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ackermansimper · 3 years ago

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How the Ackermans react when you have a nightmare

How the Ackermans would act when you have a nightmare

(Kenny, Levi, Mikasa)

Kenny

-If you woke up from a nightmare sweating, when you look next to you you'll see Kenny sitting up. "Why the hell did you wake me up?" He asks "It was a nightmare..." you respond

-He would roll his eyes and just say to tough it out. Then he'd probably cuddle you back to sleep but if you can't sleep and use the lame excuse of the nightmare then he'll get up and tell you to come with him. While you're following him you'll probably ask why and he'd just look at you and say "I'm letting you see stuff that'll give ya real nightmares. Then you'll stop whinin'"

-Yes, he'd take you to some alleyway and yes, he'd start torturing random thugs he finds. He'd make sure they die slowly and blood gets everywhere in attempts to toughen your mind.

-Call it tough love cause it was enough that he tried to cuddle you to sleep. He really tried but since you gotta let the nightmares get to you he'll show you what nightmares are made of

-Anyway, when you both get back and you both are covered in the blood of random people you barely saw for the first time, he'd just tell you to get yourself cleaned up.

-He'd probably join you and use some stupid excused like "I just don't want to waste time. You take too long" or "I didn't want you whining about being scared to take a shower because of that dumb nightmare you had" but he probably just wanted shower sex

-Overall he's not a very comforting type of guy when it comes to this stuff. But I still love him..

Levi

When you woke up from a nightmare, maybe sweating and tears could be falling out your eyes (probably from dreaming of your comrades dying) and Levi is a very light sleeper. Living in the underground taught him not to trust people and to always be on guard and.. old habits die hard so the light sleeping stuck with him.

-He'd look over to you and ask "What's wrong? Shouldn't you be sleeping brat- why are you crying..?" "It was a stupid nightmare.. The thought of knowing that most, if not all my comrades and friends will die... Probably by titans too.." you responded.

-He wouldn't be the best comforter but he would have an idea of what to do since he can relate and has nightmares often. He would just try doing the things he'd want to happen if he was having nightmares and he'd also try doing some of the things you do to comfort him.

-He'd basically just start being really soft and sweet towards you. He'd take you in his embrace and give you head kisses while saying comforting words. He wouldn't lie though. He'd still say that yes, most comrades of yours and his will die but you both still have to fight anyway since no one else will if everyone just gives up

-His touch would be very warm though. With him cuddling you it would feel like your problems and negative thoughts would disappear. Sometimes you wonder how people can fear him when he is so sweet.

-He wouldn't think he's doing a good job at comforting you and would be worrying that you'll continue to have these bad dreams so after you fall asleep in his snuggle cuddles, he'll stay up and make sure you don't wake up like that again. He wants to be awake to stop anymore negative thoughts entering your mind if you have another nightmare

-In conclusion, Levi won't know it, but he is the best at comforting you after a nightmare. He might not be too good with feelings and crap like that but he's familiar with this stuff. He'll do what he feels would comfort you and damn he'd be good at it

Mikasa

If you suddenly wake up from a nightmare sweating and panting Mikasa would immediately start to check up on you. She was already awake watching you and making sure you were okay so when she saw your face expressions change in your sleep she didn't know what to do but when she saw you fling your body up in fear she immediately wrapped her arms around you

-She would ask if you had a nightmare and as soon as you nod yes she'd already be hugging you tightly and trying to comfort you

-She'd make sure there's nothing you need and if there was something you wanted then she'd get it for you. She would basically make sure everything is alright and you have everything you need and want with you so it could make your sleep more comforting

-She would definitely baby you and wrap you up in a blanket burrito. She'd be big spoon and you have to be little spoon whether you want to or not because now she'll wonder why you're getting nightmares.

-She'd try to make sure nothing around you both are scaring you and she'd make sure you felt protected.

-Not only will you feel protected, she'll make sure you're protected. She would stay up the whole night and watch you sleep. If she sees the slightest change in your expression then she'll immediately try to cover you with her kisses, tell you she loves you and hope that will stop whatever is happening in your mind

-Overall I think she'd actually be pretty good at comforting you after a nightmare. She wouldn't say too much but she'd definitely do a lot and I think that's adorable

♥ Thanks for reading ♥

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nikakistos · 4 years ago

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The Perfect Closure of EreMika

The title is pure clickbait (as always), there will be lots of tags (as always) and this post will be huge. As always. So, let’s examine and evaluate the perfect conclusion of the most important relationship in Attack on Titan. We will analyze why this is the best conclusion they could have gotten and of course we are going to talk about what their scenes meant for their relationship, their feelings for each other and the themes of the story.

First, let’s ask the question: What was the purpose of this chapter? Ending the fight obviously, but also giving closure to the relationship between Eren and Mikasa. Now, there were 3 questions that needed to be answered in order for the two of them to have closure.

Why did Eren say to Mikasa that he hated her?

What does Eren feel for Mikasa?

What would have happened if Mikasa had given Eren a different answer back in chapter 123?

Isayama answered all 3 of them in a spectacular way. Let’s see how he did it. The chapter literally starts with Isayama, via Mikasa, setting up the closure. This was achieved by having her wonder if this really was the end for her and Eren. Could it be that their last interaction ever ended with him saying that he hated her?

Isayama answers that with a big, fat NO.

That’s the purpose of Mikasa’s vision. Mikasa’s vision is not there to introduce us to Alternate Universes or to portray her as a delusional fangirl that can’t cope with reality. It’s purpose is to answer the above 3 questions. And that it does.

Essentially, Mikasa’s vision is a “What if” scenario. If Mikasa had chosen the ideal for her answer back in chapter 123, Eren would have abandoned everything and lived with her. This means that Eren is also in love with her. He said that he hated Mikasa, because he wanted her to forget him. That’s why he also asked her to throw away the scarf.

Mikasa though, being the truest representation of all major, positive themes in the series says no. She chooses to remember him. That’s essentially the meaning of life. That’s what Armin taught to Zeke back in chapter 137. Memories of everyday life. That’s the meaning of life. Back in Trost, Mikasa said that she couldn’t die, because she wouldn’t be able to remember Eren. Even back then, Mikasa always knew the true meaning of life.

Afterall, the series heavily criticizes the usage of memory manipulation. Deleting memories or altering them have been methods empoyed by the Royal Family for years, hiding the truth from the people. One of the themes of the Survey Corps is remembering their fallen comrades and carrying on the torch. Mikasa forgetting Eren would be an insult to the themes of the story. As would be if Eren was revealed to have been sending fake memories and dreams to Mikasa out of pity for her.

Finally, Mikasa decides to kill Eren. Not because he hated her or because he didn’t have romantic feelings for her. Because she had to save the world and because that’s exactly what Eren wanted. Back in chapter 133 Reiner foreshadowed Eren’s desires. He explained that it is very hard for Eren, mentally, to handle the murder of the entire human race. Through Reiner, Isayama reveals that Eren wants someone to end it all for him. That someone was Mikasa. That’s why Mikasa knew where to find Eren. His relieved face when he saw her swinging the blade said it all. That was Eren’s design and Mikasa delivered.

And so, the chapter that starts with Mikasa thinking that the only closure she would get with Eren was the “I’ve always hated you”, ends with the first and the last kiss between the two of them that puts all of her worries to rest.

Is Mikasa delusional?

I’ve seen this being thrown around, so i have to also tackle said point. No, Mikasa is not delusional. This wasn’t a fantasy that only she experienced. This dream of hers is the same dream that Eren had back in chapter 1. Eren experienced the exact same things she did in the dream. We even see him with his titan marks. It is clear as day that they shared these moments.

Also, i have to give credits to Isayama here for his usage of “itterasshai”. The word generally means “Go and come back safely” and is usually said to people leaving the house. For Mikasa, Eren is her home, but she is also home for him, as shown in the RtS arc:

These were the perfect parting words for the two of them. Nothing else could encapsulate their relationship better. Eren of course, won’t come back, but that’s the irony of the word here.

Moving on to the next point, Mikasa’s characterization in this final arc is about her seeing Eren for the person he truly is and stop ignoring his faults. It starts from the Marley arc and it concludes with chapter 123 where she realizes that this was simply part of Eren’s nature.

He always had it in him to become the monster that he became. However, he always had a different side to him. A side that had been shown to her a few times. At first, when he wrapped the scarf around her and later when he asked her “What am i to you”. Finally, it manifested as a desire to live quietly with her in their shared dream. It would contradict her development and characterization in the final arc, to have Mikasa start seeing an incomplete Eren again, after realizing earlier who he really was. Mikasa understood who Eren truly is and she accepted him and continued to love him anyway, even though she didn’t agree with his genocide.

It is not out of character for Eren to run away with her either. At least not in that instance. The series highlights the moment that he asked Mikasa “What am i to you” as a pivotal one. Sure, under normal circumstances, Eren would have chosen to fight, but we saw him breaking down just moments earlier. The only person that could have saved him was Mikasa. Alas, that wasn’t meant to happen.

In any instance, the biggest indicator that Mikasa is not just a delusional girl who kissed the decapitated head of the man she loved, when he never really loved her in the same way, is Ymir’s face at the end of the chapter.

Ymir, as i have mentioned in previous posts, is a girl who never knew real love during her lifetime. She didn’t understand what she was looking at, when she first say a couple kissing with their friends cheering them on. And after that she was sentenced to a cruel life, with a man who never loved her and only viewed her as a tool. This girl, remembers longinly that scene of the couple kissing for 2000 years. She was waiting for 2000 years to see real love again.

She witnessed that through Eren and Mikasa. In a scene that would have otherwise been painted in a negative light, Ymir’s warm smile at the sight of the final act of love between two people who never got to be together the way they wanted to, clears any and all doubts regarding Eren’s feelings for Mikasa and the latter’s sanity. Eren reciprocates Mikasa’s feelings and he was alive for enough time to kiss her back, before completely fading away. Eren and Mikasa replaced the married couple and Ymir replaced the crowd that was cheering at them from 2000 years ago.

Of course, one might ask, could Eren really kiss her? Didn’t she just take advantage of him? No, he did kiss her. The way the scene was directed, it shows us that the events, which take place in their dream, mirror the events in real life. Just look at Eren’s lips one moment before Mikasa kissed him and compare them to the picture above, where they kiss. They are different.

Also, you have to remeber that decapitation doesn’t kill immediately and does not immobilize facial muscles. That was the entire reason that Eren and Zeke managed to get the Coordinate. Eren survived long enough from Gabi’s shot to make contact with Zeke. Even his facial expression changes as you can see below:

More importantly, was there really any chance that Ymir would look at Mikasa beheading and kissing Eren, while also smiling in approval, if Mikasa was a delusional girl who was unable to understand Eren’s feelings for her up to the very end? Most of all, do you think she would have allowed him to die, without experiencing real love? She died in such a way and she stayed for 2000 years in the Paths waiting for someone to show her real love. Eren was her benefactor. Would she ever allow him to die in such a way, when she was being mistreated (sexually and in many other ways) by King Fritz? I doubt it. Actually no. I don’t doubt it. I’m sure this is not the way we are meant to interprete the scene.

Eren’s relationship with Mikasa, from the very start, is an allegory for the world of AoT. The world is cruel, but is also very beautiful. Eren’s story with Mikasa starts with him murdering in cold blood her kidnappers (cruelty) and then warmly and gently welcoming her to his family by wrapping a scarf around her (beauty). Their story ends with Mikasa decapitating him (cruelty) and kissing him (beauty).

Eren’s tendency for violence has always been portrayed as going hand in hand with his better side. That side has always been represented by Mikasa. It is only fitting for them to have their most beautiful moment happening almost at the same time as their most cruel one. This is how Isayama juxtaposes this duality:

If we interprete this scene as Mikasa being delusional and Eren not being in love with her we get a very disturbing and creepy scene, between an obsessed, psychosis-suffering girl who can’t understand the feelings of Eren, a genocidal maniac who never had any chance or willingness to live a normal life, even though there are hints of that, and a 2000 year old ghost who just happily smiled at the decapitation and forceful kissing of her emancipator. I am pretty sure this is not the message Isayama wants to send. Not simply, because it is a disservice to Mikasa as a character and to her relationship with Eren, which has been one of the most prominent and consistent part of the series from the very first chapter, but because it is also a huge disrespect to Eren as a character as well. Does anyone really think that Isayama would choose to write Eren’s death like that? Not a single important person in the entire story has gotten such an exit. Not even Floch. Even Zeke, who thought that his father never loved him and only used him as a tool, got to see that his father truly did love him, before finally dying. Of course Eren and Mikasa would get the same treatment.

What i mean to say is that Eren and Mikasa’s closure won’t be recontextualized in a way that will paint their feelings for one another and their relationship in a negative light. If anyone’s expecting that, he/she will be disappointed. Eren and Mikasa were confirmed as a canonical couple in chapter 138.

On the other hand, if anyone’s expecting that this wasn’t their real closure and that they will get an even happier ending, he/she is also coping hard. Eren died here in this chapter. There won’t be a scarf rewrap (i’m here to eat my words if it happens), because Isayama gave the couple a kiss. A kiss that was in the makings ever since chapter 50 dropped. And of course, there is not going to be a baby born to Eren and Mikasa. Like, no way it’s happening. Eren is not coming back to life as that would turnish the series and it’s ending.

In conclusion, Eren’s relationship with Mikasa ended in the same way it started. Violently and Beautifully. Tragically and Happily. They acted on their romantic feelings for each other the very moment they had to part ways forever. This is how Isayama hurts us. The essence of a bittersweet conclusion.

EDIT: EATING MY WORDS AS PROMISED. EREN DID REWRAP MIKASA’S SCARF. HE KEPT HIS PROMISE.

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cafedanslanuit · 3 years ago

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♡ — pairing: eren x reader

♡ — tags/warnings: mentions of cheating and alcohol. side aruani and yumihisu. honestly just a feel-good fic, with humour and fluff <3

♡ — a/n: honestly, this is the most “romantic comedy” fic i’ve ever written and i love it <3 shout out to @ofoceansandtombstones that beta read this one mwah thank u

♡ — masterlist

There was an ill taste in your mouth that wouldn’t go away, no matter how many drinks you had. And you already had more than a few. From your spot on the table, you could see your friends dancing and having the time of their lives. You really wished you could join them. Nevertheless, you had wasted all your energy forcing a smile and clapping along during the ceremony. Once you had arrived at the hotel reception with the rest of the guests, you had slid a bill to a kind waitress and told her to keep the drinks coming.

Ymir and Historia were dancing in front of you. Stoic, sour-faced Ymir couldn’t help but smile as her sweet girlfriend twirled and giggled, her cheeks red and eyes just the tiniest bit unfocused. Next to them, Sasha, Jean and Connie were owning the dance floor, moving in sync to the happy music. A grin formed on your face as you saw Connie lifting Sasha up and her almost falling to the floor. Jean was holding his stomach as he laughed loudly.

On a nearby table, Mikasa looked over at them, a small smile on his lips. She was sitting next to her girlfriend, who was holding her hand as they watched their friends dance. You saw her girlfriend leaning over to her and whispering something in her ear, to which she chuckled. It was so strange -and so beautiful- to see Mikasa laugh that it took you aback. And apparently, also the girl she was with, because her lips slightly parted as she watched her in awe.

“How’s the party animal doing?”

You looked up and saw Eren staring down at you with a funny expression. He was wearing black dress pants and a white shirt. The first two buttons were undone, and he was carrying his suit jacket over his shoulder and a beer on his other hand.

“Someone’s gotta keep an eye out for everyone,” you replied with a shrug. Eren scoffed and took the seat next to you on the empty table, leaving his jacket on the nearest chair.

“I mean, I know attending your ex’s wedding isn’t bound to be a good time, but you’d think you would try to put on a happy face.”

You rolled your eyes. “Hey, at least I’m here.”

“After Mikasa tried her best to convince you during a whole week,” he said. You turned your head to Eren, eyes wide open. “What? Of course she told me.”

“That little… That’s it, I’m going to tell her girlfriend about that one time Mikasa got drunk with us,” you muttered angrily, standing up. Eren was quicker and pulled you back to your seat.

“You and Armin broke up a year ago. Why are you so upset he’s moving on?”

Before you could answer, the music stopped and the dance floor erupted in applause. Eren and you watched as Armin and Annie walked in between their guests, greeting everyone as they made their way to the bride and groom table, covered with a pearl cloth and decorated with the finest flowers. Every detail screamed elegance and you knew Armin had been the one to decide most of it. It had his taste written in every napkin and strategically placed flower.

Armin’s smile was almost too big for his face and if you had to guess, those small red marks on the external corner of his eyes meant he had been crying just a few minutes ago. You rolled your eyes. So sentimental. On the other hand, Annie’s smile was far less noticeable, but for someone who always repressed her public displays of emotions as much, that little smile must have felt heavenly to her new husband.

Husband. You took a big gulp of your drink.

“I’m telling you this because I care for you,” Eren said, redirecting your attention to him. “You’re looking like a petty ex.”

“Rather be petty than a cheater,” you shrugged, finishing your drink. You gestured to the waitress and she immediately walked to you, handing you a full glass. Thanking her, you wasted no time in taking a sip.

Eren’s eyebrows were deeply furrowed. “What do you mean?”

“Armin never told you why we broke up, right?”

Eren scooted his chair closer to you and you bit back a laugh.

“He said you just weren’t good together,” he said, trying to remember his friend’s words. “And you said something similar when I asked you back then. Where does this ‘cheating’ thing come from?”

You let out a long sigh. “Maybe it wasn’t cheating. Not by definition, at least. But when your boyfriend starts dating someone else a week after you broke up a two-year-long relationship and he gets engaged four months later… you draw your own conclusions,” you explained, taking another sip of your drink and making a grimace. “Fuck, this one’s strong.”

After not getting a response from Eren for a long moment, you finally turned to look for his emerald eyes. You could almost see the numbers flying around his mind, trying to make sense of everything you had just told him. It was endearing.

“Wait, no-- wait,” Eren gestured at you with his hand. He stopped himself again and took a sip of his beer. “The first time Armin told me about Annie was in February. I remember it clearly. We were shopping for Mikasa’s birthday gift and then he went to pick something for Annie. And you guys broke up around Halloween, that’s the time I found you crying-- in Jean's backyard during our costume party.”

“We had a big fight at that party. We hadn’t broken up,” you clarified with a smirk. “He broke up with me after Mikasa’s birthday party. The same party he convinced me not to attend.”

Eren’s face dropped once all the pieces clicked together. He turned his body to look at the bride and groom table, where Armin and Annie were taking a sip of their champagne glasses and talking to each other enthusiastically, while the rest of their guests kept dancing.

“That son of a bitch,” he breathed out. You burst out laughing at his reaction. “No, I mean it! I really thought you had broken up during that Halloween party! You didn’t upload any more photos together, I don’t even remember even seeing you together--”

“I told you, we were fighting and… not in the mood for photos or public dates. Most of those months were spent at his apartment, fighting over really, really stupid things or just not texting each other for days,” you explained. “Honestly, when he broke up with me he made the decision I was too afraid to take. He was right, we weren’t good for each other anymore. But... fuck,” you chuckled icily. “I wish he would have broken up with me before getting with Annie.”

Eren listened in silence, his eyes still on his friend. You gave him time as you kept drinking, your gaze drifting to your friends again. You really wished you could have the energy to join them and forget Armin and Annie. It was true you didn’t love him anymore, yet seeing them together only made you remember how you had been fooled by someone you thought loved you the most.

You had had many dates ever since, but no one ever stuck. It was fun, getting someone’s attention for a couple of weeks, but then you couldn’t help but ghost them, putting up shitty excuses like wanting to focus on yourself and not having enough time to spare with them. You had lost so many amazing opportunities with both boys and girls that a couple of months ago you had decided to stop dating at all. It was lonely for sure, but at least you didn’t find yourself feeling guilty for not being able to open yourself up emotionally for someone else.

“Want to get back at him?”

You turned to Eren so fast you almost hurt your neck.

“What?”

“I have an idea. Just play along,” he explained, standing up.

“Eren, hey, what are you--”

“Everybody! If you could give me a minute please!”

You watched horrified as your friends started turning to you and Eren, confused at the commotion. Eren kept waving his hand, gathering more and more people’s attention, Armin and Annie included. He even gestured to the DJ to lower the music and she complied. In a few seconds, all the guests of the party were looking at you, who was still sitting down with a confused expression, a drink in your hand. Once he deemed enough people were looking at him, you saw him fumbling with his hands nervously.

“Eren,” you called for him again in a whisper, but all he did was take the drink you had in your hands and put it on the table.

“Sorry for interrupting, I know a lot of you were having a lot of fun dancing. But all I’m asking is one minute of your time. I hope that’s okay with you guys,” he grinned back to the bride and groom table, where they were as confused as all the guests around. “I have something really important to say.”

“Eren, no, you can’t tell them about--”

“No, no, give me a moment,” he hushed you again. The DJ walked to both of you and handed an inalambric microphone to Eren.

You didn’t like how devilish his smile turned.

“Great, thanks, this is much better,” he told the DJ, who just kindly smiled at him. “Anyway, I don’t want to take much of the bride and groom’s time, so I’ll try to be concise. The thing is…” he said, turning to face you. “I love you.”

Your mouth flew open as you heard multiple gasps coming from the guests. Yet, you couldn’t bother with looking anywhere but Eren’s eyes. What was he doing? Since when did he have feelings for you? If he wanted to say something, he could have easily said something a few minutes ago, when--

Just play along.

Oh.

Your questioning glare turned into a big smile and you noticed Eren softly nodding at you.

“You already know how much I love you. Honestly, I never get tired of telling you so. And hiding our love from our friends has probably been the hardest thing I’ve ever had to do. Sorry about that, Mikasa,” he said, gesturing to the woman.

You could imagine your friend’s dumbfounded face, but you knew better than to turn and check for yourself. You knew you wouldn’t be able to hold in your laughter.

“So I’m here in front of all our friends and some other guests I don’t know to ask a simple question.”

In a swift movement, Eren got down on one knee. Your hand flew to cover your mouth, trying your best to hide any trace of laughing on your face. The flash of the cameras startled you for a moment, but that only meant Eren’s plan was working. The excited murmurs and squeals only fueled Eren, as he pulled up a ring and showed it to you. You immediately recognized it as one of the rings he had been wearing a few moments ago.

“Would you marry me?”

A huge, honest grin made its way to your face and you nodded quickly. You grabbed the microphone Eren was holding and spoke right into it.

“Yes, I’ll marry you!”

You hadn’t listened to a crowd erupting in applause and cheers as loud as the guests at Armin’s wedding when Eren slid his ring on your finger. Once again, the flash of the cameras were right into the both of you as you leaped into his arms. He stood up while holding your body close to him, even giving you a small spin and you buried your face in the crook of his neck.

When he finally put you down, the music resumed and all your friends began running to the both of you.

“You’re fucking crazy,” you whispered to Eren, holding his face between your hands. He laughed.

“Kinda ruined the reception, huh?”

“When the fuck did this happen?” Jean inquired as soon as he reached you.

“Dude, why didn’t you tell us?” Sasha whined, with a small pout. “But congratulations!” she quickly followed, hugging you tightly. As you hugged her back, you felt someone taking the hand that was now wearing Eren’s ring.

“This is one of your rings,” she noted, shooting Eren a dirty glance. He lifted his hands in surrender.

“Hey, I didn’t plan this! But I will get her a prettier one soon,” he said, winking at you. You laughed and shook your head.

“Nah, I like this one,” you replied. You shared a knowing grin and soon it was Connie’s turn to hug you.

While you were hugging your friend back, you saw in the corner of your eye Armin getting up from the table and starting to walk to both of you. Your smile immediately vanished from your face and once Eren caught it and followed your eye trail, he understood the reason why. You heard him mutter a curse before he pulled you from Connie’s embrace.

“Well, we’d love to stay, but my fiancée and I want some time alone.”

“C’mon, you haven’t told us yet how you got together!” Sasha complained.

“Next time, we promise,” you hurriedly assured her.

Eren picked his suit jacket from the table and before Armin could reach your group, you quickly walked away, exiting the hotel. Eren whistled to a taxi and you jumped inside, telling the man behind the wheel to drive. Loud laughter filled the vehicle as soon as it began moving.

“How-- how did you even have this idea?” you asked him, holding your stomach as you laughed. “Dude, Armin looked so upset, we totally stole his thunder.”

“That was the plan,” Eren shrugged, a winning smirk on his lips. “Knowing the gang, everybody’s going to be talking about us and the engagement for the rest of the party.”

“Remind me to never have you as an enemy,” you chuckled, leaning back on the car seat. Letting out a long sigh, you took off Eren’s ring and handed it to him.

He shook his head. “Nah, keep it. As a souvenir of today,” he winked.

“Thank you,” you smiled. You put the ring on your thumb this time, since it was too big for your ring finger anyway. “You didn’t have to do this at all, and yet--”

“It’s okay,” he assured you.

“No, really. It’s just-- I’ve been having a tough time since the breakup,” you admitted. “To have you doing this for me means a lot. Makes me feel someone really cares for me. I never said anything to anyone back then because Annie is also a part of the group and I thought…”

Eren leaned his head towards you.

“You thought…?”

“I thought you would pick her too. It’s stupid, I know,” you shrugged, turning your head to Eren. “But Armin had just broken up with me and a week later he was already in public with Annie. Back then, I thought everyone knew we had just broken up and if no one had said anything was because they didn’t care. So I just… stopped hanging out with all of you as much as I did before.”

“Yeah, I noticed that,” he muttered.

“You did?”

Eren nodded. “That’s why I asked Mikasa to pressure you into coming to the wedding. I hadn’t seen you in a while.”

“You could have just asked me to hang out, you know,” you teased him. Eren chuckled, pushing some of his loose hairs behind his ear.

“I think we know by now I don’t take the conventional route.”

“Yeah, all of the guests know that too,” you quipped, making both of you laugh.

This time, when the laughter came to an end, you realized how close your faces were. Your noses were almost brushing as you both were lying your heads on the back of the car seat. You looked into Eren’s emerald eyes and noticed he wasn’t looking away from yours either. Was it the alcohol that made his cheeks turn a lovely shade of pink? If it was, then you could say the warmth crawling up your face was its fault too. It had to be the alcohol, or else, you would have to also ponder about the reason your heart was beating out of your chest at having your friend so close to you. He was handsome, he had always been and you knew this. But why were you losing all your composure just now?

A brief look at Eren's lips gave your thoughts away and, in less than two seconds, he was pressing his lips against yours.

For a spur-of-the-moment kiss, as you thought this one was, it was rather soft. Eren kissed you as if he thought you were the most expensive and fragile thing he had ever seen. But of course, this was just a product of the adrenaline and the fact that -as far as you knew- he hadn’t been dating anyone as well, right?

Your small theory crashed and burnt when you felt his hand softly cradling the side of your face. No. This wasn’t an adrenaline kiss, neither one that you gave without a thought. Maybe it had been unprompted and maybe you hadn’t seen it coming, but it sure as hell seemed he did. Eren’s lips gilded against your with ease, revealing a soft tenderness you didn’t know he possessed. You kissed him back, matching his rhythm as you softly pressed your hand against his chest.

Eren pulled away from you softly, and if his longing eyes were any indicator, a bit reluctantly.

“Hi,” he breathed out, making you grin widely.

“Hi,” you replied. You gently caressed his cheek with the knuckles of the hand that was previously resting on his chest. Eren took it and kissed your palm, making your heart flutter.

“Sorry to interrupt kids, but where are we heading?”

The voice of the taxi driver startled you, making you pull away from Eren. He chuckled at your reaction and then looked back at the man.

“Take us to that pizza place near the central park. Gotta have a celebratory dinner with my fiancée,” he said cheekily, taking your hand into his. You squeezed his hand back, his ring digging a little on your skin.

“So young and engaged already? Congrats!” the driver said, turning left and heading towards the direction Eren had given him.

“Thank you!” you smiled brightly at Eren while he took your joint hands to his mouth and placed a kiss on your knuckles.

A part of you knew you weren’t taking that ring off anytime soon.

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onmyyan · 3 years ago

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Hello there, first of all, it is nice to see a new blog here! Hope you'll have a great time and find some valuable friends. Second of all I am thrilled and would like to request an AOT headcanon for Eren, Armin, Levi, Mikasa and Erwin with an S/o who is a ballet dancer. Like how would they react to it (the beauty of her dancing but also the very much present pain she undergoes and her very much injured feet)? Thank you so much and take care!

My first request I hope I do ya proud!! Thank you for they sweet words hope you enjoy 🤸🏽‍♀️

A/N: yandere themes

Eren took pride in his abilities as a solider and a man but it was nothing like the pride he took in you, the first time he’d seen you dancing was back in your cadet days, you’d been one of the unfortunate souls stuck on stable duty, and that meant you weren’t to come inside until all the horses were brushed and fed, he noted you seemed to be in no rush, you’d been working well into the night, the moon casting a gentle light on your skin, he was supposed be in bed but he couldn’t tear his eyes away from your form. It wasn’t fair something as mundane as sweeping became so enchanting when you did it, and as if that weren’t enough, your motions turned to swaying, then a full spin, before his very eyes you began to preform on a stage that wasn’t there, to a song only you could hear, or so you thought. But he could hear it. He could hear the pain in your steps, the passion bleeding into every movement, it was like something out of a dream the way you flowed about, elegantly using your whole body to tell a story, one he was eager to learn. That was the night he realized three things. You were certainly an angel fallen from above to brighten this disgusting world, he wanted that light for himself, and he was willing to do absolutely anything for it. When he finally approached you, you’d just finished your chores sitting prettily against some old crates of supplies, the night once more the backdrop to your stage. He made sure his steps were loud so you heard his approach, then asked straight up what you were doing. “Oh hi Eren! It’s called Ballet, it’s a style of dancing I was taught back home.” He hung off your every word eagerly soaking up the new information about you, to think all he had to do was ask. “Does it hurt?” He gestured to your feet “It can yeah, but I feel like it’s worth it? Does that make sense.” You laughed at the end, trying to lighten the vibe, his intense eyes were settled on you, unwavering. It made you fidget in place. “You shouldn’t hurt yourself like that.” His tone left no room for argument but you tried to anyway. “Even if it’s something you love doing?” Figuring he’d understand, His brows furrowed as he thought for a while before coming to a conclusion. He sunk to his knees before you, eyes still holding your own hostage. “What the hell-“ “If you’re not gonna stop I guess I have to help with the pain.” He gestured once more to your boots. “That so unnecessary hah- but thank you! Now please get off the ground this looks dirty.” You awkwardly laughed inching back against your makeshift seat. He smirked up from his place on the floor enjoying your obvious embarrassment. “I wasn’t asking.”

Armin was as selfless and kind as one could be given the world he was raised in, he was constantly thinking of others and took them and their needs into consideration when organizing any of their plans, but for once in his life he felt that overwhelming desire to be selfish. It wasn’t common for the two of you to have free time together, especially uncommon for you to sneak a bottle of wine under your jacket, you assured him the mp’s you’d swiped it from wouldn’t be missing it, your perfectly sweet grin washing away any worries or doubt he had, that’s just the kind of power you held over him and you didn’t even know it. He had a sip, maybe one too many, because when you’d began to dance, albeit a little tipsily, he couldn’t fight the darker parts of his mind from seeping in. He watched with a warm gaze as you leapt and twirled without a care in the world, if only for a few moments. He knew in his heart of hearts that love and light in your eye would be snuffed out by the wolves of the world the second they caught a whiff of your optimism. It was like he was watching himself watch you, because while your free flowing dance was captivating, all he could really think about is how he was the only one who was going to see this from now on. The next day you’d gotten in a shit storm of trouble for swiping the bottle, how that rat found out you’ll never know, but your punishment was by far the most peculiar, instead of the usual the influx of chores was the glorified assistant position you’d been assigned, it wasn’t stated directly but you were basically Armins new shadow. Bringing the strategist lunch and helping him organize plans had become your new day to day, forget going on missions, he held enough power in the Corps to keep you by his side with a lost letter here a forged note there, and whenever you’d question the odd turn of events he was quick to distract you. “Would you like to go dancing tonight? I found a lovely clearing in the forest that you’d love.” And who could say no to that face?

Levi watched you with smoldering eyes, his stare burning holes in your body whenever he lingered for a moment too long. You were mid routine, trying earnestly not to knock anything over with the limited space in his office. Your movement was restricted, the intricate dance forced to be contained in the small area. The first time he’d seen you preforming for your fellow scouts he’d chastised you in front of them all, saying that was no way for a solider to behave. That same night however he summoned you to his personal quarters, you were sure another scolding was in order only to be surprised, his meticulously arranged furniture had been pushed to the side to create a small circle in the middle of the room. “Hurry up.” You’d scuttle inside scared to upset him more than you already had, but more confused than anything. “Dance for me.” The simple statement was the last thing you’d expected your stoic captain to say, especially with that dangerous look on his face, both of you were well aware he could tear you apart with the smallest amount of effort, but if he was feeling bold enough to ask this of you, you were feeling bold enough to question it. “I thought it was unbecoming behavior as a Scout, sir.” He sucked his teeth moving to lean against the front of his desk, the air of authority he carried with him everywhere made you straighten your back. “It is when you’re doing this shit for anyone but me.” Another simple statement, with massive implications, his dark eyes drinking in your shock and the obvious heat crawling up your neck. “I don’t like repeating myself brat.” His grin was devilish, promising nothing but trouble, yet you found yourself in starting position anyhow, “Yes sir.” The following day you limped around awkwardly, trying in vain to hide your winces and cringes whenever you’d put too much pressure down, Levi had you dancing until you dropped, quiet literally. You figured it was just some bizarre new way for him to punish you but to your surprise a jar of ointment sat on your pillow that night, the note asking you to return to his private quarters once you’d and I quote “stop wobbling around like a shithead.”

Mikasa had been a pillar of strength and endurance long before she joined the Scouts, this tireless drive to protect her family and friends soon bleed over to you, the small moments in private you two shared were one of the few things that kept her going, you could see how hard she pushed herself to be the best and desperately wanted to show her your appreciation for all that she’d done. Life had become so much better with her as your friend, no your best friend, so you were determined to show your gratitude in some way, finding someone in the regimen who played the violin was the hardest part but after a few sacrificed meals and promises to take on their share of chores for a week, they agreed, sitting off the the side waiting for their cue. Mikasa had been worried about going out so late, how were you going to get enough sleep? Don’t think she hasn’t noticed your strange behavior she’s just waiting on the right time to confront you. “I wanted to do something for you- I know it isn’t a lot or anything compared to what you do everyday but yeah anyway.” You awkwardly laughed then a soft melody began to play from the solider she hasn’t even noticed, her eyes were wide as you began to preform, warmth flowed up her spine as you spun in delicate patterns carefully executing every move with a grace she didn’t know you possessed. For what felt like an eternity she watched in awe, never in her life had she seen something as beautiful as this, and to think it was all for her? Her mind solidified this fact as you ended with a practiced bow. This was all for her, surely a love letter written with your body, nothing else could explain the raw passion she felt watching you. You loved her too, this much she was certain on. Her claps were loud as you bashfully made your way back to her. Her gaze soft as she brought you into her arms, her taller frame fit perfectly against you, her head resting on yours, “That was incredible little one, how did you manage this? Where’d you learn to move like that? It was like you were floating.” You laughed gently, returning the hug eagerly, you explained your training and how it helped you stay grounded to something not related to Titans and death. Her grip tightened as you explained the deal you’d made with the retreating solider, happily chatting away not noticing her piercing stare follow him until she couldn’t. She’d have to take care of that. Her eyes found you once more, filled with adoration and warmth, her heart then and there vowing to protect her little angel from anything or anyone, even if she had to get her hands dirty so yours could stay clean. Don’t let her find out this causes you any type of pain though, because that’s just the push she needs to lock you away all for herself, her own caged dove.

Erwin Smith was a lot of things. Cautions and calculative, brave and smarter than people gave him credit for, he knew this world wasn’t what it seemed, that there was more to life than dying . Some people would call him paranoid, who else has a secret underground room in their office?He’d given his life ten time over to the survival of humanity, despite the countless hurdles and challenges thrown his way he’d always overcome. Adapt. And then you joined his ranks and threw all that out the window. He couldn’t wrap his head around why was he having such a hard time figuring you out. More specifically, figuring out just how he felt about you. You were a solider in the Scouts, reason enough to respect you, but this went deeper than that. He knew of your skill on the field having been placed in Levi’s squad, what should have filled him with pride instead twisted his gut like gnashing teeth made of razors, he was attracted to you physically yes, but your mental strength and ability to smile in even the worst of situations is what really pulled him in, this honey trap he was stuck in was intoxicating, he was drowning eagerly in this sickly sweet feeling, he set his pen down with a sigh, resigning himself to his thoughts of you. He learned long ago it was fruitless to fight it, like he imagined the ocean dragging a person to the bottom. A soft knock on the door brought him from his all consuming thoughts, “Commander? If you’re not busy the Scouts are having a celebration for tomorrow’s mission.” He stiffened at the sound of your voice, his legs moving faster than his mind as he swung open the door, you stumbled into his chest as you were leaning against the wood, you tried to pull away only to be stopped by a large warm hand holding you in place. “Aren’t celebrations for after the mission?” He ignored your flustered apologies, an eyebrow raised at the expression on your face, if he could freeze that moment in time he would. “W-Well,” you cleared your throat looking anywhere but his burning gaze, “We know how these things go and those of us who do come back don’t usually feel like partying, sir.” He made a noise of agreement finally releasing his hold, only to take your chin between his index and thumb, tilting your head until your eyes had no choice but to meet. “Then we better not keep them waiting love.”You swallowed thickly managing to nod yes a few times, not trusting your voice. He smiled down at you once more before gesturing for you to lead the way. As the night progressed he watched you hungrily, drinking in your laughter and excitement, as the Scouts relaxed under the watchful gaze of their commander someone began to sing, claps and stops soon joined the fray as a rhythmic beat began to form, you stood in the middle of the rowdy soldiers after some pokes and prods before setting off in a fast paced dance, you matched the energy of the chanting men and women around you, the alcohol in your system not allowing for that usual shyness, your moves were bold and confident as you entertained the drunken group, for a moment your eyes met and in the brilliant smile you shot him you’d inadvertently sealed your fate. The next day while all your fellow friends and Scouts prepared to leave you sleep soundly, unaware they’d been instructed to leave at 6 am no matter what, and that your beloved commander had already signed your death certificate for when they undoubtedly returned home without you. His private quarters would have to do until he could take you to your real home.

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ackerpreach · 4 years ago

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This ending .... I can name 500 reasons and I will name them right now, because I don’t think I’m the only one who is upset with how things turned out. (Also, A positive message for all of you at the end)

MAJOR LEAKS SPOILERS/ READ WITH CAUTION

Update: after reading more theories from fellow RM bloggers, and sleeping over it one day, this entire chapter might be an april fools... Don't fully lose hope yet beautiful people. It's me just giving a review on a possible fake April fools chapter

After following this franchise since 2013, so nearly a DECADE. this ending is a pure disserve to the entire fandom. I feel like Yams has rushed it just for the sake of being done with the entire manga. So many things are left open, characters and their developemt are reverted back all the way to chapter 1 or are left even worse than that...

Mikasa’s worthless character development/ Aaronmika’s horrible toxic codependent relationship

Oh honey... Let’s start with how horrible Isayama has treated her. We were all rooting for her, because we all felt like she was so misunderstood. She had a horrible childhood and imprinted on a guy who treated her like trash 99 percent of the story. And then, slowly but surely, she starts to realize she has to stop obsessing over him in the uprising arc with the help of a real man who treats her like a queen, more importantly, he treats her like a real human being. This man sees her for her abilities and that she has the power to be self dependent. She learned parts of herself, that she was able to work together with him like no one else could. She learned parts of herself she was unable to do so if she kept obsessing about Aaron. All this love, care, mutual understanding and RESPECT these two shared.

but...NAH FUCK THAT, right Yams?? Throw all this development away, all this bonding. Let’s make the main female lead even more yandere than she already was in the first season. Let her make out with his decapacitated head (like dude, this is also pure disrespect to Aaron’s dead body btw) and let her obsess even more about the guy who has treated her no better than a piece of toilet cloth 99 percent of the time. The guy who was never really appreciative in front of her for saving his ass billions of times, who always pushed her away, who yells at her and snaps at her whenever he can instead of reasoning and talking calmly with her in mature way. (EVEN PARODY YOUTUBE CHANNELS WHO DONT SHIP ANYTHING MAKE IT A TROPE WHERE AARON TELLS MIKASA HE HATES HER GUTS WHENEVER HE CAN)

Then after all that, suddenly Yams tries to last minute persuade us Aaron’s always been head over heels for her??? He should have build their relationship better which he hasn’t even tried to do so... He must be thinking his fans are stupid for eating this from his hands.

Like seriously??? What is this???

Isayama is just fully contradicting himself. It’s like someone tipped him off with a buttload of money for him to write Aaron like this to satisfy shipping needs and to cash in those extra money’s from it. Even if he tried to cater to Erem*ika, this is not how you write a loving and caring couple which people will root for.

This next two panels just freaking infuriates me to the core of my soul. I can’t even describe how dissapointed I am with Mikasa.

Why is she clutching that head so obsessively like that? Why is she walking and turning her back away from her comrades? After everything they have done for her, after all they’ve been through?! After everything Armin has done? Standing up for Mikasa, beating up Aaron for hurting her. I feel like even Jean, Connie and Sasha have cared more for her in a healthy way. Sure, Aaron cares for her romantically too apparently (What a twist Yams :)), but has he aided her to becoming a mentally healthier individual? Has he aided in her mental stability? The answer is a big fat NO! All I see between these two after today’s raw Chapter’s are too Yandere obsessed individuals who have no clue on how to maintain a healthy relationship.

Love should only go as far as the heart can endure and it seems like her character is not willing to be aware of that. Even Armin was able to let go of Aaron in those latest panels. Why does her entire character resolve around this guy??? I really do not understand. Her Ackerbond and her age is not an excuse for her to throw her life away like this.

Shonen’s disgusting portrayal of women

I’ve seen this countless of times in the many years I’ve watched anime. SasuS*ku from Naruto, Ichih*me from Bleach, Shinji and that oranged hair girl from Neon Evangelion.. Why do these women get decreased to simpletons with one single goal? And that is to obsess over a bland male lead who either treats them like trash or doesn’t notice them up until the last last chapter (LITERALLY WHAT YAMS HAS DONE). Some go even as far as the male leading wanting the kill the female love interest and yet the female lead is still in love with them???. It’s disgusting for him to write the MAIN female character this way.

It’s dissapointing we believed in Isayama doing Mikasa’s character right. That she’s finally being able to let go of her codependency and to live for herself maybe live in Hizuru and find more about her roots???, but every single time she shows some improvement, it’s burried deep in the ground again by the Author. It almost seems like a lowkey kink of some of the male Mangaka’s to write about a girl obsessing over them no matter what. I see this so many times to the point that I truly stand behind it that some of them might have this fantasy.

I wished he didn’t portray her last panels like this. Everyone else is living their lives while Mikasa is still grieving about him. I’m not saying she’s not allowed to grieve and everyone takes it at their own pace, but cmon... Show her living her life too. This is too much. Her being next to his grave and grieving him as her last panels just shoves it in our faces that YET AGAIN, BEING OBSESSED WITH AARON IS ALL HER CHARACTER STANDS FOR.

I truly despise how Isayama handles her grieving, kissing his decapacitated head, carrying it around like some handbag, and her last panels being thissss.

The world leaving Paradis alone miraciously after all that???

It’s so weird and out of place with so many political feuds and disagreements between the world and Paradis, the entire Rumbling happening and we can see Mikasa just chilling outside in Paradis with no one bothering them. You can see the rings of the walls in the picture below. I don’t know the exact reason behind as the manga is still in Korean, but from what I see, the story went the route of: throwing a happy ending without enough proper reason and it was all fixed just like that in a snap! It doesn’t fit the entire narrative of attack on titan for things to be so peacful out of nowhere. When it comes to the narrative, how things work in that world, how hard it is to achieve peace, everything made somewhat sense up until chapter 138. 139 seems so so out of place... It’s like I’m reading a chapter from a totally different manga.

Aaron Yoghurt got defeated so easily/ Aaron’s character assassination

The build up on the first part of the rumbling was great, those kids carrying coins. You could feel humanity’s fear and Aaron’s hatred in those pages. As if he truly had a goal and he has turned away completely from his comrades and his closest friends with no return. The world seemed truly doomed, but he got defeated just like that. He was in the nape all this time (because screw the warhammer power of hiding yourself elsewhere in his ginormous titan body). There is no master plan as we all expected, and in the end he just acts all yandere in the paths with Armin and that’s it... They massacared his entire character as well. Many fan theories created a better ending with his character. Him being reincarnated as Historia’s baby would be so much better. For him to still keep on seeking and to strive for power. It has always been his motive. It’s his personality from the start until chapter 138. Even if things are okay, to keep on going and to seek that adventure, but then.. He’s so weak and directionless suddenly.. It’s so weird... This is not Aaron at all???

Using Aaron for him this entire post, because I don’t want others to invade our tags... :)))

Historia’s baby

The only panel we got from Historia’s child was this. Just a normal kid, normal life... Why did Isayama put so much effort in highlighting Historia’s pregnancy if it was nothing too spectacular anyway? It seemed he had major plans for this kid and for their development too??? It’s again, big plans, big developments, big relationship dynamic, but all got thrown out of the window...

Don’t read the next sentence if you are a minor :’)

It’s like almost ejaculating, but stopping right before it and repeating that every single Arc.

My energy when writing about this chapter is the same as Nostalgia Critic and his hatred for atla the live action

In Conclusion...

I know us fans should not be deciding on how this story should end, because this is Isayama’s story after all, but I truly wished for him to wrap up things much more rounded. There are so many unanswered questions... Again, I think for the sake of being done with this manga, he rushed all of it. He’s become a millionaire from this story and now his pockets are jammed full, I guess he doesn’t need to put in any effort anymore, right? Perhaps a controversial opinion, but I really wished he cared for his fans a little bit more with this last chapter by giving some answers that make sense at least. It’s his fans who gave him this platform and the opportunity to tell his story and for him to at least give in a bit of effort especially in the last chapter is the least he can do. Rivamika being canon or not, he truly rushed it without thinking much about the entire story line. He expanded it so much, he didn’t know how to bind it all together.

Even after all this, I’ll still ship them in the headcanon type of way. I do give credit to Isayama for giving us a template for such a beautiful dynamic between Levi and Mikasa. He decides to waste it, but that doesn’t mean we have to. I want to thank all the people with amazing writing skills, the ones who give us beautiful art like @carmenlee @phit chan @vialesana and many more. I want to remind all of you that we can create something beautiful of our own and we don’t neccesarily need canon lore for that. The art I’ve seen, the fanfictions I’ve read have touched me deeper than Isayama ever could at times.The Mikasa in our mind is appreciate of Levi, is mature, classy and has a strong will for herself. They spend their remaining days together peacefully. Keep writing, keep drawing, stay creative.

I love you all so so much, I’ve only been publicly active since March, but thank you Rivamika fandom for giving me so much joy as a lurker these past 7 years <3

#rivamika #snk leaks #snk 139 leaks #levimika #mikalevi

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natsukitakama · 3 years ago

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Headcanon : your loss

Request Could I please get the 15 years old Eren with a fem shy s/o who has crush on him and her reason liking him is because he’s nice to her and treat her right

Hey I’m the same anon who request eren with a fem shy s/o who has crush on him because he treat her right, well she gets really shy and flustered when he’s around but instead of them becoming couples it’s actually similar to Jean like when he likes mikasa and gets jealous of eren so it happen the same thing with a s/o when she see mikasa with eren, she did got jealous but unlike Jean, she didn’t got mad and gets sad instead so it’s like her trying forget about him but she end up becoming close friend with Eren which it really surprised her because she was expecting to not have a lot of interaction with him

Author note : Your request is actually is godsend for me ! It’s been a year since I wanted to write a headcanon about a non mutual relationship between reader and eren but I didn’t know how to do it. I’ve written a lot of things but I didn’t have any context you just gave it to me so thank you !

Sorry for taking so long hope you won’t mind

Warning : ANGST / unrequited love / You’re being friendzone / death content

Now thinking about this you should see it coming

I mean it wasn’t like that you two could have any chance

He was always with her everytime

She grew up with him

She protected him

She was willing to give his life for him

He even wraps that stupid scarf around her neck, and of course she had to say it on every god damn occasion « thank you eren for wrapping this scarf » who cares ?

This was unfair

The worst is you couldn’t even get mad at her or him

She wasn’t responsible for your stupid crush

And he wasn’t too

After all he’s never done something that push you into that way, everyone would tell him that, they told him that it wasn’t his fault.

But still

Now that he was looking at you, or should I say what left of you, he couldn’t help but feel sorry. He should had been stronger he should had been able to protect you.

Yet he failed and now here you were, most of you now into that titan stomach he wasn’t even sure he would be able to find you into all those corpse, the rest of you were lying on the floor.

You shouldn’t have died

You shouldn’t have loved him to begin with

That was the conclusion of Eren Yeager after reading your personal diary, maybe if you haven’t fallen in love with him you would still be there.

« Day one after realizing my feeling for Eren : I don’t know why I even started this, it’s not like anyone would even read it. I guess it might help me going through everything, sometimes during the night when I’m alone with my thought I can’t sleep. Most of the time I need to cry a little bit to find the strength (if that makes any sense) to fall asleep, and sometimes I just day dream about Eren and me and it helps me even though it pained me. I don’t know what I should do about this, I mean it’s not like I can even compete with Mikasa.

When I first met him, to be honest I didn’t like him. I mean sure he was cute and everything but damn he never shut up, he was always acting cocky trying to tease and get on Jean’s nerve (what’s wrong with him anyway ? Was he jealous of him because he tried to talk to Mikasa ? Is even aware of Jean’s feelings toward him… What a dumbs). I just couldn’t bare him. It was too much.

But one day him and I went into a mission together for the survey corps, even though he was gifted with titan’s ability he always worked hard on his body, his moves so he could be a proper soldier and won’t need his titan strength (which is idiot by the way). Our mission was mostly observation nothing too crazy about it, but quickly we were starting to feel bored so we decided to have a little chat together. Getting to know him make me realize how kind he could despite being an angry little shit. I asked him was he was so willing to train hard, he told me he wanted to protect everyone he cared about, he wanted to protect us from the titan.

I can’t explain how and why, but the look on his eyes, the determination coming from his turquoise eyes … Aaaah I can’t even explain it but it touched me not in a physical way (maybe ? I don’t know) I just feel dizzy, my heart was beating hard against my chest, I felt some warmth coming from my stomach to my cheeks. He looked cool. »

Seeing this from your point of view was an addition of pain from him, he never realized how you felt around him.

To him you were one of his closet friends, he felt very close to you and yet he never realized how you felt about him

But he should see it coming, if he was smarter he would notice how easily it was for him to make you all shy, or a blushing mess. He should notice that you tend to be timid every time he was too close to you or when his hands brushed yours. He just never noticed and thought you were « his shy friends »

He couldn’t count how many times you saved his ass during your training together, how many times you were here for him when he felt like he didn’t worth anything, when he was struggling because he was overwhelmed by feelings. How every night that he didn’t feel like sleeping alone because his nightmare was here waiting for him to fall asleep, you were here with a sweet smile and your comfort word : it was everything that he ever needs before falling asleep

How everytime during this particular night he woke up on his bed, well wrapped in his duvet, did you hold him ? Did you cover him while he was asleep ?

To him you were his angel, his guardian maybe both at the same time who knows ?

Never had he thought that the reason beyond your kindness was that he means everything for you

And now you weren’t here anymore, you died because of him.

You died with tears on your eyes because of him

You were lonely because of him

Why hadn’t you stopped loving him ?

It could save you

« Day ten after realizing my feelings for eren : I realized that I’d never taken time to write my first interaction with him. I should have started with it. We were all talking in the forest after a particularly hard training, we weren’t still soldiers yet. One of the Jean’s friends, I think his name was Marco (he died during the Frost event I’m sad that I couldn’t get to know him more) asked us where we wanted to be selected as a soldier. Most of the people wanted to be on the police brigade while I wanted to be on the garrison.

I don’t know why (what was wrong with him ?), but Eren started to yell at me. He cockily said that I shouldn’t be here If I wanted to be on the garrison in the first place. All of them were losers and they should keep clearing the deck. Obviously I was taken apart because he was so mean of me for literally not reason ? I didn’t have much choice but to slap him on the face telling him that if he was so strong like he pretends to then he shouldn’t struggling with the gear material and yet he was the worst by far.

He didn’t answer back and instead Armin separated us.

Two days later, he came to me to apologize for his behavior. He explained to me that he got a vivid dream where he was living again the death of his mother and couldn’t help but felt angry against the garrison of Shinganshima for doing nothing to prevent it. Though he shouldn’t be a reason to be so mad at me while l’ve literally done nothing against him. Before answering a quick glance helped me to notice Armin trying to hide behind a tree, of course it has to be his words it didn’t sound like him. I told him that everything was forgiven and that it shouldn’t say something like that anymore or I would kill him. He chuckled (now I can admit that it sounded like heaven for me) and promised to never do that ».

He chuckled while reading your letter, if your description of the event was loyal to what happened this day, your reaction wasn’t what you described. You wouldn’t threat him to kill him if he ever did again. You tried to threaten him but in fact you were a little bit too shy so you kinda mumble your threat. No need to say that Eren wasn’t feared at all but still keep it in mind.

Reading your notes makes him wondering, maybe if he was stronger, maybe if he was stronger, if he was smarter, maybe, maybe he could prevent your death

Maybe he would act differently with you

Maybe you’ll still be there smiling at him and blushing at him because he moved way too close at your face

« One month since I’ve realized my feelings for Eren : I don’t know why I’m still keeping writing on this book, no one would ever read it and certainly not Eren. It’s really sad to say it and even more painful to write it down, but I don’t think I will ever have a chance with him. No after everything that happened.

It’s been a week since Reiner and Bertholt have left us, it’s been a week since their betrayal.. Well they were never loyal to us but still it hurts. It’s even more painful for Eren as he saw Reiner as his own big brother. We had fight against us, they tried to kidnap Eren and Historia (ex Christa), and as he was alone with her in front of a big titan which I learned was the titan who eat his mother. They tried to kiss each other, at least from where I was it appeared to me that they were about to kiss knowing they would die.

I don’t know why I feel so sad. I mean she was always here close to him, she never left him no matter what. Even when everyone thought he was dead because a titan ate him, she was still hopping for his return. Even when we discovered his ability as a titan, she was here ready to kill everyone and leave with him. Maybe the reason why he isn’t love with me is because I’m not as strong as she is ? Or maybe because I’m not as good looking as she is ? I mean pretty much every man from our team had a slight crush on her. Maybe I’m not good enough for him »

The date from that letter hurt him, not only because you were degrading yourself where they were no reason for saying bad stuff but also because he could exactly what happened couple of days later. Eren wasn’t sure if he wanted to keep his reading.

He knows what is about to happen and he doesn’t want to read your reaction about it, he hurt you that day

But he needed to keep it going he owns you that

« Five weeks since I’ve realized my feelings for Eren : its starting to get painful to write my crush’s development. God I love him so much, I love Eren so much but the more I’m trying to show him my feelings the more he kept us apart.

Since that incident with Mikasa and the titan who ate his mom (I’m calling her smiley). So since Smiley incident, he started to talk less with me and instead train a lot all alone. He stopped knocking at my door the night when he couldn’t sleep and instead decided to stay alone looking at the sky, sometimes Mikasa is here sitting close to him and they looked at the sky together. Nothing happened they just here sitting peacefully, like a couple looking for a falling start to make a wish.

How I wish I could be there, I wish I could sit next to him, putting my head on his shoulders letting him talk about everything that on his mind even though it means nothing I don’t care, I just want to be close to him. Sometimes when the training is very exhausting he is crying from frustration for not being able to control any titan or because he can’t create that crystal that Annie wrapped herself in. He seemed so sad, so disappointed about himself I wished I could find the right word so he would be happy again.

But I don’t. Every time I tried something it ends up with him getting angry at me or just bothering him. I’m really a piss of shit, why should I expect ? I didn’t want to join the survey corps I did it for him, I couldn’t even follow my own choice, I’m a coward just as he once said. I shouldn’t be here to begin with and I shouldn’t bother him. But I can’t help him, I just love him so much but each day it’s like time take me away from him. One day he will stop talking to me or ask me to stop being here.

Update : that day came. I just wanted to help him, give him some comfort, I wanted to take care of him and took his pain away from him. But I failed and instead of him smiling at me he yelled at me. He asked me to never come to him again, he said that he didn’t want to see me again, he wished that I left for the garnison. He said that I was bothering him. »

He didn’t have any excuse, that day when he yelled those horrible thing at you he was particularly exhausted. He was working 24/7 on his titan ability and couldn’t manage to do anything. Besides, he was still sad from Reiner’s betrayal and couldn’t help but wondering why he will do that to him and his friends. Some nights he was bothering by his nightmare but they started to feel more like memory and not just bad dream that his tricky brain would craft for him.

He was starting to feel as if he was here before, as if he already lived those dreams while he never went into those places in his dreams.

His mind was already a mess and the frustration of not being able to fill his mission was getting on his nerve, and seeing you looking at him with those pity eyes. That was enough for him, and he just yelled at you again and again until you left doing your best to not cry in front of him.

He hates himself for being a bitch whenever he was frustrated, it started with Mikasa and now it was you who would be next Armin ?

Sometimes he just closed his eyes for not seeing his companion reaction at his own stupidity, but with you or at least what was left of you he couldn’t do that anymore. He was the reason you weren’t here with him anymore, he was the reason fo your loneliness, your sadness.

He broke your heart multiple time and you never yelled back at him, you just take everything he told you and just left thinking that he was your own fault, because you weren’t enough.

But you were.

He never had the chance to tell you that though

« Two months since I’ve realized my feelings for Eren, one week after he told me to never talk to him again : This night I didn’t dream, recently I’ve been doing the same dream. I was laying on the floor, I couldn’t move, my body felt like it was heavy, I’m not even sure if I was breathing all I could see was the sky. But somehow it felt nice quite a little bit bitter though, I wasn’t feeling any pain anymore, I wasn’t sad anymore. As if everything had been swipe off.

It was relaxing until I heard some footstep, they were light as if the person was trying to be as silent as possible. They walked until the found me, rising my eyes to their level I heard myself gasping. It was Eren, he looked older his hair was longer and for whatever reason he decided to put them on a messy bun. His eyes were darker than usual, he looked disappointed, a little bit sad too. He looked at me as if wondering what he should said. I couldn’t say what was on his mind but then I felt a tear on me, one, two. Looking at his eyes I’ve realized that he was somehow crying, I don’t know why though. And since my body was paralyzed I couldn’t move my hand to brush their on their cheeks. When I tried to make a sound I realized that despite my inability to move I was still able to talk so I did.

Eren ? Is that you

Y/N i-

Why are you crying ?

I’m so sorry

For what ? You didn’t do anything besides I’m the one that should apologize I did bother you after all

I’m so sorry y/n I wish I could prevent it

Prevent what eren ? Why are you crying ? Please don’t it makes me sad

Y/N I- I didn’t know I wanted to protect you like everyone else I really care about you

And I care about you too Eren I really do

I wish I could share your feeling I really do… forgive me

Then he kneeled in front of me and brushes my face with his hand, he got a sad smile on his face. Then he stood up and moved. Each time when I couldn’t see anymore I woke up with tears on my face and the feeling that he actually did brush my cheek with his face. But today it was different.

I didn’t wake up with tears on my cheeks but instead with a strange feeling. Something no one should ever felt when waking up. Today I was waking up with the certainty that I would die. I just know it : today I’m going to die. I would finally leave that world full of pain and sadness. I will lay on the floor and Eren would feel sorry for some reason. With that thought in my mind I started my day and here I am writing on this book, it might be the last I would ever do it and if someone is actually reading me it means that I was right and I died today. If so let me remind you buddy that it’s a breach of privacy, not because I’m here giving you the right to read that. If I survive then I would write a little update about my day hoping that everything would be fine.

If it’s you Eren well… I’m sorry I want you to know that I never wanted to bother you, to make you sad quite the contrary my wish was to be able to comfort you when you’ll need it. I really love you Eren, I love you a lot. Maybe we’re too young to ever understand what’s love ever mean, but I know I love you, I know that I would give my life for you if it’s means that you’ll be happy.

I don’t know why I saw you in my dream older, but I want you to know that no matter what happened, it wasn’t your fault, I love you. It’s a very selfish emotion you know ? Because sometimes when I saw you with Mikasa I really wanted to be her so I’ll be sure to protect you no matter what. You’re strong Eren no matter what people would say, you are strong not just because you are born into this world but because you got the mind of people who would go big things in order to change the world. I know for a fact that you’ll be a hero, maybe people won’t understand it, maybe they won’t see you as a hero but I will, I will always see you as hero. Maybe that’s what Love is, seeing all the good from people wanted to do everything in order to make them happy, I don’t know I’m too you well I should say I was too young to understand it. I wanted to thank you Eren, for being my friends, for sharing your anxiety and your fear with, for letting me be a part of your life. I wish I could have more time so I’ll be able to tell you everything, but I was just too shy and maybe a coward. I wish I could make you happy Eren I wish I could be enough for you, if you’re reading this I’m probably dead but that’s okay I’ll still love you and I won’t be in pain anymore. Thank you Eren, I wish you the best.

Update : »

That day, Y/N died.

No one except that, it was supposed to be a very easy mission, but things didn’t go as planned.

Reiner, Bertholt, and a monkey titan came to protect Shinganshima ready to take Eren as well. Everyone trained for that day, but it didn’t go as planned, quickly the monkey titan destroyed horses, blocked the only way for soldiers to run away.

Quickly even though they were out numbered, Erwin knew they were no other way than sacrifice themselves in order to help Levi in his attempt to kill the monkey.

Y/N was there with Floch and other unnamed soldiers when they heard Erwin telling us that this would be their last mission.

You weren’t surprised nor were you sad, you felt that it was your final day you just felt it. Somehow it helped you get on your horse running as fast as possible knowing you would die eventually from the rock that were send by the monkey or by titans that was surrounded you.

You were relaxed, and as a rock was flying over you, you kinda saw the older Eren looking at you with a sad smile. Then you understood everything, that dream, it was him. He somehow talked to you in an area you were sure you never been there before. He wanted to apologize because you were about to die and he never managed to tell you in front of you.

And as the rock was falling right into you, you just smile some tears rolling into your cheek. In the end you would never be lucky in your life, falling in love with someone that just saw you as a friend, being into depression because you felt like you weren’t enough, finally dying for what ? Nothing, because that Eren from the future wasn’t happy meaning that this mission won’t give him the satisfaction he was looking for.

Yeah, you weren’t lucky

Now you may wondering how eren could prevent that ? After all he is blaming himself for what happened to you

Simple, since you two argues (mostly Eren yells at you), he never talked to you again and when it was time to prepare the mission to conquer Shinganshima. Eren was one of those who were supposed to participate at the development of the mission, and especially he needed to choose which soldier would be with me to fight again Reiner and probably Bertholt too.

He decided that you didn’t belong to his team anymore so he let you going with Floch and the other fighting the titan outside with Levi and Erwin

Obviously now, he realized that kicking you out of his team was the last thing that convince you that your dark though were real and of course you didn’t fight to stay alive you just let it go tired of being rejected by the man you loved.

If only he knew about it, he would prevent it

He would save you.

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unloved-cadillac · 4 years ago

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Hello! Can I get some hcs (or a scenario or whatever you like) about Mikasa's s/o being jealous of Eren? Like they won't make her a scene but they secretly think they aren't enough for her and that she'd rather be with him. Btw your writing is gold❤️ Thanks for reading this!

C/n: I love writing for this woman. Thank you so much for the compliment. I really appreciate it. Thanks for requesting and I hope that you enjoy🤍

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HCs on Mikasa’s S/o being Jealous of Eren.

Oh boy. Mikasa and Eren. The duo that were inseparable.

When the joined the Survey corps together, your eye caught Mikasa. She was so strong and beautiful, it was impossible to not fall for her.

But you did. And she fell for you. But did it change her relationship with Eren? No.

It was...weird in your opinion. You knew that they weren’t related and Eren saved her when she was little. But, did she fall for him?

You brushed it off. Why would she if she was with you.

In the mess hall, you sat next to Mikasa but she sat next to Eren. And you saw the way she looked at him and how she cared for him.

“Eren. Don’t eat too fast.” “Eren, put on your jacket it’s cold.” Eren, Eren, Eren.

You say in your room after dinner, thinking. It would make sense Mikasa would like Eren. He was her closest friend since childhood. He saved her.

You sighed and laid on your bed where you drifted off to sleep after coming up with a conclusion.

The next day you avoided Mikasa all together. It would t make sense if you felt like a third-wheel in your own relationship.

Mikasa didn’t see you in the Mess Hall an you weren’t training with her. “Eren, where’s Y/n? Did you see them today?” She asks and he shakes his head. “Probably by the lake.”

Mikasa’s eyes widened and took off to find you. This wasn’t like you to just ignore her and she was going to find out why.

When she found you, you were sitting by the lake picking the grass and throwing stones into the water.

“Oh thank god.” She murmurs to herself and walks to you.

“Y/n.” She calls your name and you don’t flinch. She sits next to you and look at you, curiously.

It’s quiet for a long time but then she speaks again. “Are you okay? You weren’t there when I woke up.” She tells you and you sigh.

“Do you...like Eren?” You softly ask and her eyes widen. “What?”

You face her with tear filled eyes but you smiled anyway.

“It’s okay. It would make sense if you do. He’s strong and he’s been with you through everything. He’s...good enough for you. I just wish you broke up with me before you started to like him.” You chuckle out the last bit.

Suddenly, your face is turned by a slap. You fall to the ground while holding your face. “MIKASA WHAT THE FU-” “SHUT UP. JUST SHUT UP!” She screams at you while straddling your waist and held you down.

Your stunned eyes met hers as her tears fell on your shirt.

“How..dare you? How could you ever think that, Y/n?! That you’re not enough for me? That Eren is the one who has my heart? No! None of that is true. You’re my everything. Eren is just family. You’re..dammit Y/n.” She puts her head on your chest and cries.

You’re lost for words. So she didn’t..like Eren? Well, not in that way anyway.

You grab her and pull her up to you and lay back down.

“I’m sorry, Mikasa. I’m sorry for assuming all of this. I’m so sorry.” You cuddle into her shoulder. “You better be. You need to make it up to me now.” She whispers and you smile.

“Oh yeah. How? ( ͡° ͜ʖ ͡°)”

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“Y/n stop. She’s already blushing. This came out so aggressive I’m so sorry.”

🖤🤍Thanks for reading🤍🖤

-Caddy.

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a-slut-for-smut · 3 years ago

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003| for Mikasa & Annie? ^^

Ah yes, the lost girls and arguably the best girls <3

The great thing about these ask games is it forces you to really evaluate and explore what you really like/dislike about these characters that you may not otherwise ever do, so thanks for sending this in :)

How I feel about this character: Mikasa: Well she was my fav female character for a good part of the series (im weak for tsudere/kuudere types) but this ultimately waned as the series progressed, esp with the Marley arc. I saw a lot of potential for her to grow and while it was teased at multiple points it ended up going nowhere and by the end i found her character very stagnant and it was a goddamn shame because i wanted the world for her due to the sheer misery she had to endure in her life (this goes for Levi too) and for her to explore herself outside of Ereh. Anyways, fanfiction XD Annie: To me she was initially the most compelling character of the series. She was strong, capable and deliberate in her choices and actions, while being presented that there was so much more to her, you couldn't help but be drawn to her. Then she got stuck in a crystal for 90% of the story, only to be reintroduced mainly as a love interest rather than any integral aspect to the conclusion :(

Any/all the people I ship romantically with this character: Mikasa: Levi (OTP obviously, and if you peruse my blog you’ll see why hehe), the thought of her and Annie gives me hot pants too, i don't mind Historia or Jean either Annie: I liked her with Eren as he actually showed respect and even admiration towards her from the beginning that i wish he showed to Mikasa just to make EM more palatable for me. Felt that she contributed a lot to Eren's development as well, more so than Mikasa anyway. Obviously into MikaAnnie. I don't mind Aruani but i'd prob like it better if she wasnt solely brought back as his love interest :/

My favorite non-romantic relationship for this character: Mikasa: Sasha :( Annie: Hitch

My unpopular opinion about this character: Mikasa: I don't know about unpopular in the general fandom sense, but definitely unpopular amongst Mikasa stans. I go into detail in this post, but as ive said above i feel she didnt have a character arc but rather a character circle/flatline in terms of development, if that makes sense? All this build up but ultimately her only driving goal in life was to get the boy, and while i am a champion for love it was just so poorly executed it just left a bitter taste in the mouth Annie: See above, just wished she wasn't brought back solely to be someone's love interest. Seemed like such a waste, it honestly felt like an afterthought

One thing I wish would happen / had happened with this character in canon: Mikasa: To have some fucking agency and not have her entire character arc revolve around a man. She deserved better than that. Annie: For her to get out of the crystal earlier. Seemed like a waste to sideline her character in such a dramatic way (insert Historia and Ymir waving here LOL) like that unless it was going to have a pivotal consequence, which it did not.

Favorite friendship for this character: Mikasa: Sasha as she a great foil to Mikasa's stoic nature. I like Armin as her little brother/sibling relationship. Annie as someone she initially hated but ultimately came to respect always makes for a deeper, undeniable bond. Annie: Hitch, i really loved the familiarity she had with Annie despite it rubbing Annie the wrong way sometimes. Hitch is that cheeky hypeslut bestie we all wish we had XD

My crossover ship: mmm this a tough one! My preference is to pair them with someone who can match their in strength and will. Maybe from JJK- Maki with Mikasa and Nobara with Annie?

Happy to tackle others, ask away homies!

#thanks for the ask! :)#ask game #mikaannie #ereani #rivamika #anti snk ending

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ajax1230 · 3 years ago

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I’m rewatching AOT before Part 2 of the Final Season airs TOMORROW and here are some things that stuck out to me:

1: LEVI IS SUCH A DICK 😂- disclaimer, I love this man with all my everything. Shawty a lil baddie, he my lil boo thang 😏 but YALL the way he talks to Eren is too much! And yes, I obviously knew this before but the fact that he is specifically a dick to Eren really jumped out at me. Called Armin and Hange the ‘brain trust’ and Mikasa a kick ass body guard, then he looks at Eren, who probably has a concussion and just fist fought a Titan that was his good friend. I mean this FIFTEEN YEAR OLD is really going through it all and puberty, and Levi has the gall to look at him and say “don’t screw it up”. First of all there wouldn’t even be an ‘it’ if Eren weren’t there but that’s beside the point. Lmfao but really I guess it’s his way of showing affection, still it kinda kicked me in the teeth on the rewatch. Don’t come for me or my McDonald Toy sized king, he’s an asshole but we’re still loving it.

2- I love Hange even more now- After the Utguard Castle incident, Eren is in Titan form rocking the ‘Armored Titian’s’ shit. Hange comes down and perches on Erens shoulder to give him strategy talk. He looks at Hange with his big ass head and nods. Hange gets red and does the squeal. I THOUGHT it was adorable! That must have been their dream to have a Titan finally speak to them after all the experiments and shit they had to do. Now how Chris Hansen feels about the noise Hange made, I guess we will never know.

3-Erwin weird asf.- I gotta say it. He’s my Responsible Daddy and whatnot but dude needs some serious rehab in the social department. First of all, what human has that perfect posture with all that gear on? It’s ridiculous. Secondly, again Chris Hansen might have a few words about how he grabs on these kids shoulders and asks them existentially vague questions. “Hey lil mama lemme whisper in ya ear-“ COMMANDER IF YOU DONT TAKE YOUR SEVEN FOOT TALL ASS AND DO SOME WORK. Aren’t there condolence cards you should be writing out? Anyways, I feel like Levi’s still so salty at Erwin (in prior seasons) cause anytime Erwin tells him to do anything Levi just does the sassiest arm cross like “why tho?” In conclusion, Erwin is scary as fuck but I’d still take on that Spooky Dicc no matter the season. MOVING ON

4-Ymir.- Ymir, Ymir, YMIR. Honestly, she was too hot for what they did to her. Down right dirty. And we were ROBBED OF HISTORIA AND YMIR KISS SCENE. There were so many opportunities! It would have been cinematic glory. I’m down with everything her mean ass stood for, even though we would have had to fight in person, I feel like she would have read my soul to me. The thought is so scary I might throw up. Did her dirty, want a redo and I want it now.

5- last one for now, but the fight between Mikasa and Annie.- WHY! I think I repressed the memory from when I originally watched the series but I forgot they just leave us on a cliffhanger. I believe there is a manga/spin off that may talk about it but I’m not sure. Either way as an anime watcher I’m crying. I was ready to see Mikasa unload on Raggedy Anne, especially after calling her an animal and laying up on her man like that. Justice for Mikasa (on so many levels but for now this specifically)

That’s all for now, I may rant more coherently later if I feel inclined but I just wanted to screech into the void before the new season starts up and I forget these little moments. AOT is so special to me this season is going to be so hard to watch but everything ends eventually so let’s enjoy it while it lasts!

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madillhethen · 3 years ago

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AoT/SnK Spoilers for final chapter!!!

I’ve read AoT since anime debut and I finally finished the manga a week ago (I literally had 5 chapters left, but couldn’t find a source to read it on 💦).

Anyways, I’m not really sure what direction AoT was going. I feel the themes hopped around a lot, though ignoring thematic elements, story wise, the conclusion felt fitting for the series.

Some manga I’ve read and thoroughly enjoyed only to be immensely disappointed at their ends (Pandora Hearts, 07 Ghost…) but AoT I didn’t get that. Maybe because at this point I wasn’t as invested as I used to be or it really blended well. Who knows.

I’m not going to give a thorough review of the series because over the span of 2013 until now, I never compiled anything on my thoughts and I am certain I forgot quite a bit.

I do like the manga—the story itself is interesting. The overarching plots, the characters, the movement, exploring not just a character’s story but the world’s story is what I really loved of AoT. Isayama does this well. From the first few chapters, we’re introduced to Eren, and it follows his journey up until a certain point which frankly, threw me off before. But I realized, AoT is not the story of Eren. It’s the story of humanity—the world, how it changes, and the closures from those changes, how individuals and groups deal with the world’s change, and that’s what I really love of AoT.

I took some screenshots of my favorite panels. Zeke states to Armin in the Path of how everything is meaningless, and Armin’s response is the one above.

“Maybe I was born just so the three of us could race here today.”

I love this. As humans, I think it’s a common concept for us to try and find meaning and purpose in our lives, and that’s fine. Some of us though, get so bogged down when we feel that we have none. And this statement Armin says is great. The simple things in life matters too. We don’t need to always have a great destiny, a plan for the future, maybe just being able to get up and walk outside is what we’re here for.

The things we love to do, the stuff we take for granted, maybe we’re all here just to do those things? I love this idea. His words shake even Zeke out of this who admits that perhaps yes, it’s meaningless, but still, still he would like to do the things he loved again (playing catch in his case.).

This reminds me in FGO how Romani tells Mash that life is meaningless, but it is from our lives that we find meaning.

Another part in AoT that really gets me is since the beginning of the timeskip, Eren has had a monotone and villainous nature portrayed and even during Mikasa’s conversation, he gives off a somewhat distant response. But here when he speaks to Armin, we see his true feelings. We see that emotional, impulsive boy we got to know at the beginning.

And the part that really got me is when Eren confesses that he did all this, killed so many people, became the villain of the world, was to not just bring peace to the world, but to make his friends the heroes of the world. It’s basically a given, we learned this when we saw him talking to the boy and crying. I think what really got to me though, was Armin, understanding this, and then thanking Eren for doing all of it.

It’s a crime. It’s horrible. Eren knows he has to accept the punishment for his crime. Armin understands this too. But the expression of gratitude and understanding of it, is really beautiful. It’s not something I’ve seen in media a lot. We always condemn the villains, regardless of reason but here for once as a final goodbye as a friend, he acknowledges not the act but the rationality and motivation behind the act, and the sacrifice Eren made for all of them.

Overall, I think the ending is fitting. I liked it. It felt a bit rushed but it was a nice conclusion to this story.

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ravenhealer5 · 4 years ago

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Thoughts On Mikasa And AOT Ending

So, like most people, I HATED Mikasa’s ending when I saw the early leaks. I literally thought she has been spending her days by Eren’s grave, crying over him. Mikasa is my favourite character, so I was really pissed. But after reading the proper translation, it’s much more positive than that.

I’m mostly going to address Mikasa but I’ll touch a few topics from the chapter vaguely. Manga spoilers ahead.

First about Ymir Fritz. I personally am not okay with this whole ‘love’ thing, but if I look at it from her point of view, it makes sense for her to be in 'love' with king Fritz. Is it healthy? Absolutely not. But was she in a state where she could figure that out and opt for a healthy choice? Also no. She was an emotionally scarred individual, stuck in a very bad situation with no-one to help her. I like that her character’s conclusion came with her being freed from said ‘love’ because that means it wasn’t a good thing.

Now, Ymir apparently saw herself in Mikasa. I interpret it as she doesn't know Mikasa. Just because Ymir thought their feelings were similar doesn't necessarily mean they were actually similar? We know they were not because the relationship between Ymir and king Fritz and between Mikasa and Eren are nothing similar. It's because Ymir never got to experience real love so she couldn't tell. But in the end, she was able to let go because she saw Mikasa stepping up to kill Eren. But interestingly, Mikasa isn’t letting go. That's a contrast between Ymir and Mikasa. Mikasa kills Eren because it’s necessary but as we see, she still holds him dear in her heart. Mikasa lets go of the unhealthy elements of her attachment to Eren, that part that hindered her from looking at his dark side, and she is able to do what needed to be done. But she does NOT let go of her love that she feels for his warm, caring side.

I personally felt it very fitting how Mikasa left the battlefield after killing Eren. She has done her job, she has actually taken care of the most crucial task and is now entrusting the rest to Armin and her friends. Her job as a hero is done, now she is just Mikasa who still holds Eren dear. Although I’m not getting how she possibly got back to Paradis. She just set out clutching the head? There’s an ocean? Anyway, her burying Eren under that tree essentially indicates her bringing him home like she said she will.

Now to the time skip. We see that the conflict hasn’t been solved as it shouldn’t be because otherwise what message does it send? Genocide was the answer after all? No. Rather than that, Eren’s reckless genocide solved nothing and there’s tension between the world and Paradis where both sides are now living in fear. And after everything, in order to bring peace, they have to talk to and understand each other. No more lies and memory manipulation, they're going to be honest with each other. Just like they did that night in the forest when alliance was formed.

This page actually has a hopeful tone

“Maybe what Eren said was right.”

Maybe.

But they're now trying to make the best decisions to walk towards a better future. Clearly both sides genuinely WANT to do better are looking for peace. So, things might turn out well. It’s an open ending and I choose to be optimistic about it.

Also, Kiyomi is there waiting for the ambassadors with Historia. Which means Paradis has an ally and most importantly, Mikasa has not been all by herself like I had initially thought.

Also, a very important detail. Armin, Jean and Connie didn't abandon Mikasa, they couldn't come back to Paradis because they're not welcome there. That's why. The reason Mikasa can live there is because Armin said he is the one who killed Eren.

This panel right here.

Jean and Connie’s families are there in Paradis. From this we know they do intend to come back there because if they didn't they could've just asked Historia to send their families to them outside Paradis. If Historia can take them in she can also send them outside the island. But they didn’t because they want to come back home. And Mikasa is there.

Regarding Mikasa visiting Eren's grave on his death anniversary, there are four flowers there (I can only see three flowers but four stems). So she probably isn't the only one who went there, she is the one who stayed.

Who was there with her, I don't know. I think Historia might have been there, then she left to receive the ambassadors but Mikasa stayed back. Because she isn't taking part in politics and stuff, she has already done her part and is now waiting for her friends to resolve the rest and waiting for them to come to meet her. Also she's in touch with her friends, otherwise she won't know they’re coming. So, she hasn't isolated herself from the rest of the world like we initially thought.

She has a moment of vulnerability. Crying, thinking of Eren which makes sense because... You never get over losing people. It's just that as time passes, we don’t remember it that often, but when we do, it hurts the same. Her remembering Eren while she's literally sitting by his grave makes complete sense. And neither does her crying mean she hasn't recovered from his loss or hasn't healed at all. That’s absolutely not how it works.

I really like how her attitude changes here. At first she's feeling defeated, as if she has given up, but as the bird wraps the muffler on her she is able to stand up again

I personally think her standing up is a positive imagery. In the last page too, she's standing, looking upwards. It's clearly a sign of hope and I personally see it as a sign that she will be moving on.

I think it's safe to say that Mikasa isn't miserable. She's been doing well, healing and taking small steps. Some things you can only do alone, some monsters you have to face yourself, no-one can help you. And she has been doing it. Eren was a huge part of her life, and she didn't just lose him, it was her who brought his end. Definitely it's going to take her some time to heal. It has only been three years. However, I personally think the worst is over for her. It's an open ending but more importantly it’s not a decisive ending. It’s also a beginning. The story of how humanity got rid of titans ended, but the story of how humanity will finally find peace is just starting. Eren did say long ago that Armin will save humanity. But in the story of humans vs titans, it was Mikasa who saved humanity and not him. But as we can see, humanity is still far from being saved. So this time Armin will step up. And it looks like he is the one leading the ambassadors? So, slowly, they will walk towards a better future. Paradis will be a better place if they don't have to live in constant fear anymore. It'll be easier for Mikasa now that her friends are with her. She will move towards the future while keeping Eren in her heart. Because we know she is capable of doing that since Trost arc. She will keep living and finding beauty in the cruel world.

And as a JeanKasa shipper, I see it as quite a possibility. Since Mikasa always wanted a family. If in the future once she has healed enough, she wants to have one. Because Yams has made it clear that Jean isn't moving on anytime soon. My boy kept fixing his hair for two pages straight as they were about to arrive at Paradis. And like some people mentioned, their hairstyles are similar to that in Jean’s dream in chapter 127 (Mikasa's looks different because it's tied differently but the way her fringe is styled is the same). Given Jean has a thing for Mikasa’s long hair and she now has long hair for the first time since they met, a girl can always hope lol. And they're just 22? None of the characters have been confirmed to be in a relationship. Not even AruAni. I mean we can tell they’re together but you get my point. This is a time skip, but this isn’t exactly where normal epilogues are situated. No-one has settled down. Right now, the story isn’t over yet, they're still busy saving the world. So it's possible. Open ending, so I’ll take the liberty to picture it this way. And Armin said, Mikasa will find someone. And even Eren said he wants her to be happy. I personally don’t see Eren as being toxic for not wanting her to move on. It's completely normal to have selfish desires. He feels how he feels, it's not something he can control but what he CAN control is the consequences of his feelings and he's asking Armin to keep it from Mikasa so that she can move on, find someone else and be happy. He’s trying to do what's best for Mikasa even though it's something he absolutely despises doing. Also, he's 19 and just about to die. He is only human. Now, happiness doesn't necessarily have to come from a romantic relationship but the narrative specifically talked about Mikasa finding someone else. So yeah, I'll headcanon it as such. Others are free to have their own headcanons. In the end, I like this open ending and think it suits the story better than a so X married Y and they lived happily ever after.

In the end, I can confidently say that Mikasa will remain one of my most beloved characters ever.

Edit 1: Saw some people say how Mikasa thanking Eren in the last page ruins her character and means she hasn’t moved on at all etc. But that’s not true? To her, the scarf represents Eren’s warm, caring side. The side that showed her beauty in the cruel world and gave her the will to live even when things get difficult. So, if anything, it’s a positive gesture. Especially since it comes right after a panel where she looks devastated. She was feeling low, too overtaken by the cruelty of her situation and the bird wrapping the scarf reminds her of the beauty and she is standing up. It shows she will keep moving on and living because that’s what Eren taught her. Like, let’s not forget this exists?

The living keeping the dead alive in their memories is a recurring topic in AOT in general and Mikasa is no exception. Finding beauty in cruelty is literally her character’s theme. And it remained so till the end.

Edit 2: I think Mikasa got back to Paradis with help from Kiyomi. Because the last time we saw Kiyomi she was on a boat after her ship sank.

#Mikasa #jeankasa

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ackermanshoe · 4 years ago

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So since I became a rivamika anti ( que my bio ) I apperently lost my right to speak on rivamika 🙄 but this b!tch @ackermanshoe dared me to post a verryy unbiased and veery angry analysis on

Why "call your name" is about rivamika - from Levi's pov.

Since I failed music in high school I don't know shit about music or anything so it'll be purly based on lyrics ok? Ok

• "Call your name" OST on attack on titan, lyrics I'll be pointing out •

Okay so the first paragraph goes

"she lost her brother a month ago (...) and it reminds me when she brings me coffee..."

So apperently if your a delusional rivamika anti like me you'd go under rivamika posts and comments " oMG leVi iS liKe MikAsA's olDeR bRotHer 🥰" but I have to be honest and say that this is pure bullshit 🙄 or whateveRr. Anyway if you're smart like Ackermanshoe and other rivamika shippers ( 🤢 ) then you probably consider Eren as mikasa's brother because of the way she looks after him, and them essentially being a family after mikasa's actual parents died. So in my unbiased theory I'd have to agree that this song is from Levi's point of view, after the war has ended.

( Oh and thank you @thegloomybrat for telling me about this song it's painful :D I love it ! )

Of course from Levi's point of view Eren would be mikasa's brother or something alike because of their dynamic, like I said before Levi is the reality that Mikasa strays away from and he brings her back.

"and it reminds me"

Here Levi digs deep into the past, recalling all his memories not only Mikasa killing Eren but also the war in general. "When she brings me coffee" OKAY IMMA BE HONEST HERE, even if I am a rivamika anti I have to say this is a freaking dead giveaway like (????!!!) Coffee is basically tea but for people who has no will to live and the one person who drinks tea more than anyone else in the series??? Yeah that's fucking right, it's Levi. Since unlike the entire fandom, I'm a SMART anti I can see this fact with my eyes closed. Hence in the first few lines Levi refers to Mikasa loosing Eren ( a month ago ), then he remembers the past when Mikasa brings coffee ( tea ) to him.

" I wish I could be with her till my last day" ( I'm crying 😭 )

Okay so in this Levi's point of view is clear as fuck, he loves Mikasa and wants to spend the rest of his life by her side. Note: this is the past Levi saying he wished he could stay with her until the end.

"she said she gave all her love to me, we dreamt a new life, some place to be at peace" Levi is probably implying that Mikasa cares about him now. Idk how, after reading this verse ANYONE could even think this is about anyone else but Levi and Mikasa. After all Levi's teashop dream and mikasa's desire to have a family all lead to a peaceful quiet life doesn't it? Mikasa returning to a ordinary girl is also her having a peaceful life. " She said She gave all her love to me' idk about y'all but this gives me hints of some promises, it's such a rivamika thing to do in my opinion.

"I lost my dreams in this disaster"

They BOTH dreams of the same peaceful life, but they both had to let go of what they WANT in order to survive, the disaster that got in the middle is the rumbling.

Now for the chorus

"I'm crying missing my lover.."

Okay so idk if I talked about this enough before so I'll quickly touch on the fact that Levi "doesn't know " why Mikasa is SO attached to Eren is because he is jealous. 😒😒 Yeah okay y'all may have won this but even in my anti rivamika Goggles I can see his surpassed jealousy. THINK about it ? Levi is always on the frame when Mikasa is concerned for Eren and he always somehow breaks their convos it's a low-key thing Levi does but the tension is there. It's like when a newborn child is born and the mother gives all her time to the child because it's her child and the father often gets jealous because of it. No matter how you think about it Levi never had someone care for him in such way, even if it ain't romantic, it's jealosuy in some way or another. From his dead mother to uncle Kenny who left him, to countless deaths of his friends and comrades he had to bare it alone and carry it on his shoulder for so long. He is the definition of being lonely at the top, because of his strength. But not with Mikasa, the care she shows for Eren is unlike any other characters care in the series, in my unbiased opinion ( for the 50th time) Levi wants to be treated the same way. And he knows that Eren doesn't appreciate mikasa nearly enough. And no one better then Levi knowns what it's like to miss love from your life.

And so I have to say that he is missing her although he has been living with Mikasa ( and others ) for so long. Let's not forget that Levi is the most emotional character in the anime so obviously if from his POV he said he was crying missing his lover - being loved by Mikasa and added "I don't have the power on my side forever" he knows his weakness and it makes complete sense lmao. Alluding to "humanity's strongest" everyone thinks you're always strong but the fact Levi is actually emotional which is why he doesn't have the "power on his side forever".

"Oh where is my lover" again I have been saying this man is the most patient thing when it comes to mikasa and this is what I mean.

"I'm standing alone (....) Calling out you're name" so this is me referring to my previous post where I mentioned the unnatural amount of time Levi called mikasa's name through out the whole manga. It's sad but Levi has always been alone hasn't he? Even when he had Erwin and hanji and his old squad he was always a lone man due to his powers, I could see the barrier that his power puts between him and everyone else ( apart from Mikasa ofc). But it's strange because y'all remember Mike ? He was thought to be only 2nd best to Levi and yet he was still not nearly there. Interesting.

This could be a example of what I mean I say he is a lone man. After all his future wife and soulmate is literally busy babying another man right Infront of him ( no wonder he looks pissed of all the time lmao 💀 ).

Finally "calling out your name"

"MIKASA? MIKASA!! MIKASA.."

That was 90% of Levi's lines in the recent chapters lmao. I interpret this as Levi knowing this is the conclusion to Eren and mikasa's story and he knows he is the one who can get Mikasa back to reality. He finally called out her name, it's not even a freaking joke, he was literally calling her name and saying her name to himself ughh. Anyway like I said it's like he has accepted a part of him that he kept hidden for a while and now something new has awakened.

IN CONCLUSION, rivamika shippers kinda won this battle 🙄💔 and but tbh as an anti I have to admit that everybody is so wrong if they think this song is about anyone else but Levi and Mikasa 🤡🤡. It's clearly from perspective of Levi from the future who is remembering the past and his feelings for mikasa during it.

(( This is basically all the lyrics and I can't be bothered with the two different lines in the 2nd verse lmao y'all get the idea that rivamika canon yes? Okay.

Can we normalise using #rivamikacanon everytime we talk about them because 🥵

Thank you all for reading my bullshit analysis once freaking again I love y'all so much it's never r a bad at in rivamika Tumblr 😚😚 I hope this made sense lmao ))

#rivamika #levimika #levi x mikasa #rivamika analysis #리바미카 #rivamikacanon #its 3 am and i want to pass away ahah 🥴

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