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almondpiglet · 1 month ago

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HAPPY BIRTHDAY DEAREST REIGEN!!

everyone thanks you for entering their lives :')

#i like making reigen sob his ass off... hes an ugly crier for sure #the balloons were each drawn by the three of them tee hee #dont think i have to say this but plz dont...tag *yknow what ship* ...not trying to spark a fire im a bit worried of ppl misinterpreting?#mob is very dear to reigen their bond is extraordinary... i feel like a peck on the cheek would be normal to them yknow what i mean #i dont see them necessarily as father and son but more like brothers/cousins/family friends... but more complex i suppose #the point is that they saved each other so a kiss on the cheek as a thank you would make sense!#also once again this looks like serirei art but it isnt... im not capable of making them not look gay am i... good god im a mess!#im just glad i finished something for his bday i wouldve kicked the shit outta myself for missing it #actually i did a bit of the reigenweek prompts let me finish some of those... i got the reigen bug lately and draw him lots :)#my art #mp100 #mob psycho 100 #reigen arataka #shigeo kageyama #serizawa katsuya #ekubo

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tiny-merkitty · 6 months ago

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"impure regression" it's therapy, impurity came free with your xbox

#while there isnt a right or wrong way to experience age regression #i will say it defeats the purpose if youre not allowing yourself to feel negative emotions #youre nurturing a safe space for yourself!!! you can be sad or angry. sob throw a fit be sensitive over meaningless things thats the point #regardless of if its a trauma response or a way to destress #if its involuntary or not #its for you. you should feel comfortable #idk i just despise the phrases pure and impure regression #i think people fail to recognize that most people experience age regression #“healing my inner child by buying a barbie i wanted when i was 8”#“making myself feel content by caring for my children the way i wouldve wanted to be”#“my hair got messed up today and suddenly i was 14 again”#“i drank a coke for the first time in years and felt like i was 23 again”#like age regression is such #a normal thing #whether its utilized as therapy or not #i feel like things like agereblr and ageregram or whatever have like #dilluted what it means? i guess #i dont know im yapping #merkitty babbles #sfw interaction only #age regression #inner child healing #sfw agere #agere #safe agere #sfw #age dreaming #agedre

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dootznbootz · 11 months ago

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I'm going feral again with a silly headcanon.

I just had that post on how Odysseus made Puzzles for himself and Penelope and I have another idea and I'm just really excited to share it lksdjf

I basically plan to have this man in love with Penelope within 10 mins (I HAVE A PLAN! It sounds crazy but I think it'll work. Plus these two are reckless and young when married. His first crush and he's not handling it well.)

This is them. Or at the very least Penelope is definitely playing it off very nonchalantly and is kind of messing around at first, thinking that the "trickster" is "not being genuine" when he's never been more genuine in his life. She can see right through all his lies and bullshit and basically forces him to be vulnerable, something he loves yet is TERRIFIED of. Especially as she "unmasked" him so quickly (and tricked HIM.😉 Won't say how. no spoilers yet) and so effortlessly and he's just a MESS. Athena isn't helping and just watches them both fumble around, even when Odysseus is asking for some guidance, Athena just smiles and is all like "I'm the Goddess of Wisdom, not of Love. Figure it out yourself." (PENELOPE IS JUST AS MUCH OF A BLORBO TO HER AS ODYSSEUS IS, YOU COWARDS!)

(Art by isei-silva right here on tumblr! Their post! )

I won't go into huge details. I WILL write this fic someday and I need to leave SOME things a surprise. But KNOW this man will be pulling out all the stops trying to impress her and tries to show all the things he's good at and one will be his "puzzle making".

He'll bring a puzzle to her TRYING to talk all "suave" (he'll be semi-tongue tied. Something that he's not used to and is annoyed that he can't seem to think around her)

It'll probably have a little gift inside and he'll be chatting away about how he worked hard to make it and that there's a trick to it and blah blah blah

Penelope: Oh! There's (some sort of treat or gift) inside!

Odysseus: Wait, you solved it already?

Penelope,🤨: Yes. All you have to do is this.

Odysseus, falling (more like sprinting at this point) further in love but also mad his plan to woo her didn't work: Well... Yeah. That's a gift for you.

He's trying SOOOO hard but he has to stop "showboating" to genuinely impress her. Man has to be fucking vulnerable for her to be impressed by him because she already can read his "tells" on when he's pulling something. No more "tricks". Be yourself, you fucking idiot >:D

#uygfidhsojhf I revealed a LOT already but I just??? I really love writing this man being a fucking mess and not knowing what to do #for once in his life. The man who “always has a plan” now DOESN'T know what to do and he's all feelings right now.#And Penelope has no time for tricks (unless she's the one pulling one). They've both met their match (in practically everything. Likeminded #remember?) and they're both excited and scared because #I'm a trickster. He/She is just like me. I desperately want this to be real but I know how good I am at tricking people. What if this is a #lie?“ BOTH have to stop ”tricking“ in order to truly bond. And then I get into the nitty gritty >:D #Like how Odysseus has to be vulnerable and sob about their bed to get her to believe it's him. They did the same in their youth.#It's a PATTERN for them at this point.#I love making this man simp and her realizing that this “trickster” IS genuine. This man actually loves her and that there's no “game”.#then it's HER turn to be a mess >:D #odypen #Mad rambles #shot by odysseus #my headcanons #Hi. I'm vibrating from excitement and I don't know what to do.

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carnivalcarriondiscarded · 1 year ago

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ohhhhmygod im gonna be sick. actually nauseous and i did it to myself - there was a spider on the countertop and i Panicked, grabbing the first distance-killer i could grab. it was a grease cleaner spray. i buried it in the stuff, walked away to recover mentally, came back

it fucking fell apart and dissolved into the cleaner. i both feel horrible and im disgusted beyond words. how the fuck do i get rid of it

#slamming my face into a wall repeatedly #i cant leave it there to deal with after Sleep #bc my cats like to go onto the countertops when no one is looking #and i dont want either of them to get poisoned #but i cant rinse it into the sink with the faucet hose bc there's stuff in the sink #but idk if i can bring myself to do dishes with That next to me #and my fear of spiders is so intense that i Cannot get close enough to take care of it with a towel or somethin #im very good at fucking myself over in various ways!#if i had an appetite id lose it. permanently #what if! instead of dealing with it! i curl up in a corner and cry #except im not gonna do that ive filled my tears quota for the year & doing nothing wont help anything #sorry for venting again i just. ohhhhh this is horrible this is Terrible #if i still had my whacking stick id tape a big wad of paper towels to the end and clean the mess up that way #from a Distance!#absolutely unprompted #i wish i wasnt so terrified of spiders #they scare me So much....#the point of feeling physically ill! and like sobbing! or panicking! and this spider was Big!#i wish they'd stop coming into the house.... i hate killing them but i cant function knowing theyre there #but i can't force myself close enough to put them in a cup and bring them outside #so now i have THAT on my counter. disintegrated spider.#life is too fucking much lately... jesus.... i should really just bite the bullet and get this shit over with #no use waiting a month in perpetual terror unease and guilt. do it scared yk yk #im tired of my chest hurting and not being able to eat! i dont like it! i need change! terrifying horrible change!

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averlym · 1 year ago

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"bad decisions, that's alright; look, i'm still alive"

#&juliet #if you saw the old version of this... no you didn't #anyway. &j posting now... made this into what i like to call a public transport wip #in which painting on phone with fingers commences! usually it happens to doodles that get coloured and i want to clean up #idk about the colours here though... that said it's a livable error #smth smth reminders to not feel so scared... many many paths.#be less afraid of messing up? just live life? many many paths #one of my key takeaways from this show was along those lines #sobs.. if that isn't the premise of the musical huh? juliet is so young and has her whole life ahead to live...#still so much ahead of her- so what if she Didn't kill herself?#<holds tightly> many routes. many routes. i am young and have my life yet to be lived.#also this comes from the joint bit near the end where angelique sings to juliet #!! also just realised that the nurse and juliet's hairstyles parallel each other... such a cute detail..#// sometimes the stuff i make is really just because the themes resonate at this specific point in life..#i think it's getting more self-specific! tbh every time i catch myself creating for Myself specifically i go <333

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cybernightart · 1 year ago

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Gency stuff!

How I imagine a proposal would go

I think it would be really funny it's almost no one knew that Angela and Genji were a couple until they were engaged. People like Cassidy, Lena, rein, (once they joined OverWatch) kiriko and Hanzo would have known and would have known about Genji planning on proposing. But everyone else either never noticed because they weren't very obvious about it, like they didn't do much PDA, and their version of flirting when I'm front of people could easily be mistaken for making fun of each other. Or because they just never picked up on it at all.

Genji probably planned a whole dinner at a restaurant and a whole romantic thing but either in the middle of the dinner right before he was about to ask or right before they left for the dinner and emergency happens and theyre call out to a mission. And once they successfully neutralize the threat and their back on the ship surrounded by their teammates/friends, after Cassidy says something about feeling bad for them that their plans didn't end up happening/got ruined. Genji just goes "you know what screw it", took off his helmet, and proceeds to get down on one knee in front of Angela and give a mini speech proposal that he learned in German just to make it more special(Rein found out genji's plans because he asked if he could help Genji learn to say what he wanted to say I'm German). Angela says yes (even though it was hard to make out through the ugly sobbing) and full on kissed genji as he picks her up and does a cute little spin thing, with everyone on the ship either cheering and celebrating or being in total confusion and shock because they didn't even know the two were together to begin with. So half of them are just jaw dropped, happy but jaw dropped.

For an added little extra bit of drama, Pharah had no idea Genji and mercy were thing and had been a thing for ages now, Angela never told her. And it clicks why mercy did not reciprocate feelings, but still in just such shock that she wasn't told and this is how she found out. She just kind of frozen in place staring blankly at the two with her mouth hanging open.

And back to happy happy, after Genji said screw it Cassidy realized what he was about to do and pulled out his phone or got Lena to pull out hers and made sure to record everything for them.

Additionally this was one of the first times a majority of people in that room had seen genji's face, obviously Hanzo and kiriko had seen his face before same with Angela. But even Cassidy hadnt fully seen his face, as even when in black watch they worked really closely together, if Genji wasn't wearing his metal mask he was still wearing like a surgical mask or something. All the old OverWatch members had only really seen his eyes ,excluding Angela, so with shocking for them but not as much as all the newbies. this was the first time seeing his face at all, haven't even seen his eyes at this point,so it was extra shocking.

#gency #overwatch #genji #overwatch 2 #genji shimada #mercy #angela ziegler #cole cassidy #proposal #they are so cute #Angela's just happy crying so hard that all of her words are a slurred mumbled mess #and Genji doesn't fully understand at first if she's saying yes until she kisses him #he just assumes that's a yes #even makes a joke about it after saying so I assume that's a yes?#does Angela still sobbing just starts nodding #Genji would be holding back tears as well at this point #like he doesn't cry much because of the whole ninja thing he was kind of made to repress his emotions #but in that moment it felt like getting hit by a truck of emotions and he is trying so hard not to ball his eyes out

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dangoulains-devotion · 8 months ago

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thinking just a bit too hard about how the added depth given to tifa and aerith's friendship only increases the weight threatening to crush tifa after the forgotten capital, she already had so much to carry on her weary shoulders, she's going to have to carry even more when mideel happens, and it doesn't even stop after meteorfall, ohg od oh i love her so much i

#(sobbing and crying and snotting everywhere) AERITH GAVE HER SOMEONE TO CONFIDE IN ON SUCH A TUMULTUOUS JOURNEY #SOMEONE SHE COULD BE AS CLOSE TO FULLY RELAXED AS POSSIBLE #SOMEONE TO GOSSIP WITH OR SHARE HER CONCERNS OR JUST. BE A NORMAL GIRL WITH #YUFFIE'S THERE BUT SHE'S JUST A KID AND TIFA WOULD NEVER WANT TO HARM THE AIR OF CAREFREE CHILDISHNESS SHE MANAGES TO MAINTAIN EVEN IF #ITS BECAUSE YUFFIE IS HIDING THINGS THAT ARE CRUSHING HER #but poor tifa . gentle tifa. is now left to regret. to blame herself.#she has barret who acts like a father figure to her sure - but despite how much she cares about him and values her frienship with him #he's not aerith. he's not someone she can just gossip about first loves with. not someone she can fully Relate to. if you get what i mean #she is left to trace back the thread of how poor aerith got caught in this mess #she was the one to ask aerith to save marlene. but how did they get there? aerith refused to let cloud be a bystander in wall market #how did that happen? she made a risky choice that put her in a position where their paths crossed. why? because cloud was briefly lost #during the bombing mission. why did the bombing mission happen? she couldn't stop it. ETC ETC #NONE OF IT WAS HER FAULT... BUT SHE NEVER WANTED TO DRAG INNOCENT PEOPLE INTO THIS AT ANY SINGLE POINT #AND NOW SOMEONE WHO QUICKLY BECAME A CLOSE FRIEND IS GONE oh lord my heart #all of this added onto the things like how alone she was in nibelheim... it was just her and her dad for some years after the boys all left #and then the Incident happens and she loses that last person she had... and to an extent another she didn't even know was right there(cloud #god i could talk about her and how she has suffered more than jesus for ages (happy easter. lmao)#FF7 Rebirth spoilers #just in case?? for anyone who's only playing the remakes i guess. since this was basically already there the remakes just elaborate on it #i think about 'we found you!' 'i guess you did!' SO OFTEN #these two girls mean the world to me and i will not let you reduce them to love interest rivals #when tifa ran over to aerith's body i think everyone in the world heard my heart shattering into dust #these thoughts are a bit disjointed and don't articulate well what i mean but god. god. i am thinking about her today

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billpottsismygf · 1 month ago

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#psyching myself up to try and watch the new series of heartstopper #I don't make a lot of personal posts these days and it feels easier to talk about this in the tags for some reason now - like I'm whisperin #but series 2 absolutely wrecked me in a way that is not entirely healthy #isaac's storyline is just a bit too close to home for me and I became a bawling mess every single time he was on screen #and not in a cathartic way. in a like I am dredging up the trauma of growing up aroace without having fully come to terms with it yet way.#I've come such a long way with slowly starting to feel pride in being aroace even in just the last few months #that I wondered if I'd actually be fine with it this time. I even considered rewatching s2 in preparation. turns out I'm not fine.#I watched a recap of s2 to try and remember what happened and uhhhh that clip of isaac rejecting that love interest in the bookshop #(with the novel loveless blurry in the background) has already brought up emotions.#then I thought I'd scroll some spoilers in his character tag just to prepare myself for what would happen with him this season #and just reading posts (mild spoilers here) about him being proudly aroace have sent me into paroxysms of sobbing yet again so....#I've honestly come such a long way in the last few years and the last few months. I'm even talking about it on tumblr now.#but I guess most of my work on that front has been accepting the present and the future of not having or wanting a partner.#whereas there's still a lifetime of trauma from the way it made me feel in the past #both growing up feeling alienated and having no idea what was different about me and the extent to which I tried to make it not be true #for years after first having an inkling of it being a possibility. I would have done anything to make myself alloromantic.#(the realisation of asexuality came later and was more of a 'huh I guess that makes sense' thing lol)#and even though I no longer want to change this fact about who I am #I guess I'm more traumatised by it all than I consciously realised. genuinely thought I'd be fine at this point.#anyway ramble over. I'm actually not sure if I should watch the new season or not. will it be helpful to work through the emotions?#or just re-traumatise me? felt more like the latter last time so hmmm.#guess I'm going to have to think about it.#it feels ridiculous that such a fluffy show - in which the character in question is pretty minor - should provoke such a reaction #but there you go #mine #tag chat #personal

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bootyful-seventeen · 1 year ago

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i am too mentally exhausted to even deal with this shit anymore with my mom and grandma and low key wish i'd go comatose for a few years to be left alone tbh