#anyways theres more things i love but ive said enough this is alr too much pls dont look actually

[junseotual]

i am a little bit in love with my mutuals i think

in love with brina's gm/gn [x] and non-[x] posts, in love with brina's absolutely incoherent posts, in love with brina liveposting shows with absolutely no warning or context, in love with how unique brina's colouring is, in love with brina's use of random emojis (will never forget the little cars), in love with how rarely brina sends me stuff but whenever she does it's the most important posts ive ever seen, in love with how effortlessly funny she is,

in love with ven's little marine life facts, in love with how ven talks about things (anything from games to pretty boys), in love with how cute ven is in general, in love with ven's gemstone tags, in love with how ven updates me with my beloveds' posts on twt,

in love with the way both brina and ven made me a playlist and still add to them to this day, in love with how close and beloved they feel to me despite us arguably not talking all that much, in love with how happy and how loved they make me feel,

in love with ina's use of emojis, in love with ina's floptualism and her brand, in love with her crocheting updates, in love with ina's music reviews and random gameplay updates, in love with how approachable she seems, in love with her gifs, especially the colour palettes for her mv sets,

in love with how aweks uses baby speak in the cutest of ways despite being The brain of tumblr truly and despite being an academic and (i have no doubts) an amazing writer, in love with how aweks keeps telling us his opinions on things despite having said multiple times that the outcome sometimes makes him anxious, in love with his dedication to the idolera sets, in love with how pretty his stage gifs look, in love with how much he loves eunwoo, yeji, and hwanwoong, in love with aweks' ult tags,

in love with how dedicated ro is to her wei updates, in love with how hard she falls for groups (/members) whenever she does, in love with her life updates, in love with the way her gifs and edits look, in love with how genuinely sweet she is, in love with how much our music taste overlaps,

in love with how aléks mixes their interests in the most casual ways (which genuinely is like a v normal thing ppl do i guess but i feel like i don't see it often??), in love with all of their tags ever i think, in love with how eloquent they are? i haven't seen a movie since i was like 10 (not true but it kinda feels like it is) but i would still read pages upon pages of aléks' thoughts on any movie ever made, in love with their gif style,

in love with how quickly both ro and aléks switched to using nicknames for me once i made that nicknames post, in love with the snippets we see of their bestieship,

in love with how dedicated eri is to her work (from gifs and gfx, through babysitting, to school) and how she always does her best, in love with eri's heartwarmkng baby bestie updates, in love with eri's gfx style and mastery, in love with how admirable and inspiring eri is in general one day i'll write her a love letter that will be just 5 pages about that, in love with eri's music taste, in love with how perceptive she is, and with how eloquently she conveys her thoughts, in love with the way eri talks about people, dynamics and things she loves (you can really, really feel it),

in love with how sweet and adorable gabi is, while still feeling mature and reliable, in love with how easy it was to get attached to her once we actually spoke, in love with gabi's music recommendations and good morning messages, in love with how she genuinely feels like a fluffy bunny that i could hold in my hands, in love with the little updates from her life that we get from time to time, in love with how quickly gabi started to refer to me with a nickname and how lovely she was about it, in love with how she checks on me whenever it may seem like there's something wrong,

in love with how enthusiastic bie seems literally...always, in love with how bie always makes sure to interact with everyone, in love with bie's posts whenever they're going through a pretty boy crisis, in love with bie's pic updates, in love with bie's tagging system,

in love with how iri seemed so insanely intimidating to me for the longest time (longer than any other mutual, even once we were interacting pretty often) despite just being a little goblin (affectionate), in love with how iri is both a goblin witch biting and wielding daggers n swords but also the prettiest most enchanting fairy baking, going on picnics, loving strawberries and cherries and wearing the prettiest dresses n gloves ever, in love with how we seemkngly never agree on anything, in love with how easy it is for her to convince me to watch literally anything or get into any group, in love with how pretty iri is, in love with her love of shrimp, in love with how she always comes online to scream about her ults posting (a delight), in love with how she shares her other interests from time to time, it's always riveting to read, in love with the energy she gives off, in love with her ult tags,

in love with how creative lu is, in love with how they cry to crown, in love with their love towards skye (and now meelo my child), in love with how they periodically remember they can actually message me, in love with how they talk about media they like and with how openly they like them, in love with how lu meows on the dash, genuinely, in love with how they feel like warmest and happiest orange colour you've seen

[kyandice]

CANDICE EDIT THIS UGLY SHIT WHEN U HAVE THE FUCKING TIME

this is an ugly unedited one it has been in my drafts for like 2 months already. so whatever i just posting it. ill edit it if i have the time. thins is is i actually edited half way and MY FUCKING COMPUTER FUCKING CRASHED SO I GAVE UP  and yeahhh ill just post this ugly unedited one and ill edit it again WITH PROPER ENGLISH WHEN I HAVE THE TIME. idk i just cqnt see stuff in my drafts i just havre to post it and yewah wtf.

this unedu=ited stuff is just me writing key poiunts about my day and not like urghhhhhhh i hate this commmmmm. normally i would describe more but i dont want it in my drafts anymore so ill edit it when im free OKAYYYY.

1/3 

Hahahahahah lmao this was the date when i got tgt with K 3 years ago.(omg i still rmb, but tbh its nth special i just rmb useless stuff pretty well)  Never wanted to date a guy again even i with crushes back in sec sch. but anyways, today i went to Sentosa w/ B and he seemed to really like the artificial fiels alot but it was like in the afternoon so it was still kinda hot and yeahhhh. Like it would be much nicer at night. There will be like alot of stars and fireworks too and it will be more windy and cooling idk but it will be nicer at night and i want to spend the night w/ B there again. Oh yeah anyways ystd B bought me the batgirl lego keychain and B told me that batgirl had sex with batman and im shoooked.

2/3 and like today we planned to go to his house anddd then go to parkway parade to some lego secret chambers shop. i went out early cuz my junior wanted to pass me her lego characs but she couldnt make it so i was alr at bishan so i just went to tpy and wait for bryan o wake and meet me so i called him at 11am but he woke up and shouted at me so i just like nvmmmm so i went to the library and went window shopping around tpy and i also went popular 1pm i didnt want to call him up but i was like ugh nvm and called him.. and yay he finaally woke up wna read tuesday with morrie, all the fifty shades of grey and in grey's pov n miss peregrine's home for peculiar children but we still went to parkway parade anyays and he asked me to watch letters from iwo jima so i watched it at night and bryan wanted to watch the breakup list on toggle but it kept playing ads and it just wouldnt play the video so b got alittle pissed 3/3 logan, training (our 8th movie)

4/3 finishing crocheting my first thinggg the bear thing shoud i give it to bryan would he want it so today b was vvvv kinda excited this video thing with ck and cez and im like vvv happy for him cuz he can do smthing he rlly likes with cool n funny ffriends. also he said that he didnt want us to go public at first cuz he was afraid that ppl might tease us he said he was afraid i might be ffrustrated but tbh i was hella frustaratred i dont see the point of hiding our rship but im glad werre like opene now and so at night i went to ikea and b messaged me but i was busyt walking and i didnt recieve his msg but i didnt like lock my phone so it was read. but like it was in my pockets and like my mom doesnt allow me to play my phine whenever im walking but yeah anyways b was angry hat i didnt reply him. we sorta quarreled awhile but we were kinda okay after that i guess. wtf sia today midnight i have to distribute stuff to the homeless ppl in bugis and i was wearing a short paanyts and my mom tied this weird looking scarf i swear i look like some carzy hobo youngster wtf.

5&6/3 sneaked out of house, slept over at his house and after that i went to tpy first while he showers, ate and went home early to pack for camp stuff wna stay over at his house again it was fun we tried to watch moanna but was kinda sleepy

7/3 day 1 of camp. slept with b outised tgt

8/3 day 2 of camp (-met javier and sihui -every camps i go i get very angry -shoulder, water balloon) larn cpr and aed the skit thing worst grp ever

9/3 day 3 of camp water activities we won

10/3 tkd training

11/3

-wtf nxt week go msia (wanted to go work) -quarreled with bteh. cuz i cant go out but he wants me to go out -yyour suffering defines you without it yore a void -japan and korea with bryan -my parents -i want more lego charac -money - i cant wait for tmr for ilighhtsss i want to take like alooot pictures tgt with bryannnn styled hair -nicole choo idk why im still so insecure like i know pretty clearly that im decent looking. decent looking enough to make friends, have a job and not get ostracised in society. and well if you arent good looking enough you'll be made fun off/ostracised in society and thats how humans work. and now everywhere you see are pretty girls and how can any girls feel not insecure. Okay, i have a flat and fat nose. i want to have a sharper and thinner nose like michelle. i have pretty small boobs and i want boobs like naomi. my shoulders are too wide from playing softball, i want a smaller width shoulders like grace. my tummy isnt flat i want a flat tummy. and thing is those are pretty famous girls in like sg and im not even talking abt kim kard or emma wats or like jennifer lawr. omg i dont even know where im going with this im just literally typing all my thoughts down. okay and the boys here???? they all follow those people and im pretty sure they compare them over the normal girls in sch. omg what am i even talking abt. i feel silly even typing this out. but okay if your beauty standards doesnt reach like the norm in society you srsly wouldnt have friends. unless youre realllll rich or your sense of humor is rlly rlly great.

12/3 didnt quarrel but we  were obv upset with each other it was a fun day tho when to see i lights took alot pictures ate llaollao no money

20/3 best s ever went home after it bteh gg aunts house today

his flight will be tmr 21/22 job interview got the job bryaan in flight abt cosplay how i dont have frinds

25/03 bryan found my private twitter accnt                                    bteh tole me abt a girl he liked when he was in korea idk if anyone realised but ive got a really really really bad habit. its weird really. but its a thing ive been doing since young and i never talked to anyone about it before. so actually, when im nervous, or stressed out, or just couldnt take my mind off smthing, i would like start peeling or plucking my nails. okay many people do this but, i ahve a weirder one andddd omg i think i will regret saying this. So actually, i pluck i my hair when im nervous, stressed out or just thinking abt smthing i cant ignore. so back in primary 4 i was doing this math practice paper and i couldnt do any those 6marks big problem sums and i was fking stressed out. and well my habit of plucking my own hair started really really young. and at P4 my mom saw me crying

26 toc competition firdst fight win second fight lose how i dont wna fight nationals cuz my weight cat all got national player lose my chance to win gold cant even get silver r came today

29/ power rangers

30 wanted to go coney island with rapheal and jill and bryan but it rained so we went to lan and gamed without jill bryan pushed me and i banged into someone in the end see museums some forest thing the ligths vvv pretyy

28/hotel

31/ hotel went to work after that talk about work made bryan that key chain clp diner and dance

1/4 learn bst bts for club crawl played boomberang didnt workkk aot is out!!!!!!

2/4 today i need to go mountbatten cc to practice my poomsae my poomsae lousy i dont think i can pass at first try anyways president of stf is milan quey idk if i spelt his name properly but yeah. before that ate yellow sub with B will nvr eat there again portion is small yet expensive and food isint so nice at all but since i get to eat with b im vvvv gladdd

3/4 today i went early to B's house. after that met up with madeline and shirlyn to watch boss baby and the movie was quite nice i thought i wouldnt like it and then we ate pepper lunch and omg osaka is a vvv small place like shirlyn went evrywhere i visited like a a year ago

4/4 AND I WOKE UP WITH BTEH lose his doibok and he couldnt find it my maid threathened to take a mail for my mom cuz she lazy walk and she wants me to do it but i was late

5/4 there was demo training we played table tennis for awhile and bteh is good at it, ok maybe its just that i suck at it but yea theres was fmo so we slacked at tg until demo tng started so at night he said hes tired but idk that he wanted to sleep soon and he was like stop it and i was like stop wat but he ttly just shut me off and then i got pissed cuz i would nvr do that to him

6/4 i had to meet herman but like after meeting him timetable i realised i forget to bring my wallet somethimes im torn in beteen like just not gg out with bteh cuz i have no money to eat or spend his money again he keeps saying its okay but its really not okay im just not comfortable like someone spending so much on me i owe money so he told me his specs broke ttly

One of the things dreams do for us is prepare us for worse case scenario. The dream that is closest to reality about a loved one leaving us prepares the mind for the pain that can be inflicted upon us. It creates a probability. That means it could happen, it means it’s a fear you have, and being such your mind protects your psyche in a way to allow you to feel the emotions of the event, even though the event never occurred.

13 reasons why felt like  th main charac like back in sec sch all i wanted was just to finish my olevels and go to poly so i can be a whole new person. someone who i wanted to be withouht anyone laughing at me

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