#anyway the point is: stop blaming serkan! stop cursing him!

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Okay, so I had a bit of free time yesterday and so I watched all Edser scenes in the episode. I'm also very aware of the fans having a meltdown over Serkan being "OOC" (out of character). And, I'm sorry, but this just needs to be said, so I'm going to go ahead and say it. 

(This got way too long so I’m adding a cut.)

Serkan is not pretending to have forgotten Eda. He was on a plane that crashed and, as a result, he lost his memories. It is not Serkan Bolat's fault he was on that plane. And it is certainly not Serkan Bolat's fault that Selin manipulated his memories even further when he was in a vulnerable spot. In this situation, Serkan is no less than a victim. Because after the accident, the one familiar person around him who could've genuinely helped him, decided to use his vulnerability to her advantage (yes, I mean Selin). The poor guy doesn't know that, though. He believes Selin and everything she told him about Eda because he himself has zero recollection of Eda and all his time spent with Eda. Like he told Eda the day he returned to Artlife 2 months later, it was the first time had ever seen Eda. As much as it hurts, Eda is a stranger to this Serkan (which was a nice 💔 parallel to when Eda compared him to a stranger after finding out the truth about her parents' deaths).

This is the old Serkan Bolat. I feel like this is probably the Serkan who was in a relationship with Selin the first time around, the one she was used to - the one we never got to see. I don't think he's really OOC. Yes, he may seem "colder", but I don't think calling him insensitive is fair. Serkan Bolat, old or post-Eda, doesn't do well with strangers. He doesn't get all chummy with them. Yes, it may feel like this isn't the Robot Bolat who was all stuffed teddy bear on the inside. But, don't worry, guys! He's in there. The entire episode proved that because Serkan was not at all unaffected by Eda.

First, with that new hearbeat thing. Soon after Serkan enters the office, Eda's heartbeat speeds up (it does speed up, right? Or is it just looooouuddd beating?) along with Serkan's. And by Serkan's reaction, I'd say his heart doesn't just beat fast, it hurts! This is actually a good thing for Serkan. It proves somewhere in his mind and heart, he still remembers Eda; the memories just need to be brought to the surface. And this is exactly what the Edser conversation before Eda kissed him was pointing towards. (This heart thingy reminds me of Her Yerde Sen. Selin's and Demir's hearts used to hurt a lot when they were apart from each other or in a fight.)

Serkan also got certain flashbacks to his fake engagement party with Eda. Good thing yet again!

Also, that last scene, after his conversation and kiss with Eda, was extremely important. Yes, we all can't believe Serkan proposed to Selin, but we'll get to that in a bit as you read on. Serkan stumbled and stuttered throughout his speech there. That, in my opinion, is a big hint that the man is going against everything his gut instincts are telling him. Serkan has always been very intuitive. Right now, his heart and body are telling him that Selin isn't the right choice, that there's something between him and Eda that runs way deeper than what he has with Selin, but his mind is telling Serkan to be logical and stick to what he knows. As of this moment in time, what Serkan knows is Selin, and unfortunately, not Eda. Let me reiterate, that is not Serkan's fault. Seeing his pictures with Eda isn't enough for him right now because Selin feels more familiar to him and he's just clinging to familiarity. See, without him saying anything, Eda knew why he put his hand over his heart - when she dropped that line about his heart still remembering her, he looked blown away - and then she kissed him and he felt way more confused than before. His mind is now getting further confused because of Eda's presence and I'm pretty sure it's total chaos inside of him which is why he's running away from Eda.

Every bone in his body is telling him he's making a mistake, but the guy is back to running solely on logic and as per logic, how could he have been in love with somebody he doesn't remember even seeing until now (aka someone he doesn't know at all)?

The proposal was a stumbling mess and he looked far from happy and content. I mean, the guy was teary-eyed and looking at Eda when proposing to Selin, for God's sake! And according to the fragman, while his wife-to-be hugs him immediately after the proposal, his teary eyes are busy following Eda out the door.

So, you know, the entire fandom needs to calm the heck down and stop blaming Serkan for something that is not his fault. He's not insensitive or cold, he just doesn't have time for all this drama and only wants to focus on work, which is a very Serkan thing to do, if I recall correctly.

Serkan will get his memories back (I'm just hoping they don't drag this amnesia storyline; I'd like to see it being resolved in episode 30, but I know that's too much to hope for, lol) and trust me, he'll beat himself over all the pain Eda is in way more than the fans ever could and way more than required.