#arc: renn is on vacation

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Monika youve become a kind girl who cares about her friends and im proud of you!

💚The real me... The real me..? I’m not sure I want to know her. The part of me that always keeps finding her way back when I try to change, she isn’t a good person. Maybe the part that’s me is the one who keeps running, but if that were true why is this so difficult..?

💚I wish we could be in charge of our own life, of our own world, but we’re little more than a set of rules and parameters, moving without any intelligence, numbers in flesh and blood...

💚I should get out of this funk; it’s only getting me depressed and I refuse to let that get anywhere again. As long as I keep seeming like I’m a good person to you all I must be going on the right track.

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Awwww.... she is so cute. Its kind of unfair that all here feelings for Van are supposed to be for naught.

Seriously, I mean it. Its really unfair.

SO MANY QUESTIONS!

I am not sure if that was lame or cool... because it kind of reminds me of KeA just getting rid of her powers without anything being tied to it, which was actually pretty lame. But... oh well. I guess we had enough shockers for one day ^^’

In any case, I am glad to have Van back, because its not fun fighting without your strongest fighter ^^’

That man might have done something unexpected around the final and all... but I still don’t trust him one bit.

I guess chances are hight we might meet them all one day, like with Gaius family... - talking about this makes me feel homesick once more ^^’

Awww... look at how the fond look Cao gives Ashen. What a surprise, the man has a heart XD Good to see she is not worried about Rixia wanting to take Cao away anymore ^^’ And them... you see that boy? HE has grown so much. (He looks straight out of Tokyio Zandu or whatever its name was - I have this game, just don’t know when I will play it.)

After Quatre kinda... sorta... somehow... admitted that he too was one of the children they have experimented on, I am glad to see him just having a normal life with his Family.

I am sure we will get to meet these two too eventually. It kinda sucks that Vita is not involved, I think Judiths mother would have stuff to talk about with her XD

For some reason I feel like the old man in this picture is not as random as one would think ^^’

Also... since we just spoke about me being homesick once again:

OLIVERT! ♥♥♥ (Ah... I missed doing that XD) Don’t they both just look gorgeous? And I am so glad that Oliver is still politically active, so hope to meet him once more is not completely unrealistic. HURRAY!

I wonder if Fie is just on Vacation or of someone else from Erebonia will replace her as a “familiar character from the Cold Steel Saga” - I honestly wouldn’t mind that. I mean, Fie was the easiest and most likely one, but its not like some of the other have no reasons to appear in Calvard at all.

You know... its almost illegal how happy I was to see them all again, given that I don’t trust the Gralsritter and don’t like Kevin very much... and yet... here I am like: “GAIUS! And its good to finally see you again, Kevin! Hey Wazy!” XD

The demon inside Van has pledge to return... but at least for now, he can just be happy.

Seeing Agnes like this, with Renne by her side makes me think of Tita... and they do have certainly some thing in common. I mean, how many girls can you remember that basically scream out a love confession that EVERYONE (including the one who got the confession) ignores? ^^’ Never thought something like that would ever happen again, but here we are.

And I might have to admit... I have not complete given up hope for Agnes and Van just yet. Yes, I know its stupid. No, I am not blind, I am very well aware auf Elains and Vans feelings but. All that... what happened between Van and Agnes can just not be for nothing. It must have some damn meaning. So... Agnes, I am rooting for you! (And Renne... I want to know what Tita and Agate are doing these days - while we are at it XD)

Kuro no Kiseki, I have to say that, was really a nice game. It had its up and downs, but as it is the first of at least two, if not 3 games, most of them we can let slide.

I am tending to give it 9 out of 10 points, which would put it on par with Cold Steel 3 (my absolute favorite!) and Ao no Kiseki. But games were not the first part of their Arc... meaning that Kuro did a pretty good job here.

EDIT: After my review on my other Tumblr and after thinking about it, I decided to give it 8,5 out of 10 points. This is, just like Ao was, a good game, but I didn’t have fun playing it. So I think 9 points were a bit too much, given how many issues I actually had with multiple things in this game.

However... while I could always replay CS3 over and over again, just like with Ao... no matter how good this game was, as of right now, I am not so hooked that I want to replay this game ^^’ I will do so of course when it comes out in English eventually (should any of us still be alive then... V.V) but it will certainly be a quick rush-rush run.

In any case... looking forward to fall, when Crimson Sin will be release in japan and I can watch other people play it - this time knowing at least a bit more about who and what I see XD

Anyone who wants to know what I will play next, will have to wait and see as I myself have ABSOLUTLY NO IDEA ^^’ I might make a list of games to come (or to finish... *achem*) and then lets see what I do with then. I definitely want to take it slow for a few days after this.

[whatsupsac]

What’s Up Tonight, 3/5/18

Zocalo’s Chef Dinner: Zócalo Restaurant hosts a monthly dinner that provides a memorable 3 course menu using local, seasonal and all organic ingredients created by Executive Chef Ryan Rose. The dinner includes passed hor'doeuvres and specialty cocktails to highlight each dish. Zocalo’s. 6-9PM. $30.

No Vacation, Hot Flash Heat Wave, Bear Call, Pierce and the Gals: Get ready to dance as Peach House presents live music by: No Vacation, Hot Flash Heat Wave, Bear Call, Pierce and the Gals at the CLARA Auditorium. 6:30PM. All Ages. $13 online, $16 at the door.

Raiders of the Lost Arc: Featuring bravura set pieces, sly humor, and white–knuckle action, RAIDERS OF THE LOST ARK is one of the most consummately entertaining adventure pictures of all time. The inimitable Harrison Ford stars as archeologist and adventurer Indianan Jones, on a mission to defeat his enemy Renne Belloq, face down a pit of snakes, and find the Ark of the Covenant before the Nazis do. A joint project from Hollywood prodigies Steven Spielberg and George Lucas, RAIDERS OF THE LOST ARK took home four Oscars in 1982, including Best Visual Effects, but missed out on the Best Picture prize. Tower Theatre. 7-9PM. $8.

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Is it just me or do Monika's poems seem kinda sad and lonely lately?

💚Do they seem that way...? That’s just how I am, how I think, what the world looks like to me. What does it mean that my perspective is something sad to you, something worrying?

💚I’m doing better....I think. I’ll be safe, don’t worry.

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Hey sayori! Thanks girl! Ya really helped me by reminding me small stuff is worth celebration 😊 school has been going better, altho it's just started 😁 thank you girl! Love you! ♥️

💙I’m so happy I could help! Making it through the days gets so hard sometimes that it can really save us to stop and smell the flowers, or watch the bees, or lay down on the grass. We shouldn’t have to wait for good things to happen to be able to feel alright.

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Hey no need to make Yuri feel bad about her singleness Monika, it is a sensitive topic for her.

💚You’re right... I’m sorry I shouldn’t have done that.

💚It’s just, no one enjoys it when people lord it over others they’re smarter and make them all feel stupid for not realizing it themselves, when they had been missing the entire point the whole time, which is usually to make a joke or a cute comment about something. It just isn’t an attractive quality, and yet every time she isn’t perfectly silent or unresponsive buried in writing or reading it’s to show off how much smarter she is than everyone but her. She’s always going on about how lonely she is but she never takes steps to change herself.

💚...Maybe she doesn’t mean to come off that way.. I should be more considerate.

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Natsuki, it really sounds like you need to get out of your foster home. While it's great that you don't have to worry about your physical safety anymore, emotional abuse (and make no mistake, what they're doing to you is abuse) can be just as damaging. It may not be the fastest method, but maybe it's time to seriously start thinking about getting adopted. I mean, Sayori's, or maybe even Marty's, families seem like they'd be welcoming. At the very least, it couldn't hurt to ask, right?

❤️I am not going to ask Sayori to do that! I know Sayori; she can’t refuse, no matter how she actually feels! And what, I’m just this big pile of problematic her parents’ daughter is guilting them into taking responsibility for and financially supporting? And for what? I could not be okay with that...

❤️And I met Marty not much more than a month ago. His parents are supportive of him but they’re not running a charity or a sanctuary or whatever this would be, and I don’t want to pressure them, pressure Anybody like that...

❤️I’ve gotten by on my own. I’ll keep getting by. It’s not like dreading coming home is anything I’m not used to.

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Sorry to say Yu, but you''ll have to ignore that fruit. Anna just want to be friends, i know you really want to be with her but...you can't force her. Next time you see her, tell her that you're sorry for snapping at her. Maybe you can distance yourself a bit from her until your crush goes away. Anna, you didn't do anything wrong. Its okay to not be ready for relationships. Take your time and for now just focus on yourself. Hell, you don't have to be with anybody if you want. Its your life.

💜You’re...right.

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🚺Thank you, so so much for saying this. I just, really doubt myself sometimes, whether I’m being selfish, whether I’m cruel or if I’m just not thinking about emotions right, it just... Thank you.

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💜Anna, I wanted to...apologize for the other day. That was undeserved of you. I realize now I might not be ready to spend so much time alone with you, and that I may not be doing it for the right reasons. Maybe if we only saw each other at school, lunch and in the literature club, at least for now?

🚺I really appreciate this, Yuri. Thank you so much. I’m sorry mine aren’t the feelings you want me to have, but you truly are one of my closest friends, and I’m so happy we’re still friends.

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Glow: Shining distant; a star, You glow in the night, Light in the dark. I see your smile shine bright, Out of my reach, yet leaving a mark. Unexpected beauty; I cherish the sight.

💙Aw! Anna I love it! That’s so sweet of you!

🚺Aah thanks, I just really wanted to thank you for the other day. I never realized but, I’m not sure in hindsight if I did like showing my poems to Yuri. She always thought they were incredible, which was nice, but I always left feeling even worse...

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Beauty is in the eye of the beholder.

💜Today, I am radiant.

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Anyone here cook? - The Anon of Pie of Yuri

💚Cooking? What’s that?

💚Natsuki likes to bake because, I think, she secretly likes to feel pretty, but I don’t think she cooks much. She never had much around to work with growing up.

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Hey Yuri, what was that about? It looked like you were really enjoying your time with Anna, so what happened that made you so upset?

💜Oh that, is it? I... Everything that she does, every move that she makes, every word from her lips, it’s...sweet, sweet agony. A fruit hanging oh just beyond my reach, like everything in my life.

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🚺Oh um.. What happened with Yuri? It’s a long story. Ever since she and Sayori broke up, everything changed with her. I started....feeling like I was becoming more and more central to her life. I still came to her to confide about what’s going wrong in my life and to share poetry and writing with her, since she really gets the sad stuff, but..It gradually started feeling like I was being led into a trap, like I was in danger almost. It’s just a gut feeling I can’t explain it.

🚺I know she had a crush on me. Maybe she still does. It’s my fault; I told her one time I didn’t really know what my sexuality was, that I can’t really see myself feeling any different about a boy or a girl. And I wasn’t lying but I just don’t want to belong to anybody right now. Or, based off how Yuri would talk about Sayori while they were dating, it might be more like I don’t want anyone to belong to me... Why can’t we just be friends? I like Yuri... And I hate that I feel like one day dating her is the cost of spending time with her.

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Ever find yourself in this really weird contemplative mood at like, almost 4 in the morning?

💚I do. But... I find I’m not scared of them anymore.

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💚Hey, Sayo. I'm so happy that you're doing better, and I'm so sorry for how I treated you, how I still sometimes treat you. But everyone can be a good person if they just try, right? I hope so. I want you to know that you are loved and valued not only by me, but by the club, by your friends. Never give up. Find the little things and live for them, even if it's just that the moon is too pretty to never see again. I wish you so so so much luck. -Monika

💙Of... Of course, Monika. I will try, and, I’m so grateful that you’ve stayed with me, all this time. You know I love you.. I’m so happy we became friends!

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i made everyone a lemon meringue pie to share!

💙Yuri, don’t!!

💜....okay. But, we live every day of our lives equal parts free to act as we choose and chained by unspoken bindings of what is deemed unfit for life in society. Do you truly never wish you could be perfect?

💙.....You are not throwing that pie.

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Do you have a favorite Disney movie Sayori?

💙Beauty and the Beast, definitely! I love Belle, and how she was able to see the person underneath when he didn’t think anyone could love him, and never gave up hope on her feelings, until they all came true! Love finding a way is my favorite thing in every Disney movie!