#anyways noones gonna read this but i am having thoughts

[aster-aspera]

Shout-out to myself for somehow giving my character a complex relationship with water/drowning even though this whole show takes place in the dryest fucking desert

[quickstappen]

track 001: end of the beginning

A/N: hello, welcome to another smau i guess, enjoy? this is the real reason why the latest part of carved my name was up so late yall ;) oscar won his first race and i had to do something!! i'm sorry to all the carlos fans, but someone's gotta be the bad guy, yk?

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december 2019

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paola_sainz I can't believe it is time to go, it still doesn't feel real. Thank you for those amazing years together, for the memories and happiness, I couldn't wish for better team, better friends, I love you all and I'll miss you tremendously. Cheers to the next chapter in our lives.

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prema_team We'll miss you vice-champ! Make sure to visit when you're around ❤️

↳ paola_sainz of course! I'll visit so much you'll get sick of me ;)

sainzssss_ noooooooo, what???

shithappens what. the. fuck.

carlossainz55 Excited for your new journey! Now you can spend more time in my garage 🔥😎

↳ paola_sainz yeah, im so excited too!

↳ quickstappen this seems... dry

↳ albono_23 right???

ilpredestinatox oh noo! you were the reason i decided to follow my dreams and go to college for mechanical engineering, i can't believe you're not gonna be racing anymore

↳ paola_sainz oh sweetie, i'm so glad you're following your dreams! dm me if you have any enfeneering problems - i can ask around and get back to you ;)

↳ nyoomf1 she's so sweet 🥹

arthur_leclerc I'll miss your annoying face you know? (only a tiny bit)

↳ paola_sainz acting like you won't see me at basically every race anyway (i'll miss you too) 🤍

↳ arthur_leclerc 🤍

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february 2024

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paola_sainz does it ever drive you crazy...?

3 years ago i was broken beyond recognition, i lost my purpose and will to carry on, i thought that without racing i was noone. to think that the same girl just sold out her first collection of athletic wear is absolutely crazy, i can't believe how far we've come and i can't wait to see what else we can do

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carlando333 girl 💀💀

↳ ilpredestinatox what do you mean, tf

↳ carlando333 Carlos literally just lost his seat for next year

↳ ilpredestinatox well, this is not carlos' page is it? she's not his keeper, she's allowed to be her own person

cuddlyxricc can she like,, read the room?

byelandoo lol, she does not care about the ferrari drama AT ALL

carlove55 are you gonna comment on the carlos situation??

shithappens she looked so happy when she was racing 🥺 i still can't accept that i'll never see her in a f1 car

↳ quickstappen right??

arthur_leclerc i am going to model the next collection

↳ paola_sainz don't know if you've noticed, but i make WOMEN'S athletic wear

↳ arthur_leclerc you just don't want to see me slay

↳ paola_sainz do not say slay ever again

charlosp1 💀

spanishxbabe so Carlos means nothing to you?

jensonbutton So proud! Brittany loves her set 🧡

↳ paola_sainz 🧡

charles_leclerc Knew you could do it Lola 🤍

↳ paola_sainz thank you for believing in me Charlie 🤍

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paola_sainz oh baby, how good to see you again!

(also, charles_leclerc go and win me a race please, i don't know how many forza ferrari sempre's i have left in me)

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shithappens i'm sorry, is that a man? with my wife?

quickstappen queen is back in paddock!

arthur_leclerc so the ones with me in them were not good enough to make it, but the random one with him tying you're shoelaces made it?

↳ paola_sainz guess so, try harder next time

screwderriaf1 she's so real for that, Charles for WDC2024

↳ ilpredestinatox GIRL, be so fr rn

↳ screwderriaf1 just let me dream man

carlando333 oh come on! she doesn't care about carlos at all! fucking snake, thinking she's better than him🐍

logansargeant nice of you to visit old friends

↳ paola_sainz we're literally going for lunch tomorrow?

↳ sheilaxf1 they know each other??

↳ lewibear yeahh, since her time at prema i'm pretty sure

charles_leclerc Yeah, no pressure right

↳ paola_sainz you know it ;)

charlosp1 did she really say that she wishes that charles won and not her brother who's fighting for his future this season 💀

redmilton Paola Sainz soft launching a white man in the year 2024 was not on my bingo card

cuddlyxricc sorry but first no comment on carlos' seat and now this? yeah no, not cool

elmatadorf1 traitor! rooting for charles when your brother lost his seat because of him 🐍

madi_races is my girlfriend in a relationship with a.... man??

predestined55 absolutely no honour, not surprised tbh after seeing who she hangs out with 🐍

darth_nando can we please stop mentioning Carlos in every comment section under her posts? it's so unnecessary

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[prismaticpichu]

Angeal’s Worst Typo

Angeal: Gen, Seph���meet me at sector 7 bakery! There’s a three for one sale on hot dognuts

Angeal: Chocolate and sprinkles, too

Genesis: 👁️👁️

Sephiroth: I believe this is an appropriate time to say “LOL”.

Sephiroth’s Worst Typo

Sephiroth: Lazard, yesterday’s reports have all been completed and will be delivered to your office no later than noon today. If you have any questions in regard to the recruits I have recommended for SOLDIERFISH, please let me know as soon as possible. Thank you

Sephiroth: Oh dear

Sephiroth: Forgive me

Sephiroth: I forgot the period after “Thank You.”

Genesis’s Worst Typo

Genesis: Hello, Zackary. Hope you are doing well. I am just reaching out to let you know that, now that it’s been almost a year since you’ve joined my friend circle, I have decided that your truly not as annoying as I initially thought you to be. Cheers, Genesis

Zack: *You’re :)

Genesis: ????

Zack: You said the wrong word

Genesis: …Never mind. Your still quite annoying.

Zack: *You’re ^^

Genesis: What? Your the grammar police now??

Zack: *You’re :D

Genesis: Stop that! Your pissing me off, whelp!

Zack: *You’re :3

Genesis: FINE! I’m gonna kick YOU’RE ass

Zack: *Your

Zack’s Worst Typo

Zack: Aww! Thanks so much for including me in your group chat, guys!! Communism is so important <333

Angeal: ???

Genesis: ???

Sephiroth: Genesis… what did you DO?

Genesis: What???

Sephiroth: Do you know how much trouble someone can get into by saying that with ShinRa technology???

Genesis: Hold on a second!!

Angeal: Guys, not now 🙄

Sephiroth: I TOLD you it wasn’t funny to have a copy of the Manifesto in your quarters

Genesis: Excuse me! It’s a piece of history!

Sephiroth: And WHY would you share it with Zackary??

Angeal: …GUYS

Genesis: Why must you ALWAYS accuse me of things??? Why is it always MY fault??

Sephiroth: Because it is always your fault.

Genesis: OH?

Sephiroth: If Zackary gets arrested it’s your fault

Genesis: He’s not going to get arrested

Sephiroth: ShinRa can READ these messages!! Trust me! I know.

Genesis: And that’s my fault?

Sephiroth: YES

Angeal: GUYS

Genesis: Alright—that’s it. I’m coming over right now

Sephiroth: Oh???

Genesis: YEAH! And I’m gonna KICK YOU’RE ASS!!!

Angeal: 🤦

Zack: Sorry guys! I’m back! Had to grab a snack

Zack: Anyways, like I was saying. Communication is super important <333

[whysojiminimnida]

Remember When I Said Taehyung Might Not Be As Gay As We Thought?

Don't judge a man by his milfy wardrobe, he looks goooood.

It was... awhile ago. Maybe as far back as 2021 although I do not feel like link-searching it. It's in the archives if I didn't kill it.

Granted, there was a lot going on, then. There's still a lot going on and until now I had no desire to ever - EVER - return to this hellsite. Because Taekookers are fucking weird, yo. And some of y'all got a lil bit up in my shit too as I (fuzzily) recall. Which: it's whatever. I'm extremely unsocial, don't even answer my own DMs. And it's not personal, so I get it. I don't need or want to defend myself, but I will protect people I care about. With my absence, if necessary.

OT: I also totally kicked the big C while I've been out so that was nice. Yoongi the cat is pleased that his noms will continue uninterrupted. I will be in wigs for at least another year. It's all good. Oh LOOK at what we have here. Don't come at me for publishing this, I will explain.

I got it from actual media days ago, okay, and also: there was no expectation of real privacy. Keep reading. Or don't, I'm not telling you what to do.

ANYWAY. I had to come back, mainly to say TAENNIE IS REAL I TOLD Y'ALL IDK WHY NOBODY EVER BELIEVES ME BUT HERE WE ARE. I'm gloating. Honestly, it's so rude, I'd apologize if I cared. But I am rude and snorfling into my cheerios about this. Tae just made me so damn happy, is all.

LET THE MAN BE BI OR HETEROFLEXIBLE OR EVEN STRAIGHT IDC. Jennie clearly makes him happy. Look at his "I'm going to Paris to see my girlfriend" face!

And in that very specific jewelry look, no less. Foundrae. Again. Still. Hm.

Here's what I can tell you based on my limited third hand no sources no receipts this is probably utter bullshit usual disclaimer: It's a soft open, kids. This whole "oopsie we just so happened to get caught taking a lil walk in public with our managers in tow during which date at least one of us signed several autographs, what a surprise" is in fact a soft open for what will likely be a public confirmation PRETTY DAMN SOON. It might happen before I get this thing published, actually, depending on when I get it up. If it's before May 22 at noon my time, no idea. If after, well. Guess we'll see. Jennie's supposed to show up at the screening of HBO's The Idol that day, screening at the Grand Lumiere at 10:30 CEST. One wonders if she will arrive alone, or bring a plus one. It's a big ask, and if he does it they're probably getting married, that's how big a deal it would be. So I'm not holding my breath, but.

This seems like a reasonable prospect for a plus-one viewing. Might not be the only one but... Jennie's IN IT so.

I'M NOT SAYING THIS IS GONNA HAPPEN. I think it would be a fucking POWER move if it did, but I also do not necessarily expect that it will. It COULD. It... MIGHT. It might not. Either way they're a thing, I'm telling you. They are, have been, a thing. For awhile. And it is apparently quite serious - like up to and including talk of engagement serious.

Remember when a bunch of folk thought that one gummy bear dude was going to jail for "hacking" Jennie's phone only there's been no actual movement on any "investigation"? Yeah. Trickle truthing, they call it. Give 'em a little bit, let them deny it and yell and chew on it for awhile before you give 'em a little more. But c'mon, nobody's wearing half the love-themed couple pieces at Foundrae for no damn reason.

Seriously they got the whole collection almost and both have been seen wearing them almost exclusively. For a year.See airport pic above.

Look, I don't have inside info on Taehyung. I do not. I ain't hang with his friends and I don't know him personally. Never met the guy. But I know a PR move when I see one and this is exactly that.

We all know how toxic stan culture can be. Some ToadlicKKers (and a few of us house elves) are certifiably bonkers, if stan twitter is anything to go by. And the guys, the company, they expect a whole meltdown. They know this is not gonna make half their fans happy. I mean the tkkers have a point in that it looks like they wanted to be seen. BECAUSE IT'S A SOFT OPEN. What Taejen/Taennie/Jenhyung and the companies also know is that based on historic shipper behavior, this is gonna come back on Jimin, Jungkook, maybe Rose' and Lisa. And by extension, the other members. Maybe not as much due to their respective distance, but still. I bet by the time I finish this it will have already started.

Oh look there it is. Fuck those bitches, really.

Good LORDT. I'm not adding the audio, if y'all are that hungry for psycho hose beast Jimin hate hie thee to stan twt.

But, totally off-topic kinda...

... wouldn't it be cool if Jennie, who speaks great English, was hanging out with Troye Sivan and was like "so you know my boyfriend tells me that his bffs..." I'M JUST SAYING NETWORKING IS COOL AND FRIENDS OF FRIENDS GET THINGS DONE OKAY.

You know that girl has the scoop. If Tae knows it, she knows it. Oh heeeeyyy Troye.

Also OT: I love that Taekook have been hanging out a little more lately. It's refreshing. I genuinely think having Jennie in his life has been good for Tae in several ways. And you know, I'm kinda surprised Taennie has lasted this long. I didn't honestly think they would. It warms my decrepit, sad old heart a bit. Turns out I have a lot more to say so IDK IDK, if I feel okay about it I might be back. Right now I'm just waiting for the official Taennie nod and the continued total meltdown.

[randybutternubber]

What’s everyone’s opinions on Rusty? I’ve been thinking abt this for a while- I’m super curious because on one hand he can be read as a helpful character but on the on the other he could also be interpreted as either a really big dumbass or semi-malicious out of desperation

What was the plan for noone after they escaped- were they gonna save her or like…? And also I can’t help but think that convincing her to scream BIG TOP over and over could have been a way to distract the dummy and the man in the purple suit rather than warn him of their presence.

Rusty also gives noone the “best seat in the house” which makes me wonder if he placed her in an area where he knew the dummy and his purple idiot husband would appear. It was by such short notice too- did noone just happen to show up at just the right time for them to incorporate her into their plan?

On the other hand though, I think it’s totally possible that Rusty did think someone was going to save noone or thought she could get away, or maybe he straight up didn’t think at all because he has a ball of mush for a brain.

It’s all such an interesting situation because noone could very well be an unreliable narrator.

I think something a lot of people forget is that the reason why noone felt so attached to Rusty was most likely because she also knew the trauma of being “put under the spotlight” just as she was because of her being cured from whatever water sickness is.

Was she blinded by that sort of trauma linked kinship and the dazzling spectacle of the funfair? Or maybe Rusty just has brain damage because the dummy dropped him as a child and then stomped on him until he was a little ginger stain on the ground.

My personal interpretation is that Rusty didn’t intend to use noone as bait, but in his desperation to escape, he basically convinced himself that she would be fine and that they would be able to save her. Alternatively he was so desperate to escape that he was willing to do it at any cost, including that of another. It seems like Rusty wasn’t just going to escape the funfair either but rather “ this whole rotten world”

Ln 3 also mentions something about “a fate worse than death” and we know that Rusty is a teenager- perhaps his desperation to leave was because he was terrified to become an adult or something

And then he got curbstomped by a coked up puppet

Anyways rip Rusty I’ll design you soon and I am so sorry for giving you incredibly depressing lore (if you know you know)

[ultraviolet-cello]

Aw man. Today's the last day of @tristampparty and I am surprisingly sad about it. I'll be catching up the days I missed at some point, but I've chucked all that I've written, including today, into a google document and I apparently wrote 7.5k words over the course of episode 6 to today.

That's! A Lot!

I really wanna thank everyone who reblogged and gave me their additional thoughts/commentary, and special thanks to Revenantghost for organizing this whole thing! you do good work for this fandom i am giving u a gold star

With that, here we go into Episode 0 - High Noon at July. CWs for pregnancy discussion and a less detailed than last time but still present analysis of sexual assault and transphobia, marked with a [CW] Ofc, spoilers for Trimax and Tristamp

Cowboy kid Knives is something u can pry from my cold dead hands but it's also,,, I don't watch a lot of westerns, but the way Knives describes it seems like he likes the high action and justice. Which yea. yeah.

A lot of ppl interpret Vash then saying that he doesn't like that sorta stuff as him having always had pacifistic tendencies but I don't really read it that way? I just see him being rather similar to Trimax Vash - chill kid with his own interests and hobbies and Knives being the very oversensitive kid so outshines him initially.

Regardless of version of Trigun (except 98. 98 didn't know shit about knives lmao), Vash and Knives have always started off wanting to coexist and be peaceful; it's just how they reacted to it later that differs. In this case, Knives wants to stand up for his friends and make a peaceful world through that, and Vash is more passive in that he just wants to have faith in humanity.

Not to mention they are kids. Young, idealistic kids. This is pre-Tesla, they don't know the extent of how horrible the world is. The loss of innocence and subsequent breakdowns relating to The Horrors is yet to come.

[CW] Mmmmm they really don't make the pregnancy imagery subtle now do they dfgkjdfjk

I also think there's like - merit in also interpreting Knives as trans. Not Just because i think he's also very trans coded (A lot of his breakdowns and story arcs have reflections in how some trans men overcompensate masculinity in a Bad Way. That's a very small subsection of trans guys btw but I am speaking from experience. I got better tho). Anyway it makes the fact that Knives is disregarding Vash's bodily autonomy very much Worse if you take the male plants are trans analogy into it.

He's so far gone that he's willing to do to Vash what would be the worst thing to be done to him; Violating his body to rebuild and make him a perfect independent ("remind him of biological reality"), physically overpowering him ("taking the aggressor, commonly masculine role in sexual assault") to do what he wants. Disregarding the wants and needs of the Plants ("women +fem-presenting ppl that he originally set out to protect because he knew their experience and wanted to help and still has that trauma from witnessing that trauma")

Ofc that's just a reading of the scene, but I quite like it as a trans guy because that makes a really good villain with trans themes/motifs! I hate him so much (affectionate)

No, no she doesn't. Meryl is making a choice and she's gonna damn well stick to it! She's been given agency and she's gonna spend it in the most eldritch horrific scene that someone on that planet could spend it lmao. Well, no Knives takes most eldritch and horrific. Meryl's second tho

Okay this fucking scene drives me INSANE. This is a memory, clearly, but it's one that's being tampered with. Vash asks Knives if they can get along with humans, and then Knives immediately messes with the memory to make sure that he says that he'll protect Vash no matter what. But that is very clearly not what was originally said, so... What did he say? What was present day Knives so desperate to cut off?

I've talked about the narrative being biased against Knives a lot, but something I haven't talked about is that Knives kinda tries to contribute to that narrative a lot. He wants to seem like he never cared about humans, he wants to seem like he always planned this and was going for justice ever since he was a kid. He tells Vash the Tesla incident was just a small grain of sand, he uses Luida to tell everyone he wants to kill Rem, he's unbearably cruel to Vash to make his point. The only difference is that he wants to be right.

So he doesn't let us see what the kid version of him says, because that would contradict the narrative he's built for himself.

I really wanna give props to Studio Orange here for both the design and way they modelled the wing here, that's a really difficult task when the guy you're putting a wing on has a tight as hell bodysuit. But the anatomy holds up surprisingly well!

Also many people have pointed out that the plant mech looks a lot like Rem, and Knives staring into the face of a Plantish representation of his mother that is created and controlled subconsciously by his brother and saying he was rejected is. It sure is a scene!

ONCE AGAIN. INCREDIBLE EFFECTS. I also would like to once again point out the angelic motifs of Knives' design here.

Also Vash saying this is SO important because Meryl!!! is so important!!! I see a lot of people brush Meryl's space in the story off and it Enrages me because Meryl is one of the most important people to Vash. Aside from our frontline yaoi soldier Nicholas D. Wolfwood, Meryl has one of the most tangible impacts on Vash's character.

When Vash is in his breakdown in Trimax, Meryl is the one to kneel at his side and believe in him; When Vash is having his god awful horrible mindscape time in Tristamp, Meryl does the same. When Meryl is kidnapped in Trimax, Vash instantly jumps out of a window in the chance of getting her back. Vash trusted her enough to fire the ion cannon in the sand steamer episode. He immediately went to July the moment she and Roberto were kidnapped.

Meryl has so much faith in Vash and she's insane for that, but Vash recognizes her and that faith pays off in giving him the strength to carry on. He heard her voice, too :]

Also oh to be floating slowly down to the floor while you're a meter away from a cube with the power of an atom bomb while someone named Millions Knives is summoning millions of knives in front of u. Meryl has guts, man.

And now that Vash has gotten his gun back, he's back to using it as a tonfa! (check I think my analysis of episode 7 for more on that). Watching for the swing blocks, the forearm guard, and thwacking the knife tendrils out of the way

This fight scene has soooo much love and care and detail in it I love it so much actually. From seeing Vash's bullets to all the expressions and beautifully detailed firing, there's so much detail in a quick space that you really have to slow it down to see everything.

Seriously how strong is Knives to be able to have a feasible chance again Vash's prosthetic - and Vash matches him! Also the chomp

Now something that I have the shakiest of theories on is that after summoning The Cube, Vash starts moving in a far more controlled manner, he stands still when reloading, he has his movement flurries and then stands still to aim. Which uh. Studio Orange works in 3d, but those are 2d animation techniques. He's moving like 98 Vash.

There's a lot I admire about Studio Orange's use of 3d (I am a mid-tier 2d artist lmao) but I love love love that they're able to get all these really nice, creative camera shots that would be impractical in 2d (all those overhead shots, for example, have a chance of turning about bad/looking weird in 2d, and puts more strain on animators, but 3d you have the models from every angle already. 3d isn't easier by any means, but it does have its strengths)

Also. how Did Wolfwood get over here, dare I ask. mans climbed a tower in just a few minutes what is Wrong with him

Also a nice detail, Vash usually has perfect trigger discipline, but he falters here against Knives, probably because he's been already shooting, but hey, he's stressed. I'll give him a break.

I also appreciate exactly how superhuman Wolfwood is now. Tristamp Wolfwood is on a different level. Like 98 Wolfwood is just some (attractive) guy, Trimax Wolfwood has a lot of gory body horror going on and a subtle kind of endurance/strength, but Tristamp Wolfwood just jumped off a very tall building holding a grown woman and the Punisher and was fine.

Oh hey, same symbol on the tower as was on the sandsteamer and on Vash's wanted poster - symbol of July, probably

Very horribly, Knives probably did just save Vash's life here. But also the rest of July's life (though ofc he just extended the timer)....

I'm not quite sure When Vash started using plant bullets, but he's definitely using them now. Also the nails on his prosthetic are a nice touch!

THE FLYING SAUCER STRIKES AGAIN. I wonder if that's gonna be the basis of the Ark, if that's the route season 2 goes.

I also. Was that allI the Plants collected that escaped in this, or were there a bunch still running in July that get obliterated too? Did Knives inadvertently cause the death of more plants? I mean, when Knives gets revived in Trimax he definitely causes the death of at least 2 plants (there are a couple of bulbs in the background of the blast radius, plus the one that was used to revive him... she uh. Didn't look like she was doing so hot)

Vash's little speech is always so,,, intense. He has such a strong sense of character and it's admirable how well he sticks to his morals despite it all.

On a more body horror note, Knives can survive a long fucking time trying to grab The Cube. In Trimax he gets hit with the angel arm and practically disemboweled instantly, but Tristamp Knives can take over a minute of just like. being right in the direct path of fire. They're really gonna have to work to reconstruct him. Good luck, Legato!

UFO SPOTTED !!! LEAVING JULY AS IT IS DESTROYED !! NOT CLICKBAIT !!!

^ I made that long ago and needed to use it somewhere dfgkjdfg

[RAUCOUS CHEERING]

And ofc I have to bring up Eriks :] I don't actually have too much to say abt him. Studio Orange strip this man and make him bark like a dog next season or we will riot

CHRONICA MENTION!!!!! YAYYYYYY

And that's kinda. It.

Man I have had such fun over the last 12 days, I've really discovered a love for analyzing and theories and putting that out there and chatting with people about Trigun :] I should do this more often lmao but I do want to get back to drawing. I'll find a balance, then!

Thank you all for coming, and Wow if you made it this far I must be doing something right lmao.

[xumuchluv]

Extracurriculars

Chapter 1 - Saturday before that day Next Chapter (2) Introduction & mini Prologue Masterlist

Includes: Txt members, Yeji, Hyunjin, Junyoung Warnings: (Almost) Car accident, swearing Word Count of chapter: 2k Notes: Proof-read.

"Good morning Sunshine!" A tall boy exclaims as he yanks open the door to the sleeping boy's room, his voice cutting through the morning silence. "Ughhh," Beomgyu groans, pulling his blanket over his head. "Fuck off." He shifts back into a comfortable spot, desperate for more sleep.

"Is that any way to talk to your best friend, hm?" The tall boy, Kai, now hovers above Beomgyu with a teasing smile, his brown eyes gleaming with mischief. Beomgyu opens his eyes, staring blankly back into Kai's playful gaze. "Kai…" His mouth opens, and a stream of profanities and threats flow out.

Needless to say, Kai was exiting the room alone after that encounter. Beomgyu, finally satisfied with his reunion with silence, attempts to get back into his once comfortable position. However, no amount of tossing and turning helps him find it. So, he whines and sits up on his bed, hair sticking out in all directions.

One leg of his pajama pants is stuck at the fold of his knee, while the other dangles freely. Beomgyu limply walks out of his room, shielding his eyes from the brightness of the living room. He groans, steps back, but then decides he might as well get something to eat. In the kitchen, he is met with the sight of his early-bird friends eating a hefty breakfast—or lunch? Brunch, he supposes.

"Look who decided to show up," Beomgyu's brother, Soobin, states with a smirk. Sitting next to Soobin is Yeonjun, who adds, "No way you just woke up now. It's almost noon, Gyu."

"Not you pretending as if you didn't JUST wake up as well," Taehyun chuckles, grabbing an orange juice box from the fridge. "You're gonna give me a bad rep. I woke up at a reasonably early hour. You just wouldn't know since you torture yourself every day by waking up at 5 am to work out or something," Yeonjun retorts.

"Oh my god, is that what he's been doing these days? I thought he got himself a girl. I guess he's just bulking up," Kai laughs out.

"Yeah, okay, and what's wrong with that? At least I'll be prepared in case there's a zombie apocalypse or alien invasion. Can't say the same for you two," Taehyun counters childishly, drinking from the juice bottle before heading over to sit beside his friends.

Beomgyu, still too tired for this level of conversation, walks over to Soobin, who is as unbothered as always, focused on chewing as much as he can while others are distracted. Beomgyu sits down next to him and starts eating as well.

And that's how Saturday morning went for Beomgyu.

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You look across the road before you cross.

It's nighttime, and half the city is asleep while the other half is full of youngsters littering the streets. You're a part of the latter. "I'm serious, Tyun." You're on a call with your online friend Taehyun, "I'm so scared. What if I fail all my courses and nobody likes me—"

Taehyun cuts you off, "No, trust me. You'll do great here, and you'll fit right in. And you'll always have me anyway." You sigh. He seems to always know exactly what to say to calm your nerves. "Yeah, true. Thanks, Tyun—"

A loud, approaching sound from your right grabs your attention. You turn to look and are blinded by two bright headlights. Your mind races, trying to process the speeding car barreling toward you. There's no time to react. You close your eyes and brace yourself, awaiting the pain of a crash.

Suddenly, you feel two strong hands grab you from behind and hurl you onto the pavement behind you. The impact knocks the wind out of you, but you're alive. You open your eyes, disoriented and shaken. Your hair and clothes are disheveled, and you frantically check for injuries. The car speeds past where you stood just moments ago. You let out a breath you weren't aware you were holding and lay your head back onto the floor underneath you, relieved.

"Ow," you hear, realizing you're sprawled across a stranger. You scramble to your feet, but your knees give out, and you collapse back onto him. "OW!" he yells louder this time. "I'm so sorry, I—" You start, but the stranger pushes you off roughly.

"Ow..." It's your turn to groan. You get up slowly, your nerves rattled by the man's shrieks of pain. You extend a hand to help him up, but he just shakes his head and stands on his own.

"I'm sorry I didn't notice I was on top of you. Thank you so mu—"

"Yeah, yeah, whatever," he interrupts. "Why were you walking with your eyes up your ass?"

"Excuse me?" you snap back, lifting your right eyebrow in annoyance.

The man sighs and looks down. That's when you notice his ripped clothes and your open bag with its contents scattered across the pavement. Panic sets in as you search for your phone. Taehyun must have heard everything. You spot your phone on the road, smashed beyond repair. "Shit, shit, shit… no…" You pick it up, confirming there's no hope of fixing it. You sigh heavily.

You turn back to see the stranger gathering your belongings. This mix of helpfulness and rudeness confuses you. Nevertheless, you owe him your life. "Thank you so much. I don't know how to repay you, um…" You pause, waiting for his name, but he just stares at you, annoyed. You scoff and look away. Whatever.

You snatch your bag from his hands and start walking in your original direction, but without your GPS, you're lost. You turn back to the stranger. "Um, do you know a place nearby called 'HotWire?'"

"No. Bye," he replies, walking away. Ugh, what's his deal? You decide to follow him.

"What are you doing?" he asks, glancing at you from the side of his shoulder with pinched eyebrows.

"I think you're injured. Let me help you reach your destination safely." The lie you formed off the top of your head, is not the best, but it's a bit believable, right? He stops and sighs deeply. "Okay, listen. I know a... friend who can take you to HotWire. They'll be here soon. I'll just tell them to drop you off."

You smile, relieved. "Okay!" He looks away, and you drop your smile.

"Just don't bother me while we're in the car. Stay far away." You roll your eyes. "Yeah, don't worry. We're not magnets. I'll manage."

"Good then." He grins finding your response witty, and takes off his ripped jacket, revealing his muscular physique. You swallow hard, caught staring. He chuckles, amused by your reaction. You quickly look away, embarrassed.

You wait awkwardly for his friend, your phone broken and the mysterious stranger silent beside you.

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You swear six hours have passed, but it's only been 15 minutes. A small sports car approaches, and you practically run towards it. In the driver's seat is a gorgeous girl, and in the passenger seat, another handsome man. You squeeze into the backseat after the stranger jumps in without a word.

"Um, who is this?" the girl asks, noticing your unfamiliar presence.

"Some random blind chick who almost got hit by a car," the stranger says, but you quickly cut him off.

"Hi, my name is YN. I almost got into a car crash, but this extremely courageous young fella saved my life." You say sarcastically and extend your hand to the girl, but she just looks you up and down.

The man in the passenger seat laughs heartily, earning an eye roll from the stranger beside you. He wipes his eyes and shakes your hand. "Hi, YN. Sorry that happened to you. Are you alright?"

"Yeah, I'm fine. Thanks," you reply, appreciating his concern.

"Glad to hear, there are many kids rolling the streets at this time, many of them drunk. or high. or high and drunk. Anyway, it was probably a group of idiots in that car.". he says.

He introduces himself. "I'm Hyunjin, and this overly-jealous girl beside me is my twin sister, Yeji. And the charming piece of sunshine beside you is my dear friend. You probably already know his name, no?" You look the male beside you in the eyes and reply, "No, I don't know his name." Your answer somehow seems to please Yeji and her face relaxes slightly as she faces you. Hyunjin laughs, it's not an enjoyable laugh it's more of a ridiculing type of laugh.

"Well I'm Junyoung. Hyunjin stop laughing like a hyena before I push a stick into the side of your throat." Junyoung says, tone serious. But Hyunjin only laughs harder.

Yeji sighs, annoyed. "What are you doing in the car? Surely you can walk since you seem fine," she says, fiddling with her hair and eyeing you through the rearview mirror.

"She wants to go to HotWire. Drive her there," Junyoung commands. Hyunjin stops laughing at the mention of the bar. Yeji twists her head towards you, as if she heard a triggering word.

And you are confused by this trio.

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During the car ride, you break the ice by explaining that you arrived in the city three days ago to study at the famous university, GreenWood. You mention you're heading to HotWire to meet your freshmen peers. You leave out the part about accidentally joining the freshmen group chat and skipping ahead to sophomore year since none of that would matter to the preoccupied driver Yeji and phone addict Junyoung. Hyunjin weirdly enough, was the only one actively listening to you. . However, you do share that Taehyun, your online friend, convinced you to study here. Speaking of Taehyun, using Hyunjin's phone, you reassured Taehyun that you were fine despite his incessant worrying.

You also miss out mentioning the fact that Taehyun, your online friend that you'll finally get to meet, is the person that convinced you to pursue a student life away from your family and friends because you've always wanted to study in that university. Speaking of Taehyun, you managed to call him through Hyunjin's phone. You reassured him that you were all fine despite his incessant worrying.

Eventually, you unite with your freshmen peers, get drunk, and get dropped off at your dorm by some random person. Once you arrive and lay on your tiny couch, you feel a paper in your pocket. You pull it out to find Hyunjin's number with a badly-drawn wink emoji. Drunk you doesn't care and laughs.

And that's how your Saturday night went.

[mysticstarlightduck]

Incorrect Quote Tag!

I wanted to do this tag again so here we go! Going with some characters from Supernova Initiative and Scrapyard Boys for this one <3

I had a lot of fun with this lol, enjoy! (:

The Generator

SCRAPYARD BOYS

Quince: What do you want for breakfast? Josh: I WISH TO DEVOUR THE UNBORN. Quince: (Visible Concern) Erin: (Done with Life) ... Erin: He wants eggs.

Rhys: Quince! Help! I’m bleeding… Quince: Oh god… what’s your blood type?! Rhys: B positive… Quince: (holding back laughter) I’m trying to but you’re bleeding-

Adrien: Well, I'm very sorry to hear about your mother. Max: Eh, we aren't really that close. Adrien: Oh, good then. 'Cause she's a bitch.

Any authority figure: Could you be anymore annoying? Valen: Yes.

*Adrien and Rhys are texting* Adrien: Who are you? I think Gwyn changed the names in my phone. Rhys: What did they change my name to? Adrien: Chosen One. Rhys: Don’t change it back. Adrien: BUT WHO ARE YOU?!?! Rhys: I’m the chosen one. Adrien:... YOU SON OF A BITCH! IT WAS YOU?!!! Rhys: Smugly leaves that message On Read

Damon: You’re insane! Josh: I know I am, what’s your point?

Josh: Why does my arm shake and turn bright red when I’m eating dirt?Erin: ... Erin: Why are you eating dirt? Josh: Did I ask you if I should eat dirt? No, so answer my question.

Kay, after getting a library card: Now I know what true power feels like.

Gwyn: What’s it like being tall? Rhys: Is it nice? Can you reach comfortably for the cupboards? Adrien: We live in constant fear of the short ones who, in my experience, will climb four chairs, two boxes, a small coffee table, and six oddly placed stools to get what they want.

Thomas: Damon, I swear I didn’t know Emily was coming over. I always ominously clean my weapons on the coffee table like that. It had nothing to do with that!

Luke: You read my diary? Valen: Look, at first I didn't know it was your diary. I thought it was a very sad handwritten book.

Josh: I'm not funny, I'm just really mean and people think I'm joking.

Gwyn: Why should I make my bed, when I'm just gonna unmake it to sleep in it anyways? Adrien: Why should I feed you if your just gonna die anyways? Gwyn: Gwyn: I'll go make my bed-

Valen: My bad, It’s a knee jerk response. Damon, holding Thomas's unconscious body: WHOSE KNEE JERK RESPONSE IS TO START THROWING BRICKS AT SOMEONE???

Max: What state do you live in? Quince: I live in a state of constant anxiety.

SUPERNOVA INITIATIVE

Artemis: Everyone thinks you suck. Deimos: I think you have the wrong number… Artemis: Kye? Deimos: Nope. I'm Deimos Artemis: Well, you probably suck too…

Meridian, carrying a box: What would you say if- if I, hypothetically, came home with 7 kittens one day? Jack: … Jack: What’s in the box? Meridian: What woul- Jack: (sighs) Meridian, what’s in the box? Meridian: I think you know.

Cassie (in Act 1-2): Hey, are you alright with swearing? Asking for a friend. Deimos: ...Yeah? Cassie: Bitch. Jack, stuck in the middle of this situation:... I hate my life

Vesper: Murder literally doesn’t hurt anyone! Jack: What are you talking about? Of course— Kye, holding out a hand to shut Jack up: No, no, wait. She has a point—

Noctus: Meridian is late again. Cassie: How did this happen? I called them at 8 o’clock this morning and pretended it was 11. Aleks: I printed up a fake schedule for them saying we were starting at 9 instead of noon. Vesper: I set their clock to say PM when it’s really AM. Jack: Oh boy. We may have overdone it. *Meridianbursts through the door, panicking* Meridian: WHAT TIME IS IT?

Jack: (hesitant) Have I ever told you that you cook well? Cassie: Awww, no, you haven't! Jack: (nearly in exasperated tears) So why do you keep cooking?

*Artemis and Kye are fighting* Gabi, taking aspirin: I have a headache! Can you guys just be cool?! *Artemis and Kye keep fighting, now while wearing sunglasses and riding skateboards*

Elysia: What’s your biggest fear? Jack: I am incredibly arachnophobic. Elysia, under her breath (confused, never heard that word in her life): You don’t want spiders to get married?

Lyorna, singing, unaware there's anyone nearby: I don’t want a lot for Christmas, there is just one thing I need— Kye: An actual family. Vesper: A better love life. Jack: Mental stability. Meridian: *clueless* Bagels?

Aleks: I may be stupid. The Squad: ... Aleks: Oh, did you think I was going to finish that sentence?

Jack: Why were you up yesterday until 3am? Cassie: How did you know I was up until 3am? Deimos (walking in with an absolutely exhausted face and two cups of coffee): Because we all could hear you clapping to that sitcom intro every 25 minutes.

Vesper: Do you want to be the Sun in my life? Deimos: Yes. Vesper: Good, then stay 92,935,700 miles away from me :)

Aleks: That sounds super! Doesn’t that sound super, Noctus? Noctus: No. Aleks: I think I speak for Noctus when I say it sounds really super.

Jack: Yesterday, I overheard Meridian saying “Are you sure this is a good idea?” and Cassie replying “Trust me,” and I have never moved from one room to another so quickly in my life.

Kye: Two truths and a lie, I’ll start! Kye: I’ve killed people, I will kill again, and I hear screams when I'm alone or sleeping. Meridian, visibly nervous: I don’t- I don’t know if I like this game.

Jack: *points at Tarah* A human turtleneck, *points at Kye* a narcissistic monster, *points at Aleks* and literally the dumbest person I’ve ever met. Aleks: And who am I? Describe me now.

*The gang's thoughts on stabbing* Meridian (mortified): Would never stab anyone. Deimos: Would stab someone in retaliation. Cassie: Yells "I won't hesitate, bitch!" first. Kye: Would stab without warning. Vesper: Would stab as a warning.

Jack: I don't need to go to bed. I'm not tired, I'll be fine. Lyorna: But, darling, I'll be so lonely without you. Come curl up in my arms so I can feel whole again. Jack: O-oh. Well. Are you trying to charm me into healthy sleeping patterns?? Lyorna: Is it working?

Kye: I'm feeling it! What am I feeling? Death, probably.

Gabi: My future partner must be brave, strong, intelligent, successful and organized. Elysia: *steps on a caterpillar and proceeds to drop to her knees and sob while apologizing profusely* Gabi: That one. I want that one.

Tagging (gently): @kaylinalexanderbooks, @smol-feralgremlin, @oh-no-another-idea, @littleladymab, @winterandwords, @eccaiia,

@the-letterbox-archives, @illarian-rambling@agirlandherquill, @anoelleart,

@little-peril-stories, @thecomfywriter

@ray-writes-n-shit @writernopal, @anyablackwood, @unstablewifiaccess,

@forthesanityofstorytellers, @finickyfelix @i-can-even-burn-salad

@cauliflowermaterial @thepeculiarbird,

@clairelsonao3, @memento-morri-writes,

@starlit-hopes-and-dreams @differentnighttale

@wyked-ao3 and OPEN TAG

[amyispxnk]

A drabble that I'm scared shitless to post ❤️

Note- I am absolutely terrified to post this and I've never written anything before. If it's shit I'm sorry. The voices made me do it.

Summary: Waking up with Javi (SFW, fluff, allusions to some NSFW activities at the end..?)

Javier Peña x f!reader

I haven't watched season 3 and there's like a word of translated Spanish in here but if it's wrong please correct me. Ignore ugly borders (idek)

Noone's gonna copy paste this trash and act like it's theirs but I'm not gonna allow it anyway, my work not yours bae 💞💞💞

Word count - 410

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Javier felt her chest rise and fall steadily as she slept, feeling happier than he had in months because of her. Everything was so chaotic before her, Colombia was hell and no matter how many miles away from that place he was, he could never truly escape it. Then she appeared in his life and made everything better. She was like an angel, his paradise, his cielo.

The sunlight shone through the curtains of his room and into Javier's eyes as he blinked awake, sitting up slightly. He looked down and saw his girlfriend still asleep in his arms, looking as peaceful and beautiful as ever. The light fell onto her so beautifully and he looked at her, maybe she was an angel, he thought. She certainly looked like one.

He watched her sleep for a moment, committing the image of her asleep in his bed, wearing his shirt, with her hair slightly messy (but still gorgeous) and her soft lips parted slightly as she slept quietly, to memory before he gently pulled her closer, not wishing to disturb her but still kissing her on the forehead and whispering a soft 'good morning baby' to her.

"Hmm?" She mumbled, stirring slightly and looking up at him.

"Morning cielo." He said in a quiet voice, stroking her hair gently and tucking a strand behind her ear as she sat up, resting against the headboard with her head on his shoulder.

"What time 's it?" She asked, rubbing her eyes and trying to wake up fully.

Javier glanced at his alarm clock. "Almost 8." He answered, rubbing small circles into her hand. "You don't have work today?" She replied, a little surprised that he was still here by this time. Normally he'd be in work by now, or on his way at least.

"Nope." He said with a soft smile, still running his fingers through her hair. "I finally got some time off to be with you. To be honest, I missed spending our days together like we used to."

She smiled at his words, before looking up at him again. "So you're off all day, meaning.. we can sleep in?" She said as a smirk creeped onto her face.

"Meaning we can most definitely sleep in." He said, returning the smirk.

She moved to be on top of him, straddling him as she leaned down so her face was no more than an inch away from his.

"We're not leaving this bed for the next 10 hours." She said before finally kissing him whilst his hands moved to take her shirt off.

"Make it the next 20."

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If you read this and liked it pls consider reblogging 🫶

Also my inbox is oooppeeeeennn if you want me to write anything because I will write anything (SFW) because I'm bored and yeah. Thanks bye

[sentientgopro]

Coming up on 3 months since cracking. It's still, like, a week away, but honestly, close enough and I wanna write this post now. Not much is gonna change in that time anyway.

The main thing I wanna note is like, the SIGNIFICANT mental changes. There is a name. I have never uttered that name out loud. Noone knows the name IRL. Noone has used that name for me online. Nothing.

...But If I, just quickly, imagine someone calling my name, or getting my attention, that's the name they're saying. If I quickly imagine someone referring to me in third person, I'm she.

And I think of these same things with my current name and it just doesn't quite feel right, or the same anymore.

People always talk about the infamous "I'm a girl" dreams. and I've started getting, like, 3 a week? Or atleast 3 where I'm, to some extent, trans. Like, even if I wasn't quite a girl yet, I had a dream that included picking up an estrogen prescription.

And all this, after 3 months, while deep closeted and unable to do anything about transitioning.

And, for my own sanity, I've had to find things to appreciate during this time. I can't spend the next year and a half avoiding acknowledging myself and what I look like. So I've atleast started to appreciate the little things. If I look closely at my eyes and ignore the rest of my face, I feel happy. idk, there's just something about my eyes in isolation that feel different to the rest of my face somehow, idk what it is but they feel more feminine, if that makes any sense.

And then there's my hair. Look, I have really short hair. Pretty average hair length for a guy. But my parents have been incredibly militant with keeping my hair very short for, well, as long as I can remember, until recently when my Dad abruptly asked if I wanted to grow it out (unbelievably convenient, he's transphobic and hss no idea about me. We take those I guess?)

But now, even the slightest bit longer hair feels great to me. Those little bits that grow down infront of your ears? Love it. Never had that be that long before. My hair ain't much, but its alot to me. And its only gonna get longer and longer, better and better.

And, look, this one sounds weird, but thighs. The way the fat squishes and flattens out when I sit down. I am a very skinny person, to the extent that my thighs are probably the fattest part of me relative to the body part. They aren't that thick, but relative to the rest of my body, it's enough to make me really happy. One time I was reading something about a lil deep-closet trick of wearing a long shirt and a shorter/ rolled up hoodie, and I kinda like it. Doing that, while sat down causing my thighs to squish slightly just looks so right.

(I was strongly debating whether to actually include this section. I doubt this would ever be the case, but just in case, don't be weird about it?)

I'm not gonna keep commenting on dysphoria increasing. I've kinda figured that's just par for the course. My general mood has decreased, I just don't feel good, but I'm not actually in that bad of a place mentally. I'm feeling optimistic, a solution to my problems is out there and I am gonna make it. It's already been a quarter of a year since cracking, that's no small amount of time relative to how long I have to wait. No matter how much I feel like shit about not being able to transition yet, it's better than when I didn't know what the problem was and thought I would just find myself ending it at some point. Now I know that isn't happening.

With each day, each little daydream, every time I imagine a scenario where I'm me, I get closer to actually being me. Physical is just a wait, but mental is a gradual process that is already well underway.

[muff1nqwq]

sorry i havent been around in a while, things have gotten crazy, im sure you get it. my first day of being a sophmore (10th grader) starts tomorrow and while im not extremely nervous it is also 11:50 at night and i have to wake up at 6:15, ignore the specific time as it is never specific, its an estimate at best.

i have this thing called band camp that has been going on for the last couple of days. basically i play my trumpet (her name is Margaret) for 4 hours in preparation for football season (im in the band, we have to play at football games) idk where you are ofc, so to clarify, this is american football. the concussion sport.

i picked up tarot reading and it's super silly, i would recommend. its funny to think that the cards are supposed to have their own personality. id say that i dont see it, but they told me to shut up once, sassy ass cards...

i havent been hurting myself as much because of how busy i am + how cold it is. a thing about me is that i cannot ever cvt when its cold. maximum discomfort. 0/10 stars. not funky fresh.

my ex and i started talking less often and im kinda glad it happened, which might be mean to say, considering were friends still, but theres so much to do, to worry about that i can barely keep up with things.

anyways, i think thats most of it. btw if you ever dont know how to respond to one of my rambles, id love it if you might just add your own story? about anything!!!! i like hearing from you!

— rin

hiya Rin :DDD I missed u!!

GL in school!! I'm gonna b a Freshman this year and I'm excited-nervous abt it... At least its gonna b the same ppl ( even though the principal warned us abt a rush of new students, but its better than going 2 a brand new school ) I gotta fix my sleep schedule so bad, I stay up till 3am and wake up at noon :'3

:0000 IM IN BAND TOO :DD I play clarinet :3 ( btw I love how u called football the "concussion sport" XDDDD )

Tarot reading sounds so cool :000 i rlly like astrology and numerology ( I'm an Aquarius :3 )

4 me it's still hot af here, even though snow melted like 3 weeks b4 summer break :> but yesterday I went 2 go walk my doggo and right as we were turning back, it started raining, and my dumbass didn't bring a jacket and I was wearing an oversized T-shirt and shorts, so I was running ( in flip-flops ) 4 ten mins in the rain tryna get back 2 my house lolol X'3

That sounded like a line from a book I read a few yrs ago XD ( but I hope ur still finding time 4 urself :) )

A few nights ago I was rlly, RLLY hyped up 4 highschool... Same school, few new kids, new teachers, maybe a new rep... Then I thought abt what my rep would b like. I mean tbh I don't mind if I'm known as a weirdo furry theatre kid, but last yr my ex-bestie spread nasty rumours bout me, manipulate me and my friend group, and overall make everyone avoid me. At least my friends knew what she's all abt and stuck w me 4 the whole yr, but like... What if the rumours spread 2 the new kids and bad stuff happen?? So then I stayed up thinking bout that and at 2am I multiswiped 10 times and I named the cvt Jeffo :3 ( I haven't cvt in weeks cuz I didn't have many Band-Aids left )

Have a good day Rin :DDD

-Muffin

[yowlthinks]

Numbers Game

Something happened today in the way of mixed age social group dynamic and I am still thinking about it. The key question I am still struggling with is what is better, what is healthier (for all the participants): segregate the participants by age with lower and upper limits, or just let everyone who wants to be part of the group be there? And then if we say "better", for whom exactly is it better?

A few days ago a massive GO fandom WhatsApp group was founded and pretty soon it swelled to nearly a 100 participants globally. Did you know you could reach 1500 (one thousand five hundred) unread messages in a group by just not looking at your phone for a couple of hours? Neither did I, but now I know. Anyway, it was lovely, just as this whole fandom is, and among all the one-liner chatter there were some really nice more in-depth discussions about life. It was a little overwhelming, but I liked it.

Now, the age of participants varied, you could see that straightaway, but that was not a problem, because it wasn't like there was anything in the discussions that you could not discuss with a teenager. But then today the inevitable question of "how old are you" came up and apparently some members were shocked to find out the age differences. When you're 36 and a 16 year old asks you "What are you doing here?", I'm not gonna lie, it stings a little.

You want to turn around and tell them that in those 20 years since you were their age you have not, in fact, disappeared. You still read and write fanfiction, enjoy a good meme and generally are allowed to have fun. Yes, even if you have a job, kids and all those other adult things. Especially, because you have all those other adult things and they weigh on you, but you are still you and it is good to remember that. You want to turn around and scream that you are not "old and boring". That you need that little happy corner to dive in and let yourself go happily unhinged over fictional characters. And you have every right to do it.

But then I guess, if you are 16 and you have this fandom where you run away from school, parents and teen angst, you want to have this as your own world. You think people who are in your fandom are essentially all more or less like you. And finally someone understands, someone knows your suffering!! And when it turns out that apparently there are people closer to your parents' age enjoying these same things, well, it feels like a betrayal. Like some sort of spies infiltrating your fortress of happiness, and you want to turn around and shout at them. How dare they take this from you?! You are already going through so much, and now these old boring people dare to steal this one happy thing from you?!

The thing is, Internet is great at mixing people and bringing them together. And fandoms are a place where discussions happen, which wiuod never happen in real life. And to get those discussions, it is good to have different perspectives, and yes, this diversity includes diversity of age.

It is also good for teens to know that life does not end after 20, or 30 or 40. Or even 50, or 70. Life only ends when you die. And there is noone who should police what you enjoy as long as you are doing this without harming others. You do realise that the first modern fanfiction authors are pushing 70 and 80 now, and can you honestly tell me that these people suddenly lost their ability to imagine and enjoy the things they love? I bloody well hope not, because being ale to enjoy what you love is what makes life worth living. It is just a little uncomfortable to think your gran is probably not averse to reading or at least imagining Kirk/Spok stories in her head, yeah, probably saucy ones too. This thought doesn't really fit the narrative, so you push it away. But knowing that it is possible, makes the thought of being an old person a little less scary. "I will still be me".

Anyway, long story short, there is now a separate group. It is smaller and also devoid of stickers (did you know WhatsApp has stickers?! I had no clue, I don't know if it is a generational or cultural thing, but whatever), and I hope it will be a joyful place and full of discussions.

That "what are you doing here?" still stings a bit. But I guess, it is the right thing to let the teens have space wherever possible, they are going through it all, so let them be.

And hey, look at me, having fun on Tumblr, coping with being in my mid-30ies so well.

[wodenscild]

Aight! So! Futhark is pretty fekking cool! A pretty script! It had a tonne of different varieties from the various Scandinavian futharks to the continental futharks to the Anglo-Saxon furthark! Being both a linguistics student and a follower of Fyrnsida, I thought what if I could modernise the Anglo-Saxon futhark to fit my own Aussie English!!! If you don't wanna read the whole thing I have put a summary at the end of this post that you can jump down to!

SO! FIRSTLY! WHICH ANGLO-SAXON FUTHARK (or as more aptly Futhorc) SHALL I USE? There are two complete sets that we know of! These are the Thames scramasax which was a short inscription on a sword, and the Vienna Codex. While graphematically the same, they have a few graphemic/visual differences!

[Elliot, Ralph W. V. 1996. "The Runic Script." In The World's Writing Systems, edited by Peter T. Daniels and William Bright, 335-339. New York: Oxford University Press.]

I am gonna go with the Vienna Codex here just cos that is the one that the computers use so :P sorry Beagnoth- anyway! Next step was to get the phonemic transcriptions of these :D [sobs] This book gives a good overview of the readings of each of these runes, but there are some abiguities with ᚳ, and the exact qualities of some of the vowels. So my thinking is to take ᛁ/ᛇ, ᛖ, ᚪ, ᚩ, and ᚢ as the basic 5 vowel system, and then have ᛟ as /œ~ø/, ᚫ as /æ/, and have ᛠ and ᚣ be /æa/ and /y/ respectively! ᚳ I am gonna use solely as /k/, and recreate the /tʃ/ through a digraph later! It should also be noted that ᚠ /f/, ᚦ /θ/, and ᛋ /s/ are voiced medially, and that ᚷ /g/ is lenited non-initially. I quite like these so I am gonna keep that!

NOW! NEXT ORDER BUSINESS! ORTHOGRAPHY! HOW IS THIS GONNA FIT ONTO MY ENGLISH? THE MOST ANNOYING PART IS GONNA BE VOWELS! Australian English vowels are more than the ones that the Futhorc can write. So we gotta do some expanding and use some diagraphs- so I have settled on:

/ɐ/ BUD - ᚪ

/ɐ:/ BATH - ᚪᚪ

/æ/ TRAP - ᚫ

/æ:/ BAD - ᚫ (not gonna double this one as /æ/ and /æ:/ are saliently different to me but if anyone wants to use this they can double it if they want!)

/æɪ/ FACE - ᚫᛁ

/æɔ/ MOUTH - ᚫᚩ

/ɑɪ/ PRICE - ᚪᛁ

/e/ DRESS - ᛖ

/e:/ SQUARE - ᛖ (again, vowel length with here is not something I can hear really well?)

/ɜ:/ NURSE - ᛟ (closest modern vowel we have to /œ~ø/)

/ə/ ABOUT - ᛠ (this is just- a weird sound we, or at least I, don't use. I think it would be funky to be our schwa but! I know this is arbitrary, but I wanna try to use all of runes here)

/əʉ/ GOAT - ᛠᚢ

/ɪ/ BIT - ᛁ

/ɪə/ NEAR - ᛁᛠ

/i:/ FLEECE - ᛇ (this was used as a variant of ᛁ, and also represents a few consonants which doesnt exist in my variety today, so I am just using it for /i:/ out of a want to use all the runes)

/ɔ/ THOUGHT - ᚩ

/ɔɪ/ CHOICE - ᚩᛁ

/ʊ/ FOOT - ᚢ

/ʉ:/ GOOSE - ᚢᚢ (I know these are different vowel qualities but tbh, it isn't immediately apparent to me that they are different lest i really listen to it? So personal choice to just use this digraph here)

It was pretty easy to assign vowels to runes! All bar ᚣ, whose /y/ sound is just... not something we have anymore? But! I have an idea for it with consonant digraphs!! So let's dive into the consonants!

The standard ones

/m/ MAN - ᛗ

/n/ NOON - ᚾ

/ŋ/ KING - ᛝ

/p/ POT - ᛈ

/b/ BELLY - ᛒ

/t/ TEST - ᛏ

/d/ DOG - ᛞ

/k/ KEG - ᚳ

/g/ GIFT - ᚷ

/ks/ WEET-BIX - ᛉ

/tʃ/ CHURCH - ᛏᛋᚣ

/dʒ/ JUDGE - ᛞᛋᚣ

/f/ FAN - ᚠ

/v/ VALUE - ᚠᚻ (this digraph I am gonna use initially, I am gonna use ᚠ in non-initial positions for /v/)

/θ/ THANKS - ᚦ

/ð/ THIS - ᚦᚻ (same as with /v/)

/s/ SISTER - ᛋ

/z/ ZOO - ᛋᚻ (same as with /v/)

/ʃ/ SHELL - ᛋᚣ

/ʒ/ VISION - ᛋᚣ (I cannot think of any words outside of vision where this sound comes up, so it'll be safe to have it homographic with /ʃ/)

/h/ HOME - ᚻ

/ɹ/ RED - ᚱ

/l/ LOLLIE - ᛚ

/j/ YOUNG - ᛄ

/w/ WATER - ᚹ

Personal one

/x/ MURDOCH - my /k/ and /g/ tends to lenite at the end of words, or in fast or stressed speech non-finally - ᚳᚻ/ᚷᚻ non-finally, and ᚷ finally

So! TL:DR we have come to:

Next thing I wanna work on is making these runes more pen on paper writing friendly. The angularity of the runes was due to the materials into which they were typically carved into, and in quick writing can be a bit awkward for writing. So that is gonna me my next goal. Again! The runes were always used with degrees of variability, to match the speech of their writers. They were never standardised, and this here is not an attempt to standardised them here. This is just a personal project that others are more than free to use and modify as they wish! I will follow this up later when I replace my pen that died last night with possible handwritten styles for the runes.

[mrtheking]

Sorry for making an unstructured rant, but I want at least some people to read it, cuz I'm really emotional right now.

Got flamed by some rando an hour and a half ago because some anon happened to do an ask where they were just trash talking hours earlier and they thought I was that anon after I reblogged one of their posts pointing out that their username made one of their jokes funnier. I saw their tags on their reblog mensioning the anon, so I tried to reblog to clarify that I was in fact not a trash talking loser but some rando who thought their post was funny. Didn't go well, they misunderstood what I said* and went nuclear on me. I tried to reblog again to try and respond to them saying that no, I am not socially inept (something I have been told my entire fucking life for misunderstandings just like this, so it does 10x the normal amount of psychic damage to me) and somebody who would make them instantly explode if in the same room as me, but rather am a different person than they thought I was, but couldn't do that because they fucking blocked me. God damnit. I've gone my entire life with at least one interaction a month where I say something that I think will brighten somebody's day at least just a tiny bit, but then they misunderstand me, call me stupid, idiot, retard, etc., then say something super hurtful, then refuse to let me clarify any misunderstandings and now I'm permanently at fault for ruining everybody's day when I'm not the one who got mad over something purely in their head. I'm just fucking done.

I know this is probably a bad idea, but there's nothing I want more than my mutuals to read through my blog history and find the person I'm talking about and to shoot them a quick message or ask and tell them to apologize or something, because even though they are a stranger who admitedly didn't do anything wrong by blocking somebody who was annoying them and it doesn't matter anyways because I've only interacted with them once and there will always be people who have one bad interaction with you and you'll never interact with them again for better or worse, it still hurts going through this sometimes multiple times every single fucking month of my life. I'm just so distraught. It doesn't even matter all that much, which just makes me even more upset, because the only thing I can really do is rant about it, because noone is gonna apologize for something that menial, even if when the thing they should be apologizing for has happened so much to the person they should apologize to that it triggers intense trauma responses, and noone's gonna try and set things right between two random people who've never met each other in any capacity until a single interaction, even if that one interaction caused one party who you happen to be close to to spiral into a depressive episode. Fml

[theorist-influencer-untitled]

6.2.23 Friday

7:40 am

Uncle Jun is here still sleeping coz he went home morning today as in super early morning probably around 2am coz I think I slept around 12 am...

Drinking my coffee and still, feeling the pain on my pelvic... I still have frustrations in life... Thinking of money, I feel self-pity coz of being stuck and aging for nothing and no extra money in my pockets...

8:53 am

Done!

9:02 am

I still wanna leave the hometown....I need money... My self-esteem is very low....I'm a college graduate but I can't get a job or succes...

11:04 am

Hmmm...The worker of Uncle DD is here to put their window on their new house...( Removing the original substance of this house )....

It is not help but a gateway to smash us or me here...

I still have the windblow trap since 2007...Who did it? Who done it? Up to these days...

11:19 am

Strange Uncle Jun...

12:39 noon

Uncle Jun went out just now...

I have major complex here when the father figure ( Uncle DD ) of Ivan ( son of Aunt Karen ) will start to stay there in their house..

I have nothing against Muslim but mostly their lifestye and belief is living within the same vicinity with their main family and next generation family and extended family.... ( I do respect some of the Muslims lifestyle ) but not my ideal thing here... I'm just explaining...

The main family is fine, the next generation will be ohkay but the ideal is to get a new house once you are already having a partner...

Coz the main house of the parent's ( we considered our adoptive parent's ) is to maintain supposed to be the original entity of this house...

The case of Uncle DD and Aunt Karen compared to the case of Aunt Russel are 2 different things.. It is not the same...

And we were the original middle-class in the family but the entity of the family if we are still on the same middle-class category, it is ohkay to pull up the other relatives as a whole entity of "De Ocampo" to be known as middle-class...

Excusah RC I'm gonna use your family surname for this case...

I will just borrow RC for the explanation... Will just take a break... ( will brush my teeth and a fast phase of cleaning the living room ). Done, eating lunch with John and the rest of the gang...

2:29 pm

Whew! Before continuing my sensitive and heavy case here but not obvious if the people who are observing is not mature...

So, some personal case first I'm not happy, not contented and not my ideal life... I have fear these days... I keep on posting, I have complex and fear of aging for nothing....

I hope angels and some good people who can read this will take every words here seriously... I hate them coz I have now this "deep smile lines", I easily get jealous and intimidated and I hate it that they remove my substance as nicely spoiled and worst stole my college graduate status for 16 years...

I'm self-pitying having this deep smile lines and praying that this tool will be effective...

I wanna have botox and collagen...I'm no longer a kid, I'm a woman who needs to feel confident and loved...

Anyways, I got this facial massage tool in Lazadah....But I'm praying for a modern technique... For angels out there grab one of this even if you don't have yet the "deep smile lines" to prevent it....I know being good to other people that deserve to receive a piece of kindness. It will be a good karma effect to me....

2:43 pm

Let's go back to "borrowing RC's family surname"...

The case of how would a family should flow in the family circle.

I've known RC it is time to complete his name here ( Robin Chester) CANTIMBUHAN! Ever since high school, when I was 13 years old, when my or our adoptive parent's got us here in their old house or considered as our supposed to be childhood house ( me & my brother next to me ).

We will never compete RC in a bad way coz they gave us a warm welcome, time that we just got in on that Immaculate Conception Academy.

Hmm... RC thought I never knew him even his elder sister named Beron....They never thought that we knew them....In a way my family is a fighter and we had have a status to be still supposed to be on the middle-class category...

Let's focus on RC....RC got a powerful name here in Cavite much more ever ever since that high-powered "CANTIMBUHAN"...

Originally, when you say Dasmarinas Cavite, oh! It is the commanding "CANTIMBUHAN"!

But I got linked with the sides and cousins coz RC and Beron coz these 2 were on upper batch....They are older than me....

I met Brien CANTIMBUHAN the cousin of RC and Brien is one year younger than me, I think so but we are on the same batch....We became friends and close friends until we finished high-school....

I met Alexander Capati CANTIMBUHAN during college, I remember we just met on our taekwondo class and we became friends as well....But Alexander (Lek2x ) is older than all of us, I think so.....As far as I can remember Alexander was on his 30's that time but his mother was really pushing him to finish his college education. I think Alexander ( Lek2x ) spent 2 years while I was in De La Salle and yey! he did graduate finally....

I met the sides of CANTIMBUHAN! I even met Ate Daday CANTIMBUHAN ( girl cousin ) this woman is supposed to be pretty but she is somehow weird and crazy on choosing her own stubbornness in life but she is loving in a way but in a way you will also hate her coz of her stubbornness...

And more added CANTIMBUHAN sides but forgot their names men and women coz it was just a quick introduction about the others and never had an interaction with the other sides but simply smiles or glimpse.

So, in-short the main thing here, the connection or to make an easy explanation of what am I in this family and who is RV in the family clan of "De Ocampo"...My adoptive parent's and me and RV and My Nana are the main of " De Ocampo Clan"... I hope this case is clear this afternoon, angels...

4:26 pm

Hmm... I had a missed call from Uncle DD... I did something I wasn't able to hear it but I already sent his balance on his worker on his viber account...

I have windblow trap... I feel fat and ugly and I wanna gain uppish friends men.. I wanna leave the hometown... I'm self-pitying...

8:08 pm

I still have the windblow trap and I wanna have some new alien men's friends who can or willing to pull me up and somehow make me their baby Queenish... I'm really a jealous kind....

If I get jealous coz there is A queenish already, I will not join that group....

I feel frustrated, aging without xfactor... I feel hurt and still feeling irritated and jealous since 2007...

I just wanted to see some old gf's, that I can trust...

8:30 pm

This Uncle Jun is still fakish, I just sense it... Weird! It seems he is observing me...My movement in the kitchen... Or he is having a split personality again...

10:21 pm

Still, stretching... So, what?

10:42 pm

I feel bitterish... 16 years and they just wanted me to be fat,ugly and aging... I still wanna leave the hometown, I can't get progress...

11:18 pm

In a lil while will take my shower...

11:31 pm

This Uncle Jun is coughing since he came back last night super early as 2am and now he got up and went out, coughing...

11:36 pm

Uncle Jun went back to his sofa-crib...

Resting, preparing to take off going to the bathroom hahaha...

I wanna leave the hometown,angels... No, personal progress here and I can't find someone that will be mutual with me on every angle of my own personal view about life....

[moreaujeans]

every time my ap lit teacher tells me he thinks i am the most voracious reader he’s met i feel like the world’s biggest fraud </3 i have read a total of three (3) books since the new year and he says he read 50 last summer like i WISH i still had that kind of discipline