#anyway. i am struggling. i didn’t know i was struggling to make myself viscerally tolerable | Explore Tumblr posts and blogs

alveolaraspergillosis · 4 months ago

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yesterday bf mid fight (?) slash discussion of my deteriorating mental and physical health said that my breath has been really bad for some time now and he didn’t wanna say anything but based on my latest behaviour he’s worried it’s cuz i’ve been too depressed to brush my teeth regularly. anyway guess who has now given herself gum damage in under 18 hours

#and he kept saying depression would be the best case scenario for my worsening breath #and that every other thing causing bad breath is infinitely worse #and like. he doesn’t get it. he doesn’t get that in the context that i am in #the people that surround me. and the job that i do. and the job i WANT to do #i’d literally rather have liver cancer than full on depression #because one of those is either definitely curable or it will kill me and then failure won’t matter #my posts #anyway. i am struggling. i didn’t know i was struggling to make myself viscerally tolerable #he did also say i’ve lost weight and that That’s Not A Compliment

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