#anyways. im excited. i think i hated their last album though

[devinwolfi]

ptx show soon 😣

[i-know-you-know-we-know-lee-know]

Fluorescent Lights

Park Sunghoon

*looks at his picture*

ᵍᵒᵈᵈᵃᵐⁿ

Uh- anyways

Thought i would leave yall with this since ill be gone for the next week

Istg if Enhypen releases their album a day early while im away with no wifi

...

>:[

(im still excited)

*insert screaming hyperventilating noises of excitement*

Warnings: fluff, kissing, mild cursing, not proofread, non idol au but can be read as idol au if you don't think too hard about it, pet names: hoonie, love, kinda suggestive at the end

Sunghoon was graceful

You?

Not so much

It probably came from his years of figure skating and holy shit was he good at it

He often invites you to come skate with him even though you both knew you sucked at it

Most of the time you ended up standing or sitting off to one side of the rink watching him as he glided around, showing off to you

This time however, he was determined to get you to actually skate even if you spent hours here

Which led you to present day, Sunghoon holding on tightly to your arms to keep both of you upright as you inched forward on the slippery surface

"Hoonie I cant do this"

You whined, as your feet slipped out from underneath you yet again, leaving you sitting on the ice

He just laughed and held out a hand to help you up

"cmon lets try one more time love, maybe 14th times the charm"

You made a face at him as you accepted his hand and almost fell over again when you stood up

His hands automatically flew to your waist to steady you and he squeezed you reassuringly

You sighed, leaning into his chest

"can we just stand here?"

You ask pleadingly, looking up at him

He smiles down, placing a light kiss on your foreahead

"how will you get better at skating if we stand still?"

He asks teasingly

You don't respond, instead shifting your body closer to his as you frown

"Hoonie i suck at ice skating, we both know that"

You say, disgruntled

He sighs and wraps his arms around your waist, placing his chin on your head

"well you might suck at ice skating but you can suck less at it if you practice"

He says, feeling your arms wrap around him too

"you weren't supposed to agree with me when i said i sucked"

You mutter as he laughs

The two of you elapse into silence as you stand on the ice in each other's arms

"I love you"

Sunghoon murmurs, lifting his chin off your head

"love you too Hoonie"

Your lean forward, standing on your tiptoes as best you can in the skates and place a kiss on his lips

He responds immediately, cupping your face with one hand while the other sits on the small of your back

Maybe the fluorescent lights and the cold ice rink weren't the most romantic setting but neither of you really cared

The ice rink seemed to have something out for you though because as soon as your arms removed themselves from Sunghoons waist you lost your balance and slipped backwards

Despite his hand on your back and his steady stance Sunghoon goes down with you and the two of you end up on the ground

He looks at you eyes shining as he helps you back up to a standing position with him, pulling you into another kiss in the process

The next few minutes are a repeat of the last

Kissing, falling over, and laughing together as those fluorescent lights start to seem a little bit more romantic

Lets just say you didn't get much skating practice in for the rest of that night

This kinda ended up differently then i planned it to😭

I lowkey hate it

But i want to leave yall with something even if its not the best

[fl0-bo]

Hallo, I'm back again with another music talk!! As I said in my last one, I basically am just talking about music I like, what I've been listening to the last week and rambling. Anyways enough of that, let's get straight into it😊

Okay to start off I'm going to talk about the playlist i've mainly been listening to this week. This playlist is called 'pacify her' . It's called that because I was listening to that song while making it. I don't really know what kind of genre the music in this playlist is but I'd say they all sound really cool. While making this playlist i found an artist called 'jack of jill' her music is so good, her song 'vivica' is definitely worth checking out. In addition to 'jack off Jill' i also found another artist named 'johnny goth', his songs just sound so otherworldly i really don't know how to explain it. He has some really sick instrumental parts in his songs, i really recommend listening to him! The band 'i monster' also showed up a lot on this playlist, i've been listening to them for a while now but have discovered some new songs by them as well. I initially found this band through their song called 'who is she' . This song is really good, however I would think my favourite song by them is actually 'lust for a vampyr'. The album covers this band makes are just so good oh my life, anyways i think 'i monster' is definitely one of my favourite bands currently😊

Anyways this playlist has a lot of really good songs, it's definitely worth listening to!!

I know i rambled about melanie martinez in the last music talk but i'm going to do it again anyways😔

The closer we get to the album release the more excited I get, all the spoilers Melanie has been giving are so exciting. Her new form is looking so cool, she looked absolutely gorgeous performing at lollapalooza!! This morning she released a song from her new album early and i have to say that 'death' is actually such an amazing song. It's a bit different from what we were used to from Melanie but I personally think that the change is good. The new style compliments her vocals really nicely!

Lately with the snippets of Melanie's album having been released I've been seeing a lot of people hating on her. I think this has been happening due to her changing aesthetics and music style a bit; which is really not an excuse though. I get that it's a bit of an adjustment to move on from Crybaby especially if you grew up with her like myself but Melanie has been planning this for years now! Melanie said in an interview a few years back that Crybaby is going to evolve as a being/ soul and she's finally getting to do that with this album and I am honestly living for the dark fairy vibe that she's going with. It may be because I listen to a lot of genres compared to others but I really like how the new songs sound. They are less soft than things she's previously made but it really isn't too different. Melaine has always been weird and displayed that very clearly in her songs and music videos for years now and yet she's getting hate from people who claim to be fans only now? See I understand not liking her newer stuff, you're not obligated to; but that doesn't mean you can be such haters either. People need to learn to humanise celebrities more, Melanie doesn't deserve even half the hate she gets.

On a lighter note this album means that she will likely go on tour again meaning i may get a chance to see her perform live for the first time!!!

The song that is second from being my top listened to in my stats called 'angry' is so good oh my life. When i first went to check who the artist was and saw 'mars argo' i was shocked because i could have sworn i knew her from somewhere. Turns out she made a popular tik tok sound that goes 'welcome to my computer show, im mars argo', anyways i just thought that was kind of cool. Mars has such good vocals, I think I'm probably going to look into more of her songs soon.

To end this off I'm just going to ask for music recommendations, I listen to most genres so feel free to send in anything! If i like something enough i might mention it in my next blog, you never know🤷

[tourdion]

I just took your Leonard Cohen quiz and it was great! I got Recent Songs which I'm not familiar with at all, and I'm excited to listen to it.

I'm dying to know what your theories/ thoughts are about Famous Blue Raincoat if you're willing to share. (I myself have a ton of very specific thoughts which I put in the text box—sorry that it's so long haha)

hello hello... well first do not be sorry at all i love it when the responses are as long as possible >:) its really my favourite part of having the quiz.. i always go through and read what people put there

the other thing is im glad that you got one that was new to you... you often get people wanting to get whichever album is their favourite but my goal was to introduce people to lesser known areas of his discography.. so i am glad this has been achieved...

recent songs was one of the last ones i got into but when i finally did i was very into it.. listening just to recent songs for about a month basically and i still really like it now... the traitor was the first one i got really into and probably still my favourite song on there now though there are many great ones.. so i hope you dont hate it....

now with famous blue raincoat... so this is a question ive been hounding people with for years and the quiz was a great opportunity to spread my net much more widely... the real question i originally wanted to ask people all those years ago was "do you think famous blue raincoat is about a man or a woman" but that was too much of a leading question

i also went through a phase a few years ago of reading every article or review or biography relating to leonard cohen i could get my hands on in existence...

i even used to read through every single tweet mentioning "leonard cohen" every morning... nothing could get away from me... if you ever tweeted about leonard cohen in 2020-21 i guarantee saw it (this isnt possible now because they changed how searches work to also include alternate names.. so when you search his name tweets including his monk name "jikan" also come up so now its just flooded with anime 😕)

so anyway... the thing that i found both in my years of interrogation and in reading everything i could find was that not only was there a mixture of people referring to the famous blue raincoat wearer as a man or as a woman, but every time the stories people seemed to be envisioning were extremely vivid but also very drastically different, and not only that but theyre always presented very matter of factly.. theres often very little confusion... eg ive never encountered anyone confused about whether the song is about a man or a woman

it just fascinates me so much that theres a song which in itself is pretty vague but it induces such vivid and intricate images for people which are then also so completely different... its actually a song that leonard cohen said we wasnt satisfied with because he left it too unclear but i think thats exactly what i love about it

so the story that it inspires for me... the very first few times i heard it where i didnt pay much attention i always assumed it was just a usual hetero love song about a woman but then as i listened more i started to imagine the story as the narrator and his wife and then this mysterious woman who the narrator was originally the one to have brought into the situation but then she ended up having a much deeper and exciting and interesting relationship with jane instead... though i do also really enjoy the ambiguous male friend story too

[alreadyblondenow]

MOVING ON AND NOT TAKING NCT WITH ME

dont get me wrong though im not leaving tumblr haha i love this blogging shit too much. 

Okay. That title sucked but I don’t have any ideas right now. Anyway, I’m gonna talk about how I’m now moving on with my life and shit. Adulting is a huge reason for that but I’m not hating it. I love the fact the I make money with the job that I love and buy literally everything I want, I feel like I’m on a new level of self improvement because let’s be for real, the pandemic made a lot of people think small for themselves including me and so after the pandemic and all that aftermath, I’m glad that I’m actually alive right now even though I got covid once and two, I’m finally back on track again and life is pretty challenging still of course but I’d rather have this, than feel so useless to the core. 

In line with that, given the things that I mentioned above, obviously I’m busy af making shit happen, getting shit done and all that jazz, for a couple of months now, I don’t know shit about nct or any of their promotions or solo gigs. Of course I do know a few, I do know a few update about my man Taeyong but not as updated as I was before. You get what I’m saying? I’m usually on Twitter 24/7 because of kpop, but now I think I don’t have Twitter installed already, not even sure. 

I missed the wayv fanmeet which i regret 100% because they performed, the last time i saw them they didnt. and dude i really want to see them perform because i feel like thats what im missing already. i saw nct dream perform already, but 5 members lang. but dude, wanting to see wayv perform is a whole new level of longing. 

And now that 7 Dream is  coming to my country and will have a concert for 2 days, Idk what I’ll feel though because, I didn’t even bother buying tickets, and someone was offering me free tix but I didn’t accept because I don’t know I feel like a worthy dreamzen will be happy accepting that ticket but if that was me, yeah I’ll be happy but I’ll be going just for the pictures and shit. And yo everyone knows im a 127zen so that is that. Tho my dreamies are like sons to me I just dont get too excited when it comes to them right, unlike 127 i’d scream my lungs out. Dude I fucking cried during the link and didn’t go to work the day after. 

Anyways, point is. Personally, I’m not yet ready to say goodbye to NCT yet because we all know that loving nct 127 was not just a phase for me. I love them even though nctzens were like 20pcs per country at that time haha, I loved them even though there were not enough contents yet, i loved them even before 127 got a full album, i love them before instagram and bubble subscriptions. 

But life is making me leave nct where I left them which is the beautiful 2 Baddies era. I’m just so busy right now that I cant keep up anymore, and that’s why it got me thinking ‘hey, maybe it’s time to let go? and leave the crazy world of ncity?’ and move on with my life and invest with the real deal??

Do you guys feel the same way at some point? 

[1d1195]

It was very hard for me to actually stay home and like rest?? But yeah no I got it all fixed today which was nice so at least! and you're so right about inconveniencing them lol

Im sorry your weekend was not good and stressful :( Hopefully your week is not as stressful! Is the school year almost over? Either way I am so excited for you to be on break and be FREE!

This week has gone okay so far! Im going to a drag show on Wednesday so I've been doing a little bit more work recently to have free time that night. But very excited! Ive also been having a new album on repeat so Ive had new sad songs to fixate over lol

And It's actually my last week of classes! So finals week for me starts next Tuesday and I think my last final is on that Friday! So i still have a bit to go but not really lol And yes! I agree it felt very far away and I simply can't comprehend time lol

ALSO I SAW MY EX HOT PROFESSOR YESTERDAY WHILE WALKING BY THE PSYC BUILDING😭 I felt weak in the knees! even after all this time seeing that man in his leather jacket makes me want to cry in a good way lol

and speaking of going feral lol THAT TRADITIONAL EXTRA WAS SO GOOD! it was kinda sad considering we got to read a bit about Harry's POV. But I really did like reading about him being vulnerable and I think it really adds to his character :)! but tell me why you kinda surprised me with her going down on him WHILE NIALL WAS THERE!?! yeah that was hot 😵‍💫 Also when she called him 'boyfriend' my first though was that Harry probably hates being called her boyfriend HAHA Love his little thoughts lol Anyways I loved reading it, seriously so thankful to be able to read what you create 💗

Wishing you a better week/weekend! You got this my love, I doubt it at all! love you!!-💜

omg I love girl-rotting lol. I never do it because there is always something to do. But when I'm sick I give myself like an extra hour to rot and whatnot. It's hard though because I'm the only one that does anything in my relationships (family, friends, work, etc.) I'm having a very eldest daughter kinda week. My sister and mom both texted me asking for help on something and I was actually TRYING so hard to set a boundary and my sister is just useless quite frankly. I actually think most people in my life fall under the weaponized incompetence category of people. It's EXCEEDINGLY frustrating. But nonetheless, I will move on :)

I'm glad you got to rest. I'm sure it was really hard and whatnot (based on what I mentioned above) But your body needed it. Now it's all taken care of too so that's good! SO exciting about your finals. Feels like it's a quick turnaround but maybe that's good! What do you have planned for the summer!? That's cool about the drag show! That will be so much fun and a nice mental break between your last classes and finals! What album is it? I love a musical fixation! Def in the need of some sad music. My current sad girl hour songs are not cutting it rn lol

I think a leather jacket is like catnip for women. My anti-feminist take. 😂 So happy to have a sighting of him 😍 He'll be good visual for our TA Harry 😉

My week has actually started off pretty okay knock on wood. I'm doing alright. Treated myself to a manicure today. My cuticles were so gross the woman did a deep sigh after getting all the dead skin off ☠ I feel less busy at the moment. I'm hoping I get some time to read. I desperately need my hair and eyebrows done lol. I'm hoping after this week is over I can kind of schedule that. My school year is over toward the end of next week. My students also have finals and such thank the lord. Can't wait to be done with my 3rd period group. I love all my students--I would take a bullet for them. But I do not like some of them. The TUDE and AUDACITY is reaching my limit for this year. I need a reset.

I love to write from Harry's POV. But I think I'm at fault for writing a man for a woman because I'm pretty sure Harry doesn't think like that (maybe he does, that would be really nice 😍) But I do LOVE to make him vulnerable. I think as a celebrity he always has to be poised and put together and always on so I like to think about the part of him that no one else gets to see. I'm glad you liked the boyfriend line too! We're actually getting towards the end of what I have planned for them. I think there is still a few more tricks up my sleeve maybe but only four more blurbs in store for them 😉

Onto the kinkier side of things, I have been thinking about this blurb for an EMBARRASSINGLY long time and can't even tell you how depraved I think I am for even THINKING about it let alone sharing it 🙈😭😅😍 I am a pretty conservative person when it comes to my sex life or whatever but I'm pretty sure I would turn into a whole other person for Harry 🤭🙃 Poor innocent Niall has no idea I wish I could tell you what was going through my brain but it was not much at all hahahahaha

Thank you for reading and checking in. So glad you're almost done with your classes! Can't wait to hear about your drag show. Also I assume you'll be studying your smart little butt off so don't worry about getting back to me! Don't forget to stay hydrated, caffeinated, and rested this week! Love you lots!

xoxo