#aquietviolent

[codependentsamanddean]

Written for the SPN J2 Big Bang 2017

Title: Wake Me Up When September Ends Author: lullysg (me) Artist: kaelysta [art post] Beta: Heather Pairing: Jared Padalecki/Jensen Ackles Rating: NC17 Word Count: 131k Warnings: descriptions of September 11th attack (only in the first couple of chapters), permanent injury, physical disability, PTSD, survivor’s guilt, alcoholism, depression, substance abuse, accidental overdose, a lot of angst, hurt/comfort, hurt!Jared

Summary: It started out as a regular Tuesday morning in New York City. The sun was bright in the sky when at 8:46 a.m., a plane crashed into the North Tower of the World Trade Center. 2,606 people died in there that day, but there were also survivors.

Jared and Jensen meet for the first time in a night that hadn't gone so well for either of them, and they build an instant connection. An unplanned second encounter happens while a building is threatening to collapse on their heads, and an impossible choice has to be made.

The attack leaves deep scars, both physically and mentally, and they are going to learn that the hardest part wasn’t surviving September 11th. Finding the strength to keep living in the aftermath of what that day caused is what proves to be the real challenge, especially when the light at the end of the tunnel seems impossible to reach.

[sammyatstanford]

Finishing out the most beautiful weekend at NolaCon with some of the loveliest, dearest people. So privileged to share this fandom with amazing women and have made wonderful friends! Special shout out to Lily, a pretty damn awesome 12-year-old 💕. I hope I was cool enough for her. @fenharelen @sammichgirl @nursedean @aquietviolent @codependentsamanddean @baronsamediswife @buttheyrebrothers @whoaeasytiger @doomedbrothers @witchywinchesters @willingwinchesters

[samstiels-deactivated20201212]

I was tagged by @baronsamediswife to post a picture of my lockscreen, my homescreen, the last song I listened to and the last selfie I took.

To anyone who hasn’t listened to Keaton Henson’s Romantic Works, especially the writers out there, guys it’s so good, it’s ˢᵒᵒᵒ ᶠᵘᶜᵏᶦᶰᵍ ᵍᵒᵒᵈ

I tag @jenscns, @ronweascly, @anthvnystcrk, @aquietviolent, and @atwoodean

[evakparallels]

istolethecarradio -> aquietviolent

[phastelpink]

I haven't been on tumblr in a gosh darn long time and I just wanted to say thank you for the phan on my dash. It is beautiful.

ajhdgsjfg hiiiii happy to hear that

[codependentsamanddean]

Lullys’ J2 Big Bang 2017

It’s my third time participating in the spn_j2_bigbang. I wasn’t sure I was going to enter this year, after the story I posted last year I didn't think I could find something as emotional and special to write about. But a trip to New York City last august changed that belief, and when I visited a very special place, I got instantly inspired. I wasn’t sure I could pull it off, but after a lot of thinking, research, helping from friends and a few months of total dedication, I have my new baby, which I love very, very much and I proudly present a sneak peek now:

Wake Me Up When September Ends

Pairing: Jared/Jensen

Rating: NC-17

Summary:

“We are born in one day. We die in one day. We can change in one day. And we can fall in love in one day. Anything can happen in just one day.”

It started out as a regular Tuesday morning in New York City. The sun was bright in the sky when at 8:46 a.m., a plane crashed into the North Tower of the World Trade Center. 2,606 people died in there that day, but there were also survivors.

Jared and Jensen meet for the first time in a night that hadn't gone so well for either of them, and build an instant connection. An unplanned second encounter happens while a building is threatening to collapse on their heads, and an impossible choice has to be made.

The attack leaves deep scars, both physically and mentally, and they are going to learn that the hardest part wasn’t surviving September 11th. Finding the strength to keep living in the aftermath of what that day caused is what proves to be the real challenge, especially when the light at the end of the tunnel seems impossible to reach.

Posting date: June 14th  (subscribe to my Ao3 so you get notified!)

Artist: Kaelysta

[codependentsamanddean]

Guess who spent 5 hours at the salon to get a new hair color?

[codependentsamanddean]

aquietviolent replied to your post: I’m rolling my eyes so hard at everything right...

better be careful, you’re eyes might get stuck that way and then you’ll look particularly awkward in our j2 op in october. :)

by october I’ll probably have ripped my eyes out so you’ll have to guide me wifey

[codependentsamanddean]

aquietviolent replied to your post: Tumblr, stop rec’ing me blogs that hate Jared, I...

i def hate him all the time. all day, err day…

me too

I hate that giant puppy with those dimples and kind eyes and smile

he’’s awful

[codependentsamanddean]

aquietviolent replied to your post: PRISON BREAK IS BACK HOLD ME

what about queer as folk.

what about I’m having a meltdown rn

[codependentsamanddean]

aquietviolent replied to your post: are you married? i thought you liked to nun your...

get this off my dash immediately

nope.

[samstiels-deactivated20201212]

Five Things

tagged by @wehunt-monsters-whatthehell thank you love :)

Five Things You’ll Find in My Bag

Wallet, mints, hand sanitizer, inhaler, red liquid matte 

Five Things in My Bedroom

Yugoslavian flag, blackout curtains, guitar I never play, a cat, so many shoes, shoes everywhere

Five Things I’ve Always Wanted to Do in Life

Be someone else, go home, write a book, climb Jared Padalecki like a tree, climb Sebastian Stan like a tree

Five Things That Make Me Happy

Coffee, cigarettes, peace and quiet, cats, 300k slow burn

Five Things I’m Currently Into

Every version of Beethoven’s 9th, The Magicians, Chocolate Sparrow White Mocha, ankle booties, The Lip Bar Liquid Matte

Five Things on My To-Do List

Finish writing like 300 fics, finish college, paint the bedroom, get my motorcycle license, climb Sebastian Stan like a tree   

Five Things You May Not Know About Me

I’ve been clean for seven and a half years, hate onions, have PTSD, I almost got shot when I was 12, babies creep me out

Five People to Tag

new people I don’t know yet @ronweascly, @anthvnystcrk, and @aquietviolent