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br1ghtestlight · 6 months ago

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Do you want somebody to care about you (a frriend)?

LMAO i guess?? i have online friends who i love and who care abt me so that isn't really the problem. i havent had any irl friends in a very very long time and ive never had an irl friend who i could actually trust/confide in. Maybe having irl friends would fix me but i think mt mental illness would not actually be fixed by being around people...... i dont know i think you don't really "recover" from what ive been through mentally but maybe friends would be nice <- Im not making friends. the time and opportunity for making friends irl has gone and past. AND im autistic and give off negative and uncomfortable vibes when people see me irl so its not happening unfortunately

#assuming that this was not sent by somebody who lives in my town and is outside my house right now #but i guess if it was. Hmu??#i like talking to people and making internet friends but right now im operating at like 0.5 mental speed and im awful w/ conversations #and keeping up with people which ANYBODY who has been in contact with me lately would agree with #so i cant in good faith say that talking to me would be a good idea. i dont even really know why someone would ever WANT to #as oppossed to the millions of other people they could talk to and know #its like 3am right now and im very tired so i dont know if this even makes sense #i feel like any amount of making friends or having a social life would just be a banage covering up my real problems #which are unfixable. mental illness doesnt not work like that. you cant extrovert ur way out of it #but at least if i had somebody to watch movies with on weekends that would be SOMETHING. maybe not much but something #anyway.... sleeping now 😴😴💤#ask

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