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sloppy doodles (storyboard for when im not too lazy to draw) of them in this situation because this would definitely happen (after ryan cut off dylans arm)
#đ§ăËË àš zephs rambling (ïŒăâ)#the quarry dylan#the quarry game#the quarry#the quarry ryan#ryan#ryan ezrahler#kaitlyn ka#kaitlyn#the quarry kaitlyn#rylan#blood loss#arm cutting is not a love language#(or maybe it is..)#we'll never know#ignore the fact dylan has a black eye#he looked too much like steve harrington so i tried to switch it up#then i realised he looked even more like steve harrington during s3#but arent steve and dylan just the same character?#im adding too many tags now#i should stop#how do i bring myself to stop rambling#i dont know#im just gonna end it here
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Okay yeah I wasn't ever gonna be contained with just one post so, Callowmoore stuff that's on rotisserie in my brain from ep.94
Long and deep looks at each other and a hug right off the bat!
When asked by Laudna if they were okay in ep. 91, Ashton deflected with 'say that again?' and 'are any of us?', but when Fearne asks they give a genuine answer and then also ask her how she's feeling, because she's been quiet and they care
Ashton, despite hurting when they're touched and exhausted so the chronic pain is as intense as the first time, still wanting to cuddle with Fearne - and feeling at ease when they do
And like, the way they were trying to articulate it implies that they've wanted to ask for quite some time, but the timing has been off or situations have gotten in the way, and they don't want to wait any longer
But also they don't ask if they can cuddle they ask if Fearne wants to; they want to, but they ask Fearne if she doesn't want to sleep alone, because her comfort is as important or more important than their own
Fearne given her past experiences with people of course thinks they mean the other kind of company, which she notes she does want (so that's not off the table) but asks if they could just cuddle - to which Ashton doesn't entirely deny either, but notes that they're tired and in a lot of pain right now so they too was asking for the same
Also the fact that Fearne, who has been in a threesome inside a corrupted haunted wood, will later flirt with a dark echo of herself, and spooned with a ghost pirate captain, got so flustered about asking Ashton that she just wants to cuddle
Despite the awkwardness they still just laugh and joke together through it, they're awkward but it's in a sweet way
All of Ashton's immediate action the second they realised Fearne was missing - similar to how they wanted to find her after the shard incident but this time in a position where they could take action - no nonsense, no pissing contest with Chetney about her scent being on their bed, "Find. Them. Now."
And then still being soft after seeing Fearne again, because all that matters right now is that she's still here. And another post I saw said it better but, Ashton never seeks to change or 'correct' parts of who Fearne is; she can still follow cute animals just next time bring a buddy along (which given how they were in bed together would imply meaning them), they love her for her, fae and all, they just want her to be safe
Not entirely ep. 94 but given how on 91 Ashton pointed out that they needed to sleep and 'figure out who they wanted to be', and then here ask Fearne to be there beside them so they could have someone to wake up to, it to me at least says a lot about what Ashton has already decided; and how despite both of them having dealt with grief and anger and helplessness by bottling it up, hiding away, and shouldering it alone, this time they both wanted to just feel at ease with each other
#callowmoore#ashton greymoore#fearne calloway#fearne x ashton#ashton x fearne#ashley johnson#taliesin jaffe#critical role#cr3#cr3 spoilers#c3e94#cr spoilers#bells hells#did I mention that I'm not normal about them because AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA#shipper rotisserie brain go brrrrr#Orym's passive perception 'damnnn' was great too#I have been praying for 5 weeks for just a tiny bit of comfort between the two and I got a whole buffet!#I mean I trust Matt and narratively it was juicy but c'mon man you couldn't give them one night? The night of FCG blowing up??#I wonder: if Ashton was the big spoon would they have woke up with Fearne to join the walk/fight?#I ofc wish they returned to the same bed but she was extra exhausted - next time hopefully#Zathuda still needs to die - painfully - maybe they can do it together; steal his dragon and fancy cloak#Ludinus too - live show's a big stage (half expect Sam to debut his new player then) big post-fight kiss at Aeor maybe/please?#hopefully we can also see them pickpocketing each other again because it's their love language#but so is the softness and comfort and awkward giggling and innuendo#which is why I hate that most villains tend to look past/through Ashton - they don't see them but Fearne sees them; they see each other#tag reader bonus - Ashton always sleeps on Fearne's right: so she can see/poke their glass slab but also so their stone arm doesn't cut her
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#clone wars#star wars#anakin skywalker#arc trooper fives#my art#i wanted to color this but then i gave up lol#i love how unclear it is wether or not ani has arms <3#up to interpretation ig#also sorry fives i cut you face in half forgive me ;-;#also there's a nice amount of flower language n there (its pretty heavyhanded lol) exept i dunno if the flowers are recognizable
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" you can't cut someone arm cuz you love them "
disagree IF YA LOVE THEM CUT. THAT . ARM BITCH
#eda the owl lady#nimona ballister#nimona#the owl house#arm cutting is love#love language#gay#bisexual#cool people#best adoptive mom and dad
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The acting in the walking dead is so good, like I genuinely forget that theyâre actorsđ
Like iâve been watching a lot of videos on Body Language in Twd that really points out the good acting. Especially in S7 with Negan scenes itâs crazy.
#twd#the walking dead#i love twd i love twd i love twd i love twd#twd acting#acting#good acting#walking dead#I genuinely forget that itâs not real sometimes#like wdym these are ACTORS#WDYM that rick isnât actually on his knees and begging to not have to cut carls arm off#RJs acting isnât that good tho#Rick Grimes#lineup#Negan#body language
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Yeah I'm totally fine. Yep. Oh yeah. Watched Nimona yesterday for the first time and...
WHY HAVE I NOT SEEN IT BEFORE I DO NOT UNDERSTAND
..ahem.
Is the original comic anything like the movie? If so, I need it and I needed it ten years ago.
#nimona#didn't totally lose my shit over the cutting an arm off is not love language#ballister x ambrosius#nimona i love you
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Pt 22! (An actually sweet one!)
#utmv#oc#utmv sans#utmv oc#goldinsanity#from top to bottom:#N: WOA because she is my persona and that's one of my main Love Languages#Hap: Didn't get enough of that as a kid. really likes to assure people w/ this love language and also likes to recieve it âĄ#Mono: similarly? Recieved a lot of WOA from Cross so he reciprocates that to others in his life#Orchid: Hates to be nice/kind but loyalty is important to her (ex. helping Reset because she loves him a lot). actions louder than words etc#Shotput: Similar to Orchid. Dream is AOS so he always follows in those footsteps. His trust is hard-won but if he does things for someone#then he loves them! (it hurt when Reset stopped letting him do things for him and cut him out of the plan)#Reset: Objects hold memories and sentiment (he wears his Brother's cloak) so a gift is with him forever#Pretender: In an AU where food in scarce he gives up a lot fir the people he loves. paps in particular#Ichor: Immortal. his mortal lovers/friends never ascend so he respects their wishes and spends as much time with people as he can#Lost: After so many memories down the drain he desperately wants to spend time with others. (ex. Haphazard sticking w/ him)#Stereo: Physical Affection is a big thing for him. he doesn't have physical arms anymore so he likes to be close to people#ex. leaning on them or nudging them. if he leans on a person then they're friends
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Quite funny and sweet to see Ballister and Ambrosius be absolute losers in love with each other.
#nimona#everyone can see it like they try so hard to be cool and professional#but ballister panicking at seeing ambrosius and fretting about love language#and ambrosius he does not do freestyle jazz fretting too about love language bcos cutting off your bfâs arm is not romantic
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Literally just recorded a 40 minute video for @caffeinatedopossum showing off some things that I like and going through some stuff I forgot existed in my room and generally just being happy and sharing information because that is my love language.
Anyways it's 4 gigabytes...
#lmao nimona and ambrosias âcutting arms off is nOT a loVE LANgUAgE#just tism things#he literally makes me so safe I just wanna gush to him all the time cus i know he genuinely appreciates it <3
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Hey, so I watch Nimona. My brain literally did this today. Stay with me now
Taking out someone's arm is a love language. it's weird that it happened twice but you know. I would have two very shiny nickles.
#tony stark#bucky barnes#winteriron#Arm Cutting is a love language#Like#Ultron is definitely Nimona#OR Rogue
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Just watched Nimona
I haven't watched it enough to remember anyone's name, (Sans Nimona obviously) I watched it with my Grams and i quote "they're putting it into cartoons now? Why do they need to have two guys kiss in a cartoon! Children are watching this!" My grandma not fifteen minutes later "why couldn't those two dudes have been girls? Thats so much nicer than two guys, they should have made those two girls"
also, apparently being gay is just as bad as incest in my grandmas eyes...
anYWAY. Its a good movie you should watch it if you haven't already, and if you have go watch it again for a good measure. Just to let it really sink in how bad ass this Movie was. Metal as all shit. Have a good day and don't blow up your city.
#nimona#their gay your honor#Shes a fuckin Bad ass.#Incest is bad#Being gay is OK!#I in fact am gay#My grandma told me that she loves me but I should stick with dudes.#Nah I think I Should have a blond girlfriend who cuts off my arm#ITS THE NEW LOVE LANGUAGE#Totally better than two dudes kissing.#if you are two dudes and you do in fact kiss#you are awesome and can you adopt me?
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Take a bite out of my sight
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Highland breezes by the counting of the afternoon, as a turquoise-dressed figure herded a few baby goats spawning by the edge of the cliff.
Downwards off the rocky blanketed cliff, theirs a bump of forest filled with cherry trees, with a shoveled pathway leading downwards to the more paved mountain on a graveled pathway.
Birch and oak Trees were forest coloured the greenery. with a few axes and a small meadow opening that only shows a building exoskeleton of stone pillars. black blocky ravens flew up to the trees.
Down onto the big gradient cobblestone staircase for many donkeys and villagers to get around. with the scratching of a cat running away from the bottom of the stairs messing with hooves of the donkey to yelp and kneel to the dismay but worry of the two villagers handling the donkey. You'd always need to take a step down touch a graze of grass, or look closer into a pond, with ramps for carrying a ravaged ton without them rolling down. But that wouldn't hurt the ravager that much unless you tell the ravager to feel pain from it.
Scattered laughing and the echo in the timbered trees by those with axes who aren't lumberjacks in flannel having a gay ol' time. Those with axes had different attires.
Another echo of the scuttled laugh follows the rumbling echo of the tree, causing a packager to drop a package.
Onlookers were sitting at the balconied rosewood fences, with the far right being oak with decorated bleachers of vines. watch the poor package delivery villager trip in the middle of the village, with the ominous shading of darkness from the forest sending a shiver to the packager when the high branches were cracking from something bigger.
The bristles of branches break from the omen-striking banner. Those that fell on top of the indicator head were pushed off, or thrown away by intricately cuffed gloves of vexes. Escaping the branching in the clearing, and looking around into the forest before the eye moves up to a well-built wall... Carved out beautifully.
The Villager Unemployed mob, with mountain patterns on their robe and a brown collar to signify unemployment, sits at a single table by their fenced balcony. They were sitting at a single table by the fenced balcony, peeking out to greet a banner. Cracking their glasses, were metal 'armour' for the banners edgs against wind.
"Heugh," The Vindicator looks straight up, at a Villager's sharp eyes at the leaning by the wall, arms crossed. Their collar was based on pink terracotta, and their tool belt signified business ownership with their emerald. And as many smart working business owners who got to the top. They speed-walked up the stairs, grabbing the Pakager collar as other villagers looked on.
The Villagers stay seated, looking across at each other at the dragged packager. Pity, the package might have been important. Servagers go on with their job, with a shiver and frozen body realization too. Well if you were the one serving pie to the client who ordered 'Goats Rasberry Eye' and 'Demonic Goats Eye Pried' if everyone needed to pretend they were demons when fae came around and burnt (Not on purpose like most cheesecake, but they aren't allowed to tell you that).
"Uhm, it, may I get you a glass of ice."
The metal bridge of pushing back their glasses, the clank of the platter of pie, chair shoved back. The Servager boots clacked away with dust or dirt clattered behind them, as the villager's knee bent down next to the fence to reach down like a snake to a messenger crow.
A ravager horn drops, but the Vindicator's eyes widen at the villager pulling up their face. Launching their mouth right underneath their inner eye, like mice, and then there was a snap. The illager's right brain felt like shutting off from all senses.
The Villagers moved themselves back from the fence to the sun over the forest horizon. The trickle of blood fell down their cheek even more as the string of meaty blood dangled in the breeze in between a Villagers teeth.
A clank of glass filled with ice reflected onto the sun, and it reflected onto the goat's horn. The passing Servagor freaked out, stepping back at the unconventional rage.
With fear pressing the Vindicator's throat, like prey. They ended up holding themselves in the air, the fear in their eye visible to all who could see. On the horizon, the small swaying of the trees mimicked the sticky string of blood that hung from their high cheekbones. The fear in their eye, the little trickle of trees mimics the stickier bloodied string.
Cherry blossoms burned on their face, unlike a sunburnt crisp Illager, unlike them they still look like a delighted Illager in warmed tones of fear of the serpent's sun.
Wedding bells ring in their head, as they wobble down on the saddle, back arched up and elevating their head by the bite. arched up and elevated their head by the bite. [In a bar they wonder why the bell was rung.â]
They felt a grasp on the neck of a snake untangling themselves from their chokehold to take a deep breath. Their adrenaline heated up to their cheeks. The salty tears fall with pressure and pain trying so hard to let tears go out that it pains them. They continued to bleed, the red liquid dripping down to their saddle and under their shin to the strapped belt of their formal Indicator attire. dripped down to their saddle and under their shin to the strapped belt of their formal indicator attire.
Everything seems to be tinted by rose gradients, from their face to the horizon gradient. The colder breeze passed them and they couldn't feel the sun's heat on the back of their head. The Illager had held their hand to their cheek, coating their glove. Deadpanned silence with the munching of the forest life hunger, watching the villager take a bite out of the pie.
They felt like a fox that never wanted the crow to drop their own eye. Watching that Villager through the pink fence, waiting for a response, they had watched them take a bite out of an eye. Realizing they subconsciously reached for their chest to clench, wrinkling their clothes. Being able to hear their panting and winds noisy breeze. Their flushed faces moved from tint to tint, in fading shades of doozies from their flushing face flushing out more blood them.
Observing the architectural stonework, the chairs seemed inspired by dessert temple creepers' drawings, the sunset looked like it was tempered by the sunset.
Gulping down some saliva, feeling drier than the blood staining their saddle, they arched themselves back from picking up their goat horn
Their Ravager looked up at their rider, turning around and walking back into the shrubbery of the forest, paying no mind to the banner scraping the fence on the wall. The Illager tightly adjusted themselves back onto their ravager and held the reins. Seeming like an amateur rider.
#when the fanfic blogs fanfic#fanfic fanatic#minecraft#illager#minecraft oc#minecraft illager#minecraft villager#villager#vindicator#unemployed#middle aged characters#finnished writing unfinnished set up#minecraft villager oc#minecraft illager oc#minecraft fanfiction#mineblr#beta read#unconventional meet cute#meet cute#writing#accidentally original meet cute ideda doese anyone know a writing where the love intrest gets their bite taken out of ands dates#Cutting of an arm is not a love language!#BITE OF 87!!!#references#my writing#my thoughts#intense#mobs fanfiction
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⊠When someone tries to imitate you or take your placeÂ
Pierro, Capitano, Dottore, PantaloneÂ
(tw: general mentions of violence and intimacy, swf. Old ask suggested by the lovely @pandaquick, better late than never)
Your position in the Fatui is a much more personal and delicate matter. You are not just some high-rank advisor or soldier idling within the Zapolyarny Palace, nor can you be defined as another Fatuus. You are someone of a different echelon - a Harbingerâs beloved, safeguarded with the utmost honor conferred by Her Majesty the Tsaritsa. It is no secret your significant other would utilize a whole army to protect you, but what happens when someone, in their foolishness, forgets that?
⧠Pierro was the first to notice that someone tried to imitate you. An individual of high status endeavored to emulate your work and areas of expertise. Subsequently, this individual began to adopt aspects of your appearance, from hairstyle to clothing. However, the breaking point occurred when this foolish person attempted to purchase an identical jewelry brooch to the one you frequently wore. It was a similar piece, one gifted to you by Pierro.
Except that imitator missed one important clue - Pierro orders you custom-made silver adorned with deep-cut sapphires that would put the Tsaritsaâs crown into shame. A one of a kind piece.
This cheap attempt to imitate you and usurp your spot was what forced The Jester to abandon his silent observation. His gaze has long caught the envious glances directed towards you whenever you accompanied him on meetings, whenever he linked his arm with yours, whenever he generously kneeled beside you to put his coat over your shoulder and keep you warm from Snezhnayaâs cold - the same individual, always seething with resentment. Thus, it was time for the Director to silently act.Â
He kept tabs on this person via a network of spies, gathering intel on their behavior and intentions. And with the most skilled spies raised from the House of the Hearth, it didn't take long to have a whole pile of evidence right on his desk. And with the simple snap of his fingers, he effortlessly orchestrated the apprehension and subsequent banishment of the culprit, sparing no unnecessary words. Hearsay will not be tolerated in the Fatui, but to see some lowly scum tarnish your reputation by cheap mimicry then itâll be his responsibility to weed out.Â
âPierro, dearest, What's wrong? You seem so deep in thought.â - Your gentle murmur broke The Jester's train of thought. As he lay in bed, your head resting on his chest and his arm draped over you, he reminded himself that he was in the comfort of your love. He doesn't have to mull over the bloodied ordinances when he feels the warmth of your skin underneath the covers.
âApologies, my divine. It seems my mind was drifting to troubling thoughts. But it no longer matters when you're here.â - Thus, he gently planted a kiss on your forehead and tucked the covers around your body which harbored marks of his devotion earlier that night.
⧠Il Capitano clutched the hilt of his sword in resolution. Something was wrong and he could see it. The Harbinger was in the middle of his morning spar with you, a regular training session where you and the Captain warm up as a routine. He stood in a defensive stance, his movements fluid yet measured as his sword received blow after blow from your weapon. You, on the other hand, moved like a silent tempest, your strikes precise yet frustratingly urgent.
It was unlike you to be so unsteady, noted Capitano to himself, especially when fighting. Despite the unspoken patience, an undercurrent of concealed despondency and anger laced your body language.Â
âAlright, my dear, I can feel your unease. What troubles your heart?âÂ
You shook your head, panting as you almost faltered. You insisted on continuing the training session, but it was clear your brave facade was almost crumbling.Â
âIt would be foolish to continue. And I care about your well-being. Please, confide in me, my beloved.â
You tried, you really did. But before you know it, your lips pursed into a thin line and a flood of tears escaped the moment you shakily lowered your weapon. Now the Captain was on full alert, rushing towards you and gently supporting you before you could hide your tearful face in shame. With an arm around your trembling form and much persuasion - you relented and shared the source of your frustration. A newly enlisted soldier had undergone thorough training under the tutelage of Il Capitano, and their impressive advancement was unmistakably evident in their unwavering dedication. However, this individual began to devote more time to the Captain, delving into military intelligence and climbing the ranks. You genuinely felt joy for the new recruit, truly. Yet in timid humiliation, you had to confess you felt obsolete as if your power alone wasnât enough for a harbinger of his caliber and ranks.
âAh, my dear, you are far from weak. My time with the trainees is merely a duty, a part of my job as the 1st Harbinger. But when it comes to you, my dear, your might and wisdom are incomparable. You donât deserve my ranks, you deserve my life laid before you.â
But whatever gentle words of affection were coming out of the Captain, your next words of truth made him halt at once. â... At least, thatâs what the recruit told me when we spoke. That I'm weak.âÂ
â...What did you say?âÂ
The gentle armored hand on your shoulder now tightened in restrained anger, fury flaring within his chest. Capitano now understood: your tears, your sudden insecurity, your doubt, your silence⊠It wasnât coincidental. This recruit who was so conveniently rising in the ranks made sure to aim not just for the Harbinger. Specifically, you; to sow self-doubt onto you and hinder your precious relationship. Someone was deliberately bullying you.
You looked up at Capitanoâs dreadful silence, asking him what was wrong.
âIt⊠seems, my dear, someone has crossed an unforgivable line. One that would cost them their life dearly. And I am to blame for not noticing when harm and doubt came your way. I must amend this transgression for your forgiveness.â
You blinked in response, not having time to comprehend the severity of his words; Itâs hard to respond when your beloved suddenly kneels and bows like a knight on duty. In the end, Capitano ushered you to take a day off and let your mind rest easy.
The next day, Capitano returned home early but was eerily silent once more. He stayed with you the whole day, like a hawk overlooking his nest, his arms crossed but his touch gentle. Although he claimed nothing was wrong, you received news that certain recruits were gone, and any upcoming soldiers that would come into his care would receive even stricter training from now on. That day, you wondered why some Fatui soldiers feared talking to you. Not to mention the armor around Capitanoâs knuckles seemed faintly red-tinted.
The Fatui organization was a constant battle of powers and ranks. But to climb the ladder and meddle with the life of The Captain was a personal offense, one that would result in quick and unapologetic bloodshed. Nevertheless, he made sure to remind his soldiers about that.Â
⧠When one of the folks working under Il Dottore as a lab analyst approached you, you didnât expect them to call you names so suddenly. You stood there, confused and apprehensive at the sudden barrage of insults from the stranger. But they explained:
âYou donât do anything when helping during research, you know! I donât even know how The 2nd tolerates you when youâre this useless. Iâll tell you what, quit your special-treatment act, and donât come back to the lab. The Doctor is better off with someone of his level of intellect.â
You didnât fight or defend yourself, you didnât even insult the assistant. Instead, you smiled simply - âVery well, I wonât. Good luck.â
That day, you turned and left. The frustrated lab analyst was left in confusion but thought they succeeded in eliminating the only obstacle left to get closer to the elusive yet powerful Harbinger. After all, what the hell do you even do at his lab? You exchange a few words with Dottore, maybe sporadically point at what to do, and remain seated in the back, resting as if you were the Tsaritsa herself. The audacity. How come Il Dottore never kicked you out?
Well, it didn't take long for this person to find out.
The next day, naturally, Dottore couldnât find you when he proceeded with work. You were neither at his study, nor at the lab, nor at your favorite corner of the library. It was barely noon, and receiving your warm greetings was his routine. And the Doctor always follows the agenda.
âWhere are they?âÂ
His question was brief but pointed, and his subordinates knew exactly who he was referring to. They could sense the tension in his voice. The only individual privy to the reason for your absence smirked smugly and responded.
âHmph. It seems they decided not to come, Lord Harbinger Dottore.â
That was their first mistake because The Doctor caught on to the haughty smirk coming from his new analyst.
âAnd you know so certainly how?â - he quickly gestured to a nearby Fatui servant with a flick of his wrist. âSend in servants to check in on my behalf. I wasnât informed. If my darling is feeling tired or unwell, bring their preferred refreshment immediately, and ensure it is warm.â
However, this displeased the new lab assistant, as even while you were away, Dottore was still dotting on you as if it was his second nature to do so while he was busy with work. Thus, they cleared their throat and spoke up:
ïżœïżœThey⊠barely accomplished anything in your presence, doctor. So I advised them to leave, to which they agreed. Pretty straightforward, s-sir.âÂ
âOh? Did you, nowâ - A burning rage, like never before, flared up within Il Dottore. With clenched teeth and a rigid jaw, his voice oozed with venom. But any seasoned lackey working under Dottore knew that this was the calm before the storm. Because soon, an echo of shattering vials and slammed objects would ring out from the laboratory. And in your absence, nothing would prevent the doctor from showing a bit of despotism.Â
Much later that evening, after everything was set and done, the servants informed him of your whereabouts. Il Dottore briskly made his way through the Zapolyarny Palace to find you. Spotting you tucked away in a secluded nook of the palace, he hastened over, anxious to ensure your well-being, fearing you mightâve withdrawn due to the influence of some blabbering lowlife.Â
âDear! There you are⊠No one has the right to speak to you like that ever. Are you alright? My dearest, why did you not tell me immediately?! I wouldâve-â
Dottoreâs frustrated rambles come to a halt when you place a finger on his lips to shush him. You didnât look despaired, in fact, you looked calm - âZandik? Did you have another tantrum in your lab while I was absent?â
The doctor gulped, remembering his place. Calming his senses, he placed his hands on your waist and ushered you closer to his arms.
â... Perhaps. But I had to. How could I be certain that no one had harmed you? Why did you comply with that impudent fool? You shouldâve gone to me first.â
âWell, it was unpleasant to hear the insults, sure. ButâŠ" - you glanced apologetically and a knowing smile returned to your lips. "I knew you'd find out and deal with the issue very quickly."Â
⧠You and Pantalone were an odd couple. You didn't hail from a rich background, nor were you well-versed in the art of business and finance. You were more proficient in adventuring, your travels taking you to all sorts of journeys and commissions, a polar opposite from your beloved Pantalone. This led to raised eyebrows among the aristocrats of Snezhnaya. How can the richest man of Teyvat, who lives and works in prestige, be associated with such a simple person as you? For some, this gave the impression that they had a better chance of winning him over.
Thus, once upon a night, Pantalone was invited to a luxurious soirée. Here he was, clad in his finest suit, silver rings complementing his equally expensive optics. But to the Regrator, the jewelry adorning him was the least of his concerns - because you were the most precious gem in this gala. You accompanied him, although reluctantly, feeling out of place amidst the grand assembly of extravagant guests and the languid orchestra.
âPantalone, do we have toâŠ? I know you said this is not a business party, but there are so many guests already lining up to talk to you.âÂ
âOh do not fret, my sweet. Evening galas like these are where the real negotiation and connections entail. But I know the details bore you, so I promise we won't stick here for too long. Besides, I get to introduce you as my one and only!â
That's exactly what you were afraid of. As a company of some esteemed noble ladies adorning elegant gowns, you had difficulties matching Pantaloneâs polite smile. Overwhelmed by the scrutinizing gazes of some guests, you politely excused yourself to the bathroom. Pantalone was concerned, thinking of following you, but that was exactly what the guests wanted.Â
You spent a long while by the hallway alone, trying to stabilize your breathing. The muttering of guests enjoying drinks and strolling was faint, but you could hear some people nearby:
âHow can the 9th be with someone like themâŠ? Surely itâs a joke.â
âA charming, rich man like him, and he can have anyone he desires. Yet he wastes his time on a simpleton?â
âSomeone was definitely in it for the Mora, maybe he hasnât seen real class. Quick, letâs go talk to him while he is alone.â
You stood with your back to a wall, and for the first time, uncertainty crept in. With fists clenched by your side, you reprimanded yourself that you are not alone. You came here with your significant other - and he, above all else, knows that gossip has no place in your shared private life. Hence, gathering up your courage, you raise your head high and strode back into the gala.
Pantalone, unfortunately yet expectedly, was surrounded by the same foul-mouthed nobles who wished to impress him. They prattled on about his financial success, while ladies fanned their folding fans and stood too close for his comfort. While they humored him, The Regrator cast hurried glances around the gala in search of you. Where are you?
âLord Harbinger, may we offer you more champagne? I am sure this expensive bottle is up to your taste.â
The 9th attempted to hide his frown at the woman's tone, his stomach unwilling to ingest any drink some excessively elaborate name. âNo thank you, Iâd rather decline. I am waiting for my dear. I promised her a dance later this evening.â
âOh, please sir, I insist. The night is young and there is plenty more for-âÂ
Before the woman could continue, your voice cut through the air; calm, yet unmistakably firm. âHe said no. Simple enough to understand.â Â
A hush fell over the gathered guests, the weight of your words settling like a sudden gust. Only Pantalone beamed with a genuine smile. âAh, dear! There you are,â. The Harbinger was about to step back towards you, when the same lady suddenly blocked his path, her back facing him while her tone edged with defiance.
âI beg your pardon, but Iâm afraid the question is directed towards Lord Harbinger Pantalone. I am sure you wouldn't know the pleasure of tasting a 500,000 Mora champagne from Fontaine.â
You recognized the snark in her tone directed towards you, and you couldnât deny the anxiety twisting in your gut as eyes narrowed in your direction. However, with a shake of your head, you reminded yourself who you truly are and simply said: âSheesh, lady, you spend that much on a drink that tastes worse than sparkling water? To each their own, I presumeâ
Her smile vanished. The guests stared in stunned silence, but it was Pantaloneâs genuine laughter that pierced the tension. The sound was rich and realâbecause only he knew how adept you were at humbling an overconfident aristocrat with a dose of blunt truth. Thatâs how Pantalone managed to push through the crowd and circle his arm back around your waist, leaving the astonished onlookers behind.
âAh dear, youâre a savior. I apologize I dragged us into this unpleasant companyâŠâ - he confined to you apologetically as you two walked away. âYou always knew how to be sincere in your honest way.â
âItâs not like I meant to pick up a fightâŠ" - you sighed. "I simply couldn't bear the humiliation, Pantalone. I'm aware that some people give me strange looks when I'm with you. They regard me as if I'm some peasant standing next to a powerful Fatui harbinger. That I'm nothing. That's why I couldnât just hide, I had to step up to defend myself.â
âOh, darling⊠My sweet, precious darling.â - The two of you left the manor that hosted the soiree, the chill night breeze muting the faint sound of guests and replacing it with a symphony of cricket noise from the garden nearby. Pantalone's fingers intertwined with yours.
"You are not just 'nothing' - you're my everything. You did not come from riches, and neither did I. You of all people know that. Would I really hold respect for some rich fool who didn't know an ounce of hardship when Mora was all they had since birth? No, dear, I wouldn't."
With a tender hand, he rested his palm on your waist, gently guiding you along the cobblestone path as if leading you into a slow waltz by garden roses in the night.
"Besides, you should never be ashamed to seek out my help. Although I must admit... Your tone earlier - oh my. Use it on me more often, darling. I wouldn't mind."Â
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right here, yet so far away | oneshot
Pairing:Â Jungkook x (f.) Reader
Genre/Tags:Â exes to lovers, ceo! jungkook x kindergarten teacher! reader, angst, smut, fluff
Word Count: 19.4k (my hands slipped girl)
Chapter Warnings: mature language, unprotected sex (pls be safe), oral (f. receiving), mentions of an accident, coma, violence (lmk if i missed anything)
A/N: hello cuties. this is a special post in honor of me hitting 300 followers. i cant believe the immense support i have received when it's only been a week. thank you so much for consuming my work and supporting me. also please note, the text in italics are for dream sequences or flashbacks. P.S i know people don't just instantly recover after a long coma, but in this story it's just heavy plot armor, so kindly understand.
//
âBut baby⊠please justâŠâ Jungkookâs voice cracks as he jogs to catch up, his hand reaching out for yours. You swat it away without hesitation, the sting of rejection hitting him harder than any words ever could.
âJungkook, stop it.â you say firmly, your tone sharp enough to cut through his soul. He freezes, his wide eyes searching yours for answers.
âBut baby, just tell me why? We were doing so good⊠just yesterday, you... you said you loved me. Please, you canât just... leave like this.â
He tries to observe your expression, hoping to convince himself that this is just some cruel joke. But thereâs no softness in your eyes, no flicker of doubt. Only a cold, unyielding resolve.
âDonât you understand?â you scoff, folding your arms tightly across your chest. âIâm tired of you, Jungkook. Iâm tired of us.â His breath hitches, disbelief flashing across his face. âStop. Donât say that. You donât⊠you donât mean that.â
âI do.â you insist, each word a dagger to his heart. âI mean every word of it. Iâm done with you. This whole relationship⊠itâs not going anywhere. Itâs a waste of time, and I just⊠I canât, Jungkook. We have to break up.â
His shoulders slump, and his chest rises and falls as though the air has been knocked out of him. He stands frozen, staring at you, desperate to find some hint of hesitation in your expression. But all he sees is resolve⊠or at least, what youâre determined to show him.
âWhy?â he whispers, his voice barely audible.
You stare at him blankly. "Because I donât love you anymore.â you reply, your voice unwavering. Jungkook flinches as if struck. His lips part, but no words come out. And when you turn around and walk away, the sound of your retreating footsteps echoes in his ears, louder than any goodbye, as your body disappears into the darkness.
BEEP BEEP BEEP
The shrill wail of the alarm slices through the silence, and Jungkook's eyes harshly open. He gasps for air, his chest heaving as the nightmare clings to him like a second skin.
Itâs always the same nightmare. The same scene. The same words. The same look on your face. The same crushing weight in his chest.
He drags a hand down his face, the coolness of his palm doing little to soothe him. His dark hair sticks to his forehead, damp with sweat, and he blinks up at the ceiling fan spinning lazily above him.
For a moment, he just sits there, the silence of his apartment wrapping around him like a cold blanket. A single tear trickles down his temple as images of you flash in his mind, one after the other. His phone buzzes on the nightstand... a reminder of the meetings and deadlines awaiting him, but he doesnât move.
Four months. Itâs been four months since you walked away, and he still doesnât understand why.
He remembers the day of the break up like it was yesterday. The scene is so vividly planted in his mind that he even sees it in his sleep. He canât get rid of the way you looked at him⊠like you despised the sight of him, like you truly didnât love him anymore.
He still doesnât have his answers. Why did you leave so suddenly? Why did your heart just decide it didnât want him anymore? The questions linger in his mind, unanswered, gnawing at him like a constant ache he canât escape.
Jungkook remains rooted on his mattress, the weight of memories pressing down on him as he recalls the first time he saw you. It was over two years ago, but when he recollects it, it feels so vivid, like it's happening in the present.
He had been reluctant to attend an event that was scheduled at a local kindergarten nearby. Exhausted from a long flight back from the States, heâd tried to get out of it. But his assistant, understanding the importance of his role as the CEO, insisted that he'd attend it regardless.
His company wasnât just about selling food products, it was dedicated to promoting healthy living, especially for children. They organized events to educate kids on the importance of good nutrition, partnered with schools to provide nutritious meals, and created fun, interactive programs to get children excited about eating right.
Though Jungkook wasnât keen on spending his afternoon with a room full of energetic kids, he went anyway. The workshop had already started and the moment he stepped into the classroom, ready to grab the attention of the kids, he suddenly spotted you.
You were standing at the front of the room, a soft smile on your face as you engaged with the children, laughing with them and cracking jokes. Your energy was infectious, and the way you moved with such ease around the kids made his heart skip a beat. There was something so warm and genuine about you, something that immediately drew him in.
It wasnât just the way you looked... though you were undeniably beautiful, but how you carried yourself, the kindness that radiated from you, and how at home you seemed in this world of tiny hands and laughter. Jungkook had never been the type to believe in love at first sight, but the moment his eyes landed on you, something inside him shifted.
He had been smitten, captivated in a way he couldnât explain. His thoughts had scattered as he watched you, his mind far from the speech he was supposed to be giving. It was almost embarrassing how quickly you had captured his attention, and yet he couldnât look away.
It wasnât until later, when he was preparing to leave, that he finally found the courage to approach you. He had been nervous, unsure of what to say. But the moment you looked at him, a simple greeting from you was all it took.
Your smile was enough to melt any lingering doubt he had. He introduced himself, his voice slightly shaky but confident enough to make a lasting impression. And you, with that same gentle smile, responded in kind words, immediately making him feel at ease.
He had no idea at that moment that this chance encounter would change his life in the best way possible.
Now, laying in his bed, Jungkook smiles bitterly, remembering how it all started. How he had the most beautiful relationship with you for around a year and three months. How one decision, one visit to that kindergarten, led to everything he lost.
He still can't understand why you left him the way you did, without explanation, without any chance for him to fix whatever went wrong. The image of your face that day... the coldness, the finality, haunts him still.
Despite the whirlwind of thoughts clouding his mind, Jungkook forces himself to push them aside. He stares at the ceiling for a moment longer, allowing the weight of the memories to settle, before finally making the decision to get up.
He knows he canât linger in this state forever. The day is waiting for him, and he canât afford to let his emotions hold him back. With a sigh, he swings his legs off the bed and plants his feet firmly on the floor. The familiar coldness of the hardwood beneath his feet is grounding, and for a brief moment, he feels a sense of control over the chaos in his mind.
The early morning light filters through the blinds, casting a soft glow on his room. He moves to the bathroom, running cold water over his face, hoping it will somehow shake the fog from his thoughts. Itâs a futile attempt, but itâs enough to snap him into the present, if only for a few minutes.
Jungkook stares at his reflection in the mirror, taking a deep breath. His mind is still heavy, but heâs learned over the years to compartmentalize, especially when it comes to work. Heâs the CEO and his company canât afford to be distracted by his personal life. No matter how much his heart aches, thereâs a bigger picture to focus on.
//
You glance at the kids, focused on their coloring books, and a soft smile tugs at your lips. Theyâre adorable, each one lost in their own little world, their tiny hands gripping crayons as they carefully add color to their drawings. You walk around the room, quietly observing their work, admiring the little bursts of creativity.
As you pass by the window, your gaze drifts outside, where a few children are running and playing on the soccer field. You let out a sigh, your fingers subconsciously tracing the pendant of your necklace.
Itâs the only thing that connects you to him, to the one that got away, to the one you let slip right through your fingers, even when it hurt to do so. You close your eyes for a brief moment, and his image floods your mind. The way his eyes sparkled when he smiled, the warmth of his touch, the comfort of his presence.
You miss him so badly, your chest tightening with the weight of it. But you push the feeling down, swallowing the ache in your heart. You remind yourself why it had to end, why you had to walk away. But that doesnât make it hurt any less.
As you stare at the bleachers stand by the green field, a vivid and unpleasant memory creeps up your mind.
"Break up with him."
Junghyun's voice was calm, his eyes fixed on the empty soccer field ahead. The chilly evening breeze brushed past your hair, but it did little to cool the heat rising in your chest. You turned to look at him, disbelief written all over your face.
"What?" you asked, your voice carrying a mix of confusion and irritation. Junghyun was Jungkook's older brother, and his unexpected visit had left you completely on edge.
You had only met this man once before, a fleeting encounter when you accidentally bumped into him outside Jungkookâs apartment one morning. Seeing him now, unannounced at your workplace, caught you completely off guard.
"Break up with him, Y/N." he repeated, turning to face you this time. His gaze was piercing, his tone unyielding. "You know you two belong to completely separate worlds. Jungkook isnât in love... heâs just infatuated. And frankly..." he continued, his voice dropping with disdain. "Youâre nothing but a distraction."
You stared at him, your mind reeling from the audacity of his words. The traffic noise in the far distance felt like static compared to the ringing in your ears. "Are you serious right now?" you managed to say, your tone sharper than you intended.
Junghyun didnât flinch. "Iâm completely serious. Do you think this little fling of yours will lead to anything? Jungkook has responsibilities... he has a company to run, a legacy to uphold. Youâre a kindergarten teacher, Y/n. A sweet girl, sure, but not someone who can keep up with him."
His words stung, but you refused to show it. "Jungkook loves me." you stated firmly, your voice unwavering. "I know how he feels about me. So whatever youâre trying to pull, it wonât work."
Junghyun scoffed, shaking his head. "Love? You call this love? Heâs smitten, sure, but that doesnât mean itâll last. Youâll only hold him back."
You clenched your fists, your chest tightening with frustration. Every instinct in you wanted to yell at him, to tell him how wrong he was, how little he knew about what you and Jungkook shared.
You breathed heavily, your eyes narrowing as they locked onto him. "I'm going to pretend we never had this conversation." you said, your voice steady despite the turmoil bubbling inside. Without waiting for a response, you turned on your heel, stepping off the bleacher stands and ready to head back inside.
âHanyung Hospital.â Junghyunâs voice suddenly rang out, stopping you dead in your tracks. Your breath hitched, and your eyebrows furrowed as your back remained turned to him. A wave of unease settled over you, his words striking a chord you wished he hadnât found.
âIsnât that where your brother is admitted?â His tone was sharp, laced with a smirk you didnât need to see to recognize.
Slowly, you turned to face him, your heart racing as panic flashed across your features. Had this man done a background check on you? Your mind reeled at the thought, fear and anger coursing through you in equal measure.
Junghyunâs smirk deepened as he saw the panic etched on your face. âGuess I know a little too much about you, sweetheart.â he said smoothly, his words dripping with a smug satisfaction.
Your fists clenched at your sides, but your voice caught in your throat. The realization that he had gone to such lengths made your skin crawl, and a sense of dread settled in your stomach.
"See, this is the problem with you lowlifes..." Junghyun sneered, his voice dripping with disrespect. "You have so many weaknesses, yet you never stop dreaming big." He let out a cruel laugh, his eyes glinting with amusement at your stunned silence.
You stared at him, your throat tightening as if the words you wanted to say were caught in a vice. "I heard heâs been in a coma for four years." he continued, his tone casual, almost mocking.
Your eyes stung with unshed tears, the weight of his words pressing down on your chest. The mention of your brother... the very core of your vulnerability, felt like a dagger twisting in your heart.
âMaybe I should make sure this coma lasts foreverââ
"What?" The word burst out of you before he could finish. Panic surged through you, visible in the way your breathing quickened. Junghyunâs smirk widened, his eyes lighting up with satisfaction at your reaction. He relished the fear and desperation etched across your face, feeding off the control he had over the situation.
"Leave my brother out of this." you managed to say, your voice low but firm, fists clenched tightly at your sides. "This has nothing to do with him."
You forced yourself to regulate your breathing, trying to steady the whirlwind of emotions that were threatening to spill over. But deep down, you knew exactly what this man was doing. And it felt like a threat too enormous to escape.
Junghyunâs smirk only deepened, his silence more unsettling than words. It was as though he reveled in watching you squirm under the weight of his insinuations.
Your mind raced, every possible scenario flashing before you. The influence Jungkookâs family wielded wasnât just intimidating, it was terrifying. They were rich, powerful, and connected in ways you could only imagine.
For all you knew, they could probably make someone disappear without a trace. And standing face-to-face with Junghyun, you started to think that was your chilling reality.
You swallowed hard, meeting his gaze with as much resolve as you could muster, but the unease in your chest lingered. You felt trapped, cornered by an enemy who knew just where to strike to hurt you the most.
"Well, sweetheart, I want to leave him out of this too..." Junghyun sighed, his tone mockingly sympathetic. "And you know exactly what you need to do for that to happen."
His words struck like a hammer, each syllable weighing heavier than the last. You felt your whole world collapsing around you, the walls closing in with no way out. You felt suffocated. Cornered. Powerless.
Your gaze dropped to your feet, tears pooling in your eyes despite your desperate attempts to hold them back. The fight within you slowly crumbled, leaving only the unbearable weight of his ultimatum.
You clenched your fists, your nails digging into your palms as you fought to keep yourself composed.
"I'll break up with him." you whispered finally, the words tasting bitter on your tongue. A tear slipped down your cheek, the first crack in the dam as the reality of your surrender settled in.
Junghyun stepped down from the bleacher stands, his slow footsteps growing louder in your ears. You didnât move, your feet rooted to the ground as if the weight of your decision had physically anchored you.
He stopped in front of you, and you felt his presence, his amusement radiating like poison. A soft laugh escaped him, sending shivers down your spine.
"Now that was easy, wasnât it?" he mocked, patting your head like you were a child who had just followed orders. Your jaw tightened, teeth gritting at the humiliating gesture, but you remained silent.
"And this goes without saying, but... Jungkook should never hear about this encounter." Junghyun said, his voice low and taunting as he stepped closer.
You didnât respond, your throat too tight and your mind too fogged with fear and anger to formulate a reply.
He smirked at your silence before brushing past you, deliberately bumping into your shoulder as if to remind you just how insignificant he believed you to be. The force was slight, but it felt heavier, laden with the weight of everything heâd taken away from you in the matter of mere minutes.
The chilly breeze cut through the quiet, and you felt it settle deep into your bones, a reminder of just how cold the world could be.
"Miss Choi!" a little voice pierces through the haze of your flashback, pulling you back to reality. Your eyes shift from the bleacher stands outside to the source of the voice. A little girl waves her broken color pencil in the air, her tiny face scrunched in distress.
You force a smile, the corners of your lips lifting as you walk towards her. "Give me that, let me sharpen it for you, Sera." you say softly, patting her head. She nods cutely, her eyes wide with trust and gratitude.
You exhale deeply, the weight in your chest still pressing down as you make your way to the trash can. As the sharpener scrapes against the pencil, you think to yourself. Stop dwelling on the past.
You knew how deeply you felt for Jungkook. He was more than just a fleeting love... he was a part of you, your safe place. But the weight of Junghyun's threat had been too much to bear. It wasnât a fight you could win, not against soemone as powerful as him.
The memory of that day gnaws at you, the helplessness, the bitterness of making a decision you despised with every fiber of your being. But what choice did you have?
Handing the pencil back to Sera, you muster another soft smile. Her joyful expression tugs at your heart, a stark contrast to the storm inside you.
All you can do now is hope that Jungkook is living a happy life, far from the shadows of the truth that forced you apart.
//
Jungkook adjusts his position in the sleek leather chair, trying to focus on the ongoing meeting. The conference room hums with the low murmur of voices as his team discusses the logistics of their next community outreach initiative.
The large screen at the front displays a vibrant presentation, but his mind drifts, struggling to stay anchored in the moment.
âMr. Jeon.â Eunwoo, the Chief Operating Officer, speaks up, pulling him back to reality. âWeâre finalizing the details for the event at the Sunflower Orphanage this weekend.â he says, his tone calm but purposeful.
âItâs part of our âHealthy Futuresâ program.â Eunwoo continues, âWhere we teach the kids about nutrition and provide them with tools to build healthier habits.â
Jungkook nods, his jaw tightening slightly. He taps his pen against the notepad in front of him, the blank page mirroring his lack of focus. âGood. Ensure we send enough materials for the interactive sessions. Iâll review the activity plans later today.â
Eunwoo presses on. âWeâre also organizing a cooking demonstration for the older kids and distributing care packages with nutritious snacks and recipe guides. It might be a good idea for you to attend. I think the kids would really enjoy meeting you.â
Jungkook exhales softly, running a hand through his hair. Public appearances at these events are part of his responsibility, something he takes seriously. Yet, the thought of being surrounded by bright-eyed children feels heavier than usual, a strange weight pressing against his chest.
âIâll check my schedule.â he replies, his tone measured, masking the unease he canât quite shake.
As the meeting concludes, Jungkook steps out of the conference room, loosening his tie as he makes his way towards his office. The familiar click of shoes on the polished floor follows close behind, signaling his secretary, Jimin, is trailing him.
âYour schedule is free, Mr. Jeon.â Jimin remarks, a teasing edge in his voice. âItâs literally the weekend.â Jungkook rolls his eyes, letting out a long sigh. âI know, but I just donât feel like going.â he mutters, his stride purposeful as he heads towards his cabin.
Jimin quickens his pace to match Jungkookâs, his tone light but persistent. âThe kids would love it, Mr. Jeon. Plus, itâs your responsibility.â
Jungkook groans inwardly, knowing thereâs no winning an argument when Jimin uses that reasoning. âFine.â he relents, glancing over his shoulder with a pointed glare. âBut... youâre coming with me.â
âOf course.â Jimin quips with a smirk, unfazed. âI go wherever my boss goes.â
Jungkook shakes his head, a faint smile tugging at his lips despite himself, before pushing open the door to his cabin. âYouâre insufferable.â he mutters, disappearing inside. Jimin grins to himself, adjusting his tie. âItâs part of the job.â he mutters quietly before heading back to his desk.
//
The familiar scent of antiseptic and faint floral air freshener envelops you as you step into the hospital. You glance around, taking in the sight of doctors briskly walking in their white coats, nurses tending to charts, and patients navigating the lobby with family members by their sides. The soft hum of conversations and the occasional beep of monitors create a somber yet steady rhythm.
You make your way to the reception desk, offering a small smile to the woman behind the counter. Her face lights up with recognition.
âYouâre early today.â she notes gently. You nod, your expression soft. âI just missed Beomgyu.â you admit, your voice barely above a whisper. She smiles warmly, her eyes filled with understanding. âGo ahead.â she says, motioning towards the elevator.
You thank her with a brief smile before turning and stepping into the elevator, pressing the button to take you to the floor where your brotherâs room is.
The soft chime of the elevator brings you back to reality as the doors slide open. You walk down the familiar corridor, each step feeling heavier as you approach his room. Pushing the door open, your breath catches in your throat as your eyes land on Beomgyu. His motionless body lies on the bed, the faint hum of medical equipment the only sign of life. Four years. Itâs been four long years, and he hasnât moved an inch.
You sit down in the chair next to his bed, your hands trembling as you reach for his. His hand is cold in yours, and the weight of it brings tears to your eyes. But you blink them away, determined to stay strong.
âHey, Gyu.â you whisper, brushing your thumb gently over his knuckles. Your voice is soft, filled with a bittersweet mix of hope and sorrow. âIâm here.â
No matter how many times you see him like this, it never gets easier. Each visit feels like a fresh wound, a new wave of pain crashing over you. He was your only family and the sight of his still body, the steady beep of the monitor, and the faint rise and fall of his chest... it all feels both familiar and unbearable. Every time, itâs as if a tiny piece of your heart breaks all over again.
As you stare at his face, a sigh escapes your lips, heavy with the weight of countless unshed tears. "Gyu..." you whisper, your voice barely audible in the stillness of the room. "Itâs getting so hard." Your words falter, carried by the quiet hum of the machines that have become the soundtrack of his existence.
"No matter what I do... I just... I just canât stop thinking about him." you confess, closing your eyes as the first tear escapes, tracing a slow, burning path down your cheek. Your grip on Beomgyuâs hand tightens, your thumb brushing over his knuckles in slow, rhythmic motions. Though his hand remains lifeless, you hold on as if itâs your last tether to sanity, as if somehow he can feel your anguish.
Maybe he hears me, you think, clinging to the hope that keeps you returning to this room day after day. "I miss him so much." you murmur, your voice cracking under the weight of those words. The sob that escapes your lips feels like a betrayal, exposing just how deeply the pain has taken root.
Beomgyu never met Jungkook... yet, in your heart, you know that if he ever did... he would have absolutely loved him.
You remember that one day you brought Jungkook here, to visit Beomgyu, his hand firmly holding yours as you led him down these sterile hallways.
He had sat beside you, his arm wrapped protectively around your trembling frame, as you told him about the accident that had stolen Beomgyuâs vibrant spirit and left him in this suspended state. Jungkookâs presence had been an anchor that day, steady and reassuring, his soft murmurs giving you the courage to speak through your tears.
And then, there was that promise. You can still hear your own voice, shaky but determined, as you looked into Jungkookâs eyes. "When Beomgyu wakes up, youâll be the first to know." The memory feels like a lifetime ago, a fragment of a world where hope felt tangible and love wasnât wrapped in layers of regret.
Now, that promise lingers like a ghost, haunting you with its impossibility. The weight of it presses against your chest, suffocating in its quiet accusation.
You lower your head, your tears falling silently onto the sterile sheets, wishing for a reality where things could have been different... where Beomgyu would wake up, and Jungkook would still be yours to call.
//
After spending about forty minutes sitting by your brotherâs side, you feel the weight of time press down on you. With a reluctant sigh, you lean forward, pressing a gentle kiss on his cool forehead. The stillness of the room wraps around you like an unwanted embrace, amplifying the ache in your chest.
You stand, taking a moment to drink in the sight of him, his face so serene yet painfully distant. Finally, you force yourself to turn away, the sharp pull of grief hurting you even as your feet carry you towards the door.
The hospital hallways stretch before you, illuminated by fluorescent lights that feel too bright for the heaviness clouding your heart. The muted chatter of families and nurses echoes faintly around you, but you tune it out, your focus on the floor ahead.
Every step feels heavy, yet familiar... grief walking alongside you like an old companion. Youâre lost in thought, your mind lingering on memories you can't quite hold onto, when the sharp ring of your phone jolts you back to the present.
You pause, fishing the device out of your bag. The name on the screen makes a faint smile touch your lips. "Hey, Joonie." you greet, your tone soft but warm.
âOh my god Y/N...Hi... where have you been?â Namjoonâs voice filters through, steady yet tinged with his usual concern. âI was just visiting Beomgyu.â you reply, stepping into the elevator as the doors slide open.
âAh...â he murmurs, his voice dropping to a gentler note. âSorry if I disturbed you.â
âNo, not at all.â you assure him, leaning against the elevator wall. âI was just about to leave anyway. Whatâs up?â Thereâs a slight pause on the other end before he continues talking. âI wanted to check if youâre coming to the orphanage this weekend. You know... for the volunteering session.â
The mention of the orphanage brings a warmth to your chest. Your lips curve into a genuine smile as you think of the place thatâs come to feel like a second home. âOf course Iâll be there.â you reply without hesitation.
âThat's great!!â Namjoon says, a hint of relief in his tone. âMrs. Lee mentioned thereâs going to be some kind of workshop for the kids, though Iâm not really sure what itâs about.â
You hum thoughtfully, stepping out of the elevator as it dings open on the ground floor. âA workshop? That sounds interesting. I guess weâll just have to wait and see what it's about.â you muse, the faint hum of curiosity threading through your voice.
Namjoon chuckles lightly. âYeah, seems like it. Anyways, you get home safe, Y/N-ah. I'll see you on the weekend.â he says. âSee you Joonie... Bye.â you reply, your smile lingering as the call ends.
As you slip your phone back into your bag and step into the cool evening air, a quiet sense of purpose washes over you. The orphanage, specifically, the Sunflower Orphanage, holds a deeply rooted place in your heart.
Itâs not just a building, itâs a chapter of your life, a part of your story written alongside your brother, Beomgyu as the two of you grew up there and navigated a world that often felt too vast and too indifferent.
Volunteering there every weekend for the past month with Namjoon hasnât just been about giving back to the place that shaped you, itâs become a way to honor the struggles you and Beomgyu once faced.
Itâs a way of making peace with the past while helping to build a brighter future for the children still living it. The act of helping others has started to feel like a balm for your soul, a small piece of healing in a journey that has felt insurmountable at times.
More than that, itâs helped you stay busy, distracted, keeping your mind from wandering too often to the void that has been lingering in your life for the past four months, an emptiness youâre not ready to confront fully yet.
Every smile from the kids, every hug, every story they share with you reminds you why youâve always wanted to be a kindergarten teacher.
Now, being able to follow your dream and also volunteer at the very orphanage you grew up in, doing your best to give these children the care and love you once longed for, feels profoundly rewarding.
Thereâs a bittersweet comfort in walking the same halls you once did, now as a volunteer instead of a resident. You find joy in helping the kids paint their dreams on blank canvases, in reading stories that spark their imaginations, and in simply being a presence they can rely on.
The Orphanage, with its chipped walls and resilient spirit, has become more than a part of your history... itâs a part of your healing, too.
//
Saturday
"Shit, shit." you mutter under your breath, hastily paying the cab driver before dashing towards the entrance of the orphanage. You were supposed to be here early today, especially since you knew there was a workshop planned for the kids.
Mrs. Lee had mentioned needing help with the setup and cleanup, and youâd eagerly offered. But luck hadnât been on your side. First, your original cab broke down, forcing you to find another. Then, traffic decided to conspire against you, dragging out what shouldâve been a quick journey into an agonizing wait.
As you ran up the steps at the entrance, slightly out of breath, your eyes catch on something that brings you to an abrupt halt. A large banner hangs above the double doors, bold letters printed across it. The sight of it makes your stomach churn.
âNo way...â you whisper, realization dawning like a bucket of ice water poured over your head as you read the banner. âThis is⊠Jungkookâs workshop?â
You stand frozen, trying to process what youâre seeing. The placards stationed around the entrance leave no room for doubt. Each one bears the unmistakable logo of his company. The presentation materials stacked neatly by the door, the branded posters, and even the staff moving equipment inside all scream his involvement.
You inhale sharply, the air catching in your throat. Of course, it had to be here. Of all the orphanages in the city, the one youâve been volunteering at for the past month had to be the very place where Jungkook... your ex boyfriend, Jungkook... is hosting a workshop. The universe really has a twisted sense of humor sometimes.
âFuck.â you mutter, closing your eyes and trying to calm the storm brewing in your chest. You press a hand against the doorframe to steady yourself, taking deep breaths to fight off the anxiety creeping up your spine.
Your mind races with questions youâre not sure you want answers to. Is he here? Or is this one of those events where his employees take the lead while he stays behind the scenes? Should you turn around and leave before anyone notices, or would that make things worse?
You glance back at the cab, still idling by the curb. For a fleeting second, the idea of jumping back in and leaving tempts you. But then you hear the sound of childrenâs laughter filtering through the open doors, mingling with the excited chatter of the staff, and you know you canât just leave.
Bracing yourself, you take another deep breath and step inside, your heart pounding harder with each step. The familiar warmth of the orphanage wraps around you, but today it feels heavier, tinged with the tension youâre carrying. You repeat a silent mantra, trying to ground yourself. Stay professional. This is about the kids. Nothing else matters.
âIâll just⊠Iâll just pretend I donât know him.â you mutter under your breath, nodding to yourself as your footsteps echo in the hallway.
//
As you step into the bustling main hall, your eyes land on Namjoon almost immediately. The minute he spots you too, it doesnât take long for him to weave his way through the crowd towards you, his expression a mix of shock and concern. âY/NâŠâ he begins, his voice low but urgent as he reaches you. âI had no idea this was going to be his workshop.â The disbelief in his tone mirrors your own feelings.
You throw your head back, a groan escaping your lips. âI know. What the hell am I supposed to do? Is he really here, though? Or is it just his team running the workshop?â you ask, a flicker of hope creeping into your voice as you glance at him.
Namjoon hesitates, his lips pressing into a thin line as if heâs trying to cushion the blow. âUnfortunatelyâŠâ he starts, his tone apologetic. âHeâs here. I just saw him talking to Mrs. Lee a few minutes ago.â You close your eyes, rubbing your temples. âThis is so, so, so not fair.â you mutter, your frustration bubbling over.
âHeyâŠâ Namjoonâs voice softens as he places his hands on your shoulders, steadying you. His calm presence is like an anchor in the midst of your swirling emotions. âYouâre going to be fine. I know breaking up with him was hard for you, but right now... the best you can do is just stay professional. Pretend like you donât know him and Iâm sure he wonât approach you⊠I hope.â he adds with a small, uncertain smile.
You let out a shaky sigh, your shoulders slumping under the weight of the situation. Namjoonâs logic makes sense, but it does little to calm the storm brewing inside you. âI havenât seen him in four months, Joon.â you admit, your voice shaky. âAnd now, of all times, I have to see him? Here?â
Namjoon offers you a sympathetic look, his hand squeezing your shoulder reassuringly. âI know itâs hard, but I know youâve got this. Just try your best to avoid him.â
You nod slowly, though youâre far from convinced. This isnât a situation you can simply walk away from. Jungkookâs presence is inevitable now, and the thought of seeing him again, after everything, sends a whirlwind of emotions crashing through you.
You're aware Jungkook won't be expecting to see you here today and you can't help but wonder what his reaction will be when he actually ends up seeing you. Would his expression shift the moment he spots you? Would it be one of cold indifference, barely a flicker of acknowledgment? Or something sharper like anger, disappointment, perhaps even sadness? The possibilities swirl in your mind, each one more unsettling than the last.
Shaking your head, you force yourself to brush the questions aside. Thereâs no time to dwell on this right now. You take a steadying breath and look around the busy hall. Itâs high time you start helping out. After all, youâre already late, and the least you can do is make up for lost time by pitching in wherever youâre needed.
//
Once all the kids are settled in their seats, their excitement bubbling over in the form of giggles and whispers, you step back, making your way to the back of the room. Namjoon is already there, his arms crossed loosely as he leans against the wall. You take your place beside him, exhaling deeply, trying to calm your heart and mind.
As the workshop begins, your eyes inevitably drift to the front of the room. Jungkook stands there, effortlessly commanding attention. Heâs dressed sharply but casually, the rolled-up sleeves of his button-down shirt exposing his tattooed forearm. His presence is magnetic, and itâs no surprise that even the youngest kids are riveted as he begins to speak.
âThis program is called 'Healthy Futures'.â he starts, his tone warm and inviting. âItâs about giving you the knowledge and tools to take care of your health. Eating the right food, staying active, and understanding how to take care of your bodies... itâs not just important now, but itâll help you for years to come.â
He gestures to a large poster board displaying colorful illustrations of fruits, vegetables, and simple meal plans. âToday, weâll talk about nutrition, and weâll even have some fun activities to show you how to make smart food choices. Youâll see how easy it can be to make meals that are both delicious and good for you.â
The kids are wide-eyed, soaking up every word. Jungkookâs ability to connect with them is undeniable. As he dives into the presentation, explaining concepts in simple, engaging terms and peppering his talk with questions to keep the kids involved, a small smile tugs at your lips.
You watch as he crouches down to a childâs level, handing them a flashcard and encouraging them to name the food group it belongs to. The way his eyes light up with genuine enthusiasm when the child gets it right is a sight that momentarily softens the ache in your chest.
You canât help but smile, even if itâs bittersweet. Seeing him like this... passionate, caring, and entirely in his element... reminds you of the man you fell in love with. His natural charm, the way he effortlessly makes others feel seen and valued, is just as captivating now as it was then.
Namjoon nudges you gently. âYou okay?â he asks, his voice low. You nod again, your gaze fixed on Jungkook. âYeah.â you whisper, though the lump forming in your throat makes it a struggle to get the word out. âIâm fine.â you say.
//
As Jungkook wraps up his talk, his voice is steady and warm, a reflection of the effort heâs poured into making this workshop meaningful. âAlright, kids, now itâs time for the fun part...â he announces with a grin.
âMy team is going to help you make a simple, healthy snack, something delicious and easy that you can make yourselves... so follow them and they'll guide you through the process." he says.
The children erupt in cheers and applause, their excitement echoing through the hall. Jungkookâs smile widens at their enthusiasm, the earlier reluctance he felt about being here melting away. Itâs moments like these that make everything worth it. Seeing their faces light up is a reward far greater than any professional accolade.
As the kids begin to disperse, following the other employees out of the hall, Jungkook takes a moment to glance around, his eyes scanning the room to take in the atmosphere. And then he suddenly sees you.
Jungkook lips part a watches you intently, his eyes trailing as you exchange words with Namjoon before following him out of the room. His throat feels dry, his mind reeling. She's⊠here? The words echo in his head as his heart pounds erratically against his ribcage.
He gulps, trying to steady himself, but the unexpected sight of you has thrown him completely off balance. Before he can fully process his spiraling thoughts, Jiminâs voice cuts through the haze.
âMr. Jeon, shall we?â he prompts, his tone professional but gentle, unknowingly grounding Jungkook back to the present. He blinks, nodding faintly as he forces his legs to move, trailing behind his secretary towards the activity room.
But just when he enters the activity room, what he doesn't expect is for you to be the first person he sees. Youâre standing just a few feet away, holding a precarious stack of trays to distribute it among the kids. Your focus is elsewhere, until your eyes suddenly meet his. The world tilts for a moment as your face registers a mix of shock and disbelief.
The impact of seeing him here, so close, sends a jolt through you. Your grip falters, and before you can stop it, the trays slip from your hands, the clattering sound echoing through the room as everything scatters across the floor.
The kids go silent, their chatter replaced by a stunned hush as all eyes turn towards you. The embarrassment and panic that flood your system make your skin prickle, but before you can even begin to move, Jungkook is already in front of you.
âAre you... are you okay?â His voice is low, concerned, his hands gently closing over yours as if to steady you. His touch is firm yet hesitant, and the warmth of his palms against your skin sends a shiver through you.
You can barely process his words, your heart pounding too loudly in your ears. Your lips part, but no sound comes out as you struggle to respond. The way heâs looking at you... those familiar dark eyes filled with a mixture of worry and something deeper, makes it impossible to think straight.
âI uhhh... Iâm fine.â you finally stammer, your voice barely above a whisper. Your cheeks burn as you quickly try to pull your hands back, but he doesnât let go immediately. His fingers linger for a second longer than necessary, as if heâs reluctant to lose the contact.
Namjoon, having watched the entire scene unfold, clears his throat as he approaches. âY/N, are you alright? Did you hurt yourself?â he asks, his tone gentle yet purposeful, as if trying to diffuse the tension.
âIâm fine.â you repeat, louder this time, forcing yourself to look away from Jungkook as you pull your hand away from his and focus on the mess on the floor. You crouch down, starting to pick up the scattered trays, desperate to avoid his eyes. Namjoon joins you without a word, but you can feel Jungkookâs gaze still fixed on you.
Jimin steps forward, clearly confused by the sudden commotion. âMr. Jeon, should we...â he starts, glancing between Jungkook and the scene before him, but Jungkook barely acknowledges him. His focus is solely on you, his mind racing as he tries to process everything.
For Jungkook, this moment feels surreal. He hadnât prepared himself for seeing you... not here, not like this. And now, with you so close yet seemingly so far, the weight of everything unsaid between you presses down on him like a tidal wave.
He wants nothing more than to just hold you, to pull you close and take in every detail of your face. These four months have been nothing short of hell, filled with an unrelenting ache for your presence.
But as he watches you so obviously avoiding him, he feels rooted to the spot, his mind scrambling to find the right words... words that refuse to come out.
//
Once the kids are fully immersed in their activity, you quietly slip out of the room, desperate for a moment to catch your breath. The weight of Jungkookâs presence had pressed on you relentlessly for the past twenty minutes, his gaze a constant reminder of the unresolved emotions between you two. Each stolen glance felt like it peeled back layers of the wall youâd carefully built around yourself.
The hallway is quiet as you walk towards the large window at the far end, your footsteps muffled against the polished floor. You pause there, gazing out at the orphanageâs small garden, the scene outside blurring as your mind spins.
Your fingers find the pendant hidden beneath your sweater, and you begin to fidget with it, the familiar texture grounding you. This pendant, this tiny piece of jewelry, holds a weight of its own, a connection to a past that feels both distant and ever-present.
Seeing Jungkook up close had hit you harder than you expected. He hadnât changed. He was still just as beautiful, still radiated that quiet warmth that had always drawn people to him. The same warmth youâd once found comfort in.
And you missed him... God, you missed him in a way that made your chest ache. But that only made it worse. Because you couldnât let yourself fall apart, not now, not when you had to face him. Youâre so lost in thought that the sound of a familiar voice startles you.
âY/n.â
Your body tenses instantly. You donât turn, your fingers reflexively tucking the pendant back beneath your sweater as if itâs some fragile secret you need to protect. You stay facing the window, your breaths shallow as you try to steady your heartbeat.
âYou⊠wonât even look at me?â Jungkook's voice is soft, hesitant, but the pain in it cuts through you like a blade. You bite your lip, your eyes still fixed on the view outside, but all you can feel is him. The rawness of his words sinks into you, heavy and unshakable.
âY/nâŠâ His voice comes again, quieter this time, almost breaking. Itâs not just a name... itâs a plea, one you wish you could ignore but know you canât.
You hate this. You hate that Jungkook, of all people... the kindest, most selfless soul youâve ever known... is standing here now, burdened by the pain you caused him. You hate that youâre the one who turned his world upside down. And yet, even now, you canât bring yourself to face him.
You take a deep breath, steeling yourself as you turn to face him. Your expression is blank, a carefully constructed mask. âWhat?â The word comes out cold, clipped, and you instantly regret the sharpness of your tone.
Jungkookâs gaze softens as he studies you, his dark eyes tracing the contours of your face. You still look the same... still breathtaking, still the person he fell hopelessly in love with. But thereâs something different too, a guardedness that wasnât there before, a distance he doesnât know how to bridge.
âHow⊠how have you been? Itâs been a while.â he says softly, his voice laced with hesitation as he takes a tentative step closer.
âIâm fine.â The words come quickly, too quickly, as if youâre desperate to end this conversation before it can even begin. You donât meet his gaze for long, your eyes flicking away like youâre afraid of what he might see.
Every second in his presence feels like an eternity, the weight of the emotions swirling between you both, suffocating. You canât do this. Not now, not like this. The effort of keeping your face neutral, of pretending you donât feel the same pull towards him that you always have... itâs too much.
Without another word, you move to step past him, your focus solely on the hallway ahead. But before you can escape, his hand reaches out, catching your wrist. The warmth of his touch sends a jolt through you, halting you in your tracks.
âWait.â he says, his voice quiet but firm. Thereâs a vulnerability in his tone that makes your chest tighten, and for a moment, you canât bring yourself to look at him.
You take a deep breath, feeling the warmth of his hand wrapped gently around your wrist. Itâs almost unbearable... how much harder this is than youâd expected. Having him so close, right there behind you, stirs emotions youâve fought tirelessly to suppress.
Slowly, you turn over your shoulder, finally meeting his eyes. The intensity in them is overwhelming, a deep sea of emotions you canât bring yourself to name. They hold so much... questions, pain, longing and you feel a lump rise in your throat as you let out a shaky breath.
âLet me go, Jungkook.â you say quietly, your voice steadier than you feel. You try to tug your wrist free, but his grip tightens ever so slightly, not enough to hurt but enough to keep you rooted in place.
âI didnât expect to see you hereâŠâ he says softly, his voice low and filled with something you canât quite place. Heâs ignoring your plea, but thereâs no malice in it, only hesitation, like he doesnât want to let go just yet. âIâm volunteering.â you reply flatly, forcing the words out without a hint of emotion. âAnd I need to go.â you add, your tone clipped as you yank your wrist out of his hold.
This time, he lets you go, his hand falling to his side as he watches you stride away from him as fast as you can manage. You donât dare look back, even as you feel his gaze linger on you, burning into your retreating figure. Your heart pounds with each step, your emotions bubbling dangerously close to the surface, but you donât stop. You canât.
You barge into the restroom, letting the door shut heavily behind you. The cool air does nothing to soothe the storm raging inside you. Instantly, your hands fly up to cover your face, a desperate attempt to stifle the sobs threatening to escape.
Your chest heaves as you fight against the tears that burn at the edges of your eyes, your palms pressing against your cheeks as if holding yourself together. But itâs futile. The weight of seeing him again... his voice, his touch, the unspoken pain in his eyes, comes crashing down on you all at once.
A strangled breath escapes your lips, and you lean against the sink for support. Your fingers grip the edge of the cold porcelain as if itâs the only thing keeping you grounded. You stare at your reflection in the mirror, your blurred vision making it hard to focus.
âThis isnât how it was supposed to be.â you whisper to yourself, your voice breaking. Your tears fall freely now, streaking down your cheeks as the emotions youâve bottled up for months finally spill over. The ache of his presence, the agony of your unresolved feelings... itâs all too much.
You press a trembling hand against your chest, trying to steady the harsh pounding of your heart. For a moment, you close your eyes, taking deep breaths as you attempt to compose yourself. But the pain lingers, sharp and unrelenting.
//
The workshop winds down, the chatter of children and clinking of utensils slowly fading into the background. Youâve spent the entire afternoon and evening carefully maneuvering to avoid Jungkookâs gaze, your heart in a constant state of unease.
Every glance he threw your way, every fleeting moment you felt his presence nearby, only made the weight in your chest heavier.
By the time the clock strikes 8, exhaustion has seeped into your bones, not just from the work but also from the emotional toll of the day. Mrs. Lee thanks you warmly as you help her finish setting up dinner. Namjoon remains by your side, quiet but supportive, his presence a comforting anchor in the chaos of your thoughts.
âYou did great today.â he murmurs softly as you both step out of the main hall, his tone gentle. You offer him a faint smile, appreciating his effort to lighten your mood, but the turmoil inside you is too heavy to shake off completely.
Finally, you decide itâs time to leave. Walking down the stairs by the entrance, you feel the cool evening breeze brush against your cheeks. You glance up at the darkening sky, the stars peeking through faintly, their distant glow a stark contrast to the storm swirling within you.
Pulling your coat tighter around you, you fix your bag on your shoulder and bury your hands in your pockets. The thought of going home to the solace of your quiet living room, sappy rom-coms, and a tub of ice cream feels like the only reprieve youâll get tonight.
As you reach the bus stop, you take a seat on the cold bench, staring at the empty road ahead. The world around you feels quiet and still, yet your mind is an undying chaos. Your thoughts drift back to Jungkook... his voice, his touch, the way his eyes silently pleaded with you earlier and just how much you miss him.
You sigh heavily, resting your elbows on your knees and burying your face in your hands. The ache of seeing him again lingers like a ghost, refusing to leave you be.
As you attempt to gather your thoughts, the soft hum of an approaching engine disrupts your reverie. Your head lifts instinctively, and before you can process it, a sleek car pulls to a stop right in front of you. The headlights cast a gentle glow on the empty road, but itâs the sight of the driver that makes your breath hitch.
Your lips part in surprise, your brows furrowing as the window rolls down. There he is, his dark eyes fixed on you.
âY/n.â Jungkook calls softly, his voice carrying over the quiet evening. You sigh, a mix of frustration and weariness bubbling within you. Without a word, you stand, shifting your gaze to the left, hoping to catch sight of the bus that feels agonizingly far from arriving.
âY/n, itâs late. Let me drop you home.â Jungkook says, his tone gentle but insistent. Your heart stumbles at the offer, the thought of being alone with him sending your nerves into overdrive. You donât trust yourself... not with how raw and exposed you feel after today. So, you do what youâve been doing all afternoon. You ignore him.
Fixing your gaze on the road ahead, you refuse to acknowledge him. âY/n, pleaseâŠâ His voice softens, almost breaking. You clench your jaw, the plea digging into you, forcing you to glance at him. âJust go, Jungkook.â you snap flatly, your tone colder than you intended.
Jungkookâs grip on the steering wheel tightens as your words hit him like a blow. He swallows hard, his gaze never leaving you. âIâll just drop you home. Please, itâs not safe this late.â he persists, his determination unwavering.
You shake your head, muttering under your breath as you start walking down the pavement, each step heavier than the last. But Jungkook, true to his nature, doesnât back down so easily.
The car begins to crawl forward, matching your pace as you walk. His persistence is both frustrating and heartbreaking. You can feel his gaze through the window, silently urging you to stop, to listen, to look at him.
âY/n.â he calls out again, his voice tinged with desperation. Your chest tightens as you quicken your steps, hoping to outrun the storm of emotions brewing within you. But no matter how far you walk, Jungkook is right there, his car trailing you like a shadow, refusing to let you go.
The sound of the car suddenly stopping and the door opening breaks through the rhythm of your footsteps, and you stiffen. You donât turn around, determined to maintain your resolve, but then you feel it... a firm yet gentle hand gripping your arm, spinning you around effortlessly.
Your eyes widen as you find yourself face-to-face with Jungkook, the intensity in his gaze pinning you in place. His breath is uneven, as if heâs been chasing you, though he hasnât. âPlease.â he says, his voice raw and pleading. âJust let me drop you home. Thatâs literally all Iâm asking.â
His words hang heavy between you, and for a moment, you close your eyes, exhaling sharply. His persistence is unrelenting, and deep down, you know your bus isnât arriving anytime soon to save you from this situation.
You pull your arm free from his grasp, the warmth of his touch lingering even as you step back. Without meeting his gaze, you walk towards his car, your resolve cracking under the weight of exhaustion and inevitability.
Sliding into the passenger seat, you settle into the cold leather with a resigned sigh, the door closing behind you with a soft thud. He'll just drop me home, you convince yourself as you donât look at him, keeping your gaze fixed ahead.
Jungkook quietly gets back into the driverâs seat, his movements careful as if afraid to shatter the fragile silence that now envelops the two of you. The hum of the engine rises again, but neither of you say anything, the tension stretching thin as the car begins to move.
As Jungkook drives, the rhythmic sound of the tires on the road fills the car, but the silence between you feels louder, heavier. Your gaze remains fixed outside the window, the passing streetlights casting fleeting glows across your face. Your hands clutch your purse tightly on your lap, a silent anchor to steady your racing emotions.
The stillness is suddenly broken by his voice, soft but heavy with restraint. âSo⊠how have you been?â he asks, his eyes focused on the road ahead.
You don't answer. You donât move. You donât flinch. Your determination to stay silent grows stronger as you think about the consequences of letting him back into your life. The jagged edges of your reality press against you like shards of glass.
âY/nâŠâ he calls out again, his voice gentler this time, but still, you keep your gaze fixed outside, ignoring the crackling tension in the air.
He exhales audibly, the pain in his voice more evident now. âY/n, I havenât seen you in four months... and now youâre here, but youâre acting like I donât even exist.â His words tremble, and you feel the sharp sting of guilt twisting in your chest.
âYouâre right here.â he murmurs, almost to himself. âBut why do you feel so far away?â
Your lips tighten into a thin line, and your grip on your purse grows tighter. You can feel his eyes on you, searching, pleading, but you refuse to meet his gaze. âAre you really not going to talk to me⊠at all?â he asks, his voice breaking slightly at the end.
Jungkook glances at your side profile, his knuckles white against the steering wheel as he fights to hold himself together. The hurt in his chest feels unbearable, a weight pressing harder with every second of your silence.
Heâs done his best to come to terms with your absence, with the breakup, even when the harsh reasons you gave felt like flimsy walls hiding something bigger. But now, sitting this close to you and being treated like a stranger, it cuts deeper than he expected.
âYou know whatâŠâ Jungkook suddenly mutters under his breath, and though you hear the shift in his tone, you donât move, donât react. But then the car swerves abruptly, jerking to the left. Your head snaps towards him, eyes wide with shock as you clutch the handlebar above your seat.
âJungkook!â you exclaim, your heart hammering as you notice the road signs signaling that heâs no longer heading towards your neighborhood.
âI canât do this anymore.â he says, his voice firm but tinged with exhaustion. His grip on the steering wheel tightens and his foot presses harder on the gas pedal, the car speeding up.
âJungkook, what are you doing?? Slow down !!â you demand, trying to mask the panic creeping into your voice. âWe need to talk.â he states simply, his eyes focused on the road ahead as if thereâs nothing else in the world but his determination.
Your breath catches in your throat, and your mind races. âJungkook, turn the car around.â you say firmly, though your voice wavers slightly.
But he doesnât listen. Instead, his jaw tightens, and the speed of the car increases further, the scenery outside blurring. Then it hits you... heâs heading in the direction towards his place.
âJungkookâŠâ you begin, your voice softer now, a mixture of anger and disbelief.
He doesnât answer this time, his silence carrying more weight than words ever could. His gaze remains locked forward, the muscles in his jaw ticking as if heâs trying to rein in the storm brewing within him.
You glance outside, feeling both trapped and helpless. Every instinct in you screams to argue, to demand that he stops, but a part of you... a small, stubborn part wonders what heâs so desperate to say.
After 10 tense minutes of silence, the car finally comes to a halt in front of Jungkook's building. He doesnât waste a second, stepping out of the car and slamming the door behind him. You watch him from the corner of your eye, your hands still gripping the purse on your lap, as he strides purposefully to your side of the car.
Before you can even process whatâs happening, he pulls the door open, and the chill of the night air sweeps over you, making you shiver. He leans down slightly, his dark eyes locking with yours, filled with an unrelenting determination that sends your heart racing.
âCome with me.â he says, his voice steady but soft as he extends a hand towards you. You stare at his hand, conflicted, the weight of the moment pressing down on your chest. You feel cornered, unable to escape this situation heâs forced you into.
âJungkookâŠâ you begin, but the words catch in your throat. He sighs, his shoulders sagging slightly, as if the plea in your voice strikes a chord in him. But before you can say anything else, he gently grabs your wrist. The touch is soft, hesitant, but thereâs an urgency to his movements as he guides you out of the car.
You stumble slightly, your body still resistant, but he steadies you with a firm yet careful grip. Heâs desperate, you can see it in the way his brows furrow, the way his lips press into a thin line as if heâs barely holding himself together. âJungkook, I...â you breathe out, the words getting stuck in your throat.
âJust⊠please.â he interrupts, his voice raw with emotion. âI just wanna talk.... Please.â
His eyes search yours, and you can feel the ache in them, the unspoken pain heâs been carrying. Your chest tightens, and for a moment, youâre frozen, unable to say no, unable to pull away. He doesnât give you a chance to argue further, his hand slipping from your wrist to your hand, his fingers curling around yours as he gently but firmly leads you towards his house.
You let out a shaky breath, the weight of the moment heavy in the air as you reluctantly follow him.
As Jungkook shuts the door to his apartment, the click echoes in the silence. He turns to face you, his eyes soft but piercing, like heâs searching for something heâs desperate to find.
âY/n.â he says, your name rolling off his tongue like a plea.
You try to avoid his gaze, looking anywhere but at him, but then his hands come up to cup your face, his warmth grounding you in a way that sends a pang through your chest. His touch is gentle, yet insistent, as if heâs afraid youâll disappear if he lets go.
âY/n, please.â he murmurs, his voice trembling. âJust talk to me.â
Your breath hitches, and you instinctively step back, only to feel the cool, unyielding wall against your back. Youâre cornered... literally and emotionally... and the weight of the moment bears down on you.
Your emotions, so carefully locked away, begin to bubble to the surface. Anger, regret, frustration, they all swirl together, threatening to consume you. Gritting your teeth, you grab his wrists and pull his hands away from your face.
âJust leave me alone.â you choke out, your voice breaking. The tears that have been fighting to escape finally spill over, cascading down your cheeks. Before you know it, youâre sobbing uncontrollably, your body trembling as the dam holding back your emotions shatters.
Jungkookâs eyes widen in shock as he watches you unravel before him. His heart clenches painfully at the sight of your tears, the sound of your sobs cutting through him like a knife. He steps closer instinctively, his hands hovering uncertainly as if unsure whether to comfort you or give you space.
âY/nâŠâ he begins, his voice soft and hesitant, but you shake your head violently, interrupting him.
âYou canât do this, Jungkook.â you cry out, your voice trembling with frustration. âAfter everything I did to cut you off⊠you canât just... just pull me back like this.â
Your words hit him like a blow, and he takes a shaky step back, his eyes glistening with unshed tears.
âDo you think this is easy for me?â he finally says, his voice breaking. âI didnât want to pull you back, Y/n. But how am I supposed to let you go when I donât even understand why you left?â
His words hang in the air, and you stare at him through your blurry vision, your heart pounding as his pain intertwines with yours. Youâre both standing on the edge of a precipice, the weight of your shared history threatening to pull you under.
The air between you feels heavy, thick with emotions neither of you can control anymore. Jungkookâs gaze locks onto your tear-streaked face, his breathing shallow as he watches the pain and turmoil in your eyes. Something inside him snaps, and before he can stop himself, he takes a step forward, closing the distance between you.
His hands cradle your face, trembling slightly, as he leans in and harshly presses his lips against yours. Itâs desperate, unrestrained, and raw. The suddenness of it makes you gasp, your breath hitching as his lips move against yours, pouring every unspoken word, every unanswered question into the kiss.
Your eyes flutter shut, and for a moment, your mind is overwhelmed by the flood of memories... his laugh, his touch, the way he used to make you feel like you were the only person that mattered. But as much as the kiss ignites a fire inside you, your tears donât stop.
Jungkook feels the wetness of your tears against his palms, and it pulls him back abruptly. He steps away, his face etched with regret and panic, as if realizing he may have crossed a line he shouldnât have.
âI... Iâm sorry.â he stammers, his voice shaking as he searches your face. âI shouldnât haveââ
Before he can finish, you grab the front of his shirt and pull him back towards you, your lips colliding with his in a kiss thatâs equally urgent and desperate. Your hands clutch onto him like heâs the only thing anchoring you to reality, and this time, the weight of all the emotions youâve been holding back crashes into him.
Your kiss is messy, tinged with anger, longing, and sorrow, but itâs real. Itâs the connection youâve been denying for so long. Jungkook responds immediately, his arms wrapping around you, pulling you closer as if afraid youâll slip away again.
The world outside fades away, leaving only the two of you in this moment, grappling with the emotions youâve tried so hard to suppress.
Your lips never part, not even for a second, as you start pulling each otherâs clothes off, letting them fall to the ground one after the other. Every single article of clothing gets discarded in a trail leading from his door step to his living room.
The heat between you intensifies, growing hotter and wilder with every second. Itâs like youâve been starving for each other, for this moment, this connection for so long that now you canât help but devour each other.
You know you shouldn't be doing this. You know you can't face the consequences of your impulsive actions, but your heart refuses to let go. You're completely consumed by the passion and intensity of the kiss, unable to pull yourself away even when you have so much on the line.
Even as you walk into his apartment, your lips remain connected, your hands gripping his arms, holding onto him as if youâre afraid heâll disappear if you let go. The world spins around you as he picks up the pace, guiding you to the couch. Your feet brush against the soft carpet, sending shivers up your leg, and before you know it, you feel the cushion behind you.
The feeling of Jungkook on top of you is nothing less than heaven. You run your hands up and down his tattooed arm, feeling the way his muscles tense with each touch. His kisses trail down your neck, making you squirm under him.
âFuck...â he murmurs, his breath hot against your skin as he takes off your bra in a swift motion.
He groans softly, his eyes wide as they drink in the sight of you beneath him. Then his gaze falls to your collarbone, lingering on the familiar pendant resting against your skin.
"The... necklace." he notices, his fingers reaching out to brush it gently. His touch is reverent, almost hesitant, as if the small piece of jewelry holds all the words he canât say. He looks up into your eyes, a subtle smile curving his lips.
"You... you never took it off?" he asks, his voice laced with slight disbelief.
"Never." you affirm softly, your voice steady yet tender. His eyes soften, glimmering with emotions too deep for words, and for a moment, it feels as if the necklace is the silent thread that has always held your hearts together.
âIâŠâ his voice trails, and you can tell heâs struggling to find the right words. âI fucking missed you.â he breathes out and without giving you a chance to respond, he leans down and presses his lips to your chest.
You let out a moan as he starts sucking on the skin between your breasts, and your hips squirm beneath him. âKookâŠâ you gasp as his mouth closes around one of your nipples, making you arch your back. He bites down gently, and you can't help but cry out in pleasure.
You can feel his body shaking on top of you, the desperation to get closer to you is so so evident. His hand slides up your leg and rests at your waist before slipping under your back, lifting your hips to meet his. The kiss that follows is sweet and gentle, like heâs trying to apologize for everything thatâs happened between you, even when it's not his fault.
Your hands move to his hair, twisting into the dark strands as you pull him even closer. You canât stop yourself, you canât resist him anymore. The feeling, the warmth, the electricity, itâs too hard to fight. Your body is craving his, and heâs giving you all the affection youâve been craving for these past four dreadful months.
His lips trail down your body, stopping at the spot between your legs as he slides your underwear down your legs. You gasp as you watch him dip his head, the warmth of his tongue circling your clit. Your hands grip the couch, and your body arches in reaction to the pleasure heâs sending through your body.
âFuck.â you gasp, barely able to string the words together as he presses his face between your legs. Jungkook moans, his tongue licking around your clit in firm, steady strokes. Your hands move from the couch to his shoulders, pushing him further between your legs.
He looks up at you, his eyes filled with hunger and desire, his chin wet from your arousal, as he grips your hips and pulls you closer. He buries his tongue as deep as it can go, causing your body to jerk in reaction.
You cry out his name, your voice hoarse as your hands grip his hair. Jungkook feels himself get harder as he flattens his tongue, applying pressure to your clit. âFuck⊠please... please Kook... donât stop.â you beg as he licks you faster, your hips rocking against his face.
Your moans echo through the empty apartment as Jungkook works you closer and closer to release. When he stops sucking your clit and presses his tongue deep inside of you instead, you lose it, your orgasm washing over you in waves.
You canât do anything but lay there and take it, your legs shaking and twitching around his face as your body convulses with pleasure.
He kisses his way up your body, licking the sweat from your skin before he finally reaches your lips. The taste of your arousal on his lips sends heat through you, and you moan as his tongue enters your mouth.
Your tears are back, running down your cheeks as you try to process the moment. Jungkook pulls away from your lips and places his forehead against yours. His thumb softly wipes your tears away, as he tries to process this surreal moment himself.
âFuck...â he whispers as he slowly rubs his length against your core, sending sparks through your body. You feel the warmth of his skin against yours... your bodies pressed together in a way you can't comprehend.
âI... I need you baby....â Jungkook murmurs against your lips, his length rubbing against you. You breathe heavily as you nod, wanting him to just take you right here, right now.
With one swift motion, he pushes himself inside you, filling you completely. Your lips part as you take in the feeling of being stretched out by him.
Jungkook stills for a moment, taking in the feeling of finally being back inside of you. He thought heâd never have you like this again, that heâd lost you forever, but here he is, buried deep inside your warmth. His eyes stare into yours, watching your chest heave up and down as you try to adjust to the feeling you had so deeply missed.
You stare into him, sniffling as your tears refuse to stop flowing. âI love you...â you hear him say as he leans forward again, capturing your wet lips in an urgent kiss.
As the kiss grows intense, he starts moving his hips, thrusting in and out of you in a slow and steady pace. Your hands grip his arms, digging your nails into his skin as you arch your back. Jungkook kisses you harder, his moans filling the air around you.
His movements are filled with need and longing, like heâs afraid this is the last time heâll get to make love to you. He wants to take in every moan, every thrust, every gasp he gets from you.
Youâre lost in the sensation, consumed by the pleasure Jungkook is giving you as his body moves over and into you. He holds you down, his weight pinning you to the couch as he makes love to you in his living room. You feel his hands gripping your hips, holding you in place as he thrusts deeper inside you.
Your legs wrap around his hips, pulling him closer as you gasp for air but his hands grip your legs, moving them up his body as he lifts your ankles to rest on his shoulders. The change of position causes him to slide deeper inside you, and you gasp as he hits a familiar spot inside and all you can see is stars.
âOh god....â you moan as he starts increasing his pace. Your lips part as the sensation washes over you. Jungkook leans down, pressing his lips to yours as he fucks you with reckless abandon. Heâs chasing his own release, but he wants you to come with him.
He thrusts into you over and over again, his hands gripping your waist as he holds himself up. Your hands are on his ass, pushing him closer, begging for more as he groans into your mouth.
Your moans fill the air as you feel your body build towards a second release. Jungkook feels it too, his pace picking up as he drives you over the edge once more. âIâm...I'm coming...â you cry, your nails digging into his skin.
Jungkook groans in response, his thrusts becoming wild and desperate. He fucks you like he canât get enough, like heâll never get to have you again.
You moan into his mouth as your orgasm washes over you once more. Your body convulses under him, and you canât do anything but let it take you over. Jungkook grunts, his body shaking above you as he chases his own release.
âFuck baby...â he groans as he fills you up and collapses on top of you his body shuddering and his hips thrusting into you a few more times, stretching out his orgasm as much as he can. Your arms wrap around him, holding him close as you take in the warmth of his body against yours.
Jungkook presses a tender kiss to your shoulder, the gesture carrying a weight of emotions he canât put into words. The moment feels surreal, almost fragile, as if one wrong move could shatter it.
He never imagined heâd hold you like this again, the warmth of your presence grounding him in a reality he once thought heâd lost forever. To him, this feels like a stolen dream... achingly beautiful, yet tinged with the fear that it might slip away.
He slowly rolls off you, settling beside you against the soft cushions of the couch. His arms wrap around you instinctively, holding you close as his eyes trace the lines of your face.
The exhaustion etched into your features tugs at his heart. His gaze drifts downward, gazing at the necklace around your neck. You didn't take it off and... that must mean something right? As he continues taking in the sight of you, he feels an overwhelming ache rise within him... he had missed you more than words could ever convey.
A thousand questions crowd his mind. He wants to speak, to ask, to understand, to unravel everything that had been left unsaid and find a way back to what you guys once were. But then he notices the way your eyelids flutter, heavy with weariness, and the soft, unsteady rhythm of your breaths as you try to calm yourself.
He swallows the urge to press for answers, deciding that for now, the questions can wait. Morning will come soon enough. Instead, he tightens his hold on you, his heart pounding in his chest as he silently wills himself to remain still. The warmth of your presence soothes him, and he closes his eyes, hoping that sleep will find him in the solace of this stolen moment.
//
Jungkook's eyebrows knit together in his sleep, a slight twitch running through his body as he shifts uncomfortably on the couch. His eyes flutter open, and he instinctively clutches the blanket against his chest. Blinking groggily, he glances around, the familiar sight of his apartment slowly coming into focus.
The realization that heâs on the couch sinks in, and like a tidal wave, the memory of last night crashes into him. His breath hitches, and he jolts upright, his heart pounding in his chest. Panic bubbles beneath the surface as he glances at the empty space behind him.
He looks down at the blanket draped over his body, a puzzled frown forming as he struggles to recall when or how it got there. His eyes dart around the room, searching for any sign of you, but the stillness of his apartment feels unnervingly hollow. The silence presses down on him, heavy and suffocating.
Rising to his feet, Jungkook starts moving through the apartment, his voice shaky as he calls out your name. "Y/N??" he tries again, his tone more urgent this time. But thereâs no answer.
Each step he takes only amplifies the sinking feeling in his chest. He checks the kitchen, the bathroom, his bedroom, even the balcony, but youâre nowhere to be found. His mind spirals, questioning if last night had been a cruel dream... a mirage conjured by his yearning.
Or had you truly been here, only to slip away quietly in the morning? The thought twists his stomach, leaving him nauseous as he leans against the wall, his hands trembling. Did he really lose you all over again?
Jungkook doesnât waste a second. His movements are frantic, hands fumbling as he pulls on his clothes in haste, not even bothering to smooth out the wrinkles. His mind is racing, each thought more urgent than the last. He grabs his keys and bolts out the door, the sound of it slamming shut echoing through the empty hallway.
His heart pounds as he throws himself into the driverâs seat, the familiar hum of the engine roaring to life beneath him. His knuckles whiten as he grips the steering wheel, the tension radiating through his body. His eyes burn with exhaustion, but the ache in his chest far outweighs it.
The city is still waking up, the roads bathed in the soft glow of the morning sun. Jungkook doesnât care. He presses harder on the accelerator, weaving through the sparse traffic with reckless determination. Every red light feels like a lifetime, every delay an unbearable agony.
He can't stop thinking about you. The way your touch felt like home, the way your lips trembled against his last night, and the way your tears spoke of everything you were too afraid to say. He canât let that go. He wonât.
The thought of losing you again, of waking up every morning knowing youâre out there but not by his side, terrifies him. Itâs a kind of pain he doesnât think he can survive twice.
As he nears your neighborhood, his pulse quickens. He doesnât know what heâll say, or how youâll react, but none of it matters. All he knows is that he needs you... more than air, more than anything.
Parking haphazardly in front of your house, he bolts towards your door, his heart hammering as he begins knocking. Thereâs no answer, and his anxiety only grows. He steps off your porch, wondering where you could be.
He rushes outside, reaching the pavement, desperately scanning the neighborhood, hoping to catch a glimpse of you somewhere.
He runs through the neighborhood, his heart pounding, the anxiety gnawing at him as he checks every corner, every familiar path, but you're nowhere to be seen. Yet, something inside him refuses to give up.
As he nears the park at the edge of the neighborhood, he slows down, taking a breath to steady himself. His eyes sweep over the quiet space, and in that moment, itâs as if time slows... until he sees you, sitting alone on a distant bench, your figure outlined against the soft glow of the morning light, looking smaller and more vulnerable than heâs ever seen you.
He wastes no time as he runs towards you, his footsteps growing louder as he approaches you, his figure growing more defined with every step. His heart is racing, not just from the frantic search, but from the sheer desperation to be close to you again, to make sure youâre okay.
You sit still, your eyes widening in disbelief as you realize heâs found you. A rush of emotions flood through you... surprise, guilt, and a wave of regret. You can't help but wonder how he managed to find you here.
You glance down, unable to meet his gaze as the memories of last night resurface. The vulnerability of the moment hits you hard. You had fled his apartment at dawn, unable to face him after everything. The way he had held you, the way everything felt so perfect in the heat of the moment... it scared you.
You knew you had no answers to his questions, no way to explain the reasons behind your past actions. And the truth? That was something you couldnât give him, not now, not when you have so much to lose. The only thing left for you to do was leave him behind and slip away like a coward, hoping he wouldnât follow.
But here he is, standing before you, his presence too much to ignore. You don't know whether to run again or finally face him.
Jungkookâs eyes are full of pain as he steps closer to you, his voice shaking with a mix of frustration and hurt. âYou left.â he breathes out, as if the weight of his words is too much to bear.
âWhy... why did you leave?â His voice cracks at the end, vulnerability spilling through in a way he canât control.
You try to look away, but his gaze pulls you in. The truth, too raw and too close to the surface, is something you canât escape. You can feel the crack in your heart widen with every passing second. "Jungkook... we're broken up." you whisper, barely meeting his eyes.
"No." he denies, the sharpness in his breath betraying the desperation in his chest. "Don't say that, especially after last night." His voice is pleading now, fragile, cracking in a way that shakes him to the core. His fists clench at his sides with the effort to keep himself together.
"How can you say that after everything? After what happened between us? How... can you just walk away like that? How can you pretend like... none of it mattered?"
He takes a step closer, his eyes burning with a need to understand, to hold on to the fragments of what he thought was still there. "The past four months... itâs been hell, Y/n. Iâve been drowning in this silence, wondering every day what went wrong. I never got an answer. You just... left. Without a word, without a valid reason. And I hate it. I hate that I donât know why. I hate that you just cut me off like I meant nothing. Like everything we had... it was all just a lie."
You look at him, the tears unknowingly streaming down your face. "Kook..." you start, but he cuts you off. "I tried to let go... I tried to make peace with it... but... but it hurts, Y/n. It hurts more than I can put into words, and I donât even know what I did wrong." he pauses, trying to calm himself down.
"I donât know what happened between us. Why did... why did you leave me? Why did you make me feel like I was nothing to you?" His voice cracks, the tears in his eyes threatening to spill over. You stare at him, the lump in your throat intensifying. "You... you were everything to me. I thought we had a future together, Y/n. But now, Iâm just... I'm just so lost.... I'm so lost without you."
Jungkook steps back for a moment, his hands running through his hair in frustration as he tries to make sense of it all. His breath is shallow, a quiet sob escaping him as he collects himself. "I need to know..." he mutters, barely audible. "Why? What... what happened? Please, just tell me."
He takes another shaky breath, the weight of his emotions almost unbearable. "Donât tell me... you stopped loving me." he pleads, his voice raw and desperate. "I know thatâs not true. I know you would never be so harsh to me." His words are laced with disbelief, as if heâs clinging to any shred of hope that thereâs something heâs missing, something he can grasp, something that makes sense.
âI can feel it, Y/n.â he continues softly, eyes never leaving yours, searching your face as if it holds the answers. âI know you love me. You canât just... stop. Not after everything we went through. Not after what we had.â He steps closer again, his heart aching at the thought of losing you. âSo donât tell me thatâs it. Donât tell me you just decided it was over.â
"I never stopped loving you." you whisper, your voice barely audible as hot tears continue to roll down your cheeks. The weight of your words feels like an anchor in your chest, heavy and suffocating. You feel weak, defeated... like thereâs no hope left.
The sight of him standing there, shivering in pain, breaks you in ways you didnât think were possible. His pain, the hurt youâve caused, fills you with an overwhelming sense of guilt.
Your heart aches as you watch the way his eyes fill with confusion and desperation, his hands trembling as he reaches out to you, as if just a touch could make everything okay. But you know, deep down, that nothing can probably fix this.
"I'm sorry." you whisper, barely able to get the words out. "I'm so sorry, Jungkook. I never wanted to hurt you." The tears flow freely now, staining your cheeks as you try to find the strength to speak, to explain, but the words feel stuck, trapped inside you.
As you break down, Jungkook takes a seat beside you as he hesitantly wraps his arms around you, pulling you close. You bury your face in his chest, the tears coming in waves, uncontrollable, as the weight of everything you've been holding in comes rushing to the surface.
His hands gently stroke your back, soothing you in a way that makes everything feel just a little more bearable. Every sob that wracks your body seems to break his heart a little more, but he doesnât pull away. Instead, he tightens his grip on you, as if reminding both of you that, for now, youâre not alone.
Jungkook feels his own tears begin to spill as he pulls you even closer, his heart breaking at the sight of your pain. His fingers tremble as they weave through your hair, trying to hold you as tightly as possible, as if he could absorb some of your sorrow.
The weight of the silence between you both is suffocating, but his mind races, desperately trying to understand why youâre in so much pain, why you had to leave him, why you feel so broken.
"Y/n..." His voice cracks, raw with emotion as he speaks your name. His chest tightens with the fear that maybe heâs never truly known the full story, that maybe everything he thought he understood was just an illusion.
His tears fall freely now, as he presses his forehead against yours, his breath shaky. "Please, just tell me. What happened?" His words are barely above a whisper, but they hold a desperate plea. "Why are you like this? What... what am I missing?"
His hands move to gently cup your face, his thumb brushing away the tears that continue to fall. Heâs not sure if heâs crying for the both of you or if heâs just so lost in your pain that it feels like itâs his own. "I canât lose you again, Y/n. I need to know... why we are the way we are right now. Please, just tell me. I canât fix it if I donât understand."
His grip on you tightens, the urgency in his voice rising as he gazes into your eyes, searching for some kind of answer, anything that will explain the devastation heâs feeling. His love for you is still so strong, so unyielding, but the fear of losing you completely is almost too much to bear.
Just as you're about to speak, your phone starts ringing, its shrill tone cutting through the heavy silence. You hesitate for a moment, unsure whether to pick it up, especially given the fragile state you're in right now. But the phone keeps ringing, insistent, and you feel a knot tighten in your stomach.
With a sniffle, you pull away from Jungkook, trying to compose yourself as you reach for your phone. "Just a minute..." you whisper, wiping away the last of your tears as you glance at the caller ID.
It's the hospital. Your heart skips a beat at the sight, and before you can think twice, you answer, trying to steady your voice. "Hello?"
"Am I speaking to Ms. Choi?" the voice on the other end asks. Your breath catches in your throat, and without a second thought, you stand up, your heart rate increasing with every passing second. "Yes, this is she." you reply, trying to keep your composure, but the panic is starting to rise in your chest.
Jungkook watches you intently, noticing the change in your expression as you stand up. His concern deepens as he observes the tension in your body. Who could be calling you at this hour? You grip the phone tighter as the voice on the other end continues speaking, but then you gasp, your breath coming in quick, shallow bursts.
He watches in horror as you suddenly collapse, your knees buckling beneath you. It's like all the strength has left your body. His instincts kick in immediately, and he's by your side in an instant, crouching down and reaching out for you.
His hands land gently on your shoulders as he pulls you towards him, trying to steady you. The phone slips from your grasp, clattering to the ground, but you donât seem to notice. Your eyes are wide, unblinking, and you stare ahead, lost in whatever news you've just received.
"Y/n... what happened? Are you okay?" Jungkook's voice is laced with worry, his hand moving to your cheek to check for any sign of awareness. You blink a few times, as if snapping back into reality, but itâs still hard to focus. Your lips tremble as you finally meet his eyes, and you whisper his name. "Jungkook..."
His heart races as he holds you tighter, desperate for you to continue. He nods, prompting you to keep talking. "Jungkook... Beomgyu... he... he woke up." you say.
"What...?" Jungkook asks, his voice laced with disbelief. His wide eyes search your face for confirmation, and when he sees the glimmer of truth in your tear-streaked expression, his features soften into a smile. "Y/n... that's... that's great news. That's... amazing news, baby." His voice wavers, a mix of relief and joy, and his smile grows wider.
You nod quickly, the reality of it hitting you all over again as fresh tears stream down your cheeks. "He's awake, Jungkook... he's really awake." you whisper, your voice trembling with a mixture of happiness and overwhelming emotion.
You pause, glancing around as you try to calm yourself down. "I need to go see him. I... I need to get to the... the hospital." you say hurriedly, the urgency in your tone impossible to miss.
Jungkook catches your arm gently but firmly, grounding you for a moment. "Hey, hey." he says softly, looking into your eyes with a steady calmness. "I'll take you there, yeah? My carâs parked right outside your house, so letâs go. Come on." he softly says as he helps you up.
//
You barge through the hospital doors, your steps quick and frantic, your heart racing as you navigate through the lobby. Jungkook follows close behind, his presence a comforting weight amidst the chaos swirling in your mind.
You reach the elevator and jab the button repeatedly, as though it might make the lift arrive faster. The ride up feels like an eternity, and yet, when the doors slide open, you're already bolting down the hallway towards Beomgyu's room.
Finally, you stand outside the door, your hand frozen on the handle. You take a shaky breath, trying to collect yourself, your chest rising and falling with the weight of four long years of waiting. Four years of imagining this moment, of rehearsing what youâd say, how youâd feel... but now, standing here, all those thoughts dissolve into a haze of indescribable emotion.
Jungkook steps beside you, his voice soft and steady as he whispers. "He's waiting for you, baby." His words calm you, giving you the courage you need to face whatâs on the other side of the door. You glance at him, his warm eyes filled with reassurance, and you nod, summoning the strength to push forward. With trembling hands, you carefully push the door open and step inside.
There he is. Beomgyu. Sitting up in bed, his back resting against the headboard, alive and awake. The sight is almost surreal, a moment that feels too precious to be real.
He looks at you with a lopsided grin, his expression as cheeky and familiar as ever. "Long time no see, Your Highness." he quips, his tone lighthearted and playful, as if the last four years hadn't just been wiped away by a miracle.
Your breath catches, a soft laugh escaping you as tears well up in your eyes again. "Beomgyu..." you whisper, your voice breaking. The weight of the years, the pain, the hope... all of it rushes to the surface as you step closer, overwhelmed by the reality of seeing him awake.
You rush to his side, tears streaming freely down your cheeks as you throw your arms around him in a tight embrace. The warmth of his body against yours is enough to break down every last wall you'd built over the years.
You remember all the times you'd playfully swatted him away, rolled your eyes, or made a face every time he tried to hug you because back then, you liked to act like showing affection to your sibling was embarrassing.
But right now, thereâs no hesitation, no second thought. Right now, youâve never felt more alive.
âI missed you.â you sob, your voice muffled against his shoulder as you clutch him like youâre afraid he might slip away again. The tears come harder as the realization sinks in that this moment is real. Heâs real. The long, agonizing wait is finally over.
Beomgyu chuckles softly, his voice steady yet laced with emotion. "Wow, I must really be a sight for sore eyes if youâre this clingy." he teases, though his arms wrap tightly around you, holding you just as fiercely. His familiar, playful tone only makes you cry harder.
"You idiot." you choke out, your voice trembling as you pull back just enough to look at him. Your hands cup his face, your thumbs brushing away the tears that now spill from his eyes too. "Donât you dare scare me like that ever again. Do you hear me? Never again."
His grin softens, and he nods, his own tears mirroring yours. "I promise." he whispers, his voice quieter, more solemn now. "Never again."
Jungkook lingers near the doorway, a soft smile playing on his lips as he watches the reunion unfold. The raw emotion in your embrace, the way you cling to Beomgyu like he might vanish if you let go... it stirs something deep within him.
He knows how long you've waited for this moment, how often you spoke of it with a mixture of hope and pain. Seeing you finally experience it makes his heart swell with happiness for you.
But then, Jungkook freezes as Beomgyu's gaze shifts towards him. His eyes widen slightly, realizing that this is the first time Beomgyu is seeing him.
âWhoâs... that?â Beomgyu asks, his voice curious but steady. His brows furrow slightly as he nods towards Jungkook. You turn to follow Beomgyuâs gaze, and when your eyes meet Jungkookâs, you canât help but smile.
âThatâs Jungkook.â you say softly, glancing back at your brother before looking at Jungkook again. Thereâs something tender in the way you say his name, something that makes Jungkookâs smile widen as he nods politely at Beomgyu.
Before anything else can be said, the doctor appears and Jungkook steps aside letting him in. âMs. Choi.â the doctor greets with a warm smile. âCongratulations. Itâs wonderful to see Beomgyu awake and responsive. However, weâll need to run a few tests now, just to check his overall condition.â
You nod understandingly, brushing a stray tear from your cheek as you stand. âOf course... thank you, doctor.â you say, turning back to Beomgyu. You lean down to place a soft kiss on his forehead, your smile filled with a quiet reassurance. âIâll be right outside, okay?â
Beomgyu nods, his grin still cheeky. âDonât disappear. I need you to explain who that guy is and why he was looking at you with literal heart eyes.â he teases, his playful tone making you chuckle as you shake your head.
You glance at Jungkook, whoâs scratching the back of his neck, looking a little flustered. âBehave.â you tell Beomgyu with a laugh before stepping outside with Jungkook, leaving your brother in the capable hands of the doctor.
As you settle into the metal chair right outside Beomgyu's room, beside Jungkook, the cold steel pressing against your back is a stark contrast to the warmth of his hand as it gently rests on your knee. His fingers squeeze lightly, offering some silent comfort.
You glance down at the way his hand fits so naturally on you and let out a small, tired smile. Placing your hand over his, your thumb begins to trace slow circles over his knuckles, grounding yourself in the quiet rhythm of the motion.
Your voice breaks the silence, soft but weighted. "Junghyun... he came to see me."
Jungkookâs brows knit together in confusion. âJunghyun? My brother?â he repeats, his tone disbelieving as he tries to process your words. You nod, your gaze shifting to the sterile white tiles of the hospital floor.
âFour months ago... he came to the kindergarten.â you admit, your voice faltering slightly. You exhale deeply, trying to steady yourself before diving into the painful memory.
The words spill out in fragments, raw and hesitant, as you recount the confrontation with Junghyun. You describe the way he appeared out of nowhere, his presence overbearing, his threats sharp and deliberate. You tell Jungkook how he used your brother's condition against you, twisting it into a weapon, leaving you cornered and helpless.
By the time you finish, the tension in Jungkookâs body is palpable. His jaw is clenched tight, and his fists curl against his knees. His breath is sharp as he mutters through gritted teeth, âThat motherfuckerâŠâ
His reaction makes your chest tighten, a mixture of relief and guilt washing over you. Heâs angry... angrier than youâve ever seen him but you know itâs not directed at you. Itâs the thought of his brotherâs cruel manipulation, the pain you endured in silence, that has his blood boiling.
"I'll be right back." Jungkook says firmly, already standing up and walking away with purpose. Panic rises in your chest as you quickly catch up to him, already guessing where heâs headed. "Jungkook, no... wait, stop." you plead, reaching out to grab his arm.
He stops abruptly, turning to face you and holding your shoulders gently but firmly. His dark eyes lock onto yours, filled with resolve. "Y/n, just trust me." he says, his voice steady yet reassuring. "He wonât be able to do anything. Iâll make sure... Iâll make sure you and Beomgyu are safe. I promise."
You open your mouth to protest, but he shakes his head, cutting you off before the words can escape. "I need to put him in his place." he breathes out, his jaw tightening. "He needs to know he canât talk to you like that. He needs to understand what you mean to me." His voice softens slightly, the tenderness in his gaze making your heart ache.
"Just stay here with Beomgyu." he continues, his tone resolute. "Iâll be back soon. I promise."
Before you can stop him, he steps closer, pressing a tender kiss on your forehead, his touch lingering like a silent vow. Then, without another word, he turns on his heels and strides down the hallway, his determination unwavering. You stand frozen, watching him disappear, the sound of his footsteps echoing in the quiet of the hospital.
//
Jungkook barges into his brother's home office, the door slamming against the wall with a loud bang. Junghyun glances up from his computer, a bemused expression on his face. "Oh, Jungkook? Didnât expect you to visit on a Sunday. What brings youâ"
His sentence is cut off abruptly as Jungkook strides over, grabbing his collar and yanking him to his feet. Before Junghyun can even process whatâs happening, a powerful punch lands squarely on his cheek. He stumbles back, clutching his face in shock, but Jungkook doesnât let him regain his footing.
With a growl of anger, Jungkook throws another punch, the impact snapping Junghyunâs head to the side. The metallic tang of blood fills the air as a crimson streak trickles from Junghyun's split lip.
"Jungkook!" Junghyun finally manages to shout, his voice laced with both pain and disbelief. "What the fuck are you doing?"
Jungkook doesnât respond immediately, his chest heaving as he towers over his brother. His fists clench and unclench, the anger rolling off him in waves. "Thatâs for threatening Y/n." he snarls, his voice dangerously low. "You think you can mess with her? Intimidate her like that? Not while Iâm here."
Junghyun glares at him, wiping the blood from his lip, his shock slowly giving way to a cold smirk. "So, this is about her?" he mutters, his tone mocking despite his obvious discomfort. "Youâre letting your emotions cloud your judgment, Jungkook. How pathetic."
But Jungkook doesnât flinch. Instead, he grabs Junghyun by the collar again, pulling him close. "Listen to me." he says through gritted teeth. "Stay away from her. If you ever even think about going near her or Beomgyu again, I swear, youâll regret it."
Jungkook lets go of Junghyun with a forceful shove, sending him sprawling back into his chair. "All this for a girl like her? Really Jungkook?" Junghyun scoffs, his tongue poking the inside of cheek. "You have no idea what she means to me." Jungkook says lowly, glaring at his brother.
Jungkookâs jaw tightens, his fists still clenched at his sides. His voice drops to a low, dangerous tone. "You have no idea what she means to me." he says, his glare unwavering. "And you never will."
Junghyun chuckles bitterly, his face twisted in disdain, but before he can retort, Jungkook steps closer, his presence commanding. "Do you think Dadâs going to be proud when he hears what youâve been up to?" Jungkook asks, his words sharp and deliberate.
Junghyunâs smirk falters ever so slightly. "You think heâll be okay with you going around threatening people? Manipulating them? Using fear to get your way?" Jungkook continues, his voice rising slightly. "Youâre the pathetic one, hyung."
He pauses, letting his words sink in, then laughs... a dry, humorless sound. "And you know whatâs really pathetic? That you thought I wouldnât find out. That you thought Iâd just let it slide."
Junghyunâs jaw tightens, his eyes narrowing, but he stays silent, his confidence clearly shaken. Jungkook steps back, his glare never leaving his brother. "This is your last warning. Stay away from her. Stay away from Beomgyu. Because if you donât..." He leans in slightly, his voice dropping to a menacing whisper. "You wonât just have Dad to deal with. Youâll have me."
Without waiting for a response, Jungkook straightens up and strides out of the office, slamming the door behind him, leaving Junghyun to stew in his own discomfort and rising dread.
//
As you help Beomgyu inside your house, he pauses for a moment, letting his eyes wander around the familiar space. His gaze lands on the corner of the room, behind the couch, and a smirk tugs at his lips. "You still haven't gotten rid of that weird vase?" he teases, pointing at the decorative piece.
You roll your eyes, shutting the door behind you. "That's never gonna happen." you reply with a shrug, playfully glaring at him.
He shakes his head in mock disapproval before taking a seat on the couch. The cold fabric causes him to shiver slightly, but he leans back, closing his eyes. "Well... it's good to be back." he murmurs, exhaling deeply.
You stand there for a moment, watching him. Your heart feels so full it could burst. It almost seems unreal... having him here, in your home, after all this time. "Let me cook you some jjajangmyeon." you suggest, breaking the silence.
His eyes snap open, a grin spreading across his face. "Oh my god, how did you know I was craving exactly that?" he asks, his tone amused. "It's a sibling thing." you reply with a wink, heading into the kitchen.
As you start preparing the ingredients, your thoughts inevitably drift to Jungkook, especially since you haven't heard from him ever since he left you at the hospital. You canât help but wonder how heâs handling the situation with Junghyun. The thought of it makes your stomach churn slightly, but you push the anxiety aside.
"So, whereâs your little boyfriend?" Beomgyu's voice interrupts your thoughts, his teasing tone carrying from the living room. A shy smile tugs at your lips, but you donât respond immediately. "Come on..." he continues, his footsteps drawing closer until heâs leaning casually against the kitchen counter.
"I was in a damn coma for four years, and my bitchless sister finally manages to pull someone, and I donât even get a proper introduction?"
You snort at his choice of words. "Oh, come on, Gyu." you reply, turning to face him with a mock exasperated look. "Iâll introduce you when the timeâs... right." He sighs, clearly unimpressed with your answer. "The timeâs right when I say it is." he quips, but his grin betrays the affection behind the teasing.
Beomgyu arches a brow at the sudden sound of the doorbell, his smirk widening with curiosity. "Is that who I think it is?" he quips, leaning back against the counter with an air of playful arrogance.
You glance at him, wide-eyed and suddenly flustered. You smile at him briefly before you quickly make your way to the door, your heart thudding in anticipation. The moment you open it, time seems to still. There stands Jungkook, bathed in the soft glow of the porch light, his presence radiating comfort and confidence. His smile is subtle yet powerful, a silent reassurance that everything is under control.
You step outside, quietly closing the door behind you, shielding the moment from your brother's prying gaze. You fidget with your fingers as words evade you. "So...?" you finally manage, your voice trailing off.
Jungkook doesnât answer immediately. Instead, he steps forward, closing the space between you. His arms encircle you in a gentle, protective embrace, his warmth instantly melting away your apprehensions. "I punched him." he says at last, his voice tinged with triumph.
Your eyes widen in surprise, and you pull back just enough to search his face. "What?" you ask, your voice rising an octave in disbelief.
"I punched him." he repeats, a satisfied grin tugging at his lips. "Right in the face. You shouldâve seen him... completely caught off guard. Like...there's no way he actually had the nerve to mess with my girl."
A mix of shock and amusement washes over you as you lightly smack his chest. "Jungkook! Thatâs not something to be proud of." you admonish, though the corners of your mouth twitch with an unwilling smile. "Violence isnât the answer."
His smirk deepens as he tilts his head, his dark eyes twinkling with mischief. "Oh, but in his case, it is."
You shake your head, exhaling a laugh despite yourself. "What am I gonna do with you?" you murmur, your tone caught between exasperation and fondness.
Jungkookâs expression softens, the teasing glimmer in his eyes replaced by an intensity that makes your breath hitch. "Y/N..." he begins, his voice low and steady. "You donât have to worry anymore. Iâll take care of everything... you, Beomgyu. Youâll both be safe. I promise."
His words hit you hard, the depth of his sincerity leaving you momentarily speechless. He steps even closer, his hands gently cupping your face as his thumbs brush against your cheeks. "I promise you, no one will ever hurt you again. Not while Iâm here." he vows, his tone resolute, his gaze locking onto yours.
You nod, your chest swelling with a sense of safety you hadnât realized you were yearning for. "Just promise me..." he continues, his voice softening. "if anything ever happens again, youâll tell me. Right away. No hiding, no secrets."
A lump forms in your throat as you nod again, unable to find the words to express the gratitude and trust coursing through you. Jungkook smiles faintly, the tension easing from his features, and he pulls you into another embrace. His arms wrap around you like a fortress, his chin resting lightly atop your head.
"I missed you." you whisper, your voice muffled against his chest.
"I missed you too." he murmurs, his voice filled with emotion as he tightens his hold on you. "More than you know."
After a few long moments, you pull back, your eyes meeting his as the world seems to shrink down to just the two of you. His gaze flickers to your lips, and before you can even register it, he leans in, pressing a soft, lingering kiss to your lips.
The kiss is tender yet fervent, each movement brimming with unspoken emotions. You feel his love, his promise, and his unwavering devotion in the way his lips meld with yours, leaving no room for doubt that this is where you belong. The porch, the cool evening air, the distant sounds of the world... all of it fades into oblivion as you lose yourself in him.
It's as if a colossal weight has finally been lifted from your shoulders, allowing you to breathe freely for the first time in what feels like forever. In this fleeting, surreal moment, the world fades away, leaving only the steady rhythm of your heart and the warmth surrounding you.
Everything about this feels inexplicably right , the way he kisses you, the way his arms embrace you, the way his presence steadies your storm. You feel complete, as though the jagged pieces of your soul have found their perfect fit. You feel whole again.
"Umm, sooo sorry to interrupt the lovebirds." Beomgyuâs voice drawls out, cutting through the tender moment. You and Jungkook both pull apart and turn your heads sharply, only to see him mischievously peeking out of the window right beside the front door. âBut, Y/n, your brother, who just got out of a coma, is really, really hungry and would love for you to finish cooking the jjajangmyeon you promised him.â
You roll your eyes, a flush creeping up your cheeks as Jungkook stifles a laugh. "And, of course..." Beomgyu continues, his grin widening. âHeâd absolutely love to finally meet your boyfriend.â He emphasizes the last word, wagging his eyebrows dramatically at Jungkook, who chuckles deeply at your brother's antics.
You groan, covering your face in Jungkookâs chest as he wraps an arm protectively around you, his shoulders shaking with laughter. âGyu, youâre unbelievable.â you mumble, your voice muffled.
Beomgyu shrugs nonchalantly. âHey, priorities, okay? Food first, making out later.â he teases, shooting a mock salute before disappearing back into the house after shutting the window down.
Jungkook looks down at you, his smile soft and amused. âI like him.â he says with a chuckle. You pull back slightly, playfully glaring at him. âDonât encourage him.â you warn, though the smile tugging at your lips betrays your amusement.
âCome on.â Jungkook says, planting a quick kiss on your forehead. âLetâs go⊠we can't have your brother starving.â he says.
You laugh, grabbing his hand as the two of you step back inside. The warmth of your house envelops you, and for the first time in forever, you feel okay.
Beomgyuâs playful voice fills the air as he grins from the couch, the sibling bond you thought youâd lost now brighter than ever. Jungkook squeezes your hand, his steady presence a reminder that the hardest days are now way behind you.
In the kitchen, surrounded by laughter and the aroma of cooking, you glance at Jungkook. His soft smile says everything words canât, filling your heart with a quiet peace.
For the first time in months, youâre not just surviving... youâre actually living. With Beomgyu back where he belongs and Jungkook by your side, your heart feels complete, wrapped in the comforting truth that this... this is what home is meant to feel like.
âfin. ⥠â§âË â
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soft-tummy simon riley save me⊠cause you cannot look at that man and tell me he doesnât love to eat!! like, a constant snacker. and his heart absolutely swells when you indulge so heavily in his needs.
itâs practically his love language, to scarf down anything you put on the table in front of him, and you can certainly tell since now heâs not nearly in the same shape as he was when you found him.
he likes to think youâve fixed him in a way; spending his evenings cuddling in bed for hours on end with you, rather than heading to the gym for the second time that day to burn off dinner. thanking you for the savory meal with kisses all over instead of fighting off the impulse to purge his usual bland chicken breast and vegetables every night.
and it all hits him far, far deeper than just his gut; feeling it in his heart more than the soft layer of fat blanketing his tummy he has to see in the mirror every morning. just the fact that a sweet thing like you wants to take care of him, ensure he eats plentiful yet still healthy for his work, has him whipped. showering him with endless i love youâs and praising him all up and down until his cheeks tint a light, flustered pink and his dick gets achingly hard in his pants.
he wonât pretend the change was easy on him, seeing the clean-cut abs and fit appearance that made him feel young fade away the further you got into your relationship, but heâd also be a filthy liar if he said he didnât prefer the pros to his current build way more.
simon begins wearing shirts less around the house on his lazy days, at your lovely request of course, and it does feel quite freeing. especially when heâs able to come up behind you in the kitchen, cage you in with his burly arms, bend you over the counter and fuck you senseless because part of the deal was that his shirts would go to you, and with nothing but your lace panties on underneath.
he canât help but get riled up seeing you walk around like that, and youâre no saint either when you catch a glimpse of his broad chest and relaxed, pillowy belly as he reads the morning newspaper. you tend to drop to your knees and tug at his boxers faster than he can even greet you properly, showing him just how much you love him.
he loves eating you out more than anything, especially with a full tummy after a late meal. youâll take his and your empty plates to the kitchen to clean up, but youâre being bent over the counter before you can even wipe it down!! and squealing his name in surprise wonât stop him, nor will your giggles as heâs lifting the skirt of your dress to reveal your pretty ass, getting down on his knees and delving right in.
dragging his tongue through your drenched seam, grinning softly against your skin when you jolt and whine out of sensitivity. tongue-fucking your pretty, tight hole only for a moment before heâs returning to messily play with your swollen clit.
and you just know itâs entirely selfish, simon not even paying mind to the way your legs shake and relentlessly convulse and you can barely stay still because his stubble is unceasingly tickling your inner thighs. making you cum until you canât anymore, and heâs happily forced to carry your numbed, twitchy body to bed so you can catch your breath and rest while he finishes up the chores.
would probably send you off by say something clichĂ© about you being his favorite dessert. heâs so stupid when heâs horny.
simon is weak for when you ride his stomach, with both his hands planted firmly on your hips as you rub your bare pussy back and forth on his hard abdomen. his hidden muscles become more apparent the longer you go at it and the harder he holds you down, little whimpers spilling from your puffy lips as the light hairs coating his tummy create just the perfect amount of friction to your poor, little clit for that hot, familiar sensation in your lower belly to bubble up.
your hands clawing at his chest and shoulders, leaving lines and crescent indents in his skin that soon turn red in their wake, and the pain only turns him on more, his cock excruciatingly hard, long hums of pleasure omitting straight from his throat as he grits his teeth.
âyeah, thatâs it, sweetheartâthereâs my dirty girl. jusâ keep goinâ for me now, donât stop⊠make yourself cum without me touchinâ you down there, ând then iâll fuck you real nicely after. alright, princess?â
and you soon follow through with just that, nodding decorously with tears welling at your eyesâ waterlines before youâre lurching forward, crying out his name. thighs giving out and fighting to ride out your orgasm, where simon then saves you with his attentive grip on your hips, finishing the job for you rather recklessly.
âgood fuckinâ girl⊠yâdid so well for me, love,â and every other gruff, dragged word of praise in his vocabulary echos in your fuzzy mind as you come down from your high.
youâre still catching your breath, fulling laying on his chest by the time heâs inching you backwards whilst taking his hard dick out from his boxers. lifting your weak hips for you as he whispers small, reassuring hushes right by your ear, soothing your winces as he fully sheathes you on his thick cock, inch by fucking inch.
he fucks himself up into you, not daring to make you overwork your body anymore, and he handles you so delicately you could almost fall asleep on his mattress of a body. you crumble to pieces with the vibrations of his chest from his unending groaning, the feeling of his veiny and rough cock stretching and filling you to the brim almost becoming minute compared to the sleepiness washing over you.
âthere ya go, pretty⊠donât haveâta do any work now, jusâ like i promised, eh?â he coos, and he could feel you smiling against his collarbone. one of his large hands cradles the back of your head while the other gropes at your ass lovingly. âtakinâ me just fine, sweet girl.â
you bury your heated face into his squishy pectoral, whining at the overstimulation to your clit at the particular angle, left so utterly sensitive from your prior orgasm. youâre limp in his strong hold, securer than ever as he lifts your hips up and down his thick cock.
he uses your tender cunt âtil heâs satisfied, groaning right up against your ticklish ear when he empties his hot cum in your throbbing pussy, the perfect thing milking him dry and turning you exhausted.
he actually sits in the moment for a peaceful while, coddling you against his rising and falling chest and murmuring sweet praises, until eventually his disciplined brain kicks in despite your protests.
âdonât go passinâ out on me yet, sweetheart.â you grumble out a refusing noise which makes him laugh softly, but apparently itâs not enough to win him over. âletâs go get you cleaned up, yeah?â
(simon and his size difference & free use kinks go CRAZY in this one. also this instagram reel is so him coded ok bye bye <3 cont.)
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never ending night
bruce wayne x femwife!reader
word count: 1.7k | divider by @saradika | requests are open!
CW: pregnancy, pure fluff NOTES: hello hi iâm ailĂs and iâve been meaning to start a blog where i can post some one shots that iâve been thinking of as a way to motivate myself to finally write down my ideas so this is it. iâll be double posting my stuff on ao3 (which you can find in my bio) and will eventually make a masterlist as well as a navigation post with a list of fandoms/characters i write for. also, english isnât my first language.
It was close to three in the morning when Bruce finally joined you in bed after a long night of patrolling and fighting bottom of the barrel criminals all night. He showered in the bathroom on the first floor of the manor to avoid making too much noise and waking you up, but when he finally walked in your shared bedroom, you were already awake, sitting up against the headboard.
âDarling, what are you doing still up?â Bruce asked you as he reached his side of the bed.
The room was dark par for the moonlight filtering through the gap between the curtains, meaning your husband had yet to notice the state you were in.
âDick had a nightmare,â you answered, voice barely above a whisper due to how tired you were. âIt took me two hours to get him to fall back asleep and when I finally came back here, this little one started kickboxing me and keeping me awake for another hour,â you continued rubbing your round belly in hopes of soothing your baby to finally catch some sleep.
âIâm sorry I wasn't here to help,â Bruce apologised, planting a kiss on your temple as he held you close to his body.
âItâs alright, Gotham needs you,â you dismissed, not at all angry.
âStill, youâre six months pregnant. Youâre growing our child inside your body, you need all the rest you can get,â he softly argued. âI would've come home earlier but all the amateur criminals came out tonight.â
âBruce, itâs fine,â you brought your hand up to his cheek and he leaned his head into your touch. âYouâve already been cutting your patrols shorter since we found out about the baby. As long as you keep coming back home to us, alive, then Iâm not mad.â
Not knowing what to say â his gratefulness for having someone so accepting of his duty as Batman was almost overwhelming, even after all those years â Bruce kissed your palm while staring at you with the same look full of love that he has been sporting since the first time he met you six years ago.
âHowâd I get so lucky to fall in love with the most understanding and selfless person I know?â He asked while grabbing your hand on his cheek, wrapping his fingers around yours and squeezing them gently.
âNow thatâs a lie,â you rebutted, a loving smile on your lips, lowering your joined hands on the bed. âYouâre more selfless than I am. Youâre the most selfless man in the world.â
âLetâs not start this never ending argument again,â Bruce chuckled, now his turn to hold your face as he brought you in for a kiss.
You happily sighed against his lips, the feeling of home that overtook you every time you tasted them was a nice welcome in this interminable night. But the kiss was cut short as you felt your baby kick again and you let your head fall back as you groaned.
âSheâs still kicking?â Bruce asked you, he couldn't see the movements under your skin due to the darkness of the room and your hand on your belly.
âWe don't know it's a she,â you reminded him instead of answering. You had both decided to wait until the birth to know the gender.
âAnd Iâm telling you, I know it's a girl,â your husband repeated for what could be the hundredth time.
You also secretly hoped it was a girl, but Dick really wanted a little brother. Bruce and you were still in the process of warming him up to the idea of a little sister and it was slowly starting to work.
âAs long as she doesn't come in my room,â your eight year old son had said last week, with his arms crossed over his chest and a pout on his lips.
âI doubt sheâll be doing that for the first few years, chum,â Bruce reassured him, fighting off a slightly amused grin.
âAnd the baby will have its own room with its own toys,â you added.
âWill I still be able to play with the baby?â Dick asked after a moment, uncrossing his arms and a hopeful look filling up his blue eyes.
âOf course you will, bubs,â you said, your fingers threading through his black hair that fell over his forehead.
âBut only with her toys at first, some of yours are not suited for a baby,â Bruce pointed out, ever the overprotective father.
Bruce had lowered himself down under the blanket so he could be laying head levelled with your belly, his hand now replacing yours over the bump.
âHey trouble,â he whispered to your child and the baby kicked again, making him smile lovingly at the movement he felt under his hand. âYou shouldn't be awake this late at night, you know.â
âYou're one to talk,â you commented, tone almost reprimanding.
âShe doesn't know that,â Bruce looked up at you as he defended himself before his gaze fell back on your belly. âMommy is really tired,â he continued talking to your baby, his hand now rubbing soothingly over your round stomach, âand she needs her rest to do all the work so you can come out all healthy and beautiful. Well, you're definitely gonna be the most beautiful baby if you end up looking like your mother, but that's not the point.â
You smiled at the cheesy comment and your fingers found their place in Bruceâs hair, brushing through it and nails occasionally scratching his scalp.
âYour brother Dick can't wait for you to come around,â he carried on. âSaid he will teach you all sorts of acrobatic tricks once you know how to walk. And he asked Alfred if he could help paint the nursery when we finally decide on a colour.â
âAnd I keep telling you we should do soft green,â you argued.
âIâm not changing my mind from primrose pink,â he told you with a sly grin.
âThe room wonât be pink, even if itâs a girl. And thatâs final,â you firmly said. Your husband will not be winning this one argument, no sir.
Bruce sighed, rolling his eyes before focusing back on your belly. âI hope youâre not as stubborn as your mother,â he whispered to the baby, as if he was having a private conversation with them and that you werenât there. âDonât get me wrong, itâs one of the many reasons why I fell in love with her, but I wonât be able to say no to you even when I have to, so it would save me a lot of reprimanding from Mommy if youâre not as tenacious as her.â
You smiled to yourself as you continued listening to your husband talk to your unborn child as you threaded your fingers through his hair, enjoying the softness it had after a shower. Bruce usually gelled his hair to appear more professional when he was working in the day, and then it would get all mixed up with his sweat under his cowl when he was working as Batman. When he would come back to you after the day was over, you would refuse to touch his hair until he had showered, the texture of the gel and sweat too gross on your fingers for you to ignore.
As Bruce continued talking to your baby, his voice started lulling the two of you to sleep. The baby hadnât kicked in over almost ten minutes now, and the peace you had waited for so long to arrive made you aware of how heavy your eyelids were. You slowly lowered yourself down the bed, getting in a comfortable position with Bruceâs help where you could finally lay your head on your pillow and it didnât take long for sleep to catch up on you.
At the sound of your soft, barely audible snores, Bruce turned his head away from your bump to find you asleep with your free hand raised next to your head on your pillow, the other one still tangled in his hair.
He planted a soft kiss on the exposed skin of your belly, eyes closed as he took a moment to absorb the fact that a baby that was half you and half him would be joining your world in a little more than three months. Bruce wasn't known to cry, the only time you ever saw him cry was as you walked down the aisle at your wedding, but tonight, a lonesome tear rolled down his cheek and fell on your stomach, where your child was growing, because Bruce never believed he would ever get to experience again the amount of love he hadn't felt since he was eight years old.
As he observed you, sleeping soundly with his child coming to life inside you, after you comforted Dick back to sleep, Bruce, for a moment, felt overwhelmed by all the love in his life. When he became Batman, he crossed out the idea of ever having a family (other than Alfred), of settling down with someone he loved and who loved him back.
But somehow, the universe put you on his path, as a miracle or a guardian angel or simply as an anchor to life outside of Batman, he didn't know. You walked into his home, into his life, to remind him that he, Bruce Wayne, was also deserving of love, of family, of happiness. Then Dick came along, rather unexpectedly but still no less welcomed, and Bruce started entertaining the idea of having children with you. He definitely wasn't opposed to it, but it wasn't something he wanted to jump right into, especially with Dick having just entered your lives. You were both young, he in his early thirties and you in your late twenties, you could allow yourselves a couple of years just the three of you (four with Alfred) before expanding the family.
So it was rather shocking when two months after you and Bruce had officially adopted Dick that you found out you were pregnant. It both took you by surprise but after talking through it together, you couldn't be happier. And the two of you haven't stopped being happy about this new little addition ever since.
Bruce rose up from his position next to your belly, your limp hand fell from his head as he did so, and he laid on the bed next to you. He delicately kissed your forehead, then your nose before falling back on his pillow and whispered âI love youâ as he curled around your body, his hand resting on your belly as he fell asleep.
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