#anyways i did this gifset a few months ago

[glowing-eu]

e:u ; 230210 - fire @ HMA 2022

[puppetsoftomorrow]

hey uh... is this thing on?

so i'm back? maybe? weird ramble under the cut

so... it's been 18 months.

lots has happened, which you might know if you followed me on twitter before i bowed outta there lol. i got engaged, i got a cat, i'm converting to judaism. i moved house. i'm doing fine <3

and i've really missed legends?

i haven't watched it since cancellation, not a jot, and i watched a lot of other shows since, and i tried branching out original writing, but i had the inspiration to write some more fanfic a few months ago and i've got it again now, and i just - i really miss legends.

i left tumblr one month to the day after cancellation because, frankly, tumblr was giving me massive amounts of anxiety. i worried Constantly about getting called out or getting misinterpreted - which was made 200% worse at the end of s7 because the baby and the renewal campaign got kind of divisive, and i knew i was going to have to quit for my own mental health, so ... i did. and it was a really good decision.

but all other social media just seems ... not for me, and i miss the community on here, and i miss reblogging gifsets and making my little textposts and coming up with silly headcanons, so - i'm back

and it's no secret that - i mean the fandom is gone, right? not totally - and i'm so excited to see everyone who's here - but there just aren't as many people, and that gives me a sense of peace. it doesn't feel so high stakes anymore. and the renewal campaign is over, so that's not something i worry about anymore.

i'm setting myself some boundaries. 1 - if this becomes another source of anxiety for me, i'm leaving lol. 2 - i'm shutting my ask box whenever i want, and i'm not answering asks if i don't want to. 3 - i'm moving this away from being a totally legends blog, bcos there's other good tv shows lmao. 4 - i'm going to be talking more about original writing. fanfiction is still really fun for me, but i want to do Something original, just once in my life.

anyway, if you've made it this far - hello!! i'm excited to see you!!

[gojuo]

omg im that person who sent you an ask like months ago about how I was catelyn and Robb trash before I became aegon and alicent trash. You've been one of the few hotd blogs I can stand because woahh why is this fandom so pleased with mediocre nonsensical work???

Reading your thoughts on each episode was healing because it was like FINALLY, AN INTELLECTUAL, and even though I never fully read the books (yet), the show pissed me off so much (and I have a twin bro who loves it *sigh*)

Anyway, I just discovered that you used to be an aot fan because I stumbled upon an old gifset you made, and YOU'RE AN EREN FAN TOO? Like being a fan of Eren post finale is so bad because all the content creators and meta writers just do not understand my boy. So, this just me fangerling over this lol.

Lastly.....I had a couple friends who only watched the show, but haven't read the manga practically beg me to give jujutsu kaisen a chance. Seeing your blog posts have made me hesitate. Would you recommend? T-T

thank you, and im sleep deprived, so that might explain the atrocious grammar.

OH AND, THAT GRRM BLOG POST. I AM SO GLAD HE SAID SOMETHING. Everyone calling him whiny or unprofessional can stfu. It's his work. His art. I'm glad there are those defending him. Because the nonsense being pulled isn't acceptable.

Omg thank you for the compliments that's literally soooo sweet I really don't think my takes are all that so your words are very flattering, thank you very much 😭🫂 and omg yes I know you sent me an ask and I'm soo sorry I haven't responded yet 😭 I get a lot of asks my inbox is always full plus I'm a workaholic who does a lot of overwork that's why I'm barely online/on hiatus in the first place so asks get buried all the time and I tend to ignore my inbox because I get so overwhelmed it's literally a never-ending cycle I just can't get out of 😭😭 I'll try to answer this weekend but no promises 😓

Oh man don't remind me of those AOT days.... You couldn't even say you understood why Eren did what he did or why there were flaws with Armin's group et al or why there was a point to the Yeagerists without getting hounded ... but to be fair I do think Isayama sorta failed in conveying his messages and themes properly but oh well ... It's done and gone I AM FREE and I will never discuss AOT ever again lmao

About JJK...... man.... it hurts.... It was so good...... until it wasn't 😭 Listen it starts out as a 6 or 7 out of 10 until it grows into a pure 10 out of 10 score for the Hidden Inventory & Shibuya Incident arcs ... and then it falls down a steep cliff right into a, in my generous opinion, 2 out of 10 score 😖 Post-Shibuya is so bad I can't even explain it bc it hurts too much to think about... I used to love this series so much and it turned into... this... It's heartbreaking. I only recommend JJK to you if you're aware that it's not that good and it's mostly carried by its battles rather than its plot or characters. And tbh the community is fun. I've had the time of my life when JJK was at its peak in summer '23 and even if the manga is ending in a few weeks, the anime is still ongoing for a few years at least, so there's that too if you care about that ❤

[iam93percentstardust]

so one of the things that i think is happening in the likes vs reblogs debate is that when people who support reblogging over liking say things like "likes don't do anything," they don't mean they literally don't do anything. what they mean is that in the grand scheme of how this site works--as a blogging platform--a like doesn't share the post any further than your own blog. no one else is ever going to see the post; it's going to end right there.

but, for whatever reason, whether it's in bad faith or just misunderstanding, people who support liking over reblogging seem to consistently take this as the other side does mean that liking literally doesn't do anything, which they then meet with the argument that of course it does something. it, as i saw someone put it today, gives my internet friend a boost of serotonin.

the thing is, a lot of these people who are against "likescolding" seem to have this idea that they're fighting against the all-terrible algorithm, and what they're forgetting is that in the process, they're hurting the very real people on the other side of the computer screen. going back to the serotonin argument, yeah, i do get a boost of serotonin from receiving a like, or i did back when i was still bothering to post here. so it would follow, therefore, that i get more serotonin from more likes. but in order to get more, someone is going to have to suck it up and reblog the post so that other people can see it, because my reach on its own only goes so far. if the entire argument rests on giving me serotonin, then shouldn't a reblog give me serotonin as well? why are likes the only form of acceptable serotonin givers?

which leads me into my next point, that by demanding reblogs, i'm supposedly just a greedy numbers counter who can't be satisfied with what i have. and frankly, at this point, after watching this argument go round and round in circles for literal years, i don't think that anything i say is going to change anyone's minds. the people who say i should be satisfied with likes are going to say that i'm greedy and want more attention no matter what argument i present. it doesn't seem to matter to them that i have activity muted on tumblr and statistics muted on ao3 and therefore can't even see the numbers. but i'm hopeful that some of the newer people on this site will see this and understand why i'm arguing for the value of reblogging, so i'm going to say it anyway.

let me paint a picture for you: i joined my current fandom on tumblr almost exactly five years ago. the biggest movie to date had just been released, the fandom was thriving, and i vividly remember seeing artwork after fanfic after gifset on my dash. if i tried to scroll back through my dash in the morning to where i'd left off the previous night, it would take me hours because so many fanworks were being created and posted and shared while i was asleep. the very first fanfic i posted to tumblr for this fandom got more than a thousand notes literally overnight. i'd only been a part of the fandom for a few months at that point and had very few fandom followers, but the field was more than welcoming to a new writer.

but then the landscape changed.

within two years, i'd started to notice a drop in reblogs. i can't tell you for certain what the reason was. maybe it was covid fatigue, maybe it was purity and anti-culture being driven to an all-time fever pitch, maybe it was that people were leaving my fandom, once one of the biggest on the site, for other, more diverse media. i really can't tell you what the reason was, but as the reblogs started to drop, fan creators started begging. and as the creators begged, i suddenly started seeing these posts circulating about how creators should be grateful for the likes and lurkers, and asking for anything more was just being greedy.

slowly, the number of fanworks on my dash started to drop. the fanfics went first. for whatever reason, maybe because reading a fic is more time-consuming, people were particularly hateful towards fanwriters wanting more reblogs. writers tried various tricks, writing shorter fics, putting things under read mores, posting in the form of bulleted headcanons, but nothing really worked. and so they stopped posting. and then they left tumblr altogether. i see a lot of them on discord, and occasionally, twitter now, but i don't see them on tumblr.

the art was next. see, a lot of the artists in my fandom make money off their art, which meant they relied on those reblogs as a way to get their name out there. and if those reblogs aren't happening, and if people are deriding commissions because they think fanworks should be free and available to everyone, then no one is seeing their commission posts. and if the site is already hostile to artists, which it has been since the tumblr purge of 2018, then why are they still on this site when they can be on twitter and instagram?

now i'm watching it happen again with gifmakers. that old resentment is building back up, this time around reposting gifsets and claiming them as their own creation. people claim to be unable to make cool gifsets so they have to steal them, and in the process, other people stop reblogging the original gifmaker. as of writing this, i haven't seen us reach the point where the gifmakers start to leave, but i'm betting it'll happen soon.

you know how many new fics i've seen this last week on my dash? three.

you know how many new artworks? eight.

you know how many shitposts i've seen? political posts? posts lamenting the deaths of whatever current fandom op is in? too many to count.

i'm one of the people who doesn't post my fics on tumblr anymore. i don't see the point. i'll get a much bigger reception talking about them on twitter. and i feel bad for all the newcomers arriving here because their dashes are going to be full of shitposts and politics and misinformation and reposts from tiktok where they once would have been full of stories and art.

but i wonder. if people keep on this reblogging hate train, will we lose the shitposts and politics and reposts from tiktok too? you're not obligated to reblog everything, i'm not even saying that you're obligated to reblog anything, but if we keep going the way we're going, if more and more people drop a like and keep scrolling, will we soon reach a point where there's nothing on our dashboards at all?

fandom is a community, and i think that that's something that people tend to forget. creators create for themselves, but they share for everyone else. i see a lot of posts talking about how creators will stop sharing if all they receive is silence, but most of those are old posts that miss that creators have already received silence. they've already stopped sharing. they've already left.

the thing is, before i gave up on posting to this site, i used to remind myself that if ten people were sitting in my apartment, listening to me read my fics, i would think that's a lot of people and be very honored in the hopes that it would make me feel less sad about the fact that in just a few years, people stopped reading what i wrote. and it isn't that it's wrong, but five years ago, even as a new writer, i was reading my fics to packed auditoriums with standing room only.

and there's a big difference between speaking to an auditorium and speaking to my living room.

no one is obligated to reblog. no one is owed a reblog. and likes do actually do something. but sharing does something too, and it doesn't hurt anyone to reblog it. truth be told, i think we're already past the point of no return; i don't think we'll ever see the creators who've already left come back. but that doesn't mean we can't make this a welcoming space for new creators or that we have to make them feel bad for wishing that more people would share their fanworks. i see a lot of those posts railing against likescolding talking about how it's not okay that likescolding makes them feel bad, so i guess my question to those posters is this:

why is it okay to make the creators feel bad instead?

[lynne-monstr]

hi blog. here we are at the last day of the year, we made it!

i've said before that i'm not one for resolutions and i stand by that. the things i want at the beginning of each year remain ever the same. (money goals, fitness goals, health goals. blah blah blah, rinse wash repeat.)

however there are a few small things i'd like to get better at, so i guess this post is as good a place as any for that. this is less of a 2025 list and more of a general life guide, really.

more crafts! i learned crochet in 2024 and it was super fun. going forward, I'd like to try and learn one new craft a year. i've had my eye on ceramics lately, and so I signed up for the mailing list of my local pottery studio in hopes that when they open up classes for the winter or spring, i can snag a spot.

obligatory fitness stuff here. today, i hit 4 continuous miles in my running recovery which is so great! a year ago I told my physical therapist i wanted to run 10 miles again and i continue to strive towards that. tbh i also need to do more strength training which i do not enjoy as much as running but perhaps that's also something to think about in 2025. once i get over the tendinitis in my thumb it might be time to start lifting again.

travel more. my travel fell off a cliff in 2020, for obvious reasons, and I never got it back. reminder to myself to do more 4 day weekend small trips.

fun fandom stuff! the writing hasn't been happening lately for me, and I chalk it up to the ideas slowing down after many years in the same fandom. i have a handful of old wips in the pile and i'd like to finish up and post at least one of them. also i want to make more gifsets. and as always, i dream of being able to watch a show and jump into writing fic for it. me @ me: you don't need to lurk for 6-8 months before attempting to write. maybe next year I can write one (1) fast fic for a fandom quickly after finishing a new drama.

I guess that's a wrap. i can't say this was a good year for me (despite many good things happening, the bad stuff was bad, and 2024 has been my worst year to date. fingers crossed it stays that way. i'd prefer not to get a new reigning champion again so soon.) anyway, i don't want to end on a negative note, so please know that my red lentil soup was so good that I made another one (a different recipe) and it was even better, which i did not think was possible!

despite the shitshow this year has been, things are good for the moment, which i suppose is all I can ask for.

happy new year, blog! I hope there are good things in store for us all.

[a-force-dyad-in-space]

A Fanfic Update

Hey guys, I thought I should give you an update about what's going on Ongoing-WIPs-wise just in case you've had some worries.

The short of it is that the writing juices haven't flowed well for a while now and I'm trying to get them back but it is a struggle. I've worked a bit on this fic or other but haven't made significant progress in a few months. I absolutely hope that will change soon but I unfortunately can't force it. It doesn't help that I'm going through some stuff IRL right now that I have to take care of (I am unfortunately an adult who has to do adulting and pay bills and shit 🥲). I try not to be too stressed out about it, but the more time passes the more the anxiety sets in. Wish me luck. 💪🏻

Anyway, here's a fic-by-fic overview, split up by fandom.

THE UNTAMED

The Angsty SongXue Fic — I'll be honest, I've written a little bit since I last updated you guys but I still haven't finished the buffer chapter (at this point I'm thinking about posting chapter 51 even though 52 isn't done yet), so nothing really new here. I really want to get back into a writing flow but so far it hasn't really worked. I am still working on it, though, so don't worry, I'm not going to drop it.

The It Follows AU — I'm ashamed to say I didn't even realize I posted that fic almost two years ago and I still haven't written the second half. I'm so sorry it's taking so long! I definitely still want to finish it! I might rewatch the It Follows movie before I do that, though.

The Observer Series — Oh yeah, remember that smutfic series I started a few years ago of which I've only posted part 1 so far? Yeah, I still need to work on that. I did write chapter 1 of part 2 a while ago, so it's not like it's forgotten, I just need to get my ass up and write the rest of part 2 before I can post it. 🙈

The Color Rush AU — Okay, technically I haven't posted that one yet but I did share a snippet along with a gifset a few years ago, so you guys know it exists. I haven't worked on it in a long time, though, and I don't know yet when I will find the spoons to continue writing it but I'm still intrigued by the premise and want to give it a go. Thank you for your patience!

The Somewhat Sweet, Somewhat Angsty XuanXian Fic — Again, haven't posted that one yet but I've been posting about it, so you guys know it exists. Nothing new on this front. I did want to rewrite the whole thing because I wasn't really happy with the way I wrote it thus far, so I'll probably go back to it at some point and do that, I just don't know when yet.

WORD OF HONOR

The Xie'er Deserves the World Fic — Listen, guys, I love this fic so much, I just haven't worked on it in a while. I'll probably re-read what I've written so far and go on from there, I've just been struggling with the latest chapter ever since I started writing it years ago. It's not dropped, though, I will get back to it! Pinky swear!

SAILOR MOON

I've mentioned here and there that I'm working on part 1 of an epic that is based on a doujinshi I started when I was 13 or 14. Unlike my other WIPs, this one really is 100% self-indulgent to the point where I don't even care whether people will read/like it once I post it when it's completely done. I'll just put it out there to make my teenage self happy because this story has been simmering in my head for over 20 years, and so that my IRL friends can read it if they want to. So, this one will be a long way out, but it exists. I'm only really mentioning it because I've mentioned it a couple of times before and because it's the fic that's been on my mind the most lately.

STAR WARS

You didn't think I forgot about TROBS, did you????? I did work on several beginnings of a draft during NaNoWriMo last year and I'm getting more and more of a clear picture of how I want it to go. For those unfamiliar, TROBS (or The Rise of Ben Skywalker, though I already changed the name of the fic again) is my attempt at an Episode IX fix-it fic that essentially replaces TROS. This one has been simmering in my head since early 2020 and I really want to get it out of there and onto the page for catharsis. I've even held off on reading any other TROS fix-its because of it, even though I've heard there are some really amazing ones out there (and I can't wait to read them once I've gotten my own out of my damn head). I really need to finally finish that beast. Wish me luck. 🥲

UNPOSTED WIPs

I still have so many notes for other fics (mostly for The Untamed) that I want to write at some point. Will I be able to get them all on the page? I honestly don't know, but I'll see where they take.

Anyway, that's all!

[mischas]

Hi! I’ve always loved your gifs and I gotta say they have never looked better! Would you mind sharing a bit of your giffing process? Do you have any tips for giffing shows that don’t have HD (💔) episodes available? Anyway, thanks for your creations and for being so passionate about this character and this ship! Xxx

😭😭 you’re too kind, thank you. First off, we got blessed by the show being put on Max so the upconversion from even a few years ago has recently improved when it comes to redness and pixels (for the later seasons but even more for the first season). Thank god for t*rr*nts.

Second, my general advice for episodes in low quality is to stick to 268px gifsets rather than attempting 540px because lq episodes just aren’t conducive to wide gifs (in general!! some people have done incredible things with PS and lq videos). Doesn’t mean I haven’t tried though 😅 I def used to do this for Dawson’s Creek before their own migration to Max.

As for some tips:

I use the import method to make gifs which is less common than loading caps into stacks but it's how I've always done it.

For coloring, I'm really a novice even though I've been doing it for years. I'm nowhere near as skilled as most gifmakers on here but I like doing it and it's fun. I really recommend looking through the tutorials on @usergif ! Also, this tutorial was one I learned a lot of basic techniques from, including things I describe below.

Two adjustment layers that I think are really important for most gif-making is Curves and Channel Mixer but I'll share all that I did for this one scene in a gifset I posted a few months ago.

Here it is with no added coloring (though it has been smart sharpened):

First I use a Brightness/Contrast layer and set it to 73 brightness and 3 contrast:

This is where Curves comes in. I use the black eyedropper tool to select Ryan's jacket to bring out the black in the cap/gif:

So right now it's super saturated but that's a good thing that we can work with. Also, I'm no good at explaining PS so here's a good tutorial that explains Curves a little better. I like Curves because it emphasizes colors while also brightening the image (there's probably a way better way of describing it).

I add another Curves layer to brighten it (I probably used Auto on RGB; that so often works tbh):

Then I use Levels to get rid of some of that redness while also upping the green and blue (generally just sliding the thing until it looks good):

So to me this is way too green and yellow but still somehow red which is why I next bring in my favorite layer which is Channel Mixer. Basically this is the layer that helps with getting rid of the yellow filter many tv shows use that drives all us editors mad. It neutralizes your image which I think really helps with lq video. Here's an in-depth tutorial.

This final cap skews more purple than it probably should but it felt right to me in the moment when I made it. Looking back I probably would've gone even harder on the Channel Mixer to neutralize that blue/red combo but I like the coolness of the tones and the contrast we get:

I'm 100% sure I didn't explain this well enough but @usergif really is a great resource so I rec looking around there. For all footage but especially lq footage it's important to neutralize the image which usually means eliminating the redness and the yellow tones.

Let me know if there's anything else I can help with!

[cmdonovann]

Accomplishments! Quantum Break fansite in progress!

(originally posted June 8th, 2023; crossposted from dreamwidth.)

Well, I removed Tumblr from my phone to prevent me from wasting so much time there, which means I now have nowhere to easily and quickly post my inane thoughts (at least not without feeling like I'm bothering people on Discord or in direct messages, though perhaps that's something I should work on). You know what that means! It means I'm probably going to try posting them here instead. Thing I want to post about: I'm making a Quantum Break fansite! I've been wanting to do this for ages, and actually started putting together a couple of little graphics for it during the "Quantum Break Appreciation Month" event I ran on Tumblr in April, but I hadn't made much progress on the project since then... until the past few days, anyway, when I started brainstorming what I actually want to do with the site, how I want to lay it out, and so on. Yesterday I put together some CSS for the site, and today I did The Hard Part: I set up a git/GitHub repo for the site, and got the "deploy to neocities" script working for it, so I can easily and quickly make updates to the site in VSCode, then push from there to GitHub to neocities all at once, like I do with my personal site. Was this an absolute pain to set up? Yes! Somehow, it took me even longer to do it a second time than it did the first! But I did it myself, with a lot of encouragement and rubber duck-ing from a few very helpful people in the Fandom Coders chat. Can't say I'm not proud of myself for that. I would not have had the skill or confidence a year ago to do something like this, especially not all the mucking about I did in the terminal trying to set up the git repo in the first place. Anyway, I am, to put it mildly, extremely fucking excited to continue working on this site. I've got big plans: first order of business is to get an archive set up of all the Quantum Break fanfic I can get my hands on (and get permission from the authors for). After that, I'm probably going to do the same for fanart and image edits like photosets and gifsets from Tumblr, since the CSS page styling for those will likely be similar (though I expect to run into some attribution problems with older Tumblr posts, what with so many deactivated or moved blogs post-2018). Once that's sorted out, I'm considering looking into the best way to archive fanvids, but honestly that might be put off for a while longer, as video hosting and video players are way out of my skill level currently. Maybe I'll import some of my Quantum Break playlists from my personal site, too? Oh yeah, and at some point down the line, I want to make a searchable wiki with transcripts of all the in-game narrative objects. But "searchable" is probably going to be a stumbling point there, and transcribing takes ages, so this will be last priority, I think. Wow, that's... a lot, actually! Damn! This is gonna take a while. Not that I mind spending a couple of years poking at a project, obviously. *Gestures at my longfic that took four years to finish...* I've been neck deep in this fandom for over seven years, what's another five or ten? XP

btw, since it's fairly easy to post images on tumblr (compared to dreamwidth, anyway), here's a screenshot of the section that's currently in progress: the fic archive index!

(ignore my filler text... i usually use karkalicious as my lorem ipsum, so at least i'm not committing THAT particular crime here.)

i'm still futzing around a little with the styling (negative margin my beloathed) but it's coming along pretty well! i've already got a branch where i've started... you know, actually adding fic to the site, but i won't merge that into the main and add a link to the front page until the style problems have been fixed (or at least, fixed enough to be easily navigable on mobile, which... is not the case right now, lolrip).

[sophsun1]

soph i managed less than 2 months before the siren song of your gifs called me back (it’s impossible to quit tumblr as long as the QAF fandom still exists here, i guess! anyway <3

(this is ivysunna btw in case my taylor icon didn’t make that clear!)

Hey friend!

This is so funny I literally just left a comment on your fic like ten minutes ago and the next thing I know you pop up in my notes!

You and Taylor are forever linked in my mind no worries on that hehe

This whole qaf one braincell thing we've all got going on is out of control lmaoooo

Welcome back it's good to see you, listen two months away from here is an achievement. I hope you've been well and had a nice break :)

@winderlylandchime did tell me about the fic you dropped coinciding with my gifset yesterday.

All the usual suspects are still around and a few new faces, it's true as long as there's two of us still yelling about qaf it's a fandom right.

[bahamutgames]

AFTERTHOUGHTS - ROUNDUP ROUND 7

September 2023

Happy October! I'm a little late here because I had to take a health break from being online for a few days. But I'm back now! It's getting colder outside, and Halloween (my favorite holiday!) is right around the corner!

Also... hello new followers! This blog has basically been a ghost town since I started it but unexpectedly, some gifsets I made last month REALLY took off! So now I've got almost 50 followers. Usually I wouldn't do so much preamble on a roundup post but I feel the need to explain myself a little bit. This is what this blog is mostly for, posting my thoughts and opinions on games I played recently. To keep them neatly organized and also not clogging up everyone's feeds. I understand this is NOT what most of you followed for, so feel free to unfollow if you like. If not, I hope you enjoy what I have to say!

As with EVERYTHING I share here, these are not reviews. This is just word vomit from me sharing my thoughts on games. Nothing I say should be taken as fact, and if anything I talk about is interesting to you, you should absolutely play it and form your own opinion!

That's that on that, let's tackle the September games!

Rayman Origins (November 15, 2011) - PS3

Hey! Look! I beat my first Rayman game! Similarly to BB, I actually got this game years ago, but never managed to beat it at the time. But with the Rayman Mario + Rabbids DLC out (which I still haven't bought lol BUT I WANT TO REAL BAD!) I figured it was time to finally take the plunge into this series! And I LOVED it! I was having such a killer time with it! Super gorgeous visuals, AMAZING music (I love how goofy it is the lum song was stuck in my head forever afterwards lol), genuinely funny plot, very fun gameplay, the works. But... Partway through the game, suddenly the whole plot changes and you're no longer dealing with demons? And then you have to go through all the worlds a second time and fight a final boss that has nothing to do with the story? Only to then afterwards be told to go through AGAIN and collect almost all the electoons so you can fight the ACTUAL final boss in a super long, super brutal level that's just a long string of memorization. It felt like the second half of the game was made by a different team, it just didn't feel nearly as good and it kinda killed the game for me in the end. I did enjoy the first half a lot though, so I will absolutely check out some of the 3D Rayman games soon, but I might steer clear of Legends atm.

One thing I have to say though: dude the Nymphs are SO hot! Like, they are SO fine it's actually insane. A lot of games will make horny character designs and flaunt them constantly and they're just okay. But no, Rayman Origins earned it. I'm so thirsty for them, that character designer deserves a raise. ANYWAY-

Mortal Kombat 11 (April 23, 2019) - Xbox One

And here we go with my first gamepass game of the month lol. My sister was very kind and gave me a month for my birthday, and one of the first things I beat was a simple arcade run of MK11! MK is a series I actually have an odd amount of history with, but it's also a series I just never really got into. But I did find myself watching the 11 story mode, and I'll try it out whenever it comes into my path. So, here we are. I played as Scorpion, who tends to be my favorite especially whenever Reptile isn't available, and just did a run of the Arcade ladder. I had a good time with it! I'm always impressed with how simple it is despite how edgy it is. And I think being able to make your own custom movesets is super cool (mine mostly just consisted of his classic moves cause they're all I know lol.) Game looks great, has some really gorgeous stages, again, considering how edgy it is, and I thought the final boss was really neat. My only complaints come from the lootbox stuff, I know you can unlock everything for free but I really hate when games put all the customization options behind random chance rather than just putting it in a shop where I can pick and choose what I want. Injustice 2 did the same thing, but thankfully in MK it looks like you don't have to pay for anything. Neat time other than that though.

Gyromite (August 13, 1985) - NES

Next up is a game I didn't technically "beat" since it has like 99 levels. But I did play through the first few levels out of curiosity and I actually enjoyed it so much I wanted to give it a shout out! Gyromite is actually one of the NES games made to work with ROB from Super Smash Bros. Brawl (they made the NES after that game came out). And I wanted to see if I could emulate ROB... I could not. But I already had Gyromite downloaded so I decided to play it myself, and I gotta say. I think it's more fun by yourself with 2 controllers! You play as a scientist trying to get all the bombs without getting touched, and you use the second controller to lift and raise gates to help bridge gaps or stop enemies. Also, you can collect carrots to distract enemies. It's really basic but it's actually a SUPER fun game that I think deserves more love! If you haven't tried it, I do think it's a neat little experience that really deserves to be on NSO.

Dracula X (July 21, 1995) - SNES

Hey, my second Castlevania game! And uh... man idk I did not like this nearly as much as Super Castlevania 4 lol. Idk what the consensus on this is, I know fans consider it to be a non canon stripped down version of a much better game. But I figured I could play this in a night, and I was right! Also, I'm no good at Metroidvanias so I figured I'd play the platformer. And yeah, this game kinda sucks. Feels super clunky to play, has some bizarre enemy placements that make the game almost impossible at some scenes. And generally, outside of some nice sprites and the always BANGING Castlevania music, it's just kinda boring. The only real praise I can sing (outside of the super good music) is that the Wolfman totally kicks ass! He was so cool and genuinely the best boss fight in the game. So while I wasn't really into it, I know that if I had played the REAL game this was based on, it would probably have been a lot better.

Venba (July 31, 2023) - PC

Next up is another Gamepass game! I wanted to play Venba since I first saw it because it just looked really nice and cute! And that's exactly how I'd describe it now that I've played it! It's a very nice story about an immigrant mother, her relationship with her husband, her child, and the food she cooks. And so each level consists of you trying to cook a meal with your mother's cookbook, which has become really messed up over the years. Each level is a puzzle where you try to figure out the right way to cook, and see how it brings the family together. I really had a great time with it! These simple and cute games are always a blast to play and a nice breath of fresh air. And it actually made me pretty emotional. Obviously it's not the same experience at all cause I'm white but it did seriously make me think about my relationship with my mother who also came to America for similar reasons. The game actually almost made me cry lol, but more importantly, it made me hungry! I might have to try cooking some stuff they showed in it! Biriyani in particular really caught my interest as something that just looks CRAZY tasty. And hey, maybe I'll ask my mom to help me make some Romanian food too haha.

Outside of that, the music is really nice, I think most of it is licensed? Or at least is lyrical music performed for the game and it's great. And I particularly loved the art style, which no outlines and a more spraypaint looking brush. It's incredibly unique looking! And Venba herself is SO cute, she's so fine. I love her. I want her to be happy. If you're looking for a nice, short game to play through for an easy and relaxed experience, I can't recommend Venba enough!

Metroid: Zero Mission (February 9, 2004) - Gameboy Advance

Remember when I said I didn't like Metroidvanias a game or two ago? Well, sometimes you gotta step out of your comfort zone. I've only beaten 2 games in the genre before, Ori and Radical Rescue. Ori was good and RR was... neat. But I've never beaten a single metroid in my life until now! I chose Zero Mission for a few reasons, but two big ones are that it's a remake of the first game. And the second is that I actually did play and enjoy this one in the past. But clearly I did not get very far cause I didn't remember SHIT lmao. I planned on playing this side by side with a walkthrough, but I'll admit I actually had a faster and way more fun time just genuinely using the maps the game gave me and just running around. It's fun to figure it out and get upgrades and be like "OH I can do that thing now!" it's like a collectathon lol. The music is nice, the sprites are KILLER (I'm a huge GBA sucker after all).

But of particular interest. Dude. Oh my god. The Zero Suit scene. Holy shit. It's so scary! I was seriously screaming during it! It does such a good job of building tension and just making the situation so scary and dire, and then jump scaring you when the space pirates actually go through doors and climb through vents. It was seriously so bone chilling. But then getting the full power suit and running back through the ship and seeing all the space pirates cower in fear at your might, even hiding in the places you had to hide before? Genuinely brilliant. It was so exhilarating and got such a good reaction out of me. I absolutely ADORED this game! Idk if I'll play many more Metroidvanias past this but damn am I glad I gave this one a go!

Punch-Out!! (May 18, 2009) - Wii

And last, and least! Punch-Out!! Another game series I've never beaten any games in before! I could have played the NES one which probably would've been shorter, but again for a few reasons I decided on the Wii one. It's the newest, seems to be the most popular(?), and also was new when I was a lot younger so I have some nostalgia for when it was coming out. So I played it and uh... Yeah I really did not enjoy this game at all. I know this series is SUPER beloved with tons of fans but I just do not get the appeal. Tons of memorization, the characters are all kinda ugly and also yeah it's kinda racist, boring gameplay. Idk I just was not really into it. Full disclosure, it is a bit of a skill issue. I could not beat Soda Popinsky so I had to use an infinite Star Punch cheat lol. Everyone else I beat legit or at least did the first round and then cheated (I only did this for the characters after Soda, when I stopped caring). But not, him I could not do.

It's not all doom and gloom though. I do think the music is also pretty good in it. And I do have to give the game some props, everyone who comes from another region does legit speak their native language I believe. Which fucking rules actually. And I guess it gave us Little Mac in Smash Bros. Who is fun. But idk, yeah I just wasn't really into this. Oh well, different strokes for different folks. At least I played it!

[shelbydelrey]

Although not as egregious or serious as the literal abuse suffered by what it seems to be multiple women in the Cillian Murphy fandom, i've noticed his display of creepy behaviour here on the platform. I believe @mrkdvidal1989 became famous for his tirades against the character Grace Burgess from Peaky Blinders. He hijacked positive posts about her and gifsets where the character is praised to call her a "whore", a "bitch" and certainly other derogatory terms.

If you know me or have been following my blog for a long time, you know that i, myself am no fan of Grace. But i would NEVER go as far to start an harrassment campaign against her simply because i don't like her. I have a life and she's fictional at the end of the day. And this isn't even the most important matter. The fact that a man inside a predominantly female and/or queer fandom used depreciative language to "express" his feelings over a (fictional) woman is a giant RED FLAG. I do not give a fuck about your 'freedom of speech'. This is not how you address people!

I tried calling him out a few months ago with this post

but unfortunately didn't name or tag him for good measure. In response i was even shunned for it:

He did also crossed several boundaries in what i consider tumblr etiquette. In the instance below a follower reached out to a writer (the writer is NOT mrkdvidal btw) regarding the descriptive language used in a x Reader fanfic:

And this was his response (to a situation where he wasn't even remotetly associated with):

I don't appreciate an inch of his mockery. I don't expect everyone to relate to this but as a WOC, knowing the difficulties of representation on media and in fandom can't help but be livid at his fucking behaviour. The subject never concerned him but he felt like his opinion was earned to be shat out in the world anyway.

The instance above is more up to interpretation because OP did ask a this or that question. But as a writer myself i can't help but feel that OP wanted validation in their desire to branch out fandoms and it's courtesy to give our mutuals/followers/friends exactly. Not trim their will because it doesn't personally suit you.

If you made up here: thank you. This things have been on my chest for a while and i should have the courage to stand up against this behaviour sooner. Now, i beg all of you to not turn a blind eye to red flags and harrassment. Their reveal a person's true character and intentions. Stay safe folks ✌🏾

PSA - Community Predator

Over a series of months, myself and other Tumblr users -- fic writers, gif makers, fans of created content -- have been victimised by @mrkdvidal1989, who has extensively lied about who he is, preyed on multiple women and denied involvement -- therefore ruining friendships, reputations and feelings, and promised me life-saving medical treatment that he never followed through on.

More information including mine and their stories under the cut.

The reason I am going public with this is twofold:

A) To protect others from being hurt. He is known to reach out to many tumblr users, especially young women in the Cillian Murphy fandom -- but he may have a wider reach beyond this circle. B) Since his "disappearance" three weeks ago and the unravelling of his lies, this man has ruined my life and the only hope I had of obtaining treatment for a condition that has been plaguing me for four years.

Killian Vidal is the name he has chosen to give us, and has claimed to be both a officer commander and general in the mobility troop in the SAS (the general rank does not even exist), has beaten cancer a while ago (but said to another mutual that his "time was running out" and he is currently struggling with it), and a plethora of other life experiences and general knowledge about him that varies in consistency when talking to different people and is questionable in its validity. He has also shared pictures of "himself" that when reverse image searched, belong to different people.

I got to know Kill when he reblogged one of my fanfics (as the story seems to start with a lot of his victims) and he reached out via DMs. We quickly became close friends who called nearly every day on Discord and when I told him about my health issues, he immediately offered to pay for my medical treatment wherever I could find willing doctors.

I was hesitant to believe this at first since all of this seemed too good to be true (and was). He claimed to be very wealthy, enough to afford private jets like it was nothing and to rent me an apartment in the UK in the same building as him. Over time, I grew to trust him because he felt like such a genuine person and friend, which was made all the more believable by the fact that he has such a huge following on Tumblr and was, at the time, part of a vast social network of fans and friends (one of which he even claimed to know IRL -- who will remain anonymous unless they decide to speak out). I decided to ignore the little red flags because I was so desperate to receive this treatment that for me would be life-saving.

For four years, I have been plagued by an array of (mostly) undiagnosed digestive issues that have made my life almost unbearable and have on numerous occasions nearly killed me due to malnutrition. I've spent months in hospital, endured years of malpractice and misdiagnoses, undergone heart surgery, and have tried absolutely everything I can to get better. In the winter of 2023, I was told by my doctor that I was refused in the TPN program (a treatment that may have slowed or stopped my weight loss) and that with or without it, I was looking at mortality. Refusing to stop fighting but having exhausted the public health care system in Canada, I went into 2024 not really having much hope of anything anymore.

So, when Kill came along, that changed. He promised -- and I mean, from the bottom of his heart, promised -- that he would help me get treatment, that he would get me out of my abusive home and fly me to the UK, that he would be there for me as my friend, etc. I was beyond grateful, and as my trust with him built, so did my hope.

The travel plans kept getting put off; originally, he would fly me out as soon as the apartment became available, which was the 11th of Feb, 2024. He kept finding excuses to not book the jet. Finally, it seemed as if around the 15th/16th I would be flying. My health had been declining rapidly and the situation was becoming all the more urgent, and he said he was in contact with a pilot and would send the ticket soon and call me.

That was the last I heard from him. The 16th.

Initially thinking he had ended his life (he had discussed thoughts of suicide with me prior to this), I was beside myself with worry not only thinking one of my closest friends was gone but also that my chance at life was. I reached out to his other friends, and I made several calls to the UK authorities and emergency services and ended up requesting a welfare check be made to see if he was even alive.

They reported that no one under the name Killian Vidal was in the records of the building name he gave me -- the same building that I was meant to live in within that week.

After reaching out to my now beloved friend @kittenonpluto (A.K.A., Cas) on Tumblr, I learned that Kill was in fact alive, and had told her that he was in hospital for digestive issues in Indianopolis, United States (though again, no record of his name in their medical system). He still wouldn't talk to me, but told her to tell me that he would reach out when he was out of hospital.

Cas and I compared information he'd told us (her story will be attached to this post) and looked into the mystery more. He constantly dodged confrontation and questions about the fake photos and information he'd sent her, and seemed to use his completely fabricated hospitalisation as an excuse to not fulfil his promises to myself and her, as well as a means to garner sympathy.

It was quite obvious that he didn't know how the American medical system worked, and he even incorporated elements of my actual story and used them in his. When asked about his treatments, he responded with medically false information. He reported digestive issues, reflux, and having both an NG tube and TPN -- both of which I have experience with -- and let me say, I am beyond disgusted and infuriated that my real life trauma was used as a ploy in all this.

How do we know for a fact this is false? I checked the police case for his welfare check again, and they said that they confirmed him being in the UK at the same time he had told Cas he was in hospital in the States.

After a final confrontation from both Cas and myself (and a desperate final plea for the medical aid he promised me), he was never heard from again from either of us or our friend circles.

I'm now having to pick up the pieces he's left me in and to be honest, I have little to no idea of what the hell to do or how to save myself. The fact that he strung me along for a month and built up my hope that I was going to live only to abandon me without even a word is deplorable to me.

And mine isn't the only story. I've heard from four women on Tumblr (who, again, will remain anonymous unless they choose to speak out) who he has been romantic or sexually involved with (and lied about his involvement, made them out to seem insane or toxic, created rifts in our friendships, toyed with their emotions, and made false promises to of relationships, marriage, and finances).

And that's not including the ex-wife who came back to Tumblr to claim that her and Kill had never met nor married. She was promptly silenced by a "lawyer threat" that we have strong reason to believe was a bluff.

At the end of the day, there are so many lies, half-truths, inconsistencies, etc. this man has wrapped himself in and we don't know for the life of us what his motives are, but from the information that we do know is false, he isn't genuine. He toys with people. He hurts them. Myself and the others that have been affected by this want that to stop.

And at any point, he has the ability to make a new account, and take on a new persona, pretend to be someone else. Tumblr is a wonderful place and I have met so many cool people on here, but please be careful about who you interact with and what you share, because aside from making this post, it is beyond my power to stop him from doing what he does. But after what he did to me, I could not remain silent.

Other Stories

If you have an experience or story with Killian that you would like heard, please reblog it on this thread or make a post. With your consent, I can include a link to it below.

Final Note

Lastly, if you have read this far, thank you.

If you want to reach out to me about this issue -- whether it's to anonymously share your experience, ask questions, ask for evidence (of which I can back up these statements with), or anything at all --, please do not hesitate to do so. <3

For those who may be worried about the potential legality of this post, everything that I have stated as fact is fact and it is not my intention to slander or spread false information.

[iamdeltas]

me a few months ago, after seeing the trailers for WandaVision and the Falcon and the Winter Soldier: It would be so funny if I essentially became a Marvel Tumblr again. It'd be just like how some of the Tumblrs I follow became Supernatural blogs again somehow!

me now: ...well, damn.

[bloodydeanwinchester]

hey guys i just hit 1k followers last week and i wanted to do something to celebrate! but since i just had a creator event last month for my birthday, i’ve decided to do something else. im stealing the idea from moogs who did this a few months ago and it looked really fun!

so, send me an ask with 2-3 spn related things (characters, seasons, episodes, etc) to make me choose from and i will make a gifset for the one i choose! (depending on how many i get it may take me a while but i will try to get though all of them!)

anyway THANK YOU SO MUCH to everyone who follows my silly lil spn blog! i have made so many important friends here and sometimes it just hits me how much i love and cherish all of you<333

tagging my taglist (hope y’all don’t mind) to get the word out

@castielsupernatural @capellacas @charlieshandmaiiden @marchionessofbones @babygirlstiel @demolitiondean @dwcoded @doublebill @quiet-doll @flowernerdcastiel @blue-eyed-cutiepatootie @beachboysnatural @dylan3dean @angelsdean @universalcas @faithcastiel @millicentmarva @fountaincas @chapeldean @castielhasabigdick @buddythatsnotnstural @waldwynde @thatis-americas-ass @thigholstercas @castielfucks @youre-only-gay-once @latinocas @soldierboys @cornfieldcas @destiel-taylorsversion @carveredlund @verypissedoffdee @redleavesinthewind @cascigarette @naughtystiel @altarofrowena @achillestiel @iputmybloodintothis @sunerpatural @xofemeraldstars @junkyardheart @annaslittlebiitch @aequable-epicureanism @castiellesbian @mintysneezes @november-ivy @obsessionofspn @ilovecupcakesandtea @srazten

[it-begins-with-rain]

if you dont mind me asking, when did you get into seventeen? i've been following you for years now (back when i was still into tog/acotar), got into svt just over a year ago, and now find it a cute coincidence that you listen to them too!

Ooo! Maasdom follower who is also SVT fan!!

So... I want to explain something first to explain something second, lmao.

FIRST::

I've had an ear to kpop since about 2008, part of a fandom I will not name but your hint is they are famous for how overwhelmingly toxic they are.

Fell in love with the Korean language and dramas, actually lived in Korea in college and Seoul is the most beautiful city on the planet (I lived in Wonju which isn't bad, but isn't as amazing as Seoul).

And then the group that I had been following entered their... how to say... image-destruction-phase. It was like they were addicted to saying shit that exposed how rude and arrogant they were IRL, one guy just let his homophobia hang out there for the whole world to see and waved it around proudly.

Amidst all of that (the homophobic one actually came out as homophobic a week after this, so it hadn't happend yet but it was the nail in the coffin) I had somehow become a fandom leader against my will, known for being able to play CSI: Fandom (because of an emotionally unstable former friend I had to keep talking off ledges by getting to the root of scandal rumors). It was exhausting and people were fucking stupid. My stance on idols is they’re grown ass adults (mostly). Who the fuck gives a shit if they’re dating someone or whatever? Honestly I was so sick of the bullshit.

Anyways

A former member of the group released a solo album and it just... wasn't my taste at all. I didn't say anything against it by any means, but someone sent me an ask saying they'd noticed I wasn't reblogging.

I said ONLY "It's just not my genre, but I wish him luck" and within 15 minutes I had 12 messages either threatening my life or telling me to kill myself. Because of those words.

That was when I was like "You know what, fuck all of this" and bailed. That was around 2012-ish. I refused to go anywhere near kpop with a 10 foot stick after that. If I saw news, it was because it hit CNN or BBC (so the tragic deaths and the Burning Sun Scandal which was just INSANE, like, omg). But that was it. And btw I still dont' listen to that group I used to listen to. I fully will not touch their stuff.

SECOND:

So that was a big ass mountain blocking me from being willing to even consider kpop. But a dear friend of mine was very much into it and just like once in a blue moon I'd notice a post on my dash that was kpop from her, but I ignored it.

In mid-2020, a fuck ton of bad shit went down even on top of all the COVID stuff. Like, at one point I genuinely considered driving into a wall (except I was buried alive under responsibilities) and it just got incredibly hard and incredibly dark. My personality- I can't ask for help. I just can't. IDK why, it's a huge block for me.

So that friend, my darling Sarah, who reblogged kpop stuff I rarely saw, a GIFset came across my dash that I was just so exhausted and defeated I didn't even have the energy to scroll past and decided to read it. It was Seventeen in that group blitz episode of Going Seventeen where they hit the inflatable obstacle course.

And it made my heart feel not quite as heavy for a few seconds. Maybe I even cracked half a smile.

I kept dragging myself on, and I saw the GIFset again and in another defeated day, I looked it up on Youtube (had to play it at 70% speed, those psychos talk FAST) and watched it.

And... it made me genuinely smile.

So I watched all of Going Seventeen over the next several months. Then about 6 months in I decided to listen to one of their songs (Hoshi- Spider) and loved it. Started listening to more of their music, found out Carat are actually extremely chill and extremely dorky, the opposite of the fan club I'd been part of before.

So I joined Carat formally (i'd never done that with the Fandom That Must Not Be Named, Carat is my first fanclub :) ) and I just... enjoy them.

They got me through some really incredibly dark times, just being able to watch something lighthearted and simple and funny. Like, I know it’s cliche to say, I know they'll never know that, they probably wouldn't give a shit, they probably hear it 150,000 times a day. It doesn't matter. The dumbassery helped me a lot, and I'm grateful for that.

And this year I got to go see them live in concert with my darling Sarah, the same week I got the news that my mother's cancer (which we were told was terminal) was in full remission and she's one of only a few cases her doctors have ever SEEN to go into remission, and just...

That was way more info than you were asking for, but that's it. Their dorky, probably-licks-bus-windows charm was just simple and yet funny enough that it helped me breathe when that felt impossible, and so I like them :)

[lightningmickqueen]

okay YOU smash or pass the entire grid seeing as you want to answer alix's asks. you little clout thief

hi alix <3 so excited for this opportunity

max: he should not be as hot as he is...yes. there is something about him that is like..anyway yes.

charles: p2 in my heart AND in the sheets. absolutely yes. right now asap immediately.

checo: no thanks he's married and has the aura of a 90 year old man in a 32 year old body

george: no but i'd consider sending him a boob pic for bants. although he has nice hands so if i was drunk and he was paying for the drinks...maybe.

carlos: if i was like 8 drinks deep yeah. he's got so much hair on him tho i couldn't sober?? i KNOW he's like 'objectively attractive' or whatever but to me it'd be like sleeping with bigfoot and i'm really not into monster sex or whatever

lewis: SMASH. he intimidates tf out of me but if given the chance i would smash so fast i'd be a 7 time wsc (world smashing champion)

lando: i still think he makes cat noises so no...but also there's this one gifset after singapore i know alix mentioned it too. and his HANDS. so maybe if i was blindfolded

esteban: pass in favour of a piggyback ride and breaking into a cemetery at night to eat snacks and judge the old graves

fernando: pass i'm so sorry i'm not into geriatric men and i'm unable to hide disgust on my face :(

valtteri: smash tho i don't know Why. but like a drunken smash

seb: smash and then we'd get married so i can get regular smashing. i want to lick him and idc where. mwah. beloved. stole my heart when i was 12 and u know what? i've never looked back <3 also i had a dream once where we did it against a wall and i'd like to do that

daniel: smash so i can text the gc that i did

pierre: i had these DREAMS a few months ago so...smash so many times. also his face is Made to be sat on sorry i dont make the rules just report them

kmag: pass like he is every race ty

lance: i was going to say no but like... he was so bf material before he cheated AND he has a tattoo that's actually really hot AND has nice hands so like...smash

mick: he is so hot to me my hottest man alive i'd smash so fast he is everything mwah fuck me on the regular i love everything about u xx

yuki: i KNOW he fucks and i know he is good at it but like we r the same height

zhou: yes PLEASE smash it would be so fun i feel like it's the best time

alex: smash but only if lily is there too. alex is definitely super awkward and also lily is so hot and awesome. actually alex can just watch

latifi: pass like williams passed on him

nyck: yeah he smiled at me once and it changed the course of my life so SMASH

hulk: smash. hulk smash!

mitch evans: he smells so good i want him on top of me asap rn immediately (smash!)

[feuqueerfire]

Love In The Air Live Blogging

As a maker of terrible decisions, I’m starting watching this on the day a 10% assignment is due (which I’m not done) and 3 days before my midterm (which I haven’t started studying for).

I usually do my best to avoid spoilers but not for this show lol I know like 80% of what happened so far (released up to Ep 11) to prepare myself for the characters (specifically Payu and Prapai) and their questionable actions. Also, I’m slightly obsessed with Sky from these clips.

Ep 1 (Nov 2)

that random guy’s popcorn falling everywhere rip 

girl we’re flashing back three whole weeks?

oh this was shown on GMM25?

lol I read like 1 chapter of this translated on Wattpad before giving up because the translation was so bad and it’s funny to see it play out because I know Rain’s inner monologue at this part 

D: is Payu pretending to not remember Rain? No way he forgot him right

loll esp when I’ve been spoiled that Payu fucked with Rain’s car early on, I guess that’s right now

lmfaoo Rain batting his eyelashes at Payu and pleading with him to fix his car

“If you’re trying to seduce me, do it better next time” lol I do see how he came to that conclusion

Surprisingly, I do see how Payu came to the conclusion that Rain was coming onto him lol but him not stopping when Rain asks him to is a bit... but I see why Payu was like “stop playing hard to get” because if your idea of consent was just from TV and books, I can see how it’d fall into that

Payu’s voice reminds me of War’s

Anyway, this was played off as silly and cute enough that it was fine and didn’t make me emotionally uncomfortable, just raised like a few ! in my brain. like yeah I’m side-eyeing Payu’s sleeziness but I’m not opposed to smiling at their interactions lol

Cast Reaction: It was mostly them ganging up on Noeul as Rain lol They also seem to have fun watching scenes they weren’t in 

I do wonder if it’s better if I watch the show first so that these faces are just mostly the characters to me rather than watching the show and having it be “X playing Y” in my mind. I can’t really do that wish people I’ve watched before or know a lot about outside of the show (like so many GMMTV actors lol like I was watching eclipse and in my head it was First playing Akk rather than just Akk), so this is an opportunity that I get for rookie actors/people I haven’t watched before. But on the other hand, I’ll watch like 5 eps a day and finish early and have to wait for ep 13 otherwise so...

Ep 2 (Nov 2)

hm the first 4 mins is just repeat of last ep last scene

Ep title: I hate Payu (Storm) and I’m not talking about the weather

I do like fun titles hehe

I can never feel comfortable while watching these kids pretend to drive in a way that’d get them in an accident in 3 seconds even though i know there’s no car accident in the show

The bathroom neck hovering/kissing goes on for so long goddamn but it was fun if I thought 0 thoughts about it. Payu instructing Rain...

Y’know it’s interesting that Payu doesn’t like ill-mannered people or swearing because I feel like on a surface level that’s more of a uke trait. I guess it also helps that his other traits like being quite domineering and doing racing help counteract that also

lol was that indicating that Rain got hard

Rain: Will you help me? Sky: Isn’t that a given?

ahh racing here and in Cutie Pie looks so fun, wish I wasn’t such a scaredy cat with even just regular driving

Aw, I’m already ready to beat Sky’s ex’s ass but that still hasn’t happened by ep 11 lol

There’s so much repetitive footage from ep1 so far goddamn

lmfaoooo sorry this spanking is killing me from laughter and awkwardness i can’t watch this

rip rain getting yelled at

i’ve seen gifsets of this before like 2 months ago when it was released but rain getting angry bc Payu called him stupic and then kissing him is still funny

is Payu’s lip bleeding 

Rain is actually so cute, rolling around in bed like noo why did I say I’ll make him head over heals for me but then trying to quickly compose himself when he hears the knock

lol I’ve seen clips of this where Rain does everything to avoid eye contact over the breakfast table

Why do so many BLs have the seme/top joking that the uke/bottom has a small dick

What does forgiveness from Rain’s parents joke mean?

Rain gets so worked up every time and my guy has no forethought. Make him fall for you in a month

“Eh, hold on. Why do I feel like I’m dancing to P’Payu’s tune?” loll

Cast Reaction: Fort dying when Rain kissed Payu was hilarious, he was like whyyyy why did he do that? To me, it was cuz Rain jumped through a few hoops like “I don’t want him to call me stupid” -> “He won’t call someone he likes stupid” -> “I’ll make him fall for me” Also Peat guessed Payu wants to say hello to Rain’s parents and Fort guessed he wants to ask for Rain’s hand and everybody laughed when Payu said forgiveness

I want Boss to be my girlfriend.

Ep 3 (Nov 3)

killing me that it takes Rain that many days and hints to realize he can use his phone to contact Payu

Aww Rain got his feelings hurt being confronted with the fact that he’s not the first to wait like this for Payu 

uiii Rain being gutsy telling the server he’s hitting on Payu. lmfao Rain begrudgingly giving Payu his bowl and chopsticks 

loll the “replace stupid with cute” moment

The humour and Rain’s overreaction reminds me a lot of Japanese BLs like Kieta Hatsukoi tbh like my guy had cute cute cute! pop up all around him and then had to sit down in the middle of the street

Me watching this the day before my midterm (27 hours left...) and Rain’s getting scolded for being irresponsible and not using time wisely regarding school work ummmm why would you do this to me. Although I find the prof so annoying like submission due date at 8:30am what a joke and why is there no late penalty handing in? Profs like that are soooo annoying like “if I extend it for you, how many would I have to extend?” like bruv give people some wiggle room

Aw, poor Rain, he’s in first year right? Tough times, uni was so different than high school for us and it was a wild time to come being one of the better students in your class to a place where pretty much everybody is as good as you or better. I wonder how much this is worth lol cuz I’ve gotten used to taking Ls on stuff that’s worth 10% or less, it’s the 20% or greater Ls that hurt now but even then, gotta get over it quick or else you’ll fail the next thing

ahh Payu coming in and kneeling down and opening his arms for Rain and Rain going into the hug so cute T.T and comfort T.T

Payu being kinda stern with him but also giving him comfort T.T

bruhhh so cute, Payu going over again and just tucking Rain’s head again his stomach T.T

lol so is the timeline: Payu helped Rain with the tires -> Payu gets pic of Rain from the senior and realizes it’s guy he helped -> fucks with Rain’s car before the faculty dinner -> Faculty dinner

Fave Scene: The 2 hug scenes where Payu comforts Rain after first coming to see him + after when Rain’s drying his hair. 

Cast Reaction: Just Boss and Neoul this time. Funny to see Noeul go “oh P’Saifah is cool” -> Boss looking at him like hmm -> Noeul picking up on it and going haha P’Payu is super cool! because Rain would never pick up on it lmfao

Ep 4 (Nov 4)

Finished my exam, fucked around a bit after coming home and now onto the next ep!

oof Payu telling Rain he shouldn’t come here anymore 

P’Som: I was recently told a kindergartener’s more creative than me! And look at me, I’m still fine!

Sky understanding what’s going on with Rain

lol Saifah also being like lol who exactly is smilled Payu? The boy or youuuu

Sig calling Rain “Cloud Jizz” kills me, I wonder what the thai literal meaning is - i think it’s a pun on Rain

I know everyone’s like let’s see stuff outside of college!!!! but I really enjoy it when being a college student is actually a part of the plot. Rain being academically irresponsible and paying for it last ep was great. Them working hard for multiple days and staying up the day before an assignment due and then just going straight to sleep is also so relatable. My midterms just ended tonight so I’ve also been having a Fun Time and I’ll be sleeping so well tonight but after that I’ll have to catch up on 2 weeks of work on 2 different classes that I’ve neglected cuz that material won’t be on the midterm rip

The sound in this is so bad, why can I hear the clothes and the leather and everythingggg lol

I think a bl should show us con-somno. love mechanics had the con-noncon fun ending, we should get a fun con-somno that’s appealing but doesn’t make me feel weird. Also, Payu lightly slapping Rain’s stomach to wake up/punish him for pretending... haha

Rain gets to hear Payu call him smart boy

lol Saifah interrupting them

Payu left compliments for Rain in his final project sticky notes! That’s so cute

Rain and Payu both checking their phones incessantly throughout the ep waiting for the other’s texts is cute

Why is Rain waiting in the rainnnnnn, get inside boy!

very jarring cut to get to the bathing 

the kiss sounds are too loud lol but people like it i think

the holding hands beside Rain’s head is cute and then Payu guiding Rain’s hand below... yeah

condom under toy car

Teaching Rain ahh

at 49:00 when Payu pushes Rain’s head back, nice

hand holding really is my weakness i think

lmao i had to mute, that’s a lotta noises

dang, Payu was like k lemme hear the “Rain belongs to P’Payu now” It’s stuff like this that makes me realize that this would work for me soooo much more in the written form when I can’t actually see or hear anything

Fave Scene: Payu going easier on Rain doing his work at the garage once Rain says he just wanted to see Payu’s face. Rain realizing Payu wrote the sticky note compliments on his project. Payu pushes Rain’s face back down during the NC scene 

Cast Reaction: Boss was already dying during their little kiss when Rain goes to see Payu after finishing all his homework lol they both passed away watching the NC scene

I realized Tonnam who plays Sig also played a similar character in Cutie Pie, the wacky schoolmate in the friend group. I’m curious to see him in Triage where he apparently plays a doctor (Dr. Sing? or smth) and he’s also in a main character in Wish You Luck 2023 which is like a post-apocalyptic or sci-fi BL

Ep 5 (Nov 5)

so many gratuitous shots of Payu lol from him waking up to the exercising 

ep title: Calm Before The Calm hmm

I do hate it when parents let strangers into their child’s room without the child knowing or giving permission

girl not the rectal suppository 

fun to see Rain - Payu - Rain’s mom/Mama shenanigans 

Kinda funny that people dubbed Payu/Boss VegasPete’s lovechild and Payu is referred to as the devil here because I’m pretty sure Vegas is referred to as the devil in KinnPorsche novels

“Don’t refer to yourself as Rain anymore?” hmm I hear a lot of poms, did Rain go from Rain -> Pom as first person singular pronoun

girl, no way Payu’s gonna let Rain down right? He’s just unnecessarily fucking with him before saying let’s be byfriends or smth 

loll yeah “Now it’s my turn to pursue you” laughing headass after he made Rain cryyyyy

ew they’ve really got tongue and everything going

naurr Rain’s old crush Ple wants Rain’s new bf Payu’s number. lmfao and possibly her brother likes him too, rip Rain

ahh the pun works in so many ways “Damn, these fruity siblings!” because Ple and Som are apparently fruit names in Thai and fruity because the brother likes a guy

loll Sky coming out of the theatre and seeing PayuRain. “Oh, Rain. P’Payu, too. You’re holding hands.” this was so funny here

Rain coming out to Sky is cute and then him and Payu ganging up like “who’s Ple... when did you come here without me...”

I don’t really know what people by when they say someone has the relationship glow (like sometimes ppl will look at idols and be like hmmm they’ve been glowing and happier lately, wonder if they’re in a relationship) but this episode Payu has soo been that like when he was at work + now literally humming while making food as Rain sleeps in his bed lmao

I’ve felt this a few times but so many scenes/shots just feel too long like I wonder if it’s because I’m watching the uncut version but let’s cut a lot of these scenes by 10-30 seconds bruv

Payu looking at Rain, then looking back at Saifah and shaking his head, saying “too many assholes” about whether he’ll take rain to the next race was kinda attractive hmm rewatched it like 5 times

Rain hitting Payu for teasing him counter this ep: so many

oof, the meeting each other before while younger was tryna get into the uni and older was an attending student trope. reminds me of SOTUS. also Rain’s lucky triangle was placed there by Payu, cute

Fave Scene: The Sky seeing them at the theatre + lunch scene. [TODO Why can’t I find gifsets of those scenes? no way people aren’t giffing it right] That few seconds of Payu shaking his head and saying “too many assholes”

Cast Reaction: Boss hiding behind Noeul once really did a lot for my brain.

(29m) I for a split second thought he had a bow in his hair... my girlfriend!Boss agenda 

Ep 6 (Nov 6)

oh yeah, i hadn’t realized the mafia twins from Don’t Say No were already had shown up for a sec in ep 5. i only became aware when i was watching tiktok people’s ep 5 thoughts and somebody mentioned it and even in this ep, do they appear for just 1 second to wave?

lol the state of love interests in BL is so shit that I was pleasantly surprised by Payu not resorting to violence or provocation at the race (which is his workplace) despite the shitty rich kid. He did provoke a bit with words toward the end but like deserved

They’ve started translating mia to darling instead of wife lol

cute to see Rain tryna get Payu to smile and not be mad at the situation

Stormy at office -> sunshine in garage

aw Rain worried about Payu. Payu finally being serious and putting his hands in his pockets was kinda attractive

Rain believing in Payu winning so hard. It’s cute to see how strongly Rain is on Payu’s side this ep

Rain being forward and horny in this NC scene, so true. Payu turning Rain around and pushing him against the wall ahh Rainnnn. 

I’m having the wildest time watching this NC scene lmfao usually I’ll like it and watch it fully or mostly (depending on how embarrassing it is) or I’ll skip most of it or watch on a small screen. This scene I’m not skipping anything because it’s just like not awkward or weird but also, it’s too much, so idk where I fall because I keep being like ohhh I like this move and then being like ewww tongue swiping lmfao I watched the tongue swiping twice because I couldn’t believe my eyes the first time and physically, involuntarily jerked away both times bc it’s so ew to me but I’m also so incredibly fascinated like damn they did that

Rain’s iconic “This is also riding” line

wait Rain kissing Payu’s forehead, that’s suchhhh a seme to uke/top toward bottom thing! Rain’s been very forward and more dom than subby in this NC scene but that really sealed the deal lol I love light switches even though Mame doesn’t seem to do verse like at all 

laksdf Rain going back to his cute bubbly self in the next scene is so fun

Bold Rain is sooo fun “Someone accused me of seducing, so I’m doing it for real. So? Does it work?”

Ah, the kidnapping

Fave Scene: The NC scene just because of how I liked parts of it a lot and was icked out by parts of it; usually NC scenes lean more toward one of the other. Also, bold Rain in the scene was great

Cast Reaction: Always fun to see Boss shrivel up and be cute about the makeout and NC scenes. hilarious to see him say “It’s not me, It’s Payu!” about the scene where Payu tells Rain to take off the suit or whatever before the race (12:30m). Seeing all of them literally pass away while watching the NC was hilarious lol, after it ended it looked like all them came down from a roller coaster. lmfao watched the longer part of them watching the NC scene on a diff youtube clip and they just screamed and yelled the whole time, so funny; Fort was right saying that was tiring. 

Ep 7 (Nov 7)

The kidnapping’s kinda just meh, like sure. It’s like the ep 10 conflict w the gun in Bad Buddy like why can’t we keep shows that have mostly internal and interpersonal conflict that way without throwing in a random gun/kidnapping for some plot. 

It wasn’t that cool either cuz it was just Payu going and getting beat up (which makes sense lmao he’s not a trained fighter nor a mafioso). kinda interesting once again that they didn’t make him sooo cool and better than everybody that he can take all of them. Rain on the other hand was really ballsy though, probably too much considering he was tied up and could do nothing 

lol Rain’s iconic “*kick!* only P’Payu can screw me!” and Payu’s big ass grin when Rain walks back to him afterward is cute lol

lol the telling friends about their relationship was funny when I watched clips of it and it’s still funny now. I’m gonna ignore how Sky didn’t have permission to say Rain’s dating someone nor did he say it’s okay for Payu to say they’re dating in front of all his friends

ah, we’re getting some info about Prapai and Sky current situation

lol Prapai bothering Payu until Rain gives Sky his number. sigh don’t even have energy to be annoyed at Rain giving Prapai Sky’s number bc later on he’ll give him his dorm keys for fuck’s sake

oh yeah I knew Payu tampered with Rain’s car. It’s one of the early ep things that I’m just: ignoring. “You won’t love me after learning the truth?” well, i’d certainly reconsider

Fave Scene: The telling friends scene I guess

PayuRain story is done. Overall thoughts is that I thought I’d have to ignore more things than I did lol; like it’s just the very first night, the bathroom, the spanking, and the car tempering that are questionable and those happened really early on. I don’t like that people say that’s just their brat/tamer dynamics because you do need to agree upon the dynamics first. Anyway, still fun dynamic if you don’t think about how uncomfortable it is.

I don’t get people saying this had no plot because ? Character growth and growing into a relationship is like a fair plot for a BL, esp because so many bls are already like that. so i don’t get it.

Enjoyable but not a fave.

The Prapai/Sky bits in this ep were giving me such mixed feelings cuz it’s actually really appealing to me but like, even as a lover of fucking rancid dynamics, Prapai being a creep to a traumatized abuse victim is just a lot. like some of the spoilers I’ve heard... I like Sky so much though, I just want better for him

Ep 8 (Nov 8)

I would’ve been way more eager to start this if ep 13 didn’t piss everyone off. ahh i’ll try to enjoy it as much as i can bc i think it’s a very interesting story and dynamic still

Unwanted tally of Rain being a shitty friend: leaving Sky during the race (and not even wondering what happened to him), giving Prapai Sky’s number

Watching this is like I really don’t know how to feel. Fort was probably Payu-level teasing with the “ooh yknow what you have to do to leave” but Sky took it literally cause of the past abuse T.T Can’t even watch the sex scene without thinking of how Sky’s gonna feel hurt by it and how he feels coerced into it

repetitive PayuRain scene, what was the point

“They’re all assholes. You’re also an asshole” “Shitty things always happen to me” T.T Sky

Somehow Sig’s outbursts are funny but P’Som’s aren’t

While watching the cast reaction, I understood something. Sky says “oi! Why’s this like the book?” when Prapai first called him because he was reading Love Sky, his own novel lol

Rain, since you called, at least tell Sky that you give his number to Prapai!

Prapai ambushing Sky outside the uni and getting Rain to leave them alone is a level of sleaziness that I can still enjoy and have fun with without being too upset about it

I am soooo normal about Sky giving Rain a punishment... it’s not a doozy at all

lol Prapai’s assistant is great\

Fave Scene: Sky - Rain - Prapai scene in front of the uni, I enjoyed the humour in what Rain thinks is happening vs what’s actually happening. Also Rain punishing Sky

Ep 9 (Nov 8)

finally watching 2 eps in the same day again. midterm season ended, i’m a little caught up on homework and i gotta make sure i get to ep 13 by thursday 

Prapai also bi/pan and also there’s something kinda ew about how his siblings and he discuss sleeping with people like that’s your siblinggggg but Pai holding both their heads and vibrating was cute and sibling-like

nooo even the mention of ‘love’ taking Sky to a bad place

sky canon nipple piercings... but also apprehension bc idk where he got them, considering his past trauma and abuse

This sort of stalking and sleaziness from Prapai is slightly off-putting but I could probably put up with it, esp once Sky decides he likes him

“If you’re really my friend, never mention that son of a bitch again, got it?!” aw Skyyy

Sky nightmare :( but then Sky unconsciously smiling at Prapai’s texts. Reminds me of The Eclipse with Ayan’s nightmares and Akk’s smiling at Ayan’s text

Has P’Som been useful in any way ever? Annoying ass character

Dang, does Sky have nightmares every time he sleeps? Makes sense why he always seems to stay awake when his friends come over for all-nighters and naps

How the fuck am I supposed to root for Prapai when he keeps getting new SIMs to get around Sky blocking him and texting him so much that he worsens Sky’s breakdown over his ex and his abuse. Seeing Sky being so upset about these texts and calls is just agh

Rain strike 3: giving sick Sky’s dorm keys to Prapai despite Sky having gotten mad at him for giving Pai his phone number + insisting times he doesn’t like Pai

A taking care of sick boyfriend (to be) is cute if yknow... it’s not so greatly against the sick person’s wishes

Cast Reaction: Fort and Peat both looked really good in this reaction lol Also Fort’s reaction was kinda fun cuz I think he’d sometimes get confused lol and also he was actually sad at the sad parts. I think it was fun cuz it seemed like they were also watching it as the audience instead of as the actors

I don’t even know what to say like why couldn’t it just have been like regular levels of creep and more of us seeing Sky fall for him and saying no to guard his heart. Why the hell would I wanna support Prapai after his relentless texting and calling made Sky’s breakdown worse and had him yelling while clutching and pounding his bedsheets.

I don’t like when the situation is just main character’s love interest has made him unable to escape 

Ep 10 (Nov 9)

I’m really excited for this ep because I think I’m gonna love it and my favourite scene that initially made me very interested in the Sky/Prapai arc is in here.

Also, I’m fully intending to ignore nearly every red flag of Prapai in this ep unless it’s wayy too big, so. 

Prapai doing his work while Sky holds his hand in bed, that’s really cute

“So what do you want?” “You know what I want.” “No, I won’t have sex with you P’Prapai” “Then you don’t know what I want” alsjdf

ahhh cheek kiss

“Will you stop me?” “If it’s important to Nong Sky, then I won’t” okayyyyy

“Then I should get a reward for my good deeds... I wanna see your lovely smile” line is much cuter and life changing in the tiktoks but is cute here too ahh

Sky smiles so wide and pretty :D that Pai has to take a moment and talk to himself like “Looks like your no-strings-attached lifestyle is coming to an end Prapai” is sooo relatable

Prapai should’ve just jacked off in the bathroom before showing us this whole turmoil cuz apparently not assaulting someone is a lot of hardwork

Sky’s reaction at wanting Pai to kiss him was cute tho

hehe Sky’s delight at telling Pai that Payu took Rain and him took this restaurant before

Natsu ahh I really hope she’s in Just Say Yes and the twins Past Love In The Future or whatever show

please the “I’ve stopped fooling around with anyone since that night” “I’m not that dumb” “okay once... alright twice... okay three time max, I swear. And I haven’t slept with anyone in the past 2 months” scene was cute and Sky liked it lol

lol P’Joy gossiping about Sky and Pai

ahh Pai kissing Sky’s shoulder

oh yeah i love Pai in Sky’s clothes like he changed into that when taking care of Sky too. It also makes me wish Pai was younger than Sky cuz I think it’d play off well 

is Sky writing in the diary that’s gonna come into play in ep 12

Drawing Wind on Sky’s palm and saying “I’m claiming ownership” laksdf;lkajsdfl;kjds 

the dinner convo where they talk about their families is cute 

“I take care of you so well but I’ve got to sleep on the floor. I’m just a servant” “You do it on your own free will. Too bad” so true, don’t let Pai make you feel guilty Sky lol

Fave Scene: The 2 scenes where Sky thinks where Pai wants sex from him but then Pai says a different thing are great but also I think the whole episode is delightful fr, my fave ep so far

Cast Reaction: Fort is sooo adorable in this lmao he was gushing throughout the whole thing, so relatable

Ep 11 (Nov 9)

Oof, the finale coming out in 12 hours bc I didn’t time this correctly lol I have love in the air blacklisted on here now bc I don’t wanna be spoiled for ep 13 hmmm I think I’m gonna watch this, watch ep 12 immediately after waking up and look at tumblr and stuff then, and then avoid tumblr and twitter until I can watch ep 13 at like 5 after my lecture. hm

I’m gonna not think too hard about Pai’s actions in this ep too cuz I wanna love it

I am strictly ignoring how I feel about 1) Pai telling Joy that he and Sky are a couple knowing that she’s a gossiper and 2) getting a keycard for Sky’s place for himself without Sky’s permission

Sky waiting for Pai to come because he said he would T.T sleepy Sky letting Pai change his clothes T.T

lmfao dream makeout session; lotsa BLs have those these days - The Eclipse my dear

“I might be a psychotic stalker in your eyes but please understand how worried I am for you.” well, he’s self-aware 

Aw, Sky trying to get Pai to not be mad at him

yknow this is like the complement to ep 6 Rain showing how he worries about and cares for Payu and now, Sky showing he’s also interested in and likes Pai 

akk Sky accidentally bragging to Rain about Pai

alskdfj Sky testing Pai by making him do so much cleaning and telling him to go home if he doesn’t wanna do it and that he wouldn’t put this much effort for a one night stand vs Pai being like no, I can handle it. Yknow Pai is extremely dedicated to pursuing Sky, including driving to him and helping him with his school or home chores, helping him when sick, etc. If he didn’t have an undercurrent of creep, it’d be soooo good but not it’s just good

loll Pai’s tryna explain himself about wanting sex but not doing everything for the sex

good ass sex scene, felt emotionally cathartic and was so intimate. also got a Sky -> Prapai forehead kiss ayy also Sky clutching Pai’s hair was haha nice

cute to see them having pillow talk and Sky divulge info about himself 

we get canon nipple piercing mentions but at what cost? not seeing them but getting trauma lore T.T  

Sky sniffing Pai’s shirtttt

how could they Rain this dumb, esp when earlier in the ep Rain knew that Sky was talking about Pai being great

ahh Pai is so into ownership, it’s a lot like him asking for a hickey so that Sky can claim ownership...

Fave Scene: Sky questioning when Pai will get bored of him + Pai explaining himself (and not doing everything for sex) before the NC scene + the NC scene itself because of how romance and emotion driven it was. Also liked the general way Sky was more receptive to Pai and also reciprocated 

Cast Reaction: During the NC scene, Fort tried to cover his eyes, then Peat’s eyes, then his eyes again all within a second lmfao. Also Fort mentioned the hair pulling >:) they said it’s a very romantic NC scene compared to ep 8 and yesh, I agree

Ep 12 (Nov 10)

I... don’t know how I’ll feel about this ep, I’ll be honest. I’ll try to do the ‘ignore pai’s questionable behaviour’ thing but will it hold up? Lemme rewatch the ep 11 NC scene full of romance and love and care before i start this lol

loll Pai having fun with Sky worrying about his hand being cut

ew why is Pai talking about Sky being a gentleboy in the streets, a freak in the sheets to Payu and Saifah D: i’m skipping over Pai talking bout him

Sky/Pai went from cute and endearing in eps 10 and 11 to just cringe this ep T.T don’t do this to me tf is this “that’s my wife, not my boyfriend?

“I can skip morning class” lol

5 seconds of Leon but at least he got like 2 lines similar to Natsu unlike the twins getting just the wave

Pai, why didn’t you remove yourself from the person earlier T.T

“I saw your boy [...] The one you let me borrow” I’m gonna kill Gun, I’m gonna kill this guy, I’m gonna throw up

fuck, I feel bad for both Pai and Sky cuz Sky’s been like waiting for this and worse whereas Pai doesn’t even know what’s going on

fuckkk “you pick up when it’s not my number?”

oh fuck Sky being mean as hellll to get Pai to give up fuckkkk

“He doesn’t love me. He just finds me unusual” 

of course pai is in the freaking room lmao i was like hmmm did he get in with the key, then saw the dark house and was like oh, only to realize that he pops up in the clip

what a distressing scene rip there are so many things I feel where it’s like Pai was seen by Sky being too touchy with some other dude (and he should’ve detangled himself earlier but was he really at so much fault? he didn’t do anything but nicely establish some boundaries) --> Sky ghosted Pai and was very mean to him when breaking up on the phone (and it wasn’t right of him to do that but also it’s due to his past trauma and insecurities) --> Pai going to Sky’s dorm and reading his diary (bro is like fuckkkk boundaries but also him reading out loud Sky’s entries was insane and I think Fort did well) and then idk how to feel about Sky’s love confession

“I wonder where you got this idea that I’ll tire of you one day”

they’re really running with the Rain Dumb As Rocks thing but like lol the attempt at 2 convos at once was funny

Fave Scene: Pai during the phone call to Sky (esp the “you pick up when it’s not my number?” and the tears at the end of the call) and the way Pai was speaking during the diary scene. Also Pai kinda playing with Sky during the papercut scene

Cast Reaction: Boss and Noeul were there this time. Lots of talking about character motivations and Fort cried and Noeul got teary-eyed

That wasn’t as bad as I thought it’d be; I’d seen a lot of complaints so I thought it’d be worse but it was just kinda sad distressing because they were both hurting and then hurting each other because of it and I can empathize with both.

Okay I was nervous about this ep because of certain spoilers and because I heard some general dissatisfaction but when watching, I could see where both characters were coming from and why they were reacting the way they were. There was something slightly off about the episode to me (was it disjointed writing? maybe iffy editing? idk) but I thought it'd take me back to how I felt about ep 8/9 Pai but nah, the characters' actions and progressions made sense to me based on who they are so far

I thought it was good at showing the sadness of the situation like Sky's insecurities and past experience make him ghost and lash out at Pai on the phone and Pai is understandably hurt and and although the breach of privacy by just going in Sky's room and reading his diary is a lot for me, I knew Pai was like that from ep 8 so lol

Also, I’m becoming more impressed with Fort’s acting because I didn’t think much of it before but in ep 10 when he was upset with Sky for the panic-inducing call and this ep when he was angry (”...you pick up when it’s not my number?”) and sad during his breakup call with Sky were idk good at showing intense but subdued emotions. him reading the diary entries out loud was wild though like it was making me nervous and I thought he did well. I think he’d just do better in a role that’s not a “dom, older dude” because he’s better when he’s not tryna pull off the sleazy domtop thing and he was giving me ‘younger seme’ vibes in ep 9 and 10.

Also, people have been saying Sky in the diary scene was just supposed to be not crying tears but rather yelling and hyperventilating etc the way he was but I wish the show actually showed that.

Ep 13 (Nov 10)

Okay, last episode came out like 9 hours ago, time to watch it. I’m glad I waited to watch it instead of as soon as it came out though because apparently it’s extremely triggering and they do a weirdly realistic job portraying Sky’s abuse and SA. So. I’m nervous about that. 

People have said it’s in general a strong episode (even if they have gripes about the portrayal of SA)

flashback to how Sky ended up with Gun?

holy shit why was the scene with Sky and Gun in their underwear with Gun smoking so beautifully shot and framed

fuck fuck fuck those cigarette burns D: i love ao3 fics with that trope but i can’t believe i’m gonna remember this when i read it next time

the way the sound of the lighter keeps going even after Sky wakes up from the nightmare

T.T Sky calling Pai to seek comfort

FUCKING FUCK YOUUUU GUN AND HIS FRIEND TALKING TO SKY AT THE RACE ILL KILL YOU

OH MY FUCKING FUCK THEY TALK TO PAI ABOUT “HIS CUTE BF” 

SkyPai are cute enough that I even rewatch their kissing (I actually really like their kissing) 

I’d heard about the wiping but klajdsf Pai wiping Sky’s stomach with tissue afterward asklfksdjf

PaiSky are sooo cuteeeee T.T

The background music is too loud when Sky surprises Pai at the race but it’s such a cute scene, I’ll forgive it

...fuck Sky’s going to the car by himself at the race where Gun is 

oh shit the clicking of the lighter is gonna be an insane thread in this ep i guess, Sky heard that as soon as he went to the car and it alerted him to Gun

oh my fucking god, this is so... Gun’s friend is convincing Pai to give up his room for the night because that’s where they’ll Sky... 

Pai: “If you do illegal stuff in my room, I’m gonna kill you” <-- I’m gonna fucking hold you to that Pai

Gun sewing doubt into Sky’s mind about Pai liking him + the “Earnestness is boring” when i get my hand on youuuu

Rain, just call Payu to tell him, don’t leave Sky alone ahh i’m so nervous

“A guard says P’Pai wants you to wait at the condo” ...a guard says? ...is this the same condo as where Pai took his hookups that he’s given up for the night?

okay i knewwww they were gonna try to make Sky think Pai did this to him. They’d mentioned “you can bet your lovers” at the race and I thought maybe that’s why Gun shared Sky with others but apparently he doesn’t even race. + They didn’t break into Pai’s room or anything, they waited for Sky there, making it seem like it’s all planned. fuck them so bad i haaate them

The music is too loud bruh

fuck Gun’s just stacking lie upon lie

Pai you raise your voice at Sky one more decibel (even though I don’t think he’s accusing Sky of anything) and I’m shooting you

Pai fucker startled even me by screaming fuck you for real the fuck

I need so much more anger and violence from Pai you don’t even know. 

Sky talking badly about himself “I’m trash. I’m damanged good.” after telling Pai what Gun did is actually making me lose my entire mind i’m so fucking sad

Pai’s subdued tears Twice because Sky can’t cry is really so. 

Won’t lie Pai’s “I should’ve met you sooner” is once again making me wish Pai was younger

“We won’t ever see him again.” Is he dead? Special episode we better see news of him having gone missing or smth. I wish I got to see Gun and all his friends in jail or dead with my own two guys but I guess it’s better than TharnType where Lhong walks free (and is forgiven by Tharn’s brother) and also nothing happens to the people who actually raped Earth’s character

I wish there was more of a mention of Sky’s future healing journey plans than just Pai being a good boyfriend and remembering an actor’s quote

I wanna see Sky meeting Pai’s familyyyyy

Fave Scene: The scene of Gun smoking while Pai was happy lying behind him filled me with so much dread; loved the lighter sound motif throughout the ep as well. Liked seeing Fort’s subdued tears and sadness about Sky’s situation. 

A good finale, although I wish the parts after Sky told Pai what happened were a bit different? I wish we got something more about plans for a healing journey being Pai being beside Sky. Also, I wanted to see Gun die with my own two eyes.

Beautifully crafted episode,

Overall Thoughts:

RainPayu - PayuRain story is done. Overall thoughts is that I thought I’d have to ignore more things than I did lol; a few things happen early on and we can ignore that + the fact that there wasn’t consent/discussion for a brat/tamer dynamic and just enjoy it - still a fun dynamic. I don’t get people saying this had no plot because ? Character growth and growing into a relationship is like a fair plot for a BL, esp because so many bls are already like that. so i don’t get it. Enjoyable but not a fave; I think the fact that I got into PaiSky the very next day also made me kinda forget about this pair.

PaiSky - They took up much more of my brainspace than PayuRain, both in good and bad ways. Pai was shitty in the first few eps of their story (mans is fr a stalker, doesn’t take no ew) but he’s also so good for Pai once he stops with the creepy shit and I have to be like... whelp, if you like him. I watched ep 10 and 11 being like “I shall ignore all of Pai’s questionable behaviour” and it’s definitely enjoyable that way, I liked ep 10 the best. 

The show is known for the NC scenes and I enjoyed both pair’s second NC scenes. PayuRain’s was just wild and I was intrigued, even though I had negative physical reactions a few times. SkyPai’s was soooo romantic and I’m floored by the fact that I enjoyed watching them kiss, what about their kisses was different than others’? 

I like Fort being an adorable cutie, I wanna see him play something younger (I think Pai as a younger seme would’ve been sooo good here). There were some production issues, like the sound was just shit and the editing for the second half was kinda worse than the first half.

Rating: 6.5/10

OG Teaser/Trailer: I remember when I saw the OG SkyPai teaser come out on r/boyslove lol It was interesting and then I heard nothing about it for several months. The trailer is interesting bc so much of it is exactly like in the actual show, there are some differences as well. Also, Pai did as much office work this trailer as in the whole of LITA.

Official Teaser/Trailer: I didn’t find either of these to be super engaging but maybe I would’ve been more excited if I hadn’t watched it already lol

Tiktoks: 

Ep 1 edit

Ep 1 Morning after

Ep 4 bro interrupting

Ep 5 Sky knows they’re dating

Ep 7 sky and praprai storyline starting (compilation from trailers)

ep 8 sky angst :( 

Ep 9 prai practicing sky’s name + following Sky around (bg: lowkey)

ep 9 prai taking care of sky

Ep 9 prai flirting w sky (bg: left and right)

bossnoeul behind - peatfort first being supportive and then done

Ep 9 sky angst (bg: don’t need nobody) 

[FAVE] Ep 10 Pai wants to see Sky’s smile as a reward (bg: fall in love with you)

boss sulking 

ep 11 sky being cute while sleep (bg: Khudaya Khair)

ep 10  Pai wants to see Sky’s smile as a reward

up to ep 11 Pai and Sky meaningful moments edit (bg: mirrorball by Taylor Swift) 

Ep 10 sulking Pai + shoulder kiss

Ep 11 Pai taking care of sleepy Sky (bg: eenie meenie miney mo - Justin Bieber)

Ep 11 Sky asking Pai if he’ll get bored of him 

Ep 12 sad hugging after diary scene 

Ep 12 diary

Ep 12 "i want you to like me” scene before party

Ep 12 Pai wondering why Sky’s ignoring him vs how he’s looking at his boytoy

Ep 13 Sky with Gun vs Vegas with Tawan parallels... 

Ep 11 Pai “I don’t cook I don’t clean” vs “Yes i do the cooking yes i do the cleaning”

Ep 12 Pai being upset at being ghosted (+ when Sky finally picked up his call)

F4 had Fort and also, people finding about First being in it

Ep 10 cute moments SkyPai, ah my fave ep

[Fave] Ep 13 Pai’s “hm? hm?” and Sky asking if he can love Pai and why Pai’s crying 

Ep 13 rebellious badboy era Sky (bg: Untouchable)