GIVE US QUILLKILLER THOUGHTS!!!!!!
i would be delighted to!!! i’ll try to say things we (@quillkiller and i, we’re conjoined) haven’t said before lol…. please be warned. this post got LONG (lots more under the cut)
so for me the general trajectory of the quillkiller relationship is devotion -> betrayal -> haunting (and the devotion and haunting are sort of synonymous, no? different shapes of the same undying love) so i’ll try to follow that trajectory in this post too
so. Devotion. we’ve said before that a big part of bella’s character is her need to devote herself to something. she’s a follower at her core, and before she meets voldemort, she finds this in rita. rita who’s mean and nasty and genuinely believes she deserves to be worshipped (major god complex). bella who wants to worship her, wants to give her everything, wants to give herself up to rita like an offering, a sacrifice.
and it digs deep into the both of them, this devotion, claws its way into the marrow of their bones until they can’t let each other go. they’re in different hogwarts houses and come from what feels like different worlds but bella’s sneaking into the ravenclaw common room at night, they’re passing notes in class, exchanging looks in the great hall, meeting up in secret nooks and crannies. bella is getting married but rita is the journalist at the wedding, kissing her before she walks down the aisle, sneaking off to fuck in one of the side rooms later. bella sending patronuses like ‘come over’ or just showing up at rita’s flat, clinging onto each other even when they know they probably shouldn’t and that it can’t last and that it’ll have to end at some point, taking as much of each other as they can get bc they know that it can’t be forever and they didn’t even think it would last this long… i imagine them waking up together like this:
and the thing is!! there’s so much love. so so so much love. like even w bella married and everything, that’s never an issue at all. they’re happy, they have fun and they make each other laugh and they love each other so so much and so so well even if they both think that’s it’s ultimately gonna fall apart. and that brings us to Betrayal.
it’s the idea that both of them are selfish and obsessive and cruel but before they’d always been all of these things together. but bc they are these things and bc they’re always pushing each other and challenging each other and making each other more, they’re always, inevitably, gonna cross a line that the other cannot. for rita, this is her article, and for bella, this is her dark mark.
and to me, their respective betrayals happen kinda concurrently, like either one of them could happen first, but they don’t fully fall apart until both of them have happened bc, for example, if the article happened first, bella wouldn’t forgive rita (it’s disloyalty and bella can’t understand or forgive it bc she’s unendingly loyal <- another core bella trait) but bc of the disconnect there, the way they both can’t quite understand how unforgivable what they’ve done is to the other, i don’t think rita would necessarily see a huge issue. like they’ve fought before and it hasn’t been final and if rita called, bella would still show up, ofc she would. and vice versa. if the dark mark debacle happened first, rita can’t forgive her for that (bc no matter how morally reprehensible she is, rita can’t justify or support genocide and doesn’t understand how bella thinks she could), but if bella called, rita would go.
that’s them one betrayal in ^^ (i.e. rita post bella’s mark showing up at lestrange manor bc bella called. or bella post rita’s article showing up at rita’s flat bc she called). and they need both the betrayals to happen to be fully over (and obvs both the betrayals are inevitable bc of who they are and the circumstances they find themselves in even if they’re trying so hard to cling onto each other). i think by the time of both the betrayals, they’re already hanging on by a thread - hanging on so so tight, don’t get me wrong, but things are already falling to pieces, they just haven’t noticed yet, or haven’t let themselves notice yet.
it’s been building and building bc they both want everything, they want to have their cake and eat it too, selfish and hungry and wanting, that eventually they cross they line and it all falls down. they lose their ‘one good thing’ (<- bella says this about rita), they lose the woman that they still love, the only woman they ever have and ever will love, bc they just kept pushing for more:
and it’s both of their faults but they blame each other and hate each other and love each other just the same and they don’t realise that the closest they ever were to everything they ever wanted was when they were together. until later. thus. the Haunting.
and i have a lot of visual aids (quotes) for this part lol. this spans the rest of their lives, and i tend to mostly consider it from rita’s pov bc she’s not in azkaban and a lot more mentally present and also lives a lot longer so i think it’s more tragic for her (bella is also very much tragic but i will say that by the end of her time in azkaban, she’s really not much more than a shell of herself and she would’ve had most of her happy memories (a large part of which are w rita) sapped from her by the dementors and therefore it’s hard to say how much capacity she would’ve had for being haunted, being as, in and of herself, she would’ve been little more than a ghost x)
we’re gonna kinda gloss over everything here bc i have lots to say and this is already so so long but i have quotes that refer to a) rita’s general existence after the break up:
(obvs we're referring to her articles here. and just everything she writes in general. and everything she does. and everything she is.)
b) rita after bella breaks out of azkaban in 1996, and she sees her on the cover of the daily prophet:
and c) basically just rita for the rest of her life. forever. til the day she dies (this quote makes me a little insane...... !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!):
IT IS MY KNIFE AND MY HEART TOO!!!! WHAT THE FUCK!!!!! anyway i'm gonna stop talking here bc i've rambled on for far far too long (although i have more to say if anyone wants... i'll always have more to say about them i think) but for now!! i'll love you and leave you with a few links to posts/fics that i think vaguely encapsulate our quillkiller conception (and by that i mean reccing jen's fics and a couple other things i've said):
life-changing fic 1 (rita writing bellatrix's obituary) | thing i wrote (unsent letter from r to b after azkaban break-out) | life-changing fic 2 (bella visiting rita post-azkaban break-out) | thing i wrote (another kinda quillkiller thesis...) | life-changing microfic (nsfw, that good old bellatrix black devotion)
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Here goes:, because this has been swimming around in my head:
K/az has injured his arm(s) on their last job. He’s sore, having trouble moving it, it's in a sling, etc., something like that.
And on top of it all, for reasons of your choice, he’s SUPER sneezy.
I just want to read I/nej helping him tend to his nose. Since K/az can't reach it himself (or he can but not without immense amounts of pain). Like, I/nej rubbing his nose gently for him, massaging his nostrils through cloth to help him sneeze or not sneeze, soothing the itch, cleaning it up--anything, just give me I/nej tending to Kaz’s super sneezy irritated nose ^__^; only if you like
THANK YOU for this prompt i adore it so much and i genuinely had so much fun writing this! i hope you enjoy :D
assistance (basically, k/az is a TOTAL mess and i/nej is lovely as usual)
After a nasty run-in with some thugs from a rival club during a job gone sour, K/az found himself in quite the predicament. The kind of predicament that meant both of his arms were out of action. To his credit, he’d held up his own against the gang for a surprisingly long time but still walked away with a broken wrist and a very painful forearm that was most likely fractured - not to mention the sizeable purple bruise he was sporting on his jaw.
K/az threw open the door and stomped into the Slat looking positively bedraggled. His hat had been discarded somewhere amidst the conflict.
“It was twenty versus one! I can’t believe he wouldn’t let us get involved!”
“What, and blow our own cover? Did you want us to die?”
“He probably died!”
“Saints, J/es, N/ina, calm down. He was putting up a good fight, I’m sure he’ll be- oh, K/az,” I/nej said, spotting K/az as he entered the room. She stood up from the table where J/esper and N/ina were bickering and approached the rain-soaked man.
“Yes, I took care of them all,” Kaz rasped, answering Inej’s question before she could even ask it.
The gap between them was almost closed as Inej stepped forward, looking closely at his face.
“Are you okay?” she dared to ask.
Kaz let his expression soften at her words.
“I’m okay,” he hesitated, “well, I’ll be okay.”
Concern blossomed in Inej’s eyes like the petals of a crocus.
“You know that’s not what I want to hear.”
Kaz remained silent. He was suddenly acutely aware of each and every droplet of water sliding from his hair and onto the floor, and the way his sodden clothes clung to his skin, and the warmth he felt in his cheeks from Inej’s proximity even under the sting of a fresh bruise. Another drop of rain slipped from Kaz’s mess of soaked black hair, falling down right between their faces. Inej’s eyes tracked the droplet down as it fell to the floorboards. She lifted her gaze to meet his. The heat in Kaz’s cheeks grew, much to his resentment.
“I think you dropped something,” she said quietly, looking back down at the rain-spattered ground.
The corners of Kaz’s lips twitched. He noted the glint in Inej’s deep brown eyes.
A (surprisingly clean) towel ruined the moment by soaring right into their faces. Kaz and Inej looked up simultaneously, met by Jesper’s shit-eating grin.
“Good fight, boss? I knew you’d come out on top,” he said smugly.
“Were you not just panicking because you thought he was dead?” Nina asked with her eyebrows raised.
Inej snorted.
“No idea what you’re talking about, Nins.”
Now it was Kaz’s turn to raise his eyebrows. “And why did you throw a towel at me?”
Jesper shrugged. “Looked like you needed it.”
Kaz sighed. He took the towel from Inej who had picked it up off the floor where it had landed. Inej clocked the way he winced when reaching his arm out.
“Thank you,” Kaz said quietly. He made his way over to the stairs, the gazes of everyone in the room like lasers on his back. Inej watched him closely and, seeing his extra-pronounced limp and the shake of the arm holding his cane with every step, decided to follow him.
“I don’t believe I asked for an entourage.”
“It’s not just your room that's upstairs,” Inej replied, a little too quickly. She knew Kaz didn’t believe her, but he still let her trail behind him as he ascended the stairs lopsidedly. They walked in silence until they reached Kaz’s room, when he looked back at her with a single eyebrow lifted. Inej took this as her cue to pretend to disappear into her own room. She definitely didn’t imagine the pained sigh that escaped Kaz. As soon as he’d shut his door, she slipped back out into the corridor and stood quietly outside, listening.
She heard the creak of Kaz’s chair as he lowered himself into it, then a heavy clatter on the floor.
“Shit,” muttered Kaz. The chair creaked again. Probably dropped his cane, Inej thought, strange, though, that’s not like him. The patter of the rain on the roof and windows severely hindered her ability to listen in on him, however.
After a few moments, Inej did manage to hear a rather wet-sounding thump, presumably Kaz discarding his thick, wool greatcoat onto the floor. Another sigh. Part of her wanted to enter the room and see him, help dry his hair, hang his coat up by the window, fall asleep with her head resting on his firm shoulder, but she knew she shouldn’t. So she waited, she listened.
“Oh, Saints,” Inej heard after a short while. She had not a second to wonder why Kaz had said that, as the next moment she heard a sound she hadn’t heard in a very long time.
“hehH’GNKTSschew!”
She then heard what she thought was Kaz sucking a sharp breath in through his teeth. He’s in pain, she realised. A million thoughts barrelled through her mind - is he sick? Injured? Both? Inej worried at her lower lip, knowing now that Kaz was in way worse condition than he was letting on. Against her better judgement, she slowly pushed open the door… right as Kaz was (trying to) stifle another harsh sneeze.
“hH’GKKTTSChhiew! Huhh…”
The hand he used to pinch his nose was shaking slightly as he lifted it from his face. His brows were drawn tightly together and his teeth were gritted, hard - Inej had never seen him looking so pained. He looked up at Inej who was hovering in the doorway, hand still lifted cautiously in the air, as though he was scared to put it down.
“Saints above, Kaz. You said you were fine,” Inej said with worry.
Kaz averted his eyes. “I am fine,” he replied shortly.
Inej approached him and gently took his gloved hand in hers.
“Don’t-” he started, teeth still gritted. He yanked his hand away instinctively. She noticed how his face paled slightly.
“What happened to your hands, Kaz?” asked Inej, quietly but firmly. Kaz still didn’t meet her gaze.
“Nothing.”
“You can’t expect me to believe that.”
Kaz hesitated. He looked down at his hand.
“Broke it. My wrist,” he muttered with reluctance, “Think the other arm’s fractured, too.”
Inej held back a gasp. “Tell me you’re joking.”
Kaz shook his head, hair still damp from the torrential rain.
“Why didn’t you tell anyone?” she asked incredulously, “In fact, nevermind that, we need Nina to fix-”
“No, we don’t-!” Kaz cut in. His words were tinted with a note of panic that she’d never heard before.
Inej let her shoulders lower. She sighed. “At least let me patch you up, then.”
“Fine.”
“Right. Good. I’ll get the first aid kit,” Inej said, beginning to turn away.
“-hahH’KKSCHHhiew! Oh, God, I-” Kaz sneezed wetly and openly, cringing at the mess it left on his upper lip. He raised his hand weakly to his face to cover it.
“Saints, and I’ll get some tissues. Try not to move your arms around too much, okay?” Inej said. She left the room.
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A short while later, Inej returned to Kaz’s room, clutching a box containing the Slat’s first aid kit, as well as a rather old-looking box of tissues. He was still sitting at his desk, one arm hanging at his side, the other with its hand resting carefully on the tabletop. His nose had become significantly pinker since Inej last saw him, which was only mere minutes prior. She was greeted with another grating sneeze.
“haHH’GKKSHHhiew!”
“Bless you,” Inej offered.
“I’m sorry, I… cah-cahhn’tseemtostop-! huhH’KTSCHHh! ‘GKKSCHH! hah-hAH’KKTSCHHhiew!”
“Wow. Bless you, bless you, bless you,” Inej said with a sympathetic smile, “Oh, you’ve made a real mess of yourself there, Kaz.”
He lifted his hand to clean himself up, but tensed up at the pain. Inej leaned forward and gently helped his arm back down.
“Here, let me.”
“There’s a hahh-handker-’TSSCHhiew! Ugh. Handkerchief, in my coat.”
“That’ll be soaking wet, Kaz. I have tissues.”
She plucked a couple of tissues from the box she’d placed on Kaz’s desk and used them to gently clean up Kaz’s face. He sighed.
“You know I can do it myself,” he said thickly, voice muffled by the soft tissues in front of his face.
“I know you can, but is it going to do you any good?” Inej asked; a rhetorical question. She made sure to keep her touch on his face gentle. She knew how sensitive his nose could get. As if on cue, Inej felt Kaz’s nose flare under the tissues.
“‘Nej, I’m going to-” His breaths were rapid and shallow.
“I know.”
“But I don’t wanna sn- haHH’GKKTSCHHhew! haH’ISCHHhiew!” He cut himself off with two heavy, messy sneezes, right into the tissues in Inej’s hand. “Saints, I’m sorry,” he added breathlessly.
“Bless you, bless you. It’s okay.” Inej gently cleaned his face once again. The pure exhaustion in his coffee-brown eyes sent a pang of pity through her heart.
“You really don’t need to say ‘bless you’ every… hahh… every- oh- sorry, I’m- haHH’KKSHHHhiew!”
Inej smiled. “Bless you.”
Kaz rolled his eyes. Inej tightened her hand on his face slightly.
“Blow,” she instructed. Kaz looked up at her in disbelief.
“I really don’t think that’s-”
“You heard me,” she cut in, “By the sound of those sneezes, you need it.”
The dark haired man hesitated, but eventually leaned into the tissues with a sigh, and blew his nose heavily. Inej smiled sympathetically. Kaz emerged looking positively mortified.
“Never doing that again,” he muttered.
“You wouldn’t have had to if you didn’t insist on taking on that entire gang on your own,” Inej pointed out. Kaz shot her a look. She tilted her head at him, still smiling softly. “Now let’s get you bandaged up, okay?”
He nodded. Inej opened the first-aid box and pulled out a roll of wide bandages.
“Roll up your sleeve for me,” she said gently. He obliged.
Inej got to work wrapping his broken wrist in bandages - it was the best she could do, considering Kaz refused to let Nina see to him, at least for now. It wasn’t long before Kaz’s breath caught again. He turned his head away from Inej, trying his best to keep his hand still as she tended to it.
“Sorry- hahH’KKSCHHIEWhh!”
“Bles-” Inej started.
Kaz shook his head. “N-not done-” he said, panting. “hAH’KTSCHHUHh!”
His whole body shook with the force of each sneeze, his shoulders tensing and legs jolting slightly upwards. Luckily, Inej had finished wrapping his broken wrist, so she could stop to once again tend to Kaz’s nose. She pressed two fresh tissues to his face and massaged his nose ever so gently. His breath caught sharply.
“Don’t, that’s too- hahH-! Too gentle, I’m g-go--huHH’GKKSCHHHh! ‘SSCHHHhiew!”
“Oh, Saints, sorry. You really can’t stop, can you?” Inej said, still cradling his face with the thick wad of tissue.
“It’s the rain, or something. Apparently it really g-gets to… to… me-'' Kaz's eyes narrowed and Inej felt his nostrils flare desperately even through the tissues. His breath hitched.
“haAHhdt-! huh-hUH-huhHh- oh, S-saints, it’s not comi- haAH-!”
“Stuck, huh?” Inej teased, “Happens to the best of us.”
Inej decided to reuse her “too-gentle” massaging technique to ease Kaz along. Perhaps it worked a little too well - he exploded into a series of tearing, messy sneezes, each outburst just barely caught in Inej’s hand.
“haAHh’GNKTSCHHhuhh! ‘KKSCHHIEW! ‘SHHHhew! hah-hAH-hAHH’KZZSCHIEWhh! ‘IZZSCHHhiew!”
He was left panting, almost unable to catch his breath. Inej reached for a few more tissues, keeping the used ones braced to Kaz’s face in case of another incident. She now held a thick wad of tissues, pressed to Kaz’s streaming reddened nose.
“Bless you - I don’t even know how many times,” Inej said with a slight laugh. She cleaned up the rest of the mess that had gathered on his face with the tissues, all while Kaz’s cheeks turned pink in true mortification. Inej noticed this and added, “You don’t have to be embarrassed. This happens to everyone.”
She saw Kaz’s shoulders relax slightly and he exhaled slowly.
“Saints, that was awful. I’m sor-” he started.
“Don’t apologise. You know I value being able to care for you. I’m glad you let me.”
Kaz nodded silently. He leaned back in his chair, exhaustion now clear in his face.
“Let’s get to that other arm now, shall we?”
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hi
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Flip!Aether caring for Little!Venti? I feel lik venti would have constant nightmares of Decarabian (storm god, old Mondstadt!!) And be afraid of thunder.
Also, he uses his wing as a comfort blanket when he's stressed, and has them out like 99% of the time when he's small, and aether will preen them! (With Venti's permission, of course.)
Sorry if this was long!
💌: hello!! thank u so much for the request! sorry this was so late, I was busy with my tests,, (I also apologize if this was short, I hope you like it anyway!)
CW: alcohol, nightmares.
✧.* flip! aether with little! venti hcs ⭐🍃
venti regresses to around 0-5 years old!
he's quite sensitive and clingy when he's really teeny, but pretty energetic (and even slightly mischievous) when he's a kiddo.
tends to regress easily when he's drunk, which gets obvious when he starts to babble incoherently or sometimes even start tearing up.
whenever this happens, aether immediately puts away the wine and helps escort venti out of the tavern, considering how overwhelming it could get for him with the noise and the crowd of patrons inside the tavern.
venti often has nightmares and he wakes up absolutely shaken and distraught, his eyes darting around in a panicked manner for his cg.
aether takes note of this and is quick to comfort venti by gently pulling him into his lap and cradling him in his arms, offered by some reassuring words and gentle breathing exercises.
aether also hums a soothing lullaby in the end, which calms venti down and lulls him back to sleep <3
their morning routine consists of aether gently brushing venti's hair and braiding it, followed by him also preening his wings in a slow and gentle manner, which venti very much likes and helps him relax.
when aether's little, he regresses to around 3-6 years old!
paimon takes the role of looking after venti and aether when they're both regressed.
lil aether and venti love going to windrise together and playing there by running around and trying to catch crystalflies, followed by a panicked paimon trying to control the hyper little tots.
"A-aether! Venti! - No!!"
she's trying her best okay !! /lh
besides the chaos here and there, paimon takes good care of them both.
she tries and makes some yummy dishes for lil aether and venti to eat, plays make-believe with them, makes flower crowns with them together, and even puts on a little silly show for the little tots if they're bummed about something, just to get a small giggle out of them!
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