#anyways I'm in a bad mood
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#im so so so so tired#i want good things happening to me#im tired of saying “well at least ---” or “it could be worse” bc i want it to be better#we all deserve that#it shouldn't be always this difficult or fucking unbearable#i know there are people who have it worse#but see???#i dont want to feel ungrateful for thinking “my life sucks in several ways” and being afraid of things getting worse because of that#i feel like if im ungrateful things will get worse#but they're pretty fucked up anyways lol#so whats the deal#anyways I'm in a bad mood#my grandma died and i miss her so much and i feel kinda numb like “it was expected” and ???#i want to cry my eyes out because of her but no#i guess my grief for my father's passing made me normalize a bit death idk#but it's not okay that my grandma died no matter her age#and im mad that the world keeps spinning#and im mad that im not better#and im mad because my fucking computer wont turn on when i need it the most#i wanted to writeeeee#to stop thinking#i also wanted to start considering the idea of playing dnd online but i guess i wont be able to for the foreseeable future#ugh im mad#i want to sleep forever bye
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I just like the idea that once Missa hears Phil has another "kid" he'd try and do whatever he can to help and Phil feels emotions about it
#Qsmp#Qsmp fanart#Pissa#qsmp shipping#qsmp philza#qsmp missa#qsmp Wilbur#I'd like to think the difference in style and shading relates to the contrast of scenarios! The first one is comedic-#while the second one is more serious and genuine in mood#Definitely not because I tryharded for the second scene#I have rotated this family in my mind so much aaGH#I just think Phil would fall a little more in love hearing Missa care about the people that are close to him#Also it is late I just would love to see Missa and Wilbur interact so bad and Missa being like: Okay as your father I'm going to help you#Missa may just have as much if not a bit more than Wilbur does but I think it could be a really funny dynamic#Anyway maybe Pissa reunion today prayge
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Little bright colored outfit with a fun vest ~
(shoes from ebay like 10 years ago. everything else is thrifted)
#ootd#jfashion#fashion#fantasy fashion#mori kei#....like... adjacent... lol#no idea what style this would be lol.. makes me think of like whimsical vaguely fantasy themed childrens book character#finally posting one of my aforementioned seven million drafts of actual outfits and costumes i have finished and edited#the photos for but just never feel like posting lol..#I need to find one of those people whos like 'omg i am ADDICTED to social media ugh i wish i could get off of it#im just browsing and posting like 60 times a daaaaay!!!' and take a little magical bottle and suck some of the social media#enthusiasim out of them. for moi. In exchange they can have some of my 'literally just never in the mood to post or interact with the#outside world ever' energy. We can balance each other. huzzah and so on#Though I think maybe it's part of the general thing I've heard of like.. I can't remember if it was in reference to adhd or just some sort#of general execcutive functioning issue type of thing - but the idea that things have to be ''just right'' before you do something. like#'oh i need to do this task. but i have to wait until XYZ first' or 'oh i can do this but only if X specific condition is met' or etc#The fact that I even have to be in a Specific Mindset to post. or sometimes will delay posting on social media because like 'oh well#I'm going somewhere tomorrow. somehow this matters. i cannot spend 5 minuts posting TONIGHT. clearly it will interfere#somehow schedule wise with the doctor appointment i have 15 hours from now. yes. yes. i must wait until my appointment is over#tomorrow afternoon. THEN i shall post' or etc. etc. lol. NOT even taking into account the many days#I just genuinely and physically sick and it's not even a mental thing. I just physically dont feel like sitting at the computer lol..#ANYWAY.. trying to get back into it. trying to get a business bank account.. make a proper paypal so i can start selling sculptures again.#selling clothes and sculptures.. posting about such things then of course as one must. etc... chanting to hype up and motivate myself lol#But yes. this is my favorite outfit out of the bunch so I am posting it first I guess.. maybe others later..#Also the purple dress says its from shein. which I've heard is bad fast fashion stuff. but maybe okay since its second hand? I havent#been to the bins since like 2020 or late 2019 even. and I think stuff like shein and temu has only become poular in the past few years#but I bet if I went to the bins now I might would find a good handfull of that stuff. Probably now not much different than what you#find in a walmart or a forever 21 or actual physical stores you can go to though. I hear quality of clothing is down everywhere no matter#where you get it or whatnot. What bountiful joys unfettered capitalism and exploitation bestows upon us (<being sarcastic).#Wearing one of my favorite little vests though. I love the texture of it and the clasps on it
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I wish to be as attractive as your art style. You really do just make everyone hot.
well you'd only be pixels on a cold screen with no marks or history or warmth, which to me personally doesn't sound so hot. If I could capture a whole person as if real life (with different wrinkles and marks and hair and fat distribution and hues of colour and expressions) every time I draw, I would. You exist like that already, so if anything my artstyle wants to be like you.
#Also thank you. Sorry I'm in a weird mood lol#I do feel bad sometimes that like. I do feel like I beautify my art. Everyone does I think. But I know very few people look like that#But I'm slowly working towards drawing more authentic. I hope anyway#not an art
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Basically I think that the issue with this site's knowledge of irish famines is that many many tumblr users whose entire knowledge of ireland is based on vague ideas of leprechauns heard "the british caused an gorta mór" and immediately assumed that this must mean that there was some british guy up there in a supervillain tower who like literally personally puppeteered every single thing that happened between 1845-1852 (but not before, obviously! learning anything else abt irish history would be too much effort) on purpose with the intent of Killing Everyone and not, you know, that that sentiment is MEANT to indicate the apparently far too complex idea that the severity of the crisis was largely a result of the hundreds of years of british policy and british prejudice which led up to it and that it was exacerbated by the actions of absentee landlords and the british government during the famine. the fact that a few specific authors who should know better I could name keep saying this also does not help things
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you know sometimes one of the things the fandom does that i like the least is joke about how certain ccs are "lorephobic" because it basically always ignores the lore they actually are really and visibly doing. like, sure, they may not be doing the lore YOU'RE looking at, but, one, lore doesn't just mean "big overarching server storyline" it can also mean solo stuff. it can also mean 'builds that have story built into them'. it can also mean 'fun little storyline between like two guys'. it can also mean character continuity. it can mean many things. two, "this guy doesn't do lore" is NOT the same thing as "this guy doesn't do the specific lore i personally like and want to see them doing" and i don't always think you guys know the difference. all of this, of course, is to say: hey guys did you know zedaph can canonically time travel,
#discourse#sorta. tagging that more for the negativity than for there being actual discourse here#fanfic trope ask game got me into a SHARING OPINIONS mood and i've been sitting on this one for WEEKS#we'll see if i regret this later when i'm less punch-drunk#anyway this post is not just about zedaph this post is about. many people. x zedaph joel off the top of my head#zedaph is just my example here#i don't think you're bad for making these jokes mind (especially with joel given that he leans into it)#but also i think they can be really REALLY dismissive of the guys the joke is made about#especially when those guys ARE IN FACT DOING LORE#they just aren't doing the specific thing you want to see i guess.#this isn't prompted by anyone in specific incidentally do NOT think that i am aiming this at You Specifically i am not#this is just a general vibe#i also do get that these are normally in-jokes that start affectionately within that specific guy's fanbase#rather than intended as insults#it's just that when they spread widely they start to get. grating#anyway don't mind me just. in opinions mood
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like just as a general piece of advice if you Do go shopping/out to eat/whatever on a national/bank holiday feel free to wish people a happy whatever holiday but if you open your mouth and talk about how nice it is for US to have the day off just know that the person behind that counter wants to jump over it and strangle you with their bare hands. like take 2 seconds of self-awareness to realize the person literally providing you a paid service As You Speak very quite fucking obviously does Not have the day off like you do
and if you're in a country w tipping culture please for the love of god tip on holidays like :')
#hate working holidays bc ppl are soooo fucking oblivious like#'any plans for your day off?' I'm literally making your drink as you open your mouth wtf do you think my plans are GOD#only day we close the store is christmas like 😭#every single other holiday we're there & making your shit so PLEASE have some self awareness my godddddd#anyway apparently I'm in a bad mood today it's bc I have a headache and I Know my period is coming but#I must bitch
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#i got it bad soooo baddddd i'm hot for teacherrr#merry christmas or happy.. monday? that does not have a good ring to it#i don't have any christmas content to post but tbh i'm not in a christmas mood anyway so i hope my blog is a nice reprieve#for anyone who feels the same way#unfortunately i lost the full size versions of most of the pics from her instagram :(#even this one looks shrunken to me idk what happened to all of them#and i used srwe for them so they were so HQ at one time 😭#coco arias#ts4 edit#bloopers
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i feel insane, cause all i can see is punk glancing at drew, drew nodding while panting, punk smirking and then closing his eyes
#i first noticed this during the first watch and was like huh???#and i still think i'm delusional and i'm just seeing things#but it felt so right because it was their first match together#and it looked like a silent agreement that the match went well#but anyway... the quality is so bad you can't see shit 😭#actually i can imagine punk whispering 'the bracelet‚ you dumbass'#or 'tehehe i lived' 'yeah you did'#also 'I hate to say it...' 'CM Punk.' is the mood#punkintyre#cm punk#drew mcintyre#man i love pro wrestling#vids#wwe
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how come you don't like futureshipping? sorry it's just rare to see an Acronix fan who doesn't like future, do you ship macronix or something? I'm going to have to unfollow you for that if that is the case
Okay first of all.
Why do you assume I'm a Macronix shipper simply because I don't like futureshipping? Sorry for not shipping future but why do you think I'm automatically a macronix shipper for that? What, is it obligatory to ship Acronix with someone? Do I forcefully have to ship him with another character if I don't like YOUR ship? What is this? I don't want to sound rude but assuming someone likes a ship based on the ships they don't like is... Weird? Also futureshipping is not in the "Acronix fan starter pack," there are many Acronix fans who don't ship future, why are you coming at me? And I have literally NEVER mentioned Macronix(at least I don't remember), what gives you the idea that I like it?
And secondly, NO. I DON'T SHIP MACRONIX. In my heart Machia is happy alone and Acronix is busy kissing Cryptor and Coffee Bot. If other people ship them together, that is their business, not mine. I'm not going to go to them and say "hey why don't you ship future? I'm going to unfollow you for liking Macronix" LIKE. WHAT IS THIS?
THIRDLY. I don't ship future because I was never interested in it. While I find the idea cute or the fanarts absolutely gorgeous, I can't get myself to like it. And now, hold my hand when I tell you this, It doesn't mean I like Macronix. I don't know where you got the idea that if I don't ship THIS ship, then I ship ANOTHER ship. Goodness.
#I'm sorry anon I've been staring at this since yesterday and it got me in a bad mood.#Anyways#idk what he point of the ask was#You couldve simply asked why I dont ship future.#Not assume I like macronix for it#Seriously#lego ninjago#ninjago#Ninjago ship#Futureshipping#Macronix#MJ yaps
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Eddie gluskin with a pregnant darling maybe
you know what's funny about Eddie Gluskin being one of my faves? i am terrified of pregnancy just headcanons for now - this ended up being more an exploration of the inherent horror of this situation than anything shippy, whoops. also kind of an au where Waylon does not survive his encounter with Eddie 18+ just in case CW: injuries, noncon, hostage, pregnancy, suicide mention cannibalism(?) probably more i missed. (no r*** - it is alluded to tho) i mean it's Eddie. the man is a walking billboard for "dead dove do not eat" ok lmao
being Eddie’s darling wife was a living nightmare
you’d been one of the few employees allowed near Eddie, and he’d developed a….thing…for you. well, not you, really, more the idea of you
and when the Mount Massive asylum fell into chaos, you were one of the unlucky people trapped inside
when Eddie found you he was quick to make his image of you your new reality
whether you wanted it or not
you’d initially fought him at every turn. unfortunately, Eddie had a temper, and was prone to snapping with no warning
you’d learned that lesson the hard way - your forearm was still in a makeshift splint, a dull ache where he’d fractured the bone in a fit of anger. or had he broken it? you weren’t sure. all you knew is it hurt like hell and made it nearly impossible for you to fight back
after that incident, you thought keeping your head down and quietly obeying him was the smart choice. that you’d be safe enough to ride out this mess until someone arrived to help
you had to believe that someone was coming. you told yourself you’d be rescued within the week, that there was no way a facility as large as Mount Massive could go down in flames like this without someone noticing
days turned into weeks, weeks into months (how many had it been? 3? 4?)
every night you sat, ankles bound to your chair at the end of some wobbly, bloodstained table, Eddie at the opposite end, a makeshift dinner spread between the two of you
occasionally there would be some sort of meat among the sawdust-flavored rations - Eddie was always vague when you asked him what kind of meat it was
you resisted for the first month, but your resolve broke a week into the second, the hunger pains driving you to tears and forcing you to make a choice
so you ate. and you tried not to think about where he got it from
it was like the two of you playing some sick game of house
Eddie kept a close eye on you when he was around, restraining you when he wasn’t
you’d be tied to a chair. strapped down on your back atop some bloodstained hospital mattress. arms bound behind you, tied to a support beam and forced to sit on the cold concrete floor
all of it was miserable
Eddie said it was for your safety, but you knew better. especially after he’d found you with a knife you’d managed to get your hands on. he’d stopped you from trying to slash your own throat, spewing some bullshit about his darling preferring death over a blissful life as the proud mother of his many, many children
he wasn’t going to let you leave him in any way
some part of you thought about pleading with Eddie to “think of the baby” and untie you - but that only reminded you that you were, in fact, pregnant
and it was starting to show
whatever mental energy you could spare went to trying (and failing) to block that fact out of your mind
you felt like you were trapped in two horror stories simultaneously - one, enduring whatever Eddie decided to do to you on a daily basis, and two, the unwanted life growing inside you against your will
not to mention the mental anguish of what to do after the…birth. would you even survive that? would you want to?
should you try to raise and protect it? or would it be more merciful if you…
it was a horrifying decision to make, one that you flinched away from whenever you found yourself thinking about it
every day you wondered if it would be better to piss him off, have him kill you in a fit of rage. it wouldn't be hard to do, but for some reason the knowledge that you were pregnant stopped you
well, you told yourself, at least you got to skip Eddie’s “operation table”. all the men who came before you weren’t so lucky, if the video on that camera you found was to be believed….
#dead dove do not eat#reader beware#eddie gluskin x reader#yandere eddie gluskin x reader#this is straight up horror reader is having a bad time#in so many ways!#eddie gluskin headcanons#outlast x reader#kinda sorta tempted to write a short fic exploring this absolute nightmare but idk#we'll see idk#no beta we die like men#no kids allowed#sorry if this isn't what you were looking for anon i just had ✨ideas✨ and ✨thoughts✨ in my little head#anyway Eddie Gluskin is horrible and I love him everyone look at my nasty blorbo he's awful <3#requests#inbox is open and I'm in the mood for horror so#eyes emoji
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skyglow:
(alternative title: photo dump of a midnight desert run)
#photography#Ford's Art#color says shit#it was either go on a twelve mile run or re-download grindr and get absolutely blasted so I went with the more responsible option.#b because damn I'm feeling it tonight. or at least I was before the run. I need to shower and then I'll cook dinner and go to bed satiated.#I did also jerk off under the bridge and then piss on someone's flowers on the way home. gotta get those animal instincts out somehow right?#anyway I've successfully vented most of my manic energy and a cold shower will finish it off and then we're good.#the mood meds have been helping a lot. last time I got hit with this kind of a mood I came out of it with huge bite marks and chlamydia.#and I haven't been feeling it nearly as bad this time so that's nice. more like a restless dog and less like a caged wolf thirsty for blood.#yes I'm making references to Call of the Wild again deal with it.#anyway sorry to anyone who sees this from the tags and not because you follow me. you didn't sign up for this lmao.#also. this is why I can't be a binary trans woman. this night photography shit is the most gay-man thing ever and I enjoy it.#I was doing it before my last boyfriend but he got me even more into it.#anyway bye I'm gonna go shower and then eat food. I've been hungrier more recently.#between the meds and the hrt my appetite is bigger and I'm gaining weight with the hrt fat redistribution which is cool and good.#I want to be a healthy weight and maybe even a lil chonky? we'll see we'll see.
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uh. vent art. or something. losing yourself and losing everyone who you cared about as a result
#inanimate insanity#inanimate insanity invitational#ii#ii 2#ii 3#inanimate insanity cabby#. that's it#i'm. so so exhausted.#i feel like i'm actually going to throw up from how disgusted i am with myself#of course they wouldn't want to be friends w/me of course they don't like talking to me anymore#i am too broken to even be a good friend#hell even my best friend is leaving my side lately#i don't want to go back. i don't want to see them again tomorrow. i don't want to.#i don't want to feel like i'm insignificant i was doing so good why does it hurt why is it hurting now#i don't want to feel like death is the only solution i don't want to i don't want to be alone i don't want to be forgotten#i don't want to be unloved just because i can't fix myself anymore#i don't have anything to offer anymore i'm so so sorry i wish i did i wish i was still happy and healing#i wish i was i wish i was im sorry i can't.#sigh. well can't do much about it now anyway. uh yeah cabby is my mood rn. also talking about irl friends here.#god this was so bad i need to die rn#cw vent#cw sui mention#i guess#mhm. i think i need a therapist
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2024 i think is the year we all should get a little horny about naddp0d but in a distinctly unnerving and homosexual way
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hey
#so i've been dealing with some irl stuff recently#nothing too bad. it was just really frustrating and exhausting for me. and really putting a damper on my mood and my art#and i'm sorry if i've been acting a little weird or not saying too much or anything#or if i've been kinda inactive for the past few days#but i'll be okay!#i just wanted to let you guys know what's been kinda going on#i'm slowly working on something really sweet involving Hugo and Noa. so that's been making me feel better#i need something happy and soft between them lol#also! I've been playing The Quarry recently!#the writing is kinda stupid and almost all of the characters act like they don't have a brain. but that's what makes it so fun!#and i'm pretty sure the devs did that intentionally. to make it seem more like a campy monster flick#i'm really enjoying it so far! the werewolves are really cool!#also it's really funny to me how they just pop like balloons whenever they're transforming#i thought it was gonna be a slow transformation. but no. their skin just immediately explodes off#and then they somehow get it all back when they turn back into humans? idk how that works but it's pretty rad#also also! the thing with the tarot cards is really cool!#i missed a lot in the beginning because i didn't know what i was looking for#and the fortune teller lady in between chapters kept getting mad at me for not finding any#but i eventually started to get it! when the game decided to really put one in my face in chapter 3 lol#and the thing with the tarot cards representing the different characters in the game got me thinking about what card Noa would probably be#i think Seven of Swords would be right up her alley#because it's associated with deception. dishonesty. betrayal. and acting strategically#and it could also signify self-deception and confessions. which is all very true for her character#aaahh now i wanna make a tarot card design for her!#but that's an idea for another day#anyway sorry for sorta rambling a bit#i hope you all are doing okay
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um tmi moment. but I have been on the pill and yet have basically just been having my period for the past week. maybe longer actually. and ppl are just like oh well bleed through is normal! OK WELL WHAT ARE WE DOING THENNNNN WHY AM I TAKING YOUR STUPID PILLS!!!!
#like it's not even just the blood I'm in a foul mood and my back hurts it's not AS bad#as my regular period pain but it's still ass#and the whole reason I'm on them is to limit my period but I'm just fucking having it anyway so what is the point 😐
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