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ladyintree · 6 months ago

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it wouldn’t be the first time she lost it over a mere mention of mikayla— especially one like this, when she’s so easily painted as some kind of monster. she hates it, hates knowing that nothing she can say will ever convince people otherwise, because they’re too interested in their own narratives because they’re far more entertaining than knowing that the girl actually defended herself. but losing it over some man who clearly only wants the rise out of her isn’t going to do her or mikayla any favors— she just hates knowing that she’s already had to deal with him. as much as she hates this, as much as she wants to get away from him, she’d rather she dealt with him than mikayla had to. at least, clearly, mikayla got the last word— but tai still hates to think about what ideas he might’ve gotten in her head before that.

❝ manslaughter, ❞ she corrects with gritted teeth, her eyes narrowed in on him for a moment before she quickly looks away, because every time she defends mikayla, it just feels wrong— not in what she’s saying, but how she’s saying it without her here, because why is she the one defending her when she doesn’t even know what happened from mikayla’s perspective? that’s really all that matters to her, and yet, she doesn’t think she’ll ever get the chance to talk to her about it, because she won’t take it. she’s frustrated when he starts talking about mikayla’s life, because she’s so desperate to know about it, even though she doesn’t feel like she’s earned it. part of her doesn’t think she should allow herself any of it, but he’s here, dangling it in front of her. ❝ what the fuck do you know about her life? ❞ she dismisses, yet the question is still genuine— what does he know?

she scoffs, her hand dragging across her forehead in frustration, also an attempt to ignore the way her heart pounds in her chest. ❝ she’s not fucked up! ❞ she spits, louder now, and she tells herself she’d defend any of them the same way— but this one is too personal, it goes beyond just trying to protect them the way she swore she would. mikayla had no one to defend her when she was a child, a thought that haunted tai when they were together, making her even more desperate to give her that safe place in the worst of places— but she couldn’t do anything for her on the other side, and she’s never stopped regretting it. she just can’t let herself dwell, either, because that’s how she gets stuck. he says her name and it feels worse than any pain she’s endured before— worse than a plane crash, than the concussion that came with it, than the starvation and exhaustion she experienced for months.

she can feel her eyes desperate to well up, but she refuses to give him the satisfaction, clenching her jaw hard and tilting her head up the way she’s trained herself to do whenever conversations about her past started to weigh on her. her name doesn’t deserve to be in his mouth— but it doesn’t deserve to be in hers, either, she knows. ❝ she’s not fucked up, ❞ she repeats, this time forcing her voice to be calmer. ❝ her dad was a piece of shit who— ❞ got what he deserved. but even though she knows that’s the truth, she knows she has to be careful with the way she talks to strangers— they’re all so quick to twist the survivors’ words any chance they get, so she collects herself with a huff and shakes her head. ❝ — she defended herself. that’s it. seems like you and her father have something in common. ❞ they deserved mikayla’s beating.

she scoffs, and for a moment, an amused smile tugs at her face— but it’s empty, filled with frustration more than anything. ❝ you don’t seem like someone who plays nice with strangers, ❞ she points out, her head nodding to their current predicament. he goes on, and she nearly freezes again. it gives her a chill, thinking about mikayla there, like that. she once told her she deserved so much more than she had, that she could make something of herself someday— but now what does mikayla think? ❝ you’re not her fucking type. did you touch her? ❞ she asks as an accusation— no wonder she punched you. ❝ where— what bar? ❞ she blurts before she can stop herself. she doesn’t want to know, because she doesn’t want that information stuck in her head, doesn't want to be tempted, but how could she not ask? ❝ you didn’t get her fired, did you? pigs like you in there, you’re probably not the first one they’ve wanted to punch, ❞ she says, dismissing it as something that any waitress would do with anyone there— because clearly, he’s already decided that mikayla’s awful, but she’s still not accepting that.

he knows he's being a nuisance, and years ago, he would have cared. years ago, he wouldn't have approached her at all, and if he had, he sure as fuck wouldn't have brought up what happened to her and her team— but he's a different man now, one who finds entertainment in interactions like this, making people uncomfortable. that's what resulted him in leaving that bar with a broken nose last week, and it's not that he hasn't learned better: he just doesn't care.

“ probably did, but something tells me she doesn't want another murder charge under her belt. ” that charge is what intrigued him the most about that survivor in particular, though not for the same reasons as most people. most people are nosy, bored— he was interested in mikayla desousa because that could have easily been him: arrested for killing his family, nobody believing that he didn't mean to do it, that he didn't want them dead, the rest of the world seeing him as a monster. the only difference is, he doubts he would have gotten out so soon. “ her life seems shitty enough as it is. ” she looked miserable, though not enough for ace to actually pity her for it; he'd need to be capable of sympathy for that.

he's amused when she claims not to know who he's talking about, because who the fuck else would it be? he doesn't actually know enough about any of the others to realize if there's other possibilities or not. “ come on, don't play dumb. you know who i'm talking about. the fucked up one. the one who bashed her dad's face in. ” he knows her name, but he'd rather lead with that, because it's impressive, the crime scene photos— nothing compared to some of the things he's done, the way he left the body of his abuser, but then, he also wasn't some horribly malnourished teenage girl at the time. “ mikayla desousa, ” he clarifies finally, though he doesn't think he needs to.

ace isn't actually interested in listening to her defend herself, so he stops listening, fishing a cigarette out of his pocket, shoving it between his lips and lighting it. he takes a long drag, almost considering dropping the subject entirely, because it's a little embarrassing, the way someone almost a foot shorter than him broke his nose, but he decides against it. “ actually— i was being nice to her. ” he wasn't, but that's probably already obvious. “ that bar she's working in has her in this tiny little skirt— pretty much a cheerleading uniform with less coverage. anyway, she's fucking hot, so i just told her that. and then she punched me. ” that's not exactly how it went— it took a little more coaxing to get her to actually snap, but the rest of the world's set on painting her as some impulsive, bloodthirsty psychopath, so why can't he?

#incinerace #arc: young adult.#me when i actually have to type out manslaughter: wtf

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ladzwriting · 2 years ago

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ARC Review: HOUSE OF YESTERDAY by Deeba Zargarpur (2022)

Genre: Young Adult Speculative ContemporaryYear Release: November 29th, 2022Buy Links: Bookshop.org | Unabridged Bookstore | Libro.fm ⭐⭐⭐⭐⭐ Rating: 5 out of 5. Listened to a NetGalley AudioARCContent warning: intergenerational trauma, domestic violence, divorce, blood, vehicular manslaughter Fifteen-year-old Sara is really going through it between her parents’ impending divorce, her Bibi…

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chuuae · 3 years ago

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##𝐂𝐇𝐔𝐔𝐘𝐀 , a character analysis involving for the tainted sorrow and an autumn poem.

WARNING !! this analysis will contain spoilers for the bungou stray dogs manga. it will also discuss topics such as domestic abuse, death, smoking, alcoholism, suicide, and mental illness. please do not read if you feel uncomfortable with any of these themes.

DISCLAIMER !! this is not for the purpose of romanticising, shaming, or otherwise glamourising mental illnesses. please take this from someone who also suffers from mental illness. i am merely attempting to analyse. also, i'm not trying to assign each chuuya a sexuality, but i'm literally just going off the poems and what i observe so ...

note. i worked pretty hard on this, and i'm very happy with it. please like or reblog if you can, i would greatly appreciate it. please, share your thoughts on chuuya as well !! he's my favourite if you can't tell- and also fun fact chuuya's bday is the 29th of april, and mine is the 28th !! it's a sign !!!

The poet Nakahara Chuuya [中原中也] was born on the 29th of April in 1907, and died young in 1937 from tuberculosis. He wrote highly symbolic, mostly short poems, that were inspired by his struggles with mental illness and other personal troubles. He was said to be mostly quiet withdrawn and shy in his early life, mostly keeping to himself, though he branched out in rebellion of his strict parents later and made friends with other literary and entertainment figures.

Asagiri Kafka has adapted him into a character in the Bungou Stray Dogs animanga, a Port Mafia executive slash host of a Japanese god of the same name. This character is sarcastic and fairly quick to anger, noticeably short, and has a fond appreciation for high-quality alcohol.

I would like to contrast the author and character of Nakahara Chuuya, also analysing his poems, in the hopes of creating a comprehensive understanding of who he was.

BPhysically, it's easy to say that real-life Chuuya and BSD Chuuya look both similar and different. Comparably, they are both quite short [some sources stated the poet to be only five feet tall] and had a fondness for hats that they nearly constantly wore. Both are young if we, say, compared them at the peak of Chuuya's life and the current BSD arc, and are well-off in some aspects.

However, there's the obvious difference of BSD Chuuya having his long orange hair, whereas real Chuuya had more understated regular dark hair. Additionally, one of them has the ability to manipulate gravity, has committed hundreds of 'crimes' including manslaughter, and hosts a deity named Arahabaki in their body, and the other ... does not.

In all honesty, it initially seems like the character of Chuuya has taken little more than his name, stature, vague fashion sense, and ability from his namesake, but then I conducted a little more research and realised that they were actually far more similar than I had realised, but this requires a more in-depth look into both of their pasts.

Historical Nakahara Chuuya was somewhat of a miracle birth – born after six years of attempts by his parents [who I'm mostly sure were feminists because his dad took his mum's name of Nakahara] in an at-the-time childless town named Yamaguchi, a cause for great successful. His family was quite prominent, with his father being a successful doctor, meaning that Chuuya was expected to become one from childhood. To summarise, his family forced that expectation upon him, forbidding him from playing with children of a "lower class'"and forcing him to undergo an immensely strict education with punishments as harsh as being made to sleep in the barn if he disobeyed. He would even be burnt with a lit cigarette if "prompted", and not even allowed to play in rivers and such for fear that he would drown. Physical abuse followed him from that incredibly young age, leading to a distrust and hatred of his family.

In the same way, manga Chuuya's un-ideal childhood shaped him up to who he became as an adult. He started off life happy, with two ordinary parents, but when he was merged with Arahabaki at the age of seven, he lost his memories, his ordinary childhood, and any sense of support and love for a long time. Notably, this is around the same time that real Chuuya's hellish education began. The parallel to that was the expectation of being a leader to the Sheep, and the "abuse" of living in poverty in his formative years. Once he was taken into the Port Mafia, however, he lost even more of what could be considered a "regular childhood", and was then expected to shelter himself in the same way after becoming an executive. Both were also named "prodigies", and expected to hold to that degree of perfection.

Additionally, a catalyst event that caused them both to lead a path rebelling against the way they'd begun their lives. In both cases, it was by losing someone – real Chuuya's younger brother passed away when he was eight, driving him by grief to discover and compose literature. At thirteen, his poetry was discovered, the same year he entered Junior High and began to rebel against his father in neglecting his studies and classes. For manga Chuuya, it's difficult to say what his catalyst event was, but I think it was most likely losing himself to Arahabaki and then losing most of the people who came into his life after that point.

From that point onwards, in essence, Nakahara Chuuya did his best to disappoint his parents in failing his exams, even though he would receive those harsh punishments each time he did. To him, independence and free will were more important than getting hurt, which is evident in Bungou Stray Dogs as well. This finally led to him being freed from the oppression of his harsh parents, and he was able to study what he wanted, do what he wanted [drink a lot of alcohol and write poetry] and essentially be free.

If I were to cast the greatest similarity between author and character, it would have to be their determination in getting through whatever they suffered. Both of these men were faced with death when they were children, then manipulated by those they wanted to care about, and forced to endure an incredible amount of mental-illness-inducing trauma. And yet, both found outlets [whether it be poetry or combat] to deal with their pain and sadness, and both ultimately got through the most difficult times in their lives and found something to give them purpose. It's perhaps this trait that I admire the most, along with their compassion and love for those close to them.

There is, furthermore, the actual nature of Nakahara Chuuya's poetry. Those following Bungou Stray Dogs would of course know For the Tainted Sorrow, which is a poem on the nature of sorrow or pain, and clearly bears very personal suffering within the lines. One stanza really reminded me of Soukoku [Double Black/Chuuya and Dazai] – For the tainted sorrow, has no desires or wishes; For the tainted sorrow, In langour dreams of death. Chuuya wasn't able to have anything for himself, and he felt tainted by Arahabaki's inhabitance of his body, whereas Dazai wanted death so fervently he was willing to commit suicide. The emotional fragility of Chuuya's poetry is something that also lingers under manga Chuuya's exterior as well, and is one of the most enticing parts of the character.

However, my favourite of Chuuya's poems is one called An Autumn Poem, in three suites. It also led me to believe that he may have had feelings for other men, as it, a) reminded me very strongly again of Dazai, and b) is written like my lovesick poetry. The essence of the poem is the narrator [Chuuya] is very close to a man who he feels is dying, but doesn't know if the man is aware of this. The man is very eccentric and says some strange things [they're a lot like what Dazai would say], and there is some affection from Chuuya towards him. And I, you know, would watch him from this angle. Staring after it, that yellow butterfly – even doing something as innocuous as butterfly watching, Chuuya was admiring this man, with this pure, strong emotion in the poetry, that I find absolutely captivating.

How strange we are before we die … that was Chuuya's final line about the man, and perhaps my favourite of all his poetry. Nakahara Chuuya died young after he'd been able to free himself and write what he wished. In some ways, perhaps the transferral of his personality into Bungou Stray Dogs wasn't as carbon-copy-like as Dazai's, but I found it to be the most interesting. The most important parts of Chuuya as observed by Asagiri are the most fascinating parts of his character, and this comparison is entirely underrated.

#%fae's.essays.#bungou stray dogs #bsd #analysis #bungou stray dogs analysis #bsd analysis #chuuya #nakahara chuuya #chuuya analysis #nakahara chuuya analysis

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linkspooky · 4 years ago

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Who is it who really needs saving?

is the question Dabi asked when Tokoyami came to rescue Hawks in the middle of the raid war arc. Dabi asks this question just after Hawks stabbed twice in the back with the justification that it would save people, despite the fact that Twice was also a victim too, and also someone in need of saving. Dabi’s question is especially poignant because it asks who is hero society invested in saving, a question that is repeated by Twice who believes Hero Society only saves the good victims, and Himiko as well who asks if Heroes save people, then was Twice not a person.

I bring this up because chapter 299/300 end on another parallel between Dabi and Hawks. Both of them have their backs being shown, however, Hawks is already healing due to the nature of his quirk, whereas the permanent burns on Dabi’s skin has already gotten worse. Hawks and Dabi also have opposite goals at this point, Hawks to support Endeavor, and Dabi’s ultimate goal is to bring him down. However, Rei’s words over Endeavor’s panel add another layer of complication to this. “Those regrets and guilt, the rest of those have borne that burden much more than you have.” Endeavor is suffering, but he’s not the one most in need of saving. I believe next chapter rightly, Rei is going to point out that the ones most in need of saving are the ones who suffered the most because of Endeavor’s actions. Endeavor was never the one in need of saving, and in need of redemption in the first place, rather it was Dabi.

1. Started From the Bottom Now We’re Even Lower

Hawks and Dabi are seeming opposites even from their origin points. Hawks was born in a poor household the son to a minor villain, Touya a rich household the son of the number two hero. Hawks family name basically means nothing to the point where the hero commission easily erased it, whereas Dabi’s family name has dominated his entire life. Touya from a young age was given everything he needed to become a hero and his father even encouraged him, while Hawks was on the run from the law and couldn’t even leave his small house without getting yelled at.

At first, Hawks was born with a quirk that both of his parents disapproved of as they constantly asked him what his wings were even for, and seemed disgusted by his mutation. While at the same time, Touya was born with a quirk that his father was happy with, a fire quirk even stronger than his own which Enji thought gave him enough of a potential that he didn’t need to worry about finding an ideal hybrid quirk. He could pass all his techniques onto his firstborn son who seemed eager to learn.

The only real similarity between both of them was that for both children, Endeavor was clearly their favorite hero. Touya was eager to please his father and train with him in order to inherit his hero techniques, and when Endeavor captured Hawks father, it convinced Hawks that heroes were real.

However, both of them experienced a sudden reversal of fate. This is where circumstances for both of them flipped. Touya’s quirk was in fact revealed to be a very harmful hybridization of his parents two quirks, he inherited his father’s flames but even hotter, while at the same time inheriting Rei’s sensitivity to fire which made th overheating flaw even worse on him causing his quirk to deliberately harm his body. Hawks however, is an ideali hybridization of both of his parents quirks. His mother Tomie has a quirk that creates eyeballs and seems ideal for searching, watching and locating things, while his father’s feather quirks on his arms that could sharpen into blades turned into wings on his back that were both capable of searching and detection like his mother’s eyeballs and sharpening into blades like his father’s.

At first it seems destined that Touya was ging to become a hero, while Hawks had no hope for him, but because of the nature of their quirks the opposite happened. When Hawks was young he was able to save a busload of people from crashing which got him recruited by the hero commission. While it’s implied that Touya kept trying to train on his own even after Endeavor stopped the training and abandoned him in favor of Shoto, and because of that Touya had his training accident at Sekoto peek and burned to death.

Dabi and Hawks are seeming opposites, but they’re actually quite similar if you think about it. Both of them grew up in abusive households that are intentionally paralleled, they have controlling and physically violent fathers, and mothers who are coded as mentally ill, Tomie was unfit to take care of a child, and Rei was eventually pushed to a breaking point where she was unable to anymore and then forcibly separated and institutionalized by her husband. Both, also experienced a separation from their mother, Rei was hospitalized around the time Toya finally died, and the Hero Commission promised Tomie support if she cut all ties from him. Both of them also dreamed of becoming heroes, and tried their best to, even Touya after his father rejected him kept training on their own.

The only difference between them is circumstances, Hawks was saved because he was born with a useful quirk, Touya despite his father being the number two hero was never saved.

2. We’re the Heroes, Who Don’t Do Anything

In fact it’s implied that Enji intentionally looked away and forced himself to forget Touya’s suffering. For instance, the first time Touya trains with Enji he’s shown wearing a sleeveless shirt. Every time after that, Touya has long jacket sleeves on. When he’s crying to Natsuo, when he’s pulling out his hair, and the last memory from before his death, every time Touya is shown hiding his arms. We also know that Dabi, has burns that go all the way up his arms which is exactly where his flames emerge from. It’s also the place where Touya burns himself when Enji remembers training with him for the first time.

It’s likely that Touya was walking around with burns up his arms from the training he was inflicting on himself, and Enji simply didn’t notice because his unreliable narrator status, he forgets everything he has done to other members of his family, or intentionally downplays the severity of it in order to avoid the guilt and consequences of his actions. Hence why he can say things like “I never meant to neglect you” to Natsuo, when we saw him call Natsuo and the others failures from Shoto’s perspective, because in Enji’s perspective he’s just a good father who went wrong somewhere along the line, whereas from Natsuo’s perspective he never really acted like a father towards him at all.

Enji only ever sees his own intentions, and not the impact his actions had on others. He only saw his heroic ambitions, and not the way he taught Touya that his only value was his quirk, and then completely tossed him aside as a failure and ignored all his suffering when Touya kept trying to get his attention. That he intentionally neglected Touya until either an accident or a suicide claimed his life.

Either way it’s a running theme that Endeavor hesitates when it comes to saving his own sons. Despite seeing himself as both a hero and a father, he completely fails in both roles to them.

He froze when it came time to save Natsuo from Ending, and the second time when Shoto was begging Endeavor for help against Dabi, Endeavor chose not to do a single thing. In fact the only thing that moved him was Deku’s pep talk that exclusively stoked his ego and called him a good mentor, which caused Endeavor to finally move into action.

Endeavor is a hero in name who has no interest in directly saving others, because his number one priority has always been to stand at the number one spot and feel like he’s accomplished something. He didn’t notice Touya was most likely continuing the training on his own, and was spiraling that badly until after Touya had died, and even after that happened he still continued the training with Shoto like nothing happened, even mentioning that Touya was a small mistake.

When the wounds from Touya’s death were still fresh, it seemed like barely anything more than an afterthought to him. There are some people who even theorize that Enji only believed Touya was always alive because he had never truly faced the guilt of Touya’s death and his role in it, that it was a comfort to him to believe his son was still secretly alive out there.

The signs were obvious that Touya was spiraling, but he was neglected so much that Endeavor the number two hero who prides himself on most cases resolved didn’t notice what was going wrong with his son until he literally burned himself alive, and even then that wasn’t enough to stop him from mistreating his other son and forcing him into painful training.

Touya’s neglect is as much abuse as Shoto’s favoritism and training, that’s the point of the golden child / scapegoat dynamic, they are both being abused. Enji was the only parent in the household, and if his kid was burning himself, and injuring himself all the time and it got to the point where the child literally died because of a lack of adult supervision, Enji could be prosecuted for manslaughter in a court of law. There are cases where adults just, do absolutely nothing for their kids, and those kids sometimes die of neglect, starvation, because of their parents completely failing to take care of them. It’s just as sinister a form of abuse as physical abuse. In both cases a child’s needs aren’t being provided for by their parents.

Dabi is someone who could have been easily saved by his father paying attention to him, and should have been saved by the man who prides himself as the number two hero, but he was left to rot. This is a running theme with Endeavor, he’s a hero who continually fails to save his family.

Dabi’s situation is also a metaphor for hero society at large. Who are the types of people that Hero Society prefers to save? Those who are useful to it like Hawks. It intentionally turns a blind eye to cases like Touya, Tenko or Twice. If Touya did have burns on his arms from training but was able to cover them up just by wearing long sleeves, and Natsuo was the only one who knew then that goes even further to explain Dabi’s specific obsession with discrediting Endeavor.

If Dabi’s father had just acted like a hero, or acted like a father then he would have been saved. If Dabi’s father had noticed the person most in need of saving was right next to him, the incident where he burned to death never would have happened. Which is why Dabi’s grudge is specifically against heroes who do not act like heroes. Heroes who, cannot save anyone because they are too self involved to perform the duty of saving. He shares Stain’s obsession with ideologically pure heroes, that only heroes who put saving others selflessly over everything else should be allowed to exist and the rest are pretenders to the title.

Notice how Dabi pulls on the scars on his face when begging the people to think about this, about who should really be allowed to call themselves heroes.

Dabi’s entire arc revolves around this question. Who are the real victims? Who are the ones that really need to be saved? Dabi is a character of mystery and subversion who is constantly hiding his real feelings.

Dabi is commented on being heartless about Twice’s death, but his actions contradict his words. Dabi goes out of his way trying to avenge Twice even after it’s already too late to save him, even burning up his own body to do so. He tried so hard we see literally there are new scars growing on his back the next time we see him Post-War Arc.

I’d also like to bring up that while Hawks accuses Dabi of feeling nothing about Twice��s death, Hawks is the one who killed him, and who after the fact shows no regret in his actions because he’s completely justified it to himself. He even remembers Twice like he’s some kind of old friend he took inspiration from, and not a person he manipulated into trusting him then killed. My point is it’s a reversal, Hawks is set up as the one who cares about Twice as a friend, but really was only using him. Dabi claims he was only using him, but he’s the one who showed an actual emotional reaction to Twice’s death and made an effort to save him.

If I were to say this is one more point of foiling between Dabi and Hawks. They both don’t see themselves as victims and because of that they deny the victimhood of the other.

Dabi accuses Hawks of becoming a murderer because his father was a murderer. Hawks when he learns the truth about Enji, takes Enji’s side over Dabi’s, believing Endeavor being the true victim in need of help in that situation. This is because Dabi and Hawks both deny their own victimhood, and they project that on each other. Dabi denies his victimhood and pretends to be the villain instead, he’s the villain who is going to take down Endeavor and therefore he’s not suffering. Hawks denies his own victimhood and his abusive past and pretends to be a hero, he’s helping Endeavor become a better hero, so therefore all the abuse Endeavor committed is in the past so therefore he doesn’t have to think about it. Both deny themselves and therefore deny any similarity in one another.

They’re also two people fatally wrapped up in their own circumstances they turn a blind eye to the suffering of others. Dabi assumes that Shoto is “good” and therefore, must have been raised with love and had it better than him and was raised with love. Whereas Hawks assumes that Twice is “good”, and therefore worthy of saving because he helps other people. In both cases, neither Dabi nor Hawks really understand Shoto or Twice, they’re just judging them by their own projected standards. Dabi only understands his childhood as Touya desperately trying to work for Enji’s attention, so Shoto who had Enji’s attention must have had it good. Hawks was saved because of the bus accident where he saved people as a hero, so obviously it makes sense he reach out to try to save another good person who just had bad luck.

Despite the fact that both of them are pretty much emotionally dead and in deep denial of their true feelings.

Dabi has also made a show of how little he cares about Natsuo, while at the same time his most famous line from the pro hero arc is “overthought things and snapped...”

Dabi is also the only one who notices it’s dangerous to bring Tokoyami onto a battlefield. This is when he asks the question, who is it who needs saving.

We learn at around the same time, the hope from the Pro Hero arc was intentionally a set up by Dabi to bring Endeavor down, and show everyone eventually that Endeavor hadn’t truly changed.

These are all small details yes, but keep in mind we’ve really only gotten crumbs of Dabi’s characterization so far because his perspective is one that has deliberately been kept from us. We see his past through almost everyone else’s eyes but his own - because so far the focus has been on Endeavor.

Just like Dabi set up Endeavor’s earlier success only to bring him down, this might also lead to a reversal in the narratives. In 299, Hawks believed Endeavor to be the one in need of help. We are also as an audience set up to believe that the narrative arc will focus around Endeavor’s redemption. This is before the series revealed the circumstances of his son.

However, Endeavor and Dabi are literal opposites. They’re inversions of each other. Dabi pretends he doesn’t care any more for his family and will go out of his way to hurt them, that all he cares about is revenge, but at the same his ideals are heroic. In his actions and ideals he’s the one calling for a better society. Dabi is the most independent and distant from the league it’s true, and so far he’s denied their friendship, but at the same time it’s Dabi who is the most idealistic of the league. Shigaraki wants to destroy the current society, Himiko wants a society that’s easier on her, but it’s Dabi who has the ideals for a society he wants, one where heroes are held to standards and act like Heroes. It’s dabi better than anyone else who makes the standards for mass appeal. Because, deep down Dabi still has heroic aspirations and drive even if it comes from Stain of all people he’s inspired by. He has some sort of ideals, a world he’s trying to create.

Whereas, Endeavor doesn’t have any heroic ideals at all. His idea of being a hero has always centered around fame, status and the ranking of number one. He’s a hero unconcerned with saving people, only defeating villains to prove his strength. Endeavor presents himself outwardly as someone who is trying to do what’s best for his family, and working towards being the best hero he can be but his intentions are revealed to be selfish, at the same time as Enji’s narration is revealed as unreliable. It may have been set up for an inversion all along, with the setup being that Enji is the one who needed to redeem himself, when Dabi was pushed to the background. Around this time Rei also tried to reassure others, that he was trying to carry his regrets with him.

However, as soon as Touya’s identity is revealed, Rei’s stance reverses. Now she properly calls out that, Enji hasn’t been carrying his regrets at al.. Instead, he’s been forcing his family to carry the burden of it while he gets to go play hero in front of the public.

As soon as Touya is revealed to be alive, it’s not Enji who is the center and focus of conversation but rather Touya. In 299, Hawks believes that it’s Endeavor whose in need of saving, but we’re shown that Endeavor only really seems to pity himself in this situation.

It’s Rei who shows up to remind us, who really is in need of saving in this situation. Not Endeavor but rather those who have been burned the most by Endeavor’s actions.

Which may be the ultimate parallel between Hawks and Dabi as well, Hawks can’t see himself as a victim so he can’t realize who the victims who need his help the most is. Whereas, Dabi in the future may receive the change of heart he needs to reopen his heart again and accept others, and therefore learn to accept himself. Dabi is set up for a reconciliation between his two selves, Touya the victim and Dabi the villain. While ultimately, Hawks will intentionally turn his back on Keigo the victim, because he can only ever see himself as a hero.

I’m not suggesting that Dabi is good or Hawks is bad, or the other way around, not something as simple as that but that Dabi is open to change, and this will lead to him eventually opening up to others. Whereas, Hawks who is given practically every opportunity to change, and even escapes killing Twice with no permanent consequences, (his wings are growing back, and he even is freed from the hero commission) chooses to support Endeavor once again. It’s Dabi who calls others to think and reevaluate, and is actively trying to create a change in the world, whereas Hawks only interest is protecting other heroes and not the victims that heroes themselves create. Because in his mind heroes are good and that fact will never change.

Because Dabi is the one trying to create change, while Hawks continues to cling to Endeavor I believe we’ll eventually receive a reversal for both of them. Just as the narrative around Dabi has changed from irredeemable villain to person in need of saving, we may see exactly what was foreshadowed in this panel happening. Dabi walking towards the light, while Hawks falls further and further into the shadows - because it’s Dabi who is looking for that light, while Hawks chooses to remain in the dark. Hawks was saved once, and now he believes that everyone who is good gets saved, unless they are unlucky like Twice. It’s Dabi who knows the truth, that there are heroes who don’t save people, and it’s Dabi who is at least trying to confront that truth head on and change it rather than just ignoring it.

In a way Hawks is someone who has gone blind from looking too closely at Endeavor’s light, whereas because Dabi was failed by Endeavor and fell into the shadows he at least knows the truth about what it’s like for those who don’t get saved, and unlike Hawks can’t keep deluding himself that this is a world where everyone who deserves it gets saved.

#dabi #hawks #toya todoroki #touya todoroki #takami keigo #mha meta #my hero academia meta #my hero academia theory #bnha 299 #bnha 300 #mha 299 #mha 300

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In line with this, I think it's significant that most of the characters who side with Miles and/or join the team to save him are young.

There's an experience a lot of young people, particularly (but, I think, not exclusively) those who've been sheltered, have, where you realize "hey! These things that are happening in the world--they are fucked up!" And often you get told by a lot of adults--some of whom had the same fire you had, once, before years passed and they were just too tired and they felt like nothing they did mattered so they gave up---tell you that that's how the world works. You might not realize it now, but you will eventually. You'll grow up. (You'll give up.)

(I'm not going to elaborate on this a whole ton because it's a whole post and a half on it's own, but Oh Boy Is That A Trauma Response.)

But the wonderful thing is, these young Spiderpeople? They aren't all jaded yet--or at the very least, not *as* jaded. You tell them "this is how the world works" and some of them ask "why?" and "how can we change it?"

Pavitr is, I think, an excellent example of this. He thinks being Spider-man is easy because he's been doing it for so little time he's barely had any bad experiences yet.

And the bad experience that was supposed to happen to him, was supposed to jade him? It doesn't. Because he's not alone, because he has the help of someone who doesn't believe it can't be helped.

This is, I think, part of why Gwen's arc was so key to the theming of this movie. She--perhaps because of some underlying genetic predisposition to depression, perhaps because she was incredibly isolated and thus more vulnerable to the fatalist worldview of the Spider Society, perhaps because it's so much easier to have no control over everything because that way you didn't kinda-sorta manslaughter your best and only friend, the universe did---was on her way to becoming one of the jaded, worn-down Spider Society members.

But then Miles happens. Miles, who absolutely refuses to give up. Who doesn't take "because that's the way the world works" as an answer. And his actions, unknowingly, set off a domino chain that ends up saving Gwen's dad.

And in doing so, saves Gwen, too, by making her realize that the "canon" isn't what they thought it was. By making her realize that there is another future, and, in doing so, changing HER future--from one of depressed resignment to one of hope and change.

TL;DR: Gwen's character arc is a key breaking of the cycle of depression and resignment that permeates the Spider Society, and of the idea that growing up means giving up in general, and this change in her future is a proof-of-concept for the idea that the future doesn't have to suck.

Across the spiderverse spoiler talk but

Many mny thoughts but it really comes down to what pavitr said in his cannon event. "I can do both!" Miles says the same thing later, before he's cut off, and the thing is...they can't.

Pavitr wouldn't have been able to save his chief and girlfriend if Miles hadn't jumped in to help. Even though they have this massive spider community, in the end, what they're all fighting for is to Be Alone. Because that's what Spiderman does, they fight alone, no one understands them, expect eachother, but what Miguel has convinced them of is that its SUPPOSED to be that way. They're SUPPOSED to suffer alone, to loose the ones they love, that's just how its SUPPOSED to be. Pavitr was supposed to be alone, and he was supposed to loose someone important to him because of it. But he had Miles, another person to watch his back and do what he can't because he can't DO both.

I also think its interesting that Peter B, Gwen, Penni all bought into Miguel's idea that pain is something you HAVE to go through, you loose the people you love. It happened to me, it happened to them, it'll happen to you. Whwn Miles askea Peter B, 'that happened to you?' Almost as a plea ' you'd make me go through it too?' I think this movie says a lot about how understanding what someone is experiencing isn't enough, when empathy becomes expectation. They've become calloused to the idea of 'Canon deaths' because 'that's what happens.' A scene played for laughs actually highlights it perfectly. The therapist scene. Spiderpatient on the couch crying about Ben, spidertherapsit saying 'and let me guess, he died.'

It's like the heaviness of these deaths have become lost on them. It's what supposed to happen, it's just another dead Chief in a million universes of a million dead chiefs. Just close you eyes and look away while your counterpart goes through what you already have, because it's Supposed to Happen.

#D speaks #spiderverse meta #across the spiderverse #across the spiderverse spoilers #gwen stacy #miles morales #pavitr prabhakar #also yes I do think Gwen's arc is much more interesting if you consider the fact that while obviously she is right to avoid arrest because #She did nothing wrong #she does absolutely have avoidant tendencies #And I would be Shocked if she did not feel like she murdered Peter at least a little #More ATSV rants may be coming in the next few weeks as this movie has made me INSANE #Also I am a trans Gwen and trans Gwen's Peter truther #Also I am an “all Peters are Jewish” truther but that's unrelated. Just going to sprinkle that in

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he's spent more time looking in the mirror lately than he has in years, picking apart his appearance, convincing himself that he's not ready for this. it's his first job interview that actually feels real, like something he might actually be able to keep, as long as he doesn't fall apart this time. there's only one person he trusts to help him prep, despite how embarrassing it feels, too, because maybe a decade ago, she would've been the first person to make fun of him for how nervous he was— but now, she's the one he trusts most.

❝ could you help me? ❞ the words come out hesitantly, like he already regrets them, but he keeps pushing forward anyway, because @manslaught isn't going to let him drop it there. he rolls his eyes, mostly to himself, before he finally goes on. ❝ my hair's just-— ❞ he hates talking about his appearance, and he would've preferred just taking care of it himself, but that would only risk him looking worse. ❝ it's a fucking mess. gets in my eyes. ❞ intentional, usually, because it means he can hide; it just won't work for his interview. ❝ — could you cut it for me? ❞

#manslaught #thread: travis.#arc: travis / young adult.#reminder that this was YOUR idea

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ladyintree · 5 months ago

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@manslaught said, "you wanted a wife and a kid and a life you could control."

she's not entirely wrong. she's not entirely right, either. she wanted a life she could control, she was desperate for it, because when she was in the wilderness, everything felt like it was out of her control. there was no way out, every attempted exit only backfiring, and worse, she didn't even have control of herself. she didn't know who she was, what she was capable of, what was gong on when she closed her eyes at night. she was so desperate to reclaim herself once they'd been rescued, and more than that, she was desperate to resume the life she left behind. that meant sacrificing mikayla, and while she was never right to do it, she convinced herself for so long that she was on the correct path for herself. she was succeeding in everything she was doing, so it had to be right, but she wasn't just sacrificing mikayla. she was sacrificing the idea of happiness entirely.

❝ i wanted a life i could control. yes, ❞ she agrees, because that part's right, and she wouldn't normally be so apt to say it outright, but it's the rest she's still avoiding talking about. her jaw clenches, and she looks down, her hand tapping at her arm as she crosses it over her chest. she wishes she had a cigarette now, if only to have something else to focus on, because her relationship with mikayla since they reunited has been a series of confrontations and questions that she hadn't prepared for, even though she should have. ❝ you know i couldn't fucking live without that. i couldn't keep going on not knowing what the hell was going to happen. not again. ❞ she brings her hand up, fingertips pressing into her forehead because she knows she doesn't have to explain herself for that. mikayla understands her, she thinks. the rest, she still does.

she takes another deep breath, and she feels guilty for what she's about to say, because she loves sammy. she learned to love him, learned to cherish what it meant to be a mother even if she never wanted to be. that doesn't mean she didn't still have resentment for it, and that always made her feel bad, still believing she would have been better off without children. clearly, her ex-wife thinks so, because tai was never good for them, and there's a reason she's no longer granted any access to him now. she's still trying to figure out where that really leaves her, because there's some freedom in it, relief in knowing she doesn't have to be held back the way she always felt. but she misses him, too. she hates not knowing if she'll ever see him again, or if she'll ever be allowed to speak to him again. she's just trying to find the balance between the relief and the sadness.

❝ yeah, i never wanted to be a mother, ❞ she finally says. they've talked about sammy before, when tai had to tell her about the way she'd scared her family off, how she'd put him in danger, how he knew the other side of her that most people didn't. but this is different, this is admitting something to her that she'd never let her ex-wife hear. ❝ i know that makes me sound like a goddamn horrible person, but-- ❞ she hums, looking back at her and shrugging her shoulders. ❝ i was trying so damn hard, pushing off the conversation every chance i got. thought i could avoid it forever, thought i could win that damn argument, but it got too hard. and i-- i love him, you know? that's my son. i'm his mother, ❞ she says, the words coming out quickly, a slight squeak to her tone, desperate to defend herself even if mikayla isn't accusing her of anything. ❝ but i was fucking horrible at it. and i knew i would be. ❞ and she hated failing. and every time she did, she took it out on the parent who actually wanted what was best. ❝ i don't know what the hell shauna and i were doing, thinking we could be mothers after everything that happened. it's a goddamn disaster, ❞ she mumbles, moving her hands to her hips as she stares back at her.

❝ it freaked you out. right? hearing i was a-- a fucking mom? ❞ she'd never really let herself think about that before. mostly because when she became a mother, it felt like she was forced to close a chapter she wasn't ready to close, and she couldn't let herself think about a world in which her son and her ex-girlfriend existed in the same. now, she has to, she has to explain it to her. she's just been trying so hard not to think about sammy for so long that she was never really sure how to have this conversation. ❝ you're right. i just settled for it. i thought, at least if i had this wife, this son, i had this perfect family. ❞ seemingly, anyway, because she always knew that was only surface-level. it never felt entirely real beyond that. ❝ i thought people could see me and think, 'wow. she really made it. she fucking did it.' ❞ she mocks, rolling her eyes at herself. ❝ they should've left me a long time ago. or i shouldn't have tried to create something that i never belonged in. ❞ but this, with mikayla, that's where she belongs. this is different.

❝ i was just-- i was trying so hard, mikayla. i thought it was the life i was supposed to have. it wasn't, ❞ she whines. ❝ i want to be relieved, you know? i don't have to worry about trying to be a good mom and how much i'm fucking it up anymore. i just -- i miss him, too, ❞ she admits again, her eyes closing as she takes another deep breath. ❝ i want to believe there's a world where you can meet him, he could meet you. we could be happy. no, i don't mean, taking him in. she's right, he's better off without me, but -- forever? i don't know if i can just accept that, mikayla, ❞ she says, feeling herself rambling now, all too evident she's barely figured out how to process this yet, and maybe she's been waiting for a chance to be able to talk it out with her.

#manslaught #arc: adult.#ok you told me to write you an adult starter so. hi #ofc i was going to write this meme first #also no reason to throw shaunaunder the bus???? okay girl #wrote most of this w my eyes closed btw. the only way to cope

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Rewatching RWBY there's this chilling lack of empathy through the volumes that I used to just wave off. Yang has no empathy for Tai, Blake is just entirely about what Blake needs, Weiss almost kills a woman at a party and her takeaway is 'my dad is mean so I'm going to run away'. Qrow sinks hard into depression in vol. 6 and Ruby's reaction is to yell she's never needed him. No one has EVER helped a civilian. It's so prevelant. Knowing how 7&8 go really changes the earlier writing.

I think there was a great deal of well-written empathy in the early volumes — after all, this cast was designed as the kind, well-meaning heroes — but that care was expressed almost solely within the group itself. Ruby sits by Jaune in the hallway and says "Nope!" to his self doubt. Weiss offers Ruby a hand up after she fails to kill the death stalker. Yang seeks out Blake and gets her to open up about what's bothering her. Now, I want to emphasize that there's nothing inherently wrong with this. It actually makes perfect sense. These are our main characters and they're written as peers co-habiting the same space. Of course whatever emotional growth we get, which automatically includes moments of compassion, would be directed towards each other. Similarly, the dynamics originally introduced — that of teachers and parents — likewise (rightly) puts the burden on the adults to provide the comfort, not the other way around. Port snaps Weiss out of her arrogant mindset. Ozpin reassures Ruby about her leadership worries. Tai is there to support his daughter when she's recovering from a lost limb. That's the natural order of things, so to speak.

The problem, to my mind, begins to occur when the group exits those dynamics. They're no longer students, they're licensed huntsmen. They're no longer kids, but equals who never needed adults in the first place. They're no longer doing things for themselves and their friends on personal downtime, they're doing them for the community at large as a profession (to say nothing of the world-altering war they've insisted on shouldering responsibility for). That's what a huntsmen is meant to be, a defender of the people, not someone who uses that power for personal interests alone. All of this is a huge change from where we started out: cutesy kids going off on comparatively low-stakes adventures because one or more of their teammates are invested, only just beginning to realize that they're signing up for a job where their desires come second (that fireside conversation at Mountain Glenn).

This change invites — demands, really — that the audience read them differently too. Qrow's spiral in Volume 6 is a good example of this. If Ruby is demanding to be treated not just as an equal in terms of maturity and experience, but also as the primary leader of this group, then the viewer expects her to treat her uncle as an equal too, not dismiss his hardship. I've seen numerous fans defend that arc with some version of, "He's her uncle. He's supposed to take care of her. He's failing" but that, according to the show, is no longer the dynamic. Qrow is now just a member of Ruby's team, someone she's responsible for as their leader. It's easiest to see the problem if we switch out Qrow for any of the other members. If Blake developed a drinking problem, do we think Ruby would just shout at her until she magically got over it? If Jaune endangered the group, do we think they'd all be angry about it, rather than trying to figure out the source of what caused the mistake? We don't even need to think hypothetically for that one because we saw it on screen. Jaune attacked Oscar and drove him off, not just threatening him, but arguably endangering the whole team by requiring a search party. Fans have long insisted they had to steal that airship right then because being in Argus was too much of a risk, but if we buy that reading (which I personally don't, but), then that means Jaune made things exponentially worse by forcing them out into that super dangerous city, rather than allowing everyone to stay hidden inside. He made a massive mistake which, according to the logic of Qrow's arc, should be met with frustration, disdain, and eventual demands to get over his anger at Ozpin or ship out. But, of course, he received nothing but concern. Yang was worried about him, not Oscar. The search becomes about his grief for Pyrrha and his team's willingness (as well as Pyrrha's family member) to provide more comfort. Suddenly, the tendency to express care solely towards those within the group becomes a flaw the story won't acknowledge.

And then it spirals. The thing to remember is that no single act here is bad on its own, especially when we consider that yes, we want flawed characters. Rather, it's about the pattern. Ruby is allowed to get mad at Qrow for his behavior and chuck her scroll in frustration. She's human. I'd be crazy frustrated too. However, if Ruby is meant to be written as a caring, sympathetic character, she should not only respond to the situation with frustration, yelling, a refusal to listen, and demands that he follow her lead, no questions asked. We can, and should, acknowledge that Weiss was the victim during that party. Her father was hurting her, the woman was beyond insensitive, Weiss was triggered in regards to a horrific event, and her power acted on its own. However, if we want to write Weiss as a compassionate, mature huntress to-be, she should acknowledge that she nearly killed someone — even an asshole someone — and vow to work on her control because she's not willing to put someone in danger like that ever again. Both of these moments have a "They could have been handled better" response attached to them — the former more-so than the latter imo — but these moments are made far, far worse due to later events in the show, events where the characters are cruel without any justification attached. Weiss didn't mean to attack that woman, but she did mean to ignore Whitely and threaten him with her weapon. So once we see that, it informs our understanding of what came before it. "Oh. The fact that Weiss never reacted to nearly killing someone isn't just a bit of missed potential, it's an early indicator that she... doesn't seem to care. If she endangers people, threatens people... that's fine with her." The group has a right to be frustrated with Qrow. The group did not have the right to magically steal Ozpin's entire life story, assault him, and blame him for the world's problems until he felt his only course of action was to run from them. So when we see that it becomes, "Oh. The fact that the group treated Qrow so poorly isn't just a one-time mistake born of a stressful situation and young adults being out of their depth in regards to alcoholism. They really will just abandon anyone the moment they start making mistakes." Anyone outside of their group, that is.

To say nothing of how all of these moments interconnect. Yang's recovery isn't just about getting used to not having an arm, it's about getting used to having a new one. Weiss' party isn't just about nearly killing someone, it's about not committing manslaughter because someone else stepped in. The Volume 6 arc isn't just about trying to escape with the Relic, it's about trying to get it somewhere safe. Fans frustrated with Ironwood's treatment don't harp on these details out of some desperate attempt to make him look good post-murder spree, rather, they recognize that he's a character that's been around since nearly the beginning, originally written as a good guy, and thus has accumulated a number of key connections with the cast. So when none of those connections are acknowledged during an arc about trust... that makes the group look very uncaring. Yang doesn't care that he gave her the arm, Weiss doesn't care that he saved her from hurting/potentially killing someone, Qrow doesn't care that he's trusted Ironwood for years (in a rival-bros way) and that they've been heading towards him this whole time. And when Ironwood begins to spiral, they don't do anything to try and help him, let alone acknowledge that their own choices, that lack of trust and empathy, had a hand in getting them here. "But it's not their responsibility to fix him!" Isn't it? Even a little? Just as human beings seeing an ally struggling under horrific decisions and circumstances? Sure, they don't have to try... but that doesn't make them look very heroic to my mind. And we can't even shrug that off by simplifying things with, "Well, Ironwood is evil now so who cares about him." They simultaneously don't care about finding Qrow who is missing, then captured. They don't do anything to try and find their missing teammates, with the exception of sending May to do it instead. They don't help the army fight off the grimm. Don't try to make sure Pietro and Maria had portals to escape through. Barely hesitate when the newly resurrected characters goes, "Kill me. That's the easiest thing for everyone." And these are just a few of the big ticket moments. It doesn't even begin to cover all the details we get that paint a picture of, "Wow okay. They just really don't care about people outside the group, huh? I mean, they say they do, in a life-or-death way, but they're not putting forth effort to show it on a daily basis."

And if you pick up on all that, if you acknowledge how much the group has changed based on where they started out, you might wonder when in the world that started. Surely we didn't just flip a switch around Volume 6. So you re-watch early stuff and, sure enough, there are moments that feel like setup for what's to come later. Not intentional setup (quite obviously), but a lack of care towards details across the series that, once the dynamic changed, became far, far more pronounced. Characters should be at least somewhat recognizable from start to finish, especially characters who have only experienced about two years of in-world time, so if we now get to see Ruby blandly commenting on all the people who are dying, or Weiss using her weapon as a means of coercing her little brother into doing what she wants, or Yang and Jaune dismissing Ren until he gives in to their point of view... we're going to look for the beginnings of that behavior early on. As you say, we were able to wave all those little details off due to a number of important factors. Now though? Now they feel like they hold a lot more weight, simply by virtue of that early material proceeding what we have now.

#rwby #rwde #mymetas

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itchose · 7 months ago

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he lets out a breath, because he hopes so, too. he would hope that tai wouldn’t be setting mikayla up for any more hurt— but he doesn’t know what’s going on in their moments alone. all he can do is trust what mikayla tells him. he nods his head slowly, but truthfully, he doesn’t know how any of this really works. he’s only really been with one person, only loved one person, only knew how to be with one person— and the thought of nat dating anyone else, even if he knows it would be for the best, makes him sick, too.

❝ good, ❞ he says quickly, relieved that she’s at least setting her boundaries. his brows furrow when she asks him the dreaded question, though, because he’s terrified of giving her the wrong answer— and he obviously doesn’t know what’s right. ❝ mikayla— ❞ he mumbles, his shoulders slumping. ❝ i— i don’t know how any of this shit works, ❞ he admits, and normally, he wouldn’t allow himself to admit it to anyone. but mikayla knows him better than anyone, maybe even nat, so he feels less afraid to show these parts of himself to her. but he knows he’s not getting off the hook that easily, so he takes a deep breath, bringing his hand to his hair as he thinks. ❝ she’s probably scared, too. right? ❞ he mumbles, glancing back to mikayla. ❝ maybe she doesn’t know how to say it first, when you have every reason to not want her back. ❞ it’s not an accusation, though— just a simple reminder, because he hopes that’s what tai’s thinking about, anyway. ❝ i think — fuck, i don’t know, mikayla, but i think it has to be her. ❞ his stomach twists, because he still feels like he shouldn’t be giving her any advice, but he's trying. ❝ it’s the only way you know for sure she’s in it, too. ❞ and that she’s not just settling, just going off of what mikayla says. he doesn’t know if that’s true, he just knows that his friend deserves to hear it first.

she wishes he wouldn't ask something like that, leading her to question it herself. just minutes ago, she was almost completely sure that tai does feel the same— she still looks at her the same way she did back then, which has to count for something, but she's paranoid anyway. “ i... hope so? ” her brows furrow, trying not to let her doubts get the best of her. “ she was jealous when i went on that date. so i think she does. ” unless it was just some sort of ego thing, annoyed that mikayla could be capable of moving on from her, but she doesn't think that's the case.

“ i want to trust her. ” that doesn't necessarily mean she does, but she's trying to get there, beginning to realize that the only way tai can actually prove her wrong is if mikayla actually gives her the chance. “ i've already told her if she does that shit to me again, she loses me forever. i'm not trying to get hurt again. ” which is true whether mikayla actually gets back together with tai or not. mikayla knows that travis is probably not the ideal person to go to for advice with relationships, but he's one of the only people she has, one of the only people she trusts, so she wants his help anyway. “ what do you think i should do? talk to her or— just hope she does it first? ”

#manslaught #thread: travis.#arc: travis / young adult.#you know how tempting it is for me to let travis tell mikayla she should say something so that i win writing tai- fdkslajfkl

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handlewcaare · 3 years ago

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Huh? Is that right?

A Dark Cinderella Story: Why Maki scares me more than Gojo

(⚠️⚠️JJK Ch. 151 spoilers ahead⚠️⚠️)

Such drastic changes in just a single year

As enriching as it is to see Maki quite literally tear through the entirety of the Zenin Clan, I find it almost disheartening in a way. The choice she made was the last thing on the behalf of her sister—someone who was her main driving force in seizing control of the Zenin clan. That’s not even including how she is still a minor.

The only reason

What is crucial to Maki’s character ISNT just the fact that she’s, currently, the strongest character both physically and emotionally, but the fact that she took insult in being compared to Toji by Naoya. Toji, the same beaten dog who shared the hollow gaze and ostracizing technique as she did. She’s right to find insult, by the way, because Toji wasn’t exactly the most honorable of men (he killed two teenagers—and got killed when one of them went into Minecraft creative mode).

An uncanny resemblance

The parallels are there, I won’t negate that, but it feels empowering that she indirectly declares herself independent from Toji’s shadow. I was almost worried that we would have a Mikasa situation with Maki where she would forever be an attachment to a man (whether it was Yuuta or Toji, hell maybe even Megumi), whilst giving us cool fight scenes to make gif sets out of. As much as I love Mikasa, she still felt like she was overlapped in Eren’s shadow, even when he was completely candid about committing genocide. Had it been Gege’s writing, they would have had Mikasa smack some sense into Eren ages ago.

Now that I’ve covered what I liked about this manslaughter arc, I’m going to cover what I hate about it: it’s the fact that Maki isn’t a woman, but she was forced to be. Mai not only resembled her motivation, but a part of her innocence that she cherished. It’s why the last panel we see of Mai is when she’s only just a child—because that’s who both of them are.

To be a sorcerer, truly, one must let go of the people they love. After all, love is the most distorted curse of them all. This moment is where Maki was not only stripped of her mercy, but of her innocence.

A gruesome Swan Song.

Out of the lenses of Peter Pan, Neverland is just another ruthless and unkind jungle with pirates pillaging and hurting innocent people and fairies. This whole arc, as cathartic as it was, was not Maki’s initial intention. She is, literally, a cornered child who was only defending herself against those who abused her at birth.

Did she do it flawlessly? Absolutely, but my inner Nanami continues to chastise how these hoards of men, adult men, have the audacity to raise their swords at someone who they could have raised differently than Toji. Therefore, this topic brings me to the Zenin Clan:

You made this bed, now lie in it.

They had any and all opportunity to treat Maki kinder or more humane than they did with Toji, but that in there lies in the problem with the traditional perspective of the Sorcery Clans. Not only would they have to change their view of the Heavenly Restricted, but they would have to assume autonomy in their faults—something that would be considered a hard pill to swallow. If this sounds familiar, this is basically the same thing the Higher Ups have done with Gojo and the Shibuya Incident.

It’s not like they could have prevented it by giving a teenage Getou therapy. That would be absurd.

Maki no longer has a reason to come back to the Zenin Clan, even after she desecrated Naoya’s face. This means for her that she’ll be able to finally move on from her childhood grievances and develop further than doing things on the behalf of her twin.

Am I distraught that a teenager had to kill her relatives as a last resort? Deep down, yes, I am. Am I content that Maki is able to change on the behalf of herself rather than her sister or the man who had a similar life as her? Yes, because Maki isn’t Toji and she will never be Toji.

And she’ll make damn sure to remind you of that.

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