It’s about keeping a calm mind. Surround yourself in an environment that makes you feel at ease.

Something like this? Sitting up on a hilltop, watching the beautiful sight of the town illuminating in the distance. Spending time with the man sitting beside him, taking in his words of comfort and reassurance. Natsume felt at ease. 

Natsume finds himself in a slump trying to learn healing magic. Seeing him struggle, Rei offers to help him clear his mind a little bit

A/N: this is a commission I did for a friend last year and one I am still very proud of. hope you all enjoy!

ataraxia: a state of serene calmness.

‘What gives Sigils their power is the energy and intentions behind them. Keeping a clear and rational mind to enter a state of unconsciousness is vital-’

If only it was easier done than said. Natsume’s eyes scanned the text on the book, his gaze shifting to the Sigil drawn onto a single parchment. He had done everything the book had said, yet it felt like his efforts were wasted. 

Maybe he should have focused on an easier branch of magic— but he was persistent on sticking with this despite Shu reminding him how understudied it was. 

“Keep a clear and rational mind— how the fuck am I suppose to clear it any more than it already is!” 

“It doesn’t sound to me that your mind is all that clear.”

The sudden voice from behind him nearly made him jump out of his skin. “Sh-Shu-niisan!”

Shu could only shake his head, the other boy clearly seemed far too absorbed in despair to even notice him entering the room. He seemed flustered— probably from being called out like that.

“Are you having difficulty with your lesson?” Shu questioned as he looked over Natsume’s shoulder.

“Not at all! I have it all under control.” 

Natsume’s tone lacked surety and confidence which Shu did not seem convinced by— the older man sighed, glancing at the textbook opened on the wooden desk. Ah, right. His new lesson was on healing using Sigils. It wasn’t a branch of magic that Shu practiced but was familiar enough to teach Natsume who had taken interest in it. Undoubtedly it proved to be a challenge, mostly for Natsume but his determination did not die down the slightest bit. As long as he remained determined, Shu was more than willing to keep teaching him.

“We can go over the basics for this together again.” Shu offered, eyes scanning the text on the pages. It was simple enough (easy for him to say) but required patience and focus which might be what Natsume lacked. “But tomorrow. I have some friends coming over so I would suggest you take your studies to your room.”

Shu didn’t have the largest social circle so Natsume knew who those ‘some friends’ would be; Shinkai Kanata, hydromancer. Hibiki Wataru, eclectic. Lastly, Sakuma Rei, hemomancer… probably the reason that Shu requested for Natsume to stay up in his room.

Having deemed Rei to be a distraction, there was never really a moment where Shu would let them be alone. Despite the fact that they got along well and Natsume did not understand why Shu was so adamant on not letting them see each other— there was no doubt that Rei was a kind soul but along with being a mentor, Shu seemed to have taken on a big brother role too. Sometimes it could be a little overbearing but it was easier not to argue against it.

So when there was a knock at the door, Natsume quietly gathered his things to make his way upstairs as Shu went to answer the door. He could hear faint little voices from the doorway, Natsume catching a glimpse of a familiar dark haired man as he made his way up the old spiral staircase.

Sakuma Rei.

An odd but interesting person he was who for some reason seemed to have taken a liking to Natsume. The man in question noticed Natsume at the top of the staircase and gave him a small wave and his usual charming smirk— the redhead hugged the book tighter to his chest, feeling his heart thumping against it as he returned the wave.

Neither could get a verbal greeting out as Shu cleared his throat and nudged Rei to keep walking.

“I am going. No need to burst a blood vessel.” Natsume could hear Rei chuckle as he turned around to make his way over to his bedroom.

Sighing, he placed the book onto the wooden desk. Might as well get some studying done while he was up here. Maybe then he could show Shu that he was more than capable of learning this branch of magic.

☆

Natsume didn’t remember what time it was when he heard a faint little knock on his window. The curtains were down so he couldn’t make out who it was. Cautiously, he tiptoed over, pulling the curtain aside the slightest bit, his eyes going wide at the sight of Rei perched up on a branch just outside of his window.

“You do know that we have a functioning set of stairs and a door, right?” Natsume chuckled softly.

“I am aware, but Shu watches me like a hawk. I do not think it would be possible to sneak past him.” Rei answered with a playful smirk of his own.

“So instead you climbed up to my window? You’re either going to fall and crack your skull open, or Shu-niisan will see you and kill you himself.”

Rei laughed. “If it’s the latter then I most definitely would be a dead man. But if I fall then you can simply heal me. Is that not what you have been learning?”

A soft blush spread across Natsume’s cheeks— it seemed that Rei did notice and pay attention to things he would tell him. “ Trying to learn… Can’t say I am getting anywhere with it.” He sighed softly. “But anyways, did you need something from me?”

It was clear the stress Natsume was under no matter how hard he tried to mask it which was what brought Rei here in the first place. While Shu had his best interest in mind, there was no denying he could be a little too strict whenever it came to Natsume’s studies. 

“Indeed I needed something from you.” Rei answered and held out a hand which Natsume stared at confused. “I was wondering if you would like to accompany me on a little adventure.”

Natsume raised an eyebrow. “An adventure? Shu-niisan will have your head if he finds out about it.”

“Shu doesn’t have to find out, hence the sneaking out of your window.” What was he? A teenager having to sneak out of the house because his parents said he couldn’t see someone? Regardless of that, Natsume seemed almost convinced. “I heard you’ve been having a difficult time focusing. Take it as an opportunity to rejuvenate. There’s a spot I like to go to whenever I want to clear my head. I would love to show you.”

If Shu were to find out he would be seriously pissed at not only Rei but also Natsume— the number of times he had stressed that Natsume could not afford any sort of distraction from the branch of magic he had chosen to practice, he was definitely going to hear it from him later.

There was no denying that Natsume needed a change of scenery. So after thinking it over, Natsume grabbed his satchel, throwing it over his shoulder before resting his foot onto the windowsill, hopping onto the sturdy branch once Rei made some room for him.

“This better be worth it or else I am letting you take all the blame if Shu-niisan finds out about this.”

Chuckling, Rei started descending back down the tree. “I promise I will make it worthwhile.” 

 ☆

They walked for what felt like a half hour— it was a beautiful path, a little further into the forest and away from the town. Natsume had been curious about it ever since he moved to town, but Shu sought no interest in it or in allowing Natsume to explore it (warning him of potential dangers and such). 

The sun had started to set as well, their path getting darker with each passing moment with the exception of the moonlight lighting their way as they started ascending what seems to be a rather steep hill.

It was a bit of a walk and embarrassingly enough, Natsume found himself out of breath by the time they reached the top of the hill— yet all the exhaustion was forgotten the second his eyes fell on the sight in front of him.

The town. Their home. Seeing it in this perspective was an entirely new experience in itself. Everything looked so small, people hidden away and little lamp posts illuminating the little town. A little down the road, he could spot Shu’s home— the lights were on which meant Shu was definitely still awake and around. He wondered if he had noticed his absence.

“Come… take a seat.” Rei patted the spot on the grass beside him, already having made himself comfortable. As Natsume joined him by his side, he turned his attention back to the scenery in front of them. “I like to come here whenever I need to clear my mind. I was hoping that maybe you would find some use for it too.” 

The redhead fell silent as he hugged his knees to his chest. Was it really that obvious how bad he was struggling?

“Mastering any branch of magic does not happen overnight. You know that and so does Shu. I understand he can be a little strict with his tutoring, but he does not expect you to learn it all within the day.”

Arms tightened around his knees as Natsume rested his chin atop them, his gaze shifting back to Rei in wonder. 

“How long did it take you?”

“From when I started until now? Quite some time but even now I am still learning all the things I can do with it.” As he spoke, he reached under his coat to pull out what seemed to be a blade.

Using his teeth, he pulled off the glove covering his left hand— Natsume watching with pink-tinted cheeks as Rei opened the palm of his hand, dragging the blade along it as red liquid seeped through the new wound.

Before Natsume even had the chance to scold him for his actions, the little pool of blood began to glow before shooting up in thin strings of illuminating red, surrounding the two in a spiral— it was blood, yet it looked so beautiful. A bright neon red that one would not anticipate to be something that seeped from a man’s injury.

“Not too long ago I learned that there were even more uses for this power than I thought. I have been practicing this for many years now and even now there is still so much for me to discover.” He closed his eyes, shutting his palm as the spiral around them vanished in what seemed like thin air. Then he reached into his pocket, pulling out a plum handkerchief which he used to dab at the wound. “As you can see, healing is something that I still haven’t learned yet. It truly is very tricky, isn’t it? It's a little bit inconvenient when I want to try something out.”

“Tell me about it… I’ve been trying for a while. Apparently I’m not keeping a clear enough mind, whatever the hell that means.” Natsume sighed softly, eyes on the bloodstained handkerchief— maybe I could try… No, I don’t want to embarrass myself.

Smiling, Rei closed his palm shut to apply some pressure to the wound. “I have said this before, simply the act of clearing your mind can be the most challenging of them all. You want to surround yourself in an environment that makes you feel at ease. I believe it’s about keeping a calm mind. Not a clear mind.”

It’s about keeping a calm mind. Surround yourself in an environment that makes you feel at ease. 

Something like this? Sitting up on a hilltop, watching the beautiful sight of the town illuminating in the distance. Spending time with the man sitting beside him, taking in his words of comfort and reassurance. Natsume felt at ease.

“Can I try something on you?” Natsume asked after a brief silence and when Rei nodded he reached into his satchel, pulling out his Sigil from earlier. “Give me your hand.”

Without a question, Rei placed his wounded palm over Natsume’s extended hand. Taking a deep breath, he placed the Sigil over the wound, holding Rei’s cold hand between his own two.

His eyes fluttered shut— focusing on putting his energy towards the wound. He could feel Rei’s sharp eyes on him, which would have made him nervous… yet, it was oddly calming.

Keep a clear mind.

Keep a clear mind.

No— keep a calm mind.

Warmth spread through Rei’s hand which made Natsume’s eyes snap open. Removing the piece of paper from his palm, he observed the wound— not completely healed but sealed with a faint scar.

“It… worked.” He stared in disbelief, taking Rei’s hands again in a tight hold. “I’ve been trying to do this for ages— you were right! It worked!”

The childlike excitement from a partially successful healing was far too cute. Rei chuckled softly as he retracted his hand from Natsume’s hold, observing the partially healed scar on his palm. 

“Seems like you just needed a little change of scenery. I knew you had it in you.” Rei smiled, flexing his fingers before turning his attention back to Natsume, the younger man looking back at him with the gentlest and most appreciative gaze.

“You helped a lot… I would be hitting my head in my room and considering giving up on learning this shit.” Natsume admitted and turned his attention back to the scenery, his cheeks flushed red as he tried to hide away his embarrassment.

Chuckling softly, Rei shifted his gaze in front of him. “As I said, you had it in you. But I am happy that I could witness this first hand.” He felt Natsume shifting closer to him and quietly rested his head on his shoulder. “Do you want to go back home and show Shu what you can do?”

There was a short silence before Natsume answered. “Can we stay here a little longer?”

Rei smiled. “We could. But won’t Shu get upset given I snuck you out?”

“Mhmm… He probably will.” 

His eyes fluttered shut, his lips curling into a gentle smile. It was like all his stress and anxieties had drifted away and for once felt at ease.

[mealvaan]

Gaudy

“I just wanted to thank you for your hospitality in these past few sennights, so — here,” says Vahri’a, and he hands Mana regalia in a burlap pouch.

Trapped within the bijoux is the last sunset over a La Noscean shore. The deep rouge of the Warden’s blush trickles into the bottlegreen of the ocean. What little light the Lover has captured hits just upon the crest of a wave, and then there is nothing. Each slight twist of her index and forefinger exhibits another wave in the tide, another facet cut into the magnificent jewel.

Mana had never heard of the Crescent Children, but she finds herself daydreaming of what their matriarch must look like in accordance with the premium quality of her craft. She imagines a wizened old sort, years Ahxe’s senior, whose calloused hands boast years of nicks and cuts that bear no threat, for each is merely one in a myriad. Whenever she tries to imagine a matriarch, she cannot help but invoke the image of the Mother Moon — skin cast in the hue of midnight, punctured by pinpricks of starlight freckles, and silken white hair enveloping her whole self. 

The matriarch probably doesn’t look like that, she decides. She holds up the jewelry to the pointed tip of her ear, attempting to catch a glimpse of something so far from her peripheral reach. Inexplicably, her ears wilt not long after. 

“I appreciate the gift, Vahri’a. I’m sure your contact in the Crescent Children worked tirelessly to create such a masterpiece. She’ll be relieved to receive it once again unscathed!”

“Um… what do you mean?”

“As much as I would like to dress myself with such a beautiful ornament,” Mana says, eyes resting softly upon the tip of her nose rather than meeting his gaze. “I fear it wouldn’t be polite to wear such a thing.”

“Ahxe, Aila and Mholi all adorn such things. You deserve them just as well, don’t you?”

“They are titlebearers and lorekeepers. Those gifts were provided for anniversaries and their childrens’ namedays. But I…” Mana nervously wrings her hands, attempting to keep her placid smile upon her face. “You’ve learned of our clan’s history with metalworks, or our lack of, yes?”

“Mhm…”

“Then, you know that such things are a luxury for us, and we can’t make much room for luxury nowadays. I’m really, really sorry. I just think — it would be better for you, if you were to return this and purchase something for Ataraxia as a whole. Perhaps a centerpiece for the Heart! That could be novel and lift plenty of spirits!”

Vahri’a finally takes the earrings. Thick silence permeates the air as he realizes the gravity of his request — and the embarrassing position he must’ve put his cousin in. For his own ignorance, no less.

“You’re right. Sorry, Mana.”

“There’s nothing to be sorry for!” she assures. “Really, I’m grateful. Perhaps in the future, we’ll strike gold quite literally, but for now I appreciate the sentiment.”

Mana hurries back to the Siltanho house to prepare dinner for the returning hunting band. She sings while she cooks, her mind waltzing to the song — imagining a matriarch with midnight skin, but possessing deep obsidian locks, and with sunsets for eyes.

[dailyfatefigures]

Fate/Hollow Ataraxia Figure Collection Vol. 2 - Issei Ryuudou by Toy's Planning

[uponawhitehorse13]

What Fate characters do you plan on writing for? Also are you going to add any new fandoms soon?

Ok so regarding Fate/Stay Night other than the characters I've written for I have to do Sakura when I finally finish Heaven's Feel and Medusa. I may have to see if I'll delay Medusa to after I've played at least a bit of Hollow Ataraxia just to get a bit more familiar with her character.

I may not take requests for Archer and keep the alphabet as a one off thing. Small chance I do one for Lancer though.

Regarding other Fate media other than Medusa there are other characters in Hollow Ataraxia that I might write for like Bazett and Caren. Luvia is also a popular character but doesn't seem that deep so I might end up skipping her. Almost done watching Zero but there isn't really anyone to write about there. I am planning on playing EXTRA and CCC after I finish the VNs. Due to the way routes work in those games I might write only for Nero and not Tamamo since she doesn't seem that interesting. I will be writing for the Sakurafaces especially for Passionlip since a friend of mine is a big enjoyer of her story arc.

New fandoms are a bit harder of a question. I am seemingly picky about choosing fandoms to write for. This is more a consequence of the way I approach my posts as character analysis instead of fantasy fulfilment. I often see writing for really shallow characters which ends up just looking like a person projecting their fantasy onto an attractive shell. The worst example of this is those posts that are a blurb that lists a bunch of characters below it. I also care a lot about being accurate to a character because I find it pointless to write things that are ooc. If you don't write for a character as they are just don't write for them at all. Make an oc or something. I'm not looking through fanfiction just to read someone playing dolls.

Another thing is that as strange as it may seem I'm not a big fan of anime. The only anime I could confidently say I like and think is good is Jin-Roh. Other ones I've seen are either disappointing or just too weird with too little justification for it. As such the only thing I've considered doing is a one off Kill la Kill post. I've also watched RWBY almost twice but that show sucks. Small chance for some Yu-Gi-Oh posts since that show really knows how to set up a great character and then just completely piss on everything they did and set it on fire.

With videogames I'm mostly a shooter guy so there isn't much to write about. Like I have seen people write for Halo and Payday but that just feeds into my point about shallow characters. Similar situation with fighting games. Other than Blazblue while I know enough about both Under Night and Guilty Gear I don't see much fun stuff to write about. I do have some jrpgs that could have interesting characters to write for but I would need to finish them. Digital Devil Saga has really interesting concepts but there may not be much to write about with the characters. I also have Tales of Berseria but it's kinda boring and I probably won't finish it. I am pretty familiar with Persona but I don't like it that much and there's more than enough writers for it. One of my friends did recommend a VN called Katawa Shoujo recently and that honestly has the biggest chance of getting added as a new fandom.

I won't be writing for any live action stuff since I'm not interested in anything that way and it would feel a bit weird to write for. Same goes for real person fiction since that is honestly just really fucking gross.

Anyways if you there are any fandoms you want me to write for you're always free to ask anyways. You'll never get something you want if you don't ask for it.

[nasuversekinkmeme]

Weekly Roundup: Prompt Reminders

FSN

incest tw, requesting some Saber/Morgan pining

I humbly ask for Saber to have facial hair as lustrous and sexy as your icon does. Need me more bearded women.

Medusa/Saber? They have a funny dynamic in hollow ataraxia...

FGO

Prompt: Anything with my boy Asterios. I barely see any content for him :<

ANY

This anon asks for some body horror. I want to see a character of your choice getting absolutely FUCKED up. Be it subtle (a skin that feels like an eel rather than a human,) big (Cu Chulainn in full warp spasm,) voluntary shapeshifting or the result of an imposed curse, I want HORROR! I want these bitches being UNSETTLING TO LOOK AT!!

Here's my prompt: a character of your choice coming to terms with being queer (whatever shade of queer you choose it to be.) Can be a heroic spirit being exposed to modern times, can be a modern day character meeting a heroic spirit from a culture that didn't give a shit, can be Rin dealing with the fact that she fucked a girl, up to you! I'd rather if they could be a bit in denial at least at first, rather than just a straightforward "oh ok i'm queer no big deal" story.

My prompt is... kink discovery! A character of your choice discovers they have an unusual kink. The fill could be on how they discovered it, or how they deal with their newly discovered fetish, or stuff like that! God wild!