#at least he’s trying to watch cnn lol

[celestie0]

he be watching cnn

ihm gojo would vote for kamala

[makeste]

BnHA Chapter 313: Deku VS Lady Nagant

Previously on BnHA: Hawks’s super-hot badass murder senpai Lady Nagant showed up to fire a cupid’s arrow into my heart, and a bunch of literal bullets into my son. Deku was all “oh shit it’s Hawks’s super-hot badass murder senpai, what do I do, let me think back to Hawks’s advice for a sec.” Flashback!Hawks was all “anyway Deku so if my super-hot badass murder senpai ever shows up you’re basically screwed so you’d better abscond the fuck out of there.” Present!Deku was all “lol idek why I flashed back to that conversation since I’m just going to do the exact opposite of what Hawks said” and charged directly toward Nagant because WHY NOT. Overhaul was all “waah I need to get back to my boss who I put in a coma out of love” and Nagant was all “jesus christ why did I even bring you here” and had a flashback to AFO who was all “ILU NAGANT IMMA GIVE YOU AN EXTRA QUIRK SO PLEASE CAPTURE DEKU FOR ME PLEASE AND THANKS” and yeah. Shit is all over the place right now and I love it.

Today on BnHA: All Might gets attacked by a pair of discount assassins and is all “Call an ambulance! ...BUT NOT FOR ME” and it’s really badass but also I really wish he would stop tempting fate like this. Lady Nagant is all “[casually flies around town shooting shit]” and I’d be lying if I said I wouldn’t read an entire chapter of just that. Deku is all, “[gets shot (≥_<)]” and releases a giant Smokescreen which prompts En to show up. En is all, “( •᷄⌓•᷅ ) (⌣̀ Δ⌣́) ( •̀_•́ )σ (¬､¬) (눈_눈)” which I consider to be a high point of both the chapter and of my life. The chapter ends with Deku using the Third’s quirk to launch a bunch of random objects at Nagant so that he can jump up and grab her arm all sneaky-like, and I’m sure this is going to prompt another week’s worth of discourse that I don’t care about at all, but fuck it, I’m having a good time.

OH WE’RE CUTTING BACK TO ALL MIGHT WELL THAT’S NICE I GUESS. CONGRATS ON NOT BEING DEAD

you named your car??

you named it Hercules??

I love you so much??

please marry me you giant fucking dork???

lmao speaking of huge fucking dorks

who the fuck are you clowns. la dee da we’re gonna murder All Might with our synchronized spear attack!! I mean... they’re clearly trying their best... maybe I should just be nice and politely hype them up like All Might is so clearly trying to do

like okay, but we all agree that this is actually the least intimidating attack any of us has ever seen, right?? these guys zipped up their hoodies all serious-like and are trying to attack All Might and Hercules with their Walmart tiki torches, but just, no?? right?? like the only way this could possibly be effective is if they were trying to kill All Might with secondhand embarrassment

“those are assassins” this is a VERY generous assessment, All Might

OH MY GOD THE TIKI TORCHES ACTUALLY KILLED THE FUCK OUT OF HERCULES

[slaps roof of car] this baby can fit so many weaponized festive backyard lighting solutions in it

and yet, even after watching this with my own two eyes, I still can’t take these dudes seriously. idek what it is. anyways r.i.p. Hercules, I loved you a lot but I guess you weren’t actually a very good armored car were you

omg they didn’t know it was All Might??

okay 1) for a moment there I was like “oh hey maybe they’re not so bad after all” but then a moment later it was like “ah nope, they are.” like, that was an interesting .06 second emotional journey there. anyways 2) All Might you have my permission to kick their asses for this disrespect, and 3) anyone else all of a sudden getting “wouldn’t this be an interesting time for Stain to suddenly show up” vibes?? no?? just me???

(ETA: hmm tbh I’ve still got those vibes and they haven’t gone away lol. Stain?? you out there buddy?? do you want to be cool for just once in your life. ball’s in your court pal.)

OH SNAP ALL MIGHT ARE YOU REALLY GONNA DO IT ARE YOU GONNA KICK THEIR ASSES

PROTECTIVE DAD MODE ACTIVATED?? BECAUSE YOU KNOW I’M HERE FOR THAT SHIT, SO YEAH, FEEL FREE

omg he’s shouting at them about how much Deku has suffered lmao and they’re just like falling over from being scolded

so they have absolutely no idea what he’s talking about though, right? “SIR THIS IS A WENDY’S” well whatever, you killed his pet car so he’s in a bad mood now

OH MY GOD

LIKE, JUST SO WE’RE ALL CLEAR, THESE FOUR PAGES SO FAR HAVE MADE ALMOST ZERO SENSE. LIKE MAYBE 2% SENSE TOPS. BUT ASK ME IF I CARE. GO AHEAD AND ASK. I SAID GO AHEAD, IT’S OKAY. ...NO I DON’T CARE AT ALL THANK YOU FOR ASKING

(ETA: also, the more I look at this panel, the more I’m just like, why the hell would you phrase it like that though, sob. way to doubly tempt fate?? are you trying to give Horikoshi a challenge??)

and now back to Deku who is randomly bouncing around the city and narrating it to himself just in case he was confused about why he was doing this

who are you talking to Deku. but thanks we appreciate it

man you gotta love that overconfidence. the smartest guy in the world warned you away from this lady, so SURE, LET’S RUN RIGHT UP TO HER. “I APPRECIATE YOUR INPUT, FLASHBACK!HAWKS, BUT I’LL TAKE IT FROM HERE” well okay then!!

I think it would be funny if RHA.com put little Buzzfeed-style polls in between the chapter pages so they could survey people at random intervals as they read their way through the chapter. like, you finish this page and then there’s a little poll there asking “do you think Deku’s plan of catching up to Lady Nagant and finding out where Shigaraki is will work?”, and you click “no” just like everyone else and then nod as the results show that 97% of your fellow readers also picked “no”, and you chuckle to yourself wondering how many of the 3% accidentally clicked on the wrong option by mistake, and then you keep on reading

ANYWAY, SO

HOW’S THAT PLAN WORKING OUT FOR YOU SO FAR DEKU. nice kick, though!!

omggggggg

ouch

update: Deku’s plan not really working out. sources tell me my boy has been fucking shot. this is an ongoing story and we will keep you posted with the latest developments as they come in

wait what

feel free to explain to the rest of us what all of this “UNLESS...” and “THAT POSSIBILITY...” shit means anytime, Deku

oh lol did he realize she could fly??

BREAKING NEWS UPDATE, CNN’s John King reports that Deku is still fucked. eyewitness reports now coming in that Nagant is doing no-look shots and basically not even giving a fuck. sources described her mannerisms and expression as “sexy, but in like an effortless sort of way.” we will continue to bring you the latest

so now there’s basically an entire page of Deku being all “ah fuck so she’s basically closing in and she could already hit me with impossible accuracy even from Far Away, so if that’s the case then her being Up Close is probably going to be even worse!” making good use of that Big Hero Brain there, Deku

so now what, you’re doing some kind of spiraling kick thing?? how is that going to help

oh lol he’s using Smokescreen to create some cover. aww, good for you Deku you named one of your Smokescreen attacks

OH NO LADY DON’T TELL ME AFO DIDN’T EVEN FILL YOU IN ON THE BASICS

seriously, AFO?? you basically told her what Deku’s exact strategy was going to be but then couldn’t be assed to drop that little, small, barely notable piece of knowledge that Deku is rocking multiple quirks?? is it supposed to be a secret or something?? you dropped the ball here man

damn this is getting intense now

(ETA: the way En is poking Deku’s head in that first panel is fucking sending me, I love this guy so much omg.)

well then what are you planning, Deku?? I’m actually really curious!! I am genuinely starting to be invested in this fight scene not only in the “wanting to see who wins and how that impacts the plot” sense, but also in the “wanting to see how it happens because the choreography and strategy is actually pretty cool” sense, which honestly hasn’t happened for quite a while now! this is fun

anyway so what’s up Deku, are you going to use another quirk?? I’ve been speculating that he hasn’t actually unlocked the last two yet (since Two and Three didn’t exactly seem convinced when we last saw them), but maybe I’m about to be proven wrong

(ETA: well he clearly has Three’s obviously, but Two’s is still MIA, and that’s the one I am of course the most curious about. that’s the one we’re all curious about, let’s be real.)

OH SNAP???

AHHHH I’M HYPED LOL. ANOTHER SHINY NEW QUIRK LOL SHOULD I PUT UP THE USUAL DISCOURSE DISCLAIMER

(ETA: so yeah, after thinking on it, I’m not gonna say “please no Deku discourse on my blog” this week, but I probably will ignore any discourse that does come my way though, just because I don’t have much interest in getting involved in what would probably be a pretty repetitive discussion. like, I can just sum up my opinions (which is what they are) here instead. in fact here they are lol:

1) I like the SIXQUIRKS and I like seeing Deku be a badass.

2) I also don’t think Deku is too OP. more like he’s exactly as OP as he needs to be at the moment, given that we’re approaching the end of the series. I expect the other kids will also be pretty damn OP when we see them fight again. we’re just at that point now where they’re all badasses (as well they should be; they’ve grown a lot and they deserve it). it’s just that Deku’s the one we’re getting to see right now.

3) of course I miss Kacchan and the others, but for me this vibes much closer to the MVA arc where even though I missed them, I was still having a blast (as opposed to the dark days of the Basement arc where I was pretty much losing it lol). like, even though Kacchan’s my favorite, I still love Deku a lot and this arc has been amazing for him getting to shine on his own (for like the first time, really).

4) y’all know I love the OFA plot and I’ve never been shy about that lol. I like all of the Vestiges a lot. Banjou and his over the top personality; En and his “guy you thought would be serious and :| all the time but is actually hyper-animated and ALL OVER THE PLACE” energy; Shiro who actually is a :| sort of guy lol; Three who I still expect will be fleshed out in a more detailed flashback at some point; and of course Two, who, well. you know what I think about him lol. Bakuverse is still on the table and I’m still hyped. I don’t think it’s a coincidence that we still have yet to see Two actually talk to Deku (as opposed to talking to the other Vestiges while Deku is distracted). did he lend him his power yet?? or is he still holding out?? either way it’s definitely going to be a Big Thing when it finally happens and I can’t wait to see it.

5) Lady Nagant is Everything and just because Deku grabbed her arm doesn’t mean the fight is over yet lol. Overhaul hasn’t come into play yet either. not to mention that even if the fight is over, the “where do we go from here” part still has me excited either way. her connection to Hawks and the HPSC is very intriguing and we’ve barely touched on that as of yet; she definitely has more of a role to play in this.

6) last but not least, I feel like every week the discussion is all about how much focus Deku’s getting, and how OP he is or isn’t, and OFA this and OFA that, but meanwhile I’m actually so invested in the character development here though?? the way Deku has distanced himself from everyone (except for the Vestiges, because of course they’re already dead so it’s not like they can die again lol)?? the way he’s pushing himself far too hard and we can see the shadows in and under his eyes, and the fact that he never smiles, and even All Might has remarked on how he isn’t taking care of himself at all?? the fact that he’s so single-mindedly obsessed with focused on stopping AFO?? the fact that he’s still the same sweet old Deku despite everything and was so kind to that fox lady with the umbrella, but there was also something so sad about that scene because it felt like a reminder of the type of hero that he wants to be, but that he’s not allowed to be right now?? because the stakes are too high and the world is falling apart?? and he feels like he’s the only one who can do something about it?? and that he has to be?? and that he is putting so much pressure on himself right now, and it’s absolutely too much pressure for any one person to bear, and I feel like no one is fucking talking about this lol goddammit.

anyway so yeah. I have feels about this, and every week that slow-burn angst is getting more and more intense behind the scenes, and I feel like it’s all going to hit a breaking point eventually. sooner rather than later. it really feels like a mirror of Katsuki’s post-Kamino arc. where all that angst was just churning below the surface for like twenty chapters and then it finally was like “okay it’s time” and it all came bursting out and we got the best five chapters of the fucking series (in my admittedly biased estimation lol).

basically, I know that most of fandom is billing this as either the “villain hunt” arc or the “solo Deku SIXQUIRKS fighting arc” or whatever. but for me, it’s always been and still is the Deku Angst arc lol. the cool fights are a sexy bonus (the worldbuilding less so because even though it’s interesting to see society at such a low point, it’s also very depressing and gets old pretty fast), but for me the thing that’s really keeping me engaged chapter after chapter is seeing Deku like we’ve never seen him before. seeing him all quiet and withdrawn and brooding and focused on AFO, AFO, AFO, and seeing that “he just doesn’t take himself into account” mentality taken to extremes. I am invested in that. I’m soaking up that angst each and every week, and I’m invested in seeing what comes of it. it’s a big picture thing. week to week this arc might just seem like a bunch of villain fight scenes, sure. but Deku’s emotional journey is the thread that’s going to carry this arc through from beginning to end, and for that I’m willing to be patient.

anyway that turned into a BIG OL’ RANT there but yeah! so those are my thoughts on the disk horse as it currently stands. and like I said, I’m open to discussion, but tbh I will probably just wind up repeating these same talking points endlessly so just a fair warning lol.)

anyway so Three says Deku has yet to use his quirk at ALL but now he’s trying to combine it with another quirk?? damn. also please check out En’s face here you guys

En launching a sneak attack up my favorite character list by the sheer power of his expressions alone. he really knows how to make the most of his screentime

OH DAMN DEKU

at this point the 3% from that hypothetical poll earlier are starting to feel prettttty damn smug, I’ll bet. well shit

what in the fuck

?? so like releasing his chi or whatnot?? isn’t that basically just like base OFA all over again?? also Deku did you seriously just apologize to Gran’s cape

update: Nagant has turned her eyeball into a gun

hm. hmmmmmmm. ...okay yep, still somehow sexy

anyway so she’s just floating up there building suspense, as one does. lord I sure hope she has good reflexes because something tells me she’s going to need them

OH SNAP HE THREW GRAN’S CAPE AS A DECOY WHAAAAT OKAY THAT’S SOME SMART SHIT DEKU

LOL SHE’S MAD NOW

JESUS CHRIST SHE JUST NEVER TAKES A GODDAMN BREAK FROM BEING AWESOME HUH

DEKU ARE YOU JUST THROWING EVERY DAMN THING IN YOUR INVENTORY

but without the cape and the hood how will you continue to look like an enigmatic badass. you really can’t. which means we might finally be moving on from the wandering nomad part of this arc, stay tuned

LOL YOU MANIAC

I hope he went full Kacchan with the dialogue there. his face sure looks like it lol. popped out of a building all mad fdskljlkj omg

well this was fun, shit. I still have basically no idea what Three’s quirk does though lol. like, can he use it to charge up objects with kinetic energy or something?? but then what was all of that talk about combining it with one of the other quirks?? or was that just because he was using Smokescreen at the same time??

(ETA: having seen and read an additional half-dozen explanations of Three’s quirk, I can say with confidence that I still have basically no idea what it is or does.)

anyway so!! Deku is a badasssssss but something tells me not to count Nagant out just yet even so. also I really enjoy seeing Deku flip out on people like he doesn’t have a fucking hole in his torso because it reminds me of A CERTAIN SOMEONE and I always love to see him channeling that feral energy; I feel like it’s been a while

anyways good luck to you both!! I truly wish that both of you could win. but if not, then maybe you can at least become friends instead. you have so much in common, you both can fly and have multiple quirks and you’re both badasses, and plus it would just be really funny to see the look on Hawks’s face lmao

[singingaboutwishingx]

tww present-day headcanons

okay obviously this is like... if we ignore the offset election years and the mysterious disappearance of the bushes and no 9/11 and that little point in time where santos and obama would have overlapped and the fact that no WAY would the voters have put democrats in the white house for like almost 20 years. anyway, just suspend your disbelief lol

(also quick little disclaimer: i’m still figuring out my feelings about this administration--the real-life one, not the bartlet one. i, as always, don’t mean to glorify/girlbossify/stan politicians, etc. i’m also not trying to bully any members of any generations, simply making statements based on my observations of the world around me).

josh and toby co-wrote a series of op-eds for the washington post that absolutely read 45’s administration for FILTH

congressman will bailey is having absolutely none of marjorie taylor green’s shit. he was throwing verbal hands on any news show that would take him for weeks.

someone made a post about donna being a regular guest on news shows and i don’t remember who it was, but anyway donna shows up on rachel maddow at least once or twice a month

liz divorced doug (that one’s just personally important to me) and is regularly dragging the shit out of ted cruz on twitter because we KNOW she can

charlie and zoey have a youtube channel where they answer questions about politics (both about the political process and current events). they try to keep it as non-partisan and strictly informational as they can.

jed starts a podcast (honestly, how could he not?). every episode is him talking about a different niche topic for 30-60 minutes. liberal gen xers and older millennials think it’s the best thing to ever happen. #unclejed is trending on twitter for a couple days after the first episode

molly and huck have a moderate amount of tiktok clout and they literally ask their parents every single day if they can adopt claudia conway because they are Concerned about her

cj and jenn psaki have a little moment on twitter and huffpost and/or buzzfeed writes an article titled something like “passing the torch: former wh press secretary sends jenn psaki her love on twitter”

there’s a little portion of leftist tiktok teens/twenty-somethings that are like “josh lyman is a war criminal but holy shit he was/is hot”

ABBEY BARTLET-DR. FAUCI TEAMUP!!! there’s an ad that plays absolutely everywhere where they tell you to wear your mask and wash your hands, and they zoom into a few major news shows

less public ellie bartlet-dr. fauci teamup!!! she’s helping with research from home because of her kids and she’s killing it

kate became a foreign affairs correspondent for cnn and there’s this Look she gives the camera (for context, she was talking about how 45’s treasury secretary went to saudi arabia to speak with the crown prince even AFTER he supposedly murdered that journalist) that instantly becomes a reaction gif. there’s at least one tweet or something that’s like “found the female jim halpert on cnn” with her gif and one of his side-by-side

this might be a hot take but i think ainsley voted for clinton (sorry going back a little ways) because she was def supporting, like, john kasich or someone in the primaries, but she can’t fucking stand 45 and thought that someone with absolutely no political experience whatsoever had no damn right to hold the presidency. i mean, listen, she hated clinton, but what else was she supposed to do, not vote? she becomes a very vocal critic and she’s one of the ones that’s like “this isn’t what the republican party stands for”

sam, who was double-masking before it was cool, is just home writing the novel we all know he was meant to write. he’s less involved with politics. there’s a direct correlation between how much news he watches and how high his blood pressure is. he’s compromised with himself by watching rachel maddow every night (mostly in hopes of seeing donna) and nothing else. besides, josh would text him if it was something REALLY important.

[purplesurveys]

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survey by xflirtykaosx

Alphabetti Spaghetti (1/3)

And we will fall in love with shooting stars. - A

Have you ever seen an Aardvark? I don’t think so.

Were you ever abandoned in a public place as a child? Where? Abandoned is a pretty harsh word lol. My parents did like playing pranks on me and hide whenever I’d get distracted at the grocery or department store. They’d let me get nervous or even tear up for a bit until showing up again.

What accent do you have? I guess just your standard Filipino English accent that’s common among people who were able to take up English studies. I don’t really know how to describe it.

Is there someone in your family addicted to something? What is it? I don’t think so.

Have you ever been under general anaesthetic? What were you having done? I think so? When I had a tooth extraction done on me two years ago I was told I was going to be injected with anaesthesia, but I didn’t feel as if anything changed throughout the procedure. Either my dentist told me fake news lol or he’s just really good at his job for me to not notice anything.

How do you show the ones you love affection? It depends on the person. Around my friends, I know I’ve had taken a liking to them once I start getting especially talkative with them. For people I have even deeper relationships with, I like...buying them gifts, I guess. Getting them things that remind me of them. I would also bend over backwards to do nice deeds for them, like driving them to their destination even if I find it far.

Are you more passive or aggressive? I tend to be very passive aggressive in the way I deal with things.

Do you like the band Aha!? Not in particular.

Do you know anyone called Aidan? What are they like? Nope.

Ever heard of the band Ajax? No but I know that’s a brand of like cleaner or something. That’s close enough to ‘band’ haha.

Do you know anyone called Akash? I don’t either.

Do the sound of fire alarms scare you? They would obviously be scary if it rang for a real reason. Who wouldn’t freak out over a fire?

Do you live in America? If so, which state? If visited, where'd you go? No, and I’ve never visited either. I’d love to take a trip to cities like New York, New Orleans, Portland, and Chicago one of these days.

Have you ever had an ant infestation in your house? Only when there’s food left out accidentally.

Aora - did I spell that correctly? I don’t even know what you’re referring to, so I can’t tell you if you’ve spelled whatever it is right.

Do you have a preference in Apple? What type do you prefer? I don’t quite get this question - like a preference within Apple products? I mean, a phone and a laptop are essentials for me, and generally I do prefer having an iPhone and Macbook over other brands; but I can live without an iPad, an Apple Watch, iMac, Apple Pen, etc...if this is what you mean.

Are you an Aquarian? Is anyone in your family/your partner/best friend? ...You mean Aquarius? No. I don’t believe in astrology nor pay attention to zodiac signs either, so I wouldn’t be able to name Aquariuses that I know right off the bat.

Have you ever worn any type of armor? Which type? I don’t think I’ve ever had to, no.

Do you use the word ass a lot? Kinda, but it’s usually part of a longer word, i.e. asshole, asshat, deadass, etc.

Have you or your family had an attorney? What for? Not to my knowledge.

Is your car/family’s car an automatic gear or manual? Automatic.

Are you interested in aviation, piloting and aircrafts? Just the slightest bit. I would love to learn how to fly a plane, and I would be willing to pay for lessons. It’s just the type of activity that’s super hard to squeeze into an already-hectic schedule of mine.

What was the last award you recieved for? A academic distinction in college.

Axl Rose - like or dislike? Like, but I’m nowhere near a passionate fan. I just don’t have any reasons to actively dislike him.

Do you like air being spelt ayre or ayer in rap or hiphop or is it nasty? I don’t care.

Is the sky outside Azure? If not, what shade is it? No, it’s pitch black.

Belle amour (we've been here before). - B

Do you call anyone baby? Is it sweet or an overrated name for affection? Just my dogs. I find it sweet; it’s my preferred term of endearment if in a relationship.

Bby - does this shortened version bug you? No; my friends and I use this with each other.

Do you know what BC in terms of time stands for? Before Christ, but I prefer using BCE.

BDf - For or against? I don’t know what this is referring to.

Do you prefer beach breaks, city breaks or winter breaks? Why? Beach breaks. Winter break is an immediate cross-out since we don’t even have winter; and I already live and work in an urban area as it is. Beaches are my way to go if I want to escape life for a bit and completely unwind.

Do you spell out boyfriend properly or put bf in texts/online? I can use either depending on what I feel like typing out. It’s not that serious haha.

Do you know what bg is short for? Upon reading this question I immediately thought ‘background,’ but if this question had another meaning in mind I wouldn’t be aware of it.

Do you know anyone with the last name Bhays? No.

Have you ever been bird watching? What did you see? No, doesn’t sound like my kind of hobby.

Do you like Bjork? Not in particular, but just like the Axl Rose question I don’t have anything against her either.

What does this read: bk 2moz miss u lyk fk. Doesn't this text speak annoy? No one types like this anymore at least among people I know, but I imagine it would lowkey bother me a bit.

Do you like BMWs? They’re whatever. I don’t pay attention to cars much.

What is the nearest book to you called? How many times have you read it? There aren’t any books here up on the rooftop.

BnQ - gone there? What did you buy? Idk what that is.

Are you more brainy or brave? I wanna say brainy, if anything? I’m pretty jumpy lol.

Did you like the BSBs (Backstreet Boys) as a kid? How about now? No, I’m a little too young for that generation of artists and groups.

Burgers, Hot Dogs or Salads at a Barbecue? We don’t really practice ~barbecues~ here. But at Filipino parties I would usually flock to lumpia and fried chicken, hehe.

Do you have a Byro? No, because I also don’t know what that is.

Cold eyes and filthy lies all leave me petrified. - C

Do you have a Cactus (Cacti)? No, I don’t like plans.

Do you know what a CCTV is? Yes...?

How many CDs are in the room you are currently in? None where I am right now but I have all of Beyoncé’s albums save for Lemonade in my bedroom. I also have Paramore’s self-titled album and Hayley Williams’ Petals For Armor. My CD collection is about to experience a revival because of BTS, though. My plan to get all versions of all their albums is rock solid, lmao.

What's your favourite cereal brand? Cookie Crisps.

Do you like children's TV shows still? Which one(s)? I’ll revisit an episode or two of shows I watched as a kid at a given time for old times’ sake, but I don’t regularly watch children’s TV shows anymore. I haven’t for a very long time.

Cinnamon - Yum or Yuck? I’m actually kind of in the middle about it. I feel like too many desserts have been banking on cinnamon, so the taste of it can be a little tiring. It’s delicious if I haven’t had it for a while, though.

Do you know anyone with the initials and or name CJ? Quite the opposite; I know PLENTY of JCs, even my sister is one. I know one or two CJs but that’s it.

Have you ever met a self professed clairvoyant? What did they do/say? No.

Do you watch CNN News? What's your prefered news channel/show? I don’t tune into the channel but every once in a while I will encounter a CNN link on social media that I’d actually click on and read through. As for preferred news sources, I don’t have one as there are matters to criticize about 99% of them lol; but I am most likely to trust articles I from AP or Reuters. Just things you pick up as a journalism student. 

How many cousins do you have? I have 9 first cousins. I lose count by the time I try to go beyond that since I don’t even know all of my dad’s cousins, which makes it hard to track who my second cousins are.

Do you still draw with crayons? When was the last time you did? Drew what? I don’t remember anymore.

Do you know what a CSS feed is? What is it? I’m familiar with the term but never bothered to learn about what it is.

Do you like cycling/biking? What type of bike do you have? ...I don’t even know how to ride a bike.

Do you really like it, is it is it wicked. - D

What is the most dangerous animal you've petted/held? I can’t decide between snake or crocodile.

Do you like Death Metal? If so, which band(s)? I wouldn’t say I do.

Did you ever keep a diary/journal? I did a million attempts to keep a diary when I was younger, but I was never able to keep up with any of them and I ended up having 4598358395 notebooks with one or two entries each at most. Having a Tumblr page for surveys has so far been my most successful streak at keeping some type of journal.

Do you prefer small, medium, large or no dogs? I prefer all dogs.

Do you know what DP stands for in porn? Yes.

Have you ever dressed up as a celebrity for a party/Halloween? I went as my favorite female wrestler once. I wouldn’t strictly call her a celebrity, but she’s a very well-known personality in the wrestling industry so she’s popular in that right.

DS or Wii? Why? Wii. I was able to make more memories with it.

Does dust make you sneeze or cough? Sneeze, usually.

How many DVDs do you have all together? Idk, I don’t buy DVDs anymore.

Do you dye your hair regularly, sometimes or never? I’ve never done it.

Every love lies sometimes . . . - E

What's something you refuse to eat? Most fruits.

Don't you think the word ebb is so pretty? I’m neutral about it. I don’t use it a lot.

Do you like Chocolate Eclairs? I love eclairs in general haha. Chocolate eclairs in particular sound delicious.

Ever tried edible paper? Yeah, with the White Rabbit candy.

Eevee - pretty name or too Pokemon-y? Definitely very Pokemon-y. 

Do you sometimes mix up the spellings/meanings of affection and defection? Erm, no? They have completely different spellings and meanings, so I personally have never switched them up.

Do you have a big ego, low self esteem or somewhere in between? I think I’m somewhere in between. I’m insecure about some things about myself, but I don’t really put myself down 24/7. I feel like that would put such a strain on my mental health, which I certainly would never need.

What Element does your starsign fall under? I think earth? My co-workers were just discussing this last Friday, but I couldn’t really butt in since I can’t bring myself to care about astrology. I know they mentioned Taurus being an earth sign though.

Do you show your emotions easily and freely or hide them? Depends...I can do either depending on the situation.

What is your favourite form of entertainment? Korean reality shows are quickly becoming a favorite of mine at the moment. I also like compilation videos on YouTube.

What will they write on your epitaph? I’ve honestly hadn’t put much thought into this yet, and I don’t plan to anytime soon. It just seems like a super grave thing to think about lol.

Estimate/guess what number we are on now? Maybe 60s or 70s?

Do you know basic social etiquette? I mean etiquette will always differ per country or culture, so what is basic in other countries might not be here, and vice versa. I think it’s hard to measure.

Does your country use the Euro, Great British Pound, Dollar or other? Other.

Do you still get excited on Christmas Eve? Yes. Mostly for the free food and the opportunity to see relatives I really only ever see every December 24.

What animal/creature that is extinct do you wish wasn't? Those that went extinct from human activity.

What colour eyes do your parents have? Black/dark brown.

[betterdaysareatoenailaway]

Sleep Tight For Me...I’m Gone

Lately I’ve been writing these Better Days Are A Toenail Away™️ posts in Microsoft Word, selecting all and changing the font to Garamond, which is so readable and beautiful, and posting the Word docs, paragraphs by paragraph, inside these Tumblr drafts. It makes things look nice, to my old fashioned sensibilities, but fixing errors is a time-consuming and needlessly convoluted four-step process.

First, I have to copy, then delete the paragraph containing the error. Then I open the doc. and paste the error-ridden paragraph back into Word. After I find and fix the error, I need to save it and copy and paste it back into the post. It's time-consuming because I’m not just copying a paragraph. As you can see from more recent post, what I copied looked more like a photograph of the paragraph, not the words themselves written in Tumblr’s default font Arial. For an example of this, see below. I like the way it looks like old newspaper clippings. I posted an article about how my fent dealer John Smith kept getting robbed, and had resorted to putting a machete in front of his front door as a way of preventing this, a lever of sorts, which is plainly visible in the video I posted,

So today I’ve given up on trying to make my posts look like books or zines, and have given into the Tumblr font, which is about as pretty as a horse with his snout shot off.

There are two much longer posts I’m working on right now, one about Nirvana and one about Soundgarden, respectively, and how both bands were very unlike their public perception, but those posts are taking a lot of work so I’m putting them on the backburner because today is some dumbass corporation’s day where it tries to synthesize mental health and profit and the end result is as baldly capitalist and clumsy as you would expect. 

I’m not gonna name the company, or repeat their stupid fucking slogan. As far as I can tell (which isn't very far), talking about my trauma has never made me feel better. And in fact it has sometimes made me feel worse, because in telling you what hurts and scares me, I’ve given a part of myself away that I can’t get back. When you’re like me, and you’ve lost everything multiple times, sometimes the only form of power you have is how you choose, or do not choose, to tell your story. And in a world where everybody wants to tell “their truth,” silence is power. 

You don’t get to know me, sorry. I’m not gonna hand you my life, both my bad and good experiences, and conclude: “Welp, that’s why I’m so fucked up. Case closed.” 

Honestly, I used to be a little confused, or miffed that my former partner (who is an amazing person btw, in every respect) almost never spoke about some of the traumatic things she’d experienced in her past. I took it as a sign that she either didn’t trust me, or she didn’t think I would be a sympathetic listener, or the mere fact of my gender precluded her from sharing because I couldn’t truly understand what it was she had gone through. It’s not like I ever asked her to talk about it, but I did say, once or twice, “hey if you ever wanna talk about that stuff, I’m around.” She never took me up on it, and I let it go. 

But as I watched her, and saw her life unfold, over the years we spent together, I began to realize I wasn’t exactly in any position to be telling her how to live her life or how to be mentally healthy. After all, she has found success in a number of avenues, both creative and occupational, and I’ve found neither. I'm not saying the fact that she didn't talk much about her trauma is the reason for her success. I'm saying that she's forged a better path through life than I have, and maybe I should take a cue from that.

She never told me what to do, per se. It was more like living by example. But because I’m pretty dense, and a severe addict, our time together actually sorta reminds me now of that Cornell lyric from his first record: She’s going to change the world. But she can’t change me.

I have certainly found that talking about how shitty my life is only makes me feel more shitty, not free, or unburdened, or better. If you wanna talk about your problems, and you find it helpful, more power to you. Just don’t wait for a corporation to tell you it’s okay to not be okay. 

When Chris Cornell died I was so shocked. Of all the grunge icons he seemed the most stable, and he'd survived the rise and fall of two major label rock bands. If anyone had survived the media machine that chewed up and spat out Staley, Cobain, and to a lesser extent Andrew Wood and Shannon Hoon, it was Cornell. He would be the last guy to support hashtag activism like #StarbucksMyLifeSucks. Chris Cornell actually loved to fuck with the best laid plans of corporate rats. Molson once had a few promotional concerts in Tuktoyaktuk, Northwest Territories, called Molson Canadian Rocks Arctic, with both Hole and Soundgarden playing to a crowd of flown-in grunge fans and bemused locals. But the whole anti-corporate thing grunge was known for actually came through when Courtney Love told the crowd she “use[d] Molson Canadian to douche.” Lol. Here’s a photo of Love arriving in Tuktoyatuk.

Cornell told the same people “so we’re here because of some beer company? Labatt’s?” Both artists’ jabs are funny. Cornell’s was a bit more subtle, but that’s what Cornell was like. 

So today’s post is about Chris Cornell’s suicide, more specifically the media’s reaction to it. For whatever reason, when Cornell died, every single news outlet, from CNN to Fox to CBC, posted “Black Hole Sun,” as if it’s the only song he ever fucking wrote, or – and this is far worse – the only song he wrote that’s worth hearing. The problem with this is more than twofold or threefold. It's fucking hydraheaded. 

Not only is “Black Hole Sun” a mediocre piece of music, it’s a complete misrepresentation of Soundgarden’s sound. 

Now, I’m a huge fan of the A.V. Club series HateSong, in which public figures gleefully talk shit about the one song they hate more than any other song in the world. The Max Bemis (Say Anything) one where he talks about Nirvana’s “Rape Me” as a terrible rewrite of “Smells Like Teen Spirit” is terrific, but comedian Anthony Jeselnik’s HateSong takes “Black Hole Sun” apart, and I love it. I think the best line is: I think the more I hear it, the worse it gets. AVC: After the song became a huge hit, Chris Cornell said that he’d written it in about 15 minutes. AJ: I totally believe that. I don’t believe that Soundgarden likes that song. Like, I remember Eminem once said that he knew his song “My Name Is” was going to be a huge hit because the first time he heard it he was annoyed. It’s something about an annoying song that just grabs onto people. But I don’t think that anyone likes “Black Hole Sun.” I’ve never heard of anyone who likes it. I don’t understand why it gets played so much. It’s become a summer jam, and it’s not a summer song at all. Jeselnik is right that Soundgarden didn’t think much of the song. Guitarist Kim Thayil wasn’t kidding when he disparagingly called it the “Dream On” of their live show. And Cornell himself, known for a meticulous approach to his songwriting, had admitted that with “Black Hole Sun”was “probably the closest to me just playing with words for words’ sake, of anything I’ve written. I guess it worked for a lot of people who heard it, but I have no idea how you'd begin to take that one literally.” I mean it’s obvious from the opening lines that Cornell is just playing with words and how they sound: in my eyes/indisposed/in disguises no one knows What songs would have been more appropriate for Cornell’s untimely death? Glad you asked! Cuz there’s like…fucking at least ten that would have been better. I’m not tryna be one of those “the deep album cuts are better maaaaaan,” but with Soundgarden, it happens to be true. With some bands, the single are their best work. With other bands, the singles are the hors d’oeuvres for the entrees. So what deep cuts would have celebrated Cornell’s death a bit better? Well, to begin with, Superunknown’s strange and stately closer “Like Suicide” would have worked, for obvious reasons.

“Tighter and Tighter,” a song that is actually about the moment of death and what it might feel like, is one of my all-time fav Soundgarden songs. Not only is it a creepy and prescient prediction of what Cornell’s death by hanging himself may have felt like, it’s opening line is a good description of the personification of death: Shadow face/Blowing smoke and talking wind

Another sample lyric: “A sucking holy wind will take me from this bed tonight/and bloody wits another hits me and I have to say goodbye/sleep tight for me, I’m gone/and I hope it’s  a sweet ride/here for me tonight/cuz I’m feel I’m going/feel I’m slowing down.” 

The morning after Cornell’s death hit the news my buddy and bandmate James told me that en route to work his phone, which was playing music randomly through his car speakers, landed on “Tighter and Tighter” and he had to pull over because he was tearing up. 

“Fell On Black Days” is another song about depression and mortality. Cornell had the following to say about the song: “Fell on Black Days” was like this ongoing fear I’ve had for years ... It's a feeling that everyone gets. You're happy with your life, everything’s going well, things are exciting—when all of a sudden you realize you’re unhappy in the extreme, to the point of being really, really scared. There's no particular event you can pin the feeling down to, it's just that you realize one day that everything in your life is fucked! 

Now, if that’s not a cogent and even-tempered explanation of suicidal thoughts, what is? Why else would Cornell have admitted to being “really really scared” by his depression unless he knew what that depression could ultimately leasd to? Here’s some lyrics to “Fell on Black Days.” Dig the high literary use of “whomsoever” and “whatsoever.” Whatsoever I’ve feared has come to life Whatsoever I fought off became my life Just when every day seemed to greet me with a smile sunspots have faded and now I’m doing time cuz I fell on black days

Whomsoever I’ve cured I’ve sickened now Whomsoever I’ve cradled...I put you down I’m a searchlight soul they say but I can’t see it in the night I’m only faking when I get it right I sure don’t mind a change but I fell on black days how would I know that this could be my fate?

Eagle-eared listeners might think this version different from the album version. They are right. The rendition in the video was recorded live off the floor @ Bad Animals, the Seattle studio owned by Heart, where Soundgarden would record Down on the Upside. 

“Boot Camp” is a scary meditation about loss of agency that for years was tied with Zeppelin’s “I'm Gonna Crawl” for Creepiest Song to Cap a Discography, until Soundgarden reunited and released King Animal.

“Taree” is about ghost light, influencing events after dying and features Cornell’s most exhausted, convincing “yeah” @ 2:57.

“Applebite” is a Matt Cameron-penned ponderous clunker about Adam’s original expulsion from Eden. Doomy and death-laden.

“Let Me Drown” is a song about letting someone die.

“The Day I Tried To Live” is frequently cited as Soundgarden’s finest achievement, its odd time signature somehow sounds straight, thanks to Matt Cameron’s brilliant time keeping.

“4th of July” is a song about a post apocalyptic urban landscape, where the speaker isn’t sure whether he is seeing fireworks or bombs. 

“Limo Wreck” is a cool death song and has an eerie 9-11 prediction. “Building the towers belongs to the sky/when the whole thing comes crashing down don’t ask me why.” 

ANY of the above songs would have been better than that fucking asinine dirge-like major key fuckaround that has somehow not just become Soundgarden's signature song...but their ONLY song. 

Does nobody remember Johnny Cash covering “Rusty Cage?” 

“Outshined?”

“Burden In My Hand?”

“Blow Up The Outside World?”

Did none of these other songs get stuck in the electric head? (The electric head is Rob Zombie’s term for the technologically advanced culture we have found ourselves enmeshed in, or imprisoned by. It was the subtitle for White Zombie’s 1995 hit album Astro-Creep 2000: Songs of Love, Destruction, and other Synthetic Delusions of the Electric Head.)

For my money (which ain’t much honey), the song that best fits both Cornell’s artistic integrity and the sad circumstances of his suicide is “Tighter and Tighter.” I once wrote a whole article on the way artists use “yeah” as a placeholder or as a way to convey emotion when words themselves aren’t adequate. Dig that tired, world-weary exhausted “yeah” at 5:35 of “Tighter & Tighter.”

Or the creepy line going into the first chorus: remember this...remember everything’s just black or burning sun. Not that I agree with such a bleak worldview. It’s a writer’s line. And Randy Bachman has said, “when you’re a writer, you’d step over your own mother.” That’s the Cornell I want to remember. Not that he would step over his own mother. By all accounts he was a committed family man. I mean, I want to remember the Cornell who created strange atmospheric sonic worlds, who explored the dark side that sadly, eventually won out. His otherworldly beautiful music is what I choose to remember about Chris Cornell, not his estate tastelessly exploiting “Black Hole Sun” by using a line from the song to title a posthumous Cornell album of covers No One Sings Like You Anymore. Sigh.

First Cornell’s widow said this was “Chris’s last album.” Okay. What about the Soundgarden songs he recorded vocals for before he died? Kim Thayil was pretty diplomatic about it when asked recently. Cornell did record vocal tracks for the follow up to King Animal.

Kim Thayil: “Given our love for Chris, I do not see us reconfiguring without him.”

But he makes it clear in this interview that Cornell’s widow Vicky has those tracks and won’t release them to the band. Maybe because she blames the band for Chris dying that night? She’s not wrong to believe that they would have known, and seen, what kind of shape Cornell was in, at least at the venue, maybe not later at the hotel.

Kim Thayil: “It’s entirely possible that a new Soundgarden album will be released. Certainly. All it would need is to take the audio files that are available. I tighten up the guitars. Ben does the bass. We get the producers we want to make it sound like a Soundgarden record.”

Interviewer: “Is there an obstacle stopping that?”

Kim Thayil: “There shouldn’t be. There really isn’t. Other than the fact that we don’t have those files.”

Interviewer: “They’re not under your auspices?”

Kim Thayil: “Right. It would be ridiculous if [the record wasn’t made]. But these are difficult things. Partnerships and...property.”

You’re just gonna keep those wav files? And why title his covers album Volume 1 if it’s his “last album?”

Oh right. $$$

No one does sing like Cornell, but is “Black Hole Sun” really the best thing he ever did? The best song he ever sang? Should an album of covers be the last thing he gives to the world?

The only honest answer is no.

Sleep tight Chris. You’re gone.

[theliberaltony]

via Politics – FiveThirtyEight

Welcome to a special weekend-edition of FiveThirtyEight’s weekly politics chat. The transcript below has been lightly edited.

micah (Micah Cohen, managing editor): Hey, everyone! We’ve convened here on a weekend(!) to talk about President Trump’s address to the nation on Saturday. Trump called the country together to make an offer to Democrats to try to end the partial government shutdown, now more than 28 days old.

Here’s Trump’s offer, summarized by Bloomberg News reporter Sahil Kapur:

President Trump outlines his offer:

• $800 million for “urgent humanitarian assistance”

• $805 million for drug detection technology

• 2,750 new border agents

• 75 new immigration judge teams

• $5.7 billion for a wall

• 3-year DACA protection for 700k

• 3-year TPS

— Sahil Kapur (@sahilkapur) January 19, 2019

So, the question in front of us: Is this offer likely to end the shutdown? And, more generally, is this a smart move politically by Trump, who’s seen his job approval rating erode as the shutdown has dragged on?

Let’s briefly start with that first question. What do you make of Trump’s offer? Will it bring about the end of the shutdown?

sarahf (Sarah Frostenson, politics editor): No.

micah: lol.

natesilver (Nate Silver, editor in chief): Nyet.

perry (Perry Bacon Jr., senior writer): It’s not at all likely to end the shutdown. House Speaker Nancy Pelosi bashed the proposal before the speech started (once reports came out with Trump’s offer). He didn’t consult Democrats before the proposal was released. It’s not clear he was even really trying to get Democrats to sign onto this.

sarahf: Yeah, what I don’t understand about the proposal is that it was negotiated without any Democratic input. It was just Vice President Mike Pence, Senior Adviser Jared Kushner and Senate Majority Leader Mitch McConnell talking with fellow Republicans.

natesilver: I mean, there are some permutations where this is the beginning of the end of the shutdown, I suppose.

Those have to involve some combination of (i) Trump offering a better deal than what he’s offering right now, and (ii) public opinion shifting to put more pressure on Democrats.

micah: So is the best way to look at this address as basically a political ploy — an attempt to change the politics of the shutdown? (I don’t mean “ploy” in a negative sense.)

perry: I think that’s the only way to look at this.

natesilver: The real audience for the speech is likely the media. Because we’re the only people sick enough to actually waste our Saturdays watching this thing.

slackbot: I’m sorry you aren’t feeling well. There is Advil, Aleve and Tylenol in the cabinet in front of Nate’s office/Vanessa’s desk.

micah: lol

natesilver: lol, slackbot

Anyway, in theory, “we’re willing to compromise and Democrats” aren’t is a perfectly decent message. It’s BS in various ways (mostly because the compromise Trump is offering isn’t too good). But it’s a fairly conventional message — to sell a not-very-great compromise as being a good deal.

sarahf: Right now, Americans overwhelmingly continue to blame Trump and congressional Republicans for the shutdown. Saturday’s speech seemed like an attempt on his part to try and shift some of that narrative by outlining a proposal that definitely seemed like a compromise.

perry: And I think it has as few potential good effects for Trump. First, it may help keep Republicans on Capitol Hill aligned with him. They were getting leery of his wall-only strategy. This makes it easier for the party to unify around him.

Second, Trump’s proposal allows McConnell to hold a vote and suggest he and his chamber are trying to resolve the shutdown too, just like the House is doing.

Finally, I assume, when pollsters ask people about this proposal, it will be more popular than the wall itself. My guess is it will be near 50 percent support and perhaps higher. Most people I assume aren’t totally against any money for the wall and feel like Dreamers must have a path to citizenship or else.

sarahf: And I don’t know if it’s a good look for Democratic leaders like Pelosi to immediately come out the gate saying, “nope this doesn’t work.” Then again, they weren’t consulted in the making of the deal it sounds like, so maybe she’d be better off highlighting that.

natesilver: I did think it was weird that Trump opened the address with a sort of uncharacteristically gentle paean to the virtues of legal immigration, but then careened to talking about drugs and gangs and violence and some of the other stuff that doesn’t usually pass a fact check. If you actually wanted to portray an image of bipartisanship, you could skip most of that stuff. Or you could talk about how there were extremists on both sides — call out Republicans for X and Y reason.

micah: Well …

I do wonder if this could change the politics of the shutdown in more than one way, as Perry was getting at.

It could make Democrats look like the intransigent side, as you were all saying.

But, it could also shift the narrative towards more “border crisis” and less “wall.” And that’s better political ground for Trump. Polls show more people believe there is a crisis at the border than support a wall.

sarahf: Right, last week we looked at different pollsters who asked Americans what they thought of the situation at the U.S.-Mexico border. I was surprised by the number of Americans who thought it was a serious problem or a crisis. Fifty-four percent of respondents in a Quinnipiac poll said they believed there was a security crisis along the border with Mexico. And in a CBS News/YouGov poll, 55 percent said the situation was “a problem, but not a crisis.”

natesilver: It could shift things — although, again, it’s worth mentioning that the deal Trump offered isn’t really much of a deal at all.

In fact, it offers a bit less than what they floated last night.

That was my read too -& this is a crucial distinction Democrats are already seizing upon. WH officials last night said it was the Bridge Act-& confirmed that to other reporters today-but what Trump announced just now is NOT the Bridge Act, it's a more limited twist on it. https://t.co/CxX154n9As

— Jonathan Swan (@jonathanvswan) January 19, 2019

The DACA part itself is a compromise, but to get that compromise, Democrats have to give up something (wall funding) that they’re firmly opposed to.

Although, it probably is fair to say that the wall is also a compromise of sorts. As Trump actually emphasized. It’s not all that much wall. It’s certainly not a big concrete wall stretching the length of the border.

sarahf: I know! OMG, what a 180 from him on that!

And, as Democrats will be quick to point out, they were already working on their own legislation that would give $1 billion in funding for border security (but not a wall – to be clear).

natesilver: Right, and Trump hasn’t really made the case as to why a wall is necessary to stop the humanitarian crisis at the border.

The other thing is that … none of this is really new. This compromise, if you want to call it that, has been around for a long time. Democrats have rejected it because it doesn’t give them enough. They rejected better versions of this compromise before the shutdown began, in fact.

And Democrats have more leverage now than then because Trump needs the shutdown to end a lot more than they do — it’s hurting him politically.

micah: I guess my point is more that the convo may change.

perry: To put this bluntly, I think this speech had two audiences the media (so they will do “both sides” coverage) and Republicans (so they will stay loyal to Trump on this issue). I assume this speech will buy him at least of few days of that. And both of those, as Micah suggests, will help with the public opinion.

sarahf: I was kind of surprised that he made no mention of the thousands of furloughed government workers.

Like some kind of nod to their hardship. But nada.

perry: They’re all Democrats.

I’m joking, but that is what he thinks.

natesilver: The question is partly: will the press run with Trump’s frame?

micah: Nate, I don’t know if the media will run with it.

Probably?

The headline in the lower-third on CNN right now is “Pelosi rejects Trump’s proposal to end shutdown.”

perry: Trump may have bought himself at least another week to sustain this shutdown. Next week will be 1. Pelosi rejected Trump’s idea before he spoke, and 2. Senate holds vote and Democrats filibuster.

You all disagree?

micah: I think that’s right, Perry.

As we’re chatting, here’s Politico’s headline: “Trump’s bid to negotiate on wall met by Democratic rejection”

The Washington Post: “Trump offers to protect ‘dreamers’ temporarily in exchange for wall funds”

Dallas Morning News: “Trump seeks border wall funding in exchange for DACA protections to end shutdown”

natesilver: There’s at least some semi-intelligent understanding on the White House’s part of how media dynamics work.

At least parts of the speech play well into the media’s “both sides-ism.”

micah: NBC News: “Trump offers new shutdown deal, Democrats expected to reject it”

Los Angeles Times: “President Trump proposes to extend protections for ‘Dreamers’ in exchange for border wall funding”

ABC News: “Trump will extend ‘Dreamers,’ TPS protection in exchange for full border wall funding”

CBS News: “Trump proposes deal on immigration, Pelosi calls shutdown offer a ‘non-starter’”

natesilver: But the thing about that NBC headline is that the “new” part is pretty misleading.

perry: Those are great headlines for Trump. Considering the reality is closer to this:

Isn't this a kind of hostage-taking squared? First end the programs. Then shut the government. Then promise to temporarily restore the programs you've ended & reopen the govt you have closed, in return for the ransom of $ for a wall that 55-60% of country consistent opposes? https://t.co/PhsMABh6VC

— Ronald Brownstein (@RonBrownstein) January 19, 2019

micah: Yeah, at least in the very very early going, this seems like a good move by Trump.

natesilver: Keep in mind that media might feel a little chastened this week by the mess that’s become of the BuzzFeed story.

micah: Yeah, I was thinking that.

perry: I also think that keeping the Lindsey Graham’s of the world happy is something Trump cares about. The Republicans on the Sunday shows now have something to say. So do the Will Hurd’s.

micah: Very good point.

perry: Pelosi and Democrats, I would argue, were more unified than Republicans before this speech. But I wonder if some moderate Democrats start getting nervous now.

natesilver: The path here is like:

1. Trump and Republicans maintain some degree of message discipline for a week or so; 1b. Trump and Republicans don’t face too many defections from their own base; 2. Polling and other indications show that blame for the shutdown is shifting away from Trump and toward Democrats; 2b. There aren’t any strikes or planes falling from the sky that create a crisis and force an immediate end to the shutdown; 3. Trump offers Democrats a little bit — maybe quite a bit — more.

If all of that happens, maybe he gets a deal!

And no one of those steps is *that* crazy.

perry: So the fundamentals of this issue have not changed, you are saying, Nate?

natesilver: I don’t really think it changed anything.

perry: I agree.

natesilver: Except Trump made a chess move to advance the game instead of just sitting there petulantly staring at his opponent and watching his clock run down.

micah: “It gives him some more time” is a good read, I think.

natesilver: It was an extremely standard chess move, but at least it was a move!

sarahf: Well, I mean leading up to this speech there had been some speculation he’d declare a national emergency. And he didn’t do that.

So all things considered, I think this was a much smarter political move to make.

natesilver: Oh yeah, this is definitely better than that.

sarahf: Because I do think at this point Democrats have to say something other than, “we won’t support this.”

natesilver: It was, like, almost what a normal president with a competent group of advisors would do!

sarahf: Hahaha yeah

natesilver: But it will require a lot of follow through.

perry: I think Trump is aware that declaring a national emergency is a “loss.” He doesn’t want a “loss.” I don’t know how he gets a win. I actually think, this proposal, if it was passed, would very much irritate the right.

I will be curious how the right receives this idea.

perry: Ann Coulter attacked it hard.

natesilver: Coulter attacked it … although… you could almost say that’s helpful for Trump.

perry: Good point.

It makes it seem like more of a compromise if the right hates it.

natesilver: Now, if he loses the votes from several conservative Republicans in the Senate, then he’s screwed.

Or if he himself has second thoughts because Sean Hannity calls him tonight, he could screw himself.

perry: That’s an interesting question: Can Sen. Ted Cruz vote for this?

Can it actually pass the Senate?

micah: That is interesting!

perry: Because I assume part of the play here is for Republicans in the Senate to be seen doing something about the shutdown.

Would Sens. Susan Collins and Cory Gardner support this from the left-wing of the GOP? I think yes. But would Cruz, and some of the more hard-core immigration members on the more conservative wing of the party?

I assume yes, but I’m not sure.

micah: Wouldn’t you assume he cleared this with the Cruz’s of the world before unveiling it?

perry: I would not at all assume that.

micah: LOL.

That was a soft-ball.

perry: McConnell maybe.

sarahf: Yeah, I’m not picturing mass Republican defections here in the Senate … I guess just because McConnell seems to have been so heavily involved in negotiating this.

natesilver: Right, yeah

perry: Do we think any Democrats vote for it?

Doug Jones? Joe Manchin?

I assume no, right?

natesilver: Manchin maybe.

He voted to confirm Supreme Court Justice Brett Kavanaugh, so it’s not exactly like he’s worried about stoking the ire of the Democratic base.

sarahf: But it does make you wonder why Trump ever listened to Mark Meadows and the Freedom Caucus in the first place getting into this mess.

Wouldn’t have $1.7 billion or whatever it was and no extension for DACA, TPS, etc. have been more popular for them?

I guess none of it went to the wall. So maybe not. No way to appease anyone!

natesilver: Right, the $1.7 billion didn’t specifically include border wall funding though.

perry: Another question: I think I’m a believer in the distraction theory, so would Trump have scheduled this speech if he knew Buzzfeed’s Michael Cohen story would be so heavily criticized?

micah: He sorta stepped on a pretty good news cycle for him.

Though Buzzfeed is standing by its reporting.

natesilver: Hmm. But the fact that he had a good news cycle probably means that today will be portrayed more favorably by the press.

So that gave him more incentive to do it.

perry: So you think the media, cowed by the coverage of the Cohen story, will cover this announcement more favorably than otherwise?

natesilver: The headlines we’re seeing are not “Embattled Trump desperately proposes already-rejected compromise in meandering speech,” but rather “Trump proposes new compromise and Pelosi rejects.”

micah: And you think the former is more accurate than the latter?

natesilver: I think “Trump again proposes already-rejected compromise in competent speech; Pelosi reiterates that she won’t agree” is roughly correct.

micah: The other thing maybe worth keeping in mind: The politics of the shutdown right now are really bad for Trump. Trump is unpopular, and the wall is even more unpopular. This is from our friends at The Upshot:

micah: And this is from us:

I guess what I’m saying is that it wouldn’t be too surprising if the politics of this improved for Trump after his speech, given where they are now. There’s plenty of room to improve.

Anyway … final thoughts?

perry: We know that presidential addresses generally don’t work. But Trump is making those political scientists look really smart.

sarahf: I think the fact that Trump didn’t consult Democratic leadership is a big ding against this proposal. But the fact that Trump did put forward some kind of compromise is something. It has the potential to change the politics around the shutdown.

It’ll be interesting to see what congressional Republicans actually put forward and what Democrats choose to counter with.

natesilver: I thought it was a bit weird at the end when Trump said this was just the start of negotiations on a much bigger immigration solution.

If this is just small potatoes stuff, Pelosi might ask, why do we need to keep the government shut down, when we’re going to have a much bigger discussion about immigration anyway?

That’s ultimately the question that Trump doesn’t really have a good answer for. Why do we need to keep the government shut down to have this negotiation?

Senate Minority Leader Chuck Schumer and Pelosi will need to be clear about that in their own messaging.

At the same … I wonder if they also want to float, maybe on background because it does sort of contradict the message of “no negotiations at all while there’s a shutdown,” some notion of what a real compromise would look like. e.g. the full DREAM Act.

Or my idea: Offer HR1, the Democrats’ election reform/voting rights bill, in exchange for the border wall.

perry: The one reason I have a hard time seeing any deal being cut: “the wall is a monument to racism” is a real view on the left and has real influence. That makes it much harder Democrats to sign off on any money for the wall.

natesilver: Also, Republicans would presumably never agree to HR 1. But it moves the Overton Window (sorry if that’s become an overused concept now) and frames the idea that Republicans are nowhere near offering a fair compromise.

If the wall is so important to Trump — and he’s often talked about it as his signature priority — a fair offer now that we have bipartisan control of government would be to give Democrats what’s literally their No. 1 priority (given that they named the bill HR1) as well.

(That’s Pelosi’s hypothetical argument, not me necessarily endorsing the deal as fair to Republicans.)

micah: Yeah, that kind of deal seems a looooooong ways off.

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Pietro Maximoff x Plus size reader Comfort. Smutty

-Just a little trigger warning there is talk of mental illness in this one. Panic attacks and drug use and such. All my ladies who have anxiety like me through your hands in the air lol p>

The last 48 hours had been a blur, and you found yourself trying to sort out your thoughts as you sat in the lab with both Bruce and Tony. You knew they were just trying to figure everything out themselves, but their exclusive science talk made you even more anxious then you already were, had you balling your hands into fists in order to keep yourself, your emotions…your power… at bay. You didn’t understand the dictionary grade terms they kept using. You weren’t a fucking rocket scientist . “I’m sorry did you just say molecular combustion? That sounds a lot like I’m fucking fucked” you demand, your voice cracking a little bit because you hadn’t been this scared of yourself in a really long time. “No,Y/N, there will only continue to be combustion as long as you let the acceleration get out of hand. If you can learn to control it, everything should be fine” you caught that should at the end of Bruce’s statement. Like it wasn’t a concrete deal yet. “And what if I can’t? Learn to control it?” What if you kept blowing things up?…Killing people? You’d be useless on missions because instead of the team focusing on the threat from whatever bad guy was the flavor of the week, they’d be focusing on the threat that you might blow some on up instead of freeze them. “Well then your previous statement about being fucked will be pretty accurate” Tony’s blunt with you, not in a mean manner, but a serious one. You can tell he’s worried, like the rest of them. You just nod as you process, or at least try to, the information they’re giving you. It was along to take in. Somehow, your powers were advancing, morphing and growing. Growing up a mutant, you’d known your could freeze things since a pretty early age. And no, not like in ice. Like you could literally freeze molecules. Molecular immobilization, but for some reason on the last mission when you’d tried to freeze a bus full of civilians that’s breaks were out instead of it stopping in time, it blew up. Injuring nine people. And killing two. “You were able to get control of your freezing, you’ll be able to get this under control too. It will just take some time and practice” Tony’s voice is too soft, like he’s softening you for a blow. You know what it is. “Until then I’m benched, huh?” Him and Bruce share a look and he nods. “I’m sorry kid, it’s just too dangerous. For everybody. Including you” You weren’t mad at their conclusion. They still had more tests to run, find out why your body was revolting against you. You were a liability. One that had cost people their lives and you knew that wasn’t just going away. You’d have to face the music for what you’d done, Avenger or not. And music there was. Every News station from CNN to the Today Show was discussing your mistake. Dissecting it. Were the Avengers really heros? Were mutants safe to be around the public? It made you sick, your panic disorder spinning out of control, eating you alive. Crippling you. Bruce had given you a pre rioting of Valliume and encouraged you to pop one every few hours, take the edge off until he could figure out how exactly to “help” you. Even under the drug induced haze you were still scared. Terrified that you’d accidentally use your power. It was like second nature to you. Like catching or throwing. You reacted with your power, you didn’t know how to be…without freezing. Which is why you had to isolate yourself, at least for a little while. Not even Steve, the super soldier, could live through you blowing something up next to his head. You know they just want to help, to check in on you and make sure you’re okay because some how this rag tag group had become your second family but everytime one of them tried to approach you over the next few days, you shrugged them off as fast as you could. Wether it was Nat coming to your room or Sam who you’d ran into in the kitchens, your stomach dropped and fear enveloped you at the idea of hurting them. Of course; Wanda and Pietro didn’t listen. Didn’t head your reclusive warnings. You loved the twins as much as they annoyed the living fucking life out of you. You’d gotten close with Wanda after the whole Ultron/Sokovia thing half a year ago, you guys were the same age and the “witch” had a gentleness about her that you’d bonded with. And of course there was no bonding with one, without the other tagging along. Pietro was your friend too, you guessed. Even though he was annoying and hyper active and constantly hitting on you in a way that was far from suave. He made you laugh, and vice versa. There was no lack of laughter when you two were around eachother. Wanda was sat at the end of your bed as you leaned against the headboard, a re-run of Keeping Up with the Kardashians playing on the flat screen. You’d taken one of the pills earlier and were starting do feel it, your eyelids heavy and mind calmed as Wanda talks to you about everything. And nothing. Just wanting to be there for you. “Could you imagine growing up with all of that money?” She clicks her tongue looking at the tv. You smile lazily “Hmm, I wish. I’d go on an endless vacation” “I’d fix my teeth” Wanda laughs and you can’t help but laugh too. “Shut up! Your teeth are fine!…I’d get my nose done. And maybe a lil lipo, I’d make sure my ass stayed fat tho” You replied and she snorts, taking another bite from the bowl of ice cream you two were sharing. “Give some ass to the less fortunate, like me” her accented voice makes you grin. “What are we talking about, hmm?” Your door is opened and closed so fast you can’t even see it as Pietro comes in and shoots a look at the tv “Huh, asses? At least you guys’ are real” You pull your legs up a little as he comes to sit on your bed with you guys, right next to Wanda towards the edge. He doesn’t let you stay scrunched up though, he grabs your legs and pulls them so that your calves in his rest in his lap and your reclining back comfortably. You’re scantily dressed, an oversized heather tee and a pair of barley there spankie shorts, your chubby legs on display. If you were sober, you might have been more self conscious. “Get comfortable, princesza” Pietro advises as he himself relaxes, leaning against the wall. Between the feeling of him lightly and rhythmically stroking your thigh and the sound of him and Wanda arguing softly in Sokovian over who was the hottest Kardashian-Jenner your soon lulled into a deep dreamless sleep. You wake up, hours later. Still feeling a little hazy but clearer. The room is dark, the large windows pitch black, the only light coming from the TV. You sit up, eyes scanning. Wanda’s not there anymore. How long had you been asleep for? You go to grab your phone and sit up too fast. Your head spins something fierce. “Hey, Y/N, are you okay?” A deep silken voice asks from beside you. You hadn’t realized that Pietro was still in the room, now laying next to you on your bed. His hands were behind his head as though he had been relaxing but his icy eyes looked concerned. “Yeah” you let your head fall back into your pillow “I’m okay. I’m just a little out of it. How log have I been out?” “Five episodes of the Fresh Prince of Bel Air” he answers his tone playful and you roll your eyes “a few hours, nothing to worry about” You nod, taking him in. Maybe your still high, but the way the tv lights hit his skin makes him look luminescent. Makes his skin look translucent and his eyelashes leave giant shadows on his cheekbones. You tear your eyes away from ogling him. You have to. “Where’d Wanda go?” “She went to go check something it for Stark. Her, Steve and Vision” Pietro tells you nonchalantly and your can feel a little rush. “But everything okay right? Nothing major?” He must be able to hear the slight panic in your voice because he reaches over to rub your exposed forearm soothingly. “Everything’s all good, princesza. Don’t worry about it, okay? You need to stay relaxed” his words are slow, lullaby like “I stay here with you to make sure you are okay, if you want to be alone just tell me and I’ll let you-” “No” you desperately interrupt him. Being alone with your thoughts is to daunting. His eye brows raise and a small, smug little grin graces his features. “Don’t worry, Wanda told me if I left you she’d beat my ass, you’re stuck with me…I knew you liked spending time with me” You roll your eyes, but quietly, you’re relieved. What would you do without the twins? Pietros good at this whole babysitting/making sure you don’t blow anyone or anything up thing. You watch late night Nickelodeon and he has you chuckling the whole time. Usually, you pretend to hate how touchy he is. You deny him purchase on your skin but tonight you can’t get enough. Your practically purring as he runs his fingers along your arm, down your side and then back up in circuits. He does it casually, keeping his attention on the show or the conversation you two are having but he seems to get closer. Where there was once nearly a arms length of space between you on the bed, he’s now pressed against a you. His right arm against your breast as he lays in his back and you on your side. With his left, he’s still reached over, still leaving goosebumps on your skin. You can’t help it, you lean into him, he’s always so fucking warm and it’s intoxicating. You face is pressed into his shoulder and you’ve moved so that its hugging his arm comfortably. You honestly feel so serene that you could fall asleep again. Your conversation about wether or not there’s glow worms in space seems to dissipate. “Y/N?” Pietro breaks the silence, sounding almost hesitant. “Yeah?” You whisper, not opening your eyes. You can feel his though. Feel the atmosphere changing. “Are you feeling calm?” You can’t help but melt at how good he was being to you. How attentive. “I mean yeah, for the most part” You could feel your belly tightening with anticipation, feel his breathing as you gripped his arm. “You know…if you need me to help you calm down I could” Fuuuuck. It’s not what he says but how he says it. You take your bottom lip between your teeth, still not opening your eyes. Maybe a little scared to face him. A little scared of what you wanted. “How?” Your mutter into his shirt and his arm shifts, your chin no longer in his shoulder as he puts his arm under you, around you and pulls you as close as you can get. You’re resting in his chest now, his arms circling you. You bury your face in his neck. Hiding still. “Let me show you, open your eyes. Look at me?” It takes coaxing, his thumb running across your back but your raise your head, dragging your nose along his jaw, your closed mouth tickled by his dark stubble. “Y/N” He whispers as your lips reach his, only a half an inch away. Your breathing the same air. What he exhales, you inhale and your heart is pounding against your chest but not with fear. “Pietro” your voice is airy and gorgeous and that’s all it takes because then your kissing, your plump lips pressing against his over and over. Sucking. Exploring. You grab him by the side of the neck, pulling him closer, needing the kiss to deepen and he means in your open mouth, his tongue sliding in. You kiss until your heads spinning, it feels like an eternity. Pietros hands begin to wander, he can never stay still. Under your shirt, upwards. You jerk a little at the hot pads of his fingers trailing up your side, spanning over the roll on your back. “Shh” he hushes, his touches slowing “I just want to take care of you. Let me?” All you can do is nod. Take care of you he does. When he had said he knew a way to calm you down, you weren’t even thinking this was how it was going to go. With him palming your breasts and you gasping for air as he left kisses and beard rash all along your neck and chest. He wastes no time in turning you onto your back, hovering over you. When he starts to shimmy your tiny shorts down your legs you come to a bit, sobering. “Piet, I don’t have any condoms?” “That’s okay, dieta ” he coos. You’ve never heard his voice so thick with his accent before. “We’ll get to that another night. Tonight I just want to make you cum, is that okay with you?” What do you even say to that? Like fuck, oh my god. Peitro, who you had heard was the worlds most selfish lover; always in search of his own release, was telling you that all he wanted to do was make you feel good? You let out a squeak of an okay and then press your head back. He kisses your cheek, tenderly, as he navigates your now naked lower half. “No panties, huh?” “Those shorts are panties” you defend and he laughs gruff against your skin as he kisses your neck. When his palm rests against your cunt, rubbing slowly from the outside you bite your lips together and nuzzle your head against his hair pleadingly. He doesn’t tease you like you’d think he would. He knows the week you’ve had and all he wants to do is make you feel good. His fingers slip inbetween your labia , playing in the wetness. Sloshing it around before he immediately goes to your clit and begins to rub it in circles with his index, middle and ring finger. “Oh shit” you moan, because that’s what you needed. Your clit played with. “Tell me how you like it” he begs you from his place partially on-top of you his face pressed into your neck, your hair everywhere. “Faster, ugh- like that” Your lost in the feeling of him rubbing your bundle of nerves in dizzying rotations. Back and forth. Up and down. Your already so close, your hips bucking when his fingers leave your clit at superspeed, not giving you time to register before he slides two of his thick fingers inside you. You go to sit up, your body jerking and your eyes bulging but he pushes you back down. “Shh, baby” he comforts as he starts pumping them in and out of you, and it’s only a moment before you cum on his hand. Groaning and gripping his hair. He doesn’t stop though, if anything that just spurs him on. He’s exploring inside of you with his fingers, pushing on your walls, using a scissoring motion as he pumps and your head is rolling. “Fuck Peit” Your whimpers are met by him adding a third finger, then a fourth. Stretching you wide, pounding you sho hard with his digits that your body shakes with the thrusts. Your tits bouncing everytime he slams them in to. The squishing sound echoing around the room. “Fuck, fuck, FUCK oh my god” you cry as you cum again, your hands fisting whatever they can grab onto as you try to anchor yourself. You’d never…your head was spinning in circles. Your core sensitive and over stimulated. Your whole body had spasmed and was still twitching as he continued to fuck you with his hand. “Fuck your gushing” he sounds so in awe “your pussys so pretty and tight. You have such a pretty pussy” just the sound of him saying pussy with that accent… Fuck you couldn’t take anymore. Your first two orgasms had left your already stressed body exhausted. “Pietro stop, I can’t” you whine, the full feeling that came with his fingers was too much. You were almost sobbing, your pants leaving your raw throat in cries that you could barley muffle. “I’m too sensitive I can’t” “You can” he urged, his mouth traveling to yours so that he could capture your lips. “One more, princesza. Give me one more” “I can’t” you cry against his lips as his fingers begin to disappear and reappear at in inhuman speed. Vibrating inside of you. Your writhing under him, full on sobbing now. Shaking your head from side to side as tears well and leak from your squeezed shut eyes. Gripping a hand full of your hair at the scalp. He’d never seen anyone so fucking beautiful in the thows of passion. It would haunt him, the vision of you like this. When you release this time, it’s with everything in you. You release all the stress and fear, it all exits and your mouth falls open in a screech so intense it’s silent. Your mind goes white and you can’t breathe as little rivers squirt from within you. Pietros there with you for it all, whispering how beautiful you are, peppering your face with kisses for the minutes it takes for you to come back down. “Fuck Y/N, that was so beautiful. You’re so special. It’s okay, dieta You’re okay” You cling to his words as you catch your breath, your heaving chest starting to slow. You’re still crying and you don’t know why? You’ve never been an emotional person but what he had just done to you…done for you had you in tears. You wrapped your arms around his neck and hug him close. “It’s okay” he whispers, gripping you tight and rubbing you back. You bury your head into his chest, completely physically and emotionally sated and he uses one hand to pull the blankets back up around the both of you. You fall asleep in his embrace, clinging to him tightly. So… That was way more intense then I had planned for it to be. That sexy ass Sokovian does things to me, mane. Sorry it’s so long but I know you’ll enjoy it! Oh and your powers were inspired by Pipers in Charmed? You know how she has the power to freeze? Yeah like that. Well…I’m going to go take a shower to wash off the filth I feel in my soul.

😳😂

[mysticdrabbles]

hi, could i get RFA/V/Saeran when they find out MC is jewish? maybe they come home and she's preparing for shabbat (sabbath) or something? recent antisemitism (*cough cough* the "are jews people" segment from CNN) has been really getting me down and making me nervous and i'm just so tired lol i'm sorry if you want me to elaborate on shabbat i totally can, i don't mind

Eyyyy guess who’s a year late to this T_T I hope every Jewish person reading this is having a wonderful day. (Also, I learned all I know about this stuff via Google so if I got anything wrong please, please feel free to correct me!)

Happy Hanukkah! ^^ 

Zen: 

The first time it comes up is about a month into your relationship.

Once you reach the point where you’re spending practically every day together because his day isn’t complete unless he gets to see your beautiful face~

(insert Zen wink emoji)

You’re a little nervous the first time he comes over on a Friday evening

Not that you’re ashamed of your religion, of course! It’s just that the news lately has you kind of worried that he might be… you don’t know, but you’re worried.

When he gets to your place after his rehearsal is over he finds you cooking.

“What’s the occasion, babe?”

“Just preparing for shabbat.”

The word sounds kind of  familiar but he can’t quite place what it is please don’t be offended by his ignorance.

You explain to him that it’s the Jewish day of rest.

He’s basically kicking himself now, because he knew that. 

(He played a Jewish character once, he can’t believe he forgot!)

He listens respectfully to the rest of your explanation 

And he’ll be as involved with this and other traditions as you feel comfortable with. 

He personally isn’t religious but he has nothing but respect for you and your religion.

His own ignorance has also made him realize that he doesn’t really see much of the Jewish faith in films and musicals?

Congrats, Zen is now an official advocate for proper Jewish representation in media!

If ever he’s in a play or film where a character is Jewish, he’ll run everything by you to make sure it’s both accurate and non-offensive.

And when a director refuses to change something after you explain that it’s a not only a false stereotype but a harmful one 

He quits the play on the spot.

His agent warns him that it’s not a good idea to get publicly involved in any kind of political argument, but he doesn’t care

“There’s nothing political about whether or not to be a decent human being and respect others.”

Yoosung:

When he cooks a meal for you, he doesn’t think to ask if you have any dietary restrictions, religious or otherwise.

And of course, tonight he decided to try a pork bulgogi recipe he found online.

Which is… sweet and all. 

But unfortunately, you have to explain to him that you’re Jewish, and you don’t eat pork.

He immediately regrets the oversight, 

He’s sorry he didn’t ask first.

Honestly, he didn’t even think to ask you about your religion.

He isn’t really religious himself and he just doesn’t think of this stuff most of the time?

Now that he knows he asks you a bunch of questions to make sure he doesn’t do or say anything wrong.

(boy’s sitting on his computer googling “how to not offend my Jewish s/o”)

He looks up Jewish recipes and practices them until they come out perfect.

He also makes a list of the foods that you don’t eat.

He’s sitting at his computer taking notes as though there’s gonna be a test or something.

It’s not just fear that makes him want to learn about your faith though. He also actually likes the religion?

Jewish religion and traditions all sound lovely? You sound like such great people? And he already knows you specifically are a great person, so that’s one point in their favour.

He’s absolutely terrified to meet your family.

Are they going to hate him because he’s not Jewish?

Should he convert? 

(You assure him that he doesn’t need to do that.)

He’s also super fast to jump on anyone who makes anti-semitic comments, both online and in real life.

Someone on LOLOL makes a gross, offensive comment and he gets his guild to literally destroy the guy

The jerk can’t go anywhere without Yoosung’s guildmates immediately killing him

Yoosung and his guild are savage and they do not tolerate this kind of hatred and disrespect.

Jaehee:

Jaehee has come in contact with all kinds of people from various parts of the world during her time working for Jumin.

So she respects all faiths and all cultures.

Your faith in particular  comes up one morning, when she hears you praying.

She asks what it is you were just reciting

(She waits until after you’re finished, of course. She would never interrupt you.)

You tell her that it’s a Jewish morning prayer.

Unlike the last two guys, Jaehee doesn’t need to ask many questions. As mentioned before, she’s met with other Jewish people before.

She doesn’t know everything, of course.

Just the basics.

And she’s more than willing to ask you about the details and things she’s not sure about. 

Not because she’s worried about messing up or getting anything wrong

She just wants to know more because your faith is a part of you, and she takes interest in every part of you and your life.

And despite her being Catholic and you being Jewish, there won’t be any conflict. She has nothing but respect for your religion.

She finds devotion to faith admirable regardless of what faith it is. 

Each of you follows your own traditions and beliefs and you respectfully support each other.

She’ll accompany you to the synagogue if you’d like, and she’ll invite you to her church as well though it’s certainly neither an expectation nor a requirement for you to go.

Basically she just… understands 

And engages in healthy communication whenever possible.

Because Jaehee is like a pro girlfriend.

Jumin:

Like Jaehee, Jumin has come across people of all cultures thanks to his work. 

He’s even been to Israel on a business trip before, so he knows a bit about what Judaism is.

Actually, Jumin finds it quite fascinating to learn about other cultures and beliefs. He loves meeting different kinds of people with different ways of life.

He honestly finds everything about your faith interesting

And you can bet he’s going to ask tons of questions.

He wants to know everything.

He wants to know about all of your traditions and ceremonies and symbols…

Everything.

He’s not trying to interrogate you, or be intrusive. 

He just wants to know, both because of his personal interest in other cultures and his personal interest in all things related to you.

He offers to hire you the best cooks he can find to prepare you meals for shabbat

But you tell him that you’d rather do it yourself because it’s more meaningful to you.

He nods thoughtfully

“I see.”

He then calls Jaehee to clear his schedule for the day so he can stay home and help you personally

He’s not the greatest help

Read: he can’t cook for shit and he somehow set the deep fryer on fire

But he can do menial tasks and keep you company while you work.

He just wants to be with you and be part of your life.

Of course, he can’t take a day off every week.

(Jaehee would die of stress)

But he tries to at least come home early enough to help if you need him.

He doesn’t interfere or anything, especially if you don’t want him to.

Mostly he just sits with Elizabeth the 3rd and watches you.

He also likes being present during the Kiddish, when you say prayers over wine.

(He likes anything that involves wine.)

His father might be a little concerned at first about him being in a serious relationship with you.

(He has nothing against Jewish people. He’s just worried there will be conflict since you’re Jewish and the Hans are Christians.)

But you win him over with your respectful attitude and your love for Jumin.

And if anyone else comments on Jumin Han having a Jewish significant other, Jumin is cold and savage.

(“How can you be dating someone who believes that?”

“You shouldn’t speak about others beliefs as absurd when you’re the one who has the ridiculous belief that I care at all what you think.”)

No one messes with his love and gets away unscathed.

Seven:

Literally the first thing he says to you when you tell him you’re Jewish is “that makes sense, I always thought you Israeli great.”

(*finger guns*)

There will be cheesy jokes whenever he can fit them in 

(When he finds you cooking in preparation for shabbat he comes up and kisses you. You ask why. He grins. “Just wanted you to know that I like you a latke!”)

And then there’s the sweater he buys for the holidays that features a menorah and the words “It’s Lit”.

But in all seriousness, he absolutely respects you and your beliefs.

I know it might not seem like it, since he’s so nonchalant and joke-y about his own religion sometimes

But he actually has a huge amount of respect for all religions.

Well, all religions that aren’t cults.

After all, he lived a pretty miserable, hopeless life before he found his religion. In a way, that church saved his life.

So he definitely understands how important religion can be to people.

And honestly, Saeyoung loves hearing about other religions and beliefs?

He thinks that every religion has valuable teachings. 

He’s not the type of person who’s going to argue the details of which religion got everything right. 

For him personally, identifying as Catholic is more a show of loyalty to the church that saved him as a kid. 

Not that he doesn’t believe in Catholic beliefs! He does, for sure. 

He just personally believes that it’s unlikely any one religion got every detail right.

(But he respects people who do believe in their religion 100% too! Again, his beliefs aren’t law. Maybe he’s right, maybe you’re right. He’s not going to argue about it.)

Also, can you speak any Hebrew? He’s not perfectly fluent but he’s decent and he always loves finding foreign language buddies. 

(And let’s be real he could become a master at it if he wanted to just give him like a week or so he really likes languages)

If you can’t speak much, maybe he could teach you if you want?

He’s also pretty excited to celebrate Hanukkah with you.

(He’s super excited because he was planning on building you something for Christmas but since Hanukkah has eight days that means that he can build you eight things!)

“Saeyoung, no.” “SAEYOUNG, YES!”

This is after checking with you that you wouldn’t be offended or uncomfortable if he does, of course.

If you don’t want him to participate at all he will politely and quietly sit on the sidelines until you’re finished with your prayers and ceremonies. He’ll follow whatever rules you chose to impose on him.

And as for antisemitic news stories…

Whenever a headline like that appears he hacks the tv station to change the words to say things like “New Study Finds that Jewish People Are 70.7% Cooler Than News Anchors”

Saeran:

Saeran walks in one day to see you putting out candles around the room.

“What are you doing?”

If it comes off as a bit snappy, it’s just because not knowing things makes him nervous sometimes. He’s not annoyed, he’s just confused and curious.

You explain to him that it’s shabbat tomorrow and you have to prepare.

He’s heard you say that you’re Jewish before but he doesn’t really know what it means other than the general fact that it’s a religion?

It’s never really come up in his incredibly sheltered life

And he hasn’t gotten an opportunity to ask you yet, until now.

You explain the concept of shabbat to him, and answer his occasional questions

(Things like ”What are the candles for?” and “Why Saturday?”)

Saeran is…

Wary about religion, to say the least.

Unlike his brother, he has no positive associations with religion. Definitely not enough positive associations to outweigh the negative ones he had with Mint Eye.

Don’t get me wrong, he heard nothing but nice things about it from Saeyoung when they were younger

But even that might have also caused a bit of jealousy-based resentment?

So organized gatherings of religion are a pretty hard no for him. The very idea of churches (or synagogues) scares him.

He’s sorry…

And… he’s not sure about big family get-togethers either. He doesn’t know if he’s ready for something like that yet. Or if he’ll ever be.

He’s sorry he’s sorry he’s sorry

He won’t stop you from doing anything, of course.

And he’ll help out around the house as much as he can with any cleaning and cooking.

And once he stops panicking at the thought of being surrounded by people considered “believers” again

(He knows it’s different, he’s sorry again)

He finds the whole thing… calming?

He sits quietly while you light candles and pray and just… soaks up the positive atmosphere.

As long as he’s not expected to participate in everything and you respect that he might not always be up for joining you for things

Then he’s perfectly fine with it.

V:

V has mostly positive memories of the holiday season.

And the negative ones he as are mostly only negative because they were the years he spent alone. 

The years that everyone he loved was too busy working to celebrate with him.

But for the most part, he associates Christmastime with good memories

Having a rare sit down dinner with his father

Sneaking out to exchange gifts with his mother (she would usually buy him art supplies, of course)

Attending mass with Jumin and his family

Exchanging gifts with Rika…

So of course he wants to share those positive memories and make new ones with you as well, no matter how new your relationship may be.

So he asks you what you usually do for Christmas

(Jihyun it’s October.)

(Yeah, but he has to start planning now if he wants to find you the best gift possible ^^;)

And he asks if you would be interested in celebrating it with him, maybe going to mass together?

(He’s slightly ignorant, yes, he grew up in a Christian neighborhood, he’s used to just being right with this assumption.)

You take this as a perfect opportunity to tell him that you’re Jewish

…oh. Oops.

He feels like he’s messed up or offended you.

That was never his intention, he swears.

Has Luciel invented a time machine yet because he could use one right now

The invitation to go to mass with him is still open, of course, and in return he could join you in attending your synagogue if you’d like. 

But if you’re not comfortable with that, that’s fine too! He can go to church with Jumin and meet up with you after.

He offers provide you with anything you need.

Ingredients for food, the nicest wines he has, the most ornate and beautiful menorah money can buy, literally name anything you want and it’s yours.

He’ll also buy you small gifts for each day of Hanukkah. 

A book he thinks you’ll like, a puzzle with a picture that reminded you him of you…

Nothing too big.

Until the last day of Hanukkah, when he hands you a large frame-shaped gift

As you’re opening it, he tells you that it’s the first major painting project he’s completed since becoming a professional photographer and trading his paints for a camera. 

“So bear in mind that I may be a little out of practice.”

(He’s nervous)

“Not to mention I technically specialize in landscapes and scenic paintings. I haven’t drawn something like this in a while, let alone painted one.”

(He’s so worried it’s not good enough, you want to open it faster just so you can assure him that it’s great, whatever it is.)

And boy is it great.

It’s a portrait of you lighting a candle on the menorah

And it is beautiful

The expression of pure peace on your face, your slight smile softened further by the gentle glow of the candlelight

The warmth that both your skin and your expression radiate

The reflection of the flame dancing in your eyes and making them sparkle

It’s incredible. 

He calls it “Faith”

Aside from the obvious reason, he says it’s because you restored his faith in both love and himself.

He’s actually debating making it his first public painted work, if that’s something you’d be comfortable with.

If not, then you can keep it and do what you like with it.

He just wanted to capture the feeling of happiness and… well, faith, that he sees in you when you practice any of your religious traditions. 

Because it’s beautiful.

And so are you.

Vanderwood:

Vanderwood isn’t really religious

But they also couldn’t care less about what other people believe 

(As long as it doesn’t hurt or otherwise negatively affect those around them, of course.)

So when they come home to find you lighting candles and praying they’re not really all that concerned?

(Well, their first thought is “where do we keep the fire extinguisher again?” but that’s mostly just an instinctive reaction to seeing fire after working with 707 for so long)

They listen to your explanation about shabbat because they respect you and therefore respect your beliefs

And they will absolutely make sure they don’t do anything that could offend you

(Not that they would say offensive things in the first place.

Mostly they’re worried they might misunderstand something or read false information.)

They actually kinda like the whole shabbat thing?

It’s nice to have something that’s a guaranteed fixed schedule. 

It makes them feel… stable.

In their old life patterns like that could be a weakness, since they make you predictable.

But now it comforts them to know that every Friday night and every Saturday they know  where to find you and what you’ll be doing

Oh, but there is one thing that they definitely need to discuss

They read that you’re not supposed to do certain chores on the day of shabbat.

Does that apply to them too? Is it rude if they do those things? What if they only do it when you’re not in the room?

They absolutely will refrain from all cleaning if you would find it disrespectful in any way

They’ll sit down with you and make a list of the things they are and aren’t supposed to do.

Even if you say you don’t mind if they do it as long as you don’t do them yourself, they’ll still try to get most of the cleaning out of the way on Friday night

And it becomes a weekly tradition for them to come over and help you by cleaning up while you’re preparing and cooking

(They’ll help with cooking too, especially if you’re not good at it. They’re not a chef or anything but they do know the basics.)

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there’s no place like 127.0.0.1 commentary part I: ‘looking back’

Hey gang! Here’s part one of my commentary on my Angela & Robot fic there's no place like 127.0.0.1, a.k.a. A Weekend At Angela’s, a.k.a. Mr. Robot’s Day(s) Off. This will contain spoilers through Season 3 of Mr. Robot.

To start off, the title of the fic itself I got from a fun piece of set dressing in 3x05:

...which (and I'm probably stating the obvious here, but either way) is a play on 'there's no place like home' from the Wizard of Oz, as 127.0.0.1 is the 'localhost' of any given machine.

“Dolores… Haze?” she says, frowning [...]

I believe this is the codename Elliot would have Darlene stored under on his phone, since it’s a handle she’s used in other areas -- recently, as the name of the network she and Elliot used in the arcade during 3x09:

Somehow, he both feels like he’s been hit over the head with a truck, yet at the same time had the best sleep he’s ever experienced in the scattering of days where he’s been the one in charge. The sleeping pills on the side table aren’t a name he recognizes, and the instructional lettering is all in Chinese, but holy balls did they knock him the fuck out. Seems Angela wasn’t kidding when she said she was committed to keeping Elliot out at all costs.

I did a bunch of reading on DID and several people on the forums suggested sleeping pills as a method to prevent alters from switching over in one's sleep. Ambien and melatonin etc all seemed to also promote sleepwalking as a side effect, especially when combined with alcohol (and this is more relevant in part II), so I took artistic licence and made a fake drug that essentially knocks you out with zero (known) side effects, lol.

Residual self-image. Everyone has a face that only they can see, projected outwards into the mirror. A false idol of confidence, of ego, or a shell of dysmorphia and despair – either way, a lie repeated for so long it manifests into your own monster. Or maybe it’s something as little as a smaller nose or a slimmer waistline, look, ultimately, people like to reject reality and see what they want to see – for better or worse, ‘til death do us part, until every feature is stripped back and washed away, and that face in the mirror is just a skull the world has finally fucked. Technically, his own projection is long dead, but reanimated for a greater purpose – a divine one, even, according to Tyrell and his whole wackjob microreligion thing he’s got going on.

Residual self-image is indeed a term from The Matrix, which Morpheus describes as the 'mental projection of your digital self'. Here, it's a literal way that Robot describes how he and other people see themselves, even if in reality it can be very different. The major theme of this fic was perception versus reality, in that both Robot and Angela are focussed so narrowly on their specific ideal outcomes of Stage 2 that they omit or ignore any signs that the plan will not go exactly their way. This is the first area where I start to address that, and basically continue to hold up a sign in big black lettering that goes HEY ISN'T THIS IRONIC THAT THEY'RE SAYING THIS GIVEN WHAT WE KNOW NOW for the rest of the fic.

Still, he only gets wrapped up in this metaphysical bullshit when he’s in the driver’s seat for an extended period of time, because situations tend to arise that take him on a stroll through Uncanny Valley. For example: he showers and then shaves, but no stubble leaves his jawline. He changes into fresh clothes that Angela has left him, but the label on his jacket still proudly proclaims Mr. Robot: Computer Repair with a Smile! (still not his name, no matter how much Elliot tries to pin it to him). Sometimes he can squint through the mirror, rearrange his focus a little bit, and see this analogue of Elliot staring back at him – eyes half-lidded, the pinched anxiety on his face smoothed out. This is what they all see, which really is a poor substitute for the damn good-looking guy he’s facing off with in the bathroom vanity this morning.

Like, I've always wondered about this. Elliot is always clean-shaven after Robot's been in control for longer stretches of time, so Robot must shave, but we know he always has stubble -- how does any of this work, really? Is the fact that we see Robot's face in the mirror just a product of Elliot's overarching control over what is depicted in the show, and Robot actually sees 'Elliot's face? Who the heck knows, Sam sure as hell probably isn't going to explain it, so I'm sticking to this interpretation for now. And, also, no, Robot's never actually referred to himself as Mr. Robot in the show, going so far as to laugh at the idea of Elliot calling him that name when Krista brings it up in 3x02, which is why I have him rejecting it in here.

He tries watching TV, for a bit, but nothing particularly engaging is on basic cable on a Saturday morning – crappy cartoons (they really don’t make them like they used to), some more bullshit presidential candidate Donald Trump (seriously. This, if anything, is why Stage Two is an absolute fucking necessity to get the world back on track) has regurgitated about taxes or something is being picked apart by no less than twelve ‘experts’ on CNN, and the hysteria continues on four other channels. Only one news channel is actually covering the upcoming UN vote, which is quintessential Americocentrism - like, holy shit, the UN is going to sell a fucking country to China, and all people give a shit about is some failed reality star who can't, apparently, do math beyond a grade-school level. The next channel he tries is airing a repeat episode of Teen Mom, which is about the point where he gives up and switches it off, tossing the remote somewhere down the couch.

I don't know what was on US basic cable on that September weekend in 2015, and neither do you, probably. I do know that, around this time, Trump unveiled his tax policy at a press conference. It wasn't on a Friday/Saturday, but then again, September 29th wasn't actually a Monday, so whatever, I'll take some wiggle room on that.

[...] Darlene doesn’t know about the arrangement between Angela and himself, all he needs is plausible deniability for the knock – sleeping pills on the side table, that’s it, that’s the play, if he bunks down on the couch she’ll believe he was so far under he didn’t hear any of it. Wake up, fidget a bit, Elliot-style – keep it vague, let her fill in the blanks—

I would've loved to have seen the Robot v Darlene route, where Robot plays as Elliot and finds out about Elliot's plan to have him followed, and how things might have played out differently from there, but, that would then diverge from the canon series of events I was trying to keep within. I guess we'll never know!

“I know, that’s why I set up a contingency, give me some fucking credit here,” he argues. “It’s a little self-destructive sequence, a ransomware mimic – forget to key the password into the dialog box that pops up every five minutes and you’ll get locked out, and all the files on this laptop will self-encrypt. Only I have the keys, so even if – if – he manages to resurface, he wouldn’t get far.”

I'm sure this is wildly inaccurate, since I know pretty much nothing about programming, lol. We can't all be Elliot, okay!!!

“Is it possible for you to not be an asshole for like, five minutes?” Angela mutters. “Fine. I’ll—wait, hold on.” She brings up the Netflix home page, typing ollie.p.parker@gmail.com into the email field. “Let’s see if he – nope, hasn’t changed it. Why am I not surprised.”

“This is your ex-boyfriend’s account,” he clarifies. Angela hums the affirmative as she scrolls through his recommended titles – fucking hell, there’s at least three different Adam Sandler flicks alone. “Well, good to know he’s still a fucking moron. You sure dodged a bullet there. Or,” he pivots, reconsidering the context, “I suppose, given how that all played out, got that bullet lodged in you removed before it was too late.”

Fuck Ollie, this is the least of what you deserve, you dickwagon. I had a further scene that I ended up cutting because it dragged down the pacing, where Robot convinced Angela to let him 'hijack' Ollie's Netflix account by changing the email address and password and then getting into his email account to verify the change and delete the notification emails. Anyway, he's probably suffering in the post-5/9 economy, so, suck it dude.

He wrinkles his nose. “Oh, that guy’s in this?”

“Who, Christian Slater?” Angela says, looking up over her phone as the monologue continues. She finishes her text and slides it back onto the coffee table. “Not a fan?”

“Of his works? No, I like them well enough, Heathers is great,” he says, tossing a piece of popcorn in the air. “There’s just something about his face that makes me hate him. You know, when you look at a guy, and he has a face that’s just asking for a fist? This guy. He always looks so smug.” He points an accusatory finger at the TV. “What have you got to be so smug about, huh? Besides the fact that you’re probably jerking off to that fat royalty check in the mail every month. I mean, we all know that’s what all the Hollywood schmucks are doing, tugging it to their stacks of cash, but you don’t have to wear it right there on your face so I’m reminded of the fact every time I see it. And it doesn’t help that he spends half the movie miming the act, it just makes it so stupidly meta, Christ, I need to build a fourth wall in my brain and kick over a bucket of bleach – also, by the way, what the fuck, I can’t believe you actually watched this as a child, you—”

This was probably the most self-indulgent thing I got to write. I love that Christian Slater exists in Robotverse, so that I can exercise the 'character played by actor, who also played a character in another thing, thinks this character sucks/is ugly' trope. If you missed it, here's Pump Up The Volume on VHS in Angela's childhood home in 3x06:

She’s silent, for a moment, and the movie plays on. “It helped, in a way. With my mom. There’s a line, that’s always stuck with me – ‘the terrible secret is that being young is sometimes less fun than being dead.’ See, they don’t approach death in a way that’s nice, and polite, and full of platitudes – it’s angry, and messy, and it’s okay to want to just—” She suddenly leans over to the laptop, clicking forwards a few times.

“I’m sick of being ashamed. I don't mind being dejected and rejected, but I'm not going to be ashamed about it.” She mouths along with him. “I mean, you look around, and you see nothing is real, but at least the pain is real. You know, even this show isn’t real? It’s just me, I’m using a voice disguiser, I’m a phony fuck just like my dad, just like anybody—”

If you haven't seen the movie, basically Slater's character is reacting to the news of a teen committing suicide, after they had stated the intention to do so on his show - you can watch this scene here. This is, of course, not a movie a young child should watch, but Angela has always talked about her anger regarding her mother's death, and I thought (aside from the self-indulgent aspect of Robot v Slater, lol) it would be interesting to explore how she might act out, a little, like kids sometimes do to cope with grief and pain, secretly watch a Movie Definitely Not For Kids, and within it find a helpful way to release the anger she bottled up. (Also -- she would've loved the lizard. What a cute little friend.)

Somehow, they keep this train chugging along until well into the night. His pick is next – he chooses Snakes On A Plane, just to fuck with her a bit, but it turns out she just loves snakes, because of course she does, so that backfired somewhat, aside from the fact that Snakes On A Plane is actually pretty fun if you really embrace the hammy acting and ridiculous plot. Angela parries, picking a recent release called Jupiter Ascending, a large proportion of which he spends loudly trying to work out at what point in time since The Matrix Trilogy were the Wachowskis secretly killed and replaced by doppelgänger hacks, as Angela sips her appletini and coos over werewolf-angel(?)-in-rollerskates Channing Tatum. He then counters with Sharknado 3, which is definitely a mistake, and then they have to both suffer through all excruciating ninety-five minutes of it because neither of them are willing to budge on their unspoken cinematic war. A victory for him, maybe, but a Pyrrhic one nonetheless.

Angela does canonically love snakes, so this wasn't intended to be a jab at her manipulation of Elliot this season, but, of course, interpret at as you will. This great piece of characterisation is from the Red Wheelbarrow tie-in book for Season 2 (which is an awesome read, definitely recommend):

Second, the 'cinematic war' is totally one-sided. In my mind, Angela actually enjoyed all the films they watched, while Robot basically fucked himself, lol. Look, Jupiter Ascending is a wonderful, whimsical film, that should be taken at face value for the work of art that it is. Space paperwork! Bee princesses! Eddie Redmayne whisper-screaming as he tries to marry his mother! It's an absolute cinematic treasure. I can't say the same for Sharknado 3, but, well, all in good fun.

“First off, the entire concept of monogamy is bullshit,” he replies, and yes, he is going to actually give her a serious answer. “It’s an archaic evolutionary tactic to boost survival rates among Neanderthals that has no place being the gold standard in 2015, in the same way that we don’t kill a mammoth and spend the rest of the year eating hairy elephant ass for every meal — newsflash, supermarkets exist now, there are like fifty different varieties of beans, literally just beans, so it makes zero sense to pledge your undying commitment to a can of Spam, I mean, shit, even if it’s something you actually enjoy, you’d get absolutely sick and tired of eating it and nothing else until you keel over and die. So, on that note, it’s pretty obvious why most of our parents spend the rest of their lives fucking hating each other if they’re not a part of the fifty percent who cut ties before it’s too late, because, yes, alongside the great lie of the picture perfect nuclear family, the modern factory-line industry of marriage is just a capitalist cash cow where everybody thinks they’re getting milk, but in reality? That sure ain’t a teat they’re sucking on.”

This also comes back to the Red Wheelbarrow tie-in book, and specifically, to this scene in it, where Robot rants to Leon about monogamy in the context of Mad About You:

This is probably my favourite scene from the book -- I love the idea of Leon and Robot having long-winded debates on media, and it's a pity we'll never get to see that acted out, lol.

[...] “Fuck Gosling, fuck Stone, kill Groban. Done.”

“Wow,” Angela replies, leaning back, one hand against her heart. “Wow. You’re such a dick. How can you kill Josh Groban?”

“Breaking news! What a scoop. Angela Moss, come and claim your Pulitzer,” he says. “And, to answer your question: very easily. Groban is clearly the least attractive of the three, and so by the metric of this game it condemns him to death.”

“The correct answer,” she says firmly, barreling over him as if he’d never spoken, “Is fuck Ryan, marry Josh, and, well, if I have to kill someone, I guess I have to kill Emma, but I’m sure she’s lovely. Actually, no, okay, if you get two fucks then I do to. Fuck Ryan, fuck Emma, marry Josh.”

I love Angela's love for Josh Groban nearly as much as getting to see Elliot in that 'Property of Josh Groban' sweater in 3x01. It's never been explicitly stated on the show, but my interpretation of Angela and Robot's sexualities is that they're both bi as fuck, so there you go.

“And, you know what? I don’t want to live in a world where everyone’s as cynical and jaded as you, old man. Because,” she hiccups, ending it in a giggle, “That’s what you sound like, you grumpy fuck, like you’re pushing eighty, not long until you start yelling at kids—” and at this, she cups her hands over her mouth, imitating a megaphone, “Get off my lawn, you capitalist piglets!”

“Okay,” he says, shaking his head, grinning in spite of himself as she yells out “you bourgeoisie microscum!” in a shitty imitation of an elderly man [...]

This is my favourite piece of dialogue in this entire thing. 'Bourgeoisie microscum' fucking kills me every time I read it. Originally I also had 'pushing fifty' as a sly wink at Christian Slater's real age, but no middle aged man has quite the curmudgeonly attitude to pull off 'bourgeoisie microscum'.

That's it for part one, folks! Thanks for reading, if indeed you still are. Click here for part II :D

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IT’S A NEW YEAR B*TCHES

I seriously don’t think I’ve EVER been this damn happy to start a new year. Actually, I haven’t. I’ve NEVER been this happy to close a year out. To reflect on everything that happened, and while 2017 wasn’t like, THE most horrible year of my life personally or even really that much but, it was a CRAZY year all around. 

I’m sure I’ll forget a lot but just off the top of my head:

Trumps bitch ass. I’m still here like, maybe that was a dream, right? Everything that’s come with Trump. The lies, the embarrassment of this country, this ridiculous ass tax break that crushes the middle class, and happy makes the extra extra rich, even richer. There’s literally at least 10 breaking news stories everyday with his ass, so just watch CNN and figure out how fucking stupid he’s making America. However, a plus would be that it’s the most informed in politics I’ve ever been in my entire life, and it’s brought me out to vote other than the presidential 

The inexplicable amount of racism, sexism, hatred. Club Pulse.....so sad. The airport shooting, wtf. Some of that footage still freaks me out. Can you even imagine???? Going out for a fun night with your friends. HOW MANY TIMES HAVE YOU GONE PARTYING WITH YOUR FRIENDS without a SINGLE worry other than a hangover. And your lovers, friends, family......dead. Traveling. Jesus. Dame and I travel all the time. I can’t even imagine trying to find my luggage and seeing people falling beside me over some bullshit. It’s heartbreaking. Freakin Vegas, damn I almost forgot about that. WHAT THE FUCK. HOW THE HELL DID THAT EVEN HAPPEN. I’ve personally been to Vegas three four times. I’ve passed that area many times and like....wtf. 

And of course.....there’s the probably 74 life lessons I learned in 2017. Here are some of my favorites!!!!

*Damned if you do, Damned if you don’t. AKA you cannot please everyone, you really can’t. Even the people you WANT to please, you can only partially please. So basically, do what you feel is best.

ALSO I NEED TO FOLLOW UP ON MY ONE DAMN NEW YEAR FOCUS, DISCIPLINE. I started this post on the 30th, its the 4th lmao. 

But i just got off the phone with my friend and just talked to my HUSBAND, since you know, I got married this year and it was super fuckin fly. And said FUCK ALL THIS PRETTY SEAN CARTER SHIT NIGGA HOV.

Listen to me when i say “bam” literally LITERALLY speaks to my soul. ‘just set your price and live your life my nigga!’ for real. RESPECT YOURSELF. I realized how I’m now learning I’ve played myself for pennies before. How I’ve let people take advantage bc I’m not a total bitch. But I’ve also realized being a female in my work work, hell is ANY work world, if you don’t HOLD YOUR OWN people will try you. 

NOT THIS YEAR MY FRIENDS. Idgaf WHO you are to me, I'm not with the shits. If that means I lose some ‘friends’ I’m actually totally ok with that. I’ve also realized shit, I barely like anyone anyways, so let me tighten my circle, or really, tighten how I spend my time. I have people in my life for 100 different reasons, and I never want to actually burn bridges, but at the same time.....if youre not on the same wave as I....well carry on.

I don’t want to hear about your excuses as to why your life sucks, why your sig other sucks, why your job sucks....if your not bothering to REALLY do shit. (as I stop my edits to finish this post) but thats ok.

Oh yeah, back to what I learned.

I learned also that I get WAY too friendly and trusting with people before getting to know them. WAY too damn trusting. And that’s my fault. No one really gives a damn about you, even those who say they do. I mean, they MIGHT but at the end of the day, it’s YOUR life, and when you think about that.......

I learned that weddings are stressful AF and even though the end result was BOMB, i still think I would’ve been ok eloping in vegas and having a wild story to share. Nonetheless, what I really learned during that process, is who actually has your back. Who’s phony, who’s fake. People I was cool AF with FUCKED me over, people I had really low expectations surprised me. 

I learned that a fake christmas tree is actually winning. 

I also learned that I really want to move out of Philly. PHILLY you’re doing WAY too much these last 2-4 years and its really pissing me off now. Also, that this city is RUDE AF for no damn reason and mean and petty.com.

I learned I have to do better at letting go, and part of that is not taking the responsibility of other peoples BULL SHIT. When you know that someone is just on their BS and throw some shit towards you, no matter HOW fucking corny, let it go like frozen. Half the time people can’t deal with their own truths, and they’d rather just make someone else miserable. Know your audience, and big them farewell if need be.

I’ve also learned that people are jealous of me. And it really makes me laugh. People swear my life is easy breezy cover girl because I work from home and for myself. ummmmm so the fk what???? lol I swear people think I sit on my ass all day “oh IM sorry I have work today” “ummm ok? so do i bih” But I’ve really REALLY realized that people just don't get it. It makes me laugh. And just FYI just because I have control over my time, doesn’t mean I have free time. I allocate it as I see fit, because I fucking can. Because I took a crazy leap of faith and said fuck working and being dead inside. And because I believe in myself and luckily the two people I love the most believe in me too.

I learned that OH ha. I learned when traveling to a third world country........research more. I’ll just leave it there. Cuba was still dope but like.....wow. I still don’t look at certain chicken meals without wanting to throw up.

Idk mannn, just set your price and live your life.

Don’t deal with the shits this year.

Tdot, out.  

[kinetic-elaboration]

November 29: Responses

[some of this is semi-personal, I started ranting and couldn’t stop]

Today I heard some dumbass shit from a couple of my co-workers about the sexual harassment/abuse scandals, and I did not say anything. Partly because I DID say something when another co-worker made a remark that I thought was dumb, and I ended up being very loud and angry about it (Why are Weinstein’s accusers only coming forward now??? WHY??? Let me explain to you and the rest of this 7:30 am bus WHY that might be HOW’S THAT SOUND) and I was a bit worried about that happening again/didn’t really have the, like, mental energy and partly because one of the co-workers is above me on the staff food chain and, lol, ironically, I did not feel comfortable telling him that while I generally like and respect him as a person that remark was Super Uncool and also pretty much Objectively Wrong. (The remark was not harassing to be clear--just dumb af.)

They had just heard the Matt Lauer news (the library plays CNN on a TV by circulation and it was the breaking news of the moment) and--I think they were both just overwhelmed with the number of people being accused and perhaps surprised by some of the names (like Lauer’s, I guess). They didn’t say so in so many words but that was what I took from the nature of their comments. One (a woman) said, in a casual comment way, that there were so very many women coming forward that one wonders “if they’re just doing it for the attention.” Which--??????????? How to deal with such a statement?

I do actually get how the human mind can become overwhelmed with the sheer number of accusers and accused. I do get that. I think at some point it becomes so hard to process (so many? and from so long ago? and people who I feel like I know because they’re famous?) that you start looking for excuses, not necessarily for any one man, but just for the whole situation. I don’t know if that makes sense. I’m admitting I’ve felt this urge myself, a desire sometimes not to believe because it’s EASIER not to believe. You have to re-arrange so many things that you think about the world to comprehend it, especially (or at least?) if you’ve never been a victim of harassment yourself. But of all the far-fetched and not-so-far-fetched hypotheticals I can think of to explain this phenomenon, “women wanting attention” is low on the list and hard to process because, really, how many people would seriously honestly truly want THIS sort of attention for themselves? Having so many strangers know something so private about themselves? Being seen as victims? Being called liars? Possible retaliation? Hmmm, I don’t know I’m not saying it’s impossible for someone to want that sort of attention for herself, but: Do I think it’s more likely that most of the accusers are that rare sort of person or that most of the accused are powerful, rich, entitled, primarily white men who are accustomed to seeing women as objects or tools and easily got away with creepy/reprehensible/illegal behavior for years, thus enabling themselves and others in an endless abuse cycle?

The latter.

But my other coworker’s comments were even more idiotic because he seemed fixated on the idea that the acceptable boundaries of behavior in this here Modern PC Age are just way too strict. Like “you can’t even say you like someone’s clothes anymore.”

Gee I think I missed the part where literally anyone in this surge of public accusations complained because a co-worker or boss complimented her. I mean, yes, some compliments are inappropriate, and some are well intended but inappropriate in the line of the beholder, and we can debate how easy those lines are to identify but the bigger issue with comments like his are they miss the point entirely.

NONE of the major stories out there are about behavior that toes a subjective line. None of them. If you are basically civil to your co-workers/subordinates, you do NOT need to be watching your back right now.

But, if you can’t tell the difference between, for example, forcing oral sex on a woman, groping a woman’s genitals or breasts, showing up to a business meeting naked or in an open robe, forcibly kissing a woman, fondling a woman and taking pictures of it, pressing yourself against a woman and making suggestive comments, forcing a woman to touch your genitals, inviting a teenager to your home and then crawling on top of him when he falls asleep and trying to initiate sex, masturbating in front of a woman or over the phone with her, forcing a woman to massage you, making career advancement contingent on sexual favors or outright raping a person--just off the top of my head--and telling a woman you think her outfit looks nice, then you have BIG PROBLEMS and they have nothing to do with women speaking out against harassment.

I feel like comments like that are so insulting because they paint women out to be just really completely stupid. Like WE can’t tell the difference between those two categories. Or, and this is worse but probably also closer to the truth--that women are just out to get men (I know that some of the accusers are men but the majority have been women so forgive the language short-cut).

It’s so frustrating. The thing is I like both of these people, and at least one of them, the man, is, based on every other comment I’ve ever heard him make, totally liberal. This isn’t a Trumpist in disguise. This is just, like, a person I know. It’s...disheartening. Tiring, I guess.

[notsoheadless]

Okay so the other night I watched the whole debate and here were the things Jontron said that got me. They’re under the cut cause it’s so much. My favorites are bolded. If it doesn’t specify a speaker that means Jontron said it. They all have timestamps so you can’t say I just took these out of context lol. This reads kinda like a liveblog. (Disclaimer: I don’t agree with everything Destiny said, but gotdamn at least he was competent and Not An Asshole. If you watch the video, TW for ablest slurs.) 

“Whites becoming a minority in the country that they built” (10:20)

(These next three things happen in like the same 3 minutes jfc) (EDIT: after coming back and doing the timestamps it’s the same 2 minutes JFC)

*jontron brings up Japan as an example* *Destiny points out how racist Japan is and has been in the past and how it’s hurting them* Jontron: “no I think they are a model society” (13:04)

*jontron asks what’s so wrong about white people wanting to preserve their demographic majority* *destiny asks why skin color matters using the word “you” in a general way* Jontron: “well, I didn’t start this, did I?!” (14:06)

Jontron: “I think people are tribal and want to stick to their own” Destiny: (quoting jontron from earlier in the stream) “but you’ve disproved that yourself because you think you’re white but you’re Iranian and Hungarian, that wouldn’t have been considered white in the-” Jontron: “I’m not talking about me, I’m talking about mass immigration!” (They were not talking about mass immigration) (14:35)

“These are just slurs: ‘White supremacist, racist!’” (16:57)

“Irish were always considered white, I don’t know where the myth that they weren’t came from, that’s ridiculous” (19:41)

Apparently having signs that say “Irish need not apply” is “not liking” Irish people. (20:35)

“Perhaps the Italians and Irish had some traits that were not desirable” (21:17)

Mexican illegal immigrant rapists should be deported but white rapists are “part of the American family” (I know what he was trying to say but jfc what a way to say it) (22:29)

(After literally saying that whites should remain the majority for the whole stream) “Look, I’m not saying that whites should remain the majority, I’m just saying that whites are not allowed to speak up against their demographic……*fumbles for words*…….oblivion” (23:21)

WHITE PEOPLE ARE BEING DISPLACED LADS I GUESS WE GOT SOME REVERSE GENTRIFICATION LMFAO OOOOO OOOOOO AND APPARENTLY THIS DISPLACEMENT IS COMPARABLE TO WHAT HAPPENED TO NATIVE AMERICANS J F C (23:49)

(THERES AN HOUR AND 37 MINUTES OF THIS VIDEO LEFT HOOOOWWW)

*jontron brings up Tibet as a “parallel situation” and destiny doesn’t know about it so doesn’t comment* I ACTUALLY JUST LEARNED ABOUT THIS IN INTRO TO EAST ASIAN HISTORY and lemme tell you rn it has nothing to do with what’s going on in America and is a completely different thing shaped by a completely different history but hmu if you wanna know what happened or like, google exists too. (25:11)

*jontron compares immigration to colonization like it’s the same fucking thing* *destiny points out how that’s not the same At. All.* Jontron: “Then what do you call a large number of people from one place coming in, setting up their own ethnic enclaves and waving their own flags in our country.” (26:18)

ILLEGAL MEXICANS ARE THE TRUE CAUSE OF GENTRIFICATION MY FRIENDS (28:37)

At one point Jontron pulls some bullshit statistic out of his ass and then Destiny straight up googles it right then and there LMAO (he doesn’t mention it but tell me that’s not what happened lmfao) (30:03)

*laughing* “Its soft displacement, dude.” (31:01)

Destiny: “When you say you want to 'make America great again,’ what time period are you referring to?” Jontron: “…I think that’s a very silly question.” (33:33)

*completely out of fucking left field* “there is a disproportionate amount of crime committed to whites by non-whites” (34:34)

The infamous “Wealthy blacks commit more crimes than poor whites. That’s a fact.” (I love Destiny’s reaction lmao “Wait, what???” And then stunned silence.) (36:23)

“That implies that the court system is somehow racist.” (LMFAOOOOOO WHOS GONNA TELL HIM) (37:14)

*proceeds to get told bout the court system* “I don’t subscribe to that” (37:27)

*Destiny points out that it’s white christians who protest things like abortions and LGBT rights* Jontron: “there may be a small minority of white christians who do that.” (He thinks is majority Muslims doing this) (49:20)

*Destiny, as he has been trying to do the whole stream, points out that Europe and the US are vastly different things and brings this up with the context of Europeans* Destiny: “Also no one sees themselves as a 'North American.’ Do you think at the end of the day, 'Ah yes, I feel like a North American’ today. Just like a Canadian and a Mexican.” Jontron: “I do think that we are very different from Mexico, but very similar to Canada.” (51:14)

Okay Jontron basically says that if people assimilated and entered the gene pool they’d eventually become white but then when asked if he’s saying that he says no?????? (1:02:17)

Destiny: “okay but you keep making this about race why do you keep going back to whites” Jontron: “because I-I-I- ….I you know, I do think,…. you know race……influences culture.” (1:04:00)

“Just because I believe they have a different experience doesn’t mean I advocate that black lives matter” (OOOOOO again I know what he means but just talk yourself into a hole my guy) (1:05:28)

Destiny: *attempts to have a civil conversation about why BLM exists and why problems in the black community exist, doesn’t insinuate Jontron has any specific opinion on this* Jontron: “You’re like one of those talk shows where they try to trap ya! Like CNN!” (1:06:06)

“That’s why you’re seeing this rise in all these quote unquote nazis” (homie they call themselves neo-nazis) (1:10:41) (EDIT: getting the timestamps I actually missed this one and had to go back because it had NOTHING to do with what they were talking about lmao.)

Jontron (who’s been going off on tangents the whole stream, with Destiny desperately trying to keep them on one topic when they get there): “you’re just going off on tangents, dude.” (1:11:59)

“You can speak flowery language about this stuff” after Destiny uses very basic language to make a point lmao. Like that’s what a debate is, jontron. (1:13:00)

“If you don’t think we’ve gotten rid of discrimination you’re living in a fantasy land.” (1:14:04)

“The United States and Europe are interconnected spiritually.” (1:15:17)

(HOW ARE THERE STILL 43 MINUTES)

(No wait it’s cool I think the rest is just Destiny talking about what a train wreck that was Jontron left)

[tpaigeme]

just photos w original music

Dear Democratic Party.

I have a confession to make. The other day I slipped up and prayed.

Should I make a video confessing to my sin? In front of CNN? And the nation? And promise to never do it again? Should I resign in disgrace? An embarrassed look on my face?

I am guilty of party line violation caught in the act..of prayer and supplication to God.

Only you can save us oh great Democratic Party hacks —- the Saviors and Messiahs of our souls and our nation.  

I will meditate on you on a daily basis. Upon my little yoga mat I cross my legs and repeat the phrases, “cross my heart hope to die”,  forgive me for I

have sinned. How can I make amends?

Shame on me!  what kind of proper Luciferian prays, “our Father who art in heaven? Hallowed be thy name? Thy kingdom come thy will be done on earth as it is in heaven? Give us this day our daily bread and forgive us our trespasses as we forgive those who trespass against us? And lead us not into temptation but, (and here’s the kicker), “deliver us from evil.”

Oops I said it again,  “deliver us from evil.”  

I guess that’s it for me and the Democratic Party. Think of the perks I will lose. But, the Lord I do happily choose, renouncing Satan. Only God can save our nation.

If they had taken one tinth of that energy and focused it half as much to saving mountains and streams...the land, as they do to an idea that is so wispy and unclear, “it depends on what is is”...we would still have mountains in WV.  

They destroyed your LAND people!! You were comfortable on your couch watching CNN. Your heart went out to a phenomenon a passing fancy the flavor of the month.  Were the mountains too white for you?  They were raping your mother “to keep the lights on” by destroying the fundamental physical composition of America...Dirt. And ripping it out from under you in front of your televised eyes.

But what threw you into overdrive, What woke you up and ripped the golden pacifier from your mouth ... wasn’t the destruction of the land, the beautiful forests streams and woodlands, it was your own private ultra specific war ... and you exploded! Over a freckle on a sub atomic particle’s ass! An undefinable utopian fantasy that defied sensory perception to all but the most mindful of and vexed by  the anonymity of human existence, the absence of cuddling, by your mommy and daddy who refused to adequately fuss over you who didn’t feel inspired to recognize the 6 year old genius wunderkind goddesses of the universe.  That’s right. you have waged war for 30 years for your right to rule in your happy little universe.  Correct utopian fantasy must be not just worshipped and adored but done so correctly.

That’s what  got you going, spinning sideways out of control ike a top that had run out of petro. Like a drunken Mexican on the streets of Arrested Development.

That’s right. Stop ignoring me or I become a raving mindful lunatic on a yoga mat with a bottle of spring water by my side.

****

Because....you’re sane and they’re not.  

For the first time in my life I feel like I am the voice of reason and sanity and moderation . Lol.  That should give you an indication  of how crazy they are. Theyve out crazied T Paige.    It’s a great time a great day a great time for all the unhinged, unglued mentally unstable nut jobs to come out of the woodwork. They have a platform! The worm has turned. For years 50 years at least detente was a good thing! Now the Sore Loser  in Chief, Hillary Clinton and her chieftains are outraged, they need someone to blame for their loss, to save face.  Why not Russia! ???   So they dig themselves in deeper and deeper. Little do they know it’s their own grave.

How does it feel James to be the sanest voice in the room? Kind a cool ain’t it?  God works in mysterious ways his wonders to perform!

Trumps approval  rating for July is higher than RR Jimmy Carter and tied w Bill Clinton.

The massive mainstream kgb style propaganda media, crooks, elite, and Facebook are, simply put, on the wrong side, behind the curve.  Congrats James.  Pat yourself on the back. Well deserved.

It’s very simple really. It’s all about practicality. If your ideas are so impractical as to beggar description, If you get inflamed and emotionally overwrought with other people’s responses negative impressions of your “solution”, step out of the echo chamber and into the light of reason. It is time for you to question.  Ask a simple question: what is this shit? Or just do nothing. The pressure to conform should be balanced by reason.

old tyme rockin gospel blues to make your drive more 'interesting' without taking your eyes off the road. or not. the visual is quite interesting too.  I may have stumbled on inter-dimensional photography...see if you can find the creatuers that inhabits these one of a kind photographs by t. paige.

Aug 24 and 25

Here is Jim- al X. Zones telling his side of the story. Oops sorry not available.  It’s been deleted since last night when I watched it.  It’s been removed from my YouTube history.

Go ahead try it.  Remember the Dixie chicks? How they were banned? This is no different. Madonna  says she wants to s*** Moamar khadaffi and f*** the guy in the Vanilla H *** but no  repercussions. Sorry Virgin Mary but Hillary blew him first.

It’s coming. Chinese style censorship.  I’m w the ACLU on this one folks. Unpopular opinions should not be banned any more than the library should ban  Catcher in the Rye.  Say goodbye to another freedom as we approach The NannyState.  Men have lost their cojones.  

Notice: You cannot NOT care. You must care.  For this thing right here. Not caring for this thing is not allowed.  You must care about women, minorities, etc because we say so. We don’t care but we’re hypocrites. That’s the difference. We’re all sociopaths. So that’s just how it works because...WE HAVE MORE MONEY AND we are IMPORTANT.  You, not so much. So you see it’s not really hypocrisy.  

ALSO, you are not allowed to care about your self you selfish Nazi racist bastard.

https://youtu.be/PtfAl6I4SM0

This might get me into trouble.

I posted Pray For our Country and got some anti trumpies comments.  They said  I’ll pray for that man in the WH.  Like he’s the only problem is the only one that we needs to pray about.

It’s starting to really piss me off.  Give them an inch and they’ll take a mile.  

Is there another reason to pray?  Is it because bombs are being dropped?  Is it because Obama decided we no longer have to declare war to drop bombs on people? Just pick a country. That we can bomb people anywhere anytime we want?  

Or is it because someone offended you?  Did it offend you when a convicted pedophile got a standing ovation from most of Hollywood including Meryl Streep at the Academy Awards? Or that madonna said she wanted to blow the White House up?   ( remember the Dixie Chicks! )

Or that Hillary Clinton got a child trafficer off the hook? When she kidnapped 30 children in Haiti? Or that this woman now is working for Amber alert? Under a different name? Is it because Muslim grooming gangs in England kept young girls around for sexual purposes for decades?  Is it because refugees from starving Africa are storming the beaches of Spain?  And roaming the streets of Italy with hatchets and machetes? Is it because there are approximately 1000 no go zones throughout Europe? Where the police do not dare go near?   Is it because there are towns in England that have been Muslimized, the churches and the pubs shut down. Is it because the plan under Hillary was to do the same here?

Is it because the real problem here is hypocrisy and fuzzy think.  Right and wrong no longer matter and is no longer discernible or desired by MSM brainwashed people.  Just don’t offend me ... my delicate feelings are all that matters... none of the above matters. But if you go off script, say something that offends me... ohmy! look out! I am on the warpath and I am marching on Washington!  

The problem here is,  “you awake?” is no longer the punch line of a joke about redneck foreplay.

I’m trying to add it all up.  I think I’m making progress:

What happened was nothing compared to what happens later. A descent.

But initially what happened? Each group made their point. Peacefully. Nothing happened. The fact that this had a good outcome, the three opposing groups had their say each in their moment and no one got hurt.

What happens a bit later, media types begin shaming....Your group is to blame. Blame blame blame.  

CNN set it up and dutifully the chorus chimed in. On cue just as we have come to expect.

There is something about creating impossible standards for people that sets them up for control. It’s a means of control and repression common among very manipulative types. (Sociopaths)

The real hurt came later. The attacks began. Now it’s a serious thing we are talking about.

Maligning to a certain extent one group or another.

Perhaps there is something to be gained from all of this. Certainly each group has something to say a point to make.

We see what is unreasonable, counterproductive. To some extent in it’s virulence, and unnecessary.

State your point, without bashing the rest of the world. Behave yourself online. Don’t make stupid comments. Don’t make hurtful comments. Don’t attack. Don’t vilify. Because that’s not what happened in the first place.

Through this lens ljust look at what happened. The boys do the school cheer. The blacks made their points however crude. The Native Americans intervene ostensibly prayerfully to create harmony. Good deal. The smirking white boy, an underage teen, was praying all the time for a peaceful resolution.  An end to the confusion. Admirable.

And guess what, prayers were answered.

Let’s be thankful for that.

Let these antagonistic voices reflect on their own motives, meanspiritedness, within their own souls and consciousness. Is what I am doing ugly, one sided and unfair? “I went off without hearing the whole story. And it devolved into a diatribe. For that I apologize. I got it wrong.”  

Later the Native Americans went to a church. During mass. They were not allowed to go in for fear that they would disrupt the services.

What if someone had come out and said you’re welcome to come in if you are quiet and respectful. Or you can wait and we will have a representative out here to listen to what you have to say.

Can you imagine ... Native Americans and Catholics outside on the steps harmoniously joining together in prayer?

Both sides believe in praying do they not?

Each side attaches solemnity to the act of praying. Then what is to prevent them from praying together?

That moment has passed but another moment is possible. We have had time to reflect, to process and come to a meeting of the minds.

The Pueblo Indians have a legend that some mysterious personage visited the tribe and told them of things to come.  

Thanks for listening.

Rainbows 🌈 and unicorns 🦄 4ever.  P.

https://youtu.be/RH8pseoLmC8

**

Hey John, I’ve seen some of your Facebook posts that come in my feed checked out your page. I knew your dad.

Just remember the words to the prayer, is my best unsolicited advice.  It touches us all and everything better than anything and believe me I’ve searched my whole life. It’s a condensation and distillation of things that are spiritually meaningful to all of us. Best of all they are not my words or anybody else’s of similar human consciousness. We know they come from a higher place and beyond ourselves and they lift us up to that level. That’s my experience which I’m trying to share in this song. People share lots of things on fb, right?

I believe you are musically gifted ... I heard from your dad and others.  I don’t know if we’ve actually met but I remember there was some good buzz when you were younger.  

I’m trying to spread the word and various people come up, in my consciousness, individuals who for one reason or another I really want to share it with.  

So I just wanted to share this with you.

And hope you have a good day. Hang in there John.

TY

P.

https://youtu.be/RH8pseoLmC8

****

There’s no reason to think that by the boys not being where they were supposed to be that there was ill intent on their part ... just wandering off.

Apparently these days just about anything no matter how innocent, like wandering off makes you a bad guy. That is very wrong in my opinion. Having white skin makes me a bad guy. It’s called identity politics, but it’s more like a circular firing squad.

And it’s orchestrated by the truly guilty, the fraction of 1% that control our minds. This control is exercised mainly through the Democratic Party these days but in times past it was the Republicans.

Neoliberals have emerged in the same way that neocons emerged and like a parasite have taken over the brain and diverted it 180° opposite from it’s original purpose and identity.

How can you get the majority of peaceful people to go to war without a pearl harbor or a Gulf of Tonkin or an assassination or a 911. Can you actually create a Civil War over an issue? They can. And they work on it day and night. Rust never sleeps.  

They have all of the tools and resources. Political power, the media, money.

When Mao was losing power he used his wife to destroy a culture.  I see the Clinton’s and their backers doing basically the same thing.  Any means necessary to retain power. Even if it takes down the whole country in process.  It doesn’t matter who you sleep with. Change the laws change the religion change the family destroy the family blame the culture, blame this one and that one, it’s all justified.  

But never blame those w the big $, the ones that have no allegiance but to power and who fund your group. Through their corrupt shell game, foundation/money laundering operation.

I guess what they want more than anything else at this point is civil war. They’ve taken civil disobedience and added violence to the mix and perverted Martin Luther King Jr’s. message or dismissed it.  

But most Americans still believe it. Most Americans don’t believe in what the neo liberals are pushing.  They have seen what the neocons did to this country.  And they are not buying this divisive “movement” to further divide us, either.  

It’s been around for quite some time, three decades at least. It’s never been about uniting us. It’s never been about us. And that’s what Bernie tried  to do and did! Unite us. And look what happened to him.

The DNC has been exposed and yet they keep on going in the same direction. They are still leading the charge off this cliff. Male against female, black against white etc. And these people the majority of them are good people and couldn’t care less. So they’ve come for the children.  

Look how CNN twisted what happened and turned on these boys. Got the whole nation  up in arms against them. Now they get death threats and have been docsed.  

Can you imagine CNN calling high school kids “school shooters?”  But that’s the side CNN took.  Against kids.  These are foul, evil people at CNN. They are supposed to be journalists and they are preaching hatred against kids.

Back to the wandering off bit.  If there was a group of native Americans demonstrating or protesting or just doing something interesting wouldn’t you want to watch? Maybe you might wander off too, to see what was going on? That was the whole wish and desire of the Native Americans.  They wanted that attention. So why were the boys at fault for wanting to check it out? It was interesting. How did they know what would happen next?

But it’s so easy in this culture to pin the blame on the innocent.  And even feel good about it because you are taking up for the “poor oppressed minority.”   But not the poor, oppressed white families faltering in this climate less and less which Bernie recognized. Austerity.

It’s not good judgment, or just, to do that but that’s what happens again and again.  

This time it happened to a group of teenage Catholic boys. Who I think behaved admirably.

Who targeted them?  The minorities that everyone is so quick to embrace even if they are in the wrong. Even if they are railroading an innocent person or persons. Or a whole country.  

I will embrace them too when they realize I’m not the enemy.  I pray for them because I have more in common with them than what divides us if they only knew that we have a common enemy. As long as we are divided the problems will become worse.  Our enemies would fall in a nanosecond if we all united.  

It’s CNN’s job to make sure we don’t. That’s their real mission, and their real job. Not reporting the news. That’s what they get paid for. Hit pieces against kids. Not reporting the news. Not reporting what actually happened.  

No, this time they came after our kids.  They’ve been after them for quite some time. Along with mom and dad.  But Mom and Dad are hopefully both fully awake by now and can see what’s going on.

It’s a whole new ball game when they come for your kids.

***

If they had taken one tinth of that energy and focused it half as much to saving mountains and streams...the land, God’s creation, over which we were to be “responsible stewards” not irresponsible psychopaths...as they do to an idea that is so wispy and unclear, “it depends on what is is”...we would still have mountains in WV.

But no, Hell no. They destroyed your LAND people!!

You were comfortable on your couch watching CNN. Your heart went out to a phenomenon a passing fancy the flavor of the month.  Were the mountains too white for you?  They were raping your mother “to keep the lights on” by destroying the fundamental composition of America...Dirt. And ripping it out from under you in front of your televised eyes.

But what threw you into overdrive, What woke you up and ripped the golden pacifier from your mouth ... wasn’t the destruction of the land, the beautiful forests streams and woodlands. No, hell no.

it was your own private ultra specific war ... and you exploded! Over a freckle on a sub atomic particle’s ass! An undefinable utopian fantasy that defied sensory perception to all but the most mindful of and vexed by  the anonymity of human existence, the absence of cuddling, by your mommy and daddy who refused to adequately fuss over you who didn’t feel inspired to recognize the 6 year old genius wunderkind goddesses of the universe.  In your laziness and intellectual dishonesty, you have elevated the smallest vexation and irritation to an Absolute. Your own little fiefdom where you sit, pompous and pussy-hatted on your throne and rule with an iron fist and a divine pussy hat with a clear mandate: Maintain by illogic ucharade-save the Wispies!

That’s right. you have waged war for 30 years for your right to rule in your happy little universe utopian fantasy where you are, not just worshipped and adored but correctly, perfectly.

That’s what  got you going? Spinning like a top that had run out of gas wobbling like a drunken Mexican?

That’s right. “Stop ignoring me or I become a raving mindful lunatic on a yoga mat with a bottle of spring water by my side.”

And I am infinitely mindful of your every infinitesimally small screwup and transgression.

Damn right.

Who knows? What you’re on about. Only you.  

But it’s got you going you up off your ass out in the street raving like a fucking lunatic.

Have at it, motherfucker,  have at it. We’ve already had our way with your mother so have at it!  

****

I wouldn’t say this if it wasn’t important.

Granted there are a lot of people upset about the election. It’s apparent that the democratic party though, has gone too far w their rhetoric. All this about Civil War, impeachment, and every other extreme Kathy Griffin type of nastiness, isn’t that what it is? You tell me? What is it?

Trump’s approval numbers for July according to Gallup, are higher than LBJ, Ronald Reagan and Jimmy Carter and the same as Clinton. Depressing isn’t it?  But keep swimming.  Keep up the good fight. But be careful about unintended consequences.  

There are people that actually voted for Trump. It’s not a crime. They were exercising their rights. Now you want to bash them. I understand. I’ve lived through Nixon and Bush and LBJ.  Mistakes were clearly made and lives were sacrificed.  At this point we have not reached that level of atrocity. Perhaps we should all remember sticks and stones may break my bones.  

There is good evidence that LBJ had Kennedy killed. He was in on it. Lone gunman ... I don’t think so. The Warren report was fraud a massive fabrication.

I’m saying this so that you can see and acknowledge that there is a Behind the scenes network. They carried off that coup . And they carried off 911.  They got Americans to believe a lie. Aided and abetted by the mainstream media.

Do you want to know the truth? You’re not going to get it by being outraged at everything that the mainstream media reports as fact. There is a truth community it is neither Republican nor Democrat. It is both.

I don’t know why Trump won. But Hillary was part of the reason. Number one the way she treated Bernie...Number two Hillary herself.  This whole thing of winning at all costs doubling down, Russian collusion, you need to investigate how that all started. It was a campaign hatched on day one. Opposition research that went too far just like everything that Hillary does.

You have to recognize that even when you protest the other side has a right to their point of you. You have to try to meet in the middle. I was an activist for 20 years before all this happened. One of the things that most of us realized was you can’t let anger take over your life.  You can be angry but use it in a constructive way! Our model was Gandhi civil disobedience discourse.

Also you need to look at George Soros from the other side. What they really want is a police state. They want to stifle dissent.  Which is ironic. You can’t have it both ways. You can’t call people racist who simply disagree on the way to proceed. The kind of solution on immigration etc.  I don’t care if you have the pope on your side calling people out as racists for wanting to enforce immigration laws that already exist that have existed for years in every country. Why would such a radical agenda as open borders be promoted?  Is that not a dangerous idea? Just open the borders to everyone? It would be nice if we lived in that kind of world. But there are bad guys and we don’t live in that kind of world.

There is so much wrong with the liberal agenda right now. It is diametrically opposed to historical liberalism. You hurt your cause w some  of the tactics that are used to promote your cause.  

You need to break away from all of that because number one where is it coming from? Consider the source. The mainstream media which is controlled by the CIA. It is heavily regulated by the CIA. If you would do your research you would find out that Gloria Steinem worked with the CIA.  So did Nancy Pelosi. Gloria Steinem by her own account in an interview went into great detail about those days. They funded Ms. magazine. Do you think that she was the only one? Do you think that practice has stopped?

Go to Ted talks on YouTube and watch the video of the reporter who defected from the mainstream media and is now a whistleblower. It is amazing how devious they are and have become.  

Sheryl Atkinson

https://youtu.be/-bYAQ-ZZtEU

Also look up Maria Kennedy Shriver on Krista Tippet’s “On Being” talk show on NPR.   She talks about some of the mistakes that folks on the left have made. She talks about her faith. It’s a very good interview. She has written a book.

Sorry for any typos, and lack of syntax. I’m typing with my thumb on my phone. 😗

It’s interesting how Hillary and her supporters. And many politicians.  Oh hell the worm turns. Which is exactly what Hillary Clinton is, a worm.  For at least half a century detente has been seen as a good thing by most politicians and Americans. But now, when it is advantageous to the Democrats to save face, they set up a new boogie man. Guess who it is Russia!Traditionally, it has been the Democrats who were prone to not take a hard line on Russia.  But now and at election time sadly we’re supposed to pay Russians! It’s our patriotic duty to hate Russians ... and lovee the cia!!! WTF.  But Hillary says... oh is it Hillary? Oh yes it is. It’s Hillary. Hillary says, and of course she is very objective here. She just lost the election but no matter. She can still remain objective about all of this. She wouldn’t be blaming the Russians to excuse her own failure would she? That would just be too coincidental too convenient.  Take her word for it. You’re w her.  The embattled and bitter Hillary Clinton. Thats a ship I definitely don’t want to go down with.  I never was on that bandwagon. And I am not now.

From the Hills and valleys mountains rivers and streams...A place called Appahchia (pronounced AppaLATCHia)

https://youtu.be/P0725bnDyJ0

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Electronic voting in the US is a huge problem.

#1. Both parties have hacked voting computers.  The DNC is famous or infamous for Voter fraud.

#2. They bus people to several locations to vote.   Remember the irregularities in Arizona during the primary? These people kNo there is a pot of gold at the end of anrainbow. Do you think a little thing like fraud is going to stop them?

#3. Diebold has been kicked out of Europe.  

https://columbusfreepress.com/article/diebold-indicted-its-spectre-still-haunts-ohio-elections

https://youtu.be/NFpLKc6S_-o

https://youtu.be/jH30e7YIKeQ

https://youtu.be/BNZTJeu9ddw

https://youtu.be/u4FPuLNjvAc. Fox

https://youtu.be/MoGeDGHmwJU

https://youtu.be/OvF213popIA. Flipped

https://youtu.be/_IAJ5fAm3Cs. Investigators

https://youtu.be/ibK4de85IKw. Calling Hillary Cunton

https://youtu.be/mEp0kUzmLns. 56 Diebold machines

https://youtu.be/VNzrJWIX5Fw

https://youtu.be/cy1IlAXeV30

Ron Paul.

https://youtu.be/Cx5YyiyWOH4

Princeton Diebold Study

https://youtu.be/hDc8PVCvfKs

Steallary Clinton

I’m trying to add it all up.  I think I’m making progress:

What happened was nothing compared to what happens later. A descent.

But initially what happened? Each group made their point. Peacefully. Nothing happened. The fact that this had a good outcome, the three opposing groups had their say each in their moment and no one got hurt.

What happens a bit later, media types begin shaming....Your group is to blame. Blame blame blame.  

CNN set it up and dutifully the chorus chimed in. On cue just as we have come to expect.

There is something about creating impossible standards for people that sets them up for control. It’s a means of control and repression common among very manipulative types. (Sociopaths)

The real hurt came later. The attacks began. Now it’s a serious thing we are talking about.

Maligning to a certain extent one group or another.

Perhaps there is something to be gained from all of this. Certainly each group has something to say a point to make.

We see what is unreasonable, counterproductive. To some extent in it’s virulence, and unnecessary.

State your point, without bashing the rest of the world. Behave yourself online. Don’t make stupid comments. Don’t make hurtful comments. Don’t attack. Don’t vilify. Because that’s not what happened in the first place.

Through this lens ljust look at what happened. The boys do the school cheer. The blacks made their points however crude. The Native Americans intervene ostensibly prayerfully to create harmony. Good deal. The smirking white boy, an underage teen, was praying all the time for a peaceful resolution.  An end to the confusion. Admirable.

And guess what, prayers were answered.

Let’s be thankful for that.

Let these antagonistic voices reflect on their own motives, meanspiritedness, within their own souls and consciousness. Is what I am doing ugly, one sided and unfair? “I went off without hearing the whole story. And it devolved into a diatribe. For that I apologize. I got it wrong.”  

Later the Native Americans went to a church. During mass. They were not allowed to go in for fear that they would disrupt the services.

What if someone had come out and said you’re welcome to come in if you are quiet and respectful. Or you can wait and we will have a representative out here to listen to what you have to say.

Can you imagine ... Native Americans and Catholics outside on the steps harmoniously joining together in prayer?

Both sides believe in praying do they not?

Each side attaches solemnity to the act of praying. Then what is to prevent them from praying together?

That moment has passed but another moment is possible. We have had time to reflect, to process and come to a meeting of the minds.

The Pueblo Indians have a legend that some mysterious personage visited the tribe and told them of things to come.  

Thanks for listening.

Rainbows 🌈 and unicorns 🦄 4ever.  P.

https://youtu.be/RH8pseoLmC8

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Hey John, I’ve seen some of your Facebook posts that come in my feed checked out your page. I knew your dad.

Just remember the words to the prayer, is my best unsolicited advice.  It touches us all and everything better than anything and believe me I’ve searched my whole life. It’s a condensation and distillation of things that are spiritually meaningful to all of us. Best of all they are not my words or anybody else’s of similar human consciousness. We know they come from a higher place and beyond ourselves and they lift us up to that level. That’s my experience which I’m trying to share in this song. People share lots of things on fb, right?

I believe you are musically gifted ... I heard from your dad and others.  I don’t know if we’ve actually met but I remember there was some good buzz when you were younger.  

I’m trying to spread the word and various people come up, in my consciousness, individuals who for one reason or another I really want to share it with.  

So I just wanted to share this with you.

And hope you have a good day. Hang in there John.

TY

P.

https://youtu.be/RH8pseoLmC8

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There’s no reason to think that by the boys not being where they were supposed to be that there was ill intent on their part ... just wandering off.

Apparently these days just about anything no matter how innocent, like wandering off makes you a bad guy. That is very wrong in my opinion. Having white skin makes me a bad guy. It’s called identity politics, but it’s more like a circular firing squad.

And it’s orchestrated by the truly guilty, the fraction of 1% that control our minds. This control is exercised mainly through the Democratic Party these days but in times past it was the Republicans.

Neoliberals have emerged in the same way that neocons emerged and like a parasite have taken over the brain and diverted it 180° opposite from it’s original purpose and identity.

How can you get the majority of peaceful people to go to war without a pearl harbor or a Gulf of Tonkin or an assassination or a 911. Can you actually create a Civil War over an issue? They can. And they work on it day and night. Rust never sleeps.  

They have all of the tools and resources. Political power, the media, money.

When Mao was losing power he used his wife to destroy a culture.  I see the Clinton’s and their backers doing basically the same thing.  Any means necessary to retain power. Even if it takes down the whole country in process.  It doesn’t matter who you sleep with. Change the laws change the religion change the family destroy the family blame the culture, blame this one and that one, it’s all justified.  

But never blame those w the big $, the ones that have no allegiance but to power and who fund your group. Through their corrupt shell game, foundation/money laundering operation.

I guess what they want more than anything else at this point is civil war. They’ve taken civil disobedience and added violence to the mix and perverted Martin Luther King Jr’s. message or dismissed it.  

But most Americans still believe it. Most Americans don’t believe in what the neo liberals are pushing.  They have seen what the neocons did to this country.  And they are not buying this divisive “movement” to further divide us, either.  

It’s been around for quite some time, three decades at least. It’s never been about uniting us. It’s never been about us. And that’s what Bernie tried  to do and did! Unite us. And look what happened to him.

The DNC has been exposed and yet they keep on going in the same direction. They are still leading the charge off this cliff. Male against female, black against white etc. And these people the majority of them are good people and couldn’t care less. So they’ve come for the children.  

Look how CNN twisted what happened and turned on these boys. Got the whole nation  up in arms against them. Now they get death threats and have been docsed.  

Can you imagine CNN calling high school kids “school shooters?”  But that’s the side CNN took.  Against kids.  These are foul, evil people at CNN. They are supposed to be journalists and they are preaching hatred against kids.

Back to the wandering off bit.  If there was a group of native Americans demonstrating or protesting or just doing something interesting wouldn’t you want to watch? Maybe you might wander off too, to see what was going on? That was the whole wish and desire of the Native Americans.  They wanted that attention. So why were the boys at fault for wanting to check it out? It was interesting. How did they know what would happen next?

But it’s so easy in this culture to pin the blame on the innocent.  And even feel good about it because you are taking up for the “poor oppressed minority.”   But not the poor, oppressed white families faltering in this climate less and less which Bernie recognized. Austerity.

It’s not good judgment, or just, to do that but that’s what happens again and again.  

This time it happened to a group of teenage Catholic boys. Who I think behaved admirably.

Who targeted them?  The minorities that everyone is so quick to embrace even if they are in the wrong. Even if they are railroading an innocent person or persons. Or a whole country.  

I will embrace them too when they realize I’m not the enemy.  I pray for them because I have more in common with them than what divides us if they only knew that we have a common enemy. As long as we are divided the problems will become worse.  Our enemies would fall in a nanosecond if we all united.  

It’s CNN’s job to make sure we don’t. That’s their real mission, and their real job. Not reporting the news. That’s what they get paid for. Hit pieces against kids. Not reporting the news. Not reporting what actually happened.  

No, this time they came after our kids.  They’ve been after them for quite some time. Along with mom and dad.  But Mom and Dad are hopefully both fully awake by now and can see what’s going on.

It’s a whole new ball game when they come for your kids.

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If they had taken one tinth of that energy and focused it half as much to saving mountains and streams...the land, God’s creation, over which we were to be “responsible stewards” not irresponsible psychopaths...as they do to an idea that is so wispy and unclear, “it depends on what is is”...we would still have mountains in WV.

But no, Hell no. They destroyed your LAND people!!

You were comfortable on your couch watching CNN. Your heart went out to a phenomenon a passing fancy the flavor of the month.  Were the mountains too white for you?  They were raping your mother “to keep the lights on” by destroying the fundamental composition of America...Dirt. And ripping it out from under you in front of your televised eyes.

But what threw you into overdrive, What woke you up and ripped the golden pacifier from your mouth ... wasn’t the destruction of the land, the beautiful forests streams and woodlands. No, hell no.

it was your own private ultra specific war ... and you exploded! Over a freckle on a sub atomic particle’s ass! An undefinable utopian fantasy that defied sensory perception to all but the most mindful of and vexed by  the anonymity of human existence, the absence of cuddling, by your mommy and daddy who refused to adequately fuss over you who didn’t feel inspired to recognize the 6 year old genius wunderkind goddesses of the universe.  In your laziness and intellectual dishonesty, you have elevated the smallest vexation and irritation to an Absolute. Your own little fiefdom where you sit, pompous and pussy-hatted on your throne and rule with an iron fist and a divine pussy hat with a clear mandate: Maintain by illogic ucharade-save the Wispies!

That’s right. you have waged war for 30 years for your right to rule in your happy little universe utopian fantasy where you are, not just worshipped and adored but correctly, perfectly.

That’s what  got you going? Spinning like a top that had run out of gas wobbling like a drunken Mexican?

That’s right. “Stop ignoring me or I become a raving mindful lunatic on a yoga mat with a bottle of spring water by my side.”

And I am infinitely mindful of your every infinitesimally small screwup and transgression.

Damn right.

Who knows? What you’re on about. Only you.  

But it’s got you going you up off your ass out in the street raving like a fucking lunatic.

Have at it, motherfucker,  have at it. We’ve already had our way with your mother so have at it!  

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I wouldn’t say this if it wasn’t important.

Granted there are a lot of people upset about the election. It’s apparent that the democratic party though, has gone too far w their rhetoric. All this about Civil War, impeachment, and every other extreme Kathy Griffin type of nastiness, isn’t that what it is? You tell me? What is it?

Trump’s approval numbers for July according to Gallup, are higher than LBJ, Ronald Reagan and Jimmy Carter and the same as Clinton. Depressing isn’t it?  But keep swimming.  Keep up the good fight. But be careful about unintended consequences.  

There are people that actually voted for Trump. It’s not a crime. They were exercising their rights. Now you want to bash them. I understand. I’ve lived through Nixon and Bush and LBJ.  Mistakes were clearly made and lives were sacrificed.  At this point we have not reached that level of atrocity. Perhaps we should all remember sticks and stones may break my bones.  

There is good evidence that LBJ had Kennedy killed. He was in on it. Lone gunman ... I don’t think so. The Warren report was fraud a massive fabrication.

I’m saying this so that you can see and acknowledge that there is a Behind the scenes network. They carried off that coup . And they carried off 911.  They got Americans to believe a lie. Aided and abetted by the mainstream media.

Do you want to know the truth? You’re not going to get it by being outraged at everything that the mainstream media reports as fact. There is a truth community it is neither Republican nor Democrat. It is both.

I don’t know why Trump won. But Hillary was part of the reason. Number one the way she treated Bernie...Number two Hillary herself.  This whole thing of winning at all costs doubling down, Russian collusion, you need to investigate how that all started. It was a campaign hatched on day one. Opposition research that went too far just like everything that Hillary does.

You have to recognize that even when you protest the other side has a right to their point of you. You have to try to meet in the middle. I was an activist for 20 years before all this happened. One of the things that most of us realized was you can’t let anger take over your life.  You can be angry but use it in a constructive way! Our model was Gandhi civil disobedience discourse.

Also you need to look at George Soros from the other side. What they really want is a police state. They want to stifle dissent.  Which is ironic. You can’t have it both ways. You can’t call people racist who simply disagree on the way to proceed. The kind of solution on immigration etc.  I don’t care if you have the pope on your side calling people out as racists for wanting to enforce immigration laws that already exist that have existed for years in every country. Why would such a radical agenda as open borders be promoted?  Is that not a dangerous idea? Just open the borders to everyone? It would be nice if we lived in that kind of world. But there are bad guys and we don’t live in that kind of world.

There is so much wrong with the liberal agenda right now. It is diametrically opposed to historical liberalism. You hurt your cause w some  of the tactics that are used to promote your cause.  

You need to break away from all of that because number one where is it coming from? Consider the source. The mainstream media which is controlled by the CIA. It is heavily regulated by the CIA. If you would do your research you would find out that Gloria Steinem worked with the CIA.  So did Nancy Pelosi. Gloria Steinem by her own account in an interview went into great detail about those days. They funded Ms. magazine. Do you think that she was the only one? Do you think that practice has stopped?

Go to Ted talks on YouTube and watch the video of the reporter who defected from the mainstream media and is now a whistleblower. It is amazing how devious they are and have become.  

Sheryl Atkinson

https://youtu.be/-bYAQ-ZZtEU

Also look up Maria Kennedy Shriver on Krista Tippet’s “On Being” talk show on NPR.   She talks about some of the mistakes that folks on the left have made. She talks about her faith. It’s a very good interview. She has written a book.

Sorry for any typos, and lack of syntax. I’m typing with my thumb on my phone. 😗

It’s interesting how Hillary and her supporters. And many politicians.  Oh hell the worm turns. Which is exactly what Hillary Clinton is, a worm.  For at least half a century detente has been seen as a good thing by most politicians and Americans. But now, when it is advantageous to the Democrats to save face, they set up a new boogie man. Guess who it is Russia!Traditionally, it has been the Democrats who were prone to not take a hard line on Russia.  But now and at election time sadly we’re supposed to pay Russians! It’s our patriotic duty to hate Russians ... and lovee the cia!!! WTF.  But Hillary says... oh is it Hillary? Oh yes it is. It’s Hillary. Hillary says, and of course she is very objective here. She just lost the election but no matter. She can still remain objective about all of this. She wouldn’t be blaming the Russians to excuse her own failure would she? That would just be too coincidental too convenient.  Take her word for it. You’re w her.  The embattled and bitter Hillary Clinton. Thats a ship I definitely don’t want to go down with.  I never was on that bandwagon. And I am not now.

From the Hills and valleys mountains rivers and streams...A place called Appahchia (pronounced AppaLATCHia)

https://youtu.be/P0725bnDyJ0

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Electronic voting in the US is a huge problem.

#1. Both parties have hacked voting computers.  The DNC is famous or infamous for Voter fraud.

#2. They bus people to several locations to vote.   Remember the irregularities in Arizona during the primary? These people kNo there is a pot of gold at the end of anrainbow. Do you think a little thing like fraud is going to stop them?

#3. Diebold has been kicked out of Europe.  

https://columbusfreepress.com/article/diebold-indicted-its-spectre-still-haunts-ohio-elections

https://youtu.be/NFpLKc6S_-o

https://youtu.be/jH30e7YIKeQ

https://youtu.be/BNZTJeu9ddw

https://youtu.be/u4FPuLNjvAc. Fox

https://youtu.be/MoGeDGHmwJU

https://youtu.be/OvF213popIA. Flipped

https://youtu.be/_IAJ5fAm3Cs. Investigators

https://youtu.be/ibK4de85IKw. Calling Hillary Cunton

https://youtu.be/mEp0kUzmLns. 56 Diebold machines

https://youtu.be/VNzrJWIX5Fw

https://youtu.be/cy1IlAXeV30

Ron Paul.

https://youtu.be/Cx5YyiyWOH4

Princeton Diebold Study

https://youtu.be/hDc8PVCvfKs

Steallary Clinton

old tyme rockin gospel blues to make your drive more 'interesting' without taking your eyes off the road. or not. the visual is quite interesting too.  I may have stumbled on inter-dimensional photography...see if you can find the creatuers that inhabits these one of a kind photographs by t. paige.

Aug 24 and 25

Here is Jim- al X. Zones telling his side of the story. Oops sorry not available.  It’s been deleted since last night when I watched it.  It’s been removed from my YouTube history.

Go ahead try it.  Remember the Dixie chicks? How they were banned? This is no different. Madonna  says she wants to s*** Moamar khadaffi and f*** the guy in the Vanilla H *** but no  repercussions. Sorry Virgin Mary but Hillary blew him first.

It’s coming. Chinese style censorship.  I’m w the ACLU on this one folks. Unpopular opinions should not be banned any more than the library should ban  Catcher in the Rye.  Say goodbye to another freedom as we approach The NannyState.  Men have lost their cojones.  

Notice: You cannot NOT care. You must care.  For this thing right here. Not caring for this thing is not allowed.  You must care about women, minorities, etc because we say so. We don’t care but we’re hypocrites. That’s the difference. We’re all sociopaths. So that’s just how it works because...WE HAVE MORE MONEY AND we are IMPORTANT.  You, not so much. So you see it’s not really hypocrisy.  

ALSO, you are not allowed to care about your self you selfish Nazi racist bastard.

https://youtu.be/PtfAl6I4SM0

This might get me into trouble.

I posted Pray For our Country and got some anti trumpies comments.  They said  I’ll pray for that man in the WH.  Like he’s the only problem is the only one that we needs to pray about.

It’s starting to really piss me off.  Give them an inch and they’ll take a mile.  

Is there another reason to pray?  Is it because bombs are being dropped?  Is it because Obama decided we no longer have to declare war to drop bombs on people? Just pick a country. That we can bomb people anywhere anytime we want?  

Or is it because someone offended you?  Did it offend you when a convicted pedophile got a standing ovation from most of Hollywood including Meryl Streep at the Academy Awards? Or that madonna said she wanted to blow the White House up?   ( remember the Dixie Chicks! )

Or that Hillary Clinton got a child trafficer off the hook? When she kidnapped 30 children in Haiti? Or that this woman now is working for Amber alert? Under a different name? Is it because Muslim grooming gangs in England kept young girls around for sexual purposes for decades?  Is it because refugees from starving Africa are storming the beaches of Spain?  And roaming the streets of Italy with hatchets and machetes? Is it because there are approximately 1000 no go zones throughout Europe? Where the police do not dare go near?   Is it because there are towns in England that have been Muslimized, the churches and the pubs shut down. Is it because the plan under Hillary was to do the same here?

Is it because the real problem here is hypocrisy and fuzzy think.  Right and wrong no longer matter and is no longer discernible or desired by MSM brainwashed people.  Just don’t offend me ... my delicate feelings are all that matters... none of the above matters. But if you go off script, say something that offends me... ohmy! look out! I am on the warpath and I am marching on Washington!  

The problem here is,  “you awake?” is no longer the punch line of a joke about redneck foreplay.

Hi Kathy, I'm sorry I upset you. We can agree to disagree? I'm sure there's a lot we agree on.

Number one we are in deep do. But we just know it now but i guess we always have been.  

They tried to kill us once already in the 60s, but somehow we fought back and we won. I wish we could have that kind of unity today. I think there's a way but we need to make certain tweaks. Remember it was all about civil disobedience and Henry David Thoreau.  Mahatma Gandhi.  Martin Luther King. Bob Dylan. And I believe that kind of a movement is still possible.  But they've taken away the music from young people and left them with Taylor Swift.  

Back then we felt that women had our backs. That's not true today. The feminist counter movement became obsessed with attacking men and advancing some strange agenda, apart from liberating women. It became part of the divide and conquer strategy.  

Every movement, is prone to a counter movement.  The countermovement is in many of these movements.  They take the energy from the movement and use it for their own devices and political purposes.  To garner support>votes>power not for the people but for themselves, those at the top of the countermovement within these movements.

There I go again.  But doesn't that make sense Kathy?  It really doesn't matter if we agree even on this. That is just one example of how we can agree to disagree and still survive. This has happened even in the church.  In every movement. Every movement that becomes a household word is fair game and a prime target to be overtaken and used and taken in a direction that it was not intended for. Sometimes the very opposite of that direction. This is true in the case of the church. The goal is to capture the heart. The closer it gets to the heart the more damage is done. If they can’t get to the heart from the inside they will destroy it from the outside as in the case of environmental assaults on our mountains and water.  

One of the tweaks I mentioned was allowing God to inform our decisions.  We have to do this first in ourselves.  We have to forgive for one thing. Remember we had Martin Luther King, a minister, a preacher a church person. Yes we do have to be careful. That’s why I say it begins in our own hearts.

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I really don’t mean to preach. I just think it’s important that we allow God at least allow people who have that in their make up to exist if that is their dream to have it as a part of their solution.  

Some people feel this is an outmoded form of expression.  It certainly can be abused and a means of control which is what God does not want. To me the Lords prayer is the perfect expression of God and also Psalm 23.   But there are many more. These are just two of the ones that have had a major impact on me.  

But I recognize that even in myself there is a war going on.  So sometimes I have to step back and re-center.  When everything is working properly within and everything is in balance that is the only time I really have anything to offer.  It’s really easy to fall off the wagon though.  Trial and error.  It’s not easy to get there.  

This morning I woke up and everything was fine. Then I thought of some injury or slight and immediately my happiness was gone.   Because my focus became anger.  Yes, I do have a lot to be angry about but I can’t focus on it. And I have to forgive from my heart if I want to be happy, is what I realized.  So i’m working on it. Lol.  OK?   Hopefully I’ll change. Become more mellow, lol. Bear w me ok?  It’s important to me to get along with people care about. I understand if you need a break from this deeply flawed person. I know I’m a handful. I try to shield people from my neuroses and unpleasantness, but sometimes it gets the better of me.  I’ve always been kind of an agitator at heart.  But I will always try to make it right.  Right now I think that people just need a break from all of my drama.   That’s the message I’m giving this morning.

Have a good day Kathy. I hope we can agree on more than just a little.

Here is the song that meant so much to me.  TY.

Paige

https://youtu.be/70D4pf6EH9M

[wishingfornever]

12/25/17 – No Contact:  Christmas

I hate Christmas.  I feel very alone right now.  I got back from work and I’ve been awake since.  Current time is 1am.  I wrote a bit of a rant on Facebook.  It was more to address those who experience today in Solitude.  I wrote this rant more for myself… but if asked about it, I’ll deny it.  I wrote about how many people are alone and feel the burden of the holiday.  So if I’m asked, I’ll say, “No, I’m with my cousin.”

Excuses.  It’s a poison and I’m the only one drinking it.  Tomorrow, Adela and I will try to find a place to get food.  I guess I’ll get some McDonald’s. Fuck it, I’ll have meat.  -,-

On Twitch, two people have added me.  I’ve accepted.  They don’t seem to be bots, at least not when I added them a week or so ago.  I asked one why they added me.  Rather, how they found me.  He (assuming this person is male but he has a feminine name) said we have a mutual friend.  Shane.  I haven’t seen hide nor hair from him in a long while.  Very peculiar.

It’d be funny if it were Esther and she were stalking me, but this person is playing World of Warcraft.  She never heard of it when we met.  Of course, she and Dennis could have gotten into it… I wonder.

Remember how I said “Dennis and I never go out so his stories are false.”  Thing is, in World of Warcraft, we did A LOT of things together.  That is far more likely.  Again, doubt it’s Esther but if Dennis got her into WoW that’d be a place where a lot of his stories involving me would be true.

I suspect Shane told these people to add me.  I think he’s busting my balls.  Just sort of trying to upset me or something.  I don’t know.  It’s a very weird circumstance.  I’m going to try to avoid these folks but if they message me, I’ll respond.  I don’t even know how to check mutuals on Twitch, so it’s more than likely he told them to add me.  Whether his intention is malicious or not has yet to be determined.

Anyways, time to ruin Christmas.  As I said yesterday… or the day before? The transcript for me trolling.  I probably won’t share anything like this again, so this will be for educational purposes only. Behold:

Original Post by Mutual Friend who ISN’T a Nazi (Was Posted on Twitter but Appeared on Facebook which he neglects): Journalists need to realise that the erosion of trust doesn't matter for their political antithetics. Trump supporters won't watch @CNN anyway.

It's their normal audience that'll tire of constant mistakes, of immature antics. Yelling about apples won't help with that.

Declan: Nope it won't help them, but there is a NEW NAZI BORN every MINUTE these evil and vile people exist! GOOD AND JUSTICE IS COMING! [At this point, he shares a video titled “88 Problems” which is a Nazi remake of “99 Problems” and is ABUNDANTLY Fascist]

Declan: [He shares a picture of Stalin furiously grabbing his head and looking down upon a series of pictures depicting Communism and Homosexuality with Hitler laughing in the corner]

Stephen: [Shares a picture of a Pencil with the words “This Machine Kills Fascists” on the side]

Declan: Hahahaha, gotta love the queer unnatural filth that rose up to exist because we chose the wrong side in World War Number 2. Thank the CREATOR for Generation ZYKLON which is rising in huge numbers. I guess the degenerates pushed too far too fast. Just a matter of time now, the days of the degenerate is numbered. THANK GOD!

Stephen: Lel, not sure if you're serious or not. Either you're telling a joke or you are the joke. ;)

Stephen: [Shares a picture of Che Guevara, on the top is written “I bet you won’t repost because you’re too ashamed to have a picture of Jesus on your feed.”  The purpose of this was to target his blatant over-religiousness and was more to draw him out as the image will offend him ideologically as well as spiritually.]

Declan: [Tags Me] - HAHAHAHHAHAHA, [Includes picture of Che Guevara with the quote “’The Negro is indolent and lazy, and spends his money on frivolities, whereas the European is forward-looking, organized, and intelligent.’ - Ernesto ‘Che’ Guevara” and is immediately followed by another quote saying, “THIS DUMMY NIGGER SAYS NIGGERS ARE LAZY AND LAZY… In his nigger mind while attempting to promote Europeans… IS NOT EUROPEAN!”]

Declan: Now run to facebook and cry to CUCKERBERG to ZUCK me

Stephen: Oh, you're serious. The thing is, Che isn't black. In fact, his ancestry is Spanish-Irish. It's alright for not knowing, however. Ignorance can be cured through education. Education is a machine that kills fascists. :D

Declan: [Tags Me; mind you, the hyphen is a part of his responses, this has all been copied and pasted directly with the exception of describing the text in images] - YOU SAID ONLY BLACKS CAN BE NIGGERS! You, YOU, are clearly anti-black.

Declan: [Tags Me, yet again] - you should be ashamed, BLACK LIVES MATTER!  

Stephen: "Nigger" is a derogatory term for people of color. Much like how "Kike" is a derogatory term for Jews. If I were to call you a kike and then proceeded to insist that Kikes aren't specifically Jews, that'd be ignoring the original meaning of the word. The more you know. :D

Declan: People of color? You mean how "white" people are all the colors with various hair and eye colors, and brown people are just brown…

Stephen: More how in the US and other western nations determine someone's race by the color of their skin as opposed to standards in other nations. For example, in the Balkans, race is more nationalized and has more to do with culture. For example, Albanians and Serbs in Kosovo. They're different peoples and are considered a different race despite having the same skin color, but I digress.

Anyways, race is a boring topic and you're so very ignorant. Instead, let's talk politics. Since you're super into Black Lives Matters, then certainly you've heard of the glory that is Marxism, yes? :D

Declan: [Tags Me Again; please stahp] - I have heard of it, yes indeed. I figure cuckerberg is getting his minions ready to ban me as I type, so I better respond quickly… [Shares a picture depicting Romans carrying the fasces and is captioned, “In ancient ROME the fasces were carried by the lictors to assemble the court of the magistrate. They brought justice & light of ROME as they bore the fasces on their shoulders. The fasces remains a symbol of justice to this day because of it’s use in history. A bundle of sticks, in this case it was an axe bound around it with rods, held in place by leather strapping. The fasces served as a symbol of the people united together in the purpose of service to one another to build society under the law. It is this unity of purpose that is the basis for FASCISM.  I am a FASCIST.”]

Declan: [Shares yet another picture with words, this depicting Joseph Goebbels with Adolf Hitler, quoting the former as saying, “THE JEW IS THE PLASTIC DEMON OF DECAY. WHERE HE SENSES FILTH AND DECAY, HE APPEARS FROM HIS HIDING PLACE AND BEGINS HIS CRIMINAL SLAUGHTER OF THE PEOPLES. HE PUTS ON A MASK OF FRIENDSHIP BEFORE THOSE HE WANTS TO BETRAY, WITHOUT THE INNOCENT VICTIM NOTICING THAT HIS NECK IS ALREADY BROKEN.

THAT IS WHY WE NATIONAL SOCIALISTS OPPOSE THE JEWS. THE JEW HAS CORRUPTED OUR RACE, SOILED OUR MORALS, UNDERMINED OUR VALUES, AND BROKEN OUR STRENGTH. WHEN WE FORGOT OUR GERMAN NATURE, HE TRIUMPHED OVER US AND OUR FUTURE. -Dr. Joseph Goebbels, July 30 1928.”  Wall of text and is a dumb quote.  Dumb.]

Stephen: Nonsense, nobody is listening to your banter besides me. You're making it clear that you like Fascism so I'd like to ask you more about your ideology. What do you like about Fascism?

Declan: I believe in natural order and seeking real truth. This leads to true justice.

Stephen: Right, but truth is subjective. Rather, let's talk about the political intrigue behind Fascism. For example, what are your views on economics? Do you think Fascism can work with Capitalism?

Declan: Economically, Hitler's policy on National Socialism was an amazing success. So much so, that he turned the ruins of his Republic into a shining war machine.

Stephen: That doesn't answer my question. At all. Do you think Fascism can work along side with Capitalism?

Declan: This is what sums up the ideals of that economic ideal. [Shares yet another picture with a wall of text, I honestly haven’t read any of this until now because fuck that shit.  “HITLER’S DEFINITION OF SOCIALISM

‘A Socialist is the one who serves the common good without giving up his individuality or personality or the product of his personal efficiency.  Our adopted term ‘Socialist’ has nothing to do with Marxian Socialism.  Marxism is anti-property; true socialism is not.  Marxism places no value on the individual, or individual effort, or efficiency; true Socialism values the individual and encourages him in individual efficiency, at the same time holding that his interests as an individual must be in consonance with those of the community.  All great inventions, discoveries, achievements, were the first product of an individual brain.  It is charged against me that I am against property, that I am an atheist.  Both charges are false.’

- Adolf Hitler, December 28, 1938”

Bullshit propaganda, designed to sound good while kissing ass.]

Stephen: It’s a yes or no question, Declan.  ;)

Declan: The simplest answer is yes.

Stephen: So yes?  You believe Fascism could work with Capitalism?  You do realize that much of Hitler's economic success was due to the state taking over control of industry in the nation?  If Hitler ran today's world, Walmart and all those other businesses wouldn't exist in favor of a state-owned economic industry.  That's the opposite of what capitalism and the free market stands for.

Stephen: Very peculiar thinking. Knowing what you know now, do you still believe capitalism is compatible with Fascism knowing that Hitler's success was largely in part thanks to state controlled industry?

Declan: I disagree totally, given I know what Hitler actually did and promoted. [lol, no you don’t]

Stephen: You disagree that capitalism will work with Fascism? But you just said the simplest answer is "Yes." Why the change of heart?

Declan: [Tags Me once more] - I disagree with you. Hitler's ideals of private property and personal industry was promoted in his work. National Socialism is NOT the same as the disease that is marx. [shares the most previous image again because if I read it once I really have to read it again]

Stephen: I'm not talking about private property as that has little to do with the free market. The thing is, in Nazi Germany you had to work through the Nazis in order to run ANY business. You needed to be a member of the Nazi party. The state controlled almost the entire industry of Germany. This was a requirement for the war effort, after all. Hitler was not one to support the free market as that was part of the Jewish agenda.

Stephen: "These capitalists create their own press and then speak of the 'freedom of the press.' In reality, every one of the newspapers has a master, and in every case this master is the capitalist, the owner." Addressed to the German workers of Berlin in 1940. Hitler said this. He was not a friend of Capitalism. [This is the comment he liked]

Stephen: Hrm, seems you've vanished. Was hoping you'd stick around longer. Perhaps a change of topic would encourage your return. Let's talk about the Fascist's strengths. How do you feel about Nationalism? :D

At this point, he stopped responding.

I was going to talk more about this and explain certain things, but I ended up spending an hour going back.  Remember when the paragraphs were doublespacing?  I mentioned it briefly and didn’t really talk about it again.  I realized that if I have to rely on someone else to post these, I need to make them orderly.  So… I did it.  Just now.

I don’t suggest it.  I was getting rid of the double spacing manually because this is SO long that the program I’m using is just… well, it can’t handle uniting all the edits and making the spacing universal.  So, I pressed down on the arrow keys, hit enter, then clicked the mouse multiple times on the “Decrease Paragraph Spacing” button.  This lasted a while and I reread a lot… not a healthy trip down memory lane.

Before Shane told me what he told me, I was super chill with Dennis and Esther.  I REALLY turned against him.  I trusted Shane so much. Trusted Daniel, too.  I toyed with the idea that Daniel was untrustworthy… I think Shane too.  But I never really confronted it.  Of course, Dennis isn’t the ideal character.  He still betrayed me.  And Esther became a bit of a bitch.

Still, I wrote… a lot of sincere and heartfelt things.  I toy with the idea that if Esther were to read this, the first part of the journal would scare her.  Going through it again, not really.  Like, you can see my opinion of Dennis change.  I was honest about who I spoke with.  I wasn’t as deceitful as I thought I was.  And a lot of the dreams… ironically, I remembered the greatcoat burning dream the most.  I remembered it because the design of the camp had a sort of similar appearance to a Call of Duty Black Ops map.  The big snowy map in a factory.  Not exact layout, just looked similar which is strange for a concentration camp.  I can’t remember what I was, though.  Probably for the best.

Haven’t seen Cynthia or little Stephen in a while.  That’s good.  I still have dreams of Esther, of course.  Her spectre.

I had to change the name of a certain NationState to NationState Region Founder.  He has a funny name but it’s a shame I can’t reveal it. To protect his identity.  I sort of involved him in my drama.  That was wrong of me.

I wish I could convince Esther to read this.  I feel a lot of emotions that I felt back then.  I had really hoped that Esther would change her mind.  Shane built me up in a way.  When he was saying that Dennis was basically Hitler, I was convinced she’d see reason.  Of course, I attacked someone she had oxytocin for.  Thus, she hated me for attempting to rid her of her oxytocin source.

He’s still a little bitch.

Yeah, maybe I’m salty.  But Dennis wronged me.  She refused to see that. I forgave him, but he doesn’t want to be forgiven because he doesn’t think he did anything wrong.  I forgave her and same thing. She’s a good person… just fucking dumb.  ><

She has a lot of potential and it’s being squandered on fucking pot.  I hate marijuana.  If you smoke it, you’re a fucking idiot.  Yes, talking to you, Tumblr Reader.  Don’t smoke pot.  You need a sober mind.  If you do smoke pot, smoke it socially.  Don’t let it become a fucking crutch.  Overindulgence in anything is a bad idea.

Of course, I’ve basically pigged out these last few days.  Weirdly enough, whenever I do I tend to lose a lot of weight.  Weird how that happens.  I noticed that as I was reliving the journey so far.

I also noticed that I fell for something I told Esther not to fall for. Early in our relationship, before we became romantically involved and we were strictly platonic, I gave her a set of numbers.  She asked what the numbers meant and I told her to figure it out herself. I ended up talking about hidden messages and the Enigma Machine from WWII.  In an effort to learn the meaning of this set of numbers, she learned how to read the Enigma Machine.  She had a big crush on me, you see, and really wanted to impress me.

As she was learning to decipher the Enigma Machine, I told her that it’s possible the numbers have no meaning.  Immediately, she denied it and said that some of the numbers were making sense.  I told her that she’d find a meaning but that meaning would be entirely her own. She was looking for answers and if she looked hard enough, she would find the answers.  She’d find these answers even if there was never a question.  She still defended the idea that the numbers I gave her had a meaning.

Eventually this idea of hers vanished as I managed to convince her that it was an analogy for religion.  What’s the meaning of life?  Certainly, there are answers and we’ve found it!  Just don’t eat shellfish or pork!  Because you’ll get sick and die if the pork isn’t cooked well enough or if you have shellfish allergies.

We try to find a meaning for everything.  Everything must have an answer.  And when we find even a glimmer of an answer, we’ll do whatever we can to defend it.  That is why the most religious people are… well, religious.  Because they are determined that they have an answer to a question they alone asked.  A meaning to all of this.

The fact of the matter is, there is no meaning.  There only is.  We exist and we perhaps shouldn’t question why we exist.  Life is temporary as an individual… but as a collective?  Life is infinite.

Anyways, Esther tried to impress me by attempting to find an answer to a question that was implied.  Instead, I impressed her through a bit of insight.

Esther was strange at first, but she was worth talking to.  She was like a blank canvas and I was determined to take advantage of this.  I wanted to expand her mind, her thought processes.  She has so much potential that I know Dennis won’t see.  I’m certain he oxytocins her as well, perhaps as much as I do.  But his oxytocin for her? It’s a physical attraction.

To me, I oxytocin’d her because there were so many possibilities.  The idea of Cynthia and mini Stephen?  That’s recent.  To me, I had hoped to share experiences with her.  I wanted to do things I never have and have her do things she’s never done.  I never ice skated before I met her, for example.  A tip of the iceberg for me, the iceberg being adventures we may never do.

I mentioned that we had contracts.  She and I set these contracts and they began because I recognized that she was naive and would agree to anything.  Basically, I wrote contracts under duress to point out, “Hey, don’t fucking agree to everything just because you want one thing!”  It was GROSSLY against her.  However, we eventually rewrote the contract for other things.  We weren’t in a romantic relationship at the time, but we were flirting quite heavily.  It lead to the romantic relationship getting established.

My pride… it interfered.  She screwed me over in the contract and rather than letting her get too proud, I decided to weasel my way out of it and have her rewrite it.  Of course, it was a serious point so I weaseled for good intentions but I regretted doing it then.  Still regret it now.

Before we broke up, right after the event happened where I discovered Dennis was a piece of shit and the oxytocin for me Esther had once felt had faded, I wrote a new contract in an effort to get her back.  It heavily favored her.  She came over to pick up her things the day after, and I showed her the contract as well as a letter detailing my remorse.  I uninstalled all my games for the first time to prove my sincerity, showing her an empty steam library.  The contract I had written the night before was VERY hard on me… Esther even pointed it out.  It was a chance, but I was so scared of losing her that I lost my shit.  Ended up cutting my arm.  That was 9/3/17.  The End.

Love is strange.  Never have I… panicked like I had.  Never have I hurt so badly.  Losing Esther has hands down been the lowest point of my life.  It was only made worse by those I thought were my friends. Shane, Dennis… even Daniel.  Of course, Daniel is still a friend. But he’s not an ally.  He actively worked against me.  Admittedly, he worked against me on the behalf of his brother.  He was loyal and chose a side.  To him, blood was thicker than water.

The original quote, supposedly, is “The blood of the covenant is thicker than the water of the womb.”  That is to imply that the bonds you have can be thicker than the bonds you’re born with.  I told Daniel that Dennis never liked him, and it’s true.  Dennis NEVER liked him.  I’ve mentioned this multiple times.  However, Esther was told this and only saw the Dennis of… recent years. Perhaps Daniel and him repaired their relationships, but I always remember Dennis just shitting on Daniel.

Dennis was not a good brother.

So, Esther thought I was lying.  Me, being a narcissist, was turning Daniel against Dennis!  Yeah, I guess I was.  But it was still the truth.

Shane… he lied to me because he wanted to do what Dennis had done.  Esther had told me that he was getting… creepy.  I don’t want to see how deep that rabbit hole goes, but I trust it’s a dangerous one to enter.  At least for her.

And Dennis… I don’t know.  He’s a liar.  He’s admitted this.  She trusts him over me.  It’s the oxytocin.  Of course, I embraced Shane’s words wholeheartedly, so I proved he was more honest than me only in the sense that Dennis said nothing and I said everything. I panicked.  I never stopped panicking.

Still, Dennis is a piece of shit.  If I were in a position to help him, I would.  Certainly, I would help him in a heartbeat.  However, afterwards I’d spit right in his eye.  I respect our history but the loyalty and trust he and I had… he profited off my misery.  He did something I would never do.  But, I’m holding him to my own standards.  As you can see, I can’t uphold myself to my own standards at times.

Hrm… getting late.  It’s almost 5 in the morning.

Something else I saw…  I spoke about my witch friend a lot.  A quick word search has revealed I haven’t revealed her name, so I’ll keep it that way.  Witch I met about the time I met Ariel.  A bit later.  She had her birthday recently.  Taught me a lot about magic.

I… asked her to cast spells on Dennis and Esther.  Make Esther love me again, forgive me.  Less than stellar things for Dennis.  I didn’t actually think they’d work and they didn’t, obviously.  But the idea would give me peace of mind.  I needed… something.  Something to keep me grounded.  I omitted that information just in case the spells worked.

I found out maybe… a month ago?  That the spells won’t work.  That the target is a naturally born witch so the spells can’t… magic. Somehow.  I’m not sure how it works, but I thought it was fitting. Esther’s a natural witch.  If she ever came back to me, I’d have to get her spell books.  See what she could do.

Ariel said I might be a natural Shaman because I attract so many witches. When I discovered Esther might be a witch, I couldn’t help but think maybe there was something to what Ariel had said.  Thing is, I don’t believe in magic.  Honestly, Witch might have just been lying to get me off her back.

Esther is a very spiritual person.  I’m not.  Ariel is a very spiritual person.  I’m not.  Witch is a very spiritual person.  I’m not. That’s three witches whom I hold very dearly.  My cousin is a witch, supposedly.  A wiccan or whatever.  Jeremiah is wiccan.  Just… idk.  I thought the wiccan thing was just a fashion trend.

Dumb to say, I know.  But maybe there’s a reason for all that.

It’s late, of course.  I’d believe any nonsense at this point.  But if there is a grain of truth in a silo of lies, then I’ll be sure to give it a chance.  I’ll randomly mail Esther some witchcraft books in the future.  I think I can remember Dennis’s address.

Oh, I smell nice.  I ran my fingers through my hair and I got hit by my cologne.  I’m reminded by my work day, though… could have been better.  I felt like I left and the job I had done was done… poorly.  My work ethic isn’t the greatest, but I felt low.  I was dazed.  Just was a bad day.  The day before was far better.  Of course, there was a pretty girl I could flirt with there.

I don’t flirt on the job, of course.  I try to stay professional.

Of course, she was shopping too.  Thing is, I never had a chance to say hi because… professional.  I don’t oxytocin this new girl.  I like her as a person because she’s funny and I am definitely attracted to her, but oxytocining her is a bit early.  As a cancer, I need to be aware of what I oxytocin.

Besides, playing hard to get is what brought Esther to me.  I doubt it’d work here, though.

If Esther came back, I’d stop pursuing Diana immediately.  I’d still intend to meet up with Ariel, though.  Esther would have allowed it back then before the event.  I try to be loyal and monogamous, with Ariel excluded of course.  When I was talking about bumping nasties with several women I knew on the way from Susanville to Houston, I knew I wouldn’t sleep with them.  Was it a joke?  Yeah, a bit, but I actually did want to know if Esther would have cared.  I think with the first one, who is single, she and I would have seen a movie.  Had dinner.  Have a date.  Typical bullshit.  We wouldn’t have slept together though.  Even if I wanted to, she wouldn’t.  She’s Christian and is even chaste.

The second girl, she has a boyfriend.  I tried pursuing her in the past but the timing was wrong.  Never had the chance to actually seal the deal. The third was a guy.  Actually, I met him online. He’s very charming.  Persian-American, or at least his dad is Persian.  He’s in Iran right now, actually.  He lives in Dallas. He’s a very handsome man, as well.  That’s something I noticed, Iranians tend to be very attractive peoples.  Would I have slept with him? If I were gay, I’d fucking fuck him so fucking hard.  But, alas, I am not.  He’s very handsome.

I don’t game anymore so I gave him my phone number recently.  Saved it, too.  I started saving numbers again.  I did it because I didn’t want to forget Esther’s face and my phone… well, it automatically gave her number a face.  Not sure where it came from.  Adela has a face too, which is strange.

They’re the only two contacts on my phone with faces.  And Esther… well, I only saved her number recently.  I don’t really save numbers.  It’s not my style.  The only number I saved last year was this number of this guy who was basically harassing me.  Like, he was crazy and I didn’t realize.  That’s a long story.  Haven’t heard from him in over a year.

Honestly, I hope he’s well.  It can’t be easy for him.  I think he was homeless.  I’m not sure.  He was mysterious and strange, yet he was so hopeful.

Oof. That’s a long journey for recounting memory lane.  Anyways, it’s time for bed.  I’m going to drink the rest of my 1500 ml of water because I didn’t earlier today at work.  Then, I’ll brush my teeth.  Then… I’ll stay up.  I’ll think about Esther.  And then I’ll dream about work.

Heh, that sucks.  I have this inner fear that I fail at work before sleeping.  Makes me restless, strangely enough.  Last night, I had a dream that I was leaving this old, rustic manor in Spain with Esther and this other guy.  We didn’t lock the house with a lock but this weird mechanism.  He said that it was a lock for the stupid.  He said this outloud, right as we left.  A line formed as people tried to play with the lock.

I realize that one guy was going to get it and I started walking towards him to let him know, “No, fuck off.”  The distance got further the closer I got, strangely enough, and when I got half-way he breaks open the mechanism and a bunch of people flood in.  I say, “Fuck!” and start running.

I make it inside and I grab the first gun I can.  A tank-gewehr from World War One.  It’s basically an elephant rifle redesigned to pierce tank armor.  Big gun.  I take aim at one of the looters and squeeze the trigger.

Nothing. I rack the bolt back to see if it’s loaded and it is.  So I push it forward and try to make sure that the bullet is actually chambered correctly.  The dream ends before I can take the second shot.  Or maybe it didn’t, but I can’t remember the rest.  I just remembered I failed at protecting my household from looters.

Tonight will be different.  It has to be.  I’ll dream about failing to help my coworkers.  See you again in a minute.  ;)

Should have guessed.  I had a dream about Esther.  Was very emotional. Like… oof.

Dennis and her separated peacefully, unlike when me and her and I lost my shit and cut myself.  I managed to convince her to not only come back in my life but continue dating again.  She was hesitant the entire way, but we sat across from each other and I held her hand to my cheek and cried.  Crying in front of someone is very hard for me, but I was just so happy that she came back into my life that I couldn’t stop myself.

She had to do something, so I drove into town to do something.  It didn’t last long so I came back as soon as possible.  I stopped by Dennis’s and he was showing me some things.  Strangely enough, he had these snapchat messages with Esther that were saved from 2015.  I thought that was very strange, so I made a mental note.

Anyways, I picked her up and she had been doing a pornographic photoshoot. Her boss was this woman who I never saw and Esther said her boss was something of a hard ass.  From there, it was time to finally go home. I was very happy.

Then I woke up.

I was a bit grumpy when I did.  I mean… really?  Seriously?  Again with this?  In the dream, I was getting ready to prepare this journal to be read.  I was making mental notes of what to tell her, mostly. Dennis was being nice to us, so I had to tell her, “Try to ignore me randomly shitting on him.”  Just a bunch of warnings and disclaimers.

I don’t hate Dennis, mind you.  He’s just pissed me off.  I’m upset with him still.  I guess it’s a chip on my shoulder but I did sincerely want him to be a part of my life.  Shane too.

I had another dream (or maybe it was part of the same dream).  A random guy left me a voice message saying Shane told a bunch of random people to add me and gave my information out to the world.  This is where these two Twitch people came from.  I was very concerned at first, but I laughed it off later.  I stopped accepting friend requests, though.

I wonder if I’ve ever done that irl.  I try to remember back in my propaganda days.  I don’t think I ever encouraged a group of people to harass one person, but I have publicly shamed people.  My niece, for example, who is a few years younger than me.  She basically stole over 800 dollars from me.  That’s a long story, though.

Adela gave me a card saying, “Merry Xmas from Max and I.

Yaya + [Quickly drawn picture of a mustache and a paw print]”

This card had a 50 dollar bill inside.  That was nice of her.  I love the representation of Max.  He’s a little schnauzer so he always has a little mustache.  Super cute dog.  He doesn’t have a mustache now because the vet trimmed EVERYTHING but his eyebrows, but it’s basically a staple for him.

I didn’t get Adela a card.  Rather, I got her a present that I left on her bed.  It’s this short, faux fur coat.  I got one for my mom and she loves it.  I wanted to get one for Ariel.  Hell, I might randomly send one to Esther.  It’s a really cute coat.  Ironically, it costs 50 dollars.  If I get one for Ariel, it’ll be red with black trim.  That’s the same style I got Yaya and my mom.  If I get one for Esther, it’ll be blue or black.  The trim doesn’t change color.

Probably a bad idea to gift women the same article of clothing as other women, but it’s still nice.

I know it’s weird that I’m thinking of getting Esther something but her birthday is coming up.  If I send it, it’ll come from a “Mysterious Stranger” which will be a reference to Fallout.  Or something, I don’t know yet.  Honestly, I probably won’t even do it.  It’s nice to think about though.

Still, backing up a minute it’s weird that I want to get her a gift!  She has made it clear that she wants me out of her life and I know she’ll never come back.  In fact, she thinks I’m a Narcissist.  Surely, I’m doing this because I’m trying to convince her to come back! No.  Again, it’s been a tough life for her.  Last year, she was in a bad situation.  Her birthday was not so good.  Two days after, we met in person.  It’s been a tough year in general, but especially for her.  I think she’d like it.  However, if she asks me about it then I’ll deny it.  If she thinks it’s from me she’ll throw it away.  It’s $50 and I don’t intend to just throw that money away if she doesn’t at least try it on.  x.x

Whoops! I accidentally ordered it, just to see if I can change the Address and place a gift tag on it!  Unfortunately, Amazon is SO FUCKING STREAMLINED, that it just ordered the fucking coat and it would have sent here.  D’oh!

Fortunately, I was able to cancel it immediately.  I don’t get charged until it ships so my bank won’t see anything from it.  Phew.  I can’t afford it right now.  I can’t afford ANYTHING right now.  At least, I can’t afford anything on my card.  ><

Embarrassing.

I’ll look into sending mysterious packages when I can afford it.  Of course, she’ll know it’s me.  I’ll figure it out.  Shouldn’t be hard.  Just… whoops.  I probably will wait until next Christmas, honestly.  So, I guess this Tumblr won’t see the end result.

Oh, last night.  Last night, I drank so much water at once I thought I was going to vomit.  Very bad idea.  Today, I woke up with slightly chapped lips and my urine didn’t show any signs of being overly hydrated.  I guess I go through a lot of water naturally.

Just cooked some eggs with corn and seasoned with pepper, seasoned salt, and garlic powder.  The top three.  It wasn’t in a sandwich but it was covered in ketchup.  It was a good Christmas dinner, even if it were more a breakfast meal.  Esther cooks her eggs with shredded cheese mixed in before scrambling it, sort of like what I do with corn.  I considered cooking my eggs like that but I don’t have shredded cheese.  That and I usually through the end result onto a sandwich with sliced cheese, spinach, and onions (though the recent eggs have had the onion cooked in them).  I don’t have ANY of that right now.  But I have plenty of eggs.  :D

I think I’ll cook an Esther breakfast for myself soon.  Just to see if it’d work with corn, really.  If it doesn’t, then I won’t cook like that again but I doubt it’d be totally significant.

I’ve been thinking of Esther a lot lately.  It’s not a bad thing; I’m remembering her fondly.  I couldn’t help to while cooking the eggs, though.  I won’t cook for her again, so I’ll cherish when she cooked for me here.  Before the event, I cooked for her a bit. Nothing spectacular, mac and cheese or mashed potatoes.  Super easy stuff, nothing complicated.

I just tested to see if Tumblr has a character limit.  It doesn’t.  I posted the entire thing up until now to Tumblr on the blog I made for Esther a while back.  I deleted it after so no one will be able to see it.  The reason I tested it was to see how simple it’d be for my friend to post these things.  I’ll tell her to use the find function to find “Contact” and because that’s attached to every post.  Those are the titles of the entries, after all.

Basically, I’m trying to keep this as simple as possible for her.  Will she read all these?  Maybe.  But I do think she’ll follow through. I’ll make two copies of this.  One will be for posting to Tumblr. I think it’d be better for her to copy the daily posts and then IMMEDIATELY delete it.  The second will be for back up.  If she deletes too much or whatever, it can get mended easily.

Yesterday at work.  I just remembered.  I wasn’t supposed to be on a register but I was helping out as I could.  The line was long so I got on the second register.  My manager at the time, a short Mexican woman who is about my age, was on that register.  I got on it and started ringing people up.  Then she comes up and takes over.

Before she does, she grabs me by my sides, hands a bit higher than my waist to move me.  It’s very gentle and I didn’t realize it at first. Then, I saw it.  I threw my arms out and yelled, “I’m flying, Jack!”  It was great.  I was impressed by how quickly I assessed the situation and remembered the quote.  Like, it was lightning fast considering my dumbed down reflexes.

I actually steal a lot of my jokes.  Usually from Zero Punctuation, lately from Soviet Womble, but this?  This was something that I had a chance to do and I took it.  I forgot about it because the day was pretty rough, but it was… so good.  I was fortunate to have a chance to do something like that.  I didn’t have to go out of my way for a joke, it was just the right moment at the right time.

Anyways, watching a movie.  Life Aquatic with Steve Zissou.  I won’t go into a full review like I did with the children’s movies.  Thing is, this movie is supposed to be rather underrated.  It’s very artsy. That’s something I’ve been wanting to see.  My favorite quote thus far is when this Italian gentleman asked Bill Murray’s character what the scientific purpose of killing one of an endangered species of shark.  He awkwardly sat there for a moment and said, “Revenge.” I’m reminded that tigers who were wronged would seek revenge.  I read that somewhere on Facebook, probably inaccurate but it’s very likely considering tigers are big housecats.  I feel animals are very human.  I shared yesterday a picture talking about how ravens were trading money for bread.  Or were they crows? Crows.  Still, they are very intelligent creatures.  They understand the value of currency and use it to make purchases.  Very peculiar, no?  And they’re making this trade with humans.  I’m sure it’s not the first time there was an exchange of currency between two different species, but it’s certainly impressive.  Animals can learn such brilliant things.  And I think I mentioned how ants enslave other ant colonies and those slaves sometimes fight back and rebel.

The more we look at the behaviors of animals, the more we’ll see the behaviors of man.  After all, the only thing separating us from the animal kingdom is that we wear pants.  Even then, we always try to find a way to take them off again.

Anyways, the movie is paused right now.  His entirely named crew all wear red hats (or a turban for one character), sort of like a uniform.  The gentleman who died at the beginning, spoilers btw, was named Esteban. Esteban is basically Spanish for Steven (or Stephen, in my case). My mom calls me Esteban, for example.

The artsy style is very peculiar, it’s clear that it’s intentionally like that.  The Crayon Ponyfish Seahorse doesn’t exist, mind you… so I wonder if this is in the head of a child named Steven.  Or perhaps Mr Zissou went crazy and is personifying those around him.  I like this film already because it’s making me think.

So, the creatures are all craft projects, at least from the ones we saw. CGI designed to look like it.  And of course, this documentary is so renowned!  It attracts nobility and one such of these renowned individuals was knighted in Portugal by the Presidente.  I don’t think Portugal knights people, mostly because… well, Presidente. They knight people in the United Kingdom, but they still have an aristocracy.

The way the camera shots are presented, the earlier scene where the documentary’s part one began, it had a very steady shot showing Steve Zissou in the middle of the ocean with red eyes for… hydrogen poisoning or something?  Not sure.  But I feel it’s reminiscent of older movies that fixed their shots on characters crying, even when there is so much movement in the scene itself.  That image would still be very still.

Not sure if that’s related to the theory that this is all in someone’s head.  I mean, the character was splashing and struggling in the water moments prior but everything was calmed and I think even the equipment was removed to show that he had red eye.  Very still.  And with the idea that everyone has a signature red hat and uniform mostly as well as the character who died basically had the same name as the titular character… well, I just feel there is something to that.  Maybe it’ll get revealed.  I’m only like… 15 minutes in maybe? I can’t watch now because my cousin is vacuuming and cleaning.  Honestly, I should clean as well.  I have to clean the bathrooms and do the dishes which was one of the reasons I cooked myself eggs.  May as well if I’ll do the dishes right after, amirite?  But I have plenty of time.  It’s only 6:48 at the time of writing.

I’ll stay up, tend to my chores.  I’ll clean up my workspace down here. I’ll get it organized before tomorrow.  I’ll set an alarm for 10 and wake up relatively early, regardless of how well I sleep.  Which, last night, I didn’t sleep well.  I kept coughing.  And I thought of Esther a lot.  But I coughed more.

When Adela is done vacuuming, I’ll continue the movie.  After the movie, I’ll get to work.

Just finished… it was a good movie.  It was funny yet it was also sad. It was blunt yet it was also sharp.  It was a very surprising movie. Honestly, I don’t care for my theory.  I was enthralled.  It’s a shame the movie was so underrated.  I felt that it was… art.

The Grand Budapest Hotel.  I saw that movie as well, a long time ago.  It was very good.  I’m looking up Wes Anderson films and I was surprised he made that one.  Isle of Dogs is a movie that Wes Anderson is making it seems.  It’s a movie that I wanted to take Esther to, even during the event.  Unfortunately, the fissure was grand enough to drive us apart.  My doing, of course, but still.  I will find the time to go to the theatres.  I shall watch it along, carrying her image in my heart.

We watched… several movies after the event.  Two, both were terrible but fun.  We went to the theatre and everything.  I tried to get her to watch Schindler’s List but… we fell asleep.  We fucked first, but we slept afterwards.  Weird to think about fucking during a holocaust movie.

I don’t remember how it happened.  I was emotional and I was happy to hear she’d give me a second chance.  She read the contract that punished me, of course.  Maybe I was too happy.  Weird, I know.

When I find the chance, I’ll watch the Grand Budapest Hotel again. Netflix doesn’t have it, unfortunately, but it might have a crap version on Youtube.  I’ll give it a look soon.  Adela is doing more chores, I need to go to the bathroom and then do the dishes, and there are fireworks which upsets the brat-dog.

Hrm… I wonder where the word “brat” comes from.  I think it’s German for sausage.  Thus, it’s possible that german parents would call their kids sausages because a lot of English speaking parents refer to their kids similarly.  On my facebook, two sets of parents refer to their daughters as a “bean” and they’re on the other side of the globe from one another, Australia and the United Kingdom. Sausage is sorta similar to a bean, and I guess a baby wrapped up looks similar to a bean/sausage.  Thus, calling someone a brat is just calling them a sausage.  But it’s more calling them a child because the child is a sausage.

To me, of course, brat is a term of endearment.  It’ll probably change to something else later on.  Not necessarily to me but to society’s standards.  The meanings of words tend to bend and evolve, like that. However, when you force a word to change, then the meaning is strengthened.  It must be an accepted change, a natural change. Don’t try to force a word to mean something else.  People will think you’re an idiot.

So, I suspect that in the future, instead of “Brat” people will call other immature people “Beans.”  Interesting theory, eh?

Just spoke to Ariel.  She went out with friends and ended up saving a dog. Not sure if adopted or what.  Sent me a picture of her with this rather large dog.  Hope it’s okay.  Wonder what happened.

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Q&A: Kathy Griffin Talks ‘Laugh Your Head Off’ Tour

Kathy Griffin has won two Emmy’s, one Grammy, is a New York Times best-selling author, and is a Guinness World Record–holder for “most stand-up specials by a comedian.” In 1996 she had her first major TV role in Brooke Shields’s sitcom, Suddenly Susan. After that she had a string of hour-long comedy specials on Bravo and her own reality show, and still one of my favorite shows, My Life on the D-List.  Since that show ended she has done a lot more stand up specials, many tours, hosted E!’s Fashion Police (replacing her friend Joan Rivers), hosted a  talk show and much more.

She was more popular than ever, when the infamous mask incident happened. The image triggered a rare instance of bipartisan agreement of disgust and disapproval. Due to this, her tour was cancelled, she was fired from CNN’s New Year’s Eve special, which she co-hosted for 10 years, and many friends abandoned her.  She was also  put on the no fly list, the inter pole list (still on), is detained at every airport, had to deal with death threats to herself, her mother and her family, and was forced to go overseas to make a living.

Finally, last June, she brought her Laugh Your Head Off Tour (you can see by the name she is not hiding from the incident) to North America. The tour sold out New York City’s Carnegie Hall in one day, and is about to come to the Arsht Center for the Performing Arts on Wednesday, September 12.

Why did now feel like the right time to tour again in the States, where you’re still receiving death threats?

You know, I talked to other people who’d been in scandals, trying to negotiate how much time I would need. I’m trying to explain what happened to me in such a way that people can put themselves in my shoes and say, “You know, she might be annoying, but this is not right. I don’t think I’d like it if this happened to my mom, or my aunt, or my sister, or my cousin or my kid. Having lived through it, I feel I’m on a comedy mission to tell people that we need to talk about this.

After I kick the bucket, I want some baby gay or young female comedian or young person of color who has a dream to say, This bitch did it at 57!

Are you feeling redeemed? 

I am performing for thousands of people in places I was told I would never work again. The accidental president said “Kathy Griffin will go down.”  Well I am up and flourishing. Heck I was the only standup comic at the White House correspondence dinner. I was invited by the Washington Blade and I got into fights with at least four cabinet members! They also said I would never play Miami again and I am selling out the Arsht Center, how great is that?!

Also, one of the reasons this tour is important is that it’s allowing me to go city to city and tell people they can hate the picture all they want. I have no problem with that. But I want everyone to know that if your 13-year-old kid takes that same picture and puts it on Twitter, he or she shouldn’t be put under a two-month federal investigation.

At one point you were accused of being in ISIS, did that affect you? 

That’s so ridiculous…I can’t be in ISIS; they don’t even have gay bars there!

Many comedians have criticized Trump, and some have been faulted for not, do you hold any bitterness toward comics who have played it safe? 

I think comics who don’t talk about Trump are bullshit. I really think it’s the responsibility of a comedian to push the envelope.

Why do you think you deserve the support of celebrities when so much of your success has been based on mocking them?

Because those same celebrities know that when the chips are down—and when they have been down—I am absolutely there for them. It was painful when certain people I was happy to take calls from during bad times didn’t feel the same way. And it was harder when I would reach out and say, “I need you,” and some people were just not having it. Most people avoided me.

Who is your least favorite and most favorite celebrity? 

Least favorite is Andy Cohen; most favorite Kellyanne Conway’s husband.

Do you regret anything from the last year? 

My only regret is that I went live and apologized. I take it back!

What should we expect from your Laugh Your Head Off Tour? 

This tour is about playing the great halls…that’s why I am playing the Arsht Center. I will have lots of all new material from the most corrupt administration in history!  I want the community to know Jefferson Beauregard Session is deteriorating LGBT rights day in and day out. We need to be concerned about Kavanaugh, and Oberfield…..Florida watch your back…how are they going to gerrymander the polls this time?

I also might have to throw in a moment of Oprah or Ryan Seacrest. The show is still ever changing, but I will still be talking about being on the news every 3 seconds .Out of the blue, Sarah Huckebee started taking about me again….and tried to tie me in with Samantha B, and Roseanne (who is a Nazi now). I am so bitter that ABC gave her a multi-million dollar comedy show and not me!

What’s ahead for Kathy? 

New Year’s Eve live with Kathy and Stormy….Wouldn’t that be AMAZING? LOL!! There are also multiple things going on at team Griffin…..all pro gays!

Also, one of my dreams is, as a lot of comedians have done, a seminal film role. I’m definitely still hopeful. But do you know what my real dream is? I would love to do a speaking tour.

To purchase tickets for Kathy’s Laugh Your Head Off Tour at the Arsht Center for the Performing Arts, go to: ArshtCenter.org.

from Hotspots! Magazine https://hotspotsmagazine.com/2018/09/06/qa-kathy-griffin-talks-laugh-your-head-off-tour/ from Hot Spots Magazine https://hotspotsmagazine.tumblr.com/post/177803074425

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Trump OWNS G7: Liberals Screech Into The Abyss of Failure

He shows up when he wants. He shows up when he wants. Donald Trump! He shows up when he wants. Poor Justin Trudeau, imagine trying to look the Donald in the eye and seriously trying to claim that the Western world is not constructed in a way that elevates pink-haired lunatics to positions of power. Imagine being a leader of one of the seven biggest economies on the planet and simultaneously being the kind of guy who rates The Last Jedi higher than The Empire Strikes Back. Sit down, Justin.

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WATCH: Trump shows up late to gender equality breakfast at G7 summit https://t.co/5MciY9L2Ve pic.twitter.com/l6ee3ztXdX

— The Hill (@thehill) June 9, 2018

That said, it's not just the alleged son of Fidel Castro who goes weak at the knees in the presences of the God-Emperor. Everybody buckles. Merkel looks like a ticked off hausfrau complaining about the price of bockwurst. Sorry, mutti, you wrecked a continent by inviting millions of economic migrants to prop up your failing neoliberal ideology. No dice.

Trump looks like he's got the upper hand on all the world leaders in this G7 pic. Trudeau's face...LOL. pic.twitter.com/QgaVTeXQIh

— Tim Young (@TimRunsHisMouth) June 9, 2018

Meanwhile, the fake news purveyors complain about being called out for making fake news while non-Americans can hear it, as if the internet doesn't exist. We know already! You are fake news!

Donald Trump decided to use the G7 summit to attack reporters while on foreign soil. Absolutely disgusting.

— James Kosur (@JamesKosur) June 9, 2018

It wouldn't be a day ending in 'Y' without some screeching harpy claiming that if only we had overlooked all the terrible anti-American baggage of the most corrupt candidate in history, all would be well. Are we really still in a world where Hillary Rodham Clinton is not in jail? Tsch. Well, nothing is perfect. At least knitting needles and pink wool are a solid investment for the next 6 and a half years, right?

Popular vote winner Hillary Clinton warned everyone that Russia was interfering in the election and that, if elected, Trump would serve as Putin’s Puppet. Trump just ruined the G7 summit and pissed off our allies... She was right about everything.pic.twitter.com/cyfaXHWK6L

— Janice (@Janice_Resist) June 9, 2018

Russia? Again? Okay, whatever you want, liberals. Lets keep pretending that Trump dealing from a position of strength in economic and military fields is somehow a bad thing. Russia has indeed attended the G7 in the past; the reason for this reticence from liberals now is nothing to do with economics, and everything to do with politics. Putin, for all his flaws, has at least served the interests of his own country above the interests of global bankster cartels. No wonder the weak leaders at G7 are afraid of being in the same room as him.

Dem senator after Trump calls to include Russia in G7: What does Putin have on him? https://t.co/C0FyrXt78I pic.twitter.com/HSlasRaz54

— The Hill (@thehill) June 9, 2018

As the ever-demented Daily Beast squealed the new orthodox position, Trump sits and laughs:

It’s as if seven people went to a club to play poker, and one of them, the richest, threw the deck in the air and announced they would play 52 pick-up instead. Everybody else in the room knows that this is nuts. They also know that for better or worse, they have to live with it. But maybe they won’t invite him back.

Trumps trip to G7 meeting was so unsuccessful that 6 other countries are threatening to sign a deal without Americas input. France has said that Trump doesn't share the same economic agenda the rest of the world shares. Get ready for America to be removed and it becoming G6.

— Johnathan Ford (@SignRealLiberal) June 9, 2018

As the USA would simply cut superior deals with everyone who is not in the G7 if this were to happen. Do you want a world where the USA chooses Russia as a preferred trading partner, Liberals? Any leader with a seat at this table would risk crashing his or her economy by pulling out, as the G7 represent more than 62% of the global net wealth ($280 trillion). Nobody with a desire for re-election or with the interests of their own economy is going to exclude the most wealthy and prosperous nation on Earth. We can be glad that Donald Trump does not share the same economic agenda as Emmanuel Macron- that agenda is dependent on mass immigration, debt, and war. Macron sees the future of France as African in heritage- and he himself gives the lie to this weak bombast. “I don’t have red lines,” he said at the Sorbonne in September last year, “I only have horizons.”

Meanwhile, alleged male Justin Trudeau runs to the press to once again attempt to look like something other than a hybrid between human and chinless invertebrate.

JUST IN: Canadian Prime Minister Justin Trudeau says he will impose retaliatory measures to answer President Trump's tariffs on steel and aluminum: "Canadians: we're polite, we're reasonable, but we also will not be pushed around." https://t.co/kOFlnuMaEH pic.twitter.com/32vYsYdtwP

— CNN (@CNN) June 9, 2018

Such weak political leaders cannot even manage to gang up on the USA effectively- so all-encompassing is the weight of the Donald that the Prime Minister of Britain might as well not have shown up. Nobody knew Theresa May was there, for all the strength she exerted; just like in her Brexit negotiations which have been so bad she is in imminent danger of losing her job.

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The time of limp leaders serving at the Debt to GDP cult instead of their people is coming to a close. The way of national interest is rising again- and all Mr. Trump has had to do to make this a tangible reality is to look Merkel, May, Macron and Schoolboy Trudeau in the eye and say;

Nevermore.

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