#aprilchuem

[athousandbyeol]

episode 8 stray thoughts

i can't stop cussing at mew and ray because good Lord, what the hell?

it's so ironic how mew insists he's leading a happier life without top when it's the exact opposite. it's also saddening to me how mew downgrades himself to the lowest of lows and thinks he's mighty and high and doing well emotionally when he isn't. it's just so not mew and i kind of understand that— but still, as much as it hurts top, mew is the one hurting the most in this. the jokes are on him, honestly. he's the one shattering.

and i love how top undresses mew— it's the first time he has ever done that. even when they had sex, they never undressed each other. but this moment right here kind of justifies that top sees mew beyond sex— top just really loves mew. and he's there to take care of him. he's there to exist for mew— even if he is no longer wanted. i'm going to pretend that top didn't say it was okay if he didn't get to be with mew in the end. that didn't hurt me one bit (i was choking on my own saliva because that killed me for real).

honestly, i'm so mad at ray. he... please don't make sand your second option. please don't toy with his feelings. i can't handle that, really. it's about freaking time you realise mew doesn't— and will never— love you that way. wake the f up, ray. please.

chuem, honest to God, thanks for knocking some senses in their heads. they really need this wake up call because no one is effing sober in this household but you and april. (and i kind of like this chuem/top friendship. i think she knows top's feelings for mew are genuine. i'm glad someone actually sees through top's feelings other than us the audience). if not, i'm going to bawl my eyes out because it's so obvious that top loves mew more than anything at this point...)

boston, really, are you going to be like this until the end? i wonder if something's going to happen to him? because i'm seriously rooting for nick and phi dan now... but i think atom will end up crying? does it have to do with boston? will he sleep with boston and end up being just like nick? will atom think he's special in boston's life? goodness. good luck then, atom. (and phi dan freaking ask nick to call him daddy dan. Lord. i died.)

chuem and april! i love you both. thank you so much. april, you're the best girlfriend ever. always level-headed and calm. it's so nice to see women characters not being interpreted as messy or emotional. (because ofts is where the guys are a mess of feelings and just very volatile). wonderful.

that little moment between mew and top though. "why do you have to be an asshole, top?" i just want them to talk things out because you can't convince me mew doesn't love top still. top is the only person in his head 25/8. and it breaks my heart how comfortable top and mew look together, lying on the same bed, sharing body heat. the look of contentment on mew's face as top embraced him from behind, and the fear in top's eyes because God knows if this is only for the night and not for tomorrow. i think top can't sleep at night. imagine how devastating that is. and how liberating it feels to be with someone who helps him sleep better. i'm crying.

i don't know where topmew's story is going, but i'm glad sand is just honest with his feelings. i hope that will help ray realise the person he loves is sand and not mew. i really want to see sand and ray together. sand deserves to be happy. ray too.

and please, top, don't give up on mew, okay? i know it's like going back to square one, but if you really love mew, please don't surrender too soon. mew will eventually come back— because only you can save him top. only you can save mew.

[ropebunnykant]

the look on my face when april told chueam that she was a good friend & did her best. babe i thought we were against white lies to make our girlfriends feel better? is it only okay when you do it?

no fr like april babe what are you talking about. she literally blamed ray for mew's choices and said he doesn't care about them while actively never caring about him. she's a bad friend as they all are, just tell her the truth bby it'll be good for her

[ltstrikesback]

The only friends meta is certainly lots of fun, but I do think it’s good to take a step back and just enjoy the show. For a while a bunch of us fully thought someone was going to die or be murdered and Jojo had to tell us to relax.

So in the name of taking a step back and having fun here are my highlights in no particular order:

SANDTOP (this was so fucking funny and hot for no reason. Sand pushing Top?? Hello???)

SANDBOEINGRAY (god bless the writers)

Mew and Top fucking against a bookshelf (personal victory)

One (1) AprilChuem kiss

Boeing’s hands on Boston’s face lol

Sand affirming the metaphor that if he is a dog, Ray is his owner????

Mew and Ray communicating about Boeing. “Do tell” took me out lolol

Nick being cute on rollerblades

Fucking Mix taking a day off from veterinary school to bless us with a cameo!!!!!

[ropebunnykant]

also why did it only now hit me that aprilchuem are dressed as wenclair