#at 70mph on a crowded expressway

[quinloki]

Surprise spider was surprise two spiders, was a surprise when I was very close to the spiders, was surprise large spiders, was a surprise.

To no one’s surprise, I am terrified of spiders.

It’s a completely unfounded terror. I have no past trauma, no prolonged exposure, no bites or anything, I have just always been violently afraid of all bugs and spider worst of all.

I try to think of them as Guardian Deities, cause I know logically that spiders keep other bugs away, but 😭 I can’t go on my porch. There are spiders. They’re not even by the door. I’m going to be exiting by the garage for the rest of the summer, or the back porch if the garage isn’t safe.

It’s embarrassing to be this afraid of such tiny things but I don’t see this phobia improving after almost 43 years.