#anyway thank you!!! i hope my ramblings make sense

[bornetoblood]

choose violence 10 15 24 😈 specifically for fnaf but soulsborne too maybe 👀

Link to the questions!!

10. worst part of fanon

I don’t reaaallly engage with the fnaf fanbase if I’m being honest. It’s just because I’ve been there, done that, and most of the fans are younger. This is fine obvs but not really what I’m after in an online space. That said, I have heard things and I bloody despise how a lot of fanon apparently treats Billy Afton. For me he’s compelling in the sense that all the horrid awful things he does (baby murder for science research) are completely out of left field- a surprise and betrayal to the people closest to him that the fucking Fazbear Accountant is capable of such a thing. Will being an outward abuser may be more accurate but it’s a little too heavy for me in regards to the furry ghosts franchise and it has the added affect of making him waaaay scarier than I think he deserves, if that makes any sense. He is just some fucking loser to me, a Patrick Bateman type. I wouldn’t even really call him manipulative he’s just deeply pathetic and all of Hurricane, Utah pities the bunny man.

I also think he genuinely cares about his kids but it manifests in “I designed this 8 foot tall murder robot around you :)” and not actually good parenting. I’m not trying to defend the urple fellow here I just find a lot of reads on him not that compelling.

In bloodborne I guess it’s just that fandom thing of some takes flattening characters to one trait or de-clawing the cast. I also hate it when people turn a blind eye to the game’s gender themes like come on.

15. that one thing you see in fanart all the time

For both it’s when people draw every damn character stick thin or when they de-old people or ignore ‘grosser’ aspects of the character designs. I need more corpse Mike in my life and chubbier middle aged old hunters on my desk by Monday.

24. topic that brings up the most rancid discourse

Fnaf it’s the way people defend the franchise’s writing or it’s creator with their lives. Like the plot isn’t very good and I don’t really like the developer but saying that realllly sets some people off (probably slightly younger fans).

Bloodborne it’s when you bring up those gender themes and people are weird about the gender themes. I fucking hate how people talk about Maria and Gehrman (not even necessarily together) some fans do them sooo dirty it’s rancid.

[angelcasendgame]

This post by beloved @angelsdean is making me think a lot abt Dean + vulnerability, and how I'm reconsidering John's opinions on being openly emotional. And I used to think John would berate Dean for not being tough enough but these days, I think it comes from Dean not wanting to add to John's distress

This isn't to say John's never told Dean to put his emotions away, I'm sure he did at some point, esp with masculinity from the 80s to 2000s + the hunting community as a whole, but by in large, I don't think it's as cut and dry as John strictly telling Dean to "man up" or not show any emotions

In 1x09 Home, Dean calls John crying on the phone saying he's scared and he thinks the thing Mary killed is at the house, and I think if John outwardly berated Dean for being emotional, he would have rerecorded it to sound stoic/serious. I think what's more likely since John was so wrapped up in his own grief/distress, Dean's emotions were brushed past overtime and he stopped turning to John for for comfort/reassurance. And we see Dean and John both switch between father-son and drill sergeant-soldier mode, which doens't help

Growing up, Dean sees John struggling often with grief over losing Mary and the horrors of hunting, and not only has Dean comforted John about it, John has openly accepted the comfort!! And with Dean being forced to place himself between John and Sam constantly bickering, there wasn't enough space for him to show or priortize his own emotions so he simply remains as the Emotionally Supportive One while he (and John) neglect Dean's emotional needs

This isn't to say it's not neglect and abuse, it absolutely is!!! John never should have put Dean in this position where he's continuously comforting John because he doesn't have any adult friends to turn to for emotional support and makes his CHILD feel like he has to be the one to do it

And this is where Dean's facade comes from where he's reluctant to talk about his own stuff. When Dean says "no chick flick moments" in 1x01, it's because Sam is apologizing to Dean for how he spoke about Mary. And throughout the show, Dean shuts people down (mostly Sam lol, he does very easily open up to others) about wanting to talk about his own emotions but he doesn't express discomfort with listening, validating, and being there for others or making them feel uncomfortable for showing their own emotions, and that comes from years of experiences of supporting a super outwardly emotional John who isn't afraid to be vulnerable

[plan-3-tmars]

Is this what Happiness is?

- hey so I haven't seen an interpretation of the bar scenes in Half that I fully agree with, so I wanted to throw my own two cents out there into the void and pray that it makes sense !!!

so, in the bar scenes in Half we see what I interpret as a hangout with old friends (or, hangout with old friend + his wife.) These scenes used to be the biggest piece of evidence for the cheater theory, but now that that's been debunked by the man himself, I have a new way of looking at them

~ before I go any further, I just wanted to say that I'll be calling the brown-haired woman whiskey for simplicity's sake

In this scene, Kazui turns to look at Whiskey, saying the lyrics:

"laughing together, side by side, this distance in our relationship is misleading me, is this what happiness is?"

With my guess (cuz that's really what it is there's no evidence for it) that Whiskey is the Bartender's wife i think this scene is Kazui being conflicted with what he's been told is true, that marrying Hinako is "true love", versus what he feels is true, that marrying Hinako has brought distance into their relationship.

He looks at Whiskey, a woman happily married, and wonders why his relationship with Hinako isn't like that.

~ shout out to @prisoner-000 for the following screenshot

in this post he points out that Hinako and Kazui's rings are silver in Cat, not gold like they were in Half, yet Bartender's ring colour stays the same.

For the sake of this writing I'm going to go with the first meaning they put out, that Bartender's ring is gold because his marriage is genuine.

But wait!! I hear you ask. This is Half and Kazui's ring is still gold in Half!! EXACTLY MY FRIEND!!

Kazui's ring IS still gold in Half because at the time of these scenes he's still fooling himself that this relationship is good, that he will eventually garner real romantic feelings for Hianko.

"laughing together, side by side, this distance in our relationship is misleading me, is this what happiness is?"

Remember this lyric that plays during the Whiskey -> Hinako scene. You know what other scene in Half this lyric reminds me of?

laughing together, side by side,

this distance in our relationship is misleading me,

is this what happiness is?

He's beginning to doubt if what he believes is true, he's beginning to believe the feelings telling him something's wrong (and remember, the scene right after this one is when he confesses (?) his secret to Hinako) ARE infact true, and that maybe the logic he's been following for so long has a couple holes in it.

I think these scenes are meant to show Kazui gradually realising that his relationship with Hinako will not work out. It just won't, no matter how hard he tries.

He's able to laugh together and talk with Whiskey because she's his friend, yet he can't do the same with his own wife? Even though, according to his gold ring, their relationship is supposed to be real and true and genuine?

[aceghosts]

Rooney Shepard (They/Them): RELIC AU

There are stranger things I've learned on the outside Separated by an open door I find it hard to reach the end of my timeline Salivating 'cause I wanted more Is this the end or is this the beginning? -Too Close/Too Late by Spiritbox

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[crystallizsch]

hi ian i come bearing angst fuel for the yuusha as twsted elsa (maybe an idea for her possible overblot idk she kinda reads to me as someone whod preemptively isolate in the case she feels...blotty)

(also seeing that art of her playing violin totally didnt fuck me up im still nursing my bruised heart 🥴🥴💕💕)

https://youtu.be/NDldNaEZTt8?si=Wm71pgTltuJLjFvk

^^this is from the frozen musical where they gave a song to elsa to explore her emotional turmoil and it just fleshed out her character so much more than the orig movie (ok i havent seen frozen 2 oops) but just this section here:

Is everyone in danger as long as I'm alive?

Was I a monster from the start?

How did I end up with this frozen heart?

Bringing destruction to the stage

Caught in a war that I was never meant to wage

anyways lmao i jus think the song is neat i think yuushas neat (i wanna see more of her ahehehe i love seeing infodumps abt ur yuus)

-diodellet

(throwback to this “what if yuu had magic” ask where i had a ✨realization✨ and this more recent yuusha lore drop that i gave zero elaboration on 🙃)

very rough ob yuu design??? idk i came up with it on the spot ;;; and it’s kinda based on disney’s concept art of elsa when she was supposed to be the villain.

evil ice queen vibes :3

also i know the ob monster is supposed to be based on the villain— which is elsa in this case— but lowkey. an ice monster is way cooler.

also also i just realized after i drew this i couldve done a grim/yuu tandem overblot ough 🤧🤧 (next time I'll do that instead if i ever go back to this concept)

(read more below because it got SO long)

AAH anyways hi hi dio!!! when i saw your ask i went —

— with this entire post

AAGH HOW MANY MORE UNINTENTIONAL CONNECTIONS ARE GOING TO BE BETWEEN FROZEN AND YUUSHA

i guess watching the movie everyday when it came out when you’re like 9 does something to your brain chemistry (and still haunts you at least a decade later) 💀

but anyways the angst ;;; overblot yuu ;;;;; my brain is rotting and the worms have taken over

also i didn’t even know that there was a frozen broadway musical so im gonna have to check it out later 🏃💨💨💨

(also dont worry frozen 2 is a nice watch for the most part but the way they concluded the characters did not feel 100% satisfying to me 😭 BUT i love some of the songs tho ;;; kristoff’s goofy 80s ballad song is one of them specifically, i need everyone to listen to it)

hfgnnfhfgv anyways thank you so much i’m chugging that angst fuel as i expand more on a possible ob yuusha with another infodump 💪💪💪

⚠️⚠️⚠️ ALSO IM SORRY BUT mentions of taking one’s own life so please proceed with caution ⚠️⚠️⚠️

i had to reread what my initial thoughts about it bc it was months ago??? and after rereading im just like, huh what was i on— (just that feeling when you just cringe at your old posts ;; but idk i think the insanity/cringe sometimes can loop back into being a genius and the cycle just continues)

anyways i’ve been on and off writing yuusha’s bio and overblot yuu was just at the back of my mind chilling but i didn’t really do anything with it.

but now that i have the opportunity,,,, im gonna go on the magicless route this time bc i feel like I've said all what i thought if it was an overblot due to her own magic.

so uh from what i gather overblots are a mix of overuse of magic + intense negative emotion.

since it’s magicless yuu, i guess the one of the general headcanons around the fandom is that they’ve been too exposed to overblots and then intense negative emotions suddenly just triggered their overblot.

uh anyways onto the elsa parts

Is everyone in danger as long as I'm alive? Was I a monster from the start? How did I end up with this frozen heart? Bringing destruction to the stage Caught in a war that I was never meant to wage

THE LYRICS ARE SO GOOD ;;; i really love how some broadway interpretations expand on the source material

and yeah you're right 🤧🤧🤧— yuusha would try to hide and escape, especially as she overblots bc she would try to avoid hurting people (and like elsa, it'd only hurt others more trying to escape bc of probably how she leaves destruction in her wake trying to make others stay away from her 😔)

(this is a small tangent but i remember thinking about an overblot kalim and i imagine him to be similar, like he would not hurt anyone intentionally in his overblot.)

anyways so the way it would go is that i imagine her friends got fatally injured either because a) she feels that she’s too “useless” without magic to help and wasn’t able to do anything OR b) her attempts at helping to try and prove that she can help without magic made everything worse.

and then she just goes into a guilty spiral then boom — overblot.

ALSO in the song, the way elsa briefly contemplated taking her own life but then realizing there’s no guarantee that would solve anything hnghgh (<- another unintentional parallel to my yuusha lore because that’s actually how she ended up in twst except she did NOT have the latter realization)

there’s this “yuu is dead” theory i’m just using and that the black carriage actually just caught yuusha’s soul after she took her own life from all the burden.

also some bonus angst context for that violin post :3

yuusha back in her homeworld is raised and known to be a gifted musician. people can feel the life and soul in her music but when people interact with her, they are usually met with an ice-cold (heh) personality.

the dead family member was the one who taught her music and the only one who was kind to her.

there’s always an expectation from her family to perform well and to keep up appearances as to not be a humiliation since anything she does can reflect on her entire family. (also hi, slight yuusha/jamil parallels maybe???)

the way she presents herself also stemmed from an incident as a child when she went apeshit on another kid bc she was defending a friend.

so from then on she was taught taught to conceal don’t feel those emotions — which just unfortunately extended to any positive ones, not just negative ones like rage.

so when she is brought to twst, there’s no memory of her being forced to hold back her emotions so she’s just unapologetically affectionate and open with everyone bc that’s how she really is.

but every now and then, memories of her breaking down haunt her in her dreams or as subtle reminders in the waking world.

then yuusha just goes on her day like she just wasn't reminded of her past.

(unnecessarily tragic lore my beloved, but anyway—)

another extremely brief tangent and bonus -> the two songs i had on loop while drawing pre-twst yuusha

lindsey stirling my beloved i love her music

the songs are such a vibe

her instrumentals in “lose you now” especially makes me feel some sort of way 😖

[astralhope]

This is a sort of service communication: I have many posts about the ending of the Zexal manga that I want to publish (some of them have been in my drafts since May!), but to not spoil those who haven't read the manga yet, I will tag the posts that are about the last five chapters of the manga (so from chapter 51 to chapter 55) with #Zexal manga spoiler, just to be safe, so who doesn't want to be spoilered can blacklist the tag.

(I'm also writing this so I can bring myself to actually finish writing the tags and publish the posts, because I kept procrastinating, and then I'm anxious because I still haven't posted them. And now that I'm saying that I will post them, I hope to convince my brain to finish editing them and posting them. I think this is the actual reason for this post)

[averlym]

"oh my soul, is it here? or is it rotting somewhere with my head?"

[aroacesigma]

ive posted about my gender hcs for sigma (excessively) and nikolai so fyodor time

bigender fyodor but in the way that hes sure hes the best at being a man and a woman . at the same time . gender is a competition and she is winning

[meova101]

Very curious about gridslut au!

Gridslut!au is a joke that got out of hand so bad slkjdsglj

So we all know how Seb has the tendency to flirt with everyone, right? And how Charles looks so good when he's suffering? What better way to combine those two facts than in a plot where Seb fucks everyone except for Charles. Stop laughing this has taken up months of my life and tens of thousands of words so far

You see, one of the things about Sebchal for me is that Charles is the first one Seb really wants to settle down with, and it scares him. Him trying to deal with that while Charles is just trying to be happy with what he does get from Seb is a recurring theme in so many of my fics because it's a particularly pervasive headcanon and this is just another excuse to indulge in my own insanity while I also practice writing some other ships in case I need it.

But that's not all. No, no, not at all.

Because it became very clear to me even as I was outlining this monstrosity, that it would have to start at the beginning. This story would have to grow with them to really round it out. It would have to be a showcase of their history, how they've grown right in front of my salad, exactly pinpoint how and why they drive me crazy even after all these fucking years and at this point, it's pretty much my love letter to the ship.

What I'm saying is that this will either be my magnum opus or I will have to quit writing after pouring my heart and rat soul into this for the last seven months slkjdsglkj

Does this sound pretentious? Yes. Does it sound insane? Probably. What does Seb fucking everyone have to do with anything? Look we do not question the plot bunnies, we just watch him bat his eyelashes prettily while Charles sulks because Seb doesn't see him since he's too deep in a conversation. (real crumb, btw, it was hilarious, especially how Charles just lit the fuck up when Seb did finally notice him)

Anyway since I really want to get this out, I've set myself the deadline of putting the first chapter online on 16/05. Pray for me that I actually make it. Little snippet under the cut because after all these ramblings, I might as well show a little of it. Sorry for the monologue anon, this fic has taken over my life at this point xD

Charles isn’t exactly paying attention, but now that he knows, it’s clear to see. He didn’t even want to believe it at first, but now that Pierre has shared the stories… It’s hard to not notice, anymore.

When he watches Sebastian on the podium in Monaco, celebrating a deserved win, Charles is only a little star-struck. But he notices Ricciardo looking at him, the too-familiar touches. It feels almost like foreplay.

Charles can’t help but imagine himself in that position, in a few years hopefully. Would he get to be desired like that? Could he maybe want to have something like that?

He very carefully doesn’t think about Sebastian specifically. He’ll cross that bridge when he gets to it.

He just wishes Pierre hadn’t told him about Sebastian being a slut, as it had been so eloquently put. One day, he hoped to be teammates with the guy. This was not helping.

Still, he watches the ceremony. Daydreams a little about maybe being in Räikkönen’s place, or even in Sebastian’s place, the German next to him.

One day, he’d get there.

[bragganhyl]

ngl i've been feeling weird (bad) about both my art and my writing so... yeah sorry for sitting on my hands but yeah i'm hoping it goes away soon

[danidoesathing]

one of the things I love about Vide Noir is how both the album and the movie uses Buck, an already established character from the previous album, as the protagonist to recontextualize a lot of songs from both Vide Noir and Strange Trails

like the movie puts his Strange Trails songs into perspective. Fool for Love is Buck using music to talk about (and almost mock himself for) what happened during the Vide Noir movie. Louisa is about Lee, but it also calls into question when exactly Buck wrote the song and whether or not it was before Lee actually left him and whether or not that has anything to do with the name change. Dead Man's Hand is given even more depth because we actually saw the story play out, and that the lyrics show more how Buck actually sees Johnnie and their encounter instead of what actually happened. Cursed could be seen a lot of different ways, the most likely one being how he felt throughout the movie committing various crimes and immoral actions all in the name of "love" (or maybe he hooks up with a witch later on or something, who knows with that guy)

but then there's the songs in the Vide Noir album. A lot of the songs that are credited to in-universe musicians/bands have a certain style to them (ie Frankie's songs are slow and almost mournful with an emphasis on ghosts, the Phantom Riders' songs tend to be more of the rockabilly genre and ben schneider uses a lower tone of voice for the lead singer, etc etc). Buck is credited as a country musician who tends to use an acoustic guitar, and his Strange Trails songs tend to reflect that. But while he is the primary narrator, the only song in the Vide Noir album that really reflects his style (and him as a person) is the first one, Lost in Time in Space, when Buck wakes up in the forest with no memory after getting black-brained. The rest of the album is very different in style as he recalls the prior events, and while there is still a lot of acoustic guitar in the songs it's, and I quote "usually, it’s distorted and blown to shit." A lot of the music is distorted in some sense, which. given the whole "obliteration of the self" that Vide Noir is stated to cause, likely symbolizes Buck slowly losing himself in his pursuit to find Lee. his last moment before he loses his identity as a person is, ironically, the moments where he can't even remember who he is. The only other song I could argue in the album that's vaguely similar to his style is Emerald Star, which is still very distorted and more or less "falls apart" in the end. He may have held on to some of himself but he's too far gone and too different from who he used to be for it to be anything recognizable. He had given up everything to find her, in his own sense of self, and it was all for nothing. damn.

I also would like to bring up the odd emphasis on death throughout his music. More specifically, Fool for Love being a metaphor for his journey in Vide Noir work almost perfectly except for the ending. Buck doesn't die at the end of Vide Noir (shot both in the leg and in the heart, but alive nonetheless), even if Emerald Star and Fool for Love implies otherwise. But I don't think he means it in the literal sense.

[mobius-m-mobius]

so your tags made me look up the paint trailer and i have no idea what i watched but just bought tickets 😭 you can't be making me fall for owen wilson right now no fucking way 😭😭

Can't I though, anon??? 😉😂

[kakusu-shipping]

*kicks down your door* ALRIGHT ALRIGHT LET’S GET THIS STARTED

First off I want the basics!! Who and what is your S/I? What’s their backstory and how did they meet everyone?

Aaaaaah!! Thankyou for your interest!!!! I go back and forth between "He" and "I" when talking about my S/I so apologies if this isn't cohesive!!!

I actually have two Mario S/Is technically,,,

One really really old one baby me made in... 2011 or so that I lightly revamped a few years ago; That post can be seen Here (bowuigi and Mariocest mentioned)

And the newer one made in part thanks to the Mario Movie finally giving me confirmed extended Mario Family outside of the Super Show, my Mario Brothers Cousin S/I is the one I'll talk a bit about.

I have a few posts about him and the rest of the Mario family floating around my art tag but to give the summery:

Emilio (nicknamed Emile) is the only son of Tony Mario and his ex-girlfriend Pauline. He is 5 years younger than Mario and Luigi, and 6 years older than their younger cousin Louisa. He's currently in collage at his mother's wishes to become a politician, but has no real interest in it. He has a pet turtle named after his favorite Pokemon Turtwig.

I'm using the movie's cool isekai plot of how Mario and Luigi got to the Mushroom Kingdom as my base, because I personally like it better than Yoshi's Island/Partner's in Time's sort of They were Always there plot, and it just is the only story we have on Mario Family and I love them they are my Familia. However Partner's in Time is canon to my S/I's later plot just in more of a Cross Dimensional adventure rather than just time travel because I love that game a lot

So I'm not plot important in the movie at all, that all still happens as it does in canon, I was blissfully unaware of their adventure sitting at home in Brookyln with the rest of the family until they came home.

After that, and after Mario and Luigi fully move out and into the Mushroom Kingdom, I start visiting them and crashing at their place often.

I have a deep fascination with Mushrooms, in both real life and in this Self Insert, so of COURSE I have to come be a biology nerd all over the Mushroom Kingdom, and the bros are happy to have me around. We're all pretty close, especially sense I'm the only family member who knows the brothers are together Romantically, and am willing to cover for them.

While in the Mushroom Kingdom I start getting interested in more than just the Mushroom Forests. I start asking about the people, and the other kingdoms, and the people in those kingdoms, so on and so forth. Mario and Luigi don't really know much aside from Evil King Bowser and his kingdom of Killers which. Bros I know he tried to kill you but that's a big sweep to make of a whole country. So we go ask the Princess for more information. But she's busy doing Princess Things.

Enter Toadsworth my beloved old man who deserved to be in this movie. Toadsworth has been the royal adviser sense before Princess Peach, so of course he knows plenty on the surrounding Kingdoms and their governments and justice systems and trade rates and all that juicy world building.

So I start getting into fantasy politics.

My S/I for this one is really smart, smarter than real me by a lot, he retains information well and makes more logical conclusions and can grasp big concepts my little dropped outta highschool pea brain can't, so he soaks up every bit of information Toadsworth gives him like a sponge.

A month or two of this goes by and I start missing my real world collage classes to run off to the Mushroom Kingdom and learn Fantasy Politics. I read every book in Peach's Library, and then everything in Toadsworth's personal collection, and then everything in the Toadtown local library, all while listening to any story or extra detail Toadsworth himself knows.

Meanwhile my poor dad, Tony, has Pauline breathing down his neck about me skipping classes to run off with those Hooligan cousins of mine to some Fantasy land doing who knows what throwing my future away. This isn't super plot important just. Pauline is a Mother Knows Best kind of parent while Also being a Hands Off kind of parent. I was raised in the Mario household, she paid for my schooling, that's the dynamic.

Anyway eventually I fully commit to dropping out of Human Collage to fully study under Toadsworth to become the Mushroom Kingdom Royal Adviser under him. I'm now doing super official stuff like helping plan events like galas and the Star Festival, I'm sitting in on meetings both with the Toad Court and with other Nations, I'm meeting with Monarchs and Politicians of other Countries on the weekly. I'm rubbing Elbows with King Koopa himself! The bros are not happy about that one but they ARE supportive

I even get my own room in the castle!! Which tends to go pretty unused because at this point I'd been sleeping exclusively in the Bro's house. Occasionally if I'm really focused on a job Toadsworth gives me I'll work overnight on it in my room is the castle, but that rarely happens because Luigi always calls me when dinner's almost ready so I can get home just as it's done, and no one can resist a Luigi home cooked meal. The few times I have stayed overnight working in the Castle Mario's ended up calling me at like 3am because he can't sleep and doesn't want to wake Luigi. Another reason I end up coming home.

Ah this is getting long I'm sorry thankyou so so so much for asking I don't think I've posted all this information cohesively yet?? Is it cohesive?? I hope so!!

Uhm but I think that's all the Basic information!! To summarize:

My S/I is Mario and Luigi's cousin, Son of their Uncle Tony and his ex-girlfriend Pauline. He's about 18-19 years old at the start of the movie

His Backstory is he's a Gifted Kid raised under a Projecting Mother who has an interest in Economics and Politics, but only for the fantasy world Mario and Luigi stumbled into

He meets everyone through becoming the Royal Adviser in training under Toadsworth, leading him to attend important meeting and Galas with high ranking figures like Princess Daisy and the Koopa King Bowser

Thankyou for reading this all if you did!! I hope it was interesting!!!! Please feel free to ask more if you'd like!!

[inkykeiji]

clariii, you've been on my mind lately! i hope you're doing okay and things have gotten better 🤍 and if not, i'm offering your fav snack just in case~

darling eden!! so lovely to see you in my inbox hehe (˶˃ ᵕ ˂˶) oh you’re so sweet, thank you so much for checking in!! that was really considerate of you, i appreciate it a lot 🥺🥺 things are going okay! busy but good!! i do miss being on here, tho :((

AH you’re such a cutie thank u!!! ( ∩´͈ ᐜ `͈∩) i hope life has been treating you kindly sweetpea <3 sending so so so much love your way!!

[reginrokkr]

Do you think Halfdan is a exacly a pure blooded Khaenri'ahn in the same way Chlothar Alberich is? i asked this question to others some said yes, some said no, what do you think about this?

The caribert quest really made me confused about this..? if non- pure blooded Khaenri'ahns turned into monsters then the black serpent knights isn't pure blooded then..? Yet we have Dainsleif in world quest described as half-turned monster but he isn't like Halfdan in any way. And there's this ring of nibelung which Dain used where he refers this by "how he retrained his consciuosness without it" to Halfdan, also there's ynghildr who used the same ring but turned into a monster anyway.

i personally think it makes sense to Halfdan to be impure blooded Khaenri'ahn because his name "Halfdan" means half-danish also in epic poem Beowulf the name Halfdan is solely named after a Man just because the admixture of in his blood.

So what do you think? Love to hear your thoughts

Hello, nonnie! First of all, thank you for your appreciation for my thoughts and for the question, I hope it won't be too confusing what I'm about to ramble.

To be direct, yes. I believe that Halfdan is a pure-blood Khaenri'ahn. Not solely because of the star-shaped pupils he has like Chlothar and Dain have, but because he also didn't turn into a hilichurl. Now, let me preface that I see perfectly where you're coming at the mention that he turned into a monster either way, but it's highly relevant to give importance to the word choice you had yourself: monster, not hilichurl. The reason I say this is because I have my suspicions that the curse of wilderness, the turning into an abyss monster (see as abyss monster: mages, lectors, heralds, iniquitous baptists) and the turning into what we typically know as Black Serpent Knights fiends have a root in common which is this demonification (there was a time when the description of Nahida's twig talked about a demonic sky), abyss-like influence with or without Forbidden Knowledge in between.

So to make better sense of why I separate these three despite all of the groups being essentially monsters, I'll make a little break down:

In order to become a hilichurl there are two requisites: 1) is to abandon one's god either directly (x) or indirectly (x's descendants) and 2) you can't have the purity of blood part of the Khaenri'ahns are known to have (I don't know if it has anything to do with the fact that they're untainted by fate, but I'll leave this as a bit of food for thought). Halfdan in this case specifically would be ruled out of this because even if there were this doubt of whether that clean star-shaped pupil is a 100% trustworthy sign of one's purity, he didn't turn into a hilichurl despite being far from Khaenri'ah territory.

Now that we have that out of the way, let's focus on the other two different kinds of monsters. Those that are typically connected to the Abyss Order (mages, heralds, lectors, baptists), in order to turn the way they currently are, there seems to be an undefined pre-requisite. The one that I noticed is the will to become one such monster, to embrace the abyss willingly. It may not be accurate to the way it happens, but we do have a couple of examples where the common denominator of these individuals is that they wanted it. These individuals are: Klingsor (he appeared in Khvarena of Good and Evil), Jakob and René. Klingsor took great interest in the abyss and talked about the unfairness of how the Dahri were treated despite their efforts to help in Sumeru (if I'm not mistaken) and he's also a descendant of Hadura, a Khaenri'ahn Schwanenritter. If we follow the same principle as before, it is safe to assume that Hadura was a pure-blood as otherwise he would've turned into a hilichurl as soon as he left Khaenri'ah and the curse of wilderness would've affected Klingsor too. Jakob and René sought a manner of transcendance in order to survive the coming calamity René foresaw judging by the documents left in Sumeru and then Jakob's appearance as an Iniquitous Baptist, thus it wouldn't be far-fetched to think that it was the same for René before he turned into Narzissenkreuz. Lastly, if my hypothesis that willingness to embrace the abyss stands true, it'd fall right in place for other Khaenri'ahn survivors that were pure-blood to become this kind of monsters, as various texts and Chlothar's description of the Khaenri'ahn society depict a certain fanaticism towards the abyss. Nevertheless, it is also important to say that there is no need to be a Khaenri'ahn, a pure-blood one in order to become one of these monsters.

Then there is the fiends we know as the Black Serpent Knights. As I mentioned before, I firmly believe that the curse of wilderness is interwoven with the abyss someway, and so the same applies to me with the curse of immortality. By following the aforementioned theory, first they should be pure-blood Khaenri'ahns (unlike the other kind of monsters where this isn't a requisite, not even being a Khaenri'ahn to begin with, it's highly relevant here because these knights have an identity and they act upon what little remains of them of their identity, which is their duty as Black Serpent Knights or Schwanenritter) and second, there should be something else that isn't a willingness to embrace the abyss. From a myriad of examples, we know that even higher entities such as gods or dragons are susceptible to corruption (Orobashi for one if we think about the Tatarigami and the nasty voices one of the villagers hears, Dvalin, Boreas was an objective of the Abyss Order although he resisted), and as we saw previously, there are those who can become monsters (or perhaps transcendent ones). If we take Ynghildr as an example since you mentioned her, what we know of her is that she was a Schwanenritter who went to fight abyssal monsters and disappeared. But we know that she returned to her post within one of the golems as a monster version of the Black Serpent Knights we know. We also know of Dain (I'll get deeper into him briefly), whose body was half corrupted during the Cataclysm and that he, too, was fighting the abyssal monsters that attacked Sumeru. The one thing both of them have in common here is the exposure to the abyss, or perhaps to corruption. From Dvalin's case, we know that it suffices to have negative feelings and allow them to magnify in order to fall to corruption. If we're to talk about Halfdan directly, we have one thing that is clearer than others which is the fact that he was exposed to the defilement from the Chasm; another reason that can add to his corruption is that he had those negative feelings of himself for failing the people of Khaenri'ah and Dain for being unable to protect them, which could've festered further and possibly added to the corruption. We also have erosion (which personally, I think it's another manner of corruption or that, as the aforementioned curses, they're interwoven with this defilement) that may have added to him eventually lose a great part of his sense of self, self-awareness and turn into a monster. As Dain mentions of him, despite being a monster he's a special case because the level of self-awareness he had was considerably higher than the rest's.

To touch briefly onto Dain, and based on what I mentioned up until now, I think that he would sooner turn into a Black Serpent Knight-kind of monster than the former. He fought all these 500 years of being corrupted against it, which adds to my belief that there has to be a requirement of willingness in order to turn into the kind of monsters that are in the Abyss Order unless to some point he goes bananas and from an abyss-hater he turns into an abyss-lover. In regards of the ring, I can't tell how relevant or irrelevant it is. I'm aware of the theories about that being the ring of Nibelung, that it may have to do with the fact that he didn't get corrupted entirely (not without reason, as Ynghildr also had a signet and was lost— but I don't have enough evidence to think that a ring or set or rings ward the defilement from the wearer), but for now I'm keeping it shelved until we learn more about it. I also know that Dain says that Halfdan was able to retain some degree of self-awareness against all odds without some "it", but we also don't know if it's a ring or something entirely different.

So to summarize all of this testament: Yes, I believe that Halfdan is a pure-blood Khaenri'ahn even if he eventually turned into a monster. Nevertheless, this fate he met I think it's unrelated to the curse of immortality he has (unrelated as a direct thing, because indirectly he did turn into a monster because of it— if he didn't become "immortal", he wouldn't have lived long enough to become a monster and he clearly wasn't siding the Abyss Order, which may give us some insight of what his mentality was like in the peaceful days of Khaenri'ah: someone who didn't fall into the trend of abyss fanaticism many in the society seemed to have).

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hey! can you do headcanons on Bakugou and Izuku (separate) with a reader who's quiet and doesn't talk much but is Hella strong. How would they react to it? If you do thanks sm! it's really sweet of you!!!! :)

“SO SWEET, WITH A MEAN STREAK.”

KATSUKI BAKUGOU/IZUKU MIDORIYA x reader.

summary: your quiet strength intrigues these two boys, how would they react to you before/in a relationship?

warnings: none!!

a/n: this is such a cute ask!! i hope this is to your liking and if it isn’t and you think something is missing, let me know! this is also quiet short because i have a fever 😔

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KATSUKI BAKUGOU —

before dating:

i can imagine him being a little skeptical of you, but so intrigued!

he’d definitely want to see how far your strength could go. so, bakugou would subtly challenge you during training sessions, pushing you to see your true capabilities.

he’d nevee admit it but he looks up to you in a way. you don’t boast and scream about your strength like he does - that makes him respect you. he would start to see your quiet nature as a sign of focus and determination rather than a sign of weakness.

he’s so competitive… it’s honestly a little scary. before you two were even close to being friends or anything more, he’d definitely get a competitive drive when it comes to you.

this idiot would definitely think he’s competing with you 24/7 even though you remind him you are not. he thinks doing this will make you become more outgoing and competitive.

“HA! i finished my bowl of ramen before you, loser, i won!”

“we were competing over that?” i’d be confused if i were you too… he’s a little slow but he’s got the spirit!

dating him:

once you two start dating, bakugou becomes fiercely protective of you, admiring your strength and determination even more. he thinks his role in the relationship is to protect you from anything that might make you lose your strength!

he’s so loud (we know that obviously) but with you, he’s loud in a supportive way. he’s now boasting about you and your strength instead of his own!

he encourages you to continue improving and growing, offering both praise and constructive criticism. even if you don’t need it, he’ll keep doing it anyway.

bakugo has never felt like he had a opponent that could really give him a run for his money, until you two train together.

training with him would be so so sweet. if he hit you too hard, he’d immediately worried if you didn’t tell him you were alright. (he won’t outwardly admit he’s worried about you but you know deep down he is!)

“are you bleeding? you shithead! i’m not worried... are youbleedingthoughbecauseifyouarethat’snotgood-”

“fuck, did i burn you? don’t start. i’m not worried about you at all, tch!” he says this as the tip of his ears are burning from lying…

he’d still work hard while training with you but still making sure he isn’t doing too much during simple sparring matches. he likes to learn from your strengths and weaknesses!

everyday is a day where you two grow together and bakugou is proud of you for simple improvements in your strength (you’re stronger than him lol and he knows you could take him down in a second!)

IZUKU MIDORIYA —

before dating:

Izuku notices your quiet demeanor but senses a strong presence and capability within you. he’d write about your strength and weaknesses in his hero notebook. he’d ask you so much questions (totally not to get to know you better… totally…)

“sorry- i’m not trying to be a bother but can you tell me more about your quirk! it’s so cool and you’re so strong!” he blushes immediately after rambling about how you’re so talented and your strength is admirable. meanwhile, your twirling your hair over the fact he thinks your strong!

one time, you caught him drawing out your hero suit and make little point notes about it. you went to your dorm and giggled about it for the rest of the day. it literally felt like a award to be in his hero notebook!

we all know izuku is his classmates biggest supporter, he is always wanting his classmates to grow alongside him and is pushing everyone to become the best hero they can be!

with you, he offers encouragement and support to you, believing in your potential and wanting you to believe in yourself as well.

because of your quiet nature, izuku might try and show his admiration for you in anyway he can. he admires your quiet determination, seeing it as a reflection of your inner strength and resolve.

basically, he’s your #1 fan!

you two initially work well together as teammates, with Izuku valuing your contributions and skills.

once you two start dating, it’s a whole different story!

dating him:

your relationship deepens Izuku’s admiration for your quiet strength, appreciating how you compliment each other. (everyone is class 1-A is still shocked at how well you two compliment each other, even before you guys were dating!)

izuku becomes a source of emotional support for you, understanding your quiet nature and providing comfort when needed. he never tries to push you outside of your comfort zone, enjoying your quiet times when his day has been stressful and filled with loud classmates.

you two continue to train together, pushing each other to improve and achieve your goals. you always tell him about how you want to grow your relationship by training and working hard together!(izuku almost cries when you tell him that, pls he loves you so much)

izuku and you build a strong foundation of trust and understanding, working towards your dreams together while supporting each other every step of the way.

he enjoys your company more than anyone else, not only are you strong physically but you are strong mentally. your words of encouragement and advice after a tough day of training always make him want to jump off the walls! you have that effect on him!

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for both boys, whether before or after they start dating you, katsuki and izuku come to deeply appreciate your quiet strength and see it as an integral part of your relationship dynamics!