#anyway thank you so much lys!!!!!

[angelfruittree]

Tell publicly 3 facts about yourself or your three favourite songs or favourite books (it can be anything, really-whatever you want to share/feel like talking about) then send it some people you like! ♥️♥️♥️

Ohhh thank you for the ask lys

1. One of my favorite characters ever is Kaul Hilo from the green bone saga - that sound that’s like “I’m not a bad dog I don’t know why I bite” is so very him but he’s rabid! He’s a middle child and something about middle children always gets to me. I think about this bit all the time ( not really a bit is it lmao)

“Now it seemed an impassable emotional mountain. Every time he longed to make things right with Wen, anger yanked him back, like a hand jerking away from flame or Steel rising against a blade.

How often had he found fault with Shae for keeping people at a distance for half the time not being honest with herself, and half the time not being honest with others? Now he was the one sealed off, nursing his invisible wounds alone, just as Lan had once done.

The thought filled Hilo with gloom and dread. He was not a naturally self-sufficient personality. He knew that about himself.

Perhaps some men truly did not need others, but very few, and there was usually something wrong with them to make them that way. The brotherhood of the clan was a promise that its warriors were not alone.

What was the point of Green Bone oaths, of all the sacrifices his family had made, of the relentless war against their enemies, if in the end, the promise couldn't even be kept for him and those he loved?”

But also he’s a murderer and implicates you in every single thing he does . I remember walking my dog listening to Jade war ( book 2 ) and I stopped in my tracks on the street GAGGED!! GAGGED within an inch of my life winded I had to put my hands on my knees.

2. I really love Tasha Suri and help I’m crying but she has these two books called Empire of sand and Realm of Ash and it’s about two sisters ( each book follows a sister) The first book is about the oldest sister ( shes amrithi, a people who have old magic in their blood descended of dessert spirits , they are a nomadic dessert people and they are violently persecuted and feared but their power is also deeply covered - her mother left when she was young bc that is the amrithi way they can’t be pinned down to one place and her father remarries and… anyway I’m talking about realm of ash ) Empire of sand follows a sister forced into an arranged marriage that enslaves her to this dark mystic ( because of her power) but anyway realm of ash follows her little sister, years later who is now a widow and there’s this one line that just skdjdjdjdnffn

“ She thought about how sensible it had always seemed to smooth away her sharp edges, how long her mother had worked to shape her into something worthy of being loved. But Arwa did not care if Gulshera liked her, never mind loved her. She’s had enough of being mothered and molded. She opened her mouth.”

Okay and finally

I read this fic the other day for my two babies 2buck and I’ve been thinking about it none stop sometimes I scream because I think of a line and then I look around me and I’m on the street - or my dogs just looking at me like so disappointed or maybe he’s proud idk here’s the fic my friend found it but idk if I should expose her !!!

But I can’t stop thinking about it ahsjzjzjsjssjsn

[answermywearyquery]

the theerapanyakul kids: how close are you with each other?

loan’s kinnporsche 2nd anniversary: favourite familial relationship: the theerapanyakul kids (insp: ½+½)

[swinging-stars-from-satellites]

this whole fear of repressed memories regarding sexual abuse has been following me around for years, probably since I became aware of memory loss/repressed trauma in the first place, but idk why it's been so intense this summer and it's really really frustrating how every time I think I've worked through it and gotten over it, I see a picture or someone says something and I'm all "I'M SCARED THAT THIS FAMILY MEMBER RAPED ME AS A KID AND I JUST CAN'T REMEMBER IT" and like. it's so frustrating because it's literally a symptom of OCD or whatever that I can't stop going over and over and over this, and it's driving me nuts that I can't seem to trust my own mind

[aquanutart]

xadian field guide

[thelambthatkilledthewolf]

Self love is being able to look at yourself and think "Wow, Will Wood was right.... If looks could kill, I would be staring in a mirror!"

[bedforddanes75]

Also you just casually drop insane smut?!?!?!

josie STOP it i am BLUSHING.......

[jimmyspades]

One more sappy post just to say happy birthday Jimmy, love you lots

He’s been one of my favorite actors for quite some time but it wasn’t until the last few months something clicked and I really fell hard. He’s what I needed when I needed it, a gorgeous bright spot in the midst of a rough personal time. Diving into his filmography has been a lot of fun and at times even challenging. There’s a lot about his best work that pushes me out of my comfort zone and asks all the painful, awkward, worthwhile questions we should all ask ourselves—and even harder, it confronts us with some of the honest answers.

I’ve learned a lot about myself and other people and sexuality and fear/anxiety and how to be a real person in the world. And I’ve watched some really terrible movies. Most importantly, I’ve met some very very amazing people who love Jim too and we get to hang out on this silly website every day and have fun :-) I think the greatest thing art gives us is community (in many forms) and I’m just very grateful to James for being the center of ours and introducing me to so many wonderful people. And he isn’t too bad himself ! A pretty special guy :’)

Soooo happy birthday Jamesy, thank you for being you—you’re the only one who can get away with it. You’ve made the world a much stranger, much more exciting place in every way ❤️❤️

[clandestinegardenias]

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[shima-draws]

GIVE THE OP UPDATE, how far are you and what are your favorite ships??

LOL FAIR

I JUST finished the Alabasta arc and started the Skypeia arc (skipped all the filler in between). The scene where Vivi says goodbye to the Strawhats had me feelin REAL emo man

Also when Zoro looks up on the ship and literally all of them are sticking their heads out through the rungs like “I miss Vivi :(((((“ that was such a sweet moment oh my god they love her she is their NAKAMA 😭

AS FOR SHIPS OH YEAH. I’m so invested now. Zolu is king of my heart forever but any combo of Zoro/Luffy/Sanji is also god tier. OH and Vivi/Nami of COURSE. And I keep seeing LA fanart of Shanks/Mihawk which also has me like 👀

[skeletalheartattack]

can i make the yummy sandwich for you?

the yummy sandwich?

this could be us?

[zrllosyn-art]

this is the Really Normal haru anon and i absolutely need a post about his lore because i love him . !!! hes such a cool character 2 me because hes literally just, . the employed friend on an off day ? to me ?

i LOVE how you describe Haru tbh, you are, not wrong

(old sketch ft. Izfaish's Yamato who i love very much she is so good)

Haru.... does not know what normal clothes is though lmao. The work follows him off duty

ANYWAYS THANK YOU FOR INTEREST IN HARU LORE, I WILL. do my best to give you a quick run down under the cut

(i do have a lore packet/sketch pdf,,, in the works,,, but for now have a basic rundown. I will,,, finish this haru zine eventually LMAOOo)

So I'm gonna be including a buncha sketches because,,, uh,, I am not the best with words so I need visuals to assist lmao. Most of them are in my [haru tag], if you wanna just see those.

He also has a [toyhouse page] if you wanna see that instead. Its a little outdated though, i keep retconning bits of his history n such.

BUT YEAGH. ONTO THE, lore,, ,,

Haru's original idea was around how not everyone who dreams of being JAKDF combatant, makes it. I love how kn8 canon basically tells you its never too late and encourages you to follow your dreams but I kinda wanted to go at it from th other angle of. Sometimes, you have to give up. But you don't have to give up entirely. You just need to change your approach, or find something within it that you can do. Adapting your dreams to your reality, and visa versa. That kinda thing.

(also have these as buffer. My little haru stickers/emotes lmao)

So Haru's childhood dream was to join the JAKDF as a combatant, but he runs into a lot of issues along the way. He's got financial issues from loosin his family pretty early on, and also he hits a pretty hard wall in terms of unleashed combat potential (his stops around 10%).

(He's a bit of a delinquent in high school. Mainly due to skipping classes for part time work, and hanging out with a not-so-great crowd)

[Haru and his parents] [Also Haru with Pati (friend's oc) and Yamato (izfaish's oc) talking about piercings.]

After runnin into many walls and kind of hitting, a really low point, he gets recruited into the research and operations side of things when a higher up notices he's pretty decent at the more analytical side of stuff. He takes the out, and he switches out combat training and goes into research and operations instead. From there he goes into research only, and then goes overseas for extended training/education.

He uh, was kind of running away from his social life in japan, and also the kinda, internalized pressure due to stuff. He feels kinda guilty about it (had a huge falling out with a friend when leaving). But he goes! Overseas, to the US as part of a sister school training program kinda deal. The program is kind of a half training/combat program and half educational, so he's doing both for a little bit.

(Still not sure how that program works. The details are nowhere near hashed out)

[Haru with his cadet friends. Its him in the middle.]

During his time as a combatant, he gets his arm eaten by a kaiju, and he gets removed from the combat program entirely. Due to, uh. Well trauma, injury, and missing a whole ass arm.

[early concept sketch for haru gettin his arm eaten. ]

You can find the comic about his arm gettin eaten and his ptsd around kaiju in general [here]. But with the removal from the combatant program he goes full into research and kinda, finds out he enjoys it. He gets himself a degree, and ends up as a professor? Mainly there for research, but he's required to teach a few classes. This is where he meets Pati (friend's oc) who becomes his friend and also assistant.

[haru and pati. Theyre goofballs. also this sketch is from before haru's whole arm thing was put into place so he doesnt have that]

Haru's research ends up centered around kaiju fibers, and how they affect unleashed combat potential (UCP), and general sync rates. His first actual use of his research was making himself a prosthesis, which is kind of his thesis project. I think.

[Haru and Pati, working on the creation process for his prosthetic arm.]

He turns out to be compatible with the kaiju that ate his arm so thats fun. For me. And not for him. The kaiju he got eaten by is also, a little special? Its not a numbered kaiju by any means, but i enjoyed messing around with its abilites and concepts for it, so its spawn shows up semi often in my doodles. Haru is, not exactly happy to see they're still around.

[haru with his new arm, and his generally mixed feelings when it comes to the kaiju that ate his arm]

Eventually he ends up going back to Japan, and working with the JAKDF where he meets Yamato (Izfaish's oc) and a whole buncha, other ocs I have. And gets hauled into the whole conflict going on over there. His reasons for returning isnt, quite set yet? I think its fun if the JAKDF recruited him for a specific project and he just, stays hired by them or smth, but that part and the timing for his return keeps changing.

Here's some doodles of him in Japan and workin over there though.

[as always, pati is my friend's oc, and yamato belongs to izfaish]

Anyways thanks for giving me a chance to just kind of, sit here and yell about this disaster of a guy. He's just a guy, but like. I am puttin him through it.

[moth--knight]

TELL US MORE ABT THE BYJN TRAGEDY POST PLEASE

ASK AND YE SHALL RECEIVE ! ! !

I really like the "This story is a tragedy because it didn't have to end this way." vs "This story is a tragedy because it was always going to end this way." because I think is encapsulates Bayonetta and Jeanne as people in this series so fucking well.

Putting this rant below the cut, because it is long and includes spoilers for Bayonetta Origins. Yippie! Let's go.

Bayonetta spends most of the series actively defying fate and seeking her own path. She fights her way through every obstacle in order to save herself and the people she loves. When Jeanne is dragged to Inferno, the fate that awaits ALL witches when they die, Bayonetta says "Actually, no. Not yet." Now with the context of Bayonetta Origins, this feels especially significant, because it is a huge deal that little Cereza watches Morgana get dragged to Inferno without flinching. And yet, despite knowing how the world works, Bayonetta refuses to admit defeat and fights to the bitter end.....which means when she *does* fail, she blames herself. The tragedy for her is her own weakness. In Bayonetta 2 we see her tell Loki that Jeanne shouldn't have thrown her life away for someone like Bayonetta. Jeanne's death weighs on her, not just because it is a tragedy to lose someone you love, but because Bayonetta is convinced that it didn't have to go that way and sheis to blame (and thus does everything in her power to fix it). We see this again throughout Bayonetta 3 - while a lot of her characterization is ummmm not stellar in my opinion (lol), you can still see how this impacts her. The moment where she is confronted with having to kill Egyptian!Jeanne stands out, because she doesn't want to. There HAS to be another way! These worlds all keep ending in death, but it shouldn't be like that, there HAS to be something she can do, so she hesitates (only for another version of her to kill Jeanne, because she can't She can't accept that fate.) In France, Singularity takes over French!Bayo and then taunts our Bayonetta by asking "well what can you do for her now?" Essentially, "how will you defy fate this time?" And what does Bayonetta do? Fight and watch that version of herself die as well, helpless to stop it. Bayonetta carries the weight of every tragedy on her shoulders because she blames HERSELF for each failure. If she had been stronger, faster, better, it could have been avoided (or so she tells herself).

Jeanne, on the other hand knows that their story is a tragedy and accepts her role in it without flinching. In Bayonetta 1 she allows herself to almost be killed by the missile strike, and then again in space, because fighting the inevitable doesn't matter - as long as she does what she can to protect Cereza, she will have done enough before she dies. In Bayonetta 2 she easily sacrifices her life for Cereza, and then chastises her for coming to rescue her in Inferno - in part because it was horribly reckless, but also because Jeanne had accepted her fate, her death. We see this at its most extreme with Jeanne's Tale in Bayonetta Origins (which is one of my favorite things in the entire series oh my god I could talk about THAT alone for hours and what it tells us about Jeanne as a character). Singularity SHOWS Jeanne her death, her FATE, and says "if you walk away and abandon Cereza, you can save yourself." And Jeanne doesn't even flinch. She doesn't attempt to bargain. She boldly accepts her death, her fate. Sure, one day she will be killed. But she'll also save Cereza in the process, here and now, and maybe later too. It is a tragedy because Jeanne knows it is unavoidable. It will always end in her death. And that is okay.

The fact that Jeanne tells Cheshire NOT to tell Cereza about the vision they saw of Jeanne's own death highlights this divide between them perfectly. Jeanne accepts that they are in a tragedy, and is ready to play her part to protect Cereza in it, knowing she will die in the process. But she also knows that Cereza would NEVER accept that, and would do something reckless and foolish to try and defy that fate, to attempt to save Jeanne, no matter the risk.

In every version of this story, they don't make it. By their very nature as witches, they are doomed by the narrative, one day to be dragged to Inferno for all eternity.

But whereas in Bayonetta's eyes the tragedy is that it didn't have to be this way if only she were strong enough to forge a new path.....in Jeanne's eyes, the tragedy is it will always end this way, regardless of how hard Bayonetta fights for them both.

Bayonetta as a series plays with this idea of fate and destiny in really interesting ways, and looking at that through the lens of Bayonetta's and Jeanne's relationship is especially telling I think.

[b-blushes]

got a good grade in 'not having something wrong with my brain that opticians can detect' and also in 'buying bananas' (not from the optician) 👍

[bericas]

she feels no control of her body. she feels no safety in my arms.

[simcardiac-arrested]

hey, i understand if you don't have the energy/motivation, and i don't want to force you. but i think you should consider exercising a little! even if its just 30 seconds. you might find that moving around actually makes you feel better than not moving! i personally get exercise in by (sometimes) pacing around when i'm deep in thought; maybe taking a walk outside and/or listening to a nice audiobook could work for you? (sorry if im making you uncomfortable! and feel free to call out bad behavior

i don’t think this is a weird or bad thing to say at all. thank you so much for this ask. like actually

[s-ccaam-era-crepe]

BAP characters favorite holidays 🥺?

WOO !!!! hmm

sophia- fav holiday (to eye) is the anniversary of their start to leading the cult. its a holiday in the group and a celebration to their leadership + it makes her feel wanted/loved

rebecca- oooo hmmm it celebrated everything with her family so i think new years and/or the winter holiday season bc of the family joy she got to experience and give

sunni- i think sunni enjoyed christmas/that holiday season in general when he was younger bc he liked to be around family members and friends more. but at this point he doesn't really celebrate anything anymore

blair- halloween !! i sorta mentioned this in my last bap ask but they Really like halloween and always go all out on gorey stuff

david- probably birthdays (not just aers) bc ae really loves giving gifts to show love, and most of the time it would be homemade stuff that he would craft for friends