#anyway it's not like i'm gonna be thrown into chaos the moment i decide!

[monstermp3]

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[becausebuckley]

fuck it friday!

it's saturday but i'm saying fuck it and therefore don't care. here's another bit from my post-s7 eddie fic, wherein ravi casually comes out to eddie and eddie tries very hard not to think about himself. we're gonna unrepress him i swear it's just gonna take a few chapters thanks @inell and @diazsdimples for the tags! tagging anyone else who wants to say fuck friday let's do this on saturday <3

“I mean, yeah, it sucks”, Ravi says, “but we’ll figure it out, you know? And it’s not like I’m in this alone. I have you guys on shift, and Bobby’s always around anyway, and I get to go home to my fiance every night, and he’s the best, so. I can handle it.”

Eddie nods, brain reeling from what he’s just learned. A new bit of ‘Ravi lore’, as Buck would call it. He wonders if Buck knows about this.

“Anyway,” Ravi continues, seemingly completely unaware that he’s thrown Eddie for a loop, “did I tell you what my fiance called Gerrard last week? It was so funny, he said that Gerrard’s just a–”

“You have a fiance?” Eddie blurts out.

Ravi looks at him as if he’s the one being weird. It’s stupid, considering Ravi is the one throwing truths into the parking lot at seven in the morning. 

“Uh, yes?” Ravi’s expression doesn’t let up in the slightest. “We’ve been together for years. I proposed to him when he got me McDonalds at three in the morning two months ago. It’s pretty cool.”

Ravi rambles on, either not noticing or not caring that Eddie isn’t fully paying attention anymore.

Because honestly, Eddie not knowing Ravi is seeing someone kind of tracks. He’s private like that, and really, Eddie is pretty convinced it’s not so much because he likes to keep work and private stuff separate, and more because Ravi likes the chaos he creates when he drops things like being a landlord and almost going to the national ultimate frisbee championships before deciding to become a firefighter instead into casual conversation. So no, that’s not what Eddie is hung up on.

It’s the pronoun of it all, he thinks, and he has one horrible moment of thinking oh no, am I homophobic before realising that that’s kind of bullshit. Because what he’s feeling right now isn’t disgust or anything.

It’s envy, he thinks. Maybe longing, too. Because Ravi drops his queerness into conversation so casually, not even pausing before going on about how he’s met his fiance – Eddie picks up something about crochet and strawberry allergies and protests, which makes no sense whatsoever yet sounds very Ravi – and here Eddie is, feelings buried so deep within the well it makes him nauseous to try and dig them up.

Eddie doesn’t dare pick up the shovel. Hasn’t done so in years.

He doesn’t want to think about what he might unearth if he tries.

[elstreem]

Camelot movie part 2 is available on Bilibili. Of course I had to watch it - and I am rewarded with Bedivere's non-stop pain train. My heart hurts for him :')

All that said, part 2 is definitely much better than part 1. The fight visuals are stunning, and I appreciate the voice actors much better in part 2. Not that their work in part 1 was bad, but part 1 does feel a little stilted when it came to the dialogue...not sure how to explain it, it just feels like characters didn't express themselves as much as they should have? Which is definitely not the issue in part 2.

Spoiler talk below:

We all know Camelot is just Bedivere getting put through the wringer and wow does part 2 not shy away from it. Poor guy gets emotionally wrecked in the first few minutes, suffers a panic attack a little later on, is absolutely bodied by Gawain in their fight, gets skewered on a lance and disintegrated.

As glorious as the fights scenes are in the second half of the film, I do appreciate that they still have quiet moments, and kept the dialogue between Mash and Bedivere, only they shifted the conversation so it's Ritsuka who reassures Bedi his journey won't be meaningless. I love how the colors shifted in that scene, from cold early morning blue to the warm sunlight. It's very beautiful.

Other non-fight scenes worthy of noting is the fact that they showed Tristan did something to his eyes prior to the knights deciding to ally with the Lion King. It suddenly makes sense as to why Bedivere remarks on it in the first movie, though the game already hinted at it before. It was a little confusing that they showed he has regular eyes again later on, though.

The stylized art for the sequence when Mash tells Ritsuka about Bedivere's legend is also really pretty.

Moving onto the fight scenes, well, it simply has to be seen! Very fluid and dynamic, and it's really cool what they did with the simultaneous scenes as Camelot is thrown into chaos, with flashes of Lancelot and Agravain's fight as the pyramid crashes into the tower. Speaking of Agravain, I wasn't quite expecting him to be all lanky-armed lol. I honestly thought one of the scenes in the trailer was Hassan of the Cursed Arm, not him. Still cool to see them show the fight though.

Now, for Bedivere and Gawain's fight - it was awesome and all, but man it is hilarious that the opening is Gawain running through several walls like a wrecking ball to tackle Bedivere. How the heck did Gawain know Bedivere was there exactly?? Even Bedivere looked surprised at that, this huge dude just barreling through the walls like the Kool-Aid man. All that aside, the rest of the fight is really brutal, and if you didn't feel bad for Bedivere then you really would in that scene. Thank goodness for the handy rock to brain Gawain in (which is also a little funny in hindsight, but still, really hammers in how brutal and desperate they were.)

I had a different visual in mind for when Mash deploys Lord Camelot, but it was nice to see what they did in the film and that Ritsuka is standing by her side when it happens. I have no more words for how they handled Bedivere fighting the Lion King - it's pretty short compared to the Gawain fight, but it's beautiful all the same. And their final conversation breaks my heart :''')

I only wished they included a short scene of Ritsuka summoning Bedivere in Chaldea but I guess it goes against what the movie was building up to, and the anime adaptations haven't show any scenes of the other Servants in Chaldea anyway.

Well, that's enough blathering. I'm gonna be rewatching this a looooooot, and maybe draw more Bedivere because I am hopeless.