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heyitslapis · 3 months ago

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You know, even if every person that ends up having a crush on me ends up struggling with internal comphet and eventually leaves because of it, at the very least I can say that I make people question their sexuality so bad and in turn have a personal existential crisis that terrifys them to the point that they don't know what to do with themselves.

#maybe thats cocky to say but like. i guess i should be flattered that people get scared with how much i make them question their sexuality?#tbh it actually really sucks because like.....can i not just find a gay person that isnt afraid to be gay?#ah the classic ''dyke that all the 'straight' girls want to flirt/experiment with'' trope #i think ive found that with T. yes they want to keep things casual for now but at least i know theyre not just experimenting #theyre very openly queer and have had queer experiences before so thats nice :)#anywya. been unpacking a lot about my romantic past (or lack there of) lately. its been interesting. still sorting out a lot of the pieces #so basically yeah that might be a cocky way to look at it but basically im realizing that its not my fault that they dont stay #yes ive got some flaws too. but this gives me comfort knowing that i dont have to carry the burden that im not enough #cause thats always what it made me feel like. like i wasnt enough for them to bother sticking around. thats not true though #im enough for the right people. and the right people do/will come along #anyway yeah. thats all im gonna say on that. for now at least lol #emma rambles #personal #dating tag #heyitslapis rambles

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