#as cringe recently. because again i simply dont want to deny myself the few damn things i Have
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honestly i think if i knew at any point from like 17-19 that i would end up a friendless loser at 22 i wouldve killed myself then to spare myself the humiliation
#the only thing that sustained my sense of self then really was the notion that i wasnt a complete loser#and that i was improving above other people & that i had recovered from being lame earlier in life#well. look at me now. and honestly i dont know if i was right#ive gotten back into things that i considered 'cringe' for a while (principally fanfiction and fandom) just because theres few things which#make me feel any sense of happiness & i have to stick to what i can get . ive tried not to self censor as much because of fear of being see#as cringe recently. because again i simply dont want to deny myself the few damn things i Have#but now it feels like . idk. ive become the person i was afraid of being when i was younger#and i dont know how to feel about it. because i dont feel good about myself. but i would only be more miserable if i tried to censor all th#things i was allowed to like and what ways i was allowed to like them again#its like. i already let anxiety completely and utterly rule my life irl. if i let it online too i wouldnt have anywhere to be#in any way authentic at all
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