#ariestag

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BEHOLD! I HAVE MADE A SHRIMP!

It's name is Scampi

EDIT: Pattern by gheebeanscrafty

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Im on the fence about it leaning towards yes but then i get tired and down and go "nah why bother"

Would kinda be in honor of one of my deities tho

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Sometimes, you feel like a gherk 🥒

Made using a pattern from YouTube. Used a different tutorial for the detailing around the eyes. Stem was added to use up a little scrap I had from trying to figure out what colors to use around the eyes. Used a lighter to to seal the ends of the stem so they don't shed!

Edit: also this little fella's got some knot magic stuffed inside him cuz i need a little boost rn

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I need something good to happen to me. I don't mean the kind of good where you look back on it and go "oh yeah that was nice" or trying to find joy in the little things. I mean the "big" kind of good. So good it's unquestionable. I try so hard and care so much and for what? Why? Why am I still hoping? Why am I still caring? I always end up caring more about people than they do about me.

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Scampi's all bundled up for cold!

(Holy fuck was that yarn hard to work with; couldn't see shit and had to use like a billion stitch markers.)

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Why do i even bother trying to help these people? Nobody listens. Nobody cares. I just get yelled at and end up crying on the floor.

Not helping my dad with jack shit anymore with health stuff. Don't say that I'm doing a good job and then yell at me for doing it you fucking asshole.

I deserve better than this.

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Scampi riding copilot from my change cup

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Leaving behind ignoring my inuition and the nasty habit of kicking myself while I'm down

2023 Bucket

This is a bucket. Anything you don't want to take with you into 2024, feel free to drop it in the bucket. I will be burning the contents (with Hellfire) at exactly 11:59pm on New Year's Eve.

You don't have to type anything, at all. Just reblog the bucket and your intentions will be known by the universe. Or the bucket. Or whatever you like.

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Caretaker life stressin me out

Newly realized neurodivergent life stressin me out

"Does he even/did he ever think about me at all" life followed by the spirit guide message "you know he fucking does just be patient and let him figure out his shit" life stressin me out

Hello from my living room floor

Also, cats

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Ngl, kinda afraid to go to sleep tonight. Got woke up 3 different times by nightmares last night. They did get progressively less terrifying at least but still. 1st one was something like being in a weird slasher/saw movie and it kept shifting viewpoints from being in the thing to watching it like a tv show. 2nd was being stuck in like a giant spiderweb. 3rd was like "ok, bitch, your car didnt turn off right but you cant turn it back on all the way and it wont turn off the rest of the way so youre just stuck there in your driveway with it half running while being ""off"" and your mom needs something and do you remember that friend you had that you knew since you were 7 and he was like a brother to you but he decided he'd rather cut you off than take accountability for his actions hurting people including you and you havent heard from him since 2019??? Yeah he's here too"

Tbh i really havent slept well at all this week. Been waking up from weird dreams this whole time but last night was definitely the dooziest.

Kinda surprised none of them have been about D. Spend enough time thinking about him while im awake that the dream operators want new material i guess.

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I need a hug.

And I wanna get a tattoo.

The planetary symbol for Mercury

Maybe on the back of my neck?

Idk. Probably not gonna actually get it.

Or that hug.

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Me.

Possibly the most inexplicable thing I've ever come across at a thrift store. It appears to be a unicorn with a broken off horn being ridden by a gnome wielding a broken pistol and holding a kitten?? Who is this for!

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Me: *sends a picture of the pickle i crocheted in one day because im reaaaaaaallllllly going through it right now and it's my only escape to the person that made a spinster joke while i was talking about yarn months ago*

Her: "lol it looks like a wiener with eyes"

Me: .........right....this is part of why i stopped talking to her wasn't it?

Don't make jokes about what people enjoy doing to express themselves artistically, huh? Gods, she's such a bitch.

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Got Scampi its own little tub instead of having to get scrunched in the fidget toy basket 🦐

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Today's tarot pulls.

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How do you let go without feeling empty? How do you let go but still hold onto hope? How do you let go and just trust that the universe has your back when nothing else has ever seemed to work out for you?

I don't know and it hurts but if it's what I have to do then I guess I'll do it.