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22 | Legends of Darlaria

⨰ summary: You wake up amidst a war with no recollection of your past. Faced with suspicion and distrust, you struggle to assimilate into a foreign nation—otherwise known as your home. But on your enlightening journey to search for your identity, you come face to face with the General of the Army.

⨰ pairing/rating: yoongi x reader & jungkook x reader | PG-15

⨰ genre: 70% angst, 30% fluff | war!au & magic!au

⨰ warnings: profanity, description of brutal injuries (blood & gore)

⨰ wordcount: 5.7k

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⧖⧗Circa Alexandrite⧗⧖

Three circas ago, things had been fine. Well, as fine as things can get during a war, anyway. Despite the little hold-up in Circa Aquamarine, everything else has been smooth sailing: few casualties, even fewer deaths. But it’s summer once again and the Darlaeans have become ruthless.

The medical tents are busy at every hour of the day with healers rushing in and out, beads of sweat dripping down their fatigued faces. You try to help out as much as time permits, but even your work becomes too much with creating all of the new battle plans, running an entire sector and training in secret with the help of Nayoon. Even with the repeating codes, there’s not much you can do to prepare for the Darlaean’s magic.

“It’s so cruel,” Nayoon shivers. “Who would come up with magic like this?”

“They must be getting tired of having been on the losing side for too long,” Jeonwoo snorts. “They’re doing anything they can to win.”

“But it’s too much,” Nayoon says.

“We’ve done worse,” Wonmi counters. “They’re only getting back at us. An eye for an eye. A life for a life.”

Nayoon visibly grimaces. “But you don’t understand, Captain Bak. There was a soldier in the medical tent two hours ago. Do you know how she died? They shot a small metal sphere into her. It only hit her knee, but as soon as it made contact with her skin and punctured through it, it morphed into a sponge-like structure. It absorbed all of the liquid in her body. I watched her eyeballs dry out and sink into her skull, Captain. I watched her unable to cry physical tears through the pain. And I heard her screams die in her throat once all of the salivae dried up. No matter how many healers tried to extract the sponge, it wouldn’t budge. She died in my arms, Captain. How can you say an eye for an eye, a life for a life? I’ve never tortured a Darlaean to death like that in my entire life!”

“Then would you like to suggest a solution?” Wonmi says. “What can we do except take it and deal our own damage?”

“I just—I wasn’t looking for a solution, I was only…” Nayoon looks and sounds close to tears. You place a hand on her shoulder, hoping she won’t burst. The injuries in the tent have been taking a toll on her—just as much as they’ve been taking a toll on you and everyone else in the army. Of course it’s difficult watching people in pain and being unable to help them at all.

“I’m curious about the origin of these new Darlaean spells,” Major Hyun speaks up, attempting to neutralize the atmosphere of the tent. “They all seem to start with a small spherical metal ball.”

“I don’t fucking get it,” Major Jo Soowon says, a frown taking its place on her lips. “How can one tiny little thing morph into so many different attacks? And so quickly, too?”

“I’m not too familiar with the Forgotten Kingdom’s magic, unfortunately,” Major Hyun admits. “But it does seem to have to do with transformation.”

“Transformation?” about three to four officers ask simultaneously.

“Yes,” Major Hyun answers. “Unlike us, the Darlaeans may never create out of nothing. It seems as though they are taking advantage of their transformation magic to attack us.”

“Well, how do we stop it?” Major Jo asks, crossing her arms over her chest so suddenly that her ponytail sways from behind her. “It’s not like we can keep them from manufacturing their stupid fucking metal balls.”

“Then maybe we find a way to prevent them from completing their transformation spell,” Nayoon says. She sounds desperate, clutching your hand on her shoulder. “We have to figure out something. We’re getting massacred out there and I—I don’t know if I can take it anymore.”

“Toughen up,” Ohsung says, handing his major his gourd filled with Takju, but she refuses with an adamant shake of her head. He sighs. “I think you were onto something, Major. Preventing them from completing their transformation spell.” You jump when the man suddenly turns to you, his drunk eyes peering into yours. “Think you can work with that, Capt’?”

“Well, I was thinking we’ll need a sample,” you say, the idea of which had been brewing in your head ever since Nayoon had spoken. “We’ll need a sample of a sphere that hasn’t been touched by their magic. If we can figure out its properties, then we would be able to see if we could change the structure of it and ultimately prevent the Darlaeans from applying their transformation spells.”

“See!” Ohsung says, his head tossing over to the side to stare at his major. “We already have a solution. We can’t give up yet.”

It’s strange seeing Ohsung be the optimistic one in the central tent, but then again, Nayoon isn’t usually the pessimistic one, either. But it seems like much of the injuries in the medical tents have eroded her hope, and she had wisely chosen this time to show her vulnerability, being unable to do so in the presence of her soldiers in fear of instilling terror.

“It won’t be easy,” Suhyun speaks up. “It’s going to take a team of well-trained air mediums,” she says, trailing off to look at Nayoon. “Do you think you can do it, Major Im?”

Nayoon’s eyes enlargen. “Train the air mediums, sir?”

“I’ll accompany you,” the General says in his husky voice. “You won’t be doing it alone.”

“Do you really think it’s worth all the extra training, though?” Jaeno says, crossing his arms over his chest and inadvertently flexing the tiger tattoo on his bicep. “Shouldn’t we be training all soldiers to be dodging the spheres?”

“Of course it’s worth the extra training, Major,” Wonmi sighs. “We’re trying to get to the root of the problem. Dodging the attacks won’t have as high of a success rate in the long run.”

Jaeno just shrugs. “Just trying to share some edge cases.”

Wonmi has a look on her face as if she wants to say, ‘Then at least come up with intelligent edge cases.’ But she wouldn’t publicly humiliate her own major like that; she may have a sharp tongue, but she knows when and where to use it.

“I also think we need to open up more medical tents,” Hyojung says. “I don’t want any soldiers being treated on the ground. They all deserve a cot.”

“We need more healers too,” Jeonwoo chimes in. “We need as much help as we can get.”

“I’ll see what I can do about that,” the General says.

“We’ll be all right,” Suhyun says. “The worst of it will be over soon—especially when we figure out how to counter their transformation magic.”

The General nods.

“Major Im, if you could begin organizing training groups starting today,” Suhyun says, “it would be greatly appreciated.”

“Yes, sir,” Nayoon says. She looks a little better already, now that a semi-solution has been set in place. You give her shoulder one last squeeze before letting go.

“I think that’s all the General and I wanted to discuss with you today,” Suhyun continues. “Thank you for the short meeting. Everyone is dismissed.”

The officers are in a hurry to leave. Rightfully so. There’s quite a lot to do. Even Nayoon, who usually walks out with you has hurried away, off to complete her new duties. The tent is almost bare now, save for the General and Suhyun, yet even she’s halfway out of the curtains. “I have another meeting with the fourth sector,” she tells him, and he can only nod in response.

That just leaves you and him.

You don’t know how it got to this point, and so quickly, but you also don’t really mind.

And then you hear him call you.

“Officer,” he says in that soft voice of his.

Your heart leaps in your chest.

“Yes, sir?”

“I saw you and Major Im,” he says.

You frown, a little perplexed. “Sir?”

“This morning,” he barely elaborates. “The past several mornings, actually.”

Oh. Oh no. He saw you training with her. Does he think you’re going against his orders? Does he think you’ll sneak out onto the battlefield? Is he going to chastise you? Has he already chastised Nayoon?

“I asked her to train me,” you say in an attempt to take all of the blame. “It wasn’t her fault. It was my idea, sir, and we’ll stop. It was selfish of me to burden Major Im with more tasks when she’s already been so busy with her duties. I apologize.” It’s a pity. You should’ve been more careful, should’ve been more aware of your surroundings. Because training was the only thing that kept your and Nayoon’s minds off of the horrible deaths and the other abhorrent terrors the Darlaeans were imposing on your soldiers.

The General raises his eyebrows. “You don’t have to stop,” he says. “Nor do you have to apologize. You can train as much as you want, Officer; I have no qualms over that. In fact, you’ve been improving.” A slight pause. “It’s nice to see.”

Oh.

Oh!

Your anxieties wash away, and they become replaced with a newfound hope: “Then will you reconsider, sir?”

“Reconsider?” He frowns as if he’s confused, but soon, the recognition flashes in his eyes. His frown deepens. “No, Officer. I will not reconsider letting you go out there.”

“But sir,” you protest, “you said it yourself that I’ve improved.”

“It’s true that you have, Officer,” he says, “but I don’t think you understand. No amount of improvement can prepare you for what’s out there. Haven’t you seen the medical tents? This isn’t a choice you want to make because you feel left out. If you feel shame for being the only officer who does not fight, then so be it. Shame is worth you being alive.”

“It’s not just shame,” you say. “It’s the fact that I want to fight for Solaria. Why must I stay back and witness drafted Solarians go into war with terrorized faces and uncertainty in their steps? I would never fear, and I would be so very certain of my decision. Sir, I’d happily risk my life for this nation. Please, just let me.”

He shakes his head. “It’ll only be a matter of time until one of us officers comes home badly injured.” He stares you down as if to instill fear in you. “When that happens, Officer, you’ll see why I don’t want you going out there.”

“But sir—”

He stops you by holding up his hand. “Did you not understand?”

“Sir?”

“I told you three circas ago that I don’t want to lose you. I hope that meant something to you, Officer.”

Of course it meant something. There hasn’t been a day that’s gone by without you thinking about it. Over and over again his words have echoed in your head.

Because I don’t want to lose you.

When you’d first heard those words you’d nearly combusted. You’d felt like vomiting butterflies. You felt the stars shooting across your belly. You didn’t know what else to say but stutter a very embarrassing, “I-I… I don’t want to lose you, either.” And you’d meant it with every fiber of your being—not just because he’s your General, but because… for Sooht’s sake! You’re not going to continue down that path. You’d also been too stunned at his “confession” that you’d been unable to probe him further about his decision. But once in the solitude of your tent, you’d realized maybe you’d interpreted his words incorrectly.

You and he are merely a captain and her General. He can’t lose you because you’re currently his sole battle planner; without you, the army would be plunged into chaos before he and Suhyun could scramble to find a replacement. He only said he couldn’t lose you because he really can’t, not without risking unwanted casualties.

Unlike you, he’d strictly meant business.

Unlike you, he’d said it without his heart threatening to burst out of his chest. To him, it was only a fact. It was purely logical. Rational.

For Sooht’s sake, you’re pathetic.

“Then sir, I want to take in an apprentice,” you say. “An apprentice battle planner. I’ll train them, so if something happens to me out there, they can replace me. That way, you won’t ever have to take on extra work or go through the struggle of finding someone capable enough to do the job.”

The General sighs, and for the first time in your entire two years of knowing him, he actually sounds exasperated with you. “This is an order, Officer.”

You match his exasperation. “But why won’t my suggestion work? If I start looking for an apprentice now, and I begin training them, I should be fine to begin fighting in the next few circas, shouldn’t I be?”

“I said it’s an order.”

“But sir—”

“I don’t want you dead,” he says. “I don’t even want to see you injured. Is that what you want to hear from me? Is telling you that I don’t want to lose you not enough?”

The air suddenly becomes very unbreathable. Is he…?

“I know you want to burn,” the General continues. “I know that you must feel as if I am smothering you. But please. Allow me to be selfish for once in my life. I can’t lose you. I can’t bear the thought.”

Oh.

“Oh,” you actually say. Only because you can’t find a single coherent thought inside of your head. Only because you’re screaming and yelling in your mind and none of that can translate into words at the moment.

“It’s irrational,” he says. “I know. I should know better. My clan has always hated me for being weak, but maybe it’s time to embrace it.” He looks you dead in the eyes. “You’ll follow me until you die, you said? Then I’ll do everything in my power to keep you alive.”

You’re at a loss for words.

Every bit of annoyance, frustration and anxiety you’ve felt about being unable to fight in the war exits your body.

“S-Sir…”

“I’ve grown to care about you, Officer. I’ve already lost so many. But it’d really kill me to lose you too.”

Silence.

And it lasts for quite a bit. The General is panting slightly, peering at you with those sharp eyes of his. His cheeks are tinged pink, his hair swept messily across his forehead… The wrinkles in his scarlet uniform, the three notches sitting on the collar, the golden cords tangled up together… His back is slouched per usual, hands laced behind him. You’re too afraid to meet his eyes, so your gaze rests on his feet, where he dons a pair of muddy boots.

He must’ve been so busy he couldn’t even clean up before the meeting. And now here he is, before you, professing things that you’d never thought would come out of his mouth. For Sooht’s sake, you want to look at his face, want to analyze his countenance, but you’re scared. Of what, exactly? You’re not even too sure.

“It’s all right,” the General says gently. His feet shift against the dirt ground. “You don’t have to say anything.”

But you want to say something—that’s the problem. The words are threatening to spill right out of you, building up inside your throat. You want to say that you care for him too, that seeing him marching off to battle every couple of days leaves you with fear and trepidation. You want to tell him that it isn’t fair—why does he get to stop you from fighting and not you? Why is he allowed to protect you, but all you can do is sit and watch him put himself in danger over and over again? Why do you feel so warm? So fuzzy inside? You should be angry at him for being selfish! You should be trying to convince him that his care for you is crossing professional boundaries. You should tell him that you feel the same way.

But you don’t.

You really don’t say anything at all. You can’t. You’re scared of messing up; you’re scared of his reaction.

The General nods at your silence. “Then you’ve been dismissed, Officer. Feel free to leave.”

You do so, without a second of hesitation. You just want to get out of there, to clear your thoughts, your mind. You move so quickly that you forget to bid him luck for tomorrow when he’ll be leaving for another one of those dreaded battles.

And he watches you leave, a sudden sharp pain overtaking his chest. He wonders, slouching even further, if he’d said too much—if he’d accidentally scared you away. He didn’t mean to confess so much. He didn’t mean it to get so personal. But everyone he’s ever loved and cared for has left him for the spirits. He only wanted to prevent it from happening again.

He curses in his head.

It hurts. Sometimes, he cares about you so much that he knows it’s blinding him. It’s dangerous, whatever these emotions are. And it hurts even more when he realizes that you’d left—just like that—without saying anything. Of course, you don’t owe him any words, and maybe he’s being pathetic once again, but for the past three circas, rain or shine, you’ve always bid him luck the day before his battles.

But the worst pain isn’t the fact that you’ve broken a three-circa-long tradition. The worst pain is the fact that he will always be your General, and you, his officer. It’s purely professional. It’s a roundabout way to say that you probably don’t feel the same.

You didn’t sleep last night.

The General’s words have been echoing in your head. So much so that you’ve ripped apart every word, every pause, every facial expression of his…

I can’t lose you. I can’t bear the thought.

I’ll do everything in my power to keep you alive.

It’d really kill me to lose you too.

These declarations… do they really mean as much as you think they do?

Your heart hasn’t stopped at its rapid pace since then. What does that say about you?

What do his words say about him?

You bury your head under your cylindrical pillow, groaning into your futon in frustration.

He’s your fucking General! You’re just his captain. But why does it feel like there’s something more? Why has there always felt like there’s more?

Can he feel it too? Is that why he said the things he said?

Did he expect you to say it back?

Fuck! you curse inwardly, sitting up from your futon with your pillow flying across the tent. With so much brewing in your mind, you suddenly realize that yesterday, you’d completely forgotten to bid the General good luck before he went to battle. Three circas of doing so have gone down the drain. But maybe you can catch him before he goes today. Maybe you can fix this. Because as stupid as it sounds, you think it works—bidding him luck before battles, that is. For three full circas, he’s never been a day late and has never acquired more than a little scratch from altercations on the battlefield—even during the worst season of the year. So bidding him good luck does matter—and if it’s all just a big coincidence, it matters for the sake of your sanity, too.

You scramble up, haphazardly getting dressed and sprinting out of your tent with just one goal in mind—only to bump right into Hana and go tumbling to the ground.

Hana gasps. “Oh, Y/N!”

With the wind knocked out of you, it takes you a few seconds to be able to say anything. “H-Hana!” you pant. “D-Did the fourth sector leave yet? I had some unfinished business and I-I—”

She helps you up with one hand, hoisting you back onto your feet. “They left a few minutes ago,” she says, cocking her head. “Are you okay, Y/N? I’ve never seen you look so…” She glances at your wrinkled uniform, tousled hair and sunken eyes. “Frazzled.”

“Fuck!” you say, hands shooting up to grasp at your head. “Oh, fuck.”

Hana looks genuinely concerned for your well-being. “Something happened,” she deduces. “It’s a big deal, isn’t it? You look like you’ve seen all four spirits!”

“N-No! It’s nothing,” you say, straightening your uniform.

“Y/N, you’re the worst liar,” Hana says. She grasps your hands, and electricity runs down your spine. “What is it? Tell me. What’s bothering you? I want to help! And if I can’t do it, I’ll make Taehoon fix it. He’s handy; you know that.”

But you can’t tell her. How are you going to explain last night’s conversation with the General without divulging some of your own emotions? What would she say if she knew? She could disapprove. She could even think you rose up the ranks because of this very relationship you have with him.

No. Hana wouldn’t think that. She’s always been so supportive of you. She can also tell when you’re lying, which is a tribute to your great friendship. None of your lies to her have ever gone undetected—not that you lie to her excessively, to begin with. Still, all of this means that you’ll have to tell the truth in some way or another.

You take a deep breath. “I didn’t get a chance to say goodbye,” you say.

Hana’s eyes widen. “You were that worried about not being—” she stops herself and you watch in anxiety as her eyes soften. “Oh, of course, Y/N. But nothing’s gonna happen to Nayoon. She’ll be fine. I know you were worried about her last time… um, disaster struck, but she’s the Elunian prodigy, for Sori’s sake! The Darlaeans out there should be scared that she’s gonna be out there!”

You have never felt more relief in your life.

“Y-Yeah…” you say. “I know… But it’s just that we’ve had this ritual… And I don’t… It’s going to sound so stupid, but I don’t want the only time I didn’t say anything to cause a disaster.”

Hana just shakes her head, patting your shoulder. “Nothing’s going to happen to her,” she says. “Nayoon’s strong! She’s a major, now! And she has both Captain Goe and Captain Jo to back her up. Plus, the General’s out there with them today. It’s a foolproof plan. The Darlaeans will be running away with their tails tucked between their legs!”

“I hope so.” You attempt a smile. Maybe you’re overreacting. Maybe forgetting to say one little thing to the General before he left for his umpteenth battle these past three circas won’t lead to his impending doom. Maybe, in a roundabout way, Hana is right. “I’m sorry,” you apologize to her. “I crashed into you this morning and bothered you with some bullshit, didn’t I?”

Hana just snorts. “I’m the one who knocked you out, Captain, so maybe I should apologize.” She hums, thoughtfully tapping her chin with her index. But her thoughts run short as she suddenly perks up. “Ugh, I’m too hungry to think. Ooh! Come on!” she says, dragging you away from your tent. “Let’s go grab some breakfast. Just us two. I’ll even shoo Taehoon away! We deserve some quality time together. I hope they have some good ol’ pumpkin porridge. You know something funny? Back when I was in Aella, I actually found myself missing the food here. Isn’t that insane? I think a true low point was when I thought I was craving some of that spinach porridge. Bleh!”

With Hana to fill your void and chase away your superstitions, you’re able to have a somewhat relaxing morning. But the moment she leaves to complete her training for the day, you’re left behind to fend for yourself once more, and your thoughts have never been too kind to you.

“You don’t look so well,” Wonmi tells you as she and you scrub the bloody rags next to the medical tent.

“I don’t feel so well,” you answer.

Wonmi wrings her last rag and stands up, staring down at you with a look you can’t quite discern the meaning of. “Get some rest. I’m working a double shift in the tent, anyway.”

“I couldn’t do that,” you say, standing up and bending down to grab the bucket filled with murky red water. “I’m just… I’m worried about…”

“Nayoon?” Wonmi asks. “Ohsung won’t let anything happen to her out there. You shouldn’t waste your time worrying about things that aren’t in your control.”

“I know… I just—”

“You can’t help it?” she says, raising her eyebrow. The two of you begin to walk back toward the entrance of the medical tent.

“I really can’t,” you sigh. “It’s just… If something happens to him, I don’t think… I don’t know… I’d feel like it’s my fault.”

Wonmi hums but takes her sweet time to react. You wonder if it’s something that you said that warranted such a gap in reaction time, but that’s when it dawns on you: in your worried state, you’ve accidentally referred to the General instead of Nayoon. If something happens to him. For Sooht’s sake, how could you be so stupid? But before you can backpedal in panic, Wonmi finally says, “I didn’t know you were so close to him.”

Your face burns.

“I-I just—I um, I’m not, no, I mean—”

“Being embarrassed about it makes me think there’s something more,” Wonmi says. She pulls back the curtain to the medical tent, and the stench of death slams itself into your senses. Yet Wonmi doesn’t react at all. “I suppose,” she begins, foot halfway into the tent, “respect does manifest in strange ways during a war.” She gives you a final look. “Some in more platonic ways than others.” Then, she’s walking away, slinging the cleaned rags over her shoulder and disappearing behind a crowd of busy healers.

For several seconds, you stand there, eyes wide and mouth slightly agape. You’re only able to shake out of your thoughts when you realize you’ve become quite a rude obstacle for the healers simply trying to tend to their patients. You quickly move away, the dirty water in the bucket sloshing around as you do so.

And for the rest of your shift in the tent, you work in a trance, mind someplace else. But your body is so used to your duties, you’re able to carry out your tasks without breaking out of your thoughts.

What had Wonmi meant? Some in more platonic ways than others. Does she know? Did you make it that obvious? Maybe she understands the feeling. Maybe she’s waiting for Ohsung just like you’re waiting for the General. Maybe she only said it to scare you. But no. Wonmi would never waste her breath saying something that meant nothing.

And you really do respect the General. Maybe a little too much. And maybe you’ve made it increasingly obvious. You’ve declared that you’d die for him after all. You’ve rested your head on his shoulder, too. And for Sooht’s sake, you’ve embraced him. You’ve felt his heartbeat against your ear—beating quite irregularly—just as yours.

Oh no.

Just like he’d declared to you, you can’t lose him—nor can you bear the thought. Just like him, you want to do everything in your power to keep him alive, which is why you’d been so adamant about wishing him good luck before he left for his battles. And just like him, it’d really kill you to lose him.

This is more than what an officer should feel for their General. You know this. This is the way that Hana feels for Taehoon. This is the way that Doyun feels for Minhee. This is even the way that Ohsung seems to feel for Wonmi.

You feel unbelievably happy when he speaks to you, and when he calls for you, your face heats up. When he asks how you’ve been feeling or if you’ve eaten yet, your stomach does strange flips. When he smiles, you want to smile, too. And for Sooht’s sake… when he cried, you’d wanted to embrace him, wanted to let him cry on your shoulder, but you weren’t brave enough. You didn’t want to force something that wasn’t there.

You want him to be alive—more than anything. And you know you said two years ago that love and war is something you will never do. But you also swore to dedicate your life to this nation, to its people… and most of all, to its General. Maybe you’ve sworn it a little too hard.

But what about him? His heart had been beating just as rapidly.

You roll over on your back, staring up at the red ceiling of your tent from your futon.

It’s a possibility, right?

Or is it more than a possibility?

After everything he’s done for you, said to you… he has to care more about you than his sole battle planner. Or maybe you’re projecting your deepest wishes. Still… Why else would he take you around Solaria to show you the sectors that you’ve forgotten about? Why else would he wake up earlier in the morning and sacrifice his sleep to personally help you relearn fire wielding? Why else was he so ruthless when he interrogated you? Why else did he take you to his home? Why else? Why else would he actively seek your company? Because he’s bored? He barely has enough time to sleep!

But maybe you really are projecting.

Yet…

You sigh, sitting up on your futon and bringing your knees in to hug them. At this rate, you’ll drown in your own cyclical nonsense.

For Sooht’s sake! It doesn’t matter.

In the end, it doesn’t matter at all. Because you and he both don’t believe in love and war and nothing will ever happen because you’re both married to your duties. It’s a pipe dream, essentially. And you’re fine with it. Maybe.

You sigh again.

It’s still a little early before you should feel worried that the fourth sector hasn’t come back. And at some point in the day, you’d realized that Wonmi had been right after all: it’s useless to worry about things that are beyond your control. But now that you’ve finished worrying about your thoughts regarding the General, you’ve run out of things to worry about.

Well, not quite.

Just as you’re about to stand to see if Joon needs any help in the medical tent, someone barges into your living quarters. The someone is Hana, panting hard, with sweat dripping down the sides of her face. There’s a moving shadow outside, a running figure that looks just like Taehoon, and he’s calling to his girlfriend in a worried voice. “H-Hana! Slow down, Hana! You’re going to fall!”

“Y/N!” Hana screams, her voice shrill and filled with terror.

Immediately, chills run down your spine.

Oh no.

She’s close to tears.

Your throat dries up and your hands begin to shake.

No. No, please. You beg to no one in particular. Not again.

“We were worried about the wrong person!” she cries. “Oh, Y/N.” Hana falls to the ground, completely distraught and frozen in disbelief. “It’s not Nayoon,” she says in a voice so quiet she doesn’t sound like herself at all. “It’s him. It’s the General!”

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the info about Holomatter in Transformers, is that it is a solid-light projection technology...when Gems appear Human, their bodies are made up of solid-light, or as Pearl would put it, a "conscious manifestation of light" but it could also be a form of Holomatter that is inside the Gems...

a Gem's body, that is a conscious manifestation of light, might be some form of holomatter, because they are able to become solid bodies. Cybertronians can make Human Avatars that is made out of some type of conscious manifestation of light A.K.A. "Holomatter".

the Gems, their gems are their real bodies, and their human looking bodies are their avatars and are like holomatter...

it might be possible that Gems do have sparks that are inside of their gems,

and for all we know, Gems could be a distant cousin species of the cybertronians, but instead of being made by Primus, they were made by both Primus and Unicron’s younger sibling, who lives inside the earth...

well the earth in the transformers timeline...

I don’t even think it was Unicron in the earth that is in the Transformers Prime, but it could of turn out to be his and Primus’s younger sibling, who was harmed by the blood of Unicron, and would of became Unicron’s new body, if Megatron and Optimus didn’t team up to stop Unicron....

so those two wouldn’t of known they were saving Primus and Unicron’s younger sibling from Unicron.

I still think that it might be possible Primus and Unicron in Transformers Prime, were once one in the same, until the Thirteen Primes betrayed them and listen to the words of Quintessa...

The Thirteen Primes, took the good side of their creator’s spark and placed it into the planet Cybertron, and it became the planet’s core.

the other half of his spark, which would become the “bad spark”, stayed inside Primus’s original body, and ended up being banished far away from Cybertron.

so in theory, Quintessa had sweet talked the Thirteen Primes in betraying Primus & Unicron’s original self, and split his spark into two halves, and placing the good half that creates life into the planet’s core, and banished the other half that was still in the body.

yes Primus and Unicron are still twin brothers, but both of them lost who they once were, a being of pure balance, who would end up being betrayed by his first thirteen creations, and all thanks to the lies and half-truths of Quintessa.

we might not know fully on how Gems came to be, but it might be possible they share some form of ancestry with the cybertronians.

and unlike the Autobots, the Homeworld Gems (well not all of them cause there is Eyeball-Ruby and Aquamarine...)

finally figured out how things were run was wrong, and while the Decepticons in some timelines had strayed away from the true meaning of what they were fighting for.....the Crystal Gems still fought to protect life on Earth and fight for all gems, and if Decepticons remembered part of the cause, they would of fought for all cybertronians to be free to choose their own path and the jobs they wanted on cybertron, and not just something that they are forced to do the moment they come into being.

in Transformers Animated, The Decepticons are the Crystal Gems of their universe and timelines,

while the Autobots are the Homeworld Gems....

Optimus in TFA, and his team, are more likely in between....

plus it’s possible that Optimus doesn’t know that the Autobots are misusing the planet’s living metal to make protoforms, and all the new Autobots on Cybertron that weren’t born in the same generation as Ultra Magnus, have been given sparks from Vector Sigma, and NOT the Allspark.

it is also possible that some of the Autobot Colonizes planets in TFA, were once home to organic life, and the newer and even lower rank Autobots, are not made aware of this, that those from Ultra Magnus’s generation, but not Ratchet because Ratchet and a few older bots are much younger than Ultra Magnus...

get those organic planets ready to become homes to some Autobots who move from Cybertron to those planets.

they likely do what homeworld does, send their version of a Lapis Lazuli to terraform or in other words “cyber-terraform” the organic planet and get rid of any organic life that is on it.....

the younger generation of Autobots, who believed they were the “good guys”

might of had no clue of this, or that by “protecting all life” they thought it meant all life, not just cybertronian....

but they could of misunderstood, because the older generation, might of meant just cybertronians, and not organic life.

not all Decpeticons are bad or evil, and this can be the same for some Autobots.

some Autobots are made up some spoiled rich slag-heads who only joined the fight so they can keep their comfy life style.

and I don’t even think Optimus from Transformers Prime fully understood what was going on, and he was likely heard out and agreed with by the council, is because they wanted to use him as a figure head to shut everyone up and make everyone think everything is getting better on Cybertron, when really it isn’t, everything would stay the same, and there will still be Cybertronians who have poor living conditions and those who are higher in the caste system are given more freedom then those who are lower in the caste system.

it might of been a good thing that Nightshade, Twitch, Thrash, Hashtag and Jawbreaker wasn’t born during those stupid times...

they would be the better and more smarter generation and they are lucky to have two Moms, one being their human Mom, Dot, and Mother Earth herself.

Sari might of be the daughter of both Isaac and Megatron, because her protoform might of came from Megatron who was possibly in a stasis coma and wasn’t really dead, but him being separated from his body too long could of still had a time limit which would of possibly ended by the time Sari became 9 years old...

Sari would technically be a Terran as well, because half of her DNA comes from a human organic source that is from Earth, while her former newborn baby protoform sparkling self came from Megatron, who was in a stasis coma when he had her.

I still think it’s possible that Isaac isn’t Sari’s only parent, and the protoform needed more DNA, which makes me think it might of only scanned a bit from Isaac from using some of his hair that might of fell off when the protoform shocked him, but he was wearing gloves, so there is no way that it could of got any DNA from him when he was wearing gloves.

so maybe Marissa Faireborn is Sari’s Human Mom, and wasn’t wearing gloves when she touched Sari’s protoform, like Marissa got in the lab and saw Isaac passed out and notice the protoform.

if Sari did get her red hair from someone, it might of been from Marissa.

so that would mean that she has three parents, Megatron, Isaac and Marissa.

and it might be possible Steven from Steven Universe, could turn out to have a Human Mother as well, he has his Human Dad Greg, and his Gem Mom Rose.

Pink-Steven’s form is made up of a Holomatter, and it could be possible that Steven is a mix of synthetic and organic, which might allow him to re-fuse with his gem half Pink-Steven.

this would also make Steven’s human half, a Bio-Synthetic hybrid, he is still human but he is also part synthetic.

and if in the transformers universe, some of the cybertronians were the “watcher angels” and could make their holomatter forms into solid bodies....

and by unexplained and should be impossible means, they ended up having children with organics, and making a hybrid species, which in transformers, it would explain why the nephilim back then, were so big....

but their descendants of now, are not as large as their nephilim ancestors.

and if that were true in real life, and cybertronian were real....

that would make some cybertronians my distant cousins. XD

but anyway, it could be possible that both Gems and Cybertronians use holomatter technology, but Gems are born with it and come out of the holes they pop out of, in their holomatter forms.

their gem bodies are their technical real bodies, but their holomatter bodies are their avatars, same with cybertronians...

their holomatter bodies act as their avatars, but their cybertronian bodies are their real bodies....

it could be possible that while cybertronians are born with holomatter, that allows them to be able to make avatars that are much smaller than themselves, but they don’t learn this until much later in their life, while gems learn this on instinct when they first emerge.

is it weird to think that if I had to form a platonic binary bond with, I wouldn’t mind if it was Tarantulas from Earthspark and maybe even Knockout from Transformers Prime, as well as Blitzwing from TFA.

it is pretty clear that Robby and Mo have a platonic binary bond with their terran cybertronian siblings.

Tarantulas from Earthspark, is such a sweetie and would probably make a good parent in the future.

a platonic binary bond between a cybertronian and human, can be family and friendship based...

and if some info is true, then it can be possible for some binary bonds to go from just platonic to romantic.

and there might of been only a few cybertronians in one of the few canon timelines, that formed a romantic binary bond with a human.

like Powerglide from one of the older transformers cartoons, and there was another one, who turns into some kind of boat...?

the info about binary bonding, is when a Cybertronian enters into a symbiotic relationship with a smaller being, like a organic...

and it wouldn't just be a Earthling, and can be a Nebulan or any other organic life form.

it might be possible that Gems can also form a binary bond with both other gems and humans...

Greg and Rose being able to have Steven, might be thanks to sharing a romantic binary bond with each other.

and that love they shared together, ended up having Steven.

also a binary bond that can happen between a Cybertronian and a smaller life form, is not the same as the Other type of binary that has to do with gender...

that is a different thing, and has nothing to do with the binary bond that has to do with a symbiotic relationship, that can be either platonic and family based or the type that can be romantic binary bond.

it is possible that some binary bonds that are formed, will be platonic and friendship based, and even be like family based, like viewing your platonic binary bonded one as a sibling or at times as a parent.

a romantic binary bond, is in theory, something different from that, and it could have those who have romantic feelings for each other, or at least start to, view each other as their significant other.

it could be possible that Arcee and Jack (from Transformers Prime) had formed a binary bond and not know it, but it being the platonic type.

so Arcee might of been like either a second mother figure or the Aunt figure to Jack.

while both Cybertronians and Gems might of been made by two different creators from the real world, they could possibly share some things in common.

like the whole both Cybertronians and Gems using Holomatter to make their Avatar bodies, to interact with other beings and also with other Gems.

Cybertronians are able to transform thanks to a T-Cog in them...

Gems are able to shape-shift and it could be possible they could transform to look like a Cybertronian, but keeping that form for too long will take a lot of energy and it would put a strain on their bodies.

the only way they could stay in that form for long periods of time, would be if they make their “cybertronian” form into their real form, this process would have them needing to poof and stay in their gem and remake their form and making their disguise form into their new real form, much like Steven’s Mom did.

the Cybertronians using Holomatter, might also be connected to their sparks,

but they are not able to be too far away from their avatars, but they can still make their holomatter forms into solid forms that feel real.

why this isn’t the case in Transformers: Earthspark...

it might be a reason why Tarantulas doesn’t know about this, that he can make a human avatar by making it solid and more life like.

maybe the cybertronians from the Earthspark Timeline had forgot this.

it does suck that the Autobots work with G.H.O.S.T. who are like the Transformers world’s version of G.U.N. from Sonic’s World.

I wouldn’t be surprised if Eggman is the way he is, and became the man he is, at least in the video game timeline, and not the live action movie timeline...

is because some of the men in G.U.N. are responsible for him losing two of the people he loved and cared about, which happen to be his Grandfather Gerald and his cousin Maria...

and with Sage being born, he has family to love again, well his robots are still technically his family as well, but Sage is his daughter and baby, and him showing such a soft side to himself when it comes to Sage is really sweet.

Sage is already a Daddy’s Girl, and it be nice if Sage appears more video games and maybe even in the cartoons.

Sage could possibly be able to make her body more solid, like the holomatter that lets Cybertronians do the same thing when they use avatars.

the humans in G.H.O.S.T. are all idiots, they think every Cybertronian that isn’t working with them, is a Decepticon....even if they do have a sweet-spark like Megatron working with those G.H.O.S.T. jerks, at least he has a clue that what their doing is wrong....

unlike Himbo Prime, who makes the Optimus from TFA seem to be one of my favorite versions, I don’t think TFA-Optimus would work with G.H.O.S.T.

I think that in theory, Megatron and Dot Malto might have a binary bond, but of course it is platonic, and their bond is like a Older Brother & Younger Sister type.

and that would make Megatron, in a way....

Alex Malto’s Adoptive Brother-In-Law.

Steven and Connie’s binary bond, could of started out just platonic with a little crush feelings in there, until it started to grow into a romantic type.

Sari might of formed a binary bond with her Autobot friends, but it being platonic, but she and Optimus’s Team don’t know they had formed such a bond.

Sari is not just a cybertronian, she is also a human, so it might be possible she can still form that type of symbiotic bond.

and like Steven Quartz Universe, both Sari’s human and cybertronian side need the proper care....

Steven only got maybe around a 99 or 98% proper care for his human side, because of the whole while he did get the proper love, his Dad never took him to see a doctor, and Connie’s Mom had a right to be upset and disappointed in Greg for never taking Steven to a doctor.

Greg became rich, which is still good, and he could of used some of it to hire a tutor to come to Steven’s home, and teach him, and maybe even let Steven take online classes, if he isn’t able to go to school with other kids.

Greg can still have some fun with his new wealth, but he needs to use some of it for Steven, like not just for food and clothes, but also to use it for doctors and maybe even when it comes to hiring a tutor to teach Steven at home if homeschooling is better for him.

Greg is still in the gray zone, not 100% being a bad parent, but not really being 100% a good parent either, and no matter what anyone says, and they don’t have to agree with me on this.....

but Steven had every right to be mad at Greg in one of the episodes of Steven Universe Future, but he could of handled it better by trying not to let his anger get the better of him, but it isn’t really 100% his fault it was getting more worse, it was because Greg was partly responsible for it becoming worse...

Greg couldn’t even see that trying to make Steven listen to “Mr. Universe” song wasn’t really helping, and was partly the reason it was becoming worse.

he couldn’t even see that Steven was right about Steven’s Grandparents giving Greg rules and meatloaf for a reason...

even if Greg has done a bit better, in making sure his son had some freedom, but that doesn’t mean he didn’t do some poor parenting...

and he is lucky that those in Beach City didn’t figure this out, and tried to call child protective services on him...

cause if that happen, they would end up taking Steven away...

even if Garnet, Pearl and Amethyst might make some mistakes, but they were new to motherhood, but they would have some better excuses than Greg.

Pearl watching Steven sleep, might have to do with what she had learned about human babies........which is kind of a scary thing, and I wouldn’t be surprised if Megatron did the same thing after Dot and Alex first had Robby...

like when he first learn about that scary thing that has to do with babies, he got so worried he would watch Baby Robby, which Dot and Alex would have to comfort Megatron and try to explain to him that they have a baby monitor and will keep a ear open to listen for anything that might be wrong...

Megatron being the protective and worried uncle, would be both cute and funny.

also the info about babies, would mean that Pearl was in Greg’s van all the time after learning about what human babies go through, and it might of taken some getting use to for Greg, who was freaked out with Pearl just sitting and watching Baby Steven.

oh boy, this could be the case for Kris’s parents from Deltarune...

like if Kris was just a newborn baby when the Dreemurr Family had adopted them...and Asgore & Toriel learned about that info as well....

it would possibly freak them out and even worry them to no end...

Toriel would end up spending nights in Kris and Asriel’s shared room, watching Kris sleep...

which Asriel wouldn’t understand and find it weird his Mom and sometimes Dad, would both keep doing that, and they might of not wanted to tell Asriel the reason why, until he was a bit older to understand.

oh and if Undyne and Alphys from Undertale ended up adopting a human baby, and both learn about that whole scary info about babies...

I think Undyne would be the most worried out of the two of them,

saying that she would fight the Grim Reaper if he so much as tries to take their human baby away...

Undyne and Alphys adopting a human baby, would be interesting.

but the info isn’t really a joke, and I guess it can worry some parents and I guess some parents could take shifts to stay up and watch their baby or babies to make sure they are still breathing.

and Pearl watching Steven when he sleeps, makes a lot of sense now.

but she could of stop at some point, after he was no longer a baby.

maybe she was worried it could still happen...?

I wouldn’t be surprised if it is Connie who tells Steven the real reason why Pearl kept watching him when he was sleeping.

that she may have started watching him sleep when he was a baby, because she heard about the unpleasant info about what can happen.

baby cybertronians might also have a similar danger, but it might have to do with their sparks, like their mentors and caretakers have to make sure to keep a optic out for any form of spark flickers....which in theory, is when a sparkling might go through a moment when their spark goes out and end up joining the well of allsparks a bit too early.

like a baby cybertronian, that looks like how Sari looked when she was born in the same lab Megatron was in, and even the ones that are called Hatchlings from the live action movie universe...

are very fragile, and even Starscream from the live action movie timeline, has pointed out that Hatchlings are fragile.

and Sari & Wheelie from the TFA Timeline, are possibly the first natural born cybertronians that have been born in a long time, and both may have both started out as baby cybertronians.

the reason why no Autobot has had a baby cybertronian aka sparkling in TFA in the natural way, and have kept misusing the living metal from their planet instead....

is because of all the new Autobots own sparks being from just Vector Sigma instead of the Allspark.

the Allspark-Key bring back Optimus might of gave him the ability to be able to have a sparkling in the future.

the Decepticons have sparks that come from the Allspark, and not from Vector Sigma, so the Decepticons can still have sparklings.

but they might have a way to make sure they don’t have a sparkling in the middle of fighting Autobots, which might be a chip that is placed on their bodies.

and with Megatron having been placed in a stasis coma, and he could go through the budding.

Cybertronians can possibly have different ways to have offspring,

but they shouldn’t of forgotten about the whole budding thing.

it could also be possible that Gems could go through a budding, maybe before they started to live on the surface of their home planet, they did go through some form of budding, where they broke off a part of their light it would then be placed into the soil in the walls, and once a Gem is born, some Gems give some energy back to the soil so it can still have life and even bring new Gems into being....but at some point, Gems forgot this and kept taking from homeworld but never giving back, which is one of the reasons why they had started to colonize other organic planets and repeating the cycle until Steven talked some sense into them.

this can also be seen in TFA, they keep taking the living metal from in their planet to make protoforms that would turn into future Autobots, and they even go as far as conquer organic planets and make them into Autobot Colonize, but this is information that those who have been around much longer before the War, and so it is a big secret that no one in Ratchet’s or the later generation of Autobots know about.

so that makes another reason Cybertronians aren’t as different from Gems.

this would also mean that Ultra Magnus was possibly a “bad guy” even if it might not of seem that way, and Ultra Magnus could be seen as the White Diamond of TFA, but at least White Diamond was able to change her mind and ended up (along with Yellow and Blue) loving Steven as himself and show a type of mother guilt tripping.

White might of learned to be a better Mother Figure to her Gems, but she must of learned that mother guilt tripping from watching about it in some show or movie from Earth. XD

another thing that makes the two similar, would be their plans that involve The Cluster and Omega Supreme....

which might mean that Perceptor from TFA, is his world’s Peridot.

the Autobots making Cybertronians like Omega Supreme to be a Weapon of Mass Destruction just to beat the Decepticons....

that is kind of a hint the Autobots in TFA, aren’t 100% good, and are indeed as the fans have figured out, are in the gray zone.

it could be possible that before joining Megatron, Starscream was a servant class in the caste system, so it would mean that Starscream and those like him, were his world’s Pearls.

which if it is true that that Starscream was a servant in the caste system, maybe the other reason the Decepticons wanted to fight the Autobots, was to get rid of that part of the old caste system....but at some point the Decepticons lost their way and forgot what they were truly fighting for.

Rose at first, wanted to fight for Earth, to scare Gems off the planet...

but when Garnet came into the picture, those plans changed, and it went from just her and Pearl, to having Garnet and other Gems, she wanted to fight for Gems to be free to choose who they wanted to be and be with any Gem they wanted and not just Gems like them.

so while both the Gems and Cybertronians had different outcomes, they aren’t really all that different from each other...

they both possibly use holomatter avatars, they both misuse their home planets and had made living beings into weapons that are suppose to be weapons of mass destruction, and those being Omega Supreme and Cluster.

and if the Cluster is made up of broken pieces of gems.......

then in theory, as disgusting and wrong it might be.....

it could be possible that Omega, might of been made the same way....

and this might be so for the others like Omega, all being made from taking the lives of other cybertronians and melting down their metal bodies to make those like Omega Supreme, and the hive mind of those autobots were all put behind a type of fire-wall, to keep them from taking control of Omega.

not even Ratchet or Arcee knew of this, and it was possibly only known by Autobots of a much higher rank and have been around much longer before the war on cybertron.

that theory might be a bit dark, but it could still be true and the Autobots who were used for such a experiment, might of not volunteered by their own accord.

and they were likely homeless and a few had refused to fight the Decepticons, because some were friends and family....

knowing this, the much older autobots (and not counting Ratchet) who were of the highest rank, had took those Autobots and melted them down into liquid metal and then used that metal to form Omega Supreme.

I don’t think Ratchet would be happy to find out that secret, and might even confront Ultra Magnus about it, and how he knew the whole time how Omega and the others were made, that he had allowed innocent civilian bots, both homeless and those who had refused to fight Decepticons that were both friends and family, to be turned into what Omega Supreme is now.

that would be really messed up, but with how the Autobots are in the gray and how some of the Autobots are in TFA, it wouldn’t be surprise if that theory about how Omega Supreme and his “siblings” were made.

also, it’s okay that not everyone agrees about this theory.

even the whole theory that that has to do with Gems from Steven Universe, being able to make human looking avatar bodies because they have holomatter much like cybertronians...

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