#anyways. lol. britney spears is so fucking good

[tenpixelsusie]

everytime i've fully considered the possibility that i might be a system and i just have some guys running around driving this thang i go "no i just have memory problems" and toss it away. well gentlemen. guess what possibility i'm considering again

[pandarson]

Get To Know Me

Rules: Answer and tag nine people you want to get to know better and catch up with.

thanks @harrowitzer for the tag!

Favorite color(s): pink, specifically #ff00e3 because it kind of sparks joy when I’m starting a drawing

Last Song: Circus by Britney Spears

Currently reading: ASM Vol 2…. But like so so slowly. I think I’ve gotten through an issue in a month lol (I keep drawing instead so I can’t be too upset)

Currently watching: Oh, lots of stuff. Leverage, the Expanse, just finished up IWTV season 2 not too long ago, rewatching Steven Universe: Future, but me and my roomie kind of put that on hold when the spideytorch server I’m in turned me on to Spider-Man: The Animated Series (1994) and I. Fucking. Love. It. Peter’s so yappy and inwardly monologing and whiny and it’s so so so good for it.

Currently craving: Was craving some pistachio ice cream recently so I got that. Really hit the spot.

Coffee or Tea:  BOTH!! I like coffee more, but to pretend I’m not a lover of tea is nonsense. In fact, with the right tea you can totally get the coffee experience. In fact, if I had to choose for one to continue to exist and one to not, it’d probably be tea that I’d deem worthy of continuing on because it’s such a diverse drink anyway.

Hobby To Try: Well I like drawing, so I’ve been sort of dipping my toes into comic making. I made probably my first real legit little comic (like four panels nothing crazy but more than I’ve done before) about a young Peter B Parker and bisexual panic moment. Might post it on my art blog at some point. Spent a bunch of time practicing Peter’s facial expression too to get comfortable with drawing him and find an easy style for comics

Current Au: Uuuuuh the story I’ve been building for my version of Peter, I guess. I got a crazy ass bullet point list that keeps getting bigger as I figure out where I want to place things and then I RP with my partners about it or write little connecting fics. (I’m more of an RPer than a fanfic writer. To those of you brave enough to share your work, I salute you. You inspire me)

tagging: @transgender-catboy @hongzhizhu @anarchyspider @slightlydepressedmelon @enigmacatinspace @kahlannightwing @hiitspath @jazzums @zacolyn

and probably like so many others I could tag, but whoever wants to

[iiikaruz]

New CH episodes have made me officially decide to stop caring about the actual cast of the show </3 (/hj but i wish it was /j)

Anyway would you like to share some of your headcanons/scenarios for the side/minor characters ? It always makes my day 💚💖(/nf)

dude i feel you on these new episodes. wtf is going on over there. anyways, i’ll gladly dump this 10 ton stack of headcanons on you that i wrote down!! Marie Antoinette: 

loves hyperpop and 90s house music. she’s so slay (i have a playlist lol)

into european weirdo cinema like Gaspar Noe’s but she also likes chick flicks (her fave films are Climax (2018), Daisies (1966), and But I’m A Cheerleader (1999).)

frequents on lolita forums and goes to really shady places just to get cute lolita items.

has absolutely mastered voguing. super into ballroom culture.

has a pet borzoi (those groovy long-nosed dogs.) her name is “Vanille” and Marie loves her dearly.

wants to study fashion. she especially loves Vivienne Westwood and Moschino.

Jesús Cristo:

is a juggalo, and he indoctrinated Van Gogh into it as well.

says “it is what it is” at any minor inconvenience.

had a mental crisis at 13 as a product to the stress of living up to his clone father. similar to joan’s breakdown in s1e3 but 10x worse. he tries to ignore it when people bring it up.

designated driver on any road trip. for some reason.

into bands like The Cure whilst also bopping to Cypress Hill.

his fave video game is Parappa the Rapper.

accidentally punching holes/nails into his hand is a common occurrence. seems like it just keeps happening, so he’s learned to just roll with it. he’s also a pretty good nurse bc of it.

Marilyn Monroe:

is always down for the school play. BUT she usually just does script-writing and tech. 

into conspiracy theories and video essays. (all gorgeous gorgeous girls love video essays).

is a dedicated Britney Spears and Gwen Stefani stan.

SO “COQUETTE LIZZY GRANT DIOR RETRO” in her fashion choice.

she also gives “elle woods from legally blonde” vibes. straight A student right here.

CERTIFIED GIRLBOSS <3

Thomas Edison:

is obsessed with American Psycho (2000). he has a poster in his room and he’s weirdly obsessed with Christian Bale (very ���🍉🍊 of him, but he always excuses it with “oh no, i just idolize and worship him. there’s absolutely nothing gay ab it.” he’s lying.)

also he’s SUCH a pretentious film bro. he has a whole library of stupid film facts shoved in the back of his mind (im totally not projecting).

he only listens to: 80s new-wave stuff like New Order, Oingo Boingo, Beastie Boys, & Talking Heads OR Lana del Rey. There is no in between.

he worked (past-tense bc that shit is GONE in 2023) at a blockbuster video store next to the mall and he liked being a total bitch to people about it (example: “you really rented this shit? this movie sucks, dude”)

after getting unfreezed, he was ECSTATIC over how easy pirating movies is nowadays.

Napoleon Bonaparte:

member of the speech/debate club and he is THE WORST TO BE PAIRED WITH. he’s foaming at the mouth the moment someone gives a rebuttal he didn’t think of. some meetings end in him trying to beat up someone. 

into 80s rock like Metallica and Black Sabbath. he has an electric guitar. he also FUCKING LOVES ABBA AND JAMIROQUAI. like… too much.

unlawfully good at Just Dance. he absolutely fucks it up on the dance floor.

adores fantasy films like Conan (1982) and The Never-Ending Story(1984). he’s so lame/ pos.

he bakes really well. that’s all he’s got going for him.

he either found his napoleonic military uniform at party city or at a thrift store with Marie Antoinette; his story changes depending on who he’s talking to.

he cut his own hair when he was 14. the following conversation after he did so was with caesar, and it was just the haircut scene from fleabag . he then continued to keep his stupid haircut to what it is now.

is a hopeless romantic. he can make up entire love poems & sonnets in his head about a girl he’s crushing on, but literally cannot talk to people without sounding like a douchebag unless he’s super comfortable w/ them.

Ivan the Terrible:

is an avid deftones, sewerslvt, & duster listener (i, unfortunately, ALSO have a playlist.)

spends his nights scrolling on 4chan and arguing w/ people. him & topher have accidentally argued w/ each other AT LEAST 5 times.

literally refuses to take off his ushanka in any weather. it doesn’t matter to him if it’s 90 degrees, that thing is staying ON.

kins Travis Bickle and Shinji Ikari. i mean, just look at this dude and how he presents himself. average NGE & Taxi Driver enjoyer/ hj.

fave video games are Postal 2 and osu!. he plays osu! phenomenally, to the point where it’s impressive. (pls put that energy into a job or something).

and yea that’s all the energy i have to write this down :]

[yazzydream]

JJK Playlists: Toji | Gojo

Sounds Like A You Problem (Fushiguro Toji playlist)

Time to share my playlist for this trash man. Some manga spoilers.

-> [Spotify Link]

1. UH OH! (feat. BENEE) - Sub Urban

Uh-oh, uh-oh, uh-oh You've made a mistake

2. Wish You the Worst - Ryan Mack

Fuck the Zen'in Clan amirite?

Wish you the worst I think you owe me an apology, yeah Ever since I was a little kid, been giving me shit Always calling me a wannabe Saying I'm a loser, I don't have to prove myself to you

3. The Bidding - Tally Hall

Gege Akutami mentioned this in his comments somewhere, the fanbook maybe? but Toji is canonically a sugarbaby who mooches off women. lol

I graduated at the top I like to take advantage of the bourgeoisie So if you have a fantasy of being a queen Maybe you should blow a couple bucks on me

4. Toxic - Britney Spears

Seems the type.

With a taste of your lips, I'm on a ride You're toxic, I'm slippin' under With a taste of a poison paradise I'm addicted to you Don't you know that you're toxic?

5. bad guy - Billie Eilish

So you're a tough guy Like it really rough guy Just can't get enough guy Chest always so puffed guy I'm that bad type Make your mama sad type Make your girlfriend mad tight Might seduce your dad type I'm the bad guy Duh

6. Daisy 2.0 (feat. Hatsune Miku) - Ashnikko

Fuck a princess, I'm a king Bow down and kiss on my ring It's gonna hurt, it'll sting Spittin' your blood in the sink I'm crazy, but you like that, I bite back Daisies on your nightstand, never forget it I blossom in the moonlight, screw eyes Glacial with the blue ice, I'm terrifying

7. queen of broken hearts - blackbear

I'm the queen of broken hearts Break you in a thousand parts Used to be a shooting star When did I become so dark? Yeah, you need to chill, girl, don't play me I'm too far gone, you can't save me And I don't care, fucking hate me I popped a pill and I'm faded

8. Dead or Alive (feat. Madalen Duke) - Stileto

My playlist seems to be made up primarily of songs about Toji being a no-good womanizer and flipping off the Zen'in, huh? Anyway, fuck the Zen'in.

So now I'm asking you for one last favor You've got an enemy inside your blood Could you just take this little parting favor? It's just a little present from my love

9. Brittle Bones Nicky - Rare Americans

Shocking how well these two musical-inclined songs fit Toji. I'm linking the official music video, but the uncensored version is out there. About this guy who just grows up to become a criminal.

You're not gonna push me around (no!) You can't get me down, down, down (down!) Bounce ahead a couple years, king of my peers

10. Brittle Bones Nicky 2 - Rare Americans

Part 2, that guy finds himself in hell but returns to the living.

Thought my story was over, book closed? Think again, we're nowhere close My eyes are open, cheers, we toast I'ma mother fucking ghost (He's a ghost!)

///

I gotta get outta this hell Would you sell your soul to save yourself? I'm not gonna get pushed around I'm not going down, down, down! (down!) I'm not going down!

///

Brittle Bones Nicky He was crafty and tricky Yeah, that son of a bitch was gold! Yeah, that son of a bitch was gold! So, here I am, not quite a man But I always got a game plan I'll ruffle feathers, fuck with folks But you know me, I'm a good bloke

11. Freak - Doja Cat

From Toji POV. Ignore the pronouns as usual. Just know that Toji's a freak.

Freak like me You want a good girl that does bad things (to you) You never been with no one as nasty (as me) Spice up your life, come get a freak Freak like me

12. 12345SEX - UPSAHL

Some call it insane, say, "Baby, you're so vain" But I'm living on overdrive all the time And I like the way you taste, some liquor and a chaser Flavor of forever just for the night

13. Thriving - UPSAHL

Damn if this doesn't describe Toji's life choices.

I just checked my bank account Insufficient funds What the fuck is that all about? I'm barefoot stumbling down the street The hottest mess that you'll ever meet I'm thriving, damn this (la-la-la-la, life is a bitch) Thriving, 'cause I (da-da-da-da-don't give a shit)

14. Notorious - UPSAHL

(Reversed: Opinion, I shove all your) I shove all your opinions to the side I do whatever the fuck I like I'll be in to win it 'til I die

15. IDFWFEELINGS - UPSAHL

Mamaguro was the only woman Toji seems to have loved. Anyone else? Meh.

That's why I don't fuck with feelings anymore Every time they get deep, I just get bored So I'm breaking boys in pieces for the sport Just to lose my mind, I'll just say bye I don't fuck with feelings anymore When I say I want less, they just want more And it feels like I've just felt it all before So I don't fuck with feelings anymore

16. Dick (ft. Doja Cat) - DickStarBoi3

R.I.P. that pussy, ayy

17. Fuck Boy (feat. Kandle) - Apashe

Fuck boy: I didn't know you were crazy To the boarder come chase me I'm gonna break free Oh take off that disguise Show me somethin' real When I look into your eyes

18, The New Knife Game Song - Rusty Cage

A little intermission. Toji was definitely the type to do the knife game for some easy cash when he was younger. Probably even now.

19. Killer - Eminem

Yeah, it's crazy, I'm a (Killer) Made all this money from doin' this (D.A. got that dope) Now count it, five, ten, yeah, fifteen, twenty Twenty-five, thirty, yeah, get the money Throw it in the furnace, yeah, this shit be funny Earn it just to burn it, swag drippin' from me

20. Love Like You - Rebecca Sugar

Yes, the end credits song from Steven Universe. Can't help but think of how Toji felt about Mamaguro.

If I could begin to be Half of what you think of me I could do about anything I could even learn how to love When I see the way you act Wondering when I'm coming back I could do about anything I could even learn how to love Like you I always thought I might be bad Now I’m sure that it's true ‘Cause I think you’re so good And I’m nothing like you

21. I Can't Decide - Scissor Sisters

Toji really, really, isn't a good guy.

I can't decide Whether you should live or die Oh, you'll probably go to heaven Please don't hang your head and cry No wonder why My heart feels dead inside It's cold and hard and petrified Lock the doors and close the blinds We're going for a ride

22. Insane - Baasik, Black Gryph0n

Another sinner in Hell.

It's my pleasure to introduce to you hell's latest arrival The equal-opportunity killer, Alastor! Hello, it's nice to meet you Oh, can you tell me where I am? I don't know how I got here But I, I think I'm starting to understand I don't belong among the angels And baby, that's just fine with me The things I did up there were high school But now I'm going for my degree Hey Sorry, but you just got in my way I promise honey, I can feel your pain And maybe I enjoy it just a little bit Does that make me insane? Haven't been the same since I expired Doesn't mean that I plan to retire And now I have the power to bathe all of you in entertaining fire

23. Trouble - Valerie Broussard

Applicable to a number of JJK boys honestly. But the gambling line specifically made me think Toji.

Dangerously havin' the time of our lives These boys are just poisonous thorns in our sides Startin' fires wherever we go Watching 'em gamble everything they own

///

Trouble coming in the dead of night Trouble making everythin' alright It's in your blood It's in your bones You cannot sleep for [x2]

24. Outrunning Karma - Alec Benjamin

Outrunning karma, that boy He's such a charmer, all the Bugs and their larva, follow Him out to Colorado Ten dozen hearts in a bag Their bodies lying, he'll drag Them down to Colorado A modern desperado

25. You Problem - Cloudy June & emlyn

That one part of the song that kept repeating in my head that the title of this playlist is from. It's just a very Toji thing to say.

That sounds like a you problem

[genderflu1dwh0r]

Hey J!

How things going?

Heyoo!!

It's ok, I went out to get a new phone, but they didn't have the one I wanted, so I gotta go back next week. But then I went to Panda Express to try their food for the first time, it was ok at best. The orange chicken was pretty good though. The fortune cookie was the best part, I fucking love those things.

Then I went to GameStop and looked around, then I went to Walmart and bought some stuff. A KISS shirt, candy, snacks, and gum. Why are Walmart's so hot? Like, I always walk in with a jacket and always end up getting too hot and taking it off. It was like in the 50s outside. It was sprinkling a little, which was fun.

In the car I played Gwen Stefani, Britney Spears, The Jins, and Nirvana. It was a nice drive lol.

Anyway, I hope you are doing good!! How was your day/night?

Have a Caitlin Todd smiling

DO NOT REPOST ⚠️

[purplesurveys]

1626

Are you a dreamer or a do-er? I like to dream only because I don’t like putting too much pressure or too grand of an expectation upon myself. I do try my best to make this and that decision to sort of maneuver myself closer to my goals, but I don’t *actively* work towards them or give myself timelines, if that makes sense? so that I don’t feel shitty if things don’t go to plan. That’s like 20-30% of the time. The rest I kind of allot for daydreaming.

Do you think people get what they deserve? Well, no. And I bet you can see instances where this isn’t the case everyday.

Does it take a lot of physical pain to make you cry? I rarely cry from physical pain (in fact I don’t think I’ve ever?) but my pain tolerance is crap nonetheless. I flinch very easily and I’ve been skipping my annual physical exams every year not because I’m scared of what might be discovered, but because I don’t do well with needles and machines and all sorts of tests that involve your body getting probed.

Name the strangest game you’ve ever played (video game or real game): Well, QWOP is definitely high up on that list. There also used to be those childbirth simulator flash games in the ancient days of the internet where the patient you’d be helping is like a cartoonized Britney Spears, Lady Gaga, etc. What a fucking trip hahaha. 

Do you like sitting in the front, back, or middle of the classroom? Front. I have terrible eyesight and it’s the people at the middle and back who always get called randomly anyway.

Do you ever see commercials for restaurants that aren’t even in your area? Yeah, on Facebook I tend to get ads of K-pop shops based in the US; on Instagram I always get sponsored posts of food businesses from like Mexico and Dubai. The latter is particularly annoying because the food will look SO good only for me to find out that it’s nowhere near me.

Do you know anyone who has been struck by lightning before? No. Which is better: living where there’s lots of tornadoes or lots of hurricanes? I already live somewhere hurricanes (although we call them typhoons) are no biggie, so this is a fairly easy decision to make. I’ve never seen a tornado so I wouldn’t know how to act in the middle of one.

Would you pay if your dog needed an operation? Yes, but it also depends on how much it would be. I wouldn’t be opposed to a fundraiser; many pet owners here start one when their pets get into a medical emergency. 

If you’re a girl, what’s your favorite color of eyeliner? Black, but just putting it out there that anyone can put on eyeliner lol.

Have you ever overflown a bathtub? No. I’m not around bathtubs nearly often enough to run into this accident.

Why did you ignore the last person you ignored? Because it was like 5:30 on a Friday afternoon and I didn’t feel like responding to a work-related matter anymore.

What’s your favorite pizza place? We don’t have a lot of restaurants where the main specialty/attraction is pizza. It’s either big-time chain stores (your Pizza Hut’s, Papa John’s, Domino’s, etc) or sit-down restaurants that serve everything and just so happen to have pizza. Nevertheless, the best-tasting pizza for me would have to be Yellow Cab’s. Chain store, but they do the job flawlessly so no complaints there.

What’s at the top of your to do list in life? I feel like the grandest dream I have (and have had since I was around 9) is to fly to the US to attend Wrestlemania 50. There’s a lot of wrestling history tied to the event, it’s not happening until 2034, and there will only ever be one Wrestlemania 50, so it’s very important for me to be able to come. There’s also no telling which of the legends will still be alive by that point which adds more to the, “You HAVE to be there.”-ness of the event. Do you ever eat leftover pizza cold? Yep the only time I eat pizza hot is the time it’s served. From the time it cools down and gets stored as leftovers, I’d only ever eat it cold.

Where are you the most ticklish? Oh, everywhere. I’m terrible with being tickled.

Would you put your life in danger to rescue someone? I feel like it’s so easy to say “Probably not to a stranger” but a part of me feels as if I would actually unhesitatingly sacrifice myself by instinct. When you’re wanting a midnight snack, what do you normally get? Pancit Canton. If budget permits, McDonald’s hahaha.

Which cartoon character would you want to keep as a pet? Buster from Toy Story!

Do you like marshmallows? I have an irrational hatred for marshmallows lol. I never want to eat gooey sugar.

What is your favorite flavor of candy cane? I never have them a lot (not a common candy here, even during Christmas) so I don’t have a favorite and am open to trying different kinds.

Do you have any shoeboxes full of old photos/letters/other memorable stuff? No.

When was the last time you felt seriously embarrassed? Genuinely no clue. Another indicator that tells me I’m in my mid-20s is the fact that I rarely get embarrassed by anything now, lmao. Just laugh everything off.

Have you ever liked a song, looked up the lyrics to it, then hated it? This was me when I was going through BTS’ discography as a new fan and learned about War of Hormone.

What’s your favorite Christmas song? Snow Flower by V and Peakboy.

Did you like the show Invader Zim? I’ve never seen it.

What’s the weirdest thing you’ve seen in a grocery store? Well what I’m about to say isn’t weird, but going to S&R and seeing all the unfamiliar American selections there can sometimes feel jarring. There’s stuff you’d never see in the average family’s pantry, like Reese’s cereals and frozen whole turkeys.

Do you prefer to pull off band-aids slowly or quickly? I prefer that they just slide off with water lol. My tolerance to pain is nearly nonexistent so I actually rarely pull them off.

Have you ever met any bands/band members before? Not met but I have seen several.

Do you enjoy riding around town looking at Christmas lights? Nah, I’m past that point of ~childlike wonder. I think Covid killed everyone’s enthusiasm anyway because for the past two years barely household in the village put nearly as much effort into their Christmas lights as they used to.

What states have you been to in the past year? I’ve never been to America and we don’t follow the concept of ‘states’ here.

Have you ever sleepwalked? I apparently have, twice; once when I was 3 and the next when I was 7-ish.

What’s your favorite superhero movie? I’m not into superheroes.

Do you struggle with acne? I am more prone to encountering a pimple or so these days, but I have never experienced a breakout altogether.

Around what year did you start using the internet, anyways? 2008. We had it before then, but it was dial-up and only the adults could use it because 1) it probably cost too much back then(?) and 2) it would interfere with the landline, considering at that time we all predominantly used telephones.

What did you do for your 16th birthday? I actually can’t even remember. It was probably with my best friend at the time... I think we watched a movie or something like that? I really have no clue.

Have you ever fostered an animal? No.

What’s your favorite form of exercise? Just walking the dogs. Otherwise I hate exercise lol. Do you have a back pack in a shape of an animal? No. Those never appealed to me, even as a kid.

Do you still take hot showers when it’s hot out? Yeah, I guess.

What’s your favorite type of cake? Cheesecake!

Name something you thought was cool when you were younger but don’t now? Keeping up with the indie music genre. 

What was the last song you downloaded onto your computer? So I no longer download...anything, really (music, movies, TV show episodes, etc), the way we did it up until the early 2010s, but the last new song I came across that I loved and immediately saved for reference is Victoria Monet’s We Might Even Be Falling In Love.

What color are your headphones, if you have any? My *earphones are white.

Do you honestly like The Beatles or are you just conforming? No, I’m not so much a fan of the music. I know their work is fantastically timeless and I’m not challenging their positions as legends in the industry, but personally the music isn’t something I find myself listening to.

What was the last video message you received on your phone? It was Angela handing over a Starbucks coffee to Hans addressed to ‘HAMCE.’

Who did you last talk to in Facebook chat? Also Angela. I just sent her a screenshot of a Godiva café in Singapore to let her know I wanna try it out if we do end up landing in SG for Yoongi’s tour.

When writing $ sign, do you draw one line through the S or two? Just one.

Do you feel bad for people your age who have never had a significant other? Only if they want to be in a relationship and have never had the chance. < Yeah.

When do you plan on moving out? If you’re already moved out, how old were you? Looking at the time between my late 20s to early 30s.

Would you kiss the last person you texted? Nope. That’s an influencer I got in touch with for work and I have no interest in anything developing with anybody I work with besides a genuine friendship, lol.

What do you think of guys wearing colored skinny jeans? Whatever? Just wear whatever, people.

Where do you normally get your hair cut? We have this nearby salon that we’ve since become usuals at. It’s where I get my hair dyed too.

Would you trade last names with your best friend? No. I can’t see a scenario why I’d want that/why it’d be necessary hahaha unless her family is like old money rich??? Hahaha.

Would you ever get blonde highlights? I mean sure, but I prefer getting the full experience when I try new things, you know? In this case, when it came to dyeing my hair I didn’t hesitate to bleach my entire head and already went full brown, then purple the next time.

Will you go to your high school reunion? I thought I wanted to until I realized how I dislike most of them anyway, so no, probably not.

Have you stayed up past 3 in the morning this week? Yeah, the night Yoongi announced his tour, my friends and I got in a video call to start laying down initial plans. The call itself ended at around 2, but I stayed jittery into the night, out of both excitement and anxiety. I fell asleep at like 4 when I gave up and just took a melatonin gummy.

Do you ever not speak to someone because you’re afraid you’ll annoy them? Yeah, sometimes.

Personally, do you think you have a nice smile? Yes.

What animal have you always wanted as a pet but couldn’t have? I’ve only ever wanted a dog.

[bathroomcorpse]

margot: 👄 😱 auggie: 🔮😭 elias: 🎨 🤲

reblogged that last night and then completely forgot abt it WHOOPS anyway thank uuuuu. this got SO long so it's going under a cut

👄: How do they talk? What's their vocabulary like? What does their voice sound like? Any accent, verbal tics, etc?

like a lot of things about margot, there are a few answers to this question. she has a paris hilton vibe in that she puts on a voice in a higher register a lot, especially as a kid, mostly to appease her mother and to use in pageants. it's probably not dissimilar to a young britney spears. she has a bit of a southern us accent that i think she plays up especially when she's at competitions not in the south to give a sort of ditzy but innocent southern princess vibe that is VERY antithetical to her actual self. her real voice is a bit deeper and raspier (she and auggie both started smoking before they were even teenagers so there's a bit of that in there too). she comes from a wealthy family so she's well educated and heavily encouraged to speak eloquently but not TOO eloquently (don't want to make your future husband feel stupid) but i think she's got a very good vocabulary that she likes to flex. or she goes in the opposite direction and swears like a sailor. or both. whatever she thinks will annoy people the most in the moment.

😱: Do they have any irrational fears/phobias? How do they cope with them?

margot's only fear is being separated from her twin. when this does start to happen she copes with it Badly. specifics of margot's pre-college summer are still being worked out but it's not any Better than auggie's pre-college summer. and we all know how That's going.

🔮: If they were to feature in the art of a tarot card, which one would it be and why?

ooooooh. i pulled out my personal tarot book to consult on this one so if my interpretations are off its because i'm using a Specific deck lol. i'm going with the seven of cups because at least in my deck it references coming to a point where you all of a sudden realize you've built a house of cards and a world around yourself or a self based on lies and deception and falsehoods and tbh this could also be elias but he's a little more Concious of what he's doing than auggie is. where auggie is kind of just going through life doing whatever makes the most sense for him and it's kind of always a terrible decision. could also see him as part of the devil card but not as the corrupting force but the one being corrupted.

😭: How easily do they cry? Do they ever cry in front of other people? When was the last time they cried?

auggie used to cry WAY more. he cried a fuck ton as a child. he grew out of it, though. after years of his parents ignoring him, his mother becoming hostile when he showed weakness, edmund torturing him, etc etc etc, he kind of just stopped caring enough about himself to cry? if that makes sense? i think he's probably had tears come out of his eyes but the Act of crying has not happened in years probably.

🎨: What is their color scheme? Or at least colors you associate them with?

office beige, grey, white, but then also blood red and the dark brown of wet dirt.

🤲: Do they have any deep desires that they don't talk about and/or don't even realize they have? Do these desires conflict with their main goal at all?

elias' main goal is power and control. he's able to fold most of his weird sidequests into that main goal but things do get complicated when he brings auggie back into his life as older adults. the fact that elias is the one who chooses to rekindle their relationship indicates a desire around auggie that is deeper than his desires for power and control which at that point he has! it's not "love" in any traditional sense but auggie remains compelling to him i think because of their similarities in a lot of ways. i also think he likes a challenge and once he's beaten the main quests, so to speak (success in career, having a family, owning a nice home, blah blah blah) he finds himself unchallenged. i think he thinks he wants to win but really what he wants to do is play.

[blu3jae]

I feel like I’m gonna take up too much space if I keep posting new posts, so I’m just gonna put all of my thoughts into one big post with different fonts.

My favorite social medias are the medias where you don’t actually have to be ✨social✨.

I regret not having watched Cowboy bebop sooner, it’s really good. I’m also suddenly understanding the references to a LOT of music people have been using as end credits now.

Starbucks was named “Starbucks” for such a fucking dumb reason.

(It literally reads like a dude using a business version of astrology to figure out what to name his new coffee Business. -10/10, I’ve met authors, I’ve seen some shady reasons to name characters different things, but that one was just dumb.)

A canary is just… the wrong color yellow.

The movie and theater production of “if I were a rich man” is so much better than Britney spear’s “If I were a rich girl”, however, whenever I think of the song in my head, I automatically think of the Spears’ version, so kudos I guess.

On the subject of Mrs. Spears, did you know that the song “hit me baby one more time” was a misunderstanding from one of the song writers, who didn’t realize that the phrase he was trying to say was “Hit me up, baby, one more time”? It’s also still a classic tho.

TikTok has made my habit of songs getting stuck in my head exponentially WORSE because now not only is:

The songs usually something fun, but absurd out of context, like the whole “I wanna be your friend forever- I wanna be a Modern! Dancer!… what a super weird thing to say that 🎶 came out of no-where🎶”, but ALSO-

PEOPLE KNOW WHAT SONGS IM SINGING. THEY KNOW WHERE I GOT THE SONGS FROM. THEY KNOW WHATS ON MY FYP. ITS TRAUMATIZING TO BE AT WORK AND TO BE CALLED OUT BECAUSE I WAS HUMMING THE SUBWAY SURFERS SONG UNDER MY BREATH.

Not cool, internet.

My mom got me a Bob Ross bauble head, for my early birthday, and it is my new favorite thing.

I put it on my shrine of things next to all my other things. I am v happy. She also sent me a book to hold my coins in so I can display all of the coins I’ve collected. I’ve got all 50 states (last one was Indiana!) but now I’m working on the national parks. None of them are really worth any monitary value, but it is fun to collect them.

My favorite thing is the fact that my coworkers realized that I like coins, so anytime anyone pays with any cool or interesting coins, they save them for me to look at.

I only started being interested in coins recently, cuz they started having MAYA FREAKING ANGELOU on the quarters, and I thought that was just the coolest thing. It spiraled from there. The whole recent quarter series on women tho is just the best.

Lol also, like, don’t ask, but maybe one time when I was reading a… fun comic strip (one that really put the word “Strip” into a comic, lol) I got 110% wholly distracted from said comic strip because there was an ad on the side for rare quarters. I don’t think I’ve ever quite hit peak nerd as I did right there, and I think the only other time I came close to it was either when I was watching deep lore videos for skyrim or legitimately filling several pages of a notebook with algebra to be able to maximize food output in a mobile videogame.

Anyways, this is getting long, so I’ll go ahead and just post it.

[leoprincess777]

♦ busting SYNASTRY MYTHS ♦

11th HOUSE SYNASTRY - THIS SYNASTRY DOESNT MEAN SOMEONE SEES YOU AS A FRIEND OR YOU ARE BETTER OFF AS FRIENDS, STOP REPEATING THIS SURFACE LEVEL SHIT YOU’VE BEEN EATING UP FROM MODERN ASTROLOGY POSTS. This is the house of wealth and gains, it’s the fullfillment of our desires and sudden profits. It’s an indicator of your sources of income and allies. So of course, you will have strong foundation with someone you have 11th house synastry with because it will be built on a ground of trust and support. Along with emotional connection, there’s also a mental connection that makes you share your secrets and ideas to them as you would do to a friend but that’s only one piece of the puzzle WHICH DOESN’T MEAN THAT YOU WILL BE GOOD FRIENDS (you can’t make that comment for any type of relationship in this synastry because if 11h is afflicted by malefics that will most likely bring a negative result which can make you enemies or drain one another’s life force lmao). More than anything, especially if you have your 7th house lord in your partner’s 11th house you will gain so much from them in so many ways including oppurtunities and finances and helping you achieve your earthly desires. They will be your ally and support, supporting you in your pursuits and opinions. It’s like a debate team with financial support lol. It can also indicate you will go back to university and complete your education or get a new degree after you get together with this person. Most of this also goes for 3rd house synastry.

5th HOUSE SYNASTRY - “This indicates a fleeting romance” FUCK NO. That’s one of the most trumped-up interpretations i’ve heard. You CAN’T predict the longevity of a relationship based on house overlays. Ever heard of Davison charts? Anyway, prominent 5th house is anohter EXCELLENT synastry. It often donates a relationship where you can discuss ANYTHING - your wildest thoughts, plans and experiences. Someone you jump from topic to topic. Very often the planet person is the “childlike” one which the house person adores and takes inspiration from. Planet person becomes a ball of joy and energy that makes the house person destress and cheer up, thought it can feel like an ‘overdose’ sometimes. Both parties become some sort of an energy source for each other. You play games together, indulge in fun activities, create things (can even be an invention) together. Even doing nothing and just talking to each other feels fun and full of laughter (unless there are some other placements disturbing this synastry). This is the synastry of never-ending honeymoon. A couple with rahu/mars in 5th house might have a son as the first child. If venus is there with the nodes, it might be a son with venusian qualities. You can also get more popular or lucky if you are with someone you have 5h overlay with. The house person also pushes you to focus on your studies more.

12th HOUSE SYNASTRY - There’s a lot of stigma around his house (8h as well) and people often fear it. Weeeeeell...It IS a karmic house so people you have this synastry with are likely to be karmic partners. HOWEVER, don’t take this to oH NO this is not my TWIN FLAME this is a KaRmiC pErson shit. Literally almost everyone is a karmic partner lmfao, there’s a difference between good and bad karma. This synastry can play out good or bad depending on your own individual karma with this person and how you are managing your life. You can look to Rahu/ketu & saturn to get more info on the karma and to see how it’ll play out. Basically the planet person becomes your escape especially if their sun/moon falls into your 12h. They can end up being your savior. There’s an undeniable theme of profound change that this synastry brings. It often leads you to liberation, through a path of restriction. You need to overthrow the restrictions the other person brings to achieve total liberation. This is often a part of the soul’s karma. A couple with this overlay often keeps a secluded relationship from their relatives (maybe even ghost their families lol) and tend to travel together. They often open up to each other surprisingly quickly about their past and traumas, though there’s a really odd distrust within the couple.

6th HOUSE SYNASTRY - People have a very poor understanding of the 6th house, it’s often condensed to ‘service’. 6h synastry is similar to 12h synastry as they are the same axis anyway, but the difference is 12h’s effects are more abstract meanwhile 6h’s effects are much more physical and can be observed on a practical level. The theme with this house is “either serve or die” and has a karmic tone to it too. It’s not often this dramatic tho lol but usually a couple with 6h synastry feel a deep sense of responsibility towards each other which can make it hard to leave even if it turns toxic. Planet person often triggers the house person’s instincts to ‘serve’ the planet person in one way or another - the house person may do random gestures, buy lots of gifts, support them every way possible etc. so in this way it’s a very cute and beneficial synastry, because they are very much involved in each other’s lives and make a visible impact. They often make one another’s daily routines change, so they can spend time better. Though, one of them can treat the other like an assistant or in worse case scenario, a slave. Think I’m a slave 4 U by Britney Spears lol. They can begin constantly demanding things and get mad when the other doesn’t live up to their expectations. They can also become a disciplinarian for the other (this can also apply to 10h synastry) 

OTHER NOTES ♥☺

If you have a mutual mars overlay with someone in 10th house (your mars in their 10h, theirs in your 10h) your aggressive energy as a couple will most likely be public. Meaning you are prone to have public arguments or fights. Alternatively you can also do illegal business or outlaw activities together, often involving some sort of violence or marsian quality.

If someone’s rahu falls into your 4th house, they will feel peace in our presence but they might drain the peace out of you, meaning they can emotionally and physically drain you, bring conflict and chaos into your life. It may become addictive in some cases. Rahu person will keep wanting more. If at the same time your rahu falls into a water house in their chart (so if ur rahu falls into their 4h,8h,12h houses) you will keep giving more and also find it addictive and hard to get out of. It will push you to surrender.

Rahu in 7th overlay indicates a pre-destined marriage/partnership

Moon in 1st or 2nd house is a very common overlay between soulmates and married couples. Moon in 2h is especially a very auspicious placement in terms of material wealth. The planet person often spoils the house person and knows EXACTLY what to get to the house person as a gift, they have a natural understanding of what the planet person would like and their needs (unless afflicted or outweighed by other malefics placements)

[personal experience] Gemini moon men always try to make me talk about myself so they can gather and store information about me, all the while i’m a sagittarius moon (so sidereal scorpio and in opposition to their moon) and i never reveal anything important or “deep” about myself - i can make myself look like i’m being vulnerable and intimate but when the conversation is over, they realize i didn’t reveal to them anything that is actually valuable and important SHDAIWHJGJGKJG which is why after some time...like in about 2 days they even start trying harder. One of them literally begged me to talk about myself and i think this is a good example of the synastry between this axis

[couldnt-think-of-a-funny-name]

it would've been 100% funnier if Edward's approach to getting Bella to appreciate her humanity was less begging her to not be a vampire and more....forcing himself to hang out with her human friends so she has a normal teenage experience lmao

could you imagine Edward Cullen at like...a high school football game?

getting dragged to an amusement park on senior ditch day

at some party and he has to pretend to be drunk to fit in with all the others

Mike, Eric, Tyler and Ben all start insisting on calling him Eddie

he goes on shopping trips with the girls because he's the only one with a running car that also has trunk space for their bags

he starts using his mind reading powers for The Gossip(tm) and Jessica is absolutely obsessed...finally someone with decent intell

God at some party everyone's lowkey high and they start playing truth or dare and Edward's using his powers to choose the least embarrassing option but Bella catches on and Edward Trusts Her so she picks him and he's expecting something tame like...truth what's your favorite color, dare kiss me or something lol but Bella looks him in the eyes and with no mercy dares him to strip tease while rapping an Eminem song. Mike films it. Edward didn't talk to her at all the next day lmao

they all go see a horror movie together and to Bella's absolute delight 1) it turns out to be a vampire movie and 2) Edward falls for every single jump scare

The Guys(tm) invite Edward to some weird bro bonding sleep over and Edward's expecting to be bored out of his mind without Bella but 3 redbulls, 2 video games and one ouija board session later they're all crying about their deepest fears to each other. Edward's telling them he's scared that if Bella marries him it will doom her eternal soul to hell but he can't live without her and they're like 'Eddie dude that's so specific calm down' 'have you considered therapy man??' 'bro you guys are 17'

Edward and Bella get roped into helping out with the senior prank and it goes t e r r i b l y. First time in half a century one of the Cullens have gotten suspended from school lmao

he sneaks Angela's little brothers candy every time they hang out at her house

Jessica begs him to tell her what Rosalie's skincare routine is but the vampire's don't even really have to shower they can just wipe stuff off and be good to go and he knows Nothing about skincare so he panics and tells her something absolutely batshit that nearly ruins her skin and Bella and Esme make him treat Jess to a spa day as an apology and Rose searches up everything on human skincare and buys some stuff for her

GOD can you imagine how helpful it would of been during eclipse to have completely non-objective friends chime in on the love triangle bullshit...Edward can vent about it without mentioning the vampire's and werewolves and they can tell him he's being dumb because she's clearly head over heels for him and is just friends with Jake

He's like 'but what if she stops loving me,,,' and they're like 'dude she's literally wedding planning with your sister and mom right now please shut the fuck up'

one day they plan a beach trip to somewhere other than La Push and it's cloudy enough that Edward should be fine if he keeps a shirt on and from then on the group has a mission: See Edward Shirtless. they go to LENGTHS. switching into his gym class. spilling things on him. begging Bella to take pictures for them. Good Christian Edward(tm) is scandalized but Bella thinks it's hilarious and keeps telling them he had crazy tattoos

Edward trying to fake pop culture knowledge to fit in but it's not working so he actually has to start paying attention to shit from the current decade and now he won't stop ranting to Bella about Harry Potter and he's very invested in Britney Spears' mental health

Edward trying to decode text talk and everyone makes fun of him bc he texts like a grandpa

Edward after one joint is on a full rant about how America should have handled the Spanish Influenza- like he has a detailed list of complaints and ideas- and everyone is like 'Bella I know he's rich but he's such a nerd Are You Sure you love him' skdjjdmd

anyway. let the old man act like a teenager for once. as a treat.

[bigskydreaming]

kalen I'm making a dick grayson playlist what songs remind you of dick because my music knowledge is uhhhh zero

OMG literally too many there are so many. But I get asked this often enough that okay this is me finally sucking it up and ACTUALLY going through my long-as-fuck character playlist for whenever I write Dick Grayson fic stuff.

So here, in alphabetical order.....some are more 'him' than others, and I tend to have multiple songs from the same artist for character playlists because not surprisingly artists tend towards certain personal themes that recur in their work and so when an artist has a theme I feel is Dick Grayson-esque, I end up putting a bunch of their stuff on.

Also some of these songs are about romantic relationships and that's the vibe I have them on here for, like Uninvited I have on here because I think it evokes a lot of Feels and thoughts about Dick's issues with romantic relationships, whereas some songs like Too Close, What If I Was Nothing, Monsters, etc, are definitely songs about romances but I have them on the playlist more for the feels and thoughts they evoke for Dick's relationships with family members, etc.

Also also a lot of them I pick just for a weird fusion of jazz and rock that I feel fits Dick well and inspires me when I'm writing him even just in action scenes. Like Alex Clare, Apartment 26, Portugal, Roisin Murphy, etc.

Also also also The Third: I can write for a long time in one sitting and tend to have like, ten hour long writing sessions when I have the opportunity so I have very long playlists hfasklfhklahfalkf.

Anyway, what the hell, peruse as you please:

1) For Your Entertainment, Whataya Want From Me - Adam Lambert

2) Beautiful Thieves, Love Like Winter - AFI

3) Uninvited - Alanis Morrisette

4) Too Close - Alex Clare

5) The Waiting One, What If I Was Nothing - All That Remains

6) Monsters (featuring blackbear) - All Time Low

7) In The Shadows - Amy Stroup

8) Feel Good Drag - Anberlin

9) Give Me More - Apartment 26

10) The Boys of Summer - The Ataris (this is a classic song with a lot of covers lol but the Ataris version is IT for me because for some reason its like, the definitive DickRoy song for me and its like....Roy singing it about Dick as adults thinking about when they were teenagers lol yes this one is very specific)

11) Kill Me - AWIM (I don't have MANY Dick as Talon feels but this is like, my Dick as Talon song)

12) Fuck the World, Move Me, The Jester - Badflower

13) Playground - Bea Miller (This is my Dick getting started in Bludhaven song)

14) Kiss the Rain - Billie Myers (This is my DickKory jam)

15) What's In The Middle - The Bird and the Bee

16) Wings - Birdy

17) Dirty Little Animals - Bones UK (another Dick in Bludhaven song, great for action scenes)

18) The Quiet Things That No One Ever Knows, You Won't Know - Brand New

19) Failure, Give Me A Sign, Breath, Had Enough, Sooner or Later, Diary of Jane - Breaking Benjamin

20) Circus - Britney Spears (yes its a cliché and what about it? Its a good song and its a very Dick Grayson song haflkhfal)

21) The Wings of Icarus - Celldweller (Dick in Bludhaven or Gotham, patrol/action song)

22) Mary Mary - Chumbawumba (Dick in Bludhaven, specifically Blockbuster arc stuff, dunno why its just my go-to for that era)

23) Ultraviolence - Cliff Lin (another action/patrol song)

24) Come Along - Cosmo Sheldrake (there's a long complicated story here lol but point is this song is very Robin: Year One for me and ties into a lot of my feels about Shrike, Vengeance Academy, Dick and Boone and the mindset Dick has about all those memories)

25) Cold, Colors, Already Gone, Invincible - Crossfade

26) Gotta Get Thru This - Daniel Bedingfield

27) Run Londinium - Daniel Pemberton (action song for various things I write that have Dick on the run or fighting/infiltrating the Court of Owls, etc)

28) Dynasties and Dystopia - Denzel Curry, Gizzle & Bren Joy (action stuff but Gotham based, this is a full-ensemble Batkids anthem for me lolol)

29) The Sound of Silence - Disturbed (another classic with a lot of covers but the Disturbed version is it for me and is very Dick in Bludhaven)

30) Unstoppable - E.S. Posthumus (action song, Gotham or Bludhaven....also I've mentioned before that I don't have fancasts for Dick but I do have an image of how I picture him moving, like his stylistic combination of fighting and dancing, and there's that one dancer Michael Dameski that really embodies that for me? Yeah he has a dance to this song specifically that's what kinda started that rabbit hole for me)

31) MisS Understood, Wait - Earshot

32) White Rabbit - Egypt Central (oof, this song is Dick yelling at Bruce on behalf of himself and his siblings)

33) Drunk (And I Don't Wanna Go Home) - Elle King & Miranda Lambert (this one is Dick and the OG Titans + Lilith because I'm me....like, their rabble rousing, 'let's have some mayhem' anthem)

34) Cold (But I'm Still Here), This Time Its Different - Evans Blue

35) Dance of the Manatee, Kyla Cries Cologne, A Wolf Descends on the Spanish Sahara, Walls of Jericho - Fair to Midland

36) HandClap - Fitz and the Tantrums

37) Shake It Out, Spectrum, Never Let Me Go, Seven Devils, Strangeness and Charm, No Light No Light - Florence and the Machine

38) Falls On Me - Fuel

39) We Are Young (featuring Janelle Monae) - Fun (Dick and the OG Titans)

40) Dirty - grandson (I love this song so much and its just so....Dick Grayson to me, but also Jason Todd too, I think it speaks to how I see them as more alike than a lot of people think and Dick doesn't go to the extremes Jason does but is a lot more willing to fudge the lines of morality than people think)

41) Familiar Taste of Poison, Freak Like Me - Halestorm

42) How You Like Me Now - The Heavy

43) Remember Me - Hoobastank (Dick and how society views him when he's 'just' Dick Grayson, circus orphan and when he's Dick Grayson, adopted son of Bruce Wayne)

44) Achilles Heel, Thanatos (End of Us) - J. Maya

45) Electropop, Go! (Jump In! Mix) - Jupiter Rising

46) Run - Leona Lewis

47) Shatter Me - Lindsey Stirling

48) Rooftops, Wake Up (Make A Move) - Lostprophets

49) Stop Me (featuring Daniel Merriweather) - Mark Ronson

50) No More Drama - Mary J. Blige

51) Make A Shadow, Running Up That Hill - Meg Myers

52) Welcome to the Black Parade, The Ghost of You, Sing - My Chemical Romance

53) Torn - Nathan Lanier (another action song, this one is my usual backdrop when I picture Dick with one of his siblings running across Gotham rooftops or something, playing rooftop tag even)

54) Republic - Ninja Tracks (Batfam doing stealth operations as a team, action stuff)

55) Trinity - Paper Tongues

56) Faster Kill Pussycat (featuring Brittany Murphy) - Paul Oakenfold (Bludhaven patrol song and Dick's complicated feelings re: how people perceive him and react to him)

57) Live In The Moment, Feel It Still - Portugal. The Man

58) Misfit Toys - Pusha T & Mako (Bludhaven song)

59) Goodbye - Ramsey

60) Selfish and Cold, After the Rain - Revelation Theory

61) Someone Else - Rezz & Grabbitz (Dick and his complicated self-image and identity issues, as well as how people see him versus how he thinks they see him or wants them to see him)

62) Dancing On My Own - Robyn

63) Night of the Dancing Flame, Ramalama (Bang Bang) - Róisín Murphy

64) Ladies and Gentlemen - Saliva

65) Hall of Fame (featuring will.I.am) - The Script

66) Broken (featuring Amy Lee) - Seether

67) Monsters, Stranger Inside, Second Chance - Shinedown

68) The Royal We, Panic Switch - Silversun Pickups

69) Through Glass, Bother - Stone Sour

70) Breakdown, Mourning - Tantric

71) Be Somebody - Thousand Foot Krutch

72) Image of the Invisible - Thrice

73) UK Jamaican - Tricky (I just love this song and it FEELS like Dick Grayson y'know? LOL, like this is just on his workout playlist)

74) Buried Myself Alive, Blue and Yellow - The Used

75) Guns For Hire, Run Boy Run - Woodkid

[fruitsilly]

10 people you want to know better (tagged ppl are under no obligation to do this <3!!)

thank you jude @pansyfem for tagging me! this looks like fun :3

relationship status: single, but heavily lushing/meshing (the sensual/alterous equivalents of crushing respectively) on this guy in my class at uni rn. and i really. Really want him to be my boyfriend holy fucking shit he's so cute. anyways. i also have a milder squish on a girl who's also in my class. i have two exes but i am aromantic and since they were romantic relationships which needed reciprocation they didn't work out. i am still friends with one of my exes (who's also arospec) tho so it's all good!! :•D

favourite colours: my top 5 fave colours are

green

purple

pink

yellow

blue

in that order :)

favourite foods: ough pasta. any kind of pasta really but i am especially partial to lasagne. i also love cheese and pizza. oh and how could i forget!!! millionaire's shortbread!!

song stuck in my head: TOXIC BY BRITNEY SPEARS!!!!!!!!!! although before this it was the borgia family horrible histories song :)

last thing you googled: i use firefox bc im swag so technically i duckduckgo'ed this Anyways. i searched for the tv show "you" bc i saw a gifset from that show featuring a lady i am incredibly bi for and i was like 👀 will i have to watch this now

time: 9.32PM (im gonna write the time of posting this bc i wrote this in my notes app)

dream trip: spain or scotland!! spain bc im learning spanish and scotland bc it's just such a lovely country <3

last thing you read: "the children" by lucy kirkwood! it's a play im reading for my course :)

last book you enjoyed reading: ugh i haven't had the capacity to actually sit down and read a physical book for... too long it's been ages. it's mostly to do with my disabilities and time :( i started reading good omens on my phone but i didn't finish it (i like it so much better than the show lmao). but the actual physical book i read last was "death sets sail" by robin stevens, the final book in her "murder most unladylike" series. ough. ive been with that book series from literally the very beginning. id highly recommend 👍

favourite thing to cook/bake: sadly i don't do enough cooking or baking to know but what i have made is fudge which was quite fun! ive also made a delicious cheesy pasta bake hehe

favourite craft to do in your free time: again. i haven't had the capacity or time to actually make any art since like... march, so, 7 months. yeesh. i miss making digital art. id like to pick it up again but idk when that'll be. id also like to try and get a badge maker bc i have loads of ideas but ugh time is a problem. im just so busy at uni.

most niche dislike: im sure there's Something since im autistic and autism is the Strong Opinions Disorder but nothing's coming to me atm [shrugs]

opinion on circuses: ive only been to one in my life and i really enjoyed it apart from the clowns who i found scary but i was like 8 i think. im less scared of clowns now. also the general aesthetics of them fuck severely

do you have any sense of direction: hardly lol! i have a great photographic memory so even going a certain route once with someone who knows the way i can remember it HOWEVER i am utter shit at finding my way with a map on my own. google maps is always open when im trying to find a place and even then i frequently go in the wrong direction or miss a turning. i just cannot translate distance on a digital map to irl distance. don't even get me started on using a traditional map bc g-d above. id end up more lost than i was before. im excellent at just confusing the hell out of myself <3

tagging: @sillyspooky @skylightz @bromantically @transgenderpolyhedrals @folderone @gir-posting @nvr-pass-spookier-version @heartslobbf @taikacohen @laymedowninsheetsoflinen (plus anyone who sees this and wants to do it just say i tagged you ^_^). again no obligation to do this !! :)

[cherryblossomsno1fan]

more meaningless sk8 headcanons

reki and langa's favorite duet to dance in just dance is can't take my eyes off of you

oka is reki's uncle (mom's brother)

reki tries to give shadow the intimidating talk when he starts dating oka but he fails really hard and ends up laughing his ass off while shadow is just there Confused

cherry named carla after his niece who he loves a lot (i can elaborate on this further)

reki is a harry styles bisexual

reki listened to sweater weather before he knew that it was kind of a bisexual song and one day he was just listening to it with earbuds on and one of his classmates said "hey are you listening to sweater weather?" and he's like "yeah i love this song!" and they're like "oh my god same! are you also... you know?" and he's like "what" and they're like "what" and they explain to him and he's like "oh. wait-" and he just kinda reevaluates his whole life and then a week or so later he comes up to this classmate and says really proudly "i DO listen to sweater weather!" and they immediately understand and they hug bc yay two bisexuals

shadow has a really bad amount of internalized homophobia and it's a huge fucking problem and it never really leaves

reki introduces miya to his sister bc they're around the same age and they become really good friends (their main hobby is gagging at reki and langa and making fun of reki)

joe doesn't actually believe in astrology but he pretends he does just to piss off cherry, who thinks astrology is the dumbest shit ever

everyone thinks shadow's music taste is rock/metal music because of his aesthetic but one day miya used his phone for spotify and found out that he listens to a bunch of dancey songs and shit like that from the 90's (like britney spears,,, yknow)

half italian joe half italian joe hALF ITALIAN JOE GODDAMNIT

adding to ^ that, joe listens to a bunch of old italian songs and often plays them in the restaurant (HELP NO MATCHABLOSSOM BRAIN WENT "lol them slow dancing to old italian songs lol think about it")

joe unironically listens to macarena and has to do the dance every time. it's his legal obligation. he has to do it every time he hears it. no matter where he is.

cherry knows this and has carla play the macarena during one of their beefs and joe is like "FUCK YOU" but does it anyways

they both lost in the end because cherry lost his shit laughing (they both fell at the same time so it was considered a tie)

miya wouldn't stop giving them shit about it for weeks because they both literally looked like complete wrecks (cherry almost broke his leg and joe did, in fact, dislocate his elbow), like he would look at them and burst out laughing

one time miya laughed so hard at them that he fell from his chair face first and broke his nose which is the only reason he stopped laughing (it hurt to laugh, literally)

reki is so used to kissing his sisters' minor injuries when they like fall or scrape their knees that it's become a habit and while this does open up renga opportunities please let me enlighten you with the idea of Big Bro Reki treating one of miya's scrapes (either a tumble or he tripped or smth idk man bear with me) and accidentally smooching his arm or smth out of habit and miya kinda cries a little

also, this angsty shit is brought to you by my gf who likes to make me SUFFER: after reki and langa's fight, one of his younger sisters sees that reki is really upset and crying, so she goes up to him and kisses his chest to make him feel better

ITALIAN JOE TIME ok so joe's mom is italian and when she met his father she didn't really know much japanese and her pronunciation was so weird so instead of calling his father by full name she called him "joe" for short (and it was easier for her to pronounce) and when he was born it kind of became a little nickname his mom gave him

reki listens to paramore NO i am not taking criticism on this

when they were like kids cherry and joe promised to each other that at their weddings, they would be each other's best man; skip to when they got engaged, joe is like "oh no,,, oh my god we didn't think about this did we" and cherry thinks that he wants to call off the engagement and kinda panics for a few seconds but then joe said "who will be our best men??" and cherry is like "OH THAT'S WHAT YOU MEAN-" and then kinda smacks him for scaring him but also is really mushy inside that joe remembered

whenever joe speaks to cherry in italian (complimenting him and being romantic and all that) cherry immediately assumes that joe is insulting him and gets mad (when really he's telling him his eyes are beautiful)

whoops accidentally made this one about the Matchablossom Agenda oh well promise there'll be more tadashi and adam content in the next one

[nat-20s]

!!!!! i hope you had fun at meow wolf!!! i live somewhat near the house of eternal return so i was just there last week! i love that place so much and it was such a pleasant surprise to see someone on tumblr talking about it!

I had SO much fun!!!!! My only regret is that I was scanning all the QR codes for the case files and I had talked to a staff member that was like "oh yeah one of them got scraped off so you'll have to go up and get it from the master list" and literally I was about ten feet out of the building and realized I had forgotten to do that so I only have 21 out of 23 documents now lol. also did not realize that if there was a qr code next to the documents then you could in fact later read those documents...i was there for six hours and I think I spent a solid two of said hours reading shit sadjdkadsjl. I also spent a good twenty minutes doing the light/stars puzzle and as I was doing the last three I had an audience of a family who were very excited about me succeeding and getting a little print out. Did not realize that you could give said print out to a staff member so I kept it as a souvenir in my wallet.

I've now been to two out of three Meow Wolfs (just need to hit up the vegas location: Omega Mart) and AUGH i love them so much. I'll definitely be going back to the house of eternal return sometime next year as my parents and I will likely do another Santa Fe Roadtrip when the weather is a bit warmer. I got asked whether I liked Convergence Station or House of Eternal Return better and I was like man idk!! Especially bc I experienced them in wildly different ways: Convergence Station with my 'rents and we were just there to like See Shit we didn't really try to follow the story much (we didn't even get the keycards lol) while I went to HoER solo and very much was trying to get all the story. (I got SO excited when I figured out why I kept seeing hamsters sdkfj). While they both have sci fi elements for sure Convergence Station felt more very specifically science fiction based while HoER was like a sci fi mystery. I think I'm sliiiighhtlly more biased towards Convergence Station but I think part of that might also be that it was my First experience doing quite that level of immersive art. (the closest I had ever come was like idk theme parks/escape rooms/ going to the san fran exploratorium when I was like ten [which does fuck btw])

Also semi related but imo I think if you can you should go to everyone Meow Wolf location twice: once to kinda of get an overview and just look and touch and feel (this is ideal if going with other people) and one to like. THOROUGHLY explore and try to get as many pieces of the puzzle as you can and read stuff and watch stuff (this one is ideal solo so you can really go at your own pace: i literally spent an hour in one room!)

Anyway tldr House of Eternal Return is extremely fun and cool and if any of y'all have the opportunity to go to any of the Meow Wolfs and you like Weird and Fantastical shit (which I assume you do if ur on this webbed site following me tbh) you ABSOLUTELY should and I would recommend making a whole day of it tbh. Uhh both Britney Spears and Megan Thee Stallion have gone and they had fun so you probably will too. Also highly recommend in general to make weird art that makes ur heart go !!!!! like everyone who works on the meow wolf displays clearly does!!!

[papofglencoe]

Re: you mentioning you vibe more with Kurt Cobain as you get older.

I totally get that. I don't know if I was ready for Nirvana when I was twelve- fourteen. I liked their music but I didn't fully get the vibe (I was a late bloomer spending probably 98% of my free time reading) and now I’m like damn, I wish I hadn’t been an actual child while Kurt was alive. Because goodness that cynical outlook fits pretty well on me too.

The memory that stands out the most to me when Kurt died (I was fourteen) was feeling this great loss, like I was in mourning for our generation because we’d lost someone special- even if I didn’t get all of the specifics at the time and just casually enjoyed In Bloom or Smells Like Teen Spirit on MTV.

Also, I’ll never forget speaking up at home, expressing how sad I felt about his passing, without really being able to express why, and my asshole stepfather (no longer in the picture) making some sort of remark about how he deserved it or he was glad or something along those lines. I heard the sentiment mentioned by more than one person at that time. It made me angry then and it still does to his day.

All that from a “good” evangelical, of course.

(I'm not bashing Christianity in general, I want to make that very clear. Just the particular type that refuses to see further than the ends of their noses)

Anyway, thanks for letting me dump my completely unsolicited emotions on you <3.

Man, your (ex)stepfather was an asshole! I'm so sorry he made things worse for you by subjecting you to heartlessness instead of sympathy. (As if his generation hadn't lost their share of culturally significant people far before their time... not to mention, oh, Jesus).

I was in the same boat as you. Too young to grasp the full genius of Nirvana at the time or to understand what it was that Kurt was doing with his music. I remember watching Woodstock 94 with my older brother through the static and garble of some semi-pirated version of HBO on our TV, but it wasn't until I started high school that I actually gave a shit about contemporary music. When I was 12 I was listening to old Motown, Doo-Wop, the Beach Boys, the Beatles, etc. Stuff more appropriate for my parent's generation than ours. lol. So I was a little late to the game, and too late to enjoy Kurt before the enjoyment was mingled with loss.

I remember the day he died, though... I remember my best friend getting on the bus that morning, dressed all in black, her face stained with tears, and maybe she got the full gravity of the situation or maybe it was in some ways performative grief, but I really didn't understand then like I do now as an old woman the tragedy of a 27-year-old man ending his life to escape the demons hounding him (or just how horrific those demons were). He seemed like a grown adult to me at the time he died. I know now he was still in many ways a child. So young. So fucking young. When you're a teen you think 27 is ancient... like it's time to pack it up and move to the retirement home. But in time, with wisdom, you come to realize that you've just begun living at 27. He had just started living when he chose to die. He'd just had a baby girl... just this little nugget of a girl, and he bailed on her. As a parent now, that makes my heart ache.

Kurt was the essence of a depressed person, you know? Brilliant, funny, playful, sarcastic, wry, gentle, creative, vulnerable, but completely overwhelmed by the soullessness and cruelty of the world around him, exhausted, saddled with chronic pain, pissed off, frustrated, desperately wanting to stop hurting the people he loved, desperately wanting to stop being hurt, and I just... did not understand at 12 what a life with depression would be like, how hard it was for him with the added burdens of addiction and the savage cruelty of fame and the press in the 90s (people quite rightly have taken the magnifying lens to how the press mistreated Britney Spears, but there are so many others out there, like Kurt Cobain and Amy Winehouse, who were literally picked to death by the media).

Don't you wonder what Kurt would be like as a 50 year old? Would he be an old curmudgeon the kids "Ok Boomered" all the time? Would his hard edges be worn away like driftwood? Would he have gotten softer, quieter? Would he be angrier? Would he still be laughing at all of us? Or would he be ripping his hair out (would he have any left?), tired of the ridiculous bullshit that's only gotten more ridiculous and more bullshitterific?

[dusksmote]

Is there anything you want to talk about regarding your fic that no one has explicitly asked you? IF SO PLEASE DO SHARE ^_^

maybe not what you were looking for, but i've been wanting to talk more about ~music~

i'm actually not a huge fan of songfics so i consider myself kind of a hypocrite in that regard, but i do have a process for picking music or a kind of "code"

my issue with songfics is mostly that the music doesn't fit the characters, or the mood, or the setting. when it doesn't serve a purpose. i remember years ago reading a fanfic for a different fandom where a character was written as obsessed with MCR or All Time Low or some other alternative emo boy band. they went to their concert, wore band merch, and brought up the band multiple times--but it had nothing to do with the story and made no sense for the character. it was like if light yagami had a shrine to britney spears. it just didn't work, and it was really obvious that this was the author's favorite band. for whatever reason they felt it necessary to include it in their fanfic.

for that reason, i never use music i'm already familiar with. i do have favorite bands/genres/songs/etc, but shoehorning them in just because i like them feels like pandering to myself. not every character should have the same music tastes as me, and i enjoy speculating on what they would like to listen to and exploring new music. regardless, i usually try to use music i think is "good", but sometimes i add stuff i don't like. for example, kyle canonically likes the cure, and i think the cure fucking sucks!!!!! but i still forced myself to listen to them and used like 3 of their songs >X^(

so how do i find music to use? in most cases i'm seeking out new music to listen to and it ends up inspiring me. i rarely go out of my way to look for a song that fits a scene, because i try to use music sparingly. a song should compliment the scene and add something to it, otherwise just don't add it. ETL was inspired in part by the song juicy by doja cat, and the reason stan likes weezer is because i was listening to pinkerton while writing. i had actually never listened to weezer before this fic (except for their big hits of course), and sometimes i wonder if people assume i picked weezer because they think they're my favorite band LOL.

sometimes i do have to go out of my way to find the right song, and that's because i need something that fits the tone of the scene or the character or has some lyrical quality. if someone mentions a song in their fanfic you better believe i'm gonna look it up and listen to it, so it better fit the tone of the fic. ever seen a movie where the soundtrack completely didn't work with the scene? it totally takes me out of it. and on the topic of using music sparingly, if i put song lyrics i try to be as concise as possible with my choice. i don't want them to distract from the rest of the story, so i'm not going to copy and paste a whole ballad into the middle of a paragraph. and by rule i always try to choose lyrics that add an element to the piece, either by conveying some emotion or information or foreshadowing something.

sometimes its to make the audience think about things a different way, like when randy walks in the barn i specifically used the line "All my enemies from the past pucker up they lips, and kiss my ass!" from the song "i smoke weed" to remind the reader that this is where stan did the same to kyle's ass and now randy might be about to find that out. another example is karen listening to "my girlfriend's girlfriend" by type O negative while butters, cartman, and kenny are in the other room. it's by a goth band so it fits her goth persona, and it's about a polyamorous relationship, so it does some double work foreshadowing that. actually, i think i've listened to every fucking song about threesomes. there are, unfortunately, not that many.

anyway, i think the best way to incorporate music into fanfics is to just be open minded and willing to listen to a lot of different shit. the coolest thing is listening to a full album and finding some hidden gem no one knows about or a piece that really inspires you to write.