#arysafics

[youleftme-clarke]

Looking for beta readers for an original novel

[Title TBD] Rating: Explicit Category: F/M Tags/Tropes: Friends to lovers, childhood friends, he falls first, mutual pining, protective MMC, forced proximity, hidden identity, second chance at love, modern setting, underground boxing AU Words: 33,215 [target 75,000] Chapters: 12/42 Summary: Mackenzie "Mac" Keller toils under the thumb of a merciless criminal syndicate, working to pay off a debt that was never hers to begin with. Trapped in a world of illicit bets and clandestine fights, she hides her haunted past behind a facade of indifference with only one goal: survival. But when Trevor, Mac's high school best friend and the man who walked out of her life ten years ago, resurfaces unexpectedly, Mac's carefully constructed defences begin to crumble. Trevor, harbouring secrets of his own, threatens to unravel the fragile balance Mac has fought so hard to maintain. As they confront their shared history, the shadows that linger between them, and the dangers of their present reality, Mac must either confront her deepest fears and desires or watch the one man she never dared to love slip away again. Trigger Warnings: Smut, language, gambling/betting, physical violence and use of weapons, drug and alcohol use/addiction, mentions of human trafficking/kidnapping (non-MC), forced sex work/prostitution, SA (main character, no graphic descriptions; it is known/understood that this happens but is not described), may develop to include minor character death

Tagging some former fic-writer friends and mutuals in case you're still around to see this and reblog ❤️

@asroarke @arysafics @kombellarke @sly2o @bettsfic

[captaindaddykru]

it dies (a million little times)

“I’ve only done it once. The guy didn’t seem to like it very much.” He kept shoving her face toward his dick, and when she finally relented, more than once made her gag around him without her permission or obvious enjoyment. Afterwards, he complained about her not swallowing. It wasn’t sexy. This angle kind of works for them anyway, so she tries it, placing a hand on his thigh, “Maybe you could give me some tips?”

Like predicted, implying it’s for her benefit takes some of the pressure of.

Bellamy slowly pushes a deep, resigned sigh from his lips, his eyes narrowed thoughtfully. He puts his popcorn in the empty seat beside him, quietly unbuttoning his jeans, which seems like enough of an invitation.

part two: that’s the thing about illicit affairs for @arysafics​

[pendragaryen]

@arysafics​ Seriously, i second this. From the bottom of my heart. It was so insanely HOT to read - and then, later, there was that scene in the garden... when he spooned her and told her that it couldn’t last... that what they had wasn’t real and that she’d have to let him go... and god the way i cried... Jfc... That rollercoaster of emotions you got me through is incomparable. Thanks for this Halloween-gift! And i really appreciate the ending - since i’m in a bad need of things like that after the mess of the last season... So. Thank you for this fanfiction! Anne

Simple, Impossible Things by @arysafics broke my heart and put me back together in 8k words. That fic is a Halloween masterpiece and I highly recommend it.

[seedaylight]

Is it wrong to want, To long and ache and haunt you?

bellarke + together or apart for @arysafics happy holidays from your secret santa!

[marauders-groupie]

Fic writer interview

Tagged by @arysafics - it’s been ages and I apologize, but thank you! <3

1. How many works do you have on AO3?

73

2. What’s your total AO3 word count?

640536

3. How many fandoms have you written for and what are they?

2 - The 100 and Harry Potter

4. What are your top 5 fics by kudos?

All of them are for The 100. 

1. We Burned Bright (a drabble collection),

2. Livewire (soulmate AU that I think is overrated tbh),

3. I’d Still Stare at You (another soulmate AU, but I like this one more),

4. All Peeling Thunder (enemy/soulmate AU), and

5. Welcome to Earth (I’m so ridiculously proud of this one and I consider it to be my best work). 

There are so many soulmate AUs, what the fuck. 

5. Do you respond to comments, why or why not?

I do! Lately it takes me ages but I read every comment in time and I squeal and feel all good inside! But then I stockpile them for whenever I feel shitty about my writing, so that’s why it takes me long to reply. BUT I LOVE YOU ALL AND THANK YOU FOR LIKING MY WEIRD LITTLE WORKS!

6. What’s the fic you’ve written with the angstiest ending?

To be honest, I have no idea. I like happy endings. Everyone should get a happy ending!

7. Do you write crossovers? If so, what is the craziest one you’ve written?

Nope

8. Have you ever received hate on a fic?

I don’t think so.

9. Do you write smut? If so, what kind?

Sometimes. The weirdly emotional kinky kind or just simple vanilla fuckin’.

10. Have you ever had a fic stolen?

I don’t think so.

11. Have you ever had a fic translated?

Not as far as I know. 

12. Have you ever co-written a fic before?

Yep! Deck Bitches, Deck the Halls, a Christmas fic, and it was so much fun!

13. What’s your all-time favorite ship?

I’ve grown very attached to Bellarke because I wrote them so much, but right now I’m watching Queen of the South and lemme tell ya - Jeresa is really something. 

14. What’s a WIP that you want to finish but don’t think you ever will?

I don’t post WIPs because I never know when I’ll finish them and I don’t like readers to go through that angst. There are plenty in my drafts, a few of which I’m now turning into original works. 

15. What are your writing strengths?

I'd like to believe I’m good at creating an atmosphere and making the fics emotionally taxing but also aesthetically appealing. (This was so pretentious.)

16. What are your writing weaknesses?

I mean, English is not my native language so I’ll sometimes use very complex phrases because I can’t remember a very simple word. Sometimes I think it’s a weakness. Other times I think that’s why my writing is the way it is. 

17. What are your thoughts on writing dialogue in other languages in a fic?

Code-switching (and staying fixed in a code) is a thing and I never switch languages in RL so I don’t write it. But I’m not opposed to it, unless it’s very clicheed. 

18. What was the first fandom you wrote for?

Harry Potter

19. What’s your favorite fic you’ve written?

Welcome to Earth. I just poured a lot into that and paid it more care than I’d given to any other fic, and I think it shows. 

I’m going to tag @alltheworldsinmyhead because we’ve been talking about writing just this morning and it prompted me to do this, @kindclaws because I’m in eternal awe of her writing and dedication to the craft, and @pepperish because she’s not human but an ethereal and powerful creature.

Love you all! Byeee! 

[star-sky-earth]

Happy BFSN guys! Thanks for the tag @geekyogicheese ❤️❤️❤️

Phew. The last two months have been a NIGHTMARE at work, but things are getting back to normal. I missed all you guys! Hoping to be around a bit more now, as we’re calming down for the summer and everyone senior goes on leave.

Last weekend (or was it the weekend before last) I managed to go for my first holiday in a year, up to Edinburgh! Not sure what I loved more - the historical sights, the (rare glimpses of) sunshine, or having my porridge with cream, honey and whisky each morning. Walked 20km a day, got absolutely no writing done, and had a great time.

Tagging some blogs to join in and just generally say ‘hi’ and show some love ❤️ @bellamyblake @pendragaryen @arysafics @immortalpramheda @poppykru @weavemeamyrtlecrown @welllpthisishappening

[bellarkeficawards]

Best Alternate Universe Fic (Less than 10,000 Words) - Nominations

Long Time No See by eyessharpweaponshot @eyessharpweaponshot

Imperfectly Perfect by arysa13 @arysafics

All of the Love Songs Have Been Written by elle_stone @kinetic-elaboration

A Long and Happy Life by marauders_groupie @marauders-groupie

Here's What I've Got (The Reasons Why Our Marriage Might Work) by marauders_groupie @marauders-groupie

i know you can feel the magic we don't need to talk about it by safeandsound13 @captaindaddykru

miserable and magical at the same time by Pawprinter @pawprinterfanfic

Mischievous Mistletoe by bellarkeness @johnmurphysass 

My Little Eye by AnneKatherine 

guys my age don't know how to touch me by safeandsound13 @captaindaddykru

I Like You Like That by eyessharpweaponshot @eyessharpweaponshot

feeling me by lightyears @bisexualbellamyblake

only fools rush in by mad_magic @kombellarke

The Write Choice by bookwormforalways @bookwormforalways

An Announcement by Nakeycatstakebaths @nakey-cats-take-bathsss

the altar is my hips by twilightstargazer @hiddenpolkadots

Long Way Home by jekisawrites @thefangirlingbarista

Three Times 'Cause You Waited Your Whole Life by WelpThisIsHappening @welllpthisishappening

hold my girl(s) by bilexualclarke @valkyrhys

They’re cuddly and soft, They are Bellamy and Clarke by QueenoftheWallflowers @queen-of-the-wallflowers15

this bed ain't big enough for the two of us by ChronicTonsillitis @chronictonsillitis

Unprepared by arysa13 @arysafics

friends don't look at friends (that way) by ProfoundlyInLove

don't talk to strangers by bookwormforalways @bookwormforalways

i'll stop the world and melt with you by animmortalist @animmortalist

Of Babies and Accidental Sex Tapes by bilexualclarke @valkyrhys

[pendragaryen]

2020 Year in Review

Rules: Answer some questions about 2020 and tag some people!

I was tagged by these lovely ladies: @together-is-my-favourite-place, @infp-with-all-the-feelings, @bellamyblake, @immortalpramheda and @carrieeve. Thank you!<3<3<3 And a happy new year for you all!

Top Five Films you watched in 2020: Do you mean new ones? In cinema and/or on streaming platforms? (I mean... cinema was only possible until march 2020 but... nonetheless...) Mh, let me think. New ones...

There was “Enola Holmes” of course. But was it one of my top five? I don’t know. But since it’s hard to recall 5 movies AT ALL... maybe it WAS... Let me think...

Oh, yes, i’ve watched “Last Christmas” with Emilia Clarke for the first time in 2020 if that counts. THIS was definitely one of my top five then! (I know, it’s older than 2020... But i haven’t watched it before, so...) 

Recently: “Jingle Jangle Journey”. Christmas-y and cute.

“I kill giants”!!! OMG this movie... It’s just like “Bridge of Terabithia”! RIGHT into the feels, let me tell you. I really have no idea if it was released in 2020. But i saw it for the first time last year. This was also definitely one of my faves.

And “The mountain between us” with Idris Elba and Kate Winslet. What a little gift of a movie, seriously. I love it. Okay, also one of my top five.

Top Five TV Shows in 2020:  CAOS - “The chilling adventures of Sabrina”, “Deadly Class”, “Dark”, “Locke & Key”, “Japan sinks”,  “Blood of Zeus”, “Luna Nera”, “The haunting of Bly Manor”, “Sweet home”, “Castlevania” etc. pp. (I am a binge-watcher.) There’s no particular order.

Oh god i forgot TUA! “The Umbrella Academy” of course! One of THE highlights for me in 2020! I am such a dumbass sometimes... ;)

Top Five Songs/Albums in 2020: Songs: 1. “Exile” by Taylor Swift 2. “Übermorgen” by Mark Forster 3. “This is me trying” by Taylor Swift 4. “Love to go” by Lost Frequencies 5. “Blinding Lights” by The Weeknd

Top Five Books of 2020: "Reasons to stay alive” by Matthew Haig, still: “Origin” by Dan Brown... and more fanfictions i can possibly count

Top Five Fanfictions of 2020: That’s hard... I’ve read so damn many... God... Let me have a look at my AO3-list... 1. “Devil Side” and “Lose you too” (one of my all time faves!) by eyessharpweaponshot  2. “Simple, impossible things” by arysafics  3. “I’m beginning to think i imagined you all along” by immortalcockroach  4. “Moderation” by bettsfic 5. “Simple Pleasures” by Pawprinter

Five good/positive things that happened to you in 2020: 1. I learnt to make gifs this year! (Same!)  2. This fandom!! I met so many amazing people this year and despite how the show ended we all came together to celebrate the show we love. I’m so glad to be a part of this amazing community! (I am not ashamed to say: SAME! Again. ;) ) 3. The 3 years of my “observation” ended back in september and i’ve managed to not be ill for more than 10 days per year -  so that i finally, finally kept my job! 4. Having technology to be able to work in home office since march. (For a person who frequently uses the public transport to get to work this is a blessing!) 5. I got a new dwarf hammy this year. Bobby the 2nd! ;) And he’s a little sporty sunshine! I love him dearly. <3<3<3 

- And last but not least i am VERY thankful, that most members of my family and friends are still healthy. I cannot stress enough how important that is to me. And for all of those who’re currently ill and suffering: Get well soon please. May all my best wishes reach you.

Tagging/saying hi/ wishing you a Happy New Year: @malclmbright, @poppykru @geekyogicheese @natassakar @wankadi @katersann @kizo2703 @hostagetakerandhistraitor,  @iwearplaids, @goddess-clarke, @clarkgriffon, @nvermindiseeyou, @ruggedmurphy, @shialablunt, @underbellamy, @zavens

[bloodysteel]

Last BFSN.. I was tagged by the amazing @natassakar (I would gladly tag you back!!)

I didn't participate much (mostly because I didn't want to share too much of my face on Tumblr). But I will today because it's a special day - the series finale.

This blog will carry on because it existed before the 100 and it will keep on existing after it. I will keep on writing, I believe I'll get back to it in a few weeks when all this is over and I feel better about a few other things.

Bellarke fam and the 100 fam has been here through thick and thin - mostly thin for us Bellarkers. I still can't believe what they did to our babies. What Jroth did. But hey, that's all folks, right? I can't help but hope something will turn around last minute or Clarke will be reunited with Bellamy in somewhat heaven and we'll get our kiss.

But I shouldnt hope 🤡

May we meet again on the other side 💓 Be well, be kind and remember that the 100 is now ours to rewrite and redo ❤️

Anyway here's my stupid face!

I'm tagging a few mutuals and/or blogs that I LOVE and that you must follow ASAP ;)

@katersann @dealingdreams @historyofbellarke @pendragaryen @pineapplebellarke @sometimesrosy @wankadi @burninghoneyatdusk @nakey-cats-take-bathsss @together-is-my-favourite-place @bellamysgriffinprincess @pawprinterfanfic @asroarke @arysafics

[griffinnblake]

A couple of you have asked for it, and Part II of my Bellarke fanfic rec is finally here! 

This is suuuuuuper late considering I promised it a while ago, but I blame moving to a new house, teaching a new course, and getting sick at least twice in one month. What can ya do? ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

These fics are in no particular order because one) I don’t have any particular favorites and two) I ain’t got time for that.  I hope y’all enjoy! 

P.S. If y’all missed the first part of my fanfic rec, you can find it here!

P.P.S. This is my disclaimer that I obviously haven’t included all the Bellarke fics out there. If you have a favorite that I did not include, I probably haven’t read it yet, in which case, please share!

a castle in the clouds by @pawprinterfanfic Star Wars AU. Bellamy is Han. Clarke is Leia. Oh and did I mention that there’s some fake dating? That doesn’t normally do it for me, but I can make an exception this time. *kisses fingertips*

We’ll Paint the Town Blue by @animmortalist

Clarke wants to ruin her reputation in this College AU and who better to do it than resident heartbreaker Bellamy Blake? They enter a friends with benefits/Bonnie and Clyde arrangement (it works I swear), but oops, they like like each other.

(clumsy) ‘cause I’m fallin’ in love by skai_heda

Sometimes you just need a cute little S1 AU where Bellamy faints and Clarke gives him a hard time for it. Oh, and feelings. 

small dot among infinite stars by @kindclaws

This is a really interesting take on how one change can drastically affect future events. It’s a S2+ AU where Dante shoots Cage and Clarke doesn’t irradiate Mount Weather, but the end of the world still comes.

someone let the poets out by @kindclaws (WIP)

This one’s hella meta and I love it. Even though it’s based on the GoT cast, I could totally see it also applying to the 100 cast given how S7 may or may not go. Fingers crossed for a decent ending. Anyway, Bellarke and co. are the stars of a popular show in its final season, and they are horrified by what Jaha comes up with story-wise. (Think those final GoT table reads. C’mon, we’ve all seen the footage of Conleth tossing his script aside when Varys is killed off). So they decide to recreate their own low-budget version of the final season. And Bellamy may or not be having a crisis regarding his feelings for a certain blonde co-star. OH! And how could I forget the social media tie-ins? Brilliant. Definitely read this one on a desktop to get the full experience.

how I learned to stop worrying and love the apocalypse by @kindclaws 

Another kindclaws fic. I’m sorry but the writing is just so good. I can’t help but include them. This one’s a Praimfaya AU fic and also an exes fic and also a time loop fic and also an angst fic and I love it so much. I personally recommend the 2nd person POV version (chapter 1), but if 3rd person is more your jam, then just read chapter 2!

An Evening I Will Not Forget by @octannibal-blake

Bellamy is a soldier who has a “one night stand” with Clarke the night before he’s deployed, but these losers can’t have a one night stand to save their lives, so of course there’s emotion involved. I’m a sucker for military AUs, so of course I liked this one.

i would give my life just to hold your hand (i’m your number one fan) by @captaindaddykru

Bellamy’s an actor. Clarke’s a singer. He likes some of her photos on Twitter. She slides into his DMs. It’s the start of a beautiful friendship love story. These idiots I swear. I’m actually surprised this is the first safeandsound13 fic I’ve listed on here considering the first part of my other fic rec was basically a love letter to her Hunger Games AU series. That, and I’m subscribed to her as an author. Seriously. Go read everything she writes.

so i sing a song of love by @hiddenpolkadots

Clarke gets pregnant and Bellamy’s the father, but they’re not together. Oops. They figure it out.

It’s All Coming Back by @johnmurphysass

Clarke receives an invitation to Octavia’s wedding, but the problem is that she hasn’t seen Bellamy or Octavia in over 5 years. And Clarke and Bellamy are both hiding secrets. Y’all. This one was emotional af. But so good. I will say, heed Tricia’s author tags and warnings.  Just in case.

a beam in darkness: let it grow. by starsonfire

I’m not sure if this user has a tumblr, so I just linked their ao3 profile. This is a S6 Finale AU where Clarke gives up and Bellamy helps her. Again, heed the warnings just in case. But it’s really good.

like you mean it (like it’s splitting you in two) by @talistheintrovert

Talis lets them sleep. She lets tHEM SLEEP. That’s all you need to know. 

as moonlight through the pines by @hiddenpolkadots

Clarke and Bellamy get matching tattoos while drunk and now all the Grounders think they’re married. Heh. Sign me up.

guess it’s never really over by @captaindaddykru

Bellarke + exes + Bellarke kid + Bellarke trying for another kid + angst + fluff = Bingo for Lindsay. Looking back at it, I think it was written for Bellarke Bingo. An ACTUAL bingo fic. So basically this just means you really need to read it. 

All tomorrow’s parties. by @robotmango

This is a really cool take on a Praimfaya AU. Bellamy is for intents and purposes the Time Traveler’s Husband. I LOVED this one.

Kiss It Better by delinquents

This is a really cute S1 AU with forehead kisses. Forehead kisses! It’s the only work by the author, but I hope they write more.

speedin’ into a new sunrise by @carrieeve

Clarke participates in a night of speed dating and ends up reuniting with an old college friend slash huge what if. It’s super cute and fluffy and totally the type of fic needed to break up an angst session. I love angst like nobody’s business, but sometimes you just need something happy.

everything will bring a chain of love by @lost-n-stereo

Another cute fic but this time with Bellarke as parents! These are short little fills combined into a one shot, and they’re just perfect. I love it.

A Safe Place to Land by @octannibal-blake

Bellarke as parents but the Angst™ version. Basically Marper dies and Bellarke take care of Jordan. It’s sad but so good, I promise.

Still Yours by @arysafics

Bellamy and Clarke agree to be friends after they break up. Angst ensues. Being friends with your ex is hard y’all. I promise it has a happy ending. 

when it all comes together by soundtracktomysoul

Jasper wants Bellarke together and creates a group chat that includes all the delinquents. Plotting and shenanigans ensue. This one was super fun, and in going back to it, I discovered that this author also has a Bellarke Rock Band AU. Haven’t read it yet but definitely going to check it out!

gone til november, on my city come december by @jamesstruttingpotter

Bellarke are cops and Bellamy goes undercover. Angst. Pining. Gah, I love it.

we’re never done with killing time by @bestivals

The angst. The angst. This is a post-s5 AU fic where they’re onboard the Eligius ship but didn’t go into cryo. Bellamy and Clarke have a series of 48 conversations and we get what they were supposed to do which is TALK.

I think I’m going to call it for now. I hope you enjoy all these wonderful fanfics! And if you have additional favorites, please share!

[kombellarke]

Have you been reading any good fics lately?

Hi anon!

Right now I’m reading we’ll be looking for sunlight, or the headlights by @selflessbellamy which is lovely. I’ve been waiting to binge read it. 

Next on my list is The Biggest Moment. I haven’t read it yet, but I’ve heard good things 👌��👌🏼

All These Things That We Were by @talistheintrovert was so amazing if you haven't checked it out yet. It’s a s7 spec fic. 

If you’re looking for something long and completed, Almosts and Maybes by @arysafics is one of my favs ❤️

[captaindaddykru]

☆for emily☆

today it’s @keiraknighted‘s birthday. i wanted to finish this before today, but everything is flaming garbage, so a preview will have to do. no, i will no be giving out more details. happy birthday to my musical soulmate, the kinkiest queen of them all, em. my ol’ cobber. my favorite drongo. quite the spunk you are. you’re a classic. and you live in the worst possible timezone imaginable. here’s some best friends, pining, sexy, below <10k hopefully. also, sorry for the ugly temporary moodboard???? i was getting desperate at this point and am no grapic designer. i just needed something to distract from what you’re about to read. cheers!

So, by the time their holiday break rolls around, Clarke isn’t only sexually frustrated, she’s also kind of desperate. Which only intensifies when a few days before they’re all flying back to their hometown, Wells casually lets it drop he’s now in a relationship with a girl from his old chess club and things are ‘heating up fast’, whatever the hell that’s supposed to mean. She’s just more aware than ever she’s running out of time. 

Clarke doesn’t even know why it’s such a big deal to her. Maybe it’s her competitive streak coming into play, or the fact she really just wants to get the whole awkward virginity thing over with, maybe it’s the dark inexplicable pang in the middle of her chest whenever she sees the constant rotation of girls on Bellamy’s Instagram and Snapchat. She figures it’s a healthy amount of jealousy, courtesy of their very codependent ways, sharing everything with each other since childhood. They’re all apart for the first time in a decade, going their own ways, perhaps even growing apart. 

She doesn’t think about why Wells’ honest to God girlfriend doesn’t bother her as much when in reality that should make her feel even worse. A girlfriend could screw with their dynamic, a bunch of one night stands rationally speaking won’t. It could be that she knows Wells too well to know there’s still a very big chance he won’t go through with it, that he’ll let the girl down easy before Christmas even rolls around. 

But. Then she finds herself thinking of his jacket covering her shivering body, drenched from the rain, her left arm throbbing with pain, his hand wrapped around hers as he told her it was all going to be okay. She thinks of that time he left Gina’s birthday party early to come pick her up at a friend’s house after almost having a panic attack, the nights he spent sleeping in her bed after her father died, how he never once complained about getting her coffee from the drive through that was more than his hard limit of three dollars, and that one throw-away moment at the end of summer. That goodbye hug that lasted just a little too long, his arms tight around her waist, the intense look mirrored in both of their eyes as they pulled apart, the way she was afraid to say anything in case her voice gave out, before she got into her mom’s car and watched him and Wells disappear in the rearview mirror. 

It’s hard to explain, even to herself. It’s why she never thinks about it for too long. 

Which all brings her to tonight. A new year’s party at the house of someone who went to the same high school as them, that has all the charms of a bad hang-over in the making — terrible beer, music that’s mostly EDM and completely shit-faced people plastered across every surface.

She hasn’t seen Wells since his father’s Christmas party. Clarke finally met Luna there in person. She’s beautiful, easily talked to her about the non-profit she’s interning at for half an hour and had nothing but love in her eyes whenever she looked at Wells. He’s with her at her parents’ ski cabin right now, and from the way Bellamy was clapping his shoulder before he left early in the morning, Clarke figures he’s probably losing his v-card to her there which means that she’ll be the only one out of the three of them not to complete the pact. There’s no way she’s finding someone before midnight that she’d both feel comfortable with taking hers, and is even willing to do so in the first place. 

To make matters worse, Bellamy has totally ditched her to play beer pong with Bree, which she isn’t even sure isn’t code for hooking up in the coat closet. He knows she hates parties, especially when she doesn’t know anyone else there, and that she’s horrific at first impressions. She’s forced to make small-talk with Murphy, the loser who still hangs around their high school parking lot and she used to share one Culinary Arts class with before he got suspended. 

All of it combined has put her in a sour mood. And a drinking mood, but since all there is fucking shitty beer that might as well be toilet water she can’t even get drunk, so that just makes her even more unreasonably upset at nothing in particular. Maybe at the fact she’s so high strung and obsessed with controlling every little detail, that she didn’t just get it over with back on campus with some frat boy she never had to see again after, or that Wells and Bellamy managed to make it happen without even trying. It’s probably because she’s trying way too hard, people can probably tell.

It’s not fair that both of them beat her to it. Clarke wants to just be done with already, too. She wants to get it over with so she can get to the good, non first time stuff like them. She wants to be flirting with boys and girls at parties, or ask for someone’s number at a coffee shop without having to worry about having to explain it’s her first time doing any of it when they eventually invite her over to their room. She wants to be free and nonchalant and spontaneous, not constantly weighed down by the fact that she’s a virgin. It’s not like she’s asking for much. 

Half an hour to midnight, she pushes her way outside to the porch for some fresh air. It’s there where Bellamy finally bothers to leave Bree and her attention-seeking ways behind and come find her. 

“What’s up with you?” He asks, half a chuckle in his voice as he leans his forearms on the railing, mirroring her. 

Clarke grits her teeth together, then slowly exhales through her nose. She keeps her eyes on the tree swing in the distance, swaying softly because of the wind. “Nothing.”

He elbows her playfully, although his tone is serious. Of course he sees right through her. “Come on. Don’t give me that.”

She just grumbles something indecipherable, pushing back her hair from her face with one hand. She still doesn’t look at him, scared she might give anything more away. From inside, there’s the muffled beat of a hiphop song playing joined by the distanced tumult of college kids getting drunk and having fun. Except for the couple making out on the other end of the porch and one stoner sprawled over the grass smoking and staring at the sky, they’re alone. 

“I’m sorry about leaving you for Bree—” Bellamy starts, straightening back to his full height, and before she knows it, a flare of anger rises within her, burning white hot. She doesn’t recognize the feeling, but gets too lost in it to analyze it for very long.

Her head snaps to the side to glare at him, fingers tightening around the railing until her knuckles turn a pale white. “It’s not about Bree and her pathetic fuck-me eyes.”

“Okay,” he replies, sounding a bit too amused for her liking. He leans back, crossing his arms over his chest. It makes his biceps bulge in a way that’s completely unfair when she’s been perpetually turned on since Halloween, and it sends a surge of want pulsing from her core. “Then what’s it about, princess?”

Has his voice always been so deep? She hesitates, not sure she even wants to share this with him. He might be her best friend, but it’s embarrassing on a level she can’t even try and start to describe. “I’m annoyed, okay?” She bites, heated, which immediately makes her feel guilty. It’s not his fault nobody wants her. “I expected that I’d at least beat Wells to it. And since it’s all I can think about all the time now, I’m constantly horny.” A blush forms on her cheeks, down her neck and all over her collarbone, but she refuses to let that or the way his eyes widen slightly stop her. It’s only awkward if she lets it be. “I just feel so stupid. I mean, I had five months to get it over with like both of you, and here we are. What the hell is wrong with me?”

A tense silence wraps around them for a moment, Clarke’s heart pounding loudly in her chest as panic claws up her throat. She’s such a fucking idiot. She shouldn’t have brought it up in the first place. She’s sure neither of them would’ve actually held it against her if she didn’t lose her virginity before new year’s, they’re better than that. She knows they are. Clarke is just so — frustrated.

His tongue darts out to wet his lips, and she finds herself entranced with the movement. “I didn’t know you were so upset about it,” he starts, tentatively. Her blue eyes snap up to meet his, a smirk breaking across his face. He’s teasing her, the asshole, when he says, “I mean, if you’re that desperate, I’ll do it.”

Her eyes narrow, finally pushing off the railing. A gust of wind greets her body, bristling her hair and making tiny goosebumps appear over her arms. She’s seconds away from angry tears, she can tell. “Don’t make it sound like it’s such a fucking chore.”

Bellamy just kind of stares at her dumbly, his whole body grown tense, making her even more furious. Did he lose his tongue all of a sudden? He’s never had a problem sharing his opinions on her, no matter how negative, before. “What?” She snaps, roughly brushing  a strand of hair behind her ear before tucking her hands back underneath her opposite armpits.  

“It wouldn’t be a chore, Clarke,” he corrects her, his eyes still slightly widened as if alarmed by the sound of himself speaking. He swallows visibly, his adam’s apple bobbing up and down in the low glow of the Christmas lights draped across the ceiling of the porch. Bellamy lifts one of his shoulders, casual, even if the movement is stiffer than it usually would be. “I just — I didn’t realize I was an option.”

Her heart trips over itself as silence stretches between them for a moment. She wants to ask him a million questions, but the best thing she can come up with is, “So you were serious?” Clarke raises her eyebrows, trying to figure out if he was just being nice, taking pity on her or if it was something much more dangerous than that. “You’ll do it?”

His jaw clenches briefly, his nostrils flaring. Another second, and he asks, rough, “Do you want me to do it?”

She considers it. This is Bellamy, her best friend. He can always make her laugh, and there’s no one else she feels as much at ease with, and he’s definitely attractive, even she has noticed as much. She likes his stubborn curls, his smile when someone catches him off guard, the sharp line of his jaw. And at the very least he would know what he’s doing. She trusts him. “Yes.”

Now that she’s aware it’s a possibility, she refuses to want anything else. It’d be kind of perfect, actually.

He clears his throat, blinking hard as he tears his eyes off her for a second, scrubbing his face with one of his hands. It’s very big, and Clarke finds herself wondering for the first time if it means the rest of him is big as well. Bellamy sniffs when his dark eyes land back on her. “Have you been drinking?”

“Just half a beer,” she answers, maybe a bit too eager, her hands dropping at her sides after smoothing down the bottom of her glittery top. She doesn’t want to give him enough time to talk himself out of it. “And I think someone diluted it with water so it barely counts.”

He nods, once, then nudges his head to the side. “Want to get out of here?”

Taking one more look around the porch, Clarke worries her bottom lip pensively, shooting him an apologetic look. “My parents are having friends over, so my house is definitely not an option.” 

Besides, she doesn’t want to risk them finding out and making it weird. Especially not if the consequence is going to be an open door policy whenever he or Wells are over. Nothing has to change after tonight.

“Thelonious is out,” he offers, then flinches when he seems to remember something else. “But Octavia might show up with her friends.”

Clarke nods, giving him another long searching look before she makes up her mind. It’ll be fine. This is Bellamy. She’s a pro at compartmentalizing and he’s sleeping with a different girl like every other night. It can just be sex. “Upstairs then?”

[pineapplebellarke]

PineappleBellarke’s Hiatus Fic Rec

Just thought I’d do a fic rec for anyone who is interested! All of these are on ao3 and complete and all of them I have read and loved! (In no particular order)

I’ll Find You in the Morning Sun by @cominguproses13x (Currently still reading this one but it is fucking amazing and has to be on here)

Soul Fate Determination by LaughingSenselessly ( @wellsjahasghost​ )

The Naked Truth by mad_magic ( @kombellarke )

How You Stay Alive by LaughingSenselessly ( @wellsjahasghost )

The Graduation Pact by @burninghoneyatdusk

All three complete fics by April7739 ( @candybellarke )

If you’re looking for smutty, anything by arysa13 ( @arysafics ) or  @asroarke or bilexualclarke ( @valkyrhys )

If I missed any it’s because I read them a long time ago before I had my ao3 account and don’t have them bookmarked, but I think this pretty much covers the big ones. Happy Reading!

[agreytracksuit]

top five / bottom five kudos fics.

tagged by @hopskipaway

TOP FIVE FICS. (in descending order)

01. Would You Believe Me Then?

deckerstar | lucifer canon after S2 | 135 kudos

02. The Bachelor

Bellarke | modern bachelor au | 128 kudos

03. To The Groom

bellarke | modern au | 80 kudos

04. Please don’t be in love with someone else

bellarke | modern au | 75 kudos

05. The Joke’s On Us

murven | modern au | 61 kudos

BOTTOM FIVE FICS. (in ascending order)

01. What doesn’t kill me makes me want you more

murven | modern au | 7 kudos

02. you can learn to do it, too

murven | modern au | 9 kudos

03. What’s Yours is Mine

murven | modern au | 9 kudos

04. The Cowboy and the Renegade

murven | western au | 9 kudos

05. How to Keep a Resolution

murven | modern au | 10 kudos

tagging @arysafics and @easilydistractedbyfanfic

[marauders-groupie]

Final girl vs Villain

Final girl took it as her personal responsibility to make her friends survive a weird carnival apocalypse/curse and she's all like: "We'll make it, even if I have to kill all these bitch-ass demons."

Villain is a turned dark siren who's still fighting the evil in herself.

Brb, I need to go write now.

Thanks @helloeurydice and @thelittlefanpire for tagging me.

Directions: use this picrew to make yourself as the horror movie final girl and then as a horror movie villain.

I'm going to tag: @pepperish @alltheworldsinmyhead @useyourtelescope @kindclaws @kinetic-elaboration @burninghoneyatdusk @killianjoner @zavens @carrieeve @arysafics + everyone else who wants to do this!

[star-sky-earth]

Last 8 lines tag game

*game rules post the last 8 lines from a wip.* 

Tagged by @elora-lane and @arysafics ❤️

This is from the latest instalment of sleep! And it’s way more than eight lines but shush.

Octavia is tiny compared to Marcus, her slender palm almost entirely swallowed up by his larger hand, yet there’s no doubt who’s in charge of the handshake. She draws it out, little fingers digging white into Marcus’ skin as she lets her eyes travel slowly up and down the length of the older man’s body, a growing flirtacious edge to her smile.

Clarke feels faint, just about ready to die from second-hand embarassment, ready to lie down on the warm brick and let the earth reclaim her body.

“It’s a pleasure,” Marcus replies, brown eyes twinkling, clearly charmed. Clarke has to bite her lip to keep from stepping forward and physically breaking them apart, surprised by the strength of her own jealous feeling, the grip and pull of envy like sharp teeth tearing at her chest. Even in a baggy t-shirt, no make-up and hair twisted up into a messy bun, Octavia is almost supernaturally pretty, her oversized clothes only serving to make her look even more delicate, even more mysterious and alluring. Watching them together, Clarke thinks back longingly to the last time she saw Marcus, the careful attentiveness he’d paid her, his patience in getting her to open up to him, the warmth in his eyes as they stood in front of the painting they’d just hung together.

Please don’t find her more interesting than me, Clarke thinks desperately, before she can get a grip on herself.