#anyways i looooove metaphors

[melodyatlas]

rotate vampire/human dicktim in your mind plsssss

on it boss O7

so we're going off the idea that dick is the vampire in this scenario, because i just love love looooove the angst that causes for tim- thats his hero, his big brother, hes not a monster, he could never be a monster, and tim needs to stick by him while hes struggling with this and his urges

so tim lets dick feed from him, willingly offers himself up to keep dick from going hungry or feeding off of a civilian. and it starts out with that being all it is between them. tim is there to keep dick fed and to anchor him to his humanity.

but tim finds that dick feeding off of him... it actually feels /good/. like /really/ good. he has his theories about it, probably some sort of venom or toxin that's released by dick's fangs when he pierces tim's skin- it makes sense from a predator/prey standpoint, where most vampires would need a way to keep their meal calm through the process.

so tim likes it when dick feeds from him, likes the heady feeling he gets from dick's venom, likes how it's solidified the bond between them bc dick's first instinct when he's feeling overwhelmed by being a vampire drives him to tim, likes the physical closeness of dick pressed up against him while he drinks.

it gets to a point where tim likes the closeness a little too much, somewhat surprised to find himself getting wet during one of the feedings. he's happy, at least, that theres no bulge in his pants to give him away to dick, but dick's grip turns a little more possessive anyway and tim doesn't get it but he's not complaining when the movement has dick shifting the slightest bit closer.

it's not until later that tim remembers dick has heightened senses now that he's a vampire, and spends three days avoiding his big brother while he deals with the embarrassed knowledge that dick /knew/

but he can't avoid him forever, because soon enough dick will need to drink again, and while tim is pretty sure some of the other bats have offered to draw some of their own blood for dick, the thought makes tim's stomach roll with jealousy.

so he metaphorically crawls back to dick, and just tries to pretend like they both didn't know that he got aroused the last time dick bit him. it lasts until it happens again- but this time dick doesn't just hold tim a little tighter, a little closer, no- this time dick presses one of his thighs between tim's legs, uses his grip on tim to drag him along the big, muscled limb.

tim can't help but let out a noise- halfway between a cry and a moan- and he falls apart in dick's hold, dick's still lapping at his neck, but he's murmuring about what a good boy tim is, how he's so lucky to have tim looking out for him, how tim looks so pretty when he's pale and submissive, giving up his own blood just for dick.

tim comes embarrassingly quick, more from the words and the attention than from the actual stimulation- there's just something about being under dick's hands, about being given his full attention. he'll do anything for it, do anything to keep it. he'd let dick drain him dry if it made him happy. good thing dick wants to keep tim around.

[hana-the-ghostieee]

hehllooooooooooo. it has been a short while but i have here. the one epic guitar riff in the background. the tears = emerald greenses. bahooey whatever blah blooh bleh. gogatsu wa hana rokushou no madobe kara

5/15, 五月は花緑青の窓辺から (In May, from the Emerald Green Window/Gogatsu wa Hana Rokushou no Madobe kara)

Summer ending was what I felt in the middle of my chest "But that must've been another part of my imagination," I thought.

In that empty classroom, swaying in the wind were those curtains Looking up at the sky with you in that one summer And that summer won't ever fail to cross my mind

Goodbye This deep blue, it took my breath away, held it in You know, tears are kind of like this Emerald Green, Maybe if I keep quiet, it will just disappear. Ah, I'm so stupid, I already know --

"Remember!"

"But I can't," screamed the voice in my head If it really is like this, then this hurt, this pain must be my spirit But even so, Even then, are you sure you really can't hear anything?

Now, just forcing a smile on my face seems to be all that I can do Those memories of that summer we had together - even if those are laughed at I'll still, always keep my mouth shut.

But stop laughing! Our value to the world is just so obvious If I could compare whatever this is to anything in the world, it'd be the soul. Just staying silent hurts, but I keep doing it - I must be an idiot. "Hey, just say something back!"

Because I couldn't say anything back, like this, I just walked alone And now only I, with this finger pointed towards me, remain But can I really, Can I really not remember?

Goodbye That deep, verdant blue made me hold my breath, held it deep in Tears really do resemble Emerald Green - a poison. Just shut up, I finally understand now! And your voice is still ringing out,

"Remember!"

"I finally remembered!", screaming out, using my whole throat The pain I feel has to be proof of you But even then, Even so, if you're so sure you heard nothing…

---

anyways yep that's all :P

saYOOOONARA *epic guitar sequence*

i FREAKIN LOOOOOVE HOW ARUKU PARALLELS THIS. the way that the chorus takes the melody of this song's chorus and slows it down, and of course the tears = emerald green/flower verdigris/paris green/whatever you want to call it, take your pick metaphor it's just. very wide sparkly eyes ft. hyperfixation blah blooh bleh mmmmmmmhtjgklvtilirearothiertjeprgiepith. it's just ✨sO gOoD✨

okay i'm done speaking haveeee another nice existenceeeee

[earlgreytea68]

Hi! Thank you for posting so much interesting stuff lately, I really missed your long posts. I know, Twitter situation kinda sucks, but it clearly has its benefits, if you know what I mean ;))) I always love reading your fob lyrics analysis, for one, it makes me listen to the great old songs time and time again. And speaking of which, it seems, a lot of Pete’s songs are like a classic ���angst with a happy ending” type of fic, with a lot of recognisable tropes in it. And it’s amazing. What do you think, if he was an active fandom member (any fandom you can imagine), what kind of author would he be? What kind of stories would he write? Would he engage with his readers? And, would you ever write a story about it??)) I wish you very nice and wholesome winter season ☺️

Awww thank you! I do miss Twitter but I've really been enjoying posting on here! It's been great interacting more with people!

I think Pete Wentz has an intensely fannish personality. He speaks fan-language with a fluency that would be hard to fake, I think, and he's done it all along. He had an *LJ,* after all. And when he talks about pop culture, he just approaches it from the angle of a fan. His radio show was instructive on that point, because he was playing off of a guy who was very clearly not fannish at all, and he would say things like, "I always wanted Rihanna to end up with Drake," or "I read this book and it was like I couldn't think of anything but this book for days," and the other guy was like, "...okay," and I was just like, Pete, darling, you need to get a fanboy around you. I just think he's definitely a fan at heart, and not just in the sense of being a curatorial fan of things, but in an active, creative, shipper-y way, like wanting Rihanna with Drake. There's this podcast he did once that I can't find right now where he analyzed a Hallmark Christmas movie and there’s this part where he’s like, “What’s the deal with the guy’s manager, like, I thought he was in love with the guy,” and I was just like, “Yeah, Pete, because you think in Fanfiction.” He often thinks in character and not in plot, and that's the hallmark of a fanfic writer, really.

Anyway, I have long had a story half-drafted where Pete accidentally becomes a BNF in his own fandom and is writing this epic star-crossed sci-fi AU about him and Patrick that he's trying desperately to hide from Patrick and also from all of his avid readers who for obvious reasons CANNOT KNOW that the story is being written by Pete Wentz hahahaha. Someday I will finish this story, because I adore the premise so much.

I think he would be a furiously productive author, because I think he just writes all the time. I think he wouldn't be much into editing (based on his comments about why he's never written another book). I think his stories would be more like LJ stories than AO3 stories, by which I mean LJ stories had a different feel to them, would sometimes end ambiguously, or have these intense inexplicable metaphors. Which is not to say AO3 stories never do that! And I love AO3 stories!! But Idk, when I think of the way Pete would write a story, it would be in that old-fashioned LJ way, and I think people who read on both platforms probably know what I mean? I think his stories would be full of soulmates and also massive amounts of confusion about being soulmates lololol

And I think he would ABSOLUTELY engage with his readers. He loooooves engagement, really. You will never convince me he's not lurking on every single social media site in some way, shape, or form, spying on the fandom. Probably less now than he did when he was younger, but I remain convinced there's still a secret Pete Wentz Tumblr out there. Pete Wentz was into the engagement before a lot of celebrities realized it could even be a thing. I think he'd answer every comment really thoughtfully.

[cadaverousdecay]

hiiii leaf hi helloooo !!!!!! (⁠灬⁠º⁠‿⁠º⁠灬⁠)⁠♡ this is a free space to tell me about your favorite fictional characters from any type of media and/or where you would like to live if you could live anywhere. im bored and you always have interesting things to say <3 (no pressure 2 answer this. its just in case you feel like talking to someone)

hiiiiii nico!!!!! jumping up and down like a kitty cat <33333

well i really like the character spike from buffy the vampire slayer. looooove characters who were meant to show up for a few episodes then die, but instead became a fan favorite and got put on the show as a regular and end up as the most beloved character to a good portion of the audience (see also castiel supernatural and barnabas collins dark shadows)

[spoilers for buffy ahead]

but yeah spike is great, he came onto the show as this badass punk vampire who loves his vampire wife with the most gothic devotion imaginable. cuz at heart what motivates spike and always will is his passionate love. he is self described as “love’s bitch”

anyway, when the fan response gets back as being crazy abt this evil vampire character the creator of the show gets pretty upset cuz he has this thing about good and evil and vampires are supposed to represent evil and be metaphors for problems you face and not supposed to be sexy they already had one sexy vampire and that was more than enough etc etc etc. but he didnt kill spike off. he decided to bring him back to the show

but if he was gonna bring him back and the audience was going to like him, he was gonna have to ‘humanize’ him more. and so he comes back and hes cringefail<3 hes shed his hard shell a little and just becomes this pathetic little guy <3 he even has his traumatic past revealed <3 hes still an antagonist, but then he gets a chip in his head that makes him unable to hurt a living person. and so we have the wonderful arc of “not actually reformed or anything but he’s kinda on our side sometimes i guess?”

and in that time where he cant be his bad old self and is working with (sorta) the main gang, he develops feelings (his biggest weakness) for his mortal enemy, the slayer, buffy. he tries to push them down, then just. deals with them in the most fucked up ways. hes just a fucked up little guy who doesnt know how to deal with his fucked up feelings, hes just like me for real,,,, if tumblr existed when the show took place he would be reblogging “the enormity of my desire disgusts me” and cannibalism-as-a-metaphor-for-desire shit probably. anyway

vampires in the buffyverse dont have souls (there are some exceptions) but spike, even without one, decides to better himself for buffy. and eventually not even to be with her, but just for her. he protects her when she doesnt know it and he doesnt get anything out of it. he protects people she loves because he knows it would hurt her if they got hurt.

he may not be human but his humanity is astounding. anyway, there are definitely slip ups, and writing choices i dont really like, but eventually he decides to make himself something buffy could really love, he decides to go through the excruciating process of getting a soul

and he comes back with his soul suffering bouts of guilt-ridden male hysteria. love to see it. (hes also being haunted kinda) he delivers this one monologue in a church about his soul and guilt and forgiveness which ends with him embracing a cross that seers his flesh. most iconic scene, i memorized it also. for funsies.

then theres this whole sleeper agent murder thing and he thinks hes beyond saving but buffy wont give up on him and her faith in him helps him make it through. in the end, they have moments of reconciliation and spike never believes that she actually loves him but her caring for him at all is good enough

anyway. hes just a really fun guy. theres a lot to him. his characterization can be comedic, passionate, heart wrenching. he contains multitudes. he contains soooo many issues too, i want to study him under a microscope <3 but yeah. i love this weird little vampire from my shows

[sniffanimal]

The funniest thing when I think about looking for signs I was trans as a kid ends up being this metaphor but like real. Like my childhood was fucking queercoded. Anyways my family bred greyhounds, they came to America to do it in the first place, their dogs were very successful racers (let's not get into ethics rn) and growing up even when I wasn't living with the greyhound kennel family, I had dogs as a kid. Never cats, my dad was allergic. But I loooooved cats, all my usernames had cats, I loved drawing cats on things, my favorite stuffed animal was a beanie baby named Amber the Cat. And, when I moved out and came out to everyone but family as trans, I started living with cats, and I still only have cats. I like dogs well enough , of course, they're a delight too, but it just feels more right to me to live with cats.

I describe my gender as dog person to cat person for this reason lol

[thenighthouse]

an exploration of grief in horror movies

movies have always helped me process through feelings i can’t yet name. sometimes it’s easier to see something on screen instead of addressing it myself; sometimes it’s a desperate call to action that feels targeted to only me. how can I be seeing myself on the other side of the screen over and over again, in different settings and different color schemes, over different scores and soundtracks?

i love movies so much.!!!!!!

honorable mention to my all time favorite piece of media, haunting of hill house, which is not a movie. ♡

anyways – something i feel very strongly about is how grief is portrayed amongst the horror genre. my friends will know this is something i talk about often.

i do believe most horror is about grief in one way or another, as do many other horror lovers. grieving loved ones, grieving ourselves, grieving the lives we didn’t get to live. grieving dreams, passions or even grieving what haunts us. grieving the concept of death itself! the direct approach is okay if well done, metaphors are fantastic as well if well done. i love it all.

i will go over my favorite depictions of grief in horror :)

Before I Wake (2016)

mike flanagan is my favorite director and everyone needs to know that. mike flanagan is also so unbelievably good at translating every single one of my emotions and turning them into excruciating metaphors, and I experience his work in different ways every time i rewatch a piece. he’s a master at what he does and he tackles grief and loss in beautiful ways.

No One Will Save You (2023)

is this movie about grief? it is to me! beautiful cinematography, and kaitlyn dever is absolutely fantastic. watched it with my best friend and we thought it would be a silly alien movie, which it can be, but it is also so many other things. i love movies

Smile (2022)

i went into this movie thinking it would be a blockbuster-straight-to-the-point horror movie and ended up hugging my spider-man plushie to my chest while silently crying. i found it harrowing and heartbreaking.

Marrowbone (2017)

i absolutely looooove this kind of movie. i will not spoil it but it really worked for me; i could see myself in jack a lot. not sure what that says about me but oh well!

The Babadook (2014)

no words. truly. this movie is perfect and babadook is my friend

The Night House (2020)

one of my all time favorite movies! it's my url! its approach to grief gut punched me and the way it explores friendship and addiction really pulls everything together. i will probably get around to writing a separate post about this film because it truly is one of a kind. the boat scene makes me weep every time i rewatch.

flowers and rain – i also have serious beef with many portrayals of grief and loss. i will go over two examples.

Wifelike (2022)

"i lost my wife and i need a replacement" meets “woman is not woman, it is robot and servant. oh no, woman is now sentient! woman is strong and remembers things and rebels now! movie woke!". terrible

The Boogeyman (2023)

this one truly pissed me off even though i had zero expectations going into it. the cinematography is GREAT. visually, a gorgeous gorgeous movie. the trope is familiar (read: overused) but it could work. very quickly it becomes apparent that this movie wanted to be Babadook’s younger sister. and then they… burn the monster at the end. my brother in christ, why would you explore the metaphor of grief as the monster hiding in the shadows and… turn it real at the end? that immediately renders the whole movie useless. using such a familiar, baseline horror trope and trying to twist it is confusing – isn’t grief a testament of love at its core? why would we want to kill the monster? what purpose does this serve at the end of a movie? what’s the message? terrible!

is this anything? i love yapping in written form. i love movies!

[this-should-do]

ykno what i need to start doing when i draw mitchel? for the different acts i need to start not always having him with his whole ass eye uncovered,,,

like for act one its obvs gotta have bandages n shit its a freshwound buts its also desperately trying to hold everything tkgether in the face of it all, mitch doesnt have the time to see the wounds or to think about "freeman", all he can do is survive

and adam gets to see the bloody mess hes created again but only partially only the stains thru fabric, he doesnt care yet, he doesnt know mitch yet and so he doesnt get to see all of mitch yet, but hes gonna have to when hes forced to help clean what he caused later

but for act 2 he obvs leaves it uncovered becuz for most of it hes still so angry about "freeman" hes still angry at himself for letting it happen, so he leaves it uncovered becuz those feelings are still raw for him, he looks in the mirror everyday and sees this reminder of why he gets up everyday: revenge,

it also functions unknkwlingly as a huge source of internal conflict and pain for adam, specially cuz at this point the boys are all very close of not already dating, so adam gets to see this glaring remender of what hes going to have to do and what he did to and is forced to remember that he shouldnt have gotten so atrached, but he does it anyways knowing tbat hes gonna deserve the hurt down the line

and in act 3 he woukd wear an eye patch, becuz we see in game that hes gotten over his revenge mission, gman has to force him to hold uo his end of the deal, mitchell has gotten over the hurt, its old and healed and he doesnt feel the need to broadcast his hatred (for "freeman" and himself) anymore, he doesnt need a reminder for something thats not an issue anymore, he can bury it and out it to rest to focus more on those around him and rhey can see more of him and not his pain

but all adam gets to see is a wound thats hes gonna have to meraphorically tear open soon

[yanderedanganronpa]

Can you do yandere Nagito please? ><

Yandere Nagito Komaeda Headcannons

tw: stalking, kidnapping

My pleasure! thank you for requesting, I looooove nagito, I want to be able to write a lot about nagito and really go into his character but ekkdkekend anyways! enjoy~

yandere nagito oh boy

I just love nagito so much

okay so first off mans is a WORSHIPPER if that wasn’t obvious

he would do almost anything to have you, no limits

definitely one of the scariest yanderes in danganronpa

and he isn’t afraid to get bloody if needed

I feel like his infatuation could start one of two ways

either you stood by his side whenever people shun him

he would feel like he is under your debt, or maybe he’s just selfish and wants that feeling of your kindness around him forever

or maybe you just pay him no mind at all

if anything a little indifferent towards him

let’s not pretend this man isn’t a little masochistic

when he realizes he’s in love with you he knows he has no chance with you, you could never love someone like him

but all he knows is that he wants you

somewhere in his heart there is hope that he’ll be able to get you to reciprocate his feelings

he knows it deep down but will not let himself admit that he is being selfish and greedy with his desires

he will find out every minuscule detail there is to know about his darling

it makes him so happy learning everything he can about you

watches you whenever he can just for the guilty pleasure of it

seeing you do you daily routine and activities, he’s a d d i c t e d to the way you make him feel.

he would eventually confess his devotion to you

if you decline he expected you to anyways

but don’t be surprised if you wake up chained to the wall in a dark basement

even if you accepted his confession he would still probably kidnap you after a bit

it’s his intrusive thoughts and anxiety that get the best of him, mostly because of his luck

“you actually… accepted? there must be some sort of catch”

but he would treat the best out of probably any yandere

anything you need, anything at all he’s got it for no problem

never mind the fact that komaeda is loaded so money isn’t an issue

he would treat you like royalty, kissing your feet metaphorically

or literally if your into that kind of thing

tell me he wouldn’t

he does this all for the fact mentioned earlier in the hope that you will one day love him too

at the end of the day he’s selfish

he wants your love and he will go to the ends of the earth to get it

[piratewithvigor]

Hallo! I looooove your writing - I was wondering how Kaniel would react to, somehow, losing Kane's mask or if he has a closet full of back-up ones

I swear I worked on this in five different multi-hour instances, but I couldn't get it right and then I did because I never wanna disappoint

Somewhere, Kane wasn’t sure where, but somewhere in the last year, the vicious shouting matches he had with Daniel became a kind of foreplay. It didn’t matter what they were shouting over; usually a match, but sometimes just over each other as people. Tempers would be hot in the locker room and Kane would make a cheap shot towards Daniel’s beard, then Daniel would retaliate with a crack about Kane being a monster or a machine, and inevitably, within five minutes, one would have the other pushed up to the lockers in a makeout sesh as intense as two horny band kids in the middle school hallway. The others were usually polite enough to know that sticking around would give them a show they never wanted to see.

During one of their more civil moments, Daniel had made a request. A deceptively simple one: when they kissed, he wanted Kane’s mask off. It was awkward to kiss someone through and his beard kept getting caught in the straps, forcing him to yank it out, which created a moodkill like nothing else.

Kane took the request… badly.

He didn’t take it off. Ever. Paul told him to never take it off. Paul was gone now, frozen to death in a meat locker, but his commands would stay as long as Kane was alive. He’d tried taking and keeping his mask off, but he didn’t like the person he became with it off. He’d been scared and angry. Well, angrier. So his safety blanket stayed, taken off only if he was injured in the ring, and that was by force by doctors who’d strapped him down and sedated him.

But Daniel wanted it off. Daniel wanted to be able to kiss him better. A much more emotional confession than Kane generally liked making led to a compromise. Daniel didn’t want the mask and Kane didn’t want Daniel to see what the mask was hiding, so they made the collective investment in an eye mask. A soft one that didn’t obscure any kissing, was small enough that no one’s hair would get tangled in it, and eased Kane’s mind enough that for the first time in nearly five years, he voluntarily took off his mask.

Daniel kept his own in his gear bag. If a single kiss was heating up into a makeout session, he’d slide it on and Kane would unstrap his own. The rest of their respective clothing would always follow quickly. The locker room knew to make themselves scarce right around then. The two men would be kissing like they were trying to suck each other’s souls out, blind to the world around them. One metaphorically and one literally. Kane usually had the foresight to stick his mask into his locker after he pulled it off, but sometimes it made its temporary home on the bench where he bent Daniel over.

But as he pulled out of his lover and patted around the bench for it, he felt nothing. No mask, only clothes. A quick check of his locker revealed the same conclusion.

“Where is it?” He mumbled, rustling through his bag. It wasn’t there. He knew he never took the time to put it back in his bag. But he looked anyway.

“Where’s what?” Daniel moved to lift his mask, turning towards Kane. Just slowly enough that he caught Daniel almost peeking at him just in time.

“Hands off yours! My mask; I can’t find it!”

“Where’d you leave it?”

“On the bench! Or maybe in my locker, but either way, it’s not here anymore!”

“Kane, calm down. Just look around a bit; we may have kicked it somewhere. It’s gotta be in this room.”

It was. It had been, anyway. As Kane and Daniel hunted, their opponents that evening, a rather irate set of Rhodes Scholars, had decided to find an easy edge. A psychological edge. It was as easy as picking up the mask on their way out of the locker room and tossing it in the dumpster behind the arena. Kane might think to look there, but by the time he did, arena cleanup would be done and the truck would have come and gone. Shit outta luck.

“Daniel, where the fuck is it?!” The panic was only growing in Kane’s voice as Daniel listened to him opening and shutting any locker that wasn’t still locked.

“I don’t know! You won’t let me take the eye mask off!”

“I don’t want you to look at me!”

“Kane, it’s probably somewhere super obvious that a fresh pair of eyes would help you find.”

“I don’t care! Keep the mask on!”

“Okay! Fine! Hunt for it yourself, I don’t care!”

The angry breathing was becoming more erratic. Daniel was feeling around the bench, trying his best to keep from getting trampled by his increasingly frantic boyfriend. He flinched every time he heard Kane’s boots stomping particularly close to where his fingers were, but he knew better than to call him out about it. Didn’t stop his tentative hunting until he heard Kane coming out of the showers a third time, quiet sobs intermingling with his panting. He wasn’t walking around anymore. Daniel couldn’t be certain, but it sounded like he was standing in place. Then the tell-tale sticky-slick sound of sweaty skin rubbing against tile. A long way down. Daniel could tell without seeing that Kane had reached his wits’ end.

Using the walls as a guide to keep from tripping over anything or getting lost, Daniel followed his instincts across the room to the showers. When drywall gave way to tile, he began patting around until he felt the top of Kane’s head. Curly hair flattened underneath his fingertips and Kane stiffened a little.

“You don’t need it,” Daniel whispered, slowly lowering himself to sit beside his lover.

“I do,” Kane mumbled pathetically, face buried in his arms and knees drawn up to his chest.

“You don’t. You know you’re not scarred. You know the saline and the scraping were part of Paul being in your head.”

“I know.”

“So why do you think you still need it?”

“I’m gonna need it as long as he’s in my head.”

“Or is he in your head because you wear it?” “I don’t care; I need it.”

“Why?”

“So you can’t see me.”

“What makes you think I don’t want to see you?”

Kane’s soft trembling seemed to slow under Daniel’s touch. Like he hadn’t considered the possibility. He knew Daniel liked touching him, he liked touching Daniel back. He liked what they did together. And every time they got undressed together, he fretted about what might happen if Daniel saw what the mask hid and ran for the hills.

“I’m ugly,” was all he managed to say.

“You say I’m ugly all the time, but I know I’m the best-looking guy here, so you’ve gotta try again.”

“I’ve got a tooth gap.”

“And a mouth hole in your mask. I knew that.”

“I can’t see out of one of my eyes.”

“Your blue one, I know.”

“My nose is too big.”

“That one you’ll have to prove to me.”

It was a gentle joke. One that merited a soft, breathy laugh from Kane. But only for a moment.

“Daniel, I don’t want you to see under the mask cause when it was off… I hurt everyone close to me. The Kane who didn’t wear a mask is a guy I want to leave in the past.”

“He is. He’ll always be in the past. Because, news flash, you aren’t your mask. With or without it, you’re the same you. Tooth gap, blue eye, big nose and all.”

“Just… swear to me you won’t run.” Kane lifted his hands to Daniel’s mask.

“I swear.”

“You won’t leave?” Grasped the mask softly on both sides.

“Never.”

“And don’t scream.” He began lifting.

“I never do outside of the bedroom.”

It was just enough of a wisecrack to make Kane laugh. Made the sides of his eyes crinkle and his lips part enough to show the little gap in his front teeth. The first time he’d laughed in a long time.

The first time Daniel saw Kane’s face.

[aberfaeth]

4, 5, 6 & 8 for fic asks!!

4. What detail in [insert fic] are you really proud of?

no fic was specified so im going to use build a quilt bc its my most recent!! & i am proud of the canon typical memes i got to squish in there lol. no context spoilers for nona sickfic:

5. What do you wish someone would ask you about [insert fic]? Answer it now!

ill just keep going with build a quilt khfdgkdhfg ummmm i guess it would have been cool to get a question about nona's past as is alluded to but not described in the fic? but it's vague so im like not mad at anyone for not asking lol. anyways the fun answer to that is: I Literally Don't Know and It's Probably A Metaphor For Global Warming Or Something

6. What's one fact about the universe of [insert fic] that you didn't get a chance to mention in the fic itself?

gideon and pyrrha also have a relationship in the modern au, which means gideon and nona know each other, which means harrow and nona know each other, and nona is in LOOOOOVE with harrow

8. What song would make a great fic (to either write or read)?

OKAY SO I HAVE LITERALLY ALWAYS WANTED TO WRITE A FICTION ADAPTATION OF THE SOMETHING BETTER MUSIC VIDEO THIS IS NOT EVEN A FIC THING IT WOULD JUST BE VERY GOOD AND INTERESTING

[parrishh]

about to write the world's longest post (a review? maybe?) because i don't know anyone else who has read mister impossible yet and if i do not write my thoughts down SOMEWHERE i will either combust or eat my own foot, probably (spoilers, obviously)

genuinely brokenhearted (and cried a lot) over ronan in this book. part of what i loved so much about cdth was the sense that ronan had at least made some progress in regards to his mental health, self-love, etc. and now we're seeing him in such a dark place again that it hurts to read. it was sad enough believing, for almost the entire book, that he was blindly idolizing bryde for this reason (declan's "ronan is a follower" speech in the cafe with carmen actually killed me), and i thought maggie was just going for the whole "unhappy people are more susceptible to cults" thing. but to find out that he MADE bryde? that he felt so alone and so hopeless that he dreamt THAT? this read like some sort of super-villain origin story. i know ronan believes he's doing the right thing, saving dreamers and dreams and all that, but at the core of it all he's really doing it because bryde told him to, and bryde only exists because ronan subconsciously hates his life so much he'll do whatever it takes to make himself a new one. that just makes me incredibly sad

uhhhhhhhh bad day for pynch stans. we didn't technically get the dreaded break up, but it feels like we did anyway. even the sweet moments (e.g. ronan's memory of adam's gloves) are immediately followed up by something sad (e.g. the memory not being enough to keep ronan from sticking with bryde) (also, fletcher tells the moderators that they're broken up, so does that mean adam told all his college friends he's single?) there are several moments in which ronan makes it very clear that he will (and does) prioritize what he's doing with bryde over his relationship with adam (hanging up on him at the end? what the fuck) and like, i'm definitely not saying his boyfriend should be the #1 most important thing in his life because that's not healthy, either, but the dude is clearly very unhappy & insecure in the relationship. i still think (hope?) that they'll get a happy ending because ronan definitely cares about adam deeply (not wanting bryde to say the word tamquam, keeping adam out of his dreamspace so he doesn't lose harvard, etc.) but things are looking pretty grim right now :/

adam loves ronan so much it makes me crazy. he could easily say "fuck this" after ronan doesn't speak to him for weeks, especially knowing that ronan's capable of reaching out because he still talks to declan and especially after being blocked from ronan's dreamspace, too. i would be pissed if i heard from my bf for the first time in weeks and found out he only called because he needed a place where he & the guy he ditched me for could crash. but adam still spends the free time i'm sure he doesn't actually have keeping tabs on ronan and reaching out to declan and pretty much doing everything in his power to help. and oh my god even after ronan hangs up on him we still see him scrying to try to get to him and i need to move on now before i scream (but first, declan lynch = #1 pynch stan??? the number of times he mentions adam when thinking about the things he wants ronan to keep safe, help me)

speaking of adam, i had to put the book down and take a lap after his first appearance. i cannot believe this boy is charging harvard kids for fake tarot readings and making hella cash off of it. KING. genuinely some fantastic adam content in this. i love that he talks to the gray man. i love that we are reminded that he's literally brilliant. but also, he makes me sad, too. when declan mentions how ronan is the ONE person who adam opens up to and how all of his harvard groupies are just "ducklings"........honey, i love you, please, please, please make some real friends

hennessy's pov also breaks my heart. it's maybe even worse to read than ronan's because she's fully aware of how unhappy she is and the bluntness of it slaps you across the face. the memory of her mom's painting was genuinely chilling (the lace pattern on the floor - was that how the Lace started? am i understanding that correctly?) and the fact that it was so dreadful she accidentally made a sweetmetal....poor hennessy :( also, the things she said to jordan, right after she made half a dozen real ass people crash their cars and didn't even bat an eye about it....yikes. i'm glad she teamed up with carmen and liliana, though. i love my team of wlw girlies (also really interesting that carmen/liliana believe the Lace is something out of hennessy's control while ronan/bryde believe it's something she can get rid of if she just tries hard enough. what the fuck is the Lace, it's driving me nuts)

CARLIANA KISS CARLIANA KISS CARLIANA KISS

jordan's pov!!!!!!! delicious, finally some good fucking food!!!!!!! i'm happy that she's starting to see herself as her own person, independent of hennessy, and the whole forgery/original work metaphor was really cool (her first original work being a portrait of declan 🥺🥺🥺) i loooooove her relationship with matthew and how she speaks to him and that they're able to connect with each other because they're both dreams. i love that she's able to make him feel more human

JORDECLAN KISS JORDECLAN KISS JORDECLAN KISS (but i'm even more hung up on declan just casually talking about MARRIAGE, oh my GOD)

declan my beloved....my sweet......absolutely obsessed with him saying "screw politics, i'm leaning into my crime side" and OBSESSED with him being happy for once. i know the other shoe did drop and now things are all messed up again but it was so nice to see him so content, at least for a little while. he needed a break (also was laughing my ass off at all of ronan's dream creatures just climbing onto his bed in the morning and his screaming and how matthew was so used to it he BRUSHED HIS TEETH before going to help. iconic)

matthew's pov was also really upsetting but 🥺him deciding he's tired of just being treated like a pet and that he deserves to have a future so he goes to sign himself up to finish high school 🥺

quick note but the whole sweetmetal thing is really interesting as a concept. loooooved the way maggie incorporated the gardner museum heist into the story

THE ENDING???? WHY THE FUCK IS JORDAN AWAKE. WHY THE FUCK IS RONAN STILL ASLEEP. WAS ADAM STILL IN THE MIDDLE OF SCRYING WHEN THE LEY LINE DISAPPEARED, AND, IF SO, WHAT DOES THAT MEAN FOR HIM. WHY ARE LITERALLY ALL THE MODERATORS DREAMS. WHAT IS HAPPENING

[petruchio]

i know ur having a thg moment and that’s actually how i found ur blog. love it, love ur thoughts, love ur positivity. i was just wondering about what u think of jason grace from hoo because it’s ur username. when i first read hoo i thought he was hella boring, but now i believe he had one of the most compelling story arcs. totally fine if you disagree or if u don’t want to explain. i just love jason discourse because he’s such a good foil to percy and i love his friendship with leo.

having a thg moment... ANON I LOVE U!!!

i love jason!! he’s also been my url since like. 2015 on this blog and a quote from him was my first pjo blog i had from like 2012ish-2015 which was called “helpmyfriendisonfire” which is a quote from tlh but slightly wrong. we love 12 year old me baby’s first percy jackson blog...

i think jason, like most of the characters in hoo, is a study in wasted potential lol. i loooooved him in tlh and he was really interesting and set up a FASCINATING counterpoint to percy. i truly believe he would’ve been an amazing character if we had gotten the hoo we deserved (like. one that actually followed the threads set up in the first book instead of just pjo 2.0 no character development edition)

one of my hotter takes is that i wish he hadn’t been thalia’s brother but that’s more of just like. if thalia had had a brother i just don’t buy that it wouldn’t have been foreshadowed in the first series and so it just makes it feel like cheap fanservice (which... let’s be real it is)

i think it makes sense why people find him boring and i def used to make jokes about that in like 2013 when the books were coming out :’) but i think he had some interesting and fresh character traits that we didn’t really explore in the original pjo series that could’ve been nicely developed if he’d had more TIME. i think he could’ve been a peeta-type character who is defined by his kindness (like his interactions w nico, which are probs the best of his character that we do get in the series) and also an interesting foil to percy in being bound to his duty and position but in a different sense than percy. (ive talked on here before about how i think pjo really explores being bound to authority figures who you have a duty to be bound to, but within that structure questioning it and working to improve it. there’s a lot in pjo that i think relates to the education system in america, and i think that’s one of the central metaphors of the original series. so jason could’ve been another interesting examination of that, except that he wasn’t really.)

ive also talked at LENGTH on here (at least, screaming and making memes) about how i don’t like the jason/piper relationship. ive written before about unearned romances and how i find them wholly unconvincing, and that’s how i feel about that relationship. i think it’s so unsatisfying that they start the series together and don’t really question the relationship that they literally started because of fake memories (also don’t @ me about toa i haven’t read it). it’s my personal belief that leo and piper should’ve gotten together and that jason should’ve been the wrench in that, the drama of both of them loving him but loving each other, the realization that pipers false memories were actually leo, the drama of jason and reyna added to that, the dynamic of the four of them growing more complex in the later books... again i dreamed a dream in time gone by that hoo was good...

ANYWAY basically i love jason but i hate every plotline he was given but that’s basically. all of hoo to me so what else is new <3

[amy-issen]

ok so here it is!! i spent the last week solely making and listening to this playlist like i was POSSESED because this ship is lovely and deserved a nice playlist!  if anyone wants to know why i picked each song, i’m going to ramble about it extensively in the read more, so check that out if you want! hope you enjoy it! also thanks again to @birbwell​ for letting me use her art for the cover!

i divided this playlist in a few sections so let’s start with the first one (section one: first meeting/pining) i. in the rain - joe hisaishi i wanted to start with a short instrumental track to set the mood, and i looooove howl’s moving castle score, so i had to pick this one! the fact that it has rain in the title also helps to reference how their relationship began! ii. with every breath i take - frank sinatra “every breath that I take is a prayer that i’ll make you mine” my sister is a big sinatra/jazz fan (and also a yakuza fan) so she helped me with picking a few of the songs here! this one is very romantic, elegant and beautiful and i thought it fit the mood (and it’s what i think tachibana listens to in his free time lmao).

iii. gold rush - taylor swift “what must it be like to grow up that beautiful? with your hair falling into place like dominoes my mind turns your life into folklore i can't dare to dream about you anymore” this one is my FAVORITE song on this playlist, and one of the first i picked because this song just fits them like a glove. it’s basically pining 101, and i love that what taylor said this song is about ��daydreaming about someone then snapping out of it.” i feel like the first part could be from tachibana’s perspective and the second one from kiryu’s (also giving a bit of a glimpse into the future, with the mention of a coastal town they’ll never find together) iv. first love/late spring - mitski “so please, hurry, leave me, i can't breathe please don't say you love me mune ga hachikire-sōde (my heart seems like it’s going to burst)” this one was another song i picked very early on because i love mitski, and i needed to include her here. i just wanted something to symbolize the trust that tachibana and kiryu have to share to work together, and the feelings that emerge from it, if that makes any sense. i don’t think this has a specific perspective, because i feel like this could work from both kiryu’s and tachibana’s (mostly kiryu though) v. real estate - adam melchor “every time I wonder how i'd carry on without you i'm runnin' out of real estate tryna make all the right moves i don't wanna hesitate i would bet the house on you “ do you UNDERSTAND how satisfying it was to find a song named real estate for them?? come ooon. ok that’s not all of my reasoning for it but it’s like. most of it, lmao another song i felt was about trust and feelings. (also a bit of a glimpse into the future, because i’m sad) vi. i get a kick out of you - ella fitzgerald “i get no kick from champagne mere alcohol doesn't thrill me at all so tell me why should it be true that i get a kick out of you?” another one my sister recommended. i originally was gonna go with sinatra’s version of this, but i love this one and it just wouldn’t leave my brain. again, one from mostly tachibana’s perspective, get this man to sing this on karaoke night right now. vii. like real people do - hozier  “i will not ask you where you came from i would not ask and neither would you honey, just put your sweet lips on my lips we could just kiss like real people do” this is one of my all time favorites from hozier and, again, it just fit perfectly. tachibana and kiryu have both lived some very... troubled lives so far, and while they’re depending on this trust they have in eachother, none of them really care to know about what they’ve done or who they are. this is mostly from kiryu’s perspective, specially with this metaphor of being rescued/dug up from the earth with the whole being found in the rain and saved by tachibana and his poor driving skills. viii. delicate - taylor swift “this ain't for the best my reputation's never been worse, so you must like me for me... we can't make any promises now, can we, babe? but you can make me a drink” y’all are going to have to forgive me for picking TWO taylor swift songs but COME OOOON this is another one that i picked early on because i could draw so many parallels between the lyrics and things that they both said in that car scene on chapter 9 (mostly tachibana though) and i kept harassing my sister with screenshots to prove my point and i’m gonna do it again

ANYWAYS i’ve made my case, and now we enter the second section of the playlist at last ( section 2: actual romantic/fluffy songs because this is a ship playlist) i. good old-fashioned lover boy - queen “dining at the ritz we'll meet at nine (1, 2, 3, 4, 5, 6, 7, 8, 9 o'clock) precisely i will pay the bill, you taste the wine driving back in style in my saloon will do quite nicely just take me back to yours that will be fine” is this a bit of a cliché? yes. did i want to include it because it’s very cute and i’d like to imagine kiryu and tachibana having a nice date night with no people trying to kill them all the time? also yes. i love this song.

ii. stay with me/mayonaka no door - miki matsuraba “you in your gray jacket with that oh-so-familiar coffee stain just as you always are the two of us reflect in the window display stay with me knocking on midnight's door i beg you not to go home tonight” (translated lyrics) is anyone not obsessed with this song lately? this is the only song here i’m blaming tiktok for making me listen to it lol. in any way, this song is deceptive because it sounds really happy but is actually quite melancholic. i thought it fit their relationship well, and it seemed like a good addition to the playlist with it’s 80′s city pop vibes.

iii. on melancholy hill - gorillaz (covered by matt forbes) “just looking out on the day of another dream where you can't get what you want, but you can get me so let's set out to sea, love 'cause you are my medicine when you're close to me" this is a gorillaz song but i went with this cover because it fit the feeling of the playlist a little better. another song that i just love very deeply and i thought fit the sentiment of kiryu being like “hey i know we have Big problems and you’re very sad in the moment but i’m here for you” iv. (i love you) for sentimental reasons - nat king cole "i think of you every morning dream of you every night darling, i'm never lonely whenever you are in sight" surprisingly, not one that my sister recommended, but one i found for myself while looking for quiet  romantic songs. i feel like this is tachibana's reply to kiryu being there for him and helping him. plus, idk i just wanted to imagine them slow dancing to this. v. positions - ariana grande (covered by travis atreo) "perfect, perfect you're too good to be true but I get tired of runnin', fuck it now, i’m runnin' with you" i picked this cover because i felt like using ariana's one would be a little goofy for this section lmao, but i really like this song and how it's about commitment and doing everything to make a relationship work. i just wanted to throw some sexy vibes before this playlist delved into depressing stuff. also if you telling me tachibana wouldn't absolute body a tiktok set to this song you're lying to yourself. (section 3: oh no this is getting sad) i. forever - labrinth "i'll live forever" i love everything labrinth makes, the euphoria soundtrack lives in my mind rent free and this is my favorite one. this barely has any lyrics so, again, mostly a track i picked for its intrumentals and feeling overall. mostly preparing you for the sad stuff ahead. ii. hong kong - gorillaz "you swallow me i'm a pill on your tongue here on the nineteenth floor the neon lights make me calm" this is my favorite gorillaz song, by FAR, and i think it's introspective vibe really fits tachibana's character. not really a song about relationship but i really wanted to include it because it's just such a GORGEOUS song. iii. fragments - severon another instrumental track! this one i stole from a playlist my sister made for a fic i wrote last year. again. sad vibes. iv. sign of the times - harry styles (covered by LANY) "remember everything will be alright we can meet again somewhere somewhere far away from here" i loved the synth-y vibe this cover had, while still keeping this song's sad "our lives are dangerous and i'm about to die" vibes. i mostly wanted to evoke the vibe from the scene where tachibana agrees to go with lao gui after kiryu gets shot. just really sad all around. v. so close - jon mclaughlin "we're so close to reaching that famous happy end almost believing this one's not pretend let's go on dreaming though we know we are so close, so close, and still so far" me? picking a song from disney's enchanted??? for a playlist??? it's more likely than you think. idk this song just gives me that vibe of being so close to being happy and together, almost reminiscing and wondering what could have been. but it just... won't happen. vi. as the world caves in - matt maltese "yes, it's you i welcome death with as the world, as the world caves in" oops, yes, i had to go there. just couldn't resist including this song, and i feel like it's really self-explanatory. vii. places we won't walk - bruno major "neon lights shine bold and bright buildings grow to dizzy heights people come alive at night in places we won't walk" again, i feel like this song speaks for itself. a bit of a meditation on kiryu's perspective on things that could have happened, things they would have done, that kiryu will just have to do alone from now on. viii. carry me out - mitski "i drive when it rains at night, when it rains, i drive and the headlight spirits they lead me down the styx so black it shines and carry me out carry me out"

possibly the saddest and the most powerful song in this playlist, because i just had to put a mitski song again. the image of kiryu carrying tachibana's body is just constantly in my mind when i listen to this, but i could also see this song being from the perspective of tachibana's spirit. ix. arms tonite - mother mother "i died in your arms tonight i slipped through into the afterlife it was nice" lmao this felt a bit like a cruel joke to include, but i didn't want this playlist to end TOO depressingly. it's a nod to tachibana dying in kiryu's arms, sure, but also it's romantic and possibly a little hopeful (tachibana lives au!!! orpheus and eurydice au!!! fuck it, idk!!)  xi. everybody wants to rule the world - tears for fears "there's a room where the light won't find you holding hands while the walls come tumbling down when they do, i'll be right behind you so glad we've almost made it so sad they had to fade it everybody wants to rule the world" not a recommendation from my sister, but it is her favorite song, and she was happy that i included it. another 80's bop with sad lyrics! i feel like this is a lovely summary of their story together and it feels like a nice little bow to wrap up the playlist.  i hope you enjoyed my long ass explanations! i might add songs later (or make an entire second playlist altogether for the fic i'm writing rn, but let's not get ahead of ourselves)

[felswritingfire]

Could you write some Macan relationship headcanons, please?

Fucking- I love Macan- he’s a whole ass boy

Contrary to what many people might think- Macan actually knows about the ins and outs of “dating” and by dating I mean the pursuit of getting a mate

He lived in the jungle and had a pseudo teacher, I’m more than positive that they explained, or at very least, mentioned sexual partners and the joy that they can bring

So, he has an idea of what attraction is 

Also there’s the fact of natural animal instinct (bitch be feral) 

He’s just never… thought of going through with it. Like sure, he debated with Nomad before, but he decided he liked the thought of him being more of a brother figure than an actual romantic interest, but he had never found anyone else worth going after in a relationship

That was until he met you

You honestly probably managed to gain his respect first by being able to keep up with him in a fight or he saw you fight with someone else and he was like, “Hey, I’m down to eat that person.”

And then you two began to get to know each other and soon enough he was like, “heart eyes, motherfucker” and that’s how your relationship blossomed

You’ll have to explain you concept of dating to him and he’ll work with it from there since his version, is- ah- much more primal

AKA: You two get it on and have like, a horde of (metaphorical or literal) little Macan’s running around

You gotta explain that you two have to build up to that  

And he’ll respect your explanation and try his best, but remember, he’s a rambunctious boi so you gotta be firm with him once in a while- other then that, he’s like a huge ass puppy (Haha) with you: always looking for your praise, touching you in anyway possible, always following you around- all that good stuff

Speaking of him touching you- he likes to randomly wrap his hands around your waist, doesn’t matter how much or how little pudge you have, he likes the way your waist curves when he squeezes. He also hyper fixates one the way your thighs fit in his hands (paws? ah-); he really likes to hold your hand in his and will often run his fingers over your knuckles

He loves giving surprise hugs- just hugs in general 

If you’re dating him, he’ll introduce you to Nomad if you don’t already know the guy- he always ends up slipping you some good food as thanks for keeping the big oaf busy 

Macan isn’t really a guy who’s masterful with words and usually shows his affection through his actions- he’ll get things when you ask him and he’ll actually listen to you when you’re talking, he’ll actually sit and just… bask in the presence with you

You have a strange way of calming him down and are one- if not- the only person who can get Macan to snap out of it when he goes into his berserk mode

His fear of hurting you is that strong

He’s pretty docile around you and honestly just wants to spend time with you

So he’s usually working out in some corner of the room while you do something else, that or he’ll do some push-ups and you’ll be sitting on his back (and no, it doesn’t matter how much you weigh, this boi can lift you- you see all that tittie? That ain’t no bitch tittie, he can lift anything if he puts his mind to it)

He’s really protective of you- like, uber protective- but he also has the state of mind that you’re a strong, independent person who can handle themselves. That doesn’t stop him from glowering at people from behind you though

Usually, if someone is trying to put the moves on you, he can just flash some teeth and give them a glare and they’ll be running with their tail between there legs (sometime literally); very rarely do you get the actually dumbasses who roll their eyes and keep pushing their luck- now that’s when Macan will really puff up and you have to keep him from actually killing someone because a) illegal and you’d prefer Macan not to go to jail and b) we don’t want to be traumatized by Macan legit ripping someone’s spine straight from their back 

His ideal date is literally wherever you want to go, he’d probs just mention going to a gym though because that’s one of the only things he ever thinks about, aside from you, so if you do end up taking him to the gym, he’ll be forever grateful to you and he’ll probably lick half of your face

Speaking of licking, this dude does not do kisses, he does licks- he doesn’t really see the point in kisses, they don’t really do anything except show affection and that’s it. Now with licks you get the best of both worlds: affection and baths- now that is what he is TALKING ABOUT

You’ll have to, honest to whatever holy deity you may or may not worship, have to work with him on that- otherwise he’ll just, randomly start grooming your hair in the middle of a conversation with one of your friends, ruining whatever work you’ve done on it 

The first time you explained french kissing to him, Macan grabbed your face with one hand and shoved his whole ass tongue down your throat and you almost threw up. You laugh about it now, but holy fuck you thought you were going to die because he let his tongue just sit in your mouth while he looked around the room

He just needs a lot of work in the kissing department is all

He likes to bite you as a way of marking you. It’s not even sexually- you could be just hugging and he’ll catch a sliver of your shoulder peeking out from the shirt you’re wearing and his eyes will do the cat thing where his pupils will blow wide and he’ll just- *nom*

He did this once in front of Nomad where he started nibbling on your cheek and he freaked the fuck out and ended up knocking out Macan in one hit because he thought that he was trying to eat you- it was actually really flattering, but you had to explain to him that: no, Macan isn’t trying to eat me (you hope). He’s just doing that weird Macan thing where he bites you to show affection-

Oh, if you thought that you would be sleeping by yourself once you got with him- YOU’D BE WRONG 

He likes to sneak into your bed and snuggle up to you. At first he tried to sleep on top of you, but quickly learned that he’s… a little too heavy to just be casually be sleeping on you- so instead he’ll rest his head on your chest and wrap his arms around your waist and drift to sleep listening to the sound of your heartbeat 

PLEASE PLAY WITH HIS HAIR- PLEASE

He loooooves when you style his hair- go crazy with it- he’ll show it off proudly, he don’t give a fuck. That bright ass pink bow with that rhinestone in the middle of it that you put in his hair??? Fucking flaunted. You decided to curl his hair? Bet you bitches are jealous, huh? You decided to put a flower crown on his head? THIS IS MY TRUE CROWN NOW, PEASANTS, MOVE THE FUCK OUT OF THE WAY CLAUDE-

This guy just loves you a whoooole lot, my dude

(Please, someone ask for NSFW, I had to fight with myself to not add them because I wasn’t sure, but PLEASE I HAVE- I HAVE SOME IN MY NOGGIN, P LeA S E)

[flower-of-the-desert]

Thoughts on 2gether ep7

“if you were my boyfriend I would kiss you everywhere from your hair to your shadow” listen, Sarawat, LISTEN you cant fucking do this to me not even 5mins into the episode

YOU CANT

ALSO if I do NOT get Sarawat making good on all these big promises he keeps making to Tine about kissing him like there’s no tomorrow I will CRY and it will be UGLY

god damn, Sarawat smiling and laughing openly made a bitch lose her marbles

the bitch is me

I like how Air’s entire character so far is summed up pretty much as I have got no time for these dumbass gays in love with other dumbass gays

*Dim looking to choose a female lead for Sarawat’s music video* “stop it, Green, I said female” ok that one got me laughing

omg, that snack scene where Tine teased Sarawat was adorable and I love seeing Tine grow so much more comfortable around Sarawat to the point where he’s starting to tease him back

oh finally! the truth about Green and Dim is out; I’m so happy we wont have to deal with this anymore

I know I’m probably the only one who didnt particularly like Green and the way he was acting with Tine so I’m very glad he admitted everything and went back to Dim

though the implications of their relationship being abusive are... worrying to say the least; I already made another post about it so I wont say much more here but in conclusion - I am confused about the whole thing and I hope it was a case of wrong translation or context rather than what it seems like

on the bright side though, can we give a clap to the Best Boy(TM) in this entire episode who straight up punched a guy without knowing even who he is to protect Green and then refused to leave him with Dim when he thought Dim might do something to him

“even if you are his boyfriend, you have no right to hurt him”

that’s some good shit right there

Tine’s slow descend into jealousy is a delight to watch

the look on his face when he was watching Wat and Earn *chef’s kiss*

ok that break up scene BROKE my heart too damnit

watching the absolute heartbreak on Sarawat’s face while Tine said everything he could have said to rip his heart to pieces honest to god made me tear up

THAT POOR BABY NEEDS A HUG

“Keep it [the guitar]. It’s been yours since day one” guitar=heart metaphor recieved loud and clear through my tears THANKS A LOT FOR THAT

also you know shit hit the fan for real when Tine spent this entire conversation half naked and Sarawat didnt even look at his boobs

and now Tine is just casually hallucinating Sarawat around town because that’s what you do when you break up with your fake boyfriend as per the rules laid out in Twilight

can we talk about the fact that Tine dreamt about Sarawat’s kiss and telling him not to him on anyone else and it was the most tender thing ever?

oh damn, is Tine going to figure out Wat’s liked him for  along time now? YEEES PLEASE DO

WAIT, he’s going to figure EVERYTHING out niiiiiiiice

Tine’s braincells are working at full capacity today, wonder if it was something he drank

can we also talk about Tine not wanting to take a picture with his favourite band because he didnt want to bother them any more than they were already??

he really be the best boi

hot damn, possessive!Sarawat is too hot

Tine seems to think so too going by the fact that he wrapped his entire self around Sarawat to lead him away

also love how he leaned away from Mil trying to pat his head

head pats are reserved only for Sarawat and that’s that on that

I LOOOOOVE this ending scene so much, the way they threw everything out in the open, the way Sarawat brought back his earlier confession but he made sure Tine knew it was real this time and how Tine leaned INTO his touch and how he said Sarawat should take responsibility

Tine be living that 18th century fair maiden Dream(TM) and Sarawat’s prbably planning the perfect wedding proposal already

HE’LL TAKE RESPONSIBILITY FOR YOY ALRIGHT

“I thought you liked Earn” aaaaand there go Tine’s braincells again

it was nice while he had them

but we love him anyway and more importantly, so does Sarawat and now THEY BOTH KNOW HOW THE OTHER FEELS PRAISE JESUS

[purplesurveys]

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Have you ever overflown a bathtub? Hmm, I can’t remember ever doing that.

Why did you ignore the last person you ignored? My new manager, Kata, messaged me a bunch of links to EXO’s videos to get me into them – I looooove that she’s friendly and we vibe super well so I have a feeling will be close soon enough, but I’m still a bit shy so I ignored her for a bit while I was thinking of a reply haha. I’ve since gotten back to her, though.

What's your favorite pizza place? Yellow Cab’s pizzas have never failed me. Mama Lou’s is good too, but they don’t deliver to my area so I haven’t had their pizzas and any of their food in over a year now.

What was the last stupid thing someone talked you into believing? That we can stay friends. I believed it for a while and it was so mentally and emotionally deteriorating for me, so I did the right thing and let go instead.

What's at the top of your to do list in life? Save. I’m superrrrr frugal with my money and hate spoiling myself. I’d rather enjoy everything in the future once I feel like it’s right to settle down.

What's a song that would describe your life at the moment? What Type of X by Jessi. Maybe not my life, but the song certainly matches my mood these days.

Do you ever scream at inanimate objects? Occasionally, if they’re not working or if I accidentally hurt myself with them.

What was the last thing that you shared? I just had lunch delivered to Angela’s place as a surprise, if that counts. I got her chicken wings and these chocolate chip cookies she’s always wanted to try. It feels really nice surprising people with gifts; I might start making it a habit :) I have to credit my director Bea for it - she’s been having food delivered to mine and Kata’s places recently and I just want to pay it forward.

What smell/s can you absolutely not stand? Fruits. We constantly have a stock of oranges because my parents and sister like having them after dinner, and the smell is nauseating. Spoiled food is also high up on my list, and the general smell in Manila is also very foul. Go to other places in the Philippines if you’ll ever visit!!!

Do you ever eat leftover pizza cold? Yessssssssssssssss. Idk why but I find it really good? like even if I eat it straight out of the fridge.

Where are you the most ticklish? The sides of my stomach and around my neck.

Would you put your life in danger to rescue someone? Someone absolutely important to me, yes.

When you're wanting a midnight snack, what do you normally get? I usually don’t really like the snacks we have in our pantry so unless I already had food delivered earlier in the evening I just let the hunger fade because I don’t like having food delivered that late anyway.

Which cartoon character would you want to keep as a pet? Buster from Toy Story. Or Maximus from Tangled but in dog form, because I don’t know how to care for a horse.

What color best represents you? Something peaceful like off-white, or a pastel shade.

Do you like marshmallows? I hate them.

What is your favorite flavor of candy cane? I also don’t like candy canes, or candy in general. Too sweet and I can always feel how unhealthy they are whenever I have to have them.

Do you have any shoeboxes full of old photos/letters/other memorable stuff? My mom has several plastic bags filled with photographs over the last few decades. As for me, I don’t own any memory boxes; but recently, I’ve been sticking up notes from my friends and co-workers up on my corkboard.

Are you in any way double jointed? Nope.

Have you ever considered a career in music/acting? Never. I never liked singing in public and I’ve never considered acting.

When was the last time you felt seriously embarrassed? A few days ago when I accidentally turned my camera on during a work Zoom meeting while I looked completely unpresentable. Luckily I knew I clicked the button and immediately un-clicked it, but my video still showed up for like 0.001 seconds lol.

Have you ever liked a song, looked up the lyrics to it, then hated it? I don’t think I’ve gone so far as to hate it. I have felt slightly disturbed upon hearing the lyrics of some songs I’ve taken a liking to though; and Cherry Wine by Hozier certainly ticks off this box.

Which is worse for you: being hot, or being cold? Hot, which is why living where I do doesn’t work with me well for the most part.

What would be the icing on the cake for you this Christmas? Get nicer gifts for my loved ones. I was able to get everyone presents last Christmas, but given that I had just received my first-ever salary then, I wasn’t able to go all out as much as I would’ve liked. I’d love to spoil my loved ones even more for next Christmas.

If you had the opportunity to live forever, would you take it? Probably, as long as I was guaranteed to live comfortably. I’d love to see how else technology can continue to improve.

Have you made someone happy today? I hope so, when I got Angela food earlier.

Do you generally watch a lot of television? I do watch my favorite shows a lot, but not on television. Most of my content I already consume online.

If your bedroom walls could talk, what would they most likely say? They’d probably go over all the shit I had to go through and the ensuing breakdowns they’ve had to watch from me over the years.

What's your favorite Christmas song? It’s Beginning to Look A Lot Like Christmas, because it makes me feel festive.

Did you ever really believe in Santa Claus? Only for a brief moment when I was introduced to the concept, but kid-me never bought it because he never showed up.

Do you like the band Relient K? I’ve heard of the band name but I’m largely unfamiliar with them.

Have you ever seen a movie that was better than the book it was based on? Maybe, but for the most part I usually find the books to be better.

Do you like quesadillas? Yes, omg and with jalapeños and cheese *chef’s kiss*

Did you like the show Invader Zim? Nope.

Do you think tomorrow will be a good day? I feel like I’ll be sullen because it will be Sunday again, but I still plan on making the most out of it.

Do you ever talk to yourself? A lot.

Whose butt did you last slap? Idk, probably my ex.

Do you think that chivalry is dead? I don’t think so, but I also think it’s a bit outdated.

What's the greatest/most influential song you've ever heard? That’s a lot of pressure on a song... as much as I don’t really like The Beatles, I’d say Hey Jude has been pretty influential.

What's the weirdest thing you've seen in a grocery store? Not sure. If I had thought something I’ve seen was the weirdest thing ever, I would’ve taken a photo.

What is true love to you? Sacrifices.

Do you like chocolate milk? YES, lactose intolerance be damned.

Have you ever bought yourself a present on Christmas? Not yet. I hope to be able to this year!

Have you ever been on a mechanical bull? Nope, but I’d definitely get on one if I find one here.

Do you prefer to pull off band-aids slowly or quickly? Slowly. Actually, I prefer running water over it until it just slides off.

Have you made a mistake in the past week? I am constantly making tiny mistakes at work.

What was the last weird thing you said to someone? Idk, I feel like all the conversations I’ve had recently didn’t involve any inside jokes or general weirdness.

Have you ever met any bands/band members before? I got to work with one - Redd is the drummer for a local band but he’s since resigned to work with another company.

Have you ever sat on a copy machine and made copies of your butt? No. I’ve never even used a copy machine.

Are you a camera whore? Not at all, I hate posing for the camera.

Have you ever purposely dropped someone's toothbrush in a toilet? Never even considered it.

What kind of mood are you in right now? A little sad because it’s the weekend and I can’t even do my weekend coffee shop trips anymore because Covid cases are experiencing another surge (9000 cases a day!!!), protocols are everywhere again, and my parents already told me I can’t go out...those moments were my rare time alone where I can take walks and reflect and whatnot (and not to mention experieince air conditioning for a few hours), so it sucks to have to be stuck at home again. There’s not much to do at home to begin with, so now I’m just stuck in a cycle of taking surveys and finding videos to watch on YouTube.

What was the last thing someone told you that had you at a loss for words? I was ranting to Andi about how I started despising Diane from BoJack Horseman the moment she flipped out over Mr. Peanutbutter gifting her an entire library. I get where she’s coming from, of course, “understand people’s love language” and all that; but I felt like the very hostile reaction was super uncalled for and it reminded me a lot of my relationship with Gabie – I liked giving and giving, but it was either 1) never enough or 2) apparently the wrong way to show her love, and I was always the one punished for it in the end. I told Andi that because of my experience with her, I don’t even feel like giving a library (metaphorically speaking) to any future significant others anymore because of how hard I had it with her. 

Anyway, they gave me some advice about it and in the end they told me, “One day, someone will tell you, “Thank you for your library.’” It was very beautifully put and I struggled to find the words to reply.

What's something that always makes you smile, regardless of what’s going on? I’m not sure there is such a no-fail thing.

What was that last thing that you bought online? Food for Angela.

Do you enjoy riding around town looking at Christmas lights? Yeah, but the general mood for last year obviously wasn’t super festive and there weren’t as much lights, so it’s been a while since I’ve seen my village all decked out.

Is there someone that you're mean to for no good reason? No, that’s terrible.

What was the last thing you got out of the freezer? The coffee ice cream that I bought from Leigh yesterday! It’s crazy fucking good and I already feel a repeat order coming through.

Are you currently reading anything? No.

What's a good book you'd recommend? I don’t read anymore. I know child/teen-me would be very disappointed.