#at least to me!!! this is all an opinion thing

[dwaekkicidal]

Nonsexual Dominance with SKZ

wc» 1.1k

cw» gender neutral, d/s dynamics, dom!skz & sub!reader, trad!minho, sfw but some people might see some things as controlling or toxic- it's not meant to be and this is based off a MUTUAL agreement + set boundaries. if you dont like dont interact <3

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𝙱𝚊𝚗𝚐 𝙲𝚑𝚊𝚗

Makes you send him food pics regularly. On days where you genuinely don't want to, he won't push it, but for the most part he enforces it and will be upset if you don't send a pic. And this is only really because it means you didn't eat.

He loves it not only for the obvious reason of watching over you even when he's not around, but also because it reminds him to also eat. All those hours in the studio blur and it's only a matter of time before he completely loses track of time- but you and your meals are there to remind him :)

𝙻𝚎𝚎 𝙺𝚗𝚘𝚠

Ok hear me out, traditional husband!minho... If you don't want it, he won't push it but it works so well,,, If it's far enough into the relationship that the trust comes naturally, he'd sit you down to discuss your opinions on you staying at home all day and quitting your job and putting all the financial burden on him- because he wants that responsibility. He wants to take care of you so extremely.

The pleasure dom in him comes out specifically outside of the bedroom. He absolutely loves cooking for you and spoiling you with extravagant dinners & expensive gifts, and he loves just holding you close just because he can, but he expects you to do everything else in the house- or at least most of it. While he's willing to compromise certain chores, he wants to come home to the house being clean and clothes being washed and all that.

But he always makes it worth your while and spoils you rotten :( Cuddles you until you're absolutely sick of him (not) and tries to take you out on regular dates to spoil you (like while shopping at the mall or taking you out to a nice dinner)

𝙲𝚑𝚊𝚗𝚐𝚋𝚒𝚗

Might sound kind of weird but hear me out- him telling you "no." I think Chris is one that would love to do this but has NO self control and therefore can't bring himself to unless he absolutely has to lol. But Changbin thrives off of it.

Don't get him wrong- he looves to spoil you. But he also loves that little spark in your eyes when you bat your eyelashes at him so prettily and ask him for something- only for you to get a gentle but firm "no" that makes your bottom lip puff out. & It's not that he doesn't want you to have whatever this thing is, it's more so that he knows there's a limit to being spoiled and no matter how much he loves you, you both need an occasional humbling- and he feels like you both could use a soft reminder of who let who have all the control

He'll always make up for it with sweet kisses and maybe a little tickling to make your pout go away, but his chest puffs out a little every time he gets to tell you "no"

𝙷𝚢𝚞𝚗𝚓𝚒𝚗

Is the kind to having his hand on your body at all times, if you're more than an arms length away from him you'll be getting a certain look that discreetly reads "Get over here now." Sometimes will even curl his finger up in your direction- doesn't care if somebody is watching or even if he's in the middle of talking/an important conversation

He just likes to have you close, and he knows he needs that mental grounding that you offer more often than not. He's just confident about needing it, so he's not afraid to show everybody how much he loves you and needs you by his side

That being said, he will lead you around malls, museums, grocery stores, or hell even the other boy's apartments all with his hand either intertwined with yours or on some part of your body (usually your lower back) that lets him guide you around.

𝙷𝚊𝚗

He felt a little awkward at first bringing this up to you, but now that it's become a regular part of your routine, he lives for these moments: he loves when you sit pretty on his lap and shave his face for him. It's gotten to the point where he will refuse to shave himself at all for weeks on end if you aren't able to do it for him.

It makes him feel a bit more dominant than it should? considering he will see you have free time and point out that he needs a shave- which usually has you dropping everything to go do it for him. But he also sees it as him being loyal to you and you having an equal amount of "control" on his life. (Also you will catch him dead before you catch him complaining about his lover sitting in his lap for any amount of time lol)

Generally just domestic little acts of service that let him "command" you while also letting you have control over his life (that's really only obvious to you two, but that's more than enough for him)

𝙵𝚎𝚕𝚒𝚡

Doesn't realize he likes it right away, but he loves to talk for you with strangers. He loves to order your food for you, order your coffee for you (sometimes even mobile ordering it so you don't have to talk to people if he's not available), carrying your clothes for you while you shop and being the one talking at the cash register- stuff like that.

Not only does this scratch that little dom itch in the back of his head because he's taking care of you while still being in "charge", but it also allows him to spoil the hell out of you with you knowing how much money he's spending on you lol. You get to sit pretty at his side and look at/play with the little trinkets by the register while he drops literal hundreds on you with a smile on his face.

𝚂𝚎𝚞𝚗𝚐𝚖𝚒𝚗

Sorry not sorry but he loves his non sexual punishments. No matter what you do in or out of the bedroom, he can and will find a way to punish you for it without having to lay a finger on you.

One of his favorites is making you write a sentence down over and over again. Kinda cliché "teacher" punishment but it usually gets his point across and prevents you from acting out (for like a week max lol). If he's particularly annoyed at you/frustrated he will make you write it in Korean & wont translate it for you more than once lol.

Another one he really likes is making you kneel on the floor instead of on the couch. He's not really huge on forbidding you from watching tv unless you want him to go that far, but you're not gonna be allowed to sit on the soft, comfy couch- you're gonna be kneeling on the floor, most likely by his leg so you can still cuddle up to him (he'll grant you a small pillow if it's a longer punishment)

𝙸.𝙽

Jeongin loves picking your outfits and your accessories for you. He's not usually too dominant out of the bedroom otherwise, and it's very rare that he is, but this is the main way he is.

Even before you two lived together, he would text you a grossly sweet good morning message and would include a comment about how you should send him a few outfits for him to choose from you to wear. But now that you guys are living together, he takes it upon himself to pick out an outfit for you while you're still in bed or in the bathroom waking up.

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[birdielikesbatfam]

okay, as much as I absolutely love what they're doing with Damian and making him quit being Robin to become a doctor, there's a sneaking suspicion that DC isn't actually going to go through with it.

Batman needs a Robin (at least according to DC, not sure how much I share that opinion as of how things are in the comics rn but that's an entirely separate post) and there isn't anyone else lined up. Personally, I think that the Batfamily is getting a bit crowded anyway, and DC doesn't even work with a good half of the characters that are in it anyway (Duke Cass and Steph you will always be famous to me).

There's also the fact that DC can't commit to anything anymore. Tim became his own superhero? No, he's back to being Robin. Barbara was permanently paralyzed and has developed her own identity and skill set as Oracle? No, she got better and is Batgirl again. Literally half of the Batfamily dies? They're all fine in the literal next issue. See what I mean?

I'm calling it right now that, especially since they don't have a new Robin lined up and ready to take the spot, there is absolutely no way that they're gonna let Damian actually quit being Robin. He's going to quit for like a week before something happens that either forces him or makes him want to become Robin again and everything will be reversed and back to the way that it was.

(or, if they actually do commit to it, MAKE TIM QUIT WITH HIM ARGHHHHH HES BEEN ROBIN FOR LITERAL DECADES AT THIS POINT LET THE MAN REST/COMMIT TO A NEW IDENTITY)

[bdbueckers]

trust me? | p.b

pairing: paige bueckers x fem!reader

warnings: smut, fluff, sub!paige, soft dom!reader, sex toy usage, spit, slight tribbing, fingering, overstimulation(?), i think that’s all but feel free to lmk if i missed anything!

wc: 4.4k (pwp)

summary: reader wants to try something new with paige after an impromptu trip to the sex store. based on this request!

author's note: i couldn't finish up the fic that i wanted to upload for valentine's day so we're scrapping it for now and ima leave y'all with this! it's different for me to write sub!paige but i think i like how it came out and maybe i'll get more into it for future posts! once again, thank you to the anon that sent this request, hopefully you enjoy it a little more than everyone else! (ngl i didn’t really proofread this so we’re giving it to god…and as always if you hate it idc DON’T tell me)

also that uconn vs south carolina game has given me the serotonin boost needed to carry me through this month AND march, they make me so proud😭 y’all better be tuned in for the game tonight vs seton hall :) i’m manifesting more pg paige and some beautiful uconn hoops!

okay sorry i’m done talking, enjoy! x

nervous was an understatement. how do you bring up the idea of topping your girlfriend…to her? considering you hadn’t thought about how to do so prior to this moment, the nerves seemed normal.

you took a spontaneous trip to your favorite sex shop without telling paige and you blacked out when you got inside, overwhelmed by all the options without your girlfriend by your side to give you her opinion. 

immediately once you had eyes on it you’d settled for a dual bullet vibrator, paired with a remote. the thought of paige using it on you immediately causes you to hold your breath a little. but the thought of you using it on her had you b-lining to the register and giddy and running up the stairs at home to hide it while she was asleep on the couch.

after some pondering, you’d figured it would be a little too easy to ask. it was essentially a yes or no question, and she’d honestly answer in a heartbeat, but you wanted to ensure that she’d be at your mercy.

you settled on the idea of a nice candlelit dinner for the both of you to butter her up. then you’d “pop the question”. 

you were back out of the house as soon as you’d returned, texting paige that you were heading out for some groceries, tucking the “gift” away.

by the time you were back she was wide awake and pretty tuned in to whatever she had playing on the tv. she heard you coming in the door and met you there to greet you sweetly and take any bags from your hands. she sets them down on the counter and starts to reach in, almost too fast for you to remember that she was supposed to be hands off and out of the kitchen for tonight.

“noo, wait let me do it! i wanna cook dinner for you so i’ll put things away.“

“cook for me? baby, what’s the occasion? literally we just celebrated valentine’s day.” okay, so she was already asking you questions.

“shh, no occasion. i just love you and i want to practice making some things. then i’ll be cooking for you all the time instead of…almost never” you respond in a rush, sort of frowning at the last part but still prying her hands off the bags and lightly pushing her out of the kitchen.

you can hear her muttering under her breath but nonetheless she turns on her heels to press a kiss to your lips and whisper a quick “missed you” before turning back around to leave.

your heart swells in your chest at the thought of how sweet she is to you while you put away everything and set out what you were gonna make.

you wanted to get a little fixed up, or at least out of one pair of sweatpants and into another. slipping past paige, who was once again focused on the tv, you headed upstairs. 

after putting on the smallest bit of makeup and fiddling with your hair you grin at your reflection in the mirror. the thought of getting pretty for your girlfriend enough to make your stomach jump. you throw on a pair of loose fitting pants and one of your teenier tops. you’d even saved up to buy another overpriced lingerie set and you had it on underneath, intending for p to see you in it and immediately want it off.

paige walks into the bathroom ready to shower and stops directly behind you in the mirror, letting out a small noise of shock. 

“all this for me? okay now i really need to know what’s going on.” she questions, now standing so close that you could feel her body heat on your back.

“nothing is going on! i told you i wanted to cook for you tonight, can’t i look good while doing it?” you reply, holding eye contact with her in the mirror and ending your sentence with a mini eye roll.

she lifts a hand from her side and places it right underneath your bust, slightly on your ribs, pulling you even further into her.

“you always look good for me baby, but i’ll let you have this.” she teases, kissing your temple and continuing her stride to the shower.

as soon as she was facing away from you, you were staring hard. watching the muscles in her back strain against her shirt when she reached for a towel, you trailed your eyes up and down her frame.

you wish you had her underneath you right now.

stopping yourself you huff slightly and make your way down to the kitchen to get started on dinner. you get in with the “harder” more time consuming parts first so you could focus and shortly the whole process starts to breeze by. 

everything thus far was perfect, especially for a meal that didn’t technically require a recipe.

you hear the water of the shower shut off and a few other noises upstairs. this allows you to anticipate paige emerging from your shared bedroom and getting a whiff of the home cooked meal, immediately on track to fold for you like you needed. 

when she does make her way into the kitchen you’re standing over a cutting board gathering some stuff to chop.

“it smells so good in here baby, oh my god” you hear paige from behind you. then you feel her. hands gravitating to your hips as always and she gently places her chin on your shoulder, her front molding to your back.

“i’m just making a lil something…since i was finally given some time to put some groceries in the fridge. we’re gonna eat something home cooked and actually fulfilling tonight, no fast food, no take out. made with lots of love.” you say, a smile plastered on your face at the domestic feel of this entire moment.

just you and the prettiest girl in the world, standing in your shared living space while you prepared dinner as a way to treat yourselves. 

“i don’t even know what you’re making and i’m drooling over it, guess you’ve still got your touch.” she teases, nudging your cheek with her nose and leaving a light smack on your ass.

“STILL? get out of the kitchen.” you respond, stifling a laugh of your own at how ridiculous she was. “it’s almost done and i’ve already set the table, maybe pour yourself a glass of wine and get out of my way?”

“yes ma’am.” she snorts, holding her hands up in fake defense and shaking her head a little.

you quickly plate everything, mentally saving yourself a pat on the back for how good it truly did look.

sneaking a peek into the dining room you see paige on her phone, eyes low and cheeks already a little rosy as a result of her now finished glasses of wine.

“hey pretty girl, dinner is ready!” you call out, assuming she’d want to carry your plates to the table as she always did.

her lips form an “o” as she locks eyes with the food on the counter and then her eyes pan over to you. if looks could talk her eyes would definitely be confessing their love to you right now. 

feeling shy under her gaze you shake your head and go in for a hug, slightly nuzzling into her chest. you pull back, tilt your head up, and she’s already looking back at you. you both pull back cheesing, not needing to say much.

“babe this is a little too much, you didn’t have to– wait, are you tryna butter me up?” paige breaks the silence.

“butter you up? mmm, maybe…but that doesn’t mean i didn’t want to cook for you. it’s like the cherry on top, please just enjoy yourself baby c’mon!” you plead, stepping back from her to hold her hands in your own.

“okay…” she mutters, before repeating the words cherry on top underneath her breath and giggling. 

she grabs your plates and walks them to the table as you follow closely behind and take your spot across from her.

you’re only two bites in before you hear her again, “okay but seriously what is it? the suspense is killing me.”

“can’t you just eat your food first?” you laugh, shaking your head and taking another bite.

“i think we both know i can multitask, answer the question.” she responds, taking a bite of her food and a sip from her wine glass.

“i promise you will find out when we finish our meal,” you dodge again.

paige smacks her lips a little, a smile fighting for its life to stay hidden.

she does let it go, or so you’d hoped. and dinner goes well. eventually you’re just poking at what’s left on your plate while paige rambles a little. she’d cleared whatever she had in front of her a bit ago but you’d managed to get her talking to avoid her disrupting your own train of thought.

she pauses between sentences and your mouth moves faster than your thoughts.

“p, you trust me right?” you genuinely ask, already nervous again.

“of course baby, what’s going on?” she asks, placing her hand over yours on the table.

“i, i got uh– well i wanna show you something, if that’s okay?” you taunt a bit, lacing your fingers together and getting up from your seat at the table.

her eyebrows furrow a little and she smirks before getting up with you. you begin leading her to your bedroom and stop a few paces from the door to face her. you place your hands on her chest, before allowing them to creep up and secure behind her neck.

“you’re so beautiful,” you whisper, a very visible glint in your eyes.

before she can respond you pull her down to your height and connect your lips. you sigh into the kiss when you feel her hands immediately on your ass and her tilting her head to deepen the kiss. you open your mouth the slightest bit and feel her tongue meet your own. if you weren’t hot before from the wine, you definitely were now. 

you pull back completely and smirk before turning around and heading directly into the bedroom, a slight sway in your hips.

you guide paige onto the bed and she plops down a little, you perched at her side.

“earlier today, i was shopping around and i found something that i wanted to see if you’re interested in.” you trail off, getting up to fetch the discreet packaging that you knew for a fact paige was familiar with.

“mhm, and what is this ‘something’?” she proceeds, holding up her own air quotes. her eyes on yours and one of her eyebrows raised the tiniest bit. almost challenging you.

you pull the toy out of the bag, seeing as you had already taken them out of their packaging earlier to prep.

paige’s expression is hard to read and you can tell she’s leaving space for you to answer her unspoken questions, her breath hitching.

you climb on top of her holding the toy at your side. you catch her eyes fell onto your lips, glossy and parted to speak.

“i just saw this and thought we could try something new? specifically me, trying it out on the both of us.” you ask, or tell her rather. voice a little low but not wavering at all.

“baby i’m all yours, i want whatever you want.” she utters, hands lightly gripping your thighs.

“i’m so happy to hear you say that,” you smile.

you lean down, your weight falling onto your hand that’s now right beside paige’s head. you hold eye contact for as long as you can before you connect your lips again in another kiss. this one less gentle, some notable urge behind it. paige moans immediately kissing back, her hands back on your ass when your tongue slips between her lips to meet her own. 

you pull back to catch your breath, also opting to shed your shirt and reveal your other surprise for her. 

“fuck, are you serious?” paige groans. immediately drawn to the teacup bralette that held your tits just right, but also left you exposed with the mesh on the front of it.

“you like?” you ask, pulling your bottom lip between your teeth to stop yourself from laughing at the expression on her face.

“baby you know i do, cmon” 

“let me show you the rest of it then?” you finish, pushing up onto your knees so you could rid yourself of your pants.

your panties are the same mesh as the bralette, but they’re lacking the smallest piece of fabric. 

they’re crotchless.

you swear you can see the girl in front of you drool a little when she realizes. paige’s eyes are blown out and her mouth is agape when she sees you kneeling in front of her, practically naked.

“do you wanna shed some layers too p? i’m getting impatient,” you tease, watching as she scoffs a little before sitting up to pull her own shirt over her head. 

you have to stop yourself from getting too distracted by her taut abdomen and the little bit of cleavage that’s exposed when she presses her arms together, tugging her sleeves off. as soon as the shirt hits the floor of your bedroom you have your hands in the waistband of her pants, locking eyes with her. she tilts her head in a small nod that signals you to continue.

when you’re both lacking a good amount of clothing you crawl over her. your panties allowing your bare clit to rest on her lap and you hiss at the contact. you grab her hand and place it over your front, hinting at her to fondle your nipples over the thin fabric of your bralette.

“you’re unreal,” you hear paige utter from underneath you, her eyes watching your puffy clit glide messily over her slightly covered bottom half. the sight causes you to swallow a mix of a chuckle and a moan.

“yeah? tell me more.” you respond, breathless as you reach for her other hand, bringing two of her fingers up to your mouth. you kiss them gently and then wrap your lips around her fingertips.

knowing that this gets her going you’re not shocked at how her eyelids flutter before she takes her bottom lip between her teeth.

“you cooked me dinner and now you’re dressed in some of the best lingerie i’ve ever seen, plus you got your pussy in my lap. that’s as good as it gets, baby.” paige answers you, pinching your nipple between two of her fingers and smirking when you sigh and lick at your already glossy lips.

“only the best for you,” you start, pulling her hand away from your lips and toying at the waistband of her underwear, ready for those to come off too.

when her bottom half is completely bare you reach for the vibrators on the bed. 

“take off your bra.” you demand, raising an eyebrow at your girlfriend whilst putting some more distance between the two.

she complies easily and now she is beneath you, completely naked. a slight sheen of sweat on her chest that’s rising and falling a little quicker than before. she’s nervous.

you down and place a hand on her hip while you tongue at her nipples, they’re already hard from being exposed to the air in your bedroom. you don’t miss how pretty she sounds when she lets out a whine, her hand securing itself on the back of your head to hold you closer if even possible. 

“for once i just want to please you baby, i think this is the perfect way to make sure that we both get what we need. just lay back for me and enjoy yourself.” you utter into the empty silence, voice breathy while you sit up again and take one end of the toy, putting it in your mouth to wet.

paige’s mouth opens and she doesn’t say anything but you can tell she’s trying hard not to.

with the remote in your hand you immediately switch the speed to 2 and place it on the nipple that your mouth was on moments ago.

paige arches her back off the bed slightly, eyes immediately squeezing shut. this is already everything you want and you’re just getting started.

“fuck, baby what are you doing–“

“ah ah, remember just enjoy yourself, let me worry about what’s going on.” you shush her, circling her nipple with the vibrating bullet.

she looks beautiful under you like this. her cheeks are red, head thrown back in pleasure as her hips start to move beneath you on instinct.

“m-more, please i want more” she moans, lifting her head up, only to drop it again when she gets sight of you. 

your hair is a little messy from tossing your head side to side and the look in your eyes is sultry. plus you’ve got a vibrator held onto her nipple and she swears she can see a wet spot on her skin from you rutting against her. if it was possible she would’ve cum just from watching you touch her.

“more? what do you want? baby you have to tell me.” you taunt, already gripping the other end of the vibrator in your free hand.

“i’m so wet, i know you can feel it. t-touch me? please? mmmh–“ she cuts herself off when she feels the vibrations on her nipple intensify. the speed was now at 3…and then it was at 4.

“you’re even prettier when you beg p, have i ever told you that?”

“n-no, fuck” she hisses.

“well, you’re usually so in control. i just have to say i love seeing you like this.”

with a light touch you trace some shapes on the outside of her thigh before spreading her legs, your eyes immediately drawn to the wet spot underneath her on her bed. 

“you weren’t lying baby, you’re already making a mess and i haven’t even done anything yet.” you don’t give her much time to say anything in response, gathering all the spit into your mouth and pushing it from your lips so that it lands on her clit in a glob. it’s nasty, just how you both like it and paige lets out another surprisingly high pitched noise. her hole clenching around nothing.

sitting back on your heels between her legs you take your hand that’s holding the vibrator to her nipple and you switch sides. when you see how puffy and red the one that was previously receiving attention is, you almost feel bad, but that feeling doesn’t last long. 

while paige is trying to catch her breath you take the other end of the vibrator and start tracing circles around her clit, before pulling it away again. she cries out, realizing that you were going to keep teasing her.

landing a smack on her hip to get her to drop them down towards the bed again you drag the bullet up and down the length of her pussy, your eyes never leaving her face as she was putting on a show.

“mmm– please just do something baby, anything. i don’t know how much more of this i can take.” paige whines, then reaches out for you. you lean away from her touch.

“you’re good with the safe word?” you ask, tone a little more serious than you intended.

“yes of course baby, just– OH FUCK!”

before she can say anything else you’re pushing the bullet into her fluttering hole, holding in a moan at how tight she is.

“how’s that?” you tease, completely inserting the toy.

“shit– it’s perfect baby,”

“i bet.”

pulling away the end of the vibrator that was on her nipple you lean down again to take it in your mouth. once more she’s cradling your head, this time a little harder. she wants you close, it’s cute.

using little force you pump the bullet into her, listening for her sounds of satisfaction. 

pulling off of her nipple with a pop you watch as she fights to pry her eyes open.

“baby, k-kiss me?” she says, or rather pleads.

your heart beats faster at how desperate she sounds. you grant her the kiss and it’s hot, sloppy, and leaves a string of spit between the two of you when you pull away while she chases after you with her lips.

“my god p, you’re such a good girl for me. who would’ve thought?” you whisper right in her face, smirking a little as she huffs in disappointment when you lean back and away from her again.

“i’ll be a good girl for you any time you want baby, just please don’t stop.” she groans, gushing around the toy inside of her.

“oh really, any time? you promise?” 

an image flashes in your head and before you can think about it too much you’re releasing paige’s leg from your grip, pulling the vibrator out of her and increasing the speed to 5. you pull your left leg up and drape it over her right, almost in a split, pulling the vibrator out of her and pressing it down on her clit with a good amount of pressure. 

her upper half jolts once again, as she raises her head just in time to watch you press your clit down on the vibrator as well, sandwiching it between the two of you.

paige almost screams when you put your entire weight down. your own jaw falls slack and you throw your head back, squeezing your eyes shut.

“p, oh my god– FUCK i can’t believe i thought of this. you’re doing so good, my messy baby. i wish you could see yourself right now.”

leaning down to smack a wet kiss in the middle of her chest you grab the remote in your free hand and turn up the speed to 6. whimpering and crying out into paige’s skin that’s beneath your lips. another loud whine leaves the back of her throat, followed by a grunt and a string of curses.

“i-i can’t”

“you can.”

you use her mouth to wet two of your fingers, she sucks on them sloppily, barely able to focus on the action due to the intense pressure on her clit from both you and the vibrator. you pull them from her lips, with a pop, before you trail them down to between her thighs, circling her hole one last time with your fingertips.

“SHIT– i’m so close baby” paige yelps, starting to huff her breaths out faster when she feels you pressing down harder, using your weight to move the shiny bullet against the both of you slightly. 

she attempts to close her legs around your hand and fails due to the position you were in.

“i know pretty girl i know, m-me too, just hold out a little more hmm?”

turning the vibrator to its highest speed of 7 you pump your middle and ring finger into paige, choking on your own breath at the feeling of her clenching around you and the bullet beneath you violating your clit at this point. 

paige lets out a sob, bringing one of her arms to cover her face. you reach up with the hand that’s not inside of her and rip her arm back. you watch her intently, tears hot and heavy on her cheeks blurring her vision.

“fuck–, paige you look so perfect when you cry.”

“it hurts so good baby, don’t stop“

“you’re close aren’t you? give it to me, cmon, i’m right there with you. i want all you’ve got.”

at this point you have no idea what’s coming out of your mouth but you don’t give a fuck, trying to hold onto your orgasm intending for the girl underneath you to finish first.

and finish she did. smacking your hand off of her arm she reaches down to hold your hips still against her own, tears falling rapidly from her eyes now. 

you don’t know if she’s just really spent or if it’s you that’s spent because you can’t register the words coming out of her mouth while she’s riding out her high. except the last three she matters as soon as you pull your fingers from her leaking cunt.

“i love you”

this sends you over the edge and you have to use every little bit of strength left in you not to collapse directly into paige. 

moaning pornography as your hole spasms around nothing you can only withstand the vibrator for another millisecond before you reach down to snatch it off of the two of you.

you do actually fall onto paige after this but she’s starting to catch her breath now so she welcomes you with open arms, still panting loudly.

you lay a mess between her legs with your head on her chest and your body trembling a little.

when you calm down enough you crane your neck to get a glimpse of your girlfriend. your hand instinctively reaching up to wipe the remainder of tears from her face.

“p, you did so well for me baby. thank you for letting me try that with you” you whisper, pecking her chest gently.

she doesn’t open her eyes, you assume she probably can’t after the amount of energy that orgasm must’ve exerted from her. but she replies nonetheless.

“i already told you, i’ll do anything for you anytime you want. all you have to do is ask.” 

“yeah yeah whatever, just kiss me and go to sleep.”

she actually does open her eyes. they’re glossed over and a little red and puffy from the crying but just as you had mentioned earlier, she looked so gorgeous. 

lifting her head just enough to meet you halfway she slots her lips against your own. the entire moment is so sweet, your entire body feels warm again. the thought of this girl being yours for the rest of your life crosses your mind.

when you pull back you’ve got a goofy grin on your face and you rest your head back on her chest before letting out a deep breath and closing your eyes again. 

paige’s body moves a little and you recognize the motion as her chuckling, before she opens her mouth one final time.

“i can’t wait to use that toy on you next. only. on you.”

[iscdisc]

A 2012 Casey appreciation post, basically- Lmao

I originally was going to rant about something not so positive, because that's just in my nature to do and 2012 as a whole just makes me incredibly angry- But that's how you can tell it's my favorite show on the planet, so like- LMAO

That's not to say that there won't be some moments of anger in this tangent from me, but for the most part I just want to kind of "gush" (so to speak) about 2012 Casey Jones and why these incompetent writers could never get me to hate him. 🫶✨

This might be kind of contradicting from me, since a lot of 2012 April's writing is what causes me to strongly dislike her as a character canonically, but I think I've come to realize that it's not that I necessarily hate April, it's just that I hate how she was handled and all the opportunities that the show gives her simply for just existing / a lot of what April gets tied to or what she accrued throughout the series are things that I feel the writers simply hand to her rather than explaining why she deserves them (Like her Kunoichi certification after the Space Arc- 💀 / I still don't understand why, "City at War" couldn't have been the first April solo mission episode instead to further show why she should be awarded this accomplishment, but okay- Lmao). And that's why she's frustrating to me. LMAO

Just think about how much better April's character would have been if the show writers actually gave a shit about her and weren't probably misogynistic because her character feels like a stereotype of a teenage girl / the "mandatory girl character" a majority of the time. 🙃👍

Casey, on the other hand, is a different situation. Because not only does this show not give him jack shit half the time, but they do him no favors the way they do April a lot of favors (in my opinion) and it feels as though practically a majority of the cast despises his existence-?? Another thing that cannot be said of April (in my opinion). LMAO

I also feel like a lot of the negative traits that we see from Casey throughout the series feel intentional?? In the sense that it feels as though the writers want us as the audience to think that Casey is the most insufferable person on the planet- Similar to how the writers embellish Mikey's negative traits so that we'll also think he's "unreliable" and "annoying" like his brothers do. The writers practically have Casey become "Mikey 2.0" in a lot of instances, and I don't say that like an insult because it honestly shouldn't be?? But it feels like sabotage from the writers, I gotta be honest. 💀

Maybe I'm the only one who feels this way, but 2012 Casey in his first three introductory episodes (Which yes, I refer to them as three introductory episodes because he wasn't officially introduced into the narrative until, "The Good, the Bad, and Casey Jones" / S2 EP 8 / but he technically was a big part of two episodes prior to that one and more literally introduced as a character in, "Mutagen Man Unleashed" / S2 EP 4 /. So-! 👍✨) has an incredibly different feel to him than the Casey that we see in, "Fungus Humongous" / S2 EP 10 /-?? Before, at least in my opinion, Casey felt like a chill dude who had occasional aggressive / hyperactive moments. But after, "The Good, the Bad, and Casey Jones" he felt more like an aggressive / hyperactive dude with occasional relaxed moments- Does that make sense? This is when I feel like he was really shifting into "Mikey 2.0" by the writers. He's a lot more brash, openly obnoxious and boisterous, saying things that he doesn't necessarily need to say so that everyone will look at him with glares (I wonder what other character that happens to- 🙄), having an unserious nature that the others disapprove of (Again, who else does that sound like-), a lot clumsier in battle than he used to be, the others don't take him seriously (Do I even need to say it again-), etc.

But does any of this deter me from loving him as a character? Absolutely not and it never will. LMAO

This isn't to say that I think Casey is perfect, because clearly he has his flaws, and given how the writers handled his character throughout the series I completely understand why some people think less of him or would say that he's their least favorite character in 2012,, I really do get it.

BUT, despite all those things, I still feel like there were a lot of redeemable traits from him that don't get talked about a lot? Also a lot of things that I feel backfired in regards to the image that the writers "wanted" (Since maybe they didn't intend for this?? But it felt that way to me-) us as the audience to have of his character- Like him actually being one of kindest members of the team??

It's definitely not a conventional kindness, but it is a kindness nonetheless.

I honestly don't know a good place to start with this, so I'm just going to start rambling about whatever comes to mind and hope that that works out for me- LMAO

One of the first things that comes to mind for me is him during, "Of Rats and Men" / S2 EP 12 /. Despite having a crippling musophobia (Fear of mice and rats-) in the same way that Raph has a crippling entomophobia (Fear of insects-), Casey's still did his best to contribute to that problem and was probably enduring one of the most traumatic events of his life for his friends?? Like hello?? He's only known them for like maybe a few weeks or so at this point (Logically speaking-) too??

I know Raph technically has some growth with it in 2012 (Only saying technically because I really didn't like how the show constantly harped on Raph's entomophobia, as if there aren't many other aspects of his character that could have been talked about instead- Lmao), but when he was in his first situation revolving around his phobia ("The Cockroach Terminator" / S1 EP 18 / ) he was not very helpful for a majority of that situation (Which I totally get-) nor did he volunteer to put himself in the "eye of the storm" of situation in the same way Casey did. That was an incredibly kind / selfless thing for Casey to do??

Without questioning anything, he defends April against Timothy (Who they didn't know was Timothy at the time, besides I don't think that would be relevant cause April didn't really meet Timothy-?) and rides away on his bike with her to escape him, having just met her. He's pretty much kind of April in general, but what I mean is a different type of kindness than the more general one that most characters give her- He truly allows April to be herself around him / doesn't treat her differently as person (when I say this, I mean moments like when Casey had no problem kicking April in her shoulder to wake her up during, "Within the Woods" / S3 EP 1 /- Lmao), and I feel like that is the biggest act of kindness he could ever give her. Like??

Maybe this isn't something that is necessarily considered kind but I thought it was incredibly sweet and understanding of Casey sit through the drive all the way up to the O'Neil's Farmhouse immediately after the invasion + immediately after he had failed to find his Father and little sister in the chaos,, I'm sure he felt like he had to because of everything going on, but it would have been just as understandable for him to need breaks on the road or to vent- Instead it felt like he just focused on getting everybody else to safety, you know what I mean??

The way he whispers to Raph about taking it easy on Leo during their sparring match since he's been having a hard time since he woke up from his coma during, "Eyes of the Chimera"? 😭 || I don't know how much this counts for kindness either, but the way he was so excited to tell Raph about what he had accomplished in regards to Shredder and his little recon mission during, "Casey Jones vs. The Underworld" / S3 EP 14 / always makes me cry- Like he was so happy,,

Also speaking of him being incredibly understanding?? 2012 Casey has to be one of the most understanding characters I've ever seen, because the amount of shit that he gets dealt by everyone else and decides to just let's go / move past it is wild to me.

• When Casey's reminiscing to April about his best friend Nick in "Target: April O'Neil" / S2 EP 6 / and how there was this complete accident during last year's playoffs and he genuinely accepted that his best friend since second grade decided to never talk to him again?? The maturity that Casey exudes from the scene alone- Not to mention his understanding of her leaving him with a bunch of Foot Soldiers (Not that I'm saying she did anything bad there, I understand why she left and I'm sure he did too-).

• Casey not thinking twice about helping the Turtles and Splinter not get exposed to the Foot Clan during, "The Good, the Bad, and Casey Jones" / S2 EP 8 / despite having known them for a brief amount of time and being at odds with Raph prior- Giving Casey honestly the slimmest of reasons to do this + before this point he actively talked about how he didn't like mutants.

• During, "Newtralized!" / S2 EP 17 /, how despite Raph giving him the hardest time ever (Which felt so hypocritical because I've never seen Raph treat April this way, and she messes up quite a lot imo- 🙃) and blatantly disrespecting him to the point of genuinely pushing him away, Casey STILL CAME BACK AND SAVED THE DAY- Not even getting upset that he didn't get an apology from Raph. At all.

• I don't know if this necessarily falls into what I mean here, but I feel like he often gets misread when he's trying to be genuine? The moment he had with April during, "Within the Woods" / S3 EP 1 / feels like one to me. I truly don't think Casey meant anything by it when he was asking April if everything was okay between them (Implying the April's been distant towards him lately or probably just acting different-), and even after she kind of blew up on him, he didn't say anything about it and just let it go?? 😭

• Casey being quite literally understanding during, "Buried Secrets" / S3 EP 3 / when April was venting about the situation with her Mother and basically reassuring her that it was okay for April to leave with her if that was the decision that she wanted to make-

• It honestly boils my blood to see how little faith the others had in Casey during, "The Weird World Of Wyrm" / S4 EP 3 / (At least it came across that way to me-), because how could they truly believe that he would turn on them like that? On one hand, I get it was to make the whole thing more believable so that Wyrm wouldn't suspect Casey was trying to do something underhanded, but if I were Casey I would have felt genuinely hurt that they really thought that of me?? April didn't even try to be like, "This isn't you at all! :( " like she normally does, she just fully believed that this is who he was now- 🙃 || But I also understand that a lot of the events of this episode get retconned on purpose, so. 🙄

• Casey basically let go of Raph quite literally ditching him because of his entomophobia during, "The Insecta Trifecta" / S4 EP 17 /, but I also acknowledge that Casey was not helping but all his descriptions during the fight,, LMAO || But I don't know, I feel like Casey was genuinely taking Raph's word for it when he said that he was "over the bug stuff" in the beginning of the episode-

• I don't really want to count this one, but I guess I can bring up how everyone forgave April so quickly after the events of, "The Power Inside Her" / S4 EP 22 / even though I feel like that was incredibly unrealistic-

There's also the fact that he's incredibly selfless?? The most well known example of this being when he saved Raph's life during, "Requiem" / S4 EP 25 / and almost lost his own in the process,,

I feel like the entire concept of his vigilante-ing is it active selflessness on its own, since you have to have that want to help people who can't help themselves to accomplish something like that-

Casey almost risked his life protecting April from the mutagen vat stockman was trying to fly into during, "The Lonely Mutation of Baxter Stockman" / S2 EP 16 /, and the reason I say that is because if that had gone the wrong way, he could have gone into the vat with Stockman himself or fell in somehow- He literally risked the entire world after Donatello stop breathing (presumably his brothers would follow suit shortly after-) during, "In Dreams" / S2 EP 5 /, since he didn't know for sure that the Dream Beavers wouldn't be world ending entities (Which, this is completely derailing right now, but there was just really sweet 2012 Jonatello fanfiction that used this situation in it- Where Casey openly acknowledges that he risked the entire world for Donatello even if it would have been only for a few minutes because they would have parish shortly afterwards- Like?? I'll try to find it later- 😭💜🖤).

I know this could just be a writing thing and another glaringly obvious way the writers clearly didn't care enough about him as a character, but I feel like his lack of bringing up his issues or his family feels selfless-? Like he doesn't want to weigh anybody down with his problems, he'd rather focus on what he can control than what he can't, you know? From a canonical writing standpoint, I found this really annoying, but ignoring the writing for a second- I wouldn't be surprised if Casey felt like the guys already struggle with emotionally supporting April and her constantly absent Father enough as it was, that maybe that's why he felt like he didn't want to add on to it or something by talking about his-? 😭 (But knowing these writers, I wouldn't be surprised that they had the Turtles be complete assholes to him about it- Because "boys will be boys" or some shit. 🙃 Lmao)

I also want to talk about how Casey felt like such a fantastic friend?? I know we only have that one moment with Leo during "A Foot Too Big" / S3 EP 2 /, but even that felt like a really great moment from him to me? Not to mention the fact that Casey's demonstrated multiple times that he's incredibly loyal, so whenever Leo asked him to be there, he's there- Something we see in episodes like, "The Lonely Mutation of Baxter Stockman" / S2 EP 16 / (Though, maybe this kind of feels like a straw grab-? Casey and Leo don't get a lot of interactions, so I don't know what else to say- 😭)

The only reason why I say what I'm about to say is because I feel like the writers handled Casey and Raph's friendship extremely poorly, but even though Raph treats Casey like shit 9 times out of 10 during the show, Casey still views him as his best friend and still has his back constantly?? This is demonstrated throughout the entire series honestly-

Casey and Mikey's dynamic is one of the most organic friendships to come out of the series in my opinion- They were genuinely the most fun on screen and it made me want them to interact a lot more. Like have you watched the episodes, "Meet Mondo Gecko" / S3 EP 17 / and "Bat in the Belfry" / S4 EP 19 / ? 🙄✨

Even though Donnie views Casey as "his rival" or some kind of "threat" between him and April, I still feel like Casey had a lot of moments where he treated Donnie with respect and as an ally / friend despite how Donnie's feels towards him being glaringly obvious- As much as I would love to give you a plethora of examples of this happening, it feels like there's too many because it's kind of a in the background / nuanced thing-?? (See the picture I put for this part-) Like, if you focus on them during episodes, I feel like you could see what I mean- LMAO

Which has always led me to have this theory that Casey never actually hated Donnie to begin with and was just reciprocating the energy that Donnie was giving him, because why wouldn't he?

But I think a dynamic that is one of my favorites with Casey in the 2012 series is his dynamic with April-

April feels like a genuine person / fleshed out character when she's interacting with Casey as opposed to when she's interacting with any of the brothers. I don't know how else to explain it- A lot of the solo scenes that April and Casey get feel so different for April specifically, and I genuinely enjoy them ! Moments like when they're riding "Kirby Bat" during, "The Lonely Mutation of Baxter Stockman" / S2 EP 16 / or that Kraathatragon / " Giant Kraang Worm" during, "The Manhattan Project / Wormquake!" / S2 EP 13-14 / or when April finally breaks the wood in half with Casey at the end of, "Vision Quest" / S3 EP 8 /, or when April and Casey are walking home from the movie theater in, "The Deadly Venom" / S3 EP 18 /- It also makes me sad at the same time though, because I feel like if the show just dropped the stupid "Will they? Won't they?" romance bullshit subplot between them, they would have just been the best of friends and that would have been the best thing ever- Like. 😭

I almost forgot to mention the amount of times that Casey was actually able to swallow his pride for his friends despite the show giving us the impression that he's an incredibly prideful and egotistical person?? The fact that he has gone to the guys for help on more than one occasion (i.e. "Fungus Humongous" / S2 EP 10 /, "The Wrath of Tiger Claw" / S2 EP 19 / though this was just sending them an alert from his phone, "A Chinatown Ghost Story" / S2 EP 23 /, "Casey Jones vs. The Underworld" / S3 EP 14 /-) despite claiming that he's "A Lone Wolf" and doesn't need anybody's permission to act. He even calls and waits for them before acting in, "The Power Inside Her" / S4 EP 20 /. He apologized to Donnie during, "Race With the Demon" / S3 EP 6 /, something I'm sure he never thought he would do in a million years at that point- He also had a lot of technical apologies?? Like telling Raph he's "not bad for an amphibian" during, "The Good, the Bad. And Casey Jones" / S2 EP 8 /, telling Donnie he "takes back everything he ever said about him" during "The Manhattan Project (Part 2) / Wormquake!" / S2 EP 14 /. I don't know if this one necessarily counts as an "apology" per se, but the way he was so quick to claim fault and say it was his bad after he triggered the traps during, "Riddle of the Ancient Aeons"- 😭 || I also want to tie in how a lot of the episodes were Casey was the problem or the issue of the episode revolved around Casey, Casey was genuinely the one to resolve said issue- We love him for taking responsibility ! ✨

Casey is also a lot smarter than I feel the other characters and the writers give him credit for / care to acknowledge. This dude literally made his own weapons. Excuse me?? Not to mention his shoes that have hockey blades that retract?? His decked out bike?? Like bro- His entire vigilante get up is incredibly unique and innovative ! During the episode, "Newtralized!", Casey was able to deduce where to exactly shoot his hockey puck explosive into the Kraang contraption (I don't remember what that thing was called,,)- During high action / high speed (??) scenes, you can tell Casey is very quick on his feet and has some pretty natural reflexes of his own (I think a great example of this is his "fight" with TigerClaw during, "The Wrath of Tiger Claw" / S2 EP 19 /-). He was the one that came up with the idea to use pizza to distract and subdue Leo / Raph / and Mikey during, "A Chinatown Ghost Story" / S2 EP 23 /. He clearly has some mechanical experience + possible engineering prowess, given he was constantly trying to work on that busted up truck in the O'Neil Barn and is clearly capable of not only helping Donnie but keeping up with him mechanically during, "Race with the Demon" / S3 EP 6 /. THE ENTIRE EPISODE OF, "Casey Jones vs. The Underworld"?? HELLO?? The way that he did all of that on his own and nobody gave him his flowers is criminal- /hj LMAO

You have no idea how much it upset me when everybody was acting like it was "so wild" that Casey had a good idea / his input was valuable during, "Tokka vs. The World" dude- 💀

All this is to say that 2012 Casey Jones is one of the most charming characters in an animated TV series for me. He's silly, he's stupid, he's loyal- He's just the biggest lovable goofball to me, you know?? 😭🫶

2012 Jonatello side tangent- 💜🖤

Because I genuinely cannot resist putting this at the end, I love talking about Casey's "contradictions" (so to speak) as a character and how he's presented in the show because this genuinely just feeds my Jonatello obsession. Like how I was talking about Casey treating Donnie like a friend despite Donnie clearly not liking him very much for a majority of the show?? How one of Casey's only on screen apologies (If I'm not mistaken??) is towards Donnie? How 2012 has Casey and Donnie conveniently standing next to each other or being in the same vicinity as each other despite "hating each other" more than not? How have you really break down their characters, they're kind of similar? Both physically (Tall, gaps in their teeth, brown eyes-) and characteristically (i.e. Mechanics and inventions, their weapons of choice / fighting styles, they both can get pretty morbid at times but Casey's just being Casey in this instance while Donnie's trying to be "scientifically accurate", as he says, etc.-).

How during, "Monkey Brains", if you look really closely at Donnie's plan to, "Get April to hang out with him", he has hockey on that plan? (Images courtesy of me by the way, since I happened to have the official 2012 art book !) How Donnie's helmet of choice (Specifically during Season 1 but did make an appearance in Season 2-) was a hockey helmet that had the number 16 on it? You know who else has the number 16 on their gear?? CASEY.

But also the things that make them different attribute to these to being a perfect match to me ! Like their love languages ! Donnie's love language is definitely more verbal / words of affirmation (Since all he does is say things that he shouldn't say about April because she's not his girlfriend and call her things that he shouldn't call her because she's not his girlfriend- Lmao) and gift-giving / acts of service (Pretty much everything Donnie has ever done for April ever falls into one of these two-). While Casey's is also verbal / words of affirmation but in a different way (Since he's definitely more flirtatious / playful-) and physical touch (Since he's always getting into April's space and being very physically close with her-). This makes sense to me, but maybe it might not make sense to other people- I just can't help but feel that everything that Donnie became infatuated with about April and Casey with April is quite literally just each other?? To Donnie, I genuinely feel like he was more attracted to the fact that she was a "firecracker" (so to speak) and did what she wanted / didn't let others tell her what to do. Something we actively see in episodes like, "Panic in the Sewers" when April actively lies to a man to get through an apartment building and Donnie responds with, "She's so cool-". With Casey, it feels like the opposite, where he was only interested in April because in his eyes she was kind of stuck up and a nerd (In his eyes-). I feel like this is enforced by their early on interacts during Season 2, specifically, "Mutagen Man Unleashed", when Casey asks April if "studying is all she does" and April points out that he likes to push buttons-

Which?? This solidifies that (canonically) Casey's method of flirting is pushing buttons, and whose buttons does he push more than DONATELLO'S?? HELLO- 😭💜🖤

I completely derailed by talking about 2012 Jonatello, I'm sorry. This was meant to just be a 2012 Casey appreciation post only- My bad,, 🥲👍 LMAO

[my-rose-tinted-glasses]

Whenever there's a line up event, one of the things that I'm starting to look forward to the most are the show's english names. They are always...interesting. Anyway, a lot of new stuff. They are certainly rivalling gmmtv in terms of content and the event itself. That was looooong and there were a LOT of announcements.

Before I go into new shows. We finally got a date for The Next Prince and it's April. Also Zomvivor has a new teaser and it will air...soon. Goddammit. Speaking of elusive air dates, Khemjira is also coming...soon. It's like they don't want me to be happy. I need all the horror. Your Sky of Us will be a special 3 episode event that will follow the characters into adulthood. I like the idea of seeing the couples after the show's hea so this should be nice. Now for everything else. I added link to the mdl pages and the trailers, so if you don't want my unsolicited opinions just click on the links below the pics.

[ MDL | Trailer ] Love Upon a Time - It's not exactly a new announcement but we finally got a pilot with the new cast and I really enjoyed it. I'm convinced that Net is one of those actors that can have chemistry with anyone so this should be good at least when it comes to the main couple. When it comes to fantasy thai bl, I never want to get my hopes too high because a lot of the time they tend to forgo internal narrative consistency for the sake of the romance, but either way, I will be watching this one.

[ MDL | Trailer ] Your Third - MaxNat romcom, why not? When it comes to the romance, I think they can pull it off, but the comedy? Not so sure. I don’t hate anything here, but I can’t say I really love anything either.

[ MDL | Trailer ] Mr.Fanboy - Well this should be interesting. I do like when bl goes a bit meta, so I'm looking forward to see what DMD has to say about this. AuAu and Save fans must be losing it to see them as leads, and I was surprised to see James. I thought he wasn't gonna be in any series for a while, but I'm not as well informed about these things. Interesting cast and concept. I will be tuning in.

[ MDL | Trailer ] You(r)Tuber - Do you see what I mean? These names kill me. Looks cute. Surprised to see Earth and First but nothing really excites me about this one. Oh wait, I'm wrong, there are pets and more importantly a cat. That makes me happy.

[ MDL | Trailer ] Duang With You - My crumbs have graduated and I'm screaming. I love everything about this, but honestly, I love TeeteePor. They are beautiful. I also love a shameless flirt that will thaw the heart of a brooder. So I'm winning either way.

[ MDL | Trailer ] Restart - This is giving Elite but with some extra bullying for good measure. It's also giving nakedness galore. DMD knows their audience. I'm guessing we will be seeing a lot of showers. I'm happy to see Tommy again. I'm not sure if this is exactly bl, but with the amount of naked boys in the pilot alone, might as well be.

[ MDL | Trailer ] Magic Lover – I guess it was only a matter of time for BL to start playing with magic. I mean, we're in our vampire season, so this was the next logical step. Anyway, ThomasKong are back. And Keng… I have to admit, very few actors illicit a strong reaction from me solely based on their looks, but Keng is one of them. That guy has an absolutely flawless face. I like that we have 3 different couples and I like fantasy and fated mates so I'm definitely on board.

[ MDL* | Trailer ] HUG E-Lhee The Musical - Ok, I LOVE musicals. Seriously. And let’s be real, when it comes to musicals, especially the more comedic ones, there’s always a built-in level of cringe. Which is fine. People randomly breaking into song pretty much guarantees that. But throwing BL into the mix, along with some folks who aren’t exactly great singers? That might just be a step too far for me. No shade, just a personal preference. (*no mdl page yet)

Also announced was another ThomasKong show, Unknown Lover, and a DMD Sitcom, หอตัวดี, with literally all the boys.

Well, that's everything from me. Obviously most of these will come in late 2025 and 2026. And despite everything I just said, I’ll probably still end up watching the first episodes of all the shows.

[kaddyssammlung]

The lack of interviews and them being mysterious (despite everything that you can find via Google) all of this has an effect that no one ever talks about or even realizes.At least in my opinion.

We "are" the news in this fandom.

Ever thought about that?

Yesterday I came home from work and was really tired and saw what was being posted here in the main tag and it took me seconds to figure out what was going on.

That fandom is fast when it comes to these things.

That's amazing!

But the power lies in our hands. No “mass media” is involved.

Me sitting here, nodding my head and smiling while writing this.

You have no idea what that really means......

[sunshine-co]

shower me

Author disclaimer: All writings are opinions and just what i think of the people mentioned. possible head canons or daydreams i have had. nothing written is fact or is to be taken too seriously. these are fun little scenarios to help get through the day sometimes, mostly just a simple idea expanded. most writings may contain sexual themes so no minors, although i cannot control what you read, but please know not all sexual writings, experiences or things you see are not always correct or standard. you are responsible for what you consume!

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genre: fluff, smut

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warnings: smut; piv, unprotected sex(NONO), oral (fem!rec), pet names (sweetheart, pretty, honey, kitten, puppy, baby, etc.), mentions of weight and insecurities around weight. any more let me know.

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the three of you grew up together and have been best friends since elementary school. when the rambunctious and outgoing mingyu approached both you and wonwoo, who had been sitting on the edge of the playground, quietly beside each other. the younger boy asked why you two were not playing, you both shrugged, and he laughed and just dragged you both out to play with the group. the three of you have been inseparable since.

Gyu was a year younger then wonwoo and you, so you waited until he graduated high school to move to the 'big city' to move in together and pursue your respective dreams. now some years later, you were all well into your dream careers and still living together. now in a bigger apartment, but you couldn't bear to live apart. you've been through almost everything together, from college to multiple jobs to several failed relationships, how could you live apart. so the three of you lived a comfortable cohabitation.

till one day when the boys were out you decided to get a shower while they were gone. one thing about being friends for so long, you got comfortable around each other, some might say too comfortable, but screw them. you rarely showered alone anymore, when one showered, at least one of the other two had to join. especially gyu, he was very clingy and his love language was physical touch. yours was too but sometimes a girl wanted to shower alone. so you had jumped in thinking you had some time before the boys got home, if gyu found out and whined about it you'd promise to buy the top tier meat next grocery trip. but not five minutes into the warm water washing over you, the door to the apartment opened. you sighed as you heard them bustling in and putting away their things.

'noona, nnooooooo', you heard mingyu scream just before he burst in the bathroom door 'your showering without us!'

'gyu please', you exasperated, opening the fogged glass door of the shower and poking your head out, 'we talked about this; every now and then its nice to shower alone. i promise i'll buy that meat you like next time we go out. okay?'

through a pout and crossed arms he nodded and said 'okay, i don't need one anyway'

'why complain then?!' you yelled as you turned back to your shower, and you tried to close the glass door but stopped when you heard the older male.

'i need one' you heard wonwoo pipe up, as he breezed past mingyu, shedding his clothes as he did so, 'i had a workout before gyu got me.'

'really won!' you huffed, as he entered the shower behind you, closing the glass door, mingyu leaving the bathroom with a pout still on his face.

'sorry' wonwoo said, giving you a charming smile that you couldn't resist, with no sense of remorse behind the word.

'its okay' you sighed, as you grabbed your shampoo. wonwoo stepped under the flowing water, soaking his hair and body. as you began to lather the shampoo in your hair. wonwoo took his bottle off the shelf and gave you a look you knew too well.

'you want me to do your hair too?' you said with an annoyed look on your face.

'please, i worked my arms and back today.' he said, flashing you his pretty brown eyes and another sweet smile, you really were whipped for these boys.

you sighed as you took the bottle from his hand. he immediately got into position, getting as close to you without touching fronts, spread his legs to lower his height and placed his hands on your hips to keep himself steady, and leaned his head back. you then began to rub you fingers with the shampoo you had poured onto your hand over his scalp.

with his eyes closed, a relaxed sigh escaped his mouth at your ministrations, you couldn't help the soft smile that graced you lips. as annoying as they could be at times, you loved your boys. maybe more then you would care to admit. even though you grew up together, you had seen the worst and best of each other, the bad and ugly and the growth and shining moments. you also couldn't deny how hot the two of them had become. mingyu had started going to the gym as a stress reliever, and eventually convinced wonwoo to join him. now they were both incredibly buff and combined with their height, they dwarfed you. you could disappear in one of gyus bear hugs, and you'd be happy to.

as they continued to get hotter by the day it seemed, you stayed your chubby self. you had lost a bit of weight since high school, but you were still curvier then you would like, or at least thought you should be. the boys never let you feel bad about your weight, always telling you you're beautiful as you are, your weight doesn't define you, and if someone you dated said anything they'd say those people were stupid and blind for not seeing your beauty or not giving you a chance. you always brushed it off as them being like family, they had to say that. it did help, but you couldn't help the bad thoughts taking over sometimes.

you began to feel conscious of wonwoos hands on you as you thought about this. 'okay rinse' you said, stopping your motions and tapping his shoulder. he stepped back into the pouring water enough to let it wash away the suds but left his hands on your hips. you removed them as you maneuvered the two of you to switch places so you could rinse your hair. he gave you a look you couldn't fully decipher, confusion maybe. but it was gone as fast as it appeared.

you closed your eyes as you leaned your head back into the water. your eyebrows pull together as you run your hands through your hair, wiping away all the shampoo. a slight pout began to rest on your face as you were washing your hair, then suddenly you felt a pair of lips meet yours. you froze, slowly opening your eyes to see wonwoo pull away slightly with a blush creeping up his neck.

'sorry, you looked too cute washing your hair.' he spoke softly, his gentle breaths hitting your face

once you got your bearings again you said 'its okay wonnie, I've actually wanted this.' and you leaned up to return the kiss.

you pulled away for a moment before he chased your lips to close the gap again, pressing a deeper kiss into your mouth along with his body as his arms wrapped around you to hold you close. your hands ran up his arms to meet at the back of his neck, holding his head as you both continued to deepen the kiss further.

you soon began to pull away to just give him pecks as you both tried to speak. 'you also wanted this?' he whispered against your lips to then peck again.

'yes' you said breathless, between kisses, 'but what about gyu?'

'what about him?' he continued to speak through the pecks against your lips, 'he wants you too.'

'wait really?!' you stop your movements trying to look wonwoo in the eye, but he continued kissing around your mouth and jaw.

'yes' he mumbled against your neck, 'we've both wanted you for a while now but didn't want to ruin anything. i guess i couldn't hold back anymore.' he said has he kissed back up your neck and up your face to place some strong and loving kisses to your temple.

'jeon wonwoo you better not be joking with me, i swear i'll kill you both?!' you said with a worried look on your face.

wonwoo laughed as he pulled you into him, burying his face in your neck, 'i'm as serious as a heart attack, sweetheart.' he hugged you tighter and lifted you slightly to get you impossibly closer.

'ohh wonnie i want you both too so much' you said as you hugged him back just as tightly. 'I've even dreamed of it!' you don't know why you blurted out the last part, but you felt wonwoo laugh against you. 'oh really?' he kissed up your neck again 'you'll have to tell us about those dreams.'

you felt your face flush red as he continued to gently laugh and kiss your pink face.

'or you could show us' he whispered in your ear, only causing more blood to rush to your cheeks.

wonwoo came back to your lips, pressing soft kisses to them that quickly got deeper and more heated. his tongue gently prodded your lips, asking for entrance, which you allowed. you continued to make out for a few more moments before you pulled away hurriedly, speaking breathlessly, 'wait, we have to tell gyu!'

'damn i guess we do.' wonwoo said as he left a few more kisses across your face. 'we could also take this to the bedroom and you can show us those dreams.'

you gently slapped his chest and pushed him away as he laughed once again. 'i'm never telling you about my dreams ever again.' he placed one more kiss to the crown of your head before he went into the motions of continuing the shower.

you managed to finish the shower in a half decent amount of time, wonwoo kept trying, and succeeding most times, to give you kisses and heated touches. once you stepped out you both began to towel down, wonwoo did so half hazardly and quickly wrapped the towel around his waist, nearly running out of the bathroom, leaving you still trying to dry your hair. you assumed he went to tell mingyu about you wanting a relationship with the both of them. and you were proven right when you heard gyu yell from the living room.

'really?!' as you heard him scramble from the couch to the bathroom, bursting through the door in record time, and sweeping you up in a hug before you had time to think. the towel you had around you nearly falling off you in the commotion.

'really, noona, really?!!' he rushed out, still holding you tightly, your feet not touching the floor, 'you'll be our girlfriend? really?' his face could almost split in two with the smile he had.

'yes really gyu' you smiled back at him, 'i'll be your girlfriend, yours and wonwoos.'

you didn't have a chance to breath after the last word left your mouth as mingyu crashed his lips against yours. it was rough for a second before he softened and kissed you properly, your laughs muffled by it. you kissed him back, letting the younger take some lead and do what he wanted.

soon enough he was kissing all around your face like an excited puppy, 'really, really noona!?' he spoke between kisses.

'yes really, i said that, pup' you spoke the affectionate nickname as he buried his face into your neck, proving the point of the nickname.

'ohh thank you.' he spoke, muffled by your neck.

'and she's dreamed of this and would like to show us what those dreams were like in the bedroom.' wonwoo said as he came up behind you, sandwiching you between the two tall men. you gave him a half hearted angry look.

as you realized your situation you said half jokingly, 'well some of them were kinda like this.' you gestured to the way the two hugged you between them.

'oh really?' mingyus voice deepened, an eyebrow raised, and the look on his face darkened.

you gulped as you looked back and forth to the two expectant faces looking at you. you realized you had a long night ahead of you.

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through heated kisses and touches shared amongst the three of you, you ended up in mingyus room. he had the biggest room and biggest bed. gyu was behind you and peppering kisses all over your neck and shoulders. a groan left his lips as he stepped away from you. he was going to prepare the bed and strip himself. you wanted to ask where he was going but wonwoo demanded your attention. your mouths were tangled in a sloppy mess, making out like you would never be able to kiss him again if you separated.

you were separated from him though, by mingyu, who captured your lips and wrapped his arms around you, trapping you against his naked and hot body. wonwoo quickly got undressed and crawled into the bed, propping himself against the headboard and spread himself for the two of you when you were ready. he began lazily stroking his semi-hard cock, watching you and mingyu heavily make out and touching each other.

he soon got tired of just watching and spoke up 'hey c'mon gyu share her and come over here.'

gyu abruptly stopped all movement and turned you around, your back against his hard chest. he wrapped an arm across your chest to hold you to him.

'your so impatient wonwoo.' he said in a sultry tone, pressed to your face, 'i wanna play with her, and tease her a bit. she left us hanging for so long, we should take our time with her.'

mingyu began slowly running the hand not holding you down your plump chest, over your squishy tummy, and through the slit of the towel. his fingers tantalizingly lightly brushed over the skin he exposed. goose bumps rose on your skin as you let out a whine. mingyu just chuckled in your ear as his fingers dipped even lower, brushing over your mound. he moved oh so achingly slow as you felt your pussy throb and nearly start dripping from how turned on and wet you were getting.

he just barely reached where you wanted him, fingers just barely brushing over your folds. the whimpers you let out at just that were absolutely shameful.

'please, mingyu, please.' you nearly sobbed

you heard both boys let out a humourless laugh, enjoying how pathetic you were becoming so quickly.

mingyu then suddenly let go of you, you whimpered at the loss of his heat and your knees nearly let go beneath you. his hands were on you again just as quickly, ripping the towel off of you leaving you completely bare and exposed for the two to ogle. you enjoyed the way they drank you in but you were desperate for their touch. you shivered, causing your breasts, and tummy, to jiggle a little.

wonwoo took in a sharp breath watching them gently bounce, he couldn't wait to get his hands and mouth on them. he moved to the edge of the bed, to pull you into between his knees. his hands gently slid up your waist and up to your breasts. he held them from underneath as his thumbs began to swipe over your pert nipples. you both let out satisfied sighs as he did so.

as wonwoo continued to play with your boobs, gyu gently began caressing down your sides to your hips. he then knelt behind you and began running his fingers up your legs. he was kissing along your waistline, his hands quickly reaching the front of your thighs and ghosting over your mound. a finger found the wet patch and you could feel the smile on his lips that were pressed to your hip.

'your so soaked for us honey, do we affect you this much?' he spoke into the dip of your back.

wonwoos eyes, that had been intently focused on your boobs and his hands playing with them, looked down to where mingyu was delicately running a finger over your slit. your wetness made you pussy shine and you were nearly dripping. when you looked down to see as well, you noticed wonwoos member standing tall, leaking, and twitching, a sign of just how much you also affected him.

'ohh wonnie' you breathed out as you reached for his painful looking cock. he let out a gentle gasp as your hand wrapped around the glistening head. he leaned back on his elbows to watch you work. you slowly run your fingers down the underside of his shaft and admired the way his stomach and thighs twitched and tightened. you continued to work your fingers up and down his length, increasing you grip and speed consistently.

meanwhile gyu watches from behind your hip, still ghosting along your slit. but mesmerized by your tiny hands on wonwoos delicious cock. an idea emerged in his head. he then quickly stood while scooping you up by your thighs, you let out a yelp as you left the ground.

'move up hyung' he demanded to wonwoo. won complied and scooched further in the bed. mingyu then placed you on top of wonwoo, your knees encasing his hips.

'ride him, pretty.' he whispered into your ear.

you moved quickly to follow his instructions. you placed one hand on wonwoos chest and the other lined his cock up to your awaiting hole. you slowly teased the tip at your entrance, slowly sinking down. you began to moan as you feel him deliciously stretch you open. although you've had sex before, it was increasingly obvious that these two would be the biggest you've had. as you were slowly sinking and adjusting to wonwoo, mingyu had climbed onto the bed behind you, you could feel mingyus hard length rub against your back, the size you could guess from the feeling, would need lots of prep, so you were glad you got to take wonwoo first.

once wonwoo was fully sheathed inside you, you sat there taking a few deep breaths. you were feeling overwhelmed both by his size and just the sheer idea that this was happening. you had dreamed of having the two of them many times, used images of them you've seen of them naked to masturbate to many times, afraid they would hear you but also wishing they would and come take you like you wanted. you were living the dream. this was crazy. you let out a breathy laugh.

'whats funny, noona?' mingyu whispered in your ear.

'i just cant believe this is happening.' you spoke softly, almost as if to not break the moment.

'you can have us anytime you want now, kitten.' the playful nickname gained new meaning in this situation.

'i cant believe you haven't moved yet,' wonwoo whined beneath you, his hands gripping your hips so tightly there were definitely going to be bruises tomorrow, he was beginning to sweat and was clearly doing his best to control himself, 'please move or do something sweetheart.'

with that you began to gently roll your hips, both of you let out a sigh of relief, that quickly turned into moans of pleasure. you planted your hands on his chest to help yourself to start moving up and down his shaft. he also helped by lifting you along with the pace you set. he obviously wanted more but was letting you adjust and take your time. your pleasure was quickly building. you hadn't been with someone this big before, and he reached places you didn't know were possible. every stroke felt like heaven, he rubbed your gummy walls so well. you noticed him helping to lift you, and you became self conscious.

you began to slow down as you asked 'am i too heavy won? i shouldn't be on top.' you began to move off him when his grip tightened and he pulled you down on him, making him hit deeper then before, however that was possible you don't know, and you let out a squeal, butterflies going crazy in your stomach, you almost came right then and there.

'don't you fuckin dare go anywhere, pretty. your perfect,' he growled out, 'i need to see you bounce on me and i need to cum in that perfect lil pussy. let me take over, yeah?'

you sat there in shock, mouth hung open, as you'd never heard something so vulgar come out of your sweet wonwoos mouth. you gave a small nod in answer to his question. he quickly got to work and mingyu moved to the side to watch and give him room. he planted his feet on the bed and adjusted his grip on your ass. he lifted you up just enough and began to pound into you. you fell forward with the force but caught yourself on his shoulders. your boobs bouncing beautifully in wonwoos face, he couldn't be happier. he grunted with the effort but he quickly began to moan and whine, his climax quickly approaching.

'are you close, baby? wanna cum with you.' he spoke between moans, his breathing getting heavier.

'yes, yes just a bit more.' you whined out. you got to your elbows, engulfing wonwoo in your neck and breasts, you could feel his smile widen. you began to roll your hips to stimulate your clit against his pubic bone. your whines became higher in pitch, indicating just how close you were.

'yes, i'm cumming, yes, yes.' you cried out as a blinding orgasam washed over you. you continued to moan and whine as wonwoos hips became sloppy and he painted your walls white. your orgasam lasted longer then expected and your hips continued to move along wonwoos. he continued to move with you to help you ride it out. his arms wrapped around your middle to hold you close.

you slowly stopped and collapsed on top on him. your whole body going limp, you felt like you had run a marathon, almost everything ached. you panted into the side of wonwoos face as he rubbed up and down your back and sides. he rubbed his cheek against yours as he laughed. he then peppered kisses over your face, where he could reach.

'you seem exhausted, sweetheart, what about mingyu?' he softly spoke, brushing hair off your forehead that stuck there from the sweat.

you groaned, making your body tense and your pussy tighten, which still had a semi hard wonwoo seated in it. he took in a sharp breath. he moved to remove himself from you, he was far too sensitive.

'sorry won,' you apologized to him, 'and i'm sorry gyu, i dunno if i have the energy. i've never really been on top, others always said i was too heavy, its more work then i thought.' you huffed out, still catching your breath.

'they're stupid.' both boys spoke together. you laughed and tried to move off wonwoo, but your limbs were jelly.

'well i was hoping to have you sit on my face but if you don't have the energy to sit i can eat you out laying down.' mingyu said as he easily lifted you off wonwoo and laid you down amongst the pillows.

'what? no you need to get off too, what'll you do?' you said panicked, somehow his pleasure being your only concern.

'ohh i'll be fine noona.' he whispered as he caged you to the bed, elbows by your shoulders his hands caressing your head, the front of his thighs pressing against the back of yours where he had placed himself between your spread legs, his large leaking cock just resting on your tummy, his large frame looming over you. you were both slightly frightened by his size but also immensely turned on. he was a gentle giant, he couldn't hurt a fly, but he was certainly big enough to scare off anyone. your heartbeat began to quicken once again, your breathing becoming shallower. his eyes roamed over you like you were a prize, they were filled with love and a hungry lust. his smile widened as he leaned down to kiss along your face, leading to your lips. you kissed back feverishly as your hands came up to his sides to run along his ribcage and up to his shoulders. he twitched away from your touch and giggled as your fingers tickled him. you pressed your fingers more firmly into his skin so as to not tickle him again.

you continued your heated kisses as your arms came to wrap around his shoulders. your legs also came up to wrap around his waist and pull him closer. he lowered himself to press against you but still didn't fully put all his weight on you. the position he was in allowed you to feel just how deep his cock could get. just above your belly button, only a little bit deeper then wonwoo. your hips started to move on their own, trying to gain some friction and maybe get him to move as well, maybe move into you. you felt so empty since wonwoo slipped out and gyu would fill you up even more, despite your exhaustion you desperately needed him.

'no, no, sorry noona, i think you need a bit more practice till you can take me, you could barely handle wonwoo hyung.' he spoke softly as he kissed down your face and neck, moving lower and lower, 'i'm gonna make you cum on my tongue and you can have me next time maybe.'

he left open mouthed kisses along your chest, lapping at your breast until he reached a nipple, sucking it into his mouth harshly and laving his tongue over the pert bud. you let out a deep moan and grabbed his hair. his fingers pinched and played with the other nipple, as his other hand roamed your tummy and hip. he groped and squeezed the ample flesh, letting out a groan muffled by the breast that occupied his mouth.

he detached from your boob to speak breathlessly between them, 'your so fuckin perfect noona, please keep your body as it is, i love it so much, we both love every inch of you so much.' he groaned again as he messily made his way to the other nipple, suckling just as harshly. his hips twitched forward trying to find some friction but his lower half was too far from yours, so he just humped the air pathetically. it was cute.

'come on pup, take what you want.' you panted out, more whines falling from your lips as he began to kiss, lick, and bite down your stomach.

once he reached where you both wanted him, he laid flat on his stomach and brought your thighs to rest on his shoulders. his hands fell to your hips, his thumbs rubbing reassuring circles into them. he gave a devilish smile before diving down to kiss down your lower lips. his nose nudged you open as his tongue began to lick and prod at your hole. one hand found his hair again, the other reached for his hand. he quickly locked your fingers together. his gentle prodding quickly got rougher as he became lost in your pussy.

you moaned out from the pleasure, your hips moving at their own accord, rolling into his face to gain more friction. his arm moved to hold your hips down, as he wanted to do all the work. and work he did, his tongue expertly fucking your used hole, gladly lapping up the mixture of yours and wonwoos earlier releases. his nose bumping your clit, giving you just the slightest stimulation but you wanted more. you began to writhe in his strong grasp, your moans turning to whines.

'please my pretty puppy, i need more.' you let out through gasps.

he looked up at you from where he was, a mischievous twinkle in his eye. he smiled against your dripping cunt before moving up and harshly sucking your clit between his lips. he suckled and lapped so expertly and quickly, you jolted from the pleasure and began moaning louder then before. another blinding orgasam was rushing right for you. as much as you tried to move, mingyus grip was stronger. as your cries began to crescendo as they had before he let go of your hand, bringing those fingers to fuck into your hole, his other hand moving to press on the front of your mound, moving both sets of fingers to add more pleasure.

before you could think about what he was doing, your orgasam crashed into you. you saw stars as you squealed out, more high pitch moans followed. through the electricity in your nerves your felt more fluid rushing out of you then there should be. he had made you squirt, something you'd only done twice before and only by your own self pleasuring. you realized now why he had done what he did. you'd seen it a few times in porn but didn't really believe it. mingyu had made you squirt, your first time with him. and he seemed to love it. he continued to feverishly lap at your folds, trying to drink up all your release, wanting to not waste a drop. he was also groaning into you, his hips stuttering into the mattress. he got off on it, fuck that was hot.

'gyu, baby, that's enough. please.' you said as you tried to push his head away, but again his grip was too strong.

'i can do it again, let me do it again.' he slurred out, he was so clearly pussy drunk and wanted so much more.

'please i cant handle another, your too good, i'm too sensitive and exhausted.' you whined as you really tried to get out of his grasp. 'next time you can have more.'

'mingyu, stop.' wonwoo commanded from beside you. he had gently tucked himself against your side, an arm under your head.

mingyu stopped reluctantly, his entire face turning into a pout, a sad puppy. he held eye contact with wonwoo as he tested his limits by giving your lower lips another lick, you cried out bringing his attention to you. tears spilled from the corners of your eyes, you were far to sensitive. when mingyu saw the tears his whole demeanor changed. worry took over his features as he came up to be face to face with you.

'i'm sorry noona, i'm sorry.' he rushed out as he caressed your face and wiped away your tears. 'are you okay?'

'i'm okay, baby, just very sensitive.' you reassured him, bringing your arms around his shoulders and patting his hair. 'you did so good, you both did so good,' you looked between both men, 'almost too good, i've never experienced anything like that before.'

'no one else has made you feel that good?' mingyu asked, a face splitting smile gracing his face, if he had a tail your sure it'd be wagging. the smile was made more ridiculous by your release still shining on his chin, all the way up to his nose. you brought your hand to it to wipe it away. he didn't fully let you, taking your fingers into his mouth to clean them off. then licking around his lips to gather anymore that was left.

he then laid down on top of you, pausing before putting all his weight on you, looking at you for permission. you nodded as you wrapped your tired limbs around him and pulled him onto you. he smiled as he settled into you, molding himself to you. he reached his face to yours to kiss your lips. you gladly kissed back, still tasting yourself on his lips, but that didn't matter.

wonwoo moved to his side, wrapping his other arm around mingyu. he nudged his face into your faces, trying to get in on the kiss. you all giggled as you turned to allow him in, sharing a three way kiss. then you gave each of them a quick kiss, and they gave each other a kiss.

you then lay there, both boys nuzzled into either side of your neck. so warm and happy, you couldn't imagine a better place to be.

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A/N: please feel free to give feedback. this is my first full fic/smut, i'm posting at least, i have several others in the works. literally any feedback is appreciated. thank you for reading and i hope to continue to make fics.

[harmonysanreads]

Current yan mydei brainrot for me is how he would be with someone he clearly can't have, whether due to the flame chase(maybe an attack or just the dangers of having a chrysos heir as a lover), circumstance(like not being from amphoreous), or just plain having other priorities(i.e. the literal apocalypse of the black tide)

He doesn't seem to be the 'if i can't have you, no one can' type to me idk

I've been thinking about this for some time as well! And I think the answer lies in the relationship Mydei has with his immortality. Now, my guess is based on what we currently have on this particular topic as I believe Mydei's exact feelings on his ‘gift’ is not stated anywhere explicitly. But when more information does come out, I think we should still follow that lead.

Mydei is not a linear character at all, you're given a certain first impression of him — that which he presents to most people as well, but slowly discover him to be more than that. If I was to compare, he's definitely more mentally well-adjusted than Phainon, who still struggles to know himself. And the key to this isn't hidden from us either, in Mydei's own words, he can simply endure more hardships than most. You'd expect someone like Mydei to have more of a rebellious opinion but the fact that he chooses endure of all words is important. Because it tells us that one of Mydei's greatest strengths is patience. Or to speak in a more Kremnoan way, tenacity.

Which makes even more sense when you consider his decision to migrate to Okhema, there is no way someone who has a quick temper will be able to execute this properly. A warrior must be adept at knowing when to strike, but a good warrior should not hesitate to retreat when it's required. When faced with something that we really want but can't have, we'll first have to deal with an initial state of yearning. Then a brief stage of inferiority, which typically transitions to frustration towards one's circumstances. From then on, you can either begrudgingly let it go or persist until you've acquired it.

I don't think Mydei is free from this cycle, especially since there's something that he's been denied of since birth. But at least, an undying body has its merits, despite being a curse. So the feelings this situation arises in himself are somewhat manageable. You're far more of a complicated situation, especially due to the reflections you indirectly force himself to face.

I bring all of these up to propose two paths in response to the question, “How will Mydei handle a darling who he clearly can't have?” One is the more obvious choice, letting go completely and enduring the consequences ; just as he's let go of so many things, just as he's endured dying time and time again. The other is letting you go on the surface and waiting, plotting for the perfect opportunity to strike once more.

Mydei does not think himself to be deserving of you at all, let alone other people. But if he sees that the circumstances are such that you're at blatant risk and there's not a single other being capable of ensuring your happiness, he won't hesitate to step up — even if that demands him to play a villain, so to say.

[semihearts]

Flashbacks

Pairing: Nam-gyu x reader

Summary: Thanos and Se-mi help Nam-gyu understand his feelings, and in their own way, they made it work for you two.

AUTHOR’S NOTE: Hope you like this one, feel free to leave suggestions and opinions, sorry for any mistakes!

ꦿᩙ ✿ֵྀ♩

When Thanos spoke to Namgyu about Y/n and his obvious crush, he just scoffed and ignored it. But when he caught himself getting out of his way to help you during Mingle, he knew something definitely wasn’t right.

During lunch time, Namgyu sat on the stairs close to his bed, trying to understand his feelings and deal with them. Out of nowhere Se-mi and Thanos popped up and invited themselves to eat together .

“Bro I didn’t know that saying that shit about Y/n would make you go mental” said Thanos who was already giggling like a high schooler with Se-mi. “Wouldn’t take you for the romantic type but I guess you’re full of surprises” .

‘’You fuckers, tell me at least one time I acted like I was into her or something”. Namgyu said.

“We could make a thread on twitter with all the moments, if I had my phone I swear I would do it”! Semi said, laughing along with Thanos.

“Well, lets start the flashbacks! I say one and then Semi says another”.

- Bro when you changed beds with her because she was afraid of heights and wanted to be closer to the ground.

- When you stopped being an idiot for once and helped her go to the bathroom after one of the guards were denying it after lights out.

- Man!! Remember when you gave her your coat in the middle of the night because she was feeling cold? I bet you thought we didn’t know about this one right?

- Uh lemme think… Oh you tied her shoes before Mingle started.

- Good one Se-mi.. that reminds me that you chose HER to be your duo during Mingle, I had to find someone else to pair up with!!

- Last but not least of our list is… last night you didn’t sleep so you could protect her during lights out. I BET you had no idea that we know about this one too right? You’re cooked Nam-gyu!!

“ Enough shit heads, need to go to the bathroom, bro you comin?”

And just like that both of them went to the bathroom, the problem? They got in the feminine one.

“I told you bro, I don’t fall in love, how does that even work?’

“Nam-gyu my man, you don’t have to understand it, you have to feel it, you know?”

“good one bro- what the fuck-‘

Thanos ran into one of the stalls leaving Namgyu alone, confused he looked behind, and that’s when he saw you.

“ Uh… why are you here’’ ‘’ I don’t know I swear- we were just talking about you-“ “We? We who? And what were you taking about me?” “basically he’s in love with you’ a voice coming from one of the stalls said ( and you definitely knew who it was from).

“ Dude what the fuck?? Ignore him’’.

“ is it true?” “ I mean, I don’t know, they made like a flashback thing and they said stuff that I didn’t even realized, I never really loved someone before and I don’t know how it works-“ “ You don’t have to understand it, you have to feel it-“ “Shut up Thanos!”you both said in unison.

“ Look Namgyu, this isn’t the right place to fall in love but we can try to make this work, what do you think?”

Love is beautiful right? You were about to kiss him when you hear a loud bang coming from the stalls. You both thought that Thanos was leaving the bathroom, but when you looked at him, he went to wash his hands.

“ I swear ill be really quick”.

“Just fuck off bro!!”.

[delis-4-meats]

I've just had the realization...

...that I- *sobs*- I only hyper fixate on doomed from the start ships and I'm kinda pissed about it, so I'm making it everyone's problem.

OKAAAY HERE WE GO!

Merlin and Arthur:

(There are 5 seasons of romantic/sexual(?) tension I need to cover and not enough time so imma just throw shit out there)

Merlin (a sorcerer/wizard/god/Hiccup Haddock) accidentally gets the job of being Prince Arthur of Camelot's manservant... Bro really didn't want the job. At this time in Camelot, sorcery is illegal but what most don't know is that some are born with magic abilities, so they are convicting and executing innocent people. Soooo yeah, living in the same place as a bunch of anti-witch people and being someone who practices/was born with magic abilities, not good. Eventually Arthur and Merlin became inseparable, Merlin throughout the years has been saving Arthur's life without him knowing and trying to change Arthur's opinion on sorcery without outing himself. In the end Arthur dies (In Merlin's arms btw after he proposed to Merlin) and Merlin is doomed to wander the Earth for all of eternity (Because pookie is basically the wizard god and refuses to die until he sees Arthur again) waiting for Arthur to come back. (SOBS MY EYELIDS OFF)

Megatron and Optimus:

(This is just for TFO, I'm not going to get into the burning shit hole that is TFP, IDW, G-1, and every other wonderful universe's Optimus and Megatron relationship)

Besties/Lovers, inseparable, the ideal relationship in a hard, down on your luck life... Then they realized they were slaves and had two ways of going about taking out their terrible tyrant of a leader (Fucking hate Sentinel). Megs going straight to murder and possibly torture in front of all of Icon (Exposing Sentinel in such a harsh, violent way that would've gone against his moral compass in the beginning of the movie). OP though, has a different approach to expose him to the rest of the world (Sure, is taking someone's head and racking their brain for memories kinda violent, yeah. Does it probably hurtless/is less harmful for big space robots then it is for humans, most likely. It was still a little unsettling for me though) and, unlike Megs, wants to imprison him. Megs got lost in his rage and vengeance (Sasuke core) that made him do a whole lot of things he CAN'T take back, even if he wanted to (He doesn't want to. He's so convinced that he knows what he's doing is morally correct and will fix all his pain). OP was hurt badly emotionally at least (My boi has a whooole lot of trauma) and was actually KILLED by Megs, he has a whole WORLD literally forced onto his shoulders with his new position of a Prime and he (A former mining slave with no education) NEEDS to take care of the whole damn thing. On top of that OP was thrown into war with the Quintessons while probably having to deal with terf battles with the Deceptions, controlling potential riots, politics (ew), and supporting a probably failing economy. ("Thanks Primus," said no one ever. Hi, I'm no one.)

Thorin and Bilbo:

(I'm talking about the movies, yes I read the book, but shut up because I like the movies and idc what you say)

Strangers to friends to lovers in little more than a year. Thorin was guarded, stoical, rude, and harsh with Bilbo in the beginning because he thought that Bilbo was too pompous and fragile to help in their treacherous journey. And Bilbo (being the pompous lil boi he is) is scared out of his head, full of wonder of the world outside the Shire (enough sass to fill the Earth like the great flood in da Bible), and was basically forced on said treacherous journey, has feelings for Thorin but they are purely physical and fade quickly because of how rude Thorin is to him (very ungentlemanly for a king if you ask him). But over time Bilbo proves that he's more than his best suit and by the heavens, Thorin. Is. Down. BAD. He can defend himself to a certain extent, hot. He can use his wit to get out of almost any situation, hot. He will give up his word and sacrifice his honor on Thorin's name and honesty, hot as fuck man. They basically have a WHOLE MOVIE with them subtly loving on each other... BUT THEN THORIN GETS THE DRAGON SICKNESS!! He goes crazy over cursed dragon gold, throws out Bilbo, and starts a war. Then after like half the movie, he faces the danger and says 'NO MORE!' to the gold, rallies his troops, wins the war, AND BLEEDS OUT AND DIES!! IN BILBO'S ARMS!! Leaving POOR SWEET BILBO to go home, alone, depressed, and CURSED!! Bilbo comes home and everyone thinks he was dead so they're selling (Stealing) his belongings, his name and reputation is dragged through the mud because he went on an AdVeNtUrE, and he's single for the REST OF HIS LIFE!! (They ruin me... Cries around my suspiciously bagginshield shaped fics & fanart)

Ok, I'm done... For now.

Gonna be honest, doing this made me think of more ships Bdko (iykyk), SkyStar, and Hijack (In a lot of fics that I read anyway) are a few of them.

Might do this again it was a good vent, besides no one's gonna see this anyway.

[scintillyyy]

hmmm i think to me. i do, on a completely logical level, understand and appreciate the read on the drakes where they had a kid out of obligation/because it's considered the done thing for heterosexual couples. it definitely fits with the fact that they did prioritize their own work, desires, and interests over the presence and hard work needed to raising a child.

but mmm in my opinion i don't personally think the obligation angle is like. quite it. as far as i see them. like idk. i definitely think that they were ill-equipped to handle the full responsibilities of parenthood and did make choices that prioritized not inconveniencing what they wanted to do and were ultimately *unskilled* in parenting but to me that in no way to me means that they wouldn't have not chosen to have tim at all with a more accepting heterosexual culture of not having kids. you can tell in the fact that jack, while often failing at the burdens of parenthood, is shown quite often to believe that tim is the best thing that ever happened to him. you can tell in batman #134 where alternate janet expresses great joy that she is alive to meet an alternate version of her son that she is extremely grateful for tim's existence.

and while often regretful parents still do find their children's existence at least worthy, that's genuinely not the vibe i get from the drakes. the drakes have genuine joy in their son's very existence and it's shown quite often how happy they are he's their son. they struggled a lot and did end up failing to fit him into their lives, but at the same time their time is also littered with them trying to fit him into their lives at least a little. tim even says that most parents wouldn't take their kids to the things like the art galleries and operas but his parents took him. i'm not saying that this makes them parents of the year, but these activities normally being something you'd get a babysitter for and them wanting to take tim with them instead indicates to me that they did want to fit him into their lives, they just also struggled a lot to do so. so i think that to reduce it to "they had a kid because society tells you to have kids -> they then didn't actually want to raise said kid" makes sense as something that does happen but i do think that to me. the drakes are a little bit more nuanced than that in their motivations. parenthood, even for the best prepared, is a fundamental upheaval to your life that you might think you're prepared for and then it turns out you're not because of how much it changes your life. you can want something a lot and then ultimately not be able to handle the responsibilities. but that falls under "should the drakes have had a kid/wanted to have a kid knowing they wouldn't be able to handle the struggles that come with the actuality of having one" which is a fundamentally different question of "did they drakes want to have kids or were the obligated to have one". and the drakes probably didn't know they wouldn't be that good at parenting! or that they wouldn't be able to handle it! truly parenting is one of those things where even with all the prep in the world, you truly have no way of knowing how you'll end up until after you've become a parent. so of course they would *want* to have kids. most people who choose to have kids do so thinking they can handle it and wanting it. and it's unfortunate when that ends up not being the case, but it's not so easy as only people who are going to be good at it, do it. that's the inherent tragedy of the drakes, to me. that they wanted tim more than anything in the world. if they went back in time they'd choose to have him again and again and again in any universe. they wouldn't make a different choice at all, if it means tim gets to exist. but that doesn't translate to them being able to handle parenting or beind good or effective at it. and that's the tragedy of their relationship imo. that they will choose him but will ultimately hurt him in that choice of him because of their imperfectness and inability to change themselves for him, who they want so dearly. idk for me the concept of "want" is separate from their capabilities to change for that want. and that's why i don't necessarily see it as an obligation on their part. they'd 100% do it all over again, have him again, have a shitty marriage together, if it means that tim gets a chance to grow into the wonderful person they clearly think he is.

and i always say that we never know the drakes before the circus narratively dooms them. their time at the circus before the deaths of the flying graysons show a normal family who is happy to spend time with each other. the only time we actually see them is after they have been broken beyond repair by the narrative. in fact, in a world without young justice, a universe where tim doesn't become robin and dick grayson doesn't seem to exist ergo they never went to the circus, jack and janet are both shown to be alive and present with tim, living as a normal family. they were fundamentally unable to handle the dooming of the narrative!! they didn't have a kid thinking "oh but what if we go to the circus and see people die, on second thought maybe we shouldn't i don't think i could handle that". they wanted tim! they just. couldn't quite handle everything that happens. that's what's sad. to me.

[aaxzlyte]

please elaborate on the breast size thing

LMFAO OKAY, ANON – i will give you some of my headcanons on this with little to no explanation (only doing gender swapped characters so no characters that are already female and technically have canonical breast sizes since like... we see their breasts)

Light: generally considered to have conventionally attractive looks, but also is a very average person, therefore — C or D

L: definitely has smaller tits and i think she would forgo wearing bras (or any undergarments, though i think she'd prefer to wear boxers/briefs over traditional women's undergarments) whenever she can get away with it (which is always),,, and larger breasts do not allow for such careless behavior tsk tsk — low-scale B or A

Near: very 'petite' person, i think... i also hc Near, in general, to be consistently underweight and obv we already know she is pretty short — AAA maybe AA, if i'm being generous I will give her an A cup

Mello: also smaller than average tits, imo,,, partly bc there is no way she is shoving huge melons into that damn leather she wears all of the time — B

Matsuda: i love her, give her — D or DD

Aizawa: holy mama, this bitch is either flat-chested or huge when it comes to her tits let me be so honest — A or DDD

Ryuk: *taps mic and leans in* Z cups – okay but in all seriousness,,, human, female Ryuk is definitely pretty large, i imagine she'd be pretty tall though fairly slender? he and Rem's torso are suuuuuper wide at the top though — F

Mikami: honestly she definitely has some pretty decently sized tits bc like... c'mon... — DD or DDD

Soichiro: — DD

Mogi: (do you guys think she'd let me call her Mo–) — G

Raye: *sighs* — B or C

Watari: uhhhhh — D or C

Beyond: i hc that her breasts are larger than L, like at least a little noticeably larger,, and that she may have used binding as a way to seem more L-like during the LABB murders,, but she does still give me small tits energy – between a B and C (so basically... BB)

okay that's all hehe – let me know if i missed someone you want to know about bc i love coming up with shit off the top of my head and then letting it become canon in my brain (also i'm open to hearing your guys' opinions about this very serious topic of conversation within the DN fandom),,, also i'll answer questions asking me to elaborate on why i think a certain character is that big or whatever but keep in mind i'm going mostly off of vibes and not much else

also please keep in mind that i am a sucker for small breasts... i love small breasts... cue wistful sighing – this post is not exempt from extreme biases (they're literally my headcanons so that was probably obvious but i'm a chronic oversharer, i fear)

please keep in mind that this is all in good fun and just a headcanon,,, please don't start arguments over the size of a character's breast – it would be hilarious but exhausting !!

[themiraculouschatnoirblog]

After finally catching up on Miraculous Tales of Ladybug & Chat Noir, here are (some of) my thoughts:

Wow, the writers' need to put Adrien/CN through the wringer for no reason continues, huh?

Marinette should absolutely NOT be lying to Adrien, but I understand why she's doing it. Still not happy abt it tho.

Marinette should not have made everyone in the team a permanent holder. This is purely a selfish opinion bc I just enjoy the show much, much more when it's LB and CN against the world.

What's with making Alya the next guardian without even the thought of discussing it with CN?????

Adrienette have officially taken over MariChat as my favorite love square ship. They're just TOO ADORABLE!!!

The new animation is good! My only complaint, much like everyone else, is Adrien. I hope that what I heard about Astruc's reasoning behind his design are the truth (which, from what I understand, are essentially that he didn't get new clothes "for a reason" and his hair is flat bc he's depressed) and that it'll change later on. But anyway, they're supposed to be older, yet Adrien got more baby fat? Make it make sense?! I do like Chat's new look though... for the most part...

Is it just me or is Adrien less of a main character in s6 than he ever has been before? Idk, obv Werepapas had a good amount of Adrien-focus but something just feels different. I feel like we barely saw him in the other eps...

Gabriel might actually be the worst fictional father ever. Okay that's probably not true... but he's gotta be up there!

I don't like that we got introduced to these "anti-kumas" so early on after gaining the ability of being able to use their powers an unlimited amount. And how CN's been the only one hit so far...

On the same topic, I don't like that ALL the heroes have unlimited use of their powers. I thought we'd have at least one thing that made our 2 main heroes more powerful but I guess not.

I also don't like CN being treated as just another teammate so far. Obv there's not much to go off of yet, but I just feel like there's nothing LB's done that separates him from the rest of the team despite their supposed relationship as partners. Kinda a let down, esp when remembering their scene at the end of the London special. "Like old times" my butt.

That's all for now, but I may add more to this later.

<3

[dukeofankh]

There is something very odd and nebulous happening with language around the Trump administration that I think is bad, but obviously it's kind of a bird's eye analysis of a landscape that has a lot of variability. It's not gonna be universally applicable. Do not Bean Soup me.

Put simply, the discussion of the "flood the zone," "shock and awe" strategy employed by the Trump administration is starting to shift into something much less useful and accurate, in my opinion.

Like, obviously it is preferable, from the administration's perspective, that you feel too overwhelmed and attacked to do anything. That is true. But this has kind of bled into the concept of things being done as a "distraction" until we reach a place in the discourse where like...

People do get that the point of the Trump Administration isn't to make them feel bad, personally, right?

Like, there is a distinct strain of "own the libs" messaging, to be sure, but that is largely to shore up support among their own base. You, whichever marginalized identity or even just vague progressiveism you represent, are serving the same role that the Jews and Communists and Queer people served the Nazis. They just need a scapegoat, someone weak they can defeat to look strong and convince their base that something is being done. Making you feel bad is not, actually, the point.

But I see people saying that all manner of full blown legislative actions are "just a distraction", that "they just want to overwhelm you". And like...no. Trump does have goals. He is attempting to reorder the power structure of the globe, smash and grab and extort and put himself on top of, at the very least, North America, with Europe possibly pawned off to Russia to play with and with China contained as much as possible.

As part of that, yeah. They are attempting to eliminate the entire current civil government of the United States and replace it with one fully loyal to Trump so that when he inevitably refuses to accept the results of the next election, they wont remove him from power. This is all part of it.

The idiocy isn't an attempt to make you personally feel bad. I am trying to find a way to kindly tell you that you need to get over your main character syndrome and realize that they are not overthrowing the faux-peaceful post-war order of the globe to give you anxiety.

Take the Gulf of America thing. Was it just a "flood the zone" distraction? No. That doesn't mean it was a diabolical master plan, either. It was a symbolic spit in the face of Mexico, a country that they will almost definitely be invading within the next few years now that cartels are officially designated as foreign terrorist organizations. It also serves as a loyalty test. Google and Apple had to show that they are willing to go along with anything, no matter how stupid. They were. The Associated Press refused, and they've been barred from press access to the White House as a result. There will be hundreds of tests like this, and the punishments for being a normalass person will get progressively harsher and harsher.

Don't confuse the way that these actions make you feel, and the benefits that the administration wants from the way you feel, to lead you to the mistaken conclusion that these events are part of a huge plot, the entire purpose of which is to make you sad. Those feelings have no purpose. They aren't a victory for them if they trigger them in you, they aren't their goal, and they aren't something that you have to push down "or they win" or something.

Don't get sad. Get angry. Because they have a goal, and it's way, way worse than your anxiety.

[hazbin-reimagined]

I am going to make Charlie Morningstar fat. Pear-shaped, even. To visually communicate her soft and bubbly personality.

I also plan to base her more off of Leslie Knope from Parks and Rec, bc to me Charlie is just the Disney Princess version of Leslie. Charlie is very politician-coded in the show and I think if she were approached similarly to how the writers for Parks and Rec approached Leslie, she would be more engaging.

I also think Husk and Ron Swanson have a lot of potential similarities, and I want to explore them more (like how they’re both grumpy old men who hate the system and have very set opinions on things. Also theyre both doom-preppers. Husk has low-key doom prepper energy so I’m going to make him a doom-prepper, at least a little.)

Back to Charlie, I want her to have more focus on her mom as an inspiring figure to her, similarly to how Leslie Knope looks up to her own array of powerful women in politics and history. Because Lilith being missing/gone is so integral to the plot of season 2, it would bear saying that there should be more buildup of Lilith as a person besides just the exposition in episode 1; to set up expectations to either be met, or thwarted. Imagine how much more impactful it would be if we heard Charlie say all these empowering things about her mother, only for her mother to be completely different in reality. This would also show how Charlie looks at her mother through rose-tinted glasses, just as she looks at everything else in hell. The realization that her mother is not everything she believed her to be would shatter her, making for great character conflict.

More Leslie Knope and Ron Swanson example gifs under the cut 👇

[low1key]

: ̗̀➛ ALICE IN BORDERLAND

NIRAGI SUGURU ---------------------------------------------------------

Niragi is a complicated character; in his backstory, we learn that he was bullied; the bullies threw balls with baseball at him, he had to eat rice mixed with their urine if he moved, and most likely, they did more humiliating things to him for no real reason. this made him wonder later in the show if they hated him because they saw how messed up he was from the start or if he became this way because of them. after the bullying, he drastically changed his appearance because he thought the only way to end the misery of his life was to change. the bullies made him believe that people like him deserved to be bullied, and because of them, he started to become sadistic, just like they were.

in Borderlands, he started as one of the martial sector members of the beach. this put him in a higher position than the usual members and allowed him to use the guns the beach offered. of course, this made him very confident, and he was consumed by the thought that he could now do whatever he wanted to whomever he wanted. most of his actions there were just sadistic and crazy things he did to enjoy his time better. however, when he saw one of the scared guys while aiming at him, niragi reminded himself of the bullying, which shows that he’s still not over it.

with Usagi: on the beach, he only wanted to sa her because of his god complex at that time. in the manga, she calls him out for being pathetic and alone; in the show, she bites his tongue piercing instead, which specifically comes from the bullies who told him to pierce his own tongue. in both, she reminds him that he’s actually a loser and that he won’t change it, which makes him anxious around her since she reminds him of the bullies. when they met in Osmosis, he initially acted pretty sane, came with the idea of balance (pairing the weaker with the stronger person instead of arisu). it’s not surprising since he is the best at diamonds and is very intelligent, after all. as mentioned, he acted pretty nice for himself because of arisu, whom he felt safe around, and of course, he wanted to win that game. everyone seemed okay with him besides usagi; she was the only one who didn’t want to touch him and was disgusted by him. he couldn’t understand why she was disgusted when he was nice and actually behaved like any other person, which again reminded him of the bullying and put him in a defensive mode. for him, the only way to feel safe was to attack first, so he again tries to sa her. he even asked her, "am I really that disgusting? everyone looks at me that way"—everyone—(bullies).

after Osmosis, when he wandered around in the show, he just saw a guy on the side of the road, but in the manga, he found him in the church. there, the man tried to take his own life but failed. he lay there with a Bible by his side,niragi started reading it, and stated he was the opposite of God, since everybody loves and follows Him, while everybody hates him and hopes to not be him also made fun of the guy for trying to khs. this was, at least in my opinion, the moment when he lost all his sanity; he was comparing himself to the devil, and i think he really believed that, even though the truth is that he’s still the same person—the same “loser.” Arisu and Chishiya - after ,he finds them and begin shooting so they can all be together forever. his sanity was at its lowest, and he wanted them to experience the same madness he did—to bring them to his level. this is also why he laughed when Arisu beat him up in Osmosis; he loved to see Arisu behaving as shitty as he was. but Arisu declares that he will not shoot, bravely exposing himself from cover and talking about change, ruining his mood. then Usagi appears, and Niragi, convinced she is the reason Arisu "wants to leave him," tries to shoot her, screaming that he doesn't want to be alone anymore. they were the only people he had. however, as we know, he shot Chishiya instead because of his sacrifice. then he tells Arisu that they're in a better spot because they were always viewed as normal and didn't suffer like he did - they are the majority - but if there were more "weird" people on Earth, he would be the norm, and then arisu would be seen as the devil (the weirdo) in the eyes of others instead.

with Tatta, Niragi basically hates himself, and Tatta reminds him of the "loser" side he despises. He let his anger out on Tatta and isn't genuinely happy they won because of him. as i mentioned before, he believes people like him should be bullied and are worthless, so the thought of such a loser saving his life gets him mad.

his strong will to live after all the events he went through is evident; Niragi just wanted to stop the suffering. he desired a better life and usually engaged in activities he thought would make him feel better—first being sadistic and trying to forget who he really is to keep Arisu and Chishiya with him forever, as only they could understand him. in the end, aside from the mental suffering, all his body must have been hurting from the shooting and burning, and it was the only moment i truly felt bad for him. even if the world seemed to want him dead, he still wanted to live so badly, no matter how much he was hurting.