#anyways idk i was kinda drunk when making this woops

[manilovetumblerusernames]

White board doodlez cos my fren n i got sidetracked :P

[earlysunshines]

woah okay wow jesus... still recollecting my thoughts I dont even know what to say... just...woah mo dani 😔 I've said it more then one time that I really love your works but the bad part of beingtoo shy and always replying on anon mode is the idk even your would recognize me from the other ask (uuh im the one of spiderjeans gang, gonna claim myself as 🤟anon too from now on) and well always accidentally writing long reviews, so here it goes 🤸 also your answer to that ask got me feeling all giddy🤭🤭

AND ALSO you said you breath fuffly but girl????ohmygoood the angst on this one, gonna jump to the end but woah the dani crying part genuinely almost made me tear up oh the to be whipping her tears omg ilymodani

also³ the way I had to contain myself so much to kicking my feet while reading this cause im at middle of work 🫣opened tumblr for curiosity and OOP priorities babe

n just at the started this I knew where this fake dating was going because imagine being fakedating dani and NOT falling in love with her?? impossible. this one just proved it

one petname from her and I would be tripping over my feet

and oh.... oh the ice cream scene.... oh...😮‍💨 never felt such a pang in my chest like this one, she being 'just happy' and getting closer aaaehrgh the caring kiss on her hairrr ooasrgrhh such idiots in love omg

kinda gonna blame my girl yn here for being drunk of her mind just cause she can't speak things up(i dont too) but hehe the 'dani living yn face by her chin' and the 'pretty' being let out 🤭🤭 woop

anyways, this was longer than intended sorrw i just love speaking my mind out on this feedbacks cause if it was to me i think if it was with me I would love so!! as always amazing amazing work thank you so much for feeding my delusions with little mo dani I loved it, hope you have a beautiful great day 🫵🫶

-🤟anon!!

how could i NOT recognize u i await your feedback each time it gen makes me smile so hard and i appreciate it so bad i love my work being analyzed😞👩‍❤️‍💋‍👩 and ily

the ending was acc very diff like i plan my shit out in my head and write but i changed the thing last min and thought of the whole crying thing out of nowhere bc i saw a pic on pinterest of her from her bday live of her crying😭😭

ALSO CUBED LFMAOOO

in the middle of work is crazy but yes right like i’m gonna fall for her regardless HELLOOO and i fully believe her fav pet names r sweetheart and lovely and some other cutesy shit like darling or smth

NOOO THE ICE CREAM SCENE WAS SO FUN TO WRITE I had to like sit in my room thinking it out and trying to make it as sentimental and like relaxing as possible and i love giving kisses to ppls like heads into their hair if that makes sense LMAO

nooo bc i sometimes ramble when im drunk but sometimes i go nonverbal and i decided to swap it LOL

ITS OK IF IT WAS LONGER THAN INTENDED I LOGED EVERY WORD OF THIS I LOOOVEEE YOUR FEEDBACK PLSS ILY ILY FOR RESDINY MY WORK TYSM

hope u have an even better day beautiful

[mikeshanlon]

fwb eldonado au?

okay so first of all do urself a favor and read @petemaldonado and @theonewherelaurynhasablog‘s fwb au  bc it’s iconic. seriously i think ‘it's kiss your homie hours peter c'mon’ is possibly one of, if not the most, iconic lines ever written. f scott fitzgerald could NEVER. charles dickens is crying on the floor. shakespeare was resurrected just to read that line and the died immediately after reading it bc he knew he could never write anything so poetic. 

anyways there’s a lot of different routes you could go with this, though most essential is dumbass peter and sam bc they’re fucking emotionally/romantically inept...... tonight im feeling an au where sam and peter start lowkey hooking up when they’re up in bellevue filming s2 bc it’s kinda like... well we’re in this new place so things Feel Different (as in like yeah its real but its not gonna Affect Real Life bc it’s not home and they think that bc they are fucking dumb), other than working on the case theres not much to do, and the whole like they’re roommates living in the same guest house mostly alone except for ming (which i’ll get to)

so we all know ming is a party fucking LEGENDDDDDDD and he probably has a fake to get alcohol even though he’s underage (sorry we’re not in canada legend :(). and so one night he brings out some bottles and he’s like lets unwind this is already stressful af! and they probably invite chloe over but she might not stay long bc she like. actually has to go to class and stuff, but they all kinda bond. eventually sam and peter drift off into sam’s room and they’re just kinda drunk bantering and peter is currently at like Cuddly Drunk stage and they’re a lil too close and then whoops peter kisses sam and they end up like Making Out and then passing out bc they’re really drunk and tired

they sort of pretend it didnt happen, or that it didnt really Mean anything but then they like ..... keep accidentally brushing hands and being entirely too affectionate as they’re walking around st bernadines, and then they kiss again during a movie night and its like. well woops we’re doing this! and they just sort of continue it when they have a spare moment

back to ming i actually wanna do a lil oneshot incorporating this concept bc i think its so fucking funny but. ming being so over their bullshit. like yeah he loves them but they’re SO obvious but keep denying it and mings like i can literally hear u guys my room is across the hall. them flirting as they set up cameras and mings like can we please just get some work done..... im just here to make a doc and spend time with my friends................ please............ same goes for chloe but shes not around as much so ming really gets the worst of it

if we wanna do angst which im me so we do, they’re still continuing their fwb once they get back to oceanside but sams like okay i want to be able to do like. Couple things (bc they were starting to turn into that before they left bellevue and it was nice to just like hold peters hand when they popped over to dawsey’s for groceries and stuff). but peters like woah uhhhhhhhh i thot we agreed to keep it casual (bc peter is like. afraid to label things and Voice Love bc he’s afraid he’ll lose it). and they get into a huge fight but.... idk they get their shit together somehow lmao erglknerglnerg

send me an au and i’ll give you 5+ headcanons about it

[the-madame21]

50 more interesting questions

Rules: fill this out and tag at least one person you’d like to know more about! Or just fill it out! Or don’t! Answer only some of them! Make up your own questions! “What kind of requirement is that”, you ask? A reasonable one! Who am I to tell you what to do? Anything goes!

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1. What kind of food can’t you stand? Pixie sticks. Or onions. 

2. If you could choose one minor inconvenience to never have to deal with again, what would you pick? My phone recognizing my thumbprint every time so I don’t have to deal with physically unlocking my phone lmao.

3. Have you got any useless talents? all talent is useful.

4. If you could be really really good at one thing, what would it be? Not stressing. It’d be so nice to not stress and get worked up over every little thing lmao.

5. Name a few people you think are extremely good-looking - Matt Damon (fight me) Hook from Once Upon a Time, the lead singer of Black Veil Brides 

6. What was your favorite way to pass the time as a kid? Playing pretend!! Ah me and my sister would make up the wildest stories haha. And we had an insane amount of stuffed animals and shit we used for props. I also loved swimming back then. 

7. What is something you’re proud of? I’m really proud of my writing even if almost no one I know personally reads it lol. 

8. What’s one character flaw in people that you just can’t tolerate? I hate when people are fake friendly. Like you can tell when it’s genuine vs not and it just bothers me like stop fucking trying so hard. 

9. Do you consider yourself to be more of a leader or a follower? Uhhhh both I guess. I rather just follow since it’s easier and back in elementary through high school everyone always pegged me to lead group projects and shit so I’m kinda sick of it lol. 

10. What kind of student are/were you? 6 AP classes all in one go woo let’s do this lol. 

11. Butterfly effect question! Has there ever been a seemingly minor decision you’ve made (at the time) that ended up having a profound influence on your life? Not that I can really recall off the top of my head. 

12. Name your most irrational fear/aversion  I can’t watch scary movies. Like at all. “But it’s fake” bitch that don’t mean it ain’t scary. 

13. Are there any fictional characters you find especially relatable? Anything is relatable if you try hard enough. 

14. If you drink, what kind of drunk are you? Alternatively, what sort of person are you at parties? I get really giggly. Like I laugh all the time anyway but it becomes especially true when I drink. 

15. Do you fall in love easily? Or does it usually take a long time for you to trust someone? I think I do. But I don’t know if that was just because I’m in love with the idea of love. 

16. Would you rather have one close friend or 100 casual friends? One close friend. Which is basically what I got now lmao.

17. Do you consider yourself to be more of a slob or a neat-freak? I’m kind of a slob since I’m lazy but never for very long because seeing everything dirty just like *screams* I can’t take it. Cleaning is like relaxing to a certain extent lol.

18. Describe a place (imaginary or real) that you would find incredibly cozy Oh I always think of like rain or snow and just having a desk pushed up against the window or something like that. Or somewhere with a bunch of pillows where you can see the rain falling. If there’s a christmas tree too then that’s awesome lol. 

19. Do you have kids? If not, do you want them someday? I don’t have any kids but I do want them someday. 

20. What was your favorite book as a child? The Chronicles of Ancient Darkness: Wolf Brother

21. Name one thing you just don’t get what all the hype is about Is it bad if I say kpop?

22. Name one thing that you think is tragically underrated uhhhhhh

23. If you had to be glued to a person for a month, real or fictional (who you have never met), who would you choose? Abraham Lincoln.

24. What’s something you’d like the chance to do someday? Visit all of the Disneylands. I’m only missing Shanghai and Hong Kong.

25. Do you typically speak your mind when you have a controversial opinion? Or do generally prefer to not rock the boat? I usually stay quiet, judge you in my head, and then talk shit to my mom or bf. 

26. What’s the dumbest fad you’ve been caught up in? Does anyone remember those rubber bands that were like animal shaped and people wore them as bracelets? 

27. What’s something you thought was cool as a kid/adolescent, but now cringe at yourself for? My entire middle school self lmao.

28. What’s a trait you consider to be very admirable? I think honesty. It’s hard being honest. And it’s like everyone is so used to lying like sometimes these people come off as blunt but like it’s appreciated.

29. Is there a particular kind of item people always tend to give you as gifts? (For instance, people always get you things with ducks on them because you like ducks, etc.) people don’t give me things. So. I guess things that are disney related?

30. Do you speak multiple languages? Which ones? Spanish, English, Fake French and even faker Japanese. 

31. Would you rather live in the big city or the countryside? City please for the love of god I would not survive in the countryside. 

32. Has there ever been something you were certain you’d hate, but ended up loving? Anime. Woops. 

33. Do you mind being the center of attention, or do you prefer the spotlight to be on someone else? ALL EYES ON ME IN THE CENTER OF THE RING JUST LIKE A C I R C U S. I like attention. 

34. Favorite holiday? Christmas! :D

35. Are you a more go-with-the-flow type of person, or do you need to have things planned meticulously? Plans. Please. 

36. Is there something you loved so much you wish you could forget it and experience it all over again? (A tv show, book, series–anything.) Mmmmm no. Things get better the more I know about them. 

37. What hobbies do you have? writing...other than that I’m an incredibly boring person lmao. 

38. If you could have a superpower, but it was only mildly useful, what ability would you want to have? shaving in like three seconds. Gods that’d be so useful. 

39. Something people are always surprised to learn about you I’m not white.  

40. Something that took you way too long to figure out I religiously spelled “maybe” as “mabye” up until like the third grade because I was convinced my teachers were just wrong. 

41. Worst injury you’ve had? a busted lip I guess? 

42. Any morbid fascinations? not really?

43. Describe your sense of humor it’s fucked up. 

44. If you had to be born in another era/place, which would you choose? I love/hate this question because as a woman like shit sucked back then. But let’s go with ancient egypt cuz I like ancient egypt. 

45. Something you are irredeemably bad at video games. I literally cannot game. How does it work. 

46. Something that sucked but you’re glad you went through Walking the length of the golden gate bridge. That shit was awful. I’m scared of height AND bridges AND it was raining so and it’s a long ass fucking walk. But I guess I can say I did it so whatever. 

47. Would you rather have a really godawful ugly tattoo in a place that is only slightly inconvenient to conceal with clothing (upper arm, thigh, etc.), or the coolest, most beautiful tattoo ever in the middle of your face? (Neither tattoo can be removed or concealed with makeup, and the ugly tattoo will deeply offend anyone who sees it.) the ugly one. 

48. Are you more of an optimist or a pessimist? depends on my mood honestly. 

49. What would be the most flattering compliment someone could give you? Idk all compliments are pretty flattering so I’m not too picky. 

50. Something you feel people often misunderstand about you I don’t really know. I don’t interact with enough people lmfao. 

not forcing anyone to do it, this is long af. So whoever wants to, feel free!

[tenabiibee]

4-18~

That is so many that is 12 questions ok 

4. Are you easy to get along with?

I think so. This seems like a weird question cause I can’t talk for how other ppl see me, but really I do think I’m easy going and can get along with most people fairly easily. I’m friends with p much everyone in my new class and ppl say they think I’m friendly and chatty so I think thats my proof lol 

I haven’t really ever had a falling out with anyone other than ppl who are homophobes or something.

5. If you were drunk would the person you like take care of you?

Yeah :3 She would. Well she wouldn’t because it would cost her like a bazillion dollars to jump on a plane and fly across the world but she would cause she is lovely, kind and would probably talk me out of anything silly from tumblr messenger lol

6. What kind of people are you attracted to?

Women. Women who are kind, beautiful, strong and skilled. I’d say mostly butch women but that’s only like a 60/40 split tbh X3 Women who know things or who are strong and confident, or who can do amazing things I admire. Ppl who like laughing and don’t mind being silly.

7. Do you think you’ll be in a relationship two months from now?

Probably not. I feel v far removed from the relationship game, like it’s a secret bonus level I never worked out how to get to. I don’t think many people see me as being very attractive anyway? Not in looks way specifically just in a .. something about me doesn’t set off the ‘dateable person’ alarm in their brain. Idk. I’ve been told that before. 

Also I like someone far away and I am happy with that.

8. Who from the opposite gender is on your mind?

Ummm idk no one? a fictional boy being cute with my fictional boy?

9. Does talking about sex make you uncomfortable?

Nah

10. Who was the last person you had a deep conversation with?

You kinda? @sweetvanilla1atte  maybe but I wasn’t really in a clear mindframe so I prob didn’t do well. ppl on other blogs who reblog my detrans/reidentification stuff.

11. What does the most recent text that you sent say?

Hey maureen these are some pics of my cake! It was really big theres still half left

(I made a cake for my mums bday and a co-worker wanted to see pics of it)

12. What are your 5 favorite songs right now?

Drive Thru - Weird Al Yankovic

Concious - The Broods

Heartlines - The Broods

This is where I belong - Bryan Adamns

Exile Vilify - The National

These aren’t really my fav songs but they are the ones I’ve been listening to most on my ipod this week lol Weird Al why have u suddenly been in my head after all these years?

13. Do you like it when people play with your hair?

Yes :3 I have a friend at work who thinks my hair is soft and scratches my head with her long fingernails and it feels really good haha i know thats weird but it feel like a cat. Its good. I see why cat’s like it.

14. Do you believe in luck and miracles?

For realsies no but sometimes for fun

15. What good thing happened this summer?

Last summer was bad because by kitten died. Tui was a tiny little panther who smelled like old popcorn and would throw herself down dramatically on your bed to force you to pat her. She loved it. I miss her.

A good thing was getting into the course I wanted to. Now I’m training to be a Vet Nurse and its amazing and I love it. I didn’t know life could make you happy like this before.

16. Would you kiss the last person you kissed again?

I am kissing no-one again right at this very moment!! scandaloussss~

17. Do you think there is life on other planets?

Yeah. Statistically it’s p much impossible for there not to be. I wish we could find one already tho cause I wanna see how it’s DNA and genes work. Would it even have DNA??? aah so interesting. Come on and bring some microbes home NASA!

18. Do you still talk to your first crush?

Nah. I didn’t realise I had a crush on her at the time because I was still brainwashed into thinking I liked men not women. I don’t know where she went after high school. She was cool tho. I hope she’s doing well.

There you go I did them all. Learned some things about me. btw I agree with u on favourites being super super hard I can p much never ever decide on a favourite anything. im glad i didn’t get many of those questions woops

[majestic-jade]

he-who-must-not-be-named

it was exactly a year ago when i realized i had a tiny-tinnie crush with an acquaintance (he was actually close friends with my close friends but yea we weren't just as close yet and i had a gf during those times so i didn't really pursue the feels i felt hahahaha i just found him really mysterious and charming). it was valentine's day and my birthday just passed, he was giving away sunflowers for his friends and i was just there helping him out arrange the flowers and everything — i had no plans during that day even though i had a gf well technically because i am just not fond of celebrating vday, it was too cliché and mundane for me like if you have a special someone you could just make him/her feel special at any day lol — basically vday for me is just some petty pagan shit. ok so going back, when i was about to leave he gave me a sunflower because he knew that it was my birthday the other day — no guy has ever given me a flower well from what i remember hahaha and knowing me being a shallow kind of person, i never forgot that gesture from him and always remembered him as a very sweet person. when i would see him around school it was pretty normal — we would exchange hi's and hello's like normal friends would do.

one day, one of my best friend came over to visit me in school and she told me the news that the guy i kinda liked attempted to court her but rejected him at the same time, i was shocked well because one of his close friend was also into my best friend but was also rejected because my best friend was bisexual but mostly into girls. i didn't feel hurt or anything though, well probably because i had a gf too so i wasn't really affected hahaha but my best friend knew ever since that i kinda liked the guy even when i had a gf that time so yea yolo.

a lot has changed over the months, i was openly bisexual before but suddenly i just don't feel like being into girls anymore though i still get attracted to some (physically only haha like 'oh fck she's pretty and hot ughh') but other than that i think i can refer to myself as straight now hahaha.

then fast forward to last week of january 2019, i decided to join our college's pep squad. at the same time, the guy i kinda had a crush on way back 2018 was going to our trainings even though he wasn't part of the college and the team any longer, it was his way of supporting us and i must say he was really a great help during trainings. he would talk to me in fbc every now and then without me noticing that it has been going on for quite some time already and most of the times we would talk until midnight and i wouldn't really notice the time and it would always go to the point wherein in just a few hours i would have to wake up and prepare for class just because i've been on my phone talking to him for hours (good memories though hehe)

we went out for a couple of times either with friends or only the two of us.. most probably my feelings was developed by those moments.

one night, we were having a normal conversation, i remember i was at my chinese family side dinner and from time to time i would excuse myself to go to the comfort room just to be able to reply to him hahaha (obviously yo girl got feels for the boy already lol). he opened up that us talking was already kind of getting weird — only to find out that it was because he already knew that i like him. i remember him feeling super awkward to the extent that he blocked and unfriended me on facebook but eventually unblocked me a few minutes after lol idek what to feel during those times it was mixed of being scared and shocked. i end up just answering questions he had because that is what i thought he deserves anyway and so i just answered him as truthfully and honestly as possible.

days went by and we just continued the usual things we do — talk, go out if there's time and pep training.

compet day came and he just became the official team photographer that day hahahha by the evening we decided to drink as a team (we didn't win also but it was okay lol) so there, everyone was drinking that night except for the guy since he was the bartender and was going to be the one to take care of us (well that's what he said idk hahhaha) next thing i know i am drunk and i was just at the couch listening to paramore songs and just kept singing ahahha then suddenly one of my team mate asked me to drink water but i kept refusing so i was brought to the room to sleep in the bed and the guy was there and some people then the next thing i know we were alone together. i remember crying to him a lot because there was no stars and i wanted to see and have my own stars, also wanted to swim and just disappear yea ahahhaha oh and i also cried because i will never be enough ??? (still true though ahahhaha people in my life would always just come and go lol) anyways next thing i remember the guy and i were already kissing. i asked him why is that? and he just told me because it was a natural and normal chemistry between a girl and a boy (and of course yo girl being drunk and horny af i didn't give a damn zz) then the rest was history because tmi already lol.

the following days were shitty, he started being cold and seemed off (of course even if we were just friends i would definitely feel if anything was wrong with the way we converse or what and it definitely felt weird and different already).

i decided to just stop talking already since i could really sense that my feelings for him was already getting deeper (but of course i really can't not talk to him because yo girl became attached af saaaad) but the next day, he then decided to cut off the ties with me completely (like no more talking and everything) — heartbreaking lol.

of course i am affected as hell and it fckin hurts as hell too (even if it was a short while kind of encounterment it was the first time i risked the friendship and really fell hard for a guy woops)

he is definitely the cold winter and i am the hot summer but when we're together i just feel calm, in control, safe and at ease — but now he's gone, like the rest.

without noticing i fell for a guy who would never love me back.

and i'm pretty sure it's gonna take some time to heal and get over him, now i'm the one whose walls are high and closed.

just the thought of not seeing him around and not being able to talk to him like the usual makes my heart sink in pain. whenever i hear or come across his name it makes me want to cry. the idea of the need to avoid him along hallways and corridors makes me look like a criminal running away from an authority. i don't know how long i'll be able to avoid him — obviously not forever.

i just wish for this pain and sadness to go away but at the same time i just want to be able to go and talk to him but obviously that isn't what's going to be happening since the world is always against me plus happy endings only happens in movies (bitterly said but true enough woops)

xx

[chityca]

5/365 - 2019년 1월 5일

Today was the day that I was supposed to go to Vietnam for 3 weeks, but I really didn’t want to spend time with my viet gma. And I really just want to stay in Korea for as much time as I can ...

Anyways, my English club went on a MT! This is my first (and last) MT haha. So I had no expectations. Well we had retreats for ASA, but that was just for ~leadership and bonding~

I didn’t get much sleep the night before because we stayed out until 4am, and I couldn’t fall asleep well. The next morning, we walked to the building together. I mainly walked with Brian because the others were putting on their sticker tattoos lol. Why am I always with this boy.

He asked me if anything was wrong because I didn’t sleep a lot last night hahah. So cute. I really didn’t know what to say to him?? I said I was watching YouTube. Then he asked if I listened to the song he wanted me to listen to hahah. I forgot. But I did tell him I saw Joseph Vincent in person live!! Because he and David Choi opened up for BAP that year in 2013 lmao. 6 years ago??? Wow. We talked a lot hahah. Then we walked into the building together and saw Mia, and Kelly. So we walked into the room together. Haha, everyone was excited to see me because I missed a week of ECHO ... then I left Brian’s side to talk to people. We ended up going to put on the sticker tattoos together. Hailey tried to talk to me but Brian interrupted us hahah.

I wanted to sit next to him on the bus hahhaa. But I learned my lesson and didn’t want to be selfish, like I used to with Merton. How I wanted to always be beside him during retreats or outings smh. But I sat beside Owen, Eric and Amy. I tried to talk to Owen and Eric because they played Rich Brian’s Dat Stick lmaoo. But it was awkward so I just stuck to talking to Amy and watching the movie.

We got to the place and rested for a bit. I don’t know why sometimes its so awkward with Brian??? Lmao. Because sometimes he wouldn’t talk to anyone and I would be alone to. But I tried not to hog up his time.

We got put into the same group for our games, and we sat beside each other. He kept helping me translate the game hahah. Mia would sometimes tell him to do so 😂 I think they have a thing for each other 🤔🤔 but I could be wrong .. he just hardly was with anyone but me or Mia lol ..

The day went on ~ I didn’t know what to do for the dinner, so Donna told me to just follow “my friend” Brian lmfao. I felt bad because he was also confused and he really translate all the time for me omg. He told me to take a rest and he’ll come get me if they need me LOL he is so nice. When we were eating, he sat in front of me and Amy. Probably because there weren’t any seats at the other end.

I poured his drink for him hahah. Then he kept showing people his ice cream tattoo. It was so cute. He was so proud of it. I picked it out for him hehe. And then they saw mine and was like “wow! It’s similar!!” Woops. One time, Amy was giving me some noodles but there weren’t much left, so he told Jongwook to give me some of his noodles haha so sweet. He is always looking out for me. I was always giving Amy meat and mushrooms lol. I can be a good girlfriend okie okie.

Amy and I left a little early because she was on her period. We got a prego scare together smh. Then we came back and he was hanging with Mia. We talked with Donna some and ended up going back inside because it was so cold and everyone was cleaning up. We rested a little bit. Actually I don’t remember much here ...

We did the gift exchange and I got Lina’s gift! Eric recieved my gift but somehow it broke lol. He said he is really thankful for it. It’s funny because Amy got Brian’s gift lmfao. We went bag shopping together. Then Evan got Amy’s gift LOLOL. It’s destiny.

Me Evan Amy and Brian are so close now hahahh. I think everyone in ECHO can see it. But that’s good! Because I think they really like when patrons and juniors get close to each other.

Then!!! Began the driNKINGGG GAMES. I somehow ended up sitting beside Brian, again?? Lol. But we played this game similar to move your butt. I didn’t end up drinking any. We took a break and I went to lay in the room with Amy.

After that, they played more drinking games. I think at this point, me and Amy were SOOO tired. But we drank a lot together lmao. I didn’t know how to play most of the games so I was just like fuck it. I got tipsy really fast and Amy got red really fast. Brian was like “is sHe okAy” lmfao. Nope. Anyways I was pretty tipsy omg. She ended up going to lay down and I was checking up on her. But I ended up having to drink because John lost. Lol. Anyways I helped them chug it and went to help Amy hahah. It was gross. I chug drinks, this is why I get drunk faster ..

After a while they stopped the game and some people went outside to look at the stars. So I convinced Amy to come find Evan, and told Brian to come too. But Amy was too drunk. So she couldn’t walk and went back inside to throw up. Evan went with her too. I told Brian we should wait for her but he said NaH let’s go lololol. While we were walking to the tennis court, we saw all the echo members and they were like “WHAT IS THIS !! A SECRET DATE!!!???”

Brian had his phone light on so I motioned him to hide it so it looked like we were holding hands .... lmfao. Fuck. Anyways they all shouted “Congratulations!!! You should hold hands !! You should start dating !!!” Omg so embarrassing lmfaooo. Brian just kept jumping up and down with him and I kept said “noOoooo” in korean 😂 then Mia came up to me and was like “congratulations!!!” But we ended up walking with her to the tennis courts too lolol but it was so cute because Brian didn’t deny anything and was just hyping it up as well hahahh.

We laid down together to watch the stars. But my head was hurting laying there and Brian said something in Korean to Mia, asking how he can translate it to a english lol and it was, “do you want me to put my arm under your head” HAHAHHHA OMG. I really should have said yeah, but after that awkward dating scandel, I was like nah nah. He later offered both his arms to me and Mia LMAO. So I really think he has nothing for me 😂

I kept calling Mia pretty and she said I was prettier lmaoo and then I said nOo Brian is prettier !! Aha. I love us. We somehow all held hands and jumped up and down to 1million ... lol i kept calling Amy and Evan bc I wanted them to be there, together so it didn’t seem like I wanted to be with Brian only.

They eventually came and we walked together somewhere else. “To look for zombies” and I somehow tripped going up the stairs and Brian helped me LOL. Also I invited Mia to my birthday gathering !! Because she was actually the first person that told me she will tell Echo to celebrate it hahha.

I made Brian go in this sketchy place with me because he had his phone light on. And I held his arm because I was scared LOL. But uhm, not awkward right? Because I hold everyone that I’m closed to!

I somehow was very tipsy ... brian and I played with the his phone light and did some hand shadows to this dog lol it was so cute ???

Then we walked more and Brian asked me if street lights in America were the same color and I told him honestly I don’t pay attention bc I don’t walk around, I just drive haha.

I ended up crying on Amy !!! Haha. Because I was sad. I really will miss this and Amy :( we walked back and I held onto Mia and Brian’s arms. It was kind of awkward because it felt like I was third wheeling them.

Idk what happened after we went in. Oh, people played more games I guess?? I wanted Brian Mia and Evan to drink more but they were tired, so I went with Amy. Mia couldn’t drink more because of the medicine she was taking. I went to talk to Donna, Lily and Kelly. Omg Lily and Donna asked me if we were dating LOL OMG. I kept telling them nooo. I told Donna that I like him though. And she asked if I like him, or love him LOL WHAT. I said nO i like him, but he probably likes someone else. And I told her that it was okay because we are the same age and we are close, so that is enough for me.

Then Amy and I went in the kitchen with Selena, Eric, Owen, Ashley, and Ella. I ended up spilling my drink LMAO. WTH !! Why am I so clumsy ??? So I left that and went back in the room to play zombies.

I was just going from group to group to see what I liked. I reminded me of ASA when I would do that and not stick to one. So I decided to stick with one! I ended up playing the cup games with Selena, Eric, Ella, Owen and Donna. And I had to drink, maybe two times?? I saw that Brian joined the other drinking group. One time, I looked over at them (because we were making a lot of noise and looked like we were having more fun lol) and Brian looked over at me too omg .. I didn’t mean to make eye contact with him .. lol but it was kind of cute :(

Sometimes I would go to their group and refill our snacks and John would help me because I was kinda drunk at that point. I really don’t remember how some of the stuff played out but somehow I ended up going outside aGAIN. But this time I went with Brian ??? Alone ???? Lmfao ??? What. I don’t remember, why or how ???

But Brian was really taking care of me ahahha. Did we go alone wth ??? We saw Jongwook and Julie and I hugged them lmao I was drunk ?? We went to the tennis court again because I wanted to see the stars, and I was so drunk when I laid down omg. I was sooo dizzy. He didn’t want to lay down so he stood there talking to me lol poor boy kept wanting to go inside because it was cold. But I was drunk and wasn’t cold. Then some echo members came down and saw us. But they went to talk somewhere else lol. Eventually they left and Donna was laying on the ground so I went over to lay on her LOL. And I made Brian come over to us and I held his hand ????? LOL WHAT. I remember it so well but I DONT KNOW WHY I HELD HIS HAND !!! Anyways he squeezed my hand at some point and it felt reassuring, and cute. Heh.

I told them I had to use the restroom and Mia was actually with us so I don’t remember how she ended up there ... oh yeah she took his jacket velco thing and kept it :( anyways, I went to the restroom by myself and went back outside to look for them but they were gone. So I went back inside and went in the kitchen ... ? They told me to watch the sausages but lmao I left after someone came to take over.

Okay I don’t remember if this is in order or not because I was drunk ... lol

I was with Brian, Eric, Ella, Owen, Selena, Evan and Amy at some point. Brian was sitting against the wall, and I was beside him. But! I’m pretty sure he came over to me because that was the corner that I was playing games with alll of them. I told Owen that his style is really nice and he is really cute hahahah. And he asked what about Eric. I said yeAH HIM TOO. LOL. Brian drank more with us heh. Brian went to put Evan to sleep lmao. And Amy eventually left us to sleep too.

Brian asked if I wanted to eat Ramen and went to check in the kitchen. They made some corn cheese and Brian told me to come over to get some haha he is soooo nicd. Mia ended up feeding me because I didn’t have any chopsticks. I went back to play with the others and Brian came over again too. We drank more.

Then they all left to go outside. I was left with Brian, but we were talking a lot. Mainly about alcohol??? Lol. Like always ... but yeah why are we always together I realized ...

I don’t know what happened after this ??? Lol

Somehow, we ended up drinking with Jongwook, Selena, Jimmy, Ashley, John and Donna. Jongwook said I am his drinking partner lmfao rip. I fed them all sausages hehe. Brian kept telling me to go brush my teeth and go to bed LMAO. HE TOLD ME NOT TO DRINK ANYMORE.

Idk why I kept drinking more but I ended up going to bed. They went outside again. I knocked the fuck out though.