#anyway sweetie hun Kris Ily 💗💗💗

[raksh-writes]

I hope you'll feel better soon, and that you'll get over these awful feelings ♥️ we love you and are here for you whenever you are ready, and while I cannot speak for everyone else, I will wait upon LitA with the same excitement for years if that's what it'll take for you to be happy and healthy and alright. I wish you all the luck and love and that you may feel better soon and succeed with what your thesis and life in general♥️♥️lots of love ~Kris

And here you go, you, making me cry ;_;

I am feeling a little bit better today, but I'm also extremely exhausted after this depressive spiral of a weekend xd I've stayed in bed for an hour longer than normally - skipping classes? why, yes, sometimes you gotta do what you gotta do, or smth xd - cause I decided I'm taking today off to somewhat stabilize myself mentally and laying in bed in the morning is peak self-care. Definitely needed that xd Im gonna be back to trying to figure out how to make progress on any of my assignments/thesis without straining my wrists whenever I feel mentally okay enough for it. Inactivity only makes me feel worse and stress will def catch up to me, ehhh xd Anyway, todays a selfcare day, so Im gonna try and stay positive 💗

Good thing that weird staticy-numbness has mostly subsided, it was really messing me up xd Tho, my fingers started bothering me more instead and thats not too good either, ehh - it's a bit weird that they started hurting few days after I didnt even touch the keyboard, but last time it started few days after all my uni stuff was done and I wanted to go to my fics in that break, so maybe the reaction is delayed or something xd My left wrist still feels weak too, but I think to a lesser degree? So for now Im tentatively hoping my braces and this anti-inflammatory ointment is working enough. Im gonna keep it up, but if it doesnt keep getting better, then tonight Im gonna have my meds anyway. Im kinda iffy that it's so soon after last time, like only 1,5 month, but oh well, maybe I wasnt careful enough xd But yeah, Im feeling a bit better and a lil bit more hopeful its gonna turn around.

I know you didnt ask for a whole-ass rambling update so sorry for that! Kinda wanted to give one after all the depression of the weekend xd

I really, really appreciate your words, truly, they mean the world ❤❤❤ I was still feeling very fragile last night when I got your ask and, well, you can imagine ;_; But, that aside, I don't think I could last more than few months without my fics xd They have my heart and soul hostage;p And I kinda "realized" that as much as days might go slow, time actually flies by really quickly xd So even if I dont manage to get back to LitA in the next months, it'll prob pass far quicker than expected xd Which also presses me more on my thesis, cause goodness knows its three months left and I need to get a move on to make it xd But I work in burst, so I think - I hope - I will make it. But, no more of that today! Self-care day! (Maybe, maybe I will try hand writing a lil bit for my Beauty and the Beast AU? 👀 That is a comfort fic, after all, so if my right wrist feels up to it, the who knows ;p)

Hope you’re well and healthy and having a nice monday out there too, love, I appreciate you more than you can imagine, thank you and have all my love ❤❤❤💗💗💗