#as a suicide survivor i can attest that you do get that screaming impulse silco was talking about to stay alive

[thewistlingbadger]

Upon further inspection, I think the beginning of ep2 S2 was a suicide attempt from Jinx. We see how deep she is in the water, she's so far away from the surface and she's holding her breath for such a long time. She doesn't seem to have any intention of leaving either, we see how much she clings to him. In this scene we hear Silco's line "have you had enough?" I've made a post about the inclusion of this line back when the act came out. I questioned the inclusion of this line because originally I thought that Silco's monologue was meant for the audience only, so how would Jinx be aware of this line? Unless he had given her that monologue once upon a time?

But for this post I'm going to focus on the context of the line. Silco talks about the dichotomy of drowning, the inherent peace and also the violent instinct to fight the water and survive. "Have you had enough" is the question of this dichotomy. Have you had enough of drowning, or have you had enough of living? The fact that we hear this line in this moment means Jinx had the option to join Silco in the water or to go back to zaun, to the surface. She screams in frustration after this line is given. Like she wanted to join him and decides she can't, not yet, despite how much she yearns for it.

As a matter of a fact, everytime jinx speaks in suicidal language, it is in connection with silco. It is about being with silco again, in a way. We have this moment then the next moment happens in the office. She says "if you want me to play your stupid revolution game, speak up now or I guess...I guess you're really gone, and there's no reason to stay here anymore." I've made a post about this line too. Where exactly is here? Does she mean the office? Zaun? Or does she mean life, if Silco's gone what's the point of being alive anymore? The final moment of course is that whole "break the cycle" thing which I don't think I need to talk about for obvious reasons.

Ive seen people suggest that the opening to ep2 was fake due to the fact that she's so deep and survives for so long and because Silco's right eye is closed, despite the fact that it didn't have an eye lid all of s1. I disagree with this take because it severely cheapens this moment.