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galaxiuu · 5 years ago
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steven kept trying to make the gems relive horrible events to bring their memories back but it didn’t work for any of them. they realised who they were through friendship, growth, love and freedom. their trauma does not define them. your trauma does not define you.
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black-streak · 5 years ago
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Saturday Night's Alright for Fighting (but Sundays are meant for rest) - The Beginning
 Part 1
So I came up with this partially fleshed out idea on discord and decided to try writing a prequel of sorts to my HCs? Anyways, Mari is like 20ish and Tim is around 25 here. Pre-relationship.
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 Marinette would forever be grateful that she had memorized the layout of the manor back in her first few visits. Otherwise she would have been absolutely lost by now; her sleep addled mind unwilling to give a single thought as to where she was walking. The only thought she could process was a cry for coffee whispering like a mantra through the back of her mind.
Turning a seemingly random corner, she found herself in the side kitchen standing in front of the coffee maker, already holding a fresh pot of the heavenly smelling life elixir. Okay, that's a bit dramatic, but whatever, it's 3 am and she's entitled to her theatrics.
Pouring a cup into her favorite mug, having had it appear before her despite not recalling retrieving it, she held it close and made way to the sit-in table, slumping down into the closest seat.
 It took about 10 minutes and half her mug down to realise she wasn't alone in the room. Turning her head slightly, she spotted Tim typing away at his laptop, his own mug just to the right of her arm.
   'When the hell did he get there?' She couldn't remember hearing any footsteps or the coffee pot pouring but then… she also didn't remember turning it on…. 'He's been here the whole time, hasn't he?'
  Turning back towards her own, she finished off the cup and got up to retrieve the pot, moving over to fill both of their mugs before returning it to its holder only to drop back into her seat beside him, leaning closer to see what he was working on.
"Thanks."
   Jumping slightly, she just blinked at him for a moment, then gave a slight nod.
"Couldn't sleep?" Tim glanced at her, inquiry quiet and half incoherent in its murmur.
Humming softly she considered before truthfully admitting, "Rarely can."
"Damian asleep then?"
"Probably."
"You're not sure?"
"Didn't want to check his room and bother him if he was. Plus, he'd be cranky if I woke him for no reason."
That seemed to catch Tim's attention for whatever reason, because he turned his eyes off the document to look at her fully now.
"You don't sleep in his room?"
"Nah. I tend to cuddle in my sleep and he can't stand being confined like that. Puts him on edge, I think."
  That only prompted an even more perplexed look from him. Unable to process that with so little sleep, she turned back to looking over his shoulder, trying to read what Tim was working on. Giving up, she looked back up to him.
"Whatcha working on?"
"Eh, just some last minute paperwork for a new deal WE is suppose to be negotiating next week."
"... At 3am?"
"You judging me," he asked, lifting one eyebrow slightly in amusement at the hypocrisy.
"You said the deal is for next week."
"It is. But if I get it done now, it's one less thing to stress over at the last second."
"But if you read it on a sleep deprived mind, you're less likely to recall anything you typed up. Meaning you'll have to reread it…. And depending on how dead tired you are, might have to rewrite it. Who knows what sleepy you thinks makes a good deal?"
"Hey! Sleepy me is perfectly capable of working without my brain's input."
Leaning over the counter to rest on her crossed arms, Mari tilted her head slightly to pout up at him.
"Yes but perhaps it'd be best to do so tomorrow and get your brain's input at the same time to save time? Come on, just put on a video or something mindless. I'll keep you company."
  Her logic was sound. There was no argument Tim could give that would actually work in his favor on the matter, but hearing a slight sigh of defeat still gave her an immense sense of victory. Peering over at her, he decided turnaround was fair.
"Alright… but if we're not going to work, you should be trying to sleep. Im cutting you off." He said, pulling her mug out of her reach only to find it empty. Sighing, he moved to set it in the sink only to see her take up his own, carrying it over as well.
"In that case, so should you," she smirked, washing out both mugs and setting them to dry before taking up his laptop, grabbing his wrist, and tugging him towards the living room.
'How did I not see that coming? That was the obvious outcome… when Was the last time I slept,' Tim wondered, not really paying mind to Mari as she situated them both on the couch, turning the screen to face them both from the coffee table, youtube pulled up and a vine compilation being queued up to play.
…..
  Half an hour later, the two were passing jokes back and forth, sleepy giggles and references whispered into the dark room, laptop forgotten and asleep before them, both too out of it to think of moving back to their rooms. Only to be broken up by a mewling yawn, Mari slumping further down, sleep finally pulling at her.
  It didn't quite hit Tim that something about the situation was slightly off till Marinette curled into him from where he slouched into the corner of the couch, head dropping onto his chest. 
Ah, Fuck. Damian was going to kill him.
Nudging her slightly till she hummed to him, he tried to gently wake her back up fully.
"Mari, shouldn't you go back to your room now?"
It had the opposite effect.
  Mari sprung up, eyes wide, blush flushing up her cheeks, seemingly not having realized she had been cuddling up to him till just then.
"I am so sorry. I didn't mean to make you uncomfortable! I keep forgetting you guys like warning beforehand. Either way I should have asked if you minded though. That was so invasive of me and the last thing I want is to invade your space when it's not warranted or wanted. I promise it won't happen again Tim, I'm so sorry."
Finally stopping to take a deep breath from her rambling, Tim jumped in, panicking to think he was causing her distress.
"No no, Marinette, it's fine! You're a very tactile person and frankly I don't mind it. I just know Damian wouldn't like finding you cuddling up to me, or anyone for that matter, especially in the middle of the night when he thought you were in your room, that's all."
That seemed to stop her in her tracks. Settling back down, she fixed him with a thrown look. 
"I mean… I know Dami can be protective at times, but I don't think he'd be that upset by it. Maybe a touch put off, but I think he'd tease me more than anything?"
Now he was thrown for a loop. This went against everything he knew about his little brother… that could only mean bad things.
"... Really."
"Yeah, as I said, he knows I'm a cuddly person when I'm tired. Plus, your his brother. At least he knows and trusts you. He'd just make fun of me for being so clingy. Sorry again about that by the way."
Narrowing his eyes, Tim couldn't see a hint that she was lying, but still he had to push to be sure. The last thing he needed was Damian to feel like his position was being threatened. That's what sparked their rivalry the first time after all.
"Hmm... I took Damian to be the possessive type. Especially over someone he was seeing. Trust me, Mari, he's not going to like his girlfriend cuddling anyone. Especially not me." 
"Holy Tikki, what?!"
"Tikki?"
" You think… you think Dami and I are dating?!?!"
"Be quiet, you're going to wake someone up!" He rushed out, trying to cover her mouth, only for her to evade, eyes blown wide with shock but still aware enough to dodge his grip.
"No, hold up. You seriously thought we were together?" She spoke in a startled tone, grabbing at his hands to make him stop reaching at her face and concentrate on her words.
Finally giving up on keeping her quiet, Tim actually started processing her words.
"You're… not?"
"No! Of course not! Did he say we were?"
"Well no but… I just assumed. He doesn't like anyone and yet acts like your his personal sunshine."
  Giggling, she shook her head, settling back into the couch at his side.
"Yeah, that's only in front of others. Says no one needs to know what a chaotic being I am. His words not mine."
"Oh. So you guys really aren't..?"
"Nope," she chuckled, popping the p, slowly curling back into his side.
Stopping abruptly, she pulled back a bit and glanced up to him, blush dusting the top of her freckled cheeks. 
"Is.. Is this okay?"
  Now assured that he wouldn't be promptly attacked just for letting Marinette near him, he couldn't see why not. Plus, she obviously took comfort in it and needed sleep. Who knows if she'll find any alone in her room. Wrapping an arm around her and tugging her slowly down, he nodded.
"I already told you I don't mind. Plus, your warm."
Humming her thanks, she burrowed herself under his chin and promptly passed out, Tim following only moments after.
…..
Tim woke up late in the morning, having slid down the cushion and twisted up his limbs with Marinette's who was still half on top of him. By some stroke of luck, they hadn't been disturbed by anyone thus yet. (Dick had already passed through and took a picture to send to the group chat. Who knew the way to make Tim sleep was to pass out on top of him?)  Feeling her shift, he looked down to see bleary blue eyes blinking back at him from under messy bangs. A small smile lit her lips and she moved up giving a light kiss to the underside of his jaw, before slowly getting up.
"Thanks Tim. Probably the best sleep I've had in a long time. We should nap sometime…. Maybe watch a movie first," she suggested, flushing but sending a coy, eager look his way.
Nodding, he could only think one thing.
'Welp. She's going to be the death of me."
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barnesandrogersfanfics · 5 years ago
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Home - Part 14
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"Look all I'm saying is that people have been in and out of here all day. Maybe he just got in with one of the other guests" Bucky said i pulled out my bags and started throwing my clothes inside.
"Im not willing to take that chance Bucky!" I snapped "as long as I'm here I'm putting you and the girls in danger! You dont know what his capable of!" 
"You think I'm gonna let him close enough to hurt you and the girls??"
"He already got close enough! he took photo's of me in the shower!!! Christ he could've done more if he wanted to but his playing with us! Its all a game to him"
"One his not gonna win"
"His already winning dont you see that?" I cried covering my face with my hands.
"Baby i cant loose you!" Bucky said clearly panicking as he pulled me into his arms "dont let him win I'm begging you, you belong here with us"
"Your not gonna loose me Bucky" i mumbled into his chest as i wrapped my arms around him "I just think it'd be better if i go back to my place. Until Jack is caught, its safer for the girls if I'm not here"
"No!" He snapped leaning back to look at me.
"No?"
"Im not letting you go back there alone thats crazy! we'll be fine here....the girls will be fine. I'll check the house with Steve and Sam make sure his not here still.... i'll change the alarm codes.... the safest place for you and the girls is here with me"
"But...."
"No buts, your mine, he can't have you" he said pressing his lips to mine "I'll even get Steve to stay while we sort this out".
"Bucky if anything were to happen to those girls id never forgive myself"
"They will be fine babe"
"You really believe that?"
"I do. Id never put them at risk"
"Okay...."
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Sleep was hard to come by that night, once i knew Bucky was asleep i carefully slipped out of bed and grabbed his sweater off the back of the chair before heading downstairs. I made a cup of coffee and went to sit on the sofa, my face turned towards my shoulder so i could inhale Bucky's calming scent off his sweater. My phone that was on the table next to my steaming mug of coffee started to vibrate.
"Unknown Number Calling" flashed on the front, i knew it was Jack.... who else would be calling me at 3am? I reached for the phone and hit the green button connecting the call.
"What?" I mumbled trying to keep the nerves i was feeling in check.
"Hey baby" he replied sounding smug as fuck, if i could guess id say he was smiling "you look tired.... you not sleeping properly?"
"What do you want Jack?" I sighed shaking my head, there was no way he could see me... all the curtains were closed so i knew he couldn't be lurking outside watching me.
"I told you already. I. Want. You."
"Too bad. You can't have me"
"Oh sweetheart you know thats not true"
"Jack your fucking delusional! There is no version of this that ends with us back together! Go find someone else, your good at that! In fact why dont you give Lucy a call? I'm sure she'd welcome your attention" i said referring to my ex best friend that he had cheated with.
"I told you i made a mistake with her. I was stupid i know that now.... but if you just give me another chance you'll see we're meant to be together"
"No! Jack i dont want anything to do with you!! if i never saw you again...that would be too soon!! please just leave me alone!"
"Never" he growled down the phone "if i can't have you no one can" he added before the line disconnected. Once i knew the call had ended i broke down, finally letting the tears fall.
"Y/N?..... sweetheart you okay?"
I looked up to see Steve standing in the doorway in black sweat pants, his hair a mess. As soon as he realised i was crying his rushed to my side gathering me in his arms and holding me tight.
"Whats wrong?"
"Jack.... hh...he just called me" i said holding onto Steve like my life depended on it.
"He what?! what did he say?"
"The same old shit his been saying, that he wants me back.....it was, it was what he said before he hung up" i looked up at Steve and took a deep breath "he said if he cant have me no one can. Steve, what if he goes after Bucky??"
"Bucky can handle himself darlin'..... im more concerned that he'll try and hurt you. If he knows you won't go back to him....."
"Oh my god......" i started to panic as i thought about Jack coming after me and that he might actually kill me...."that way no one gets me" i whispered.
"Hey, we wont let anything happen to you okay?"
"Im so tired Steve" i cried burying my face against his bare chest.
"Try and get some sleep sweetheart"
"I cant, what if his watching....."
"We checked the house, his not here"
"I know that but i can't switch off! I need to be awake incase.... i need to make sure the girls are safe"
"The girls are safe.... YOU are safe i promise" he said kissing the top of my head as his hand stroked up and down my back soothingly.
"Doll?" I heard Bucky's sleep ridden voice say as he walked into the living room "Steve?.... whats going on?"
"I came down for some water found her crying on the sofa, Jack called her" Steve told Bucky as he closed the gap between us, Steve instantly passing me into Bucky's arms.
"Take her back to bed Buck she needs to sleep"
"I cant....." i started to say with wide eyes.
"You can, i'll stay awake"
"You promise?"
"Cross my heart. Now go get some sleep"
"His right, come on" Bucky took my hand and started to lead the way back upstairs "we'll talk in the morning?" He turned to his friend with a concerned look on his face.
"Sure" Steve nodded at his best friend.
"Thank you Steve" i called over my shoulder, he was already switching on the TV to find something to watch while he kept watch for the night.
"No trouble at all sweetheart, goodnight"
"Goodnight" i smiled back.
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I was laying in bed tangled in Bucky, his arms wrapped around me and our legs tangled together, my fingers gently stroking up and down his arm as my eyes wandered around the room, all sorts of things running through my mind. I felt his arms tighten around me and his face snuggle against my neck as he started to wake up.
"Morning beautiful" he said quietly pressing kisses behind my ear.
"Morning"
"Did you get any sleep?"
"Some" i nodded and shrugged a shoulder before turning to look at him. Bucky was so beautiful, i could look at him forever and never get tired of the sight. "I love you" i said trailing my fingers over his beard, a smile spread across his face instantly.
"I love you more"
"Sure you do" i rolled my eyes before giggling as he started to tickle my sides.
After finally dragging ourselves out of bed we went down for breakfast, Steve was already sat down with the girls, Rosie sitting in his lap.
"Morning" he looked up smiling as we walked in.
"Hey pal"
"Morning Stevie" i smiled before walking over to the coffee pot.
"You feeling better? Get some sleep?"
"Mmhmmm" i nodded before taking a seat next to Brooke.
"Really?"
"She got a couple of hours" Bucky added sitting across from me next to Allie.
"Good, Becca called earlier by the way, wanted to take the girls out for the day. She said you were okay with it, she asked at the party?"
"Oh yeah she did"
"I told her i'd drop them off on my way home, i need to go grab a change of clothes"
"That'd be great actually"
"Thats settled then. I was thinking, you should call Sam and report Jacks call last night.... they should have record of it"
"Yeah i thought so to" Bucky nodded taking a mouthful of his coffee.
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Steve and the girls had left half hour ago and the house was eerily quiet without them around. Bucky had called Sam and told him all about the phone call i had received from Jack, Sam was going to look into it ASAP.
We had settled on the sofa to watch a movie and make the most of some alone time with no interruptions from the girls. It quickly led to a heated make out session and some good old fucking on the sofa.
"Your sofa is better for this by the way" Bucky chuckled as his naked ass squeaked on the leather making me cackle loudly.
"My sofa is definitely better for this" i agreed "We should probably get dressed before Steve comes back, i dont think he'd appreciate walking in to our naked asses on the sofa" i laughed against Bucky's chest.
"Yeah i guess so".
We reluctantly started to gather our clothes and get dressed, a cell phone ringing got our attention. We both started lifting various items of clothing looking for the phone.
"Its yours" i said handing Bucky his phone before pulling my sweater over my head.
"Barnes" he answered in his 'work voice' "your fucking kidding me..... no! Chloe that should have been done last week and filed already!" He moaned running a hand through his hair "he wont accept it until i sign it? Fuck sake!"
"Bucky if you need to go in i'll be okay" i said quietly so Chloe wouldn't hear me.
"I'll be there in 20 minutes" he snapped before hanging up the phone "I cant believe that girl sometimes! i told her to file this case a week ago! Now they need my signature...."
"Its fine Buck, Steve will be back soon anyway i wont be alone for long. I'll lock the door once you leave and set the alarm"
"You sure? You could come with me...."
"Id rather just stay here, i'll go have a bath and maybe try and get some more sleep now you've worn me out" i chuckled.
"Oh but now i wanna stay and join you!" He moaned leaning in to kiss me.
"I'll wait for you to get back for the bath then"
"I'll be quick!" he laughed jumping up getting his keys and heading out. I couldn't help but laugh at what a dork he could be at times. I watched him drive away waving through his open window then locked the door behind him once he was gone and set the alarm before heading back into the living room, i straightened up the sofa and made sure it was clean and tidying before making my way into the kitchen.
I was wiping the table over clearing up bits of cereal that the girls had spilt when my phone started ringing. I thought about ignoring it at first, i wasn't in the mood for another call from Jack! But then i thought it might be Bucky or Steve checking in so went back to the living room to get my phone.
I was a little surprised to see it was Sam calling me.
"Hey Sam, you looking for Buck cause his just had to go into work real quick"
"No, no I'm not looking for Buck, wait are you at home on your own right now?"
"Yeah, he'll be back within the hour, im fine the doors are locked and the alarm is set"
"Y/N i need you to stay calm and listen to me...... i need you to leave, just get out of that house" he said sounding panicked.
"What?.... why?" I felt my heart start to race.
"I traced that call, it came from within the house!!"
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noahhernandez · 4 years ago
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2/9/2015 v. 8/11/2020
1:Talk about the first time you watched your favorite movie. My favorite movie is Scream, and it started when I saw the midnight premier of Scream 4 with my dad back when I was in 8th grade, then Scream 1 came on AMC late on night and I just really like it
I still think Scream is one of my favorites, but Halloween has jumped up there just because I am obsessed with all things horror really lol. I started to love Halloween because of the new trilogy.
2:Talk about your first kiss. It’s really not that interesting but really like embarrassing. It was with my first boyfriend and I had just turned 15 and we were at the school just walking around and we went into the band hall and I was like ok im leaving and he was like wait and we kissed and i was like o
the same ! 
3:Talk about the person you’ve had the most intense romantic feelings for. I never really have had intense feelings for anyone. I d k
One my exes- I mean we were dating for awhile so that’s pretty intense to me. 
4:Talk about the thing you regret most so far. I regret… Nothing really I mean, I have done really bad things in my life, but i don’t regret them
I regret failing like 2 semesters of college lmao and almost dropping out. If i didn’t then I would 1- would have been done earlier and 2- would have already completed a year of grad school but IDK also another is wasting lots of money in 2017-2018
5:Talk about the best birthday you’ve had. The best birthday I’ve had was.. Idk This year was was nice I saw Iggy Azalea in concert, then I celebrated my friends’ birthday then mine and it was just everyone got to get together so ya this year my 18th
For my 21st birthday I went to Portland, Oregon and spent the weekend there and it was pretty and my first time there so it was nice despite what I think about PDX now. I don’t even know what I was doing for my 19 and 20th birthday lol. 
6:Talk about the worst birthday you’ve had. My 17th birthday because I was stuck 2 hours away from home with a bunch of nerds doing a band competition 
That is still probably my worst birthday. I forget to mention that I was gone literally from like 7am to midnight. They werent a bunch of loser nerds, they were my friends, but I still wish I was just at home lol. 
7:Talk about your biggest insecurity. I am skinny, but not fit. If I eat anything I get this like stomach and it makes me so sad. and ever since I got a job I work odd hours and I eat a lot of fast food and I’ve gained 10 pounds in 2 years and I guess i’m insecure about my weight
I am still insecure about my weight, and I probably weight like 5 pounds more than I did when I made this post 5 1/2 years ago. 
8:Talk about the thing you are most proud of. We have band banquets for band, and I only went my sophomore and junior year, and seniors give out awards to underclassmen that are just jokes really, and both years 4 different seniors gave me an award for being the biggest gossip in the entire band and I was proud of that lol
Well since then I have graduated both high school and college. I am proud that I finished college !! A BS in Psych. Proud of myself that I got promoted (in 2017) at my job; i’m proud of myself that I have my own apartment, and blah blah basically just doing regular adult shit. 
9:Talk about little things on your body that you like the most. I like my nose because of how perfectly fixed it is. I also really like my freckles/moles/dark marks idk what they are exactly, but they’re on my face and they look great
I still feel the same way about this, maybe add my eyebrows- they’re not like clean and nice they’re just expression markers on my face that i love.
10:Talk about the biggest fight you’ve ever had. I got into a fight with my old friend Angelica and that was almost 4 months ago and we used to be best friends and now we never talk.
When Janett didn’t talk to me all summer of 2019 because I told our other friend Angel something
11:Talk about the best dream you’ve ever had. I cant remember one 12:Talk about the worst dream you’ve ever had. I can’t remember one
13:Talk about the first time you had sex/how you imagine your first time. The closest thing i’ve had to like sex was being locked in a back of an SUV with a stranger drunk as fuck and naked and its embarrassing
Just awkward and nothing to which I expected. 
14:Talk about a vacation. When I was 16, the high school band took a trip to Hawaii, and all my friends were in band so it was great. We did a lot of things, we toured Pearl Harbor and even played a few patriotic songs on the USS Miss. and our hotel was on Wakiki beach. I went snorkeling in some beautiful water and shit and idk just walked all around Hawaii having a great time omg we got on stage at the Hard Rock Cafe and sang with German people i miss it
Hm that was fun. But I.. went to NY with my ex and that was pretty cool because I literally love New York, and I went to NOLA two years ago (today actually) and got miserably drunk so that was fun too 
15:Talk about the time you were most content in life. Probably just in the middle of junior year when everything and everyone was going with the flow
I feel like 2016 was a very content year because I remember nothing about it. 
16:Talk about the best party you’ve ever been to. Idk which one to talk about the one where I had a lot of fun and risked my life or the one where there was a lot of drama stirred up and drank myself to sadness. 
I haven’t really been to a party? I have gone out and had good times. Really anytime my friends and I go out I am having a good time 
17:Talk about someone you want to be friends with. I am already friends with people I want to be friends with
18:Talk about something that happened in elementary school. I kissed a boy on the back of the head and i told I just fell onto his head
Let me think of another one. Back in like fourth grade my friend was in a wheel chair and his backpack was falling from the back and I was trying to grab it and i was only 3 feet tall i couldnt see over or wasnt paying attention and i crashed him right into the bookshelves at the library. 
19:Talk about something that happened in middle school. A girl was mad at me because idk why lol and she pushed me in the hall way and I fucking flew across that hall on the floor and hit the wall she’s pregnant now
When I was in 5th grade (which is considered middle school in my district) I was standing on the play ground and someone threw a stick at my head and it knocked me the fuck out and I was bleeding from my temple.
20:Talk about something that happened in high school. In Jr. Year I was pulling into the parking lot but I was texting and I accidentally put half my car on grass area near the side walk luckily it was 7am and only one person saw me do it lol
One summer going into our senior year we had a party at Michelle’s house. First of all we were very drunk and Coby’s parents were like we are coming over and we cleaned TF UP so fast and sat on the couch and turned on I Know What You Did Last Summer and his parents were like interesting and and left and then we continued to drink anyways- we started playing truth or dare and my friend Angelica was like I dare u to kiss Anthony (someone I had liked prior) and he wouldnt and we started attacking him and calling him homophobic and hitting him with pillows lmao- him and I are still friend-ish
21:Talk about a time you had to turn someone down. I can’t think of something right now.
Literally anyone on grindr.
22:Talk about your worst fear. I’m afraid of having no career and being stuck doing something I hate and living paycheck to paycheck
Yeah, I’m scared of that still but I.. think just like being broke and jobless. RN with the pandemic we aren’t really working and still getting gov’t assistance, so.  IDK being a real real adult scares me a lot. 
23:Talk about a time someone turned you down. I can’t think of a time :)
One time in like 2016 maybe idk - this dude told me to come over and he lived far like not that far maybe 25 minutes lol far for me anyways I got to his apartment and there was a gate code and i asked him what it was and he didnt answer and it was like 2-3am and nobody was coming in or out and so i was like damn this sucks lmao
24:Talk about something someone told you that meant a lot. Nothing really has meant a lot to me. Everyone tells me the same thing over and over again and its so surface level
I still can’t think of anything but I’m sure the friends I have met since this and my friends Faith, Michelle, Peter, and Alisa have said something supportive that meant a lot to me. 
25:Talk about an ex-best friend. Angelica Ramirez. She was my best friend for only 3 years, but together we went through A LOT of shit. We started out senior year just fine, but she lied about a few things and made a lot of us feel like crap in October. I won’t lie, I do miss her. We have too many memories to just forget, too many funny stories and great adventures. She helped me with too much, and sometimes I think about how I cut her out of my life and I mad a bad choice. But only time can heal things and I have moved on and truly found people that won’t make me mad every 30 seconds. 
Brianna Pajak, I don’t remember anything about her except she was poor and we stopped being friends because she always wanted to fight and be annoying. 
26:Talk about things you do when you’re sick. Lay on bed on my computer and watch TV
I normally just suffer and cry about wishing I was healthy again.
27:Talk about your favorite part of someone else’s body. Their…!!>>>??? 
I must have nice hands and ur nose must be nice too! so nose and hands. lol
28:Talk about your fetishes. none
yeah I don’t have any lol not that I can think of. 
29:Talk about what turns you on. Idk i really like kissing and touching and this is awkward. 
30:Talk about what turns you off. bad breath by
that and ugly/rough hands, acne sorry i know it is natural but, shorter than me lol, white people, long hair on guys, and thats about it i think hm i am single yes 
31:Talk about what you think death is like. I think its like idk its scary tho
um idk i dont like thinking about death because i literally want to cry when i think about it. 
32:Talk about a place you remember from your childhood. I remember being in trees a lot
My step grandma’s a lot because my parents were working and she would watch us. She passed away about a month ago :( 
33:Talk about what you do when you are sad. I usually only tell one person and that person is Alisa and I cry sometimes to her and expect her to make things better and she does thank u
I be doing the same thing, I text someone and that person could really be anyone but it happened the other day and I texted Bri and she was very helpful. 
34:Talk about the worst physical pain you’ve endured. I have no idea, I’ve never broken pulled strained twisted fractures or anything i have no life
I still haven’t done any of that stuff to my body. I also have burn scars but I did not feel those when it was happening. I would just say i guess my wisdom teeth coming in because I did not get them removed. I have 3 out lol.
35:Talk about things you wish you could stop doing. Pushing potential love interests away 
I have had some ‘love interests’ since this post, but it’s been about a year now since and I kind of push away the opportunity of getting close to someone. I also need to stop being a bitch sometimes. 
36:Talk about your guilty pleasures. eating 
I would say idk eating was a stupid answer. 
37:Talk about someone you thought you were in love with. never
I was in love and i didn’t ‘think’ I was in love. I don’t know what you mean by talk about them, they were my partner but we broke up hehe.
38:Talk about songs that remind you of certain people. Fireflies by Owl City reminds me of my 7th grade crush Fancy by Iggy Azalea reminds me of my two friends Michelle and Alisa idk anything else
um Idk. i rly cant think  39:Talk about things you wish you’d known earlier. I wish I would have known that
That it’s okay to tell people you’re struggling lol . That is okay to fail sometimes (school).  40:Talk about the end of something in your life. everything is just about to start
When I ended how to get away with murder I wish I never did I love that show with all my heart. 
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yestermen · 6 years ago
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New Year, Same Guys
I want to start this post off by saying, yes I know its been a while, but you get busy and you think luck is turning around and that maybe you’ll have a different topic to write about, but then new developments occur and we are back to where we were. Confused, Sad and Single.
This story starts about a year ago when I met this guy who we will call William, or Will. Will and I quickly became friends as we were in a few of the same classes and shared some similar friends, I was always a little interested in him, and I assumed he was also interested in me (we matched on tinder but this could’ve been a friendly match). Nonetheless he got into a long term relationship last year with a girl who kind of looked like me and we stayed friends and got closer.
This school year I got back and swore off men for the most part, it was never official but I was just generally uninterested in everyone and that makes everyone interested in you. By October I had about 4 guys talking to me, two that I was actually somewhat intrigued with; one being Will and one being (for sake of the story) Daniel. I continued talking to both of them but more often than not it was Daniel as he simply responded faster at the same times I was free to talk. 
Sure, I thought talking to multiple guys was messy but hey, isn't that what your twenties are for, being messy and dating around?
November comes around and Daniel comes to town and keeps insisting to meet up (I know him in person but he graduated and moved and so I was safe to just talk with no strings attached) I kept making excuses, some valid, such as my parents being in town, others were me saying I had a ton of work (when I was watching netflix and eating hummus) but either way, I never felt compelled to meet up with him which made me think- Did I actually like him or was I just talking to him for attention?
After a lot of contemplation I decided on the latter. Sure, I felt bad about leading him on and such when I truly had no interest, so I tried to distance myself, but then I came to the conclusion that I liked our conversations even as just friends (I never said I liked him nor did I ever say that we were just friends so woops). So being selfish, I kept talking to him, not as much as before, but just enough to get my satisfaction. After all, it is lovely to feel wanted. A couple weeks later, Daniel is back in town again, and pulling the same shenanigans but I say that I am just feeling being alone, which was complete honesty. That is when my friend texts me saying they are with my other friend and they need “sad gal hours”, aka when people come over, we put on music, drink, cry, talk and dance. So being a good friend, I invite them over.
One of my friends stays for 15 minutes when I text Will inviting him over, after all he’s friends with everyone and can bring more wine. He says sure and that’s when Bad Idea from Waitress would start playing if it were a film.
The three of us (My friend, Will and I) sit in my living room filling up glass after glass of wine just laughing and talking for hours- especially about hookups and relationships. The whole time, we have broken the touch boundary and so we are leaning on each other laughing, touching legs, etc. and my friend is sitting there with pure chaos surrounding them until they finally leave to go meet another hookup- by this point it is around 3am on a Sunday night (monday morning?).
The rest is history from that night, just picture how any rom com scenario would happen. Some highlights were that he helped me clean up the wine, in the morning he made my bed while I was showering and then we scrolled through the instagram the-hidden-biscuit (follow it, its good).
After that I kind of ghosted Daniel, as I felt as if I had made a choice. He was nothing but nice to me, but I was a bitch and he didn't deserve that, I still kind of regret it but hey, what am I gonna do?  
The next few weeks Will and I continued to hookup (one night in specific I got the worst hickeys of my life, Jesus, my neck was BLACK). So I was happy and saw it going somewhere and so, being a Libra, my mind took that as “YOU ARE IN LOVE WITH HIM AND GOING TO BE WITH HIM FOREVER!! YOU HAVE SO MUCH IN COMMON, THIS IS GREAT!” maybe not to that extent but in theory, I had caught feelings. Which wouldn't be mad if he too wasn't moving away and also if winter break wasn't starting immediately following this. Now, by this point I know it had gotten out that we were doin this thing, because one of his gal friends (we’ll call her Janice) came up to me during a party to express how she thought it was cute (more on this later).
That was what I needed to like set that my feelings were there, he had told his friends about me, so I couldn’t be “just a girl hes hooking up with” anymore, right?
WRONG.
So for the next few weeks we kept in contact (me thinking this could lead to something good) and I continued texting Janice to like see if he actually likes me (this seems normal and healthy right?). Anyway, she finally tells me that she respects us both too much to get in the middle of it, which kind of put me off but it wasn’t really her business anyway, I just like talking to people.
So, time goes by and it feels like hes distancing himself, texts are getting less responsive, as are snapchats and everything in between.
So on the fateful night of New Years Eve, I have been depressed all day, I drink a little too much champagne and I start talking to one of my best friends Leah. I keep saying I should send a text admitting how I feel and blah blah blah, she roots me on and all of a sudden its 1am and I send the text, immediately freak out and go to bed.
In the morning, no response yet, then I get one in the afternoon. I had a bad feeling about it and so I decide not to read it (I still haven't opened it so don’t ask me what it said, I don’t know). Rightfully so, we don’t snap each other or text for a while after that (we still haven’t texted) and so I decide to send a mass snap and include him in it. I GET A RESPONSE! that’s a good thing right? it means he doesn’t think i’m weird right?
We continue to snap, not as much as before but I still refuse to look at the text so nothing else can progress.
I get back up to school and plan to see Janice, as we are now friends and I want to hang out with her, she comes over and we watch A Cinderella Story, the one with Hillary Duff, and do face masks. The movie ends and I suggest we go eat hummus (my favorite snack) and she agrees but says that we need to talk first.
I immediately know what about and my stomach becomes a knot and sinks at the same time. “So, over break Will and I started talking as more than friends... I just want to let you know, I know that you guys talked and I wanted to go to you and make sure you’re okay with it.” WELL NO OF COURSE I AM NOT OKAY WITH IT, NO WE DIDN'T TALK, WHAT AM I SUPPOSED TO SAY THOUGH?
So I swallow my sadness and tell Janice that “of course im okay with it” and then she continues about how much she respects and loves me and how im a “goddess” and “so hot” and “perfect” and etc. As fake people do, especially when they hurt you.
So after that I got a snap from him that I have refused to open, and she stayed at my apartment for the rest of the day because she obviously didn't get the cue that you leave someone alone after saying something like that.
But just like that, again a man has been taken from my life. I knew that it probably wouldnt last, and I always felt threatened by her. But as a person I was raised to not feel threatened by other women and to not date your friends crushes, no matter how much you want to. But obviously she didn’t learn that.
Now i’m back to square one, learning to love myself and others again.
To do this, Ive surrounded myself constantly with people I love (mostly friends), Ive been doing a lot of face masks, ive been baking a lot of sweets, watching a lot of movies, and taking on way more work than one person has time to do. Keeping myself busy is the best way to grow, and self growth leads to self love.
But yeah, its going to be a while until I go back to men I think, I have to rebuild myself after being torn down, and im going to try this time, to separate toxic people. Maybe i’ll do some traveling too.
Here’s to 2019- the year im dating myself.
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seungmin-jpeg · 7 years ago
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Stray Kids On Tumblr / Felix
Chan // Woojin // Minho // Changbin // Hyunjin // Jisung // Felix // Seungmin // Jeongin
I have waited a long time to write this one 
Half the reason i started this series was to write for him tbh
Anyways
Started his blog long before he became a trainee 
But A LOT of effort into it
Spent hours looking for the perfect desktop theme
Then spent a day working on it to make it have is own little ‘felix flare’ 
And then spent hoooooours working on his mobile header
Naturally very proud of his blog
Works really hard to make good posts
Majority is just memes 
Or recreations of memes
Reblogs a lot of old vines
He’s the type of blog to get all those weird random asks from people
And he always has witty comebacks
So sometimes his posts will blow up
He just has that typical tumblr humor 
And it really made his blog blow up
Ends up having one famous post with like 100k reblogs and is still growing and he still thinks its the dumbest posts he’s made his whole life
But thats tumblr for you
Sometimes he’d be working on a big post 
And then tumblr would do that dumb thing 
Where it freezes on you and you cant post things
The amounts of times his family heard him yelling from up in his room as tumblr crashed on him yet again
anyways
Honestly wasn’t super aware of kpop 
But like 
Of course he knew about it
And then he made it through the audition 
And he was like oh hey
I kinda gotta figure out whats going on here
So he 
Like the smart person he is
Searches through the tumblr tag
And oh yikes
The majority of the tag was bts and got7
And he was like 
Sweet
And then staff at the company told him watching kdramas will always help him learn korean
So 
Because of this extreme change in his life 
And the need to learn the language as fast as possible
He searches for some good kdramas to watch
So again he turns to tumblr
And he finds some good recommendations 
But he cant reblog it to his main blog 
Because ??? he cant expose himself like this to all he’s meme followers
So he real quick makes a side blog for all his kpop/kdrama needs
And reblogs a few kdrama recommendations 
And a few kpop song recommendations as well
But he’s only find rec’s for all those old classic kdramas 
Like playful kiss and boys over flowers 
Not really his speed yah know
So thats when he stumbles across your blog 
He had just found one of your posts about kdramas 
And he real quick messages you on anon and was like hey have any recs
And you were like YES!!!1!!1!
So you gave him a good list
Grouping them by themes and such 
And then highlighted some of your favorites 
He ended up being drawn to one title 
“Uncontrollably fond” 
And you had mentioned that it was really sad
So he googled it to try and see what it was about
And when you google it one of the first things it says about the drama is 
“A man and woman meet again after they broke up in the past.”
So he was like alright that one it is
Catch him later trying to find out who wrote that description because there was so much more to that drama
He literally could not put it down
Lowkey forgot half way through he was supposed to be trying to learn korean
Watched an episode every night before bed
Because yah know he was packing and stuff
Part of it helped with the stress of leaving his home and such
The other part was just because it was super addicting to watch
Of course he had to take a small break of watching it just because life got to hectic with packing and everything
But he had an overlay on the way to korea
So he watched the drama at the airport
Catch this teenage boy trying not to cry in the airport omg
As he sat in the airport he was like
I gotta talk to someone about this
So he searched up your blog again and left an ask
And because you’re always on tumblr you got it right away. 
“Im sitting in the airport on the verge of tears because of uncontrollably fond why’d you recommend this to me” 
You chuckled to yourself as you read his ask
“I told you it’d be sad!” you finally decided to answer
You had totally forgotten about the person who had asked for recs
It was nice to see them again
The two of you talked back and forth for a bit
And then you got a message 
“I got tired of leaving asks so i’m just going to message you now. A lot easier.” 
You asked him when his flight was, and how much of the show you had left
And he was like 
Not enough time 
He was to invested now
You recommended maybe waiting to watch the last few episodes until he was alone and had a box of tissues
Earning a laugh from him
Like the curious person you are
You asked him where he was going 
And he just kinda said korea and then asked about the soundtrack to the drama
So you didn’t push anymore
Because it seemed like something he didn’t really want to talk about 
So inteast you talked about the soundtrack
Found out he really really liked the song “a little braver”
So you listened to the song while you talked with him
While you waited for him to get back to you
You scrolled through his blog
It was kinda sad looking and had the default theme 
And he had a random mix of kpop and kdrama recs
So you asked him if he was new to the whole kpop/kdrama world
And he was like “kinda” 
Cue you saying if he ever wanted any recs on anything to ask you because you got him
And he just chuckled and said he had to catch his flight, but he’d remember that
And that he’d message you as soon as he finished the drama
Later in the week you got a message from some random meme blog
About uncontrollably fond 
And you were like wtf
Why is this popular weird meme blog messaging me about a kdrama
So you were like um who???
And he was like shoot wrong blog!!
Then switched to his kpop blog
You laughed to yourself thinking about how yet another person had been converted to the dark side
Little did you know
He was PART OF the dark side
You followed his main blog too
Because why not
And the two of you talked a lot 
You found out what a big jokester he was
And just how funny he could be
But that he was also super emotional and wore his feelings on his sleeve
The two of you went from talking about kdramas and random kpop things to little parts of your day
He’d complain to you about learning korean and the language barrier issues he’d always run into
And how tired he was at the end of the day
And you’d tell him about school
And the little things about your country you felt like he would like hearing about 
The two of you never even exchanged names
Just referred to each other as your urls 
Months past
He wasn’t on tumblr as much 
Even his main blog started to stop posting 
Which he always at least had queued up stuff
You’d leave him little encouraging messages every now and then
But he’d always take forever to respond
Instead 
You occupied yourself with the new show jyp was putting out 
Becoming way to invested for your own good 
And getting especially drawn to a certain member named felix
Something felt familiar about him
And you felt really drawn to him
But you just assumed it was because of his personality 
And the fact that he could speak english 
Then the dreaded day came 
Felix was eliminated 
And you felt like the world had swallowed all your joy
You decided to message your kdrama friend 
Just a simple hey
And he actually responded to your disbelief 
He seemed just as down as you 
So you two just ended up being sad together 
And then you were like 
Isn’t it like 3am there?
He was like yah
You were like ??? go to bed ???
He said he couldn’t fall asleep so you suggested watching a movie
So the two of you headed over to rabb.it
Ended up watching Your Name 
Half way through the movie he ended up asking you why you were so upset
So you told him that your favorite person from a survival show had been eliminated 
And you could see he wasn’t typing anything after you had sent the message off
So you asked him why he was upset
You watched him type something 
Then delete it 
Type it up again 
Then delete it again
It went on for a bit before you little ‘pop’ sounded and his message came in
“I got eliminated off a survival show” it read
And you were ??? 
Do you take this seriously or not ???
So you just kinda said “are you okay”
And he was like maybe
So you asked how he was maybe okay
He replied by saying that it was nice to have someone to talk to who wasn’t in the show itself but also wasn’t family
Youre super confused now because this is felix you’ve been talking too???
When you actually sat back and thought about it 
The timeline all made sense
It would make sense if this was actually felix
The movie now long forgotten played on as you asked him if he was really felix 
And he responded with a funny little smilie face
“I am but you really can’t tell anyone” 
“Felix aren’t you supposed to not be doing this? I thought they took away phones and stuff tho??” 
He explained everything and it all made sense but you were still shook to the core because youre talking with the felix lee right now
But you took the chance to tell him everything every fan wanted to tell him at that moment
You told him how proud you and everyone else was of him
And how people were already working on making sure both him and minho ended up back in stray kids
And by the way he talked you could tell he was happier 
Not much later you were excitedly congratulating him on making it back in
And everything was perfect 
Because the weird person asking you about kdramas
Months and months later ended up being the person you loved the most 
Without even knowing it
The two of you had a special secret friendship that no one knew about
And no one would know about for a long long time
And you were honestly okay with that
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wizard-in-olympus · 8 years ago
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1 - 102 and if you answer them all i'll do the same.. thats the deal
its a deal then
this is gonna be long
                                                         1. Think of the last person who said I love     you, do you think they meant it?                                    
it was mydad so, yeah                           
2. Would you date an 18-year-old at the age     you are now?
        im 18, so obviously i would
3. When’s the last time you were aggravated     and happy at the same time?
when i left college, 5 months ago. i’ll be back next semester
4. Would you ever smile at a stranger?
i’ve done it, what’s the big deal?
5. Is there someone mad because you’re     dating/talking to the person you are?
i dont think she knows and i dont think she’d even care
6. Have you heard a song that reminds you of     someone today? 
yeah andit was awful
 7. What exactly are you wearing right     now?
i’ve heard that line right there too many times, you sound like a 15 yearold trying to get nudes. anyways, im wearing blue pjs
8. How often do you listen to music?
on long rides, while studying, while doing chores, while reading, whilewasting my time on social media. so, most of the time i guess
9. Do you wear jeans or sweats more? 
jeans
10. Do you think your life will change     dramatically before 2015?                   
ok its 2017 already but im gonna change it to “...change dramaticallybefore 2018?″. not so much, it has changed a lot in a year already
11. Are you a social or an antisocial person?
social
12. Have you ever kissed someone whose name     begins with the letter ‘A’?
yes, my guy best friend, we were both drunk, shit happens. it kind ofbrought us together as friends hahaha
13. What about ‘R’?
no
14. Can you drive a stick shift? 
thats the only type of vehicle i drive
15. Do you care if people talk badly about     you?
i’d like to say no but yeah, i do. it depends on what people tho
16. Are you going out of town soon?
probably tomorrow. i go “out of town” a lot
17. When was the last time you cried?
i dont remember. about two months ago i think
18. Have you ever told someone you loved them?
yeah.huge mistake
19. If you could change your eye color, would     you?
maybe i’d change my eyes from hazel to a deeper green
20. Is there a boy who you would do absolutely     everything for?
i thinkso
21. Name something you dislike about the day     you’re having.
i haven’t finished the essay i was gonna present today, now i’ll have topresent it tomorrow                                                      
22. Is it cute when guys kiss you on your     forehead?
i loveit, yesss
23. Are you dating the last person you talked     to?
no
24. What are you sitting on right now?
my couch
25. Does anyone regularly (other than family)     tell you they love you?
my bestfriend
26. Have you ever wanted someone you couldn’t     have?
i do
27. Who was the last person you talked to     before you went to bed last night?
mybrother
28. Do you get a lot of colds?
no, i get colds once a year, twice a year tops
  29. Where is the shirt you are wearing     from?
idk, idc
 30. Does anyone hate     you?
i thinkso. im sorry
31. Do you have any empty alcohol bottles     hidden somewhere in your room?
no, im asocial drinker
32. Do you like watching scary movies?
hate them
33. Do you want your tongue pierced?
hell no
34. If you had to delete one year of your life     completely, which would it be?
either 2014 or 2015. big parts of 2016 too... maybe a little bit of thisone but its been the best year i’ve ever lived since 2013.
35. Did you have a dream last night?
yeah, the seniors in my old high school were 10x better than last yearseniors -when i was a senior- and teachers loved them (teachers hated mygeneration) and they all graduated from IB and had their diplomas linned up inthe hall (i didnt graduated from IB or get the diploma and everyone hated me bci was the only student in my generation that failed and so no one could say“gen16 was a 100% IB generation! the first one in this high school!” bc of me)
36. When was the last time you told someone     you loved them?
a coupleof weeks ago
37. Do you think you’ll be married in 5 years?
i hopenot
38. Do you think someone has feelings for you?
a couple of people, tiny andd small feelings but i now they do
39. Do you think someone is thinking about you     right now?
maybe wondering what happened to me, yeah. but probably no one is
40. Did you have a good day yesterday?
yes, areally good one
41. Think back 2 months ago; were you in a     relationship?
not a serious one but yeah
42. In the next 48 hours, will you hang out     with a girl?
yeah, lots of girls. but im a girl and i like boys so who cares if ihang out with a girl
43. Has anyone told you they don’t want to     ever lose you?
yes and lots of times and they did lose me. i just couldn’t handle themany longer, my patience couldn’t take it anymore, it had been YEARS of dealingwith the same shit and enough was enough. but i couldn’t break theirheart so i just told them i had changed and left. that probably makes me anasshole but idc
44. What’s the best part about school?
meeting new people all the time, learning new amazing things and gettingto test them and the late night bar celebrations when we nailed a test
45. Do you have any pictures on your Facebook?
of course, why wouldn’t i?
46. Do you ever pass notes to your friends in     school?
i used to do that in 7th grade, not anymore
47. Do you replay things that have happened in     your head?
yes i wish i could change so many things, so many situations in which idid the wrong thing
48. Were you single over the last summer?
oh yeah and i had never been so happy of being single
49. Is your life anything like it was two     years ago?
just a little bit but it has changed A LOT and im grateful for it
50. What are you supposed to be doing right     now?
finishingmy essay...
51. Do you hate the last guy you had a     conversation with?
im hating him rn but most of the time i love that guy. stupid guys
52. Are you nice to everyone?
most people. im not nice to one single person but im nice to the rest ofthe human population. fuck that bitch tho
53. Have you ever liked someone you didn’t     expect to?
i’ve only liked people i didn’t expect to. except one guy probably.
54. Do you think you can last in a     relationship for 6 months and not cheat?
i’ve never cheated, i think i can last a lifetime without cheating.cheating is a horrible thing to do, i don’t wish it on anybody
 55. Are you good at hiding your     feelings?
i used to be very good, lately i suck at it but idc anymore, its ok
56. Do you think you like someone?
kind of
57. Have you kissed someone whose name starts     with a ‘J’?
yes and i would do it again
58. Do you prefer to be friends with girls or     boys?
girls are sketchy, boys are chill. i get along better with guys but theyare also clueless idiots so... some guys
59. Has anyone of your friends ever seen you     cry?
yes
60. Do you hate anyone?
no
61. How’s your heart?
confused but healthy and happy like it hasn’t been in years
62. Is there something that happened in your past     that you hate talking about?
plenty ofthings
63. Have you ever cried over a guy?
no and i dont plan on ever doing it
64. Who is probably talking a load of crap     about you right now?
the same boring bitches that always have, “”friends”“ and also their stupidparents that care too much about what i do with my life. fuck off
65. Are your toenails painted pink?
no
66. Will your next kiss be a mistake?
i really hope not, not again
67. Girls love it when boyfriends cry;     correct?
no, i hate sensitive, dramatic people. if he cries for a good reasonthen ok but i wouldn’t love it, i’d be sad for him too
68. Have your pants ever fallen down in     public?
no
69. Who was the last person you were on the     phone with?
my bestfriend from Peru
70. How do you look right now?
ok, butmessy
71. Do you have someone you can be your     complete self around?
plenty of people (family and friends), im an open book                 
72. Can you commit to one person?
yes, but it looks like however made this questions cant
73. Do you have someone of the opposite sex     you can tell everything to?
thought i did, turns out i dont
74. Have you ever felt replaced?
yes, a couple of times. always by friends tho
75. Did you wake up cranky?
not today, i had an amazing night of sleep
76. Are you a jealous person?
no
77. Are relationships ever worth it?
yes yes yes, SO WORTH IT. you just have to find the right person
78. Anyone you’re giving up on?
not rn
79. Currently wanting to see anyone?
more like craving to see him. fuck my life
80. Name something you have to do tomorrow?
turn in this stupid essay i’ve mentioned twice already
81. Last person you cried in front of?
bestfriend
82. Is there someone you will never forget?
yeah
83. Do you think the person you have feelings     for is protective of you?
a littlebit
84. If the person you wish to be with were     with you, what would you be doing right now?
probably taking a walk and talking and staring at his beautiful smile
85. Are you over your past?
most of it. the latest “past” is still haunting me but im getting overit slowly
86. Have you ever liked one of your best     friends of the opposite sex?
not morethan physical attraction
87. Is there anyone you can tell EVERYTHING     to?
three tofour people
88. If your first true love knocked on your     door with apology and presents, would you accept?
if i had one i could answer this. i think i kind of did and i wouldn’taccept it
89. So, the last person you kissed just     happens to arrive at your door at 3AM; do you let them in?
what do you want??, what is the matter with you??, what on earth are youdoing here?? FUCK OFF.
90. Have you ever liked someone who your     friends hated?
yes                                                 
91. Will you be in a relationship in 2 months?
no
92. Is there anyone you know with the name     Michael?
yeah
93. Have you ever kissed a Matthew?
i live in Costa Rica, im latina. guys here have names like “Jose, JuanPablo, Andres, Gerardo, Alonso”, not “Matthew, James”. so of course i haven’t
94. Were you in a relationship in January? How was it going?
no and i lived the single life at its finest
95. Were you happy with the person you liked     in March?
no
96. Don’t tell me lies, is the last person you     texted attractive?
he’s a fucking model for fuck’s sakes, he’s a GOD. he’s so hot. why am ifriends with him?? itcomplicates everything
97. Who do you have texts from?
my best friends, my guy friends, my family group chat, my girl friendsgroup chats, my crush
98. If the person you like says they like     someone else, what would you say?
thats great, and do you think she likes you? hey good luck! *pretends idont have feelings and keeps on being a good friends*
99. Have you ever kissed someone older than     you?
the first person i ever kissed was a year older than me
100. Who’s in your profile picture with you?
ok in my tumblr icon im with my best friend, in my whatsapp, twitter andfacebook profile pictures im alone
101. Ever kissed under     fireworks?
no
  102. Has anybody ever given you     butterflies?
no
done!  that took me like an hour damn... sorry to the people who’s dashboard i interrupted with this post
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annnnnnabanana · 8 years ago
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How can you tell them that you want them and that you care for them but you can’t be with them. I’ll always be there for you. when it is 3am and im drunk or when its 2pm and im working. I’m there. always there. it’s you; it’s always been you since I met you five months ago. The way you make me feel is insane. It’s an indescribable feeling. You made me feel every single fucking emotion. You made me so happy but you managed to make me so sad. Luckily the happy outweighed the sad. Maybe one day we will cross paths, you’ll see me, i’ll see you, we’ll meet up and reconnect and talk like we never stopped. Our passion was like fire. Bright and hot. We loved hard for five months. We definitely fought to be together. You picked me. You wanted me instead of her. I picked you over everyone. You understood me. I remember staying up for nights in a row just to talk to you until morning. Our silences were so calming and weren’t awkward. I could sit there and listen to you breathe and be so content with life. I wish we were in my car and I was driving doing something stupid and you just laughed like I was an idiot but I really knew you were falling in love with me with every little moment we spent together. From the waffle house dates to playing monopoly to getting lost in Narnia a.k.a. IKEA to sitting in my room just talking to being on facetime and you making music or you showing me your favorite songs. God I miss you. To be honest, I don’t think i’ll ever stop missing you. You were something special. You didn’t know how to open up to me. I struggled because i knew you wanted to let me in but you couldn’t. You didn’t want to get hurt. You didn’t want someone to learn so much about you that they could hurt you. I wasn’t ever going to hurt you. I never planned on it. But you, you hurt me. You destroyed me. I’m broken because of you. But there you are, partying and getting drunk with random people you don’t know, probably fucking some girl in your room, to suppress your feelings; but here I am, getting drunk and crying my pitiful, sad tears all alone to let out my feelings. You’re numb. You put up these walls that I spent five months trying to break down. I let you in straight away because i’m too trusting. I care too much. I love too deeply. I get attached too easily. It fucks me up. Maybe one day i’ll learn to not do that to keep my heart from being broken and crushed. You ripped my heart out of my chest tonight. I’ll be numb too, just like you. But eventually i’ll be okay. I’ll find someone who won’t make me feel like this. You’ll still be sleeping around trying to forget your hurt and pain. I wonder if you’ll lay in your bed at night tossing and turning because you can’t sleep because you’re thinking of me and if I still miss you. If you’re wondering, I do. We both have some growing up to do. We both were changing. You couldn’t handle having someone there to help you through it. You didn’t want to change together. You didn’t want to grow with me, I did. I wanted to go through everything with you; the good, the bad, the beautiful, and the ugly. You were scared you were going to hurt me so you let me go. It was more painful to know you didn’t want to try with me. You tried to spare my feelings. I’m not some fragile fucking doll. I am a damn human. I am strong and I can take what you throw at me. I wanted us to work out. In all honesty, it got to the point, for me, where I was day dreaming about our future together. Our house, our jobs, our kids, our wedding. All of it. But it doesn’t matter now. You threw it all away… But I hope you can be happy and successful just like I hope you wish the same for me. I won’t talk bad about you because you were and still are what I wanted. You’ll forever be engraved in my heart and my mind. You taught me how a guy should treat me, how I should be loved, and I can’t thank you enough for it. Hopefully, I taught you something too. Maybe you can love your next girl even better and treat her even better. Maybe she will be more than what I could/ did give you. I hope she does you well. I hope she checks up on you while you’re drunk. I hope she likes your music and she supports you. I hope she doesn’t get mad when you need to be alone because you’re going through something you can’t explain. I hope she knows your favorite colors, that you only like Chickfilas diet lemonade and that’s all you will drink from there, your slightly unhealthy obsession with Selena Gomez and butts, that you love choking people and that it is your job, that you can eat seven plates of food and still be hungry, that your favorite movie of all time is Dead pool, that you’re insecure about your calves and only you can make fun of them or you get upset, that you and your sister are really close, that you and your dad share college stories, that you love memes and deadlifting, that your favorite animal is a penguin, that you believe in aliens, that even though you are lactose intolerant you still choose to eat area 51 ice cream because that is your favorite place, that you also really love chicken nuggets and I think if it were possible you would marry them, that you love waffle house, that you love crazy crew socks, that you love being dressy and you love playing dress up, that when you start tapping your fingers to the beat of a song you are playing the beat in your head and trying to figure it out, that you’re weird but it makes you ten times funnier, that you are charming, that you are the perfect gentleman, that it is hard for you to open up and let people in, and I hope she gets to know more of you than I got to know even if I wanted to know every detail about you; from the day you were born to the very day and moment we are in right now.
Why can’t you get drunk and text me that you miss you like I do when i’m drunk. It doesn’t seem fair that you hold it together so well while i’m barely holding on by a thread, just dangling there waiting for someone to cut the string. You remember how this whole thing started? It started with Grey’s Anatomy. You tweeted, “what’s so hype about greys?” I replied, “hot doctors and crazy cool illnesses.” You said, “hmm maybe i’ll watch an episode.” A few days later, I dmed you because it gave me the perfect excuse to talk to you. Of course you said you didn’t watch it. I remember the first thing you told me was that you thought your middle name was weird and then you randomly told me your middle name. we talked every day from that night. We made so many memories starting from that night. and now… now it’s all over. Both going through the same cycle. Heartbreak, sadness, possibly anger, happiness. But then we just start over with someone new and then go through that cycle with them. I didn’t want to have to start over. I didn’t want to go through the heartache or the breakups or the sadness. I wanted to be with you and only you. I wanted to wake up at 4am and look to my left and see you laying next to me. I wanted to make breakfast together in our cute apartment/ house. I wanted to cuddle up next to you on our couch eating dinner and drink some sort of alcoholic beverage enjoying each others company watching some weird ass show I probably found. I’ll always wonder what you’re doing. If you’re talking to some new girl. If you’re having sex with some girl to fill the void like you do. I’ll wonder if you’re okay. I’ll wonder if you wonder about me. I’ll wonder if you want to get back together with me. I’ll always wonder. Fuck. Fuck. Fuck. Fuck. Fuck. Fuck. Fuck. Fuck. Fuck. Fuck. Fuck. Fuck. Fuck. Fuck. Fuck. Fuck. Fuck. Fuck. I miss you and I hope you miss me too. 1/22/2017 2:05am 1/24/2016 11:03pm You texted me today. I replied with I miss you. You didn’t reply. I drove to all of our places today. I cried and I laughed because of our memories we made. Im sad because I know that it’s completely over between us and I wish it wasn’t because we had so much growing to do that we could have done together. I know you want to be with me but right now it’s too hard. We could have been something special, ya know? Really special. We could have given each other the world. I miss you so much. Its only been four days but all I do is cry. 1/27/17 8:07am I am in class. It’s boring. And all I’m doing is thinking about you. I still miss you. It’s been 6 days, almost a week since we broke up. I’m still sad but I’m better. I hope we can try again one day. You were and still are my favorite person. You make me so happy. You said you wanted to be with me but you couldn’t. It hurt but it didn’t hurt nearly as bad as when you said you are trying to detach yourself. That broke me. I’m sorry for talking about my feelings and oversharing and just missing you. I don’t really know what to do. I have this feeling that we will get back together but in my mind we won’t. I have not been able to get the thought out of my head that you are fucking some other girl and the thought of that makes me sick. Like honestly sick, like I could throw up at any moment. I had a dream last night: you came to my house with flowers, talked to my mom. You didn’t tell her we were broken up because you knew that I never told her in hopes of us getting back together and I didn’t want her to not like you. You came to my room and asked if we could talk and I said get the hell out because I didn’t want to speak to you because you broke my heart. You didn’t leave. You came in, shut my door and sat on my bed. I sat up and said I didn’t want to hear anything you had to say because I was sick of your bullshit. You talked to my anyways because you knew I would listen. You said, “I want to be with you, Anna. I miss you and I keep coming back to you. You are my favorite person. I would do anything for you. I care about you so much. Do you miss me? (as if you didn’t already know the answer).” “Of course I miss you, Braeden. How could I not? You were so special to me and I don’t think you realized it. But I am so sick of your bullshit excuses and I’m tired of running back to you just so you can break my heart again and again and again. You showed me something about myself that I didn’t think anyone could show me. You showed me how I should be treated by everyone that came into my life and I can’t thankyou enough for that.” “Do you wanna go for a drive with me”, you asked. “Yeah, I do.” We got up to leave. My mom said be safe and that she loved us. We got in your car and started driving. You told me why you left and that there was no ulterior motive behind it, that you weren’t lying. I am so appreciative of the fact that you are so honest with me. I stared out the window while you were talking to me. I couldn’t look at you without crying. I just wanted to hug and kiss you but I knew I couldn’t do that. That it wouldn’t be fair to me or you. I am always looking out for you. I always have and will put you and your feelings above myself even though I know I shouldn’t do that. You looked at me looking out the window and you smiled. I saw it in the reflection of the windshield. I said what. You said, “I have to tell you something and im not sure how you will react or how im going to react after the words come out of my mouth.” I said, “what is it? Are you gonna tell me you slept with 15 girls in the matter of a 2 weeks and then got back together with Mallory?” “No I wasn’t going to tell you that. Why would you think that? I never even thought of sleeping with someone else Anna.”, you said. I said, “ that’s what you do Braeden. When you are single, you fuck. That’s all you do is fuck.” I knew when I said that, I hurt you. I didn’t mean to. I apologized for saying it. You know I would never hurt you on purpose. You told me that it was okay; that you knew I was sorry. You acted like it didn’t affect you. I hate when you do that. You put up this façade and act like nothing matters to you and that nothing hurts you and that you don’t care. I do it too. I am trying to stop it. You said, “can I tell you what I was trying to tell you ten minutes ago?” we are in horn lake somewhere, I don’t remember driving that far. “yes you can, Im sorry.” Im always apologizing for something. “don’t be sorry, Anna. But * long pause* I think I love you.” I sit up and I finally looked at you. “what?” “Yes, Anna, I really do.” “Since when Braeden because you sure as hell don’t act like it,” I said. “since I met you. I knew it on our first date that I was gonna fall in love with you.” “oh…,” I said. Then I woke up and Im not quite sure what happened after that.. I know that this dream will never happen in real life. I know that you don’t love me like that. I know you don’t want me. And that’s okay. I’m eating. More than the last time we broke up. Im not drowning my feelings and filling my veins with alcohol like I did before. Im better. I might be sad but im better. My mom asked about you Friday, I had to tell her and she got mad at me for not telling her sooner… Telling her, made it seem so much more real. I didn’t want her to know because it gave me some sort of hope in us getting back together. I didn’t want her to not like you but she still likes you even loves you. I had another dream; all you did was text me about some hockey player attatched with a picture. It was weird and I don’t know what’s happening to me. Its been 4 days and I still haven’t cried.. its been a week and one day since we broke up and it still hurts just like it did the first time you broke up with me. Day 11 since we broke up… 2/1/17 10:31am Well its our almost what would have been six months of being together. 3 months of officially dating. But that doesn’t exist anymore. I got sad yesterday and of course im still sad today. I think about you all the time. You never leave my mind. It’s literally impossible to go a second without seeing thinking of you. I see you in everything I do. It hurts me but somehow makes me happy at the same time. I still have all our pictures and videos because I can’t seem to delete them. It would make me sad to know that I could never look back at all the memories we made. I am honestly surprised I am doing as well as I am. When we broke up the first time, I was a mess. I didn’t eat or sleep or anything really. The only thing I did was drink and drink and drink. Its all I did for a week straight. I couldn’t think straight. I couldn’t breathe. I felt sick. I missed my home. My comfort. My safe place. You were my home. I never felt safer than when I was in your arms. Your hugs made me feel warm and happy. No matter what I did or how I felt, you were always there for me. It’s hard to do things without thinking of you or it bringing back memories. I can’t listen to certain songs or go to certain places or order certain things without crying or feeling sadness because it is all associated with you. I remember every little detail about you and our relationship. It’s a constant cycle of me just replaying our memories in my brain. It’s never ending. You are on my mind when I wake up, all day, when I go to sleep, and even in my dreams. I can never get away from you no matter how hard I try. I know it’s not over for us. I feel it in my bones, my heart, my brain, my blood, everything. We are nowhere near done; not any time soon. I was talking to Meagan last night. I know what you are thinking; your best friend. My Mallory has told me over and over that all you did was use me for sex. But I don’t think you did. If I did, you wouldn’t have stayed with me for five months. You would have left me the second after we did stuff together. I think you genuinely cared for me and showed me how I should be treated and I cant thank you enough for that. I am so appreciative of you. I know you know that I am always there for you no matter what and that I will always care for you and that you will ALWAYS have a special place in my heart. I told her that I think we were getting super serious too fast and it scared you. You aren’t used to something like that. You take your time but I think you realized that you were falling and falling hard and fast and you didn’t know what to do or how to handle it. I was scared because I didn’t know what was happening. Im terrified. I didn’t know what I was feeling or how I was feeling. My emotions went crazy. I think I realized that I was falling too. I’m scared of being happy. Scared of being in love. Scared of fully opening myself up to someone. I know you are too. I don’t think you and Mallory or any of your exes had a connection like we did. I don’t think you felt like this with anyone but me. I really do hope you are doing okay because im not. Im doing horrible. Im constantly being asked if I am and I say yes but I know I am lying and I think they know im lying too. They still like you. They hope that we get back together. They want you to come over on super bowl Sunday. My dad asked about you… He said he missed you and he never says that about anyone. Im sorry I feel the way I feel. Im sorry I couldn’t help you get through what you needed to get through. I told Meagan that she could read this one day but I don’t think I will let her. Maybe one day I can stop writing because A) we get back together or B) I finally get over you. Man, I hope it is the first one. I really do. But for right now, I’m not done writing and I won’t be anytime soon.. I Love You So Much. Its 3:03am on Friday February 3rd, 2017. You sent me a song yesterday that you remixed. It was another one of your breakup mixes, you know, the ones that make you a lot of money and get you a lot of views… yeah one of those. I don’t know why you did it. Was it to hurt me? To remind me of you and that you still existed? Either way it was still good and I really like it. But I decided to look up the meaning of the lyrics and it hurt me. “fighting flames of fire hang onto burning wires we don’t care anymore Are we fading lovers?” It makes total sense. We had hardships in our relationship. A lot, actually. We are fading; we don’t talk anymore. We hung to burning wires; clinging for us to stay together. Fighting for what we wanted and needed. I cried for so long today. My mom is worried. I don’t know how long it will take me to be happy again. I’m getting drunk tonight, and Saturday and Sunday. I can’t take it anymore. I can’t take my feelings and emotions and the pain. It feels like my heart has been ripped out and stepped on by a bunch of elephants. You were like the ocean and I was drowning. I don’t know what I am doing. I don’t know how I’m functioning. I am a functioning depressed person. I hope you regret it. I hope you regret leaving me. I hope you realize you made a wrong choice and that you come back to me. I hope that you think about me everyday.. and what we could have been. You texted me today.. 2/9/17.. you asked about your red jacket. I know you knew I didn't have it, or so I thought? Was it just an excuse to text me, to see me? What was it? Because i cant keep having you text me randomly when you miss me or when you feel like. Its fucked up on your end knowing how much I care for you.
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youroneandonlyblog · 8 years ago
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100 Questions NO ONE ever asks!
Thank you for tagging me noone im just bored
1. DO YOU SLEEP WITH YOUR CLOSET DOORS OPEN OR CLOSED? closed cuz i hide shit in there
2. DO YOU TAKE THE SHAMPOOS AND CONDITIONER BOTTLES FROM HOTELS?
only once and it sucked
3. DO YOU SLEEP WITH YOUR SHEETS TUCKED IN OR OUT? out
4. HAVE YOU STOLEN A STREET SIGN BEFORE? no but i wanna steal the one near my house just its {my name} street
5. DO YOU LIKE TO USE POST-IT NOTES?
ive never used them so idk
6. DO YOU CUT OUT COUPONS BUT THEN NEVER USE THEM?
i never use coupons, exept at hottopic
7. WOULD YOU RATHER BE ATTACKED BY A BIG BEAR OR A SWARM OF BEES? bees, i aint trinna die
8. DO YOU HAVE FRECKLES? one on my eyeball, dont believe me i have a picture
9. DO YOU ALWAYS SMILE FOR PICTURES? i never do, my smile looks awkward asf
10. WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST PET PEEVE? stupid people
11. DO YOU EVER COUNT YOUR STEPS WHEN YOU WALK? no not really
12. HAVE YOU PEED IN THE WOODS? yes i have #campinglife
13. HAVE YOU EVER POOPED IN THE WOODS? thank god, no
14. DO YOU EVER DANCE EVEN IF THERES NO MUSIC PLAYING? yes i do and i rock it
15. DO YOU CHEW YOUR PENS AND PENCILS? yes only pencils and when im nervous
16. HOW MANY PEOPLE HAVE YOU SLEPT WITH THIS WEEK? zero...none....nada...sadly
17. WHAT SIZE IS YOUR BED? twin xl
18. WHAT IS YOUR SONG OF THE WEEK? hail to the king-avenged sevenfold
19. IS IT OK FOR GUYS TO WEAR PINK? only vegeta from DBZ
20. DO YOU STILL WATCH CARTOONS? yep cartoons > shows for me
21. WHAT IS YOUR LEAST FAVORITE MOVIE? idk?? If I don’t like the movie I don’t ever remember watching it tbh
22. WHERE WOULD YOU BURY HIDDEN TREASURE IF YOU HAD SOME? why would I tell you
23. WHAT DO YOU DRINK WITH DINNER? water or tea
24. WHAT DO YOU DIP A CHICKEN NUGGET IN? BBQ sause
25. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE FOOD? pizza or pasta
26. WHAT MOVIES COULD YOU WATCH OVER AND OVER AGAIN AND STILL LOVE? any fast and furious
27. LAST PERSON, YOU KISSED/KISSED YOU? some bitch
28. WERE YOU EVER A BOY/GIRL SCOUT? yes for like 8 years or something
29. WOULD YOU EVER STRIP OR POSE NUDE IN A MAGAZINE? how much am i getting paid
30. WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME YOU WROTE A LETTER TO SOMEONE ON PAPER? never in my life XD
31. CAN YOU CHANGE THE OIL ON A CAR? nope
32. EVER GOTTEN A SPEEDING TICKET? ive always talked my way out of them
33. EVER RAN OUT OF GAS?
almost but no
34. WHAT’S YOUR FAVOURITE KIND OF SANDWICH?
a hamburger, yes it counts
35. BEST THING TO EAT FOR BREAKFAST? waffles
36. WHAT IS YOUR USUAL BEDTIME? like 1-3am
37. ARE YOU LAZY? im not lazy, i just really enjoy doing nothing
38. WHEN YOU WERE A KID, WHAT DID YOU DRESS UP AS FOR HALLOWEEN? vampire usually
39. WHAT IS YOUR CHINESE ASTROLOGICAL SIGN? A Rat (i had to look this up)
40. HOW MANY LANGUAGES CAN YOU SPEAK? english and spanish
41. DO YOU HAVE ANY MAGAZINE SUBSCRIPTIONS? nope cuz i dont read anyway
42. WHICH ARE BETTER: LEGOS OR LINCOLN LOGS? legos. there is no comparison
43. ARE YOU STUBBORN? sometimes
44. WHO IS BETTER: LENO OR LETTERMAN?
idk who they are
45. EVER WATCH SOAP OPERAS? nope
46. ARE YOU AFRAID OF HEIGHTS? deathly
47. DO YOU SING IN THE CAR?
all the time. loadly
48. DO YOU SING IN THE SHOWER?
never
49. DO YOU DANCE IN THE CAR? all the time
50. EVER USED A GUN? yes but only target practice
51. LAST TIME YOU GOT A PORTRAIT TAKEN BY A PHOTOGRAPHER? college ID photo
52. DO YOU THINK MUSICALS ARE CHEESY? yes, every single one
53. IS CHRISTMAS STRESSFUL? no cuz i have no money to buy anyone presents
54. EVER EAT A PIEROGI? nope, ive heard they are good
55. FAVORITE TYPE OF FRUIT PIE? damn i was gonna say pizza, ummmm apple
56. OCCUPATIONS YOU WANTED TO BE WHEN YOU WERE A KID?
video game designer. up until actually got to college
57. DO YOU BELIEVE IN GHOSTS?
yes, theres one in my house and she/he used to throw things at me
58. EVER HAVE A DEJA-VU FEELING? sometimes, my life is really repetitive
59. DO YOU TAKE A VITAMIN DAILY? nope i dont
60. DO YOU WEAR SLIPPERS? nope never
61. DO YOU WEAR A BATH ROBE? nope
62. WHAT DO YOU WEAR TO BED? either sweatpants or basketball shorts
63. WHAT WAS YOUR FIRST CONCERT? Hollywood Undead, 2016
64. WALMART, TARGET, OR KMART? walmart cuz its cheep
65. NIKE OR ADIDAS? Adidas
66. CHEETOS OR FRITOS? cheetos
67. PEANUTS OR SUNFLOWER SEEDS? peanuts
68. EVER HEAR OF THE GROUP TRES BIEN?
what??
69. EVER TAKE DANCE LESSONS? my friends mom taught me and thats it. and ive been told im a great dancer 
70. IS THERE A PROFESSION YOU PICTURE YOUR FUTURE SPOUSE DOING? i dont know, and i really dont care XD
71. CAN YOU CURL YOUR TONGUE? nope
72. EVER WON A SPELLING BEE? my spelling sucks, so glad i live in the time of autocorrect
73. HAVE YOU EVER CRIED BECAUSE YOU WERE SO HAPPY? nope, mainly cuz im rarely happy
74. OWN ANY RECORD ALBUMS? nope whats the point
75. OWN A RECORD PLAYER? my grandma does XD
76. DO YOU REGULARLY BURN INCENSE? no my mom burns candles tho (is that the same thing)
77. EVER BEEN IN LOVE? >.>
78. WHO WOULD YOU LIKE TO SEE IN CONCERT? idk so many options 
79. WHAT WAS THE LAST CONCERT YOU SAW? hollywood undead 2016 (yes my first is also my last)
80. HOT TEA OR COLD TEA? niether i hate tea
81. TEA OR COFFEE? coffee
82. SUGAR COOKIES OR SNICKERDOODLES? snickerdoodles by far
83. CAN YOU SWIM WELL? yes i can, ive acually saved someone before cuz a dumbass kicked us in and she smacked her head on the bottom of a pool
84. CAN YOU HOLD YOUR BREATH WITHOUT HOLDING YOUR NOSE? yes for like 10 seconds
85. ARE YOU PATIENT? nope, definitely not
86. DJ OR BAND AT A WEDDING? DJ duh
87. EVER WON A CONTEST? never i wish
88. HAVE YOU EVER HAD PLASTIC SURGERY? nope i have not
89. WHICH ARE BETTER: BLACK OR GREEN OLIVES? green olives
90. CAN YOU KNIT OR CROCHET? neither
91. BEST ROOM FOR A FIREPLACE? well i have a fake one in my tv room
92. DO YOU WANT TO GET MARRIED? when i finally meet the right person
93. IF MARRIED, HOW LONG HAVE YOU BEEN MARRIED? im 20 i am not married..are there married chicks on tumblr?
94. WHO WAS YOUR HIGH SCHOOL CRUSH? i had alot
95. DO YOU CRY AND THROW A FIT UNTIL YOU GET YOUR OWN WAY?
nope
96. DO YOU HAVE KIDS?
i do not...that i know of
97. DO YOU WANT KIDS? yes someday
98. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE COLOR? black and always will be
99. DO YOU MISS ANYONE RIGHT NOW? i miss noone
100. WHO ARE YOU GOING TO TAG TO DO THIS TAG NEXT?
Im tagging whoever actually read this 
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