#anyways i beg yall please ask me more abt them.....

[the-lonelyshepherd]

"fanon lottienatters please stay away from me" oh!! shots fired!! 2,000 dead, 10,000 injured!! BUT curious about your specific definition for fanon lottienat and what you dislike about it <33

ohhhhh okay... alrrrrrr

this is like. one of my biggest issues. im not like a shipper, never rlly have been until yj but i dont like engage in discourse bc thats stupid.

But basically? Fanon lottienat just kinda strips anything thats interesting about the ship away. and makes it like. punk x preppy. loser x popular. ive even heard black cat and golden retriever which makes me want to rip my eyes out.

And its not even accurate to their characterization? at all? like youre flanderizing them but like..... not even their main traits. like ive seen people say "precrash lottie would be like charlotte from status update (curse that movie btw. the things i do for u courtney eaton) which is just. like not at all.

first off lottie is not popular. yeah, shes rich, but shes clearly somewhat of a loner (WHICH PARALLELS NAT?? WHICH MAKES IT MORE INTERESTING???) even courtney has said this in interviews. she feels ostracized, and a lot of it can be traced back to the flashback scenes we see, esp those about her relationship w her parents and her supposed mental illness. the 90s, especially the 90s in a high pressure rich family, was NOT a good place to have schizophrenia (and yeah theres the "she wasnt actually mentally ill" argument but that changes nothing because atp in the story her whole family and probably herself believed she was.

Then we have the nat characterization. The fanon "grumpy" to fanon lotties "sunshine". guys canonically nat smiles more than lottie. girlie was always grinning while lottie was experiencing the horrors all of s1. ofc they both went THROUGH it but that specific stereotype pissed me off sm i had to address it.

also, nat gets shown a lot as masc?? which is a fine headcanon but like for her style like the whole punk thing? she acc dresses relatively femininely.those are little irks abt nat but they bother me idc. too tired to write more on this rn but feel free to ask!

so basically taking this stuff into account - fanon lottienat uses a gross mischaracterization of both characters, especially lottie (also that suspiciously align w stereotypes HMMMMM) to literally make the ship more boring. You are making it a stupid and lame trope. You literally have these two insanely complex characters who mirror each other. Theyre not opposites attract, they are the same character in different skins. They're both loners, one because of her punk/rebel nature and nasty rumors, the other because of her mental illness and lack of closeness to people. Theyre both loners because of their social status and their fucked up home life. Theyre both providers - nat the hunter, bringer of physical and real food like the deer. Lottie the prophet, bringer of hope and, through the teams eyes, the birds, the bear, etc. Lottie who begs to be a martyr but is denied nat who runs from it but shoulders it anyways. They're both bleeding hearts they both give soul to the team and are some of the most genuine characters but they present it so differently.

The fact that the majority of content grossly mischaracterizes them and is the widely accepted fanon just.. sucks tbh. and the fact that people get so up in arms about them, and literally attack fans of other characters (lottielee fans... travis fans....) for no reason?? all these other characters do is contribute to what makes lottienat such a compelling and fucked up and interesting ship. i love them so much but lwk most of yall are insane and dont even appreciate them for what they really are.

thoughts questions comments concerns hmu

[sugar-omi]

Ya know, I love the idea of dilf!Cove being a huge tease during edging, but I gots to know how he’s like when he’s feeling a little more desperate than usual. Like the tables have been turned on ol’ dilf daddi. Any HCs to grace us with 👀

this..i had thoughts abt him i buried n then i rmbred them n they ran w me n now we have this horny mess

tags : NSFW, gn reader, top/service bottom reader, bottom cove, i babygirled him a bit sorry guys 😋, ooc ofc bc DILF COVE., edging/overstim, this is just horny af ok lemme ALONE /lh

no bc I was thinking abt this earlier n this is kinda dilf!cove (not yall breaking up though)

he's desperate. he acts like he NEEDS some or he's gonna parish

if you ask, he'll beg like a dog for some ass, he rlly will

althoughhhh if we wanna talk abt that scenario....

you can expect some drunk/midnight calls from ex-husband/ex-bf dilf!cove... ANYWAY <33

imagine walking around in something sexy, or short or tight

he's in pieces, following you around n touching you, kissing you n telling you you look gorgeous in that outfit...

if you're teasing him, walking around the house or you're out on the town looking fine as fuck, he's either bricked up or he's like that damn meme, telling his dick to stay down 💀😂

but that's just one basic way to make him desperate

the best way to tease him n have him under your finger, is to edge him alllll day

morning? I'm torn between jerking him off while he sleeps, until he's dripping n twitching n his cock is flushed

also i love the idea of stuffing him with a dildo

or riding him, making yourself cum and pulling away just before he can finish

I think he'd fucking love that, his brain would turn to mush n go straight to his dick I know it 🤭🤭

this big, tired, sexy man with his ass up n stretched around a thick plastic dick

he'd look so pretty...

when he was younger, cove was so embarrassed to own or use monster dildos

but now? he has dildos with knots and ridges,tentacles, n tapered tips. even has one shaped like a dragon (yes im projecting, i wanna be him😩)

so imagine stuffing him w his favorite toy, the ridges drugging along his walls, the tip bumping against his prostate perfectly

and he's so blissed out, loving the stretch from the toy getting thicker at the base..

but then you slip a cockring over him n he whips his head around. he's torn between causing a stink n crying

oh god, imagine making him go about his day, unable to cum but the toy hitting all those delicious spots inside him

his legs are shaking the whole day, he'll fall to his knees tryna wash the dishes because you came up behind him,

n smacked his butt or purposefully thrusted your hips against his butt, the toy slamming against his g-spot..

please don't forget to pull him to the side, shove down his pants and jerk his cock until he's sloppy, tears on his lash line bc he can't cum w this damn ring on...

n pull away, wipe your hands on his shirt n tell him to clean up the pre he dropped...

definitely mutters n calls you mean

tries to grind against the seat/couch, palms his bulge through his jeans... but he can't finish

it's like you know when he's thinking abt taking the ring off n cumming bc then you're there, kissing him n asking him his color/safe word and telling him he's so good, n just a little more...

it makes him dizzy how much you're controlling his pleasure n he loves it

by the time you're ready to let him cum n stop teasing him, he's so easy to pull apart

he'll beg, claw at your clothes, n his legs are shaking n his pants are stained w pre..

when you finally pull the cockring off to let him cum,

doesn't matter if you jerk or suck him off or fuck him, he's so whiny n flushed n teary eyed n babbling

babbling abt how he wants to cum, begs you to fuck him n abt how good your feel n abt how deep you're hitting, or how warm your throat/hole is. you've broken him🤭

even after all that... he begs for more, he loves when you edge n use him like this<333

someone pls come talk to me abt ex-husband dilf!cove i....i have thoughts n im open to maybe a lil toxic, definitely a lot horny ex-husband dilf!cove situationship ykw im sayin

[sakasakied]

hcs for the one and only old man rei please. thanks

I RUSHEDDDD TO ANSWER THIS BECAUSE I HAVE SO MUCH TO SAY. DID YALL KNOW REI IS ACTUALLY MY #1 BABYGIRL TIED WITH NATSUME AND IZUMI SORRY I CANNOT CHOOSE ACKXOCODOWODOOW SORRY ENOUGH RAMBLE. send more abt those 3 i beg. also might get long so this will be under a readmore

rei rei rei. ok now i probably think this for a lot of my favs but i'm really into teasing rei. him being totally into humiliation wohhh @ _ @ but not in the degrading way natsume does. do y'all get it like he doesn't do mean words but he loves to fluster you a lot. if ur the type of person who gets flustered easily like me oh boy ur in big trouble with this man.

it's actually canon ok. he's always teased people like anzu since forever (i've read most of the stories that feature rei i would KNOW. also that scene in dark night halloween made me weak sorry) so how would he not be with you?

ik he's already graduated but sometimes he would visit the light music club room to reminisce about his days in yumenosaki. and he would of course visit at night. and he would also fuck you in that very same room where his fellow club members would hold practices LOL... for him it's apparently the most perfect place to bury his dick inside u, on that very club room floor. it also plays a bit into his exhibitionism kink. remember that some students stay until night at yumenosaki so there's always the chance of someone walking in. maybe even someone like koga could see.

“you’re clearly enjoying this, aren’t you? are you not afraid of the possibility of someone walking in on us? or does it excite you rather?” and he'll watch in delight as you tighten up from those words.

he's like super into sensory stuff. like breathing down ur nape. lightly dragging his teeth, or even better, his fangs across the dip of where ur neck meets ur shoulder wtf do u even call that. feathery touches with his fingers. he would use stuff like blindfolds to make u more sensitive to whatever he'll do to u. depriving u from seeing him, u wait in anticipation for his next move, only depending on the shifting of the bed or the sound of his voice to guess whatever antics he was up to.

i bet he has lots of thoughts about sharing u with ritsu. the other would Hate sharing u and keep u to himself (possessive much) but rei would be soooo all for it. sakuma sandwich woooooo best thing ever. (let's include undead & the five eccentrics but i'm mostly for sakuma sandwich)

AND OFC WE WILL NEVER EXCLUDE ANY KINKS RELATED TO HIS VAMPIRISM. i love vampires so much bro if i met a vampire irl id have sex with them despite being a bit repulsive abt irl sex. but anyways. something about vampirism is just very erotic

vampire rei that lurks the night searching for a victim, scouting each bedroom window for suitable prey. until he lays his eyes upon you. the perfect bloodbag. normally, he'd drain his victims dry and leave them to die, but he'd never do that to you. he'll keep you alive. he'll also keep you healthy to keep your blood fresh and delicious. oh my god

ok outside that little au i think he's very hesitant about all-out biting you unless you really ask for it. he doesn't want you to be scared of him or get too hurt, so you really have to ask. he'll nibble a little at first, being really careful not to actually puncture you with his fangs, but if you convince him to really draw blood then he will. forget him hating blood it's for the intimacy ok. besides he thinks u look nice decorated with two puncture wounds dripping with the scarlet fluid :3

[dreamieyongified]

WELCOME TO HELL

Hey goobies, friends, enemies, lovers, imaginary demons in my head. I wanted to create this blog for the people who care abt my works on AO3, as I want to be more active with everyone other than just posting on AO3. Likely no one will actually care abt this but I DO!!! so that's what I'm banking on. SO if any of you want to interact with me in anyway, whether it's to brutally critique my works or ask questions or even just beg for me to update, and you don't want to do it on AO3 this is where to do it. I'm not expecting anyone to find this until I post my next chapter of THTH, so when I do that I hope you actually click on the link and come say hi!

On a slightly different note, I have some different fics in the works from different fandoms and I'm excited for yall to see those whenever I decide I've written enough to actually start posting them. This by no means is me telling you I'm not writing THTH anymore, because I definitely am and it's been one of the only things I have had a pretty consistent WANT to write for so it will remain to be my special little baby til the day I finish it (whenever that is)

As well as that, I also have that one dead twd fic still on my account that I'm debating orphaning because I have absolutely no interest as of right now in finishing, and quite frankly it's not the level of writing I can be proud of anymore, similar to some of the earlier chapters of THTH.

Anyways I'm gonna stop talking to myself now! Hope you all have a crazy good day whenever you end up reading this!

(and if you just randomly found this my ao3 is Dreamieyong please go spread love :) )

[drownedchimera]

What's your favourite OC and why?

((im sorry i always answer things late, again, stardew valley))

for me it’s kinda.......the three main ocs..........that’s kind of a copout but i project a lot of shit onto the three of them and my want for them to be happy/reach the end of their character arcs is also what i wish for myself. actually, the end goal i want for them (haru especially) is what i want to achieve in the future. 

for haru (he was originally my rogue/ranger i made for my first dnd campaign) his character arc is based around trusting others and overcoming trauma from a relationship. it’s been a while but i still find myself finding it difficult to trust others ever since i dated my ex boyfriend who guilt tripped and gaslit the hell out of me when we were together (which, fun fact, he’s in greenwood too! he’s represented by nacht, who eventually dies :) catharsis, yknow? i wanted to kill him off). haru also has......deeper emotional trauma that comes from his shit parents that he runs away from (and unfortunately, to nacht, which yknow, complicates things for his mental state). by the end of haru’s arc i want him to be able to love and trust the people closest to him without worry.

haru is just essentially an idealized version of myself, jsyk

lupin’s arc is about overcoming a load of self esteem issues and thinking he is less than everyone. the part i dont project onto him is the fact that his dad is a fuckin murderer who killed his mom. im still.....writing that bit of lore and working things out so devnet, lupin’s mother, isn’t dead for only backstory reasons. i want her to be an actual character too. but anyways lupin was close to his mother and the fact that his father viewed him as a degenerate bastard doesn’t help his future relationships. he’s got like. horrible anxiety in relation to what his partners think of him. 

i’ve got other issues that i project onto my characters that arent based on my relationships with others and for that, i have evren. i think i have a slight narcissism issue that comes from my overcompensation to deal with my bad self esteem. but anyways, evren starts out as really full of himself n shit. and unlike haru and lupin, he actually had a decent upbringing. the only issue with that was that his parents forced the idea that he should always be at the top and at the best. so when he isn’t.....well. fuck him i guess, right? anyways its bad. he has to unlearn that shit. as he meets lupin, and then eventually haru, he learns to respond to feedback from others and learns how to better himself. 

also i just wanna say......haru is married to lupin and evren....both of whom are characters based on my dumb gay taste in men...........

i wasnt gonna talk about him but i might as well because he’s the fourth main character in Greenwood but here’s a short bit about nacht. but im putting it under the cut because this is LONG

the four main characters all ”””overcome””” something. (haru = overcome trauma; lupin = overcome self; evren = overcome upbringing)

for nacht it’s overpower others. 

his whole deal is that he wants to be in control because he thinks that after all the things he’s been through in his childhood, he deserves something good. he believes wholeheartedly that he should have something for himself and unfortunately for haru, that’s who nacht wants! when they were together he used haru as a means to rant about his problems. then whenever haru wanted genuine affection or attention from nacht, he’d always be pushed away. nacht always felt like haru was just there to be good for him and he never gave that goodness back to haru. 

(can you tell i have problems?)

anyways sorry i gushed about them for that much but god i have so much to say about them

[kevin6942069]

LORDDD HAVE MERCY, VAMP EDDIE IDEAS.

slight st vol 2 spoilers for eddie

warnings: smut head cannons, eating out on period, blood, and i think thats it

so.. i got some ideas for vampire eddie. im sure some of these have been thought before so if anyone else has made smth abt these please lmk and ill credit, just some 3am daydreaming ;)

-eddie would 100% just sneak up behide you and graze his teeth over your neck

 -if you have a hijab or anything that covers your neck that shouldnt really be   moved away he would just breath on the back of your neck till you notice (bc he   has hot ass breath LMAO)

-if his partner is afab he would ask to eat them out of their period because yk, vampires just love blood and plus its a win-win in his eyes!

-if his partner agrees to it then oh my GOD- he would be such a tease and just graze his teeth over their cunt 

-if his partner is amab then he’ll graze his teeth over their cock while sucking them off, you cant prove me wrong

-i imagine he would have long nails for some reason and he would just tease you by grabbing your sides or playfully tickling you (either sexual or not sexual)

-did i mention he LOVES TEASING YOU? WITH HIS FANGS? DID I MENTION THAT?

-”you scared? i dont bite sweetie. atleast not unless you want me to.”

-”mmm? scared ill bite you?” 

-queue the smug ass shit eating grin every five seconds yall

-brushes his nails over your nipples

-if youre really cold he’ll bring you closer to him and cover you up with his wings :)

-totally begs to bites youre neck or just bite you at all

-please do let him

-if you give in and let him he is so happy, like his eyes glow up and just has the biggest smile ever

i have more hc’s but i just ate a whole tub of ice cream and im lactose intolerant, my stomach is abt to actually fucking explode so ill write more when i feel better LMAO, anyways enjoy ur meal whores <3

[snakeningel]

not to be starting homestuck race disk horse in 2019 but yknow what? I Will.

being an asian fan in the hs fandom is kinda, not great actually. in fact, it not only feels like we’re not here at all, that we’re erased, but its honestly? downright harmful. people treat the trivialization and fetishization of your culture to be,,, like a Big Joak. yall joke about weebs like these people havent been literally grooming and abusing asian girls, like we havent been made fun of enough for Their actions, like we aren't already viewed as the strange punchlines to jokes that still seem somehow acceptable. its somehow funny to joke about how you hate every sign of asian culture that shows up throughout the comics, like how dirk’s kotatsu was dumb and pretentious as if people in japan dont literally live with one and use it every single day!

even asian-coding in characters get swept away in favour of other headcanons. even the megidos, who are as close to canonically asian as they possibly can be in a medium like homestuck, are often drawn white or something completely different altogether. the stridlondes are also heavily asian-coded, and the fans who do pick up on that, who finally feel comforted by someone like them as protagonists? they often just.. give up on that, because they see so little representation in the fandom. (theres only like one popular artist i know of that draws the strilondes asian? but like, hats off to u pal, youre fighting the good fight). also, it seems strange, to be represented so little considering almost 3 billion people on earth is asian, which is, Quite A Lot to be not represented a lot. dont get me wrong, i adore the outpouring of more diverse art of the kids, but a hard truth to swallow is that pocs being weebs/fetishizing asian culture, is just as harmful as white people doing the same. there is a world of difference between japanese dirk, trying to interface with his lost culture by clinging to the most performative and popular parts of it, than another dirk, appropriating people’s cultures because he thinks its funny or interesting based off a show he watched once. i love how people are like "wow the striders like anime and care about traditions and use japanese words and overall just seem like diaspora kids" and the conclusion they draw from that is "clearly,, they cannot be asian" bc a non-asian person being interested in those things is better than an asian person whose interested in their own culture i guess??

in fact, a lot of these narratives are so much more interesting once theyre looked at through their coded lenses!

Dave’s struggle with coming to terms with his emotions strikes such an interesting chord when the striders’ concept of irony and never showing their emotions Correspond so well to the idea of honour/face, where youre not supposed to show that youre Ever Sad or anything that isnt a positive emotion because it shows that youre a Failure and You Failed and that makes you a Bad Person, which is exactly what dave struggles with because hes So Guilty about it, which ties to the guilt and shame a lot of asian people feel about not being able to live up to impossible standards set by their parents, which is another theme we see reflected in all four strilondes. 

rose’s strained relations with her mother are mirrored in so many of our second-generation lives and makes so much more cultural sense when looked at that way. the weird distance you hold from your parents, where you cant look each other in the eyes anymore, because every interaction feels more like a business transaction. you hand in your good grades and praise from teachers, talking about how mature you are, and they return with some present or gift that you don't really want. you dont know anything about them, and they dont know anything about you, Not the person you Actually Are, anyways. but there is a yearning, to be close, to know eachother, but you only feel it in return when its too late. as well as her Obsession to be mature, to be smart and adult-like because thats what shes praised for, because you Need to be academically the best always and that means reading dictionaries until the sun goes down, repeating each word until they are engraved into your mind. always finding competition, subtle or not, because if you are not the winner, what are you?  dirk’s wild performative love of japanese culture (which also, in turn, lead to non-asian fans literally trashing it like it was a funny joke to call someone’s culture lame and stupid) seems like ‘ironic’ weebism, but its also being Exactly the type of over-the-too performative reclaiming of our culture that so many asian diaspora kids do when they’re teens! they feel bad about pushing away their culture as youth, but they’re not quite mature enough to actually care about the rich history and ‘boring’ parts, so they cling to pop culture, to social media and something so much more easily consumable, like anime. which is not even to mention the idea of him trying desperately to connect to a culture that he has never grown up in, but still belonged to by consuming mass amounts of media, being Such an immigrant story. as well as his massive competitive streak and need to make other people as good as he is (but not better), is the type of internalized pressure that a lot of asian kids feel as well. 

and all the stridlondes have various anxieties about not performing well enough, of not living up to a standard that they have set for themselves, feeling like even a single step back or even one mistake is a catastrophic failure that’s branded to you for life. Which is just as much of a mental health thing as it is like,,, an asian thing

this is getting really long so im cutting myself off here but please if you want to hear more about my Thoughts and Hot Takes feel free to shoot me an ask. 

in conclusion: please treat asian people better hs fandom i literally beg you. like,, im Not tryna make waves but,, asian erasure in fandom is a huge issue and no one ever talks abt it!! dont trivialize, fetishize and erase cultures blease  big thanks to @ernikerr and @wyndryga for encouraging me to go Off and helping to write this.

anyone please feel free to rb but non-asian people please watch your mouth

[3416]

the way i REALLY woke up to some people insinuating and supporting the idea that robbe and sander’s relationship is emotionally abusive bc robbe is shown adjusting and trying to support his bf.... yall are literally going stir crazy during this quarantine,, anyway thoughts belong the cut even though no one asked bc yall are SOEMTHIGN.

the way.. some of you really look at sander,,,, someone who dealt with a type of emotional abuse in his last relationship,,,,, and turn around and think he’s manipulating or pushing robbe to do the things he’s doing.... are fucking insane. you’re gonna tell me that robbe drop-everything-for-his-mother ijzermans doesn’t already have the instincts to try to make sander’s existence a little more bearable.... 

deleting and rewriting a text to sound more supportive is censoring yourself.............. i am laughing... did any of you watch season 3 where all he fucking did was delete texts and not send them and rewrite them....... sorry teenage boys aren’t known for fucking empathy, but it’s incredible to me that robbe as a character can pinpoint and correct what may sound slightly condescending to send to someone dealing with an mi in stressful times like this. in fact, it may be even unrealistically communicative of him to do so...

robbe leaving his friends.................... when sander calls him......... because yet again all they were talking about was pussy and weed (NOW they just leave out the homophobic jokes!)........ his friends who left him at the drop of a hat for any girl that walked by all of season 3........ the way yall are acting like they were having some big brain convo when half of us were GRATEFUL that shit was only 2 mins so we didn’t have to listen to teenage boys talk about masturbating with toothpaste.... i cant fklsdjflksdjflkds with YOU GUYS.. PLEASE... THE WAY some of you love the boysquad and specifically jens for being literal nothing friends is so funny to me................... but that’s for another rant.

him not really smoking weed anymore.... i want yall to watch the first clip of the season and tell me robbe wasn’t sitting there trying to cope by getting high and drunk as fuck... why does anyone rely on those substances so heavily? i get it, teenagers are bored and used to it and it’s all fine and dandy, but plenty of people... don’t smoke... the way you guys genuinely think we saw robbe at any single moment in that show LOVING smoking and doing it just for fun rather than to escape his circumstances... so him not doing it now.... honestly seems rather in character lmao. he relied on alcohol n weed to literally get over shit that was happening in his life, and now he doesn’t feel the need to lean so heavily on substances, and yall are MAD and CONCERNED about it? (also... we specifically see him refuse weed the happier he is, ie the hotel clip, before he even knew sander was bipolar... NOW would be the time to pull out those critical thinking skills)

you guys saying that sander gives nothing in return........... did any of you literally watch s3... i am begging you.... please..... know your source material and the characters, you’re driving me to the brink with that insinuation.

and last but not least... i think some of you just WANT robbe to be the least favorite so you can have something to complain about. it’s incredible that you’re able to parse the tag and find examples of robbe’s worth solely hinging on his relation to sander and not the same vice versa......... yesterday, all i saw were people talking about how happy robbe was, and normally... all i see are posts talking abt how happy sander makes him...... you’re gonna tell me that people garnered NOTHING from sitting for an entire 10 weeks in robbe’s shoes? i just don’t buy it. you see what you want to see, and i just can’t entertain half the ideas you guys have people you’re sitting around bored and want something to be mad at. anyway....... sorry if this is too harsh, but it’s like the same people over and over who have whack ass takes and think they have to be the mediators for all discourse and it’s so annoying to me. you can’t just throw around ‘emotional abuse’ n think both sides are equally valid in their thinking... life doesn’t work like that. esp when we’ve only seen 2... (TWO.........) not even 3-minute clips of a relationship outside of season 3.................. you guys are something else...

i love fandom <3

[honeymoonjin]

pre-elimination thoughts

hello here is a compiled list of all the asks i woke up to this morning relating to the elimination ksdjfks please enjoy 

If u see it from the pov of yn like actually that the person yn said “lets vote kook off after he shared his feelings and got provoked abt it” thats gonna hurt koo so much and he probably will completely shut himself off/ maybe even ask to leave the house if sora allows that?😳 and for yall b’s to vote him off!!! I’ll never forgive yall if sora announces that he got voted off fr fr!!!

Listen I’m not trying to be hateful but what did tae give us this week in comparison to JK??? Did he give us a whole scene? did he take the time to set up the gym into an exam room? Give us a sexy doctor moment?? No. He gave us some relatively mild puppy play which is fine!! But i mean compared to everyone else’s scene?? JK needs his moment, needs US on his side! Tae will still have jimin if he gets eliminated but koo needs a moment to shine! #byetae #savejk

I just remembered the elimination is based on sex...i voted the wrong person😞

why are people kicking off hoseok what did my man do

I’m gonna day this once. Vote koo out and I’m coming for kneecaps. There is so much potential there with the Maknae line. Listen hear me out the candidate that would hurt the least is hobi I know he was gonna get booted last week but like he’s the one that is the least emotionally attached to yn ya feel?! And also I feel like this opens up opportunities for him to dick down other members…. not naming names but *cough* jimin *cough* anyways that’s my tea if Jungkook is booted this week Readers …. I’m cracking my knuckles and we’re fucking throwing hands accept there won’t be a Seokjin and Yoongi to hold me back when I push y’all on a coffee table 😤😤🥱🥱👊🏾👊🏾

jimin may of instigated the fight, but jungkook threw the first punch and to me that’s a lot worse

the way it just took me five minutes to vote 💀 and 4 minutes and 55 seconds of those 5, i was just staring at my wall contemplating

Let's try and think with the few braincells we have left fam. Hoseok scenes are the most fun to read bc he is extremely confident and also one of the most experienced in the house. DON'T VOTE HIM OUT. A lot of the others could have a great storyline just hanging out in the house and creating sexual tension and drama. HOSEOK SHINES WHEN HE'S PERFORMING AND BEING A HARD ASS CONFINDENT SEXY DOM. PLEASE I'M BEGGING YOU DON'T VOTE HIM OUT JUST YET.

i swear to fucking god i y'all vote hoseok out i'm rioting

People out here fighting for who should get eliminated but I'm here cant even figure out who to vote for cause I love all of them so much,,,, BUT IF ANYONE EVEN COMES NEAR MY BABY JIMIN AND YOONGI AND KOO IM KILLING ON SIGHT -jimin slap me anon

Ngl y’all wish I could vote y/n out 😂😂😂 girl gets into a relationship on a porn show... with 2 guys she doesn’t really seem to even like that much in a romantic way. Idk I’m fine with vmin but I don’t like the poly :/ not because it’s poly just because it doesn’t make sense + it’s complicating a lot of shit. I love the story though so I’m gonna keep reading it I just don’t agree with the relationship. I don’t think she should have a relationship with any of them until the show is over

Aaah this chapter was so good but also a mess 😭 I literally don’t know who to choose, I would actually be the worst in such a situation because I hate making decisions like that! I‘m seeing all those aggressive asks you’re getting and I‘m just sitting in the corner over here instead trying to deal with emotions 🥺 I just hope they’re all going to be alright in the end!!

I sent u two asks already queen and it def shows what good of a job you've done but this time let me be selfish for a second Because these anons are pissing me OFF! I can't believe so many people are in favour of voting Taekook out bro I'm really gonna pull a Kook and fight yall in the living room like UR really gonna break their hearts like that? JKS gonna blame himself for opening up and Tae will be devastated that he cant touch MC since touch is one of his love languages! Yall make Me SIQUE!

im voting tae out bc imo his scene was v plain. I get that pet play is out there n kinky but it was boring. While the hopekook scene with y/n was explosive it felt like tae having jimin there for his scene was a cop out. n then they did their dumb poly thing which should honestly be against the rules. WHAT SNAKES! also ngl but i feel like jimins been such a b to hopekook all the time FOR WHAT! im voting out tae for this week n jimin after. VMIN CAN GO FUCK EACH OTHER IN THE BUNKS FOR ALL OF TIME

Please please please don’t throw JK under the bus, if he gets eliminated his mental state is going to crumble even more than it already did, poor baby boy doesn’t deserve to get eliminated specially if we vote solely on the sex, because this man really went all out with his prompt, he was so diligent with staying in character and all, AND come on y’all did you not read the part in which he was being taken out crying while saying how sorry he was for the mess? We can’t break his heart even more

#kickjk2020 vminy/n for the win ‼️😼

Okay I’m sorry for yelling in my last ask BUT I’d be lying if I said I couldn’t relate to the way jk reacted bc I’d definitely feel the same as him that, doesn’t make the actions he took right but I mean have y’all really never felt that upset and alone before? You’re up against a wall with no where to go dude. Ofc you’re gonna lash out. His prompt was AMAZING he put in so much effort and it was SPICEY. And he felt so apologetic after the fight. He needs more time please:(((( #SaveJungkook

Ok but what i think some of us don’t get is that the elimination vote is from Y/N’s perspective, right? So how in the world will that go down? After all this, her voting Jk off. So, what i’m saying is #saveSora and #savejk

that chapter was so emotionally exhausting 😓 you’re such a great writer but it breaks my heart nonetheless. I guess that’s all I have to say about the chapter. but as far as voting, my choices are COMPLETELY DIFFERENT. cause one I want to vote out based off of sex, and the other strictly based on emotion. uugh I can’t decide (even though I know you want it based on sex). my final statement I’ll campaign for is PLEASE don’t vote out jin or joon 🥺 #savejin&joon

I see ask about voting my man Jimin or sweet baby boy jk and even sweet taetae out while I'm here wondering if we can veto yn out 😔 i get her pov but damn im really pissed that she just gets "plant mode on" in situations like this

I’m so sorry for my baby but Tae is the one who has to go, c’mon everyone he is the safest option! He will still have Jimin and he can still have fun with the rest of the gentlemen, and you can’t tell me that he wouldn’t enjoy just watching and/ or punishing y/n when she decides that she can’t keep her hands to herself, HE WOULD STILL BE ABLE TO ENJOY BEING ON THE SHOW WITHOUT THE SEX WITH Y/N BECAUSE WE’VE SEEN HIM ENJOY SEXY TIMES WITH THE OTHER GENTLEMEN! HE CAN STILL BE HAPPY IF HE GOES

If koo gets voted off I'm actually going to c r y just-

if y’all vote my baby koo out i will personally hunt you down and crack your spine like a fucking glowstick xx

PEOPLE DONT VOTE KOOK OFF. HE LET OFF SOME STEAM NOW ALL WE NEED IS FOR HIM TO APOLOGIZE AND MAKE THINGS RIGHT 😭

PLEASE DONT HURT KOO IM LEAVE THE BABY ALONE OKAY???:(((((((

#SAVEYOONGI WE GOT THE TINIEST CRUMB OF HIS FEELINGS ON THE COUCH WITH Y/N THE NIGHT OF THE THREESOME AND I WANT THOSE FEELINGS TO FLOURISH 👁️👁️

i’m sorry but if we’re voting by who did they prompt the worst you have got to choose seokjin. i feel so bad for him because the thing ab his feelings just came out but the most interesting scene he’s had up until now was the threesome with yoongi. if i could, everyone would keep participating but in this moment, seokjins the obvious choice to me

luckily it wasn’t as many as i thought but still fsdjfkjks phew yall are passionate ;;-;

[moody-bloosh]

sjdjdjs i just saw your post abt the fates au for risotto and it was so cute!!! can you please do one for jotaro or kakyoin??? or both being summoned by the same master ??? thank u so much!!! and if not, it's fine. just wanted to say how much that risotto fates au made my heart 💖💞😊💗💘💖💞😊💗💘💖💗😊💘💖💗😊

Jotaro and Kakyoin in Chaldea.

How about I just do both ; )

I’ll be setting this particular piece of work in the Fate Grand Order universe. Mainly because it allows for a single Master to have multiple servants bUT ALSO bc im FGO trash ;;;; hMU IF YALL PLAY THE GAME TOO OKAY (◠‿◕) i started on the JP server during the final Gudaguda event so~ 

a l s o THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR YOUR KIND WORDS im rly so happy you like the fate au,, tbh i was very hesitant about posting it but seeing the response ;;; anyways enough rambling from me ,, enjoy ♡ and if you were looking for something a little different please send another ask in! I want to make sure I answer yall’s asks to the best of my ability ^^ 

Being Summoned by the Same Master

Although it’s difficult to work with them at first, given that it takes a while for the two of them to warm up to you. When you do gain their respect, they prove to be very capable and reliable Servants.

Please try to keep the two of them away from Ozymandias.

“Apologies, Master, please do keep me away from that flashy Rider… I-it’s nothing. His laughter is just…unsettling.“

Jotaro doesn’t say much. Just huffs and glares at you if you put him in a team with Ozymandias. He’ll be in a bad mood for the rest of the day.

The two of them are secretly pleased to be reunited again.

Once during a very tense battle, Jotaro takes a hit that was supposed to be meant for Kakyoin.

Kakyoin is very irate, scolding Jotaro as soon as the battle is over, “I could’ve taken that hit! Look at yourself, you’re a mess!” He pauses, “I-it’s not going to be like before, okay? I’m stronger now…so…”

An emotionally charged silence hangs between the two of them before Jotaro finally sighs, “I get it already, good grief…”

You fall asleep on Jotaro’s shoulder once and Kakyoin manages to snap a picture. The only reason he doesn’t get up to destroy the evidence is because he’s worried about waking you up.

“But if you hated it so much,” you mused out loud, “you could’ve just used your Stand, right Jotaro?”

Kakyoin bursts out into laughter while Jotaro gives you piercing look that sends a chill down your spine.

“I-I’m just kidding. Please stop giving me that scary look, Jotaro.“

Of course it goes without saying, they will absolutely crush anyone who harms you.

Individual Headcanons for the two of them under the cut!

Kujo Jotaro

The Throne did not recognize the being known as Jotaro Kujo as a Servant since he lacked the necessary heroic deeds to be recognized as one. However, given the events that transpired during a certain Singularity in Egypt, he was merged with his Stand, Star Platinum and was qualified to be one.

“Kujo Jotaro, class Alter Ego… So, you’ve summoned me,” he sighs. “Good grief.”

In his first ascension, he has some of Star Platinum’s features merged with him. But in his later ascensions he grows to look more like his form during the events of Stardust Crusaders.

Enjoys Emiya’s food. It reminds him of Holly’s cooking.

Try not to use your Command Seals on him. He dislikes being forced to do things and he takes it as you not trusting him enough.

You end up having to explain to him that he doesn’t need to handle everything himself, he has friends and teammates he can rely on at Chaldea.

“So rely on me too, okay Jotaro?” You said with a reassuring smile on your face

“…likewise…”

“W-what was that?”

Jotaro just huffs as he leaves, with you trailing after him, begging him to repeat his words.

Never calls you Master but he does call you by your first name once he finally warms up to you.

His Noble Phantasm’s True Name is Star Platinum. Invoking it lets him rush the enemy with a flurry of punches. In his Final Ascension, he is able to call out the Stand itself to deliver that assault.

With his newfound strength as a Servant, he strives to protect everyone he loves. He won’t lose anyone.

His wish for the Holy Grail is to have been strong enough to save the other Crusaders from their fate.

Kakyoin Noriaki

In the same way, Kakyoin Noriaki was not recognized as a Servant by the Throne and thus was merged with Hierophant Green. He manifests as an Archer.

He has some of Hierophant Green’s features, using the Stand as a projectile launcher for his emeralds. In his Final Ascension, he looks more like his form in Stardust Crusaders.

“Servant, Kakyoin Noriaki. It seems I’ve manifested as an Archer. Hmph, so you’re my Master. Try not to fall behind me.”

You once put him in a team with Boudica and Raikou and you swear to God: he totally flashed you a thumbs up and gave you three Saint Quartz.

“My sincerest thanks, Master.” He tells you with a cheeky grin.

Gets along surprisingly well with Arjuna.

Will protect you with everything he has.

One of his major hang ups is the face that he fell in the middle of battle. Although he fights a little cautiously, he makes sure to end a fight, no matter what.

He used to call you informally by your first name but when you got closer he started calling you Master.

He was rude when you’d first summoned him because he looked down on you as a mage, seeing you as just some random nobody who was called in to fill the numbers.

“Try not to hold me back or get in my way, _____,“ he’d said to you haughtily.

But as he watches you lead the other Servants through countless of victories, face down terrifying threats, be subjected through some of the most horrifying shit, and still manage to keep a smile on your face despite it all. He can’t help but come to adore you too.

Spouts off interesting facts about the places you visit on Rayshifts.

One of the best people to hang out with in Chaldea, you genuinely enjoy having Kakyoin over for tea in your room since he tells you just the craziest stories about the Crusaders and their attempts at taking down DIO.

His Noble Phantasm’s True Name is Emerald Splash. No one can dodge it. For real, okay.

His wish for the Holy Grail is to have been able to stand with his friends at the very end.

[cupidmarwani-archive]

The Med Groupchat

Summary: The title speaks for itself.

WC: 1.5k

[crickett has renamed the chat “SEXY BITCHES”]

crickett: my city now

[Maggie<3 has renamed the chat “Gaffney ED”]

Maggie<3: Absolutely not

J. Lanik: Dr. Marcel, I can just kick you out of the chat if you cannot take this seriously.

crickett: rude

[J. Lanik has changed “crickett”’s username to “Crockett Marcel”]

[Crockett Marcel has changed “Crockett Marcel”’s username to “crickett”]

[crickett has added “HUBBY” to the chat]

HUBBY: Hi this is Ethan Crockett made my username and I don’t know how to change it

J. Lanik: I can change it in the chat for you I have admin privileges

crickett: no fun

HUBBY: Please change my username

[J. Lanik has changed “HUBBY”’s username to “Ethan Choi”]

crickett: how come u have all the power

J. Lanik: Because I’m an adult.

FreeWilly: who acts like a five year old lmao

J. Lanik: YOU KNEW I WAS SAVING THAT SORBET FOR FRIDAY NIGHT AS A TREAT FOR MYSELF

crickett: no need to yell

[crickett has sent an image to the chat]

FreeWilly: WHAT THE FUCK CROCKETT

J. Lanik: HOLY SHIT

[Maggie<3 has left the chat]

[crickett has deleted a message from the chat]

crickett: sorry babes i meant to send that to @EthanChoi

Ethan Choi: I’m breaking up with you

[J. Lanik has added “Maggie<3” to the chat]

Ethan Choi: You’re safe now, Maggie

Lesbian’s Wife: hey google how do i bleach my brain

Lesbian: Seconded

Maggie<3: Remind me which one of you is which

Lesbian: I’m Ava

FreeWilly: I remember cos Sarah never shuts up about being Ava’s wife

Lesbian’s Wife: I’m Ava’s wife <3

[J. Lanik has changed “Lesbian”’s username to “Bekker”]

[J. Lanik has changed “Lesbian’s Wife”’s username to “Other Bekker”]

crickett: not that i dont love and support dr bekker but this is the ed chat 

crickett: since u wont let me name it the sexy bitches chat

J. Lanik: She’s married to Sarah and cardiology is always down here.

J. Lanik: WAIT

[J. Lanik has added “connor” to the chat]

[J. Lanik has added “MommyPower” to the chat]

Maggie<3: I love you, Nat, but please change your username

crickett: give me admin power

[MommyPower has changed “MommyPower”’s username to “Nat”]

Nat: I’m in a mom chat leave me alone

Maggie<3: How’s Owen btw

crickett: @J.Lanik give me admin give me admin

Ethan Choi: do not give him admin I’m begging you

[J. Lanik has promoted “Ethan Choi” to administrator]

[Ethan Choi has changed “J. Lanik”’s username to “BooBoo the Fool”]

Nat: Owen is great thanks for asking! He just started soccer.

[Ethan Choi has removed “BooBoo the Fool” from the chat]

Ethan Choi: YOU FOOL

Ethan Choi: I HAVE ACCESS TO ETHAN’S PHONE

Ethan Choi: AND HE IS EASILY DISTRACTIBLE!

crickett: He locked himself in the bathroom with my phone. But now I have his

Ethan Choi: WAIT NO I HAVE PRIVATE STUFF THERE

Maggie<3: More private than your dick pics?

Connor: his WHAT

[Ethan Choi has added “BooBoo the Fool” to the chat.]

[BooBoo the Fool has changed “BooBoo the Fool”’s username to “Lanik”]

[Lanik has demoted “Ethan Choi” from administrator]

Lanik: This close to removing you from the chat, Marcel.

crickett: u love me too much

Bekker: Crockett sent us all his dick earlier @connor

crickett: NOT ON PURPOSE

connor: ...is it a good dick

crickett: i mean yeah? i hope so 

Ethan Choi: I’d like to stop talking about my husband’s dick please

Ethan Choi: (but for the record @connor it is a good dick)

Other Bekker: can we not talk abt his dick

Other Bekker: not unless i can talk about the strap but lanik said thats not allowed

Bekker: So he can send nudes but Sarah can’t talk about our new strap?

[Lanik has added “Dr. Charles” to the chat]

Lanik: Will this make you all calm down?

Dr. Charles: I don’t want to be involved here.

[Dr. Charles has left the chat]

Other Bekker: DAD

connor: lmao daddy issues

Bekker: @connor is this the hill you wanna die on?

[connor has deleted a message from the chat]

FreeWilly: can we all calm down lol

crickett: no. @connor dm if you wanna see my dick

Ethan Choi: ��

crickett: i was kidding!!

crickett: haha unless……..

Lanik: Please do not plan threesomes in the work groupchat.

April: @Lanik bitter because you weren’t invited

crickett: OOOOOH burn

Ethan Choi: Does @no-ah have us on mute

April: yes

crickett: I’ll dm him some booty pics

Ethan Choi: Do not dm him booty pics

crickett: doing so is a public service

FreeWilly: to be fair Ethan he does get naked anywhere and everywhere

Nat: Including my birthday party >:(

crickett: in my defense u and april and sarah were also naked

Other Bekker: i remember that lmao

Lanik: This is a work chat.

FreeWilly: we should have a nude exchange

[Lanik has removed “FreeWilly” from the chat]

crickett: ooooh drama. are yall gonna break up

[Lanik has muted “crickett”]

Maggie<3: It’s so… quiet

Ethan Choi: Please unmute him he’s whiny

[Lanik has unmuted “crickett”]

connor: anyways 

connor: who wants to talk about their trauma

Bekker: @connor Like when you accused me of murder

Other Bekker: when i was a kid my mom really hated me and ive never really felt loved and maybe thats why im in a constant state of loneliness and being unfulfilled and even though im the happiest ive ever been i constantly feel like im on the edge of a cliff and at any moment im gonna fall over the edge and die

connor: that was loaded

Other Bekker: you asked

Maggie<3: I was traumatized by seeing Crockett’s penis

connor: lucky :(

Lanik: Jeez kids can you lighten up a little

Nat: HE KNOWS MEMES HE KNOWS MEMES

crickett: WHERE HAVE YOU BEEN HIDING THIS JIMOTHY

Lanik: Don’t call me Jimothy.

Ethan Choi: @connor why are you thirsty

[Lanik has added “FreeWilly” to the chat]

Lanik: It’s worse without you

FreeWilly: that may be the nicest thing youve ever said to me…

crickett: hey baby

crickett: baby

crickett: baby

crickett: baby

Nat: Use dm

crickett: baby

crickett: baby

Ethan Choi: What

crickett: since ur going to the hospital tonight can u pick up my meds uwu <3

Ethan Choi: Only if you promise to never say uwu again

[Other Bekker has renamed the chat “uwu”]

Nat: uwu

connor: uwu

Other Bekker: uwu

Bekker: uwu

April: uwu

Maggie<3: uwu

FreeWilly: uwu

Crickett: OWO

Ethan Choi: I want a divorce

[Lanik has renamed the chat “SHUT THE FUCK UP MARCEL”]

connor: lanik snapped

FreeWilly: hot

connor: WAIT CROCKETT DID YOU DO THAT ON PURPOSE

crickett: ;)

Bekker: What did he do

connor: i saw the dick pick. @EthanChoi you were right its nice

Lanik: Please stop planning threesomes in the chat

Ethan Choi: @connor I’ll set up a private chat

connor: yesyesyesyesyes

Nat: I wish I could get laid this easily…

April: You can

Maggie<3: I’m with @Lanik can you guys not be horny in this chat

Other Bekker: my two modes are horny and depressed

Bekker: Actually you have a third- hungry

Other Bekker: fair

No-ah: This is why I have the chat muted

[No-ah has left the chat]

[Lanik has added “Queen Elsa” to the chat]

Bekker: Rounding out the lesbianism I see

Queen Elsa: Is this even a chat I want to be in?

Ethan Choi: No

Maggie<3: No

crickett: yes

Other Bekker: to summarize: crockett sent a dickpic on accident and connor was disappointed he didnt see it and now hes gonna sleep with ethan and crockett and also i think nat and april are gonna get laid and also in case you didnt know yet will and jimmy are dating

Other Bekker: AND @Bekker IS MY WIFE!

Maggie<3: There it is

Lanik: Hi, Ms. Curry. This is the groupchat for the ED and I trust that you’ll treat this respectfully unlike some of the other doctors have been

Queen Elsa: Did you just call me a doctor?

crickett: do not listen to him this chat is all fun and games and dickpics

Queen Elsa: If that last part is true, I’m leaving the chat.

crickett: it only happened once and it was an accident

[Other Bekker has sent an image]

Other Bekker: look at my wife look at my wife look at my wife

FreeWilly: @April @Nat are you guys still here

Maggie<3: It looks like they both have us on mute

crickett: good for them,, we been knew they were in love

Ethan Choi: Please act like a person

crickett: bold of u to assume im a person

[connor has renamed the chat “tinder for lonely gay doctors and nurses”]

Other Bekker: DOES THIS MEAN WE CAN HELP ELSA GET A GIRLFRIEND

Queen Elsa: I have one.

Other Bekker: omg omg omg spill

Lanik: I feel like none of you are taking this seriously.

[Lanik has promoted “Maggie<3” to administrator]

Lanik: Never let it be said that I did not try.

[Maggie<3 has changed “Lanik”’s username to”BooBoo the Fool”]

[BooBoo the Fool has left the chat]

[fuck-customers]

this is long and just me being mad lol fuck drive thru

God I cant believe I have to say this: please, if youre in drive in a car full of people, ORDER ONE. AT. A. TIME!!! And if yall are talking over eachother I might miss something. Oh!! And when I ask of that screen is correct, FUCKING CHECK IT!!! Because if you drive away and dont tell me, Im counting it correct, and if your orders fucked up bc You didnt listen, THATS ON YOU!! I had this car full of people ordering and talking over eachother and at one point someone was talking about a combo but no one said anything to me definitely. Like I heard them going "Why dont you get a combo?" And then there were too many people talking I couldn't keep up be I have problems with lots of noises! I probably have auditory processing issues!! I cant afford a doctors visit to check!! ANYWAY I made sure to tell them to check the screen for their order and they DROVE AWAY MID SENTENCE, So i was like okay fuck me then I guess we'll never know!!!!! They get to the window, I cash them out, I hand them their drinks, and. Okay we have to fill our freezes to a certain point. Its a dome lid but we cant fill it to the top, we are told to fill it to the top of the Cup, not the Lid. Its stupid, but it prevents it from leaking. Esp bc our freezes tend to expand as they settle and take up more space. So thats how i filled this kids freeze. This is relevant later. I hand their 2 drinks out. Bc they definitely got 2 combos. And i close my window and work on taking orders. The man driving waves at me, knocks on my window a bunch until I finally open it and hes like "we're missing a drink" and im like??????? No?????? You got two combos?????? And hes like no we got the nacho bell combo And I just stare at him, bc they were honestly difficult throughout the order, and they DROVE OFF!!!! I go "No one ordered the nacho combo. I heard someone mention it, but not... I asked if everything was correct-" He interrupts me FUCKING A G A I N and keeps insisting he ordered it, so I tell him there was a lot of noise, I must not of heard it!! I get interrupted by the child, maybe 9 or 10, in the back seat holding the freeze out in my face going "can you fill this more". Uh... i can throw it away, fuck you doing?? Dont shove it in my face! So. I take it and I fill it more and hand it out. Now the guy Demands he get the combo. And I dont fucking know what to do bc I already cashed you out dude!!!! Its so busy, you should have made everyone shut the fuck up at the board and ordered one at a time, yknow, like Normal fucking People!!! CHECK THE SCREEN!!!!!! ITS SO EASY!!!!!!! I have to: Call over a manager, Refund the nacho, ring him up again for the combo, Wait for his slow ass to pull out his money. I turn to my manager while this guy is still talking abt the GODDAMN combo and everyone in the car is just talking about Whatever and i beg her to come help me. Im so stressed already and i just cant take this next order And talk to this guy, and his car full of people who wont just shut up and let him Fucking ORDER. She comes over. She talks to him. We're so slammed she just concedes, but shes mad. Shes going to give them the taco and drink for free bc she doesnt want to deal with their shit. She does that for me and gives them their shit and they take their time driving away and I just want to FUCKING die like. Yall dont know shit???? About drive thru???? Does anyone Fucking know how it works, how to order????? How to check a GODDAMN SCREEN???? FUCK YOU Im so heated bc it was so busy and people were so rude i came home and i just fucking Broke down. I hate my job, I hate like 80% of my customers, I cant fucking do this. I cant do it. I cant do it. I cant. Im tired. Fuck. I have an interview on the 28th for a job thats Not retail or food and I am so fucking eager like I need out of this hell hole so fucking bad Im tearing up just thinking about the possibility of Leaving. I cant wait to quit.

[whorangecassidy]

billy ray cyrus much to think about dot jay peg

[guyfierisrealwife]

yall mind if i fuckin uuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh cw for fuckin abuse ig

im so fucking lonely and i hate living here so much like im seriously at my limit idk what to do anymore like. theres really no safe place to be? like some of my friends have offered to let me stay with them for a little bit and that is extremely kind and generous of them and i love them very much and if either of you are reading this thank you so much ily ily but like i cannt do that to you and i also cant leave my mom alone with her ex as much as id want to leave this place and as much as i appreciate the offer i cant leave her

but at the same time both my mom’s house and my dad’s house are unsafe places for me to be at but i cant leave and i dont even know if ill be able to go back to school in the fall like rn idk what’s going to happen and like if the virus isnt like. less. by then i cant go. like i have severe asthma like it gets set off by anything and if i get it i might go to the hospital or die or whatever and its just not worth going back to school for a semester if i might just fucking die but also i Hate being home and i dont want to fall behind where i want to be with school and i dont want to be a semester behind all of my friends and graduate late like i know thats kind of stupid but i dont want to yknow

but most importantly with that i dont want to lose my fucking job if i have to take the semester off like thatd be devastating to me like my father isnt helping me pay for school and my mom is helping a little but i want her to save her fucking money like id rather be in debt than have her live with chris any longer than she has to so working is really important and i love my job a lot and im like Good at it and i dont want to lose my job

idk im just worried and if my dad screams at me one more time or makes some weird sexual comment or like moans loudly in our shitty small apartment where i can hear everything he does im going to fucking lose it like please im Literally Begging you to shut up like i hate living here i hate it but i dont have a fucking choice and like i know that there are solutions to this but none of them can like. work because i cant leave and move away without my mom being able to do the same

plus my brother screams at me for doing literally anything and he steals money and food from me like sometimes ill have like alcohol in the house bc how the fuck else am i supposed to cope and he just Takes it and he steals money from me even though he doesnt fucking need it like he’s not going to school and if he needs something my dad will get it for him bc mikey is physically the largest and strongest one of us so my dad is just like “here have whatever you want”

and my dad literally doesnt care about anyone but himself i was like “if your friend is in the house can you please have both of you wear a mask” and he lost his fucking mind at me which is like. cool. ok thank you. i mean there’s a pandemic and you and i are in high risk groups and i know the only thing you’d care about if i died would be that i wouldn’t have any more accomplishments you can take the credit for and if you fucking cried when i died id haunt you for the rest of fucking time you disgusting pervert id make your life hell like the fucking hell you made me grow up in but whatever

also we’re fucking poor which honestly does suck like a lot of the time like im not allowed to shower that often bc my like 10 minute showers every other day take ‘too much hot water and make the bill too high’ but if mikey takes an hour long shower every day he doesnt say Shit, and he’ll buy himself a lot of new shit and make fun of me for buying a computer with the money i made by working (at a job he doesn’t think is like a ‘real job’ even though it. is?? like i dont get his logic?? is it bc i work for the school i go to? whatever.) becauyse my computer broke beyond fucking repair and id had it for like 5 years and the new one i got the fucking person at the store was like “you need this one” and it was on sale because parts of it dont work so i was like “yeah ok sure” and my dad is like “um :-) you cant say anythign bc you bought a new computer” and its like yeah and i dont pay the water bill so whatever if you want to complain abt something complain about how you drink a 12 pack of beer a day and scream at your kids about how when we ask for food it’s too expensive because we’re like “can we have milk and sandwich stuff in the house?” and youre like “literally die i hate you i hate you. im such a good dad :) you are so ungrateful :) no one helps with anything in this house :)” even though i literally do?? like so much??? and if im like “im going to wash dishes” since we dont have a dishwash machine he’s like “NO DONT FUCKING DO THAT YOUD USE HOT WATER” and its like please im fucing begging you to have a brain dude like im really begging you to think for once in your goddamn life about literally anything

not to mention hes a huge homophobe and fucking ableist even though he has a gay, mentally ill daughter and a neurodivergent son that he refused for YEARS to admit has some kind of neurodivergency and didnt let live with my mom because he “didnt want to lose his only son” even though hes abusive to him and all 3 of his fucking daughters lmao and he wonders WHY heather and alyssa hate him so much its because he says things like “youre so hot” to his daughters and then screams at them and says shit like “ladies shouldnt fucking swear” and threatens us and screams so much and thinks that an “im sorry...................you know how i am...........i was just upset..............why are you so angry that i screamed at you until you cried and then got even more mad that you were crying............................. i didnt do anything wrong and you should forgive me even though i never will change.” like dude i told you it made me anxious when you came into my room when i was in 6th grade and you laughed in my face!!! you laughed at me!!! when i was clearly nervous and visbily afraid you were LAUGHING at me

AND HE FUCKING LIES SO MUCH!!!! HE LIES TO EXTENDED FAMILY MEMVERS TO MAKE THEM THNK HES A GOOD PERSON AND HE ACTS SO BELITTLING i hate him so much i literally hate him and the times that im so fucking lonely bc i have no one else i live with to talk to i say something to him and hes like “shut the fuck up and go away” and its lik :-) ok. how do you expect any of your kids to talk to you if you tell me to go away as soon as i say anything

and dont look at my goddamn ass and legs and dont look at other women like that either and dont masturbate with the door open just FUCKIN STOP YOURE DISGUSTING I HATE IT HERE

also mister “i NEVER hurt any of you” like yeah ok THATS why you screamed about hitting us and threatened us and literally?? did??? hit us with your fcuking belt? like what lmao do you have fucking memory loss ??? like do you not remember like ik it was a while ago but think back like. i remember clearly you slapping my brother across the face but ok lol

anyway i Do hate it here lol