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omg-xdepressedx-blog · 5 years ago

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The American Psychiatric Dilemna - My Experience

As many of you know, we have a severe and critical problem with mental health and psychiatric care here in the United States. With every passing year, it seems to be exacerbated by the rate at which life itself is progressing. Some call it “Keeping up with the Jones’” while others just call it a giant pain in the ass. Everyone from millennials to baby boomers are suffering all across this great country while there is no sufficient ability to help these people. Sometimes that’s because people don’t ask for it ( which is harder than you’d think ) and sometimes there’s just nobody or no place for people to reach out to, and it breaks my heart.

If I sound like I have a clue, I do, and unfortunately I’ve learned it all the hard way. I’m a 44 year old male who’s struggled with depression my whole life. I’ve tried suicide multiple times, obviously failing every time. Talk about feeling like a failure. When you can’t even kill yourself right.....you got problems. I have a huge loving family, and all the support anyone could ever ask for, but, I, like many other people suffering just can’t pick up that phone to ask for help. It means admitting there’s a problem. It means admitting I need help, which makes me feel like a failure. It’s embarrassing, humiliating so just like so many others, we bottle it up and keep it buried as deep inside as we possibly can until it quite literally boils over creating a fresh hell for whomever is going through it.

On December 2, 2019 I tried to kill myself.....again. I hate knives, don’t own any guns so my weapon of choice has always been to overdose on pills. This time I took around 120 Klonopin, basically over a months worth of anxiety medicine. My story is a long one which I’ll elaborate on later, but for now I’ll just refer to my last attempt. I hated my job, my kids live 500 miles away, and I’m so broke I was forced to move in with my parents, at 44! Kill me now! I literally drove to the hospital where my kids were born, sitting in front of the ER trying to make myself go inside, my head reeling with torment. I just couldn’t do it, I’ve been down that road before. They lock you up on suicide watch while psychiatrists just start throwing pills down your throat to see if any of them work. On top of that they require you to go to classes resembling those a kid might encounter in preschool. I’ve done it many times before and just couldn’t do it again. I thought I’d be much better off dead, having no interest in anything or anyone. Living a life in so much emotional pain the only thing I wanted was for the pain to end; and in my mind there was only one way to get there.

Once I swallowed the pills, I just reclined my seat, put on some of my favorite Pink Floyd and just blacked out. Next thing I know I woke up nine days later, that’s right, NINE DAYS LATER in yet another mental health hospital. Irony aside, you could imagine how upset I was. Out of all the prior times I gave it the good old college try, this time was hands down the worst. At some point I woke up, put my truck in gear and started to drive off. This whole debacle started early in the morning, and when I didn’t show for work everyone I knew started looking for me. My father called the Police,( ironically the PoPo station was right across the street from the hospital where I parked), and had an APB put out for me and my truck. I wasn’t found until about 10:30 that night on the side of the road, I had trashed my truck, curbed every wheel on it. So I’m told these two police officers escorted me home since I was talking, attempting to walk, and acting belligerent. Needless to say my family was quite relieved as they took me to my room to sleep it off, or so they thought. I guess I then walked downstairs and told my dad I had to get something out of my truck, forgetting that my truck wasn’t there due to all the stress of the day. I then hopped into my stepmother’s SUV and took off. I didn’t make it but a few blocks and I did over $10,000 in damage to it. Enter the cops, round two.....this time I broke a vertebrae in my back from the wreck, and the police issued me a DUI. I have never been in trouble with the law my entire life, until now. Fast forward nine days and I woke up. I was in a wheelchair with some strange brace on my whole upper body, didn’t know where I was, but was apparently communicating, just acting incredibly pissed off. It just took nine days for all those pills to where off and let me be “conscious” again.

Since I’ve been there before, I did what had to be done so I could get the hell out of there. Since arriving back home, I’ve been healing physically, very slowly. As far as my mental health, I can honestly say it’s never been worse. With all the angst, pressure, and pain that led me to swallow those pills, everything now is incredibly worse. I was fired from my job, no insurance, and poof, just like that I’m $50,000 in debt, and do you think the hospital really cares about my well being? Absolutely not, they’re just part of the problem but as long as they get paid they really couldn’t give a shit. Don’t get me wrong, there not all bad. There are doctors and nurses who really do want to see people like me get better, but they’re running a business. Get them in, treat them, get them out. That right there is what I’ve experienced at every, single, hospital I’ve been to. I’ll say it again. Get them in, treat them, get them out. Rinse and repeat and make billions in the process. It’s the money they’re after, not patient care.

Now since I received a DUI, I now have to contend with local courtrooms, etc. I was also forced to sign an affidavit at the hospital committing to follow through with aftercare treatment, court mandated through a county health program. This is where I get really pissed off. I was released from the hospital on Dec 14, 2019. After numerous phone calls attempting to follow through with the court order, I have yet to be seen by the county. Now call me crazy ( funny because I am ) but if somebody tries to take their life, don’t you think the county would try to get me in to see somebody ASAP? Well today is Jan 11, 2020 and I’m no further than the day I left the hospital. Now you tell me, how well does the system work for people suffering from mental illness?

I plan on continuing to write / vent here just so I can get this shit off my chest because I simply don’t know what else to do. Not sure how this whole Tumblr thing works but if anyone read this all the way through, please, chime in, ask questions, because I truly feel if a mental health revolution doesn’t start, thousands more will die, and possibly me too.

#mentalrevolution

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yasminsqueendom · 5 years ago

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Antique the Vamp Geek Pt1 Ep12

CW: The usual (stress, anxiety,anger)

A/N: Another good old Q and A

W/C: 1994

So hey, I feel like I’ve gotten away from my original purpose here. Y’all have been extremely supportive in the messages that you have sent me regarding the content of my last few episodes, but I really want to hear from y’all.

I have had the opportunity to let you guys send me recorded questions. And I have to say, I really love hearing your voices. Y’all sound so cute to me. But, anyway, I have your questions, and I will answer them as I always have.

Here’s the first one from @errbody.mad3: Hey, Tique! I have to say, I love listening to your show. I think that everything you do and say is amazing. There have been times that I wanted to give up, but you have kept me going with your sass, and strength. How do you do it? But, also, how are you? Just in general.

Hey, love. With beautiful people like you in the world, things can’t be so bad, right? Thank you, kindly, for listening to my crazy ass. And thank you for existing. You don’t know what it means to me to know that with everything that been happening, people like you keep pulling through and sticking it out with me.

Umm, I’m alive I guess. There is definitely a lot more going on than I have the ability to say here. Just know that I am surviving. There are some legal things that I have to deal with between me and my family (my parents in particular). I can't speak to my younger siblings at all. All communications have pretty much ceased. Outside of that, I don't have much to say.

Oh yeah, and my parents have begun a campaign to get my show off the air. So there's that.

Ok, next question from @tko.winna876: I remember you said way back in the first show that not everybody becomes a vampire when they come in contact with the virus. Can you elaborate on that?

So…..when I was turned I did A LOT of research about what this was. There wasn't a whole lot of info at the time, but one thing was clear: everyone didn't turn. After some thought, I suppose it makes sense. If everyone turned at first contact there would be no more uninfected humans. But, I became curious about people who didn't turn. Apparently, the virus can still hide inside of an “uninfected” person for a period of time. The immune system can fight it. However, if that person becomes ill, and their immune system is compromised, the virus could become active. On average, out of 100 samples, this “reactivation” happened less than once. Similarly, with pregnant women, the chances of their babies becoming vamps were even smaller than reactivation.

Oddly enough, white people are slightly more susceptible to the virus. But people of color still tend to contract it at higher rates.

And then there is the population of people that just die. It is a slow and painful death. You end up bleeding out of various orifices and severely dehydrating.

Then, obviously, there is the population that turns. Your kidneys are basically failing and you can't make new platelets, so you need to consume blood. What manner of sorcery manages to get it out of your guts and into your bloodstream is beyond my understanding.

Most of the people who turn end up dying anyway.

The ones that survive can live really long lives. But we aren't exactly immortal. Due to our bodies being repeatedly rejuvenated by consuming blood, we age a lot slower. Quality of blood also affects this. Drinking from alcoholics, or people with certain chronic illnesses can have negative effects on us. We may even experience a high from a drug addict depending on how recently they have used.

The younger the blood, the better. But I am morally opposed to drinking from anyone younger than me. Just putting that out there.

So, yeah. That's what I know so far. You are always welcome to peruse the website for more info if you like. And there are several forums where older, more experienced vamps will discuss and give advice and survival tips.

Alright, I have a question from @subwaykid312: Will you ever have a guest on your show? Like actually there having a conversation with you?

Ummm, it’s an idea I have been playing with for a while now. I do want to have people come in and visit. Safety is a priority for me though, so I’m always sceptical of people wanting to meet me. Also, I would never want someone to come in if they don’t feel comfortable discussing things on the air. My ultimate goal would be to have an experienced vamp come on the show to talk about their experiences and share resources. And,, I would want to hear their thoughts on government involvement the treatment of our kind. I know that a few more experienced vamps follow my show, and I certainly want to extend an invitation to anyone who would want to participate.

Here is another question from @lei.lei716: Hey Tique! It’s been awhile since you talked about sex and vampirism. Do you have any other advice about safe ways that we can be intimate with our partners?

Actually, yes. It’s something that has been weighing on my mind for some time. I really enjoyed a lot of the feedback I got on the practicing safe sex. Particularly, when you are infected with a contagious virus that may alter your partner’s life permanently, or kill them painfully.

I think that you should be patient. I definitely will get more in depth with safe sex, intimacy, and all that in another show. Also, just hygiene and upkeep in general seem like a good idea to discuss. Vampirism isn’t all that magical shit you see in movies. Your body still does weird things.

Okay, one more question from @esthea.312: I remember you talked about getting punched in the face back in Ep 4. I got into a fight with another vamp, and they punched me in the face. And...um… one of my fangs fell out. I’m more than a little concerned with this. I know uninfected adults don’t grow another set of teeth. Do we get new teeth, since we got fangs?

So, this is a really good question. Yes, our teeth did grow and strengthen when we were turned. But we did not grow another set of teeth. If that were the case, then our old teeth would have been sitting on our pillows, and the tooth fairy would have left us a bag of blood as a gift. So, sadly, you will not grow another fang. However, there are some dentists that are progressive enough that they will be happy to create a new one for you. Hell, you could be like Beyonce with “diamond fangs” in your mouth. But, it will cost you a pretty penny. If you can afford it, go awf. Otherwise, try to only take photos from your cute side.

Which actually reminds me of another situation. I’ve heard that there are some vamps that have their fangs replaced by flatter teeth. It makes them feel safer, and it’s easier to assimilate. Honestly, I have considered getting the surgery done since I don’t bite for sustenance. Then, I realized that people are always uncomfortable with my appearance. Being a big black girl with super short hair, people always feel the need to stare or offer their opinions about my health. So, there is that. At least now, they back away from me rather than trying to get closer.

Ok, one last question from @drea.ds.saint12: Do you have/know of any vamps that have dental issues? Our immune systems are stronger than the uninfected because sanguinilis kicks our systems into overdrive so that it doesn’t have to share us with other illnesses. Our teeth (and bones in general) strengthen a lot when we turn, but I have seen some vamps with rotting teeth. How is that possible?

Well, upkeep is still important. We are still susceptible to bacterial infections and such that can eat away at us. Fungi, and things like that, can still settle in us. The biggest difference between us and the uninfected are that we heal quickly. So, we can still contract infections, but our bodies fight them off faster.

I know that wasn’t the best explanation, but think of it this way: If we develop an infection, the bacteria/fungus can live on us or in us, but the moment it starts to hinder our ability to function, sanguinilis kicks in and beats it’s ass. That means that, yes, our teeth can rot and we can get rashes and such, but they end up being minor inconveniences.

Other viruses aren’t tolerated at all. It wants us to survive for a long as possible, and when that isn’t possible, it makes us infect others. It’s vain, but it isn’t stingy. It loves to share.

Alright! So that’s it for the Q and A session, but I did have other updates for y’all as far as our local government is concerned.

Apparently, there is a vote in the works. The city council is trying to decide if underage vamps should be allowed to attend schools. Now, shortly after the discovery that vampirism was real, there was a push to test everyone who worked/attended schools where the students were under the age of 18. Fortunately, the vast majority (and I mean like 99.99%) of students under the age of 18, and their teachers came up as negative for sanguinilis. In fact, the largest population of infected people came up in the laborers that clean and cook in schools (at less than 3% infected).

So, at the very worst case scenario, 97% of people who work in educational spaces that taught children under the age of 18 were uninfected. Keep in mind that “infected” in this case means that they were carrying the virus, but weren’t necessarily a vampire. That percentage was less than 1%. And those few cases were all night janitors who never actually came into contact with students.

But, that was all it took to get parents up in arms. And understandably so, considering the alternative possibility that someone might end up taking a bite out of your child while they learn the alphabet.

The “vamp ban” as it was termed tried to encompass college campuses as well. But, there is way too much money that goes into have college students around. And private institutions fought against letting the government make that decision for them. All the lobbying and city hall shout fests are what led to things like the testing they are doing on campus here.

The vote will take place next Tuesday. So, however you feel about vamps existing, get into the ears of your representatives, and let them know exactly how you feel.

Other updates: I got my results back from the nurse’s office. My results were exactly what you would expect. They came with a strong recommendation that this school may not be the best one for me. But, so far, they can’t legally expel me. It doesn’t matter anyway. I already made the moves I needed to make to ensure that I won’t have to still be there come next fall semester.

So, fuck this school.

Lastly, I keep getting all these random threats, and all I can say to y’all is this: the more lives I save by speaking about our issues, the better I feel. And you can shove an entire bag of dicks right down your throat. I literally don’t care what you have to say about anything I do.

Ok, so that is it for today.

I love you all endlessly. Please stay moisturized and hydrated.

Look out for one another,

Love Tique.

#black vamps #black women in fiction #black fiction #black fic #black women #vamps #vampire #vampires

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aquarianlights · 7 years ago

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I'm happy and sad. happy that you've been happy about your field and doing stuff. sad because imu :c

I’m sorry. :C I know. I’ve actually been so goddamn busy that I literally haven’t had time to talk to anyone except my roommates and I only talk to them because, you know, they are right here and I can talk to them while I’m doing stuff.

I love this. I absolutely love the work I’m doing. I love what I’m learning. I love the people I’m meeting. I love the connections I’m making. I can’t even begin to describe how happy I am.

The only problem is how much fucking pain I’m in every day. I was very literally in tears today even with meds in me and a heating pad on me because my fibro and ehlers danlos is so flared from overexertion. The physical pain is practically unbearable when I get home. But when I get home. . .I have just barely enough time to eat something and watch maybe one episode of something and then I have to get to work. Immediately. And if I sleep, then I have to wake up at 8am, no later, so that I can start working on stuff by AT LEAST 8:30 and leave the house by AT LEAST 10 to be on campus by AT LEAST 10:30. But, I usually just get up and get ready and then leave and do my work on campus before my first class if I’m not doing anything before that. But I’ve had a fuckton of appointments and other things going on, too.

Ie; Tomorrow? I have an appointment at 8:30. . .and then class, then I gotta stay on campus after classes to work on a bunch of stuff that’s due, then I have another appointment later in the evening and then I have to drop off some letters and run some errands and then when I get home, I have to take a shower and immediately get to work on more things. And then Friday, I formed a study group with my first and second class and we’re all meeting up in the library because we have 2 exams back to back in each class. I mean, I personally, have an exam in EVERY SINGLE CLASS Monday... but everyone in our study group has 2 exams back to back that we are all studying for on Friday. And this weekend is Pride. And I’ll be experiencing my very first Pride. And uh. . .the rest of this weekend is just hardcore fucking studying..... You have no fucking idea. And then monday is.......ugh. Doomsday. And then the week literally just...starts again with a whole bunch of other stuff due while the exams are going on and all that.

That’s just a small example of why I’ve been out of touch. That’s, uh. . . the more toned down version? I can’t even describe what my schedule was like yesterday and today. It was literal craziness and that’s why I ended up crying from pain because of the overexertion. I didn’t have time to stop. I just didn’t. And that was even with good time management skills. So I’m like. . . Ergh. Alright.

My first professor taught at Berkeley and he also went to Berkeley, so he literally started off the semester being like “If you’re not ready to learn at this pace and this level, you need to get out of my class. Now.” Four people have already dropped to this point. And I mean, there is a little note in all the syllabuses for science major science courses (ie: a bio course for sciences majors versus a regular bio course for gen ed studies) that if you find out your science course is “too hard” for you, the drop date for science major courses is a little tiny bit later than everything else because they’re apparently just ridiculously hard. Which. . .Ngl, I’m finding that out. The pace is ridiculously fast even for summer accelerated courses. I mean, I’ve been taking accelerated courses and summer courses since I turned 18. I have only taken one single summer off since I turned 18 and entered college. But uh. . .these accelerated courses are speedy compared to the “normal” level of speedy. It’s exciting and fun and makes me very happy.

The stress is a good kind of stress. It’s the stress that gets me excited and makes me smile and be in a good mood, just...ALL the time. I literally bought labels the other day and I’ve been going home and colour coding my notes to make them all pretty and stuff and agh. Doing extra things that I do NOT have time for LOL.

But uh, I mean, colour coding notes really helps. Turns out. I didn’t study at all for our first quiz, BUT since I went home and took the time to colour code the notes, the top three students ended up getting bonus points on the test for our pop quiz. Well, when the end results showed up on the board (We use an app called Kahoot which tracks the progress of each student and ranks us all as we key in our answers), I was in the top 3 of our class, so I’m getting bonus points on my exam! So turns out colour coding really pays off. I’m retaining a LOT more when I colour code versus when I don’t. I finally learned the way of studying that is right for me and I just happened upon it by accident. Lol. I guess I’m an aesthetic learning and THAT ISN’T EVEN A THING LOLOL. I guess that could be filed under visual, but it’s a very specific type of visual for me. Coz not a lot of visuals work for me. Pictures and diagrams don’t really work for me. I’m primarily kinesthetic. So saying I’m a visual learner wouldn’t be accurate. But uh... an aesthetic learner would deff be accurate. HAHA. THAT ISN’T A THING, THO. BUT I NEED IT TO BE BECAUSE IT FUCKIN’ WORKS!

Ugh. Bruh. I’m just SO. MOTHER. FUCKING. HAPPPPYYYYYYYYYY.

But.......exhausted physically. And I want to sleep for eternity. But, alas, I cannot. And I had the absolute worst fucking nightmare this morning when I finally drifted off that woke me up crying. All I remember is No Face from Spirited Away turning into Slender Man, only they were both in this weird mime-striped uniform and they were both on the wall and their heads were like... upside down and they looked like giant stringy spider-people. More spider than person. But definitely person. And they just kept staring at me and following me wherever I went and they wouldn’t fucking stop and they could hear everything I thought and I somehow knew they would punish me if I thought the wrong thing. Like a thought-crime in 1984. But it was also sort of controlling my thoughts. I was thinking my own thoughts, but it was also bending my willpower in a way. And all I remember after that is something REALLY fucked up. I remember...I think it was either my mom or my roommate holding this orange cat that almost looked like HER cat, but I somehow was distinctly aware that it wasn’t her cat and that it was this spider person’s evil familiar and that it wasn’t actually a cat. I didn’t know what it was, but it wasn’t a cat. But I do remember pounding the cats head in with a hammer, but it didn’t lose the shape of a cat. But I somehow was both viewing the cat and this No Face/Slenderman/Spider creature on the wall with an upside-down head and black-and-white striped body just staring at me both at the same time. Like a two panel comic? I could see both happening. And I could feel my chest fucking caving in and my heart pounding as pink brain matter splattered out of this cat’s head and that’s when I woke up sobbing and frantically grabbing at my pillow and trying to look around at all the corners of the room and the walls and the ceiling to make sure the thing still wasn’t fucking there. I still don’t know whether the thing made me bash in the cats head or if I did that on my own, but man that was a fucked up dream and it scared me to death and every time I close my eyes I can see that fucking thing just staring at me. Silently. Just silently fucking perched on the wall up in a corner high above me. Fucking creepy.

UH ANYWAYS. I DIGRESS! I’m gonna head off to bed now coz I’m FUCKING EXHAUSTED AND IN PAIN. And I have an appointment at fucking 8:30 in the goddamn morning so... good fucking night, I hope. Ugh.......shoot me.

I’m sorry I’ve been out of touch with everyone, though. When I finally settle into this new routine, I hope it’ll be better. Gimme a few more weeks and hopefully things will be back to normal. For those of you that stick it out with me, bless you. For those of you that don’t.... [shruggy emoji].

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mcleanstanley1991 · 4 years ago

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Reiki Symbol To Attract Love Portentous Tips

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Request: Some college au lance and keith, where maybe keith gets like really badly sick (Up to you my friend how) and lance has to force him to stop going to classes/go to the hospital but keith gets so freaking stressed because he must have perfect grades (Klance if you want!!) Thank!!! C:

Summary: When Keith comes down sick, he assumes its nothing and carries on. But as classes and deadlines start to take their toll, it becomes more and more obvious to both Keith and his boyfriend Lance, that this ‘cold’ is anything but normal. How he made it to lectures with full blown pneumonia, he’ll never know, but something he does know is that no matter what, Lance will always be by his side.

‘Babe, did you get the coffee?’

Keith raised his head, pausing in his feeble attempt to remove his shoes without experiencing a rapid, unplanned introduction to the floor.

‘Huh?’ he called, a small wince seeping through his teeth at the irritable scrape in his throat. He had been feeling ill for days, sluggish and tired, with a growing wet cough that burned his airways and pounded his head like a hammer on an anvil. He knew he had a fever - that morning while Lance had still been sleeping he had snuck into his bathroom and borrowed his thermometer, only find that his temperature had risen to 38.5 degrees. But college was just too busy to take a day off from, and so he had popped a few fever reducers and paracetamol and gotten on with his day.

‘Coffee,’ Lance repeated, sticking his head out of the kitchen door to raise his eyebrows at Keith. ‘you said you were gonna stop by the store on your way here and pick some up. I’m nearly out,’

Keith groaned, leaning his head against the wall, second shoe all but forgotten. ‘Damnit.. I forgot, sorry. Want me to go back out and get some?’ he asked, but every fibre of his body was praying that Lance would say no. Apparently, whatever Gods were looking down on him chose to be kind, and Lance shook his head, at ease.

‘Nah, it’s cool - it’s mostly for you, anyway. There’s enough for probably a small pot. I’ll just grab one on my way to class,’

‘Are you sure?’ Keith bit his lip, guilt flooding through his brain, but Lance nodded with a smile and took a step closer to him, holding out a hand for Keith’s jacket. He shrugged out of it and handed it over, watching arbitrarily as Lance slung it over the back of the couch. ‘I’ll get some tomorrow morning..’

‘Hey - are you okay?’

Keith blinked, startled as his vision was unceremoniously filled in its entirety by Lance’s face, grin replaced by a wavering frown.

‘Yeah, why?’ Keith moved a step backwards, avoiding the hand he could see rising towards his forehead. The last thing he needed was Lance finding out he had a temperature - they had only been going out for a month or so, and that was far too soon to subject Lance to the tortures of caring for a sick boyfriend.

‘I dunno.. you just seem a bit.. out of it, I guess? And your face is flushed. Like, really red,’

‘Oh, I uh, walked kinda fast,’ it wasn’t a total lie, Keith consoled himself - he had walked faster than he had intended, wanting to just get to Lance’s apartment and curl up in a ball on the couch for a few hours. He still had work to do, but the draw of a brief nap was too much to resist.

‘You walked fast..’ Lance deadpanned, seeming anything but convinced. ‘and that made you turn full tomato..’

‘Ugh, Lance, don’t compare me to a fruit, please.. I just wanna sit down, okay?’ he said, brushing past Lance’s side toward the couch. He slumped down into it, sighing in all the pleasure his rebelling body could muster. But his respite was short lived as with a squeal of indignation, Lance face planted right into his knees, rapidly repositioning himself so that he was koala-ed around Keith’s waist.

‘Keith! Shame on you, you vegetable heathen! Tomatoes! Fruit?! How dare you!’

Keith grunted against the weight of Lance’s body, failing miserably in trying to push him off. ‘They are fruit, Lance. Now get the hell off me, I want to nap,’

‘You never nap,’ Lance’s face startled into another, more violent frown. ‘Are you sure you’re okay? You said before that you only nap when you’re -‘

Keith cut him off before he could say the dreaded word. ‘I’m fine. Now get off my lap and hug me like a normal person,’

At Keith’s direct invitation for physical contact, Lance was only too happy to oblige. Maybe Keith could pull of recovering from his cold without Lance finding out after all.

Oh, how Keith had been so, so wrong.

When he woke the next morning, face burning, chest heaving with painful, soaking coughs, any and all hope of hiding his illness from his boyfriend was completely and resoundingly crushed. Adding to the pile a worryingly intense difficulty in breathing and cold sweat trickling down his back, and Keith knew from the moment he opened his eyes to the early morning sun that he was totally and royally fucked.

Rolling onto his side, he suppressed a moan, kneading his palms into the meat of his eyes and praying silently that Lance would just sleep through until Keith was already up and out of the door.

That prayer, however, was not answered.

‘Babe, did you spill something?’ Lance’s sleepy voice called, words languid and drawled as they washed over Keith’s neck, managing slightly to relax the shaking jitter that had begun in his bones. He just shook his head, mentally resigned to his fate. ‘Then what - you’re shirt’s soaked.. Keith, are you sweating?!’

‘…I think I’m sick…’ he rasped, voice barely functional around the thick mucus his body was ejecting from his lungs disguised as coughs.

‘And how long have you ‘thought’ you were sick for?’ Lance asked, and Keith groaned at the blatant note of irritation seeping into his tone.

‘…Few days..’

‘Goddamnit, Keith.. why didn’t you tell me?’

‘I didn’t want to worry you, okay?’ He shifted into a sitting position, regretting it instantly as his head spun like a top on his neck. Massaging his temples, he risked a glance over at Lance - he looked pissed.

‘Right, we’re going to the doctors,’

‘What? No! I-‘ Keith’s voice cut off around a viscous cough, lungs hacking as they sought to remove the phlegm blocking the passage of air. By the time he was done, he had sunk heavily into Lance’s side, breath panting as Lance drew soothing circles down his back. ‘…I have class..’ He managed once he had inhaled an adequate depth of air.

‘No you don’t, not anymore. You’re too sick for class,’ Lance mumbled, nosing Keith’s hair comfortingly. It smelled of sweat and cinnamon, and Lance wasn’t sure if he should like it quite as much as he did. Keith squirmed in his arms, fighting to remove himself from Lance’s hold, but Lance just tightened his grip imperceptibly, effortlessly cutting off any and all objection. ‘Just stay here today, and I’ll make you some soup when I get back from my forensics labs, okay?’

‘Nngh..’

‘Sorry?’

‘No!’ Keith’s voice was breathless and terse, an unnerving gravel sneaking up beneath it as yet more mucus fought to make its way out along with the sound. ‘I mean to say no. Lance -‘ he panted, lungs starved of oxygen by even such a simple sentence. ‘..Lance.. I have to go to class.. I have two essays due.. and three chapters of my story. All for two weeks time,’

‘And one day off to rest up and get better isn’t gonna stop you from managing that, dummy. You’ve already gotten, what? One essay almost finished and nearly two chapters? See - you’re totally fine,’

‘I am not fine..’ Keith protested, closing his eyes against the spinning pain burning behind his lids. ‘I have so much to do.. and you know they won’t let me keep ghost writing if I don’t maintain my G.P.A…’

Lance frowned. That was true.. Their college had very particular requirements regarding extracurricular activities related to the student’s course, and Keith’s ghost writing job was entirely reliant on his creative writing tutors being happy that he was keeping up with his predicted grade. But that wasn’t justification for Keith allowing himself to suffer alone with an illness that was clearly dipping over into debilitating. As Lance mused, he listened helpless to Keith fail to suppress another round of vicious coughing, only moving when Keith’s hands clamped hard over his mouth.

‘What’s wrong?’ he asked, but Keith did not reply, instead just waggling his head desperately towards the bathroom door. For a moment Lance thought he was going to be sick, until another two thick, dripping coughs worked their way from Keith’s chest. ‘Shit, okay - wait there, I’ll grab you some tissues!’ All he got in return was a sour glare from Keith.

Once he was back on the bed, Lance slipped the tissues behind Keith’s fortress of hands, grimacing as a small trickle of mucus slid down the back of Keith’s fingers. Keith coughed for another few minutes before finally stopping, tissues balled in a wet pile in his fist.

‘..That was disgusting..’ He whined, and Lance couldn’t help but agree. Not only was it far too early in their relationship for un-vetted access to the full array of bodily fluids, but it was also too early in the morning, and Lance hadn’t even had a cup of coffee yet. But Keith seemed to be waning, and his worry promptly overtook any lingering disillusionment about Keith’s infallible beauty.

‘Babe, seriously - let me take you to see a doctor, you’re burning up,’ he said, palm carding restlessly over Keith’s melting cheeks. But once again, Keith shook his head, determined to go to class even if it killed him. Lance didn’t even want to consider the possibility that that might actually happen.

‘I’m going, Lance..’ he huffed, sliding his body weakly over the edge of the bed. ‘I’ll take some Tylenol and be fine,’

Keith was not fine. Keith was panicking.

Half way through his two hour lecture, Keith had realised that it was physically impossible to repress his cough any further, and having reached a point of no return with the now gushing expulsion of phlegm, he had rushed from the hall and dived into the nearest empty bathroom. For ten minutes straight he had stood, leaning heavily against the sink, as cough after cough wracked his chest, increasing the ballooning pain ten fold with each heave of sticky, green fluid.

The fear that had been blossoming in his gut since that morning only grew worse with each agonising crack of his chest, and for not the first time he wished that he had taken Lance up on his offer to just stay in bed. Maybe something really was wrong with him? He couldn’t remember ever having a cold so bad that his body forced ball after ball of wet mucus from his lungs, or burned his face with such a heat. It felt like he was roasting alive, like the core of his body had melted into flames that were trying to braise their way out. But as yet another round of hacking, crackling coughs forced their way from within him, he remembered the mountain of things he still had to do.

No matter what condition his body was in, he simply could not afford a day of rest. He would have to be hospitalised before he would let that happen.

Forcing as deep a breath as he could past his lips, Keith tried everything in his power to steady himself. The fingers of his left hand were holding his face in a vice-like grip, covering his mouth, while those of his right clutched the rim of the sink for dear life. His knuckles were turning whiter with every fit, and the joints ached for release from the tension, but he was incapable of obliging. And so he continued to cling with everything he had until his knees gave out, pitching him forwards into the counter’s embrace.

The sink caught him beneath the ribs, expelling what little air he had managed to consume, and he couldn’t find the strength in his legs to right himself. Briefly, he considered calling Lance, getting him to drop his chemistry labs and rush to his aid, but the demon in his brain called an end to the plan before it had even really begun. He would not be a burden to Lance. They had only been together such a short time - Lance could still turn around and walk away. Keith wouldn’t risk that even if his life depended on it. Which, right then, he feared it did.

By the time Keith finally got back to Lance’s apartment that night, he was done. The moment Lance opened the door, Keith fell forwards, face first into Lance’s chest and held aloft only by the grace of his boyfriend’s arms. There was so little viable tension left in his body that even as Lance manoeuvred him towards the couch, Keith found himself incapable of providing help. So instead he let Lance drag him, limp limbs dangling, over to the waiting pile of stuffing-filled goodness.

‘Oh my god, babe.. you’re a mess,’ Lance sighed, sliding his body down next to Keith’s as he wrapped his arms tightly around his chest. ‘and hot. Like, burning,’

‘’m fine,’ Keith insisted, but within the safe confines of his brain, he knew that was a lie. And it was developing into a dangerous one at that. Another bubbling cough circulated in his chest, and he shoved a preemptive tissue into his face, trying hard to stifle it.

‘Fine my ass, Keith, you’re ill as fuck, and that cough does not sound normal. I swear to God, if you still sound like that in the morning, we’re going to the ER,’

‘Over my dead body, Lance,’

Or at least, that was what Keith tried to say, but as it came out interspersed by merciless coughing, it sounded far more like a breathy, yet eerily prophetic wheeze.

‘At this rate, Keith, that’s not far off,’ Lance’s tone was amusedly chiding, but he really couldn’t quite shake the fear that Keith’s words were hitting a little too close to home for comfort. He brushed it off regardless - they had just started to find their swing as a couple, and the last thing Lance wanted to do was disturb the status quo by accusing Keith of lying.

But by the next morning, Keith wished more than anything that Lance had in fact called him out on his shit.

Lance had left early, citing some field work practice test - Keith was pretty sure he had heard the words ‘blood splatter’, ‘patterns’ and testing’, but had thankfully tuned out the more gory of details - leaving Keith to doze fitfully in bed for the next few hours. But as ten a.m. rolled round, he knew he had to get up. His writing work shop was at half past, and there was no way he would have time to get a coffee if he didn’t leave within the next ten minutes. And seeing as Keith was nonfunctional without caffeine on a good day, he dreaded to think what he would be like when half dead.

But as he pulled himself out of his sweats, he realised a small problem - he couldn’t think. The words refused to stay ordered, threads of thought drifting off before he could even make out their source, words and meaning becoming confused. Everything blurred together, frightening him with the hazy drawl his brain had become. His mind was like honey, thick and stuck together, but no attempts Keith made to loosen it seemed to work. If anything, they made it worse.

Panic rising in his throat alongside yet another mucus filled cough, Keith hauled himself from the mattress, sweats still dangling by one leg, with the intention of making it to the bathroom. He had to check his temperature. He wasn’t sure why, exactly, but the sudden fear that it had spiked too far for safety had struck his brain and was refusing to let go.

He didn’t make it far. Half way to the edge of the room, Keith felt a stab of pain far sharper than all others before it worm its way through his chest, and with a short cry of alarm, gave up fighting the pull of gravity as it dragged him to the floor. It was with one last shred of consciousness that he thought of Lance, and found himself filled with self hatred at the pain finding Keith going to cause him.

Keith blinked blearily, not quite understanding where he was or why he was lying down. He wasn’t sure what the last thing he remembered was, and the idea was faintly terrifying. But he found it difficult to grasp on to, his mind refusing to focus enough to really contemplate why exactly it was that he was missing a chunk of time.

Groaning softly, he felt something tugging on his elbow - a sharp, metal-like feeling that seemed to cement him a little more in reality. Shifting his arm, he tried to place it, figure out what it was, but nothing revealed itself to him, and so he brushed it off, choosing instead to ignore it in favour of more sleep. But that sleep didn’t come - as soon as the decision had been made, he heard a sound suspiciously like a door opening and let a low keen out from his lips.

‘Keith? Baby, you awake?’

Lance.

‘Can you hear me?’ He was whispering, voice soft and gentle as it tumbled down on Keith from above. Keith whimpered into it, wanting more than anything to open his eyes, but finding himself currently incapable. ‘Hey, hey, shh, it’s okay, baby, it’s alright - I’m here,’

‘..L-Lance?’ Keith’s voice shocked him - it was barely a croak; a wisp on the air, small enough that the slightest breeze might carry it away. ‘W-where.. am I?’

‘You’re in the hospital, baby, I had to call an ambulance,’ Lance’s voice sounded like it might be crying, and Keith wanted to fight that fact, take those tears and cast them away. ‘I came home early and found you passed out on the floor, and when you didn’t wake up, I.. I called 911. Baby, you scared the shit outta me,’

‘What’s wrong with me?’ It was a sob, and Keith was surprised equally by both that and the fact that his eyes were open now, staring up into Lance’s tear-stained face.

‘Shh, it’s okay,’ Lance soothed again, carding his fingers gently through Keith’s hair. ‘You’re gonna be fine now, Keith - you’re on antibiotics, and so much other good stuff that you’ll be out of here in no time, alright? You’ve got pneumonia. They said it was kinda amazing that you were even standing, let alone still going to class, so I guess at least you can be proud of that,’

‘..Pneumonia..?

Lance nodded, smiling soft and sweet down at Keith’s weary face. ‘Yeah, babe. Apparently it’s a pretty bad one, and you literally nearly worked yourself to death,’ he seemed to deliberate something for a moment, making Keith’s breath catch with nerves in his throat. The little hitching sound drew Lance from his thoughts, and seemed to jog him into the decision to speak. ‘I think.. I think when you’re better, we need to have a conversation about your communication skills, okay? You could have killed yourself working away like that, and you didn’t even tell me when you got sick. You know it’s part of my job as your boyfriend to take care of you, right?’

‘’m sorry.. I-I didn’t want to- to worry you..’ Keith had started to cry, but as soon as Lance caught the tears he was wiping them away, frowning replaced by a glow like the sun, bring Keith back from an edge he hadn’t realised he was near.

‘Well, dummy, that kinda backfired, I guess,’ he laughed, low and kind, and Keith wanted to catch that sound and bottle it forever. ‘but we’ll talk more when you’re feeling better, okay? Just sleep now, babe - you’ve earned it. And I’ll be here when you wake up. I’m not leaving your side ever again, whether you’re sick or not - not until you force me,’

‘Never,’ Keith smiled, a small sniffle breaking through his defences before the soft embrace of Lance’s hands in his hair lulled him into the most peaceful sleep he had experienced in days.

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marshhayden93 · 4 years ago

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itsjustinknow · 4 years ago

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conversations on dieting for health issues when you feel like you’re being a “bad activist”

I’m most likely going to get shit for this, but this is genuinely something I want to talk about. If you are not comfortable with discussions of weight, diets, or chronic illnesses (specifically seizure disorders) and medical neglect, then please feel free to skip over this.

I’ll put it under the cut for convenience, but just a quick summary:

tldr: I have an unknown seizure disorder in which my only treatments are my mood medication, which also acts as anti-seizure meds, and the keto diet, which I did in the beginning of 2019 at the suggestion of a chiropractor who could not otherwise help me. It did reduce my seizures for awhile, then I more or less stopped when I started college in August of 2019, and now in 2020 things have gotten much worse (likely due to stress). I’m considering going back to it for the foreseeable future but I feel awful about it because diets like this feel inherently tied to more privileged culture and I feel like focusing on my weight or diet makes me a bad person as I’ve read a lot about fatphobia in the medical field (and have experienced it to an extent). I don’t want to focus on my weight but losing some weight the first time around did help my joint pain at the time. However I do not want to feel like I am promoting this especially to people who suffer from eating disorders or simply cannot do such a thing. I am only doing this for my own health, but it feels like I should suffer instead of participating in an incredibly unhealthy (mentally speaking) culture and potentially contributing to the stigmas surrounding food and weight. I don’t really know what to do.

Extended under the cut

So I have an unknown seizure disorder. Or at least that’s how I phrase it to people, because I can’t say I’m undiagnosed, because then no one will believe me. Just like doctors don’t usually believe me.

I started having seizures in 2018. In 2017 I basically lost the ability to walk longer distances without assistance or without chronic pain. I can walk around my own house or smaller rooms, but that’s about it really. I also lost some other things, but I’ve talked about that fairly often here, so I’ll focus on the seizures. I started having what I think were cluster seizures in September of 2018, and they kept getting worse. I went to the ER after my mom took me to our general physician (after three days of having seizures, which was pretty fucking awful and I barely remember any of it). The doctor couldn’t find anything immediately wrong with me, so he called it a panic attack, gave my father some pamphlets on anxious teenagers, basically stated that I was lying about the rest of my symptoms for attention, gave me a sedative and sent me home.

I cried a lot that day, and I feel like crying every time I talk about it, so I’ll move on.

I went to a new neurologist after that, who did a sleep-deprived EEG, except that didn’t show anything major either, so he also wrote it off as anxiety or conversion disorder, which is basically the modern version of female hysteria (or at least it’s used the same way that was). So I was out of fucking luck. I then tried a chiropractor that a nurse at the ER told me about, because she saw me sobbing, apologized, and told me “he’ll believe you.” So I tried. And he did believe me. But he couldn’t help me either. This was in February of 2019.

They did give me vitamins that are good for inflammation, which I still take to this day because they do help. Apparently I have inflammation? I have no idea anymore honestly. But the second thing he told me to do was to try the keto diet because there was extensive research on how it can treat epilepsy.

I tried it. It actually worked. But I tried to be as quiet about it as possible, because I didn’t want people to know that I was on one of those weird white people diets where they went to whole foods and preached that they were better than everyone else for eating a certain way. I thought that by switching up my diet I was contributing to the stigmas surrounding food and weight, and that by even trying to lose weight, I was awful and disgusting and this is why fatphobia exists. I was also doing it at the same time that my younger sister was getting to the point of trying to starve herself. That did not help my mental state or hers in the slightest.

I did it for two-ish or three months, then slowly started getting off of it, then did a more modified version of it where I just tried to eat less carbs in general. I did this for most of my first year of college up until the pandemic started. That’s really when shit hit the fan.

I’m pretty sure my seizures are mostly being caused by stress and anxiety rather than just weight and diet related factors. I am definitely not putting all of it to my weight. But I do have to consider that, sadly. And right now, what seems to be the best choice of action is to try to go back to that diet (or a modified version of it) for the foreseeable future, meaning long-term.

Except I feel like absolute shit for it for the same reasons I outlined above, and because I feel like “changing your diet” is the standard advice given to anyone with chronic illness, and I don’t want to be a part of that. I don’t want to contribute in any way to the awful

But it did actually help me i think, and god, I don’t have any other meds or help. I have zero support when it comes to medical attention besides my psychiatrist, who basically shoved me to the new psychs he’s training and I can’t get out of that. We’re in a fucking pandemic, I can’t try going to a new doctor right now. I literally don’t have many other options besides this. But I hate myself for it regardless.

I don’t know if any of this makes sense, or if anyone really gives a shit to read this? It helped to get it all out. If you did though, thank you. And please be kind to yourselves.

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#like i cant tell if it's quarantine stress or what but if it kind of helped the first time maybe it'll help again #considering im always stressed these days #idk im just venting i guess #delete later #tw weight #tw food #like im sitting here comparing yogurts and trying to figure out which one is the healthiest for me and i almost started crying #bc of how fucking disgusting i feel for buying into this sort of culture #when i dont want to be a part of anything negative i just dont want to have literal seizures every few days #i dont want to be in pain anymore and nothing has fixed that and neither will this #but this is something i can do and that i have control over #it's basically all i've got #but i'm a piece of shit for trying #im tired so im going to stop here now #sorry about all of this #< 3

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