#arysafics

[youleftme-clarke]

Looking for beta readers for an original novel

[Title TBD] Rating: Explicit Category: F/M Tags/Tropes: Friends to lovers, childhood friends, he falls first, mutual pining, protective MMC, forced proximity, hidden identity, second chance at love, modern setting, underground boxing AU Words: 33,215 [target 75,000] Chapters: 12/42 Summary: Mackenzie "Mac" Keller toils under the thumb of a merciless criminal syndicate, working to pay off a debt that was never hers to begin with. Trapped in a world of illicit bets and clandestine fights, she hides her haunted past behind a facade of indifference with only one goal: survival. But when Trevor, Mac's high school best friend and the man who walked out of her life ten years ago, resurfaces unexpectedly, Mac's carefully constructed defences begin to crumble. Trevor, harbouring secrets of his own, threatens to unravel the fragile balance Mac has fought so hard to maintain. As they confront their shared history, the shadows that linger between them, and the dangers of their present reality, Mac must either confront her deepest fears and desires or watch the one man she never dared to love slip away again. Trigger Warnings: Smut, language, gambling/betting, physical violence and use of weapons, drug and alcohol use/addiction, mentions of human trafficking/kidnapping (non-MC), forced sex work/prostitution, SA (main character, no graphic descriptions; it is known/understood that this happens but is not described), may develop to include minor character death

Tagging some former fic-writer friends and mutuals in case you're still around to see this and reblog ❤️

@asroarke @arysafics @kombellarke @sly2o @bettsfic

[captaindaddykru]

it dies (a million little times)

“I’ve only done it once. The guy didn’t seem to like it very much.” He kept shoving her face toward his dick, and when she finally relented, more than once made her gag around him without her permission or obvious enjoyment. Afterwards, he complained about her not swallowing. It wasn’t sexy. This angle kind of works for them anyway, so she tries it, placing a hand on his thigh, “Maybe you could give me some tips?”

Like predicted, implying it’s for her benefit takes some of the pressure of.

Bellamy slowly pushes a deep, resigned sigh from his lips, his eyes narrowed thoughtfully. He puts his popcorn in the empty seat beside him, quietly unbuttoning his jeans, which seems like enough of an invitation.

part two: that’s the thing about illicit affairs for @arysafics​

[pendragaryen]

@arysafics​ Seriously, i second this. From the bottom of my heart. It was so insanely HOT to read - and then, later, there was that scene in the garden... when he spooned her and told her that it couldn’t last... that what they had wasn’t real and that she’d have to let him go... and god the way i cried... Jfc... That rollercoaster of emotions you got me through is incomparable. Thanks for this Halloween-gift! And i really appreciate the ending - since i’m in a bad need of things like that after the mess of the last season... So. Thank you for this fanfiction! Anne

Simple, Impossible Things by @arysafics broke my heart and put me back together in 8k words. That fic is a Halloween masterpiece and I highly recommend it.

[burninghoneyatdusk]

WIP Game

Post the names of all the files in your WIP folder, regardless of how non-descriptive or ridiculous. Let people send you an ask with the title that most intrigues them and then post a little snippet of it or tell them something about it! And then tag as many people as you have WIPs.

Tagged by @she-who-the-river-could-not-hold, thanks love! For once in my fic-writing life, I’m not overwhelmed w wips and only have two! This summer I’m actually going to pause to work on an original rom-com novel that I’m really excited about, but plan to keep working on these two for fun/when I need a break.

published wips

Let Your Heart Beat Here

bellarke | 4/10 complete

modern au | weddings | mutual pining | bed sharing | enemies to friends to lovers | best friend’s brother

It’s wedding season and Clarke, as single as ever, is faced with the prospect of spending an entire summer at the singles’ table. The only person who might be more miserable than her is her best friend’s brother Bellamy, who just got dumped from a three year relationship.

Bellamy and Clarke have never gotten along, but to survive wedding season, they make a deal - double down on weddings by being each others’ plus ones. It’s only a mutually beneficial agreement, a way to avoid the singles’ tables and wingman each other. At least, that’s all it was supposed to be. Or, the Plus One AU no one asked for.

you kept me like a secret (I kept you like an oath)

darklina | 1/10 complete soon to be 2/10, the next chapter will be published this week !!

modern au | amnesia | exes to friends to lovers | unplanned pregnancy | boss/employee relationship | secret relationship | office sex | smut | angst

When Alina wakes up in the hospital after an accident, she learns that not only did she lose her memories from the past year, but that she’s pregnant—and has no idea who the father is.

Aleksander never planned on having a secret affair with one of his employees, but Alina snuck up on him in more ways than one. When she loses her memories in an accident, he realizes that she has no memory of the affair that prompted him to divorce his wife and her to end her own relationship. He also has no idea how to tell her that he’s the father of her child.

plot seeds, as kathryn would say

aka some ideas written down but just in the planning stage/who knows if they’ll be written, but probably not

Bellarke/Original Characters - Next Gen sequel to the Bellarke fic Voices in the Water

Bellarke - Whiskey Cavalier AU

Bellarke - Cop!Clarke + Criminal!Bellamy partners

Bellarke - Ballerina!Clarke + Coach’s Son!Bellamy

Bellarke - Boarding School; Rivals to Lovers

Bellarke - Life Unexpected AU

Bellarke/Murven - Outerbanks AU

Bellarke - The Handmaid’s Tale AU

Bellarke - Tuck Everlasting AU

Bellarke - Friends with Kids AU

Bellarke - Best Friend’s Little Sister

Bellarke - Best Friend’s Girl

Bellarke - The Switch AU

Darklina - Immortal Soulmates; Enemies to Lovers

Kanej - Hades/Persephone AU

Kanej - President + Chief of Staff AU

Grishaverse - Dark Academia AU

Tagging: @stealing-jasons-job | @daisyjvnes | @sparklyfairymira | @writetheniteaway | @eyessharpweaponshot | @nakey-cats-take-bathsss | @icantloseyou-too | @carrieeve | @chronictonsillitis | @excuseyouclarke | @useyourtelescope | @arysafics | @captaindaddykru | @unremarkablegirl | @bellamyblake | @valkyrhys | @roguetwelve | @hopskipaway | @mylifeiskara | @bookwormforalways

[heartbellamy]

Hello dears! Welcome back to Bellarke Creator Shoutout, we’re now on our eleventh installment of this series and it happens to fall in the middle of #TheBestofBellarke, so this segment will be focusing on those works! It’s been a great event so far with a bunch of wonderful creations all around. And if you’d like to take part there’s still time to do so! Anyway, on with the creations, I hope you enjoy!

Every Quote Is About Them Gifset by @bellamysgriffin

Favorite Moment Gifset by @kateemcintyre

Platonic™ Touch Gifset by @noorawinter

The Reasons You Ship Them/The Way They Look At Each Other Gifset by @togetherkru

Love Is In The Eyes Gifset by @bellamyblake

Music & Lyrics Moodboard by @infp-with-all-the-feelings

TheBestOfBellarke Creator Shoutout by @astridandoddsandends

Simple Pleasures Fic Rec (Rated M, Hunger Games AU, Angst and Slow Burn) by @pendragaryen (written by @pawprinterfanfic)

Walk With Me And Be Safe Gifset & Fic (Rated G, Supernatural Elements AU, First Meetings and Werewolf!Bellamy/Witch!Clarke) by @fuckyeahbellarke

Lightning Strikes Twice Fic (Rated E, Modern AU, Exes and Humor) by @arysafics

Remember to give these works some love to let our creators know how much we appreciate them! And feel free to tag me in any of your Bellarke-related creations! 💖

PREVIOUS SEGMENTS: PART 1 | PART 2 | PART 3 | PART 4 | PART 5 | PART 6 | PART 7 | PART 8 | PART 9 | PART 10

[seedaylight]

Is it wrong to want, To long and ache and haunt you?

bellarke + together or apart for @arysafics happy holidays from your secret santa!

[marauders-groupie]

Fic writer interview

Tagged by @arysafics - it’s been ages and I apologize, but thank you! <3

1. How many works do you have on AO3?

73

2. What’s your total AO3 word count?

640536

3. How many fandoms have you written for and what are they?

2 - The 100 and Harry Potter

4. What are your top 5 fics by kudos?

All of them are for The 100. 

1. We Burned Bright (a drabble collection),

2. Livewire (soulmate AU that I think is overrated tbh),

3. I’d Still Stare at You (another soulmate AU, but I like this one more),

4. All Peeling Thunder (enemy/soulmate AU), and

5. Welcome to Earth (I’m so ridiculously proud of this one and I consider it to be my best work). 

There are so many soulmate AUs, what the fuck. 

5. Do you respond to comments, why or why not?

I do! Lately it takes me ages but I read every comment in time and I squeal and feel all good inside! But then I stockpile them for whenever I feel shitty about my writing, so that’s why it takes me long to reply. BUT I LOVE YOU ALL AND THANK YOU FOR LIKING MY WEIRD LITTLE WORKS!

6. What’s the fic you’ve written with the angstiest ending?

To be honest, I have no idea. I like happy endings. Everyone should get a happy ending!

7. Do you write crossovers? If so, what is the craziest one you’ve written?

Nope

8. Have you ever received hate on a fic?

I don’t think so.

9. Do you write smut? If so, what kind?

Sometimes. The weirdly emotional kinky kind or just simple vanilla fuckin’.

10. Have you ever had a fic stolen?

I don’t think so.

11. Have you ever had a fic translated?

Not as far as I know. 

12. Have you ever co-written a fic before?

Yep! Deck Bitches, Deck the Halls, a Christmas fic, and it was so much fun!

13. What’s your all-time favorite ship?

I’ve grown very attached to Bellarke because I wrote them so much, but right now I’m watching Queen of the South and lemme tell ya - Jeresa is really something. 

14. What’s a WIP that you want to finish but don’t think you ever will?

I don’t post WIPs because I never know when I’ll finish them and I don’t like readers to go through that angst. There are plenty in my drafts, a few of which I’m now turning into original works. 

15. What are your writing strengths?

I'd like to believe I’m good at creating an atmosphere and making the fics emotionally taxing but also aesthetically appealing. (This was so pretentious.)

16. What are your writing weaknesses?

I mean, English is not my native language so I’ll sometimes use very complex phrases because I can’t remember a very simple word. Sometimes I think it’s a weakness. Other times I think that’s why my writing is the way it is. 

17. What are your thoughts on writing dialogue in other languages in a fic?

Code-switching (and staying fixed in a code) is a thing and I never switch languages in RL so I don’t write it. But I’m not opposed to it, unless it’s very clicheed. 

18. What was the first fandom you wrote for?

Harry Potter

19. What’s your favorite fic you’ve written?

Welcome to Earth. I just poured a lot into that and paid it more care than I’d given to any other fic, and I think it shows. 

I’m going to tag @alltheworldsinmyhead because we’ve been talking about writing just this morning and it prompted me to do this, @kindclaws because I’m in eternal awe of her writing and dedication to the craft, and @pepperish because she’s not human but an ethereal and powerful creature.

Love you all! Byeee! 

[useyourtelescope]

fic writer interview

I was tagged by @burninghoneyatdusk @andromedabennet and @mylifeiskara & @arysafics - thank you! 💕

1. How many works do you have on AO3?

I have 58 (15 of which were added this year!).

2. What’s your total AO3 word count?

715692 - though about 40% of that is just from my 3 longest fics. 

3. How many fandoms have you written for and what are they?

My AO3 page lists 27 fandom tags so I’m just going to list a few, rather all 😂

The fandom I have the most AO3 fics for by far is T100/Bellarke with 22 fics posted for them. Tied in 2nd place are Brooklyn Nine Nine (Jake/Amy + some genfic) and Sanditon (Charlotte/Stringer) with 6 fics.

My current active WIP is a Polin work for Bridgerton and the fandom I most recently started writing for is the Nancy Drew CW show, as I just posted my first Nace fic last week.

4. What are your top 5 fics by kudos?

Unsurprisingly these are all Bellarke, mostly older stuff with the top 3 being my longest fics.

#1 If The Right One Came Along [modern AU, celebrity!Bellamy, librarian!Clarke, old friends turned FWB, 80k]

#2 The Wonderful Mess We Made [arrowverse-esque superhero AU, superhero!Clarke, lawyer!Bellamy, WIP] 

#3 Hearts Are Only Strangers After All [historical, magic and mystery AU where Bellarke are in a marriage of convenience, 88k]

#4 Intimacy [historical regency period AU, arranged marriage, 8k]

#5 birds of a feather [modern AU, clothes sharing, 6k]

I do have to give an honourable mention to my Bridgerton-Polin fic Slow Hands though, which is in 6th place by the tiniest margin. This came as a big surprise to me since BOAF was posted way back in February 2015 and SH has only been up since March 2021!

5. Do you respond to comments, why or why not?

Yes, I do most of the time. I really enjoy responding to comments, especially when people have taken the time to pick out different aspects of the fic or throw out some theories to what happens next, it’s fun to discuss those things with them - without giving away spoilers of course!

There have been a couple of times in the past in between hiatuses from writing when I felt like maybe I’d left some comments so long it might seem weird to get a response so I have left some of those without responding. Otherwise it’s usually only if comments are odd or rude then I don’t respond - and if it’s very rude I just delete them.

6. What’s the fic you’ve written with the angstiest ending?

I’m much more of an angst with a happy ending person. Delicate (a Clarke-centric/Bellarke modern AU that’s about her becoming isolated from her friend group) is probably the angstiest thing I’ve written in recent years, but that still had a positive ending. 

That said, I do remember writing a couple of fics pre-AO3, that did have angsty endings. The angistest of those is probably a little piece I wrote for the BBC Robin Hood show looking at the characters post s2 (and I fully blame the canon for the angsty feels in that one). 

7. Do you write crossovers? If so, what is the craziest one you’ve written?

A few years ago I wrote a crossover fic called The Sculpture, which was for Brooklyn Nine-Nine and Parks and Recreation. It was a one-shot, my idea being what if the squad at the 99 had to deal with Ron and Tammy II’s hijinks (as per the Parks and Rec 3.04 ep). The summary was this quote from the fic:

"Rosa, Jake, you’ll be taking the case. You need to discover if their apparent insatiable sexual chemistry is merely a smokescreen to distract us from the details of the theft, or if…”

“They’re just total horndogs?” Jake supplied.

“Yes, exactly.”

It has some of my lowest stats but I laughed a lot while writing that fic and it made me realise I could write more B99 shenanigans fics so no regrets. 😊

8. Have you ever received hate on a fic?

Not quite hate, but I have received some rude comments. As per #5 I tend to just delete them rather than engage, though I was quite tempted to reply to a recent particularly rude one on my current Polin WIP, If I Ever Dared. However, some nice readers had already replied and said what I was thinking so I didn’t have to.

9. Do you write smut? If so, what kind?

Yes, though it’s a smaller percentage of my writing - on AO3 I have 8 Explicit fics and 4 Mature ones. The fics are probably evenly split between ones where the smut is more of an addition to a plot-focused story and ones where it’s just about the smut, written for kink memes and such. 

10. Have you ever had a fic stolen?

I had the same thing as Sam in that someone took one of my Bellarke fics and changed the names to suit another fandom and posted it on asianfanfics.com. (Not a website I’d heard of before so thanks to the reader who noticed and messaged me about it!) The person had done it with a bunch of other people’s fics too but the account was removed after being reported. The thing I found most weird was that in their author notes the person was freely saying they hadn’t written it but instead claiming they had ‘converted’ the fics and therefore seemed to think what they were doing was okay! I’m hoping there aren’t a lot of people out there who have the same idea.

11. Have you ever had a fic translated?

Nope.

12. Have you ever co-written a fic before?

I have not. When I get a fic idea I usually have a very specific way I want it to go so I can’t imagine feeling comfortable co-writing something like that - however, I do think it might be an interesting experiment/writing exercise with things I’m not as sure about or less attached to. (Not that I have time for experimentation until I get my prompts done lol.)

13. What’s your all-time favourite ship?

Ahh honestly I can’t just pick one. If this is purely based on the quantity of stories I’ve written for a ship then there’s a clear answer, but I get different things out of writing different ships and storylines - and there’s plenty of ships that I love and have never written for as well.

14. What’s a WIP that you want to finish but don’t think you ever will?

So neither of these are posted WIPs but in 2019 & 2020 I started writing two fics: a) T100-Bellarke modern AU secret relationship/co-worker and b) Sanditon-Charlotte/Stringer regency AU take on FWB (I guess secret relationship also applies here lol). 

I had them both planned out plus a lot of key scenes written and I still really love the ideas for the fics but I don’t know that I have the energy to write fics as long as these would have been anymore. Tbh they’re both so AU from the original canons that I have been toying with the idea of reworking what I’ve already written into some shorter original pieces just for myself but that’s something to think about next year.

As for posted fics I never like to leave things unfinished if I’ve started sharing them, but I have had to start thinking about the likelihood of me finishing my Bellarke WIPs on AO3 after I’m done with my prompts and tbh I’m not sure! Some were just one short chapter so I’m not that attached to them and I don’t think anyone would notice, but I would really like to finish TWMWM as I posted so much of it already. I do have a pretty detailed outline for the rest of it as well, but the plans were made well before the last few seasons of the show soured my feelings about some of the supporting characters/dynamics in the fic, so I have to decide whether a) I follow through with the original plans and deal with writing more for characters/friendships I’m so-so about now, b) come up with a new plan for it that still works with everything that’s already happens and gets to the Bellarke ending I’m still attached to, or c) leave it unfinished. This is very definitely a problem for next year!

15. What are your writing strengths?

I like writing dialogue, that usually flows quite easily for me. And I also like to think that I’m good at comedy as well as foreshadowing the big moments in medium/longer fics.

16. What are your writing weaknesses?

I’ve always struggled with description, which is why I find fanfic much easier to get started with because everyone knows what the characters and canon locations look like, their backstories, etc. I also sometimes read fics where I feel like the authors phrase things really beautifully, almost lyrically even, and I don’t know how to do that. I feel like my style/phrasing, particularly in modern fics, is quite basic.

17. What are your thoughts on writing dialogue in other languages in a fic?

I’ve never done it myself. I like it if the translation is included or if the lack of translation is intentional (e.g. both the reader and certain characters don’t know the information and it’s important to the story) but if you’re just supposed to know what it is/you have to go looking somewhere for what the dialogue means it can take me out of the fic. 

18. What was the first fandom you wrote for?

On AO3 it was a one-shot for the show Life as part of the Yuletide small fandoms exchange. In general it was for the old Roswell show, back when that was still on the air but the less said about that fic the better 😂

19. What’s your favourite fic you’ve written?

This changes a lot, depending on my mood, so I’m going to pick one Bellarke and then one overall.

For Bellarke it’s my Regency slowburn/prank wars AU It Had To Be You - I had a very up and down relationship with this fic partly because I worked on it for a year and partly from lack of response, but enough time has passed now that I can be genuinely happy with what I wrote and ignore the stats.

Overall, atm I’m coming back to Borrow My Heart, my Sanditon-Charlotte/Stringer regency fake engagement fic. It was just such an indulgence of my fave tropes, which is probably why it is the fic of mine I enjoy re-reading the most. 💕

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Tagging/saying hi: @carrieeve @bookwormforalways @excuseyouclarke @sparklyfairymira @writetheniteaway @fericita-s @jake-amy

[star-sky-earth]

Happy BFSN guys! Thanks for the tag @geekyogicheese ❤️❤️❤️

Phew. The last two months have been a NIGHTMARE at work, but things are getting back to normal. I missed all you guys! Hoping to be around a bit more now, as we’re calming down for the summer and everyone senior goes on leave.

Last weekend (or was it the weekend before last) I managed to go for my first holiday in a year, up to Edinburgh! Not sure what I loved more - the historical sights, the (rare glimpses of) sunshine, or having my porridge with cream, honey and whisky each morning. Walked 20km a day, got absolutely no writing done, and had a great time.

Tagging some blogs to join in and just generally say ‘hi’ and show some love ❤️ @bellamyblake @pendragaryen @arysafics @immortalpramheda @poppykru @weavemeamyrtlecrown @welllpthisishappening

[carrieeve]

hi love! you have left the kindest comments on my fics and i see you always commenting on so many fics and thank you, i am sure i can speak on behalf of many that we are deeply grateful. i write more canon divergent fics.... but i feel like reading only modern au atm. just wondering if you have any fave bellarke modern au, long, can be angsty, with smut as well, fics? sorry that is vague, but i am happy with anything! xoxo

oh, ho ho, i have SO MANY!

-  I'll Be Chasing Angels All My Life 

-  ILYSB

-  Sanctuary (very angsty, very emotional read, very difficult to read but holy hell, it’s so good)

-  Sugar 

-  The Naked Truth

-  loose lips sink ships all the damn time

-  Don't Wake Me, I'm Not Dreaming

-  Tied Knots

-  The Cracks in Our Armor

-  The Courage of the Stars (wip)

-  All Because of You (wip)

-  Pistols at Dawn

and, like, anything by @angelbellamy @bookwormforalways @burninghoneyatdusk @arysafics @asroarke

and because i’m shameless,  veni, vidi, Vinci by little old me. it’s more of a comedy but maybe you’ll like it!

and thank you for writing your stories!

[bellarkeficawards]

Best Alternate Universe Fic (Less than 10,000 Words) - Nominations

Long Time No See by eyessharpweaponshot @eyessharpweaponshot

Imperfectly Perfect by arysa13 @arysafics

All of the Love Songs Have Been Written by elle_stone @kinetic-elaboration

A Long and Happy Life by marauders_groupie @marauders-groupie

Here's What I've Got (The Reasons Why Our Marriage Might Work) by marauders_groupie @marauders-groupie

i know you can feel the magic we don't need to talk about it by safeandsound13 @captaindaddykru

miserable and magical at the same time by Pawprinter @pawprinterfanfic

Mischievous Mistletoe by bellarkeness @johnmurphysass 

My Little Eye by AnneKatherine 

guys my age don't know how to touch me by safeandsound13 @captaindaddykru

I Like You Like That by eyessharpweaponshot @eyessharpweaponshot

feeling me by lightyears @bisexualbellamyblake

only fools rush in by mad_magic @kombellarke

The Write Choice by bookwormforalways @bookwormforalways

An Announcement by Nakeycatstakebaths @nakey-cats-take-bathsss

the altar is my hips by twilightstargazer @hiddenpolkadots

Long Way Home by jekisawrites @thefangirlingbarista

Three Times 'Cause You Waited Your Whole Life by WelpThisIsHappening @welllpthisishappening

hold my girl(s) by bilexualclarke @valkyrhys

They’re cuddly and soft, They are Bellamy and Clarke by QueenoftheWallflowers @queen-of-the-wallflowers15

this bed ain't big enough for the two of us by ChronicTonsillitis @chronictonsillitis

Unprepared by arysa13 @arysafics

friends don't look at friends (that way) by ProfoundlyInLove

don't talk to strangers by bookwormforalways @bookwormforalways

i'll stop the world and melt with you by animmortalist @animmortalist

Of Babies and Accidental Sex Tapes by bilexualclarke @valkyrhys

[pendragaryen]

2020 Year in Review

Rules: Answer some questions about 2020 and tag some people!

I was tagged by these lovely ladies: @together-is-my-favourite-place, @infp-with-all-the-feelings, @bellamyblake, @immortalpramheda and @carrieeve. Thank you!<3<3<3 And a happy new year for you all!

Top Five Films you watched in 2020: Do you mean new ones? In cinema and/or on streaming platforms? (I mean... cinema was only possible until march 2020 but... nonetheless...) Mh, let me think. New ones...

There was “Enola Holmes” of course. But was it one of my top five? I don’t know. But since it’s hard to recall 5 movies AT ALL... maybe it WAS... Let me think...

Oh, yes, i’ve watched “Last Christmas” with Emilia Clarke for the first time in 2020 if that counts. THIS was definitely one of my top five then! (I know, it’s older than 2020... But i haven’t watched it before, so...) 

Recently: “Jingle Jangle Journey”. Christmas-y and cute.

“I kill giants”!!! OMG this movie... It’s just like “Bridge of Terabithia”! RIGHT into the feels, let me tell you. I really have no idea if it was released in 2020. But i saw it for the first time last year. This was also definitely one of my faves.

And “The mountain between us” with Idris Elba and Kate Winslet. What a little gift of a movie, seriously. I love it. Okay, also one of my top five.

Top Five TV Shows in 2020:  CAOS - “The chilling adventures of Sabrina”, “Deadly Class”, “Dark”, “Locke & Key”, “Japan sinks”,  “Blood of Zeus”, “Luna Nera”, “The haunting of Bly Manor”, “Sweet home”, “Castlevania” etc. pp. (I am a binge-watcher.) There’s no particular order.

Oh god i forgot TUA! “The Umbrella Academy” of course! One of THE highlights for me in 2020! I am such a dumbass sometimes... ;)

Top Five Songs/Albums in 2020: Songs: 1. “Exile” by Taylor Swift 2. “Übermorgen” by Mark Forster 3. “This is me trying” by Taylor Swift 4. “Love to go” by Lost Frequencies 5. “Blinding Lights” by The Weeknd

Top Five Books of 2020: "Reasons to stay alive” by Matthew Haig, still: “Origin” by Dan Brown... and more fanfictions i can possibly count

Top Five Fanfictions of 2020: That’s hard... I’ve read so damn many... God... Let me have a look at my AO3-list... 1. “Devil Side” and “Lose you too” (one of my all time faves!) by eyessharpweaponshot  2. “Simple, impossible things” by arysafics  3. “I’m beginning to think i imagined you all along” by immortalcockroach  4. “Moderation” by bettsfic 5. “Simple Pleasures” by Pawprinter

Five good/positive things that happened to you in 2020: 1. I learnt to make gifs this year! (Same!)  2. This fandom!! I met so many amazing people this year and despite how the show ended we all came together to celebrate the show we love. I’m so glad to be a part of this amazing community! (I am not ashamed to say: SAME! Again. ;) ) 3. The 3 years of my “observation” ended back in september and i’ve managed to not be ill for more than 10 days per year -  so that i finally, finally kept my job! 4. Having technology to be able to work in home office since march. (For a person who frequently uses the public transport to get to work this is a blessing!) 5. I got a new dwarf hammy this year. Bobby the 2nd! ;) And he’s a little sporty sunshine! I love him dearly. <3<3<3 

- And last but not least i am VERY thankful, that most members of my family and friends are still healthy. I cannot stress enough how important that is to me. And for all of those who’re currently ill and suffering: Get well soon please. May all my best wishes reach you.

Tagging/saying hi/ wishing you a Happy New Year: @malclmbright, @poppykru @geekyogicheese @natassakar @wankadi @katersann @kizo2703 @hostagetakerandhistraitor,  @iwearplaids, @goddess-clarke, @clarkgriffon, @nvermindiseeyou, @ruggedmurphy, @shialablunt, @underbellamy, @zavens

[captaindaddykru]

☆for emily☆

today it’s @keiraknighted‘s birthday. i wanted to finish this before today, but everything is flaming garbage, so a preview will have to do. no, i will no be giving out more details. happy birthday to my musical soulmate, the kinkiest queen of them all, em. my ol’ cobber. my favorite drongo. quite the spunk you are. you’re a classic. and you live in the worst possible timezone imaginable. here’s some best friends, pining, sexy, below <10k hopefully. also, sorry for the ugly temporary moodboard???? i was getting desperate at this point and am no grapic designer. i just needed something to distract from what you’re about to read. cheers!

So, by the time their holiday break rolls around, Clarke isn’t only sexually frustrated, she’s also kind of desperate. Which only intensifies when a few days before they’re all flying back to their hometown, Wells casually lets it drop he’s now in a relationship with a girl from his old chess club and things are ‘heating up fast’, whatever the hell that’s supposed to mean. She’s just more aware than ever she’s running out of time. 

Clarke doesn’t even know why it’s such a big deal to her. Maybe it’s her competitive streak coming into play, or the fact she really just wants to get the whole awkward virginity thing over with, maybe it’s the dark inexplicable pang in the middle of her chest whenever she sees the constant rotation of girls on Bellamy’s Instagram and Snapchat. She figures it’s a healthy amount of jealousy, courtesy of their very codependent ways, sharing everything with each other since childhood. They’re all apart for the first time in a decade, going their own ways, perhaps even growing apart. 

She doesn’t think about why Wells’ honest to God girlfriend doesn’t bother her as much when in reality that should make her feel even worse. A girlfriend could screw with their dynamic, a bunch of one night stands rationally speaking won’t. It could be that she knows Wells too well to know there’s still a very big chance he won’t go through with it, that he’ll let the girl down easy before Christmas even rolls around. 

But. Then she finds herself thinking of his jacket covering her shivering body, drenched from the rain, her left arm throbbing with pain, his hand wrapped around hers as he told her it was all going to be okay. She thinks of that time he left Gina’s birthday party early to come pick her up at a friend’s house after almost having a panic attack, the nights he spent sleeping in her bed after her father died, how he never once complained about getting her coffee from the drive through that was more than his hard limit of three dollars, and that one throw-away moment at the end of summer. That goodbye hug that lasted just a little too long, his arms tight around her waist, the intense look mirrored in both of their eyes as they pulled apart, the way she was afraid to say anything in case her voice gave out, before she got into her mom’s car and watched him and Wells disappear in the rearview mirror. 

It’s hard to explain, even to herself. It’s why she never thinks about it for too long. 

Which all brings her to tonight. A new year’s party at the house of someone who went to the same high school as them, that has all the charms of a bad hang-over in the making — terrible beer, music that’s mostly EDM and completely shit-faced people plastered across every surface.

She hasn’t seen Wells since his father’s Christmas party. Clarke finally met Luna there in person. She’s beautiful, easily talked to her about the non-profit she’s interning at for half an hour and had nothing but love in her eyes whenever she looked at Wells. He’s with her at her parents’ ski cabin right now, and from the way Bellamy was clapping his shoulder before he left early in the morning, Clarke figures he’s probably losing his v-card to her there which means that she’ll be the only one out of the three of them not to complete the pact. There’s no way she’s finding someone before midnight that she’d both feel comfortable with taking hers, and is even willing to do so in the first place. 

To make matters worse, Bellamy has totally ditched her to play beer pong with Bree, which she isn’t even sure isn’t code for hooking up in the coat closet. He knows she hates parties, especially when she doesn’t know anyone else there, and that she’s horrific at first impressions. She’s forced to make small-talk with Murphy, the loser who still hangs around their high school parking lot and she used to share one Culinary Arts class with before he got suspended. 

All of it combined has put her in a sour mood. And a drinking mood, but since all there is fucking shitty beer that might as well be toilet water she can’t even get drunk, so that just makes her even more unreasonably upset at nothing in particular. Maybe at the fact she’s so high strung and obsessed with controlling every little detail, that she didn’t just get it over with back on campus with some frat boy she never had to see again after, or that Wells and Bellamy managed to make it happen without even trying. It’s probably because she’s trying way too hard, people can probably tell.

It’s not fair that both of them beat her to it. Clarke wants to just be done with already, too. She wants to get it over with so she can get to the good, non first time stuff like them. She wants to be flirting with boys and girls at parties, or ask for someone’s number at a coffee shop without having to worry about having to explain it’s her first time doing any of it when they eventually invite her over to their room. She wants to be free and nonchalant and spontaneous, not constantly weighed down by the fact that she’s a virgin. It’s not like she’s asking for much. 

Half an hour to midnight, she pushes her way outside to the porch for some fresh air. It’s there where Bellamy finally bothers to leave Bree and her attention-seeking ways behind and come find her. 

“What’s up with you?” He asks, half a chuckle in his voice as he leans his forearms on the railing, mirroring her. 

Clarke grits her teeth together, then slowly exhales through her nose. She keeps her eyes on the tree swing in the distance, swaying softly because of the wind. “Nothing.”

He elbows her playfully, although his tone is serious. Of course he sees right through her. “Come on. Don’t give me that.”

She just grumbles something indecipherable, pushing back her hair from her face with one hand. She still doesn’t look at him, scared she might give anything more away. From inside, there’s the muffled beat of a hiphop song playing joined by the distanced tumult of college kids getting drunk and having fun. Except for the couple making out on the other end of the porch and one stoner sprawled over the grass smoking and staring at the sky, they’re alone. 

“I’m sorry about leaving you for Bree—” Bellamy starts, straightening back to his full height, and before she knows it, a flare of anger rises within her, burning white hot. She doesn’t recognize the feeling, but gets too lost in it to analyze it for very long.

Her head snaps to the side to glare at him, fingers tightening around the railing until her knuckles turn a pale white. “It’s not about Bree and her pathetic fuck-me eyes.”

“Okay,” he replies, sounding a bit too amused for her liking. He leans back, crossing his arms over his chest. It makes his biceps bulge in a way that’s completely unfair when she’s been perpetually turned on since Halloween, and it sends a surge of want pulsing from her core. “Then what’s it about, princess?”

Has his voice always been so deep? She hesitates, not sure she even wants to share this with him. He might be her best friend, but it’s embarrassing on a level she can’t even try and start to describe. “I’m annoyed, okay?” She bites, heated, which immediately makes her feel guilty. It’s not his fault nobody wants her. “I expected that I’d at least beat Wells to it. And since it’s all I can think about all the time now, I’m constantly horny.” A blush forms on her cheeks, down her neck and all over her collarbone, but she refuses to let that or the way his eyes widen slightly stop her. It’s only awkward if she lets it be. “I just feel so stupid. I mean, I had five months to get it over with like both of you, and here we are. What the hell is wrong with me?”

A tense silence wraps around them for a moment, Clarke’s heart pounding loudly in her chest as panic claws up her throat. She’s such a fucking idiot. She shouldn’t have brought it up in the first place. She’s sure neither of them would’ve actually held it against her if she didn’t lose her virginity before new year’s, they’re better than that. She knows they are. Clarke is just so — frustrated.

His tongue darts out to wet his lips, and she finds herself entranced with the movement. “I didn’t know you were so upset about it,” he starts, tentatively. Her blue eyes snap up to meet his, a smirk breaking across his face. He’s teasing her, the asshole, when he says, “I mean, if you’re that desperate, I’ll do it.”

Her eyes narrow, finally pushing off the railing. A gust of wind greets her body, bristling her hair and making tiny goosebumps appear over her arms. She’s seconds away from angry tears, she can tell. “Don’t make it sound like it’s such a fucking chore.”

Bellamy just kind of stares at her dumbly, his whole body grown tense, making her even more furious. Did he lose his tongue all of a sudden? He’s never had a problem sharing his opinions on her, no matter how negative, before. “What?” She snaps, roughly brushing  a strand of hair behind her ear before tucking her hands back underneath her opposite armpits.  

“It wouldn’t be a chore, Clarke,” he corrects her, his eyes still slightly widened as if alarmed by the sound of himself speaking. He swallows visibly, his adam’s apple bobbing up and down in the low glow of the Christmas lights draped across the ceiling of the porch. Bellamy lifts one of his shoulders, casual, even if the movement is stiffer than it usually would be. “I just — I didn’t realize I was an option.”

Her heart trips over itself as silence stretches between them for a moment. She wants to ask him a million questions, but the best thing she can come up with is, “So you were serious?” Clarke raises her eyebrows, trying to figure out if he was just being nice, taking pity on her or if it was something much more dangerous than that. “You’ll do it?”

His jaw clenches briefly, his nostrils flaring. Another second, and he asks, rough, “Do you want me to do it?”

She considers it. This is Bellamy, her best friend. He can always make her laugh, and there’s no one else she feels as much at ease with, and he’s definitely attractive, even she has noticed as much. She likes his stubborn curls, his smile when someone catches him off guard, the sharp line of his jaw. And at the very least he would know what he’s doing. She trusts him. “Yes.”

Now that she’s aware it’s a possibility, she refuses to want anything else. It’d be kind of perfect, actually.

He clears his throat, blinking hard as he tears his eyes off her for a second, scrubbing his face with one of his hands. It’s very big, and Clarke finds herself wondering for the first time if it means the rest of him is big as well. Bellamy sniffs when his dark eyes land back on her. “Have you been drinking?”

“Just half a beer,” she answers, maybe a bit too eager, her hands dropping at her sides after smoothing down the bottom of her glittery top. She doesn’t want to give him enough time to talk himself out of it. “And I think someone diluted it with water so it barely counts.”

He nods, once, then nudges his head to the side. “Want to get out of here?”

Taking one more look around the porch, Clarke worries her bottom lip pensively, shooting him an apologetic look. “My parents are having friends over, so my house is definitely not an option.” 

Besides, she doesn’t want to risk them finding out and making it weird. Especially not if the consequence is going to be an open door policy whenever he or Wells are over. Nothing has to change after tonight.

“Thelonious is out,” he offers, then flinches when he seems to remember something else. “But Octavia might show up with her friends.”

Clarke nods, giving him another long searching look before she makes up her mind. It’ll be fine. This is Bellamy. She’s a pro at compartmentalizing and he’s sleeping with a different girl like every other night. It can just be sex. “Upstairs then?”

[burninghoneyatdusk]

Last 8 Lines Tag Game

Rules: post the last 8 lines from a wip

Tagged by @elora-lane, @nakey-cats-take-bathsss & @arysafics

This is more than 8 but I don’t care. What’s a line anyways.

From the @t100fic-for-blm prompt I’m currently working on 👀:

“Good Morning, Ms. Griffin,” he tries, impressed by how steady he manages to keep his voice.

Clarke, however, is less impressed. She turns around to face him, eyes raking over him before she huffs a laugh. “Clarke is fine.”

Bellamy busies himself with taking his laptop out of his briefcase.

“Bellamy?” she tries.

His head snaps up at that, and he finally really looks at her for the first time since she walked into the classroom. She’s wearing tights and a black long-sleeve turtleneck tucked into a brown tweed mini skirt. Her hair is braided back, a few strands of it falling loose and framing her heart-shaped face.

“Professor Blake,” he corrects her. It’s an attempt to reestablish some semblance of professionalism, but somehow it ends up sounding even dirtier. An intrusive thought, one of Clarke moaning Professor Blake into his ear, invades his mind.

Tagging @bellarkestitchdelena, @useyourtelescope, @selflessbellamy, @hopskipaway, @changingthefairy-tale, @animmortalist, @queenemori, @mobi-on-a-mission, @bookwormforalways, @marauders-groupie, @icantloseyou-too, @pawprinterfanfic, @queen-of-the-wallflowers15, @eyessharpweaponshot & anyone else who wants to do this, consider yourself tagged and tag me in your post! ☺️

[bloodysteel]

Last BFSN.. I was tagged by the amazing @natassakar (I would gladly tag you back!!)

I didn't participate much (mostly because I didn't want to share too much of my face on Tumblr). But I will today because it's a special day - the series finale.

This blog will carry on because it existed before the 100 and it will keep on existing after it. I will keep on writing, I believe I'll get back to it in a few weeks when all this is over and I feel better about a few other things.

Bellarke fam and the 100 fam has been here through thick and thin - mostly thin for us Bellarkers. I still can't believe what they did to our babies. What Jroth did. But hey, that's all folks, right? I can't help but hope something will turn around last minute or Clarke will be reunited with Bellamy in somewhat heaven and we'll get our kiss.

But I shouldnt hope 🤡

May we meet again on the other side 💓 Be well, be kind and remember that the 100 is now ours to rewrite and redo ❤️

Anyway here's my stupid face!

I'm tagging a few mutuals and/or blogs that I LOVE and that you must follow ASAP ;)

@katersann @dealingdreams @historyofbellarke @pendragaryen @pineapplebellarke @sometimesrosy @wankadi @burninghoneyatdusk @nakey-cats-take-bathsss @together-is-my-favourite-place @bellamysgriffinprincess @pawprinterfanfic @asroarke @arysafics

[pineapplebellarke]

PineappleBellarke’s Hiatus Fic Rec

Just thought I’d do a fic rec for anyone who is interested! All of these are on ao3 and complete and all of them I have read and loved! (In no particular order)

I’ll Find You in the Morning Sun by @cominguproses13x (Currently still reading this one but it is fucking amazing and has to be on here)

Soul Fate Determination by LaughingSenselessly ( @wellsjahasghost​ )

The Naked Truth by mad_magic ( @kombellarke )

How You Stay Alive by LaughingSenselessly ( @wellsjahasghost )

The Graduation Pact by @burninghoneyatdusk

All three complete fics by April7739 ( @candybellarke )

If you’re looking for smutty, anything by arysa13 ( @arysafics ) or  @asroarke or bilexualclarke ( @valkyrhys )

If I missed any it’s because I read them a long time ago before I had my ao3 account and don’t have them bookmarked, but I think this pretty much covers the big ones. Happy Reading!